#idk i’m sad i’m sorry

[girlyteengirl16]

when i have no one, the razor is always there for me

#tw sh implied #tw sh destructive behaviour #tw sh related #should i end it #trauma #mentally unstable #i wanna kms #i want to be okay #i’m getting ready to relapse #i love relapsing #hehe :3 #idk i’m sad i’m sorry #tw depressing stuff #tw depressing thoughts #mentally tired #depression relapse #this account is a cry for help pls help me

[crybaby-bkg]

You try not to rustle the sheets too loudly when you sit up in bed. You rub at your eyes, frowning, as you tap at your phone screen to read the time. 3:26am, and you haven’t gotten the sleep you know you both need and deserve. you sigh quietly, sitting up against the headboard as you watch the dimmed colors pass on the tv.

“What’re you doing up?” A voice slurs to you from your left. You jump a little at the sudden gruff noise, before you deflate. You glance over to Bakugou, where he lays on his side, one crimson colored eye blinking up at you, before he yawns loud and wide, akin to a lion with his golden mane. You can’t help but rub gently at his cheek and jaw and neck, patting him once his eye flutters close at the warmth of your hands.

“Can’t sleep. You go back to bed, though.” You whisper to him, leaning down to peck at the corner of his mouth. You laugh under your breath when he frowns, hard and over dramatic. Silence passes on for a few minutes, with Bakugou’s frown slowly disappearing into a thin line, seemingly falling back asleep as your fingers continue to rub at his skin. Your quiet moment is interrupted though, when your stomach makes a whale-dying-classroom-interrupting-bomb-dropping noise. You don’t say anything, but blink down at Bakugou when he cracks his eye open again.

“You hungry?” He slurs once more, stretching a little in place as you run a hand through his hair.

“Yeah, but I don’t feel like getting up to fix anything, and we haven’t gone to the store yet to get some snacks, so,” you shrug to yourself, convincing yourself you’d fall asleep before the hunger pangs set in. It’s your turn to frown though, when Bakugou suddenly groans before rolling over and standing from the bed.

“Where are you going?" You ask him, afraid you and your loud stomach disturbed his rest too much. You watch how the muscle in his back ripple when he stretches again where he stands, guilty eyes tracking up his body when he looks at you from over his shoulder.

“To fix your hungry ass a midnight snack.” He tells you, finality lacing his voice as he starts stalking off to the kitchen in just his boxers before you can even answer.

“But it’s past midnight!” You call to him, scrambling up to put your slippers on as you try to keep up with his pace.

Bakugou doesn’t answer you by the time you make it to the kitchen, already boiling water, and dumping rice into the cooker. He’s pulling out different ingredients and knives and the cutting board, and it feels like too much to be so late, but you know if you try to speak up, he’ll only shoo you to bed until he’s finished. The only acknowledgment he gives you is when he turns, placing his hands on your underwear-clad hips and lifts you to sit on the counter behind him, pecking your lips once, twice, before he goes back over to the stove.

The next couple minutes go by gently, with quiet conversations about his most recent capture, about the paperwork you had to fill out, about Denki being an idiot, about Denki actually being a sweetheart, about eating all this damn food he’s cooking, about promising to clean your entire plate. The kitchens lights are low and dimmed, and it casts a soft glow on Bakugou’s high cheekbones and his pretty lashes and the sweet curve of his mouth when he grins at you.

And when the food finishes, you share a bowl, a respective fork for the each of you. Bakugou stands between your legs, chewing quietly and scolds for you to slow down when you eat too fast. He wipes away the rice from your mouth and you lick away the sauce from his chin. He grabs a water bottle from the fridge and lets you have the first sip, offers you the rest when you watch some of it dribble down his chin.

It’s a serene moment shared between the two of you, and when you’re both finished, he’s carrying you back to bed. Tells you that you better take your full ass to bed this time, and he doesn’t fall asleep until he hears your light snores first. Then, he can rest.

#this is directionless sorry #I’ve just been sad and really wanted to write a peaceful serene moment with him #I’m gonna go write the other draft I’ve had for a while and I might either upload it tonight too #or just wait until the morning idk #—new treat in the streets! 🍫 #bakugou treats! 🍬

[strawlessandbraless]

Dean Winchester is Saved!

Headcanon where Castiel broadcasted ‘Dean Winchester is saved’ twice. Once when he raised the righteous man from hell, and again when he sacrificed himself for the man he loved ✨

#idk why I’ve been making sad destiel content #spn #supernatural #dean winchester #destiel #castiel #deancas #misha collins #jensen ackles #4x01 lazarus rising #4x01 #spn 4x10 #i’m sorry #spn hcs #15x18 despair #spn 15x18 #15x18 #the righteous man #handprint #head canon #dean winchester is saved #headcanon #spn headcanon

[amoebeau]

Not motivated one bit to draw so here’s a culmination of mspaint things from the past week or so (sorry i drew them as cats again. If you knew my vision you’d understand) 

#I MIGHT DELETE THESE LATER SORRY IM EMBARRASSED #doodle #should I start a doodle tag maybe. Idk #faith the unholy trinity #faith game #Gary miller #amy martin #john ward #father garcia #I’m very sad I wanted to do way more but I can’t push myself #still practicing drawing Faith characters so there’s nothing cool to show yet

[navnae]

Eddie has been in the press for several years now and his relationship with Steve wasn’t known about due to Steve panicking over what his family would say if the news had gotten a hold of that information. So Eddie made sure that things went smoothly for Steve when every they went out, he’d block the paparazzi that would surround him, refuse to answer any questions that involved, and he shut down every newspaper that tried to even paint the idea that they were together. Eddie took his personal life very seriously and if Steve wasn’t ready to have their relationship public than that was what Eddie fought for. Of course Eddie never shied away from being honest about his sexuality, basically everyone in the entire world knew he wasn’t straight it was almost like a goal for him to tell everyone “no to hetero” (he even made it a shirt). Meaning that he wasn’t shocked when the rumors started when him and Steve would get touchy from time to time but he kept playing it off as them being good friends for the sake of Steve. This went on for a long time that eventually everyone came to the conclusion that they were just friends and their love language was touch, the questions stopped, the pestering stopped, the theories stopped, everything finally stopped. Eddie felt like a weight was being lifted off his shoulders he didn’t have to go through all these obstacles to protect Steve but when an interview asked him about his relationship status he wanted die right on the spot every time. He wanted nothing more than to tell everyone how much he loved Steve and how he had so many thoughts that revolved around marrying him one day, this was killing Eddie deeply. Nonetheless Eddie kept those answers to himself and only hoped that one day they could finally be a couple without hiding.

It was New Year’s Eve when Corroded Coffin got an invite to perform on tv and Eddie was pumped. Steve helped him with his outfit which made him sweat throughout the whole day since it was the biggest jacket known to man but it was freezing outside and he just had to deal with it. They were going to be the last performance of the night right before the countdown for the ball. When it was around midnight Eddie had lost his voice around this point from singing with so much passion that the entire crowd could feel his energy. It made him feel good that while he was on stage he could see Steve in the front row cheering him on, Eddie couldn’t help the butterflies he got. Soon it was time for the countdown and everyone gathered around for it. Eddie being in his own world he shouted the numbers at the top of his lungs as he watched the ball in the distance he didn’t realize that Steve had made his way onto the stage. He kept counting down til he finally said “3… 2… 1” and right when he finished counting his whole body was turned towards the opposite direction then his lips connected with Steve’s in front of everyone. The confetti started to fall as they continued to kiss in the coldest weather they could feel their lips twitching against one another’s. Eddie was still in shock by Steve doing that and apparently the crowd was too. They gave their attention to the couple then the actual New Years event all together. When Steve pulled away a big smile was on his face with tears rolling down his cheek.

“Why did you do that? This is live, your family’s going to see it.” Eddie said worriedly. His heart pounded at the thought of what Steve’s family would do to him.

“I know and I’ve thought about this long enough to say that I don’t care. You went out of your way for years to protect me and make sure that I was okay. It’s not fair to you that we can’t simply live each other because of my family.” Steve spoke softly. Eddie smiled as he brought his thumb up to Steve’s check and wiped away another tear.

“And I would’ve continued to do it if you wanted me to. You should come out on your own terms not because of how I may feel.” Eddie knew that the damage was already done but he was still trying to figure out how he could get the press to forget it.

“I know that too but this is me coming out on my own terms. Who knows I might get a call in the morning from my family saying they accept me and I might not. All I know is I’m in love with you, that’s something I couldn’t hide forever Eddie.” Steve’s voice cracked halfway as he talked. The tears just kept coming down and it broke Eddie’s heart to see him like this.

Eddie wrapped his arms around Steve tightly letting him sob against his chest. He didn’t care if all eyes were on his right now, Steve was more important than all of that. Eddie planted several kisses on the top of Steve’s head and when he did his own vision started to become blurry. Those days of him telling off everyone that said he was in a relationship with Steve flashed in his head over and over again. He hated not being able to hold Steve like this without someone trying out their nose in their business. Now Eddie could do what he always wanted to do with Steve and he wouldn’t have to cover it up anymore. He held his boyfriend close as if he was going to runaway, both of them felt free for the first time in years.

“I love you.” Eddie whispered against Steve’s hair.

“I love you too.” Steve sniffled. Eddie laughed lightly when he felt Steve shiver a little when the wind blew. They were definitely going to be sick after this.

#steddie #oop #I’m crying #I’m sad #I’m sorry #steddie angst #angst #steddie ficlet #ficlet #short story #short prompt #so sweeeeeeeeeet #steddie fanfiction #fanfiction #eddie munson #steve harrington #stranger things #help lol #idk what else to tag #please #come on #manifesting #power #so cuuuute #i’m tired #i’m sleepy #this is sad #i’m a softie #softie steve #softie eddie

[nuppu-nuppu]

I don’t know how to draw traditionally anymore ;;

#but here’s a Choso for you #<333333333 #Choso #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #choso jjk #sorry if it looks shitty #merry christmas #btw #if you celebrate #I’m visiting my dad so I can’t draw with my tablet #sad #hope ur well #i wish i had a boyfriend girlfriend #idk #I’m lonely #someone cosplay satosugu with me pls #I’m gonna be satoru

[qbebou]

what makes me sad abt philever is that they COULD have had a good shot. i know it’s silly and funny and everyone says forevers love was unrequited completely but like…. hasn’t phil said several times that maybe things would have been different if forever didn’t just like him bc he looks like brunim? i know phil peaces out whenever lore is happening so i don’t think he would ever actually fully commit to the bit but i do feel like there’s an inkling of sadness whenever phil says there could have been something between them or that forever only wants him for his looks

#IDK i’m delusional i know i am #but phil is very good at doing subtle things for lore and i feel like the way he said that was intentional #he just drops in a hint 🤏 of angst i don’t think he can help it he loves making ppl sad #it’s late and i’m thinking abt them again sorry world 🫰😔 #qsmp #philza #ph1lz4 #forever #forever player #philever #lex.txt

[boyloser6526384]

just seen brandon duhaime’s reaction to his tribute video that mw did for him, and i think whats making me the most sad about the trading thing is that brandon and connor dewar are best friends, they loved playing together and they made each other better and then they both get traded to two different teams

and brandon very obviously is Not happy with his new team and he’s not connecting with them and he misses minnasota and hes fucking sad and then connor Is happy with his new team and he’s connected with them and he loves toronto and he loves the leafs and he’s doing so good and it’s just so sad

because brandon and connor were once So close, their souls weaved together and their lives intertwined for so long and they were on this level with each other where they didn’t even need to verbally communicate and now they are so far apart from each other.

one is in colorado and the other is in toronto and they no longer are on the same wave length because they Can’t be and brandon just seems so lost while connor is doing so well and it’s just so upsetting to see two people, friends, who worked so good together and leaned on each other to be better just be so far apart now, in two different places, where one doesn’t need to lean on the other anymore while the other is still struggling

#idk it just makes me so sad man #doomed by the narrative if you will #this sounds so stupid and corny i’m sorry that video just made me rly upset #the nhl is evil #brandon duhaime i love you so much you’re doing your best #minnesota wild #brandon duhaime #colorado avalanche #dewey 1 #connor dewar #toronto maple leafs #dewey 2 #bd x cd #hockeyposting #nhl #hockey #wild lb #avs lb #leafs lb #leafsblr #wildblr

[why-the-heck-not]

I have a handle on my procrastination

…. I accessorized Elvis (the sourdough starter)

#look is this in any way practical? no #but ohmygod it brings me joy #somewhere around cutting a pair of sunglasses out of paper to tape onto a jar of flour goo at midnight I had a wtf am I doing with my life #moment but anyways #could sort of use that as a marker to see where the starter was when I fed it but idk if it’ll stay there securely enough we’ll see #I also have some tape there just in case this falls off when I pick it up #sorry I’m talking so much abt the damn sourdough starter lol I swear I won’t be this annoying abt it always #it’s just so fun (?) to me for some reason lol #(I love food that’s alive in a not cruel way (fermentation bacteria etc etc. is super interesting to me)) #(also I just fed it so that’s why it’s looking a lil sad & unbubbly) #march 2024 #2024

[vvenuspng]

really? right in front of my coffee?

#i don’t think u guys understand how i rlly think i’m funny it’s so sad n delusional #one day i’ll stop drawing slutty stolas but that day is not today sorry i <3333 nonhuman fluffy characters #helluva stolas #stolas goetia #artists on tumblr #sketch #my art #stolitz #helluva boss #blitzø and octavia cameo idk if this warrants a character tag but whatever #helluva blitzo #helluva octavia #doodle

[girlyteengirl16]

no matter what i’ll always feel lonely

#i’m so fucking depressed #mentally unstable #i want to kill myself #trauma #tw depressing stuff #i don’t think i’ll ever be okay #i want to be okay #tw depressing thoughts #loneliness #how to be okay #idk i’m sad i’m sorry #idk how to make it stop #this account is a cry for help pls help me

[vanilla-poisons]

Kalim isn’t faking being a happy person however he does show signs of heavily dismissing and pushing down his own feelings. He’s genuinely full of strong emotions but he doesn’t let the negative ones show. He probably is scared and afraid and upset and sad and angry and frustrated and destroyed but what’s the point of him complaining? It’s not like he’s going to complain to people who have “bigger” problems. He says that others being happy makes him happy and the probably goes the same for sadness. Kalim cheers up everyone but no one does that for him because they don’t think he needs to be cheered up.

Also yes ofc he treats things as less of a big deal than they are because could you imagine if he did? Could you imagine if he processed and carried the full weight of every betrayal, poisoning and kidnapping?

Remember Kalim lives like there’s no tomorrow because there might not be one for him

#quinnramblesandjabbers #twst #twisted wonderland #kalim al asim #twst kalim #twst analysis #however I’m not dismissing the privilege he has a super rich guy either but listen that’s not what this post is about sorry #idk I love him but he makes me very sad

[isa-ah]

We both were chosen by this destiny…

Why did it have to be us?

#sorry this is soooo low energy i’m rlly down rn #hero’s purpose #loz #oot #ganondorf #link #maybe the symbolism would have been better if i did oot zelda and impa with koume and koutake #or if i did skyward sword zelda and impa with demise #but this felt Correct anyway #truly the dialogue in episode 5 is still just. chewing on it. chewing on it. chewing on it. #treating spirit of the hero as an extension of the curse that strips link of his empathy and autonomy is sooooo sexy #that it’s all morally grey that no one is correct in this conflict and there is no hero and villain #just used children groomed into a life of compulsive bloodshed at hylia and demise behest #god #hylia just Using Him against his will as he starts to crumble and ganondorf losing his humanity for his tenderness #the recognition of each other as terrified miserable children seconds before they’re both killed. it’s so sad #bro idk major link is just a genius he’s a genius #it’s so fucking compelling and depressing and i really wish the mutually morally grey landscape would be acknowledged canonically

[corrodedcoughin]

it's been a long day, hell it's be a long week, long month, long life. Steve is driving home from work and somebody pulls out in front of him, making him break suddenly and leading the other driver to honking their horn at him.

For some unknown reason, this is the thing that breaks Steve Harrington. He's had a swirl of background thoughts going through his brain for weeks, they aren't anything new. Nothing he hasn't heard or thought before, but they just get so loud, so overwhelmingly loud and overbearing.

Before he knows it the tears are trailing down his face as he drives, he doesn't wipe them away, know there's no point when they aren't going to stop. Suddenly all the thoughts and feelings he's pushed down are right in front of him and he feels like he's drowning. Steve lets himself wallow, lets himself be swallowed by his emotions.

Truthfully, he loves looking after people, feels like if he can't do anything else, he can make sure the people around him feel cared for. He puts immense effort into everything he does for them, checks in with them, always goes the extra mile to makes birthdays and Christmas gifts absolutely perfect. He wants everyone to feel like they are listened to but the thing is, Steve has never experienced that feeling himself.

He bends over backwards to run around giving lifts, fitting his schedule around other and caring so, so much. And he doesn't mean to sound so selfish, but the thing is it hurts, it hurts more than he can possibly explain, he feels hollowed out and so inexplicably lonely. He's in this small town and he doesn't really think he wants to move but what else is he going to do with his life? Everyone else is going to leave and he's going to be left behind, he's never going to find love in this place and that's one thing he is desperate for. He wants to feel loved, he wants to feel like he is a priority to someone, like he matters, like he's special. God he's so heartbreakingly lonely.

The tears are streaming thick and fast, he has to pull over to let the body wracking sob rip through him. He's never going to tell anyone he feels this way, can't let his friends know about the emptiness he feels inside, that he loves them fiercely in hopes that it will fill this deep and dark void. He loves that he can make his friends happy, it's the one thing that keeps him going through it all, the only thing that makes him think this is all worthwhile.

He just aches so intensely, right in his bones, in his soul. He knows his friends love him but he can't internalise it, he's heard people say he matters but he doesn't know how to assimilate the statement into his being. He feels disgusting for thinking these thoughts, bad and mean and self-centered and greedy for something he doesn't deserve but he can't stop himself which only perpetuates the cycle. He hates himself so intensely in that moment, stronger than usual, hates himself so overwhelmingly he feels like he can't breathe.

But he catches the time on the dashboard as he leans his head back against the headrest, sees that it's close to pick up time for Dustin, Lucas and Erika. He wipes his face, takes a deep lungful of air, flips the car indicator up and gets ready to be Steve Harrington again.

#flowers anon this is the post #it was really cathartic so thank you for giving me the permission to be self indulgent and over the top about it #idk man I’m sorry I just in my flop era and I’m sad today #but I’ve got a post to make up for it I swear #stranger things #steve harrington #don’t look to hard I might have revealed a bit too much

[bebzbrainw0rmz]

People in my tags talking about how they thought Pav was actually canonly trans with his boobs out only to find out he isn’t and being dissapointed is me when I found out Karin wasn’t actually fat

#I saw her portrait and everything idk why it took me so long to realise she wasn’t fat 😭 #I was so sad #not art #omg I’m so sorry this is the way some of u guys have to find out oops

[nuppu-nuppu]

Ignore if you don’t want to read about me being stupid once again

#pls dont read if you cant handle venting and whining #once again i am here to say that i am the loneliest person alive and i feel like i can’t grasp the basic consept of friendship and do it lol #like idk how to be friends #i feel like i will forever be sad and lonely #and i know everyone will say you can talk to me and i know that but i’ve just been by myself for so long that i don’t remember how to have #actual conversations with people i feel like i am disconnected from reality #i feel like i am an extremely unlikeable person and that’s why i was all alone in highschool and idk i am oversharing on the internet again #because it’s the only place i kind of feel safe doing it #pls take care of yourselves first before comfoting me or anything im sorry i sound very pathetic #how do i start living again #how does one live anyway #im just in my head all the time #this was supposed to be hot girl summer but it’s once again summertime sadness #im so stupid!!! #im so anxious and depressed that i dont know what to do with myself #im so sorry for oversharing i have a therapist dont worry im kind of taking care of myself #but the eternal loneliness just wont let me go #idk how to be a person anymore #i’m just sad #thinking of going to a church and pretend to be a believer so i could have a community again lol