You never saw me. I was just the one girl that was always there for you. But in good times you were gone.
“Just once in a while I break again. Everything comes crashing back and I collapse. I keep crying, I can’t make it stop. And in these moments I just wish we never met.”
Today is a weird day, but we are allowed to have those. The past ones had been very productive. I moved to the kitchen and it really helped. Hope you are all safe.
*tempted to watch Hocus Pocus because the world is crazy right now, and the Witches may be what I need to smile*
I’m sad because I have to break up with you.
Theres a lot going on in my mind rn. The man I love is at the other side of the country, hes also not in love with me. I have to go abroad soon but my mental health has plummeted. My belief in myself both intellectually and physically has never been lower. I cant see a way out. Will it get better?
Breathe in and breathe out.
Don’t worry i was fine.
man lernt jemanden kennen, alles ist schön. man redet stunden lang. telefoniert tag und nacht. erzählt sich sachen aus seinem leben, lacht gemeinsam, schläft nebeneinander ein. teilt intimste momente miteinander.
dann passiert etwas. man hat gar nichts getan, gar nichts damit zu tun. und schon entfernt sich der mensch, der dir eben noch so nah war, so schnell aus deinem leben und du kannst gar nichts dagegen machen. nur zu sehen. du spürst den schmerz. du spürst es immer, wenn sich menschen anfangen von einem zu entfernen.
nun stellst du dir wieder die frage, ob es an dir liegt.
du hast keine Antwort. noch bekommst du sie.
so wie immer.
dang this quarantine has made me realize how much i need school to function
This is the only placr I can talk about this openly.
I am super unhappy with my relationship, my mental state, my way of life and I just want to leave it behind for a short while and live but if I do, my bf said we wouldn’t be able to return back to our lives. I just want to feel free and I always feel trapped.
If anyone has any advice let me know.