#former love

[perfected-grace]

My body is a graveyard where love sick memories go to die

They transition to the after life via lazy tattoo designs meticulously placed so you don't realize they are there

Their tombstones read nothing fancy

Just a few scribble scrabble words

Maybe something like "Here lies that time I thought walking instead of running to a man who already broke me meant that I would take too long for him to break me again."

Or

"Here lies the memory of the man I kept around all these years only to realize he plays on my daddy issues."

Or

My favorite "Here lies the marriage of which I turned every single red flag to a beautiful rainbow that ALMOST convinced God he made a mistake."

My body is a graveyard where love sick memories rest from all the chaos of the world

Their internment lasting as long as it takes for the ink to seep through my skin

The memorials are getting bigger

My skin now craves these dead bodies

Hoping, wondering if every single man we encounter will get the distinct opportunity to become a love sick memory embroidered on my skin

I wear this pain like a wedding gown designed By Alexander Wang

Did I mention the bags under my eyes are designer?

Life is my runaway as I make death look blissful

I make graveyards look alive from the tenor notes in my laughter to the soprano in my sobbing

I wonder if my mother knew I would always house the dead

Part of me thinks she had an idea

She should have named me Mausoleum

So that when death eventually comes to find me -

He will know I'm a familiar friend for I have experienced him over and over and over again

How?

My body is a graveyard where love sick memories have been buried and laid to rest

Each one deeper then the one before

I'm running out of room

You should probably bury me next.

- In loving memory of

#poetry #poem #spilled ink #spilledink #poet #poems #poetic #spilled poetry #poets on tumblr #poets #death #dead poets live #dead poetry #coffin #my poems #love poem #former love #love lost #overit

[chiefohara]

Samantha ‘Sammy’ Samson

#sammy samson #my lost love #miss you #former love #hope you're at peace

[sheilamurrey]

January 30th - A rock song of returning love

It’s January 30th, 2024; Enjoy this hot love song! Many thanks to my songwriter/guitarist husband, Richard Murrey, singer, Bubba Hudson (love his take on this), and producer, Stephen Cooper from his Nashville, TN studio for crafting this sexy love song. Rockin’ song to rekindle love Here’s the thirtieth new music post for 2024, as I follow through with a consistent offering of original songs…

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#former love #indie #Music #music-video #Original music #original song #rekindle relationship #returning to a past love #soarin24

[machazer]

My ex greater lover was too redhead, ginger 🟥

This song is the memorial about she.

#my blank mind #my total idiot #wroclaw #wrocław #former love #portishead #Youtube

[catsharky]

Presenting: King Sidon, his wife Queen Yona and his boyfriend Link.

Yona is very supportive of everything except Sidon forgetting his ceremony cues.

(I had an atrocious week and TotK has been coming in clutch for keeping me sane.)

#totk spoilers #loz totk #sidlink #link x sidon #totk yona #totk link #totk sidon #tears of the kingdom #I love Yona I adore her design oh my god #If I were to create a Zelda-sona it'd basically just be her with different clothes so I'm contractually obligated to love her #But Nintendo trying to give Sidon a case of the not-gays with her is hilarious #The man greets his fiancée like a coworker and then turns around to explode with adoration over Link in the same breath #This is either a Lavender Marriage or a case of 'every royal Zora finds Link irresistible'. I like both but prefer the former #Like. Yona meets Zelda once things are settled and gets all flustered and tongue tied #and neither Sidon or Link have any idea what's going on because they share 1 braincell #which is used exclusively for fighting really good #sharky art #zelda comic

[sad-bard]

“Know better”

I always know better

I’m the big sister

The mother friend

The rock

The house in the storm

I know better

I know better than to miss you

I know better than to forget me

I know better than this

I know to be strong

I know to be steady

But I don’t know when I am not strong or steady

I should know

I always know

Why don’t I know better than to miss you?

I know better

I know better

-rae

#writing #thoughts #poetry #mental illness #writers and poets #short poetry #poems on tumblr #short poem #depressing poem #bpd thoughts #former love #know better

[beam-meup-scotty]

spock , roughly two seconds before doing something so unhinged no one else has even thought of it : good thing i’m a vulcan and i would never do something irrational or illogical lmaoo

#y’all remember the entirety of the galelio 7 when his solution to everythjng was just to Fuck Around and Find Out #in the amoeba episode where he was like no guys don’t rescue me it’s for Science #the man trap when he was slapping the monster in the form of bones’ former lover to snap bones out of it #um the one where got infected with those fake throw up thingies and BLINDED HIMSELF ?? #the one where his father was Dying and even though there were plenty of other people who could command the ship He Needed To Do It #several other instances i am forgetting #i literally love him #star trek #spock #s'chn t'gai spock #mr spock #captain kirk #doctor mccoy #dr mccoy #incorrect star trek #jim kirk #leonard mccoy #mccoy #star trek tos

[felidrae]

What do you mean this didn’t happen???

#hazbin hotel #hazbin alastor #hazbin hotel vox #hazbin vox #alastor #vox #hazbin hotel alastor #hazbin hotel fanart #hazbin hotel fandom #radiostatic #one sided love #Vox is a miserable boy who craves attention from his former mentor/idol #also wants to kill his ex mentor/idol #hazbin spoilers #hazbin art

[fiendishartist2]

hold on i need to converse with my co counsel *turns to 15 yr old girl*

#ooouuuuggghhh i need to replay apollo justice #i miss them all so much #i know they're not coming back for aa7 and if they are they will continue to be husks of their former selves #my art #digital art #artists on tumblr #ace attorney #apollo justice #trucy wright #i cant even think about what they did to trucy in aa5 and 6 it makes me literally sick #stay away from her!!!!!!!!! #they're besties i love them

[libraryfag]

Marsha P Johnson with a snoopy plush <3

#found this on Pinterest linked to a lovely interveiw of her former roommate #my posts #marsha p johnson #snoopy #queer #queer history #adventures in pinterest #1k #2k #3k #4k #5k #6k #7k #8k #9k #10k #11k #12k #20k

[glfry]

Can we agree that the "Thats two things" line from Mike was autistic as shit

#i love how William very clearly thinks he’s trying to play smart or something but. no he’s just like that #in general hes sooooo autistic. Same goes to Abby. #when aunt Jane noted how abbys meltdowns reminded her of mike I was cheering in my fucking seat #SO autism #fnaf movie #five nights at freddy's #Fnaf #five nights at Freddy’s movie #Mike Schmidt #can’t wait till this movie comes out anywhere that isn’t peacock. please I wanna watch it again but peacock doesn’t even have a free trial #also Just his general anti socialness??????? hello? #the way he just. walks off during the pharmacy scene #or the way he basically ignores max CANNOT be neurotypical #also with the former that his stand-offish nature is seen as rude #ALSO near the beginning of the movie where he tells his coworker about the dream theory- #-and he completely avoids eye contact and just fiddles with his Walkie-Talkie #like that cant be nt behavior

[angelsdean]

whenever i think abt misha saying he didn't start playing cas as in love with dean until s15 i am like. that man is a Known liar who lies

#looking at those endverse gifs i just reblogged and. thee absolute fondness in cas's eyes when he looks at 2009 dean #like hello that (former) angel is literally in love #also thee fact that he was meant to say 'i LOVE past you' in that scene but they changed it............ #but also just. so many scenes over the course of 12 yrs. he was in love !!! #and misha was Aware mr. i-read-destiel-blowjob-fic-after-my-first-episode #he knew what he was doing. for 12 yrs. #vic.txt

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

He was just being a silly little guy!

[First] Prev <–-> Next

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #jin guangyao #wen ruohan #nie mingjue #lan xichen #JGY's character is the zigging and zagging guy of all time #We love a little meow meow that can bite and scratch and kill you. #We also love a little meow meow that can mewl pathetically! #'He's evil now and torturing his former friend?" ZAG TIME: He's a spy and feels soooo awful about it!! #ZIG TIME: He (probably) didn't need to go that deep into the role and kill as many people as he did. #Something I really love about the sworn brother trio is how they reflect how our feelings distort our perception of others. #Lan Xichen represents how when we love/care about someone -anything they do can be endearing. They aren't manipulative: they are clever. #Its less about rose tinted glasses and more about reframing every look you get of them. The constant justifications you make for them. #They just need a space to be loved! “They care for me so I will stand by them no matter what to show them I'm there for them!” #While NMJ represents how when you dislike someone - Everything they do is an affront or proof of their foul character. #Everything is a sign. Everything is 'proof' they are just as awful as you want them to be. Every 'good trait' is twisted. #The problem is that most people are just human. They are flawed and they are capable of good and bad things. #Meng Yao's motivations are very complex. Yet he's extremely human all the same. He isn't the saint nor the monster of the story.

[a-dauntless-daffodil]

Vaggie: "These are the wings of a killer, Charlie."

Charlie: "Oooh."

Charlie: "..."

Vaggie: "....Charlie no."

Charlie: "Tickle-tickle-tickle~"

Vaggie: "NO THEY ARE NOT FOR TICKLING-! PFFTAHAHAHAHA"

#hazbin hotel #charlie morningstar #vaggie #chaggie #incorrect quotes #quote inspiration from: twilight #angsty vaggie vs charlie who probably thought she was dating a former murderer since day 1 and is so in love with HER adorable murder angel

[houseswife]

parallels that deal me +10 psychic damage for every second I spend pondering them

#cameron is wilson in the way that amber is house #except the former goes unmentioned a lot more #both cameron & amber had the potential to fix house & wilson respectively #but that’s the issue #no level of well-adjustedness could root out this level of codependency. this particular brand of love #house and wilson are the antithesis of one another but in the sense that they compliment each other’s pathologies like a puzzle piece #not to use another hannigram quote again but. they’re identically different. #that’s why they’re soulmates <3 #house md #hilson #house/wilson #greg house #gregory house #james wilson #hatecrimes md #allison cameron #GOD just thinking about it #house became irritated with cameron’s pursuit of him #because he’s insecure and believes he’s fundamentally unlovable #and her pattern with falling for ‘charity cases’ did nothing but affirm her lack of genuine interest in him #meanwhile. when it comes to wilson #he’s actually elated to know that he’s screwed up enough to never leave him #and the same goes for wilson #when he goes mattress shopping with amber #she encourages him to choose something he likes. for himself #because she doesn’t want him to indulge her to the point of resentment #and so he gives in! because it’s the healthy thing to do! #but when it comes to house #when house tells him to choose furniture that fits wilson’s tastes #he ends up buying an organ FOR HOUSE. and the response? ‘I like what this says about you wilson.’

[hairmetal666]

au where Steve is a famous Disney kid and Eddie is a teenaged singer-songwriter. They get pushed together at events because they're close in age, but they just quietly dislike each other.

Steve's got a new show starting, a spinoff of the one that made him a household name. They hire a newcomer, Robin Buckley, to play his best friend and the two quickly become BFF in real life.

The show runs for two seasons but when it comes time to renegotiate contracts, neither star is interested. They're older now, ready to live life on their terms and not the company's, or in Steve's case, his parents.

As soon as the finale airs, Robin and Steve celebrate by going to a gay club. A few weeks later, an interview is released where Steve comes out as bi and talks about how his parents mistreated him; how they worked with the network to pressure him to be a perfect "all-American" kid even off screen.

Meanwhile, Eddie's an impossible level of famous. He's had number-one hits, won a Grammy, headlined an arena tour, achieved every dream he had for himself as a kid growing up in a trailer park in Indiana. He's not shocked by the news that Steve is leaving Hollywood, but he's flabbergasted that the guy isn't straight. When Eddie reads the interview, he gets this weird pang in his chest, almost like regret. But he never even liked Steve.

Steve isn't in the news again and Eddie doesn't think of him for a long time.

Steve goes to college. He loves it. Not because he's great in his classes, or anything, but because he's free to be himself for the first time. He makes friends and goes to parties and relaxes. He and Robin share an apartment.

After a few semesters, Steve decides to take a couple of theater classes, and is quickly cast in campus productions. In the vague anonymity of college theater he rediscovers his love of acting. No one has expectations of him, no one forces him to perform. He graduates and slowly starts appearing in small roles in Indie films, gathering critical acclaim. He feels good. Happy. Hopeful.

Eddie is blissfully unaware of Steve's career resurgence, experiencing his own musical highpoints, until the day where he's scrolling Twitter, sees a Variety headline that's getting a bunch of attention, "Steve Harrington in talks to star in Max Mayfield's first film." Eddie's livid.

"Maxine, what the fuck?" He growls when she answers his call.

They grew up together in the same Indiana trailer park. When she moved to Hollywood to start a career as a screenwriter, Eddie was by her side. And when her first script wound up on the Black List, his involvement on the soundtrack and original songs sealed her production deal.

She gives a long suffering sigh. "Munson," she grumbles. "I know you have a weird history with this guy, but I swear he's the right choice."

"He's a stuck up rich boy who's never been in trouble in his life."

"He's changed."

"Doubtful," Eddie sneers.

"Look. I'll set-up a meeting. Come hang out and you'll see what I mean." Before she hangs up she adds, "Call me Maxine again and I'll end you."

They invite Harrington to Eddie's recording studio. His hopes are not high for this meeting, so he's already a little thrown when Steve Harrington walks in, all grown up. He's in a crimson sweater, tight jeans, hair grown long so that it flops around his face in tousled waves that actually look genuine, windswept and golden. Eddie's eyes instinctively trace the scatter of moles on Harrington's face and neck, a pang of something hitting deep in his gut. Fuck, this dude is beautiful.

"Harrington," he greets, sticks out his hand. Eddie barely hears the answering, "Munson," because instead of a handshake, Harrington pulls Eddie in for a hug. Muscles bunch under the sleeves of the sweater, against Eddie's chest, and he's assaulted by the scent of cedar and sunshine and Steve. Eddie's not prepared for any of this.

They make small talk, Harrington sharing about going to college, falling in love with theater, Robin Buckley who he calls his soulmate. Eddie's head rings with how wrong he was about this guy; the pretty kid he grew up alongside who seemed to have the world in his hands. Max was right, he's perfect. Except.

"Let's get down to it, Harrington," Eddie says. Can't bring himself to call him Steve yet, feels that will somehow change everything and he's not ready. "I'll admit that Mayfield had the right idea about you, but can you sing? Play guitar? You have to perform my music, dude. That's not a small ask."

Harrington smirks, asks for a guitar. He gets it settled across his lap before he speaks. "I started taking piano lessons when I was 4. Voice and guitar at 7."

Eddie belatedly recalls that Harrington's parents were the worst kind of stage-parents, pushing their cute kid to perform even as he sobbed about wanting to play soccer with his friends instead of going to auditions. He has a moment of shame that he forgets as the other man begins to play. It's one of Eddie's biggest hits, a ballad about a teenaged broken heart from a kid whose name he can't even remember.

Harrington's hair flops in a swoop over his forehead, his fingers move across the strings with ease, skill. His voice is a rasp, close mimic to Eddie's own, but not quite deep enough. Goosebumps spread across Eddie's arms, his neck, and warmth pools low in his gut.

Steve finishes the song, looks up, cheeks glowing pink, honey eyes bright. Eddie's fucking gone for this guy. He wants so badly he might choke on it.

"Good?" Steve asks.

Eddie's embarrassed suddenly. Unsure. He tugs at his hair. "Yeah," he laughs. "Good."

He reaches out to take the guitar, the one Steve's already handing to him, and their hands brush. Eddie flushes. Their eyes meet and Steve smiles. Eddie's thoughts are consumed with the desire to kiss his plush pink mouth.

"You wanna get dinner? Just you and me?" Steve asks.

"Yeah, Steve," he laughs. "I'd love to."

🎬🎸🎬🎸

Fifteen Months Later

"Former Teen Heartthrobs Make Love Connection?"

Fans of musician Eddie Munson and former child star, Steve Harrington, were in for the surprise of their lives last night as the men arrived together for the premier of Harrington's new movie, Small Town Sins, written by up-and-coming screenwriter Max Mayfield, featuring original music by Munson. While Harrington's performance and the movie itself are garnering quite a bit of positive buzz, it's being overshadowed by gossip about Harrington and Munson's budding romance. They walked the red carpet together, pausing for photos as a duo, holding hands and flirting. When asked for confirmation of their relationship, Munson answered, 'we're bros,' before winking and pulling Harrington close.

There's a TikTok video embedded below the article, showing the men being interviewed on the red carpet. Their arms are loosely around each others' waists, and when their eyes meet they catch and hang for a beat.

"So, longtime fans of both of yours are going feral online right now because of the rumors that you two used to hate each other. Is there any truth to that?" An off-camera voice asks.

The men laugh. "We've always been great friends," Eddie answers.

"Eddie thought I was stuck up," Steve giggles.

"I did not." Eddie slaps at Steve, who gives him an affectionate smile.

"Liar," Steve answers.

Eddie leans into the camera like he's telling a secret. "Harrington here was afraid of me."

"Fuck off, I was not." They wrestle around for a couple of seconds.

Steve shrugs Eddie off, straightening his suit jacket. "Okay, maybe I was a little intimidated back then, but then this morning you found a pretty rock and cried about it."

Eddie shrieks, swatting at Steve until someone in a black suit and name tag shoos them down the red carpet.

Eddie walks off first, so he misses Steve withdrawing a hand from his pocket and saying, "Still have the rock, though." He flashes the red, grey, blue striped stone at the camera.

His gaze drifts away, landing somewhere in the distance, hazel eyes soft and heart-wrenchingly fond.

#steddie #steve x eddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #modern au #former child star steve harrington #disney kid steve harrington #musician eddie munson #steve and eddie are famous #getting together #fluff #falling in love #robin buckley #max mayfield #robin was steve's costar #max is a screenwriter #eddie cries about pretty rocks and gives them to steve #steve keeps them all #ficlet #one shot #steve and robin are platonic soulmates in every universe