autumnfallsatnight

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Mental torture is honestly pretty fun. It excites me.

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Original story: And then I died(tw abuse, mentions of death and suicide)

From the first moment I opened my eyes, life for me always ended early. Either as a maid for a villainess going through dementia, a knight under a tyrant’s rule, or as a young child mercilessly slaughtered by a psychopath. But before each of my deaths I would always witness it. The blossoming love of a typical main character who seems to battle a climaxing plot but I never lived long enough to see it end.

My recent death had been when I was on my way home through the streets of Gangnam I witnessed a distraught woman walking alone as the drizzling rain starts to pour. I too did not possess an umbrella and therefore was unable to service the poor lady. She was beautiful and dashing and in this life I was a young teen girl rushing home.

Just like any typical k-drama there was a main lead and he was the only one who could save her from the rain. At that moment my heart was relieved but jealousy also followed suit. In front of me instead was a masked man who tackled me into my grave.

I wake up now as a mom to kids I often abuse on the daily.

Married into an abusive family with in-laws who have nothing good to say but blame me I feel as if they all should die. Staring at the young toddlers whose lives are so easily in the palms of my hand I lash out my frustration onto them as expected of me. The abusive-good for nothing, mother who they beg, “Mom, you’re hurting me. Stop hurting me, stop hurting me!” Until I run out of breath and fall into my chair contemplating my failures and insecurities.

“It’s your dad’s fault, he made me like this!” I yell, voice hoarse with sweat precipitating on my face.

Is this the type of life I really want?

Who am I acting for?

I ponder this silently, switching from looking at my poor miserable children to the tv reflection of my miserable self. Why couldn’t I have been some sort of main lead?

“Take a forty and go buy yourself and your brother something to eat. Let your mom sit with herself for a bit.”

They were nervous, of course they would be but I haven’t fed them so they took the cash and just before they left, maybe forever, “Mom’s very sorry. I am so sorry to have given you such a horrible life.” My voice solemn and quiet but I just hope the cycle doesn’t repeat.

Waking up in the morning I brush my teeth energetically and cautiously walk around my sleeping husband, I pull out the savings I had and got myself to the front of my children’s’ bedroom. I’ll give them a better life, I’ll send them off to a well-off family and then kill myself.

It’s hard to repair the damage of a broken relationship in this life so I should just try in my next one. Tapping my kids awake I offer them to run away with me expecting rejections, now we’re on the run to find a man I kind of know.

Someone who loves to be kind to side characters like me. A middle-class doctor who helped me give birth.

“Susie, what a surprise! Come in” Dr, Lee exuberantly cheers. I haven’t heard that name at all after getting married and it startles me with my own tears.

Crying my heart out was something I haven’t done in a long long time.m

“Can you do me a favor Doctor, can you care for these boys for me and treat them as if they were your own. They’re smart and very capable of many things. They know how to clean the house, wash the dishes, laundry, and they can even give great massages-I think that’s enough Susie”

Dr. Lee smiles, “I won’t ask why or inquire anymore, if you are in need of help I got plenty to offer. I’ve been looking for some help around here myself considering how lonely it gets for me, maybe having two energetic boys would be ideal.”

I smile back, “You’re not wrong, they’re certainly great.”

These boys are only nine and twelve and here I’m abandoning them with someone more capable. The whole time there I could not bear to look at their faces but walking out now with my back facing them I do slightly regret. It’s not so bad to turn around one last time?

No, it was wrong of me to consider such a thing because all I saw was animosity and glares.

“I hope you boys grow up strong and healthy, forget about this mother and live your life!”

And then I died.

It was instant. A death so painless I felt resentful, torturing young children just to now escape from the responsibilities and karma. How much more shameless could I be?

Today I wake up alone in a room, a prison cell. This is the karma I was running away from but this time it’ll be different.

End.

#original content #tw abuse #tw violence #narrative #short story #writing #author #fiction #memory #past life #past lives #plot holes #stories #story #fictional characters #short fiction #angst #narration #storytelling #original writing #original story #ideas #story ideas

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I’ve been lying.

The words so easily twisted and holds so much meaning can so easily be withheld and stuck underneath the crevices of a deep-dark bottomless chest.

I’ve been lying.

I stare at the touch, the kisses, the hugs of others. My eyes lingers longer than the comfort the two strangers provide each other. Noticing my presence I look away.

I continue to lie.

Rejecting the deserved rewards, the well meaning gifts that were presented to me out of either care or lack there of but still I could’ve taken it. Used it and live in it.

I will continue to deny.

Deny myself of ever finding peace and comfort to drown myself in the loneliness and despair. Continuing to make excuses and therefore fearing myself. Victimizing and doing nothing.

I lie and punish.

Running in an ever-ending self hell I’ve created—as a way to repent I will self sabotage and deny, deny, deny.

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Tatsuki Fujimoto makes me realized that I truly exist through the lenses of others. For if no one sees me I lose all meaning.

#tatsuki fujimoto

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Gojo x Jogo

Ship name: GoJo, JoGo

(Spoilers???!!!! I dunno if referencing a scene from chapter 14 is a spoiler but it inspired this😙😙)

“Go ahead without me,” Gojo told Ichiji and only in a matter of seconds a demon by the name of Jogo launches at him with explosive curses. Gojo was confident though as he moved swiftly away from all that violent buzzing but Jogo was ever still confident in his strength.

Throwing another attack at him Jogo had thought that shiny bastard gone but was shocked to see his nasty-smelly punk like face to reemerge out of the smokey clouds without a scratch.

“But how? That was my finishing move! I thought I killed you!” Jogo was in utter shock, his frustration fumes and Gojo only smiles.

“You see, that’s not the truth. What you touched was the infinity between us.”

“But that’s not what I saw!” Jogo retorts feeling his pride being stripped away and toying with. Denying the fact that he has not achieved the goal of killing Gojo Satoru.

“Here I’ll show you, put out your hand.” Gojo states putting out his hand towards the nervous Jogo.

Contemplating Jogo reaches out but was unable to get closer. He could feel a wall of air stopping him from doing so as if it were a limit of x->a =♾️. Their hands in the shape of two different functions going towards a positive infinity but becomes a symbolism of desegregation.

They both knew as they stare for a couple minutes more at the hands that intertwined. It was love. Gojo felt his face heat, Jogo felt his heart thumping louder than it ever had before. This couldn’t be the summer heat, nor the icy frost bite of winter snow. It was love.

“Have you read Romeo & Juliet?” Gojo inquires and was met with a mutual response of yes from Jogo. His eyes looked up at the masked man and his heart rushed up into his head. ‘Has this bastard always been this dastardly handsome? Am I a fool for falling in love through physical contact?!’

A dilemma indeed but in the end just as Romeo and Juliet ignored all reasons, Gojo and Jogo followed how they truly feel.

For the first time in forever! I won’t be alone.

#jogo jjk #gojo satoru #gojoxjogo #narrative #fiction #short story #jujutsu sorcerer #jujutsu gojo #jujutsu kaisen #jujutsu satoru #fanfic #anime and manga #original fanfiction #otp writing #gay mlm #male love #manga #anime #writing #stories #love #romance #romeo et juliette #romeo and juliet #disney #frozen

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Gojo Satoru is Oppenheimer

-Blue eyes

-Domain expansion is unlimited void=when Oppenheimer thinks about space and how molecules crash and move around. Wondering if there is a limit and always coming up with new possibilities. Theory only takes you so far.

Gojo is insane like Oppenheimer and both are confident in their talents and skills for them to meet a certain downfall that feels as if undeserved but befitting.

They got tragic friendships 🤪🤪

Gojo is in love with Jujutsu just as how Oppenheimer is in love with Quantum physics. They both explore the unknown and always try and push past the limitations.

Lol I dunno but I thought they were a little similar.

#oppenheimer #jjk gojo #movies #anime #jujutsu satoru #robert j oppenheimer #jujutsu kaisen

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Suguru Geto, Geto Suguru

Y/N was just an ordinary chimpanzee from the coast of who knows where but suddenly got isekai’ed into the world of Jujutsu Kaisen. Y/N was cushioned by a man in a monk like gettup but before Y/N could screech in gratitude the man, Geto Suguru thrusted Y/N into outer space.

Psst psst

“God damn monkey.” Geto grumbles as he sprits his anti-monkey deodorant.

All Y/N did was eat a banana.

#getou suguru x you #jujutsu geto #jjk x reader #fiction #jujustsu kaisen x reader #jujutsu sorcerer #jjk geto #jjk #narrative #fanfic #crack fic #chimpanzee

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The Goddamn Ant War

Summer is just another season but as we all know, the temperatures changes is not trivial.

For me, it’s another day with an ant infestation.

I can’t stand it. I live in a trashed up rented space and so easily do pests come and go because nobody knows how to take care of the house.

Trash cans stained with food leftovers, windows gathering up dead flies and cobwebs, and the house is rising in temperature as the summer continues to never stop.

“Late summer”

Shouldn’t it have died down by now?

Why is it the hottest in August when it should’ve been June or July. I’m stuck doing my homework and getting a chilling sensation of some god damn 6 legged thing crawling up my spine.

No A/C, no pool, just a lot of fans and a god damn dumpster of a house.

This is not the ants’ fault and I can see it’s the lack of care we have towards this house but juggling jobs and coming home to take care of the kids, after all that who even has the energy? Even the kids come home deadbeat and tired, not to mention if they want to get into a top school they should study instead of worrying about such trivial matters.

There is no money to go into buying an A/C and there is no money to go buying into a pest control so all we’re stuck with are ants, spiders, flies and one hot mess of a house.

It’s not an Ant War anymore. It’s a war on something else.

#i hate ants #ants #fiction #short story #original content #narrative #vent #money #summer #hot

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The Fly? Who flies?

Short story

While Lume was out walking last night he seemed to have heard a strange buzzing sound and it scared him. It buzzed his right ear then it buzzed his left, above his head and below his nose. He was mortified. To fly or to fight-he flew and all the way to my front door he soared.

“Cale, Cale open the fricken door!” His pounding was urgent and I could hear his sweat drops falling from the kitchen in which I stood.

“Please! You have to let me in!” And at that moment I allowed him a place of relief.

“What’s wrong Lume? What’s got you so startled at such hours of the evening?” I console my friend, patting his back in a brushing manner. His shoulders were tense and his hands covered his eyes as if to shield him from the images of something scary.

“Cale, something’s following me. It made like a, like a buzzing noise and was very fast.” He grasps my collar. “I think I’m going to be taken, I don’t know what, but I think they want me!”

Buzzing is common, “Are you sure it’s not a fly?” I ask pulling his hand away from me and settling them down gently.

There was a moment of silence and I watched Lume expecting an embarrassed reaction but he then asks, “Who’s Fly?”

“Y’know the small little insect or bug that’s black and likes trash.”

“There’s no such thing. Are you trying to say I’m delusional right now? Well you know what, you can go die Cale. I’m so much better off without you!” Lume pushes me away and dashes out the door but before I could stop him, something else did.

Lights from the sky shone down on him and as he disappeared into the air our eyes met for one last time.

It was as if he was trying to say-

“Remember this for the rest of your life.”

#fly #short fiction #horror #thriller #aliens #extraterrestrial #short story #narrative #fiction #original writing

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The Goddamn Rat War

This war began the summer of 2018. The excruciating heat contrast to the pleasant shelter that is my house leads to the never-ending war against a ferocious species of rodents. Every time we had thought them extinct from our home, a tiny one comes back. One of its descendants. They decay and leave around pellets of their fecal matter. They steal my candy and my mother’s cooking. They terrorize my body and the sleepless nights do not allow me to live contentedly.

They look cute but the wild ones are the worst. We place sticky traps, we place cages, and even the meaner traps in our artillery. Each time though, they become smarter and more resilient against our traps. I understand, the traps are old and repetitive. My father, in his anger and exhaustion proceeds towards more harsher punishments. The fire, as they screech and yelp for help. I could not do anything besides plead for a softer death. After all, through all our war together, they had only wanted to live. They only wanted shelter and they only wanted food.

I sympathize but could not fathom living together. We are of different worlds.

#rats #war #narrative #waronrats #rats the size of dogs might roam earth one day #ratposting #food wars #opposites #divide

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Can I hug you?

I just need to hug you cuz I feel something. I feel something from you and I just need that hug because you make me feel something.

I just want to feel something and you make it happen.

Can I hug you?

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Sometimes I look at the creations I’ve made and feel the presence of an encroaching being shove me down and thrash me around as if a rag doll was my body.

I feel like a failure and I can’t do anything.

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Lately,

When I cry.

The rain always comes to accompany me.

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They won’t show up. They never do and maybe that’s why I do so many things so that someone can look my way. But in the end I am burnt out and exhausted and they look at me as if I have done nothing, nothing to deserve the feeling of laziness or of exhaustion. To them I am nothing. If I do good, there is nothing to worry about and they don’t care. They don’t talk to me, look at me, ask me. Once the problems arise then they scream at me, they cry on me, and they worry. How ironic and emotionally neglected I feel.

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Imagine they kiss you on your cheek. You’re surprised and are conflicted, do they like me? Are they playing around?

You ask,” What was that?” And they respond with, “It’s a part of my culture”, and with a smile too.

Let’s just say, you happily welcome it since it is cultural. But things starts to progress. They kiss your hands, your neck, your thighs and the same thing is always said, “This is a part of my culture.”

Where else do they kiss as a part of their culture.

#brainrot #genshin #yandere twst #genshin yandere #disney twst #headcanon #yandere #black butler #yandere black butler #naruto #tokyo ghoul #imagines #yandere imagines

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yan!Thoma headcannon

Slight lime-ish

Sick gn!Reader

Thoma offers to feed you but every spoon of food he turn his back towards you and uses this opportunity to wrap his mouth around the spoon. The food now basically inhabits his mouth and he lets his saliva envelopes. Once he turns his back around he is coming in with a, “Say ah” and a smile which you happily obliged to. Once your mouth makes contact with the food, he lets out a low soft moan but you hadn’t noticed. You still haven’t caught on to his antics either, believing that he was merely cooling your food for you like a good friend.

#genshin thoma #genshin tohma #genshin headcanons #genshin #genshin yandere #genshin impact thoma #thoma x reader #thoma x gender neutral reader #yandere thoma #Genshin lime #lime

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I’m not even a Diluc fan but I keep writing about him. Crazy

#genshin diluc