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fishyfishyfishtimes · 6 months

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What Is and Isn't a Fish: an Essay and Guide by Fishyfishyfishtimes

A simplified list of the animals I discuss can be found here!

Hello folks! I created this post to have a kind of definitive essay/explanation of what is and isn't a "fish", starting with defining the term and going over animals that fit and don't fit the bill. As other fishblr artists, writers and educators must know too well, some people are confused about where this term begins and ends, mistaking other aquatic animals for fish. I have my fair share of arthropods and cnidarians as fish fact requests in my own askbox, heck, some years back a friend of mine asked me if clams were fish. The event that finally made me decide to write this was someone requesting that a fish-only account draw a crustacean, pondering to themselves if they count as fish.

I don't want to hold it against these people. It's impossible to know something when you've never been taught! So that's what I'm here to do, hopefully achieving a pretty correct and universal view ^^' If I make any mistakes please correct me. I'm learning all the same as everyone else is.

Definition of fish

Immediately, we run into a bit of a problem with the definition of fish. See, what the term "fish" means has fluctuated for centuries! For a long time, pretty much any animal that lived in water was a "fish" — I say "pretty much any" instead of "every" animal because for a long time sessile animals like sponges or corals were thought to be plants. This is why we have such remnants in our language like shellFISH, starFISH and jellyFISH, they lived in water so they were called such!

Occasionally these definitions would be changed for cultural convenience too. Many Christian churches take part in Lent, and in the Catholic church red and white meat is forbidden on Fridays and Ash Wednesday. In the Middle Ages, in my own country, Finland, this abstinence of red and white meat could last up to 140 days! To make fasting easier, many animals were labelled fish for convenience so they could be eaten as well. These newfound "fish" included seals, beavers and swans, pretty much just anything that was aquatic or semiaquatic in nature.

Nowadays just going off of looks or behaviour won't do, though. There has been much more of an effort to define fishes coherently based on their anatomy and phylogeny, which is great! Problem is, that's easier said than done: fishes are an extremely diverse group, and uh.. not really a single group, either. I'll show you:

As you can see from this heavily simplified phylogenic tree, fishes are not a singular group like, say, mammals are! The animals that we group under "fish" are actually a part of several distinct lineages of animals, some more closely related to us than each other. Heck, tetrapods, which include amphibians, reptiles*, and mammals, are fish themselves! Phylogenetically speaking. Our ancestors were lobe-finned fish, and, well, you never stop being the previous taxon even when you evolve into something else. If you try to exclude tetrapods, no such unified group as "fish" exists. Still, when discussing fish, we tend to want to avoid talking about every vertebrate ever and instead focus on the very specific aquatic ones we mean when we say "fish". This is why many definitions of the term "fish" still exclude tetrapods, even if we share a common fishy ancestor. "Fish" describes more of a lifeform than it does a clade, much like the term "worm"!

(*birds are reptiles! This could be a whole post in and of itself, but I'm not here to write about that. Someone else has most likely taken up the task!)

Hooray, it's definition time! As stated previously, fishes are an extremely diverse group of thousands of species, and what terms might apply to the Atlantic cod may not apply to the yellowfin tuna or giant mudskipper, let alone a Pacific lamprey! Encyclopedia.com defines a fish as "an ectothermic chordate that lives primarily in water and possesses a cranium*, gills that are useful virtually throughout life, and appendages (if present) in the form of fins". Encyclopedia Britannica notes that "the term fish is applied to a variety of vertebrates of several evolutionary lines", instead highlighting five classes. These five classes are left partly unspecified, but ones that are mentioned are jawless fish, cartilaginous fish and bony fish (which still includes tetrapods, however), and the two classes left can be assumed to be two classes of extinct fish. Wikipedia defines a fish as "an aquatic, craniate**, gill-bearing animal that lacks limbs with digits". Tim M. Berra, an academy professor and ichtyologist, defines fish as "poikilothermic***, aquatic chordate with appendages (when present) developed as fins, whose chief respiratory organs are gills and whose body is usually covered with scales".

(*cranium=upper part of the skull **craniate=an animal with a skull ***poikilothermic=an animal whose internal temperature varies considerably)

From these more or less detailed definitions we can gather many defining features for fish: a cranium-having chordate, primarily aquatic, gill-bearing and uses gills as their main respiratory organ, lacking any limbs with digits, instead having their limbs be in paired and unpaired fins when present. Most fish are also ectothermic, meaning their body temperature is determined by their environment, but some can heat up parts of their body or their entire body in the case of the opah. Most fish also have scales, but not all, just like how most fish are fully aquatic, but some like lungfish or mudskippers can spend considerable time out of the water. Such is the way of these magnificent and diverse animals!

Finally, with all this out of the way, we can get into...

What is a fish!

Here, I will be detailing animals that are fish! Well, at least the broadest strokes; there are more than 30 000 fish species and if I listed them all we'd be here all life. I shall instead go over the major classes and list, in short, some groups that belong in them.

Jawless fish (Superclass Cyclostomi)

Jawless fish are often a topic of debate, especially in matters of their relation to each other and to jawed vertebrates. Evidence seems to point to hagfish and lampreys being closest related to one another and to lampreys being more closely related to jawed vertebrates than to hagfish (which would make hagfish craniates but not vertebrates). In the phylogeny tree above I decided to portray hagfish and lampreys as a monophyletic group, as molecular studies and microRNA analysis seems to point to a monophylegic superclass. Please note that this could go either way, though.

Jawless fish is a group containing two extant fishes, hagfish (class Myxini) and lampreys (order Petromyzontiformes)! Jawless fish are more "primitive" than other groups, for example both lack true vertebrae and scales. Still, they both have craniums and gills and they are aquatic, and so they have earned their place among fish!

Cartilaginous fish (class Chondrichthyes)

Surprisingly, I've found that this group has a lot of confusion surrounding it. I have received many a request confirming if sharks are fish, or asking if I'd cover a shark "even if it's not a fish". So I'll say it now: good news, sharks are indeed fish! So are their cousins, rays, skates and chimaeras, also known as ghost sharks! All of these fish have a primarily cartilaginous skeleton, tooth-like dermal denticles and lack gill covers and a swim bladder. Out of all the sharks, I also want to highlight that the whale shark, despite its confusing name, is a shark and not a whale. So, it is a fish!

Ray-finned fish (class Actinopterygii)

Name any fish, and there's a 96% chance the species name you said belongs to a ray-finned fish. Unless, like, you really like sharks. But this isn't about them.

Ray-finned fish are the biggest group of fish and incredibly diverse! It has your seahorse, your pufferfish, your bass, your tuna, your anglerfish, your clownfish, your salmon, your sturgeon, your lanternfish, your perch, your oarfish, your gar, your sardine, your moray eel... and this is only a tiny, tiny fraction of the groups that belong to this class! Defining features of ray-finned fish are that they tend to have a swim bladder and a bony skeleton (some exceptions though. Sturgeons, for one, have evolved a cartilaginous skeleton but they're still ray-finned fish). The largest group of ray-fins, the teleosts, also have leptoid scales, which are thinner and more flexible and grow with growth rings.

I want to bring special attention to some members of the ray-finned fish which tend to have a lot of confusion surrounding them and their heritage: eels and seahorses. Many people think these two are not fish due to their strange anatomy, like lack of scales or (many) fins and their elongated bodies, and I wouldn't blame them! Seahorses belong to family Syngnathidae, which also includes seadragons and pipefish. Eels, meanwhile, make up the order Anguilliformes. All of these long friends of ours are fish!

Lobe-finned fish (clade Sarcopterygii)

I shall merely focus on the fishy fishy fish individuals of this class, which excludes tetrapods. Lobe-finned fish house the two extant species of coelacanths, and six extant species of lungfish! These fish are bony and their fins are placed at the tips of fleshy, lobelike stalks, resembling the limbs of tetrapods. It is thought that the common ancestor of coelacanths and lungfish and tetrapods had similar structures that then became the four limbs the members of our clade typically have. Coelacanths and lungfish are wonderful fishes and deserve a lot of love and respect, not only because they're our closest cousins but because they're unique and we have so much to learn about them!

So, these are the fishes! There are also extinct groups of fish, namely class Placodermi (armoured fish) and class Acanthodii (spiny "sharks"). I'm moreso an extant fish account however, and so I shall move onto...

What isn't a fish?

Now we get into the real meat of this post. Without further ado, here are some aquatic friends of ours that can be mixed up with fish very often!

Crustaceans (subphylum Crustacea)

Many of our hard-shelled many-legged friends belong here! Crabs, lobsters, crayfish, shrimp, krill, isopods, triops, barnacles, copepods, you name it! Even though many crustaceans are aquatic or semiaquatic and have gills, you'll find that they're invertebrates that lack an internal skeleton (so no cranium, not even vertebrae)! We still love them though!

Mollusks (phylum Mollusca)

Creatures both soft and hard-shelled! Cephalopods like octopuses, squid, nautilus and cuttlefish, bivalves like clams, mussels, oysters or scallops, gastropods like sea slugs and snails and chitons go here! These friends of ours are also aquatic and have gills, some even have the suffix -fish (cephalopods used to be called inkfish, even!), but their lack of an endoskeleton is even more obvious than the crustaceans'. They're invertebrates, and therefore not fish!

Chelicerates (subphylum Chelicerata)

This group has many animals that are very hard to mistake for fish, namely spiders and scorpions, but horseshoe crabs and sea spiders are two groups of extant marine chelicerates! Both groups are aquatic, and horseshoe crabs have gills. However, they're both invertebrates, lacking a cranium or vertebrae. Other aquatic chelicerates exist, but they're usually very small, like water mites.

Cnidarians (phylum Cnidaria)

This phylum has the sessile corals and sea anemones and the usually more mobile jellyfish and siphonophores (includes the infamous Portugese man o' war!). I imagine corals and sea anemones are mistaken for fish less due to their sessile nature, but they're good to bring up nevertheless. None of these animals have a backbone, or, any bones really. They lack gills, they lack fins, they even lack the bilateral shape of fish. Jellyfish, despite the name, are indeed not fish! Some people suggest the name sea jellies be used for them instead, and I think it's much cuter.

Echinoderms (phylum Echinodermata)

Animals like starfish, sea urchins, brittle stars, sand dollars, sea cucumbers and feather stars go here. It seems that this pesky "-fish" -suffix is hard to shake off, as now we have the starfish. Once again, all of these slow-moving bottom-dwelling friends of ours are invertebrates, as they lack vertebrae or a cranium. Interestingly though, they are among our closest invertebrate relatives! So we ought to give them some props for that. I also want to mention that starfish can also be called sea stars, which ought to lessen confusion about their being too.

Comb jellies (phylum Ctenophora)

Comb jellies look a lot like jellyfish, but they belong in their own unique phylum! They have the same deal going on; they are invertebrates, they lack gills, they lack a cranium, they are simply aquatic.

Lancelets (subphylum Cephalocordata) and tunicates (subphylum Tunicata)

A double feature, because I wanted to save space didn't want these guys to be all alone! Lancelets and Tunicates, like sea squirts and salps, are chordates, which you can find in the phylogenic tree I drew all the way in the definitions section. They share many a feature with vertebrates, like a bilateral bodyplan, a notochord at some stage of life and a post-anal tail, but I'm afraid they're still not fish. They lack a cranium and their notochord does not develop into a vertebral column! Sorry friends, you tried. We can still hang out at the chordate convention.

Annelids (phylum Annelida)

The infamous bobbit worm, bone-eating worms, sea mice, giant tube worms, feather duster worms, spoon worms, bristleworms in general, leeches... many, many worms go here! Pretty self-explanatory: they are invertebrates, even when they live in water. They're extremely cool invertebrates too! I suggest taking a look at some of them, there's many interesting species.

Flatworms (phylum Platyhelminthes)

Flatworms are another very diverse group of worms, having many species both terrestrial and aquatic, however mostly I want to put attention into the free-swimming marine flatworms. They may swim beautifully (and fence with grace), but they are nevertheless invertebrates! Flatworms can live a variety of different lifestyles, from predators to parasites.

Amphibians (class Amphibia)

We've made it into vertebrates now! Amphibians include frogs, salamanders, and caecilians. While they have limbs with digits in their adulthood*, they can be easily confused for fish in their larval stages! This is no surprise, as they use gills to breathe underwater and tadpoles lack any limbs at all for a while. Many amphibians later transition into a terrestrial or semiaquatic way of life and lose their gills, not to mention gain their digit-having limbs.

(*excluding caecilians)

...Well, many amphibians do this, but not all. It's important to mention there are also species of aquatic salamanders which can bear great resemblance to fish with their elongated bodies! Amphiumas, which are sometimes mistakenly called "conger eels" (which is an actual species of fish), are aquatic salamanders with small residual limbs and both working gills and lungs. Giant salamanders and mudpuppies/waterdogs have lungs and gills as well, and lead an aquatic lifestyle — olms are close relatives of mudpuppies. Sirens, meanwhile, lack hind limbs and only have small front limbs, along with retaining their gills in adulthood. Among aquatic salamanders I also want to bring up one most often talked about species: the axolotl! They remain in their larval form, have external gills and lead an aquatic lifestyle. It can be hard to tell with aquatic salamanders sometimes, but these friends of ours are amphibians and not fish, even if they've rejected the land life.

Caecilians are a bit less known overall, but they can also cause a lot of confusion due to their long, limbless body. While most caecilians live underground, some are aquatic in nature, and can therefore be mistaken for fish! However, caecilians breathe via the use of their lungs and through the skin and don't have any gills at all.

Reptiles (class Reptilia)

Most commonly mistaken for fish in this group are sea snakes, sea kraits and water snakes, sea turtles, turtles, penguins, and other (semi)aquatic birds. Sea snakes and water snakes bear a very strong resemblance to eels, but they are indeed just snakes adapted to an aquatic or a semiaquatic lifestyle! The same goes for sea turtles, turtles overall, and penguins. They all need to breathe air and they lack fins, even if their flippers, webbed feet and built-in paddles may look like fins! They also have wholly different types of scales (or feathers!!) than what fish have, even if they share the feature. I assume that other aquatic reptiles, like the marine iguana and crocodilians are better read as reptiles thanks to their limbs with digits, but I want to give them a reptile shoutout anyway. They’re aquatic or semiaquatic, but they are air-breathers and fin-lackers all the same!

I also want to mention one specific extinct group of reptiles, ichtyosaurs! These marine reptiles were rather shark- or dolphin-like in appearance, which is actually a really good example of convergent evolution! Like all other reptiles, they also needed to breathe air and they had... erm... well, I'm not sure if I can call the bones in their flippers digits, but, that's what they used to be, so...? They were cool reptiles and among my favourites! There were many other aquatic reptiles too, but I will only mention just the ones now. A paleontology account would be better-suited to list you allll the marine reptiles.

Mammals (class Mammalia)

Our home class! Some of the aquatic friends we have in this class include whales like baleen and beaked whales, dolphins (orcas go here), porpoises, belugas, narwhals and sperm whales, pinnipeds like seals, sea lions, walruses, and sirenians like manatees, (occasionally known as sea cows) and dugongs! We also have some semiaquatic buddies like hippopotamids, otters, beavers and platypuses! Whales and pinnipeds especially often cause a lot of confusion due to their very streamlined, fishy appearance. They are, however, air breathers that feed their young with milk (some dolphin calves are even born with some hair), and their ancestors were land mammals! The same goes for pinnipeds and sirenians too. True seals, fur seals and sea lions still have fur even! Hippos, otters, beavers and platypuses are a bit more obvious as mammals with their fur and.. distinct air-breathing.. but I wanted to mention them anyway. Their adaptations to aquatic life are just one example of how fascinating evolution can be!

And here we are! A hopefully comprehensive list of fishes and non-fishes, beginning with the ever-shifting story of the term "fish", phylogeny, and why some animals are called fish when they really aren't. I hope you have found useful and interesting information in this post, and perhaps learned something new! I bid you a farewell! :D

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mikelogan · 2 months

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Color Reference Guide to Recognize & Avoid Whitewashing by mihareth How to Spot and Stop Whitewashing POC in Edits by augustds Don't Whitewash Me: A Guide to Coloring POC (Pastel & Pale) by mohanas How to Fix Orange-washed Characters by aubrey-plaza How To: Coloring East and Southeast Asian Celebs by blueshelp POC Coloring Tutorials Tag by gifmakerresource

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DISCLAIMER: I am white and in no way do I wish to speak for or over people of color. If anything here is offensive, incorrect, or nonsensical, please let me know and I will remove it and do better moving forward.

When I first started making gifs again last year, I didn't really know about whitewashing. It was a concept I'd definitely heard of and I knew what it was, but I didn't think about it in the context of gifmaking. Since becoming part of a couple gifmaking networks and starting my own resource blog, it's something that I am now very conscious of. I will periodically ask for opinions on my coloring when people of color are in the gifs and I've learned so much from doing so! I genuinely cannot recommend networks like PSCentral and LGBTQCreators enough. Everyone is so kind and helpful and being part of them has only served to better my gifmaking.

I have always liked to give people the benefit of the doubt and believe the best of them until I'm proven otherwise. I know not everyone feels this way, but especially since my personal experience was borne out of ignorance rather than malice. When I see colorwashed gifs, I want to believe (or hope) that OP just isn't aware, the same as I was. But ignorance also isn't an excuse. If someone points out to you that your coloring has whitewashed or otherwise colorwashed a person of color, you should take that and adjust your coloring as necessary, removing the original post. The resources listed above have been instrumental in helping me keep skintones realistic and true to life. There are, I'm sure, many more tutorials out there that discuss this topic. It is on you to take the initiative to learn, not on the person educating you. If being told you've white/colorwashed someone makes you angry, I would urge you to ask yourself why.

As always, please be kind to one another.

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wepsi · 2 years

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You tuned into a cat?! Reaction of Om brothers + undatables

Original art post is here please check it out!

Scenario: Satan as always is trying to play a prank on Lucifer, he and belphie bribed beel to bake a magical potion into a dessert. While they were off discussing how to trick Lucifer into eating it, you walz into the room and notice Beel baking, and a beautiful piece of dessert sitting on the table, you couldn't help but take a bite. It was delicious but you immediately started feeling weird, is the ceiling getting taller? huh that's weird, maybe you're fainting and falling to the ground. Just then Satan enters the room and his expression is as if he seen a ghost, you finally take a look at your... paws? It doesn't take you long to connect the dots in your head, and looking at Satan who is still shocked, "um? can you stop staring for a sec and help me?" Gn reader SFW

Lucifer

Usually his brother shenanigans gave him a headache but this one he doesn't mind (He won't admit he likes it)

Your white fur shedding will really stand out on his dark outfit, but he doesn't mind letting the other brothers see how much time you spend with him and on him.

Will definitely have you sit on his lap while he does his never ending paperwork, will also reach down and pet you every now and then, feeling a surge of pride when u accidentally purr.

"You can lay on my lap anytime, I feel less stressed with you here."

Mammon

Will pick you up and spin you around when he first sees you, "My little human is now a little cat! You are so fluffy!" as he buries his face in you fur.

Doesn't let anyone else hold or pet you, you are only his to touch

Will buy a cat backpack with the viewing window and take you on rides, to parties, casinos, and where ever he goes

"Isn't it fun always being with the great mammon! you should do this when you turn back too!"

Leviathan

Isn't fazed at all when he first heard of the situation, this is just like one of his anime with the super long name. Doesn't touch or pick you up until you give a million reassurances, gets extremely flustered when he finally did.

Since you have no hands you cannot play games, but no problem! This calls for a anime marathon.

Will also try to hog you for himself in his room,why would you want to spend time with his idiot brothers when you can watch anime with him!

"Hey how long are you going to stay in that form? Whatever it is I hope it's longer than that!" (immediately feels bad for saying that)

Satan

He can hardly contain his excitement, not to mention Lucifer can't kick you out like the rest of the cats he's had.

Definitely the most knowledgeable when it comes to cats, will educate you on everything you need and don't need to know about cats.

Will splurge and buy all the cat trees, toys, treats and whatnot.

Will also let you sit on his lap while he reads and his hand never stops petting you unless to turn a page in his book.

" Did you know cats sleep 12-16 hours a day? Well you can spend all those hours on my lap little kitten <3."

Asmodeus

Literally shirked when he saw you, you were SO CUTE! Almost as cute as him! Immediately tries to hold, snuggle, and kiss you earning a scowl from Mammon.

Will pamper you, brush your hair, dye it, paint your nails, and make you the prettiest cat devildom has ever seen.

Will take soooooo many pictures of you to upload onto devilgram, will also try to take you and make you and him the center of every party.

"I'm going to make you the prettiest cat in all three realms! Now what color hair and nails are we going to do today?"

Beelzebub

Everyone had to stop him from eating you several times, but after he finally ate something and not see you as food it was actually pretty fun!

He will take you with him to the gym and let you sit on his back and chest while he does push ups, sit ups and whatnot.

Will also let you sit on his shoulder while he goes about his day, with him being so big and tall he doesn't even notice your weight, and the view from that high up is amazing.

Also tries to feed you all kinds of food, Until Satan gave him a harsh lecture on what cats can and can't eat.

"Would you like some of this cake? Oh wait Satan said cats can't have dairy :("

Belphagor

Belphie knows that cats sleep 12-16 hours so when he heard you turned into a cat he was actually a little happy.

Now you can nap as much as he does so he can cling onto you at all times. You were his and now you can be with him all the time.

Was excited to snuggle your cat form and was not disappointed, you were the softest, warmest, fluffiest pillow, scratch that you are better than any pillow in any realm.

When you purred while snuggled up to him, it definitely stroked his ego, that you loved it and him this much to be purring in your sleep! Now he can only wish that you were dreaming of him as well.

"You look sleepy, come under the covers you've been up for over two hours now! I warmed the blankets up for you."

Diavolo

Though he should be feeling bad that this happened to his exchanged student, he can't help feeling extremely amused by the situation.

Will let you run around the castle and jump onto tall areas, even if you accidentally break something he will just laugh it off and tell you he will cover it.

Will carry you around with him under the guise of protecting you. Also persistent on being the one holding you to barbatos.

"My apologies for the behaviors of the brothers, but this is a really fun situation no?"

Barbatos

This type of situation isn't uncommon in devildom, but this time it involves you which has his interest peaked.

Will still have tea parties with you, but instead coming up with a recipe for catnip tea so you can enjoy tea with everyone else. coming up with new tea recipes for cats has been extremely enjoyable for him.

Will offer to clean up your litter box which made you flush and through stutters you tell him you don't use one and just go to the bathroom as usual. Also cleans up after your cat impulse messes.

"Was that tea to your liking? I added something different and special this time ;)"

Simeon

Hearing your situation definitely strikes a idea in him for a book series or mini series.

you can sit behind his laptop feeling the warmth as he types away, occasionally petting you on the head.

Brings him so much joy when you purr and rub against his leg and his hand. Will constantly try to pet you at all times, which of course you don't mind, he is very gentle and sweet.

"Though I'm the angle here you definitely look and feel like one, would you like some more pets?"

Luke

Like Asmo squeals with delight when he sees you as this cute tiny fluffy creature. He's finally not the smallest person anymore!

Will also carry you in his backpack everywhere, to the amusement park, attempts to sneak you into school, and wants you to sleep over with him every night.

After begrudgingly consulting Satan on what cats can and can't eat, Luke tries bake you all kinds of cat friendly desserts and snacks. How sweet!

"Try this! What do you think? Also stay over tonight too, you can't trust those demons especially now you're so small."

Solomon

When you ask him if he can help you he shakes his head. To be honest he didn't even bother to try, the spell will wear off on it's own, there's no reason to speed it up when you look so cute!

Will put a invisibility spell on you so he can sneak you with him to school, and smile down at you every now and then making your heart flutter.

Will do all kinds of magic on you to have fun with you, making you float? easy. Making bubbles appear for you to bat at, for sure!

Finds it amusing that your fur and his hair is the same color, will also brush your fur for you.

"What would you like to try today after school? I can try to make some snacks as well, no? Then would your like to float again?"

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ofmermaidstories · 11 months

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Let me preface this by saying I did check your FAQ but I didn't see this there yet I still find it hard to believe no one has asked you this at least a thousand times so if they did and I just missed it I'm sorry and you can delete this ask but—

You write such beautiful, detailed fics with lots of foreshadowing that often starts from the very beginning of the story. I think you made an author note once about only posting the first chapter of a fic after you've written the whole thing (or maybe that was Andie...?). If so, is the time between updates just you going through and rereading / editing like 100k words?

Basically, I want to ask: what is your fic planning process like? From the moment you get a first idea to posting the last chapter, what does I look like? I think you're a really, really amazing (one of the absolute best if not THE best) author but I cannot fathom how one human being can write such mammoths of fanfiction and stay motivated enough to finish them.

Also you're already planning Halloween stuff ?? You plan things literally half a year in advance?? Are you even human? We don't deserve you. 😭

You called yourself lazy in the webcomic post but I think you must work unbelievably hard to make such high quality stuff and without even getting compensation for it. You're amazing and I'm very thankful to exist in the right timeline and fandom to read your work. :,)

(oh my god this became such a ramble I'm sorry)

Oh Ari. 🥺 Hello.

I update as I write! So that was probably Andie, lmao, who’s definitely the better example to follow when it comes to plotting/completing a fic. 🥺 She’s amazing and if I could fashion myself after any other writer in our niche, it would be Andie hands down!

But okay, let’s get into it. 📝

A little disclaimer, before we start; I did not go to school for any of this lmfao. The most relevant education I have behind me is a extra-circular literature class I had during my last two years of high-school. The only reason the following works for me is because I’ve cobbled it together from years of trial and error. You can read advice and watch youtube videos about the writing habits of famous authors, but you have to tailor everything you hear to suit you and the way you work. The best advice in the world from the highest paid author in the world won’t work if you’re not wired in the same way! You have to take everything about yourself and what you like and what you want into account!

Part I—first we take Manhattan

start ur fic lol

First thing’s first; I’m a plotter. I don’t pants. If I pants, I lose interest—I need to have the final vision in front of me, even if it’s just a bullet point. I have to know what I’m working towards. That is crucial to literally everything I do. Every fic you see on AO3, every WIP I’ve mentioned working on or wanting to work on—I have always known two things about them, immediately: the hook that gets us in there, and how they end.

So for fics in particular, the start might look something like—I get an idea (I want Reader and Bakugou to kiss). And then I sit there and I brainstorm to myself (What’s stopping them from kissing? Why does Reader want to kiss someone so rude when there’s so many other nice boys out there? Is Reader particularly kissable?). And then, if I’m lucky, I think of an ending (Reader and Bakugou finally kiss, but he’s the one that initiates it, because he’s always wanted to, because he likes that Reader always wears a yellow coat to work—it’s ugly and it sticks out among the black and tan ones of the crowd but he comes to associate it—and thus Reader—with routine and his mornings going well).

This is often the most fragile time of an idea. That hook (Reader and Bakugou kiss) might fall apart with a bit more prodding (why would they kiss? Reader’s a stranger to him; most of us don’t go around kissing random strangers just because we like their coats). Or maybe the hook sticks (they spend almost years in orbit around each other, a constant near-miss) but the ending doesn’t work (I don’t know how to move Bakugou to a position where he can kiss Reader, where he has the opportunity to). For every idea you see in action, or listed, there’s like three more that died during this stage and are now being cannibalised for spare parts.

Part II—running up that hill (a deal with fic)

work work work

If our idea survives, we then move to the “throw everything at the wall and see what sticks” stage; which manifests itself in this case as a doc, where I’ll just write any and all ideas I have for this little world so far.

For fanfics, it’ll generally look like—

TITLE

SUMMARY: Bakugou and Reader kiss.

(in which Bakugou first notices you because of your ugly yellow coat)

📝 Reader is allergic to diary products; for ages Bakugou thinks of her as That Cheesy Extra, because of the colour of her coat. She laughs when she eventually learns about this. (“I can’t even eat cheese,” you complain)

📝 Reader stops walking past the coffee shop Bakugou gets his coffee at, one day; moves??? Leaves the city to help a friend out for a few months. Despite himself it throws Bakugou off-kilter, and when he sees someone (not Reader) in a yellow coat during a villian attack, he momentarily loses focus—gets injured???? The news of his injury makes the news, Reader sees it in Bumblah nowhere.

📝 Her coat is donated accidentally by a roommate, in a mix up, for a charity she’s volunteering at; when Reader returns to the city, she has to make do with a new one, a more neutral colour. Bakugou recognises her anyway and that’s when he realises it was never about the coat (!!!!)

Like, this is actually a pretty good approximation of what all my current fics have looked like, at that stage, before I tidied them up and refined them into proper outlines. Because that’s what will happen next, once we have a rough idea of what we want! Things get moved, or removed—tightened. A rough plot outline takes shape! If I get any ideas for a sequel or a spin off that I might want to do, I’ll note them here (Reader’s roommate, Roomie, who’s working at a charity—eventually meets Shinsou, who’s working on a case. She thinks he’s homeless; he doesn’t realise. They carry on like this for a while.)

Once I have a rough outline (rough meaning in bulletpoints), I’ll start on my more in-depth outlines—I do these chapter by chapter! I say this a lot, but they’re basically a really rough version of said chapter. So it might look like:

Reader’s walking to work; it’s cold enough that’s she’s wearing her coat. There’s a new coffee-shop opened on the corner—it’s full, popular, you think it might be because it’s at a crossroads between two different Pro Hero agencies. Reader glances at the window, interested, but then a friend calls out and you hurry along. Bakugou, inside the coffee-shop waiting for Half and Half to get his order, is affronted; your coat is ugly as shit, and he complains loudly about it to Shouto, who mentions something about Baku. having no room to complain about ugly colour choices.

The swap between Reader/You happens a lot because I’m not using my brain properly, at this stage—I’m just shovelling the sand I need into the sandbox. Once I finish my shovelling, I go back and I rewrite it—but better, LMAO. I flesh things out, I throw things away as needed, I add things in. It’s basically really, really intensive handholding and I would not recommend it for anyone who’s already daunted by the idea of plotting; I do it because if I don’t have a chaperone there (aka my outline) then I’m prone to getting distracted. I am basically the fanfic equivalent of the undiagnosed ADHD kid at the back of the class that only gets work done when they’re sat right in front of the teacher (and even then, there’s like a 50% chance it’s not actually work that’s happening but doodles of that weird pointy S thing over and over again).

Once it’s done, though, we have a completed chapter! I then post it and wait like a little crab under some rocks for people to be tricked into being nice to me, and then I dig back in and think nice thoughts about repeating this process to get chapter two. Eventually I will—and viola! Another chapter! We repeat that over and over until we get to the end of our original outline and we have a finished story. 😌📖

Part III—you’re on your own kid

motivation

No one ever likes this part, or what I’m about to say, because at best it sounds like saccharine fodder and at worse it’s out of touch with most people’s experiences in fandom, but—the only way to stay motivated when doing a long-haul fic is that you have to do it for yourself.

People are so kind to me, about the fics I’ve done; it’s part luck and part what I choose to write and part how I write it. And I mean—I share them because I want a little bit of attention, lmao, that’s natural because we’re humans, we all want attention. But here’s the thing, here’s the secret—I take these fics 110% deadly seriously. LOL. That sounds like a joke, but I do! I do that because it’s how I’m built and how I keep myself interested in them—because taking them seriously means I’m more invested in realising the ending I’ve imagined for them since day one.

If other people stopped being so nice about what I was writing, I would be sad—anyone would. 🥺 We all want to be told that we’ve done a good job. But I’ve had the ending for the Deku fic, for example, in my head since it’s predecessor was on-going. That is literal years of knowing how I want Izuku and Scribble’s story to end. If everyone disappeared tonight I would sulk, hardcore, and then I would finish that last chapter anyway. I would finish it because I’ve spent so much time and energy working on that story that not finishing it is a disservice to the world I built around those characters and most importantly to myself. I probably wouldn’t stress as much about it, LOL, if the audience shrunk back down to just me, but I’d still do it. 🥺

I write—and try to finish—these fics because I deserve to see them finished. I want the completed tick, on ao3. I want to look at it and know that I can do it—that I can start something as simple as Bakugou hating on some rando’s yellow coat, and bring it to the finish-line where they finally come together, and see each other, without the yellow coat or through a coffee-shop window.

And this is what I mean by like, tailoring things to suit you—because I know others might be perfectly content to imagine the ending for themselves, without writing it. Or maybe they don’t want to treat fic seriously, because it’s fun escapism. Maybe disappointment that it’s not received like they thought it would be sours the whole experience of fandom for someone—there’s no right or wrong to this. I know I can write for an audience of just me because I’ve done it before. The satisfaction has always come back to the same thing—knowing I finished it, and wrapped that world up as best as I could. You have to pick and choose your poison—and then you have to run with it.

I hope that answers at least some of your questions, Ari. 🥺 Thank-you for such a thoughtful ask; for being so sweet. 🥺 You’re amazing, and I’m the thankful one—I’m glad we’re here, together. 🌷🌾✨📖

#ofmermaidstories-asks #ari do i have a tag for you? 🧐 hmMMMm #anyways i hope you have a good week and that this was at least a tiny bit helpful lmao #i should link it…. ugh i should overdo my whole masterpost tbh 😩 this is where the lazy comes in bc id rather stare at my wall tbh LMAO #first we take manhattan—then we take berlin 🎵#writing stuff

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yenkat101 · 2 years

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Seeing reader cry pt 4

25 post event. 1/25. -pt. 5 (Kunikida and Tanizaki)

Characters: (Tetcho x you) (Jouno x you)

General: headcannons

Text type: Pine point

Warning: Mentions of insecurities, stress and even the urge to take upon your own life aka suicide (all the warnings are not describe what further detail other than mentioned and their opinion)

Master list

Tetcho Suehiro

-It only confused him when he saw you cry.. he didn't like seeing you sad. But he wasn't entirely sure on what he should do. don't get me wrong he has done some good decision involving someone's emotional state.. but.. He's still not entirely educated in that department..

-if he has feelings for you there's a 67% chance he would try to comfort you,

-Tetcho has a quiet approach, like he doesn't want to startle you but he does care and want to help.. So he'll quietly approach you and ask politely for you to tell him your burden (because he cares)

-if you do talk, he will listen carefully while trying to understand your point of view

-if you feel stress, anxious or even upset he would definitely be the type to make sure you take breaks if you're the type to over work yourself..

-if you feel suicidal, have low self-esteem or even think your a failure, he would first try to understand your point of view (yes he spends time trying to figure out your insecurities.. mostly meaning he tries to understand why you think you're *ugly*, ect) after he fully understands your point of view he tries to help but he may do something completely different (just like Kenji, I believe he has metaphors.. but not just any normal metaphors the complicated ones)

-(if you hugged him while crying he would be confused but once he understand what you're doing, he holds you into a hug *his hugs aren't that bad*)

-Now if your his S/O he acts a tab bit differently instead of a 67% chance he would comfort you it is now 97%

-he would still approach you in a quiet respectful manner but this time he would plead a little for you to allow him to share your burden (he has a good feeling that you were going to shake it off.. so he had to plead)

-if you do talk, he would listen carefully.. while trying his absolute best to understand you in every aspect (at the end, he admitted not understanding one third of everything you said)

-if you feel stress, anxious or even upset he would definitely be the type to make sure you take breaks if you're the type to over work yourself.. he's also the type to do things for you while you're working.. Like example he may grab a snack for you, prepare a bath for you, and all you need to do is just move the area that is all set up and he'll take care of the rest (despite his serious nature he's very sweet)

-if you feel suicidal, have low self-esteem or even think your a failure, he would also try to understand where you're coming from.. after a processes the information then he tries his effort to make you feel better.. he may ask a military police officer a website he could visit that informs him more about this mental and physical difficulty that many suffer.. If you do try to hurt yourself or and kill yourself he would be quick to stop you before even having the chance to hurt yourself and comfort you the best he could....

-there's a 34% chance he would cry because you feel this way

-he's willing to offer anything such as hugs, kisses, cuddles, embraces, quality time, words of affirmation, ect.. (quality time may be a difficulty because of his line of work)

-to make you feel better he would totally carry you around on his back (I'm referring to piggyback rides) like... That would be fun.. because he's not the type to drop people's except a certain someone

Choice: S/o thinks their ugly

"S/o? Why are you crying? please, tell me why you're crying? (You say something) yes I have noticed the way you look at yourself in the mirror.. what about it? (You say something) do I truly love you? what are you talking about? (You say something) your appearance. why would I be worried about that? (You say something) No.. I think your ugly.. I'm more confused on why you think that.. (You say something) .., first of all I don't think you look ugly in any way possible, second if you were ugly I still love you third I didn't fall in love with you because appearance but rather your personality.. so don't think that right. I just gave you a free reason without even having a minute to think about it.. imagine how many more valid reasons I could come up with if I had the time to think.. now that we got that out of the way, I need my cuddles"

Saigiku Jouno

-he's quite shocked... Because he obviously doesn't know what to do with that.. WHAT'S HE SUPPOSED TO DO? SHAKE IT! This man almost has no experience when it comes to emotions.. because he's the one wrecking it all.. like have you heard him.. he cares about you but he's not used to be a nice to others

-if he has feelings for you there's a 7% chance he would try to comfort you

-if he did decide to approach you because he wants to know what's going on he'll most likely do it in a sadistic manner.. he walks up to you like he owns a whole goddamn world and try to ask in the nicest tone he can "please, tell me what happened"

-if you do talk, he will listen carefully while heavily criticizing this thing called crying because it makes his blood boil when he hears those tears

-if you feel stress, anxious or even upset he would only make sure you're taking care of yourself... If you do not. Then you're receiving a punishment.. Of course it isn't as bad as others he punished, but it's enough to make you want to take care of yourself (if you can't take care of yourself however *like if you're too mentally stressed to even move a muscle* then he's forced to take care of you.. Of course he will complain under his breath... but if it means that you're getting better, then it's all worth it)

-if you feel suicidal, have low self-esteem or even think your a failure, he would start by lecturing you on how unreasonable you are.. because someone like him fell in love with someone like you and you think you're not perfect.. you're more than perfect if he's able to love you, let me tell you that... If you ever criticize yourself then he'll throw in a harsh comment (he means well but he's just doing it in the wrong energy)

-(if you hugged him while crying he would...... Okay his first instinct was to push you off.. but once he felt you cling on a bit, he decided to analyze what he was feeling.. he felt your shaking arms around his back, he could hear your whales of pain, he felt the front of his shirt get wet and most importantly you were in pain.. so he quickly demolished the urge to instantly throw you to the ground and hug you back)

-Now if your his S/O he acts a tab bit differently instead of a 7% chance he's would comfort you it is now 67%

-if he did decide to approach you because he wants to know what's going on he'll still most likely do it in a sadistic manner.. he walks up to you like he owns a whole goddamn world and try to ask in the nicest tone he can "please, tell me what happened"

-if you do talk, he would listen carefully as he tries to understand you (at least he's trying)

-if you feel stress, anxious or even upset he would only make sure you're taking care of yourself... If you do not. Then you're receiving a punishment.. (if you can't take care of yourself however *like if you're too mentally stressed to even move a muscle* then he's forced to take care of you.. Of course he will complain under his breath... but if it means that you're getting better, then it's all worth it) if he notices that it's getting even worse. Then he'll even go as far as communicating with your workplace about the situation

-if you feel suicidal, have low self-esteem or even think your a failure, he would start by lecturing you on how unreasonable you are.. because someone like him fell in love with someone like you and you think you're not perfect.. If you ever criticize yourself then he'll throw in a harsh loving comment.... Self harming and suicidal? Anything that can hurt you is now baby proff (meaning you have absolutely no assess until you change your attitude)

-there's a 2% chance he would cry because you feel this way

-he probably won't be letting you initiate in a lot of affection only with the exception of cuddles and hugs because he feels bad whenever you are reluctant around him (yes. He knew that you were trying to hold his hand one time but since you knew he didn't like it, you became reluctant and pretended that you did nothing.. *it made him a little upset*)

-he may allow you to cuddle up to him while you watch a movie (yeah.. he's not watching a movie but rather reading a novel)

-if someone harmed you physically, simple enough.. they feel the wrath of the hunting dogs because they harmed an innocent civilian.. I'm assuming you're an innocent civilian because that makes the most sense if you're dating him.. afterwards not much would happen.. but he would prefer if you were an unemployed stay at home because you're in less danger when you stay at home (not that he would mention it.. unless he had something that he could manipulate the main reason behind the suggestion *meaning, having a second reason, used as the main idea to disguise the main idea*)

Choice: Severe Work Stress

"Y/n? Why are you crying. ..., I said why are you crying.. please stop crying it makes me feel uncomfortable.. it's like vines are popping as if they were boiling water when I hear you cry.. (you apologized) I'll let you slide with the apology.. now why are you crying? (You say something) so your work has been stressful lately.. tell me your schedule (you tell him the schedule) that's inhumane.. well I personally wouldn't have any problems with it, but you're not trained to do these sort of things.. (you try to say something) no, this is inhumane to anyone that has never received military training.. (you try to say something again) I don't care. I'll be giving you two options and you got to pick one. 1. you let me talk to your boss or 2. you quit. Now pick (you try to say something) no I don't want to come home to you passing out and I need to take you to the hospital because you were dehydrated yourself, you don't eat, you don't sleep and you're feeling emotionally stressed! So pick now. I'm doing you a favor.."

25 post event with (Tetcho x reader) and (Jouno x reader) 1/25.

#bsd x reader #bsd x you #bsd x s/o #bsd x y/n #bsd hd x s/o #bsd hd x y/n #bsd hd x you #bsd hd x reader #bsd tetcho x s/o #bsd tetcho x y/n #bsd tetcho x you #bsd tetcho x reader #bsd jouno x s/o #bsd jouno x y/n #bsd jouno x you #bsd jouno x reader

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moondust-bard · 1 year

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First off nice to meet you! Hi new mutual 👋 Your wips sound awesome and I'll definitely be tagging you in some games because I'd love to learn more about them :D

I see you're open to beta and sensitivity reads! I'm not quite ready for that yet but the second book in my paranormal fantasy duology has a recurring role that's actually a vampire who's visually impaired with albinism! (and queer but that's not explicitly stated or relevant)

I did some research and tried to avoid harmful stereotypes as much as possible, but I was wondering if you had any quick pointers of what I should absolutely avoid? Or vice versa, something you'd really like to see.

Hello, hi! I really enjoyed what I saw on your blog when I first rejoined the tumblr writing community. I’m excited to see more of your work.

First of all, thank you for asking! And thank you also for researching albinism and the harmful stereotypes we unfortunately encounter in media. If I can help bring about more positive, realistic representation of albinism and the spectrum of visual impairment in fiction by acting as a source of advice— well, honestly, I’ve been waiting for someone to ask me this since I started writing. Maybe even before that, really. My childhood was marred by not-great fictional examples of my disability, and those few that exist were used by others as faulty measurements of comparison. Baby Luna would've loved to see someone like herself in books and films who wasn’t a villain or a sympathy-inducer in one of those “disability inspiration” movies.

Speaking of, this brings me to my list of what I’d like to see— and not ever see again— in media. This list’s advice may or may not be relevant, depending on the vampire lore you’re using and the specifics of your— for lack of a better phrase—mythical humanoid world-building. If you'd prefer to share specific bits of relevant info privately— just in case my notes here aren't helpful or specific enough— please feel welcome to pop by in my private messages.

1. Demon comparisons are not well received by the albinism community. I’d love less “omg, red eyes? must be a demon!” energy aimed at us. If that’s a vampire trait in your story’s world, or otherwise plot-necessary, I'd probably support it if the character with albinism bites back with some sass or a teasing threat. The amount of times I’ve had religious weirdos and children freak out on me in public is in the double digits. I'm known to be pretty feisty in response to negative comments, and most of the people with albinism I've met either react with tolerant “in good faith” education or dry humor.

2. Albinism comes with some co-morbid conditions. For example, nystagmus— a condition many people with albinism possess— is rarely represented in media, and therefore not understood by the general population. I’d love to see it casually touched upon in a book or film. Some other related conditions and experiences include extreme photophobia, skin cancer, strabismus, poor vision, astigmatism, squinting, eye fatigue and migraines, and more I'm probably forgetting to mention.

3. Please, please, if you can help it, don't give the world another villain or evil henchman with albinism. I'm begging writers and filmmakers to stop. I can go into detail as to why this is detrimental to the albinism community if requested, but I'm trying to keep this post brief.

4. Not all blind people wear sunglasses, and those who do don't wear them 24/7. I personally only wear mine outside and if I've been under fluorescent lights for more than a few hours. Bright lights physically hurt after awhile. The whole “blind people always wear sunglasses” trope was popularized so that blind characters could be easily recognized as blind in tv and film.

5. We’re clumsy and confused a good portion of the time. Visual impairments plus possible depth perception issues and questionable ability to perceive light do not make for the most graceful of humans. We bump into stationary objects, stumble over uneven or unpredictable surfaces, fail to notice people right in front of us, and fumble with items we can't perceive. If I had a dollar for every time I've taken a doorknob into the hip, knocked over clear glasses, fallen into the street from the pavement, walked by my own mother in a store whilst searching for her, and almost gotten into the wrong car… I'd be able to actually afford to exist under capitalism, wow

I'm sure I'm forgetting some points, but alas my brain is mush and I've made you wait for my response to this question for much too long. Again, thank you for this considerate message and for taking the time to inquire about this topic. I really do appreciate the effort you've put into it. I'm always here to discuss disability, writing, and the intersection thereof.

#writing disabled characters #writing disability #asks and replies #writing representation #writing resource

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valkyrieandstrangeridingaragorn · 1 year

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That one bit from the Ultron episode of What If? where Uatu and Ultron's fight took them to a universe where Steve Rogers is President of the United States makes me think that that is the ending he should've gotten in Endgame. Rather than go back to live in the past with Captain Brexit, Steve should've run for POTUS in the present.

You have no idea how much I would have loved a story of Steve getting involved in politics. Perhaps not as POTUS because I'm not sure he'd be up for that and he's definitely not prepared for the job, but why not become an ambassador for the UN, for instance? With duties similar to those of the diplomats, giving speeches, getting in contact with the politicians and the organizations, speaking in UN meetings and addressing the EU and attending NATO summits...

Dunno, it would have been pretty cool. His role is entirely political and while I wasn't expecting Disney to get involved in this (they were never going to admit Steve is a socialist, that much is clear) they completely ignored that side of him and only let him say a couple sentences about rights in CW and left it at that.

This kid would have a million things to say about immigration, healthcare, free education, welfare... Thinking about the 616 universe post-Blip, he would have so many ways to help society (I doubt he'd be happy with the GRC, for example) that don't require him to pick up the shield. He could have given it to Sam and stayed in the present helping out in many other ways, Steve always was a lot more than just a man who punches the bad guys.

It's insulting for his character that Marvel decided the moment he dropped the shield he stopped being a hero and so he was mostly relegated to the shadows in IW and in EG his only concern is to go back to Agent Brexit as if there's nothing else in his mind. He deserved better than that.

#Steve Rogers #anti endgame

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horce-divorce · 2 months

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Something very intriguing about the intersection of individualism and personal responsibility vs learned helplessness vs the complete and utter lack of care for anyone else in this culture.... Like I have literally seen someone walking around coughing like gollum decrying how RSV is going around and "someone should DO something!!!" and then never wearing a fucking mask. Like??? IF ONLY WE COULD TAKE MATTERS INTO OUR OWN HANDS! the cdc said i didnt have to, though, so im not gonna. But somebody else definitely should, for sure. 🙄

it's entitlement, IMHO, that much seems clear, but like... how lmao. Where does it come from? The "I have to worry about mine so you worry about yours" thing? Like, I'm only personally responsible for myself bc of individualism, so that's true of everyone else, too? Is it the learned helplessness of western capitalism and Christian fundamentalism that has everyone convinced we have to wait for our savior to come, because this world is doomed and fucked and worthless and we can't change anything at all on our own?

Idk if this is making sense, I'm sure someone much smarter than me has already anlaysed this and laid it out much better, like there's probably some well-known essay on this somewhere that I just haven't read yet.

But idk I see this combination often, of "I'm an individual so I don't have to care about anyone else, that's THEIR job," and "help! daddy come save me I can't do anything, I'm not allowed :(" like. Entitlement to do whatever you want but also entitlement to someone else cleaning it up? What???

This may be a weird example to pair with covid safety, but I see this kind of a lot in national parks and on beaches and stuff too. People feel entitled to not follow rules, not educate themselves about where they're fucking about, not to stop and think ONCE that their presence may have an impact on others somehow. they'll like. climb on some ice shelves or get sucked into a rip current or wander off the trail somewhere or feed a bear or something and then be SHOCKED that no one can help them/clean up after their mistakes/fix the situation immediately. Its honestly like they expect customer service? Do they think customer service comes from nature lmao??? like buddy we are in a remote, wild area with very few resources, yes, if you get in trouble it's GONNA take the coast guard a while to get down there, IF they can even find you by then. Where's your sense of personal responsibility and rugged individualism now? It didn't lead you to want to learn, idk, ANYTHING about the place you're visiting/living in????

Idk maybe I'm not connecting these 2 thoughts that well but idk it's like people walk around in literally their own fucking world. Or they act like caring only goes one way, like I get to be an Individualist™️ and only worry about me, but also, everyone else has to worry about themselves AND care about me, also, as well.

Again, it's the entitlement! They're connected, idk, I'm just having a hard time saying it well I think.

Anyway I'm just pissed because I know so many people who claim to be progressive and to give a fuck about disabled and marginalized voices and who claim to be critical of the government, but the SECOND they get the ok to do something HARMFUL, they will JUMP at the chance as long as it's convenient. They won't even stop to think twice about why they're doing it, or the impact their actions could have.

I guess covid is a bit different bc right now the OFFICIAL RULES are to not give a fuck and do whatever you want, I guess. Idk just wild how either the rules are fine, and we should totally follow them! Or otherwise they're stupid rules, and we don't have to follow them! Depends on my mood! Personal responsibility and individualism means I get to decide what's fine for everyone!

I dunno I have Swiss cheese for a brain, because I had a fucking post viral chronic illness for a decade before covid even hit, but somebody back me up here. there's gotta be actual literature about this somewhere.

It's like the idea of individualism and "personal responsibility" abdicates anyone of consequence. Ppl really act like that. Never questioning anything they ever do because mind your own business. But also, everything is terrible, somebody should DO something! Not me, but somebody. But also, everyone should be an individual and only worry about themselves????? Make it make sense

#me #long post

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vegance · 2 years

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So I’m p sure you do this to promote education and to stop misinformation, but why do you engage with anti-vegan shithead carnists like sebbiesheepie, agro-carnist or dairyisntscary? I’ve tried in the past, especially for the above listed reasons but I’m found that engagement with them is less productive than talking to a wall and usually it comes with harassment and death threats sent to me from their fans. I guess, why would you subject yourself to such idiocy on their part? Also wanna give a shout out of a big “FUCK YOU” to these anti-vegan blogs and others like them 🥰

I guess as a follow up to what I just sent. What I mean to say is IMHO it’s a waste of time to spend on those cretins, and your mental and emotional well-being far outweigh their smooth brains. ❤️ 2/2

honestly i struggle with this, and i'm not sure i've found the best way to do it yet. but like you said, its to put some real information in a sea of lies and misinformation. i definitely don't think i will change their mind, some of them are definite trolls and the other ones...

but i do think its important to spread information where there is misinformation. its not for the person spreading the lies, its for the "audience". maybe some person lurking on here is going to scroll through the notes and see my reblog and look through it, see if my arguments and sources are more compelling. and that's why i do it.

i try to make some rules, i wont (generally) engage with a post that has very few notes (no point), and i wont engage with straight up trolls. but right now i feel like its important to be a counter voice to that i guess? i don't always follow my own rules, and i should do that more though :D

but also like...it doesn't super drain me atm? i have a bunch of resources that i kind of just copy, and i like scientific research (writing a paper on climate change and veganism for uni rn). and i want to help vegans find ways to argue against these things, to have resources and facts to use when they encounter such arguments. actually thinking of maybe making a quick resource post (though @acti-veg has so many resources, not sure it is necessary haha)

and i honestly could not care less about the anons lol. ignore and delete.

but thank you for pointing it out, this is definitely something i'm still figuring out, and i always appreciate input/counterarguments on this issue!!

#content #this is also my sideblog so i cant really talk to people in comments #which would be one way of doing activism without promoting their stuff i guess #ask #hope its ok to publish #i always publish unless ppl tell me they wanted it anon??#but maybe others can give me advice #probably going to take a step back from reblogging straight from the most blatant liars out there #the ignorance and stupidity is honestly hard to bear #and i want to find other ways of making vegan #that helps vegans stay vegan and tries to deal with everyday problems #but i have no idea how to do that on here #and i hate all other social media #also i love ur blog

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vampiremeerkat · 2 years

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How would a reverse au situation with the Lorax and once-ler would work if it even could be a thing, like Lorax being a human and once-ler some sort of embodiment being (makes me think a bit about hexxus, but I guess once-ler would be more like the instinct of greed in people) your "not a sequel" post made me start to think about it but in a full total reverse deal

Toothy black ghosts are cool, but I already have funera.

He'd definitely be some greed-feeding trickster demon. Growth is one of human Once-ler's most defining features, so I'd give him a malleable physical form. Unaffected, he resembles a "human child" wearing a hooded onesie that looks much like the original Once-ler's weird bodysuit thing. When surrounded by selfish asses long enough, he bursts out of his attire and becomes this tall, black, maned beast. At his largest, the fabric only covers up his limbs, but it all grows back again if the transformation were to revert.

Storywise, this is a challenge. There are many story beats and personality traits to keep in mind and translate. In any case, the plot would have to revolve around a personal struggle of The Lorax.

The only setting I can come up with is that Lorax was born in Truffula, spent many years by himself, then strangers randomly show up with caravans and barbecues. More keep coming and he's so angered by the behaviour of these tourists, it attracts The Once-ler to his location -either spawned by the inconsiderate visitors or whatever thoughts are going through Lorax' mind. Is he protecting Truffula, or calling dibs on a piece of land that's not even officially his? Do his feelings touch "greed"? Doesn't matter, our boy is here to ruin all of our lives.

Upon meeting each other, he thinks Once-ler is a lost child. He allows him inside his home for a short while and his hospitality is what makes Once-ler become attached to him. He claims to have always been ignored or lashed out to, though later shows off the ability to create objects and life forms through knitting and tells The Lorax he's his toy in the literal sense of the word. Enough to give a man an existential crisis, but it's taken as a joke. Once-ler lets him know pretty early on he's not human, since he won't stop asking about his parents. I don't want the story to be about him taking care of a disguised creature, this scene is just to convey The Lorax can set aside his dislike for city folk and care for a lost "child". The reveal is not met with a huge response. Lorax accepts the spiritual world and Truffula is an unusual place by itself, so why be dismissive of this demon thing strolling around. He does ask Once-ler many times to return to the Heavens -generously assuming he's not from da land down undah.

The tourists that treat Truffula as their playground help Once-ler grow strong, but so does Lorax' weak offence against his antics. Once-ler's greediness becomes more severe and increases his size as well. He takes from the land, the tourists, and Lorax personally, and always has an excuse ready for his thievery. This Eden snake would probably love to see Lorax consider violent solutions for his entertainment, but in any case, he's the rotten little voice in his ear that insists his rage stems from his unwillingness to share Truffula. He needs to play on his insecurities, because if Lorax feels guilty and doesn't push harder to chase people away, then Once-ler has more people to potentially feed off of. Being lazy or inconsiderate is not synonymous with "greed", after all, he needs specific kinds of people to discover Truffula. He knows its remarkable plant- and wildlife will draw some "zealous" people. It takes The Lorax some time to accept human expansion is inevitable. The only right he really has is to try and educate visitors, he can't begin to threaten or chase them away. This mere man has less authority than the original Lorax, though many animals respect him for obvious reasons. Maybe the police keeps getting involved when he pushes his luck, but when he contacts them, nothing is done. The Lorax gets no support and basically everyone messes with him, so the only thing he can do for Truffula is clean up after everyone. His home is all he has in life. The work and stress become too much for this middle aged man. When his death appears inevitable, Once-ler's emotional abuse of the one person that cared for him stops being funny. Once-ler's late act of redemption here is to lead people to Lorax' body and expose them to the consequence of their behaviour. They don't question whether they played a part in it, as they all know him as a notorious nag and laughing stock, stupid enough to pick up trash all day and play doctor to even the most insignificant insect that happened to get a picnic basket dropped onto itself. Some people enjoyed leaving behind unnecessary work for The Lorax, admittedly because The Once-ler enticed them to. The game is fun when the target is just some tree-hugging Karen. Once-ler only manages to exchange a few words with the bedridden Lorax before he passes away. The political world gets involved and strict rules are implemented -or rules at all- to those who want to make use of Truffula. It becoming a regulated human establishment is not quite a complete victory for The Lorax, but well, the original Truffula couldn't get rid of its one city/town, either. Anyway, the end, this is mostly how it'd go.

#the biggering #the lorax #reboot #remake #rewritten #lorax #human #specieswapped #the once-ler #onceler #leronce #ed edd n eddy #eene #when i see you again #funera

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incarnateirony · 1 year

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I asked the question about 'overall" deal and "first look". I looked up the difference and was just trying to get more info on the differences and why they would change it. Also, wondered if they really did change it or if one of the articles about CM's deal with WB was incorrect? The Variety article back in 2020 definitely said overall deal. I thought the first look deal might be better for CM? Really is a legit question. I want TW renewed, and want to understand the impact of digital numbers. TFW2 is printing how TW is trending down, but with digital numbers, we should be good, right?

Yeah, your ask is legit, but why did the ask exist? Because 2po threw decontextualized nonsense about the deals into the water and people are suddenly talking about the thing. Then, if I don't nail down real fast how reality works, people start running around like chicken little about the thing. I'm sure you've noticed this pattern by now.

Either way. Honestly? Yes, it's technically better for us. BOTH deals are considered high status to get, but each are conditional to a company's situation. When CM was new, going all in overall deal with WB both secured their licensing and early footing. But they're established now, they got what they needed squared. They might wanna think outside of WB. WB still wants to look at their shit first but Jensen isn't stuck. So yes, it's actually better for us, which is why watching the other noodles try to connect the dots is funny as shit.

First rule of thumb ignore literally anything 2po says about ratings. He has proven time and time again he has no idea what he's talking about and, like many things, googled it poorly but enough to just talk about it, cuz he loves hearing himself talk.

If we're gonna talk about trending down I'd love to discuss how a show that premiered at 0.37 only 2 years ago is running a season average of 0.08 new episodes at 8PM prime top tier Thursday space, even with heavy marketing helping it out. The man understands NOTHING of how to track things like audience retention rates. He's about to google what those are now to try to prove in a convenient soon upcoming post that he does, and so on. He doesn't know the value of timeslots, he doesn't understand the workings of the media weatherdome, he doesn't understand the difference between a rerun at 8P, a live show at 8P, and a live show at 9 P. He doesn't understand that different nights have different values in different seasons, and what the network expectations here are. He doesn't understand why the 9P slot increasing 50% demo is a good thing, not something you can spin as "decline."

He just doesn't get it. He fundamentally has zero grasp of the topic he tries to talk about, so that's the first thing to remember whenever he's trying to talk. He's literally just googling through it and talking out his ass to find an angle of argument, not actually educating himself on an industry to find the truth. Because that both takes too much work for him and is full of answers he deep down knows he doesn't want.

We're fine. Our numbers are fine. Our digitals are *crushing it*. I promise you Nexstar isn't just randomly double airing a show that isn't making them money. The idea of "making it back" that's not how it works dipshits that's the opposite. If a show isn't making money it's replaced with a show that makes money. They double book the show that makes money. I'm not sure why they're acting like this is fucking rocket science or something they even have room to speculate in, and I don't know why this fandom lets it work when you could ask a lot of these questions to yourself and realize like "WOW! THIS IS HORSE SHIT!"

Fandom needs to start learning how to think for itself, because the level of transparency and rapid rate failure coming out of certain people should be speaking for itself as the squeal louder and louder.

Stop even considering his arguments. You could give a toddler alphabet soup in a highchair and they'd probably be able to slam together ratings about as accurate and well understood as 2po does. Stop humoring his results. Stop entertaining him. You've seen him fail over and over and over. You've seen him be caught in lie after lie. You've seen him blow thousands of dollars failing out. You've seen him be resolved with simple google searches, seen him try to pretend a reddit thread is a secret source.

You've seen it. These are literally just angry trolls with attention seeking personality disorders distilled into their most compressed state and about to explode, and until then, there's just nonsense spraying out nonstop.

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huggiesforholly · 2 years

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The Great (Not So Great) Baby Formula Shortage of 2022

"Why don't you just breastfeed?" Just when I thought that there wasn't anymore stress that I could handle something else came up to worry about. For the past several months we kept seeing stories on the news that there was a baby formula shortage in the U.S. but when we went into stores, the shelves were somewhat picked over but it didn't seem that bad. We didn't go crazy over-buying but we would grab an extra container of formula here and there when we could. Then it seemed liked all of the stores shelves were suddenly completely bare overnight. Our stock pile was enough to get us through for maybe a month but with no end to the shortage in sight and with Hailey needing to be on formula for several more months, we couldn't help but be a little worried about where we would get our next container from. Enter our incredible friends and family!

I feel like I can never thank everyone enough. I've been completely blown away by the generosity of people throughout my entire unfortunate situation. I've received care packages, visitors with offers to help cook, clean and take care of Hailey, gift cards so we don't have to worry about cooking and many text messages with well wishes. So it shouldn't come as a surprise that when the formula shortage was at its peak, we had multiple offers from friends and family willing to look all over for the formula we needed and send it to us. From Buffalo to Syracuse to Ontario Canada, we were gifted with several containers of formula. No matter the size or amount that we got, we couldn't be more grateful to have so many amazing people in our lives that truly care about us and will do anything to help us with whatever we may need. I would never want anyone to go through what I'm going through but I do hope that some day I'll be able to pay it forward somehow.

On a separate note, I do have more to say about this formula shortage. I try not to post anything political or controversial at all on my social media accounts. And I try to keep complaining to a minimum both online and in real life. No one likes to be around someone who is constantly whining (myself included) and oftentimes it's not worth the time or energy to argue with someone if they won't meet you halfway. Social media can be good to stay connected with people that you don't get to see much but, lately, it also can be draining. It seems like for every post I read, there are so many negative comments that follow. And I definitely don't need additional negativity in my life right now. But some of the comments that I read on stories about the formula shortage were hard to ignore. One of the worst of it being *multiple times* the ignorant comment: "why don't you just breastfeed?" That hit a nerve with me. I didn't initially have a plan on how long I would breastfeed for but I feel like if it weren't for my breast cancer diagnosis, I would currently still be nursing Hailey. So obviously it wasn't my choice to stop breastfeeding and we had to transition to formula by necessity. But there are many reasons why people can't 'just breastfeed'. Some people can't produce enough milk to feed their baby, some babies have latch issues, LGBTQ and other couples have babies through adoption or surrogacy, for some people it's a personal choice or preference for one reason or another, and some people (like me) have breast cancer or other health issues that prevent them from being able to breastfeed. Also, while it's not impossible, it's not exactly easy to just start breastfeeding again once you have stopped or to start it if you never did it in the first place. So I just want to say before passing judgement on others, people should learn the entire story first. And if it's a topic one doesn't have experience in, maybe it wouldn't hurt to educate yourself before making uninformed, rude comments. We could all benefit from a little more compassion and understanding these days. And if people took a bit more time to help eachother instead of hurt eachother, maybe we wouldn't be in some of the predicaments and hardships that the world is currently in.

#formula fed #fedisbest #formula shortage #in search of #enfamil #thank you #thankyouforbeingafriend #appreciation post

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leffee · 9 months

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More vinnie au rambles?

Of course! But hngggh, that leaves me with a lot of options of what I could tell. *Checks list* do I tell you about his childhood? His mother? His sister? His dad? More general headcanons? How I headcanon him with fear of needless and fake blood BUT not real one? Okay, there's not that much here actually. I guess I shall give you mine "Vinnie - the backstory" headcanon, that I will tell more like a story than a list of headcanons, though I have definitely already mentioned some of those things in other post, but it will be more detailed here, so don't mind if something repeats.

Okay so, he was born in Italy, Padua (that was one person on Deviantart's idea and I liked it). He had a father, mother that I named Diana and an older sister (like around 5 years older) that I can't decide whether I want to name Stephanie or Victoria. You know, Victoria because then they would have that cool thing when siblings have names starting with the same letter AND both with names that have that smart-sounding flare. But similarly to him, she would usually shorten it to a more causal sounding nickname and that would be Vicky. And in Stepanie's case it would be Steph.

So now, why do they have those elegant and smart sounding names? No, it's not a coincidence. Because their mother - Diana, really wanted to have just the best kids possible, the academically-best kind, the sort of that you think of when you imagine strict parents that push their ambitions onto their kids. Except that in this case it's just one parent. Their father that I can't decide on a name :< is the opposite really and does not like what Diana does.

So yeah, she's the kind that makes her kids take classes and followe strict rules rather than have fun and do kids stuff. That's why Vinnie sorta knows how to play piano and a violin in my headcanon. And once either of them started attending elementary school she of course wanted the best, flawless grades. Of course Stephanie (we will just call her that) being older went through all those things first.

But as I said, their father was not happy with that and saw how it affected his kids more and more, who he genuinely loved dearly and tried his best to be there for them. So, at one point after many fights he finally requested a divorce, hoping that he could take Vincent and Stephanie with him. They went through the process but unfortuantely for the kids and him Diana was granted custody of them mainly because she earned more and there for no verifiable proof for any sort of abuse. Now, their father still had all the rights and could visit them and see them as he pleased. Or he should be able to do that but wasn't. Diana took the kids (oh gosh she took the kids!) and moved to America, not wanting his influence on them. She's the more wealthy one, remember? So she was able, he was not.

And so time passed with Diana treating her kids like she has always been doing but they become older and grow increasingly sick of that treatment. Despite Stephanie being older, Vinnie was the one who snapped first. You see, he wasn't that good at this whole academic perfect child thing, so he had to put more effort into it while Stephanie although tired and unwilling was simply better at it. So yeah, he snapped and gradually stopped trying his best in school or any additional activities his mother made him attend (That's also the reason why he heavily dislikes school and any sort of education and rarely even tries to get good grades). That of course didn't make his mother happy, not at all. She tried to force him to do all those things but he was resilient. Eventually, unable to do anything about it she stopped but threw all her frustration at him since then and basically didn't treat him well at all. She would use physical abuse but not often, quite rarely really. It would usually be something like: locking him somewhere (the classic closet or a basement) or not letting him in the house or maybe not letting him get any food. That whole "starvation" made him develop a habit of searching through trash cans for food. Sure, it was gross at first but he got used to it and it was necessary.

Now, his sister seeing his resilience eventually snapped as well and stopped trying to satisfy her mother. Of course, Diana was mad at her as well, but most of her anger still was directed at Vinnie, because she thought that he influenced Stephanie's behavior, which was honestly true. That's why she didn't suffer as many consequences but still wasn't free from them. Also, her first big act of rebellion was dyeing her hair (she's a teenager at this point, like 15 years old). Her group of friends had this idea of everyone within it dyeing their hair a different color and she eventually agreed and dyed her hair green. Petty? Perhaps, but it was liberating for her. Vinnie seeing this was super fascinated and thought she looked cool with green hair. As you can probably already see he wanted to have such hair too. And although he was rather young, in rebellion to her mother strict ideas Stephanie agreed and dyed his hair herself.

Now at last the end. That is just one of the many possible solutions but if I'm in the good mood I give them that: as soon as Stephanie was old enough and had some money on her, she basically took Vinnie and they moved into a small house together. Maybe even their dad finally managed to get in contact with them and gave them some money so they could afford a pretty nice house.

Damn, that's longer than I thought it would be but hey, those sure are rambles. Imma head out >.>

#lps 2012 #asks #vinnie terrio

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matryosika · 3 years

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burning sensations

pairing — hyunjin x reader

word count — 7.8 k

warnings — hate sex, mentions of alcohol, jealousy and possessiveness, slight dom!hyunjin, hyunjin has a tongue and bellybutton piercing, ice play, use of petnames, slight degradation/humiliation, dirty talk, oral sex (f and m), piv, unprotected sex, creampie

note — this took hours for me to write, i don't know why BUT i spent the whole day completely horny because of this man. enjoy this, don't forget to leave an opinion if you liked this piece and also don't forget that you can tip me (please do it, im broke) on my ko-fi! i will be very very grateful, really! anything helps!

i apologize if there are any grammar mistakes. i didn't read this before posting it and english is not my first language!

finally friday, the weekend was just around the corner for you to enjoy it. but so was the end of your school semester and so was the application for the greatest scholarship an A+ student could ask for. even when you wanted to relax, your mind wouldn’t allow you to.

“come on, y/n” yoona belted out as the two of you were heading to the last class of the day “i can’t believe you would rather spend a boring night at the campus library instead of the birthday party of your best friend”.

“boring or not” you replied, your hands clenching at the leather straps on your bag “i must keep on studying if i want to go to college”.

you would never admit it out loud but, sometimes, yoona reminded you of hyunjin, her brother. hyunjin, who you utterly despised from the moment you stepped foot in that school, him who couldn’t stand breathing the same air as you.

even so, you always tried to understand some of the comments she made that bothered you. she was born in a wealthy family, just like hyunjin. she grew up having it all, not worrying about helping her parents to pay their bills or studying hard to not compromise her academic future. yoona was one of those people who truly believed that everything can be solved and that there’s nothing in this world that’s “impossible”.

your family, on the other hand, had difficult times with money ever since you could remember. your parents covered all of your basic needs, but an elite education was definitely not something they could afford. not to mention that you had an older sister, just as brilliant and excellent as you were, so the pressure to succeed was ten times greater when you realized that doing good at school was not an achievement but what was expected from you.

“if everything goes well and i get accepted to yonsei, we are going to be able to party every single weekend” you sighed, turning around in the same corner she did.

“yeah right” she babbled. “you will get accepted to yonsei, but i’m not sure about the other part”.

“when i win the scholarship, we will celebrate big time” you promised, pushing the door for her.

“why can’t we celebrate today?” yoona pouted again “just one night, please stop studying for one night. trust me, it’s not going to make much of a difference”.

you looked at her with half-lidded eyes, her words rubbing your brain in such an unexpected way that if she were to continue on begging, she would’ve actually succeeded in convincing you “i’m sorry yoona, i promise i will make it up to you later”.

she rolled her eyes and huffed, slightly punching your arm as she walked away to settle on the back seats of the classroom “i will make sure to save you a piece of cake though”.

you smiled and nodded, sighing in relief at the realization that she wasn’t truly mad at you for skipping her party. as privileged and spoiled as yoona was, she was actually a very decent human being and that’s why you befriended her to begin with. she was funny, creative, extroverted and many other things you were not. yoona always said that you two were best friends because you were polar opposites “and polar opposites complement themselves”, something you wanted to believe in after meeting her.

however, after meeting her brother, you realized that the whole polar opposites complement themselves only applied for you and her, not anyone else. he wasn’t much different to you though, since you two were smart, brilliant and witty. the only difference was that you had good morals and he lacked them.

as if god was reading your trail of thoughts, the image of the dark-haired boy appeared on the windows next to you as he walked to his classroom, his long hair tied into a middle ponytail, strands of unruly hair framing the sides of his face. contrary to popular belief, the only thing hyunjin had that made you jealous was the ability to rock such a hairstyle.

he gave you a quick egocentric look before disappearing into thin air, a faint smirk that made you feel as if he was capable of reading your mind and wandering around the thoughts that emerged everytime you saw him standing in front of you. just as he disappeared, your literature teacher entered the room.

the class lasted for 50 minutes, as usual, but your mind stopped paying any kind of attention around half of it. all you could think of was ways to organize the rest of your day, thinking about what you wanted to eat and debating on whether you should return to your sister’s apartment to change your school uniform or if you should just stay with those clothes.

just as you were reaching your final decision, the irritable sound of desks and chairs moving against the floor interrupted your own monologue.

“y/n?” the teacher called, still seated on his desk “can you please stay for a few minutes?”.

you exhaled and nodded, carefully packing all of your books and school supplies, not bothering to do it any faster because you still had to wait for the whole room to clear up.

as you waited for the other students to leave the room, your fingers started to fidget the buckle on your brown leather bag, thinking about what the small meeting with your literature teacher could be about.

“the end of the semester is coming, huh?” he chuckled as his whole weight relaxed on the uncomfortable plastic chair.

“yeah, it’s awful” you replied, still trying hard to hide any kind of awkwardness in your speech.

“i remember” the teacher continued “i was once a student, at this school too… it can get stressful”

you nodded and licked your lips, mentally praying for him to finish the meeting quickly before the cafeteria ran out of your favorite salad.

“i will not steal much of your time” he intervened, reincorporating himself into the chair as he looked for some folders on his bag “but i do have a proposition for you, since you are the best student i have around”.

you tilted your head with curiosity, your eyes fixed on the bunch of papers he was currently organizing in his desk trying to catch a glimpse of what they were “think of it as practice for the real deal at college”.

he handed you a bunch of sheets that were neatly stapled and, by the text resting on the first page, you could conclude that they were a bunch of text-analysis written by his freshman classes. “i am supposed to give these papers back to the students by the end of next week, but i have been reviewing and analyzing a lot of court cases lately” right, the old man was not only into literature but he had a degree on criminal law “i really could use some help in reviewing and giving feedback to these texts”.

you nodded, carefully placing the sheets inside of your own folder so you could take them home safe and sound “of course, by doing so, you will exempt my final test with a score of a 100”.

a faint smirk appeared on your face as you rested your bag on your shoulder, standing up from your seat and fighting the urges to start smiling and cheering like a delusional person. “i need them by thursday, so don’t rush yourself into reading all of them today. besides, i asked someone else for help as well so you wouldn’t feel burdened with the amount of projects”.

you smile and nodded, walking towards the door feeling relieved about not having to spend your whole evening trying to eat up the literature books for the final exam. however, you still had to go over at least 10 papers and that would take some time so, instead of wasting your whole afternoon doing absolutely nothing, you rushed to the cafeteria to eat something before going to the campus library. nothing could ruin your day, you thought, until you saw the image of hyunjin standing not so far from the classroom you just left.

“he exempt you from the literature final?” he asked, walking along and trying to keep up with the fast pace you settled in an attempt to run away from him.

“not your business”

“it is, actually” he continued, standing in front of you to prevent you from walking any further “he exempt me too”

“wow, congratulations hwang” you spitted before passing his figure by the side, restarting your walk in order to get to the longed-for place.

“i expect you to say the same thing after they give me the scholarship for yonsei” the dark-haired mumbled with a proud smirk.

“you don’t need that shit” you fumed, your body turning back to him.

“i know, but i want it” hyunjin replied, his penetrative gaze making your heart skip a beat every now and then “and whatever i want, i end up having”.

he gave you a cocky smile as he walked away from the exact same place he came from, both of his hands inside the pockets of his uniform pants, his walk as condescending as the man himself. you stood there in silence for a few minutes, your knuckles becoming 3 shades paler while they were holding for dear life to the straps on your bag and your mind trying to come up with a valid answer as to why he hated you that much. yeah, you could have beef with someone but trying to fuck their whole future just for the sake of your pride? that was beyond the limits of a mentally stable person.

with defeated steps you walked to the cafeteria in hopes of finding your favorite salad and some peace of mind, preparing yourself for a long evening of reading and reviewing.

the clock struck the 7 p.m. and you finally decided to call it a day, your head almost hurting for all the reading you had been doing in a span of 4 hours. with laziness you stood up from the chair you had been sitting on for the past hours, dragging your body across the library hall and leaning down to pick up your phone that was -strategically- charging so you wouldn’t distract yourself from your task.

19 missed calls and 9 new messages from yoona.

[16:51 p.m., yoona]

hyunjin told me you exempt literature

you don’t have to study, right?

come to my house

[17:22 p.m., yoona]

don’t make me go to your sister’s apartment to pick you up

y/n

[17:57 p.m., yoona]

all i want is my best friend to be at my birthday party

PLEEEEEAAAAASEEEEEEE

[18:18 p.m., yoona]

i swear to god if you don’t reply to my messages i will not save you a slice of cake

y/n

you closed your eyes in exasperation, trying to come up with a valid excuse to skip the party. you didn’t feel like going out tonight and you certainly didn’t feel like seeing hyunjin again, all you wanted was to go home, get into your pijamas and just sleep all night. however, yoona knew exactly what to do to convince you to step foot into her house.

[19:01 p.m., yoona]

jeno is coming

isn’t that cool?

you caught yourself smirking at the message, your mind giving to the idea of having fun for the night. but yoona’s house was far away from your sister’s apartment, you still had your school uniform on and, after hours of reading, you certainly didn’t look good enough to flirt.

[19:02 p.m., y/n]

sounds exciting, but i don’t think i can make it

i don’t have a ride, i am still at school and i’m still wearing the uniform

[19:02 p.m., yoona]

i know, i am outside of campus

i was picking up some things and a little bird told me you were around

i can drive you to your place so you can change clothes

you pressed your phone into your chest as you smiled widely, having yoona as your best friend was definitely something else.

however, it was all fun and games until you remembered that yoona’s house was also hyunjin’s house. and that her party was most-likely to be his as well, since they shared basically everything.

the house was crowded, the music was too loud and you lost yoona from the minute the guests started to arrive. you met with a couple of people from your class, engaging in casual chats as you all drinked and joked around together. the evening was going smoothly, your mind was relaxed enough to keep the intrusive thoughts of school away for a minute and your whole body acquired life of its own, your hips moving from side to side as the loud music intoxicated your senses.

all it took was a hand on your waist to snap you out of your trance, your heart fluttering at the image of jeno leaning towards you to greet you with a kiss on the cheek.

“how long have you been staring at me?” you teased, noticing that his beer was almost empty.

“just enough” he replied, giving you a soft smile “yoona told me you were not coming and i almost end up not attending as well”

“i had to study for a test” you told him, your body way too close to his “but for some reason i’m here, so…”

“how are you doing for the application of the scholarship?” he asked, the tension between both of your bodies becoming too evident. still, you couldn’t help but smile at his question.

you and jeno had been talking for a while now, but everything was just casual. he was a nice man, respectful, extremely hard-working and intelligent. he could have the yonsei scholarship in a snap of a finger, however, he already had other plans in mind.

you found it endearing how he actually took time and effort to keep track of your own events, your heart melting at his proud gaze when you told him that everything was going fine so far.

“i know you will get it” jeno smiled, one of his hands rubbing softly your lower back as a spark of electricity traveled throughout your whole body.

the night progressed with him by your side, chatting, drinking and dancing. at some point, your tipsy mind thought about going home with him, but he never really asked you that. however, the kisses were not lacking.

“i’m sorry” he mumbled in between kisses, pulling his cellphone out of his pocket. you licked your lips as a final taste, your gaze wandering around yoona’s living room as jeno looked to his phone “oh”.

your eyes immediately traveled to him, his face becoming a mixture of confusion and annoyance “i have to get going”

you couldn’t see yourself, but you probably had the most confusing look on your face by jeno’s reaction “i will see you at school, alright? something came up, i’ll explain later”

and without any more time to lose, he planted a kiss on your lips before disappearing into the crowd.

the behavior itself was weird and he looked really worried, but you couldn’t help but feel embarrassed as a couple of eyes landed on you. you smiled shyly as you grabbed your drink, making your way through the people dancing around in the living room. yoona said you could sleep at her place and, even though it was barely 11 p.m., after jeno’s absence you found it really useless to stay at the party, specially because yoona was nowhere to be found. you knew her parties usually lasted until 3 or 4 a.m., but you certainly didn’t plan on staying awake for that long.

with careful steps you walked towards the stairs, ready to head to yoona’s bedroom. but obviously, your night just couldn’t end without…

“hyunjin” you forced a grin.

“are you bored yet?” he asked, standing at the landing of the stairs.

“sleepy, actually” you replied, “yoona said i could sleep at her bed so if you can please move…”

“but it’s barely 11 p.m.” he chuckled “don’t you ever have fun?”

you squinted your eyes and, if looks could kill, he would’ve been dead by now “look i’m not interested in chatting with you right now”

“i mean, i too would be in a bad mood if my date had left me in the middle of the party with no explanation whatsoever” a cocky smirk growing in his face as the confusion arose in yours.

“how did you-” you were about to start yelling, but the racional part of your brain convinced you that dealing with hyunjin was something you could definitely handle, you didn’t need to make a scene specially because the last thing you wanted to do was to ruin yoona’s birthday. “how did you know?”

“what do you think happened, y/n? maybe his mother? his little sister? a friend in distress?” he listed, faking concern in his voice “yeah, that sounds about right. maybe a text from a friend in distress? if he would’ve paid attention to his surroundings he would’ve noticed that the friend in distress was actually having the time of his life at the pool outside, the only distress he had was leaving his phone unlocked on the bathroom”

your eyes fully opened in awe as you understood what he did, the blood under your skin boiling at the image of his stupid face “you are sick”.

“shhhhhh….” he whispered, his plump lips being just a few centimeters away from your face making you smell his vanilla-like scent “do you really want to cause a scene here?”

“seriously hwang” you snapped “you are fucked up”.

you tried to push his body away, but your strength was nothing compared to his. still, his body swayed to the side allowing you to actually take the stairs to go to yoona’s bedroom, the anger inside of your chest irradiating heat to the rest of your body.

“i told you” he insisted, slowly approaching you from behind as you walked further into the big hall of the second floor “whatever i want, i end up having”.

you clicked your tongue, a cynical smile forming on the curvature of your lips “and what is it that you want, hyunjin?” you inquired, your voice sounding almost hysterical “do you want me to refrain from the scholarship competition? because it’s not going to happen”

“i don’t need you out” he mumbled, leaning against one of the doors in the hallway “matter of fact, you being there makes everything ten times more exciting”.

“so give me a valid explanation for the little deranged act you just did down there” you scoffed, patiently waiting for him to talk, but he never did “just admit that you dislike me so much because i make things harder for you”.

he gave you a condescending look, smoothly laughing as he did “who said i dislike you?”

you looked at him in astonishment, his indifference only blowing up your anger even more “you just literally made jeno go away because you can’t stand the image of me enjoying something”

he licked his lips and leaned his tall figure over you, your arms crossed in front of your chest as you tried to remain calm even when he was getting on your nerves “i know you are smart enough to figure out, angel” he teased, his long fingers placing a strand of your hair on the back of your ear “ that i didn’t do this because i dislike you, it’s quite the opposite”.

you squinted your eyes again, your mind trying to convince you that either the alcohol you (or he) drank was starting to kick in “now you are just talking nonsense” you muttered, your back being pressed against one of the doors as he cornered you.

“it’s not my fault that i find you attractive” he said, his gaze trying to find yours in the middle of the dark corridor.

“is this some kind of joke?” you asked, both of your hands leaning on his chest while you tried to push him away “because it’s not funny”.

“when have i lied to you?” he inquired back, his warmth breath almost caressing your chin, his vanilla-like scent mixed with a bit of tobacco and mint making you dizzy “if anything, i am always bluntly honest with you, isn’t that right angel?”

“stop calling me that” you ordered with hitching breath, feeling chills all over your body every time his gaze rested on your lips.

“you don’t like it?” he replied, mocking pain in his tone “would you prefer if i called you by that pretty name of yours?”

the way his words sounded at the tip of his tongue made you unsteady, a warm sensation building up inside your core and radiating to your whole body.

“move” you weakly whispered, your judgment too cloudy after the revelation of his jealousy to keep on arguing with him.

“i’ve seen the way you look at me, y/n” he stated, his voice sounding ten times lower and deeper than usual “those pretty eyes of you, they are always filled with lust when it comes to me”.

you inhaled sharply, the despair of his lips brushing against yours without actually kissing you was driving you to the brink of frustration “just look at yourself right now, you keep on saying that you hate me and yet your body is begging for my touch”.

he slowly lifted his hand to caress the sides of your cheek, your whole body pathetically squirming in its place as you anticipated his warm touch. the music was loud enough to prevent people from listening to your conversation, however, you could swear that the sound of his heartbeats was even louder.

“have you ever touched yourself thinking about me?” he bluntly asked, making you freeze. it wasn’t the question what frightened you, it was the answer that was buried into your mind what made your heart skip a beat. he expected an answer from you but, as a couple of silent seconds passed by, one of the corner of his lips lifted up in a playful smirk “i have, so many times i’ve lost count”.

your throat was completely dry and your mind was already too fucked out to even process the things that were coming out of his mouth, the worst part being your underwear completely dampened at his mere words.

“i’ve thought about fucking you until you can’t no longer say anything but my name” he spitted, the ease of saying those words as if it was just a casual conversation making you completely turned on “every time you say you hate me, you are just fueling my desire to dominate you even more”.

“you are sick” you whispered, your lustful eyes setting on his swollen lips.

“but you love it, don’t you?” he inquired “all pretty and innocent, acting like you don’t need someone to ruin you completely”.

one of his fingers traveled to your lips, brushing slightly your skin “neither jeno or any other man will make you feel the way i know i can” he stated, his digit graciously dancing around your parted lips “you want me just as much as i want you”.

the confidence he had shocked you, but deep down you knew he wasn’t completely wrong. you hated him so much to the point that you desired him in the most carnal and primitive way. having his lips just mere centimeters away from yours made you think about all those nights you pleasured yourself to the thought of him, chasing your high every time you imagined him pounding you with the same intensity as the hatred you held for him.

“your eyes are already saying yes, now I just need your mouth to tell me the same” hyunjin commanded, his digits still tracing the skin of your lower lip as his darkened eyes fixed on yours.

“i-” you quietly sighed.

“angel” he replied, one of his hands resting on your hip as he pulled your body closer, his growing bulge pressing against your lower abdomen “can you feel how hard you make me?”

that last sentence alone was enough to make you give in to him, your throbbing cunt clenching around thin air every time a word left his lips.

“just one time” you whispered.

“mhm?, just one time angel?” he inquired tilting his head, teasing you by leaning in for a kiss but not giving you anything.

“just one time” you repeated, your guts knowing damn well that this was not going to be the last time you find yourself in this situation.

“just one time, angel” he repeated again, his face leaning closer and withdrawing every few seconds just for the sake of teasing you.

he guided you to his room in the darkness of the corridor, the warmth of his touch making you feel light-headed as a trail of thoughts were starting to form in your mind: was this right? not only was he someone you despised, but he was also your best friend’s brother, what if she found out? what if you got caught? however, as soon as he opened the door for you and his characteristic smell flooded your senses, you understood that there was no going back.

“after you, angel” he signaled, one of his hands still resting on your lower back as he walked you inside.

you couldn’t really catch a glimpse of his room since the only source of lightning was his window, but it was basically everything you ever imagined it to be: neat, clean and expensive, his room looked just very… him.

just as you were inspecting the territory, both of his hands intertwined in front of your waist, you arse slightly grazing against his crotch and his accelerated breath caressing your right ear “do you know about safewords?” his deep voice inquired. you slightly shook your head as he let out a small chuckle. "if things become too overwhelming, just say red if you want me to stop, alright?".

you weren’t a virgin, but you also weren’t as experienced as he probably was. you have slept with 2 or 3 guys in the past, but it wasn’t extraordinary to be completely honest.

“what do you have in mind?” you asked as you turned your face to the side, his breath mixing with yours.

“are you scared?” he chuckled, his digits leaving the front of your abdomen to start caressing the sides of your body.

“should i?” you replied, your chest moving frantically as your breath accelerated every time you felt hyunjin’s touch in a new part of your body.

“i will only hurt you if you let me” he softly replied, peppering kisses along your naked shoulder “so there’s no reason to be afraid”.

his digits traced the length of your arms up and down, making your whole skin get covered in goosebumps, something that made him smile. “can you take this off for me, please?” hyunjin asked, the tip of his fingers signaling the clothes you were wearing.

you turned your body to face him, both of your hands immediately removing the straps of your dress proving that, from the moment you entered his room, he was in complete control of you.

his dark gaze fixed on the black underwear you were wearing, cursing under his breath the moment his eyes landed on your breasts “you have no idea how many times i got hard just by thinking about you this way”.

your cheeks turned red at his compliment and your thighs painfully squeezed together at the idea of being filled up by him, an action that did not go unnoticed by hyunjin “what’s wrong angel, you can’t wait to feel me?”

“you are taking too long to do something, hwang” you muttered feeling intimidated by how his eyes dragged themselves around.

he let out a soft laugh as he walked towards a mini fridge that was located next to his bed, leaning in to grab something from it “i never imagined you would be that desperate for me, angel” he added, his figure once again approaching your half-naked body. both of his hands guided you to his bed, your back being instantly pressed against the mattress as your legs opened wide for him to position himself between them “if it gets too cold, just let me know” he mumbled while holding something inside his mouth giving you almost no time to ask further questions.

his manly figure leaned over you, his forearms carrying his whole weight to prevent him from crushing you and, next thing you knew, a slippery cold object fell from his mouth into the middle of your breasts making you gasp instantly. “hyunjin”.

the dark-haired man lost no time into licking part of the cold liquid, the ice cube slipping from your breasts to the side of your neck, leaving a trail of coldness on its way.

however, the ice cube was not the only thing that made your senses go numb.

“fuck” you moaned, feeling how your panties were completely ruined at the sight of the little piece of jewelry adorning his tongue, making his touch ten times colder.

“do you like it?” he asked, a proud smirk growing bigger at your useless attempts to squeeze your thighs together “imagine how good it’s going to feel brushing against your clit, angel”.

a sudden chill was quick to travel along your body, your nipples painfully hardening under your bra.

as if he was reading your mind, one of his hands sank into the mattress to unclench your top underwear, leaving absolutely nothing for the imagination “you are adorable” he praised while letting out a grunt at the sight of how your nipples hardened at his words “i just want to ruin you completely”.

one of his hands found a small bowl on the side of the bed, picking up another melting ice cube from it. he held it in his mouth for a couple of seconds before spitting it in your abdomen, his tongue moving it along your sensitive skin “i can’t believe this feels good” you moaned, the cold piece of jewelry occasionally touching your skin.

“really, does it feel good angel?” he inquired, grabbing the ice and harboring it again into his mouth. you should’ve seen it coming, but your body was not prepared for the abrupt sensation of coldness around your nipples.

“hyunjin” you gasped again, your fingers harshly gripping the white bed sheets beneath you.

“yes, angel?” he teased, a masochistic trace sparking in his gaze every time you gasped or cried at the sensations he was inducing you.

“why does it feel so good?” you cried, the burning sensation switching from pain to pleasure and visceversa.

“describe me the sensations, angel” he mumbled with his lips against your skin “describe them to me”.

you swallowed hard, your eyes closing shut every time hyunjin’s tongue brushed against your buds, the tiny piece of metal controlling your whole body.

“it burns” you moaned, your back slightly arched while your hands held onto his black hair “it hurts but the warmth of your tongue just turns that pain into pleasure”.

he hummed against your skin, pleased with your answer. because of the temperature and the friction, the ice cubes melted almost as soon as they touched your skin, something that hyunjin was not going to forget.

dragging his tongue along your abdomen, his whole body slipped to your thighs. the still cold piece of metal leaving a funny but pleasant sensation every time he explored a new part of your body, from your hips to your pubic area and your inner thighs.

“i fucking hate you” you hissed when you felt his teeth nipping at your soft skin, the sharp pain making you close your eyes instantly as a reflex.

“are you sure?” he asked, two of his digits tracing your wet slit over your underwear “if i were you, i wouldn’t be talking that much angel”.

“the temperature play was nice” you sighed “but it didn’t make me forget how much i despise you”.

a playful smile formed on the corner of his plump lips, his fingers pulling your ruined underwear off of you “i will make sure to make you forget” he replied, slightly halting to remove your wet panties “don’t you worry”.

the promise behind those words made you tremble under his touch, his fingers playing around with your lace underwear “but you hate me, right?” he mocked at the sight of your own juices coating your clothes.

“at least i don’t have ambivalent feelings towards you” you panted “treating you like shit and then getting jealous the minute i see you with some other girl fooling around”.

hyunjin leaned over your body again, taking his hand that was holding your damped underwear near your mouth “open” he ordered with a grin on his face. not knowing what to expect, you did as you were told. he pushed your black panties inside of your mouth, forcing you to taste yourself in the most degrading way he could think of “make sure you don’t talk with your mouth full, angel”.

the blood under your skin boiled again, but it was different this time. the feeling of being humiliated by him excited you in ways you couldn’t describe, but you would never admit it. his dark gaze fixed on you again, his breathing too close to your core making you whine by the lack of contact. “you can make all the noise you want, angel. no one will hear” he tilted his head, licking your slit with a quick movement as the cold piece of jewelry made you sigh “and if they hear us, make sure to give them a good show”.

that was the last thing you heard before your whole mind went blank, the only thing you could think of was his penetrative gaze as he ate you out. your mind couldn’t wrap around the fact that you were in his bed, getting owned by him. you couldn’t really remember when you started to fantasize about him, but you know you did it often. maybe too often for your own liking, and it was almost embarrassing.

the sinful noises his lips made, along with his grunts and your moans, were definitely something that turned you on even more, your hands pushing his face further to intensify the feeling of his groans against your core, your panties falling out of your mouth as soon as you wanted to speak. “hyunjin” you moaned “can i-?”

your voice was interrupted by a high-pitched moan resulting from two of his fingers prodding into your cunt, the unexpected action making you clench harder against him.

“beg nicely, angel” hyunjin ordered “i know you can do it”.

you cursed him under your breath, debating on whether you should give in easily or not. you knew why he was doing this, he knew that it would make you feel embarrassed to beg for him out of every single man on earth and that would only make it more pleasant for him. but little did he know that the idea of begging sparked something in your arousal that you couldn’t quite comprehend.

“hyunjin, please” you cried “please let me cum, please”.

“you are not convincing me, angel” the man pouted with a sadistic smile on his face.

“hyunjin please” you hissed, both of your thighs threatening to close around him “i need to cum”

hyunjin withdrew from your cunt as tears started to prick in the corner of your eyes, the urge to grunt due to the frustration was soon interrupted by his gaze “tell me that you are going to be good” he demanded.

“i’ll be good, hyunjin” you cried, bearing the shame and embarrassment in exchange for a few seconds of pleasure.

“tell me that you are my slut” he commanded, tilting his head with a smirk. he wanted to hear those words from you, but he was also determined to know how much pride you were willing to risk for an orgasm.

“i am your slut, hyunjin”

he licked his lips, a devilish look protruding in his gaze “tell me that you will never let another man touch you again”.

you looked at him in awe, not sure whether to continue with his little game or not. however, the jealousy involved in that sentence sent waves of pleasure to your bundle of nerves that was desperately aching for his touch. “i will never let another man touch me again”.

“you realized how submitted you are to me?” he teased you “you think you are doing this for your own pleasure but in reality your mind already knows who it belongs to”.

“keep dreaming, hwang” you mumbled as you rested your weight on his forearms, the proximity of his face wanting you to lean on for a kiss.

“oh i will” he replied “every night i will dream about you, about your pure body and innocent mind being completely wrecked by the person you hate the most” his lips grazed against yours with a swift movement and, almost instinctively, you captured his swollen lips in a kiss.

he tasted like vanilla, cinnamon, a pinch of metal and your own arousal. it was addictive, your first kiss with hwang hyunjin. “see, angel?” he whispered “you think you are so smart and in control, but the one who wanted this to happen was me”.

his body slipped once again in between your thighs, his tongue and fingers returning to its original place as he restarted the pace “i told you, y/n, whatever i want, i end up having”.

and before you could argue his cocky attitude, your arousal washed over you in a way you haven’t felt it before. from your head to the tip of your toes, your whole body felt like electricity. the way your toes curled up, the way your thighs insisted on closing around him, the way your hands automatically pinched your hardened nipples as your back arched under his touch just proved how good hyunjin was capable of making you feel.

“hyunjin” you moaned over and over again, chanting his name as if it was some sort of holy prayer. the man made sure to lick you clean, tasting every single drop of your high with a proud smile on his face.

“you sound even better than in my imagination” he admitted before placing a soft kiss on your inner thigh, standing up from his own bed as he got rid of his clothes. because of the excitement and how rushed things were, you didn’t even remember that he was still fully clothed while you were already naked and spreaded on his bed.

he removed the clothes he was wearing and, to your surprise, what was underneath them was ten times better than you had expect.

the soft skin that glistened with the light that emanated from the window made your heart flutter, especially when you spotted another piercing decorating his bellybutton. your hands automatically traveled all the way to the expensive piece of jewelry hanging from there, touching his soft skin at the same time hyunjin gave you a smile “kiss it”.

you did as you were told, placing a small peck on top of the piercing as you looked him in the eyes “did i ask you to stop, angel?”

you shook your head and continued on kissing his abdomen as hyunjin unbuckled his belt and pants, his endearing eyes fixed on your innocent face leaving a trail of kisses all over his body. you had an idea of what to expect from him but, as soon as his erected cock came to sight, you couldn't help yourself but swallow nervously.

"is it too big for you angel?" he asked, one of his hands caressing your hair as the other one stroke himself slowly. you looked at hus length and then at him, not saying any words but your face could explain well what was going on in your mind. "don't worry y/n, i will make it fit in those pretty holes of you".

next thing you knew, the tip of his cock was gently parting your lips, eager to get inside of you. your nails digged into the skin of his built thighs, your gaze making eye-contact with him as his hands guided your head all the way through his length, making you gag and roll your eyes to the back of your head. "you look so pretty like this" he panted, his cock twitching inside of your mouth every time you choked or moan against it "letting out the messy and submissive cockslut you naturally are for me".

you let out a whiny moan at his words, your pussy getting wetter every time he forced himself into your mouth. the way his cock stretched you just right was heavenly, feeling the taste of his precum with each thrust he provided, and making you think about how his arousal actually tasted like.

"i would love to cum down your throat" hyunjin groaned with his head rolled back and eyes closed "but you have no idea how many times i have masturbated to the thought of filling that pretty cunt of yours with my cum". you looked at him, still with his cock deep inside your throat, and he moaned at the sight of your ruined make up and teary eyes "come on, angel. let me erase that pretty innocent look from your face".

you stood up from your knees and returned to your previous position: your forearms resting the weight of your whole body and your legs spreaded across his bed nicely. hyunjin licked his lips at the sight of your dripping cunt, wondering how tight you must feel around his big cock. he lost no time in positioning himself between your legs, the tip of his cock sliding against your folds while it lubricated itself with your own wetness.

"i promise you that no one will ever make you this wet" he hummed, his fingers caressing your inner thighs as you pinched your hardened nipples for him "no matter how hard you try, every time you will think about me and only me".

with an unexpected thrust, he slammed his cock into your tight pussy making you scream in pain "no matter how bad you want it, you will never be able to cum again without me. you will touch yourself and wish i was there with you." the stretch his length was providing you was painful, but that only set your arousal even higher. your walls clenched around him just fine, making hyunjin feel dizzy and almost powerless at the sensation of your warm cunt being used by him "you will fuck someone else and you are going to wish it was me ruining you instead. you will never forget how good my body felt against yours because you have always belonged to me, ever since the moment you started hating me to conceal your inner feelings for me".

a gasp escaped your lips once you felt him slamming once again into you, almost at a brutal pace. he placed his thumb on your bundle of nerves as his cock acquired a slow -but hard- rhythm, ensuring the build up of the well-known knot in your lower abdomen.

"in your dreams, hwang hyunjin" you moaned, feeling how his cock pounded deeper each time into you, if that was possible. hyunjin gave you a twisted smirk as he continued to use your cunt, his cock brushing against every spot that made you lose your mind completely. "the only thing i will ever feel for you is hatred".

hyunjin leaned on your body to crash his lips into yours, the kiss becoming sloppy and passionate in a matter of seconds as it drowned your own moans and cries. his tongue danced against yours, the taste of the piercing mixing in with his own essence. the neediness of his kiss made you clench around his cock, the man hissing against your lips once he felt it. "you feel so good around me" he praised, his forehead resting on yours while his breath caressed your lips "i could be inside you for hours and never get tired of it".

you cried once again, feeling how his lips lost rhythms as your throbbing clit begged to be touch. one of your hands traveled all the way to your cunt, playing with yourself while hyunjin pounded you harshly. the way his hair moved every time he thrusted into you, his glistening skin decorated with tears of sweat, his swollen lips matching his rosy cheeks and the veins protruding on his neck and arms was definetly something that was going to be engraved on your mind forever.

"hyunjin" you cried, desperately wishing for his permission "i can't hold it"

"then cum all over me, angel" he hissed, his jaw clenched as his hips tried to maintain a pace to help you come undone on his cock "show me how good this cock filled you up".

your back arched immediately at his words, your hands holding on to his bed sheets for dear life feeling how your orgasm took complete control over you. "i wish you could see how filthy you look right now, angel" he panted. his cock threatening to make a mess inside of your walls. "too fucked out to even talk, your whole body begging for my permission to cum and your pretty eyes filled with nothing but lust. isn't that pathetic?

you cried once again as the result of the overstimulation, your whole body completely tired after your second orgasm of the night. however, judged by his sensual facial expressions and the sloppiness of his thrusts, you knew that hyunjin was close to his release as well.

"i hate you" you moaned in pleasure "i fucking hate you for this"

"you don't" he grunted "you will be begging for me to use you again, and i will do it every single time for you".

with a swift movement, one of his hands traveled to both sides of your neck, gripping it harshly as he interrupted the flow of air through your veins. his thrusts slowed down and the sinful noises that left his lips were ten times louder than before. the sticky hot feeling inside your walls was new, but you could definetly guessed what it was.

"this is the first time i let someone fill me up like this" you admit with hitching breath, hyunjin's cock still inside you as he made sure that he had filled you up completely.

"see, y/n?" he asked, his lips brushing against yours as you both tried to catch their breath "you let me do things no one else has done, i wonder why"

"you are sick" you repeated for the third time that evening, feeling how his hot cum leaked out of your wet cunt once he took his cock out of you.

"and you enjoyed every second of it" he remarked with a proud smirk.

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