I don't think you understand or know how hard it is for me not to message you
I don't see anything at the end of it except an endlessness.
Larry Levis, from Boy in Video Arcade“,” Elegy (University of Pittsburgh Press, 1997)
happy pride to claire novak I love you bestie
Shadows of Hurt
My own sharp intake of breath woke me up. My hand was not on your hip. Not on that warm dip above your lovely hip bone.
In the time it took me to strech and blink into the waking world I felt the lingering softness and safety turn to an emptiness. Gone from our bed is the place where I was vulnerable and protected while my hand rested there.
Dreaming is the only time I get to feel the whisper of those moments and waking brings the shadows of hurt, the reality that you are not here.
I would like to say the chilly weather has me missing your warmth and voice. In truth i miss you in every moment.
Te Oneroa-a-Tōhē, Aotearoa // Ninety Mile Beach, New Zealand (x)
Eternity forever beats to the tune of your heartbeat my love and I will fill this with my love forever. A certain melody graces my soul and yes, that melody is your heartbeat.. a timeless sound, forever.
Every night, I wish to see you in my dreams
A place where I can call you mine
A place where I can see you abundantly
A place where I can shout your name
and a place where I can love you candidly
I look at the moon and it reminds me of you
It reminds me how you gave light in my adversity
It reminds me how you pulled me from the abyss
It reminds me how you saved me from my anxieties
And it reminds me how close you are, yet still so far
I yearn to see more of you each day
I yearn to see your beautiful soul
I yearn to feel your one of a kind heart
I yearn to see how you shine when you smile
I yearn to see the whole universe in your eyes
And I yearn to see the love of my life
i forgot to post shitty icon nyahdja!!! take her and run