#it was a very emotional day

[altruisticenigma]

I am now legally

That Bitch™️

Just kidding,

Today I legally changed my name to Miyerkules; Myr for short 🇵🇭❤️

❤️‍🔥12/15/23 ❤️‍🔥

I already have my court order document and sped ran through SSA updates. Now I’m just waiting on my card in the mail 💞

Name ramblings and queer pride below this cut:

I chose the name Miyérkules for several reasons:

1) I never knew what name I wanted to change to, just that I desperately wanted to get rid of my birth name. Every time someone called me by my birth name I internally cringed. I was picky and never found anything I liked. Last March after returning from the Philippines, I figured out I wanted a Filipino name to honor my culture. “Miyérkules” means Wednesday in Tagalog which is the day I was born. It also is as far removed from any Christian or Spanish influence as possible, save from the fact the word is the same in Spanish just spelled differently lol.

2) Wednesday is the middle of the week. Kind of a crossroads. Hekate is my patron Goddess; in a way this is a nod to her.

3) I was surprised to find the word Wednesday originated from “Woden’s Day,” or Odin’s Day. I also worship Odin casually, and my last name is Norwegian in origin. My name was somehow a crossroads of both my Filipino and Nordic heritage now without me even intending.

4) Since it’s a day of the week, it’s also as gender neutral/ambiguous as it can get. Being non-binary it’s nice to not have a name that leans either way, or any way at all.

Miyerkules may be a mouthful and a half to say (I tell everyone this when I introduce myself with my new name lol), but it’s very significant and has a lot of thought put into it. 💕 I just tell people to call me Myr but some select special few call me my full first name which I adore and prefer.

Changing my name came with a lot of fear, doubt, and second guessing. Half of my family is Christian, the other half is Filipino- I was and still am worried to get criticism and judgement from both. The name I chose is definitely not common nor is it an easy name to pronounce. I’ve been afraid to draw attention to myself in a negative way.

But a couple of things pushed me forward with courage. First, testing my name with close people was a way to ease into it. My partner and friends of course had no problem.

My workplace is safe enough so I began to “transition” there later on- I changed my screen name in some systems and told people my new name. I was very surprised to find out that no one questioned my name change; they just took to it and only asked how to pronounce my name. Some even reached out to find ways to make me more comfortable.

I was even more surprised to find that when I started introducing myself to customers as my new name (nickname), they never made comments or questioned it either. I even had one customer who asked me what my full first name was which delighted me.

Changing my name has been miraculously easier than I thought, and blessed with more support than I thought possible. I have PTSD and struggle a lot with assuming the worst. I had a lot of hypervigilance going into this. Instead I’ve been more than reassured that in my everyday life I’m going to be okay. ❤️‍🩹

I still have to tell my extended family that I’ve legally changed my name, which is scary, but not so much now that I know I have support behind me to go back to. My parents already know (they’re one of the first I told and the people whose judgement I feared the most), and their reaction was completely tame. I’m ready to live my life the way I want to.

And that’s just what this is mostly about isn’t it? More than anything, I’ve realized this is my life and I get to live it the way I want to. I’ve lived for so long accommodating other people’s comfort levels and living in their comfort zones. I’ve made moves that restricted me but kept me safe. I want to live my life authentically, and I can’t keep waiting around for either a fear that isn’t there or for people to tolerate or accept me. I deserve to take up space and exist alongside other people, even if that inconveniences them.

Someone I loved died before they could live their life the way they wanted. The way I now live doesn’t just mean I honor myself, I honor their memory because I know that’s what they’d want for me. ❤️

Being queer isn’t just about finding your niche and existing in opposition- it’s existing DESPITE opposition. It’s powerful and so much more. I’ve learned a lot about myself this year; while the fear is still there, so is the determination and pride.

#name change #legal name change #queer #queer pride #lgbtq #lgbtq community #lgbtqia #non binary #enby #lgbtq positivity #tbh? the process was extremely simple; it’s the changing your name everywhere else that’ll get tedious lol #it was a very emotional day #pinoy pride #mestiza #anyway here’s wonderwall #anyway here’s a text post #name change saga

[bunathebunny]

interview myself when i see yuanqing fics on ao3 reached 400 be like

"and how do you feel about this development? 🎤 🎤 🎤"

"i am just *dabs tears* so... so... proud!"

"is there anything you wish to say to the people? 🎤 🎤 🎤"

"well *sneezes into a handkerchief* thank you from the bottom of my heart for all the delicious food you cook and i hope i can continue cooking with you in the future"

sorry i'm having a moment...

#true that i also ship all/yanqing but yuanqing is actually one of my go-to yanqing ships #it was a very emotional day #(yes i'm aware that i wrote like 1/5 of the english fics) #(no i don't really care if people think it's weird that i'm emotional over this) #(just cooking is very fun and the people here are chill)

[kipper-face-penny-bottle]

I love that Adaine goes, “Oh, she’s STUPID” whenever an NPC has an off moment when her best friends are:

-a guy who tried to fight hardened pirates with the members of his dad’s pyramid scheme

-a girl who tried to ribbon dance down a tower

-a guy who got tattoos of incomplete anagrams because he thought they were clues

-a guy who thought every stranger was his dad

-Hilda Hilda

#they’re her emotional support idiots and she loves them very much #except riz who just had that one day and is otherwise very smart #also in fairness sometimes its Siobhan talking #dimension 20 #d20 #fantasy high #fh #fhjy #fantasy high junior year #dimension 20 fantasy high #d20 fh #d20 fhjy #dropout #dropout tv #adaine abernant #riz gukgak #gorgug thistlespring #fig faeth #kristen applebees #fabian seacaster

[stuckinapril]

friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me

#It’s just so different #even though it’s public it still feels secret and safe. i feel comfy sharing a lot more on here than I do in my actual day to day life lol #in my head I’m also just speaking to myself 90% of the time which helps #if a friend off tumblr saw my thoughts I’d feel so weird ab it #esp bc they might get the vagueposting about certain situations and tell mutual friends #no thank u. this is for me. I’m not about to start censoring my thoughts bc someone I know knows my tumblr #u guys literally saw me have LIVE BREAKDOWNS #meanwhile I’ll have the worst fucking day in history and tell no one about it. I’m already cripplingly private but way more so in real life #this is basically a low stress journaling outlet for me. it’s so important for me to maintain the separation #like this is actually my diary & has been so handy for letting out emotions / articulating thoughts / staying on track !! #& I’ve met so many kind people on here who actually get me. which is so hard to find irl bc I’m surrounded by pre-med gunners/overachievers #who are by standard not very good w emotion & can be competitive/judgmental. or at least it’s hard for me to be vulnerable in front of them #and I’m part of that crowd so I reserve my emotions only to a handful of very close friends #it’s nice to hop on here and express negative emotions!! or positive emotions!! just whatever I want and it’s low stress and people get me #I don’t have to worry about judgment or competitiveness etc etc #like everyone on here is so kind & nice & understanding. & just a breath of fresh air from the types I run w. it’s just nice to have this #so idk that’s why I think I’ll always be strict about keeping the worlds separate. it just works #p

[sensitiveheartless]

(The rest is under the readmore!)

(Next part) ->

#breaking news: local man is confronted with the fact that if he uses dumb contests as an excuse to avoid emotional vulnerability — #then his partner is going to do the exact same thing lol #also covid update: I had a bit of a relapse and have been completely stuck in bed again the last couple days #am still definitely doing better than before but remain very very fatigued #apparently changing my bedsheets was a little much for me lol #anyway thank you to the people who have sent in asks the last couple days!! I am very excited to get to them #I just had to get this self indulgent comic out of my system first lololol #bsd #bsd dazai #bsd chuuya #soukoku #skk #bungou stray dogs #my art

[crescentfool]

reunion 🌸

#persona 3 #persona 3 spoilers #minato arisato #makoto yuki #ryoji mochizuki #aigis #ryomina #lizzy does art #HELLO EVERYONE!!! march 5th is upon us again so i bring... my contribution for this year. my third year drawing for it! #i made the thumbnail for this a few weeks after last year's graduation day #i thought it would be fun to lean into the ryominaigis angle of graduation day (you could read this as minato/aigis if you like- #but i feel like most people would read it as ryoji/minato) #IN ANY CASE working on this made me very emotional over this game :') (specifically minato) #i really enjoy how p3 ends it's such a nice way of wrapping up the narrative's messages and themes #working on this. minato's kindness was at the forefront of my mind throughout the piece #and i really wanted to capture how. ultimately it was his decision to sacrifice himself- to do the great seal #while to an outsider's perspective it is. sad that minato passes. i think becoming the seal is something that minato- #actively welcomes. in the same way that death (ryoji) is a comfort to him because death was housed in him for Ten YearsTM #AND I ALSO GOT REALLY SAD OVER AIGIS TOO. i still get fucked up over how in fes's animated cutscene for 3/5 they portray- #her as human and not drawing the robot parts so i wanted to do something smilar here... #but also i am very sad on aigis's behalf because she discovers her humanity through minato and realizes what she- #wants to do and then. well. minato is like. he's ready to pass on (even if he's scared) and im like. OH MY GOD THIS TRIO GETS ME MESSED UP #this was more coherent in my head LOL BUT ough i like drawing p3 and working through my feelings about it... #anyway! happy (in quotations) march 5th. i love this game to bits. it's so fun to draw for this day every year and see how i've improved #if you've read all this thank you :) lizzy appreciates you all very much. mwah! <3

[tapakah0]

@somerandomdudelmao TheDoodleBug on YT DID IT AGAIN

The animatic belongs to TheDoodleBug on youtube, go watch it if you wanna see quality Raph angst content because he's underestimated ;;~;;;

Original Song: Need You Here - I DONT KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME

#cass fanart tag #not mine #but GOD #Okay don't bring me back to Raph era I've already putted my soul in it I can't no more #rottmnt #cass apocalyptic series #mmmmmhmmmm #I'm being fed with my fixation very well #I will die with overwhelming emotions one day #Youtube #Cass hope you're doing fine after yesterday's ride XDD

[caelanglang]

The O(ccasionally)samu D(runk)azai

#drunk dazai bc hes the actual alcoholic one #also bc i wanted a very flustered chuuya #YES EVEN IF THEYRE MARRIED ALREADY BC WHY NOT #i hc drunk dazai is still pretty alert but then if he realizes its someone he someone he can trust (chuuya etc) he just goes soft boy mode #soft honest boy ehehe #also occasionally emotional and vulnerable and validation/reassurance seeking and chuuya always knows #okay i will stop rambling this was rotting my mind the past few days #playing wasia project's ur so pretty on the background when i was drawing these #behold. my therapy (real) #bsd #skk #my art #sketch #sketches #bsd dazai #bsd chuuya #established skk

[chronicowboy]

#sami rambles #the very real struggle of do i rewatch all of andor in one day bc its so good or do i never watch it again so i don't die of emotions #andor #andor tv #sw: andor #cassian andor #star wars andor #andor series #andor show #maarva andor #kino loy #luthen rael #karis nemik #andor spoilers #diego luna #star wars #sw

[gremliinsart]

There's something I've been thinking about Carnival Bubble...

I think Bubble sorta knows they're an ai in a video game. They kinda have to... it's their job.

But unlike the others, they've embraced it. Why? Because they have Caine, of course!

How wonderful it must be to know that you were literally made/designed to be someone's friend...

Welcomed into this world...loved for just being you...

What a wonderful existence that must be.

AU belongs to @sm-baby

#art #digital art #gremlins art #the amazing digital carnival au #idk I just think it's a very sweet idea #it's like when you adopt a pet and you look into their eyes for the first time #I imagine it was a very emotional moment for Caine #especially considering that Bubble holds all his memories #he knows they'll do their best to keep them safe 💖 #anywhoo there's a simple drawing for you until I get my motivation back #mwa 💖 #edit: SORRY I FORGOR TO @ YOU BESTIE #took me like a whole day to realize too NDHSJHSKA #oups

[nuppu-nuppu]

give Megumi his dad back

#jjk #jujutsu kaisen #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #fushiguro megumi #fushiguro megumi fanart #gojo satoru #gojo satoru fanart #parental gojo satoru #it's his dad ;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; #sorry i make every background green it's my fave color #i've been very emotional about them all day #I can't stop thinking about them #I need some good dad gojo fics #if u got any recs pls give me #megumi fushiguro #satoru gojo #fushiguro megumi jujutsu kaisen #gojo satoru jujutsu kaisen #fluff #family fluff #i love them so much #fanart #art #artists on tumblr #artists of tumblr #clip studio paint #illustration #lol #my birthday is in two days I'm nervous

[mw-draws]

i can feel this game slowly digging it’s claws back into my brain

#life is strange #chloe life is strange #chloe price #pricefield #chloe price fanart #life is strange fanart #this piece has been an emotional ride #it started out as a simple wee sketch in my sketchbook #and then i spent the next 10 days fixing it on and off #and i’m glad i stuck with it #i’m well proud of this #it was a very experimental piece too #and then i discovered the hue shift for the background and lives were changed

[vforvielka]

Deliver me from everything I’ve put off and all that we’ve lost

#trigun #trigun maximum #vash the stampede #myart #portrait #illustration #digital art #trimax #im having severe trimax emotions again these days #heightened by shit talk by sufjan stevens and dogwood by nicole dollanganger #wonderful songs #and very veryyyy vashwood coded T-T

[ruporas]

honeymoon phase! (ID in alt)

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #me when the modern au fluff gets to me viciously #i LOVE modern au... i'm so weak to it... augh..... i love them in another universe getting the chance to be mushy and sweet *explodes* #most of all i just like to see wolfwood in his full element of being able to love and care about someone so openly and honestly. #it's what he was meant to do... what he wants to do.. what he deserves to do T_T but anyway. this can be interpreted as their many years to #come honeymoon phase but i do think modern au vw would have like their 2 year break up that devastates the both of them and irreversibly #changes their lives but it wouldnt be anything nasty. it just is. and then their lives go on as is for those 2 years before they steadily #and veryyyy very very very slowly get to around a second chance for each other. never necessarily awkward but theyre obviously afraid of #hurting and being hurt and also uncertain of what's right for themselves. but then they'll just get it one day and then they get married! #that's my ideal modern au vision anyway...... happy end... with so much emotional devastation of unspoken feelings and personal life troubl #ruporas art

[peanutseagle]

Could u plz draw part 2 of Damian asking Anya 's hand from Loid ?

Your wish is my command, anon 🥖

(part one)

#y'all notice how all of my comics end with a tiny damian being mentally overwhelmed??? #i think that says a lot about me #anyway it took loidy some good 13 years to deal with his fatherly dread after finding out about dami's crush #don't get him wrong #he knows sy-on boy is a very good boy #maybe a bit traumatised #but he genuinely likes him #and he knows anya reciprocates his feelings #but its just too much for him. Anya was a tiny baby only a few days ago and suddendly she's in college???? #he's going to be VERY emotional at the ceremony #and i'm here for it #“Dang... Plan B was a success. Too good of a success” #damianya #spy x family #damian desmond #anya forger #loid forger #sxf fanart #sxf fancomic #spy x family comic #my art #request

[sysig]

“It could be that the loss of her children drove the Queen deeper into her darker desires...but, I don’t believe she was fighting against them that hard before that particular tragedy. No monster does.” (Patreon)

Bonus:

Hmm, wonder what he could cover those holes with :3c

#Doodles #Handplates #UT #Fellplates #UkaGaster's answers about Toriel really interest me :3c #As evidenced by the quote caption lol - but his other ones are very interesting too! Since it sounds like she's still around! #Poor classic Handplates!Gaster believed Tori dead for such a long time while she was at the Ruins #Meanwhile Fellplates!Gaster is just like ''? I saw the Queen last week she threw me into the pricker bushes? -.ò'' lol #But anyhow lol ♪ The implications that they're still in each other's vicinity really makes me curious about their relationship! #And how Toriel might react to knowing that someone - someone other than her - is having So Much Success on one of her sore spots #Not just of having children but of the constant reminders of Gaster's success where she has to live every day with a heavy heart for her own #Being cruel to him over it - well that's just par for the course isn't it ♪ #He mentions that she's much more of an emotional sadist - insulting him and then making it Very clear that she does Not approve of the holes #''They're ugly and you should feel ashamed for drawing so much attention to something so unsightly'' #I do think that her knowing that he's so intent on being kind and merciful and then twisting the knife on how much he's hurting her- #Making him feel guilty for daring to even attempt the betterment of all - for giving pieces of himself away and try to be a good person #''If anyone will break my spirit it will be her'' :) #Although that's all assuming that Toriel even knows about the brothers! :0 When I thought about it later it'd make more sense if she doesn't #It was still too good to not do something with the idea hehe - but imagine her betrayal if/when she found out tho she'd kill him on the spot #Gosh I haven't drawn Tori in foreeeeever I can't even remember the last time #Doing a/nother study on her would probably be fun haha she's rather plain how I draw her currently #I wonder if her Fellplates version would also wear reading glasses hehe #And the bonus :3c Where are the plates featured in Fellplates? Surely it's not just called that as a reference right ♪ Hehehe