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Summary: like they say, “out of sight, out of mind”, so you wanted to put an entire continent between you and Aemond
Pairings: Aemond Targaryen x Fem!Reader
Warnings: There are mentions of them being Minors! at some point in their relationship, cursing, cheating, angst, depression, underage drinking (in some countries), might miss some warnings
Wordcount: 3.4 k
Notes: jaja! can’t wait for you to read it!
You didn’t remember life without Aemond or his family in it
And even though you were officially dating for only three years, you had known him for longer than that.
They say there were five stages of grief, and even if you accepted it or not, you were grieving your relationship with a guy you don’t remember living without
In campus and all around it, you lived through the first three
Denial
Anger
And bargaining
And when you got into the cruise with your godmother, you were hit like a truck by the fourth one
Depression
One of the two weeks of the cruise you’d spend in your cabin, throwing up, seasick, and crying.
You did your rituals…
You deleted all the pictures, all the messages, and in all social media, all of it
Aemond’s texts started pouring in when he went to look for you in your room and Maris told him unceremoniously that you were gone, for good, went to Winterfell University
There were A LOT of texts
He was going through something of his own
But you blocked him.
And then his brothers, which also contacted you, and then you just turn off your phone for the rest of the trip, after sending only one to your childhood friend
Jacaerys Velaryon
Telling him you were going to be there in Winterfell next semester, and how you’d love to see him
And then you turned it off
You didn’t believe he was going to answer you back
Jace, had been your best friend, he was your neighbor growing up, but at some point, when you started to date Aemond, he just drifted off away from you. Your relationship with Aemond wasn’t easy and he convinced you Jace was “completely in love with you like a puppy”, so, you cut him off, and he didn’t protest
You missed him
You hoped he’d forgive you
And then one day, you woke up, and actually joined your godmother and the Lannisters for breakfast, were you ate everything you hadn't in the past week
Waffles with syrup, bananas and strawberries
Small jam and cheese sandwiches
Orange juice from Dorne
Coffee from Ashford
You ate and drank it all
Under the Lannister’s amused gaze
It seemed like each nautical mile you sailed away from Dragonstone and King’s Landing, the better you felt, you were detaching, you were cleansing and you were healing
And it felt good
And you knew what else felt good?
It was election week, the primaries, and the Lannisters, the main supporters of Viserys Targaryen, were in that cruise with you
Your Godmother had convinced them to join you, in support of you, and they were entertained to see “what happens” when they, the famous Lannisters, are not in king’s Landing for the most important political week of the year
You guessed mayhem, concern and worry, and perhaps the liberals taking power finally, without the Lannister’s money to support the conservatives
Tyland and Jason were convinced everyone was freaking out, and it was true, their cellphones hadn't stopped ringing all week, the Red Keep was in disarray
“We are all in this cruise, if this shit sinks, the entire economy of the seven united states of westeros goes to shit”, Tyland laughed, and you laughed as you zipped on your juice
“I’m happy to see the little one up and about”, said Jason, they were idiots, but they meant well, they were your godmother’s family, him, their wives and children, all so blonde they could blind you
“She is a little lioness”, muttered your godmother, arranging a wild lock of your hair behind your ear, “who is paling, darling, you need to take some sun”
“Its winter godmother”, you said, amused
“That is what the winter deck if for sweety”, yes, a covered deck with a heated pool and magnificent glass to bake like an ant under a lens
Your godmother knew what you needed, she had been through some of the same, doubling your age, she had seen and lived things… so she let you
She let you slip shots and then take the stage at the karaoke bar with Jason to horribly sing, butchering your favorite rap songs, until you learned them all
She let you eat as much calories as you needed, chocolate above all, the girls at the chocolate shop of the cruise knew you by name
She let you cry and accompanied you in those beautiful and chaotic movie nights where they only played cheesy rom coms
She let you do the “Sea Snake” bit on the bow of the ship, screaming, “I’m on top of the world”, even though you were at sea level, the lowest point ever
And finally, she online shopped with you to buy you an entire new winter closet, because you were going to need it, you were going North, as cold as it gets
She even looked at Northerners real estate, she wanted to buy a small (huge) cabin, for you and her, you for next year, near campus and a sky center, and for her to visit you
Turns out they were such things as “retail therapy”, or “comfort food”. but your favorite part was when she went with you to the cruise’s “built-a-bear” store, where she made you a wolf plushie, a gray wolf dressing in clothes with the colors of WU, you felt like you just went back a few years, that you were child again
And it felt nice, knowing that you could be taken care of
You needed that
You never felt that way with… the unmentionable
it was also funny because you took the Lannister’s kids, Tyland’s children and they were just so messy, jumping around, throwing everything in their path, throwing the white stuffing at each other… and seeing the face of your godmother was just so funny and cute
And the part you felt most guilty for… was that Viserys had lost the primaries.
He was still on the race, he went second
But you knew he wanted the presidential, and as mayor of the most important state, you knew he could do it, those were next year
Anyways, that was not your problem, even though the Lannister were boasting on “what happens when the lion is not in the den”
And the peace of mind that brought you not having your cellphone on you, that you could focus on the important things
You didn’t even know what was happening outside that huge boat
Maybe the world had burnt up, and you wouldn’t tell until you arrived at White Harbor, perhaps Essos attackedWesteros with a nuclear head, and that was it
You couldn’t care less
You didn’t even know that a world was imploding, only not the ENTIRE world as is.
It turns out Maris had the right idea and you did scorch the earth
Only you didn't know
The week in White Harbor was quick as well, the Lannisters couldn’t keep themselves out of the political career forever and abandoned the trip to go back to King’s Landing, but you and your godmother kept traveling
One week of a big hotel with spas on it, and you went to the Pentosi hot bathrooms so much you were scared your skin was going to peel off
And then…
Suddenly school started in three days and you were on a train to Winterfell
It was the middle of winter, and your godmother couldn’t pry you off of the panoramic windows in the big train, it was all tundra, snowy mountains and frozen lakes, and you loved it, all of it, and then, after one entire day of traveling
There it was
The view was breathtaking
The whole of Winter’s town, the capital of the North, was in a huge valley, rumor has it that underground water thermals ran under it, so it was a big green valley, even in the middle of winter, it was like a microclimate
The train entered the city trough one of the biggest mountains around it, giving you the entire view
You could see the University from where you were
The seven greatest universities in all of Westeros were once castles, castles of the Kings that ruled those lands, preserved for the use of the new generations of students.
It was an honor, for you in particular, for having study, now in two of them
“The truck with your things, the new ones and the old ones is in campus” your godmother muttered beside you, you are going straight to the school”, she said with a reassuring smile
You looked down at yourself
You were using the oversized jersey that Ben gave you, and some jeans and boots, for the cold
“You look… inappropriate, is not proper for you to wear those things, (y/n), the first impression is the most important one, and you have to look presentable, and serious”
You had to look back because you were certain Aemond was whispering things into your ear, like a freaking ghost
You looked at the plushie your godmother had gifted you and you felt silly for getting one, you were eighteen, not a little girl and…
You were so confused
“You look lovely dear”, she said, waking you up from your stupor, she sometimes could read your mind, “is your first day, moving day, back from winter break, is perfectly fine”, she said sincerely
He was no longer in your life
You needed to remember yourself of that
You were eighteen and your closet looked like the one of a grandmother, you had to hide your jeans from Aemond
He is no longer in your life
He is no longer in your life
He is no longer in your life
You were free to do as you liked and pleased
You took a long breath
He was not with you, he was not watching you, and even if it was, he didn’t get a saying anymore
He didn’t
Your godmother dropped you off in her rental car and the goodbye was long, but she understood your need to do this on your own, so she went to the headmaster’s office, according to her, it was an old friend of hers, and then, she left you, in front of your dorm building, next to the truck that brought the few boxes of your things in them
When you grabbed the last of the boxes out of the truck, you felt a sense of calm, of tranquility, you felt like finally you could breathe freely, when you turned around and you looked over the campus all dressed in autumn
You felt the fresh air entering your lungs and you knew you had made the right decision. You couldn’t smell the sea, or the fish, or hear the seagulls, instead, pure fresh air coming from frozen tundra and mountains.
This is where you should be
“Hey you!”, you turned around with a wide smile as you saw Jacaerys Velaryon approaching you
“Jacey!”, you said. It sounds weird but Jace was Aemond’s nephew, son of his way older sister from his father's first marriage. And you were so surprised to see him. You dropped the box and he held to you tight, like no time has passed, like he still was your best friend
And that hug felt so good
You needed it
Apart from your godmother you didn't think you had embraced someone for a long time…
Aemond was jealous, and wouldn’t let anyone near you
You shook your head as you hid in Jace’s neck
“You never answered me back!”, he laughed, and you finally separated as he looked at your teary eyes, you were so happy and excited. “I was so excited when I got that text from you, I answered immediately and you didn’t answer!”
“Sorry, I turned off my phone I was… going through something”, you whispered
“Oh I heard”, he said, and you shared looks, he was entertained, while you were petrified
“What things?”, he laughed, scratching the back of his neck, then he leaned in and picked your box off the ground
“Let me help you with that”, you were such good friends that you had planned, together, to attend Winterfell University back in Highschool, he went on with his plans, wanting to stand out of his family’s shadow and live a little adventure, fly off the nest as it were, just like you wanted to do, he had succeeded first try.
“That requires a coffee, or maybe a very large drink”, he laughed and you hissed
“How bad is it?”, you asked
“You were brought up a LOT in the family dinners over the holidays, lets just say you are not on the list for a christmas card anymore”, you both started to go inside the building, with a huge cart with all your stuff
“A friend lives in this dorm”, jace said smiling shyly as you looked around, amazed, it was huge, amazing
The campus was great from what you could see, every career had his own department, and the dorms where a few blocks away, all together
“I’m so happy you are here”, he seemed relieved, he couldn’t stop looking at you, “I love the spirit”, he said signaling to your jersey, you only laughed, “you look different”
“Different how?”, you asked
“Better”, he said, “like a weight had been lifted off your shoulders or something, I guess that’s what happened”
He and Aemond had never gotten along, ever, they hated each other for some reason, maybe because Jace’s mom was like the black sheep of the family and had broken ties with them, money and privilege included, she also followed a career in politics, but as a liberal, that was something, and she married Jace’s father Harwin, someone who didn’t have a membership in King’s Landing country club, and that was saying something.
You wouldn’t know, perhaps it was because of all the alpha male and all that.
But he seemed genuinely relieved, that you were here, and you had broken off with Aemond, because you truly cared for one another
“I’m happy to be here too”, you confessed, with a reassuring smile, “just like we planned all those years ago”, you giggled
“Let get you settled in, and afterwards I will take you to meet everyone”, he said, and you nodded enthusiastically
“Since is my first year I have to stay in campus”, you told him, as you started walking, he followed you of course
“That is cool, living here was great! though since is my second semester went to live with a friend a couple of blocks away in a cool apartment”
“That amazing!”, you whispered, and he smiled tenderly at you. “Who is everyone by the way?”
“Well, for starters, my roommate, you are going to like him, he is one of the coolest guys you will ever meet, and then there is Tallheart…”
“Ben?”
“You know him?”, he asked
“Thanks to him that I’m here!”, you cheered and he smiled, and suddenly you were out of the elevator and in front of your new room
“Sarah Snow”, you whispered, reading the name at the door
Oh this girl had gotten a single from the first semester, and now she was getting a roommate, she was going to HATE you, but you had to suck it up, with Jace here, and the prospect of new friends, you could totally spend more time off your room, you would try to bother her the least you could
You missed the entertained look Jace gave you, he just left the cart and took a step back
So you knocked twice and opened the door slowly, giving her time to react to your arrival, once you could look inside the room, a girl with dark brown hair and beautiful icy blue eyes jumped of the seat in her desk with open arms
“ROOMIE!”, she cheered, and ran towards you and engulfed you in a tight hug, you screeched at the sudden of it all but returned the hug. “I’m so happy you are finally here!”, she said releasing you as quickly as she hugged you, “look, I put everything in order, cleaned your corner!”, she said, showing you around, you indeed had your part of the room, even if it was blank, it was spotless. “I’m Sarah!”, she said looking at you with a huge smile. You introduced yourself back
“I’m happy to be here!”, you offered with a wide smile as you looked at your new room, it had a bigger window, but the size was ultimately the same
“I was so happy when they told me I got a roommate, you know, it gets lonely in this big room you know”, she spoke like ten words per second, but you loved her already, she had such a good vibe about her
You looked back at Jace and he was just looking at Sarah with a shy smile
“Jacey! what are you doing here?”. she giggled, “don’t tell me you are pulling all the stops already with the new girl?”, she teased
“No, we go way back”, he said, and Sarah shrieked
“That is so incredible, such a small world uh?”, she giggled, as she went to Jace and took the box off him
“Now let us have some girls time”, she teased and you smiled widely at him
“See you both at seven then? you’ll meet everyone”, you shook your head, so excited
“Sure”, you said at the same time, and he left you, scratching the back of his neck, you both looked at each other and smiled
“What’s the story there?”, you asked at the same time and laughed
While she helped you unpack, and hang posters and pictures, you talked about the things you could share and use from the other, and you found yourself thinking Sarah was an old friend, that is how it felt like
The clock turned seven and she grabbed your hand and went to “the tavern”, an amazing underground palace that served from coffees to the coolest drinks and locally made beer
There he was Jace with a group of friends
Sarah had told you Jace was good friends with his brother, he went to live together, and you loved that for Jacey, and Sarah and him… well… Jace was shy and Sarah was too, at least with guys, and she thought he was flirting, but he was also intimidating by her brother, it was a whole things, so you agreed to help her, to scout the field as it where
“She is my friend from King’s Landing”, introduced Jace
“my roommate!”
You looked around the room and you smiled greatly when you recognized two familiar faces, Baela and Rhaena. They got up and hugged you tightly, they were Aemond’s cousins, Jace’s… aunts? weird family
“This is my first success story!”, chanted Ben, and he introduced you to his girlfriend, Alysanne Blackwood, a beautiful girl tall as a model, they both were a sophomore
“Jon Dustin”, he kept introducing
“Where is my annoying brother?”, asked Sarah, looking around
“Oh he had some last minute things to do”, said Jace, “but no matter”.
You don’t remember a time in which you hadn't had so much fun, continuously
No shady comments about what you said, or did, nor angry, disappointed gazed towards you, you drank beer, and laughed your face off
Ben was a good representative but you ate ribs, french fries and drank beer.
And it was only the first night ever.
And when you were unsuccessfully trying to wipe barbecue sauce of the edges of your lips, you felt another figure approaching, you looked up and made eye contact with a tall man, dark hair, piercing blue eyes that scanned the table and then looked down at your sauce covered face
“There you are, you bastard!”, mocked Jace, “the semester is not even on yet and you are already to the neck in paperwork”
“what can I say, I like to keep myself busy”, you kept looking up at him, and his eyes never left yours, they were a glacier blue, mesmerizing really, “and who’s this?”, he asked
“I’m (y/n)”, you introduced yourself with your hand all coated in barbecue sauce just as your face
Not your finest moment
more notes: Alright, at first i didn't want Cregan to show up, but then I thought I was just going to be too cruel... so, there it is, not everyone meets trough a "meetcute", sometimes it is when you least expect it... so... there it is...
Its so hard to create out of the tip of my tongue the "ASOIAF" similars with things fromt he real world... like... when reader sang rap songs I imagined her singing "WIthout me" from Eminem jaajja, or I imagined making referenes from Jackie Kennedy and Marilyn, and all... ANYWAYS JAJA i hope it sounded just as cool like that...
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