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cutegirlmayra · 10 months

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Sonamy songfic prompt: Amy is trying to learn the piano and learn the parts to a song she likes Rewrite the Stars. Thing is it's a duet. Sonic sees Amy struggling and teaches her the basics. Over the course of the sing he starts to come to terms with his growing feelings for her. You can either keep the boy and girl parts the same or change it so the part matches the characters personality.

Forgive me, thou art grand, but tis noble to perhaps suggest I have a different--more dramatic--idea..?

Prompt:

Green data bits begin to fly up from a black canvas, before that canvas tilts to reveal the dimensions of a blank room as white glows and rises up as famous Sonamy Comments ranging from many different sources of Social Media that glaze up and fly out to then have their whites cover the three-walled space. The Zeros and ones suddenly fly back into view like a literal chain, shifting between being zeros and ones, forming the color purple that begins to shake… then tear each other apart to be blue and pink ones and zeros.

From these two, now distinct chains, they swirl and the white forms a figure inbetween the vortex… “You know I want you…” Sonic The Hedgehog forms with the blue chains now swirling down his arm as he looks over his shoulder, seeing Amy Rose get formed.

“It’s not a secret I try, to hide.” He looks as though he’s trying to defend himself slightly, his hand forming a fist, his eyes slightly narrowed, before turning away to look at the back wall of positive comments and famous Sonamy moments. “I know you want me…” He holds and sprawls out a hand to Episode 52, of Amy’s crying face on the back screen, which is clearly showing they are within a computer.

“So don’t keep saying our hands, are tied.” He turns back to her and holds his wrists out as though they are chained together as data strips of code snake around them quickly before he breaks the links by parting his hands and walking past her, looking serious in his declarations.

Amy holds a hand of cards to her chest, looking down as though contemplating his words, but then worriedly turns to continue to watch him.

“You claim it’s not in the cards!” He turns back and swipes a hand out, disarming Amy as the wind from his gesture scatters the Tarot cards she was holding–Looking like the official deck SEGA had released–past her as the wind makes her pull her bundled fists up to her face to block it out, her hair flying back from the action. “Fate is pulling you miles away-” She blinks her eyes open to see Sonic reaching for her but the wind was too strong, and it carries her up into the air as she flails, “And out of reach from me..!” He jumps up to catch her hand, and when he does, the background now reveals a bright white book opening up and the wind turning the pages, “But you’re here in my heart-” He pulls her into him as the book is sucking in all the strings of blue and pink code, Sonamy scenes, positive Sonamy comments, and seems to even be drawing Sonic and Amy closer to itself as well. “So who can stop me if I decide that you’re my destiny..?”

He embraces her as the Book looks as though it would slam it’s covers on them… but then, just before touching them, it twitches, flinches, wobbles, “What if we-” The two look as though their scrunching their bodies up, pulling their legs in, cuddled close together before the Book spontaneously shoots open again when Sonic pushes an arm out as though he had repelled the closing of their story, and thousands and thousands of purple stars flare out into the space around them.

“Rewrite the stars~” Sonic looks around as Amy gazes in awe as the stars encircle and spread out into patterns of shapes and fun patterns, some that symbolize the Sonic universe like checkerboards, rings, chao heads/fruits, loop-de-loops, and emeralds.

“Say you were made-” He gently brings her wandering chin back to him with the tips of his pointer and middle finger, as a Purple star flies by to show an image of the earliest known drawing of Rosy the Rascal. “To be mine?” then more Purple stars fly by with images of her transformation throughout the years with Sonic.

He pulls away to spread out, showing they are slightly falling back down but gently enough that they touch the ground together, “Nothing could keep us apart.” The Book now flaps its pages like multiple layers of wings, creating the wind that was keeping them up in the air before letting them glide or hover down.

“You’d be the one, I was meant, to find.” He’d hold her still and spin her around for a moment, then hold her hand with both his own before dramatically turning back to the book as it shows added scenes of their adventures together, through every Game ever made, even scenes that aren’t shown in the original stories but still show they were apart of those adventures together.

“It’s up to you, and it’s up to me. No one can say what we get to be,” He turns back to Amy, gesturing to himself and then to her, then gesturing to the stars as they sparkle and twinkle in the space above… However, they form into silhouettes of generic people, almost like Sonic is referencing those that control the game’s narrative and the characters.

“So why don’t we-” From those silhouettes of purple sprays out Black as night Game Wires with AV cables with their tips being yellow, red, and white. “Rewrite the stars~” They droop as Sonic catches one and gets pulled up a bit into the air, stretching a hand out to Amy. “Maybe the world~”

The Cables circle and corral the Purple stars into forming the Sonic Earth.

“Can be ours~” He smiles gently to Amy, as though to trust him, he now seems pretty confident.

Amy’s eyes look so endeared to him, wanting to reach… her hand starts to raise up… behind the rising hand is the Purple Earth picture… but one star goes black with a hateful comment reading a typical Anti-Sonamy message like a tweet or Tumblr post–This is very subtle but it’s what causes her hand to waver, the first sign of hesitancy of belief.

However, Sonic’s hand doesn’t wait any longer, grabbing hers by reaching down and making up the distance. “Tonight!”

Amy is lifted up off the ground, and it shows upon her face that it was sudden and she’s still somewhat unsure, but suddenly starts having fun as Sonic swings from Cable to Cable, their spinning at times as it sways them along, and Sonic looking tenderly and kindly to Amy in his arms as she watches the Stars break from the World image behind them and start swaying on the ‘vines’ of Cable cords as well…

But one attacks a Purple Star, plugging into it as another Black star is created, showing a glitching montage of different Sonic ships that oppose Amy and Sonic together.

It only happens for a moment… Amy notices it and her joy slowly begins to fade, Sonic is looking ahead, but she pushes away from him and jumps onto a cord as Sonic has to tug the cord and get swung back to where she’s hanging on, wondering what’s going on.

“You think it’s easy?” She looks up as though sadly having to glare at him, gripping the Cords tightly, looking somewhat afraid, “You think I don’t want to run, to you?” She beautifully slides down the Cable, spinning delicately and landing with grace as her arm flares out to show some elegance to her while Sonic reaches down to her–looking worried.

“But there are mountains…” Closing her eyes, as though she wished it wasn’t there, she turns to reveal a pile of hateful comments, images, and statements of rules made by SEGA prohibiting such things as Sonic was trying to promote…

In a way, she’s showing Sonic that they're not just fighting against SEGA… But the Audience of their community and fandom as well.

The weight and magnitude of the ‘mountain’ of comments expands as Sonic is still far back up on a cable, and realizes what she means, but grits his teeth and starts swinging down, trying to reach her again.

“And there are doors-” She walks towards what looks like a Book page folding open to create a black door, and inside, a purple silhouette of someone on the other side… “That we can’t-” He reaches out to grab the opened page from within the base of the mountains of Anti-material. “Walk through…” She reaches a hand out, to stop the man, but it slams the door shut and she immediately turns herself around to look pretty certain towards Sonic who is ready to fight this negative streak behind her, but she stands firmly where she is and holds out her hands to mimic her action of saving Gamma.

“I know you’re wondering why,” She’s defending the fans, but it pains her to do so… she doesn’t want this, and shakes her head to the side, as though ashamed to admit it but… maybe they’re right? “Because we’re able to be-” She puts her arms down to gently fold one back to her heart and use the other to try and reach out to Sonic, in hopes of calming him down as he seems bent on destroying the mountain… but she’s standing against him? In his way? Why?

“Just you, and me.” Pleading, she gestures to him and to her, mimicking what he did earlier in the song. “Within these walls,” She spreads out her arms in an arc towards the sky as the stars all fall from the space above, and the Book is revealed to still have its pages flapping like multiple wings… as though Fanfiction… are they truly to only exist in stories? “But when we go outside-!” She gestures passionately beyond the ‘walls of the book’s covers’ to the fourth wall that fizzles out like a TV screen… the Cables now slither and curl up like snake heads, as though about to attack Sonic and Amy within…

The screen turns into fuzzy grey and black… as though disconnected… “You’re gonna wake up and see~ That it was hopeless after all…”

The TV is then bombarded by hearts, as though every fans’ love is powering up the TV again, “No one can-” and the image zaps back to life as hearts zoom back to Sonic and Amy now entangled, trapped, and completely covered in wires trying to restrain them. “Rewrite the Stars~”

She reaches for him, pulling with her other hand a enstrangling Cable out from her mouth to speak, looking as though putting great effort into trying to escape. “How can you say-” Sonic is also trying to reach out through being tied back with Cables, both suspended in the air before his one, visible eye from the mass of tangled Cables widens and Amy is yanked away and up to be pinned into the Mountain of hate, the comments now black with white wording, and images now black and white, or grayscale shaded, as well. “You’ll be mine.”

The Cables, like sowing threads, pierce through the comments like paper and begin to literally embed her into the media by leaping over her body multiple times and piercing through paper like jumping lines of dolphins in the water. “Everything-” She has her arms out to her sides, as though crucified by the Fandom, and although her eyes long for Sonic, she hangs her head down as though defeated. “Keeps-” Above the mountain, Silhouettes of SEGA represented heads now look down at the trapped Amy. “Us-” She raises her head, looking helpless and miserable.

“Apart~” Sonic’s eyes twitches into a sharp angle, his pupils dilate on Amy’s image, and then he struggles for a moment but curls and spins himself into a ball to break the Cables containing him.

“And I’m not the one-” He then charges up blue light around him, before bursts into a Homing Attack towards the Mountain of Hating comments and images from Social Media, “You were meant-” Amy’s eyes widen at his blue streak suddenly taking over the white and black of the mountain and space. “To find~” She turns her head, bracing as Sonic makes impact.

The mountainous tower of comments breaks apart, falling like a tower of cards, as Amy begins to fall from the loosened Cables that had sown her to it as well. “It’s not up to you-” She is falling slowly through the empty space of where the ‘cards’ of comments once stood, blinking her eyes open. “It’s not up to me.” As she slow-motion falls, she looks up to see the silhouettes of the supposed SEGA Officials, watching her fall, “When everyone tells us what we can be.” Their heads enlargen and seem to almost follow her descent,...

“How can we-” She turns herself in the floating air, to turn her back to what makes her so sad and unhappy, and spreads herself out like a star towards the ground. “Rewrite the Stars?” The mountain becomes black and glitching stars of hate again… she’s falling through them… she can’t take much more of this… her eyes close and she brings her arms to her body’s sides and legs together gently as though accepting the abyssal beyond… “Say that the world-”

She softly turns to fall into her fate… “Can be ours…”

“Tonight.” She opens her eyes as she lands on something, startled, and looks to see that it’s in Sonic’s arms… Her hero’s arms… but not just that-

“All I want is to-” Sonic is flying! The Book has torn its pages, falling backwards, and Sonic now has the large multi-page wings to his body. “Flllllyyy~” Sonic looks behind him, the Cables are shooting out like harpooned missiles, but he takes off. “With you!”

Sonic weaves and dodges the Cables, as he passes by, Stars are shooting forward to race the wind and clash with the Cables, turning into Purple stars of familiar words and scenes again. “All I want is to fall with you.” Sonic spins downwards as the cables all intertwine to follow him, “So just give me-” spinning into one massive Cable Head! “All~ Of you!”

Sonic stops his plummet to look up, seeing the massive plug coming towards them, as Amy takes his head with one of her hands and pushes her face up against his forehead to speak directly into his eyes. “It feels impossible..!” Sonic shakes his head, “It’s not impossible,” He looks back up as the cable jerks it’s head back a second, a cobra to strike, “Is it impossible..?” but Sonic and Amy reach out their hands as one towards it.

“Say that it’s possible..!!!”

All the restored Purple Stars and Hearts from before shoot down and then curve to fly at lightning speeds from beneath Sonic and Amy and pummel into the Cable Plug Head, “How do we Rewrite the Stars..!!!” getting jammed into it as the colors fly up the cable and burst into the open space above as Green Codes of Zeroes and Ones… “Say you were made to be mine!”

But… What of Sonic and Amy below?

The Code is just lines that wave and spiral down… “Nothing can-” The Cable being torn in half… softly and gently destroyed as it turns into data… “Keep us apart!”

“Cause you are the One,”

Sonic and Amy are still alright, holding one another, suspended in hovering space within the air as the Book pages begin to fly off Sonic one layer at a time, falling backwards as Amy and Sonic slowly lower their hands from being stretched out towards the Cable… representing the world and its ‘rules and opinions’...

“I was meant, to find.”

Amy looks to Sonic first, gripping him with her hand in joy and waiting for him to realize, before he slowly tears his eyes away from the scene above, and looks to Amy with a grateful and relieved smile.

He winks to her, his signature cocky attitude.

“It’s up to you.”

She pulls him closer with all her strength,

“And it’s up to me.”

They both shake their heads as their nose nuzzle in sheer delight at their victory.

“No one can say what we get to be.”

Together, strong, and joined hand in hand, “And why don’t we-” They spread their legs as though trying to burst up, and the Data lines of code secure a footing arched web for them and they are brought back up.

“Rewrite the Stars!”

The images of the silhouetted men look as though their giant forms are falling, their massive heads dragging them down as Sonic and Amy are lifted past them. “Changing the world-!”

They turn to each other and hold both their hands now. “To be ours…” Their faces look so happy… to be in love.

Sonic’s head tilts first… then Amy just happily lets his hands go, flings her arms up, and dives into a kiss with him.

But…

When they reach the top, and are lowered back to the level of the three walls…

They walk off together… and the Tarot cards that were first scattered… shiver and shake… before forming black coded zeroes and ones…

They fly over to Amy…

She reaches a hand up to his face, “You know I want you…”

They circle her wrist, just like what the green code did to Sonic in the beginning… but these are deadly, and pull her hand down from his face.

Sonic looks shaken at them, as Amy steps back, also realizing…

She sees it circling her bracelets… and looks at her other wrist.

“It’s not a secret I try-”

She looks hopelessly up to Sonic… free… but what about her?

He looks at his own hands, nothing… the Green Codes are nowhere near him anymore.

He looks back up at her, heartbroken. “To hide.” Her eyes bend back as Game Console Controllers and their Black Wires slowly and softly start to constrict Amy… yet again…

She can’t escape it, “But I can’t have you.” She speaks through them encircling and covering her body over…

The prejudice, the scorn, the canon-limitations…

“We’re bound to break-” Sonic rushes towards her.

He punches them and they turn to Green Code again…

But Amy looks down at her wrists…

“And my hands…”

She steps back daintly, and holds up her chained hands by one simple Line of Script.

“Are tied.”

The Chains of letters in black read out: [PROPERTY OF SEGA].

#sonamy #rewrite the stars #song prompt #cutegirlmayra #sonicxamy #greatest showman sonic #amy rose #Sonic the Hedgehog

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fuzzydreamin · 6 months

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for the writer meta asks, 3, 4, 14, 16, and 19

Thank you! Under the cut for being a bit longer~

3: What is that one scene that you’ve always wanted to write but can’t be arsed to write all of the set-up and context it would need? (consider this permission to write it and/or share it anyway)

Uh, every scene where I have to figure out the inbetweens and getting from plot A to plot C? Not every scene gets to be fun, but I mentioned previously that I do enjoy having the slow to give those scenes a greater payoff, but it's still not all that fun to write.

Seriously though, I have many scenes that I am excited to eventually get to - mostly the "and heres where we figure out how everything's going down" scenes. The climaxes of individual events.

4: Share a sentence or paragraph from your writing that you’re really proud of (explain why, if you like)

The bodies of the raiders still littered the road, stinking as rot began to take them, with, thankfully unmutated, flies buzzing around them and laying eggs in every wound and orifice they could find. Nora nearly gagged as she stepped around one, trying not to think about the fact that they were here because she had personally shot them and left them to decay. It had been them or her, she tried to remind herself. “You know, it’s nasty work but these raiders were carrying useful supplies. Ammo, stimpaks. That kind of stuff.” Preston commented, stopping to kneel down and inspect the body Nora had just passed, “People need everything they can get out here, and you can’t really be too picky about where it comes from. It’s best to loot them before someone else does.” Nora figured the emphasis was on those someone else's being other raiders and similarly unsavoury characters. It certainly did make sense to take what they had for their own survival's sake, but he wasn’t kidding about it being nasty - as Nora knelt to search the pockets of one of the rotting bodies herself she had to retreat for a moment as her gag reflex kicked in, leaving her spluttering on the side of the road. Though thankfully nothing came up this time. It took her two more attempts before she managed to fish the items out of the dead man's pockets.

Nora's first time actually looting a dead body (I don't count her picking up the laser musket, since that was on the ground and not in the dudes pockets). It's not something she naturally thought to do on her own, and it's not something she can just easily brush off and not think too much about right away either. She's never handled dead people before, and these guys are dead from her own hands - and also two days old and smelly.

14: At what point in writing do you come up with a title?

Mostly just... whenever I do? I try to have the majority of the story - or at least the larger beats - thought out and work out something that will reflect the story either symbolically or maybe more literally.

In the case of 'Give Me Sanctuary', I had a lot of it figured out before I started working on it and knew that ultimately it's a story about finding yourself and where you belong in the world. It's pretty easy to link that to the literally named Sanctuary Hills for being where the story starts and ends and is often returned to in between. It's probably one of the locations that will be seen the most in the fic, also becoming a home or at least temporary refuge for most of the main characters. So, I knew I wanted 'Sanctuary' in the title. After that I was just looked up songs using that word to find playlist vibes and landed on Shelby Merry's 'Sanctuary' - I was already familiar with her work and the song was indeed major vibes, so I took the a line from that song and made it the title. Another line from the same song is currently the working title of 'Book 1' for the fic - since it'll be done in parts. Might keep it, might not.

As for working on Al's story at some point, it still might change but for now it's 'Icarus into Acheron'. This is because their story is more about a descent into (self)destruction, and 3 in general has a lot of themes and references to religion and mythology, so it vibes with that.

Overall I don't stress on names too much. I just look at the story and symbolism, and go to songs or poems for inspiration if nothing comes to me right away. I also prefer to keep them short, either 2-4 words at best. Any more than that and I feel it's more of a sentence than a title, but it's not a hard rule.

16: Tried anything new with your writing lately? (style, POV, genre, fandom?)

Nope. lol. Just kicking myself to write at all. Which I am, just slowly rn.

19: Is there something you always find yourself repeating in your writing? (favourite verb, something you describe ‘too often’, trope you can’t get enough of?)

Character remembering/recalling things. Guessing at things. A lot of being in their head in general. Might do that too much...

As for tropes, I'm not sure if/how it's classified as one, but I like giving characters that are flatter or more overlooked in the base content more to their characterisation. I like to expand on their motives and mentality.

I'm the kind of person who see's a minor character tied to just a single but important part of the story and I jump on them to dig my claws in and drag them back into the light like a cat playing with a mouse. I must dissect it!

#fuzzy.post #thank you💖

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fuszulykaleves · 8 months

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pink haired Gizella. Sigh, sure why not, at least her voice should be good right? NOPE. HORRIBLE. Cant sing AND walk for the life of her.

After the screeching, István's voice is a godsent, like a balm on my poor ears. But why the hell is he circling her like a vulture???

Ok, so folk dancing to a love song is a very bad, no good choice. Those poor dancers. I honestly believe the only instruction they got was to just dance as they see fit, and so we got utter chaos.

Asztrik is definitely the weakest character so far. I hate how he is played. Its too overly dramatic and doesnt fit the high-priest image imo.

Ok im excited about the nobles. So far there were never an adaptation where the nobles were played badly. Lets see.

ok so, them being two-faced bastards is a bit on the nose,BUT! At least they are played well. I don't know about the costumes, i guess it just comes with this being a "modern adaptation". Great singing voices too.

Now, the next big hit or miss. Réka. Koppány's daughter she is stuck inbetween two opposing forces.

she wears a red dress, here most likely Koppány's color, or the color of the pagans, but has a blue scarf, suggesting that she is a christian, thus on István's side. Nicely done. The voice? Meh, not good, not bad, tolerable. Ok shr kinda sings like she isn't hungarian. She is stressing the wrong syllable.

ok so this is not Koppány. My bad. Couldn't tell the differences between the red guys, sorry. This is Laborc, Koppány's right hand man. I love Laborc in the original and original only. He needs to have a certain rage and conviction and sadly none has been able to replicate it. He sings my favourite song, lets see how this turns out.

Sigh. Not good. No rage, just conviction. He should be outraged for Réka's betrayal (turning christian), but here? He is just, meh, oh well, i will just rip my guitar like a badass!! YEAAHHH! Voice is so-so. Pretty good, only needed some anger in it.

He just fucking destroyed the guitar. Why...ugh, whatever.

Now comes my favourite part. The funeral of lord Géza, István's father.

Uuuhh, what are those strange banners? As far as im aware, those "symbols" have no meaning in hungarian history. So really, no point in having those banners. Also the singing and the music is strangely disjointed? Like it not in sync. Strange.

And now the return of Dj Rapper Asztrik. He sounds hoarse. Its not a good sound.

Ah István, my beloved. Its good to hear your voice again. Tho it is strange when you say "And here lies my dear Father", and there isn't even a coffin there.

This is Koppány. THIS. Are you kidding with me? This is not Koppány, this is a fucking pimp! And god his voice! HIS VOICE! He is making himself sound deeper and rougher than it is and its making him sound like a JOKE.

I like the fact that they made Sarolt,István's mother, ready to throw hands when Koppány appeared.

It was definitely a wrong choice to have people chanting "István! Koppány!", while István is singing his melancholic song.

End of act 1. Hurray.

#istván a király #stephen the king #got 3 more acts to get through

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capybaraonabicycle · 11 months

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Hi, i'm here with my blank page!

So it's not entirely blank, it's whole spread and i already did something on the left side (it's a movie ticket from when i went to see Twice Upon A Time in theater, with some packaging taped on top because i've noticed that the writing started rubbing off over the years, and the background is the inbetween bits from some stickers for some visual interest, because as a junkjournaller i don't throw anything away lol)

The prompt on top says "if a Time Lord is a sum of their memories, write down the equation" And there is this fun grid pattern with some numbers in the corner and another number in the other corner (hi Twelve). I feels like it wants something maths-related, but i'm hopeless in maths. I know that you like maths. Maybe you can help me, like with a smart math trick, and/or something related to Twelve, maybe a quote that might be fitting or just a nudge in a certain direction. It doesn't have to be an equation as the prompt says, but the main themes i'd like to reflect are memory, maths (science as poetry perhaps?) and Twelve's story/character to tie in with the ticket.

Any thoughts? No pressure to come up with anything big or deep tho, even just a hint might be helpful to figure it out

Firstly, thank you so much again for giving me this chance to talk about maths ❤ Also, I feel so honoured I get to contribute and spark ideas (hopefully?) for your beautiful, beautiful art project!!

Also, very sorry, but this will be very maths heavy, obviously. I'll try to put many pictures so you don't really have to understand anything; you can just go with the aesthetics.

That said, if you really do want to understand something, I will probably not put enough info here to do so. So, just ask, I can go in small steps and explain it from the start. Like, I love doing that. My mum regularily has to indulge me and let me explain higher mathematics until she (kinda) gets it.

But, I mean, most of these things I'm about to mention, you learn about after at least two semesters of intensive mathematics studies at uni, so...they're not that easy to understand.

Also, I will assume, that you only know high school maths, I hope that is alright? I don't actually know your level, please forgive me if you feel like I am treating you like a 5 yo. (I will basically explain this like I would for my family).

I'm gonna put this under the cut again :)

Sum Formula by Gauss

This is probably the simplest bit of maths that I am going to mention, so let's put it first.

'A timelord is a sum of their memories' obviously lets you think that you'll have to include a sum, somewhere. In mathematics, we normally use the greek letter Σ (capital sigma) to show that we are doing summation. All the things you want to sum are put after the letter and the start and finish are marked on top. Then

would be the sum of all (natural) numers 1 to n. If n=4, the above would read 1+2+3+4, f.ex.

Here, we want to sum over memories. So, obviously, we could find some sort of symbol or artistic interpretation of 'memory' and put it behind the sum, where the k is.

Or, what I would propose, we concentrate the 'memory' into the 'name' or rather number of the different regenerations. Because then, if the memories of the timelord 12 are the timelords Doctor 1 to 11, which would give us the above sum with n=11:

Here, I am just pretending, 'Timelord' is a function on natural numbers, defined by the sum on the right.

(Sidenote: A function is like a rule that takes some input and gives you an output, f(x)=x-1, for example would be a commonly known one or f(x)=x^2, or f(x)=sin(x). We often see them called f or g or something in school and make them work with numbers but technically they can work on any set and have any name and do anything. Quite cool :) )

The proper definition of the function would have to come first and could look something like this:

Which just means Timelord is a function that takes a natural number and gives you a result in the Universe. Which does not mean much mathematically, except for that you can plug only natural numbers into the function and get an element from the unknown set 'Universe'. Actually, the result would be another natural number, of course.

Now, there is a well-known formula for this specific sum, namely

that is all natural numbers 1 to n summed together gives n times n+1 divided by two. So, 1+2+3=3*4/2=6 for example. So you could definitely include that with like a little extra equation.

Also, you could obviously change this whole thing up a bit, because for now, we have not included the war doctor at all. Or the fugitive Doctor. Or any other forgotten Doctor or spin-off Doctor or or or - although admittedly, the Doctor IS missing those memories, so...?

But, there is one more neat thing with this formula, and that is that there exists a nice geometric visualisation:

So, here the idea is, that we want to add the numbers 1 to n and those are the green squares from top to bottom. See? there is one in the first row, then two in the second and so on and n in the bottom row.

And all together, the green squares are exactly half of the number of the squares in the right rectangle, which are n times (n+1) many.

Or, to see it another way: you could always add up two of the rows to get a full row of green squares. The top row with the last but one row and the second and third row. And then you always either have n+1/2 full rows (, i.e. n*(n+1)/2, like here) or n/2 full rows and one half row ((n/2)*n+n/2=(n/2)*(n+1)).

So, I think there are some themes and images here you could work with :)

Affine Transformations

Okay, so, this one is my favourite because of the WORDS :D (Also because I am taking discrete geometry right now and affine transformations are important there.)

So, first, let's have a little look at LINEAR transformations. Slightly simplified, those are functions between vectorspaces that fulfill certain properties.

What is a vectorspace? Some mathematical thing (Sidenote: also a very nice word, vectorSPACE :) ) where vectors live in. Vectors for our purposes look like numbers pressed between brackets, so for example:

would be three vectors. All from different vectorspaces because they have different lengths or as we like to say: DIMENSIONS :)

Vectors can also lie sideways like v=(1 , 2, 0, -3), but I am not a fan of that. And technically the difference is not big and unimportant for our purposes.

Okay, now the vectorspace we are interested in is called R^n, which is vectors of length n. So in the above picture, v is in R^2, w in R^4 and u is 'the origin' of R^3.

Then a linear transformation is a function from R^n to itself (it could go to another vectorspace, too but let's not overcomplicate that) which we write as:

And the linear transformation fulfills the rules:

(1) means, that if I look at the output of a function of the sum of two vectors, I get the same as if I take the sum of the output of both vectors on their own. So, L(3)=L(1)+L(2), for example.

(2) means if I look at the output of the function on the multiple of a vector, then that gives the multiple of the output of the function on the vector. So, L(2)=2*L(1), for example.

If the function fulfills this, we call it linear.

We often write linear functions as MATRICES. So, L could look like this:

which we often write more generically as

And then applying this function to a vector is a matrix-vector-multiplication, which again works with sums :D

Okay- this last bit is probably to much, sorry for that. The takeaway: We 'multiply' matrices and vectors with specific rules and then that fulfills rules (1) and (2) and gives us a LINEAR transformation.

If the matrix is INVERTIBLE - don't worry about what that implies - then we call the linear function BIJECTIVE.

Now, what is an affine transformation? It is a linear transformation with a fixed vector added and looks like this:

Look familiar? Yes, it's exactly the same as before, just with the vector w added! This actually comes from a linear transformation made simpler, where the linear transformation looks like this:

If you were to calculate this you would see that Lv with the little tilde thing really resulted in the thing in the brackets. Point is, if we forget the 1s, we get the affine transformation from before but like this we have one linear transformation again.

And now I am coming back to Doctor Who:

Affine transformations describe rotations, translations, scaling and like slight bending of the space.

And if the underlying linear trafo (gonna start using our neat little shortening from uni) is bijective, INVERTIBLE, you can retract it to where you started from.

And that sounds like memory? Like regeneration? We could assume L is an invertible transformation - regeneration or ourselves becoming different people throughout our lives? - so we could technically go back to who we were or that is still part of us and we can follow it back to the start, aslong as we retain the memory. BUT there is the affine part, too, that little vector w added. What if that was time? The part of the transformation that makes the trafo not linear anymore (at least unless we go to a higher plane of existence in R^(n+1)). What if that vector somehow prevented us from actually going back?

(That is not how it works in maths, I don't think, you could just subtract it, but let's imagine we can't)

Wouldn't that be some beautiful metaphor of changing and remembering and becoming something new? While moving through space and time? (You could technically also split that vector up into a space and a time vector if you liked :) )

Maybe you can do something with that?

Lie Geometry

My favourite part, because Geometry, but now we are entering the part of maths where I have to look stuff up as well. So, I'll try to keep it short and just give you some concepts and images.

Just, let me say that I love this because

Rule 1: The Doctor lies

This is all about spheres in ORIENTED CONTACT

Circles are 1-dim spheres, so CIRCULAR GALLIFREYAN?

Also they look funny, a little like hedgehogs:

So, ask me if you really want to know why but I'm not going to explain it here and I would have to look that up, too, but apparently we can represent 'normal' spheres (Möbius spheres to be precise) by their center c and radius r as the vectors

Don't worry about why the brackets suddenly are sharp, there is a meaning but it's not too important right now. It's still a vector. Then, c is a vector, too - giving us the n-dimensional point of the circles center - so this actually has more than 3 entries. (c,c) is the standard scalar product, just imagine this as the length of the vector c or how far away from the origin we are.

Takeaway here: Spheres are defined by their center and radius. Now that doesn't sound so bad, does it?

Now you may have noticed the radius r only appears as r^2. Lie spheres have an ORIENTATION however, that means they can have negative radius. Hence, we have to add an extra info (how long is our radius and does it go inward or outward?) as another coordinate:

If r>0 we will draw the arrows in the first picture outward, otherwise inward. Or the other way round. Honestly, that's just convention, it doesn't really matter. This is now a lie-sphere. They make up the points in the Lie quadric, defined by the Lie-scalar product. So they are all the points y fulfilling:

So we want that weird angly thing (Lie scalar product) on the left that translates to that rather long sum (yes, you could write this as a sum again, too) to sum up to 0.

This is all very difficult and confusing, I know. But pretty formulas?

Anyway, the thing called 'oriented contact' works with that angly thing, too. It means that two spheres meet tangentially - in exactly one point - and they meet such that their arrows point in the same direction at the contact point:

Like this, those are in oriented contact! (Please ignore my inability to draw circles)

The mathematical condition for that is:

Okay, what was all that? So, first the definition for the lie scalar product works slightly differently for two different vectors, but it fits together with the version we saw earlier.

And then I did some math tricks (or rather my professor did). It all just says in the end: For oriented contact, we need that the distance between centers is the same as the difference between radii.

And the y, y' are defined as:

Idk. I am not expecting you to get super into Lie geometry and its theory now. Rather that you might want to draw some circles with arrows?

What is also interesting is that these circles are often seen as gears. Because the radius orientation can represent a wheel that can only turn one way and then the oriented contact means if the other wheel touches on the outside it has to turn the other way and if it touches from the inside they will turn the same direction.

This also has a relevance to the problem of Appollonius if you want to namedrop, but I won't go into that now.

Markov-Chains

You asked for quotes as well (so sorry, I'm not going to explain what Markov Chains actually are, just know: Stochastics) and I really liked this quote characterising Markov Chains in 'normal' language:

In relation to the present the future is independent of the past.

Or something along those lines. I unfortunately don't actually remember the exact quote. But the above was the spirit.

Other symbols

Imo it is always a good idea to randomly write 'Let Ɛ>0.' somewhere or put little arrows like ⇔ or ⇒ wherever. Or put the little lightning bolt contradiction thingy:

(funfact, my ao3 name is 'hvis-og-bare-hvis' because that means 'if-and-only-if' translated, a phrase we use SO MUCH in maths and that is often abbreviated to 'iff' or written as ⇔)

Conclusion

I know this is all very MATHS now and also I didn't really explain anything properly. Except for the first point maybe. Feel free to ask any question about any topic, I would love to elaborate. I just can't promise it won't take weeks again to answer.

But I had a blast and I feel so honoured I get to weigh in on your art book! Thank you so much!! I hope I could help you a little!

#marvellouspinecone #okay gonna post this now without reading it again #so I might come back to this tomorrow to correct stuff 😂#or add something #but maybe it doesn't have to be perfectly accurate #hope you like it anyway :)

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sunlitmcgee · 2 years

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CUT SCENES FROM HEAL WHAT HAS BEEN HURT CHAPTER 81

Yo yo yo, my good folks! This here’s a post that’s gonna talk about some stuff that didn’t make it into Chapter 81, either due to a change in creative vision or plain old pacing. It’s got bits of gore/violence/self-harm under the cut, as well as general creepy imagery/stuff with bugs. Please be safe!

So firstly, I’ll say that originally I did want more of Puffy being with Tommy this chapter. I had several scenes in my head where she and him walked through various memories together, such as through Pogtopia’s main cavern, Logstedshire’s campsite, or even a moment where they visited Thrent and Tommy gave her a sort of “tour” of his living conditions in exile. That last idea bled over a bit into the final scene with clingyduo, but in all honest I do feel very bad that Puffy got sidelined in this chapter, and would really like to try and fit her in in future ones where possible. She just got in over her head there at some point. Magical whatchimacllit and therapy really don’t mix. :”) not her fault.

Another scrapped idea was for the scene with alliumduo when they were both lil’ bugs! Originally that scene was going to end with Ranboo turning into basically a butterfly-winged fairy prince type of character(think something out of Disney’s Fairies lol) with his wings being the elytra he won from XD’s gameshow. Tommy would in turn become a version of his usual self with fluffy white moth wings and a big poofy dress that would mimic a poodle moth’s floof, which he’d be very giddy about as he and Ranboo locked hands and began to slow dance on top of the allium. This idea was cut for pacing/story flow, and because at that point Tommy was a very tired boy that just wanted to move onto something else after what happened in the prison cell a few moments prior.

Speaking of the cell.

This was the moment that changed the most. It was originally going to last much long and be a much more graphic, drawn out scene. Tommy was originally going to flagellate himself in that box to the point where his whole body would’ve just.....melted? Into this mass of dark red bloody ooze that only had the vague shape of his body along with his two blue eyes. He’d scream until he couldn’t, then breakdown crying as his whole body oozed around him in this visceral moment of just...pain.

One bit I had very clearly in mind was of him thrashing back and forth while both Ranboo and Tubbo screamed at him to stop while Puffy rushed to call XD from where they stayed during the sessions(they were basically inbetween Tommy’s mind and the rest of the world so he could have privacy unless they needed him). It was gonna involve Tommy repeating the phrases “No one cared”, “No one came”, “No one wants me”, and most painfully of all, “This is what he made me into.” All while viscously and violently beating himself against the walls, floor and ceiling of the room where his life was almost beaten out of him by a very evil man. He’d end up clawing at his body at some point. Lots of blood. Lots of maggots and other icky nasty wigglies. All very symbolic in ways I’m sure you all could pick up on from how that concept of being “full of spiders” lingered in the final draft.

I scrapped it because it hurt too much to write. Even I have my limits :”)

The scene with the multiple dead Ranboos was also going to last longer. There were going to be a few moments where some of the bodies were still half alive and would drag themselves up to talk to Tommy. They’d say some of the things Ranboo said when he visited in exile, but there would also be bits of mockery and taunting sprinkled in, all of which would’ve come straight from Tommy’s mind from when he was alone in exile/after the prison. Scrapped it for time. There was so much already and I didn’t wanna drag it out longer than needed. Plus ever since Ghostboo became a thing in canon lore, I find the idea of c!Ranboo being dead to be Very Upsetting in a Very Not Fun Way. It upsets me to see boo baby in pain :( im senstive about it

Another scrapped concept involved the green smile that taunted Tommy with all his Dream-related conditioning. It was gonna turn into some manner of Silent Hill-esque creature that would chase Tommy down while repeating the last words he said in the prison prior to trying to kill him. Felt too actiony for such an intimate, slow-burn type chapter. Still have the design in my head. Maybe it’ll pop up, somehow.

There was going to be a very cute, mostly lighthearted scene involving clingyduo at one point. I actually made concept art of it in MS Paint and posted in onto discord! It was basically gonna be a moment where Tommy woke up in a large room filled with pretty blue curtains, which would then pull back to reveal Tubbo, who had been turned into what I can best descibe as a 9 feet tall buff ‘n burly strong man caraicature of himself that was shirtless with a pair of poofy purple pants and some very pretty necklaces that were made of beads Tommy often wore in his hair whenever Ranboo braids it. It was gonna be.....just....plain ol’ platonic gay panic. Very cute, very silly. Lots of Tubbo being sweet and soft and trying to pick Tommy up while he was just freaking the fuck out, mortified by his brain and desprate for it to be over so they could never speak of it again all “We Take This To Our Graves” style. He’d be a very blushy baby boyo.

It was scrapped for tonal purposes. Clingyduo in this chapter had many very intimate, serious moments together. I didn’t wanna ruin that for the joke. It is a good joke, tho.

The last major change was very last minute. In the scene where XD was leading Tommy out of his head, I originally wanted to reference the last scene in Turning Red where Mei Mei and her mom have that personal moment and she helps lead her mother out of the bamboo forest. Originally Tommy was going to shift between the various versions of himself from all the major points in his life, before finally settling on his current self, aka the cumination of all those lived experiences that he lives as today. No reason why this one changed. Just ended up writing the scene differently :) happens sometimes.

To close this off, I wanna talk some more about this chapter in general. Mostly because it was a very personal one to write. All of Heal What Has Been Hurt has been personal to write due to the nature of its themes, but this one was very intimate in how I had to approach it, in such a way that as I went through it and described many of the details and enviroments within Tommy’s mindscape, I came to understand a lot of things about my own traumas and how they’ve shaped me, things I won’t share but that the mention of is still important to note.

Trauma is...messy.

Trauma is weird.

Trauma is one of the most horrific yet varied things we as humans can go though.

It changes us completely. We are never the same after it’s happened. We are forever altered by its effects, forever under its unpredictable and oftentimes almost seemingly malevolent influence.

It’s always there when you want it the least. You always get triggered when you’re finally starting to feel okay. You always spiral just as you think you’ve gotten yourself out of it. And just when you think you’ve figured one thing out, that you’ve pinned down the root of all your pain and are ready to snuff it into the dirt, a whole new wave comes in and you’re forced to grapple with the fact that it will well and truly never be over, and that this is your life, and that this, this mess, this awfulness, this tiresome labor of a life........is you.

And it goes on.

And on.

And on and on and on for the rest of your short time in forever.

There’s no endpoint to recovery from trauma. There’s not climax. There’s no grand finale where you’ll have this lovely musical swell of emotions to accompany some grand “ah-ha! NOW I’ll be happy again” type moment. There’s just always more. More pain. More tired. More anger. More sadness.

More life. Life with your trauma. Life with yourself.

It doesn’t have to be miserable. It is at times. But it doesn’t always have to be.

That’s what chapter 81 was. For me, at the very least. I encourage you all always to find whatever meaning you need in my works. That’s part of why I make them :)

#tw self harm mention #tw insects #tw gore mention #tw body horror #tw death mention #dream smp au #HWHBH #writing stuff #behind the scenes stuff

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a-court-of-moonlight-and-ire · 3 months

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i actually always have weird dreams about whatever media im stupidly obsessed with and that acosf dream reminded of this one that i had that was actually so weird that it momentarily snapped me out of my obsession

so im a big fan of elisabth: das musical which is a musical about empress elisabeth of austria, idk how familiar your average presumably american tumblrperson is with her but shes a big cultural icon in germany and austria so obviously they made a musical about her. but whatever, all you really need to know for the sake of this post is that elisabeth has a son called rudolf and theres a gnc af personification of death/everyones suicidal thoughts kickin around. Death is my favorite character bc if im weirdly obsessed with him and him only thats technically not rpf, and then rudolf is my favorite non-death character even though he only gets 3 songs and a dance number during which he kills himself. and basically the main reason for that is that hes got a lot of homoerotic tension w/ death because death is a romqntic character and he has suicidal thoughts so obviously theres a spark there. Thats not actually relevant to my dream i just needed to tell you bc anytime someone talks about this musical i feel like theyre like "oh its about this woman having a romance with the hot and sexy grim reaper" "oh the emperor of austria gets cucked by a guy who looks like THIS" and thats all true but also, idk man go on youtube and type in mayerling walzer and watch some of the videos and tell me what you think, content warning for suicide, guns and gay shit

anyway, so the dream that I had was a tv show, i wasnt like watching it, i did bot exist in that dream my mind was basically a streaming service. Its a full episode of a cw/abc family type show, for some reason i get once upon a time vibes from it even though ive never watched that show, but i only remember the very end, all I remember about the rest of the episode was that it was rudolf (whos the pov character btw i havent mentioned that yet) going around a bunch of places trying to solve some kind of mystery. And the very last place he ended up at the end of the episode was in front of my catholic elementary school, catholic in the sense that it was right next to a catholic church and was named after that church i dont think we learned much more about religion than your average "secular" elementary school. Now, the school was a little bit behind the church and between the two buildings theres this gap where the ground is all cobblestone and theres a fountain that doesnt work and some bushes and benches and irl theres a busstop there with one of those electrical signs, but since this dream took place in the 1880s there wasnt a busstop yet. so rudolf comes to this kind of inbetween space and goes up to this big person-sized copper jesus statue (which is accurate to real life btw) and Im sure this is meant to be some heavy-handed symbolism or visual metaphor or something but unfortunately i dont have the context of this tv show that my brain made up so i cant be sure. he stands there for a while, not really doing anything until an older woman suddenly approaches him. And that woman? queen victoria. yknow, like victorian england. whatever, shes like the catty woman antagonist of this show and she and rudolf have this really vague and passive agressive confrontation, i dont remember anything they said, just that it was passive aggressive bc thats how royals b like i guess. But somehow through the vague bullshit theyre saying the audience finds out aboutvthe big shocking end-of-episode twist: rudolf is not elisabeths child, hes actually victorias child. They did a baby switcheroo. for some reason. and then it CUTS TO BLACK

And I wake up and im like "huh. maybe i should stop thinking about that musical so much"

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IN THE DEFENSE OF MIRUKO

Check out these posts to know a little more about what's going on here -> POST 1, POST 2, POST 3

Because of an ask I got earlier, I got to thinking of something during it and remembering an older ask I answered and now I firmly believe that as much as Miruko is hated and/or not cared for, ya'll sure do like to f*tishize her a lot.

Under the cut is mentions of underage children being shipped with grown women, it's not explicit, but it's the topic.

I'm sure I'll probably lose followers but I don't care if you ship any of the ships below than yeah, don't follow me anymore. Don't follow me, don't come into my inbox, don't even look at my posts or message me.

This post also touches on the s*xualization of women and racism.

Now, onward.

So, I did my research (aka go through AO3) and have came to the shocking discovery of many fics there is for the following ships. Each ship is of Midoriya and the adult women in BNHA. I excluded Recovery Girl and his mother, but just know the fics exist.

Look at this! Midoriya shipped with almost every woman imaginable except for Miruko.

Now this is him with Miruko!

Are you seeing what I'm seeing? Now I know it seems confusing as to why this seems to be more of an issue than the other ships. Oh no, it's just as fucking bad. However, this firmly makes it clear to me that Miruko is f*tishize for two reasons.

One, it could be because she has a rabbit quirk. We all seen in media how rabbits are more sexualized than any other animal (besides cats and foxes). There's jokes and whatnot about it. However, Miruko has never displayed any scandalous behavior. Not like Midnight, an actual sex symbol in the BNHA universe, and yet has more fics than Midnight?

Not just Midnight either! Remember how Pixie-Bob wanted to 'groom' the boys and Mandalay's comment? Yeah, that's no-no behavior. And yet, despite her behavior and being cat themed along with Mandalay and Ragdoll, she doesn't even have close to enough fics as Miruko does.

Then there's Uwabami and the Fox Girl. They're also animal themed, yet they don't compete in fics.

Which brings me to this reason that I believe is firmly the reason why she's f*tishized more and as to why I went off a little in that previous ask.

What is one thing all the other women besides Fox Girl and Curious have in common compared to Miruko?

They all are PALE SKINNED.

When it comes to Miruko, I can be a little defensive but after noticing this, I think I have a right to. She is a fictional character, yes, but when race plays a part, I'm gonna be in arms.

Miruko debuted much later than Mitsuki, the Wild Wild Pussycats, Midnight, Uwabami, Sirius, Mount Lady and even Ryukyu. Yet, she has the most fics out of them. Why? I believe it may be her skin tone.

As I said before, Black and brown skinned women are dogged on every single day and yet in private (or public when brave enough, look at fucking Tik Tok), are often fantasized like objects solely because of our skin color. That is racist! This is why I'm pissed off. Miruko is an obviously brown skinned character who has been hated on as if SHE IS THE VILLAIN (I ain't fucking forgot!!) and yet I have came across so many fics of her being shipped with Midoriya when I just want a nice big sis-lil bro team-up. So yeah, I became friends with the 'exclude' option real fast (as some of you need to do). Oh, it doesn't stop at fics!

Remember when I brought up Midnight? The actual sex symbol of BNHA?

Well, what if I told you I come across more heartwarming fanart of her than I do for Miruko? I guarantee you that if you go through Midnight's tag right now, you'll pass probably 3 sexual pictures here and there with cute fanart inbetween. However, do it for Miruko and immediately the first ten pictures will be nothing but ass and breasts drawn in unnatural sizes before you get to a silly scenario of her.

I'M SICK AND TIRED OF HEARING MIRUKO BEING TRASH OR SHIT AND BEING DEMONIZED!! YET THE SAME PEOPLE PROBABLY JERK OFF TO HER AT NIGHT BECAUSE OF HER BROWN SKIN TONE!!

Look, I have said it before! If Miruko isn't your favorite that's fine. It's cool. However, I don't believe you if you say she's not your favorite because she's trash. This woman with nothing but rabbit features managed to fight Nomus and other villains without fire powers or special feathers or other 'cool' ass powers. If you ask me, she should be #1 because she's literally fighting with literally nothing. She can't turn into a dragon, she can't fly, she can't do none of that. Ryukyu can turn into a damn dragon but she's just #10? How come none of you are saying she's trash?

Saying Miruko is trash because of her fighting skills, you're a liar. Just say you don't like her because she has brown skin! It reminds me of how much hate Rock Lock got! He brought up a good point when he said that high school KIDS shouldn't be fighting yakuza. He's a damn father who is married! He thought like an sensible parent! But no, had he been a pale skinned character, none of you would have said a damn thing!

Just like any other fandom, BNHA has some sickos and racists!

Oh, let me add that in English, Miruko is voiced by an actual bi Black woman. I was ecstatic to know she is and it pissed me off about the comments people were saying about Anairis Quiñones. Wonder how those same people who feel about knowing Hawks is voiced by someone black as well as Mahoro from the second movie!

And I'm so fucking sick of it! I want someone to come into my inbox now and say some shit! I'm turning off anon so I can get your name and block your stupid ass! Don't be a coward, come forth!

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chocominnie · 3 years

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One Last Time 02 — Pjm. (M)

⇢ pairing: Jimin X Reader

⇢ Genre: Idol!Jimin, Exbf!Jimin, model!reader, sad au, fluff, tons of smut, angst

⇢ Synopsis: Your idol ex boyfriend Jimin cheated on you. You two have been broken up for a while now and the media has been keeping track of you and him. You’re trying to get over him, but the things that happen inbetween makes you re-think the entire breakup, and so does Jimin…

⇢ Song : xxxxx

⇢ Previous : 00 01

⇢ Word Count :

⇢ Warnings: dominant jimin, makeout sessions, this is honestly a sad angsty au, cheating, pregnancy, unprotected and protected sex, a bunch of sex, no really a LOT of sexual themes too, I know I’m forgetting some but sorry in advance!

⇢ Copyright: please do NOT repost, translate, or modify my works in any way, shape or form, on any platform. If found doing so , it is considered as plagiarism and appropriate LEGAL action will be taken

⇢ Authors note: This is my mini series for the summer! Get your tissues, things to take your anger out on, and sit back and watch the drama unfold. Shall we begin?

Your eyes shoot open, chest heaving heavily as you let out a blood curdling scream. Not this again. The same dream over and over again each night. It leaves you sleepless. The time on the clock on your nightstand reads 3:04 am. Just only four hours ago is when you fell asleep. But a full night’s sleep hasn’t happened for a year so why would it matter anyways.

Once you catch your breath you unplug your phone from the charger and read some of the notifications. From your window, the night-time critters sing their songs along with the persistant owl that’s somewhere around the apartment complex. You’d only noticed him, the owl, just a few months ago when your cat started meowing with his hoots.

A missed call from your uncle.

Immediately you unlock your phone and dial the number. Bringing your index finger to your mouth you gently nip on it waiting for it to answer, The rings are agonizing to you. If something has happened you only wish and pray it wasn’t as bad as you think. He’s the only parental figure left in your life.

‘‘ Princess! Hello I was just calling to speak to you earlier. But I realized you are five hours ahead of me and you had probably went to sleep.’‘

His soothing voice calms your emotions making you let out a tiny breath of air. Thank god.

‘’Hey Charlie.” You sigh. Looking towards your left, you spot Clara purring quietly next to you. You can’t help but to smile while bringing a hand over to rub her head with your thumb. She’s so small under the shining moonlight from your window.

Her white coat shines brightly amongst her, making you remember the first night you had brought her home. All she did was sleep, and it worried you because you had no prior expierence caring for anything, let alone a small animal. Clara only drank kitten milk and slept back then. Occasionally being awake enough to nip at your fingers whenever you pet or touched her.

Now she’s a bit bigger and walks around the apartment like she owns the place. Quite the little attitude she has, but its too damn cute for you to scold her whenever she does something wrong.

“ Yes I did fall asleep from after a gathering at someone’s house.’’ You continue on, bringing your knees to your chest after opening the curtain of your window fully.

The moons brightness illuminates the entire room, but not so bright for you to complain though. ‘’ Oh- was it Jimin’s? Tell him I said hell-’’

You bite your lip hard at his name. He doesn’t know and you wont even dare to let him know. Knowing him, your uncle would have a fit and oppose to come back to Seoul to ‘set the record straight.’ to Jimin. That’s the last thing you want to do, cause trouble.

‘‘ It was his brother’s house warming party.” You say, lowering your tone in your voice. You look at the nightstand for a couple of seconds just before opening the top drawer of the wooden, polished piece. Your hands shakily pull out a picture of you two together.

It was taken at Marne-la-Vallée, France right infront of Cinderella’s castle. That was the day that you and Jimin had to went to Disneyland in Paris, France. You cant help but to think, with the picture in hand, that it was one of the best nights ever. It was also the same night your virginity was taken.

‘‘ Oh.. I know that tone. Are you two arguing at the moment.”

You shrug, “ I mean you could say that.’’

No you cant.

‘‘ Alright alright I won’t talk more of him. Let’s change the subject.” He chuckles deeply into the phone.

‘‘ How’s Europe? Anything new happening on base?”

‘‘ Same old Same old. It’s been what? 2 years since I’ve left Seoul? The food is different over here. They don’t have kimchi pancakes sadly.”

You can only imagine the frowny face he makes at you whenever he doesn’t approve or like something. It always turns out to be funny.

You giggle into the phone shaking your head slightly, “ Of course. You are in Europe Charlie. Where are you getting food from anyway if you are on base?’’

‘‘ I can go off base to a certain mileage when I am off duty. I just have to report back in time. But you do know that you can always come live on base with me...’ He trails off.

Oh boy. Here he goes. He’s always talking about moving you on base with him. Hell, he’s been talking about it since before he had to go to be based in Europe. By then you were twenty years old and old enough to live by yourself. Growing up in Daegu, Korea since you were six, you felt as if Korea was home to you and you definately weren’t ready to leave yet.

Especially, after losing your parents here. Around eight years old, your aunt and mother were on the way to pick up your father from the airport. With your mom and dad also being military and based in Korea with your dad’s bestfriend, your uncle Charlie, your father had been called to take military leave to go and be based in Korea for the National Guard.

On the way back from the airport, a drunk driver had struck the car knocking them off the road and colliding head first into the railing of the bridge. All bodies were reported dead upon collision, including your aunt. Charlie didn’t take the news well at all, and so did you. Only eight years old and still a bit new to a foreign country. It was devistating for you and Charlie. Charlie did what was right and stepped up to be your legal guardian while taking some time off from the military. Till this day, he treats you like his sacred little daughter and you can’t ask for anyone better than him.

“You are old enough to live on your own and housing is avail-”

You jump at his voice on the line again, being too spaced out from the tragic memory. Before he can go on any longer you cut him off. ‘‘ Im fine with the apartment you left me. Im paying the bills on time and taking good care of it.”

‘‘ Alright fine. But that option is always available you hear me? I will always be ready for you to come with me.’’

‘‘ Okay Charlie” You groan.

‘‘ Alright.. sweetie it’s getting late on this side and it’s already 3 am on your side. Get some sleep okay? Don’t you have a model shoot thingy or something? You have those a lot.’‘

‘‘ Yes i actually do in a couple of hours. It’s been a while since I’ve did a shoot. Please eat and sleep well. Don’t injure yourself.’‘

‘‘ I promise. You promise to do the same right?’‘ He says, rustling movements are in the background.

‘‘ Yes I promise. Good night sleep tight..’‘ You smile as you wait for him to finish the rest.

He chuckles one last time on the other end, ‘‘I’ll always love you, goodnight‘’

Beep Beep Beep

You in a racy light pink lingerie with white duvets and sheets is the concept of your comeback. It’s supposed to symbolize the “Night After’’. Camera’s click and directors yell and praise you in your subtle yet damaging moves and facial expressions. You want.. no need for this comeback to be successful. Not only did your manager schedule this, but she is making sure that they release this same very day.

Nobody in this company’s industry has ever did this before. But you, you are sort of the special one. The special foreigner as they say. It’s not like you don’t like it but you don’t like that they label you as that. Stylists, employee’s hell even anybody who works there treat you as a princess. It’s not bad, but it’s just weird.

‘‘ One last one. Give me a sexy yet innocent look mama.’‘ Elliot, the director says, smiling wide at you.

You slip a finger into your mouth and do a little pout with your lips.

Elliot busts out into a roar of happiness with his hands clapping furiously. ‘‘That’s it mama yes! That’s just what we needed!’‘

Adjusting his microphone earpiece, he turns around to greet and thank everyone, ‘‘ Alright everybody this concludes our shooting! You all worked so hard today. Make it home safe, eat well.’‘

Finally. You sigh out in relief and close your eyes. It’s been a long day. Almost 6 hours of shooting. Three Videos, and five swap outfits for each session of shooting for the ‘’ Night After’’. As everyone heads out and starts cleaning up you bow your head slightly and thank them.

A stylist brings you a satin robe to cover yourself in. You thank her and put it on just before getting up from the bed and walking towards wardrobe. Once you are done putting on your clothes, your manager leads you straight out the exit. Outside awaits the car that drives you everywhere. Literally everywhere.

‘‘ Tomorrow somebody has put in a special request for you to appear as the main lead girl in their music video. It’s short notice and I told them I would have to bump some things around and notify you. But they are paying us and you good money to be in it.’‘

Money? Sounds like a plan.

‘‘ It’s fine. Who am I shooting for?’‘ You say, fluffing your hair just a little while inspecting yourself in the rear view mirror.

Your makeup is still intact with no ruins and the contacts they had given you suited you very well. A hazel with a slight bit of teal. Suddenly the car moves off into the busy streets of Seoul. You can’t help but to notice every couple that walks along the sidewalks. They seem so happy, glad to be around each other.

On the floor of the car lies your little mini backpack filled with all of your items and belongings. Picking it up, you begin to dig through it looking for some hand lotion to soothe your semi-dry hands. Once you find it you gently start to squeeze the tube.

‘‘ Kim Namjoon.’‘

You freeze. Namjoon? The same Namjoon from the group? Joonie? It’s been well… a year since you’ve seen him in person. Hell since you’ve seen all of Bangtan Sonyeondan together. Except for lastnight when Hoseok and.. that guy showed up.

You sigh already knowing the answer from the question you are about to ask.

‘‘ From…?’‘ You ask then put the lotion back in your bag. Slowly you rub your hands together to moisturize.

Your manager quickly flips through the daily planner, ‘‘ Bangtan Sonyeodan but this is for one of his mixtape songs.’‘

Thank goodness.

‘‘ That’s fine. What time will the car be arriving tomorrow?’‘

‘‘ 8 am on the dot. You need to be there by 8:30. I’ll be tending to one of my other models tomorrow so you will be alone. I can send som-’‘

‘‘ No no it’s truly okay. I know how to manage things myself. Besides, I learn from you.’‘ You reassure her with one of your winning smiles, laying your head on her shoulder.

‘‘ Aigoo what am I going to do with you?’‘

The day ends very well. The movies you’ve been watching have kept you occupied. But not occupied enough for you to keep crying at all the sad parts in the chick flicks. Breakups, someone had died, someone had even just spilled something onto the floor and that was enough to send you into tears.Only because when the main lead boy rushed to help clean it up, it reminded you of Jimin last-night helping Isabel.

‘’What is going on with myself.’’ You blow your nose into a tissue for what seemed like the thousandth time today. Clara lets out one of her meows beside you then goes back to grooming herself.

You place her onto your lap and begin to run your fingers through her fur over and over again. Such a soothing effect to you as you stare into space sulking in your thoughts.

Why is it that you weren’t enough for him? Why is it that every single little thing reminds you of him? You gave him your all and he gave you his but what happened? Where did you go wrong? Cooked, cleaned, satisfied his needs. You guys had even started to plan out what you wanted out of a family. When you wanted a baby and what you would name it. It was fun. The whole relationship was fun. Right until that scandal.

Ding.. Ding.. Ding.. DI-

You unlock your phone immediately to stop that annoying dinging noise. Not surprisingly it’s a text from Jeon Jungkook.

Kookie : Im coming over I’ll be there in exactly 3 minutes.

Kookie: Don’t think about leaving either.

Kookie: Im bringing someone with me.

Kookie: We need to have a serious talk babycheeks.

You roll your eyes at the nickname he’s given you. No matter how many times you tell him you want him to change it, he declines. There’s no point in asking anymore.

Why would he want to talk anyways and who is the person he’s bringing. Eh.. it might just be Ryan they seem to do everything together as a team.

As soon as you step foot out of your bed the sound the door clicking makes your head shoot up. How in the living hell does he know the password to your house? Rage takes over you. That’s something that you hate. When people invade your personal space. In this case, personal home.

‘‘ Jeon fucking Jungkook!’‘ You scream, abruptly stomping your feet all the way to and out your bedroom door. Suddenly you stop at the sight of the two faces staring back at you.

Jungkook’s expression holds a concerned yet upset face while the other just stands there calm and cool. But you on the other hand are way besides that level.

Your eyes must be filled with rage and the expression on your face is no good. How dare he disrespect you like that? Bringing him into your home, knowing the bad blood between you two. Oh, they both have something coming towards them. You begin to walk to them again making each step make the floor shake.

‘‘ Get out. Both of you. One you invade my personal private home..’‘

You grab both boys by their collars, making sure to grip the one on the right’s harder than usual. ‘‘ Two, you fucking invite him over here.’‘ You drag each of them towards the exit. Which is going good until Jungkook rips your hands away from his shirt and takes you over his shoulder.

You’ve had enough of him and his invasive ways. Pounding on his back with your fists, you make sure to scream into his ear. “ Put me the fuck down Jeon Jungko-”

You hiss at the stinging sensation on your ass. Did he just? Jimin stands there awkwardly rubbing the back of his neck. You make sure to make eye contact with him and roll your eyes. Something that always had and will piss him off.

‘‘ Hush. I told you all of us needed to have a deep talk about you.’‘

Jungkook plops your frail body onto one side of the couch in which he sits next to you. He motions for Jimin to come sit across from the both of you but you aren’t having it.

‘‘ Don’t you do it.” You glare at him. Jungkook sighs harshly only to pluck your forehead two times. You whine and rub it with your index and middle finger.

Jungkook shakes his head in disapproval, ‘‘ When are you ever going to learn? Jimin sit down now.”

‘‘ Truthfully.. I feel as though I shouldn’t be here so-”

“ Good. Get out you are unwanted.” You snap back causing him to give you one of his long stares with no facial expression at all.

Jungkook glares at you just before getting up to throw his hands in the air full of disappointment. “ Enough! “

Yelling. Something else you don’t like to hear being done at yourself. You finally sit still and quite avoiding any eye contact with the both of them.

He sits back down and clears his throat. Jungkook gives Jimin a look before continuing on.

‘‘ I gathered us here to talk about you..”

‘‘ Why. Im fine. How many times do I have to say it. Im fine im fine im fine im fucking fine!’‘ You exclaim, getting more mad by the second. When will people accept this?

‘‘ Baby.. ’‘

Your eyes shoot up to him and his soft voice. You didn’t want to but you did because his voice to you is like candy that melts into your mouth.

‘‘ Don’t call me that. You have a girlfriend at-least be loyal to her rather than what you did to me.’‘

‘‘ Fuck is anybody going to just sit here and listen? Can we at-least get to the source of the problem? Huh?’‘ Jungkook leans back into the couch clearly pissed by your attitude.

Jimin’s the first to speak and holds a firm eye contact with you, almost daring you to break away from it.

‘‘ Fine. Im just going to cut straight to it then. Why are you so jealous? You aren’t okay at all. I seen the way you looked at us yesterday. You wanted to break down so bad but you didn’t. It looks like you’ve been dropping weight day by day why aren’t you eating well?’’

You’re taken a-back by his jealous comment. Although you are you just cannot admit it. You are jealous. You do want him back. You cant bear to see him with another girl but you. But the fact that Jimin is concerned makes you really hope. Just hope that there is something left of you still in his heart.

‘‘ Jealous? Jealous tuh.” You scoff, leaning into Jungkook’s arms where you rest his head on your chest. You only do this just to see Jimin’s reaction and by the look on his face he doesn’t enjoy that move one bit.

‘‘ Yes jealous. I mean why else would you put almond extra-

‘‘ Woah. No need to go there. We established that it was a so called accident lastnight.” Jungkook does finger quotes into the air and looks down at you.

You lift your head up and furrow your eyebrows in annoyance, “ So called? So you really believe that I did it on purpose. Wow Jungkook. Escort yourself out.’’

He sighs, wrapping his arms around you securly in hopes of you settling down a little, “ Honestly it’s not like that. I wasn’t there to see you bake them nor was I watching her eat it. Im just saying that you knew Jimin was coming and obviously his girlfriend was going to come too. It’s a little sketchy is all.”

There’s no fixing what he said. Him adding onto his explanation just made things sound worse than what he’s trying to say. You don’t have time to be ganged up on, nor like it at all. It’s best if they both just leave, to not turn nothing into something.

‘‘ Get out. Now. Before I call and tell Ryan what you said and then she’ll definitely deal with you.’‘ You say, removing yourself from off of him and onto the other side of the couch with your legs crossed.

Mad isn’t even the word to describe yourself right now. You’re just a mixture of all emotions.

Jungkook now looks of sorriness written all over his face. You bite your lip and shake your head while pointing towards the door. He sighs heavily and takes one last look at you while removing himself from the couch. You watch him slip on his coat and shoes.

Jimin gets up from his spot on the couch, ‘‘ I’ll be leav-”

‘‘ Sit down we aren’t done talking.”

He looks at you with his eyebrows furrowed, sitting back down slowly.

Jungkook keeps his head down as he wraps his blue scarf around his neck. Poor baby, but he shouldn’t of said it. “Please better yourself and talk it out with each-other. Im leaving.”

‘‘ Make it home safely.. Kookie.” You sigh once the door closes behind him. Now you’re here. Face to face with Park Jimin.

The same Jimin who cheated on you. The same Jimin you haven’t seen in a while. You take a few moments to take in his appearance. He seems to have re-gained his muscles that are peaking through his black, longsleeve shirt. His thighs are still thick, just like his luscious lips. Of course he changed his hair color to black. But who knows, he might change it again.

‘‘ You’ve been doing well?’‘ You say, voice low but enough for him to hear. You drop your eyes to your lap instead of keeping intact with his.

‘‘ Yes. But you have not. Im disappointed in you. Why are you doing this to yourself? Don’t do this because of me.”

‘‘ Jimin you don’t know the feeling. You don’t know how it feels to be left wondering why you weren’t good enough for someone. Why they had cheated on you. You don’t understand at all and wont ever.’‘ Your voice cracks on the last sentence and you an feel the lump in your throat become sore.

He bites his lip unsure of what to say next. Those words had hit him good inside. ‘‘ Im sorry. I truly am. But you know the reason why we had to end it. I fucked up bad and the media was making the scandal bigger and messier day by day. It was better to just call it off.’‘

One by one your tears start to drop. You nose begins it’s running trip but you sniffle it back up.

‘‘ You could of denied it. You know you could of made a statement and denied it. But you felt something for her didn’t you? Didn’t you?’‘ You semi-yell, sobs already starting to take it’s way over.

He bites his lip once again and ruffles his fingers through his hair, “ Baby..’’

You wipe your tears with your hands making your face even more puffy from the crying. “ I am jealous. I am I admit it Jimin. But do you know i have been suffering for one year and two months? I can’t sleep at night because im so used to your touch at night. I look at every couple in Seoul and think to myself, Dang they seem so happy. What’s their secret?’’

Jimin sits up, making eye contact with you with tears welling up into his eyes. It hurt’s you more than yourself to see him crying. It always has.

‘‘ Please don’t do that. Don’t do this to yourself. Please get help from someone to try and move on. Please. I don’t like to see or hear you make yourself suffer.’ He begs, getting up from his seat and coming towards you.

Jimin sits next to you, hesitantly opening his arms up to you. Would it be wrong to embrace him? He’s being too sincere, but thats what you want right? You decide to just do it, and lean into him only for him to pull you in closer into his chest.You just lay there crying and sobbing while he runs his fingers through your hair. You shouldn’t be doing this. He has a girlfriend. But it feels so right.

‘‘ What does she have that I don’t? Why couldn’t you love me the same way you love her “ You cry into his chest, soaking his shirt with your tears.

You’d been waiting for this moment to just let it out. Let everything out.

‘’ Please don’t make this harder than what it is right now. Just try and forget me and move on. Please.” Hypocritcal. How does he expect you to get over him when he’s the one whos holding you so tight right now. Soon enough his sniffles join yours in harmony.

You raise your head up and look him deep into the eyes while you wipe away his tears, “ Don’t cry Jimin. I’m the one supposed to be crying over you. Don’t cry.’’

He takes your hand away from his face and wraps his fist ontop of yours, “Please promise me you will move on okay?’’

You shake your head no, “ I can’t make that promise.”

He doesn’t say anything. He gently cradles you in his arms and lifts you up. You don’t think to where he is going. You just close your eyes and grab onto his shirt firmly not wanting to let go.

Soon enough you feel the cold sheets over your bed. He covers you in the duvet and leans down to your forehead. A kiss. Your fist is still locked onto his shirt in which he tries to pry it away but you don’t want to let him go. He sighs and raises his arms up as he takes off the shirt revealing an extra plain white wife beater under it. Taking your other hand, he wraps your hand into another fist onto the shirt to where both of your hands are holding onto it.

‘‘ Please better yourself for me baby. Sleep and eat well. “

Is all he says before turning off the lights and walking out your bedroom door. You can hear him putting on and zipping up his heavy coat but you just don’t make a sound.

The apartment door clicks and beeps letting you know he’s already gone.

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solarsleepless · 3 years

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Hello good sir.

Please rant to me about avian hybrid/ Lion hybrid/ enderman hybrid c!Niki headcanons and au's. I NEED MORE of your c!niki banter cs I have already read your fics 3times over and over again.

SHJHJSHJSHJSHJSH GIVE ME GENDER EUPHORIA AND YOU SHALL RECEIVE

i'll give some hcs for each

Avian Niki

niki is either a crow hybrid or an angel hybrid. on one hand crow niki is funny to me on the other hand badass angel

her feathers, ironically, stay white during her 'villain' arc because yaknow symbolism

when she was going out with puffy, she'd let puffy preen them

because she was the only other winged hybrid, quackity trusted her to preen his own wings

in return he preened hers while she was in jail

she used to fly with puffy because love <3

during her isolation arc, she takes out feathers as an unhealthy coping mechanism, reasoning to herself that there's no need to preen if she doesn't have any feathers left (yes it's morbid)

eventually tho she just. doesnt even wear clothes for her wings

she just hides them underneath, which is of course VERY uncomfortable

they get worse and worse and ache more and more and she wants to fly so badly but she can't unless she preens them and she can't because she just can't!

when she joins the syndicate, the first thing phil says during their second meeting is: "hey niki didn't you have wings? what happened to them?"

his voice is tinged with sympathy; he knows what it's like to not be able to fly

she freezes, just stops moving, then starts to cry

phil is worried he's done something wrong, but then she reveals that she's kept her wings hidden under wil's coat and cloak all that time (note the symbolism)

he immediately is like "what the FUCK" when he sees them because there are feathers falling when it's not even shedding season yet?? also there are a few in places they shouldn't be at all? there are some fucking missing?????

long story short it takes multiple hours to get them back in place

niki passes out during it because it's been so long since she hasn't been in constant pain

when she wakes up, phil insists on keeping her there to preen her wings

also the syndicate has a long discussion about what happened and they promise each other and themselves to help her get better

Lion Hybrid Niki

she purrs end tweet

no but seriously this girl will purr to end and back

she purrs louder than ranboo which is SAYING something

she loves the scritchy scratches behind the ears. like REALLY loves 'em. she'll just- once you give her scritches she just. surrenders and leans into it. her purring sounds like a fucking jet plane when she gets the scritchies

she can roar, she only uses it to intimidate people tho

her self-worth is just. deeper than bedrock. she has no self-worth

she and puffy are working on it but she still... needs help

sometimes she gets phantom pain from her declawed fingers. she's found out it hurts less when she massages it, but she can't actually reach it, so she asks puffy to do it, and puffy can't help but feel guilty each time she sees the stumps

also niki hates getting her nails trimmed. like HATES it. even if she doesn't want them growing as long as they did before, the idea of something sharp near her fingers after what happened just makes her blanch

eventually tho she does have to do it

she hugs puffy while ant cuts her nails, and puffy whispers sweet, reassuring comments to her.

"you're doing so good. i'm so proud of you" and "we're almost there. you okay? we're gonna get through this."

sometimes tho niki just.. can't handle it. but she doesn't want to disappoint puffy either so she tries to just get through it anyways.

puffy notices her discomfort and asks her if she wants to stop. niki hesitates before nodding.

"niki, you being comfortable is so much more important than this. we can do it tomorrow, okay?"

Enderman Hybrid Niki

makes littol enderman noises. sometimes when she's stressed, sometimes just idly, sometimes when she's happy!

she has a tail because how can i not give her one

also she has pawsies and hands like magpiebur by @/nightferns (BECAUSE I LOVE THE WAY THEY DRAW WILBUR'S PAWWWS)

can withstand water a little better than ranboo, being more human than him

it still burns though

she just has higher pain tolerance lul

also can touch snow unlike ranboo because she's half human, half enderman

her ears and tail twitch whenever she's anxious

didn't really like eye contact, and the l'manbergians respected that (esp eret who didnt like people staring at their eyes either) until schlatt came along and basically forced it, so she kinda forced herself to do it from then on

unlike ranboo however, she doesnt go into enderwalk. she actually hasn't got an enderwalk because ranboo got it from nervous habit and it 'evolved' from there (my hc anyway), she instead literally gets hurt

like it hurts her to make eye contact

ranboo sees that she makes eye contact despite being an enderman hybrid and is like: "...HOW???"

she's just like "oh i force myself to do it lul. cause everyone expects me to anyways. it hurts after a while but its fine"

he just goes completely silent after that, then tells phil and techno at the syndicate meeting (while niki is admiring steve) not to hold eye contact w/niki because it hurts her

techno: "HEHH??? she seemed fine when i visited her!!" ranboo: "yeah she's been hiding it this whole time because society expects her to do it." techno, an adhd fella: "..phil where are the adoption papers-"

niki's confused by the end. why did nobody look at her? why did nobody maintain eye contact with her??? did they not like her?

but at the end phil explains that they thought that because she was an enderman hybrid she wouldn't like it (they're lying to not throw ranboo under the bus)

niki just stares, then starts to cry because holy Shit they are so nice

"nIKI NO YOU'RE BURNING-"

used to bite her tail as a way of self-harm. techno was VERY concerned when he saw the bite marks, but niki just lied and said that it was a dog attack

he knows for a fact it wasn't a dog because he's been bitten and his furniture has bites and it didnt look like that

more like that One Time when Ranboo bit him while he was in his enderwalk state

cue him connecting the dots and being like "...WAIT"

niki also really likes blocks. like we all know her city is weird in some parts because it's built with different blocks, signifying niki's jumbled up mind while planning to kill tommy. but in the enderman hybrid niki hc, its also partly because blocks feel nice and she wanted to feel different ones

her tail curls around the legs of people she likes. so far, it's gone around: wilbur, tommy n tubbo (those two specifically during pogtopia), fundy, eret, puffy and the rest of the syndicate

whenever puffy made her flustered she'd blush either green or pink. no inbetween. puffy was very confused and thought niki was disgusted by her at first and was all :(( before niki explained her wack biology

that's all i got for now im afraid!

#fei tag #ask #niki nihachu #niki nihachu headcanons #nihachu headcanons #dsmp headcanons #ranboo #philza #techno #the syndicate #captain puffy #puffychu

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chronicallycrow · 3 years

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Cards.

Fandom: Cookie Run

Character(s): Cinnamon Cookie

Ship(s): Cinnamon/Reader

Word Count: 2,166

TW: Uhh,,, tarot reading? If that sets anyone off?

Notes: Hey, Cinnamon, thanks for being the character that got me out of my "I'm writing 1k words or less" fic phase./j Anyway, this started as an idea I mentioned on my main - Black-market tarot reading Cinnamon. It ended up a lot cuter than I thought it would, and made me write a HELL of a lot more than I have in a LONG time. Oh, and, I use he/they pronouns for Cinnamon! They alternate every paragraph. And, once again, I'm sorry for the weird formatting, mobile tumblr and all. Again, I don't currently have access to a computer.

The City of Wizards was an interesting place. It always had a specific feel to it, and it was always somehow shrouded in darkness yet bright. Saying you loved this place might have been an understatement. There weren't many people who lived in the town anymore - Some people thought no one did - But you knew there were people, and you knew exactly where to go to find them. And that's what you were currently doing.

You strolled through the city, looking for one place in particular. It was near one of the further corners of the town - A small little magic shop that sat inbetween two buildings that were vacant. You could miss it if you didn't know what you were looking for - The sign, with that ever-so-slightly too fancy font, fit into the rest of the town, and the windows being full of little trinkets did as well.

You turned on your heel and turned the door knob, immediately being hit by the scent of incense and cinnamon. You walked into the shop and closed the door, calling out, "Cinna?" A hum came from behind one of the shelves, and out appeared the devil themself, Cinnamon. "Hey!" You stated simply. They smiled at you and returned your greeting before asking, "Do you need anything, or are you just here to look around?" Either was fine by them - And you knew that. There was many a day where you'd sit in the shop or just look through what Cinnamon had in stock.

"Well, I-' He seemed surprised you actually wanted something, but not in a bad way. "I was actually wondering if you could-- Give me a reading? With your tarot cards?" He was a bit taken back, but seemed pleased with your request. "Of course! Right this way." He did that over-dramatic cape swish thing. It always reminded you he loved to entertain people when he did that. You followed him to a small room in the back where he did readings - Few people knew about it, but of course few people came in the near vicinity of his shop.

A table sat in the middle with some boxes and a mat laid on it. Cinnamon sat down on one side and gestured you to sit in the chair on the other side. You'd never actually gotten a reading from them, but apparently they were actually pretty good at it. They opened a box and pulled out a deck of golden-edged cards, the backs were purple. They tapped at the sides, before looking at you. "What do you want to know?" "My love life-" You blurted out before anything else. You covered your mouth, wide eyed. Why had you said that?! Cinnamon seemed to be amused by this and let out a soft laugh before beginning to shuffle the cards.

He did the card-fan thing. "Pick a card, any card!" You let out a soft laugh before grabbing one. He placed it face down on the table before shuffling the cards some more. He pulled and shuffled a handful of times, ending up with a spread of six cards. He flipped over the card you'd pulled. The card read, 'The Fool.' "This card," Cinnamon began, picking it up and turning it towards you, "represents you. It's a card that means new beginnings and new possibilities. It can also mean impulsiveness. The Fool is..." Cinnamon glanced up for a moment, before looking you in the eyes. "The Fool is a free spirit who doesn't know exactly what they want, but is willing to try anything to find the right path." And with that, he placed the card back down onto the table.

They flipped over the next card; it read 'The Magician.' "This card represents the person who... You're going to be with? Who you like? This is the other person." They turned it towards you. "You're a magician." You joked, giving a soft breath of a laugh. Cinnamon's face turned a soft shade of red from your comment, but continued on. (Little did either of you know that little joke was closer to the truth than either of you could think right now.) "It symbolizes being original, and confidence and skills. They might be extremely confident in their actions, and they're probably skilled in something." You placed your chin in your palm, staring at the card, then at Cinnamon.

He went to the next card. It read 'The Lovers.' "This card represents you and that person's bond." He stated. "That's good, isn't it?" He nodded in response before starting, "This card represents, well, love. It can also mean trust and harmany." "But I'm not in a relationship with anyone?" You mused. He shrugged. "You probably already know them and just trust them a lot. You two are probably already really close." You nodded, but something pulled at your conciousness. What if your joke was actually true? If he was the one representing the magician? "Hey," He waved a hand infront of your face, "Are you alright?" "Yeah, sorry- Go on." You sat back, and he turned over the next card.

The card read 'six of cups.' "This is your past with them, it represents nostalgia and, in this case, an old friend." You nodded, humming. "It seems like you two have known each other for a long time and trust eachother a lot." They stated simply. You traced a circle on the table with your hand. It was suddenly very hard to look at Cinnamon.

He turned over the next card. There was one more after this and you'd be done. It read 'two of cups.' Cinnamon let out a soft laugh. You tilted your head, actually meeting his eyes for a second. "This is your future with this person. The two of cups represents happy relationships and love. When you two get into a relationship it'll be a good one. I'm jealous." He said jokingly. You let out a small laugh. Your face was hot.

They finally turned over the last card. It read 'King of Wands.' "This card is advice for you." You tilted your head again, murmuring a soft, but non-demanding, "Well?" "I think in this context it's telling you you should be honest with them and tell them. It represents honesty and charm." You blinked. Cinnamon looked at the spread, then bagan to put the cards up. You looked down at your hands for a minute. Be honest? You hadn't excepted that. You didn't even realize you were-- Of course you were. Cinnamon was your closest friend. They stood up, snapping you out of your own thoughts. You stood as well. "Do you need anything else?" They asked, walking towards the door. "I don't think so- Here, let me-" You dug around your bag for a minute for your wallet. "No, it's fine-" "Are you sure?" They nodded.

You two got out into the main part of the shop, and you realized the time. It was dark outside by now - Actually dark. "Hey, Cinna?" He looked at you. "Can I spend the night - It's- It's gonna be dark out and I have to walk home. I don't think that's safe." Without thought he spoke, "Of course- Let me close up shop and we'll go upstairs and make dinner." You nodded and decided to look around while he did so. You found the two shop cats, one a black cat and one an orange cat. "You have cats?" You called. He walked over to you, kneeling down to pet one of them. "Yeah! I thought you knew?" You shook your head. "This is Pumpkin," He pointed towards the orange one. "She's new, so she doesn't have a name yet," He sighed. "Maybe you can name her later?" You nodded, "I'll see what I can come up with." With that the two of you headed up the stairs to Cinnamon's apartment.

It was a nice little space. You'd been up here before, but you'd never actually spent the night. They went into the kitchen while you looked around, eventually landing near Cinnamon Bunny's cage and giving them some pets. Cinnamon's apartment always smelt nice. They always smelt nice - It was that soft smell of a pastry shop that used a lot of cinnamon. They seemed to have the stuff everywhere, but you weren't going to complain too much - Unless it was another one of their shows where someone got too close and sneezed. Sometimes, in practice, when you'd watch them, they'd sneeze and mess up their tricks. You found it endearing.

"[Y/N]?" Cinnamon called. "Yeah?" "Food's ready." You walked into the kitchen. He'd made a full meal for you two, and honest to Millennial Tree it looked amazing. It tasted even better. You'd had Cinnamon's cooking on occasion, but never an actual meal made by him. As soon as you two had finished the oven beeped. He looked pleased. "I preheated it, if you want to make something for tomorrow morning?" You nodded, and followed him into the kitchen, placing your plate and silverware into the sink. He pulled out a series of things from multiple cupboards and cabinets, then grabbed out aprons and handed you one.

You two ended up making a mess while baking. There was flour everywhere, but you two were both laughing. They ended up getting two brooms, and you swept up the mess you made. Once that was done they looked over the both of you. "We should get cleaned up," they laughed. You nodded, before realizing something. "Cinna, I don't have-" "You can borrow some of my clothes." They hummed. You nodded, and they went off to get some, shouting back at you, "You can go take a shower if you want, I'll bring them to you." You did exactly that.

You felt much cleaner once done with the shower. He had left you a shirt that looked like it would be too big for him (or you) and a pair of sweatpants. You put them on, and were immediately ingulfed by that soft scent of cinnamon. You tried your hardest not to bury your nose in the clothing, instead leaving the bathroom. You were met with Cinnamon sitting on the couch, playing around with a deck of cards. You sat beside him, watching his hands as he played with the deck. "Are those alright?" He asked, flicking one card around. You nodded, letting out an "mh-hm." He got up then, and glanced at you. "I'm gonna go take a shower, too. I'll be back."

You ended up trying to do the tricks you saw Cinnamon do with the previously mentioned deck of cards. You failed at every one of them, but it gave you time to waste. Your mind did end up drifting back to the reading earlier. Cinnamon had to feel the same way, right? If the cards were anything to go by, they had to. You sighed and put the playing cards down, staring up. You then realized that you'd have to be sleeping on the couch - Not that you really minded. You knew they didn't have a guest room or an extra bed. Before you could get too lost in your thoughts Cinnamon appeared again. They were wearing about the same thing as you. The oven dinged. Convenient.

"I'll sleep on the couch and you can have the bed, by the way." He'd stated, as if he'd read your mind earlier, while pulling out the pan of cinnamon rolls. What else did you think he'd make? "No, I can- It's fine." You replied. He shook his head. "You're the guest, you should get the bed." He was pouring a light sugar icing on the rolls. "I-" Be more confident, the cards. "We could just-- Share the bed? Its big enough for that, right?" Cinnamon glanced at you, before letting out a small sigh. It was hard to tell if it was of content or annoyance that you didn't just take the bed alone. "Yeah, it is- That's fine."

Once the rolls had been fully iced and put in the fridge you two headed to Cinnamon's bedroom and got in their bed. You faced away from eachother, at least at first, but you decided to, again, take what the cards said, and turned towards them. Their back was facing towards you. "Cinna?" You murmured, shifting closer to them. They let out a hum, glancing back at you. You suddenly felt extremely hot. No going back now. "I-" You took a breath in. Dammit. Say it. "I think the cards were talking about you??" Why was that a question. They let out a small laugh and turned towards you. "I know." They responded simply before pulling you close to them. "Goodnight." And with that, they closed their eyes and drifted into sleep. You stayed there, dumbfounded for a couple of minutes, before just accepting it and murmuring a, "goodnight" back and getting to sleep. You two could properly talk this out in the morning.

#cookie run #cookie run ovenbreak #cinnamon cookie #crob #ovenbreak #cr ovenbreak #fanfiction #fanfic #x reader fanfic #x reader #cookie run x reader #AM writes

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🍁🍂🍁🍂Alright, since its mid-September, its time for my annual spooky movie reccomedation list! I include ratings, and I can include trigger warnings for any of these films upon request as well! I'm also looking for horror movies to watch myself, so feel free to comment/ask any as well!! So, here we go, in no particular order...🍁🍂🍁🍂

Fantasy/sci-fi horror:

The Thing 1982 [R]: A group of scientists find a shapeshifting alien underneath the ice in Antarctica, and they just survive as it imitates them. Trust no one. The Thing is one of my favorite movies in general. Its scary, retro, and the special effects are insane. It reminds me of classic Lovecraft, but better. Very terrifying. 10/10

Pan's Labyrinth 2006 [R]: During the Spanish Civil War, a young girl named Ofelia enters a world of twisted fantasy while above, her step-father's brutality causes trouble in the midst of a rebellion. Genuinely a beautiful movie. It's like a fairy-tale, and sometimes you forget it's a horror movie. It's simply magical, but frighteningly real. If you love classic fantasy, monsters, history, and horror, you'll love this movie. 10/10

Alien 1979 [R]: A team on a shipping vessel in soace come in contact with a parasitic alien within the clausterphobic confines of the ship. A classic, and it's still absolutely terrifying. Sharp insight on early 80's consumerism (in more than one sense), and a marvel of alien horror. Its very claustrophobic, tense, and 100% worth watching, especially if you love scifi. 10/10.

Aliens 1986 [R]: Continuing the story of Alien, space marines must investigate a distress signal from a colony, and what they find is more horrifying than they could have imagined. Full of retro action, humorous quips, scares, and plenty of bullet spray, it's a terrifying and fun watch. I enjoyed it just as much as the original, and its just awesome, while being scary at times. 10/10

Annihilation 2018 [R]: After the mysterious death of her husband, a Biologist goes into Area X to discover what horrifying cosmic entity his team found there. Not nearly as good, or accurate as the book (I CANT reccomend the Southern Reach trilogy enough), but this movie genuinely frightened me at points and the setting is simply beautiful. Its clever, creepy, and it's a strange watch. 8/10

Signs 2002 [PG-13]: After strange symbols appear in the cornfields on a family's farm, they must protect each other, and their faith, during the invasion. Love this movie, it's just spooky enough, but outside if the monsters, the people in this movie are what really matter. It's compelling, and a beautiful story. Simply excellent. Plus you'll know where the screaming guy in a closet meme comes from after seeing this one. 10/10

A Quiet Place 2018 [PG-13]: Could you survive a world where making a single sound could spell your death? Monsters decend upon the Abbot family, just as a baby is on the way. One of my favorite movies ever. Its beautiful and ABSOLUTELY horrifying. I think I forgot about eating my popcorn while watching this one. Overall, the desperate survival of the Abbots is heartwarming, but oh so stressful. If you can, PLEASE watch the sequel right after this one. 10/10

A Quiet Place 2 2021 [PG-13]: The Abbots face new challenges as they traverse a devestated landscape, and monsters wait around every dark corner for them. An EXCELLENT sequel. I caught myself actually going "NOOO AAAA" at some points, and its totally a worthy sequel to the scares in the first one. Again, great story, great characters, great cinematography, great message. 10/10.

Coraline 2009 [PG]: Coraline Jones, unhappy with moving to a new house, suddenly finds a whimsical world in a little hidden tunnel inside the house, but she learns the sinister truth behind the candy-colored world beyond the wall. Dont let the stop-motion animation confuse you; this movie is terrifying. A classic from my childhood, and its a treat to watch every Halloween. The Beldam has to be on the list of the most horrifying villains ever. 10/10

Zombies, ghosts, ghouls, and everything in between:

The Haunting 1963 [G]: Based on the novel The Haunting of Hill House, a group of people must stay in a supposedly haunted mansion. Eleanor, one of the women, suddenly believes that the house is talking directly to her. One of the many adaptations of the book, it's spooky, and it's very disturbing, while also having a nice theme. Perfect for setting the mood on a October night. 8/10

Night of The Living Dead 1990 [R]: Survivors take shelter in an abandoned farm house while the undead attack. Can they work together, or let their own prejudices get the best of them? I havent seen the original yet, but I love this movie. Very scary, and its directed by Tom Savini, so lots of good ol zombie gore. Not only that, there's a good bit of social commentary here on racism. The classic was the original zombie film. 9/10.

Dawn of The Dead 1978 [R]: As the undead rise up, survivors take to a shopping mall in order to survive. I don't know how to describe this movie's vibe. It has this weird retro 70's feel, mixed with uncanny horror. It's campy at times, but it doesn't take away the scariness. Very fun in a weird way, and its an on-the-nose satire of american consumerism. 10/10

Train To Busan 2016 [R]: While the world crumbles around them, a small group of survivors must learn to protect each other on a train headed to Busan. Seriously, please watch this one. It's completely unique to any zombie film I've seen. It's scary, but you genuinely care about the characters, and its VERY intense. Love this one. 10/10

Murder and ect:

Scream 1990 [R]: A masked serial killer stalks high school students in middle class suburbia. Its a parody of the modern horror genre, clever and scary all at once. I enjoyed it as a classic and I liked the commentary on how violence with no essence effects people, especially when glorified with horror films. Definitely not for everyone, but its good never the less. 8/10

Wait Until Dark 1967 [NR (I give it a PG-13)]: A gang of criminals looking for heroin attack the home of a blind woman, and it turns into a horrifying game of back and forth between them, until it can go on no longer. Literally one of the best thriller movies ever. Genuinely scary, and genuinely clever. This was actually the first film I saw Audrey Hepburn act in. Super tense near the end, I was biting my nails the whole time. 10/10

The Village 2004 [PG-13]: A rural community is faced with a hard decision as the monsters in the woods leave bloody warnings around their small town. I watch this one every autumn. Its atmospheric, the score is breathtaking, and its a great story. Its beautiful, gently frightening, and its overall a love story. I love this one a lot, even though I know a lot of people didnt like it. Don't go in expecting a great twist at the end, and you'll enjoy it. 10/10

Jane Eyre 2011 [PG-13]: Jane Eyre becomes the governness to an estate, and find a dark secret there. Not necessarily horror, but its gothic and absolutely beautiful. Its the perfect october movie. I love it lots. Nothing hits different than a rainy october day, a cup of chai tea, and this movie playing. 10/10

TV Series:

Stranger Things 2016- [PG-13]: After a child is taken by a supernatural force, the small town community of Hawkins must search for answers and find him before its too late, but as they search, a horrifying conspiracy comes to life before them. I adore this series. Its a love letter to the 80s. Cant reccomend it enough. 10/10

The Twilight Zone 1959-1964 [PG]: A serialized series featuring many different stories ranging from scifi to horror and everything inbetween. Its genius honestly. Each story is compelling, and thought provoking. A great Halloween watch. 10/10

The Walking Dead 2010- (seasons 1 & 2) [R]: A sheriff wakes up from a coma to find himself in a terrifying world of the undead. Its a decent series, at least in the first two seasons! Its pretty scary. Its great if you like zombie movies! 7/10

Over The Garden Wall 2014 [PG]: Two brothers find themselves lost within the world of the Unknown, a place where time is blended together and reality isn't quite right. Ok, real talk here. Its my favorite series of all time. I could go on and on and on about it. If you haven't seen it, please I beg you. Theres nothing like it. Its literally the BEST autumn show to watch. Clever, funny, lightly disturbing, deep, nostalgic...its fantastic. 11/10

So, there you have it. Huge list of horror movies I've enjoyed and actually reccomend. I have seen quite a few more than this (Halloween, Dawn of the Dead 2004, Nightmare on Elm Street, ect), but I specifically picked out the ones I love the most. Enjoy! And have a great autumn.

#krakens croaks #hope yall enjoy!!#feel free to rb and add some reccomenations

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Badlands/Adjacent + Karl tattoo headcanons

I really love designing tattoos for the smp members and I've had Bad's for so long in my mind. Thus: Tattoo HC's list!! I want to do more like Las Nevadas, L'manberg ogs, Dream Team, ect. so yeah! I'm dogwater at drawing designs but y'know, I love to describe them so, enjoy some tattoo hc's!

General

-everyone but Philza and Slimecicle have three heart tattoos across somewhere on their body. Wherever that be on their wrist, chest or leg, it's somewhere.

-glowsquid ink can be used to make tattoos glow!

Karl

-His heart tattoos are on his stomach horizontally. When in and a few days after spending time in The Inbetween and The Other Side, they flash between the colours of his old skin, though not like neon lights or some shit. It's not noticeable unless you look at it.

-Karl is the type of guy to have a bunch of cool tattoo ideas but he can't do them because he's absolutely terrified of needles. however!

-He has the two dots on his hand because of course he does.

-He was stupid and asked Bad to give him his swirly symbol on each of his fingertips with different colours to help him remember things after his first few time travel trips. He chickened out after the third one so there's only one on his thumb and middle on the left and thumb on the right.

Bad

When the egg takes him, the colours also drain to match them.

-His heart tattoos are on the back of his non-dominant hand horizontally and are coloured blue, one of them is blacked out though where it would usually show skin due to the pact.

-Bad has a set of three pairs of black wings across his back, going down in size with each pair until it lays across the trampstamp area, tips of the last set just creeping around to his hips. All are spread and have roses of orange, red and blue hues curling around them and across his chest and upper arms. The wings are hard to see against he black-grey skin sometimes but they are visible in good light. The wings are natural and embedded into his skin whilst the roses were added by a friend.

-A Diamond sits on his throat to represent the lives pact with skeppy, blue spirals coming around and off of it in a beautiful, curling pattern.

-To make Sapnap less self-conscious of his lava scars as a kid, he decorated his veins on his dominant hand with glowsquid ink tattoos of oranges and yellows, which made the child so much happier because he thought his dad had the same scars as him.

-He also has a badlands flag across his ankle, with a pawprint, redstone, cake slice and a rose to make it like a bracelet around it.

Sam

-Sam's lives are vertical across his throat in the classic red hearts colours, leaves from his creeper side however often grow over it and hide them which he promptly prunes off when he's warden to show people how many lives he's got.

-He has a lemon on his forearm he got with Ponk when he was so sure that Ponk was the one (the same arm ponk has cut off) and has cut a line through it, creating a scar that healed over the lemon. (ponk had a creeper face on the cut off arm)

-I love the idea of Sam having some sort of redstone-related back tattoo but it's more cogchamp-esc? With cogs and wires and mechanisms all rolling up and around each other across his shoulderblades and down the middle like a spine. I lowkey want a way to have animated tattoos so it moves and stuff and Fundy to have one too but I have no lore explanation for this.

-Because of anatomy books he has a tattoo of his lower ribs and where they hold the creeper's explosion gland, the gland it'self being in green glowsquid ink and similar to a heart/ender pearl hybrid in shape. He thinks it's funny as you can usually see that area glow when creepers explode. It is not.

-Also has the same ankle tattoo as bad with the addition of a diamond but in place of redstone there is a small set of devil horns.

Antfrost

-His hearts come vertically from the base of his tail and up his spine. There's frozen-like blue marks that crawl around and over them like cracks that glow in the dark, similar to lava scars from the Nether but for those who were babies in tundra biomes. So Frost Scars!

-I like to think the manhunts are canon as like, little games the original server members played, and Ant got Dream with the potions that one time and took it to heart, getting a potion of harming bottle on his shoulders (the area that faces the sides? I can't describe it but the area that faces outwards left and right)

-Because of Velvet's death, Ant has icing-like drip-lines coming from around his wrist and 'dripping' up his arms so he never forgets his lover no matter how much time goes on.

-has a floof cat on his hip because it was a good place to start when he was getting tattoos. It actually made floof bind to him as a familiar which was a great turnout for a first tattoo!

-The same ankle tattoo as Sam but the pawprint is devil horns instead of the redstone.

Skeppy

-Because his skin is hard, any tattoo needles will crack upon making contact with it. Whilst swords and tools harm him just fine, Skeppy cannot get tattoos unless he makes demonic pacts with demons.

-His three hearts are underneath his undercut, small and at the upper nape of his neck. They are a blood-red and one is blacked out from his pact with Bad.

-A set of those pointy, spiky wings you see anime characters sometimes have is on his lower-back, dark red to mark the lives pact he has with Bad.

-Not a tattoo but he has an ankle bracelet of charms the others have as tattoos :}

Hannah

-Her lives are on proud display across her collarbone, with roses that link to her arm tattoo.

-Hannah saw Bad's roses tattoos and imminently asked if he could do the same on her, the ornate roses wrapping along the arm her skin has roses on in place of them. They link and lock into the ones that she has had over the heart tattoo too.

-Her and Purpled both have pillows tattooed on both of their hips (bedwars bitches :}) as well as the Hypixel H on the back of their necks. (any smp members who frequents hypixel also have this due to a lot of people knowing them there. It's like youtuber rank basically but you acutally go on Hypixel.)

-Hannah also has a really nice sun and clouds trampstamp tattoo.

-The same ankle tattoo as Sam but the rose is devil horns instead of the redstone.

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DownRight Fierce Dev Update (9/2021)

Not sure if this is something folks here would want to see, but I'll share this update I shared with patrons for the original visual novel I've been working on, DownRight Fierce. It was conceived back in, like, 2014, but since just before the pandemic hit, I've been working on it as a visual novel. It's sort of like...if Street Fighter and Butterfly Soup had a kid? That was born before Butterfly Soup came out? And has been slacking off for a few years? There is a fully playable, mostly presentable demo of the prologue and first three chapters, feel free to contact me if you're interested in trying it out and providing feedback.

Thanks to the support I've received on Patreon lately, I've been able to commission more outfits for the main characters, new expressions, and was able to pay Hayley to re-organize the sprites so I have some more control over mixing and matching different things. We've also implemented a new pose for Nishiko's sprite when they're sending text messages (on their antiquated cell phone).

(all of the character art so far I have commissioned from my friend Hayley Sakura-Rose12)

I ended up deciding to have that sprite made when I implemented a whole text convo with Seiko near the end of Chapter 3. (or partway through the chapter, depending on what the reader chooses - OR they can even skip this conversation altogether, potentially)

The biggest updates to DRF lately have mostly been cosmetic: adding in more facial expressions and effects.

One example of this has been incorpating a more seamless and atmospheric effect for moments when Nishiko gets lost in thought.

There will be a recurring and increasingly important component tied to this, so I'm glad Jenny helped inspire me to pursue this kind of idea. You can also see here a version of Nishiko's sprite which has been visually updated with more texture, alternate color, etc., and that's something she intends to do with the other characters when time allows (she's been very busy for like, over a year now).

Fire and smoke are key visual symbols for Nishiko's character, so Jenny has been helping me figure out ways to express this more through the UI, etc.

(my wife Jenny has worked on the UI, giving it a more gritty look, and she's modified Nishiko's sprite in this image to give extra atmosphere to the character sprites; she also took a placeholder image and did work on it to showcase a potential art style for the backgrounds; we're considering something like this, though maybe including more color, perhaps intentionally depending on the setting)

But it's not just been visual stuff. I've also been adding in extra content, and incorporating more choices and elements that affect and are affected by the stats running in the background.

I've added in new short classroom scenes to help better illustrate Nishiko's experience inbetween social activities, while simultaneously using them to imply elements regarding Nishiko's attention span, as well as flesh out the lore of the world.

I've been a bit inspired by Tuca and Bertie in some weird ways, as well, trying to build lore within my own fighting game inspired world with references that double as, well, world building (like alluding to Street Fighter antagonist M. Bison via a political dictator who existed in this universe's history), including entire chunks of conversation that go in different branches based on weird Capcom humor that also serves to establish backstory.

Nishiko and Kayla bond over love of a dumb cheesy horror flick that's essentially one big meme featuring the 90's Street Fighter cartoon. The drinks in the vending machines are all Capcom references, but serve as a means of letting the reader more manually increase a stat of their choosing - and since they're vending machines, they recur, so as the reader might get to know what each drink is, they might make a deliberate choice to increase a specific stat on purpose, in a similar way to choosing to exercise, or meditate, or study.

A convo about Nishiko's prior schoolyear incorporates Dark Stalkers references while also, again, letting the reader affect stats in a narratively retroactive way.

I've fleshed out conversations in Chapter 3 to have lots of dialogue most readers won't see in a single playthrough, as well as making more efforts to lean readers toward experiencing certain scenes or moments they might have missed earlier, while allowing the possibility of skipping or missing out on scenes entirely should they choose.

For example, the end of Chapter 3 is focused on Nishiko's relationship with Seiko. There is a text chat convo that can happen in one of two different parts of the chapter, and an in-person convo I'm currently working on (the last planned new content for the demo). Both can be experienced, or one or the other, or the can both be skipped. I don't want to make the entire social life something optional, but I do want to have there be parts like this where the reader can choose to skip interacting with a character if they truly don't want to, to help reinforce the idea that every interaction is, in a sense, a deliberate choice.

Even something like picking 'the BAD' choices is something I want to not just feel like, say, Undertale's infamous 'genocide run' but rather something that is an expression of anger at the world around the main character, which even has some specific benefits - because people don't just become jerks because they like to feel bad, but because it serves them in some beneficial way. As a slight example, if the reader pushes Nishiko to become aggressive, their 'Psycho' stat will increase, which can lead to them having even more aggressive choices later, which further increase that stat. But as that stat increase, Nishiko will become more physically perceptive to certain details about the world around them, but in material ways rather than social ways. For example, they might sense certain inklings of things that allude to later plot points earlier than someone who is more cooperative and might learn more social backstory elements. It's likely not going to be some huge, monumental difference, but it hopefully will make a second playthrough feel noticeably different and give the reader more insight into certain things.

The planned demo will feature the prologue and the first three chapters. By the end, all four main characters will be introduced, and the reader should get a pretty good idea through bits of writing and visual presentation that the choices they make won't change the primary narrative, but will affect certain details and aspects of how things play out. This is actually related to a big plot element itself that will become important later. But for now, it's been really fun adapting content I wrote over five years ago into this format, fleshing it out, and trying to work out ways to not only make that content function better in an interactive format, but also just how to lay more foundation and foreshadowing for what's to come.

While the visuals are still far from finalized even for this demo, I do have a private build uploaded for anyone genuinely interested, as I still haven't received much in the way of feedback so far. I'm planning on releasing a public demo to itchio later on when we can get the visuals to look more finalized.

#DownRight Fierce #visual novel #lgbt #indie games #game development #fgc #fighting games #street fighter

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where-theres-smoak-2 · 3 years

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JATP Analysis/Theory: Alex and Carrie

I know I need to stop but I am having way too much fun overanalysing this show. Besides I promised you all a Alex and Carrie post so here it is. So my newest theory is kind of to do with the phantoms unfinished business. All through out season 1 there has been this theme of connection, Julie’s connection to the boys, their connection to Julie’s mum, Julie’s connection to her mum, Luke’s connection to his parents etc. We also know that the phantoms have some burnt bridges, with their parents and with Bobby. Julie too also has a broken bridge between her and Carrie. I think their unfinished business is to mend all of those broken relationships and reconnect with everyone. This is where I think Alex and Carrie come in.

I think that Alex and Carrie are going to be really important in reconnecting everyone and here is why I think that. I think you can draw alot of parallels between Alex and Carrie and I think the show producers have created these parallels because they want us to connect Alex and Carrie.

The first parallell is something I have spoken about before and I think it’s talked about alot in the fandom, but many of the characters in the show have a colour connected to them Alex and Carrie both have the same colour connected to them, pink.

In fact its very rare to see either of these characters not wearing pink, it happens occassionally but not very often. This is interesting considering on the surface these are very different characters.

But the colour pink had a lot of symbolism around it and even more interesting than that, different shades of pink have different meanings. Pink is made up from two colours, Red and White. Red symbolises, passion, energy, power and sometimes agression. White symbolises purtiy, morality and innocence. Obviously these are two contradicting colours but when you put them together the passion of red is softened by the purity of the white creating a calming, romantic and gentle loving colour. The more red in the pink the more energetic the colour.

Alex wears alot of light pink. Light pink is a much softer and calmer colour than the brighter pink that Carrie is often seen in. And that fits their individual personalities, Alex is a much calmer and softer person whereas Carrie is more engergetic and agressive. However pink is also a playful colour and I would say both characters have shown that playful side to them when Carrie performs and when Alex joined in with the dancing is one example. Pink also represents friendship, unconditional love, understanding and compassion. I think you could easily relate all of these things to Alex but you might have a harder time seeing Carrie that way. However I think from the fact that Julie used to be friends with her and that little clap at the end of Stand Tall she definitely has the capacity to be all of those things. I do think that clap at the end was the beginning of her redemption arc but that its going to take some time for her character to grow and I think Alex is going to play a big part in helping her with her journey.

Dancing is another thing that is similar between them. The both seem to really enjoy that aspect of performing. I do think that this love of dance could be what helps them connect in season 2. Alex is always shown to enjoy Dirty Candy’s performance and has joined in with the dancing both times. But they also seem to be wound tightly and often seen as tense or stressed. I do think that they both use dance as an outlet, its their way to let loose and just be themselves without any cares. I do think this could be something they’ll bond over.

So why is it important that Alex and Carrie make this connection? Well I personally think that out of the three boys Alex is the one that is going to be most willing to forgive Bobby. When they found out that Bobby had stolen their songs both Reggie and Luke had very specific reasons for being angry about it. Luke was angry because if he had been given credit then his parents would have known his dreams were worth chasing. Reggie was angry because if Bobby had given them credit then some of the money would have gone to their families and maybe his family wouldn’t have had their house turned into a bike shed. But Alex never gives a specific reason for being angry therefore I think he’ll be the one most likely to be willing to sit down and chat with Bobby and listen to his side of the story. I think it’ll be through Carrie that Bobby and Alex will reconnect. I spoke in another post (here if you like dot read it) about how alot of the characters have a necklace that they always wear and the symbolism behind those necklaces. Alex always wears a gold chain which as I said in that other post, chains have been a symbol of everlasting love and life since ancient times, its the circle that never ends. Gold is also a symbol of purity, illumination, love, compassion, courage, passion, magic, and wisdom. Again all of these things are very similar to what the colour pink represents. What’s interesting to me is that even though Carrie doesn’t have a necklace that she never ever takes off she does have one that she wears more often than any others and like Alex this is a gold chain or rather two gold chains.

Also if you look at the picture on the right where she has pink hair you can see she is wearing another necklace on top of the two gold chains. Now I’m not an expert on designer jewellery but I know there is a brand that is like known for its panther/ leopard necklaces called cartier. I’m pretty sure that’s what the other necklace is. I do think this is obviously suppose to show Carrie’s wealth, gold is also a symbol of wealth and glamour which is probably why alot of Carrie’s jewellery is gold. But it is interesting that it is a cat necklace, again in that other post I talked about cat imagery in the show and how Flynn is often seen in animal prints and has cat imagery associated with her. Cat’s in alot of cultures are guardians to the underworld and spirits. This necklace isn’t the only instance that we see Carrie with cat imagery in Edge of Great she is wearing a leopard print pale pink outfit.

Although there is nowhere near as much of this cat/ leopard imagery with Carrie as there is Flynn I do still think this represents that Carrie will also like Flynn will be on team phantoms at some point and like Flynn will act in a helper/ protector capacity.

Staying on the subject of cats though there is something else I want to talk about. Like I said I think mending their relationship with Bobby is going to be a big part of completing the phantoms unfinished business. Well I didn’t notice this until @this-is-a-name-dont-worry pointed it out to me but like the rest of the boys Bobby also has a necklace that he wears all the time and whch he was wearing in 1995 and 2020.

I spent ages trying to figure out what the hell his necklace was because in most shots it just looks like a hunk of silver metal. But I finally figured it out and I’m 99% sure that its a lion.

Sorry about the quality of the picture it’s as clear as I could get it. I’ve tried to make the features a little bit clearer by outlining them. The red dots are the eyes, the orange circle is where the nose and open mouth is and then the mane is outlined in brown. Also like Carrie and Flynn he has been seen wearing leopard print. This makes Bobby the third person to be associated with cats of some kind and what is also interesting is that all three characters are lifers. But the Lion holds a even more special symbolism. Most of the characters can be divided into being more connected to Julie/ lifers or to the Phantoms/ afterlife. For example Willie and Caleb are very much connected to the Phantoms and the afterlife. But Flynn and Carrie are much more connected to Julie and life. However you could argue that Bobby is that one character that is very much in both worlds. He is very connected and was a big part of the phantoms lives but he was also quite a big part of Julie’s life and is very much connected to her and the living through Carrie. The interesting thing is that Lions are neither nocturnal (active at night) or diurnal (active during the day) but are sort of inbetween. Night time in many cultures is symbolic of magic and the afterlife, the haunting hour as Caleb put it. Daytime is very much the time of the living so its interesting to me that Bobby has a necklace that is the image of a animal that is part of both worlds just as he is. Also as a slight sidenote I do have a new maybe not theory but headcanon, all four boys from sunset curve each have a necklace that is unique to them and that they never take off, I like to think that they all brought the necklaces together, maybe at a stall or something and that they are a symbol of their friendship kinda like friendship bracelets but as necklaces. Still its really interesting to me that Bobby never took that necklace off. Anyway back on track I think the fact that all three of these characters have associasions with cats makes me think that each of them will be instrumental in helping the phantoms complete their unfinished business, especially as cats are often not just depicted as protectors for spirits in the afterlife but as guides. I think each of them is kind of like a roadmarker on the journey to the phantoms completing their unfinished business.

Ok so going back to Alex and Carrie and why I think Alex will be an important part of Carrie’s character development and redemption arc. In episode 6 there is that truly iconic scene where Dirty Candy is performing and Alex ends up joining them on stage. During the dance Alex passes through Carrie twice. When Ray passed through Reggie, Reggie then formed an attatchment to Ray. The same thing happened between Julie and Luke they formed a deep connection. Obviously I do think that there were other factors than just they passed though them but I do think its significant and its for that reason that I think that Alex and Carrie will form a bond. Also from Reggie’s comment about being able to tell that Ray has a good heart and the looks on Julie and Lukes faces it seems like they can sense the other persons I don’t know personality or maybe even their soul, maybe when passing through for a moment your souls connect who knows. I think Carrie has alot of issues, clearly, but I think underneath all that she is actually more like Alex than we know, a gentle, sweet girl. I think this is something that Alex sensed and that he is going to help her get back to who she used to be and help her reconnect with Julie. I do think Carrie and Julie’s story is the same as Bobby and Luke’s/the Phantoms. I think like Bobby, Carrie has a deep rooted jealousy of Julie. I think that Carrie has a love for music and wants to be successful in the industry and she probably feels a bit like she’s in her father’s shadow and that there’s alot of pressure on her to succeed because of how successful her father is. Although she is good I do think she probably feels like she is constantly outshone by Julie and that Julie’s talent comes really easily to her. Like her father I think she was given an opportunity, I spose you could call it, by death more specifically Julie’s mum’s death. I think with Julie being unable to sing or play music Carrie was suddenly getting alot more attention but like Bobby I think she has alot of conflicted feelings about it because although she is now getting more success she is grieving for someone who has passed. It must be a very conflicting feeling and I think that is why she is so moved in Stand Tall because I do think she had a bond with Rose and just didn’t know how to deal with her dying. Also as another little detail during that scene Carrie isn’t in pink but is wearing a dress that is covered in hearts.

I think this is suppose to symbolise how her heart is opening up. But the really interesting thing is that the hearts are coloured pink, red and blue which are the colours of the boys maybe this is an indication that the boys will be helping open her heart or that she will help open theirs to forgiveness for bobby.

Another sign that Carrie might be getting a redemption arc is that in episode 6 again during that scene where she performs all eyes on me she is wearing a pendant of Saturn.

Saturn is symbolic of transition and transformation. I think the message here is clear that Carrie is going to go through a change. As I said I think Alex will play a big part in that. Part of the reason why I think that is because I don’t think it’s a coincidence that Carrie is wearing the Saturn pendant at the same time that Alex joins in with the dance and passes through Carrie. Also I think its significant that the song that Alex joins in with is All Eyes On Me. Again in that other post I talked about how I actually thought the song was telling the story of what happened between Bobby and the boys. Like I said Carrie and Julie’s situation I think is the same. I think just as Alex was interfering and making the dance better (because you know he made it better as fantastic as it already was) he is going to be ‘interfering’ and making Carrie and Julie’s relationship better and then as a result of that Carrie is going to help heal things with her father.

Ok this one even I will admit is a bit of a stretch but it popped into my head so I figured I’d add in. But in episode 9 when Caleb gives the Phantoms new threads each of them have, well I’m not sure exactly what they are but lets go with brooch. I don’t know if there is any significance to Luke’s and Reggie’s because I haven’t been able to get a clear enough image of them yet but this one is Alex’s.

Alex has a cross and a chain that curves like a crescent. The symbol for saturn is this.

Obviously its not the identical but I can’t help but think they look similar. The other interesting thing is that the Saturn symbol is made up of two components a cross and a scythe. Saturn is symbolic not just of change and transformation but with death, or more specifically death’s scythe. I don’t know I just thought it was interesting and if his brooch is suppose to represent the symbol for Saturn then that means that both Alex and Carrie have worn jewellery associated with Saturn. I do think that both of them will grow and change. I also think it would be really interesting to see these two getting to know each other and them bonding. I’d love to see a dance scene with them both. You know one where Carrie knows he’s there and can interact with him.

So yeah that was my incoherrent ramblings about Alex and Carrie with a side of Bobby. Now all I need is for Netlfix to renew the show for a 2nd season already.

#jatp speculation #julie and the phantoms #alex mercer #carrie wilson #jatp

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