#im just tired of all of it

[actualtoad]

my parents are fighting

#it had been a couple days and now my dad is really pissed #im just tired of all of it #im working on writing thank you cards to my teachers but im not feeling any positive energy anymore #so i think im going to just stop for now? but maybe i can finish before i go to sleep #they could keep this up forever though #im going to turn on some white noise because i don’t think i can deal with music right now but i could really use some sounds #anyway im doing okay i just kind of. have to complain to someone when there starts being screaming in my house? #because otherwise i end up feeling like im making it all up but my dad is SCREAMING at my mom calling her boring and unforgiving and #telling her to leave him the f*ck alone. so. that’s the vibe out here #they moved downstairs but the layer of floor does NOTHING. wait do you know what my dad sounds like #marlin when he’s yelling at nemo like toward the beginning of the movie my dad sounds like him #making the most of a bad situation with movie references #anyway i really want my dad to leave HER the f*ck alone actually. he’s calling her malevolent but he’s the one yelling and intimidating her #it’s not. fair. to decide that she’s a terrible problem when this is what happens whenever he gets upset at her. i just want her to get out #honestly. and i want them to get back divorcing please!!!! why did you guys stop doing that it was a good friggin idea #i told my mom that i didn’t want them to. back when she was first talking about it. but now i really wish she had #we can’t really afford for her to have her own apartment though so idk what would even happen. i just want it to end #anyway im fine but just. yeah. im going to turn on some music i think actually. and i think keep writing #me. my post. mine. #delete later #vent cw #don’t let me kill the mood this is just. a general vent because it’s kind of infuriating having this constantly in the periphery #i want a hug. and im tired. and i want to go home. but. im okay and im going to listen to music and everything’s fine

[tawaifeddiediaz]

you know what boils my blood.

over the last 2 weeks, i've seen countless patients walk into my urgent care center, symptomatic for so many things, refusing to get tested for covid and flu, citing that they don't want to knowingly bring it to their holiday tables. i had a patient tell me, verbatim, "i don't want to test for covid, because i don't want to be the asshole who brings it on a plane."

i understand that - i understand that holidays are times where people look forward to meeting loved ones that they might only see once a year, or where they get a break from the hectic back and forth of their lives.

but here's the thing - whether they get tested or not, they will bring whatever they have to their holiday tables. it's pure recklessness to know that you're sick, and walk into someone else's house spreading the disease.

today, january 2, i saw 91 patients, many of them who have tested positive for covid and flu. many of these patients are the same ones who didn't want testing 3 days ago, until their events were over, and now, they will have to reach out to everyone they know to let them know that they were positive because they were showing symptoms well before their event.

the next week or two? we're going to see many, many more, all people with symptoms that started around christmas. these are the only two viruses we test for rapidly in our office, but they are potent and can be fatal in many people.

so here's why i wrote this post, and maybe it's a little late, but - if you care about your loved ones, please get tested if you know you're sick. it doesn't have to be at a clinic if you don't want it to, because the over-the-counter tests work just fine too (if you test within 5-7 days of symptom onset). just...please don't try to run from the knowledge that you might have covid, because immunocompromised people, elderly people, people with co-morbidities like asthma, pregnancy, diabetes, etc...many of them may not recover. and they may not be sitting at your holiday table in the future because of it.

#zee rambles #this isn't to guilt trip anyone #but im so so tired of people coming in and just refusing testing because they want to see grandma or whatever #and on top of that people are avoiding vaccinations and all that too?? #we all lived through the pandemic - everyone saw how many people unfortunately passed away from it #now because of vaccinations and some amount of herd immunity we're finding milder cases in healthy people #but that doesn't mean its gone #that doesn't mean it doesn't have long-term repercussions even in healthy people and that doesn't mean people aren't still dying from it #honestly i just needed a lil rant #and if this helps at least one person??? im all for it #also i can't sleep so here we are spilling thoughts into the voidddd

[forestofsprites]

i'm such a friend lover. i genuinely believe that my friends are the coolest funniest loveliest most ridiculously joyous people out there! im biased as hell!! i think theyre all rad! and the universe just so happened to slip all these beloved people into my orbit! and vice versa!! wtf!

#hey guys . im so tired #i just spent a few hours catching up on a show with my beloved friend after months n months . and i feel healed #so healed #i love friends #i love you all #& i love teleparty for allowing these little moments of delight #goodnight :")))) sending little beams of warmth at us all #thoughts

[anticapitalistmongoose]

alright boys, girls, neither, both, and those in between we need to clear something up:

if someone says they are queer, they are queer.

no ifs, ands, buts, etc. they are queer.

and if they discover later that they're cishet, great, amazing, wonderful, i'm glad we gave them community when they were figuring themselves out and needed it.

no gatekeeping of queerness here, alright?

because when shit hits the fan queerphobes wont care whether you're a cis gay man who goes by he/him or a bigender aromantic pansexual who goes by it/its

so stop with the respectability politics.

we're a community, fucking act like it.

#im tired of all the shit so id thought id clear this up #if you gatekeep other ppl's identities just shut up #important #queer #queer community #lgbtq #lgbtqia #lgbtq community #trans #gay #lesbian #bisexual #intersex #asexual #aromantic #pansexual #bigender #genderfluid #genderqueer

[porrigens]

pegoryu valentine :3

#p5 #persona 5 #persona 5 royal #ryuji sakamoto #sakamoto ryuji #pegoryu #persona 5 protagonist #akira kurusu #ren amamiya #i made this last year LOL #sorry for not posting </3 i forget #idk when i'll post again</3 #but beleive in me ... please.... its all i have... #i just finished a big assignment in uni im so tired #i typed 5000 words in two hours #anyways i like pegoryu ryuji would bounce his leg when hes nervous #i need to replay p5 games at some point tbh the motivation isn't there for p5 anymore sad emoji

[ursiday]

Arnica might take out the throes that I threw in my head

#bruno your wife shakes the bedclothes as she makes up your bed... #IM TIRED OF LIFE IM TIRED OF WAITING FOR SOMEONE............ #sufjan stevens all delighted people enjoyers make some noise. all delighted people raise your hands etc #lackadaisy #viktor vasko #elsa bastion #fanart #did you know that arnica is in the daisy family I just thought that was interesting :)

[haunted-xander]

Well, I guess you didn't have much of a choice either

#sooooo fucked up being a teenage boy just messing around with friends one day #and the next weird monsters are after you #and suspicious guys youve never met before start telling you you shouldnt even exist #and even the gentle girl who seems to know SO much that you met #says you have to disappear #all for the sake of this one boy youve never heard of #who apparently everyone loves and wants back #even if it means essentially killing someone else(you) #and youre expected to just. follow along and sacrifice yourself for him #even though you are also a real perosn with real friends (or so you believe) #and at the end you do it #because youre tired and confused #and part of you feels like it should do it #that its the right thing to do #even though you still dont know anything bc no one will tell you #except for the girl but everyone always goes out of their way to stop her #anyway im rambling the kh2 prolouge is so fucked up when u think about it #roxas #sora #kingdom hearts #kingdom hearts 2 #kh #kh2 #art #my art #xanders art #digital art #fan art

[vriskan8or]

let her go

#homestuck #vriska serket #terezi pyrope #vriska #terezi #vrisrezi #mic_art #screencap redraw of that one utena scene woohoo #vrisrezi and utenanthy dont share many similarities but there are some interesting parallels that can be drawn #like theyre all characters who are devoted to the respective roles they think they have #utena needs to be a prince and vriska needs to be a hero #terezi needs to cast vriska as the villain so that she can be the one to bring her to justice while anthy #is resigned to her role as the rose bride and is cast as a witch by others (and herself in a way...) to justify her suffering #im too tired to put into words all the other shit rattlign around in my brain but something something vriska society violence princes utena #something interesting to note is that in the rgu stabbing scene utena is walking to the left while is hs vriskas walking to the right #which i think is mostly a cultural difference due to english being read left to right while japanese is read right to left #changing which direction is percieved as forward #which could be read further into but could also just be the natural flow of the scene or whateevr #idk i need to peruse ohtori.nu again i looooove reading utena essays

[temeyes]

nibble (photo ref here!!)

#like father like son (they salivate too much) #like if dad!ghost lives a silly life.. dad!soap lives a very VERY chaotic one #his son is a MENACE (just like him LOL) #first few years of his fatherhood is like wtf?? and his spouse is like “bitch our kid's EXACTLY LIKE YOU???” #ok im very tired from cleaning all day gonna turn in early babes mwaHHHH #my art #2024 #call of duty #call of duty: modern warfare #call of duty: modern warfare ii #call of duty: modern warfare iii #cod #cod mw #cod mwii #cod mwiii #modern warfare #mw #mw2 #mw3 #soap cod #soap mactavish #johnny soap mactavish #dad!soap #art #fanart #digital art #digital drawing #sketch #doodle #video games

[sallymew4]

anime Mob not being as sassy as manga Mob was truly a loss

look at these

it even looks like he’s kind of grinning

#little sassboy #‘see my previous remark’ ?! #woah little man ! better watch your tone there ! #hes so funny #i like him #also sorry for all the low effort posts #ill try to get some art n stuff out….cuz i love yall……. #im just silly tired rn 4 no rezn #and like kinda buzy #but thats liek all the time so hhehe #mob psycho 100 #mp100 #shigeo kageyama #kageyama shigeo

[cinderellahoneymoon]

im being so fucking for real and i need you guys to boost and reblog this you nonblack selfshippers have got to stop using "simp." you have to. its african american vernacular english (aave) which in colloquial terms means its not for you to use. in a space already hostile towards shippers of color, youre just making it more inhospitable to black selfshippers by appropriating our language. say youre crushing. say youre obsessed. say youre head over heels, say youre a sucker, say youre infatuated, just stop saying simp. for the love of god

{nonblack shippers [even other shippers of color] i do NOT want to hear your opinion on this post or hear about how you "didnt know" or are "changing it right now." just be an ally and LISTEN instead of needing to add your piece.}

#at this point i am just desperate . trying to get the word out there bc clearly ppl still dont know #im TIRED of all these nonblack shippers having simp in their username or their bio #one of the main reasons i dont interact w the community is bc its so ISOLATING and so many ppl are so ignorant #and everything is so white-centric that i cant stand it #squiddyneg #squiddyspeak #f/o community #self shipping #self ship #self ship community #f/o #romantic f/o #familial f/o #platonic f/o #f/o x s/i #f/o positivity #f/o comfort #imagine your f/o #f/o imagines #selfshipping #selfship #selfship community #selfship positivity #fictional other #comfort character #f/o prompts #imagine your fictional other #comfort character imagines #poc selfship #poc selfshipper

[jarebear20]

Mutuals, pls try to avoid reblogging spoiler posts with the game that shall not be named. I'm trying to block that whole nonsense and those posts don't usually have the keywords to filter

#pls be courteous to your friendly neighborhood bear #im just tired of all of it #don't add to its engagement

[rendevok]

“Take my hand” pages 5-11

1 - day 2 - truth - 3

#nmweek23 #narumitsu #wrightworth #phoenix wright #miles edgeworth #i spent all yesterday shading and lettering these your boy is so tired BUT IT WAS WORTH IT #in which i cram way too much into way too little and yet way too many pages for a single day #my sincerest apologies to them on their day but i will make it up to them i PROMISE #‘prove it’ you’ll NEVER GUESS what happens next :^))))) (<-guy who is extremely predictable) #phoenix is so strong because if miles looked at me like that i’d be going crazy and im like a known enemy of edgeworth #see you guys in like 5-7 business days on part 3 o7 #fan art #aa #fan comic #rendevok #OH OH ALSO there’s like a whole fucking essay i could write about these pages esp wrt light and also The Hands but youll have to ask for it #just know that if you see something… there was probably a reason for it! #ok thats it fr this time

[arcanegifs]

ARCANE LEAGUE OF LEGENDS: 1x08 - "Oil and Water"

#arcaneedit #netflixedit #animationedit #arcane vi #arcane #vi #arcane league of legends #league of legends arcane #vi arcane #media: arcane #type: gif #s1 ep8 #testing my upscaled 4k arcane videos #god its kinda hard to splice the videos skdjfksf idk if im making all my gifs using the 4k base bc it takes too long to do ngl #but 4k is so much better for gifs ugh #i'll just experiment for a while #the coloring is so bad skdjksdf but its 3am and i am tired

[lilblueorchid]

Just a little longer, just a little further... Then, you can rest, I promise.

#painting #nature #gouache #burnout #tiredness #stress #anxiety #burn out #creative fatigue #im doing fine lol #just #very tired!!! #I dislike the end of the year it always sap all of my energy away