#creative fatigue

[lilblueorchid]

Just a little longer, just a little further... Then, you can rest, I promise.

#painting #nature #gouache #burnout #tiredness #stress #anxiety #burn out #creative fatigue #im doing fine lol #just #very tired!!! #I dislike the end of the year it always sap all of my energy away

[quanticq]

Hey Q! Sorry for bothering you, but for some reason I can no longer find any of your tik tok accounts 😭 Did they get deleted or something?

Hi this is Q! I’m coming out of the woodwork to address this, since I did went radio silent out of the blue so it’s not a bother at all

The short answer is Yes, I deleted my tiktok

Yes delete not deactivate, I’m not coming back to That app or IG or Twt, I deleted my socials except here and YouTube, I honestly felt so overwhelmed with everything, I realized I’m not even posting for myself anymore there. A lots of people crossed my boundaries time and time again I felt so helpless, bitter with myself. I guess I was just overwhelmed with the attention I got; both positive and negatives ones.

Im done and I want to start over so that’s why I’m here and on YouTube, I already posted some of these on my community tab on YT but here’s what I have in mind for the future of the content I want to create: more detail under the cut, and also;

CW: very brief mention of spiraling, harm inflict oneself or others, paranoia, etc

•Long-form content: my attention span is a bit messed up from consuming and making short-form content to the point where I can’t focus in university. I want to create something meaningful. It’s not that my previous content was not meaningful, no. I had fun and no time is wasted when I have fun, it was warm… but as I mentioned earlier, I just felt this lingering bitterness the longer I stayed making those short-form content. It really felt like I was on the verge of losing it. Especially with how the bigger following I have the less people think of me as a person than just another content creator you see on the internet,

I want to create long-form content, I’m so tired of forcing myself to generate 15 second content. On tiktok it just feels like I’m just creating and not really connecting. I want to try something new, maybe create an open space for meaningful discussion in the comments. I don’t think I can stand another copy-paste tiktok comment anymore. You know what I meant if you’re frequent on that app.

•Art Content with Commentary: and don’t worry this won’t be those petty artist drama issue, but I will still cover anything serious

it could be love letters or video essays ranging from fan fictions, fandom culture, the art scene and so much more. I may even share a bit of my personal life, this will be self indulgent after all! I want to make it fun for myself and as well to those who comes across my channel. I really REALLY want to create a genuine following.

On tiktok it’s so easy to gain following but not so easy to retain them, it’s mostly because of the algorithm and the FYP feature there.

On Tiktok most content that would get featured as an artist there would be creative work has to be either; more than exceptional which is pressuring enough already to consistent posters, straight up suggestive content shown to minors (tiktok doesn’t really have a blocked keywords feature but it’s so disheartening to see these creators intentionally not using the sensitive warning since it could limit their reach significantly) oh yes we can’t forget the negativity surrounding beginner artists or “art lore”

All of this cesspool of negativity, it’s a whole can of worms but it will be one of my prominent topics that I wish to discuss in my future art commentaries. I hope you guys are looking forward to those! I might bring in a few people or so to talk about it with me

and finally;

•Streaming: I used to do a lot of streams during the weekends on the clock app and it was super fun! I want to bring that back but that would have to wait since I’m unfamiliar with some features on YouTube, and I’m aware that YT does not have a discoverable feature for stream but that’s alright, I want to start something small first.

In short; I’ll figure it out! just need some baby steps before I start streaming again.

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I apologize for deleting everything out of the blue, if I’m gonna be honest it was partially planned because I’ve been thinking about deleting my tiktok, twitter and Instagram for a while now but how it happened? In my breakdown I realized that I don’t want anyone to see me spiral, especially now that I realized how young my audience are, I’m not sure how that happened but I guess posting fandom contents does attract the young ones somehow inevitably, even though my content is nowhere near as suggestive, but I do talk about serious topics from time to time… but I digress, its not fair for them to deal with me if they see me spiral publicly,

it is especially not fair to them to console me. When I was younger than 14, I’ve been in a position where I have to talk down someone who was older, maybe 4-5 years older than me, from harming themselves or anyone, it was traumatizing and unpleasant. I don’t wish for anyone to go through that, it’s very painful.

It’s been… hard for me to ground myself. Ive been seeing things through a kaleidoscope of emotions; I was trying to focus on everything but it’s just too overwhelming so eventually I cracked. But please don’t worry I’ve been doing better now, after some time away from my online persona, and of course spending time with my beloved girlfriend, I see things much more clearly now.

Thank you to anyone who read this and much so appreciate those who understand where I’m coming from

Also now that I think of it can my stuff be considered as lost media now? Amazing! But please don’t be sad the fun I had was genuine!

Thank you again to those who genuinely enjoyed my content on tiktok but it’s time for me to try my hand at something new, I will still be dwelling in my creative headspace just.. away from public for now,

if you’re looking forward for my future post, make sure to check out my YouTube! I still have a lot I need to cook hehe, this is one of the few!

More post soon, Bye bye! -Q

#vent #mental health #mentions of unhealthy habits #I’m not sure how to tag these but I’ll try my best! #social media #q myers #tiktok #burnt out #creative fatigue #sorry for the rant #rant #content creator #art community

[lolliepopcrusader]

Calling all chronic creatives - here's how to up your crochet game!

I'm an avid crocheter, but holding the hook for long periods of time became exhausting and painful. Being chronically ill, losing the ability to enjoy my hobbies was tough for me accept.

My husband took me to the craft store and we purchased a ergonomic crochet handle. This handle needed to fit my criteria;

able to hold a variety of hook sizes

hold up to high tension crochet projects (I do a lot of amigurumi crochet, which you need to complete with tight tension)

reduce my wrist/hand pain

reduce the amount of grip strength needed to hold the hook to avoid fatigue

This ergonomic crochet handle *seemed* to tick all these boxes. It was quite an expensive purchase and to be honest, I was disappointed in it in all aspects.

The purchased handle uses small rubber stoppers to hold the crochet hook in place, but as you are crocheting the hook works loose and spins around inside it. The handle itself was too small, making it painful to hold. I had to use a lot of grip strength to keep it in my hand, which is what I was trying to avoid by purchasing the darn thing. The little knobbly bit at the end really dug into my hand and hurt. It was so annoying to use and I gave up on it altogether after three days of using it (not to mention one of the rubber pieces broke apart within hours).

I expressed my disappointment to my husband, and he decided to come to my rescue! Over the course of a week, he designed me his own ergonomic crochet handle in a computer program called CAD. He then printed it out using his 3D printer. I can't even begin to tell you how much I love this new handle - its a game changer!

During the design process, he took into consideration all of my complaints about the disappointing handle and my criteria that I had listed. The handle he designed is bigger, so it uses less grip strength to hold it in place which also reduces my pain.

Instead of using rubber stoppers like the other handle, he designed a 'lock and key' system for keeping the crochet hooks in place and it works fabulously! The hook never moves and I'm really rough with my crochet hooks. It holds up to my high tension crochet projects and I have completed many amigurumi with it, even small, intricate items. Since it is designed with the lock and key system, my husband was easily able to print different keys to be able to hold multiple sizes. I've got keys ranging from 1.25mm all the way up to 6mm!

I can now crochet for hours on end and I swear my crochet skills have gotten so much better.

After expressing my delight at the crochet handle my husband designed for me, both him and I want others to be able to experience the freedom that I now have when crocheting. With chronic illnesses, its important for you to be able to continue with your passions as much as possible, so we have decided to make this crochet handle a sellable physical item for others to enjoy.

Here's the link to purchase one if you would like to give it a go!

Each crochet handle will come with the hook sizes;

1.25mm

2mm

3mm

4mm

4.25mm

5mm

6mm

If you want other hook sizes, send us a message and we can design one.

The cost of the handle and keys covers the cost of the 3D printing material, we are not making a profit off of this because we want as many people suffering from chronic illness to be able to enjoy crocheting again. We are happy to post internationally as we are based in New Zealand, send us a message before purchasing so that I can get you the cost of shipping.

I hope you will love this crochet handle and hook set as much as I have!

#cfs/me #chronic fatigue #chronic illness #chronically ill #me cfs #myalgic encephalomyelitis #spoonie #chronic fatigue syndrome #chronic pain #mobility #mobility aid #crochet #crocheting #amigurumi #yarn crafts #yarn #hobbies #creativity #life hacks #hobby #craft

[horse-head-farms]

au where hypno is a demon!

the human xb summons him not to sell his soul but with a business deal, see, demonic deals work that its a soul in exchange for whatever you want, not necessarily your own soul, but a soul. hypno cannot interact with people except his summoner, but xb can run a business where he asks for “harmless” IOUs from people, getting them to sign a piece of paper which is actually a contract for possession of your soul. since xb is a regular human, it would mean nothing, but with hypno’s help it’s magically binding and they enter a mutually beneficial deal where hypno gets a ridiculous amount of souls and xb is given what he wants by hypno.

their partnership starts off solely as a business one, but as time goes on, they grow closer and also begin to care about the business that was just supposed to be a front for them to gain souls, and once xb gets the power and wealth he originally wanted, they focus their efforts on growing Horsehead Farms as a company. they advertise themselves as a “safer” alternative than dealing directly with demons, giving people whatever they want in exchange for an IOU - not a real soul (it is their real soul, but they don’t tell them that). they manage to become a major competitor to all of hell. since it has a human head of the company, people assume it is more trustworthy. xb and hypno engage in all sorts of evil capitalistic ventures

eventually hypno gets kicked out of hell, a feat no-one thought possible, for ruining every other demons’ livelihood, and is reincarnated into a regular human. xb is investigated by officials due to the scammy and dangerous nature of Horsehead Farms, and in an epic car chase where xb tries to escape, he crashes and dies. for all the human lives he’s ruined by stealing souls, he is sent to hell and becomes a demon. they find eachother, and seeing how there’s still one human and one demon overall, they see no reason to not start their business again

#got the idea from that fanon swap thing going around. but demon hypno also kinda makes sense #feels weird drawing human xb… where your fins at bro #i imagine this is an urban fantasy setting. modern life but magic and deals are a well known phenomenon #keralis is xb’s sexy secretary i think #idk yet what the consequences are of stealing peoples souls but my current thought process is it either: drains their creativity and makes #them fatigued. or it means they don’t get an afterlife as their soul is already being used by the demon #hermitcraft #hhf #hermitcraft au #hermitblr #hypnotizd #xbcrafted #hermitcraft fanart

[darubyprincx]

to be, or not to be (romanticization of the inevitable)

#ray's tag #keys' art #undescribed #skeletons #ok to reblog #the skeleton model that i traced for this was provided by the incredible kiku @kikunai whom you can find right here on tumblr! #so uh. This is a piece about chronic fatigue although the original idea i had for it drifted a bit as soon as I started coloring the linear #(i really enjoy shading and lighting things and got a bit carried away here but i stand by my choice because this is my favorite thing #that i've ever drawn) #anyways. i often feel especially lately with school being back in season that my bones are leaden with this sort of. weariness. theyre heav #it weighs on our mental health and energy a lot and although there's a couple of reasons we have been given for it #that doesn't remove the fact that this is still a thing that affects us in a very real way day to day although we are good at masking it. #often i come home to find that i do not have the physical mental or creative energy to work on things i really want to #especially project: nexus which i feel extra bad about even though i can't help it because i just started it so recently #it is a mild to moderate struggle to make it day to day and i just. wanted to represent this somehow #my original concept for this was a skeleton with some black goop gunk whatever leaking from its joints #but as i started adding the cracks and coloring them gold (a personal touch; kintsugi is a concept that is very dear to us) #i realized that the focus here was less on the condition itself and more on the body that it afflicts. #so i put it into a spotlight. #ironic i know since very little people acknowledge this irl or even know it exists at all but i added rim lighting. I added color gradients #I colored the lineart and made it all fancy and even added a flare for the head to get the point across that even at its core; disability i #a performance. this is not implying that disabilities are fake in fact this is the opposite of that. i wanted to show that with disabilitie #especially i think in my personal opinion the invisible ones #we are all masking at least a little bit during the vast majority of the day. humans are social creatures and it is only when we are alone #or with someone we deeply trust where we allow ourselves to be who we truly are without fear and even then that can be rare #so i wanted to show this bit of the soul in as broad a limelight as i could. idk this is a really abstract piece and i dont know if anyone #will even get it but it matters to me at least. and even though we've been largely bedridden for the past week i think that's okay #we will get it figured out. all of us. okay? okay. i love you. i fucking love you. we are going to fucking make it #(also the xes over the eyes are because i thought they looked cool they have no deeper meaning at least i think they dont #actually i think they do but i cant put it into words idk. Art is subjective assign your own meaning i'm gonna go get a shower)

[witchygirlgray333]

Chronic illness journal ideas :

Notes from appointments

Medication lists

Things to keep in your hospital go bag

Symptoms tracker

List of your diagnosis

Some information about all of your conditions

Pain tracker

Headache tracker

Mediation tracker

Self care ideas for low spoon ideas

Useful resources / websites

Favourite chronic illness quotes

Brain dumps

Natural remedies for things

Favourite podcasts about chronic illness

Write out the lyrics to a song that you relate to because of your chronic illness

Mood trackers

Flare up trackers

Books about chronic illnesses or chronic pain you want to read

Flare up essentials

Pain scale

List of your physio exercises

List of things to mention / questions to ask at your next appointment

Emergency info

Emergency contacts

Write a letter to your pain or to your illness

Who are you without your illness

Lessons you learnt from your illness

Which things have changed in your life since becoming ill

Things to pack for an overnight stay in hospital

Write down your daily obs so you can keep track

What was your diagnosis journey like

Write a letter to your doctor/s (rant, thank them etc)

What has your illness taught you about accountability

How do you let go of the thought ‘why me’

How do you cope with loneliness

Are you kind to yourself

What do you need to remind yourself on bad pain / flare days

Quotes / poetry / songs to help you through difficult days

#journal #journalling #creativity #alt #art #art journal #journal ideas #journal prompts #chronic illness #chronically ill #chronic pain #chronic fatigue #spoonie #spoon theory

[baratrongirl]

If you are a person with erratic health who sometimes goes years without writing, how do you get back into it?

I have an idea for Ace Attorney Rare Pair week which has been doing the fic equivalent of burning a hole in my pocket for a while now, and I have to write it because if I don't, no one else will.

I booted up my fic-writing laptop for the first time in months, and there are so many half-written stories on my hard drive. They range from 25% to 75% written, and quite a few of them I know were not far off being finished before my unintentional, unexpected hiatus. As in, they only needed a few more days of concentrated effort to put together.

Somehow I need to remember that I can write - never rapidly enough to be a Big Name Fan, not at this stage of my life. Nor do I subscribe to all of the currently popular headcanons in the fandom. But I can write well enough to entertain myself and my friends. I just need to... Start.

Any advice would be welcomed.

#fanfiction #chronic illness #spoonie #highly variable creativity levels #enjoying fandom with chronic fatigue and depression #how do i do this?

[cappuccinosandclouds]

REQUESTING MUTUAL AID

Black queer disabled DID system in need of assistance getting necessary medications.

Current goal: $500

Any and all assistance is appreciated. Includes sharing even if you can't donate. Thank you for your time <3

CashApp: $11km5

PayPal: 11kem5

Venmo: kem115

#mutual aid #mutual aid request #support black artists #support black creatives #beige aesthetic #beige #aesthetic #aes #beige and white #did system #actually did #actually cptsd #actually traumatized #actually autistic #disabled #spoonie #chronically ill #chronic illness #chronic pain #chronic fatigue #chronic migraine #autoimmine disease #immunocompromised #trans #nonbinary #queer #lgbtq+

[swordsonnet]

the most annoying thing about me/cfs is that it's more like 10 different illnesses in a trenchcoat. i'll wake up with a new symptom and be like "oh okay, guess that's what we're doing today"

#pretty much anything can be a symptom of me/cfs so you're constantly left wondering if the new bullshit you're going through #is a sign of some other illness or if its just your old pal me/cfs getting creative again #ive been having a really bad whole body itch these past few days and i have no idea where it's coming from or when it's going to go away #but i would like not to feel like theres an electric current running beneath my skin thanks #i think the constant fatigue brain fog and muscle pain is more than enough #maybe it's just a crash or something though idk #(briefly) left the house for the first time in over a month on friday and it was really nice but my body Did Not Like It #so now its punishing me for my hubris #ugh #chronic illness #actually chronically ill #me/cfs #myalgic encephalomyelitis #chronic fatigue syndrome #can someone please come up with a better name for this illness #chronic illness fuckery

[blackbiird-poetry]

Let me.

let me be hurt

let me be angry

let me be upset

that my body’s not working

let me cry

and complain to the wind

you’re supposed to understand

you’re supposed to be my friend.

#poetry #poems on tumblr #blackbiirdpoetry #poets on tumblr #writing #creative writing #writer #writebIr #writers on tumblr #chronic illness #chronic pain #chronically ill #chronic fatigue #disability #disabled #disabilties

[watchersclaws-blog]

Godda Love it.

tldr I got up from writing to get a drink quickly and spent 4 hours cleaning instead.

I Hate that My ADHD Hyper focus is Almost All Hyper, and No Focus. I start getting into a groove with Writing or another task I wanted to complete (Like a build in space engineers).

But then next thing I know,

I've cleaned my entire Apartment piece by piece Over the last $ hours Procrastinating Writing and or the task I was just getting good and into.

May I add,

I have had the doc open the whole time Just staring at me guilting me to clean faster to get back to working on it.

I mean I love that I Finally cleaned, don't get me wrong. Fatigue Will give you a F.I.S.H. kind of attitude some days, but

It's just not How I was hoping to productive today.

why must getting a glass of water lead me Away from writing. for four hours...

#adhd #adhd problems #adhd brain #neurodivergent #neurodiversity #executive dysfunction #space engineers #pc games #writing #creative writing #writers block #new kind of Writers block #Drink water #stay hydrated #chronic fatigue #the fatigue is real #chronic pain #health issues

[summerdragoness]

Fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue syndrome is such an awful mix as a creative person. It hampers every single possibility of making art for days, to weeks, to months.

And, literally, the only thing you can do is suck it up and deal with the fact that you've lost all those days of your life to doing -absolutely nothing productive-.

I want to draw, and I'm getting increasingly frustrated.

#fibromyalgia #chronic fatigue #art #illustration #creative #doing a lot of nothing is not fun #bleh

[worldbuildingwanderlust]

White wall of fog

Oppressively pernicious

Deletes the world beyond

In an act of

Criminal erasure

.

.

.

How cruel

To be

Wrongfully imprisoned

In the material

Present

#my writing #poetry #poem #nature #fog #foggy #spirituality #spiritual journey #mental fatigue #meditation #lack of focus #creative writing #spilled ink #poets on tumblr #writers on tumblr #writers and poets #quick write

[yukiwhitetm]

Chronically

by Yuki White @yukiwhitetm @sentariana

I'm so tired

Of being tired.

I wish I could be

Full of energy.

I wish I could run

Like a tiger chasing the sun!

I wish I could swim

Like a dolphin bobbing and diving!

I wish I could climb

Like an ape reaching for the sky!

I wish I could live

Like an able human takes and gives.

But you're not me

And I'm not you, clearly.

So, I have to keep living as me,

Tired, Pained, Chronically.

#actually disabled #disabled #chronic pain #chronic fatigue #always tired #very tired #im really tired #mentally tired #tired #my poem #original poem #my poetry #poets on tumblr #poem #poetry #poems and poetry #original poetry #original writer #writeblr #authors on tumblr #authors #author #creative writing #rhyming poem #rhyming poetry #rhyming #rhyme #short rhyme #yukiwhitetm

[sivsii]

I MISS MAKING ART SO MUCH IT HURTS

#uaghhhhhh #Art stuff #avoiding having to confront creative fatigue by throwing yourself into non stop work for a year does not make things better surprisingly!

[ivorydice]

Torn between feeling incredibly amused and kinda bummed out that an old screenshot of mine that people reposted around is now on some officially licensed collab clothing thing. Like. Aww. But also lmaoooooooo.

#i can't be specific unfortunately because i'd like to keep my old blog private #and yes i'm 98% sure it's mine because it's a very unique picture #because i used hacks to get it lol #i've had my pics and gifs from my old blog reposted a lot before #yesterday i found some of them on twitter #i hope it becomes a mystery #i hope someone realises hey this picture isn't possible to get in game and it's not a part of any promos at all so where did it come from #it was meeeeeeeeeee #lol it's probably just the depression + fatigue that makes me feel bummed out about it #and also that i'm not having a great time creatively lately #like i do have much bigger problems to think about #i might actually buy the sweatshirt that would be kinda funny. and also i do kinda like it #okay glugging caffeine time to forget about it byeeeeeeeeee #dice ramblings