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#all of these are so random please ignore that and i have waaay more than these but then the post would get too long so
saintchaser · 7 months
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modern (muggle) au headcanons because i simply choose to today <3
james and sirius have a LONG streak on snapchat, and they never miss
sirius is a fan of bigger, jeep-y care, remus prefers beetle cars, and he’s also not a huge fan of driving; sirius, on the other hand, is
james and lily are huge swifties (james’ favourite album is lover, lily’s is evermore)
dorcas’ favourite taylor swift album is reputation
marlene likes 5sos and has definitely been to at least one of their concerts simply because she wanted to. she waited in line for the best place in the crowd, too
both sirius and lily are into stem
mary only smokes flavoured cigarettes or vapes, and her favourite flavour is cherry. she also loves cherry coke, and gets one whenever she goes out
remus is not a fan of technology all that much
peter had bitlife installed on his phone and likes making his friends’ lives on the app. he likes “seeing into their future” and he always tells them their grim endings
sirius and mary have the best music taste and they always pick the songs for whatever event they have going on
marlene had an emo phase, and so did peter
james has a lighting mcqueen toy car on his nightstand
peter has a giving advice tiktok and the background images for it are always the stupidest shit ever. he has a decent amount of followers and interactions
remus has a book quotes tumblr
and speaking of which, dorcas is on booktok. she makes recs and commentary videos, her dad follows her on there and always likes and comments on her videos, and reads the books she recommends
marlene makes some fucking wicked cocktails
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we-stan-fiction · 10 months
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Dialogue prompts:
(Please note that I came with them at very random times so please ignore anything that doesn't make sense or is just plain weird)
1. "Why are your feet naked?" "It's called barefoot, you weirdo."
2. "What! I panicked...I followed my instincts!" "Your instincts are ridiciously wrong!!"
3. "You surrendered to a dog?!"
4. "Why is he bleeding?" "You said keep him alive. You never said anything about shooting." "It goes without saying." "Hey! I tried but he was being annoying!"
5. "What? From where I was standing, it was a good idea." "You were out of earshot!"
6. "Are you okay?" "I was just impaled by someone's grandmother, what do you think?!"
7. "Look at you, been here for less than a week and you already blackmailed 2 guys, kidnapped someone and even stole a burrito."
8. "I leave you with the guy I kidnapped for an hour ,and you untie him and give him tea and cake?!"
9. "Did you really have to traumatise the cat?"
10. "Damn you, moral compass!"
11. "The question is, how did you know?.. oh, no. You didn't, and I just told you everything, didn't I? I really need to get better at this interrogation thing."
12. "I'm here to save your sad little ass." "Hey! My ass isn't little. It's.... average size."
13. “The world needs more people like you.”
14. "Will you act your age!”
15. "Do it or die trying!"
16. "So That's where you draw the line?!"
17. "The phrase 'Ignore it and it'll go away' doesn't apply to bullet wounds!"
18. "You are very kidnappable." "Thanks... I guess?"
19. "When this is all over, remind me to block your number." "You don't have my number." "Then give it to me so I can block it later."
20. "She's one of my best agents." "The one who flung herself off the roof?" "I don't know what the hell that was, she's usually not that stupid!"
21. "Oh, Thank God you're alive! Now I can stay mad at you."
22. "Fine? You can't even walk in a straight line!" "I can, I just... choose not to."
23. "What are you gonna do? Whisk me to death?"
24. "At last, we meet again, my nemises." "You are talking to a straw." "Stay out of this."
25. "You are unusually kind today, it's unsettling."
26. "Not all those who wander are lost, but not me. I'm definitely lost and going around in circles."
27. "That is waaay above my pay grade." "I don't think they'll be paying you again anyway, you're pretty much getting fired once they find you."
28. "Where are you?" "Walking your goat." "I don't have a goat?!" "Then what's on the leash?!"
29. "And you. This isn't over, I'll mess with you later."
30. "He'd never kill someone just because, there's definitely a good explanation. He's not a shitty person" "nope, I'm just a shitty person."
31. "For the last time, we don't kill people unless it's absloutely necessary. You better have a good reason why you did it." "I do-" "spite isn't a good reason." "Then I don't"
32. "What did you do?" "Nothing you can't get me out of jail for!" "Not again!"
33. "There will be hell to pay! But I'm really busy these days so maybe next month."
34. "What are you doing?" "I'm done being kidnapped."
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headkiss · 2 years
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okay, listen:
i always go for inexperienced/oblivious!reader bc that’s literally me bUT! steve slowly working his way from friend to lover with an inexperienced reader exactly because she’s inexperienced, right? he’s not blind or dumb enough to not see how obvious she is in her affections for him, she doesn’t have that little voice in her head that urges her to hide how she feels, so i imagine her clutching a book against her chest and kinda rocking back and forth slightly while smiling this really big and really lovestruck smile at steve when he’s giving her his undecided attention which he does often and he just knows she returns his feelings. she oblivious tho! no boy has ever been interested in her! and stevie is just being nice, right?… she doesn’t try to hide how she feels but she can’t comprehend the hints he gives her and it’s all very sweet and robin is their number one fan and the lunch club always roll their eyes because steve being a romantic? ew. steve in boyfriend mode? ew. them looking at each other like they’re in love? ew. and how aren’t they together already??? lots of exasperated max for sure!— and she’s giggly and blushy and gets excited about dumb things and has a bit of a luna lovegood vibe going on, y’know? she’s relatively new in town, so she naturally gravitated towards steve because he made her feel safe and comfortable since he noticed straight away that she had anxiety when he first met her ( a tried to flirt but went over her head and she was very shy and nervous ) and so she’s friends with the whole gang by now and the gang only. and they love her! the kids are crazy about her because she’s a huge nerd and it makes steve’s heart all warm 🥺 ! she’s never been very social, always too anxious to put herself out there, but she’s very bubbly and unintentionally funny to and with her new friends friends! she’s had friends!,but it makes it so she gets flustered by steve very easily and he adores it, adores her, so he’s more than happy to go with the slow burn of things, he’s fine with it being a long haul type thing, he’s in it for the long haul tbh, but when they get together he fucking breaks— every touch and kiss drives him insane, he’s her first kiss and it ruins him, he gets needy and whiny and desperate and he needs her close, he’s touch starved but only for her, and she feels the same okay? but she’s inexperienced !!! so she gets overwhelmed and maybe she tears up while they kiss? and steve is concerned at first and tries to pull away which is almost fucking painful for him but his need to care for her is huge so “you okay? did i hurt you, i’m sorry i-“ and his mind immediately goes to his angel is upset! fix it!, he pulls back but she whines and grips his shirt and pouts and tries to cling to him “nonono, no, please” and it makes him hot all over but then steve understands “just overwhelmed then, huh?” and he goes full soft dom!steve and wipes her tears or kisses them off and they keep kissing and kissing and kissing and he’s so soft and gentle with her and maybe she nervously asks if this means he’s hers now and it drives him insane because that’s all he wants to be “say you want me and i’m yours forever” 🤯
this is waaay too specific so feel free to ignore ily bye
OMG OMG THIS IS SO CUTE
he would notice you right away thinking, why haven’t i ever seen her before???, and flirts with you so fast and gets all soft when you’re too shy to reciprocate AHHH i feel like you’d just say random stuff like whatever’s on your mind and he thinks that’s the cutest thing ever and he indulges you EVERY TIME!!!
once they’re together the gang is all like “mom and dad!!” and “we knew it” and all that they would not shut up about those two ik it and they would tease them but secretly be the happiest ever to see steve get the love he deserves and they all love u for him and him for u YUP
i feel like u wrote a whole fic there and i loved it ily too 🫶
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jazzythursday · 3 years
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I’m about to go into another very long Marvel rant/dissertation here— mostly for myself— that I started writing soon after the Loki Series finale so please feel free to just scroll past this, because honestly I think I kinda overdid this one. It’s jaded and overly dramatic even for me. You have been warned:
The last 4 Marvel movies/shows I’ve watched left me feeling so completely depressed and unsatisfied and hopeless about the future of popular entertainment and story telling in general, and I know I’m not the only one. The fact that fans are going into these experiences hoping for a good story and character arcs that make sense with prior characterization, and leaving feeling… empty is a very clear sign that their approach leaves a lot to be desired.
Infinite War had some valid reasons to end the way it did, because by having our heroes fall so much harder than ever before, it built up the tension and high stakes for the next film. But what does that do when Endgame leaves us feeling even worse? I wanted them to triumph and finally come together to be better. I expected there would be losses of course but not enough to negate the wins. Instead the characters were subjugated for plot, characterization was watered down, and we lost all the original Avengers besides Thor and Bruce (who was no longer even Bruce). Peter loses Tony, Thor’s previous loses are permanent, and so many other things that, in spite of loving a lot of the movie, mean I haven’t been able to stop being sad about it for literal years. And the amount of thoughtless destruction that seems to be at an all time high when it comes to character’s lives and disregard for properly exploring emotions just doesn’t leave much to be expected at this point. Far From Home was good. It was. I liked it a lot. The acting was wonderful and there were some really interesting themes they grappled with but I still walked out of the theater feeling like there was still so much detachment surrounding a lot of the decisions, a little too much thoughtlessness (that, and the gaping hole of Tony). I’m not going to talk about WandaVistion but I’ll say that I was invested until the start of episode 8, and finished episode 9 feeling drained and tired and sad.
Then we get to Loki, a show which has plagued far too many of my thoughts since I started watching it, and has crushed my hopes for ever truly being happy with a Marvel project ever again. Loki is a character who’s ostensibly felt alienated and unseen for most of his life, and that’s before finding out about his parentage. His first movie ends with his suicide attempt and subsequent fall into the void. His second takes place a year into working under Thanos and ends with him being taken away in chains (yes I know he’s the villain he’s done bad things etc. etc. but for the purposes of this I’m only focusing on his pov). Then his third involves his solitary imprisonment, his mother’s death, and his near-death (considering the likelihood that he was actually stabbed), although it does end on a lighter note with his acquisition of the throne. Then we get his redemption and reconciliation with Thor in Ragnarok, immediately followed by the utter tragedy that is the first 10 minutes of Infinite War, which I don’t think I need to explain.
So what I suppose I’m saying here (very very inadequately) is that after all of that, I can’t believe the proper story to tell in his first chance at being a main protagonist was one where he’s constantly degraded and beat up, convicted of things he didn’t actually do, given no focus on backstory or implied/established motivations, and labeled as a clown and a narcissist! His powers are weakened, he displays almost no recognizable mannerisms or competence, he’s held to a higher moral standard than every other character, shown no respect, and ultimately loses EVEN MORE. We’ve seen him lose and lose and lose and lose again. We’ve seen him die THREE TIMES, we’ve seen him redeemed TWICE. So who in their right mind thinks that the most compelling story to tell after all of that was to see him LOSE AGAIN?! And not only lose, but lose without any real triumph, dignity, or acknowledgment beforehand. Death to the author aside, reading the utter nonsense the team behind it have spread, it’s so clear that it wasn’t made in good faith. Whether in ignorance or true maliciousness, they just don’t care. They didn’t research. They didn’t try and see things from his point of view. They didn’t truly sympathize with him as a person while writing. They didn’t understand. And they truly, truly wanted him to fail.
I’m tired of feeling hopeless at the end of everything, of leaving the theater or turning off the TV wondering why I even bothered, why I even care when I’m just being strung along with as little consideration as an audience as my favorite characters. I wanted to actively see him strive to be better, not just be told he could be. I wanted to see him triumph over his demons, not forget them. I wanted to see him be the “master of magic” that every other damn movie has alluded to, and to use his powers effectively. I wanted him to be powerful. I wanted him to, if not win, then win on a personal level at least. I wanted to see him take agency in his life and PROVE EVERYONE WRONG! And, though it’s now bafflingly controversial to say, I wanted it to be told by an experienced and competent writing and directing team that knew and understood his character and were passionate about telling his story.
I would ascribe to the notion of “don’t like it, don’t watch” if I could but I care to much to not be affected by this obvious decline in quality and awareness. And I’m a relatively recent fan. I haven’t been waiting for Loki to get his moment in the sun for 10 years. I’M NEW HERE, and my heart breaks so much for fans of the original movies who have lost their love of Marvel or Loki because of the way it’s been handled. No one should fall further than they can climb up from, and I’m tired of watching loss after loss and never getting the release of gaining enough of it back. What’s the point of caring about these characters if the writers won’t? Of investing in a connecting cinematic universe if it lacks continuity? Of looking for clues and foreshadowing when there isn’t any and the only twists are random and pander to shock value? The way these pieces/characters are being created and interpreted is reductive and incompetent, and for once I’d like to watch something that feels crafted, inspiring, and gratifying to see to the end.
If some people like the Loki show we got, I have no argument against that, because my own opinion is just as subjective as theirs. Though, I’d like to think that if what I want is for the show to be better out of love for the same character, then what they enjoyed from the show can coexist in that. If anyone’s actually read up to this point, I have to admit I’ve forgotten mine. Mostly I just wanted to express my frustrations over how unfeeling and stale most entertainment, specifically from Marvel as of late, has been.
TL;DR: I care too much, waaay too much, Marvel cares too little, Disney doesn’t care at all, and I don’t know how to accept that.
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egyptian-sun-god · 3 years
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Never Have I Ever (mildly critical lens)
1. BIG THING. NHIE is not a show that was made directed at me. Yes it has similarities with my heritage as Indian but I am not American. Not born there nor raised. I am a diaspora Tamilian though, and my schools throughout most of my life have had very little Indians and even fewer Tamilians in them. Usually its just me.  So while there is overlap, Devi and I would have innately different experiences and worldviews.
2. Why is her last name Vishwakumar and her Dad’s name Mohan? Where that coming from. Correct me if I’m wrong, but most to all Tamil people use patronymic's right? Like am I right or am I tripping? Someone correct me. I checked Mindy Kaling’s bio and she took her father’s last name so I might be tripping? 
3. Okay straight off the bat, Devi annoyed the hell outta me. Like no joke...I really dislked Devi. But she’s a traumatized teenager who has no common sense and too much hormones. I’ve seen ppl like her so I’m fairly happy we have a flawed and messed up portrayal of a POC and doesn’t feed into the idea of perfection. But also Devi’s mom is suprisingly lenient to Devi’s disrespect man. like I see why but woowowowowo....she’s uncharacteristically tolerant sometimes. 
Now even though I get that Devi is supposed to be flawed and unlikeable. Because she is immensely selfish and bitchy with shitty communication skills. Devi’s friends forgive her waaay to fast. Like ladies, what are you aiming for? SAINTHOOD? Like at least let her grovel a little bit for being such a bitch. 
4. Love interest. Y’all heard me. WHY THE FUCK IS BOTH OF HER INTERESTS WHITE or at least definitely white passing. Like they did Paxton dirty man. Like was it too much? Was it too much to wish for Devi to have more Indian friends or like an Indian/POC love interest? I feel personally that it is such a weird precedent that has been set with POC centric love stories. And this definitely should be a critic that has come up before. 
You know which love stories resonated with me? Nalini and Mohan. Because it represented the possibility of like marrying someone (going off the assumption they were arranged to be married) and falling in love after marriage. A very real scenario for many many couples. Kamala’s entire shenanigan with Steve and Prasanth and having to choose between the uncertain boyfriend situation but losing family but keeping family and going with an arranged marriage. Also props to Kaling for not demonizing arranged marriages. Please please let season 2 explore Kamala’s struggle more. Hell even that one off thing with Eleanor and the tech crew boy was funny. 
5. Kamala’s whole character was many vibes. Because counting down and stressing about marriage is such a goddamn relatable feeling. I ain’t that much younger than Kamala and let me tell you the anticipation/fear is REAL. And like her talking in Ganesh puja and like weighting the options of being a social outcast or going with the arranged marriage and with the hope that like you’ll find someone cool.
6. I don’t like how Devi tries to reject her Indian culture and I really really hope they develop that next season or something and get her to find a balance. Because at the end of that season she did get a good talking to about trying to be Indian enough or too Indian and finding that balance but it doesn’t feel like she’s finding that balance and her being jealous of the other Indian girl does not bode well for me. 
ALSO THEY FUCKING MISSED OUT SO BAD. You make a series about a Tamil American girl and you don’t name drop any famous stars. Thala Thalapathy, Superstar??? VJS?? Surya? Dhanush? Nobody? Why? Like Devi doesn’t know them...makes sense. But like Kamala is from town right? She has to have carried some of that. Like that scene when she called them for a movie right? Why not name drop some famous ass classic like Baasha or Sachein or Roja? Like a cool nod to the Tamil kids out there watching this series to see parts of their culture and language included. Like even the soundtrack and songs have no Tamil songs? Like not even one for the heck of it?? WHY? IS THAT NOT SO SO MUCH MISSED REPRESENTATION? Like typical Tamil things like making a beat out of random shit, Tamil kuthu songs, Typical Tamil mega serials, food and enjoying food together. Like why wasn’t the food stated or name dropped. 
Personally, NHIE was really really really white palatable and it didn’t really get it into any roots of our culture especially for a girl struggling to find roots as in where she fits. Like you gotta show both cultures and let the audience and Devi figure out where she fits. If you show long Netflix shows like Pretty little liars, show alternatives like mega serials such as Chitti or Mudiyaathu Karuppu or Mettioli? Or if you wanna be more modern name drop Tamil webseries’s? If you wanna show English pop hits, show Tamil album songs and kuthu beats. IF YOU WANNA REPRESENT, THEN ACTUALLY REPRESENT. Don’t pull this generic ass BS on me!
5. I hope the lack of tamil culture in the series gets corrected next season somehow. I don’t have ANY ANY faith that it will. But I can be hopeful. Also I lowkey like that Devi has like a “rival” of another Indian girl. I don’t like that is is rivalry cause brown sisters gotta support each other and that’s sort of been the general motto from where I’m from. But like I get why and it would make complete sense. 
I really really hope that Aneesha is like super super Indian. Proud of her culture and brings a lot of her culture and its facets to discussions and not afraid to make her culture a focal point of herself.  It would be a really good foil to Devi and it might spark some thought into her and accepting or at least recognizing the cool shit about being Tamil. I wanna see that mainly cause I used to be lowkey ashamed for having a strong accent when I speak cause I was made fun of and I didn’t like having different lunches or listening to different music and not being part of the more Western culture. But I learnt to ignore that and became like 3000 times more proud of being Tamil and wore like traditional clothes to school, ranging from kurti tops over jeans at first and eventually wearing full on chudidaars and saris (saris to proms at least, I couldn’t wear a sari on a daily, half sari probably, sari would be hard). Bringing traditional sweets and food and distributing them to anyone who would ask and trading lunches.  Please let me see a brown kid who is proud to be brown and straight up in your face about it at times. 
(Unrelated but to Tamil/Indian ppl who had other Indian/Tamil kids in your school like was trading lunches or like sharing lunches common? Like its a pretty common Tamil thing to do and I brought that culture of taking some of everybody’s lunch and giving everybody a part of mine everywhere I went. But like was that a thing? )
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angelic-blxssom · 4 years
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can i request the sfw alphabet for kuroo, kageyama and lev? thank you
———— ꧁꧂ ☘︎︎ sfw alphabet - p1
characters ➪ kuroo, kageyama
authors note ♡︎ so this took waaay longer than expected so I hope you don’t mind that I took out lev (I also don’t know his personality too well but feel free to request him again if you would like his :)
Kuroo Tetsurou ;
A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)
Kuroo is pretty affectionate when it comes to relationships. He most likely will almost always have an arm or a hand on you at all times, he likes to show others that you are his.
B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)
He’s the humorous yet quite intelligent friend. Kuroo may seem a little aloof soemtimes but he’s actually quite smart. He’d enjoy making you laugh and teasing you quite often.
C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)
Yes! Kuroo lovessss to cuddle! Imagine his arms wrapping around your body as you snuggle into his side and the only thing heard is a fan and the two of yours breathing. I’m so lonely
D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)
Kuroo would probably want to settle down but let’s be honest; he probably sucks ass at cooking. Like his forte is volleyball, not cooking food so you’ll probably have to know how to cook at least something.
E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)
I really doubt that Kuroo would be the one to break up with someone; but if I had to say something, maybe you don’t like his jokes 😼
F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)
Kuroo wants to settle down and get into a relationship like that but I think he’d struggle with commitment. Kuroo wants to pursue volleyball but if you support him then he’ll have no problem.
G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)
He’s pretty gentle, Kuroo’s hands are calloused and stuff so his grip tends to be tight on you when he’s holding your hand or hugging you.
H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)
Speaking of hugging you... Kuroo loves hugs! And I mean like; he wants hugs. Desperately. (Probably touch starved but that’s another headcannon) he hugs you alOt.
I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)
Kuroo wouldn’t say it immediately because he’d want to get to know you for you but I’d say it wouldn’t take too long for him to say it.
J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)
Doesn’t get too jealous often but when he does get jealous, it’s all out. Like- making out with you in front of the boy or girl, I don’t judge
K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)
Kuroo loves to kiss your neck, it’s sensual and he also enjoys the noises that escape you when he does. His kisses are definitely passionate; don’t @ me 😾. You love to kiss his nose because it’s the only way to make him blush heavily.
L = Little ones (How are they around children?)
Enjoys children but probably not his favorite thing in the world.
M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)
Definitely morning cuddles, like both of y’all still groggy and shit from the sleep and you just lay there in each other’s arms.
N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)
All I gotta say is... sexy time.
O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)
I think that Kuroo tends to be a more private person in general so it would take a little for him to reveal extremely personal stuff about him.
P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)
He’s not easily angered but as stated before, he will get extremely angry if jealous (not at you though)
Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)
I swear, this rooster bitch probably remembers  everything about you. Remember  that one childhood story you told him a year ago, guess what; its still engraved  in his brain!
R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)
When he first said that he loved you, your face was all flushed and your eyes sparkled as you laughed and repeated those words back to him. The worlds that made his heart flutter.
S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)
Kuroo is very protective over his s/o. He doesn’t  obsess over protecting you because he knows you can defend yourself  but he takes precautions just in case because sometimes you can be very clumsy.
T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)
I swear to Jesus, this man. THIS MAN. is the embodiment of effort into your relationship. He is always there and has some sort of gift whenever you’re down.
U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)
Probably ignoring you, like if he was with friends, Kuroo probably would forget to text you or respond to calls if he was out.
V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)
Not extremely concerned but Kuroo does enjoy looking handsome for you
W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)
He would be pretty sad but he knows you would want him to move on so he would. In this 10 years tho.
X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)
It’s like 5am and the only thing i can think of is Big Dick Energy, i know this aint sfw. leave me alone 😩
Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)
Sharing you? like romantically. so basically being in a poly relationship because he wants your love all to himself.
Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)
Grabbing your thigh when hes asleep. Sometimes you’ll feel a small squeeze as he is dreaming in the middle of the night. It never is sexual tho, just a comforting thing.
Tobio Kageyama ;
A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)
He’s not extremely affectionate but you do get some good love here and there from this boy
B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)
He’s definitely still as quiet and “rude” as he usually is but grows a soft spot for you over time. Will protect you from duded teasing you but then go on to tease you himself.
C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)
Doesn’t really like to cuddle but will do it if you ask him. He tends to be kinda stiff while cuddling but definitely gets used to it over time.
D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)
Not very good at cooking but I think he’d do good cleaning around the house. Like you cook and he cleans, fair deal right? Anyways, Tobio wants to settle down but after he’s finished with volleyball.
E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)
Honestly, he’d get really nervous surprisingly and end up doing it over text.
F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)
Like before, he enjoys commitment but after he has finished volleyball, otherwise it might distract him from winning.
G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)
Physically, he is pretty gentle to you. Soft touches, slightly soft voice as he speaks to you at the dead of night. Emotionally though, hes a little rough around the edges. Teases you and messes around but he always sounds so serious.
H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)
No. Well kinda. Only hug him when he’s in a good mood, otherwise you aren’t getting a hug.
I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)
Not very fast knowing, Kageyama. He would wait a little and you might even have to say it first :0
J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)
He gets jealous pretty easy because you’re the only one that truly understands  him. Kageyama doesn’t do much, he just kinda pouts in the corner silently.
K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)
He has soft yet slight rough kisses, just like his personality hehe. He likes to kiss your lips because its classic and likes the feel of it. Kageyama enjoys being kisses on the temple because, it makes him feel better from whatever he was worrying about.
L = Little ones (How are they around children?)
Not good. Please don’t bring him around children unless its your own.
M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)
Kageyama is up early for volleyball so you see him very little but definitely some soft kisses before he leaves.
N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)
If you ask, he will wrap you gently in his arms and have you listen to his heartbeat as you both fall asleep in the moonlight.
O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)
Kageyama doesn’t reveal to much of himself until like a year of dating? He thinks it’s very personal  but you have a right to know as his s/o so he doesn’t mind as much.
P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)
I mean... he’s angered pretty easily lmaO. thats my TED talk.
Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)
He tends to forget things at time but always remembers the important stuff, like birthday, family, favorite food, etc;
R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)
The first game you attended of his. They were against another school and he was getting sLigHtly worried but when he saw you in the audience, BOOM confidence booster and boy did he love it.
S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)
Kageyama is pretty protective but probably doesn’t care if you are gone and don’t tell him because he’s not THAT protective.
T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)
Like volleyball, Kageyama puts in alot of effort to the relationship; not as much as Kuroo but still alot. He puts in work for anniversaries and gifts but since dates are pretty often, not much effort there.
U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)
Being rude to you, like ignoring you on purpose or getting mad for you doing little things wrong. I don’t make the rules, sorry 
V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)
Doesn’t really care about his looks in front of you cause you love him anyways.
W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)
Pretty incomplete, like he was numb before but now he’s a robot. BEEP BOOP Kageyama. ok i’m sorry. but seriously, he’s lost without his half to keep him steady.
X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)
This little- probably hates spiders and makes you kill them for him. He’s a damn baby at times so be warned.
Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)
Get extremely  sexual in front of others; like no sexy touching him or you in front of his teammates . it makes Kageyama a little uncomfortable.
Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)
Stealing all the blankets from you and then when you wake him up to say you’re cold, he’ll pull you into his arms to radiate the heat.
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15 - If you write OC’s, how do you decide on their names?
Just answered that one here!
18 - Do you have any abandoned WIP’s? What made you abandon them?
Oh my God, I have so many!! Beware, this is going to be a very long answer. Click on the thingy to read more!
Last year, back when I first started writing fanfiction, I had a lot going on in my mind, and at one moment I had to choose which stories I would actually work on, and which ones I would have to drop it for now. There were five stories in total, and I dropped three of them.
Two of those five stories evolved and they became When The Levee Breaks and Map of the Problematique, the other three are still unnamed and undeveloped.
I'll give you the main summary of them, because why the hell not?
The first story is a pretty fluffy one, I've abandoned it because there are already a few stories like these in the fandom and because I got too invested writing my other stories. Also, a huge chunk of it is written in the first person, because I started writing it at the beginning of the last year, and I've learned that I don't really like writing in first person anymore... Writing WTLB is hard enough already lol.
This story would narrate the beginning of Jackie and Hyde's relationship while Donna and Kelso were still in California, but there are a few twists: Eric doesn't mope around in his room most of the time, and he develops a really nice friendship with Jackie (that friendship would turn into a small crush later), and Eric and Donna would not be endgame.
There's a lot going on at first, in this story, Hyde actually plans on "wooing" Jackie once he's sure she's over Kelso, they flirt a lot and he's aware that he's going to make a move on his best friend's ex. Jackie's also very interested in Hyde, but for a while, she thinks he'd never be interested in her.
Their flirting wouldn't last long though, I had planned on making them get together at the beginning of the story (I think it was in chapter five?), the rest of the story would narrate them hiding their relationship from their friends and how close they are getting to Eric and Fez.
I've planned on writing lots of sweet friendly moments between Jackie, Hyde, Eric, and Fez. In fact, there are quite a few scenes written out already, and in one of them they're all in a circle and it's the first time Eric realizes that Jackie's not as bitchy as he thought she was. Here's one of the circle scenes I've written:
"You know what?" Jackie announced, ignoring Fez's sobs and passing the joint to Hyde, thanking God that he was probably too high to notice how goosebumps rose all over her body when his fingers brushed against hers "I hope Michael gets syphilis from a random beach whore and goes blind."
"Odds are pretty good of that happening." Hyde nodded as he took another hit "Of him getting an STD, I'm not so sure about becoming blind, but I'm sure once he gets back to Wisconsin we can convince him to stare at the sun long enough for that to happen"
Eric snickered "Yeah... I hope Donna just... Never comes back, I hate her... Yeah..."
"No, you don't," Jackie said flatly to him "You'll probably marry her if she ever does come back."
Eric stared at Jackie for a few seconds before sighing dejectedly "... yeah, you're right..."
"But, hey, we can bash on Michael some more if you like, it's fun!"
"You're right, it is fun! " Eric nodded, smiling at the petite girl sitting next to him on the couch and wondering when did he start to actually enjoy her presence.
The whole google doc for this story has over 7k words of random dialogues and random moments I came up with. I'm not going to lie, it has potential, lots of it actually, but I don't have the time to work on it now.
The story would be overall a light read, it would've been M-rated because I did start to write a sex scene, but it would be overall something funny and cute. For example, one of my favorite moments is this one where Eric almost catches Hyde and Jackie:
"Oh my God…" Eric muttered in awe, glancing at the two very guilty-looking people sitting on the couch.
Hyde and Jackie exchanged a look, they were caught. Crap.
"Is this what I think it is?" Eric said
"Look, Eric…" Jackie started to explain, but stopped when she saw the huge grin forming on Eric's face. She looked at Hyde and apparently he was just as confused as she was.
"You're watching Star Wars!" Eric said in glee "You're geeks!"
"What?!" Hyde protested and looked at the TV, where he could clearly see Leia and Luke kissing on the bridge "We're not geeks, you're crazy"
"Steven, stop," Jackie said "Fine Eric, you caught us, we like Star Wars"
This story would end in a nice place, but... well, there would be a lot of changes.
Here's the thing, I was kind of really hating Kelso (and Donna too, a little bit) when I started writing this, so I chose to write something that might be a little weird for a few people. In this story, Donna and Kelso would have a fling in California, and Eric would catch them on the spot when he arrives to get Donna back.
It's not something Eric would be able to forgive. And even after a lot of talking, he wouldn't be able to get back together with Donna after seeing her with Kelso.
Coming back to Point Place, Eric would try to make a move on Jackie, he would kiss her for like, two seconds, and she would've pushed him away and blurted out that she's in love with Hyde. Hyde would arrive at the basement a few moments after that, and Eric would be completely freaking out. It's a funny scene lol.
Things would get messy for a while, but in the end, Jackie and Hyde would go public and have the happily ever after they deserve, Eric, Fez, Hyde, and Jackie would continue their friendship, Donna would move to California for good, and Kelso wouldn't hang out with them anymore.
There are a few stories that are somewhat similar to this one, like Summer Lovin' by leoasc, One Difference: Donna and Kelso Have a Fling by MistyMountainHop, OPERATION: REBOUND by ShanghaiLily, and there are probably a few more that I can't remember the names right now.
The second story is a heavy one, like, really heavy.
I got the idea of writing this story when I was watching a Grey’s Anatomy episode, so yeah, its a dramatic one lol.
The episode that inspired this story is the one where Richard is in between life and death, and Meredith is the one he chose as his next of kin. Which means that she’s the one the doctors report to, and she’s the one who decided how he was going to be treated. Meredith took some risky decisions and they’re literally the reason why Richard is alive.
I remember that when I saw this episode, I was also reading a fanfic... Being more specific, I was reading The Right Road Lost by zpplnchick, and an idea just popped into my mind... What if Jackie was the one with the memory loss? How would Hyde deal with that in a post s8 universe?
I know there are a few fics that deal with that subject, like Steven Who? by kezztip and Redemption Road by SkittlezLvr79, but believe me, my story would’ve been waaay different than these ones.
Here’s the main plot: Jackie and Hyde talk things out, and Hyde asks Jackie if she could ever take him back, promising her that he would never, ever give up on her again. She says no, because y’know, she’s a freaking self-respecting woman, but this talk would make her think, a lot, because she can see that he actually meant it every word, and she has never seen him this determined before.
As she was driving home, she would crash her car, and things would get pretty serious pretty quickly.
Her situation would be very critical, I planned on making Hyde suffer a lot in this, guys. I’m just downright cruel to him, because I believe that nothing would hurt him more than seeing the person he loves the most going through absolute hell.
Decisions would have to be made, and that’s when they find out that Jackie’s next of kin is no one other than Hyde. After her mother left her and her father went to prison, Jackie asked her father’s lawyer to provide her with a few papers that put Hyde in charge of her well-being if something ever happened to her. She forgot about it after they broke up, and well... She is going to be very thankful for that later.
Hyde’s shocked, but very pleased to find out that he’s responsible for her, especially since everyone seems to think that her death is inevitable and that they shouldn’t prolong her suffering.
After a very enlightening conversation with Mrs. Forman, Hyde decides that he’s not going to let anyone tell him what to do, and that he’s going to follow his gut.
The next few months would be complete hell, Jackie’s situation is very critical, she would go through a lot of complications and Hyde would’ve been a complete mess. He would watch quietly as Donna, Kelso and Fez stopped showing up to see Jackie, disgusted at how quickly they just gave up on her. He would listen as Donna rambled about how what he was doing to Jackie was torture, and that he must really hate her if he’s not willing to just let her go (which would end up causing a major fallout between Donna and Hyde), but he would never question his decisions. He just knew that he was doing the right thing, and no one but the Forman’s seemed to understand that. 
Hyde showed up to see her at the hospital every single day for months. The whole hospital staff knew him as “the Sleeping Beauty’s prince”, and he hardly ever left Jackie’s side.
After a few months, she wakes up, and he’s right next to her when that happens. It’s honestly a pretty touching scene, he’s just so happy and so relieved to see her awake after everything she went through, and they have a beautiful moment.
Seriously, I cried hard when I wrote that.
They would both cry, share “I love yous” and a few kisses, and it would’ve been beautiful, but the magic’s killed when Hyde realizes that Jackie thinks that they’re in 1978. She doesn't remember the nurse, the “get off my boyfriend” incident, Chicago or Sam. The last thing she remembers is him driving her home after they emptied her family’s ski cabin.
Hyde is divided between telling her the truth and losing her, or not telling her and being with her again.
He would let her think things were okay between them for a couple of days, until Eric shoves some sense into his head and he comes clean about everything. After telling her everything that happened, he also tells her that he loves her and he wants to be with her, but that he completely understands if she never wants to see his face again.
It’s safe to say that Jackie’s absolutely crushed. This breaks her, but she had the Forman’s by her side to help her go through everything, and Hyde also never leaves her. Sure, he gives her some space, but he doesn’t stop checking up on her, and slowly, they begin to form a nice friendship.
He takes her to her physical therapy appointments, and her doctors appointments, he helps her in every possible way he can, and she falls in love with him all over again.
The story would end with her making a full recovery and giving them another chance.
I've abandoned this story for three reasons, reason number one being: I was at a point where I really disliked Donna, and her character is not a nice person at all in this. Now that I understand Donna's character better, I refuse to publish a story where she behaves the way she did in this one. I could've changed her behavior, but the whole point of the story is "Hyde is the only one who hasn't given up", and having Donna acting like herself (nice and supportive) would kind of kill part of the plot.
Reason number two is: There’s already too much drama in Map of the Problematique, working on this story along with WTLB and my other WIP’s would drive me nuts.
And the last reason is... I didn’t know if people would like reading a story like this. I was afraid that some people might think that all of this determination is extremely OOC for Hyde, and I can kind of see why they would think this way. 
The third story would’ve been an angsty one, and I started writing it after I finished watching the first episode of season 6. You guys can probably already guess why I was inspired to write an angsty story after that episode...
Here’s the thing: I absolutely HATE the way Hyde treated Jackie in the first two episodes of season 6. I hate that he cheated on her and had the audacity to be offended that she didn’t take him back right away. I wanted to kick his ass for acting the way he did, it was truly disgusting of him and he did not deserve to be with her again after everything he’d done.
I do like that Kelso was the one that brought them back together, but the rest of that storyline is just... yuck. I truly hate it.
I wanted to fix that. I wanted to give Jackie a very girlboss moment, and I wanted to see Hyde groveling to get her back, so well... I came up with a story idea.
The story would be a short one, it would have 10 chapters, 15 if I got too inspired, and it would consist of Hyde groveling while Jackie didn’t give him the time of her day.
Sure, Jackie and Hyde would be endgame, because it’s me and I would never write a story without a happy ending, but Hyde would have to fight for it, a lot.
@snookstheallmighty is currently writing a story that is very similar to the one I was working on. It’s called “Friday I’ll Be Over You”, and it’s pretty great! You should totally check it out later! I’ve sent her a few parts of my story draft a while ago, and I gave her full permission to use it on her story!
I think this is pretty much it... I have plenty of story ideas and many, many google docs with random drafts and dialogues that popped up in my mind out of nowhere, but these are the ones I’ve fully abandoned and will probably never work on again.
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Can I request Mc as a sugar baby/Onlyfans(or the Devildom equivalent) ? Like they have a toooon of grim and get free clothes/jewelry/gifts from demons that aren’t the brothers?
Sure thing! Thanks for the request!
Brother’s reaction to the MC being a sugar baby:
Lucifer:
Oh boy
So, he notices pretty quickly that you started getting super expensive jewelry and clothes out of nowhere
And the one day, while he’s walking around the places, he sees you kiss an old looking demon, who then gives you some money
Now, Lucifer is actually really mad
He quickly walks over to you, and glares at the demon, and then he ignores your protests as he grabs your hand and leads you away from there
When you come home, he shoves you in his room and demans that you tell him what’s going on
While you explain to him what’s going on, he glared at you the whole time
“Why didn’t you tell me? Y/N, you should know that you never have to ask for anything when I’m here. I don’t want to see you hanging around those demons again.” His face softened, and you felt yourself blush a bit.
“Of course, I will want a bit of payback, so why don’t you do what you were doing to that demon before I came over~”
Mammon:
Alright so our boy may sometimes do it when he’s very desperate for money (he gets help from Asmo who just wants a good fu-)
When Mammon finds out that you have some demons helping you for money?
Oh fuck no
He is so mad
I mean he gets that you want expensive stuff, but NO he ain’t letting you hang around some random demon
He gives you a big lecture (well it’s just him yelling and mumbling)
“Seriously, I could’ve helped y’know?! Why didnt you tell me!? Instead you go hangin around those assholes.”
You’re the only person he will lend his money to and buy stuff, just to make sure you never hang out with those guys again
Leviathan:
So this guy almost never goes out.
Like ever
But the one time he did, to get a super limited edition figurine that was only selling at this one store that didn’t have akuzon, he left the house and went outside
And there he saw you with some older demons, giggling and cuddling with them
The last time he had felt like this was when Mammon sold his limited Ruri-Chan body pillow
And he couldn’t explain the feeling...he was just super mad
He does intervene, and tells you that there’s an urgent matter at the House of Lamentation, but while he takes you away he does glare at the other demons for a bit
He does ask you why you’re doing it, and he feels pretty bad
But it’s not because he likes you lmao
“A-anyway! Next time you want to buy something, you come to me alright? I know ways we can make a quick buck without having to go through any of that. How do you think I get my...limited...editions.....”
“Levi?”
“I FORGOT THE FIGURINE GODDAMIT MOVE! MOVE!”
( he did get his figurine, yay!)
Satan:
Oh he knows what’s going on
I mean you’re your own person, so he’s not just going to tell you to stop
But deep inside him...he feels a pang
One day while he’s walking home from the library, he sees one of the demons try to grab you in, well, places you don’t want to be grabbed
And oh boy
Satan comes out, and he tells you to go home.
Even if you refuse, he will give you the coldest look that you just have to do what he says
Anyway you never saw those demons again
When Satan came home, you were waiting for him sitting on the stairs
When you asked what had happened to the demons, he just shrugged and looked guilty at the ground.
“It’s just...When I saw them try to touch you...I just saw red. I haven’t felt like this in a long time. I’m sorry Y/N. Please don’t think badly because of that, I promise that I was just trying to protect you.”
You smiled and leaned your head on his shoulder.
“It’s alright Satan. I won’t do it anymore.”
Asmodeus:
Soooo he was the one who actually convinced you to join him!
I mean, at first he didn’t think much of it
You were both going to wild parties, and you had so many new stuff!!!
But the more Asmodeus started to hang with you...the more he felt jealous of the demon that had his arm wrapped around you
One day when the two of you were at this very expensive bar, Asmo saw the demon getting waaay too friendly with you
And, he doesn’t know what took over him, but he slapped the demons hand away and grabbed you.
“Sorry darlings, we actually have a very urgent matter to attend to. Thanks for the drinks!”
Asmo doesn’t answer any of your questions on the way home, but when you are finally dropped off and standing in the doorway, he grabs your hands
“Sorry Y/N. I just didn’t like seeing you with those guys. I just want you all for myself. Hey, why don’t we go and take a bath together, hmm?? That way maybe you can forgive me~ I promise I’ll give you something better than money!”
Then you had a really nice bath
Beelzebub:
You had begun to buy him very expensive food sometimes
He was confused as to were you got the money from, but hey, FOOD, who was he to complain?
But one night, while he was coming out from the store with like 1000 devil cakes, he saw you with an old demon, who was holding you real tight
Now, the way Beel might’ve explained what he felt is this:
Someone took his favorite food away!
It’s not a nice metaphor but hey, it’s Beel.
So he marched over with a bunch of cakes and sodas and sweets and a bunch of food
And he tells you that you should both leave right now
Since Beel is a big beefy dude, the demon immediately leaves and you sigh, looking at Beel.
“Hey Beel, what was that for?” You asked.
Beel sat down beside you and shrugged.
“I don’t know. I just felt like that one time Mammon ate the food I was storing to eat after getting dinner, and he got it all. I just didn’t like seeing someone taking something I like...”
He said it like it was nothing, but you became very red in the face
And as a thank you you gave him a little peck and some chocolate devil cake
Belphegor:
Oh my lawd, he was sleeping the whole day on this new super comfy pillow you got him
He honestly had never been so happy before, the pillow was so soft!
But one day, when he woke up, he was going to close his windows, since it was getting a bit chilly
And he saw you talking to an old demon, who gave you some jewelry.
He was actually pretty mad.
So when you came upstairs to talk to him, Belphie grabbed your and hugged you tight, making the two of you fall in his bed and cuddle, all the blankets on top of you.
“B-Belphie? What’s going on?”
“I saw you hanging out with that man earlier. Is that where you got your money to buy this pillow?” He pouted
You slowly nodded and Belphie sighed, and the he laid on top of you, making you unable to move
“Wait! Belphie!”
“No. You haven’t been spending much time with me. So now I won’t let you go.”
After a really comfy sleep Belphie and you talked about the problem, and you ended up promising him that fine, you won’t be a sugar baby anymore as long as he doesn’t harm anyone
Belphie agreed, but a few weeks later the demon was nowhere to be found (Belphie smirked when Asmo was telling them about the news pft)
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Random Political Ish...
So, I’m survivor of abuse that happened to me when I was a child and as an older teen in the church. I’m still voting for fucking Biden.  Because thankfully, I am using that wonderful gift of discernment.  Unfortunately, absolutes are easy in online spaces and because of that? We have a lot of shit we’re seeing now bleed into the real world, including Trump. Online is yelling at someone in the next car for cutting you off, and you’re mad and concerned about the good flip-off, not ever knowing that person in the next car’s mom just died and they are having problems focusing on driving now. I really feel like the internet is a place for a lot of powerless people to gain a semblance of power in “likes” of easy absolutes. In feeling righteous for condemning, when we all know ain’t none us at Z and we all started at A. If you’re in that righteous condemnation space, please, get out of that mindset and understand that the world is way more complicated than that.  ....That TRULY evil people will continue to exploit your adhesion to those absolutes. I really and truly believe we won’t get out of these shitastic times until people wake up and realize that. Oh, and VOTE BIDEN. Because Trump is obviously waaay worse and the person you like hasn’t got a snowball’s chance in hell of getting Trump out.  That’s how I’m wording it, because that’s the important thing here, getting that malignant ball of ignorance wrapped in pure evil out of office. The people’s future matters more than your principled soapboaxes.
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Elite S3 reactions (Episode by episode/overall thoughts +SPOILERSSSS)
So I know I post writing stuff but I have *EMOTIONS* about this show and no one to share them with so please ignore this post, if you don’t watch the show/don’t care. Includes spoilers so you’ve been warned.
Ok, I’m going to go episode by episode then do my overall feelings. I’d love to know anyone’s thoughts about the show so feel free to reblog! I just watched the show in 10 hours straight but alot goes on so I might not be able to remember every single conversation in a episode. Multiple characters have a lot going on at once. For reference, I don’t speak Spanish-I watch the show with English subtitles. 
-3x1: Carla
-Pretty solid start, we pick up a couple weeks after we left off. I felt so DUCKING bad for Carla the entire season and I understood why she lied in court about accusing Polo. Malick is introduced-am I the only who doesn’t like people who are persistent in asking other people out? Like my no is a no. Don’t annoy me, this is the kind shit people pull and pressure others into a relationship. It’s not endearing to me. So I automatically didn’t like him. 
-Lu gets kicked out but can someone tell me where she lives throughout the season? I figured she lived with her mom after her dad kicked her out but at the last episode, in the airport, she says both her parents have disowned her? Where has been living? Maybe she saved up money unlike Valerio idk. 
-3x2: Samuel and Guzman
-Samu is trying to get Carla back. I didn’t dislike them as a couple last season but I knew they were using each other, so I didn’t allow myself to get too close to them. But now I ship them. I wanted them together this season. Yeray is introduced-um, I still think he’s irrelevant. I did think for a moment that he was going to hold his money over Carla’s head so she’d stay with him but he didn’t even think for one second that was why Carla was trying to get with him (because her asshole dad pimped her out ugh) . He was only helpful when it came to the contract at the end.
-Deadass, I was going to exit out if Valerio had slept with Rebe’s mom. I thought that entire scene was pretty much sexual assault and it was creepy. He needs to go to rehab lmao.
-Polo trusting Guzman again was a dumb bitch move. So here’s how I feel about Polo. V unfortunately, I love him. He’s one of my fav characters. I know he’s a killer but Idk I think it’s the actor or something because he’s so pretty (the entire cast is beautiful) that I forgive everything he does?? Also I hated Marina by the end of S1 so he did me a favor. What I wanted from Polo was to embrace the fact that he was the villain. Like the times he threatened Lu by taking away the scholarship or (tried) to threaten Samu. Those scenes I was like hell fucking yes, no more wallowing. But noo this boy wanted forgiveness. Dude. You’re cute but you still killed someone, jesus. I would be so ashamed/guilty to be hanging out with the brother of the person I killed. He played himself there big time. The tweets were interesting way of revenge and ofc Caye used that to her advantage. She’s a leech but I thought she used the fact that she had the murder weapon (as leverage for Polo to stay with her) waaay more. 
3x3: Cayetana and Valerio
-Strange couple but eh, better than incest. So in this episode, Samu makes a deal with the worst detective ever (every season, she fails to solve a case lmao) and I don’t blame him. He’d do anything to get Nano back, it’s why he tried to get Polo arrested for an entire season. It’s shitty that he did that to Rebe but I understand why. Before this season, I thought Rebe was irrelevant because she wasn’t really fleshed out but after this season, I grew to like her a lot. It hurt watching her and Samu get close because everytime she said something like ‘you’re the only good thing in my life’ I was like girl, he’s the reason why you’ve lost everything ugh. It was uncomfy and sad to watch. 
-Ander and Omar. I liked them-didn’t like what Ander did last season but he did confess and was forgiven. So Omar’s whole cheating thing came out of left field and it wasn’t! Even! Properly! Confessed! to! Ander!!!! Oof. Ander SUFFERED this season. But I’m glad the writers chose cancer over HIV because there’s so much stigma attached to that disease and the LGBT community and I’m tired of that narrative. 
3x4: Lu
-I’ve always respected the hell out of Lu. Yes, she’s been a bitch for the past 2 seasons but she was always upfront about her actions. She didn’t like you, she let you know. This was her shining season and I loved her Valentine reversal. She looked hot, she really looked out for Nadia/Ander this episode (and the entire season). She could’ve revealed the cheating but she didn’t. I feel like S1 Lu would’ve so she’s come full circle. She said NO to Guzman which was everything. Oh speaking of which, I actually like Guzman. He’s really developed as a character in terms of temper. I like that he wanted to move on from hating Polo. But when he’s with Nadia, he irritates me. 
-I don’t have Muslim parents but I have Muslim cousins. My parents are immigrants. They’re not extreme like Nadia’s but like I feel Guzman goes out of his way to make Nadia’s home life worse. He’s knows her parents are conservative but he’s strides in the store and tells them about how their daughter can’t study. Should Nadia had said something? Yes but how could she? She has responsibilities to her parents. Her 2 other siblings have been kicked out. Nadia claims that her religion is important to her but Guzman repeatedly disrespects it. I couldn’t be with someone like that. It wasn’t cute that he offered to work so Nadia could study-which we saw him do ONCE. It’s overbearing. Also Nadia just forgives him so easily, it’s like dude, do you not care? So I like Guzman-he’s actually a good friend to Ander and formerly, Polo but my god, he’s so disrespectful when it comes to Nadia.
-Also I liked the threesome, not as good as Christian/Polo/Carla but not bad.
3x5: Ander
-Best episode this season, hands down. I loved the opening song and sequence. The scene where Polo’s parents catch him with Valerio and Caye really got my gears thinking-I was like if I were a parent (don’t want kids but ya know, if I did), how would I react to that? I’d like to think that I’d be very accepting of my kid (given they’re not hurting themselves or others) in terms of sexuality, religion, etc. But I was like hmmm, being polyamorous?? Not one I would be prepared for. But if the kid is happy, I guess. That was random but those were my thoughts. 
-Rebe finding out it was Samu who sold them out hurt like a bitch. BUT MY GOD THE BLACKLIGHT REVEAL!! Ugh the best. I had to pause, I was so shook. And Malick and Omar reveal to Nadia. Jesus. I loved her reaction but it was immediately undermined by the next episode when she forgives her brother. Like I get it, they’re siblings. But she should’ve held it against him longer. Omar got 0 consequences for cheating this season-not from Ander or Nadia. Tf.
3x6: Rebeca
-Carla is on drugs. Yikes. Again, her dad was pimping her all season so I get it girl. Also anyone else think the adults are stupid in the show?? All of their parents are business people but one bad financial move, they’re on their asses and almost bankrupt? Happened with Guzman’s dad and now Carla’s. Do they not invest in other things? Idk have a savings account?
-Also Samu and Guzman being friends. Top tier content. Chef’s kiss. Full circle and character development to the max. Ngl I felt a little bit of homoerotic tones there?? Just me?? I would ship them over any other couple if they got to together for just one night. 
-Nadia sharing the scholarship with Lu. Ugh. Everything. Loved that.
-Ander lying to Omar about having an affair. Ew. I know he was trying to push Omar away but like he was the one cheating? So either call him out on that or just break up with no reason. Don’t make yourself look bad dude. Ugh but the both of them sobbing at the end of their breakup...my heart shattered. That was GREAT acting. 
-Polo saving Carla. We all liked that. 
3x7: Nadia and Omar
-FUCK Ander’s mom for expelling them. I went to private school-there’s rules in place for parents who have money so they don’t manipulate the administration. Polo’s moms needed to let their son fight his own battles. Also Ander’s mom calling Guzman to come over to talk to Ander was really strange. She just expelled him. I know he’s Ander’s best friend but idk, she just expelled him. And they don’t even talk about it at Ander’s house. Again, this is the Guzman I like-the loyal/good friend. Loved the convo between him and Ander. 
-I liked Carla’s honesty to Yeryay and that they could possibly be friends. I always knew he idealized her for standing up for him on social media so I’m glad they acknowledged that. 
-Also Lu’s comment to Nadia that she looks like a pistachio was everything. And her ‘People are watching’ line in the previous episode is great too. 
-KEVIN FUCKING MCHALE made a cameo. Hell yes. And ofc, great speech by Nadia and Lu. Polito’s last conversations really did a lot for me to symphatize with his character (He didn’t have to do much because I still liked him despite his murdering). He got his moms to face the fact that they can’t throw money at every problem and that he is a killer. This scene and the beginning scenes of the next episode is what made me at peace with his character. I knew he was going to die but like this is what he needed for some sort of redemption. 
3x8: Polo
-Not the best ending for such a good season. But the first 15 minutes which are the convos and events that led up to Polo’s death was good. I never suspected Lu for a second, I really thought Valerio (Had some decent motive-more than Nadia, less obvious people like Samu and Guzman) had done it. But when I rewatched the trailer, you see that the writers told us it was her all along. Her line about the ELITE gang being family and that she’d protect them was a clue. She had the least interaction with Polo himself throughout the season so I never had time to even suspect her. Really brilliant. 
-Them touching the murder weapon is powerful. This was the only way to end things. I figured by episode 6ish that everyone was working together based on their answers in the flashforwards. And I half laughed because no sane police force would allow the witness/potential suspects to hang out together before interrogation. At least not without police watching them. 
-I do think it’s odd that Samu asked Rebe to ask her mom to get rid of Polo because he literally betrayed her and she talks to him (although mad) despite that. OKayyy. I really thought we were going to get the Samu and Carla get-together but guess not. I feel cheated by that because they clearly wanted each other all along. 
-The endings weren’t the best. I do appreciate that Omar made the right call in the end and I’m glad Ander is in remission. Oof my gripe though was with Nadia and Omar’s parents. So Lu goes to the airport and admits hey my parents disowned me and they’re like of course, we’ll be your family. AND I WAS LIKE ‘WHAT ABOUT OMAR??’ Y’all were so willing to kick him out and they never really made amends. So like I get that Omar’s dad is trying by acknowledge that Ander is Omar’s boyfriend but I mean during Omar’s mom’s dinner, he had no right asking him about his studies. He didn’t move out. Y’all kicked him out. How do you think he’s doing, trying to find a place to sleep? Jesus. Also the mom isn’t all good. Again, if I were a mom, I don’t understand how I could live without knowing if my kid is okay since they’re not living with me. My mom is a single mom-I know there’s no man in the world, not my dad, no one that she would chose me over. If my husband kicked my kids out, no questions, the husband is going to the curb or I’m going with my kids. Idgaf. The mom should’ve stood up. It just made me so angry that they were like poor Lu, no family but they mistreated their own child. 
OKAY so overall thoughts...I thought this was a really good season. I’d say 1st was the best, then this one, and then second (Ngl I don’t remember the 2nd one too much okay). I liked that it was more angsty and more character focused then the whodunnit? part that we’re used to. The entire cast has such strong acting and I’m going to miss whoever isn’t returning for S4. I’m going to miss Polo as well goddamn. 
Best moments of the season: Lu saying/doing ANYTHING-I have feelings, bitch. Her friendship with Nadia and other characters. Carla standing up to her pimp dad. Ander being in remission (his acting was great too). All of episode 5. Kevin McHale cameo. 
Worst moments: Polo asking Guzman if he would ever be forgiven?? And I know he did end up forgiving him but like bro, just because I don’t want to harbor hate for the rest of my life, doesn’t mean I forgive you for killing my sister whatttt. Omar never confessing to Ander about the cheating. Like no consequences and his character was just demolished this season. Still don’t know where Lu lived this entire season lmao. Anything Ander’s mom did to the students ugh.
Overall, I liked this season. It felt more mature for a high school TV show. I’m not super invested into any particular ship so I don’t feel cheated like most people. It takes me a while to get into ships but once I do, I get really invested. The only ship I was really disappointed in not seeing was Carmuel because Carla went through alot this season and Samu clearly wanted to be with her. And that’s all I had to say lmao.
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A Second Chance Chapter 219
I received an amazing number of reviews on this chapter and I wanted to share them/address some of them here to show my immense appreciation for those who take the time to drop me a line or two for what I write.
Some of you have decided after this chapter you can no longer follow my story and while it saddens me, I expected it.  I write first for myself and I know where I want this story to go and while I hope you all keep reading it -- I know that not everyone will continue it. 
Devereaux13: I can’t. You really just did that to us? Started this story with a oh! Sirius is gonna live! But NOO u had to frick us all over. Oh my god. I love you for this story but hate you for this story. I cried more this time than the cannon one. Goddamn
Lightningscar: Huh, well, judging from the reviews, this chapter is getting you a lot of heat... personally, I though it was great in many ways, both in action, description of thoughts/feelings and great descriptions of what was going on. My biggest beef, though, gotta be this: *Ginny grabbed Luna's hand and the two of them climbed onto the wolverine's back* Ehm, it is likely it was explained in previous chapters, and if memory serves, Animagi are generally slightly larger than their natural counterparts, but... a wolverine is generally about the same size as a medium dog, shoulder height being around 30-45 cm (12-18 inches), 65–107 cm (26–42 in) long (not counting the tail). Basically, Ginny and Luna are crawling on top of a Spaniel or a Golden Retriever (on the small size) Yes, wolverines are ridiculously strong compared to their size, capable of carrying prey many times its own size... carrying dragging it. One big difference between carrying something in its powerful jaws, compared to carrying something heavy on its back. A few other minor beefs Ehm, why did Voldemort pull a Jafar on the cat (Lady G, was it?) and not outright kill it? So they got giants wandering down mid London without anyone being the wiser? I'm sure you have thought of the logistics about it :) Well, all in all, great chapter. Things have advanced rapidly compared to canon, for better (less Horcruxes) and worse (Ministry bye-bye)... though, in the latter case, it can be interpreted somewhat ambigious. Fallen as in the place (which was a given, seemed to be completely overrun suddenly... makes one wonder where all of the defence forces went, guess we will find out sooner) or if it has fallen as an orginazation like they did in canon. Curious to see what happens next. Yours sincerely, Lightningscar
Menna Taha: Ok let me just say.. Sirius was going into battle with the intent to save his son, knowing that his Fiancée who he was very much in love with was pregnant with TWINS. I mean you’d think he would be more careful than in the books where he was reckless, lonely, rusty and under house arrest in a place he hated. Also the ministry fell! Just like that! After all the preparation and the relations with the french, Bulgarian and Russian ministries AND the fae and the army they made AND the warning they recieved! What were they fucking sleeping! I love you please don’t hate me.
They were not sleeping, but they weren’t prepared like they should have been.  It’s a problem that will be addressed.
HGRHfan35: Well...shit... This was a really bad idea: to read this in bed. How the blazes do you expect me to sleep, now?!
Daddy: WTF! Why end it here. WHY!
Wade Bradford: Noooooooooooooooo!
AZfangirl: i cant believe you killed sirius. this one really hurts
Ofglitterandgiggles: I’m broken
axelvaz: Started this about a week ago and I’m finally all caught up! But oh my gosh! What a cliffhanger! Sirius!
Emeralds and Rubies: I thought we might get off easy when Pettigrew fell through the veil, butI’m heartbroken for Harry and Zee, but you definitely did this whole plot point justice.
maximusrexmundi: Eeeeeehhhhh so I was with you until the very end. I just can't imagine a Voldy who is objectively in a weaker position (than in the books) being able to muster a force that could attack and defeat a FULLY prepared ministry who both knew he was coming AND had international allies
Runningtwiceasfast: I have to say I am incredibly impressed with this chapter. I am obviously sad as I was in canon when Sirius died but due to the more uplifting tone of your work overall that you would shy away from a turn like this. Sirius' death is so important in canon a it really is a turning point in the story. Obviously when Cedric died it was sad but Sirius' death made everything all the more real. Your Harry has gotten so much more of a life and childhood than canon Harry but he too is now faced with the reality of life without Sirius. I can't wait to see what happens next.
Joanne: Wow! I’m so sad. I’ve been listening to Led Zeppelin in honour of Siri. I had hoped that this part of canon would be ignored but alas. War is war. Amazing storytelling: you made us feel this loss and that takes talent. I both dread and look forward the next chapter. Will Harry take Ginny with him? Will the breakup occur? Did Remus and Tonks make it out? Will there be a funeral? So many questions! Enjoy your birthday and rest while we all grieve.
Ahugefun: I need you to undo sirius death. Im not joking He shouldnt Not with zee pregnant and harry so attached to him Its not fair to us the readers who enjoyed your story so much andddd already mourned sirius a little bit when he was kissed before you changed that.. Im hoping that you wont kill remus and tonks in the end of the war. U are your own story and if somthing happen in jkr world doesnt mean it should here!
Everything that happens in JKR’s world is what inspired me to write my story so of course it affects it.  Some will be the same, some will not -- includes character death.  Not everyone will die who did in canon, but some will, and some who survived in canon, will die here.  
jakegarrett94: nooooooo not sirius
Leaf Ranger: ...I'm sorry...but this...this is exactly why I called fucking bullshit in the last chapter. Because of all this. This. My problem isn't the pacing of your story. My problem is all this death and carnage and bullshit happened...not because of something realistic...but because the Grey lady, for no reason, was a cryptic dumbass. That is my problem. While it'd be hard to swallow, I'd have accepted most of what happened in this chapter if there was an ACTUAL reason, in the story, as to why they weren't able to be told where the diadem was. but there wasn't. The only reason was solely because YOU wanted it that way. And it's your story, fine, but at the very least, there should be a damn good reason WHY, in the story itself, things happen the way they do. It should never...EVER be just because you, the author, want it to happen that way. because then it breaks the immersion of the reader, if something happens solely for the sake of you, the author, having it happen that way. *sighs* To be honest? I'm sorry, but this, this just is too much. You killed off Sirius and had the Ministry fall DESPITE the preparations they had already made, despite the warnings they had. That just...no. I'm sorry, but no. I'm done. Thanks for what was a pretty entertaining story up to this point, but after this? Just nope. It's not worth it. It really isn't.
Sorry to hear that, but again, it is obvious to us the readers where the diadem is, but not to them.  The Grey Lady can be cryptic if she wants as she’s dead and has nothing to lose, it’s up to our heroes to find the answer.  Sorry you feel it’s not worth it, thanks for reading as long as you did.
Redplayer1998: Please tell me it's a trick sirius can't be dead not after 200 chapters of building his character please no
Dutchie: Oh man Sirius died, bummer! Still a great story.
Whiton: Hey I’m a bit late but I wanted to say happy belated birthday. I love this story it’s fun it’s sad it’s thought provoking and is just a wonderful thing to read. Hope this finds you well and hope you keep writing.
AkashiyaHyrule: What the... this can't be it. What's the point of creating all that military platoons, and gathering allies-if the Ministry are just going to fall so fast? This feels waaay to early for this story plot to occur. But that's just my opinion. Hopefully you got a plan that works, and it's believable. It's also in my opinion that if Sirius Black's "death" is true (hope it's not), Zacharias should not be with anyone else or find someone else to replace him. I suspect you might do something of that nature. You haven't shy away from all the random romances that occurs, even in minor characters. Don't think I haven't notice your tendencies to ship characters! Anyways, it would be annoying, weird, not the same, awkward, and off-putting. I hope that will never happen. But then again, this your AU, so you have the final say on what you want to implement. I invested a lot of my time in this piece of fanfic, so I don't wish for it be ruined by very disagreeable choices (it's all subjective, of course). I mean no disrespect, as I know writing is a tough pastime, and you deserve to be commended for the amount of time you put into your AU. So, good luck. You deserve your break, and hopefully things will be explained Chapter 220! P.S: He's really dead, isn't he? I guess I would have to expect the death of Remus, Tonks, Fred Weasley, Colin Creevey, Lavender Brown (at least in the movies), Dumbledore, Snape, Moody, Dobby, etc, etc. P.S. Why the hell am I just naming character deaths?
Guest: There . Are . No . Words. Saz J
Guest: I, like so many other readers here, have absolutely loved the changes you have made to the story of Harry & Sirius - it has been a wonderful story that we have looked forward to reading every week. However, as much as I love your story, I am upset and disappointed that you had this last chapter play out the way it did. You have, for 218 chapters, written about great changes and strengths for Harry, all the others, and especially Sirius. To have this last chapter happen almost like the original version (book & movie) is a bit of a let-down to your earlier chapters. I will still look forward to reading your story, but maybe without the enthusiasm I have had this past year.
KittenWithAnAx: damn it! I'm crying! Why do I always hope that Sirius survive? even when I watch the movie I hope he don't die! I hate and I love you! yes A break is need! let us mourn in peace! my baby died! and I know that in two weeks I will be back! because I'm too curious and I love how you write! I will still mourning Sirius but I will be back... anyway I will go cry in the shower! have a nice two week break! (and Happy Birthday!)
Blitz90: Hello Breannie ! First of all, I wanna say that your story is awesome ! I really like many of the change that you bring to the HP world! Congrats on that ! Now, about chapter 219, nice chapter all around but I felt that the training they got change nothing but maybe because of the stress to fitgh Death Eater explain it to... maybe you can show me the light on this ? Second, the death of Sirius... I must say that I am disapointed about that. I know that you said in the beginning that it will be ultimately a Hinny story but for me, Sirius was the heart and soul of you fiction. Lets hope that he is just in shock or king of a coma !
Qarz: You put a lot of effort into this, writing so many words is nothing to sneeze at and it shows dedication. However, you don't seem to understand that actions have reactions. If you make changes in Canon then the whole story has to change to make any modicum of sense. You didn't do that and the more than 1.5m words are a waste since it led to the same place and somehow things are even worse than in said Canon. I truly pity those who read this huge story just to be disappointed.
nesciamema: Kinda disappointed by Harry's shoddy fighting since they've all been training for a while, the only one who seemed to be thinking strategically was Ginny before she was taken out. Hoping Zee doesn't miscarry and fights for the babies rights as heir to the Blacks. No way in hell should any Malfoy hold the title with what just happened.
goldenone: thank you for posting this on my birthday it was a great gift but also HOW COULD YOU IMA CRY
aj613: ohmygodohmygodohmygodohmygod I was hoping Sirius would be spared holy shit oh my god whyyy? Amazingly written as always, BUT WHY?! THEY WERE GONNA GET MARRIED AND HAVE BABIES AND HARRY CALLED HIM DAD I—
Rufus777: I understand why you had to kill Sirius. But it still makes me sad. Well written as always. I've been a fan since chapter one. I had forgotten about the Dursley stuff. Good on you to remind everyone of those memories. Keep up the awesome -rufus
kyle.grimm90: I am so sad that Sirius died again... I was really hoping he would survive this time. I love you story is so addictive but I wish that would have gone different. I was so excited he didn’t go through the veil I was jumping for joy and then wammm he died. I won’t stop reading but it killed me when he died.
Haillie: WHAT! OH COME ON!
yunkol76: HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Thanks for the present! Now time to enjoy another GREAT chapter
coloredwords: First things first. A very happy birthday to you. I hope you have (had) a wonderful day. Second I wish you no riot reviews for your birthday. As much as I want to know what happens next, I respect you too much to shout and riot. But what a chapter! Damn. When Peter fell through the curtain I thought for a second Sirius would be safe. But alas. My last hope lies within some time turner or time room miracle. And all of a sudden we skipped right to the beginning of DH. I'm so curious to see what happens next. Have fun writing and enjoy your two weeks off. I will be here, waiting patiently.
Fruitcake49: I would rather this entire chapter be a nightmare. Why do Sirius and Harry always get the short dirty end of the stick? Such terrible childhoods and Sirius has to die leaving Harry alone. I gotta tell you if anyone other than a character in a story were put under this much pain and unhappiness they would crack and cease to function. As much as I like this story, Harry needs Sirius. I'm tired of people killing him off.
Steelcode: NO NO NO NO NO! HE WAS GOING TO GET MARRIED...HE HAS KIDS! WHAT ABOUT HARRY'S KIDS! WHAT ABOUT SIRIUS' FUTURE! PLEASE TELL ME THIS IS ANOTHER JOKE PLEASE!
X.pix.X: Happy birthday, and great chapter
Undead Gothic Princess: you are mean and a god all at once! I was on the edge of my seat the whole time reading this, then took a sigh of relief when pettigrew died cuz I thought "hey, Sirius will be fine now, he survived!" then wham! I dont think he's really dead dead though. they'll either be a way so that it was polyjuice or maybe they use a time turner. something better happen so that he just appears through the front door/hospital wing and is like "whys everyone so down when my hansome face is here?!" please let it be true, otherwise I dont think I can go on in this cruel world xxx
HarryPotterLover2422: Such an amazing chapter! I have enjoyed reading this story for quite some time now and look forward to each new chapter. I am so sad with what happened to Sirius, but I am looking forward to what’s to come! I loved the Lucius called Theo his son that was amazing! I think one of my favorite things about this story, other than how amazing it is, is how you humanize especially the Malfoy family in terms of Draco and Theo. Amazing as always! Happy belated birthday! Can’t wait for more! ️
Leo: Happy Birthday! I was so excited to see that you have written this chapter, until I read it, I can't believe you've hit us with the double whammy. This chapter both made me cry and amazed at your incredible writing skills. I hope you carry on and finish this story. However, most importantly, please, please please, please, puppy eyes please can you post the chapter. I know you said you won't but imagine puppy eyes, you know you can't say no to that. Keep us the brilliant work.
I am imagining puppy eyes, but no, I’m sorry.
GoldenPotterFan: Chapter 219 and the first time I am commenting. Started reading this story between Christmas and New Year 2018 and read all chapters up to then by the time I went back to work. Since then I have waited for updates every week. Somehow, I don't believe that Sirius is dead. Just a feeling I have. I also think Lucius might be working against Voldemort while still not quite working for the Order. I would not be surprised if he saves Sirius somehow. I cannot wait for another update. PS Happy Birthday, I hope you had a great day :)
devonleney27: HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY! Thank you for the gift of this chapter, sorry I didnt get you anything!
DoodleBug78: OMFG cannot believe that! Really?!
witchyromy: mmmm i would have thought that with the time living in the magical world, and all the extra training harry has done, with sirius and remus and mischa and the rest of the group as well in the extra defense lessons that this would have gone better, they almost only used stupify and some 1st year spells. The whole thing is 80% the same as the original... i have to say i am a bit disappointed.
Sorry to hear that, but I kept what I needed to keep in there for a reason and I hope you will stick around to see that, but if not, well thanks for reading.
Guest: Welp, I’m crying. I’ve been following this story for a while, and honestly didn’t expect to be so upset about Sirius’ death, again. You’ve done wonderful work at recreating this moment. There are so many tiny complexities in this rendition and I can’t wait to see what comes next. Hoping zee’s fall didn’t hurt those babies. Thank you for your work. ️
snowball0709: Happy birthday! Hope you have a great day:) Now to the story.. HOW COULD YOU KILL SIRIUS? This story is all about his second chance! And the wedding, the twins... come on, siriusly! I really hope you have something up your sleeve and that he miraculously lives somehow. Can't wait to read the next chapter!
Lolikiano: I'm so excited you posted early! I can live with the cliffhanger as an exchange! Your stories have inspired me to write my own fanfiction and I can't thank you enough for that! I'm looking forward to your next update in two weeks! P.S. I love the "Surprise" pregnancy (which i TOTALLY called when Zee got ill!) I can't wait to read Harry's reaction!
Maggie1874: I'm so sad and disappointed that Sirius died. I was really hoping he'd live in your story.
Krazyasibe: Happy birthday! But why would you do that! I love Sirius!
alix33: No need for anyone to shoot Nott senior in his undersized wanker, Ginny will just have bat bogeys coming out of it rather painfully (and satisfactorily for us readers) in a jiffy. Dumbles had sweet fanny adams to do with the six being able to turn into animaguses. I like Lady Godiva's way of dealing with Death Eaters far better than I do any of the light side's humans' only effective for a couple of seconds stupefying. That vile bitch Bellatrix killed Sirius! I wonder which charm was used on the statue which made it keep Harry away from Dumbles and Tom Riddle junior.
wheezing-reader: Happy Birthday! Your story is probably one of my all-time favorite fics! Saying that WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK! No. This is not okay. I'm not okay with this.
Josh: Can't believe you killed Sirius! Hope something miraculous is going to happen. This is supposed to be about "A Second Chance" for him, so he needs to be alive!
Menna Taha: Happy birthday! But still how fucking dare you
jmdaz44: I know Sirius canon-ly dies in the fifth book but I was hoping you’d spare us somehow, especially after the proposal and pregnancy. Instead you were just fattening us up to be slaughtered. You’re cruel. I love the story and your writing but it hurts. It hurts. I truly hate your Bella. I should have waited to read this until this evening because now I feel like my whole day is ruined and it is just starting. I hope you’ve got something feel-good planned because I’m pretty down on this right now. I guess that parallels where we are in the story; things are getting real and nothing is for certain anymore. Hope is a dangerous thing.
alyson3il: First of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I hope you have a wonderful day, and short hiatus to get everything straight! Second of all, WHHHHYYYYYY?! WHY? Why? Y? y? WHHYYYY! I thought Sirius would be SAFE, you lured us into security with Peter, but then it just HAD to happen. I got my hopes up that it wouldn't be him, he had Zee, he had the twins on the way, HE WAS GONNA GET MARRIED! I get that things happen, BUT THIS THING DIDNT NEED TO HAPPEN, or maybe it did. You're the author, you have a plan in place, and you know what you're doing. I'll just be hurt for the next two weeks.
Miss Elyon: 1) Happy birthday dear ! All good for you! 2) Thad Nott - It was too late! (I loved that Lucy killed this son of a troll) And Wormtail ... I'm sure you will be very well received in hell! 3) Bella ... fucking crazy bitch ... something will come to you and it won't be pretty! 4) More importantly - You made me cry so fucking hard with Sirius. I went into depression until you post again. I truly love your story (although it makes me cry like a baby!). The pain at his death was more brutal than the book. I know you have something planned (I hope) and I will be reading (with a sniffling nose) the next chapter! To cure this chapter I'll read the whole story again and cry all over again ... I think I like to suffer ... kkkk See you in the next chapter ;)
chefke: o.m.f.g. omfg. I'm freaking out
xcherry91x: OMG NOOOOOO! I was hoping that Sirius wouldn’t die. I cried when I read that. The babies! They gots no daddy
SuperBossy: Not happy at all.
rolly21: I can’t believe you killed Sirius. I was really hoping that you wouldn’t.
LilyBlack18: I was so not expecting that. I was sure Sirius wouldn't die . My god, reading his death again was pure torture. At least Harry still have Zee, Remus, etc. I'm so sad, though... I really thought you wouldn't keep that part of the story, and you gave me false hope when Peter died x)
greg.is.wilson: You are evil.
Mutt N. Feathers: Yes my dear, I do trust authors. Needless pain is never inflicted by them. I made readers think I killed Sirius too, but instead had other plans. You love him too much. I live in hope. Mutt
supersandman86: Oh man! Not Sirius! He just got his life to perfection. Loving son, a fiance and a child on the way. Nice to see Wormtail redeem himself by shoving zee out of the way and Thaddeus got what he deserved. Now we just need to give Crouch and Bellend Lestrange pain that even they can't endure. This was always the dark point in the whole franchise in my opinion, where Harry felt the most hopeless. Let's see how it goes.
Sirius black411: You are so cruel...so so soooo cruel. They were going to get married...have twins and raise them.. How could you?! I can't imagine what Zee must be going through but she is still there for Harry. She will be a great mother.
Wodril: This Sirius didn't really seem like the guy to be done in while taunting. Not being hit by the killing spell, and the whole "he'll writhe in pain as he dies" spiel makes it a bit more uncertain. I never really appreciated him coming back to life after the dementors, and kinda hope, for the sake of the story, he'll stay dead this time. He will probably show up as an inferi anyway?
Jewels46: Omg... I’m crying! You’ve reduced me to tears. I know it was a very real possibility, but I hoped it wouldn’t actually come to fruition even though I understand the significance. I do really like how you wrote his death though, a much more fitting end. The bit you added with Peter had led me into a false sense of security that the lovable mutt would be safe. I just can’t even right now. Wonderful chapter. I’m going to cry some more and eagerly await the next one
Dianne: Yes I need atleast 2 weeks to emotionally reconstruct myself after this bombshell of a chapter. Deep breaths in and out. Curious about how you've brought a 7th year canon event now itself. I'm not sure I even took in everything coz I was crying so hard and couldn't read clearly, was reading this at clg and I surprised everyone by suddenly crying out loud and sobbing :'( and everyone was baffled when I said one of my most favourite characters just died painfully and I was crying for that, but they don't understand the power of reading or the power of HP thankyou for an early update and kudos you're an amazing writer!
purplevictory: That wasn't nice. I mean, happy birthday and everything, but did your present to yourself really have to be the torture of your fans? I know Sirius will be fine, I just don't know how you're planning to get there. Thank you for the early chapter. But, when your birthday celebrations are over you really ought to write "I will stop being mean to my readers" 50 times. You don't have to use a blood quill.
Write lines as punishment?  I don’t have time for that, I need to write the next chapters.
xXMizz Alec VolturiXx: Noooooo I can’t believe that after all this you still killed Sirius! When his life was finally all good with babies on the way!
eternal king of fire: wow this chapter was a tear jerkier poor sirus and zee
speedsONEandONLY: No. Nope. No. I refuse to see this as a real chapter. None of this happened. I mean what was the point of letting them be happy, of getting rid of the Horcrux early. Only to fucking destroy them. To make him want to sacrafice, kill himself anyway. This chapter didn't happen. This is a "what couldve been" I doesn't make any fucking sense. Nor does it for the narrative. So, No. I refuse to think, Believe, You could be so heartless to characters/people you love. That you made us love. I don't see anyway how the story Could really go on, if this chapter actually happened. It reads more like the last Twilight movie from when Aro rips off Carlisles head. Sorry, but no.
Sorry, I guess I’m heartless.  Comparing me to Twilight though, that’s heartless. 
Ari Black-18: I know that this is a war, but please let Sirius escape death again, don't do this please, please make this better, tell me that Remus and Tonks somehow save him, tell me that even tho he is in bad condition he's still alive, don't leave his twins and Harry without a father, don't live Zee without her love, don't rip away Remus's brother from him, give him a second chance from the original story, let him be there with Harry at the end, the world it's already too shitty for it even to suck in a fanfic. Call me naive or delusional, but I actually believe that this is not over, I trust you enough to know that you wouldn't do this, your story it's to damn good to lose such a character just like that, so I know you are going to fix it, you're going to pull a surprise under your sleeve and make us love it so much. I believe in you, I mean you wouldn't just kill Sirius like that, not this Sirius, your Sirius. I trust you, I know you wouldn't do this. Please enjoy your break, chill, eat a lot of snacks, maybe even party a little, and then, please, bring our uncle Siri back.
Seriuslypadfoot: Hey Breanie, very well written as per usual. I hope Sirius isn’t actually dead, as this story is one of the few Sirius and Harry fics that I have thoroughly enjoyed and don’t want his character to end this way. Powerful moment with Malfoy in this chapter, but I wish he showed more backbone and fully went against the death eaters like his family wants. Again, hope Sirius doesn’t end here, the death will really hurt the story in my opinion. But this is your story so write it how you will. Thanks for your hard work!
Thank you!  Malfoy doesn’t have much of a backbone, but I do have a plan for him.  I’m sorry you feel that Sirius’ death hurt the story, I think it’s important for what’s next.
DetroitNate: A review? I hated this chapter. Oh the writing is great as usual, but what happened in it? I hated, loathed, detested it. I hope justice comes and comes quicker than Hinny did in this story cause it is getting too difficult to read of how these vicious bastards seem to get away with anything they want. JKR did two things I can't stand in canon kill off Sirius and Fred and now I'm wondering if this story will follow her on that pattern... I hope not, I really do.
Thank you and I promise, justice will come quicker than Hinny -- as in it won't take another 197 chapters, maybe 196, just kidding! 
Paola1991: So is this death for real or is he coming back? I mean you tricked us once. I guess i kind of assumed you’d never kill him off because it was kind of a sirius fix it story? Where he gets a better life? This took me by surprise. Its primarily why i hate book 5. I thought someone else was gonna die instead. Hes the one character i would never kill i guess. Especially with zee having his kids! Not sure how i feel.
Guest: can i honestly beg something? can you please bring back sirius alive? please? i know u wont do it.. u have a plan with ur story... but as a big big fan of ur story im really really begging will u please?
Queen Raja: Wow. And I thought the book’s death was heartbreaking! Seriously, bravo. I don’t cry easily, and this chapter made me UGLY cry! Waiting until two weeks will be very hard, but I’m glad you’re able to take some much deserved time for yourself and Dusk. Happy Birthday, Breanie!
Maisie: how and why could you do this to mee im cryinggg please say its looking better in the next chapter
midnitewanderer: Dumbass went and reread it. Not gonna lie, it was a brilliant chapter but I am still this close to hunting your ass down and forcing to rewrite Sirius back in. Where’s my angry emoji when I need it. I can’t help but feel that you wrote Zee the way you have specifically for this chapter. Not only does she come into their lives and becomes the best pseudo mom ever written in any HP fanfic, she basically adopts Harry into her entire family. Sure there’s stories out there with the Weasley’s treating him as one of their own but not like this. ZEE’S ENTIRE FAMILY ADOPTS HARRY. Your sneaky ass has been prepping us from the beginning of her intro! He calls them all Grandad/Grandpa, Grandmama/Grandma, etc. so that eventually he sees that he’s never truly alone. Then enter the Weasleys, McGonagall, Rem&Tonks, Andi&Ted, Dumbles, Nev, Lu, Mione, he’s surrounded by so much love. I just know the next chapter is going to be hard for me seeing as I’m a crybaby but damn it to hell, I can’t wait. 2 whole weeks. What am I gonna do?
Thank you.  I guess I was kind of sneaky like that, wasn’t I? 
Zacnelson0628: Breanie... I kinda had a feeling that was going to happen. Still really sad though. I hope you kill of bellatrix in a spectacular manner.
I will do my best -- I do know exactly how it will happen and who will do it.
notthatchhavi: Oh, wow!  I don't know what to say!  This was a extremely well-written chapter When Lucius said that Theo was his son...it was such a moment I went ooooooohhh Well other then that..I cried I literally cried when Sirius died and yes I am still in denial I hope atleast Remus and Tonks will be okay.. Harry needs some support from one father When Sirius died.. it broke my heart.. Harry calling Sirius Dad.. and Sirius saying that Harry was the best thing ever happened to him I feel that he was not saying that just to Harry.. it was to James too because the Potters were the best thing which happened to Sirius I feel really bad for Zee...being pregnant with your fiancée's children and then him dying is not an easy thing to go through But the most importantly...this chapter made me cry I have read many fanfictions.. but i have never cried.. they might have been super good.. but has never made me cry I think the ability for a writer to make the reader both and laugh and cry is extremely important and difficult...I think by this story you have proven yourself as a damn good writer
Having Harry call him dad was vital and every time I tried to change it, I came back to it.
josht1987: Just know, that I am very mad at you you right now. We'll see what happens after the next one. An extremely well written chapter, but... You know what you did.
Daerwin45: not Sirus oh please he is so important it was going so good im sorry i am just a fan and it has been such a great story i did not mean to question your reason. i just was enjoying harrys and Sirus' relationship.
PotterBlondie: Oh my god, I wasn’t expecting Sirius to die! Or for anything to go this badly in one chapter! I hope he gets to escape death again? Pretty please? I hope you had a wonderful Birthday!
midnitewanderer: Nope. I’m done. I’m done. I AM FUCKING DONE! I will have no more toilet tissue by the end of the night. My chicken is currently burning on the stovetop. My emotions are freaking fried right now. Not only was he... UGH! I can’t. I literally can’t right now. I know this is fiction and whatnot, but my heart is hurting. How in the hell did I get so emotionally invested in this damned story?! Now, I’m going to remove my burning chicken and cry in a corner.
scrappy8: OMG what a chapter Poor Sirius is gone
Covley Hatake: Please let Sirius some how had lived. I like cheered when Pettigrew went in the veil instead and then that. You like ripped my heart out with Sirius. Like come on. Still good story but wanted Sirius to be there for the happy ending. I picture Harry though being the best big brother to those babies and protecting the hell out of Zee and the babies. Betting she tells Harry soon as well. Also question if he is dead what does that mean for them claim the Black title? With out him to claim them they would be seen as illegitimate and as the deal with Malfoy was made he could take it? curious on that one.
akshutalankar: well this is a really bad chapter to be posted on birthday... plz give us next soon... make Sirius alive pretty please
shooter124: O my god, I am crying. Please don’t take Sirius from us, Zee needs him and so does Harry! However that death scene was crazy good. I’m hoping that you have this elaborate plan as to why Sirius had to fake his death or something. Please please please say he is still alive, Sirius and Zee have not finished their story yet and Remus needs his best friend. This is my favourite story I have read on FF, you are a fantastic writer and I get excited every time you post!
Wolf's scream: Nice set of Bat-Bogeys, Miss Weasley! Yeah, a ticked-off wolverine is NOT something I'd prefer to cross. Greengrass is there? That's ... something I was not expecting. Yeah, Theo's advice to smash the Prophecy seems pretty sound to me. (With the possible caveat that certain DEs might lose whatever semblance of control that they have...) Seriously, Hermione? That's not a "baby." And in any case, Petrification is not intrinsically harmful: it merely decreases the probability that the Petrified one will pose a danger to himself or others. Sheesh. Somebody needs to get her priorities sorted. :-) I'm a little surprised that the DEs that trapped the teenagers in the Brain Room were using less-than-lethal spells. Granted, I'm rather glad that they did, but I don't understand whys. Well..! Lucy IS good for something, I guess... It's rather a pity that Harry hadn't smashed the Prophecy and grabbed another as a decoy. :-} Oh! What would happen if Harry were to chuck the Prophecy through the arch...? Ah - excellent move, Lady G! :-) Remus was dueling Dolohov? But Harry had Petrified Dolohov just a bit ago... maybe another DE released him, or the spell wore off? So - the Rat did something useful before departing... BTW, a fairly effective dueling technique might be to blast the floor/ground out from under one's opponent. Or merely make it incapable of supporting the opponent's weight. Especially if one is in a structure and not on the bottom floor. Well, at least there's no ambiguity at all regarding Sirius's fate. :-/ Well, laughing at Bella is a pretty good way to ensure that she's even more off-balance, yeah. It's good that Dumbledore addresses Tom by his given name (vs. the nom de guerre that he made up)
Guest: You cant do this Sirius can't be dead! Please let him live! P.S. happy Birthday Seriously though bring Sirius back.
dhnysports88: for the love of god tell me they planned to fake his death, DON'T DO THIS TO US
minerdude: Wow this is a great story, even if you killed Sirius, although with the next chapter I hope we discover thinking he was dead was part of the fog of war. If Sirius is dead it was truly well written to get our guard down by sending Peter though the veil
Old-fashionedAnglophile: What. The. ACTUAL. HELL?! Are you trying to destroy us? And you're making us wait for it? Damn your excellent and captivating writing. I'll be waiting for the next chapter with bated breath.
Thank you (I think).
littlehughesy: WHY? Why must you keep killing off characters that I love!? It's like Game of Thrones all over again! I get that it is canon for Sirius to die at the Ministry, but for fuck's sake can't Harry just have a little less suffering for once? For the love of God, if you kill Remus and Tonks in this story, I am done. Just done. I cannot handle my emotions right now. Okay, venting over. As much as I don't like it, your story is still fantastic. And hey, cheers for the early update and happy birthday!
Atea1793: You... are... absolutely... evil... YOU KILLED SIRIUS, KILLED DEADALUS DIGGLE, LEFT ZAHIRA A PREGNANT WIDOW BEFORE SHE EVEN GOT MARRIED, MAY HAVE LEFT HARRY AN ORPHAN AGAIN, AND HAD THE MINISTRY FALL A WHOLE YEAR EARLIER THAN IN CANON?! I'M STARTING TO THINK YOU'RE AS SICK IN THE HEAD AS VOLDEMORT IS! Excuse me while I spend these next two weeks gathering a mob to go after your twisted ass. The Death Eaters will seem like playground bullies when we come for you...
Guest: Omg. Omg. You actually killed Sirius. I cried. I honestly would have rather see Remus die, but maybe that’s what makes this story stronger and more intense. I definitely need 2 weeks to process this. Poor Zee and poor Harry.
lcwintersoldier: Goddamit how could you kill Sirius :'(
LifeonEarth: Oh come on you hand to bring Marauder into this. This hurts.
I’m sorry, but I thought Marauder deserved to be in Harry’s thoughts.
White Squirrel: Why does everyone feel the need to kill off Sirius even when there's good reason for events to play out differently? Honestly, this whole section felt like it wasn't up to your usual standards. You copied so much from the book, even when they had different people there and a different plan. It would have made more sense and wouldn't have been that hard to choreograph a different battle sequence.
I felt that it was important to keep it similar which I will explain later on, but of course you’re entitled to your opinion.
love reading20613: Oh god no please no
alistark94: What an ending! I gotta say I'm suprised you still killed off Sirius. Great story by the way!
Anixara: Wow, I find this story just in time for the latest chapter to be THAT. God damn it. Now I have to figure out if waiting for the next chapter is even worth it with how much that fucked with my emotions.
Breaniefan: This was so unrepresentative of your characters to just shove them back into JK's exact plot. This Harry would never have been so impulsive, Ginny and Theo would have escaped, the well trained Order would have been quicker on the mark and more effective. This was just lazy writing, taking so much of the original story and just shoehorning it in - I'm so disappointed! Also why the fuck would you kill Sirius? The whole point of fanfic is to FIX those stupid character deaths from the original, not go and do it again. I've followed this story from the start and loved it, but if Sirius is still dead next chapter... You've lost a reader.
I’m sorry that I’ve lost a reader over this, but as I said, I knew he would die from the first chapter.  Harry would be that impulsive because Ginny was kidnapped and there's no way he wouldn't try to save her.  She and Theo may have been able to escape but not unscathed.  I don’t believe that fan fiction is made to “fix” stupid character deaths because the original story is amazing and I’m getting the chance to play with the characters we all love so much and Sirius had a second chance on life and he lived it.
Adelite: AAAAH. aaAAAH. I came here for a BETTER WORLD and you killed SIRIUS BLACK of ALL PEOPLE and just when HE LEARNED HE IS HAVING TWINS?!?? I swear to god AaaaaahahahAH the original didn’t hurt this bad I read 219 chapters in 2 weeks just to be welcomed with this I am absolutely gonna riot and also what happened to Tonks? P.S if you kill Rem, Tonks and Fred in the battle of Hogwarts I will personally pee your pants
Pegg7: I can not believe it!!It has been chapter that i'm saying something bad was about to happen, but not this bad!!!!!The only think i can do now is wait and speculate: you had wormtail die through the veil and not Padfoot, so, maybe, there is a chance, i have hope! By the way, the chapter itselff is good, nothing less to say... I'm going to have a lot of speculation as how the thing are going to be next, so i'll dread this 2 next weeks Love you (a little less) as always
lovelyellie: that really hurt my feelings damn
phoenixmaiden13 (Lady Phoenix): I so hate this chapter, yet it was so good. Still can't believe you killed off Sirius, I thought he was safe for a minute but I guess not. At least they will have a body to bury. I'm going to go cry now.
They will have a body to bury and I hope that chapter makes you all feel the emotion as much as I did writing it.
MrToddWilkins: But he is still alive! The blood-Harry’s right!
Bosma18: Happy birthday but why did you have to kill Sirius he was one of my most favorite characters he and zee where supposed to marry and live happily ever after I wanted Sirius to die of old age while being surrounded by his grand children
Jmcglynn522: You killed him.... you killed him... he just found out that Zee was preggers, with twins(FYI: Taking antibiotic potions and birth control potions = Twins. Mine just turned 20.).And there’s no do over this time....no time turner.... just... you killed Sirius Black.I love your story, I’m bawling hysterically right now, but I don’t like you very much at the moment.... you killed him....why??? (Happy parts: Ginny preforming the “bat bogey hex” on Thaddeus’s dick for Theo! Lucius killing Thaddeus for hurting Theo, “his son!”. Ron touching “Uranus”. Lady G not dying. Zee not dying. And Pettigrew’s death was to kind.) And Happy Birthday!!!(Even though I may be traumatized for life.)
Pettigrew’s death may have been too kind but I think it was an important turning point for him in that he saved Zee for Sirius.
LordSmidgeon: I'm hoping so much all this was pushed in his head by Voldemort after the brain room to mess with his psyche. I'm hoping he comes to and they are just getting him away from the veil. Or it was all what he saw in the veil. Like honestly, if you have to have someone die please dont kill Sirius (at least not yet).
Siriuslover: Im in denial. He’s not dead.  How could you kill Sirius!! He was the main reason I’ve loved reading this!! Ugh please take it back I’m so sad
kellykat1889: Your evil.
RiverFord: I think I’m going to need two weeks just to recover from this. I’ve absolutely loved this story so far but you literally just killed off my favorite character and I can’t even...
archiveScrapper: Happy birthday! I'm a long time reader and first time reviewer, but I finally felt like I had something to say (plus wishing you a happy birthday is important). I'm actually weirdly... proud? of you for keeping Sirius's death at this point in the story. In the books it's kind of the point at which Harry has to officially grow up, and realize that even though he's a kid, he's the center of a really vicious war where his actions have very real consequences. And he has no one left to fully protect him either. Even in a fic where Sirius matters a whole lot more, and Harry is gonna be a thousand times more hurt by his death, that moment of change, and of Harry accepting his inevitable place in this fight is really important? So I just wanted to say that as much as I'm really sad about Sirius being gone, because I really did enjoy him getting to be happy for once, i think it's an important moment for the story and I'm really happy that it's one that you kept even in a version of this story that's a lot happier than the original story ever was. I've been wondering how you were gonna handle this moment for a long time now, and although I'm definitely gonna go cry about Sirius's death now, I'm really happy with what you decided to do.
xXQueenOfDragonsXx: NONONONONONONOSIRIUS! I WANT TO HATE YOU SO MUCH RIGHT NOW BUT I CANT ‘T
TheOneWithWritersBlock: Please tell me this is a dream. Please tell me that Sirius didn't actually die. Please tell me that the ministry hasn't actually fallen. Please tell me it's all one big giant nightmare.
leflemmeenrose: Happy birthday!A break is definitely needed. I'm gonna spend it crying until you upload the next chapter haha. Take your time.
Zerius: Yay! Pettigrew's dead!I am struggling so hard not to say I hate you. I don't actually, but why did you feel the need to kill off Sirius?! He was Harry's family, he had Zee, he was in love, he had such an amazing life and now... Now he's never going to see Harry and Ginny get married, he won't see his children grow up... And Dedalus Diggle? What was the meaning of his death? Why did he have to die? And so cruelly... I love the new battle though. I've got a love/hate relationship with this chapter. Great job, can't wait to see what happens next. Please heal Sirius! Maybe he's not actually dead? Maybe there's a cure? Please say there's a cure! Again, amazing job! Update soon! I love it!
LaureWithAnE: I don’t really like you at the moment. But, happy birthday! How is it, after 17 years, the death of Sirius Black still makes me cry?
PurpleLotus (Person of Earth): Why did you have to kill Sirius? I just can't even process everything that happened. You made me cry and my heart is broken for Harry and Zee and the twins. I don't know what is going to happen and it's killing me. The ministry fallen already...I have no words for the desolation I feel. You have emotionally annihilated me, so congratulations. I understand the need for a break, I will be waiting impatiently for the next update. Happy Birthday and Happy Writing!
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52. Request - Van is lovesick but you think he’s just being friendly.
Based off this request:
hiii, love your blog so much!!! you're crazy talented, could you write something about van liking reader like waaay more than she likes him? maybe they're friends and he has a crush on her and writes songs about her and acts "lovesick" but reader just acts like it's just him being friendly lol and doesn't really mind it? i havent thought about the ending at all so it can be fluffly or whatever you want it to be! thank you xxxx
Thank you sooo much to whoever sent this! I am SO sorry it has taken over a year for me to write this as I received it just after I officially closed my requests. But now that I am back....here it is! Hope you love it. <3
Please send me any requests if you have them! 
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The window was open which meant the warm springtime air flooded in and filled your small flat with the smell of freshly cut grass and blossoms. It was your favourite time of year. Van lay casually draped across your couch with only his boots hanging lazily off the end, guitar in hand and strumming away slowly trying to piece together new chords into a song. You were sat on the floor by his feet reading and Larry was clattering about in the kitchen making a fresh pot of tea. Being Larry’s roommate meant the three of you spent almost all your down time together since Van and Larry were practically attached at the hip. You and Van were pretty close too. You all existed in a perfect harmony.
When Larry walked back out, both you and Van dropped what you were doing instantly. You moved the vase full of flowers Van had bought you that morning over so there was space and Larry placed the pot on the table. He filled all your mugs before settling down beside the now upright Van. The three of you slurped in silence for a little while until Larry began to talk.
“So what you workin’ on Van?” he asked, throwing you a small smirk.
“New song,” Van replied after swallowing a mouthful of tea.
“Duh. About what?” Larry questioned.
“Y/n,” he grinned bashfully and picked up his guitar again.
“As per usual…” you said quietly, not looking up from your book. “What is it this time? My enchanting wittiness or my stunning smile?” you teased, over exaggerating.
“Not my fault you’re a dead perfect muse y/n.”
You rolled your eyes and Van gave you a gentle nudge in the rubs with his boot.
“You need to get a girlfriend Van.”
“Yeah Van, get a girlfriend,” Larry provoked and leant over to give his best friend a small punch in the arm.
You and Larry laughed in amusement, but Van just stayed quiet and returned to strumming his guitar and humming softly. Everyone always teased you, saying Van was practically in love with you. All the songs he wrote about you, how he followed you around like a puppy, his general behaviour around you. But you always passed this off as friendliness; Van was the kindest most loveable person you knew, and he treated everyone as if they were special. This was just how your friendship was and you didn’t mind.
The three of you continued to exist easily in the same space for the remainder of the afternoon, occasionally floating in and out of the room. There was some casual conversation, but mostly a comfortable silence only interrupted by Van singing smoothly under his breath. It was the most relaxed you’d felt in months; you loved having them back from tour. As the sun went down, Larry went out, you retired to your room and Van eventually went home after a solitary smoke out the window.
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The smell of alcohol rose off Van like a horrid perfume. He dragged along behind you slurring words to a half-written song only he knew and swayed around trying to move his feet both in the direction you were walking and as if he were trying to dance a waltz.
The others had piled into a taxi but Van in his drunken state, had insisted on walking and you couldn’t leave him alone. You’d sobered up by now, so the walk wasn’t pleasant. You were cold and not dressed properly for a 3am adventure through the city.
“Come on…” you whined, looking back at Van who was now swinging slowly around a street lamp. “I want to go home.”
Van’s face melted into a pout and he came up behind you and held both your shoulders as if he were about to start a conga line. Then he let one hand fall and used the empty space to pull you into him with his arm wrapped tightly around your shoulders, so he could share his body heat. You put yours around his waist and held onto his velvet blazer gratefully.
“You’re like...nothin’ else y/n,” he slurred, a soppy smile on his face as he looked down at you.
“You too, McCann, you too.”
Van’s drunken weight made you stagger slightly but you soon fell into rhythm as you led him all the way home.
Once you arrived back at your flat, you found that all the boys had stayed. Benji and Bob were crashing on the couch, Bondy was top and tailing with Larry. This meant Van had to share with you.
Larry helped you drag Van’s body to your room and pulled off his boots for him. Meanwhile, Van was still singing in slurs and trying to serenade you, seemingly unaware or at least, very unbothered by what was going on around him.
“Crushing on you, that one is,” Larry laughed. Your cheeks burned.
“Shut up he’s not.”
“Totally lovesick,” Larry asserted, too drunk to be wary of what he was letting slip.
Once Van was successfully in your bed, you bid Larry goodnight and made sure he was okay too. Then, you showered and washed away the grime of a boy’s night out. When you came back to your room, Van was fast asleep in your bed and snoring lightly. His face looked soft and peaceful, kind of angelic really. You climbed under the sheets and curled up beside him then tried your best to fall asleep too. But Larry’s words echoed in your brain. Van was not into you. No way. Yeah, he was a little obsessed with you. But you were sure it was because he didn’t really have many other female friends. You were different and he treated you differently because of it. All innocent.
You let these thoughts carry you off into a deep sleep and didn’t notice when Van’s arms snaked around your waist and pulled you closer to him.
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Unsure of how it all came to be, Catfish were doing a bar show. Unheard of at this point in their career. You weren’t missing it. They may be some of your best mates and you weren’t a fangirl, but their band was fucking good. You’d only seen them live for the first time just before The Ride came out, so mostly larger venues. This was special.
The room buzzed with a vibe you couldn’t describe but wanted to bottle up and keep forever. Everyone was excited, happy and in awe of the guys. You felt a different energy from the guys too, one you’d not felt before. One that confirmed to every single person there, that they belonged in arenas, that they were going to be the biggest band in the world someday. Van’s stage presence was a lot usually, in a small venue such as this, it was something else entirely. He effortlessly captured the attention of every single pair of eyes in the room. No wonder they’d made it so big already. Their talent was plain as day. You felt lucky to be there and couldn’t help but smile.
“Hope you don’t mind if we play a new tune for ya?” Van asked the crowd. He was met by loud whistles and cheers. “This one’s for you, y/n.”
Van used the neck of his guitar to point you out in the crowd and you felt everyone turn to face you curiously, some whispering to each other and other’s throwing you expressions you didn’t understand. His hair was sweaty and stuck to his face and you could hear the excitement in his voice, accompanied by his huge grin. Your cheeks turned a bright red and you awkwardly held you glass up to him. After a small chuckle into the microphone, Van launched into the song.
“You’re so lucky to be his girlfriend!” a random girl beside you squeaked.
“Oh, no. I’m not his girlfriend,” you replied with a bit of a laugh.
She looked confused. You gazed back over to Van, who was just visible over raised arms, from where you were stood at the back of the packed room. He was throwing himself around stage and singing about you. Your eyebrows furrowed and you got lost in your thoughts, not listening to the lyrics of the new song at all.
That was the first time you’d properly thought about what it would be like to be Van’s girlfriend.
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You and Larry were holding a small party at your flat to celebrate one whole year of living together. Somehow, the place hadn’t blown up and you were still sane, just. Your job was to take care of the space; cleaning and decoration. You’d spent most of the morning on the kitchen and much to your displeasure, the bathroom. Now onto the living area.
“Van, can you like not do that right now? I’m trying to vacuum?”
Van was laying on the floor propped up on his elbows, vinyls spread all around him.
“I’m on music duty,” he replied bluntly. He continued to slowly flip through all the records he’d gathered from around your flat and from his own, as if you weren’t there.
“I know.”
You prodded his leg with the end of the vacuum. He ignored this and began to whistle as he fiddled with the record player. Your record player.
“God you’re so annoying,” you groaned in defeat.
“Yeah but you love it,” Van replied, sounding smug. He looked at you over his shoulder and gave a cheeky smile with his tongue between his teeth. You rolled your eyes.
“Can you leave that for literally two minutes? I won’t take long,” you argued. “Or, hey. Go get food and alcohol with Larry, he will need the extra set of hands.”
Van huffed and gathered his limbs together, so he was now sat cross-legged and looking up at you. He looked like a child in kindergarten when the teacher had roused on them.
“Why’re you trying to get rid of me,” he whined.
“Fuck Van, I just want to vacuum the floor!” you laughed in disbelief.
Finally, he stood up and you pushed him out the door with Larry who was on food and beverage duty. After you cleared the vinyls and record player Van had left off the floor, you went around and finished your tasks undisturbed. They took about half the time they would have if the boys were still around. Once you were satisfied with the cleanliness of everything, you moved onto the aesthetics.
You strung up some colourful bunting and golden fairy lights on the ceilings and empty walls. When the sun would finally go down and you would turn the big lights off, the room would have a glow. You were excited. All the tables and surfaces were clear, ready for Larry to put out a spread of drinks and snacks.
Van and Larry took longer than expected so you used the peace and quiet to get ready. Your phone occasionally chimed; people texting questions about what to bring, confirming their attendance or bailing, sometimes the odd text from Larry double checking what you’d written on his list.
Once you’d slipped on your party dress and done both your hair and makeup, you felt ready.
Van and Larry finally came crashing back through the door, arms piled high with groceries. You rushed over to help, envisioning one of them dropping and breaking a wine bottle all over the cream coloured carpet.
“Fuck, y/n…the place looks amazin’!” Larry beamed at you as he gazed around the room.
“Forget the place, look at you! Dead gorgeous.”
Van was staring you up and down from behind the boxes of beer stacked in his arms, his eyes twinkling. You knew if he had his hands free, he would have come up and twirled you around.
“Er, thanks!” you swayed side to side awkwardly and smiled.
The boys disappeared to get ready; which probably meant reapplying deodorant and maybe changing their shirts. But not without Van sneaking one last glance at you around the corner, which you didn’t see. You got to work on the drinks, even though that wasn’t your job. You only had an hour until everyone was meant to start arriving and knowing the rest of the Catfish boys, they’d be early to get dibs on the best food and drink.
You looked up from the kitchen sink where you were mixing up a punch and saw Van leaning in the doorway, his arms crossed and eyes on you. You were unsure how long he’d been there. He’d changed into the burgundy button up you loved on him and kept his trademark black jeans and brown boots. You could smell his cologne and slight tobacco scent from where you were stood.
“Can I help you?” you chuckled.
“Nah. Well…maybe.”
Van came and stood across from you on the other side of the counter. He ran a hand through his hair and made a small noise, almost like a sigh.
“I think- I think I’ve gotta tell you something y/n,” he said nervously, his voice dipping up at the end of the sentence. He placed both hands down on the counter.
“What did you break?” you said seriously, trying to joke and lighten the mood. But he didn’t react.
“I know I’m just your mate and stuff. But I like you y/n. I really fuckin’ like you.”
Your eyes widened and you dropped the bottle you were holding, luckily into the sink.
“Careful,” Van laughed and reached over to pick it up just as you did. Your hands collided together and you snatched yours back instantly.
“No, you don’t Van. You only think that because I’m the only girl who hasn’t fallen at your feet.”
You refused to believe that everyone had been right about him this entire time. Why hadn’t Larry just said something for god’s sake? But then you remembered he had when he was wasted that time. Fuck.
“Maybe. Guess that’s part of it. But no! For real, I was proper taken with you ever since we first met. You completely blew me out my mind.”
“Oi don’t go ripping off more Oasis lyrics on my account,” you teased in a faux tone of disapproval.
“I’m being serious, y/n. I have feelings for you.”
Van’s voice reached a level of sincerity you’d never heard before. You sighed and weren’t really sure how to react. You couldn’t say you were shocked? But it was also the last thing you expected.
“I probably should have been able to tell, right?”
“Yeah, I’m no good at subtle,” Van laughed.
Your mind flipped through memories of the last few months. The songs. The flowers. The compliments. The unnecessary intimacy. All of it.
“Always thought you were just like, really nice to me. That it was normal?”
You gave Van a small shrug and chuckle as you put the punch bowl aside on the bench. When you were done, he came over to be beside you. Your hip touched his leg and neither of you moved apart. You looked down nervously, avoiding his eyes.
“I won’t lie, I hadn’t really thought about us in that way before,” you said quietly, feeling embarrassed and worried about hurting his feelings with your honesty.
“Would you want to?” he asked innocently.
Then, you spoke words you never thought you’d be saying.
“Yeah, I think maybe I would…”
With that, Van lazily rolled his head down and planted a slow kiss on your cheek, testing the waters. You let him. He raised a gentle hand to your chin and moved your face to be looking up at him. You thought he was going to kiss you on the lips and your heartbeat rose – you weren’t sure you were ready for that.
“Well okay then,” he replied simply.
His voice was low and quiet, but it was also hopeful and smug; you could hear the tiny grin in it. You smiled at his tone and wrapped your arms around his middle, giving a small embarrassed groan.
“I’m so stupid!”
Van just chuckled, pulled you into him and swayed you side to side, your forehead pressed to his chest.
This was going to be new and different. Van definitely liked you way more than you liked him and clearly had for a long time, in a romantic way at least. But somewhere, you knew that it wouldn’t be long before you were going to be head over heels in love with him. He was just that sort of a person. Magnetic.
Soon, people began to arrive. You and Van sat with your friends, chatting away and socialising but keeping yourselves a secret for now. You’d not necessarily agreed you were a ‘thing’, but you’d acknowledged something further than a friendship. You’d work it out together with time.
The evening was spent swapping stolen glances, arm touches and shared drinks. Both of you smug in the awareness that you were something no one else could see. As the night went on and you both became progressively more drunk, Van stole you away to an empty room, pushed you up against the wall and kissed you for the first time. One kiss and that was it. You knew you were made for Van McCann and he was made for you.
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Astro| Their reaction to waking from a nightmare about losing you.
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Thank you so much for the request. We hope this is what you meant, and that you like it. And again thank you Uwu <3
-2E
Warnings: angst 
Jinjin
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“I’m sorry… I just lost my feelings towards you” Jinjin’s heart drops as he looks at your expressionless face while searching for just some feeling in the words you just told him.
Not succeeding.
“But- What do you mean!” The tears have started to fall down his face, and he is reaching for your hand, but you immediately jerk your hand away.
“You were just not the one for me.” You say, again, no expression in your face, which is the most hurtful thing in this.
“I don't love you anymore” You turn around and begin to walk away. What caused this? he doesn't know, all he knows is that the tears are there, and they will keep coming while shouting your name. ___
Jinjin’s eyes open as quick as a lightning. He is drenched in sweat, and he still has tears in his eyes from the horrible nightmare.
Looking around, he sees no other soul than his own, which makes him scared that the dream might have been the reality.
“y/n?... Y/N!” He shouts when he doesn't get a response. He walks around the apartment, but he then sees you. You are standing outside on the balcony, eating.
You don't notice him, but when he opens the door, you don't even get the change to turn around. He has wrapped his hands around you and is hugging you from behind. 
“I couldn't sleep... and I was kind of hungry- Whats wrong?” Noticing he is silent, he just shakes his head and you can feel him smile against you.
“I love you”
MJ
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“It’s not your fault MJ,” you whisper, holding his hand tight. The beeping of the heart monitor sounds in the room. MJ tries to hold back the tears, as he looks at you. Your face is hurt badly.
“If I had seen that car… I could have stopped you from running… you could be okay now,” The tears started flowing like a tiny waterfall.
And then suddenly, your hand falls numb and the line goes flat.
“y/n?... Y/N!”
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“Y/N!” MJ yells as he sits up bed, he is bathing in sweat and slightly shaking.
He looks to the side to see the empty bedside.
“y/n… y/n where are you?!” his voice is shaking and he keeps looking desperately around.
“MJ? what's wrong? why are you yelling? what are you….” your voice grows quiet as you enter the bedroom, with a cold glass of water in your hand.
“Thank god…” he whispers quietly as his eyes catch yours.
“what’s wrong? I just went for water,” You say with a worried voice and sits down next to him on the bed. He immediately reaches over to hug your stomach, laying there on your legs for a bit.
“Mj..” You whisper and stroke his hair, making him calm down a bit.
“Please don’t leave me... “ he whimpers like a puppy.
“It was just a nightmare… don’t worry, I would never leave,” You kiss the top of his head and go back to sleep with him.
Eunwoo
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“W-what?” The words silently got stuck in Eunwoo’s throat as he heard the news from the police.
“Y/n Y/l/n passed away last night due to a horrific car crash she was a part of-” The older man gives the terrible news right as Eunwoo opened his door this morning.
“And-” The man continuous, but is caught off my Eunwoo’s disbelief.
“This can't be… Are you sure it was y/n?” Tears form in his eyes, as he tries to take in the terrifying news.
“If this is the real ID, then yes” the policeman gives him an ID. And true enough, it was you. Your face, your name, your birthday, just you. You had been taken away by a car crash- He didn't even get to say goodbye. ___
He wakes up at once and ignores the fact that his heart is beating insanely fast, and sweat has him drenched around his neck. He silently taps on the side you usually lay beside him, but there's something is wrong.
His eyes are wide open, and he wide awake. All he knows now is that you aren't beside him, and he needs to know why. The nightmare scared him that much.
“Y/n!” Shouting quick, he gets up and looks around every corner in the bedroom.
“What are you doing Eunwoo?” A voice lets his heart take a break just a for a second. It's you. You are standing with a cup filled up with water. and he drops himself on the floor. With a relieved smile on his face.
You put down the cup the nearest high place, and sit down in front of him immediately. Not even a second passes, and he has taken you into his arms.
“I thought I lost you,” He says, muffling the words in your neck. You let a slight chuckle slip as you return the hug.
“Don’t worry. I’m right here”
Moonbin
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A letter had been laid behind the door of the apartment you two share together.
It was simple looking, but when Moonbin opened the letter, it wasn't as simple as it looked. A lot of words, and a lot of scrabbling around. Looking like words had been written, but erased.
“I cant do this anymore…” Reading one of the most hurtful lines in the letter out loud, he falls to the ground. Still holding the letter, he begins to tremble but keeps reading.
“I’m breaking up- I can't take the way this relationship is going… I'm sorry” hearing the words he is reading in your voice, he begins to cry silently. only a few tears appear.
Though the last part was the hardest to read since it was smudged a little. Probably from the tears you had been crying out while writing it. But, it was definitely the words written down that hurt the most.
I love you. -y/n ___
Waking up, Moonbin was still shaking from the horror-filled nightmare. But needed to sit up to get some air, knowing now it was only a dream. But something was wrong. He couldn't hear your breathing behind him when he was sitting on his side of the bed.
So looking behind himself and seeing no one laying on that part of the bed, scared the living hell out of him. But nothing moved in him, only his thoughts kept running.
His eyes plastered to your side of the bed, still not moving you entered the room. But stopping up looking quite confused.
“Moonbin? Babe? What's wrong?” Still standing, his eyes meet yours at once as he heard your voice.
“Oh god… I thought it was real for a second” Throwing himself back into the bed. You move over in front of him and then sit beside him.
“Thought what- Oh… was it a bad dream?” All he does nod, but also once the nod is done he takes you down with him, and begins to cuddle you in relief.
“Please stay,” He says into your neck. You let a little giggle slip out.
“Of course” he tucks you in more as those words left your mouth.
Rocky
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A shadow appears in front of you two and you stop in your tracks. You squeeze Rocky’s hand tight. A man with a gun pointed at you starts to yell.
“DO NOT MOVE! Give me all of your money! RIGHT NOW!” the robber demands at you two.
“W-we don’t have any” You start to cry, Rocky is frozen, he doesn’t know what to do.
You fold your hands and jump down on your knees. Begging for the man to not shoot.
“I said DO NOT MOVE!” the man screams on top of his lungs.
The gunshot makes Rocky scream out of all of his might, everything seems to go slower.
“Y/N NO!” He jumps down to your lifeless body on the ground, holding it tight to his chest as the tears stream down his cheeks.
“y/n please don’t…” He whispers over and over again.
___
Rocky gasps slightly as he sits up in the couch. You two had been watching a scary movie together and apparently fallen asleep.
But something was wrong.
“y-y/n where are you? Y/N?!” he stands up from the couch and walks around the small apartment.
“Y/N!!” his voice is desperate, he needs to see you.
“Gee’ Rocky be quiet… its 2 am,” Your groggy voice says as you walk out the bathroom.
“y/n!” He says and runs over to hug you tight.
“baby what’s wrong?” You slightly giggle at his reaction. seriously, you just had to pee.
“I.. I had a nightmare… I thought I had lost you…” He sniffs quietly into the crook of your neck.
“Rocky… I’m right here,” you say in a calm voice as you hug him tightly.
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Sanha’s heart drops to the floor when he sees you and Rocky. You two are holding hands and laughing together. Sanha couldn’t bear seeing this. He decided to walk over to you two.
“y/n… wh-what are you doing with Rocky?” Sanha asks looking at you.
“uhm? funny enough dating him stupid? We have been for awhile now,” you giggle at him, he loves that giggle, but not in this context.
“Yeah, thanks for helping us together Sanha, I really owe you,” Rocky laughs and bows down to kiss your cheek. Sanha’s eyes tear up at the sight and he has to close them shut. He can’t see this anymore.
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Sanha quietly opens his eyes, feeling the warm tears down his cheeks. He is laying alone in his bed at the dorm.
The bed is cold and he misses something, like there used to be a warmth that is now gone.
“Y/n…” He quietly sobs into the pillow. He wants to hold you again, you don’t belong with Rocky. You belong with him.
“Sanha?” a quiet voice sounds. Sanha looks up from the pillow to see your figure standing there. You look confused and concerned.
“are you… crying?” You say quietly and make your way to the bed and sitting down on it.
“Why are you crying?” You whisper and stroke his hair.
“I… I had a nightmare, you were with Rocky… I was scared it was true… because you were gone when I woke up,” Sanha tells and you can’t help yourself but laugh a bit.
“Sanha… I just had to use the bathroom. It was just a nightmare okay? I’m yours, only yours,” You kiss his cheek and lay down under the sheets with him.
You two decide to talk about some random stuff until you both fall asleep.
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Hey Lizzy I want to apologize. I really respect you, but unfortunately in the past that lead to me thinking you could be asked about any SPN opinion and were obligated to answer, no matter if it was wanky or not your ballpark, because you 'obviously knew everything'. That wasn't cool of me. You being a smart person who chooses to share your insights doesn't mean we're entitled to your time and I'm sorry. I hope fandom starts remembering we're all just people soon and you get the chance to relax.
Thank you, sincerely. 
At least for me, though, it’s not been a problem… I have a very quiet inbox compared to some friends here, and I barely get wanky stuff. And so I’m happy to answer a lot of things, basically anything non-wanky, and serious questions about the wanky stuff rather than just people coming to spew their misery at me. Which I rarely get, tbh, since I often don’t answer it, or also I think because I consistently avoid the initial post-episode rush when everyone’s most panicked and urgently needs to yell about everything, I’m more under the radar as a panic response blog because in the 18 hours between the episode and me returning to my dash, people get it out their systems. :P 
I think the problem with anons, though, is waaay more with a mob mentality that once someone is answering a lot of asks they beget more asks either tangential or just because they seem like a blog that answers a lot of asks quickly and efficiently (I think “efficiently” is another reason I don’t get a lot of anons :P), and often the anons start to get very impatient just to ask, rather than to check and see if it’s been asked before. Which is no one individual person’s problem but an issue with the entire system they’re just not helping with. I’m glad people are starting to check themselves because a volley of anons, meant well or not, is a great way to exhaust a blogger and get them defensive or despairing or just feeling like they have no time left to do the stuff they actually enjoy about fandom. (At which point I have wished I COULD take some of that burden off since I have a bunch of free time while I’m in exile from my kingdom or whatever this is) But the emotional burden is waaay worse for others so I absolutely can’t complain about getting the few odd anons. 
Like… I didn’t mind answering 2 asks about where the longing retcon came from in the same week because they were fairly widely spaced, but if I made that post with a link to the tag that would explain everything, and then got 3 anons demanding to know and then there were 5 more by the time i was done answering one, my inbox would feel way worse than it currently does, and as a bonus, answering one would still leave 7 people feeling like I never answered them even when answering stuff that’s literally their question - by not giving their specific ask the attention it feels like they’ve been ignored. 
If you give someone a little while and they still haven’t answered or explained, and there’s no easy to find explanation on their blog, then yeah it’s fine to ask just about anything about their content. Going away and remembering to come back and ask also will clarify to the asker if they actually care enough to do it >.> I have asked one (1) anon question to a meta blog in the entire time I’ve been on tumblr because it was something they kept alluding to and I could not for the life of me find the reason why they did and their tag didn’t have an explanation, just more allusions to it and it was such a specific thing I didn’t know any other blog that would care about it. And I asked after seeing them allude to it about 3 times so I was getting desperate but didn’t want to look silly so I asked on anon :P Anything else I cared enough to ask, I just snooped their blog and saw what else they had to say about the subject, or if it was a fresh hot subject, scrolled my dash and inevitably found someone else talking about it. Or just asked a friend if they knew what was up.
Anyways, anon, I’m glad you’re questioning how asks affect people, and I hope more people at least take some time to remember that this isn’t an instant question and answer service all the meta writers automatically opt into, because people are getting hurt and burned out, but you don’t have to worry about me specifically :) 
I’m still happy to answer most messages. At the moment most of the unanswered stuff I have is actually stuff I just don’t have a clue how to answer except the anons were sharing some idea with me and I’m a terrible person, but I don’t know how to do one line replies where I don’t engage with it beyond like “cool” and “you do you” rather than actually wanky stuff :P Other people here are much better at that than me >.> Maybe I should clear some of that out of my inbox right now tbh. It’s mostly stuff that arrived in the middle of busy inbox days and I just put off answering in favour of stuff that was real questions… THAT’s the burden that weighs me down, not the wank :P 
I really hope that others are starting to at least think about the specific emotional burden they’re asking people for when they bring wank to their inboxes though, because it’s great you’ve started to think about it but as I said it’s a systematic problem of people not thinking about the blogger behind the inbox, and fandoms are wanky places. Choosing not to answer and spread the negativity, or to reply and try and smooth it down a bit, are the only options we have for managing things and I don’t think anyone starts writing meta thinking oh goodie I can’t wait to be responsible for the mood of the fandom. While accidentally putting ourselves in the place of seeming like we know what’s going on. It’s completely unmanageable and I’m looking at it as someone whose entire adolescence was spent as a top of the ladder moderator on a fairly large forum, but it’s completely untranslatable experience. Every single one of us is just another random person in fandom and we ALL have to be responsible for our own behaviour and how we affect others. And even among people you care about or bloggers you admire, you can hurt them just by having a bad day or asking too many anon questions or whatever. 
Anyway I’m gratified you’d send this, and please don’t be scared to send more anons, just read your audience :P If someone seems stressed, try another inbox.
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Drunk (y/n)
So, I haven’t updated Welcome to London in a while and to be honest, I’m going to have a harder time updating it now because school has started and I’ve taken on an extremely heavy course load. So, this oneshot from my wattpad is sort of a sorry for that.  All of my oneshots are on my wattpad and Welcome to London will also be updated earlier there, just because I’m an idiot and forget to update both sometimes, anyways read on.
My Wattpad: -kavacado-
You slowly opened your eyes and blinked a few times to adjust to the brightness of the sunlight pouring through the window in front of you. Your head was pounding and you couldn't even remember getting into bed yesterday, only that you left your brother John's apartment around 10pm for a night out with your friends.
Speaking of not remembering, you definitely don't remember a periodic table poster being hung in your room... shit. You were suddenly aware of an arm draped over your waist and the fact that this was most definitely not your room. Terrified, you lifted the covers on you and looked down to find, thankfully, that you still had your clothes on, as did the man next to you. Squeezing your eyes shut tightly, you turned around in the mystery man's arms in order to face him.
3...
2...
1...
You opened your eyes, only to see a mess of dark curls peeking out from the covers. Your heart started beating rapidly as you realized who it was. Still, you lowered the covers from his face. Lo and behold, there was Sherlock sleeping peacefully with you in his arms. Your face burned at the realization of your situation. You had liked Sherlock for quite some time now, it was the one thing the bloody idiot couldn't deduce about you. You were going red at the face just being in the same bed as him, in his arms, even if it was clear nothing had happened between you two.
Slowly as you had time to think, you remembered how you ended up in this situation.
"Come on (y/n), loosen up. You've had exactly one drink since we've gotten here." Your friend Tina flagged over the bar tender . "Would you please get us a few rounds of tequila shots? Honestly, keep them coming until this one-" she pointed at you with her thumb "looks absolutely wasted."
"Um, Tina, I don't know if i want to be "absolutely wasted". How the hell are we gonna get home if both of us are drunk?" You gave her a worried look.
She giggled before answering you "Don't worry sweetie, I can handle my alcohol pretty well, you'll get drunk waaay before me."
'I'm pretty sure you're already drunk' you thought to yourself  rolling your eyes.
You're first round of shots were placed in front of the both of and you sighed before pinching your nose and downing it. By the third shot, Tina was piss drunk and you started to wobble on the fourth as well.
You were both laughing about god knows what when a man with dirty blonde hair and hazel eyes sat at your table. "Hello Gorgeous, What's a pretty little lady like you doing drunk at a bar?"
You slowly turned around and rolled your eyes at the man "Really dude? That's the best you've got-" You spoke a bit too loudly "I'll have you know, I have a boyfriend and he will beat. you. up. So go awaaay." you dramatically pointed in a random direction and he took off giving you a weird look.
Tine started laughing "Why'd you tell him you have a boyfriend? He was haaaawt." she dragged out her last word.
You snorted "Because I do have a boyfriend." you paused "in my dreams." You both started laughing hysterically as if you had just said the most hilarious thing in the world. You continued "and that boyfriend is Sherlock. He would be my boyfriend in real life too if I could just get the courage to tell him I like him." You groaned in frustration "That has to be the one thing he can't deduce about me, god, do I have to spell it out to him?" You looked down at your lap frowning.
Tina frowned as well before smiling widely as she repeatedly smacked your arm. You looked at her and sighed "What is it Tina?"
"I have an idea." She sing-songed. "Call him! You're drunk, alcohol gives you a lot of courage." She widened her eyes and nodded at you, trying to convince you to follow her plan. You squinted your eyes "You know what? I'm gonna do it, I'm gonna call Sherlock." Sherlock was in his mind palace when his phone began to ring. He was going to ignore it when he realized that it was the ringtone he'd set specifically for you and jumped up to get it. Looking at the clock, he got a bit scared as it was nearing one in the morning, what could you possibly be calling for right now? "Hello?" "Hey Sherrrrrrly!" You slurred out. "(Y/n), what's going on? Where are you? Why is it so loud? Are you okay? Is-" "Shuuuuush." You cut him off "I'm fine Sherl. I need to talk to you" "(Y/n), are you drunk?" Sherlock sighed. "What?! Nooo. Just a little tipsy. Okay, a lottle tipsy." You giggled at yourself. Sherlock huffed "What pub are you in?" "The one five minutes away from your apartment, but who cares? Forget that, I need to tell you something." You heard Sherlock open and close his front door through the phone. "Okay, what is it that you need to tell me?" "Oh, um, shit, Tina, what was I gonna tell him." Sherlock sighed, why the hell were you with Tina of all people? He heard a muffled conversation between the two of you before you started speaking again. "Oh yeah, Sherl, I needed to tell you that I like you. A lot. I like like you." He heard you giggling and smiled to himself. "That's lovely (y/n), I like you as well." He said softly. You whined "Noo Sherlock, you don't get it! I like like you. Meaning I wanna be your girlfriend. I wanna cuddle with you on rainy days. I wanna kiss your gorgeous face until you can't breathe. I wanna have mind blowing se-" "I get it (y/n)! I get it! Just, hold on, I'm walking into the pub right now." You looked around till you spotted the tall detective. You frantically began to wave at him, getting his attention immediately.He walked to you and you fell on to him, his arms wrapping around your waist to hold you up. "Helloo Sherrrly." Sherlock turned his head due to the smell of alcohol from your breath. "Hello (y/n), come on. Let's get you home." He began to walk towards the door with you as you whined. "But I was having so much fun." You stuck your bottom lip out. He walked you to 221B, taking longer than he expected since you decided in the middle of the walk back that the ground would be your throne. He was pulling you inside the front door when you started to pull away from his grip. "My car is over there, Sherl!" You pointed to your small black car. He tugged you inside "No. There is no way that you're driving like this. You're sleeping here tonight." He walked you through the sitting area and into his room. You closed the door and grabbed his coat, yanking his face to yours in a rough kiss. He immediately pulled away and you frowned. "I thought you said I was sleeping with you tonight. Am I not pretty enough?" You began to tear up. Sherlock's eyes widened, he'd never dealt with a drunk (y/n) before. Murders? He could handle. Criminal masterminds? Piece of cake. But a crying drunk (y/n)? This would be the death of him. "No, no, no, (y/n), you're absolutely beautiful, gorgeous even! But, love, you're drunk and you need rest. I said you're sleeping here not with me." He sputtered out. You immediately stopped crying and smiled. "Okay." You flopped down onto Sherlock's bed. He shook his head smiling, what the hell was he gonna do with you? He pulled the covers up to your chin and turned to leave when he felt you grab his wrist. "Stay with me." You looked up at him with big eyes. He debated this for a minute before melting at the sight of your puppy dog face. Sighing, he shed his coat and shoes before getting into bed with you. You snuggled up to his side and fell asleep, snoring softly. You cringed at yourself, remembering everything that happened the previous night, everything you'd done. You saw Sherlock slowly waking up and hid your face in the covers. Sherlock woke up and saw you hiding your face. He chuckled before removing the covers from your face. "(Y/n), stop being embarrassed, what happened happened, it's doesn't matter. I'm not mad." You furrowed your brow, giving him a wary look "You're not?" You asked softly. "No, I'm not. And if you'd let me, now I would like to kiss your gorgeous face." You giggled. He propped himself up on his forearm and hovered over you as he leaned in and pressed a soft kiss to your lips. He pulled away and looked into your eyes before capturing your lips with his once again, slowly making the innocent kiss a bit more intense. He pulled away once more and smiled at you. Falling beside you he chuckled. "If you want maybe we can even have mind blowing se-" You shut him up with your lips against his, giggling as you pulled away. "Shut up, Sherl." Grinning you snuggled into his side, burying your face into the crook of his neck. You looked up at him "By the way, where was John during this entire situation?" He shrugged "Maybe at Sarah's, although he should be back about now." As if on cue the door to Sherlock's room swung open as John called his name, freezing as he saw you both in bed. Sherlock jumped out of bed and you realized that he had shed everything but his boxers at night. "Listen John, just relax, this isn't what it looks like." Sherlock tried to reason. John went red in the face with anger "You bastard." John lunged for Sherlock and he dodged John's attack and ran out the door. John chased after him as you sat on the bed laughing at them. Feeling sleepy, you fell back onto the pillow beneath you and went to sleep again.
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Sunday night Rickamarole
It was one of those Sunday nights where I really needed to unwind before a hectic week coming up. I had my incense and lavender candles burning, slow jazz music with a bit of slow Rnb mixed in the play list.. I had my fairy lights and red rope lights to really set a calm and sensual atmosphere.. for myself. After a warm shower I decided to almost immerse myself in cocoa oil… just a lot more than usual. I then topped it off by wearing my favourite robe I found in Kyoto.. not satin but close to it. This is such a treat to be calm on my own. Especially after some rude stranger tried some rough bargaining on these crystals I recently wanted to sell online. I had bought them at a tiny pawn shop in Chang Mai a few years ago, thinking it was worth what I paid for but my dad couldn't think of what it was … I had to take his word for it as he's been examining precious stones all his life. He did say whatever it is, it seemed like it didn't have any impurities in it. As pure as it was, I had no use for it. It seemed to be collecting dust. After all, I needed to de-clutter so I put a reasonable price on offer.. but the customers have been off-putting and I just let it rest. The last one I dealt with wanted to meet me tonight to negotiate the price. I felt awful to ignore his phone calls but I just didn't want to deal on a Sunday night. 
Just as I was about to blow dry my hair the phone goes off again… irritated … perhaps it’s my mother… I’ll just have a look… I pick up my phone and have a look at who is ringing “Private number”.... UGH! Not him again!! And I just stare at it for a few seconds….. an almost deafening low pitched scrambled noise with a bright green swirling light appears to the left of me and my blood turns to water …. dropping my phone, I feel completely stiff with my mouth ajar as I see a tall man in a white lab coat step into my room!!! I am unable to scream as I stare at the green swirl disappearing and the man remaining in front of me. 
He's extremely tall, but lanky. He has gray- blue spiky hair that protrudes out to make him look even taller. He seems Caucasian but with a hint of something else making his skin slightly tan. His eyes are piercing and his facial expression displays subtle annoyance mixed with apathy. He seems older but his striking features disguise his true age, as I slowly come out of my icy state… my senses betray my fears and find him aesthetically pleasing, handsome…. he's holding a phone to his ear and he points at mine on the ground…. and then it clicks!!! 
This man is the one determined to get those crystals tonight and he’s somehow found where I live!! He means serious business and I instantly regret trying to sell whatever those crystals are on the internet. I've brought this upon myself. I'm shaking right now and I feel like this might be the end. Since he's gone this far for some crystals, he must be prepared to do just about anything. He hangs up the phone and the incessant ringing stops. Now we’re in complete silence staring at each other’s eyes. 
His expression softens. “So, you were definitely ignoring me.” 
 “....” 
“I tried to do it the easy way but you left me no choice. I need those crystals” 
“Ok.. s-sure” 
“Look, I won't hurt you little lady, there's no reason to be afraid…” 
 “....” 
 “huh. I did invade your-your little love nest or sexy foreplay thing going on here, with the candles and sexy music, don't worry I’ll leave before your boyfriend finds out..” I say nothing. The longer he talks, the more I can identify characteristics about him… good, I’ll let him talk so I can pick him out in a line up later. 
“Hey, little lady, why don't you speak up a little. You look pale” his suggestion just rhetorical, he’s definitely just playing now… he's only here for one thing. I remain speechless… 
“Alright then, suit yourself.” He pulls out another contraption and I gasp, getting on the floor … “woah, woah, woah, steady there little lady!!! This is just going to help me find those-those lovely crystals you were offering! I'm sure you've still got those!” The contraption, a small black box with an antennae seemed to crackle every time he would move it. He began to walk around my room trying to locate the crystals with his contraption. While he had his back turned to me I slowly reach for my phone, while I was already on the floor. 
 “S-Stop right there!” And I gasp again and freeze. Confused I turn my eyes towards him. “Now- I don't want any- eeughhh- trouble right now-” he’s pointing a small lengthy gun at me … “you just stay right there and no calling the-eughhh cops”... he seemed to be getting more and comfortable here, strangely burping in between sentences. I accept pure defeat and I try to remain calm. What chance do I have against a sci-fi gun holding-portal opening mad scientist? 
 “Ok I won't call anyone.” 
His monobrow raised “You’re not actually mute then! Now, tell me where your crystals are so I can-euughh-portal out of here” 
“Wait, aren't you going to pay me?” 
His nonchalant expression changed to a derisively humours one. “Hahah, you don't even know how much the-the-they're worth!” 
“Well, sir… what can I call you-” 
“Rick Sanchez” 
“Well, Rick, they're mine and you will have to offer me something for them! You can't just invade someone's home and steal their stuff!” His smile widened and he rested himself on my suede armchair with a deep breath. 
“Nice place you got here…smells nice, pleasing to the eyes… much like the owner” he spoke glibly with a wink. 
“What’s that supposed to mean-” I retorted, indignantly to him changing the subject 
“I haven't had a proper-euugh-drink tonight” he interrupted, cosying into the chair more. “What kind of good stuff *wink* you got around here little lady, some Chambois, Pinot Gris- oooh la la” 
I sighed and collapsed more into the floor, utterly perplexed and restricted. “Alright I’ll dig something out.. you must like your hard liquor from the looks of things” 
“Damn right I do!” His eyes widened. I feebly stumbled up to my feet.. my legs numb..This maybe my plan out, get him drunk enough to drop his guard and I can call the police!! I grabbed the finest rum I had in the cupboard.. “here’s something we both may enjoy!” 
 “Oh yeah! Fill it up baby!!” 
 “Jeez, now you're over-enthusiastic” I served a shot in a short glass “straight? ....” 
He takes a swish, swirls it… closes his eyes… and gulps. “Cheers to meet your acquaintance finally” he smiles, his gaze slowly turning into a curious one. 
“Oh, well, I guess I've been expecting you, really…” I blurted out, before I even knew what I had said… 
“So, you must have then, I’m sure you-you don't do this sort of thing on your own would you?” I let out a nervous laugh… oh great, now he thinks we’re totally alone…. 
“Please Rick, do have some more” I filled up his glass once more to keep him from asking questions. 
 “Keep it-bleuggh-coming”. His eyes fixated on me.. “it's funny, I've been travelling around a few dimensions today, even Blips and Chitz- and I didn't really feel like it-it was all just really run of the mill- sorta-purging planet here, giant telepathic arachnid dimension there- just since I collapsed the intergalactic government- and no more council of Ricks running around-condemning me -it's just-just” 
 “What are you talking about-” he ignored my interjection and kept taking. 
 “-a bunch of random moments now- just filling up my super- amazing- life-- you know-you know, thinking all this existentialist kinda shit again-” “pass me some more” this time I gave him the whole bottle… clearly he's larger than life and I cannot even start to comprehend what’s on his plate… why am I even trying to empathise..? Is it because he's already opening up to me…? 
“S-screw Unity” He looked down, seeming defeated momentarily. “It-she’s taking this hive mind mentality w-waaay too far- it's like I don't even know her any more” “Little lady, What I’m trying to say is, it's nice to just kick back, and you've-you’ve really taken the cake on this one, I feel like it's meant to be-” He took a few more gulps… I’ve never seen a man empty half a bottle of rum in 10 minutes like it was some sort of cordial.. surely he will get inebriated soon. 
“If what you're saying is true” I began, “Maybe you can put your guard down a little and relax more…” I put on the sweetest voice I could muster up and smoothly reached out to touch his hand so I can lower his weapon. He immediately put down his glass and grabbed my hand. His touch was firm and cold. His gaze pierced mine again and his mouth curled up on one side to give me a smirk. At that moment a smooth track by Childish Gambino came on just to steepen the tension, my face blushing from his touch. 
 “You-you sure do know your mood-music” he tightened his grip and his other hand still on the gun, put his arm around my waist and stood towering over me. 
My senses again overcoming my fear, sending electric shocks through my body, my cheeks burning up. I couldn't hide my obvious attraction to this mysterious older man… and he read me like a book. 
With one sudden move, he brought my body closer to his and still watching over me, he was at least 6 foot 5 and I was a mere 5 foot 4. He loosened his grip on my hand and traced his fingers over my lips… “Gasp!” my reaction exciting him more, he ran his fingers through my half-wet hair… 
“Mmmmm, I love your red hair” I blushed more… surely he can tell I dyed it. I love this new colour too, just in a brave first-time attempt I went all red a few weeks ago… and I'm at so glad that I did right now, getting compliments from this sexy stranger. 
“Tell me, are you, are you a dancer?” 
“Yes, I love dancing” 
 “I'm going to sit back right here and you-you're going to dance for me- show me what you got-baby” still smirking he nudged me and sank back on the chair.. I just realised that he had stealthily slipped off my robe tie and stuffed it into his lab coat pocket. 
Feeling exposed, I tried to close my robe but it was coming apart easily. Well, I will have to be comfortable in my own skin and I suppose if I can show him some moves, maybe he will be too distracted to care about his gun… 
I start to move slowly to the music while I kept eye contact. I needed to get into the mood and warm up… so I finally closed my eyes and imagined I was alone and not being watched by a sexy invader with a gun that made me so nervous. 
At this point I had to let go of all my inhibitions while my breasts and pussy were clearly on display. 
I opened my eyes and made eye contact again to look for approval. It seemed to be working a little too well as he had put his gun away now and if I wasn't mistaken, there was a huge bulge in his pants… his smirk was now unrelenting… his eyes were half lidded as if conveying that he's already got me. 
This really wasn't that bad, the rum was kicking in and I didn't feel like I was in danger any more… I coyly smiled back and closed my eyes again and started to deeply feel the music. My hips were really moving to it with my eyes closed… 
With his familiar stealth, I felt his hands on me again, this time, both hands were around my waist. He had my naked body pressed up against his fully clothed one. “You’ve really got some nice moves little lady, you've-you’ve got me wrapped up like a male Gazorpian” 
“Huh-” I was desperately getting wet and his touch was electrifying me.. my nipples were hardening against his body. He cupped my face with his hand and started to kiss me…it was as rough as I expected it and I could taste the rum and some whisky on his tongue… he slipped my robe off completely.. I wrapped one leg around his hip and drew my pussy tighter against him. He seemed to love this and he started to lightly bite my neck. “Mmmm I really like that..Rick”
 “Then you're gonna love what's coming up next little lady. You're gonna love this” He pushed me on my bed and I watched him come over to me. 
He spread my legs apart and put his tongue on my clitoris. He was swirling his tongue and licking in between kissing my pussy with his lips… he was just a master at this.. 
I just cannot believe what’s happening… one minute a sexy stranger portals into my room and the next minute, Ok, I guess the next part was pretty predictable.
“Mmmmm Rick” I grabbed and stroked his Gray-Blue spiky hair while he was still licking my pussy. He inserted his tongue into my pussy and started quickly rubbing my clit with his fingers. He moved his tongue further up and with his other hand he inserted two fingers up my pussy while still rubbing his fingers on my clit. This was heaven on earth …. as he rubbed his fingers faster and faster, I was moaning and I could feel myself cumming… he kept going, munching my pussy like a starving man, inserting his fingers deeper, rubbing my clit even faster…. I couldn't contain myself and let out a scream and squirted all over his face… I looked down at him in embarrassment and he was grinning ear to ear and now while we were making eye contact he kept rubbing my clit hard and finger fucking me until I squirted again, this time my squirt was so excessive that it went all over his shirt and lab coat…. he started laughing in amusement 
“I'm so sorry Rick..-” 
“About what little lady…” he slowly climbed on top of me and I could feel his bulge, now even bigger.. he lightly choked my neck while looking deep in my eyes “Y-you dirty little girl, luring strange men into your house...you need to be taught a lesson” he grabbed my face again and started kissing me violently. His spit forcibly going down my mouth and his tongue rendering mine prisoner... 
I wrapped my legs around him again… “You, you're a feisty little girl, you like this huh? W-wait till you get my hard dick inside you hm? You-you better lick my balls good, g-give them a good licking you dirty little bitch, these balls ain't licking themselves” 
“Yessss Rick, I would love to suck your balls, just give it to me sexy man…-” he pinned me down again with my neck, undid his belt and his pants to finally set his massive erection free.. 
My eyes widened in amazement, his dick was incredibly huge and thick.. this will definitely hurt.. “Yeeeaahh baby! You like that huh?? Lick my balls good, baby!!” 
“Mmm Rick, your dick is so huge, I can't resist” he lifted my head up and filled my mouth with his dick. My mouth barely fit over it. I got my hand out with a struggle from underneath his grip and held his dick while I sucked on it. 
I tried to swallow his whole dick but only went up to three quarters of it and I choked. I got tired easily due to its size but I had to keep going, I really didn't want to disappoint Rick. Luckily he didn't look disappointed.. I grabbed one of his balls with my hand and played with it while I kept sucking. Then I took my mouth off his dick and put one ball in my mouth creating a vacuum in my mouth. I sucked that ball in and out of my mouth making popping sounds. This was way easier than sucking his massive dick which was hurting my mouth. 
I tried to jack his dick up and down and fondled the other ball..his hand found my chin and removed me from his ball and placed me in proximity of the other one. His balls were sweet, so scrumptious. I could suck them all day… 
“Mmmm Rick..” I said in garbled sounds… I loved seeing his smile. I loved that I was making him happy. I tried to pull down his half undone pants and he helped himself off of them.. now he was sexy as ever…. with his lab coat still on and dick out… am I dreaming? “Little lady, do you know what we call a girl like you in space? … a memory parasite…-” 
“What did you call me ??” I was offended and stopped sucking his balls. 
“Hahahahaaa little lady!! You look even sexier when you're angry!! What I mean by that is they create the sweetest memories in your mind but it turns out it's just a parasite- we-we-we’re just bunch of cynical cock-suckers in space you know-” 
“Fair enough, I guess if you can't trust anything in space” I tried to reason, sounds like a harsh environment to be in, I think I just have it easy here. 
He unexpectedly bit my neck so hard that I bled and I pushed him off me with all my strength… “what was that for!!! That really hurt you crazy space man!” 
“I-I was just checking if you were the real thing, parasites can't take a little pain, but looks like you can- you dirty slut” ignoring my look of horror he took his shirt and lab coat off to reveal a very lean body with toned muscles.. he was obviously capable of hand to hand combat which I imagine he was forced to teach himself. 
He roughly pushed me on my bed again and climbed on top. His huge erection was taunting me. “I'm still angry Rick!” He held me down tight with his body and he was gripping my wrists down till they hurt. 
 “W-what part of that statement should I care about little lady? I know you want this” He kissed me roughly again and I started kissing roughly back, biting his lip sometimes as payback. 
He released his grip on one of my wrists and helped his dick find the entrance of my dripping pussy. I felt so nervous because I knew he will punish me with his massive dick. He pushed his dick in with a quick stroke and filled me up. The first few thrusts were a mixture of pain and pleasure as his thick girth made room inside me. Soon he was pounding me with so much strength, forcing his cock violently to the root, the bed ramming loudly against the wall probably waking up the neighbours. 
My face turned upwards and my eyes rolled back... I felt my throat drying up while I attempted to stifle moans as intense shock waves pulsed through my body with each one of Rick's brutal thrusts. 
While still forcing himself into my pussy he grips my face and leans in to start kissing.... This felt so bitter-sweet… the violent, harsh pounding mixed with his moist, sweetly alcohol- flavoured kissing. 
Intermittently, he would stop kissing to entice me with profanity…rudely covering my mouth with his hand “Take my big hard cock, you little-you little bitch, I’ll teach you a lesson-for-for-luring me in here-you dirty little girl, my dick makes you wet doesn't it--y-your tight pussy can't even take my huge dick-you-you got what you asked for little bitch-- learn to take this big hard cock in your tight pussy” I bit his hand and he took it off, “You're going to pay for that later” 
I couldn't take this intense drawn out pounding and his dirty insults much longer… my pussy started to clench up around his dick and my belly drawing up as much tension as physically possible before I could explode…. I helplessly watched his complacent eyes as I squirted a big pool all over the bed screaming…. “Dirty, naughty girl” he squeezed my breasts hard with his large hands and pounded me faster, getting himself into climax.. his sexy body, his handsome face, topped off with his crazy hair, his controlling, confident nature filling me, pounding my-MY lucky pussy with his massive dick -getting off on me - just was too much to bear and I was climaxing for the third time… together we finished, his fresh, warm Cum shooting up and mixing with my pussy juice and then dripping out of my pussy … as he caught his breath, he kissed my breasts one by one .. and then my mouth, this time, softly, he moved me as if I was weightless so he can lie down next to me. 
I was still catching my breath and I wiped off the sweat off his chest… just so I could have an excuse to feel him. I quickly gave him a light peck on his cheek. This was the best sex I’ve ever had in my life and I didn't want to ruin it by talking too much. I was thinking hard what to say … “Rick, you fucked me so well” 
“There's more where that came from baby, you got any water in here?” 
“Sure, no worries I'll get you some” it was difficult to get up, after the beating I've had. I got on all fours and crawled out of bed. 
“You Australians have a *we-eeeurgh-ird* way of talking” 
I started laughing “I can say the same about you! But I have no idea where you're from” 
I found my robe again and draped it over me. I don't think I'll ever get my robe tie again… I made my way into the kitchen… I think we both needed a little breather. I filled up the pitcher from the tap and dropped some ice in there. 
Grabbing some glasses with my other hand I came back to find him resting his eyes and sprawled on the bed. He cast a heavy lidded gaze to the sound of me pouring water. “There you go!” 
He grabbed the glass and as he slurped it down, with the rum all gone, I thought we could have a little bit more fun.. 
I hurried back into the kitchen and grabbed my soju out the fridge.. good thing I have this, never thought I’d get through it until tonight! It was pretty concentrated so I took some shot glasses. 
I walked back into the room to him drinking a few more glasses of water.. I quickly turned the music back on to play ♫  Konshens - pull up to mi bumper, poured into the shot glasses and danced in a come hither way, giving a devilish smile. He seemed surprised and quietly impressed. 
I took a small sip from my glass and taunted the other glass in front of him. He stood and came over to me, towering over me again. 
He put one had on my waist and grabbed one glass. Taking sips from our glasses we grooved with the beat- ♫ just pull up to mi bumper - pull up to mi bumper - com in on ya long black limozeen ♫ - mmm this man can definitely groove, seriously what can't he do? ❤  
I poured more soju and we sculled that one.. and then another… and another… I try to be silly and shake my ass and I try to do some crazy moves getting quite drunk now… he slaps my ass hard and I push him roughly but playfully… we laugh together and keep doing some horse play…we seem to have the same weird way of having fun. ♫ Gyptian- hold yuh ♫ - comes on and the mood quietens - I take the glasses away and put my hands around his shoulders - this is fantasy material right here.. we slow groove to the bass.. joined at the hip, synchronised, gazing into each other's eyes with impish smiles… caliente. ❤ 
Gyptian keeps playing slow grooves..We don't kiss, even though the temptation is strong, we’re both just holding off till the other gives in. He kisses my neck and licks where he bit me before.. “You're a piece of work aren't you” I whisper… he strokes my hair and let his hands drop down to my breasts and gently squeezes them. 
He slips off my robe... why did I bother to wear it again...His hands carefully and thoroughly explore my body, my belly, my ass, my thighs… his dick hardens again and he picks me up once-more as if I was weightless and lays me down on the bed.. he’s already shown me what he’s he's made of… vigour, confidence and absolute dominance… so he's a little more relaxed this time. 
He kisses me gently and strokes his hand from my breasts down to my thighs… his kisses trail down to my neck and then pay special attention to my nipples, sucking them.. down to my belly, he grabs the soju and pours it on my chest and belly then sucks some out of my belly button.. he goes back to the nipples and licks the alcohol off them… his light tempting kisses trail down to my thighs, tingling with each peck... and with his fingers rubs my clit again… he spreads my legs and kisses towards my pussy… I feel like the luckiest woman in the universe. I lift myself up, draw his chin up to me and kiss him passionately… 
Drunk but insightful, I think this man needs to finally be on the receiving end… I lay him down and get on top, I kiss his neck and place light kisses on his chest and I suck on his fingers, making eye contact… I grab his massive erection, spit on it and suck him the best I can.. I'm drunk enough to be super playful and I try swallowing his dick whole and victoriously get there!!! 
I can't hold it too long till I choke and cough… I suck up and down, creating a vacuum.. my pesky hair gets in the way which I try to flick off unsuccessfully.... He encourages my sucking by stroking my hair and holding it in a ponytail “Oh yeah little baby, give it to me...mmmm” I love his rough voice. I try to put both balls in my mouth while I hold his dick up and he just loves it. I spend extra time with his delicious balls “That’s right sweet baby, suck my balls”.. he moans. 
Looks like I've tamed the lion.. I’m delighted by my well deserved triumph. 
However I realise that my thoughts have been disappointingly misguided. I stare up and notice his sneering look which makes me feel nervous… he lifts me and topples me on all fours and slaps my ass hard that I scream… “No! Rick!” he kisses where he slapped and hovers his dick over my pussy… “This little lady, is for biting my hand, you think I’d let you get away with that?” he rams his dick hard inside me and starts to pulverise my pussy… the head of his cock brutally impacting my cervix. He collects my hair with one hand and holds on to one of my breasts while he fucks me. He then moves both his hands on my waist for more efficient pounding and fucks me so violently that I can feel my pussy becoming bruised. 
“Mmm take that little baby, this is payback for being a little slut” I feel a familiar but intense burning as he strikes my ass again… the sound resonating more than expected 
“Oh yeah, look at this sweet ass, you’re fucking gorgeous, you know that- y-you fucking slut, your pussy just begs to be fucked, you knew you-you’d have my dick inside your wet pussy, didn't you” He groans roughly as he mercilessly pounds me, without fail, his dirty talk tips me over the edge and we both start cumming… I join in his grunts and we both let out a long groan as we cum together.. 
I collapse on the bed … he squeezes my ass and slaps it. I hear him go into my bathroom and take a leak. I check the time and it's 5 am… I'll have to call in sick for work.. I don't regret it, how many times in my life would I be fucked by a sexy space scientist? 
I peek into the bathroom and he's washing his hands..My bathroom was illuminated only by my red rope light, exaggerating the sexual tension already present.
I try to elegantly walk past him to start the shower. Secretly watching him in my periphery, I step in.. you know it's been a crazy night when you're needing a second shower. 
I knew he would follow me into the shower and I welcomingly embrace his arms around me from the back. The sensation of his toned, extremely tall body against my back is undeniably irresistible. I turn around and enjoy washing his hair and chest.. The sight of him in the red luminescence on his toned body becomes my Achilles heel.  
We kiss more while the water is trickling down our heads, joining whatever part of our bodies not already in contact.. which were not many. Mmmm this is too good to be true... I feel his dick is hardening again.. wow, Rick has the highest libido, I can't possibly keep up. 
 After the shower I lead him back to my bed and we calmly lie down. He lies on his back and I curl up next to him. “You know, you seem to be in love with someone who decided to leave.. am I right?” 
He doesn't answer and instead brings me in close and tight… “sorry to be a sticky beak but I can see your pain right through you Rick..you were telling me earlier anyway.” 
“Hm, I'm starting to forget all about it, all about her..” 
“From the short time I've been on this Earth, I’ve learnt that the ones who are worth it are the ones that stick around..” I pause. “I'm not the brightest but I really wish I can help you.” I place my hand over his chest and kiss his cheek and then his hand. “You seem tough but I know you're still human..” I come back up and look into his eyes and stroke his lips.. “-with the same vulnerabilities and feelings we’re all cursed by… don't keep drinking your pain away, it's just pushing it deeper while you keep hurting inside” I kiss his chest. He cups my face and pushes my hair behind my ear. 
His expression was so soft compared to when he first came in. He drags me back down to bed, turns towards my body and kept hugging me tightly…I could hear his heart beating.. it was a beautifully pure and gentle moment. We fell asleep in each other's arms.. 
I wake up to a missing Rick. I expected this… but I still felt extreme sadness. I know it was a one night thing. I check my phone and work had called me three times. My colleagues have texted me multiple times, worried… I call back and say I'm sick. 
I remember the crystals and I check the box I kept it in. In its place I see a note “I didn't know you had this, pick up your phone next time” accompanying the note was my purple anal plug. Oh. Fuck. What a dirty man… as much as I'm irritated, I'm also amused… how did he even find this?
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