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colins-bridgerton · 2 months

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penelope & colin playlist

a year ago by james arthur

i wish it was a year ago i wish that i could hold you close now i'm driving past your house, i know the lights are on, you're not alone i wonder if you're making eyes i wonder if he loves you like the way you said that only i could do i wish that i could tell you that I miss you

ghost of you by seconds of summer

too young, too dumb to know things like love too young, too dumb to I drown it out like I always do dancing through our house with the ghost of you and i chase it down with a shot of truth that my feet don't dance like they did with you

far away by nickleback

i wanted you to stay 'cause i needed i need to hear you say that i love you i loved you all along and I forgive you for being away for far too long so keep breathing 'cause i'm not leaving you anymore believe it hold on to me, and never let me go

oceans by seafret

it feels like there's oceans between you and me once again we hide our emotions Under the surface and try to pretend but it feels like there's oceans between you and me i want you i want you and i always will it feels like there's oceans between you and me

give me a minute by the coronas

and i can't remember how we got so wrapped up in it hold on i'm not finished just give me a minute i'm not finished and if you don't mind i can live with it just a minute i'm not finished would you be so kind just to forgive it

can i be him by james arthur

i heard there was someone but i know he don't deserve you if you were mine i'd never let anyone hurt you no no I wanna dry those tears, kiss those lips It's all that I've been thinking about 'cause a light came on when i heard that song and i want you to sing it again i swear that every word you sing you wrote them for me like it was a private show

before by ulrik munther

before we burn each other up before we lose our minds before i'm not enough for you baby I need some time before you break my heart oh before we need to talk before it even starts i mean i'm sorry i didn't call

you're loosing me by taylor swift

how long could we be a sad song 'til we were too far gone to bring back to life? i gave you all my best me's, my endless empathy and all i did was bleed as i tried to be the bravest soldier fighting in only your army, frontlines, don't you ignore me i'm the best thing at this party (you're losin' me) andi wouldn't marry me either a pathological people pleaser who only wanted you to see her and i'm fadin', thinkin' "do something, babe, say something" (say something) "lose something, babe, risk something" (you're losin' me) "choose something, babe, i got nothing" (i got nothing) "to believe, unless you're choosin' me"

deep end by birdy

i don't know if you mean everything to me and I wonder, can i give you what you need? don't want to find i've lost it all too scared to have no one to call so can we just pretend that we're not falling into the deep end?

love me or leave me by little mix

and love me baby please cause i could still be the only one you need the only one close enough to feel you breathe yeah I could still be that place where you run Instead of the one that you're running from, ooh you, can take this heart heal it or break it all apart no, this isn't fair love me or leave me here

cross your mind by calum scott

tell me, do i ever cross your mind? do i ever keep you up at night? thinking 'bout what coulda been if we did it all again i've been trying to keep an open door even though you've got the locks on yours tell me even after all of this time do i ever cross your mind like you cross mine? do i?

wrong direction by hailee steinfeld

loved me with your worst intentions didn't even stop to question every time you burned me down don't know how; for a moment it felt like heaven loved me with your worst intentions painted us a happy ending every time you burned me down don't know how; for a moment it felt like heaven and it's so gut-wrenchin' fallin' in the wrong direction

loves you like i coudn't do by dunacan laurence

i hope you find that someone who'll love you and it feels like all that you wanted thought it would last if we just kept running we played our hand, now we're left with nothing hope you find that someone who'll hold you In a way that i always wanted to a hundred shots, but we kept on missing there's no regrets, 'cause we tried, my love I hope you find that someone who loves you like i couldn't do

a little bit yours by jp saxe

you found someone new, before me and you didn't try nearly as hard and maybe that's the problem i don't know how to take it away from you without giving someone else my heart all I do Is get over you and i'm still so bad at it i let myself want you i let myself try i let myself fall back into your eyes i let myself want you i let myself hope i let myself feel things i know that you don't you're not mine anymore but I'm still a little bit yours

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lovetei · 9 months

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could you write obey me boys with an idol mc? like they just somehow became famous on devildom 🕺 like these kpop/jpop idols! i was thinkin abt a newjeans like concept (attention, hype boy and cookie specifically)!

Hmm, that's so cute. I wanna see the boys watching your private life through your videos!

Damn... This made me want to redo my ROYAL Universe, I put such a small effort in that I feel sorry :')

Never mind, I'll redo it later.

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Obey me universe where MC is an Idol

IDOL Universe: Introduction

Warnings: MC uses gender neutral pronouns, manipulation, slightly dark themes

Links: Masterlist

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Frilly skirts and sexy tuxedo's

The one and only idol that threatened every other groups in the Devildom by simply playing their songs intro,

Dancing at the largest stage of the Devildom is basically your normal by now.

Getting invited at parties where the wealthy and the influential can only enter

Your influence spread like wild fire all across the eighth rings of hell until no one in the Devildom don't know you.

But that isn't enough,

After you conquered the lower class of demons you climbed your way up to meet the socialites

And now here you are, on one of your highly earning concerts but this one is different

There's a different face among the crowds

There's Leviathan

Sitting in front with no one beside him

That's weird, your manager told you that every ticket are sold out and the VVIP tickets are sold at the same day...

No way...

Did Leviathan bought all the VVIP tickets?!

Yes, yes he did.

He even bought a special fan meet ticket.

"Hi! Good evening!" You cheerfully greeted to your only fan that managed to afford your over the top VVIP fan meet ticket.

"Have a seat." How weird, the rumors said he's all shy and stuttery but the person you're seeing right now is no weeb, it's the grand admiral.

"Ah, yes... Thank you!" Even though nervousness is starting to cloud your senses you need to keep your idol persona or else some nasty news will dug themselves up from the graves.

"I must say your pricing is totally over the top but I expected it from an idol whose at the top of the current food chain." Wow, how blunt.

"Yup! This ticket allows my fans have more indept conversation with me!" You smiled with your usual bright grin.

"Yeah, I almost thought it's a bait for those in the noble class. You know, for them to brag about how they managed to get their hands on such ticket." He replied as he took a sip of the coffee in front of the two of you.

"I'll go straight to the catch." He voiced out as soon as the mug landed on the glass of the coffee table.

"I want you to perform for my birthday." You almost choked up on your own spit after what he said sinked in.

"Aw... I'm deeply sorry but my manager won't allow me-" Is what I'm about to say but my manager barged into the room, sweating adn excused herself saying she has something to say to me.

She went closer and whispered something to me "He's willing to pay hundred of billions Darling! Hundreds of millions!"

What? Is he some type of freak? Why would he pay hundreds of millions just to have some idol like me to dance and sing around for his birthday?

MC, Devildoms brightest star who's hiding something

MC who secretly despised all the creepy people in the fan meets

MC who washed her hand throughly until it scratches every fan meet because of the amount of disgusting people that touched them.

MC who thinks everyone, everything is there to help them get on top of everything

MC who practiced the 'genuine' smile the crowd loves so much.

MC who can cry on command that faked their cry on live stage a they accept their most recent award.

MC Devildoms brightest star

MC who's willing to be in a dating scandal with the avatar of envy if it means it'll raise their popularity and their net worth.

#obey me fluff #obey me headcanons #obey me nightbringer #obey me scenarios #obey me shall we date #obey me #obey me x reader #obey me angst #obey me crack #obey me idol universe #obey me au #obey me leviathan #obey me idol mc #dark obey me

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storywriter007 · 6 months

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(Part 1) I'm Just Like Everyone Else - Dean Winchester x Fem!Reader

summary: in which y/n leaves dean all alone, after making a big mistake

warnings: cursing, implications of sex

genre: angst/heartbreak

word count: 913

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y/n sat on the bed of the motel room, reading through various books and papers. dean sat on the desk of the motel room, reading through different online sites.

on the outside, they appeared calm. but both of them were plagued with sadness. dean's internal hell revolved around the fact sammy was missing. y/n's inner calamity revolved around everytime dean looked at her.

she'd known him for a couple of months now. they'd met when dean saved her ass in a fight with a werewolf, and they'd been together every since. well not that together, just in the same place at the same time together.

to be frank, y/n had hopelessly fallen in love with dean. i mean, can you blame her? they'd spent hundreds of late nights, talking about the things they'd seen and what their significance was. they'd spent thousands of minutes, sitting across from each other, searching for information. they'd spent so many days in that car, singing to every song that played.

yes, she wanted to confess to him. but how? his brother is missing. she can't pop up with an "i'm hopelessly in love with you. please give me a chance." oh god no.

y/n's chain of thought was broken when she realized dean had finished his second bottle of beer within forty minutes.

"why don't you slow down? i don't want to deal with a drunk dean." she laughed.

"i don't want to deal with a dean at all." he said, glumly.

y/n shut her book.

"are you alright?" she asked, concern apparent in her voice.

he looked at her.

"yeah, just thinkin bout' sammy." he nodded.

"we'll find him. we've got to." she assured.

on a couple of these late nights, the two would become vulnerable with one-another. dean would share stories about his father (who y/n hated) and she would share stories about her childhood.

"i wonder what my dad would say right now." he chuckled. "losing my little brother."

"your dad wouldn't say shit. you raised sam more than he did." y/n defended.

"that never stopped him before." he added. "sometimes, i think he's right."

a brief silence arose.

"right that i'm not doing enough." he said.

"well, he's wrong."

"is he? is he really?" dean asked, green eyes meeting y/n's. "because i lost sam. he's sure as hell got a point."

y/n stood up and made her way over to dean.

"no he doesn't. you've done more than enough and you're still doing more than enough." y/n sighed. "you're a good man, dean."

they looked into each other's eyes for a moment. dean placed his arm around y/n and their lips collided.

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a couple of minutes later, y/n was laying half-naked next to dean, and contemplating all of her life decisions. the regret burned her.

why? why did she fall for his trap? it's over for her. she'd given herself to him, there was no point in confessing any love to him. it was over. she'd become one of dean's many hook-ups. a woman from his past.

dean was wearing his jeans with flannel. y/n was wearing the same, but with a bra underneath. he tried to initiate small talk, but it was just awkward. y/n couldn't bring herself to speak, paralyzed by the reality that she had just become one of his flings. nothing more, nothing less. a one night stand. after so many sleepless nights, this is what she had amounted too. another hook-up.

"are you alright?" he asked, but y/n thoughts drowned out his question.

he tapped her shoulder. she suddenly turned and faced him.

"what?"

"i asked if you were alright."

she nodded and grabbed the book she had been reading, and continued reading it.

"you don't seem alright." he said.

"i'm fine." she fake-smiled.

"are you?" he asked.

she shut her book.

"you got me. i'm not." she said.

"why?" he questioned.

"why do you think dean?" she asked softly. "it wasn't supposed to be like this."

"be like what? what is it?" he continued.

"us." she said, desperation evident in her voice. "in case you haven't noticed, i'm insanely in love with you."

the weight on her shoulders was supposed to be lifted, but it wasn't. in fact, it weighed down heavier.

"and i didn't know how to tell you, which is my fault. and i'm so fucking stupid because now, i'm just one of dean winchester's many hook-ups." she confessed. "i'm just like everyone else. i'm no better than any other girl, and i can't even blame them. you're so easy to love."

she looked at him, water forming in the corner of her eyes, but she would not cry.

"that's not true-"

"no, it is. you're not going to think any more of me now that we've slept together. and it's over for me, it's over for us." she said, voice cracking. "i'm so fucking stupid."

y/n got up and began making her way to the door.

"where are you going? y/n-" dean asked.

"i'm sorry dean, i have to go." she confirmed.

she looked at his enchanting eyes one last time.

"i can't be near you knowing i'm of no value to you. i can't be around you knowing that i'm just one of your flings now."

"y/n-"

it was far too late. y/n had shut the door and left.

she was gone. long gone.

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part 2 (happy ending)

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#dean winchester #dean #sam winchester #sam #supernatural #dean winchester x reader #dean x reader #angst #heartbreak #light smut #sad #chevy impala #dean x y/n #dean x you #dean winchester x y/n

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tarotwithavi · 2 years

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Pick a picture : How would they describe you in a song ♬♩♪♩　　

Surprise mf

1 2

3 4

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Short note : I love adding songs to my pac because I believe music is the language of love. I know I said that I would not post for two days but I couldn't hold myself back and also I didn't want to keep you guys waiting ( ͡°з ͡°) so enjoy my lovelies!!!

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Pile 1

Since I've found you

I have lost myself

Even I want to say something

What should I say to you ?

There is no language

Where there are those words

In which I can describe you

If I say that no one is more beautiful

Than you in this universe

Than even this praise is nothing but truth

your grace is drowned in your playfulness

is showing in your face

the thick strands of your hair

are resting in your face with pride

the flowing scarf is like a cloud

it's like moonlight is in your arms

if I say that you're my soul mate

Are you a angel or fairy?

Then even this paise

is nothing but truth.

Since I found you

I have lost myself

My Masterlist

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Pile 2

Goin' out tonight, changes into something red

Her mother doesn't like that kind of dress

Everything she never had she's showin' off

Drivin' too fast, moon is breakin' through her hair

She's headin' for somethin' that she won't forget

Havin' no regrets is all that she really wants

We're only gettin' older, baby

And I've been thinkin' about it lately

Does it ever drive you crazy

Just how fast the night changes?

Everything that you've ever dreamed of

Disappearing when you wake up

But there's nothing to be afraid of

Even when the night changes

It will never change me and you

Chasing it tonight, doubts are runnin' 'round her head

He's waitin', hides behind a cigarette

Heart is beatin' loud and she doesn't want it to stop

Movin' too fast, moon is lightin' up her skin

She's fallin', doesn't even know it yet

Havin' no regrets is all that she really wants

We're only gettin' older, baby

And I've been thinkin' about it lately

Does it ever drive you crazy

Just how fast the night changes?

Everything that you've ever dreamed of

Disappearing when you wake up

But there's nothing to be afraid of

Even when the night changes

It will never change me and you

Goin' out tonight, changes into something red

Her mother doesn't like that kind of dress

Reminds her of the missin' piece of innocence she lost

We're only gettin' older, baby

And I've been thinkin' about it lately

Does it ever drive you crazy

Just how fast the night changes?

Everything that you've ever dreamed of

Disappearing when you wake up

But there's nothing to be afraid of

Even when the night changes

It will never change, baby

It will never change me and you

My Masterlist

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Pile 3

In each life,

in each life please stay with me

Just like this

Promise me to meet me here every time

We have two bodies

but we are from one soul

Always be mine,

Never say goodbye

You are my morning and

You are my evening

You are pain

and you are relief

I have only one wish

Always be mine

Never say goodbye

My both worlds are In your arms

Wherever you reside

my heaven is there

This flame is burning in both sides

I pray this flame will never go out

You are my desire, am your love

You are my poems, am your music

Desire, desire, desire only of you

Keep flowing in my vain like a intoxication

Return the favor of my love like this

Always be mine,

Never say goodbye….

This pile is giving me Twinfalme vibes

My Masterlist

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Pile 4

Look how innocent she is

But she's as cunning as she seems innocent

She talks bitter

Still she is so sweet

Like a rose flavored perfume

Like a bottle of alcohol

She's like a scene of total distribution

Her style is very funky

She is a dramatist

This girl is a big drama queen

She has big eyes and she's like a well of tears

She hits the table as she sings

She Climbs on the chair

She does what her heart desires

Think of this as a cause if intoxication

Or the signs of her craziness

Like a rose scented perfume

Like a bottle of alcohol

With her pair of eyes

She shoots bullets every now and then

Why doesn't she kill me with just one blow

With a Garland of pearls

I chant your name

You're worth a million

Your body is like gold

But you are mean from heart

My Masterlist

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Pile 5

I need a lover to keep me sane

Pull me from hell, bring me back again

Play me the classics

Something romantic

Give him my all when I don't even have it

I always dreamed of a solemn face

Someone who feels like a holiday

But now I'm in pieces

Barely believing

Starting to think that I've lost all feeling

You came out the blue on a rainy night

No lie

I'll tell you how I almost died

While you're bringing me back to life

I just wanna live in this moment forever

'Cause I'm afraid that living couldn't get any better

Started giving up on the word "forever"

Until you gave up heaven, so we could be together

You're my angel

Angel baby, angel

You're my angel, baby

Baby, you're my angel

Angel baby

I fall in love with the little things

Counting the tattoos on your skin

Tell me a secret

And baby, I'll keep it

And maybe we could play house for the weekend

You came out the blue on a rainy night

No lie

I'll tell you how I almost died

While you're bringing me back to life

I just wanna live in this moment forever

'Cause I'm afraid that living couldn't get any better

Started giving up on the word "forever"

Until you gave up heaven, so we could be together

You're my angel

Angel baby, angel

You're my angel, baby

Baby, you're my angel

Angel baby

All the sick and twisted nights that I've been waiting for ya

They were worth it all along, yeah

I just wanna live in this moment forever

'Cause I'm afraid that living couldn't get any better

Started giving up on the word "forever" (on the word "forever")

Until you gave up heaven, so we could be together

You're my angel

Angel baby, angel

You're my angel, baby

Baby, you're my angel

Angel baby

My Masterlist

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Wanna buy a reading from me? Dm me babes <3

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dumbass-tumbler-cryptid · 11 months

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Can you do a one shot from Mama's Boy that the scene where Spider was telling Quaritch about the songcords but in this version he would agree to sing his?

This ask got me incredibly excited! I'm happy to write a one shot for you ❤️. I wrote this as almost an alternate ending to the scene in chapter 15 where Spider is teaching Quaritch about song cords.

I hope you enjoy!

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“What’s this one for,” Quaritch pointed to the last black wooden bead on the chain.

That was the wrong question to ask as the lightheartedness in the room died, Spider growing somber, “that’s the day the sky people came back.” Quaritch nodded in understanding, unsure of how to respond. An awkward beat of silence passed between the two of them making Spider squirm uncomfortably. “Maybe we should just end things here for today.”

“No!” Quaritch said, surprising them both with how desperate he sounded. Quaritch had been loving hearing about his son’s childhood, and seeing his boy open up to him. He didn’t want that to end. “Your supposed to sing this song cord thing right? How ‘bout y’a sing it for me then.”

Spider paled, averting his gaze, seemingly mortified at the suggestion, “I don’t know about that.”

“Oh come on,” Quaritch said gently, attempting to coax the boy out of his shell, “it don’t matter if your a good singer or not. It’s your song.”

“It’s just…really personal.” Spider's voice was small and nervous; it made Quaritch’s heart twist.

He moved closer to his son, leaning down to try and catch his eye. “Your mama used to like to sing.”

“Yeah?” Spider didn’t look up but his interest had been caught.

“Yeah.”

“Was she any good?”

“She could be. When she wanted to” Memories of drunken karaoke floated through his mind, Paz screaming the upbeats songs instead of actually trying to sing them. But then there were moments when it was just the two of them, Miles working, Paz entertaining herself, her record player playing something soulful and passionate in the background. The song would take hold of her, and she’d sing, her voice like an ocean wave, fluid and powerful. “I don’t think she actually knew how to sing. Not in a technical sense. But if she was singin’ the right song for her voice, then yeah she sounded pretty good.”

“What did mama’s voice sound like?” Spider asked tentatively.

Quaritch paused thinking of the best way to describe it. Sexy. A little gravely when she was tired. Deeper than your average woman. “Comforting,” he settled one, “and warm. Like a crackling bonfire at night.” That was stupid, he thought, immediately ashamed of his flowery description, why did I even say that.

Spider didn’t see anything wrong with the description though. A soft smile graced his face as he finally looked up at Quaritch. “Did she ever sing to me?”

“Of course she did.”

“What’d she’d sing?”

Quaritch shrugged, “I don’t know. Whatever popped into her head I guess.” He could see her in his mind's eye, walking around her apartment, gently bouncing the baby swaddled in her arms, the sun streaming in through the windows making her hair shine and skin glow beautifully. She’d sing…

“Like a lonely matador at night

Fighting in the darkness for the light

I won't stop until I hear the call of love

And when I'm alone, you are near to me

You have made a home in my memory

There you will abide for forever

And I will keep you warm in the night…”

I don't know what you do

You make me think that you

Will change my life forever

I'll always want you near

Give up on you, my dear

I will never

You thrill me, you delight me

You please me, you excite me

You're all that

I've been yearning for

I love you, I adore you

I lay my life before you

I only want you more and more

And finally it seems

My lonely days are through

I've been waiting for you…”

“Little hands, little feet

Tiny heart, tiny beat

Oh, thinkin' about the time we spent falling in love

I don't wanna leave you, I don't want him to see you

But oh, when mama cries from daddy's lies

Oh, my, please don't take him away, no, no, no

Ooh, don't take him away….”

Thinking of that last song filled Quaritch with more guilt and longing than he could stand. He forced that thought away, mentally flipping through Paz’s songs, searching for at least one that he could give to his son. “I loved you before I knew you,” Quaritch hummed out almost reverently quiet, “I loved you before I knew how to love. In a second you shattered my world view. Made me feel brand new. And there is nothing I wouldn’t do for you.”

Spider looked stunned, sighing deeply, in utter awe that anyone had ever loved him that much. “Did mama make that up?” He asked, hating how small and choked his voice sounded.

Quaritch mustered a nod, his eyes far away, the wound left by his lover's death feeling picked open and bleeding. Spider sat there speechless. His mama had made up a song for him. She had made the first lines of his song cord.

Tears pricked at his eyes as he slipped his song cord between his fingers, touching each talisman on the woven leather. He paused when he reached the top of the cord, swiping his thumb over where a bead designating his birth should have been. Gripping the phantom bead he began to sing, translating his mother’s words into Na’vi.

Quaritch gave him a bewildered look, surprised at the sudden song. He relaxed as Spider carried on, completely enraptured by his son’s voice. Quaritch could barely understand what was being sung but the feelings were still palpable. There were verses here and there that sounded more upbeat but for the most part the song just sounded sad.

When the song ended a strained silence fell over the pair. “Thank you,” Quaritch said at last, pointedly looking away from his son. Likewise Spider stared into the middle distance only nodding his acknowledgment of the thanks.

“Thank you,” Spider whispered almost too quietly for even Quaritch’s sensitive ears to pick up. Quaritch gave him a few pats on the back that morphed into slow circles as they sat together longing for the woman that had loved them more than anything.

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I hope you enjoyed!

I already had the concept of Spider finding a song his mama had made up just for him and him using it for the beginning of his song cord (and then Quaritch making him a bead but I'll save that for the main fic) I wasn't planning on getting to that until down the line when the story becomes 100% about Paz's pregnancy, Spider's birth and how that affect Miles and Paz's relationship. I am so happy with this one shot though (to the point I almost thought about going in and putting this into chapter 15) I'll probably find a way to incorporate this down the line.

really hope the song I made up wasn't cringe 😅 I spent a lot of my day thinking about it but I'm definitely not a song writer.

here are the other songs that were featured:

Janelle Monáe - BaBopByeYa

ABBA - I've Been Waiting For You (The Mama mia version)

Childish Gambino - Baby Boy

I've got a bit of a Quaritch-Socorro family playlist in my head (Baby boy being the #1 song on that playlist) so if anyone's interested hit me up.

Anyway, thank you so much Anon for the prompt! ❤️

#miles quaritch #miles spider socorro #spider socorro #colonel miles quaritch #avatar fanfiction #paz socorro #avatar the way of water #my fanfic

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rafedaddy01 · 7 months

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I recommend listening to the song so you can get the vibes of this 🤍 (I would link it here but I’m a broke bitch who can’t afford Spotify)

You’re Special- NF

Notes: I am absolutely obsessed with this song and I think it would be a perfect description of rafe x reader

Yeah, you, baby, you

You're something special

Baby, I know

I know what you're thinkin'

Maybe, maybe I'm wasting your time

But I promise, but I promise

I know that I go back and forth

But I won't let you, I won't let you, I won't let you down

Yeah

“You’re special, baby” Rafe whispered in your ear as you straddled his lap, your hands on his bare chest and his gripping your ass through the panties you had on.

He left wet kisses down your neck until you were a hot mess, “Rafe.. please”

He smirked against your skin, “what do you want, baby?” He spoke, his hot breath sending shivers down your back even though the room was quite toasty.

“I need you”

I meant it when I told you I would change

Meant it when I told you I would stay

Sick of talkin' on the phone, babe

Time to pack your car and come to my state

Come to my place, look at my face, oh, yeah

You know I ain't playin'

I'll send you some money, yeah, hop in the car

And get on the road, here we go

Baby, I can't lie

I'm a little bit, I'm a little bit scared right now, girl, girl, yeah

With a swift motion Rafes shirt that you were wearing was off of your body and his sweats pulled down, he never bothered wearing boxers, especially when you were around.

You said you want more

And I can't blame you for

Askin' me what's somethin' you deserve

You're special

Yo-yo-you're special

Oh yeah, you're special

Yo-yo-you're special

Yeah, I knew it, you was my type

We ain't gotta skip to the highlight

You're the highlight, girl, of my life (woo)

Both of us have got a past, but it's alright

All night car rides

Drivin' through the city, yeah, the view's fantastic

It's automatic, could see you smile, gotta have it

She got me thinkin' maybe I'ma have to put a ring on it, girl

I ain't never been a romantic, but I can romance ya'

Get your shoes on, baby, I am not asking

I'm 'bout to take you out to dinner, put the black dress on

Got the room gaspin', how did this happen?

I don't even know

She's the type to sing my words at the show

She's the type to pick me up when I'm low

And remind me she got my back, no matter what

Yeah, I think she hearin' me now

Say what I think, so I'm thinkin' out loud

I need a woman I know I can trust, and I got one

I guess you can say that she down

Callin' my phone, and she told me she proud

She said my name and I like how that sounds, oh, yeah

(I like that)

I like how this sounds

(Baby, I, yeah)

Baby, don't make me lose myself

I need somebody I know I can trust (yeah)

I mean, I'm being honest

I ain't ever met a girl like you (no)

Baby, you can call me

You can call me anytime

You can call me any day, anytime

You know I'ma answer

I won't let you, I won't let you down, yeah

You said you want more

And I can't blame you for

Askin' me for somethin' you deserve (You deserve it)

You're special, yeah

Yo-yo-you're special

I said, girl, I said, you're special

I said, you're special

“I love when you beg” Rafes voice was husky and it was getting you wetter by the second. “Please Rafe, I need you now, baby” you whined as he ran his fingers over your skin that you could feel getting hotter under his touch. He ran his fingers over your lower lips over the cloth.

You whines as your head rested on his shoulder and small breaths and moans escaped when he moved the material to the side and ran one finger up the slick folds. “You deserve to be loved, y/n, and I’m gonna show you just how much I love you” he said as he pushed two fingers in. You bit your lip to the point of bleeding when he pushed out and back in, all the pressure building too fast. “I-I need you now rafey”

He pulled out and tore your panties off before pushing you down on his cock. Both of you groaning at the feeling. “Fuck” he groaned as his forehead rested on your forehead. “Your so special” he kept repeating into your ear in between nibbles on your neck that had you melting into his arms.

@f4ll-for-you @v21sstuff @rafeysworldim19 @baby19sthings @eventualoptimism @drewstarkeysbae @sevenwivesofrafecameron @rxfecameronsslut @findapenny @r1vrsefx

#outer banks #rafe cameron #drew starkey #dark rafe cameron #outerbanks #smut #drewstarkey #drewstarkey smut #rafecameron #fanfic #rafe fluff

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countrymusiclover · 1 year

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12 - Baby Number Three

Part 13

The Texas Tire Family

Tags just ask - @supernaturalgirl30 @bvbwestfall @bubble-blu @patriciaplictisita @liesanddreams

"Urgh...Georgie call an...ambulance...it's the baby I think...something's wrong!" He squeezed my hand grabbing his phone frantically trying to dial 911.

Gripping my stomach I take a few deep breaths feeling pain shooting through my lower back. Georgie was slamming on the gas trying to get the truck through the busy city streets but this wasn’t like Medford. “Come on. Move it dang it!”

“Georgie, yelling at them isn’t going to - oh fix it!” I winced, bending forward baring my teeth together. Somehow this felt exactly like how my last few months of Aurora’s pregnancy was. But this feels like double the pain of that.

“Darlin don’t you worry. I’m gonna get you to the hospital and everything's gonna be fine…uh.” He glanced in my direction moving his left hand to my knee for a second getting an idea that hopefully would work. He started turning the channels on the radio until the song he was looking for came on. “Life's like a road that you travel on. When there's one day here, and the next day gone. Sometimes you bend, sometimes you stand. Sometimes you turn your back to the wind. There's a world outside every darkened door. Where blues won't haunt you anymore. Where the brave are free and lovers soar. Come ride with me to the distant shore…”

“Life is a Highway from Cars…Georgie how is that supposed to help!” I grunted hitting the windseal with my fist wanting the pain in my stomach to go away. The baby kicks we’re getting bigger so that wasn’t making it any better.

He intertwined my freehand with his lefts even though he was left so he was driving with his non-dominant hand. His brown eyes locked onto mine for a brief second then he focused back on the road. “Cause when Rora was like four she loved this song. So I was thinkin’ that this would distract you to think about that.”

“Awe thanks ah!…oh I think it is working.” Shutting my eyes I leaned my head back against the headrest listening to the song praying that the baby was going to be fine.

Coming inside our apartment I was exhausted from work seeing that I had to deal with some rude customers at the restaurant. Dropping my bag at the door I closed it hearing a sneeze from Aurora’s bedroom. Georgie had stayed home to watch her seeing that I would be on maternity leave in a few months anywhere. “Georgie, how’s she doing. Any better?”

“Her fever has went down. But she has been whining all day to watch Cars with ya. I’m gonna go pick up Eve from daycare.” He carried her in his arms coming out of the room handing her to me since I was sitting on the couch.

She hugs her stuffed animal version of Lightning McQueen to her chest while I draped a blanket over us turning the tv on. “Oh I’m sorry my baby. Momma’s here now.”

I whispered seeing her face change to a smile when she started singing the words. And to my surprise it was a hundred percent correct. “We won't hesitate. To break down the garden gate. There's not much time left today, yeah. Life is a highway. I wanna ride it all night long. If you're goin' my way. Well, I wanna drive it all night long.”

“Through all these cities and all these towns. It's in my blood, and it's all around. I love you now like I loved you then. This is the road, and these are the hands. From Mozambique to those Memphis nights. The Khyber Pass to Vancouver's lights. Knock me down and back up again. You're in my blood, I'm not a lonely man.” I started singing alongside. She pretended to drive McQueen up in the air until she had to cough into my shirt, never dropping the smile on her little face.

We had finished the whole movie now watching the movie credits until the song came back on so I pulled my daughter up to her seeing that she was feeling better when I gave her chicken soup. “There's no load I can't hold. A road so rough, this I know. I'll be there when the light comes in. Just tell 'em we're survivors. Life is a highway. I wanna ride it all night long (whoo!). If you're goin' my way. I wanna drive it all night long (all night long)” Unknown to us Georgie had returned with Evelyn who ran over to join in our little dance party in the living room. Georgie took my hand in his holding Aurora’s other hand before the four of us were dancing around the apartment.

Georgie jumped out of the truck rushing inside the hospital waiting room coming outside with a nurse and a wheelchair helping me into it. Death gripping the handles I threw my head back seeing that he was walking right beside us while we found a room. “Georgie…”

“I'm right here, honey.” He squeezed my hand in his unit and we got inside a room where he lifted me bridal style onto the bed. He moved his hand up pushing hair from my eyes once I was laying down.

The doctor came inside the room not really sure of what to tell us since the history of my other pregnancies wasn’t in their system. They were back in our home town and it would take time before they would be sent over. “Mrs. Cooper, I have contacted your local hospital and we are waiting on the history records. But we will check your blood pleasure and everything that we can now.”

“What is that look for….what’s wrong please tell us?” A nurse put a finger reader on my left hand seeing that oxygen was normal along with everything else. But I saw concerns cross her face making me grip my husband’s hand tightly.

She called over her shoulder rushing out into the hallway. “Doctor, we have to tell them now!”

“Mr and Mrs. Copper, I hate to tell you this but the baby is currently in distress. According to the X-ray we did, the umbilical cord is wrapping around the baby, so we are going to have to rush you into surgery for a c-section.” The doctor entered the room again where I covered my mouth thinking I might puke from how bad that sounded.

Georgie lifted his head up trying to process what he just said. “Can you give us a minute alone, really quick. I need to be with her.” The doctor shut the door leaving us alone.

“Georgie, it’s happening just like when we had Rora. I mean what are we going to do... I’m scared.” I whispered wrapping my arms around him where he pulled me in for a short hug.

He broke the embrace resting a hand to my cheek while I was crying at the thought. I didn’t want to lose this baby considering I was so confident that it was a boy. I had also not lost a baby yet. “Hey look at me Y/n. You are going to get through this you hear me. You are the strongest person I know so we are going to have this beautiful baby inside you, I love you,”

“I love you too, Georgie.” I croaked out in tears wrapping my arms around him once more hearing the nurses come back and roll me back into surgery. I had no clue how long it had been by the time I woke up but I squinted my eyes open seeing that I was back in another hospital room. I had an iv in my left hand before I lifted up the blanket noticing that my stomach was no longer big like it was when I came in here.

The door got pushed open where I moaned attempting to sit up seeing Georgie bolt over to my bedside crying happy tears. “Thank god Y/n…I was so worried when they kept you in there longer than I cared for.”

“Oh Georgie…” Wrapping my arms around his neck I winced where I had to lay back down feeling some slight pain in my back and in between my legs. “Georgie, where's the baby. What happened during the surgery?”

He broke the hug sitting in the chair at my bedside making me shiver at his silence. That wasn’t a good sign where I stiffened my back against the pillows. I knew if we lost the baby I would feel so bad. “You can’t see him yet but he made it. I uh - named him while you were still asleep.”

“It’s actually a boy. What’s…his name?” Covering my mouth with my hands I started sobbing happily.

Georgie intertwined my hands with his smiling up at me. “Montana George Cooper.”

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dimandjuicybradfordchen · 3 months

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When you feel it in your body you found somebody who

Makes you change your ways like hanging with your crew

Said you act like you're ready but you don't really know

And everything in your past, you wanna let it go

I've been there, done it, humped around, ha

After all that this is what I found

Nobody wants to be alone

If you're touched by the words in this song

Then maybe

You got it, you got it bad

When you're on the phone

Hang up and you call right back (oh, you)

You got it, you got it bad

If you miss a day without your friend, your whole life's off track

Know you got it bad when you're stuck in the house

You don't wanna have fun

It's all you think about

You got it bad when you're out with someone

But you keep on thinkin' 'bout somebody else

You got it bad

When you say that you love 'em

And you really know

Everything that used to matter, don't matter no more

Like my money, all my cars

(You can have it all back)

Flowers, cards, and candy

(I do it just 'cause I'm-)

Said I'm fortunate to have you, girl

I want you to know

I really adore you

All my people who know what's going on

Look at your mate, help me sing my song

Tell her, "I'm your man, you're my girl

I'm gonna tell it to the whole wide world"

Ladies say, "I'm you gIrl, you're my man

Promise to love you the best I can"

See I've been there, done it, humped around

After all that this is what I found

Every one of ya'll are just like me

It's too bad that you can't see

That you got it bad, hey

You got it, you got it bad

When you're on the phone

Hang up and you call right back

You got it, you got it bad

If you miss a day without your friend, your whole life's off track

Know you got it bad when you're stuck in the house

You don't wanna have fun

It's all you think about (look at yourself)

You got it bad when you're out with someone

But you keep on thinkin' 'bout somebody else

You got it bad

#the rookie #chenford #tim bradford #lucy chen #chenford playlist #usher #Spotify

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zot3-flopped · 5 months

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Do you think Louis regrets or will regret losing Eleanor? She stuck by him through a lot…

Of course. She was the love of his life and he lost her through his own terrible, negligent behaviour. Saturdays addresses this and he has said that it's the song he feels most emotional singing.

I've been wonderin' about what you're up to

Not for the first time, not for the last time

And I've been thinkin' 'bout the things we used to do

Not for the first time, not for the last time

We always used to say

"Saturdays take the pain away"

Nobody stays the same

No matter how much you want it

Some things change

Proof that he never wanted the relationship to end in the first place.

#louis tomlinson #eleanor calder #elounor

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positivelybeastly · 3 months

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REPOST & LIST 6 SONGS THAT INSPIRE YOU TO WRITE YOUR MUSE .

In no particular order . . .

Touch-Tone Telephone, by Lemon Demon.

And like you, I'm a genius before my time Disbelieving, that's the real crime Pretty soon, they'll discover me In the Super-Sargasso Sea I try to call you every day What can I say when the truth comes out? (Of my very own mouth) I've been working on a unified theory If I make it through tonight, everybody's gonna hear me out (now)

Dust and Ashes, by Josh Groban.

Is this how I die? Was there ever any other way my life could be? Is this how I die? Such a slough of feelings inside of me But then why am I screaming? Why am I shaking? Oh god, was there something that I missed? Did I squander my divinity? Was happiness within me the whole time?

Dead Man's Party, by Oingo Boingo.

I got my best suit and my tie Shiny silver dollar on either eye I hear the chauffeur comin' to my door Says there's room for maybe just one more I was struck by lighting, walkin' down the street I was hit by something last night in my sleep It's a dead man's party, who could ask for more Everybody's comin', leave your body at the door Leave your body and soul at the door

Dr. Wanna Do, by Caro Emerald.

I sat down and I waited Til I heard my name get called It's like I'm at races And I think I won them all He asked me to step forward First I caught my breath, and ran For endless observation In the hands of Superman

What This World Is Coming to, by Nate Ruess ft. Beck.

So let's get high in the moonlight Even the stars go right over our head I know I'm gonna shine here in the afterlife Leaving the fight for peace of mind instead You know that I can't stop thinkin' bout you You're the source of everything I do You brought faith to songs I sing, so I went and bought a diamond ring I wanna spend each night here with you

Paper Rings, by Taylor Swift.

In the winter, in the icy outdoor pool When you jumped in first, I went in too I'm with you even if it makes me blue Which takes me back To the color that we painted your brother's wall Honey, without all the exes, fights, and flaws We wouldn't be standing here so tall, so Kiss you once 'cause I know you had a long night (Oh) Kiss you twice 'cause it's gonna be alright Three times 'cause you waited your whole life (One, two, one two three four)

Tagged by: @revenantinflames (Thank you!)

Tagging: anyone who wants to do it!

Honestly, these give me such different energies and correlate to entirely different Hanks and different time periods:

Dust and Ashes has me RIGHT in Morrisonian body angst and depression.

What This World Is Coming To has me in what I'm starting to call the 'animal with no natural habitat' aspect of Hank's feeling of never belonging and need to find solace in others.

Paper Rings is his hopeless romanticism and boundless energy.

Dr. Wanna Do is his sexuality and his confidence.

Dead Man's Party is his eccentricity and moroseness and fascination with the unknown.

And Touch-Tone Telephone is . . . well. All of it, actually.

#outofmuffins #dash game

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justanormalfangirlx2 · 11 months

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Had a thought for continuation of "SING A LITTLE SONG FOR ME" where Wilbur and Reader write sad songs together. I was inspired by Taylor Swift (can't help it, I'm a big fan- anyways) and her song You're Losing Me (from the Vault). Wilbur is really known for his love of apathy, right? Several of his songs talk about feeling apathetic. Anyways, I was particularly inspired by the bridge of the song, How long could we be a sad song 'Til we were too far gone to bring back to life? I gave you all my best me's, my endless empathy And all I did was bleed as I tried to be the bravest soldier Fighting in only your army, frontlines, don't you ignore me I'm the best thing at this party (You're losin' me) And I wouldn't marry me either A pathological people pleaser Who only wanted you to see her And I'm fadin', thinkin' "Do something, babe, say something" (Say something) "Lose something, babe, risk something" (You're losin' me) "Choose something, babe, I got nothing" (I got nothing) "To believe, unless you're choosin' me" This song is the worst thing to happen to fanfic communities world wide. So a few years into Reader and Wilbur's relationship, they start drifting apart and Reader always thought they would get married but Wilbur was against the idea and the "institution of marriage"

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author notes: omg i love taylor swift! i’m such a big swiftie! i hope this makes you guys cry! also comment if you want to be added to a wilbur taglist! :)

SING A LITTLE SONG FOR ME PT. 2

How long could we be a sad song

'Til we were too far gone to bring back to life?

I gave you all my best me's, my endless empathy

And all I did was bleed as I tried to be the bravest soldier

Fighting in only your army, frontlines, don't you ignore me

I'm the best thing at this party (You're losin' me)

And I wouldn't marry me either

A pathological people pleaser

Who only wanted you to see her

And I'm fadin', thinkin' "Do something, babe, say something" (Say something)

"Lose something, babe, risk something" (You're losin' me)

“Choose something, babe, I got nothing" (I got nothing)

“To believe, unless you're choosin' me"

it’s been five years since wilbur and y/n started dating. y/n always believed that they and wilbur would always get married with their friends and family in a church in london, a huge reception filled with love, laughter, joy, and happy tears. however, every time they bring up the topic of marriage, wilbur always pushes them away. as a point, here’s a piece of conversation that happened:

“will, please? what’s wrong with wanting to get married? you promised me that i’d be yours, your wife/husband/partner, yet here we are, almost 6 years into a relationship and you don’t want to commit. am i doing something wrong?”

frowning, will shakes his head. “no no, love, i just don’t want to talk about this now.”

now you frowned and wiped tears from your eyes. “i’ve done everything you asked me too, and more! i’ve sacrificed so much for you to get where you were, my friends are married and already have kids! yet you’re too scared to commit anything. i feel like i don’t even know who you are anymore, wilbur. you hardly speak to me, touch me, i’m the only one making an effort in this relationship because i don’t want to loose you.”

he started walking away. “you know what, then leave! nobody is holding you back anymore! you don’t want to be here, so be it. go!”

you looked at him and frown. “my heart left a while ago. i just haven’t physically left yet.”

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johnsuhsposts · 2 years

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NCT 127 x Songs that suit them cuz why not

some sucky scenarios by me

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a/n: hiii<3. this is my first ever tumblr post. i just wanted to write this because i needed some inspiration to write smut for some of the members and i didn't know where to start like at all. anyways... this isn't for the faint of heart. i just needed to get this outta my system. like i have so many ideas for fanfics and this is how i'll get my motivation to actually write something decent. anywho, there will be more to come in the future!! so enjoy this meal.

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(tags are at the bottom!)

warnings: explicit shit. that's all. xx

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TAEYONG - Over Some Wine - RINI ft. Maeta

Taeyong would play this song while he goes down on you. I'm sorry but it's true. He would do everything slow just so you could get impatient but the more you whine the slower he'd go. Everything from touching you slowly, to him fucking you slow or playing with his thrusts to the beat. It's just... wowowwww.

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JAEHYUN - Touch - Cigarettes After Sex

This song just SCREAMS Jaehyun. The whole vibe would just be a song that would play in the background as he holds you close to his chest and plays with your hair, and he would sing it a little to you, like ugh. He would teasingly kiss your neck under the dim lights of his room while his record player hums in the background, and you'd feel his cold yet wandering hands on your burning skin.

DOYOUNG - Thinkin about You - Frank Ocean

All I gotta say is, he would make out with you to this song. Making out would eventually lead to other things but he'd take his time and when you stop kissing to catch your breath, you guys would giggle at each other which is so cute. Though he'd use songs of a different vibe to fuck you, this would be one of the ones you'd hear while you make out with him.

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JUNGWOO - Messages From The Stars - RAH Band

I'm not sure why I chose this as his song, but it fits him for some reason. Jungwoo, as innocent as he looks, is lowkey freaky as hell; say I'm lying. He'd literally have you seeing stars while he's fingering you to this song and laugh when you moan because he knows he's got you wrapped around his finger. Like, this man is a sadistic masochist and doesn't even try to hide his freaky side when he's with you.

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HYUCK - Savita (feat. Swae Lee)

Donghyuck is literally a drama queen. But he's also so hot. Like smokin' hot. He would have this song playing while giving you backshots most def. He groans everytime you clench around him and it just makes him fall in love all over again with you. He would continue to fuck you so good that it'd have your legs shaking. He'd have no shame in breeding you either. Seeing you full of his cum was mind-blowing. It made him so hard to see his cum leaking out of you. He literally loved it.

TAEIL - Call Out My Name - The Weeknd

Taeil loves having these types of songs playing whenever you come to spend time with him at his house. He loves it when you say his name, letting him know that you're enjoying yourself. You two would make out passionately on his couch while a movie plays in the background on low volume; eventually leading to steamy, hot sex that you'd never forget. After Taeil rocks your shit and nearly breaks the bed from you two's rough sex, you'd most likely be encouraged to visit him more often.

YUTA - Rosemary - Deftones

Yuta loves the sound of guitars playing in the background mixing in with your heavenly moans. Half of his playlist would consist of rock music while he rearranges your guts and listens to your sweet sounds, spurring him on further. He enjoys just spending time with you period, and he'd do anything to have you go dumb on his cock with his favorite song playing.

MARK - Change Your Life (feat. Jhené Aiko)

Mark is the type to take everything slow. He loves having Kehlani playing from his phone as he's leaving hickeys all over your body and watching you shudder under his fingertips. He gets so hard everytime you whisper to him to fuck the absolute shit out of you. He just likes spending his time with you and doesn't regret any second of it. He would never get used to this.

JOHNNY - Daddy Issues - The Neighborhood

Johnny is the whole fucking definition of this song. While fucking the shit out of you with this playing in the background, he'd most definitely become an actual dad- minus the issues. He just loves the way you feel around him, and he'd cum so much just from being inside you, it's just shocking. Johnny would be the best daddy to your babies.

Thank you so much for reading! Please leave a like if you enjoyed. More will be published in the future.

(Original work. Please DO NOT copy.)

(Not my original idea but the scenarios do belong to me.)

(feel free to reblog if you'd like!)

#nct 127 #nct smut #jaehyun #johnny suh #mark lee #haechan #doyoung #jungwoo scenarios #yuta smut #taeyong #moon taeil #smut #Spotify

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thefirstcourtesan · 4 months

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My Favourite “Break Your Heart” Songs

I replied to a post of @jerzwriter ‘s about love songs and admitted that while I know a few, my writing taste leans towards songs about bittersweet or lost love. So I decided to make a list of my favorites. I’m sorry in advance.

1. I Would Have Loved You Anyway by Trisha Yearwood. This has been number one in my writing playlist for almost two decades now much to my husband’s chagrin. I think he could happily never heart it again 😂 but to me there is no better bittersweet song about love gone wrong. “… If I'da known the way that this would end/ If I'da read the last page first/ If I'da had the strength to walk away/ If I'da known how this would hurt/ … I would've loved you anyway”. There is just something so powerful about that. Not every love story lasts forever, but that doesn’t mean it wasn’t worth it.

2. Dynasty by Miia. This song is my unofficial theme song for “Portia: A Roman Tragedy”. The idea of we could have had it all but then we didn’t. “Thought we built a dynasty that heaven couldn't shake/ Thought we built a dynasty like nothing ever made/ Thought we built a dynasty forever couldn't break up”. The first time I heard the song (in a fan video), I went “ohh, that’s the tragedyverse”, it just sums it all up for me.

3. What Might Have Been by Little Texas. I have always been haunted by the possibilities of “what might have been” and this song just sums it up in such a beautiful way. “We could sit and talk about this all night long/ And wonder why we didn't last/ Yes, they might be the best days we will ever know/ But we'll have to leave them in the past./ I try not to think about what might have been/ Cause that was then and we have taken diff'rent roads/ we can't go back again there's no use giving in/ And there's no way to know/ What might have been”. You can’t go back, you can’t ever know what could have been.

4. Silver Springs by Fleetwood Mac. Of course this song is on the list. The lyrics, the haunted way she sings, the video of her signing it in 1997. This song is heartbreak perfection. “Time cast a spell on you, but you won't forget me/ I know I could have loved you/ But you would not let me”.

5. Wildest Dreams by Taylor Swift. This is just a beautiful song (and a great video). “Nothing lasts forever/ But this is getting good now/ He's so tall and handsome as hell/ He's so bad, but he does it so well/ And when we've had our very last kiss/ My last request is/ Say you'll remember me/ Standing in a nice dress/ Staring at the sunset, babe/ Red lips and rosy cheeks”.

6. Strawberry Wine by Deana Carter. I have loved this song since I was a teenager (and the “when 30 was old” line hits particularly hard at 40) and as I have grown the song’s impact on me has changed and now I really appreciate the bittersweet look back on first love and how that kind of love only comes along once. “There's nothing time hasn't touched/ Is it really him or the loss of my innocence?/ I've been missing so much”

7. Already Gone by Sleeping At Last (it is a Kelly Clarkson song, but the version I love is a cover). “Started with a perfect kiss/ Then we could feel the poison set in/ Perfect couldn't keep this love alive/ You know that I love you so/ Ilove you enough to let you go” but also “Remember all the things we wanted/ Now all our memories, they're haunted/ We were always meant to say goodbye”. This song just hits so hard and sums up the idea that some things are always meant to end (are you sensing a theme 😂?)

8. Didn’t We Almost Have It All by Whitney Houston. Another one that I have played over and over until my husband never wants to hear it again. “Didn't we almost have it all/ When love was all we had worth giving?/ The ride with you was worth the fall my friend/ Loving you makes life worth living”.

9. Don’t Speak by No Doubt. Another one that goes back to teenage Misha. I think this one got me a few break-ups once upon a time. “Don't speak/ I know what you're thinkin'/ I don't need your reasons/ Don't tell me 'cause it hurts”.

10. Beautifully Unfiniished by Ella Henderson. “But maybe all that we are meant to be/ Is beautifully unfinished/ And I hate you, and I love you/ And I wish you'd go away/ And I hate you, and I love you/ And I wish that you would stay”. I love the pain of this song, the love and the hate, the idea that something is ending when you don’t want it to but you know it has too.

Narrowing it down to 10 was hard and there are lots of other regular songs on my writing playlist, but these are my favorites (although honourable mention to “Last Kiss” by Pearl Jam). If you feel like writing some angst, I highly recommend putting on some of these songs. I definitely have a “type” when it comes to my favorite music, there is something about the end of a love story and looking back that really hits hard for me.

#music recommendation #sad love songs #misha writes #writing music

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ivoncu · 1 year

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SORRY IF TBIS AENDS TWICE LMAO ANYWAY I WAS THE ANON THAT SEND THE QUESTION ABOUT THE REQUEST UHH HERE IT IS (FEEL FREE TO WRITE IT WITH SOMEONE ELSE IF U WANNA AUAUAU)

so rei with a friend (they have a crush on rei but hasnt confessed yet) thats an idol too !!! cool, right??? readers group is finishing a concert, ending with a song where reader is the main vocals (which is pretty rare for em,, i was thinkin something like this) and the day after the concert reader goes missing, and the rest of their group is oddly quiet about it,, and then rei accidentally stumbles upon them like a month later?? reader ends up confessing they cut off contact with everyone except their group and hasnt left their house because they were getting stressed,, and end up confessing that they like rei,,,

FEEL BETTER S. REI

〝 ☆ 𓈒 SYPNOSIS 𝄒 sometimes you feel like giving up on your dreams and die

〝 𓈒 CONTENT WARNING 𝄒 descriptive implications of reader being depressed, self loathing, if theres anything else i missed please let me know!!

(n.) — note hihi its been a while since i posted anything huh.. this fanfic is fucking long and unproofread so ignore if i did grammatical mistakrs or someyhibg... i am sorry for making you wait for a whole month for something likr this cesarsbeloved merry christmas 🤗

Everything starts and ended in a flash—you are starting to wonder whether any of these are real in the first place.

You used to like being on stage like this; singing your hearts out with your unitmates, trying to capture as many peoples attention as possible.

But these past few days, you feel nothing but dread whenever you're on stage. Is it burnout or are you really not that into being an idol anymore? You didn't know either.

And shouldn't you do your best since that Rei Sakuma had actually agreed to hold this concert with you—the esteemed UNDEAD with a unit such as yours. What an unlikely joint of events.

Well, it's all coming to an end anyways. You've decided to give everybody something they haven't seen before in a while, but would they like it?

You're sure that your other unitmate could hold this off better than you—hell, their voice is better than yours anyways. Why did they even agree to let you do this?

There isn't any room for regret now, the show's coming to a close. With a heavy heart, you sang. Your skips a thousand beats a minute; there was nobody to cover up your mistakes, nobody to help you. Even if they could, it'll be too late and you'd already embarrass yourself in front of the huge crowds.

Well at least UNDEAD isn't currently on stage to see you fail first hand, you suppose.

This is just terrible, this is why you don't like being the main vocal.

Your song surprisingly went right, nothing terrible happens but there's still something that looms behind you—some sort of sense of shame?

The moment you walked off stage, you instantly ran towards the bathroom.

The tap water sinking into the drainer was nothing but another white noise to you. All of your thoughts and emotions are whirling inside of you—it all felt so overwhelming to the point where you're sure you can break the edge of the sink that seemed like you're holding onto dear life to.

You wouldn't say you're insecure about how you look, but you'd be lying if you said it's not hard trying to look at yourself in the mirror right now.

Sometimes you simply wish you could look like someone else; someone prettier and more talented than what you are right now it's going to drive you to the edge.

Oh, and how you wish you could punch the mirror right now.

This isn't right, you should remain your composure. You've worked so hard for this, have you not?

But do you truly deserve it?

You shook your head, trying to regain your composure once again. It's terrible that you just ran off like that—they're all probably worried about you.

Your lips formed a thin line as you looked at yourself in the mirror dead in the eye. You only scoffed before closing the tap, preventing anymore water waste. You felt like you should apologize to whoever was paying this place's water bill for wasting water.

But nonetheless, you remained your composure. Your thoughts are all repressed to the back of your head; at least for now.

You unlocked the bathroom door, and opened the door. You didn't expect to see anything the moment you open the door, but to your surprise none other than Rei Sakuma himself was standing afoot, his hands behind his back as he did nothing but smiled.

"Ah... Sakuma-san...?" You stuttered, suddenly gripping onto the doorknob for dear life. "D-did I made you wait for too long...? Aha, sorry if I did." You sheepishly apologized, closing the door behind you.

"Ah, no. I was simply waiting for you to come out."

"So.. Like... You wanted to go to the bathroom?"

"Fufu, as I had previously stated; no. I was concern over your wellbeing, thus followed you here." He chuckled.

It's really... Surprising, indeed. Why would the Rei Sakuma be so worried over your wellbeing? And what did he even expect you to do in there?

"Thank you, Sakuma-san." You thanked, unsure on what to do other than that.

"There's no need for formalities; we're friends, aren't we? You can just call me Rei-kun ♪"

"Rei... Kun, huh?" You muttered out the name. You couldn't help but smile at his words, even you could feel your cheeks heating up.

"[Name], shall we go back to the others now?" He asks, his smile never falters even slightly as he nudges his head to the direction the others are, you suppose.

If you weren't blushing before, you are absolutely blushing right now.

"... Sure." You replied. You still wanted to keep your composure, you didn't want to seem weird over such simple friendly gesture.

But that was so embarrassing...?? Why'd he call your name like that??

"Well, Sakuma—urm, Rei-kun. Was there another reason for you to do this?" You ask, walking alongside him as you passed by workers who were doing their job to finish cleaning up for the day.

"You're sharp, indeed." He smiled, turning his head to you, "I did notice something rather unusual about your performance just now—by no means I am trying to say it's terrible; I am simply rather curious. About you, specifically." He continues his monologue before his gaze falls upon you once again.

"You weren't acting like yourself, were you?" He asked, his tone sounded nonchalant over such question—too casual, is that the word?

His question is also ridiculous. You don't know what he means. No idols by all means truly act like themselves on stage, do they? It's just ridiculous.

"Fanservice, sultry clothes to keep the fans hooked—shouldn't you understand it, Rei-kun? You're an idol; an esteemed one, that is." You sighed, shaking your head. "I am sure even you don't want to reveal all part of yourself to the public, so isn't it... Quite a hypocritical question to ask?"

"It isn't about fanservice and whatnot, it's about how you acted so indifferently than the others; you looked sad, [Name]."

"... Please don't try to poke your nose into something you aren't apart of." Your tone was something of an angry whisper more than anything. You gritted your teeth, your hands curled into balls as you look away from him.

"Of course I wil not, that is something I am not qualified to do, but do well remember that we all love and care for you." Suddenly, his hands were on top of your shoulders.

His grip on your shoulders were firm—so warm for a self proclaimed vampire. His smile was so gentle too.

"I will not force you to tell me about your problems, but if you ever need someone to talk to please remember that I'm always available." With that, his hands left your shoulders, and thus he turned his back on you, leaving you there.

He stopped on his tracks and glanced back at you, he suavely smiled at you with a wave before he walks once again. "Don't be too late, alright? Your unitmates must be worried sick about you."

Perhaps you should've listened to his advices, but are you going to? No.

It's been... Months? Since you last saw Rei, you hadn't even went outside for a while. You feel so dirty for not doing so, the only source of light in your room was from the computer screen.

Your whole place is a mess, but you felt no motivation to clean up; no motivation to do anything anymore, not even to eat.

Your phone was left with thousands of unread messages from your immediate family, all voicing their concern about your sudden disappearance, but you knew they all had ulterior motive and didn't bother—you just can't bother anymore.

Your friends had been understanding of your situation, but you had allowed none to go inside your apartment—either way, it's pretty disgusting.

You soon lean back onto your chair, feeling nothing but eternal dread. How did you end up like this...? You used to be so bright and cheerful. How did you turn into a loser who hasn't seen the sun in weeks?

You want to change, you want... To go outside for a change. You haven't hanged out with your friends in a while, you want to hang out with them again, you wanna laugh with them again.

But do you even have the motivation to even put a deodorant on? You must smell pretty disgusting for not showering in a while. Ah, you'll just force yourself to.

You didn't really think too much about what to wear. You simply put on whatever clothes that was the closest to you. A hoodie and a tracksuit, it's fine. It's starting to get chilly outside anyways.

You grabbed your phone and other essentials before going to unlock the door. You stare back at your apartment, sighing through your nose at the ugly sight. Alas, you left.

The leaves are starting to fall down, the atmosphere is starting to get colder—the winter days are near. Ah, just what happened to fall?

You felt terrible; you've made so many plans with your friends this fall but only to end up standing them up like this. But surely they understand, right?

And how is Rei doing today? Does he miss you?

... Why would you even want to know. Him missing you or not is the least of your concern. You should be trying to fix your life that's in shambles right now, not think of that bastard.

Your attention focused on the cobblestone path, silently passing by different people with different lives—ah, how you envy them. They are all probably living a normal, comfortable life with their loved ones.

A normal life without needing to overthink about the simplest mistakes you make and even if they did, they'd come back home with someone to comfort them. How envious you are of them, really.

You shook your head, trying to shake those loathing thoughts away. Ah, must you really think of that right now? Just focus on... Trying to interact with another human being or something.

You continued afoot; to where? Not that you have a peculiar place in mind to go, but the park is always the prettiest in times like these. Maybe you should go there.

And thus you followed with your idea. The moment you were in the park, you covered your your lower face with your scarf. There was so many people here, it'd be a terrible thing if someone were to find out you're here.

You doubt everybody thinks you're dead, but still. Being caught in a park like this would be embarrassing.

From where you were standing, you could already see the lake frozen up as the atmosphere grows colder around you—the snows are piling up at the side of the pathways, much enough for children to already start playing with it.

The laugher goes through your ear and left the other as you further walked near the railing of the lake.

Christmas is near... You wish you could spend it with your friends and family this year, but you don't think you can after going on a sudden unplanned hiatus like this.

A rather melancholic feelings arisen within you. Ah, this is just terrible. You grip on the railing tighter, trying not to let a single tear fall.

From the corner of your eyes, a man came a close, leaning on the railing also besides you. The distance between you two is big, but it still felt awkward nonetheless.

"Christmas... It's the most wonderful time of the year, don't you think so?" The man asks. You would've just nodded or replied with a short yes like any other person would, but his voice. He isn't just some random guy—his voice was rather familiar.

You look over to your side to see the Rei Sakuma standing right beside you.

Wait, how did he know you're here? Or does he genuinely think you're a random person? Wait, what are you even supposed to do now?

Should you show your identity to him? Should you just pretend to not know him? What should you do?

"I-I guess." You coughed, pulling on your scarf farther onto your face as you glance away from the man.

He would be lying if he said he didn't knew it was you, but you don't seem to be too ready to disclose everything from the looks of it, so he'll just pretend; he'll simply pretend that you both are nothing but strangers by lucky circumstances.

"The snow... Does it remind you of anything, may I ask?" His question was a weird one. Well, it's Rei Sakuma... He is known to be an eccentric, so you suppose his questions are oughtta be eccentric too.

"... Well, I suppose it takes me back to when I was a dumb kid, playing the snow with my friends." You responded, smiling fondly at the memory. "My friend accidentally hit me with a snow so hard I accidentally fell and slipped down and hurt my head. Funny story."

"Fufu, that is a wonderful story. It brings back many nostalgic memories of me and my little brother in the past."

"I suppose." You replied once again.

Soon silence followed. The lack of conversation made the situation awkward, for you at least. There was white noise of children laughing and people talking, but it doesn't matter.

"I have a question for you, if you don't mind answering it." He suddenly spoke, his gaze didn't stray away from the distant buildings and his smile stays the same.

"Ah...? Go on?"

"Whenever you think of Christmas, does anyone come to mind? Christmas is a wonderful time of the year; even you have someone who you cherish deeply, no?"

You stayed silent. To him, his silence says it all.

"Ah, my apologies. A rather rude question to ask someone whom you've just met, huh?" He tried to damage control everything. "I apologize again, stranger. You must have somewhere else to go."

He pushed himself away from the railing, and soon turned his back on you. It reminds you all like that moment you shared with him on your last show.

"Until we meet again, kind stranger." He turned his head back to you for one last time.

Before he could leave, you instantly grab ahold of his biceps. His smile never falters yet you can see the confused look on his face.

"Sakuma Rei-kun. Please don't leave yet." You brought your scarf down, flashing him your face for a few moment.

"Ah, [Name]-chan. It's been a long time, hasn't it?" He asks, flashing you a closed eye smile as if he did not just try to pretend that you both are nothing but strangers.

"How did you know I was here?" Was your first question to him before you let go of his arm.

"I did not. It was simply a coincidence." His response deadpanned you mentally. "Perhaps even God has decided we'd be more a fit to be together and brought us in the same path once again...?" He chuckled at his own unfunny joke.

Your heart skipped a beat at his statement. Well, that was simply just a joke. He likes to tease around, yeah. It's a joke, don't get your hopes too high...

"I'm sorry for disappearing. I... Should've told you sooner that I'd be on hiatus, huh? Well, sorry. I'm a bad friend; if you even think of me as one..."

"No, don't fret over it, [Name]. I was concern about your sudden disappearance, but I'm sure you have your own reasons—whatever it is, I truly do hope that it's settled."

"I have been so lonely without you, you know? Without my best friend beside me, just who will I tease otherwise?"

"You are not funny, Rei-kun." You replied.

"Fufu, alright, alright. I'm sorry." He apologized, yet the chuckle he lets out says otherwise.

"But it has truly been a while, [Name]. I'd like to know more about everything that happened during your disappearance. Shall we grab a cup of hot tea?"

"Nothing happened. I was just fighting my own demons during my hiatus, I guess."

"Oh? Are you saying you summoned a demon during your break?" He asks, looking genuinely confused at your statement.

"It's... A slang." You muttered out.

"Ah, I see. What a weird slang, fufu. Perhaps I'll ask the children about it later." He chuckles, leaving you dumbfounded yourself.

You couldn't help but chuckle at his own words. Seriously, this guy such an eccentric.

An "I love you..." suddenly rolled down your tongue before you could even realize it.

Silence soon followed once again. You weren't sure whether you said that loudly or not, but the look on his face says the former.

"You... Love me?" He asks, bringing his hand to his chin as his cheeks were tainted with pink hues.

"Uhm, no... I didn't say—uhm, you're dreaming. Nothing about this is real." You stammered out, trying to hide the fact that you're far more than embarrassed that you accidentally confessed to him.

"Fufu, there's no need to be embarrassed about it, in fact; I do love you too."

Those words that rolled down his tongue, it was... Too surreal, you suppose? No way the Rei Sakuma from the unit UNDEAD would like—no, love you back, right?

What a strange turn of events.

#ensemble stars x reader #enstars x reader #rei sakuma x reader

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Grapejuice

Harry loves a double meaning, which he does particularly well in Grapejuice. It includes a nice call back to Perfect and touches reflecting about someone he needs in his life but it’s complicated.

Harry put a bowl of peaches and a carnation in the lyric video. A reference to Maroon’s “Carnations you thought were roses, that’s us”

Zane Lowe (38:30) suggested the song is about dependency in alcohol and Harry spoke about Fine Line rather than Grapejuice, Zane tried a few times to bring dependency and the song up. The Harry reflected on peers who went through the peak of fame alone without the band (49). If the human race can be saved by avoiding a topic Harry Styles is our man.

Harry also didn’t play Grapejuice for a year after the first 2 album release shows. Then on 13 May 2023, he added it to the setlist in Horsens and played it to the end of the tour.

Lyrics

Yesterday, it finally came, a sunny afternoon I was on my way to buy some flowers for you (ooh) Thought that we could hide away in a corner of the heath There's never been someone who's so perfect for me

The first verse refers to Perfect's "And I might never be the one who brings you flowers" and the song title. While in Perfect it was not a romantic love, they were perfect to hang out Grapejuice is more mature in intent in this first verse, seeing the person is perfect for him and wanting to spend time with just them in his local area, Hampstead Heath.

But I got over it and I said "Give me somethin' old and red" I pay for it more than I did back then

However, true to the One Direction song, he doesn't buy his muse flowers, he asked for an old (flame), Taylor referring to her album Red which is in part about him. This is a double meaning, he does mean a bottle of aged red wine, and his ex who's album is Red.

There's just no gettin' through Without you A bottle of rouge Just me and you

But there is no one else for him, in MMITH: "'Cause once you go without it / Nothing else will do" and As it Was: "In this world, it's just us" 20 times it was only each other.

Likening his muse to a bottle of wine is also intentional, they have likened their relationship to a substance dependancy before in Clean " Ten months sober, I must admit / Just because you're clean, don't mean you don't miss it", MMIH “gotta get better / give me some morphine.” and DBATC "I get drunk, but it's not enough"

'Cause the morning comes and you're not my baby

Harry said to Rolling Stone about Taylor:

"I like tipping a hat to the time together. You’re celebrating the fact it was powerful and made you feel something, rather than ‘this didn’t work out, and that’s bad.’ And if you run into that person, maybe it’s awkward, maybe you have to get drunk … but you shared something."

Sittin' in the garden, I'm a couple glasses in I was tryna count up all the places we've been You're always there, so don't overthink I'm so over whites and pinks

Harry has expressed similar sentiments of enjoying Taylor as a person in his life, in a parallel in Little Freak: "I was thinkin' about who you are Your delicate point of view,"

Harry is thinking about his muse, and says they travel to many places together. To me the line "You're always there, so don't overthink" is an acknowledgement that the muse is always in his heart, to not overthink and become jealous. Because he continues to say he's so over people that are not Taylor.

Being so over whites and pinks are sweeter, less stong wines than Reds, it's way to say no one else will do, he is over dating people who are not his muse.

I pay for it more than I did back then

Paying more for it now than back then is also a double meaning, the wine has increased in price and emotionally it costs more to spend time with this person. Harry and Taylor sing a lot about paying for being together.

There's just no gettin' through Without you A bottle of rouge Just me and you 1982 Just me and you There's just no gettin' through The grape juice blues

Harry wants nothing more than to share a bottle of wine his muse. The grape juice blues are feeling depressed, he wants to be with his muse, it is fraught and the drink because they are awkward.

1982 adds up to 20. Red Wine is in many of their songs:

Olivia: "This isn't the stain of a red wine, I'm bleeding love"

Little Freak: "Red wine and a ginger ale / But you would make fun of me for sure"

Maroon: "The burgundy on my T-shirt when you splashed your wine into me" and "Your roommate's cheap-ass screw-top , that's how"

Clean: "You're still all over me like a wine-stained dress I can't wear anymore"

The 1: "Rosé flowing with your chosen family"

One

Harry starts the song with 1, 2, 3 and ends on 1 (I.e let’s start again) Taylor also counts 1, 2, 3 after “you didn’t a number on me but honestly baby who’s counting” in So it goes.

#haylor #harry styles #grape juice #harry’s house

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