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spacedlexi · 2 years

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i always wondered if you ever read any violentine/twg fanfiction and if you have could you tell us your favorites? Or what tropes would you like to read? Idk I just really like this ship and since there was so little content I could find so i read a lot of shit 💀 but I hold a special care for it since it was one of the first fandoms I entered and finding out Clem was bi meant a lot to me cause you don't see a lot of bi representation that isn't like "I like fucking anything that moves🤩(Yea Im looking at you Elite)”.

So yeah I'd like to hear you thought of fanfiction and stuff.

i tried once or twice but didnt get farther than the first chapter or so on the few i tried 😔 i kinda for the most part stopped reading fic after high school to be fair, so im very particular about what i Do read when it comes to fic now. and on ao3 at least since im afraid of wattpad there really hasnt been anything that held my attention (at least in the past. like i said i havent tried looking in a couple years so who knows). i need plot/character development heavy stuff that i can really sink my teeth into and i didnt really find much of that... and the "tropes" i like are more determined by which characters im applying them to so i dont always like the same ones across the board

someone asked me this question a while ago and i asked for any fic recs at the time but i only got like.. one? im really not sure what the state of twdg fic is like honestly

DESPITE all that tho im still slowly slowly SLOWLY meticulously steadily working on my own oneshot that i WILL FINISH I SWEAR its over 20 pages currently and only like 2/3? done?? and half edited BUT it IS outlined so..... i just have to.. you know..... actually Finish it....

i posted some snippets from it a while ago (HERE) but here's a couple longer ones since ive written about 10 more pages (plus like 5 in outlines) since then. im Really particular about the flow of my writing which is like.. the main reason why i take so long to write.. gotta fix it until it Feels Right

A comfortable silence seemed to settle over them then. The wind outside the shack still blew harshly, whistling against the broken windows. But as the girls sat by the warm glow of the fire, and listened to the crackling of the burning logs, it was enough to melt their tension. At least a bit.

The silence continued until the fire began to dwindle with the last of the logs. "We're going to have to start burning those..." Clementine said as she looked at the loose boards they had kicked aside earlier.

"I got it," Violet said as she stood, not even giving Clementine a chance to move. As she grabbed a board and kicked hard at its center, trying to break it in two, Clementine twisted her mouth. Not at the other girl, but at herself. She was still getting used to her new limitations, and it frustrated her knowing there were just certain things that she couldn't or struggled to do now.

The boards had been sturdy once, but due to age and exposure, they had eroded enough that Violet was able to break them with relative ease. She threw a couple of the pieces on the fire and set the rest by the hearth as she returned to where she had been at Clementine's side. She gave her a soft, reassuring smile as the fire came back to life, and Clementine gave a soft smile in return, breaking her from her thoughts, if only momentarily.

She heaved a sigh as her eyes were drawn back to the missing portion of her left leg. She thought about the trek awaiting them in the morning, and her mouth twisted again. "Ugh, walking through all of that snow is gonna fuck up my leg..."

The soft smile on Violet's face became mischievous. "Don't worry, I can just carry you instead." She said it nonchalantly, but the fluttering in her chest betrayed her.

Clementine quirked her eyebrow in response to the bold statement, smiling skeptically as she laughed "Uh, aha, yeah right."

"What, don't think I can?" Violet responded, the look on her face unbothered by the other girls reaction. "Brody was the one who carried you to the school after you crashed and I'm, like, at least as strong as Brody was."

Clementine's face dropped at the revelation. "Wait-... Brody brought us back?"

"Uh..." Violet hesitated at the change in Clementine's voice. "Yeah... Her and Marlon. She was the only one he would ever take outside the safe zone." She explained, and as an aside to herself said "Huh, guess it makes sense now..."

The playful atmosphere had now quickly disappeared, only to be replaced with a quiet, somber one. In the short time Clementine had to get to know Brody, she felt they had started to become friends. However, there weren’t many good memories made between them, and so Clementine more easily remembered the bad ones.

She could still remember that stormy night in the cellar clearly, could remember the sounds of Brody's inhuman screeching. The hot blood on her hands as she fought against the turned girl for her life. The guilt sinking in her chest like a black hole as she looked over what she had done. What she had to do. Clementine mourned her in the way she mourned everyone else she had lost. And it never got any easier.

Violet watched Clementine as she internally fought through her feelings, and once again regretted her words. She didn't want to think about Brody, either. And felt guilty over unintentionally bringing those awful memories to the surface. Clementine told them what Marlon had done that night, yet never talked about what happened after. But Violet had helped the others with the bodies, had seen what Clementine was forced to do. She remembered the sight clearly, as clearly as she remembered feeling that Marlon got what he deserved.

"Maybe we should try to get some sleep before it gets cold in here..." Clementine suggested tentatively.

Violet shifted, stretching her arms out in front of her, catching the last of the heat from the hearth on her fingers. "We should use the bed, then. It'll at least be better than the floor. Plus, there's a blanket."

Violet stood up then, stretching her legs as Clementine looked up at her. "Are you sure that thing isn't completely rotted?"

"It should be okay. We only brought it in here a little over a year ago."

"'We'? Why?"

"Uh-" Violet started at that, averting her eyes. "Um... Minnie and I... we kinda... used to hang out here..."

"Oh..." Clementine wasn't sure what to say to that, but it did confirm her suspicions. So instead, she relented. "Okay."

But she hesitated, looking between her leg and her prosthetic where it still sat propped against the side of the fireplace. "Hmm..." Should she put it back on? The bed wasn't far...

"Here," Violet reached her hand out, noticing the hesitation, "let me help you."

Clementine eyed the outstretched hand, considering her options, and once again twisted her mouth at her new limitations. She kind of hated this. She had done everything on her own for so long, and now...

"C'mon, it's okay."

She looked back and forth between Violet's face and outstretched hand a few times before finally relenting. "...Fine." She really didn't want to lace up her prosthetic just to immediately take it off again.

Clementine took her hand, and Violet helped pull her up to stand. They leaned close as she found her balance, gripping tightly at Violet's shoulder with her free hand. It only took a short moment, and once Clementine stabled herself, her eyes locked with Violet's. They both started a bit when they noticed how close they had become, face to face.

"Aha. Um, you good?" Violet asked, slightly flushed.

"Yeah," Clementine said, hiding her blush better than the other girl. "Thanks."

#twdg #violentine #replies with lexi #incognito #i know how you feel anon i remember the fic tag for them being pretty....barren..#at least compared to what i was used to being into popular ships in big fandoms in the past #i was kind of surprised honestly #but to be fair i read a lot of mlm main pairing stuff in the past and wlw just seems to get less love in fandom spaces in comparison :/#violentines get cozy under my wing i will provide for you #really trying to tackle themes of like #clem dealing with her new disability. learning to rely on others instead of always being the one relied upon #settling into ericsons and solidly accepting it as a safe home. for Real this time #clems past traumas finally catching up to her now that she is in a safe place and is beginning to truly process these events #vi dealing with her guilt over everyone she couldnt save #the way she feels guilty over leaving clem/aj in the woods and feeling partially responsible for her leg #feeling conflicted over her feelings for minnie #(anger? guilt? loss?)#and therefore feeling conflicted over her feelings for clem #(finding new love. more guilt. in a space where her and minnie had good memories together)#(this is a friended route vi where they have feeling for each other but are only acting now that the raiders are no longer a threat)#ok wow you think ive said enough at this point? this post is huge............#ive been talking for too long

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megashadowdragon · 11 months

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lok remake idea without the rant

the legend of korra will get more episodes and filler content to showcase the krew interacting more and mako and bolin will get training from korra in fire and earth bending traditional forms which will help them improve ( though mako will still be the more talented bender of the 2.

korra is meant to be aangs opposite so how about korra training the bending members of her krew in contrast to how aang was trained by his gaang

regardless lok will end with makorra getting back together

“always thought that pacing was an issue with Legend of Korra too, having only 13 22-minute episodes to tell a season-long story made it feel rather rushed. I do like just watching the main cast hang out with each other and be friends. They have great chemistry! That was always something missing in Korra. “

1. the lok remake with asami being an equalist spy

I feel they planned on asami being an equalist spy but changed it when they got to the episode where it was supposed to be revealed with hiroshi but changed their minds without going back and changing anything they wrote beforehand.

( I dont get why asami wouldnt know hiroshi hated benders

“she would serve as a foil to Korra. Asami is rich, traditionally feminine, and when she and Mako meet she showers him with praise and lavish offerings. Korra’s a tomboy, doesn’t come from money, and she and Mako are constantly snarky toward each other. I think it would work well if when it was revealed Asami was a spy, Mako would have an epiphany where he saw the girl who really cared for him and liked him for him was actually Korra all along. it would have made the love triangle resolution a lot smoother, and given Mako a clear choice on which girl he should be with, even if it was an easy one.

(from someone I was talking to online I forgot what their tumblr url was -

and of course I agree with this post so I would make some changes with kuvira in both my ideas for a b4 remake and a full one

( though to be frank I prefer a book 4 remake which ends with makorra getting back together be made beforehand to make a rebuttal to the idea that the mako who made the mistakes he made in original lok. Where asami was just a sweet girl needed to be specifically punished for mishandling the love triangle. I feel korrasami was just popular due to the fact its a same sex ship and the desire to spite mako for daring to be flawed lets be real here korra was just as responsible for the love triangle as mako he didnt do anything that required punishment. ( korra kissed mako forcefully he kissed back in the heat of it due to his feelings and then kept it from asami and was a bit of a jerk thats all

he shouldnt have kept it a secret from asami

makos flaws and mistakes were acknowledged and treated as such in the original lok the claim that because book 1 ended with something good happening to him it was ignoring his mistakes or treating him as if he was in the right is bs.

)

but thats a personal note

and to be frank without doing that it would feel like I am demonizing asami to get her out of the way .

( I have to be frank asami in original lok didnt do much

as a part of if a love triangle with 2 girls and a guy just pair the girls together idiocy

in the b3 scene have kuvira introduced much earlier and have kuvira join the krew in b3

2. keep asami the way she is but include a conversation where asami believes that hiroshi let go of his hate for benders ( a private one which korra overhears )

also in the b2 moment emphasize that mako and asami didnt get back together but asami was interested in on him

and the scene before mako got arrested asami showed up to his room and tried asking him out making a move on him and he gave in ( she would have been making these attempts

mako had just given in due to lonelinness and didnt want to lose asami since in his eyes he lost korra and bolin and him grew distant

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As Cousin Tu said in Remembrances, Mako’s afraid of disappointing people and ends up inevitably disappointing everyone in his attempts to avoid disappointing anyone.

I don’t think he had feelings for Asami. I think he was really surprised when Asami kissed him the first time, but hoped that would be the end of it (he seemed really uncomfortable about it, to be honest).

Of course, that didn’t happen, because Asami was still looking to get back together with him (likely because of the instability in her own life). He didn’t really seem to respond until the scene immediately preceding his arrest, and even there, it took a lot of pushing to get him involved in anything romantic.

And so, I think Mako was more motivated by the desire not to upset her than because he thought she needed him. Of course, that just meant more hurt feelings in the end, but that didn’t mean that avoiding hurt feelings wasn’t what motivated him.

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Anonymous asked: Why do you think Mako was afraid of disappointing Asami in Book 2? It seemed like he was more afraid of losing/upsetting Korra than he was Asami. Because once Korra came back he totally forgot about Asami. That’s what made me feel like his interactions with her were more out of vulnerability after his breakup with Korra rather than being afraid of disappointing her.

I agree that Mako seemed more afraid of losing/upsetting Korra than Asami – the show made it pretty obvious which one of them Mako felt the strongest about! – but I don’t think it’s impossible for him to have felt really afraid of losing/upsetting Asami, too.

It seemed to me like Mako was reacting instinctively to situations as they came up. So, when Korra was gone and Asami was pushing to spark something, Mako was concerned mostly with losing/upsetting her (possibly exacerbated by him feeling like he already had lost Korra)… but when Korra came back, his fear of upsetting/losing her again overpowered any feelings he had towards Asami.

also introduce in b4 izumis daughter maybe have a scene where she gets a crush on mako but having solved his problems with emotional conflict and avoiding conflict he out right rejects her softly ( in book 2 when asami kissed him he looked uncomfortable with it an was glad that she didnt follow up he was so afraid of dissapointing people he couldnt even say no to asami (plus he was still hurt about breakup and wanted stability ) so mako learned ho w to say no and that sometimes in life you end up disappointing people that doesnt mean you will burn bridges

mako rejecting izumis daughter would represent him growing past his flaws of being so afraid of disappointing people he hurts everyone an example of maturity ( optional instead have the scene be mako sparring with iroh and izumis daughter and winning paralleling how korra first appeared winning with fire bending like how korra first appearance in b4 after the fight reminded me of makos first appearance )

this applies to both options

possibly have a conversation with katara about losing his parents at a young age and having to raise his sibling ( it would just be nice to see the krew (

maybe explore how there is triad spies in the police department and due to makos history some people suspect he is one or want to use him as a scapegoat ( an part of the reason mako did well in truth because mako kept to himself and focused on his work not socializing with his coworkers it prevented information from being leaked out when he got into a case

also have mako gain some special fire bending type or color like dark fire that dragons spewed along with the others like dark fire being the fire bending equivalent to the technique that unalaq used ( an possibly fire bending technique to help break from psychic bloodbending ) a spiritual fire along side blue fire

also change amons appearance as an adult so he would have a darker skin tone like he had when he was a kid ( possibly amon and korra would be related to each other given how kid amon resembled korra though I may be imagining things

also have the krew actually have bonding moments together expanding upon lok

and fire chakra deals with willpower and is blocked by shame have an arc where mako deals with his shame regarding his work with the triads (and in remake make it so while bolin worked the numbers mako did as well he had seen people be killed by triads and is partly ashamed of not doing anything (

which leads to makos growth as a firebender ( maybe gaining a new type/color of fire which allows him to break out of bloodbending grip and keep bloodbending from effecting him maybe this will happen in b1 or in b3 ) ( maybe getting new types of fire it will be in a form of a dark fire which can also affect spirits like what that water bending technique can do but in a different way ( to go with water being fires opposite

and he can use the same fire to break the bloodbending grip when he uses that fire it breaks the benders control over his body or any of the elements in it ( all he has to do is release the fire from his body to break free . ( it can be focusing on that fire and when he releases it the bloodbending grip is gone it can be as small as fire breath or focusing on special fire to effect his body through chi I remember )

I would explain that mako was able to get a bit free from bloodbending grip due to amon focusing on the lieutenant ( and amons emotions got in the way

and later on he awakens spirit fire ( ) which enables him to break free of a blood benders grip or burn spirits I mean Japan associates fire with purification so there being a spirit fire to purify your body of a benders attempt to control an element in your body and to purify poisons makes sense

( actually it would make sense for mako to awaken this power in between b3 and b4 due to his desire to help Korra )

( I mean bolin gained a special branch of bending ( him being the only one who uses it ) so why not having mako invent one

which is what happened with katara and toph)

or mako could expand lightning bending to more electro bending

like being ableto imbue his fists with electricity anddo something like restart someones heart with lightning and reading the bioelectricity in someone’s body to tell when someone is lying/predict their next move during the b4 time skip he can tell when someone is lying

(I mean it is a skill that I can imagine would fit for a detective and something batman would like to get ( lots of people joked about lok being in Gotham and then compared mako to batman due to their backstory )

in this advent he would be shown doing the dual lightning trick that ozai did

fanons suggest)

give mako a moment with katara and/or zuko

mako was said to be zuko lite

which I can see but he also has similarities to katara

and it would be neat to have moments with them

like in the situation where asami wasnt an equalist spy which I will call lok remake option 2 ) zuko was there during remembrances and he brings up he made much worse mistakes when he was young and stupid

( this would also appear in my version of a lok book 4 remake ( where the prior 3 volumes stay exactly the same as in the original)

and mako and kataras conversation will bring up the similarities of their backstories and how katara had to act like a parent to sokka etc

( mako in the lok remake keeps the scarf with his grandma outright refusing it because it was makos keepsake from his parents )

these are some of the ideas that could be used in the remake:

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I saw some of the fandom reactions to Mako before watching tlok and after watching the first few episodes I was a little annoyed at how not terrible he is. When I think about the things that happened in the first two seasons I interpret it as him honestly not knowing what to do as opposed to wanting to be hurtful. He hasn’t had a parent since he was 8 and his only companion has been his little brother. Of course he knows nothing about communication or conflict resolution.

And Bryke just kept introducing potentially compelling storylines between Bolin and Mako and doing nothing with it or playing it off as a joke. The bending bros aren’t getting along in season two? We could’ve seen that the tension was due to Bolin wanting to be Mako’s brother and not his son and Mako not knowing how to let the dynamic of their childhood go. Instead, we got Bolin letting fame go to his head. Bolin decides to adopt Kai and mentions eating out of garbage cans. We could’ve seen them acknowledge the traumatizing nature of poverty and how both boys are projecting onto Kai in different ways, but no. Bolin’s just a goof, so funny. If Mako had to be a cop he could’ve had disagreements with Lin that lead to him explaining that something needed to be done to address poverty, because if there weren’t so many poor kids in the Republic City then the gangs wouldn’t have an endless stream of new recruits. We definitely should’ve seen Bolin genuinely concerned about the prospect of Mako going to prison, but stupid jokes were a better use of time I guess. So. Many. Missed. Opportunities.

also reference bolins supposed insecurity/ or feeling inferior to his brother for I remember that being stated this possibly motivation for what happened in b2 and a way he could be manipulated by varrick

also for wu change if we do a b4 remake before the full remake we go to wu being a woman as depicted here and then full remake with asami as an equalist spy with a kid wu

( I have noticed that every woman makos age that he knew wanted to get with him it would be neat for him to have a female friend who didnt want that

so in the asami as an equalist spy remake ( izumis daughter wouldnt be interested in him romantically since I wouldnt need to demonstrate makos growth)

or just kid wu in general

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Biggest change to the initial setup? No Prince Wu. Instead of an obnoxious overgrown child of a Prince, our heir apparent is introverted, lacks the confidence to refuse just about anything, and is terrified of being in front of crowds. He’s the (implied-to-be illegitimate) child of a distant relative of Hou-Ting and a Republic City citizen. Oh, and he’s all of ten years old. In other words, everything about him screams “Raiko chose this kid as a convenient puppet” (instead of offhandedly implying it once and forgetting about it as was done with Wu). All of the time Wu wastes on comic relief in After All These Years is used to explain the political situation: the prince is a figurehead meant to display the trappings of royalty and legitimize Raiko’s chosen advisors. Kuvira’s supporters hate him not just because he’s royalty but also because they think he’s essentially giving the Earth Kingdom away to an imperialistic foreign power. Mako’s there to protect him both because Raiko ordered him to and because he’s one of the few cops the prince is comfortable around; as such, Mako actually feels bad for the kid and wants to protect him. (This prince is legitimately terrified by the scary adults throwing pies at him and bursts into tears as soon as they’re out of harm’s way. Mako comforts him and makes him feel a little better.) Korra Alone is close to perfect and stays pretty much as-is, albeit with Korra’s loss in the Earth Rumble ring being far less embarrassing – she gets some hits in, and the end makes it even clearer how distracted she was by Dark Avatar Korra. The Coronation follows up on the political changes. Instead of being all excited about how awesome he thinks the ceremony is going to be, the prince is afraid – of being on stage (Mako assures him he’ll do fine), of being king (Raiko assures him that his advisers will do all the work), and of Kuvira (Raiko assures him that she’ll step down). The prince thanks Kuvira and lets her speak the way Wu did in the show, except that it’s sort of implied that he’s looking for an excuse to not have to stay up at the podium for longer than necessary. Kuvira, of course, uses the opportunity to take over… and specifically points to Raiko’s use of the prince to control the Earth Kingdom as a reason why she’s justified in doing so. (The prince hides behind Mako when this happens. =( ) Some of the time saved by not having Wu freak out about the loss of his throne is used to show us the meeting of the world leaders, where they talk about why they think Kuvira is dangerous (she’s very with-me-or-against-me) and what they can do to stop her (not much as long as she limits her ambitions to the Earth Kingdom).

The Republic City part of Reunion is way more tense because Team Avatar are looking for a terrified kidnapped child instead of an aggravating jerk. (The prince still gets to ask Korra to go into the Avatar State because he wants to see her eyes glow, but it’s actually kind of endearing since he’s a little kid.)

and we could have cute moments with korra and mako taking care of kid wu

also we can make it so mako has a good rep among the orphans

It is a touch weird that the moment Bolin and Mako get some actual characterisation, suddenly people dislike Bolin and accuse Mako of hijacking the show.

One episode devoted to a policeman attempting to crack a conspiracy does not a hijacked show make, particularly Korra’s business will probably eat the rest of the show. Mako’s finally got something to do beyond just being Korra’s bf/probending… and people are complaining about it?

Also I’d wish people’d stop calling Bolin “Sokka-lite”, he’s his own character and he might be more comic relief than the others he still has a personality of his own. Mako treating him like a child probably didn’t have the best effect on him, both making him kind of act childish which in turn leads to Mako being dismissive of him. Just saying that there’s actually a reason for why he acts as he does, rather than just “lol look at the funny guy!”.

Considering how, even in the previous season, Mako’s inability to take his sibling seriously or accept his help lead to him being abducted by Equalists, it’s not really surprising that Mako wasn’t really quick to react when Bolin ended up in an abusive relationship. He probably chalked it up to another of Bolin’s “wacky hijinx” and chose not to get involved when really, if there was a situation that required his surrogate parent touch, that would have been it.

I don’t know, I think that they do have unique personalities between the two of them, and their actions do make a degree of sense within the context of the show. Mako treating his brother like a child and dismissing him lead to Bolin being more open to being manipulated by Varrick and the movie star lifestyle, for example.

Can’t help but think that Mako really makes these problems for Bolin, both by treating him like a baby and dismissing anything he does as childish, which leads to Bolin making stupid decisions as he hasn’t really been allowed to make adult decisions or take responsiblity for stuff. Which leads to him falling in with gangsters when he attempts to help Mako raise some cash. Or dating an unstable and violent person. Or getting confused as to what the concept of “acting” is…

I like the characterisation within Legend of Korra, the behaviour of all the characters makes sense within the context of the show itself, just like with Aang and the characters in Airbender. Of course Korra would be a little arrogant, she’s know she was special from a very young age, but that doesn’t make her a bad person. Of course Kya would be more “free spirited” than her brothers, she has neither the responsiblity of continuing the Air Nomad culture like Tenzin nor the need to overcompensate for a lack of bending like Bumi.

Actually, come to think of it, parenting and how it can effect a character’s personality seems to be a theme running through both the two shows. Korra’s isolated childhood made her kind of naive about how the world functions, just like how Mako’s babying did the exact same thing to Bolin.

Mako and Bolin are actually working out to be pretty interesting. Which is actually pretty good going for characters pitched just as comic relief and “Zuko without the angst”.

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maybe we can emphasize the above effects on mako and bolin by having katara come in and talk with them about their relationship and gives mako advice

lets carry on the mako babying bolin issues and carry it on in b3 where katara brings it up or they can have a scene where katara brings it up when she meets them either trying to warn mako about babying bolin at southern water tribe

or the conversation begins while they are on the boat to confront zaheer.

where mako learns to stop babying him

and zuko an mako can have a conversation where mako talks about his own issues/past

and makos mistakes are brought up and zuko will act as makos iroh

bringing up how mako was so afraid of dissapointing people that he dissapointed everyone ( which works in any of the remake ideas be it a lok remake with asami an equalist spy or not )

where mako trains in the traditional style of fire bending under zuko and its brought up that while probending is good and all probending abandons the spirituality and development of the traditional styles)

and have mako and zuko talk

so the meditation would lead to his development ( maybe mako and zuko have talk while Korra is bed ridden and zuko offers to guide him and be his fire bending teacher since mako felt guilty since if he was stronger he could have taken out the water woman much earlier)

( maybe his part of remembrances with some focus on his issues which would lead to his thoughts on korra and how she inspires him)

( its mentioned that mako and bolin in b1 have begun to eat more nutritious food ( mako especially always made sure that bolin got food more often then him when they were on the street)

and mako began to train his body more to learn how to fight without his bending so he trained with korra after bolin was kidnapped.

mako turning down zukos granddaughter after the timeskip remembering zukos talk about how makos flaw being so afraid of disappointing people he disappoints everyone and while wanting to not hurt people is good sometimes the desire to do that can hurt more people

mako realizes its best to straight up turn her down immediately for not doing so may cause a situation where he caused her more pain.

like how if he just turned asami down when she kissed him or when she asked him out for a date rather then avoiding it due to desire to not hurt her the pain she would feel would have been lesser then it had been in b2 finale etc

and mako and korra could have the talk which makes it so that mako was helping korra even before tenzin came in while asami completely failed in helping/supporting korra

Anonymous asked: I don’t know if you’ll invest some time writing a fic or at least analyze this scenario wherein Korra talks to Mako instead of @s $ami (Remembrances). How would the conversation have gone? Would Mako have been more effective? It’s a shame that Tenzin’s speech in Remembrances was the only thing we got in the series in terms of summarizing Korra’s arc– in an episode where some fans would prefer to skip because it’s just a “clip show”.

I’m not sure I’d get the time to write a fic, but I can definitely analyze the way the conversation might have gone.

So. First things first: Mako would have been a bit more confrontational initially. He definitely wouldn’t have used tea as a pretext to get her to talk; instead, I think he’d ask her, “Is there something wrong? You’ve been really distant lately and I’m starting to get worried.”

That, I think, could lead into an explanation for the only-writing-to-Asami thing, which would be really valuable in terms of Korra’s characterization. Mako could confirm that he’s willing to support her no matter what, and Korra could agree to try to let him in more.

From there, the conversation would move back onto the same general track: Korra’s thinking about what Toph said, and it’s really weighing on her.

“I’ve just been thinking about something Toph said. She told me that the world doesn’t need me and it’s basically pointless to try and stop Kuvira.”

I think Mako might actually ask whether Korra was mischaracterizing Toph’s philosophy – “Are you sure that’s what she meant?“ If he did, I think the conversation would go down a much more productive line much faster, because he’d get Korra thinking about why Toph said what she said (ie. she was challenging Korra to push back against the idea that all human efforts amount to naught) instead of framing it as too ridiculous to consider.

It seems unlikely that Mako would be able to work in a speech like Tenzin’s (though I suppose his thing about how much she inspires him could be repurposed to that end =) ), but I think he’d be much more effective at guiding Korra away from unproductive lines of conversation (“am I a good or bad Avatar?”) toward the issues that were really bothering her (“how should I understand what Toph said?”).

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( maybe mako and tenzin could both get scenes with helping korra where tenzin just adds to makos support for korra.

or in the option 2 remake

( this would be for the and book 4 remake)

it would be stated korra only sent the letter ( it was implied to be only one letter given the wording) and korra wouldnt see any letter asami sent back.

and that she sent the letter because she crossed out mako and bolin as options

( it would be stated that she didnt want to burden them which is why she sent a letter to asami who wasnt as close to korra as mako and bolin)

plus asami had to build up her company after taking the loss and rebuild on who she is etc

( korra sending a letter to asami doesnt mean she is closer to asami or asami understands her better)

(and it would emphasized that korra isnt as close to asami as she is to mako and bolin by creating a distance between them or focus on korras interaction with mako and bolin and treating it differently from korras relationship with

like it being outright stated korras had issues with focusing on korra the avatar and not korra the person.

(on the option 2 remake where we keep asami the way she was

I would have asami leave the the group in b3 ( and rejoin at the end framing her helping korra get dressed as partly motivated by guilt of not being there) a

and have kuvira be the one who temporarily joins team avatar

option 1 and 2 remake

either have bolin genuinely worried about mako being arrested and while he doesnt believe it was varrick he believes in mako

or have it addressed and and have it hang in the back of makos mind as a sore spot which he brings up in b4

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Bolin goes "sowwy?" And Mako's response is "Don't worry about it".

Lin goes right back to being someone Mako looks up to.

That's the end of it.

Whether it slowly rots in Mako's head or not, is never addressed. If he's mad, he doesn't show it. If he distrusts them, he doesn't show it. If he lives with the idea that the people he cares about don't care about him, he doesn't show it.

It's just dropped because at the end of the day, no one actually cared about it. That's just sad.

portray it as slowly rotting in mako’s head as a sorespot ( if its option 1 leave asami out of it)

and maybe change it so lin does look into it

in regards to the book 2 mako telling raiko it will be again emphasized that mako was in the right to tell raiko

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mako is pretty much a combination of katara and zuko

korra to aang

bolin to sokka

mako to zuko and katara

he was described as zuko minus the angst beforehand

mako and zuko were both jerks with hearts of gold who had some form of emotional conflict ( of course the difference means that mako didnt need to suffer the way zuko did, if mako needed to be punished for his mistakes with how his story ended then zuko should have been punished with his ending

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Anonymous asked: Mako's biggest character flaw is his inability to make a sound decision and commit to it. At first, this is frustrating, but what else is to be expected from an Expy of Zuko, who spent nearly that whole series jumping sides?

I suppose. XD I wouldn’t exactly call Mako a Zuko Expy, though… at least not more than I’d call him a Katara Expy. He’s “the firebender” like Zuko and “the one forced to grow up too fast” like Katara, but he’s definitely his own person rather than a copy of either of them.

Looking at Mako and Zuko’s respective indecisiveness, for instance, it isn’t coming from the same place at all.

Zuko’s indecisiveness was always a sort of nature-vs.-nurture sort of thing. Zuko’s innate temperament was good and he had a functional conscience that told him not to do bad things… but he was brought up in an environment in which it was impossible to gain the respect from his father that he so desperately desired without doing bad things. His inability to commit comes from his own clashing desires and was resolved when he realized that he might never get validation from Ozai but that was okay.

Mako’s indecisiveness, on the other hand, is much more other-centric. Most of the things Mako struggles with involves a situation in which someone is bound to get hurt no matter what, and he’s forced to decide which response is the lesser of two evils. He has one primary motive – to avoid causing pain – but it’s in conflict with itself even when there isn’t a second motive for it to conflict with.

That difference, I suspect, explains the differing audience reaction, too. Zuko’s conflict is a rather masculine, Hero’s Journey “confrontation with the father” sort of thing, while Mako’s is decidedly not.

mako never needed to go through the suffering that zuko did during atla during lok ( mako did suffer and go through hardship since his parents died before lok began

people had ignored that and just saw him as the guy with 2 girls who are attracted to him etc and only started to like him after he had gotten stuff taken away which is annoying

#lok #atla #mako #katara #fanwank #because I do #remember them complaining about how Mako was nothing like their precious saintly Katara that could do no wrong #and how Mako didn't deserve to be compared to Katara #like pls they fufill the same role and function both story/plot-wise and group dynamics-wise #they both make a crapton of mistakes that they rectify before the end of the series #they both have a sibling that fufills the comic relief role and also has their own character arc #they're both bending prodigies #hell they even have the same temperment to a point #and people got so angry

mako and katara both had something from a dead parent which acted as a memento ( which they wore on their neck)

and were both hated for having trauma in a way that arent easily romanticized

for the remakes

I would get rid of the retcon bryke made of his motives as “fame, money” rather than “pro-bending was important to my brother and it was an opportunity to earn money honestly even though it represented a risk and Toza was probably the first person to show us any genuine kindness without trying to use us but I definitely didn’t trust him at first, etc. etc.” in every version ( and bring it up in remembrances ep in the b4 remake where we go with the pro-bending was important to my brother and it was an opportunity to earn money honestly even though it represented a risk and Toza was probably the first person to show us any genuine kindness without trying to use us but I definitely didn’t trust him at first, etc. etc instead of the fame and money retcon.

and in the full lok remake we will still say that he went to pro bending because “ pro-bending was important to my brother and it was an opportunity to earn money honestly even though it represented a risk and Toza was probably the first person to show us any genuine kindness without trying to use us but I definitely didn’t trust him at first, etc. etc

“

(or maybe make it so that in the full lok remake

( I would bring republic city hustle into an episode

but maybe give it a dark twist in that the gangsters did have toza killed ( but when bolin wasnt looking ( the confrontation did happen but they said that toza would have to stay away from those boys in exchange claiming they dont want his bad influence

and while mako was away from them they would tell mako to kill toza in exchange for never harming bolin and letting them go this would be a source of guilt and blocking the fire chakra for mako

you know it would be interesting if makos lightning bending evolved so he could read the electrical signals in the brain ( at first he had to touch someones head) but eventually he could read them by just standing there at first it was just being able to be a lie detector ( I mean he would be the 2nd police officer member of team avatar ( toph so why not create a fire bending equivalent to lie detection)

maybe in the scenario where asami was an equalist spy he would think about that when he heard stuff about bio electricity after overhearing varrick/bolin talk about something varrick said.

and after some training ( like sometime after b4 he trained that ability so he can read a persons moves before they do them ( right before)

which would parallel the smooth moves that amon pulled where he subtly bloodbent people as they fought to guide them ( which is a theory I had seen)

since amon and his brother can foil/parallel mako and bolin ( heck amons brother was once cute and soft reminding me a bit of bolin )

amons fake story to mako’s real story

and in the b4 remake ( keeping the past volumes same ) he just got stronger to keep up with korra for he feels if he was able to take down the water arm lady sooner korra wouldn't have gotten captured

or mako just remains the same level of strength

( 3 ways to go

( some of the ideas above will remain the same for the full lok remakes

1. a book 4 remake ( fem wu) and then a full lok remake with asami as an equalist spy ( kid wu)

2.a full lok remake where asami remains the same ( kid wu) and in this one we have asami go back to republic city due to business concerns ( like she had an arrangement for a meeting and korra agreed that she doesnt need to come with them and can leave when its too close for comfort . ( so we can keep some of korra and asamis friendship scenes) or some other excuse to separate her from the krew so kuvira can come in

3. where we keep the lok remake with a equalist spy even though we don't get a b4 remake . (kid wu

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Anonymous asked: Wouldn't it be great, if it was actually Kuvira, who was one of the members of team Avatar instead of Asami? Or if she was introduced somewhere in B2 as Mako's partner in the force? I know it would've change the story a lot, but imagine the level of emotional investment in Korra/Kuvira B4 conflict, if Kuvira was actually the reversed Zuko of new TA. She starts as lawful police officer, travels with the Krew to Zaofu and gets literally possessed by Su's ideas of progress in B3.

Kuvira as a member of Team Avatar would have been amazing. It’d have definitely added a ton of weight to Book 4.

I think her backstory in Zaofu is pretty important to her character, though, so I can’t see her joining the team any sooner than Book 3. So here’s what I’d do, changing as little of the first half of the show as possible:

Turn Asami into an airbender. This would create a perfectly reasonable transition point for Asami and the Fire Ferret trio to go separate ways – she’d leave with Tenzin to go to the Northern Air Temple in In Harm’s Way. That’d leave an empty spot in Team Avatar as of The Metal Clan. Introduce Korra and Kuvira early in The Metal Clan. Maybe she’d come over to Korra after Su introduced herself but before Su called Korra on her lie – she’d tell Korra how much the change Korra made in the world inspired her, and maybe express a bit of frustration that Su didn’t mention that she was her foster child. Have Kuvira assist Su in teaching Korra to metalbend – say, Su uses Kuvira to demonstrate techniques on, or something, then has her go back to her guard duties. Involve Kuvira directly in Team Avatar’s search for the traitor. It’d be a good way to show how aggressive she can be towards people who betray her trust, as well as give her more of an opportunity to become closer to the team. Have Su send Kuvira along with Team Avatar to find Aiwei. This is the real changeover – from here on, she takes much of Asami’s role. Korra and Kuvira are the ones who stay behind when Mako and Bolin go into town, giving them more time to talk. Kuvira’s the one Mako sends off with Korra on Naga. This requires some rethinking in regards to their capture – earthen barriers aren’t going to mean anything to her. I’m thinking they get taken by surprise and the Earth Queen’s forces threaten Naga (offscreen; Kuvira tells Korra about it when she wakes up). The adventure in the desert goes differently (the escape would be more about Kuvira being an unexpected metalbender in a metal airship than about the airship being a hunk of junk), but it offers a good opportunity for Kuvira to be a bit overly willing to do nasty things to the airship crew and Korra to hold her back. If Korra still ends up frying the sandshark, Kuvira kind of calls her out on it. ;) The fight on Laghima’s Peak goes a bit differently – Kuvira doesn’t get thrown off the side by a combustion blast incidentally, but instead jumps over the side purposefully in order to save Tonraq. Kuvira wants to go to Republic City to make sure Korra’s going to be alright, but Su tells her she can’t. Cue a very similar Book 4, except that Korra is a lot more invested in Kuvira’s fate, Bolin has a better reason to side with her, and we’ve already seen some of the characteristics that define Kuvira, like her aggression, inability to deal with betrayal, and her issues with Su.

It is a touch weird that the moment Bolin and Mako get some actual characterisation, suddenly people dislike Bolin and accuse Mako of hijacking the show.

Mako and Bolin are actually working out to be pretty interesting. Which is actually pretty good going for characters pitched just as comic relief and “Zuko without the angst”.

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#lok #lok remake #legend of korra #avatar legend of korra #avatar the legend of korra

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oh-my-damn · 1 year

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I think I have an anwser for you earlier post on thr SMA interview. You said you found it weird how Chris wanted someone who knows how to apologise and does not like to argue. I have not read the interview so I do agree that this was (at least) worded very poorly, especially with him having such a young gf compared to him. However I think I know what he meant. I interpreted it as someone who owns up for their mistakes? And who does not like to argue for the sake of arguing? I hate to say it but there is a toxicitytrend going around (Watch the citygirls/cityboys up trend on tiktok) People are becoming more selfish everyday. I don’t know if it is the same in the millenial age group, but I can find myself agreeing with these statements if you’re looking for a partner in gen Z? I’m sorry if I’m not clear, English isn’t my first language

Lol he shouldnt be looking for a partner in gen z though

I think you misunderstood the point tbh

My issue is that it sounds like he expects a lot of arguments from his partners. Why does he do that? Could it perhaps be bc he isnt that great of a partner and has never really worked on himself bc he liked being the frat/fuck boy he was in his 20s and into his 30s? There were a lot of things he did when he was with jenny that were uncool, and the way he always "hides" his partners also feels strange.

There have always been rumors about him being a total fuckboy and hooking up a lot. As well as the drugs. I have always believed them to be true, tbh. The truth is that Chris has been single for so long bc he wanted to be. He liked the attention and he liked the women and he liked not having any obligations outside of work. And I don't blame him. Because I am the exact same way.

The only difference is that I am aware and honest about this. I am open about the fact that I do not want to be tied down bc im not ready for the commitment. I am open about the fact that I enjoy my independence and freedom. I think the reason people are angry is bc he's been selling himself as a family man who so desperately wanted to settle down but couldnt find the right woman.

I never bought into that shit, I've always known he was shady but I chose to ignore it.

The problem now is that I no longer can. It has become blatantly obvious that he's shady. This is not normal. I don't care what y'all think, it just fucking isn't. If he didnt look the way he did, if he was balding and didnt have a fucking sixpack, y'all would have been outraged about this. The only reason chris isnt balding is bc he got hairplugs bc he started losing his hair at 30. Im saying this to remind you that HE IS 41.

He has greys in his beard and his hair. Wrinkles that he's had forever.

He can no longer keep the same lifestyle bc his metabolism has slowed. He can no longer work out as much. He is a dinosaur.

These are all words he used to describe himself during his SMA interview. Which came out the day before he announced he was "seriously dating a 25 year old and happier than ever" right before he took a power walk through central park while yanking her with him and then letting go of her hand as soon as he'd passed the paps he bought for the occassion.

#im grossing myself out even more having to write this #yall are doing this to yourselves #i told you not to come here to try to change my mind #i am a taurus #i study law #i will DOUBLE DOWN #i will spit facts #I will throw them in your damn face if its necessary

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kishimotomasashi · 2 years

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Hii!! For your ask game - What are your opinions on Team 7, Team Taka and Team Taka but as an ot3? If there's a difference to you? I really like your tought-process (or at least the way you write it out), so!! I'l be happy to hear it no matter what :)

Send me a relationship

Team 7

General thoughts:

My opinions on Team 7 have been pretty up and down. I went from liking their funky little team dynamic, to disliking them a lot because of how much of a mess they really were internally (+ my earlier incredibly negative opinions towards Naruto and Sakura when it came to Sasuke, opinions that have softened significantly with time), to enjoying them not only despite of that mess but also because of it.

When I think of them I think of that one post that talked about tragedies in the line of "the love was there. it didnt change anything. it didnt save anyone. there were just too many forces against it. but it still matters that the love was there". That's exactly how I feel about them now: that even despite their bad teamwork, even despite their fighting among them, when push came to shove they would have shielded each other with their lives and done everything in their power to keep each other safe because they cared about each other that much! And they were kids! Two of them with so much baggage they could have never unpacked alone and one thrust into more violence than she'd ever expected to see in her life, like of course they wouldn't have been perfect from the start, but they were on a road where they were really getting better, but then outside (Itachi, Orochimaru) and internal conflicts (Sasuke choosing to go to Orochimaru bc he saw nowhere else to turn to) outside of their control separated them just as they were Finally Getting It. And that's the tragedy of it! Part 1 Team 7 >>>>

In part 2... I have mixed opinions. On one hand I understand that they can't give up on Sasuke because Kishimoto's theme of ending cycles and being better than the generation precendent would have to have them all back together, and that's not something I'm opposed to in theory. The way it was actually executed tho... the ending just really sours my opinion on anything with Sasuke related to Team 7 because him accepting them back into his life, which should have only meant learning to accept love back into his life, ends up also meaning accepting and being complacent with Konoha and I just don't like it at all.

That, and Sai and Yamato are never treated as truly a part of Team 7 either once Sasuke gets back, and it's a damn shame. They've earned their place in that family as well, it's actually so gross that they're forgotten that easily, lol.

On how I think about how fans see them:

I just don't really think it's a moral failing for Sasuke to reject Naruto and Sakura, and I think the three of them are selfish in their own ways. I know selfish has negative connotations here but I don't think it awful in any of them: Sasuke can cut them off, and prioritize the hunt for his brother. Sakura and Naruto can still want Sasuke in their lives and go after him because he's so important to them. I just see these things as... not neutral, but just. Being there, if that makes sense. It's less about "are they right to want this" and simply that that doesn't matter as much as the fact that they do want it, period. I think it adds more weight to Sasuke's bond with them, too, if the matter of accepting them back isn't the "right choice" which he has to be pressured into, but simply his choice. That Naruto and Sakura are AN option, and not THE option.

Team Taka

General thoughts:

I LOVE this gang and I'm always upset they didn't get the time dedicated to them they deserved and were just discarded in the end because their relationship to each other and to Sasuke is honestly very interesting.

They're all pretty much in the same boat: kekkei genkai users abused for their powers (taken in by Orochimaru), who all hang together first because they're gaining something out of it, but then grow to realize they'd rather stick together and look out for each other even if they'd never admit it out loud. That Sasuke had grown to care for them similarly to with Team 7 and that Juugo, Karin and Suigetsu still stick by each other in Boruto is proof enough of that.

I'd MUCH prefer them as four, because I always think it's a shame that the rest of Taka just went along with Orochimaru in the end and their bond with Sasuke largely forgotten once Sasuke got back with Team 7 (discarded similarly to how Sai and Yamato were). I also think that in staying longer with each other and getting more time to properly bond and get to know each other, they could all actually realize that some of their experiences echo each other, and help them branch out their empathy a little to extend it to others and have more care and awareness on how badly the shinobi system fucks everyone over and we could've had moments dedicated to them travelling and going around helping others.

Though I'm not opposed really to them staying three, it's very endearing that they'd care enough stay together in Boruto without Sasuke, I just wish it weren't with Orochimaru bc like. What the fuck. They can hang out just fine without him.

On how I think about how fans see them:

I used to be staunchly pro-Taka anti-Team 7 but now I think I'd like both to have been able to coexist, in the canon story. I'm more interested in Taka stories where Sasuke doesn't return to Konoha and in travelling with them longer realizes he cares about them and feels safe admitting that, but mostly fanfic-wise. I also feel this because I've grown to dislike how pro-Sasuke pro-Taka proponents talked about Juugo, Karin and Suigetsu, almost as if Sasuke owned them and the reason they needed to get back together is because they "belonged to him" which??? became pretty uncomfortable, honestly. I want them back together because I think their ending is awful and because stories with them could be very interesting, not because Sasuke is "owed" them or whatever.

#nearlymoriarty #Ask #7 #We're like fish in water #thanks!#wow I am really writing paragraphs about Naruto #and liking my thought process sjfhdkfhskfh that really is a compliment I try my best 😭

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swashbuckling-chicken · 2 years

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Hey dude <3 I saw that you reblogged the 70 asks post (also, is that post really missing numbers 41-50 or am I hallucinating) and was wondering if you'd like to answer all asks ending in the last digit of 6 (6, 16, etc.). Go crazy!

oh damn youre right they are gone didnt notice that rip. also fuck it lets do this.

06: How do you want to die?

really starting out strong. i want to die by jumping off the balcony of my mansion, and my herd of albino peacocks jump after me but they fly and i fall to the ground. clutched in my hand is a confession to my husband's mysterious murder from 20 years before, written in his blood. drama.

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment?

fucking tired. i had work earlier and customer service jobs are basically hell so. also i spent like half an hour trying to photoshop an eyepatch onto a chicken but chickens arent meant to wear eyepatches so it was not working. i finally just gave up but i actually like the finished product (my pfp) so maybe it was worth it. also i now have photoshop abilities so maybe you should all be scared.

26: What are you craving right now?

death. just kidding. probably sleep im really tired.

36: Do you give out second chances too easily?

i dont think so. i dont really tolerate people doing shit because im too tired to deal with it. not that many people have wronged me so far in my life tho.

56: How many people have you fist fought?

none but there's a lot of my life left to live :)

i dont think id fistfight someone fair tho because im small so anyone could fucking destroy me. if we're gonna fight i will fucking gouge your eyes out and bite you because i fully intend to keep breathing. hopefully it doesnt come to that tho

66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?

no but i only have one friend in the world that i act like my complete self around so. and theyre a she/they so not entirely cis but i know that doesnt count. i would like to have more guy friends tho (and friends in general lol).

hopefully you enjoy this extra special little look into my psyche :D

thanks for the ask!

#asks

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cutlikediamonds · 11 months

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weekends have always sucked i think. growing up it meant being stuck with the family all weekend, but i wasnt able to articulate that i hated it at the time. i wasnt aware enough to realize that i was so overstimulated and overwhelmed by them. im the youngest, and they all say im mature for my age, but it hasnt always been like that. when i was still too young to have a consistent idea of my role here i was the sensitive one. i was always being pushed to an outburst because someone was pushing my buttons and i didnt know how to tell them to stop and id just cry. and then its that patronizing older sibling consoling where they mostly just dont want mom to hear that im crying, or i move on from it but theres ‘jokes’ for the rest of the night about how sensitive i am. its funny that that turned into me being the one notorious for not crying ever and being less wildly emotional than everyone else. anyway.

then the weekends sucked because it was too hard to restrict during them. i didnt have the school structure and mom was home to cook more like big breakfasts or meals shed be too tired for in the week. then at college the weekends sucked because i was bored and had to confront the fact that i really need to learn how to reach out to people when i want company because waiting for when i am obligated to see them doesnt work anymore, but id feel annoying.

now weekends still suck. i think i sleep in harder here when everyones off work, my version of getting the early part of the day to myself since i cant actually get it. but it doesnt really work, i still feel shitty and overwhelmed when i wake up.

im realizing this post isnt super ed based. my point is its the weekend and it sucks.

my brother and i did arm exercises outside today. i really really tried to take it as the invitation to spend time together that it was and not the disordered shit it also was. then i hated myself because ive been doing arm workouts secretly already but it was him just starting out and i liked that i was less tired than him. stupid. stupid.

i also just weighed myself even though i ate like a couple hours ago, which i always mentally scold them for doing (right in front of me by the way, because of where the scale happens to be in the house - which does not make me feel great when i usually ate the same time they did and now i have to think about my weight).

also earlier i asked my mom to grab me some splenda packets while she was out for me. she started passively telling me i should use real sugar instead and not the stuff they test on rats. and heres the thing, shes like totally right and i know that, but i was so mad in that moment. she was talking to me the way she talked to my older siblings when shes trying to nudge them to check to calories on something or whatever, that tone ive always hated, but shes never used it on me before. maybe cuz im ‘the skinny one’ or dont talk to her about weight and dieting as much but either way, she never uses it on me. it also bugged me because splenda is one of those ‘safe’ habits from my eating disorder that i cant fully shake no matter how far i get in a recovery phase - theres a few of those. ill always use splenda, ill always use small utensils, ill always drink the diet versions of drinks, ill always take the stairs next to the escalators. just small ingrained things that i know logically are unhealthy but, you gotta pick your battles yknow. as long as im eating three meals a day and not going too crazy over that, i dont really give a fuck if i still use the splenda packets instead of real sugar yknow? but i dont know. it bugged me.

about a year ago i went off my meds without telling anyone. i know it was a big thing, but i kinda cant remember it right now. its weird how memory does that. i remember talking and thinking about it a lot and crying a lot, it was a whole event, when i got found out. but i dont know i cant really remember it right now, and it was only a year ago. im only kinda thinking about it cuz i have been off them for like what a day or two? only out of laziness and forgetfulness, but of course now that im here im at that stage where i feel the urge to never take them again and i dont have the sound mind to really even like,, think through the decision. which i think is what happened last time. i went off them by accident, realized it, thought ‘well wait, should i just keep going or take them again?’ and then didnt have the mental clarity to answer myself so i just kept not taking them until shit got bad.

okay, i do remember being asked why i went off them, i remember that. and i remember not really having an answer. i kinda went along with an only kinda true reason of ‘they made me feel weird’ or ‘they made me feel spaced out’ when it was probably more accurate to say ‘i just wanted to do something to feel in control again.’

maybe thats why i want to now. part of me is like, relapsing into an ed isnt even like special in this house, its not enough for me to do that.

another thing is that even though i know correlation doesnt equal causation or whatever, i am painfully aware of the fact that i havent really lost a lot of weight in that ed way since ive been on meds andddd i wanna relapse lol.

im running out of mental steam writing this, my brain is a bit foggy. so i should stop i think.

tomorrow theres a barbecue or something at my aunts house, i think ill ask my mom if i can stay home. ive never done that before but. shell say yes. and i desperately need to feel like i live alone for a moment. i need to mentally prepare for my summer class starting this week and i havent had the chance to yet. i also dont wanna have to eat food i didnt prepare around people who trigger me and who im constantly masking around. not an ideal scenario you feel me

ok.. talk later ig lol

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Me reading the post about the colored cards: what the fuck is this it's totally not a thing what insane school would do this

Me checking the notes and seeing two people are like "yea": .

its literally so fucked up like, i was a little nd kid who could not understand or keep up w a lot of the rules most of the time and instead of helping they just enforce them harder which honestly just does nothing lol. like i still dont get it and now im just distressed, but id get punished more for being distressed. eventually i was resolved to be Good (which meant a lot of masking so job well fucking done i guess) and i tried my hardest to Not flip a card at all for a whole year, it was like, my resolution for that year basically.

and that may sound like the card thing "worked" but i still didnt understand the rules at all i just understood the consequences which is just the wrong way to go about doing things, its not teaching kids anything at all its only keeping them in line for the adults' convivence, we were being taught obedience not life lessons that would actually help us growing up.

i remember i made it a fair amount of time w/o flipping my card until one day my teacher helped me clean out my folder and saw i had unfinished work, and she made me flip it because i was playing earlier even though i had unfinished work... but the only reason was because my folder was so messy i couldnt see the work in question! but the card rules were so absolute that circumstance didnt matter, and no matter how hard i tried to justify it shed just get more angry at my distress and she told me to just go cry in the bathroom for a while and then i should come back and flip my card twice (an extra time for being a crybaby i guess). as a kid i didnt understand but i figured she must be right because shes an adult, and im still not good. as an adult i think she was just on a weird powertrip w all this authority she held over 7 year olds and i genuinely think shes a bitch for that lol

on top of that its fucked up that the card flipping thing was so public, it was on a board just sitting there for the class to see with our names on it and everything, like, it just feels so intentional. a way to shame the kids through their peers to further force this sort of conformity between them. and this often caused bullying! i remember there were kids who hard their cards flipped all the way to red almost every day, they were always made fun of by the other kids for being like, Bad. and this would just make it worse, kids would lash out in frustration of their situation, teachers wouldnt help them and would just keep using the same card flip method thats obviously failed them, and is just further encouraging their behavior as well as that of their peers. like, for what? does this tactic just make these poor kids to be sacrificial lambs? "dont be like The Bad Kid or this could be you so stay in line and be Good"? assassination classroom was right bro they were right

it really just prioritizes the overall conformity of the class over any of the students growth in any healthy way, its too one-size-fits-all, but children grown differently and arent a monolith, and circumstances can be different too. you have to actually communicate with those kids, even if theyre very young and communication is hard for them. like, its your fucking job to help them, talk to them and see what the problem is instead of trying to correct it like theyre dogs wearing a shock collar. its just a pavlovian response, they understand "action causes card to flip>card flip causes punishment>dont do action" but they dont understand why they shouldnt do it at all unless you actually talk with them. theyre kids but theyre people too

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kitkatopinions · 3 years

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I love how people will defend crwby when they give jackshit about rep and their fans. Like with clover (i know they didnt make it official but just look at eddies stupid tweet). They fucked up, it was queerbaiting, so the best course of action is to imply that harriet had feelings for clover and bad mouth the dead man. They could have just say "everyone of us was acting stupid and he died" nooo clover wouldnt leave qrow alone and robyn says later that clover is the lesser huntsmen. They could just say "hey clover was like a brother to harriet, she was his second in command, this hurts her very much" nooo clover was important for harriet, you know important. How does that even fit? They didnt have the balls to stand to their mistake and write about it, so they just twisted and turned so they could ignore what they wrote the last volume. Brilliant (and yes i will forever be bitter that qrow doesnt take responsibility for causing clovers death and just whines about his semblance)

Honestly, the way that Qrow/Clover was handled is a big blight on the company in my opinion. There's a great blog called @fairgame-was-queerbait where you can see lots of information about why Clover and Qrow was one hundred percent queerbaiting, and people are right to be mad about it.

The way that the writers really spent their time pointing fingers instead of actually admitting that they messed up... And the way that members of the fandom have been refusing to recognize it as queerbaiting, BYG, or problematic has also been staggering. This was something that deeply hurt LGBTQ+ RWBY fans, especially mlm that weren't otherwise represented. Eddy Rivas has apologized for the hurt fans went through, but not in a way that recognized that the hurt had been a direct result of their actions. And whether that action was directly intentionally contributing as a writer or just not checking the animation and marketing or letting the show go as is despite seeing it and knowing how it'd be taken, or never telling people not to get their hopes up and that the ship was not intended despite knowing that it was quickly becoming one of the more popular RWBY ships is besides the point.

Fans have been quick to say that obviously FG was unintentional and that Clover couldn't have been meant to be read as gay because "the writers would never do that," while ignoring Miles Luna's discussions regarding Pilot Boi. He had been told about how Bury Your Gays was a very harmful trope and therefore decided not to include Pilot Boi being gay, but then 'was kicking himself' over not doing it anyway because Pilot Boi was popular. The fact that these fans are so delusional to believe that the writers would never do something, when they literally expressed that they wished they'd done it. Why is it so hard to believe that the writers would cross that line with Clover when one of them openly regretted not crossing that line earlier?

(Although as a side note, I wouldn't necessarily go so far as to say that Qrow 'caused' the death of Clover. Everybody lost braincells there in that fight and he definitely wasn't without sin and I for sure think he ought to have been guilty and taken responsibility for having broken Clover's aura, plus letting the blame fall to the guy who was literally fecking murdered was terrible. But Qrow didn't cause Tyrian to kill Clover, and he didn't cause Robyn to start up the fight in the first place when he and Clover were both being fairly peaceable at first.)

But! The way that RWBY said 'let's drag Clover after his death, imply things about his character that we never showed to be true, and have Robyn of all people say Qrow's just better than him.' Also, if Qrow really freaking cared about Clover in the show enough to keep that pin (that by all rights should've gone to the Ace Ops,) maybe he could tell Robyn to keep Clover's name out of her thin mouth, and be actually angry that she started the whole damn fight in the fricking first place. Honestly, I didn't like Clover at first and I don't ship Fair Game, but God almighty, the frustration I've felt watching the fandom start harassing people who liked him or the people that are mad about queerbaiting... Now I do like the idea of Clover and enjoy writing for him, and it's actually because of all the haters. So congrats to the RWBY simps, they've turned me into a Clover fan.

And if Qrow ends up with Robyn, I will... Post angrily about it. Using caps lock. After I finish vomiting over having to see it.

Here's the link to fairgame-was-queerbait again, I'd recommend anyone who wants to see the tweets and the screenshots check it out, I was so glad to find their blog and be able to see all this stuff for myself. It's honestly staggering that people are denying that there was queerbaiting, and saying that fans just 'invented this ship in their heads' or have no right to be upset. BTW, nobody better try that invalidating stuff in my comments. I'll block on sight.

#rwde #anti rwby #rwby hate #rwby bashing #anti mkek #anti rooster teeth #anti jailbird #anti qrow x robyn #anti robyn x qrow #anti robyn hill #some minor but not a lot of #anti qrow branwen

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sakuatsutingz · 3 years

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Hello loves! Can I request a childhood friends to lovers for Kita, Atsumu, and Suna?

ofc !! also i just made this a simple drabble since you didnt specify any type of req, but if you want hcs, feel free to request another ! enjoy <3 — jamie

let's pretend me and jamie's writing style matches well and it's not completely obvious who did what part. sorry for posting earlier than usual, but i wanna try to hit 100 before its new years in my time </3 - bri

kita, atsumu & suna with a childhood friend crush

masterlist here

request here

kita shinsuke !

mild s4 spoilers ahead !

“hey, shin ?”

the sound of your serene voice rang through the mentioned’s ears, the male’s left eyebrow quirking upwards as he turned to you expectantly with the sounds of the tv playing in the distance.

“hm ?”

he hummed in the same manner of how you called out his name, yet still in the softest and sweetest tone you could hear, it’s basically honey to your two ears.

“i love you. for as long as i could remember, i loved you, more than just a friend.”

you and shinsuke have been friends for as long as you can remember. you two met when you first moved in his neighbourhood, and his grandmother would always invite your family to have dinners in the kita residence frequently, leaving the two of you to spend a lot of time with each other, and thus, your close relationship starting to bloom.

when shinsuke told you about him joining the volleyball club in his first year, you had very mixed feelings. you were scared that he will soon be uninterested in spending time with you, his closest friend; you were scared he’ll lose his time for you; you were scared of the thought of him leaving you alone; you were scared of losing him, because you loved him.

but at the same time, you were always there to support him. the last thing you could ever possibly do is stop him from doing what he loves. and so you didn’t object his decision, supporting him from behind and cheering on him all the way to his third year — the nationals.

you thought he’d forget about you — he didn’t. he would always text you and tell you how practice went, what was going on in his team. he didn’t need to tell you how the match at the second day went in the finals, because you were there. you watched as the ball landed one last time on their side of the court, leading to their ultimate loss against karasuno.

seeing him so sad broke your heart, yet you still supported him until the end — and this was the end. yet, you still comforted him by visiting him later on, as he spilled to you whatever was going on in his head. it was a good fight, they had tried their best, but it wasn’t enough. and now you two were here, on the couch, watching the match replay for god knows how long.

now, as you impulsively confessed your undying love to your very best friend, you couldn’t help the smile on your face as you said those very words. the thought of him is already making you feel happy, feel loved, feel alive.

little did you know, those are the very same feelings you make him feel.

his eyes locked onto yours, a subtle blush dusted his cheeks as he spoke, cupping your face between his two hands as his lips softly kissed yours.

“i loved you too. for as long as i remember, and until the end of time.”

miya atsumu !

it was no secret to the people around you that atsumu and yourself had something more then just friends going on. everyone could see the way atsumu looked at you, treasured you as if you were the most precious diamond he knew. and for him, you were.

you were the only one oblivious to his advances. the flirting, gifts, random moments of affection; it didn't take a genius to know that he had some kind of feelings. yet, it seemed like no matter what he did, you blew it off. 'nah. i doubt he likes me, we've just known each other for forever. he's comfortable with me, that's all."

you only denied all of these people for one reason. you didn't want to get your hopes too high. over the many years, atsumu wasn't the only one who caught feelings. you did for him as well. you knew how he acted, you thought his actions were normal.

so you can only imagine the surprise that took place when one day you went to the gym to give the team some snacks for practice. it wasn't your plan to eavesdrop, it just happened to take place.

"'samu, what else do i need to do to get y/n to notice the way i feel? no matter what i try i can't get her to like me back."

the voice was one which you could recognise from everywhere - atsumu.

you placed down the bag of treats, clearly processing the words. apparently, osamu heard the subtle russel of the bag, looking back to where you stood.

"looks like you just told her, good luck."

was what osamu said, nodding towards the door - to where you are. atsumu looked like a deer caught in headlights, before looking down as he watched osamu walk off, leaving you two alone. you came out from your place behind the door, approaching the male. it was clear he was nervous, but at the same time disappointed.

this wasn't how it was meant happen. he wanted to ask you out with some grand gesture, tell you under the cherry blossoms in spring or during the winter season when there was many attractions to wow you with. not now, not here in the gym of your school.

"so, is it true? you like me?"

those words only made him freeze more, stumbling over his words while he tried to find what to say. it was so unlike him to act like this. usually he was the confident and loud one, not the shy one who struggled to form a sentence.

"yeah ... i'm sorry, i know how this must be. if you don't feel the same i can wait ... you don't need to return the feelings!"

you couldn't help but let a soft laugh leave the lips that atsumu had thought about so much. the action only seemed to rise his already sky high anxiety. your hand went to cup his cheek, gently pushing his head up to look at you. the next thing you did took both of you by surprise, placing a short kiss on the tip of his nose.

"idiot, i've waited long enough for you to say that."

guess you were both oblivious to each other's feelings, but right now both of you couldn't be happier. simply standing in the abandoned gym which the volleyball team was soon to have practice in, standing in the others embrace.

"can i call you my girlfriend then?"

rintarō suna !

you and suna were always seen as opposites, two who shouldn't get along. you were outgoing and loud, he was more quiet and deadpan. it was an odd duo, but you two made it work. many people didn't understand you two, but you never thought of it as a bad way. it was like you and suna had your own little world, away from the troubles of reality.

it wasn't an odd scene to see one at the others house, so it was no different then usual with you sitting on his bed, humming along to the music playing from the speakers. you had been in this room thousands of times, even had a small drawer of your clothes for how often you sleep over. your parents were hesitant at first to let such a thing happen, but over the many years the doubts they had about suna had faded.

you watched as he packed a duffel bag, only one way it could really be explained. he was going away to nationals for who knows how long. leaving you back here, to simply watch him from the tv. he offered to let you come with, but between your studies and club activities you didn't get the time for it. it was clear that it bothered you - the fact you were quieter then usual, on your phone mindlessly scrolling - rather than trying to help him as you often would.

"you okay?"

the question held no pressure as he moved away from his closet, sitting next to you on the bed. those two words was all it took for you to cave in, shaking your head as you pulled him into a hug which he soon returned.

"i'm sorry i can't be there to support you .. please don't be mad."

you mumble, clearly surprising suna. you always did attend every one of their games, always sitting in the front row of the excessive cheer group. you never did participate in their behaviour, but you did definitely cheer whenver you saw suna land a spike. ever since he started, you never missed a game. even if you didn't know what was happening half of the time.

"why would i be mad? i know you’re here for me, that's enough."

his fingers ran through your hair, a small smile on his face as he looked down to you. as much as you did appreciate the words, it's not like it made you feel much better. the sense of guilt was still there, even if there was no reason for such a thing. you felt his hand move from your hair, down the side of your cheek until it tucked under your chin. perhaps it was the atmosphere, perhaps it was the feelings you had for him that you pushed away for so many years - but you didn't pull away.

"you always have been here and i'll always love you for it."

suna's words came off no louder than a whisper, head touching yours. the shock never left your face as you heard those words leave his lips. sure, you had said it plenty of times before, but that was truly platonic. it didn't take a genius to know this was in the quite opposite way. you didn't say anything back, but the next actions were all he needed to know you felt the same.

what that action was? a simple tilt of his head, connecting your lips to suna's. that was all it took to know, your feelings weren't just one-sided.

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blissfulparker · 4 years

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Seasick Pt.7→Peter Parker friends to lovers AU

Parings: College!Peter Parker x reader friends to lovers

Summary: when you give one lie to your mom that you have a boyfriend, she ends up buying an extra ticket for a cruise you guys are going on. Now you’re stuck looking for a fake boyfriend and eventually drag peter in. Except you and peter both like each other and don’t know how long you can last pretending.

Warnings: angst, fluff

A/n: so this is a repost because tumblr glitched and it didn’t post the full thing? It only posted the title that’s it and I don’t know why it did that but hopefully this works this time😤

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The makeup brush meets your cheek as you stand in the bathroom getting ready. Peter finds one of the nicer outfits May packed for him. He wears black shorts and a red Hawaiian top. Maybe matching will make them see how cute and happy you are.

“Do you ever feel bad about doing this?” He stands in front of the full body mirror struggling with a button. His fingers shake at how nervous he is.

“Bad about what?” You ask, eyes wide as you bring the mascara to your lashes.

“Lying? Pretending I'm your boyfriend, lying to your mom and dad and sisters?” his words not meant to be so strong but he felt he should know. Being dragged into all of this, kissing you, touching you, hell making himself more uncomfortable than you.

“No, do you feel bad?” Your voice soft as you ask him, he lets out a huff. Boy does he feel bad.

“I mean, a little. I've never met these people before in my life and I'm just lying to them about everything.” he runs a hand through his curls. They’re soft from a shower earlier and smoothed out with gel.

“Honestly Peter, they don't even pay attention to half of the things we say. You could tell them you've committed murder and they would gloss over it.” you tell him and he raises his brows. It doesn’t make sense. If they didn’t care so much why would you care enough to bring him on a whole trip?

“But like it's your mom. Why do you even need a boyfriend? Why lie?” He feels if his mom was still alive he would love her so much. Cherish every moment with her and make sure to visit her all the time like he does May. May is his only mother figure, she’s his only mother figure and he loves her like that too.

You pump the lip gloss a few times before swiping it over your lips. Pressing it together to get a soft pink that makes your lips look softer. You stare at your reflection and know he’s right. You know he’s right but you hate it.

“Can we not go into all of this right before we see them?” You come out of the bathroom, placing a gold stud into your ear. The dress manages to look better now than it did earlier. Maybe it was the sun setting into your skin, maybe it was the gold highlight at the tip of your nose that made you glow even more. The dress that brought out your features, maybe it was how he always wore the red suit back home, how the color red drives him crazy on you.

“Wow Peter, two in one day. Im proud of myself.” you look down at his pants and he quickly looks down to then realizes you're just teasing.

“Stop.” he groans standing up. “Are you ready?” he asks and you nod. You have a necklace in your hand and look at him.

“Yeah, i just had trouble with this necklace, could you help?” you ask, handing it to him. It fumbles in his hands as he comes behind you and takes it around your neck clasping it. He brushes some fallen hair hair to the side as he latches it in place. Coconut and peaches and the mixture of the lavender vanilla perfume was perfect.

“Peter?” your voice weak in a whisper as you feel his breath on your neck, how his hands are rough and calloused but so large and warm. Your lower half is pressed up against his by accident. You feel how strong he is and how maybe with one simple phone call you two would be out of dinner but rather in bed with each other.

He blinks a few times before backing away. Realizing he was standing too close for too long.

“It's good.” he swallows, gaining his composure. You turn around and reach behind him to grab your bag.

“We good?” You nearly spoke in a broken sentence and he nods before you pass him and grab the door.

“Y-Yeah.” he nods following you behind. He wouldn't let his feelings get the best of him now, not after all he's done here.

The light was dim.

You and Peter sat towards the end of the table. Island music plays throughout the restaurant but is drowned out but the sound of talking.

You are uncomfortable already. Drinking a margarita that was served to both you and Peter. Yet Peter didnt touch his, he didn't really enjoy drinking, he couldn't really get a good buzz unless he had a lot.

“Hey,” his hand places over the drink, “Slow down.” he warned you and you stopped drinking to look at him.

“Sorry mom.” you set down the glass and rest your head on his shoulder. His hand on your thigh and even if no one could see it, he knew you needed some sort of reassurance.

“So peter.” your oldest sister, Arden, folds her fingers and leans over to him. Her husband talking to your dad so nothing could distract her. “Stark tower? What a tragedy that happened to him.” she doesn't care, and you know it. You knew peter was close to tony so you wanted to shut it down quick.

“Arden, don’t.” you give sharp eyes and she bats her lashes a few times at you. Acting completely clueless to what she was about to do.

“What? Im pretty sure i was talking to peter not you.'' That was the first time she got his name right. Peter was shocked.

His hand squeezes your thigh to let you know its okay. You pick your drink back up and take a sip before picking away at the food in front of you.

“It was a tragedy, but um, luckily the tower is ran by his wife, Mrs.potts.” he tells her and she hums.

“Do you plan on staying there forever?” she asks and just before peter can speak you take your head off him and lean in.

“Peter makes very good money working for the towers, he's very smart and is promised a job after graduation. Since i know that's what you're asking.” You say in a little of a slur. You're tipsy. Oh my god. Peter thought. you were tipsy.

“I never thought about that until you put it in my head. Peter what do your parents do?” she looks back at him as if you never even spoke. You pick up your glass again, almost empty and he knows you're moving onto his next.

He's now stuck. Back home dealing with physics and maths while also taking the role of Spider-Man was cake. Answering questions from your sister that made him uncomfortable and dealing with a now somewhat drunk you, that was his biggest mission yet.

He's seen you drunk before, but you were happier. You laughed with MJ and ran down the streets of queens. Once ned had to prevent you from throwing your top off a balcony. This was different, you're slouching in your chair, touching him, clinging onto him as if your life depended on it.

“My mom and dad passed away when I was young so I've been living with my aunt—“ he starts. You set the now empty glass down. Warm feelings going through your blood, you are angry. It doesn’t take his advanced senses to tell him that.

“Why do you care?” you interrupt him. His hand moves from your thigh to your shoulder, gripping it tight.

“(y/n) i think you've had enough to drink—“ he states and you look at peter with sharp eyes.

“No peter.” you nearly spit at him and look back at her. His eyes go wide at how aggressive and assertive you were.

“(y/n) just listen to Parker and sit down and eat your pasta, not everything is about you. Sometimes people can have conversations and it doesn’t revolve around you.” Her words blunt and shocks peter. When sisters fought he thought it would just be about clothes, maybe stolen makeup and hair ties. Never anything like this.

“That's actually my last—” he starts to himself but you speak out not even hearing him.

“No, why do you do this? Every single year you treat me like this? You hate me for no reason and I'm your sister. You didn't even want me at your wedding two years ago, you barely even wanted Maya and she's not any better than you or me.” you pause to look at the girl who falls back into her chair with a glass of white wine knowing she's made you snap. Peter's hands are now both on you trying to get you to take a seat.

“You call me names, make fun of my looks, make fun of the fact that i never had a boyfriend and now that i've found someone and i'm happy you hate him for doing that. So what is it that you want? Are you mad that I wasn't exactly like you? Are you scared that I might be better than you? That i might be happy without being perfect? That I don't need money and a rich man to make me smile? What do you want? I'm nineteen you're twenty seven. Grow the fuck up.” you grab peters drink and take a sip, leaning back. Peter has his hand on the glass too trying to take it away.

“Girls, please.” Your mom has her hand on her face, embarrassed of the little fight. All eyes are on you two, Peter tries his hardest not to go bright red while you try your hardest not to let tears spill.

You pick up your fork, eating a small bite before you look at your sister who rolls her eyes and mumbles something under her glass. You didn’t know why it was your breaking point but it was.

“You know what?” tears threaten to spill, they burn at the corner of your eyes making your vision blurry and your skin hot. “I'm done, you win. Im done.” you get up from your spot leaving the dining area.

Peter sits there awkwardly, shocked not knowing if you need anyone to chase you or what. He gets up anyways, saying a mumbling a few sorries before going after you.

“(y/n)! (y/n)!” he calls after you. People walk past carelessly enjoying their own blissful vacation. You walk quickly with a bit of a lean. You weren't a lightweight, you just were furious.

“(y/n), wait, please.” he stops in front of you, you’re on the beach, close to the main ship. If he can just take you to the room, get you in bed with no struggle, this will be nothing by tomorrow.

“What peter?” you stop, you wipe a tear and look him in the eyes. They’re bright red and puffy, he wishes he would’ve know so much sooner. How a girl like you, the perfect girl in the world could be so broken.

“Look i know you don't like them—” he wants to help he just doesn’t know what’s too far and what’s not. You laugh not wanting to hear it.

“Peter you don't understand. You don't. You never will understand. You think this is all a paradise and thats exactly what they want you to think! It's a cover up peter, this is all just a coverup to be perfect. They Are obsessed with perfection. I'm not perfect to them peter. I'm not. And I thought bringing you here would prove to them that I am. I can have the hot smart boyfriend and handle college at Columbia and look all pretty but I can't. Peter i—“ his arms wrap around you. You sob into his chest as he strokes the top of your head and rubs your back. He presses a soft kiss to the top of your head. As real Peter, not fake peter.

He holds you there for a moment. Letting all the years you’ve hidden this collapse. He doesn’t care about the stained makeup that will appear later, he doesn’t care about anything right now except you.

“Lets go to the room okay?” you nod into his chest, pulling back a bit but he lets you lean into his shoulder, he allows you to rest while he walks you two back to the ship and to the hotel room.

When he walks in, you're practically asleep on his shoulder. Drunken state and crying was probably not the best mix.

“I'm gonna take off your dress now, okay?” he asks respectfully. More nervous than you.

“I've always liked the color red on you.” you mumbled letting him slide down your straps and letting you slip from the dress. You try and play with his shirt while He shuts his eyes trying not to look at your exposed body.

“Relax peter. I'm wearing a bra and underwear.” you stumble a little and Peter catches you.

“You need to get some sleep.” he holds you and you fall into the bed. Crawling to your side and pulling the sheets over your body. Not changing into anything, just laying there in the lace bralette and panties. Peter looks at you already falling asleep, full face of makeup still paints your face. Even if most of it ran down from your tears he still took a rag and some face wash to your face.

“Thank you.” you whine. Touching his wrist as he wipes your face. “Thank you for everything.” you sniffle.

“Of course.” he takes out the earrings and takes off the necklace too. “C-can you wear a shirt?” his voice chips a little and you stifle a laugh.

He grabs you one from the dresser and you allow him to slide it on. It's one of his shirts, you don't know why he's given you his old star wars shirt but you love it. Maybe it had a few pizza sauce stains but it smelled like him.

He walks off to the bathroom to brush his teeth and by the time he's back you're passed out, snoring into the pillow and your hair is already a mess against the pillow.

He smiles softly before hearing the sound of your phone going off in your purse. He knows he shouldn't look but the least he thinks he can do is plug it in.

MJ: so did you tell him?

Betty: He totally likes you back and its not just the fake dating, you should see him when you miss study sessions.

MJ: Why are you afraid of peter? He weighs like 10lbs i could easily knock him over

Betty: ugh you guys better be real when you come back

He shuts it off quickly feeling like he's invaded something. He saw the texts a few days ago but he just thought it was harmless. He was completely clueless.

He plugs the phone in before laying in the bed. Pulling the sheets up to his chest and staring at the ceiling a bit before he feels your arm wrap around his torso. He looks down at you and thinks with all the moments he's seen so far, with all the things you've been through, You need the most comfort now.

He wraps his arm around you and pulls you into his chest. He lays staring for a little while longer before he falls asleep with you on his chest. Arms around your protectively as you both snored into the night.

“Goodnight peter parker.” you mumble into his chest.

“Goodnight (Y/n).”

Next morning peter woke up with you tangled in bed with him. Your cheek presses against his bicep and he really didn’t mind, after the night you had you deserved to sleep. It was late though, a lot later than he expected. 11am and normally he was up. But he didn’t want to move to disturb you.

A knock on the door makes him groan. His body was sore from swimming yesterday and he was starving as he realized he barely ate. He rubs his eyes as he trips over the sheets as the knock gets louder and louder.

You still being dead asleep, he gets up and opens it being faced with your sister.

“Is (y/n) awake?” It’s Maya, not Arden the one who fought and should be here but it’s the younger one.

“Uhh, no, she’s still asleep.” He mumbled trying to gain good vision. He rubs the sleep from his eyes and holds onto the door handle tight.

You’re starting to wake up though, you can hear them talking but your head is pounding and your eyes are puffy. You can’t makeout who’s talking but the sheets are missing peter and you can hear the low morning voice he has.

“Well when she wakes up can you tell her Arden says sorry?” She huffs almost as annoyed as peter that she’s standing in front him.

“Well...shouldn’t Arden come say sorry if she’s sorry?” It was the first time he said something that was in use to defend you. Something he should’ve been doing the whole time.

“She’s busy.” Maya tells him and tries to peak around to get a look at you.

“Well if she was sorry she can make time to apologize to her own sister.” He isn’t as scared of her as he was two days ago.

“Look, kid, I know you want to help but none of this is your place—“ she starts and his grip on the door tightens.

“I think it became my place last night after my girlfriend's sister made her cry.” He tells her with a sharper tone. The girl stands in front of him with a defeated look. She doesn’t say anything before she picks up her phone and starts typing.

“Just, tell (y/n) mom wants to see her for lunch. Just her.” She tries and Peter looks away at you.

“No, sorry we're busy today.” He shuts the door on her before rubbing his face. He scared himself there for a moment but he knew you couldn’t handle another day with them. If he could do one thing for you that would be stand up for you.

“Who’s that?” You asked and he shook his head.

“Oh, just some kid who had the wrong room. ‘Tis all.” He told you and you nodded. You grabbed your phone from your nightstand not remembering if you plugged it in or not. Messages flooded from Betty and MJ scare you that peter might’ve seen.

“Hey did you plug in my phone last night?” Your voice soft as you ask.

“Uh yeah, it was at like seven percent.” He told you before he went into the bathroom and quickly shut the door to take a shower.

You sit up feeling the pounding in your head before walking over to the bathroom door. If you just get in and get the Advil without even looking at him things will be fine.

“Peter,” you knock twice. “Peter I’m coming in.” You open the door hands over your eyes as you move your hand around for the medicine cabinet.

“What are you doing!” He almost shouts and you keep looking.

“My head hurts!” You tell him and he groans.

“So wait until I’m done?” He asks and you shake your head grabbing the bottle.

“No!” You take the bottle and fall out the door. Sitting on the bed you take two before he comes out in fresh clothes and wet hair.

“You could’ve waited…” he mumbles as he puts his dirty clothes back in his suitcase.

“Well, my head was pounding.” You drink all the water from the bottle on your table. He watches you flop back down before you touch your legs. “Where’s my pants?” You ask and he decides with all the things happening, he can at least play a game with you.

“Oh you know, we were both a little drunk and then things escalated pretty quick and you get a little loud. I'm surprised we have—“ he starts and you give him a dead look.

“Peter.” You give him a stare and he huffs.

“You didn’t wanna wear pants.” He told you and you nodded.

“Cute story though.” you wink at him as you walk over to the dresser to find pants.

“Do you remember yesterday?” he asks in more of a shy voice, he doesn't want to get you mad this early in the morning.

“Peter, I was tipsy not blackout drunk.” you chuckle but bite your lower lip.

“Do you want to talk about it?” he comes up behind you and you turn around with a pair of shorts in hand.

“No, not really right now.” you tell him honestly.

He mentally slaps himself for even asking. He knows this is hard but in a way he feels he should know. He should be allowed to help you. Maybe after this trip if you guys were still friends things would go back to normal. Although he hated the idea of normal, friends or not. He wanted to be there for you and maybe you’ll never let him take care of you in the way he wants but he still wants to be there.

You grab your swimsuit that hangs on the clothing rack and take it to the bathroom.

“W-well are we doing anything today?” he asks, defeated.

“Yeah, we can go down to the beach. If you want to come of course.” you say before locking the door.

He was going to the beach.

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The Grishaverse Ship Survey Results

So! After all of that, we finally have the results! What is the general opinion on the ships in the Grishaverse? Well, that’s for you to read below! It’s actually pretty interesting and, while some parts make sense, there were definitely some parts which... surprised me... Anyway, onto the results!

Everything in this post can be split into:

The Grisha Trilogy

Six Of Crows Duology

The Nikolai Series

Shadow and Bone: TV Series

Most Enjoyed Ships

Least Enjoyed Ships

Crack Ships and Shipping Discourse

Notes from the Survey

(note from mod emily: i tried to bold all of fritz’ comments, but i might have missed a few! be aware there are two of us analysing here :))

The Grisha Trilogy

The first book series we asked about was, of course, the first chronologically: the Grisha Trilogy. The most popular ship, with 83% voters for this series selecting this, was Genya/David (Fritz was glad to hear that; Yes I am). This is likely due to the lack of alternate romantic interests in the series, which seems to be a major issue for Alina’s ships. It also seems to be one genuinely enjoyed by most fans, in contrast to Darkling/Alina and Mal/Alina (each around 30%) and Nikolai/Alina (just under 20%), for which I have definitely seen plenty of debate. The second and third most popular ships for this series were Tamar/Nadia (55%) and Nikolai/Zoya (47%). Interestingly, Genya/Alina (43%) and Zoya/Alina (30%) ranked surprisingly high, especially considering how few of my friends and associates I hear talking about them. Good for them!

Honourable mentions:

Alina/Sun (no doubt inspired by that crack fic I wrote a while back) (Still havent read that out of fear)

Alina alone (a common concept among those surveyed, though most mentioned it later)

Zoya/Genya or Alina/Zoya/Genya

Six Of Crows Duology

This series was a little less divided, I would say. Predictably, Kaz/Inej came out on top with a whopping 96% of voters (:relieved:), with Wylan/Jesper next (90%) and Nina/Matthias just after (83%). None of the others really came close, despite Nina/Inej gathering 35% of the votes and Colm/Aditi at 25% (yeah, I’m not sure why that was so popular on AO3 either, but nobody really has objections so I assume that’s why it amassed so many votes). As Six of Crows is decidedly less divisive about ships and doesn’t have such controversial ships (more on that later), it seems the fandom agrees with canon pairings and the votes are... pretty unanimous.

Honourable Mentions:

Jesper/Wylan/Kuwei

Polycrows (platonic or romantic)

Kaz/Inej/Nina

Whoever didn’t read the instruction about this being for only the book series and put Jesper/Milo. I will never escape.

The Nikolai Series

This one is a little harder for me because I actually haven’t read this... so over to Fritz for analysis! But first, the stats. At 85%, the most popular ship is Genya/David, followed by Zoya/Nikolai at 77%. Tamar/Nadia and Nina/Hanne draw at 61.5% and Nina/Matthias has 56% voters onboard. There’s no real honourable mentions for this one, sadly. Hello Fritz here! Read the books and very glad to see Genya/David as the top ship as it damn well should. Although still a bit surprising since its more of a side-arc of the two and only ties in with the importance of the story at a specific chapter that I feel like I don’t need to elaborate about, if you read Rule of Wolves. (I believe the popularity of the ship also sky-rocketed due to ROW) Following of course Zoya/Nikolai, the high ranking makes sense, it is the main ship and lets be honest they deserve it <3

I think the only really surprising thing about this is the high votes for Nina/Matthias since [SPOILERS CROOKED KINGDOM] he’s dead so I feel like people should move on from that. Nina/“Hanne” having not as high a ranking as I would’ve thought, but with Matthias still being in the frame I guess we shouldn’t be surprised either.

Shadow and Bone: TV Series

This one is really interesting, with the exclusive show watchers now taking part! We have 89% voting for Kaz/Inej, 76% for David/Genya, 71% for Matthias/Nina, 67% for Ivan/Fedyor (that’s a thing???-->Yeah they had a few somewhat sweet interactions in the background-->nvm i watched it you’re right fritz) and 62% for Mal/Alina. What’s really surprising is how high Malina is compared to Darklina, with Darkling/Alina at 36%. Who knows, maybe Fritz’ analysis can shed some light on this?

Yes yes Fritz to the rescue: First of all we have to see their interactions a little different from what we already knew of them by the end of episode 8. I still think it is a surprising number, since the Darkling in the show isn’t as nasty as he was in the books BUT over all his actions are now seen on TV. We all thought the deer antlers were a necklace amirite? Well no apparently not, the darkling used the worst kind of small science to fit Alinas collarbone to the bone and out comes a gruesome sight: a reason why many people might have started thinking: Wow what a disgusting person he is. And on the Malina “ship”: Mal finally has personality!! jkjk :eyes: Mals and Alinas friendship has been portrayed way better in the show and I believe that the people noticed more chemistry between them especially by the end of season 1. So I’m still a little surprised Darklina has such a low ranking (what with him being all sweet and cuddly in the middle of the show) but it makes sense and the Malina ship as well. Their vibes are just *chefs kiss* and thats coming from someone who didnt even like any of these “ships” <3

Loving the quotation marks for the word ‘ships’, Fritz. Over to the honourable mentions!

Honourable Mentions:

Jesper and Milo (isn’t milo a goat? guys, why?)

Nadia/Marie (huh that didn’t appear anywhere else)

One person had several - Kaz/Inej/Jesper, Dubrov/Mikhael, Dubrov/Mikhael/Mal - and yeah, you can really see the show differences in these mentions right? (whose dubrov...and whose mikhael...)

16% actually voted for Inej/Alina which is wild to me because of book context (they did have chemistry in the show tho :cowboi_smirk:)

Another person with several! We have Nina/Inej, Genya/Alina, Zoya/Alina, Zoya/Genya/Alina. Very sapphic. Good for you.

Kaz/Jesper and Nina/Inej all in one

That’s a lot of honour and mentions but it’s so interesting to me and I think you should see too

Most Enjoyed Ships

The most enjoyed ship was Kaz/Inej. This had unparalleled support, being at 35%. Jesper/Wylan, which was next on the list (23.5%) and Nina/Matthias (18%) were also pretty popular. Most of the others were quite low, though interestingly Mal/Alina only had 1 vote (plus one for the show version). Overall, the SoC ships were a lot more popular in this section, which makes sense - this part is really about your favourite ship, and those were more unanimous in the last sections.

Least Enjoyed Ships

Most people said Darkling/Alina, which got 47% of the NOTP votes. A lot more people disliked Darkling/Alina than liked Kaz/Inej. Make of that what you will, but I take it as a somewhat general agreement among many of you guys. Mal/Alina was also strongly disliked at 22%, but around a half or more of these were clarified to be about the book version of the ship specifically. They really must’ve upgraded in the show! Jesper/Kuwei and any other Darkling ships were also voted by a few, but all of these pale in comparison to the anti-Darklina votes. Shoutout to the person who said Apparat/Anyone. I agree, though it’s not something I thought of before seeing this response. Also one person said they didn’t like the poly ships, which I hope meant just the ones mentioned earlier and not all poly relationships in general... Another shoutout to whoever said Kaz/Heleen, because why did I have to read that. A fun question, all in all!

Crack Ships and Shipping Discourse

I love talking about crack ships, so let’s start with that! This time, I really don’t want to have to count and list because... well, let me show you:

I think that sums up the sheer variety, to be honest. Then again, it would be rude not to mention that the most popular were Jesper/Milo, Darkling/Nikolai and Alina/Sun. (If you’re still confused about that last one, I take full responsibility.)

YES KAZ/KRUGE I SUPPORT!!!

Honourable mention to this:

which was a lot to take in, and:

Now for the discourse. Yep, the part you probably came for.

Actually... maybe you didn’t? Looking at all of these responses, I see a lot of people genuinely don’t care about ship wars and so on, and often enjoyed the books regardless of the romances involved. Quite a few disapproved of the ongoing (though small) wars between Darklina and Malina, and others had a similar line of thinking, saying we should maybe stop focusing so much on it. You guys are right. I know this is a ship survey, and the conclusions should not include that shipping isn’t as important as we make it (Yes it should), but... that’s where it’s at.

And then again, a lot of you guys expressed disapproval for Darkling/Alina, discussing how it is often one-sided and manipulative and overall unhealthy, so I could be completely off with that last one. Some people mentioned that they ship this but as a slightly different version that the one given to us, recognising the flaws of the canon ship.

Someone said they headcanon Tolya as aroace (OMG YES!!). We need more aroace characters, so thank you for that headcanon :) We also have a few gay ships mentioned here, and one person telling us they love Malina. Yes, you’re right - it’s pretty unpopular, it turns out. Someone else said Alina should’ve been single, and I agree, actually!

One person rickrolled me here. Thankfully, Youtube’s ads saved me. *wipes forehead*

I leave you all with this, in the end:

Notes from the Survey

Statistics Stuff:

The top ships were taken from AO3, so some ships may be more focused on in other books and may not provide accurate statistics for an earlier series.

The main circles this was sent around may have had bias as most people are from the same discord server, which has debated these topics in the past. Hence certain ships may have lower-than-average results. In future, this could be improved upon by sending this to other servers and areas of the fandom.

Personal bias may be present in the analysis, though I have tried to minimise this in the more formal sections.

Observations and Notes from Me:

You guys really don’t like Darklina. Or you love it. Usually one or the other. Wow.

Be glad I didn’t talk about any of the cursed ships in this. The things I have seen... (:cowboi_eyes:)

I thought more people would rickroll me, ngl.

What Surprised You Guys:

Kaz/Inej/Jesper

A few of you guys saw some of those cursed ships, and that surprised you. Well, me too!

Nikolai ships being in the TV Show section at all, what with his character not being in the show (yeah what was up with that huh tztz)

Inej/Alina

The existence of The Severed Moon

Darkling/Nikolai(/Alina)

How fun the quiz was :D

Things You Sent Me:

Bee Movie copypasta

“Nobody expects The Spanish Inquisition!”, except via an AO3 link

A fun fact about enzymes! I liked this one

Fic recs for Feriku and Sarai (esp for Wylan/Jesper shippers)

Another rickroll

Nice compliments :) aww you guys

I asked everyone for some kind of placeholder name and never used it. Sorry! But hey, anonymity, right?

Closing Statements

If you got this far (I feel like ive been sitting here for hours), thanks for reading! This was fun to do and I hope you enjoyed all of this too! The survey is still open for anyone who hasn’t done it but wants to. If I get a huge amount of new responses, I might update this post! But for now, adios!

-mod emily (and mod fritz)

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