#im depressed love me

[stil-lindigo]

scorched earth.

a comic about a princess who died in a fire.

(this is a sequel to bite of winter, a comic about Snow and what became of her after her death.)

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#cw: blood #cw: beheading #cw:death #cw: gore #cw: burning alive #so nice of ash to have prepared a barbequed buffet ready for snow when she arrives #if it wasn't made clear enough ash did die in that fire #she just did it while taking down as many people as she could in the process. and now shes a smoke monster #and yes. the fire powers do imply she's not quite human. but shes human enough to fall in love and die and thats enough. #im sorry this comic took me so long. i had about a week where i was very depressed and nothing got done. #thank you for your patience #and as always #thank you for reading #comic art #sapphic art #lgbt #horror #somehow not as scary as snow but ash is still fearsome in her own way #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

[hamoodmood]

#too real #relatable #girlblogging #girlblogger #gaslight gatekeep girlboss #girly things #female hysteria #whisper girl #femcel #female manipulator #manic pixie dream girl #divine feminine #unlovable #please love me #i need love #im unloveable #romance #relationship #female rage #a blog for the heartbroken #bpd problems #bpd vent #actually bpd #bpd thoughts #depressing shit #tw depressive #self destruction #tw selfhate #mentally unstable #neon genesis evangelion

[strawbie-doodle]

havent drawn all of them in a WHILE ✸

#critical role #bells hells #critrole #ashton greymoore #orym of the air ashari #imogen temult #chetney pock o'pea #fearne calloway #laudna #fresh cut grass #bell's hells #art #my art #almost gave up on this so many times #but that chet wolf and side profile ashton were just too good to give up on #and as always fearne looks so good #really proud of the imogen here too i think she looks so cute #i had to redraw her so many times im so bad at drawing her :[ #ANYWAY HI I FINALLY MAKE ART AND POST IT #been having the worst art block ever :( #its made me so depressed and then i got even more depressed cuz i wasnt being productive but i couldnt do anything cuz i was depressed #:((( why does my hobby make me sad and want to quit #um anyways did you guys watch that new dungmeshi episode #the tonal whiplash was fucking crazy i loved it

[lomlompurim]

IM BACK WITH MORE WHITE LOTUS BINGHE JAPAN EDITION BC I LOVE HIM SO MUCH 💕🪷💚

and some other bunhe sketches to warm up and draw some more

The prettiest boy that ever existed, I want to bite him until he squeaks

#svsss #人渣反派自救系统 #bingqiu #luo binghe #svsss fanart #shen qingqiu #mxtx #heeey im alive sorry i was just busy and depressed #and broke but im working on all that #anyways enjoy the binghes pls i love him so much im using my brainrot about him ti fight my artblock #because he is everything to me #my baby my princess my shoujo girlie trapped in a stallion novel #using that brush to make it look more “anime” was hell btw #but i kinda want to make fake screenshots now #to cope

[barghest-land]

making myself sad by drawing arthur

#rdr2 #barghestland #arthur morgan #i don't draw him often #tbh.. that's like.. my second time drawing him or something? #not because i don't like him (i love him so much ok) #but drawing him just makes me extremely sad #im on chapter 6 again im not ready for this #i wanna hug him and tell him he's a good man:( #i also need a hug as well this shit is depressing #if ya wanna have a crying session invite me or something

[warper-in-training]

nvm this actually looks gooe

#dont expect drawings from me. dont. #but tbh im proud of this one #sp i love the hair #i still have probpems w noses but whadaver #i used to draw a lot but depression fuxked me up #im .. progressing w it #my gallery is filled w random headshots of barb pls help #kizhu #obey me #obey me barbatos #obey me art #obey me fanart #obey me barbatos art #obey me nb #obey me nightbringer #obey me swd #obey me shall we date #om barbatos #om! barbatos #the more iblook at it the prettier it bec-

[5hrignold]

homestars handwriting 2000 / 2005

#obviously this was them either not remembering how he wrote in the past or just not caring to commit to it #im sure there are other inconsistencies with the other characters’ handwriting and drawing #BUT i love to see this as him becoming more laid back and less feeling like he has to appear 100% cool and flawless #but also becoming more generally depressed along with that. like just not being sure what he’s supposed to do with his life #u feel me. that being reflected through his handwriting degrading in care and quality #ofc there’s no objectively correct way to write but u get what i mean the 2000 handwriting is WAY more fancy looking #i was gonna say it also could just be that it’s a high school yearbook signing but like… idk if he’d care enough #to make his writing all pretty and sofisticated just for that #homestar runner

[800db-cloud]

franklin badge

#mother #mother 3 #mother series #earthbound #lucas mother 3 #mother spoilers #mother 3 spoilers #era.png #era.queue #i recently finished watching a playthrough of mother 3 and they WERENT KIDDING #THIS GAMES DEPRESSING AS HELL!!!!! (affectionate) #i hope i queue this post correctly i HATE school #i love sm@sh and i love that it lets me discover game series i love it so much im so normal /GEN

[bebesophie]

#obsessive love disorder #obslove #obessive love #obsessive thinking #be obsessed with me #im obsessed #actually obsessive #obsessive love #obsessive thoughts #i love him #lovesick #daddy’s babygirl #princess cute #cute but psycho #heavenly delusion #delulu girl #delulu #let me live in my delusions #sorry for being depressing #delusional #daddy's good girl #sweet lolita

[princeparadiso]

Adios Bolas, I won't leave without her.

#qsmp #qsmp fanart #baghera jones #pomme #pomme qsmp #qsmp baghera #baghera fanart #forgot to post it on tumblr bc i was crying #oh my god baghera why must all of your characters have such fierce love and protectedness for their loved ones #why must they always protect who they love with everything they have #why must they give everything they have with the fiercest of passion #this counts for qbaghera lucie and antoine croute for my fellow french viewers #i love qbaghera so much this scene ended me #she didn't think ONCE about going to this boat. she only wanted to protect her daughter. #she would have stayed and died in front of this glass staring at her daughter no matter what #im so depressed #q!baghera is my everything. it's always about love in the end #qsmp purgatory

[witchinatree]

i love when i finish consuming the most tragic gut-wrenching and truly devestating media and i go look at fandom posts and they're all batshit

#or like SUPER depressing analysis posts #there is no other option #the prime example im thinking of is mike wazowski/sully as elias bouchard and peter lukas respectfully #reblogged that shit instantly #dont get me wrong i love batshit posts #its like collective coping #good omens #the magnus archives #your turn to die #witch's heart #the owl house #kind of #the good place #the boy and the heron

[torchstelechos]

I do think its really important to remember that SY was suppose to be the villain character but its only because of his kindness and newly gained life that he didn’t end as one. In the very beginning of the story we learn that Peerless Cucumber Bro often left comments on how SJ didn’t get his dues and needed to be punished more, and only after he transmigrated did he acknowledge how awful of a death SJ had. He also made point to explain that he only read the book for LBH, which he noted to enjoy his decisive actions and deft ability to kill. Markedly, he liked his brutality and personality over the erotica that the majority of PIDW fans enjoyed. Peerless Cucumber Bro is someone who loves action and the ability to cut right to the chase, something that he does not do and most likely has difficulty with in his world.

Speaking of, it is something to note that Peerless Cucumber bro is rich. He had head chefs, he could pay for a 6k+ chapter book of erotica in 20 days, he noted that he could not understand SJs envy and ambition for power since he lives well, and he even noted to himself that his family was well off. He is incredibly wealthy, and it shows. Which is important to note because he, not once, showed any guilt or remorse on dying and leaving his family behind. Yes, he sometimes refers to people as being similar to his family but he never showed any pain for losing that life like he did when he lost LBH. This is important because I genuinely think SY was depressed and self destructive to himself, which goes against popular HC that he was chronically/terminally ill (I do like this HC and like how its portrayed in fanfiction). It would explain how he ended up dying all alone by himself, and how blase he was to his own life and death.

SQQ is a self destructive force who ended up dying three times, and didn’t feel anything about death itself. He was worried about others and the effect it had on them, but for himself it was up and on again like it never happened. He does not care for his health, had self isolated as SY to the point he died alone, and has a horrible self esteem to the point that he continuously agrees when other people put him down and often calls himself the villain. Even though we have seen the evidence of someone who is always being thrust into new situations and awful plots, he calls himself lazy and easy going. He hides his thoughts and feelings behind his fan and has a remarkably thin face. At the very base of his actions and his thoughts, he is self destructive, powerful, and smart. This is the set up for a villain.

However, when shown the actual people in front of him and forced to act as SJ did towards LBH and his disciples, he flinches from it. He notes that it happening in front of him was different. His entire self soothing comedy monologue went quiet when he had to enforce the Endless Abyss scene, and grieved for the childish innocence he killed from one of his favourite people. SY was set up to be the villain and obviously thinks of himself as one, but can not act as one. If he had the choice LBH would have been his sticky sweet white lotus disciple for as long as LBH wished to be.

His kindness, as seen in the book, is what turned him from being “the scumbag villain” to the protagonist we see in the novels. Which, yes, he is a protagonist! He even has the protag halo that LBH has and its very funny in the meta way for SQQ not to realize this, but thats for another post. But he loves his disciples, he loves his peak lord siblings, he loves his Binghe, he loves his new life, and he is kind. That is what kept him from being the villain he sees himself as, his kindness and love for others. Whether that be romantic, platonic, or familial, he loves the people he has met and he treats them kindly. That is why it is important to remember that he was set up as the villain by everything in the story we do not see, but what we do see is him continuously changing the story to fit a new genre that lets as many people as he can save live. Sorry sorry, I just think about SY being set up as a villain so much. It changes a lot of views I have on the series when I remember the duality of SYs story and character development.

#SVSSS #scumbag self saving system #Shen Yuan #shen jiu #shen qingqiu #luo binghe #Meta #I think?? Haha I dont usually do metas but I dont know how to write fanfic for this series #so Im just writing down my thoughts on the characters #Like how if we see this from the PIDW characters POV SY is truly a villain #Its just something that makes me laugh because he is a villain just as much as he isnt! #what a wonderful complex character to write for. This type of story. #I wonder if Peerless Cucumber Bro would forgive me for writing meta about him?? I think he would be kind of happy but utterly disgusted #ew fans that actually think im complex even though Im a really simple person with no hidden motives -SQQ probably #I love this fucking idiot so much I relate to him on a spirtual level and think he was probably depress to the point of having A Plan. #if you know what I mean #because I still think him reading PIDW entirely in 20 days marks a special occasion for something and if its not for the final chapter... #Anyway #I love this stupid sweet potato of a character #Oh! New tag! #Sweet Potato SQQ #for archiving puproses on meta for him #Probably not good meta I didnt even add quotes or page numbers Im just talking out my ass from what I remember #Watch me write an essay on this lmao

[overwhelming-thoughtss]

part of me is still hoping for us

#depressing shit #depressing quotes #i miss u #sad aesthetic #unrequited love #im so tired #heartbreak #i love u #im sorry #depressing life #come back to me #love #i love you #i still love you

[aether-weather]

SAGESUNE MIKU >:DDD

#i rise from the dead once again!! #sorry about the long periods of time in between me posting #school is absolutely kicking my ass right now and i havent had any time to draw the creatures :( #ive also just been feeling unsatisfied with my art as of late #its probably just too much time online looking at other peoples art making me feel bad about myself #even though im improving as fast as i can it doesnt feel like im getting any better #but i know from experience that that feeling doesnt go away with time #so i guess ill always see flaws in my art no matter how hard i try to get better #man. that got really depressing :/ #anyways SAGE!!! i love her she is my favorite of all time and im going to draw her so much yall dont even KNOW :D #ive got tons of other stuff planned too so watch out >:3 #i could hit you guys with 6 paragraphs of au lore any day now #sonic the hedgehog #sage robotnik #AWWWHHHGG SHE HAS HER OWN LITTLE TAG IM SOBBING #anyways #sage sonic #hatsune miku #i guess #whoof im scared to post this #or maybe im just exhausted #probably both :/

[lemorgochan]

rereading pandora hearts music inspo [ID: Vincent gently hugs Gilbert, one hand on his back and the other on Gil's head. Gil is embarrassed and a bit sad, Vincent has a warm smile. Everything is in warm yellow and dark blue tones, there are few warm yellow stars. End ID]

#pandora hearts #vincent nightray #gilbert nightray #them. the #vincent loves gil so much it melts me #and gil gives me neuron activation i want to fucking eat him alive #no wonder vincent loves his adorable brother so much #but just this feeling is like ... damn .... he can feel such strong things wow #wish i was capable of that amount of love or could recieve it #i probably still kin alice so this monologue is very funny #tsundere comes out of mind jail and is mesmerized by emotions #i have friends tho im not lonely just depressed

[legendarydragonperson]

tortured poets department

#im still here #they were my childhood #and made me realize i had depression #and that i was gay #dan howell #dodie #dodie clark #i love gay British people #gay people