#idk how to explain myself

[mintypsii]

DO. U GUYS SEE THE VISION

#idk how to explain myself #guys im actually rly normal did u know #new colourspread is SO SO PRETTYYYYYY #op #one piece #min watches one piece #sanuso #usosan #zosopp #zouso #sanji #zoro #usopp #nico robin #roronoa zoro #black leg sanji

[lottiecrabie]

i said i would set this blog on fireeee fr

TDAB BLURB. maybe alana is pissing him off and he ties her up? like in part one she left him tied up in his bed, i feel like he would still have that in the back of his brain even though he already got revenge. and this time she finally breaks him enough for him to just snap … ✋🏻

(if tdab has 1 fan. it’s me.)

anything for sweet molly

alana knows she was asking for it; teasing him and riling him up and hitting on one of his mates. played her cards just right to see that furious dash between his eyebrows, reveled for a short while in her hold on him. if only that, at least she knew how to grip his heart with anger and lust like no one else.

now she lays naked on his bed, tied to the bedframe with his belt, staring at him as he sits on a chair and strokes himself.

it’s a beautiful sight. hard cock leaking, hips jumping into his fist after a good stroke, low pants and groans spilling from his lips. matty watches her shamelessly, devouring every inch of her uncovered skin. touching himself to her.

‘arch your back, darling,’ matty bites. the tone draws shivers down her spine. ‘want to see your tits.’

there’s always that incessant instinct to disobey, to bite and claw and cut until she wins. the instinct he has to tame out of her, get her putty and needy enough she accepts to soothe, to please.

she doesn’t arch her back. she’d have cut off her tits if it meant he wouldn’t get what he wants.

matty tsks. ‘you don’t want to try me. i’m in a mood.’ his thumb swipes over his tip. alana moans in his place.

‘imagine actually being the one tied up.’

‘i can quite well.’ she flushes. well, maybe she’s in no position to pout. ‘come touch them,’ alana says, changing tactics.

matty shakes his head. ‘this isn’t about you. you’re just the show.’ she groans, sick desire pooling in her stomach and dripping out of her. she likes the way he looks, like she’s just there for this pleasure. the way he jerks himself, quicker, faster.

alana kicks her legs, trying to get some friction. he huffs, standing up, pressing into her hip. ‘you never listen, do you?’

‘no.’

‘fine,’ matty whispers, and worry digs in her guts. she tilts her head up, watching as he opens a known drawer and digs out her favorite vibrator. she moans, parting her legs.

matty lights it up at the highest setting, placing it on her sensitive clit. she jumps, moaning at the vibrating sensation. pleasure prickles her toes.

‘there, baby,’ he whispers. ‘you win.’ he says it condescendingly, like speaking to a child, like humoring her. she doesn’t like the sound of it, only because it strikes in her most shameful desires.

matty sits back and watches as she gets closer and closer to the edge, and then comes. and comes. and comes.

she’s starting to lose count, starting to regret that trouble mouth of hers. pleasure mixes with pain, overwhelming her. she’s crying, she thinks, or maybe just sweating. every body part shakes. his name is the only thing she knows.

matty is still lazily stroking himself, trying not to come by maintaining a slow, gentle pace. he takes in every tremor, every scream, every tear. his eyes shine with amusement. with desire.

she senses that the words want to bubble out of her. she hates that he doesn’t even ask, that he lets her do the first move.

‘matty,’ alana says, and it’s out like a moan. ‘please. i can’t— it’s too much.’

he pouts. ‘but you wanted to be touched. you wanted to come.’ she whines, closing her eyes as a new orgasm builds inside of her. ‘was all bratty about it. are you regretting it?’

‘yes,’ she screams before she even thinks. ‘you were right. i’m sorry.’

matty hums, standing up. she stares at his hard leaking cock, licking her lips. ‘well, you are being very good for me now.’ alana nods furiously. his hand wraps around the vibrator. ‘though, just to be sure, right?’

he slips the toy inside of her. alana’s back arches from the bed, a yell shaking out of her. he pumps it inside of her lazily, finding the spot, and then she’s coming for him again.

she only manages to catch her breath because he slides it out of her immediately. ‘lesson learned, darling?’

‘i’m sorry,’ she cries. ‘i’ll be good.’

‘yes, you will,’ he coos. matty shuts the vibrator entirely and a sigh of relief leaves alana. it’s shortlived; he brushes the wet toy against her lips. she opens without thinking, dutiful, and he slips it inside her mouth. ‘can’t be naughty if you can’t talk.’

alana drools out a response. he grins, then slides his cock inside of her.

she screams around the toy. licks at plastic, moaning his name and swears, though it all catches in her throat. matty fucks her furiously. he’s teased himself enough.

it takes no time before she’s coming, head rolling back. black fills alana’s vision. she tugs at her restraints, leather biting skin.

matty is soon behind. he thrusts out in time, kneeling above her chest and pulling the toy out just to come in her open mouth. it lands on her tongue and she stays there, waiting for him to be satisfied.

‘swallow.’ alana does.

matty kisses her wrists when he unties her. the red marks linger until the next day when she slips out without a word.

#idk how to explain myself #to dust and bones #smut #blurb #ask #matty healy smut

[kyojurismo]

she looks ethereal

#🍡 — rambling !! #one of my fav toga’s panel fr #idk how to explain myself #himiko toga #my hero academia

[aradia-queen-of-the-sheep]

#idk how to explain myself #i don't remember making this three years ago but apparently i did #actually you know what it's probably my response to the “microwave orange for forty minutes” post

[hellisheir]

michael never had parents, he was just born into existence, however due to the lack of parental guidance in his life, he sometimes latches onto older people if he starts viewing them as parental figures. especially maternal figures.

#ooc. #headcanon;; #and like not in a super clingy way..but he will be nicer. lmao #idk how to explain myself #asjdfgdfhk

[eat-rock]

“nobody understands me” but not in the “edgy suffering from teenager syndrome mad at mom” kind of way, but the “lonely isolating young adult realization that the specific combination of mental illnesses and past experiences i’ve had have resulted in a pattern of behaviors that are often misinterpreted and misconstrued by others” type of way

#maybe it’s the mental illness but boy howdy do i feel like an outsider #as a teenager it’s usually the feeling that everybody else is a stick in the mud and stupider than you kind of stuff #now i’m feeling like everybody else is a real person while i’m only partially a person #like there’s so much of myself missing and i can’t seem to relate with anybody else #it’s lonely feeling like nobody would understand how my brain works even if i tried to explain it to them #idk how to tag this but i hope anybody else can relate #actually neurodivergent #actually neurodiverse #adhd #actually adhd #ocd #mental illness #mentally ill #neurodivergent #👁‍🗨 #🌀

[thepunkmuppet]

the reason why transfem elias is my favourite theory for gwendolyn is because think about the implications.

so let’s say this alternate universe reveals that elias is actually transgender, and would present/identify as female if they had the opportunity to figure themself out and transition (elias was reportedly very young when jonah possessed them)

then the idea that in the tma universe they not only didn’t live long enough to do that, but THEIR BODY WAS TAKEN OVER BY SOMEONE ELSE WHO THEN PRESENTED IN A MASCULINE WAY AND LIVED AS A MAN USING THEIR FACE AND BODY FOR OVER TWENTY YEARS?!? FUCKING TERRIFYING

as a trans person myself, even though the real elias was dead the dysphoria that idea gives me is absolutely unreal, and really creeps into serious body/existential horror territory which i think would be really interesting and very in-character for a writer like jonny to explore.

#idk how they would explain her not being voiced by ben meredith but honestly it’s whatever i like this idea too much to think abt semantics #it’s just so horrible #the freaky friday trope was never something i could even entertain happening to myself #because someone else looking at my body!! and having control over it!! and potentially wearing feminine clothes and makeup and aaahhhhhh #i hate it #it’s a very interesting and nasty horror concept to me #transfem elias is real if this doesn’t turn out to be canon i will probably write it #the magnus archives #tma #the magnus protocol #tmagp #elias bouchard #gwendolyn bouchard #jonah magnus

[caelanglang]

when they started to fall, it never stopped : skk

#idk how to explain myself at this point but #DOMESTIC!! SLICE OF LIFE!! SKK!! #me pushing skater Chuuya agenda mwhehehehehe #okay but I bet Chuuya can skate like maybe he would first use the help of his ability but gets a good hang of it ever soon #*very #belly kisses are soft I’m very soft for it okay esp for Chuuya bc he’s got a stab wound from Shirase there #Dazai becomes extra nice and obedient if Chuuya cooks his fav meals kandhdnddjjssn #they are not fit for spying missions btw /j #bsd #bungou stray dogs #soukoku #bsd dazai #bsd chuuya #skk #my art #sketches #someone pls stop me #it’s so messy amsndncndjdj thanks for coming to my Ted sketch /j #fluff #domestic fluff #domestic skk #sketch

[catsurfavs]

#tf2 #team fortress 2 #tf2 spy #tf2 demoman #idk bro how am I supposed to explain myself

[rosdevw2]

wanna see me rant about them?

I see them as brothers, although not a really healthy bros, mostly cause of the lack of communication (and not knowing what a healthy relationship looks like), also I have my other hc of hollowheads (and the cg) not really understanding how can you talk rather than fight, like you can fight with a stick if you like them and also if you hate them, their first instinct if they have a disagreement is to fight (Cho reaction to Dark's plan was lauching him out off a wall lol). So no peaceful way to talk for them, and is not like they don't like eachother is rather like they don't know how they are hurting the other one, Chosen is not the one to talk much, he keeps thing to himself, something bother him? never says what, no matter how hard Dark asked him why he snapped at him like that early that day, and Dark is so stubborn, you can never change his mind, Chosen tells him to just let his anger go and he won't listen, so why bother anymore? So they won't try and talk it out anymore, let the other one solve it out since he doesn't want your help. And since neither of them go and hang out with other sticks (cause they both wanted criminals), they only have each other, so when they have a nasty fight and stop talking to one another for days until one of them gives them smile (but never a full apology) at the other, they will forgive them even though they both think they weren't in the wrong cause in the end it's the only person they have, and the only one who can understand the whole Alan thing. So the whole final battle between them was just a normal fight for them, never really taking the other seriously, more like a "how dramatic is he, but he will come around, I just need to beat the shit out of him" while both of them also are like "I'm making a great point, I'm in the right here, why can't you see that?" and it makes me so GRRRRRRHHHREAAAAAAA

#animation vs animator #animator vs animation #alan becker #ava the chosen one #ava the dark lord #rossart #I making myself talk about my hc more cause it fun but hard to put them into words #idk how to explain it

[lunarharp]

pretty & cute witch men

#witch hat tag #orufrey #i'm not drawing as much or as well as i'd like to be doing. i'm trying to get through a comic i've been really wanting to do #but i'm just finding it so hard. disheartening. btw the 2nd one relates to some official art of qif wearing a dress like the girls #and the 4th one relates to how i've been drawing EXTREMELY SMALL for years. idk how to explain it but i always clicked 'fit to screen' #and so all my art EVER has looked bad when you zoom in bc it's already like size 1 zoomed in to the MAX pfhgguguhfpfhGHAHHHHH #i was so confused allll this time why brushes always look different for me than what they're supposed to #'wow this brush is so jaggedy..really rather jaggedy...calling it the Jagged Cai Special..bringing it out for those jaggedy moments.. #really quite jaggedy i must say...' and it's literally not jaggedy #but now i have to get used to how all those brushes that i'd gotten used to indeed look how they're supposed to finally. Alarming #I have simply been working out absolutely everything by myself for years and that's why my technical progress is slow #ppl say my progress is fast and i certainly have improved much since i began doing all this but #like..it took me a year and half to start using a program where i could Colour In The Lines aka the..whatever it's called. whatever.. #just on my lonely confused solemn journey to express gay love better than yesterday.. -_- *picks up my pack n continues through the snow* #btw thank you sm for people's kind words enjoying my narumitsu art & fic over the christmas & new year period <3

[ganondoodle]

still thinking about how even just the decision to basically act like the shiekah tech never existed is just ... so baffling to me

bc again you could have done all the sonau tech does with shiekah instead, and they were perfect to be explored more in a sequel, why wouldnt you grasp that potential, the literal building blocks for more??

if you are that tired of shiekah tech .. dont make it a fuckign sequel to the game prominently featuring it???? totk doesnt take place generations after botw in which things could have changed drastically, its just a few years afterwards??

you want to reuse the map and get rid of shiekah tech? ok fine take LINK into the past then and the focus is for you to find a way to return; do some neat twist where its revealed that link was the one who sealed gan bc he couldnt defeat him without zelda or something if you dare (they wouldnt)

want less work than that and still reuse the map and get rid of shiekah tech AND reuse characters? ok then make it some alternate universe thingy like majoras mask in which everythign is the same but also isnt, its weird and creepy how characters you thoguht you knew suddendly dont act like themselves, shiekah tech doesnt exist, malice is now miasma, etc, it would give reason to why you feel so much like something about this world is familiar yet also very wrong

as far as im aware every "sequel" we have had so far were either generations apart from the first one, some alternate universe or a different location altogether- in all of which its plausible that things are different, things seem weirdly familiar but also wrong, or that another continent just works different from hyrule

but totk does none of that, its supposedly just a few years after the first game, same world same character, but its BUILT like some strange jumbled mess of stuff from botw and new stuff out of nowhere that just .. doesnt fit, but feeling a strange sense of otherness, a déja vu of something you know but it acts off, like an imposter, thats NOT intentional and it shows, its a mess of botw stuff, from stuff that people missed from the old games and entirely new stuff; i dont doubt it CAN work but the way it turned out is like a mix of 3 different puzzles forced together and being told 'see it fits!' even tho you can clearly see the pieces dont look right in these places

again it feels like a sequel that desperately wants you to forget the first game happened, that anythign from it mattered at all

and that isnt really ... the sense of a sequel? why insist on it being one when it only creates problems? is it marketing?? just like it was marketing to call age of calamity a telling of what happened before botw but then it wasnt that at all and that is still the sole reason why i dislike it? bc i was lied to? totk is like 10000 times worse than that, its a main title and doesnt even have the excuse of yeah its basically an excuse to play all your fav characters in fun ways and the game beign well aware that being its main appeal; what is totk appeal? a toybox with botw aestethic and none of the flavor?

(on a sidenote; the sonau tech doesnt even .. matter? in botw at least calamity ganon was made of shiekah tech parts and him overtaking other tech is a big point, the sonau tech doesnt serve anything but .. idk minerus useless mech? gan doesnt even aknowledge it, he doesnt care, all it is is toys for the player, not link, but the player. the monsters mining the tech materials? what for? gan doesnt give a damn and they dont work for the yiga either??)

i said it before but it gives me the feeling that the way botw invited you to theorize, to look beneath the surface, the way it intrigued you and laid the groundwork for so many interesting things without denying anything.. was accidental? or perhaps put in the game without the directors noticing? i cant stop thinking about them saying sth like "after botw zelda wondered if the kingdom of hyrule needed to keep existing the way it had been before the calamity, but then totk happens" bc it just feels like they realized too late that botw naturally led into questioning the status quo and they scrambled to fit it back into a flat and boring road we have seen so many times before (or even worse really) with totk

zeldas character naturally leads into her questioning and reexamine their history and set of rules? we gotta teach her a lesson of why she is importante god given monarchy girl that has to keep it bc what if evil brown man shows up again for no reason

maybe im grasping at straws here but looking at it this way the sonau .. make more "sense"; the shiekah were a group that was under the rule of the royal family, and misstreated before (oh no look soemthing interesting) so they dont lend themselves well to be used for teaching zelda that lesson- the sonau however are tailored really to be just that; they are a supposedly godly race from the literal sky that founded this version of hyrule, that had tech even more advanced and better than the shiekah, she gets put in the past to meet the perfect god king of goodness personally, also his very fridgy wifey that zelda later replaces in a way, shes put there and treated like family and then gets to see just how evil that evil big man from the desert is, sonia is falcon-punched to death solely so zelda can feel obligated to take over her role, have her new, better 'family' hurt by gan; similarly so raurus sacrifice, look what a noble and good king he is, he payed the ultimate price to lock that evil man away, now zelda you cannot let their sacrifice go to waste, rebuild that divinely good kingdom like it was!!

and even though they go so much out of their way to put the cart back onto the rails of black and white-good and evil in an even flatter way than the old games, it still doesnt feel right, at least to me, it still feels like zelda shouldnt have gone along with all of that, it feels like even her character from botw was walked back entirely, except for the intro, it made her feel like a stranger to me-

because this is a sequel, i know this zelda, she wouldnt act like that after all that shes been through, this feels ... off

and it all just insulting to anyone who cared about botw more than surface level, or the zelda lore in general, i dont even care much about the timeline, but theres alot of lore and themes beyond it that felt ignored, especially so given that .. its a damn sequel, non AU, not generations apart, directly part 2-

but its not.

it even feels very "corporate", put zelda in a dress again, people liked that, put crazy abilities in the game to flashbang people with how insane it is even if its not the best for the gameplay or the story, put a new asthetic into it out of nowhere bc its 'new' and act like its been there the whole time, put gan in there bc people miss him and find him sexy even if his role is just as flat as that of an evil cloud monster-

*sigh*

you know, i saw a post that said aoc was like a bad fanfic (affectionate) and totk was like a bad fanfic (derogatory) and tbh thats like one of the best comparisons/summaries i have seen ..

#ganondoodles talks #zelda #totk #ganondoodles rants #long post #look at me go ranting again #there so much i still think about #none of my rants are ever complete tbh #its always a focus on one or two things #there so much to talk about #like all those questions tha shouldnt have been answered #anyway #spend enough time writing all this #also none of my rambling id consider analysis #bc i realyl dont know what im talking about #im just trying to find words for how i feel #and then ramble on #idk how this gets so long every time no matter how short i wanna keep it #i have trouble putting feeling into words and explaining myself #cant you tell? jfkdrghkjdfh

[buckitup]

i keep seeing posts shit talking people for saying they "dont care about buddie or eddie's queerness" anymore by saying theyre okay if buddie isn't canon but that isnt the same as saying u dont care about buddie or eddie anymore? im sure most buddie shippers are still shipping buddie and rooting for their endgame but if you're only being happy for buck and his bisexuality because of a ship, that is so fucked up? be happy for him bc he's figuring himself out, and yes the possibility of buddie is exciting but you can't be too pissed off if it doesnt pan out? be happy for him for being happy??? he doesnt NEED to be with eddie in a romantic setting?? and being excited about buck and tommy kissing isnt disregarding eddie?????? sure maybe some people probably did and r on the buck and tommy endgame train but buck's bisexuality doesn't need to revolve around buddie or ANY relationship for that matter, let it revolve around evan and his self discovery. let him be free and happy ffs???

#this is so messy and incoherent sorry #but some of yall r being crazy #being happy about buck kissing tommy ≠ forgetting buddie #idk how to explain myself im bad at words #911 #9-1-1 #911 abc #911 spoilers #evan buckley #tommy kinard #eddie diaz #buddie #i will guard buck with MY LIFE #leave my boy alone

[napping-sapphic]

There really is something so magical about loving women for me like i love getting passing crushes and thinking someone is beautiful or handsome or cute, a girl can make me blush once and i’ll feel like im floating for the rest of the week

#wlw #lesbian #sapphic #the lesbian visibility week feels are getting to me #almost teared up thinking about how much i love women and how happy i am to accept that earlier #ignore me i have Emotions™️ #i just love feeling this way and i never know how to express it #i just spend everyday so thankful for coming out to myself #it took a while and was really hard at some points but really it’s by far the best thing i ever did for myself #because everytime a girl gives me butterflies it feels MAGICAL to me #idk i cant explain it #i just LOVE loving women #ahhhhhhh

[sirazaroff]

I have an idea that involves Velvet and i wanted to ask you what you thought of it! :3

A few days after RWBY and Jaune return from the Ever After, Velvet notices that Jaune is keeping his distance from her, and she has no idea why. She asks all of Team RWBY and even Nora, Ren, and Oscar, but they don’t know why he’s doing it either.

She tells Coco about it and she immediately wants to figure it out and the two basically corner Jaune to get him to talk. He relents pretty quickly and says he’s doing it to make sure he doesn’t make Velvet uncomfortable.

Velvet has no idea why he’d make her feel that way, he’s her friend after all, so Jaune explains that soon after returning from Ever After he caught himself reaching to touch her ears out of Habit because he did it with Juniper whenever he was stressed or needed something to ground himself, but he knows that touching a Faunus Trait is a very serious and intimate thing and felt horrible for nearly intruding on her personal space.

Velvet is touched by his thoughtfulness and says she appreciates it immensely, but he doesn’t have to distance himself from his friends, all he had to do was explain from the start and she would understand, and now she does :3

Coco’s still hung up on the fact that Jaune was friends with an honest-to-gods Jackalope LANSKXSBJS

And after Coco and Vel confront him

Sorry I just! I love this scene you’ve set up so much that I wanted to see come to life. Jaune’s always treated so strangely in this fandom. He’s really not that bad if you just focus for a sec.

————

I totally see this scenario being believable. All that trauma from his time in the Everafter. And Juniper was his only stability for so so so long…you don’t forget someone like that. See their ghost in familiar places, in familiar people.

I think it’ll do him good to start being made to process his issues. I haven’t made it to V9 yet but my take on Jaune is he’s just having a bad day constantly. Underdog healer. Being around new company will do him good. Help him process. I think when the trio are alone together they’ll make a lot of progress with that. Unload a lot of that baggage he’s been carrying.

Anyways, boy’s gonna be fine. He’s in good hands and even better company~

Thank you for sending the ask! Here have this for me taking so long.

Now. Time to play catch up with my inbox.

#fooze #rwby #rwby fanart #velvet scarlatina #rwby velvet #jaune arc #rwby jaune #ruby rose #rwby ruby #yang xiao long #rwby yang #coco adel #rwby coco #sorry that this took 20 lifetimes to answer like…I don’t even know how to explain myself #but it’s here! it exists! I hope I captured the vision decently #I enjoy moments like these. when there’s no fighting and it’s life resuming. how things play out in the background #idk if he still has his hoodie anymore but if he does. think he should give it antlers in honor of jun #hopefully this is some refreshing content in the jaune tags lol #the only harem I stand behind is bun harem jkjk haha unless 👀 #also coco is def questioning jaune’s sanity befriending a jackalope

[kenmaiii]

after two years i finally draw the favorite

#my art #still learning honestly. idk how to explain it but some medias youre so fixated on and obsessed with u instantly want to draw everyone #for me dunmeshi has always been the opposite. series and characters i enjoy sm i cannot bring myself to pick up a pencil #for some reason. it got a lot worse once the anime started airing idk. simply forcing myself to get some of my energy out. in a way #dunmeshi #dungeon meshi #thistle #dunmeshi thistle #thistle dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #>_< series i was into since late 2021. yet u wouldnt know that unless u follow my side twitter account. sowwy ig #i do this with a lot of franchises honestly. cannot bring myself to draw even if i think abt the characters constantly. ie skip to loafer #u will nvr catch me calling this guy sissel sorry. save that name for Mr. Ghost Trick. another thing i. also. dnt talk abt. which i adore #i need to get better at talking abt and expressing myself for the things that i enjoy. ive been wanting to draw laios for a good #while too but im scared. for some reason. u-u should nvr let a white man do that to me honestly. #for now i'll thistle tho. maybe we will get kabru namari or mithrun next from me >_< i have to talk myself into it #i think the closest way i can explain why i cannot bring myself to draw for some series is that i dnt want to mess up somehow #like 'ilu so much [character] what if i cnt draw u the way u deserve even tho i love u sm what if its not enough.' <- leaves it to sm1 else #tbh [scratches head] i prefer the version with less coloring ^-^ but i realize the one thats more colored would get more eyes on it... hm