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silverspleen · 5 months

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Every time I see that G--gle phone photoshop commercial my heart is filled with infinite sadness, like, yeah it's cool you can have a good family photo, it's cool you can do that, but god, there is something to be said for the honesty of a family photo where you're blinking, or crying, or have ugly wrinkles.

What is too unsightly for you? Would you swipe-click-replace out the image of my cousin crying on our Florida trip family reunion photo? Would you remove the plastic snake I have clenched in my grip, which I still have to this day? Would you scoff at the wrinkles around our eyes and the strands of hair on our faces as we squint into the wind, the day before the massive storm? Would I remember it if I didn't have these reminders, if the picture was perfect and clean, all children in a row with perfect gleaming white tombstone tooth smiles? No tears. No plastic snake.

Everyone is beautiful and no one looks genuine.

#like it's cool it's cool but also IT HURTS.#BE UGLY #HAVE AN UNFLATTERING PICTURE OF YOURSELF #it's who you are #people are often unflattering and it's genuine #anyway stupid candid camera shots will always be my favorite pictures of myself #I like to see how I look when I'm not posing #the dragoon diaries

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stuckinapril · 4 months

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friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me

#It’s just so different #even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol #in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps #if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it #esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends #no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr #u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS #meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life #this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation #like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !!#& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers #who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them #and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends #it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me #I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc #like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this #so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works #p

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landofmoa · 1 year

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Do what’s best for your soul. Fuck anything else.

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centralpark1981 · 1 month

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i love you raw salmon i love you cold smoked salmon i love you sushi i love you sashimi

#if i was ever in a raw (2016) situation i’d be cramming myself with 2000 lbs of raw salmon a day man #dear diary

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ilovethebittertaste · 2 months

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worthless-misery · 4 months

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Dear diary...

The fact that I'm still "alive" in 2024 just feels like a huge mistake...

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living-pain-but-not-enough · 1 month

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eating breakfast feels gross i dunno why people do it

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ingoodjesst · 5 months

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one thing i really like about the apothecary diaries is how fluidly maomao moves between high- and low-class society, between the rear palace and the pleasure district, allowing us to see the parallels in the power dynamics. in both settings, we see women trying to make the most of their relative stations with whatever tools available to them, which are often shared. much of the politics of the series centers women and the ways they try to navigate the world through seduction, marriage, beauty, fashion, manipulation, etc, because these are the things they're valued for. their appearance, their social graces, their "purity", their marriageability, their ability to bear children, and beyond - these all lend political, economic, and social leverage to themselves and their families regardless of class.

the mystery angle in particular enables the story to closely examine what tools and motives are available to women in the apothecary diaries in a way that's contextualized and humanized. it's also how the series highlights said women operating with a keen awareness of society's expectations and systems. whether that's applying deathly white powder to maintain impractical beauty standards, faking illnesses to deter certain visitors, using parlor tricks to subtly punish callous men, or wearing ostentatious outfits to hide a certain truth, each mystery we encounter reveals more about what it means to navigate the world of the apothecary diaries as a woman in addition to revealing their cleverness (or lack thereof) in doing so.

maomao is no exception to the rule, often weighing similar questions of propriety and power before she acts - although she does engage from a unique position. she's a literate woman from the lower class with special circumstances surrounding her birth, versed as an apothecary, and favored by highly ranked members of the court. this, plus her marked lack of ambition beyond medicine, gives her a lot of mobility between and (relatively) unbiased insight into both the high- and low-ranked parts of society. in turn, we readers are given a fantastic protagonist to explore what i consider a core draw of the series: seeing how maomao chooses to move through the world, highly conscious of her own social positioning as well as that of all the other women around her

#the apothecary diaries #kusuriya no hitorigoto #maomao #my jessays #anime analysis #there's extremely light hints at content beyond the anime and even manga but i tried to be careful #kusuriya analysis #idr how to tag this for myself lmao i think tad stinks as an acronym frankly #anyway i love how much women are centered in the apothecary diaries it's truly delightful and i love seeing maomao connect with other women

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meeenx · 11 days

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in the spirit of ✨romantizing my mental illnesses✨

i am dubbing this specific phenomenon:

the slim hours

in my experience doing intermittent f@sting, this is the specific period of time in my fast where:

it’s after the point where i get the most hungry

it’s sometime at the 22hr mark, it used to be at the 20hr mark

i do not feel it if i do a 16:8 fast - only for extended ones (18:6 or OMAD comes times depending on what i eat before)

in my experience, i start to:

lose the hungry feelings

my body feels almost like my bones are heavy

increased focus after 17-18 hours, i was able to get multiple things done and efficiently

if i sm0ke 🍃, it hits 10x harder va sm0king when eating/after eating

most of the time i am able to ⭐️ve past 24hrs if i can get to this point.

feeling energized to get through workouts

feeling a bit more cheerful in personality/maybe in part to exercise release chemicals and such

each time i get to this time in a f@st, i always see the scale drop the next day. always.

drinking low cal drinks, coffee, tea, anything without cals doesn’t affect it.

i call it ‘the slim hours’ because it does feel like after the 22hr mark it’s like i feel myself shrinking, like my body is forced to eat through my fat instead of any extra cals.

this time is different for everyone, but i’d recommend finding

✨ your slim hours ✨

(let me know if there’s a scientific name for this i wasn’t sure and just gave it a cute name imo idk i was a visual arts major plz)

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duu-kiwi · 8 months

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I bet aziraphale wrote about the day the universe was made, about the angel whose voice recited the words that created the stars, about how bright they shone, and still shine, in those angel eyes✨🪐

Here you have some detailss and a cropped version with just!! them!!!

edit: prints link !

#Good Omens #good omens fanart #good omens season 2 #there is something something abt the diary(?) that aziraphale writes #that theyve might wrote abt that time too #and i also thought abt the possibility that crowley will found and read them someday #i had like three separate pieces that make this concept a bit more linear? im really excited because i had a really fun time making this #it was challenging but oh so regarding to make a full piece since 2021 #anyways i really love them and they have inspired me to push myself a little further so im really grateful for that #also FOR THIS SECOND SEASON THAT NO ONE HAD THE RIGHT TO MAJE IT THST GUTGRENCHING AND FUNNY AND GOOD?!?!#aziraphale #crowley #ineffable husbands #fanart #art #aziracrow #angel crowley my beloved #i hope i nailed the love at first sight eyes on aziraphale bc that was what happened there right?#artists on tumblr #good omens 2 #angel crowley #myart

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soulmvtes · 16 days

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matching my tulips today :")

#diary #archives #myself

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southfarthing · 3 months

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happy legolas "I go to find the Sun!" day to all who celebrate

#i truly made this diary first and foremost for myself 😌#lotr #mp

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waymond-wang · 8 months

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SPIDER-MAN: ACROSS THE SPIDER-VERSE (2023) dir. Joaquim Dos Santos, Justin K. Thompson, & Kemp Powers ↳ Everyone keeps telling me how my story is supposed to go. ↳ INSP.

#marveledit #spider-man: across the spider-verse #atsv #atsvedit #mgifs #mdiary #across the spiderverse #filmgifs #filmedit #fiiiiinally got around to making my little atsv entry in my film diary!#9 out of 10 #incredible!!#tho a little over stimulating so i had to shut my eyes for a few seconds throughout just to give myself a break #such a great storyline that had its own legs while blending seamlessly into the lore of the first film!#also quick shoutout to the OP of the insp! they walked me through the speech bubbles and everything!!

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wanna-b-w8lessss · 2 months

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cant recover when theres no proof of anything TO recover from.

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worthless-misery · 8 months

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Dear diary...

Every day that passes is just another battle against myself...

I'm tired...

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nailed2urjawbone · 2 years

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ur daughter is not fine she’s on ed tumblr in 2022.

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