#im just tired and couldn’t pick up my meds today

[renaissancefailmarriage]

my ability to give and receive love really has been irreversibly damaged lol

#it happens i guess #text #personal #im just tired and couldn’t pick up my meds today #also i’ve been a nonperson for almost two years now #shit sucks!

[iamyelling]

today was a hard day. feeling overhelmed. tired, stressed. dissociated a bit. feeling something else that i don't have a word for.

started out feeling weird this morning. i made a bowl of rice crispies but i had a mere thimbleful of almond milk so used annah's (old) soy milk but it was so sweet and gross i had to throw the whole bowl out i couldn’t stomach it. it might be so old it's gone bad idk. so i only had my tea this morning.

then i left to go get my booster, and pick up my prescription that was ready but when they asked for my covid vaccine card i realized i forgot it at home. so i drove back home, picked it up, drove back. then i could get it. and i haven't gotten the flu shot yet so they did that too. boom boom one in each arm. then i went grocery shopping. then put the groceries away, then took sol to pee. then i was gonna eat something but my body was feeling too stressed to eat, so i brushed sol, to calm down. but then found i found 2 fleas on her and oh then it was flea crisis time

i texted annah and figured out what i needed to buy. texted our friends to let them know for their dogs and since we're seeing them this weekend going camping. and for advice from one friend who is an animal expert. and then another friend is texting me to invite me to go accompany them to bellingham next week for them to get a tattoo. and im receiving texts from this person i went on a weird date with on sunday about what theyre interested in. not gonna talk about that right now that's a whole other thing but yeah. ive been posting horni stuff on lex and i know it's always overwhelming getting the responses but the thing i posted yesterday or whenever it was, is particularly overwhelming and aghghg i feel weird

so i make myself some food at it's like probably 2 or 3 by now, eating some yogurt and granola. then i pack my stuff back up and go to the pet store and get flea meds for the animals which is like $140 bc flea meds are fuckin expensive. then i go to qfc and i can't fucking find the baking soda which annah asked for and i'm going up and down the aisles and no workers are around to ask for help and i just fucking give up and check out and i ask the lady at the register if they have it and she's like yup it's just hard to see and i'm like mhm well i really looked but ok. anyways i just fuckin leave im like trying not to just have a mental breakdown in the fucking baking aisle of qfc and annah can go find it on her way home from work. so i finally get home. then i need to medicate all the animals, and i do that. it's topical and i need to make sure nobody ingests any of it so fingers crossed yall.

finally that's done and i can just relax until annah gets home which is honestly at that point pretty soon.

when annah gets home it's immediately chaos energy of course right. she's all like saying she's itchy because of the fleas just hearing about it while she's at work so lord you know it's going off when shes here. so she had ordered something from amazon and it was supposed to get here but it didn't and it said delivered but it's not here or in the mail room and she was very rightly mad about that. it's happened to her multiple times now that it'll say it'll be here rush prime shipping or whatever and it says its delivered and it's uh nowhere to be found. anyways

then begins her cleaning. she pours this huge box of baking soda all over the carpets everywhere. leaves that to like .. soak in? idk how powder works but it's there. she cuts up the lemon and rosemary she requested i buy for her, puts that in a pot of water to boil with peppermint essential oil. which does admittedly smell nice. then she sprays that all over the house, on the carpets on the blankets on the animals (they were very confused and did not appreciate being misted). oh and at this point i remember that the old comforter my parents gave us that we use as an extra dog bed, which i'm washing for obvious flea reasons, (oh yeah i put that in the wash before getting the flea meds) which did one round in the dryer needs another go on the dryer so that's going and loud and overstimulating of course. then begins the vacuuming. so now annah's vacuuming and needs me there to help move things for her. oh also her thumb is flaring up lately and she has been texting me today that it's super painful. but she needs to do the vacuum, not me. ok so we're doing this, we can't hear each other, its stressful. eventually we finish vacuuming. the vacuum needs to be emptied frequently i think due to all the damn powder clogging our very fancy vacuum up. anyways. for the record i did vacuum almost the whole apartment on sunday because annahs sister is in town from nyc! she took the train all the way here! so i was trying to help get things in order and tidy so annah doesn't feel worried about anyone showing up.

but we get through it. and the dryer is still going and annahs putting the instant pot in a cupboard and i keep hearing this beeping! annah is hard of hearing so can't hear it, it's this inconveniently high pitch tone and she is no help in locating it because she can't hear it. and so i'm going CRAZY trying to find it. i think it might be the dryer ? no. it sounds like its coming from the instant pot but that doesn't make sense because it's not plugged in. i check outside if it's maybe a neighbor and i'm hearing it through the walls, nope its louder inside. i give up and accept that i'm going crazy. i sit down and see on my phone a notification from this app from a company our landlord company hired to give us these sensors for leaks and apparently a leak is detected under our sink. wait no this was before we started vacuuming. anyways. so i am trying to mark it as a false alaarm but it keeps going off! so i just accept that this is gonna go off. whatever. it's not going off anymore but idk it doesn't make sense. maybe some maintenance guy will show up tomorrow to deal with it

finally i am resting now. and i'm hungry but i don't even want to make food im just. ugh

#personal #unsanitary m??????

[rommahh]

{Harry in sparkly black….Harry lemme **** *** *** for free}

You hadn’t talked to Harry all day. Not that you were mad at him or anything but your therapy this morning left you feeling a little spacey. There was something about talking about your emotions that left you feeling emotionally drained.

You missed Harry terribly and though it’s only been a short week, you felt very lonely. But on another note, your anxiety wasn’t as bad as it was. You were starting to feel like your normal self again but missing something.

You loved the tight knit life you have with Harry. You like being around him most hours of the day. You two were inseparable. If you were in the shower, he was in the bathroom reading a book from the lounger chair in the corner. If he was writing music on the beach, you were somewhere on the shore collecting shells. If you were going to the grocery store the least he could do was go for the drive with you. You two were close and it was something the both of you were ok with.

Some couples don’t like being so close but it worked for you and Harry. Being away from Harry was a weird experience. It’s only been a week but you feel like it’s been a lifetime. You haven’t minded being on your own but you wanted to be with the person you felt most connected to.

So being you, you purchased a ticket to Chicago. You didn’t know how Harry was going to react but you could only assume it would be a positive reaction. You told Jeff that you were coming so he could get you a hotel key and backstage pass.

As you sat in the airport you felt your back pocket buzz- your music pausing for the call. Your hand slipped into the pocket roughly pulling out the small phone. Harry’s icon, him in a fluffy robe looking as grumpy as ever, met your eyes. You cursed because you were quite obviously in the airport and if he saw you, the surprise would be ruined.

You answered anyways but only for audio. You made sure that your airpods were snug in you ear and there was no chance of them falling out.

“My lover!” Harry greets you a in sing song voice. You could hear his humph as he recognizes that you didn’t answer with the FaceTime video on. “Turn your camera on.”

“Can’t, I’m not feeling good.” You fib nervously. Harry frowned, nervous that he may have done something to upset you.

“Oh, alright. What’s wrong then?” He asks. You chew your lip trying to think of an answer.

“Uh, period.” You stammer.

“Your period doesn’t start for another few day…saw it on the tracker.” Harry may have your period tracker on his phone but it was because he wanted to make sure he was able to comfort you the best way he could when he needed to.

“Must be the meds-“ The sound of your boarding attendant sounded over your head cutting you off. “Hey bubs, I’ve actually got to go but we can’t chat later.”

“Sure, that’s fine I guess. Love you.” He mumbles, confused by the phone call. You hang up leaving Harry a little lost in his thoughts.

Later, Harry sang through his rehearsal carelessly, his head clouded with thoughts. He even sang through TBSL and though he was in the worst of moods, fans waiting at the venue thought he never sounded better.

You on the other hand had just sat through the worst flight of your life. There was a woman in the flight who didn’t want to wear her mask causing commotion before the flight could even take off. You had the worst headache halfway through the flight and because of the lack on supplies, the flight couldn’t give you any ginger ale or accommodations.

You didn’t let any of it get to you though as you directed for the chauffeur Jeff sent for you to go to the venue for show.

Harry sat in the common room backstage with the band and Jeff eating dinner grumpily. His fork was stabbing every little piece of lettuce of his salad, everyone watched worried that he may break his bowl.

“HS3 is trending on Twitter today, pretty exciting.” Jeff says to Harry breaking the silence. Jeff just received a text from you saying that you arrived to the venue and were walking towards Harry’s dressing room.

“Mmm great.” Harry grumbles. Jeff rolled his eyes at the diva.

“Someone’s a little pissy this evening. How about you go fix that mood before you greet your fans with a bad attitude.” Jeff scolds him like a child who just got caught doing something they shouldn’t have. Jeff really didn’t care about Harry’s attitude, used to the moods at this point, but he needed a way for Harry to leave the room and see you in the dressing room.

“Fine, didn’t want to be around anyways.” Harry shrugs.

Back in Harry’s dressing room, you rolled your suitcase into a corner where Harry’s outfit for the night resided on a hanger. You smiled at the sparkly black top that you helped pick out. You walked around his dressing room from the hair and makeup table, past the bathroom/ dressing area, and back around to the couch’s and coffee table where you took a seat. You snagged one of his green juices needing the boost of energy from being on the flight.

You heard the door knob jiggle but stayed planted in you seat sipping on the juice. You never made a peep as Harry barged through the room, scowl covering his face. He stormed past the couch not batting an eye at you. He went to the mini fridge where his juices were before letting an exasperated sigh.

“Who fucking took my juice?” He whines. You quietly giggle in your hand at his tone.

“Im sorry, thought I could have it.” You chuckle. Harry leaps from where he stands letting out a yell. He turns to look at you with wide eyes, hand over his chest as if his heart was going to explode from his chest. You stood from the couch waiting for him to react more but he just stood there in shock. When the realization of you actually being there kicked in he let out another yell before bounding over to you.

Before you knew it, you had two strong arms wrapped tightly around you. Your wrapped around his neck, hands and fingers spread through his hair. His face tucked into your lower neck peppering desperate kisses all over just to feel something.

“What are you doing here?” You hear him cry. You pulled away from him to wipe his eyes of the tears that streamed down his face.

“I needed to see you.” Was all you could muster. He pulled you down on the couch, your body cushioning his larger frame. He laid in between your legs, your back flat in the body of the couch.

“Im so happy your here.” Harry couldn’t even put his excitement into words. He knew you were coming in a week but to have you here earlier than that made him feel things. He sat up from suffocating you into the couch, allowing for you to sit up beside him. “What about your therapy? I hope you’re not jeopardizing your mental health to be here with me cause I would much prefer if you put me on the back burner and took care of yourself.”

You rolled your eyes playfully. “I’m ok. I still will see my therapist virtually, I’ve got all new meds that are working fine, and if all goes to shit I will go back home. It’s ok bubs.” You reassure him.

He grabs your face with both hands pulling your face to his. Your lips meet with need. His lips slotting with yours, moving slowly but with rigor as if he was scared you would slip from his fingers. Your bottom lips fit between his lips leaving for him to suck on it slightly. You moaned at the feeling making Harry pull you in tighter. You sat slightly upon his lap, chest against each other tightly. Your tongues pushed at one another, lips loving in tangent.

You pulled away when you felt his lower presence awaken. He whined at the loss of contact making you giggle.

“If we go any further you’re gonna be late for your show. I’ll give you more back at the hotel, yeah?” You say lowly trying to catch your breathe. He groaned resting his forehead on yours chasing your lips with chaste kisses making you smile.

“Fine, you owe my though. This is level three apology situation that can only be resolved with these things; sloppy blowies, butt stuff, or face masks if you catch my drift.” He chastised. You let out a deep belly laugh pushing yourself away from him. You two still sit facing each other, your legs slightly on top of his.

“You’re so nasty, but I may be able to arrange one of those.” You wink making Harry let out a triumphant laugh.

“Are you staying for the show? I understand if your not.” He questions fiddling with your fingers.

“Think it would be best if I didn’t. I’m really tired and I obviously need a nap if I’m going to be up for your post show antics.” You joke giving his nose a poke. He jokingly pretends to bite your finger in retaliation.

Harry went on stage that night happier than ever. He started plotting proposals from the second he walked you to the car with your suitcase and waved goodbye to you. You went to the hotel room and “accidentally” fell asleep wearing one of your most recent purchases curled up in your tour bus blanket.

Let’s just say that Harry not so accidentally woke you up after that concert ready to love all of his adrenaline off in you.

Part 2👀

#harry styles love on tour #hslot #hslot Chicago #harry styles angst #harry styles smut #harry styles x y/n #harry styles fic #harry styles x you #harry styles x reader #Harry Styles #harry styles imagine #harry styles one shot

[skytressmc]

I woke up from my nap seeing a call from work. They knew I had a root canal done today so I was like worried. So listened to the voicemail and my fucking god. My grammie called.

For those who don’t know, while I love my grammie, is a drunk and a pill popper. She always call for money or if she hears that one of us is on pain meds, asks for them.

She called cause she was worried about me and my family cause we haven’t called her in a bit and she supposedly doesn’t have my phone number but I know she does cause she’s called me before. And when we do call her we just get a busy signal.

My manager of course didn’t give her my number as it is illegal to do so. I apologized to my manager and called my grammie and luckily she picked up. I calmly told her she cannot call my work and that if anything would happen to us I would go over there to let her know if I couldn’t call her.

She of course tried to make me feel bad by acting sad and so on shes done this before. Im sorry i cant call her everyday. I work two jobs and im planning on going to school. And honestly i cant tell her much about my life because she is christen and doesn’t understand me being agender and trans.

Im just so tired.

#skytress speaks #vent #rant

[loxbbg]

The Lost Girl

Chapter 14

series Materlist

Masterlist

"Has she gotten out of her room since you got back." Ever since Skyler left the tower Peter hasn't  heard anything from her besides one worded replies via text she screens his calls and had no contact with any of the avengers as far as he knows.

"No ever since she came home she's locked herself in her room. We tried going inside but we either got a book to the head to something heavier. Only person allowed in there is Alfred and the first couple of days he almost got hit with a knife or something." Peter knew this would impact you in some way and hearing Jason tell him about you made him feel helpless. He wanted to help you avoid this feeling.

"Maybe I should talk to her."

" I don't  know kid we tried and she wouldn't talk to us." Dick pipped into the conversation.

"Well I haven't lied to her or you know wipe her memory, so maybe factor that in." Dick looked away. Peter walked up to Skyler's room praying its not as bad as he thinks. Hoping he can help the broken girl behind the door.

Peter wished he could've helped her, If he knew after her leaving would hurt her this bad he would've tried harder to keep her to stay at the tower and try to talk to Tony rather than running. It was life after coming home she went from being happy to go home to not wanting to do anything with her.

"Sky?" He knocked on the door not wanting to just break down her door. When he got no answer he knocked again but harder.

"I believe she might be sleeping master Peter." The old man came with a cart of tea.

"I was just about to wake her up actually. She hasn't had anything since morning." he gently opened the door offering Peter to go in the room first. Once he entered the room he saw the little figure of a broken girl taken over by an entire bundle of blankets. Her brown hair all over the place. He stepped closer to her frame sitting at the edge of her bed but not too far from her where he could place a hand on her leg. He wasn't too far where he couldn't see the tear marks on her cheek. He wanted to wipe them away but didn't want to wake you up.

"Miss Skyler you need to wake up." Guess Alfred thought otherwise. Skyler shifted to face Alfred.

"Did you brush your teeth today?"

"Only thing I really did today."She noticed someones hand on her leg and Alfred was to far to grab her leg. She slowly got up following the persons hand to their face.

"Peter." She started to tear up she hasn't talked to anyone she really cared about besides Alfred for the past couple weeks.  She felt she disappointed him by coming back to the manor. She disappointed herself coming back to the manor she just needed to get away from Tony and Wanda she couldn't face them. Coming back was the best option in mind at the time forgetting about the people who put her in the position in the first place.

"I'm sorry Peter I-I." she stuttered. Alfred left the two to catch up. The boys gathered at the door seeing this, the only person other than Alfred she let stay in her room without a shoe to the head.

"Hey don't be sorry." He grabbed her arms pulling her closer to him as she began to cry. He smoothed down her hair trying to calm her down.

"I should be, I just left you and stayed away for weeks locked up in here."

"Hey you had all the right to after everything you found out I'm sorry I didn't come visit earlier."

"It's ok I probably wouldn't have let you in. How's Tony?" Before the words could fully leave her mouth they heard something break down stairs and then yelling.

"She's my daughter Wayne you can't keep her away from me." Tony was heard all the way from her room. The two teens looked at each other. Sky rushed to her closet to put on pants. They both rushed out of her room downstairs to be met with Tony's arm covered in armor and Bruce in a fighting position the boys all ready to fight him.

"Dad." Both men turned to look at the girl. She almost forgot.

"Tony, Bruce. What are you doing?"

"Skyler, I just wanted to see you but Bruce said that you didn't want to see me."

"I never said I didn't want to see you. I haven't  said anything to anyone besides Alfred since I've gotten back." She looked tired and just sick of the situation.

"You lier." Tony looked ready to blow someones head off.

"I was trying to protect her."

"Shut up with the trying to protect me. Please I'm tiered  of people saying that."

"Sky." Bruce whispered to his daughter

"Can I talk to Tony, alone. please?" She asked. They looked weary.

In reality Skyler really shouldn't be going through this much stress yes Alfred brought food for her but she never really ate, she never drank anything. She could bearly get out the bed to even use the bathroom. She's moving to fast she has no energy that her powers won't even work or she'll pass out.

"Skyler, I never knew about you If I did I would've taken care of you, I would've begged Wanda to give you to me If I knew you existed and were mine Sky I would've taken you without a doubt raised cuz you're my daughter Sky." Tony was crying trying to convince her he wanted her if he knew about her.

"You say that now Tony but Im a product of a one night stand what would've happened with you and Pepper. You were younger you can't say you would keep the responsibility of having a kid. Wanda did what was best to her she put me with someone who had children, who I would be well off with. Tony I'm 16 there's nothing you can really do besides clear up stuff for me. I would like to get to know you Tony but I don't know if I can have the relationship you want. Not right now."

"I understand Skyler thanks for giving me the chance to have a relationship with you at least. I will always consider you my daughter and I wish I knew of you earlier." Her world began to spin the lack of nutrition is getting to her.

"Ok can we go back to the guys I'm not really feeling too well."

"Hey kid are you ok what wrong." she fell to her knees trying to focus on one thing to gain balance. Tony picked her up running her over to Bruce and the boys.

"Dad." Skyler whispers reaching out for Bruce her vision was going in and out of focus. Bruce grabbed her from his hands her read hair falling over her his shoulder.

"What did you do to her Stark." Jason brought him closer to his face dragging him by his collar.

"Jay ..leave.. Dad ..alone." Everyone stopped what they were doing shocked. Maybe it was her lack of consciousness but even after everything she told Tony in her mind he has already gained the right as her dad after taking her in. But he still can't replace Bruce.

"Sir I think Its best we take care of Skyler and when she wakes up discuss this, its obvious she hasn't been eating or drinking anything in a while so let's get her to the med bay before anything else hap... " Before he could finished his sentence Skyler blacked out in Bruces arms going limp.

#batboys x reader #batfam x batsis #batfam x reader #batfamily #batfam fanfiction #jason peter todd #peter parker x reader #peter parker #tony stark x daughter!reader #mcu imagines #dc comics x reader #dc comics

[queenbrightwhitly]

Trust You (Pt 4)

A/n: It was getting long so I’m finishing the rest of the episode in another chapter.

You hadn’t spoken to Malcolm the rest of the day. Along with the day after that, but this wasn’t completely your doing. There was a case that needed Malcolm more then anything. An evaluation done by a man who himself was lying, and Malcolm had to trick him.

Both Dani and JT had done their interviews with the suspect, and you had just finished.

Although both Dani and JT felt confident in their performances there was still the chance of a slip up happening.

“Hey.”

You looked up to see Gil staring at you from across his desk. He had been going though the case files almost all morning, he knew that this was a fragile case and that everyone being on their A-game was going to be important today, especially Malcolm. 

“Sorry, I guess, I was just-”

“Thinking about Malcolm?” Gil asked, he looked at you already knowing. 

You smiled. “That obvious?”

Gil nodded, putting down the case file he leaned back in his chair. “You know he’s going to be alright. Malcolm knows what he’s doing.”

“Thats what worries me.” You muttered. 

Just then Malcolm swung open the door to Gils office. He looked straight at you, then back to Gil, then back to you. He obviously was confused as to why you were there. He had his tie in his hand and looked at you, he opened his mouth to say something but instantly closed it as if he second guessed himself. He then turned to Gil. “Can you help me with this?” Malcolm asked. 

You rolled your eyes. Something that didn’t go unnoticed by Gil. “Nope,” Gil stood up from his desk. “But she can.” Gil nodded in your direction, giving Malcolm a pat on the shoulder he took one last look at you and then walked out. You knew what Gil was doing, but you couldn’t decide if you liked it yet. 

Malcolm had his head down, an annoyed smile gracing his face. He looked back at you. “Um, if you wouldn’t mind, could you- I mean you don’t-”

Getting up from the chair you stood in front of Malcolm, taking a hold of his tie you started to adjust it properly.

“Are you ready?” You broke the silence. 

“Am I ready? I slept a full three and a half hours.” Malcolm smirked, when you didn’t respond he continued. “Okay, three, but it was quality. There was definitely some REM mixed in there.” His tone was playful, and you knew he was trying to lighten the mood, however this wasn’t calming your nerves. 

“You’re used to being the smartest person in the room. Not today.” Your hand was slightly shaky from nerves. “Dr. Coppenrath is a police psychologist. Internal Affairs trusts him to make sense of minds like yours.” 

You finished Malcolms tie. Just as you were about to pull your hands away he quickly took a hold of them. “Hey. Don’t worry, I got this.” Malcolm looked down at you smiling. 

“Did you think the same thing with this?” You looked down at Malcolm referring to his hand.

Malcolm sighed, “Y/n, darling-”

“Don’t.” You took a step back. “I’m still trying to make sense of our discussion and the stunt you pulled the other day. Malcolm all I ask is to not underestimate him. The rest of us have already given our statements, so I guess its up to you now.” 

Malcolm didn’t say anything else, he knew this wasn’t the time to discuss your conversation, or the risky stunt he pulled. He smiled sweetly and turned to walk away, you couldn’t help your hand but you reached out for his gripping it tightly. 

Malcolm turned back surprised, but before he could say anything, you let go, walking past him out of Gils office.

(cut to Y/n interview)

“Agent, L/n, welcome. Please, take a seat.” Dr. Coppenrath motion to the chair across from him. 

Taking a seat you watched as he wrote a few things down. Looking up at you he smiled. “So, I can only assume you know what this is about.”

You nodded. “It’s to discuss if Malcolm Bright is suitable to work with the department. Im aware.”

“Good, so, shall we start?” Nodding you leaned back in you chair, this was going to be a long day. 

(Back to the storyline.)

“How lucky Malcolm is to be surrounded by this army of nurturing women.” Jessica, smiled sweetly at Dani. “Detective, would you please give my son and I a moment?” Dani nodded, giving Malcolm a quick glance before walking to the other side of the apartment. 

“Mom, did you... make a new friend?” Malcolm looked back to the stranger in his room. 

“LIsa is my little homecoming gift. She can run your baths, administer your meds and prepare your meals until you have sufficiently recovered.” 

“Mom, I don’t need anyone-”

“You know Malcolm, I would almost believe you if I didn’t hear about a certain disagreement you had with my future daughter in law. Honestly, Malcolm what were you thinking?” Jessica took a hold of Malcolms cheek. “You look tired, don’t worry, she will take great care of you while you and Y/n take a break.”

“We are not on a break.” Malcolm cut in. “She just needs... space.” 

Jessica rolled her eyes. “Oh please Malcolm, when a man thinks a women needs space it typically isn’t the case at all and is an excuse to keep you from actually confronting her and talking this out.” Jessica perked up. “Now, lets discuss Llsa.” 

(cut to Y/n interview)

“So, Malcolm was put under watch? By his own mother?” Dr. Coppenrath set his coffee down. Question after question he doubled down mostly on Malcolm himself, but something still felt strange. 

“Jessica loves her son, she just wants whats best for him, just like any mother would.” You watched him scribble in his book, this just felt like therapy at this point. 

“What about you?”

“Excuse me?”

“Do you want whats best for Malcolm?” He asked.

You scoffed. “Of course I do, Malcolm hes... my friend. I want whats best for all my friends. Malcom included.”

He nodded, not saying anything else, just scribbling down.

This was going to be an even longer day...

(cut to storyline)

“The gang’s all back together.” Malcolm voiced from behind you and JT. 

Gil turned around annoyed. “What the hell are you doing here?” 

“You just can’t find good help, can you?” Dani cut in. 

I looked at JT who was just looking amused. “Told you.” he whispered to me. I just rolled my eyes. “Should you be back at work?” JT asked. 

“Bright! You’re back! Seven abdominal stitches and a fracture to your first metacarpal, and you still look great.” Edrisa sighed out happily. 

You quietly chuckled so Gil wouldn’t hear. You always loved Edrisa crush and admiration of Malcolm, you would tease him for it all the time. You also couldn’t deny that you might encourage the behavior. Gil however, didn’t look amused. 

Edrisa smile dropped slighty “I might have pulled his medical records. I was worried. But you’re here now.” She smiled again. 

“I am... here. So...let’s go take a peek at this body?” Malcolm sorta asked Gil. He raised his hand in the direction, looking more annoyed by the minute.

Malcolm did a side glance your way as he walked ahead, which didn’t go unnoticed by JT who looked at you in question. Shrugging your shoulders you pretended to not know what he was talking about and walked along. The case was discussed and jokes were made by JT and Malcolms Gucci loafers. Once Malcolm made his brief profile you were going to follow everyone else back to the cars, however you noticed Malcolm wondering off past the crime scene. 

Curious, you started to follow behind him. “Malcolm?” He didn’t answer, just kept on forward. “Malcolm, are you okay? Whats wrong?” He still didn’t pick up on your voice. 

You stopped next to him, trying to figure out what he was looking at. When you didn’t notice anything you looked back to him, his eyes were wide and staring off to space. You knew that look. It happen often, especially when Malcolm just came from seeing his father. 

“Hey.” You took hold of Malcolms shoulder gently. 

He jumped, but only slightly. Looking at you like he just realized you were standing there. “Sorry, I got distracted. We should head back.” Before you could say anything Malcolm had already started to make his way to the cars. 

(cut to Y/n interview)

“Were you aware that Malcolm had started his own investigation?”

You scoffed. “No, I wasn’t. I was told he went home to rest.”

“And you believed that?” Dr. Coppenrath asked.

“No, of course not. I mean he can’t go home, he can’t follow orders, he barley gets enough sleep.” You leaned back in your chair, trying to seem as nonchalant as you could. “I had a feeling he was doing something under Gils nose.”

“Does this happen a lot? Him doing his own investigations without telling anyone.”

“More often then not.”

“I see.” He moved his hand to his coffee mug taking a sip. “Have you ever helped Malcolm?” 

“I mean...Malcolms asked for my help on a few personal matters before but-”

“So you have helped him, without a second thought?”

You rubbed your hands together, the sweat was building up and the nerves kicked in. It didn’t seem like he was questioning Malcolm now. “I mean, Malcolm is my friend-”

“Yes, your friend. Tell me, have you ever thought of Malcolm as more then that?”

You looked confused now. “What does this have to do with Malcolms mental state of working here?”

“I’m just putting some pieces together, maybe Malcolm wouldn’t have such an urge to want to stay here so bad if he didn’t have a reason, perhaps that reason is a who?” He said it as a question, but it didn’t feel like he needed an answer. 

“I don’t think- I’m not the reason Malcolm likes working on cases.” You crossed your arms. The Doctor started writing again, he didn’t say anything after that. 

(cut to storyline)

You got back to the station, hearing from Dani over the phone that Malcolm had decided to enroll himself in the clinic. Not only that but he took a session of theirs, along with almost getting killed while someone named Andi got kiddnapped. 

Walking inside you spotted Dani sitting at her desk, walking up to her you leaned against it and looked around the office. Noticing that Malcolm and Gil were in behind closed doors in his office. 

“How long have they been in there?”

Dani looked up and over to where you were staring. “A few minutes.”

“Gil looks upset.” You stated.

 It wasn’t until Quentin Vosler walked in that you took your eyes off them. Dani noticed him too, so you both walked up to him, JT right on your heels. All of a sudden Malcolm came busting out of Gils office, instantly going towards Vosler. JT was quick to react to hold him back, but he was very insistent.

“Tell me what you did with Andi!” Malcolm yelled, struggling against JT grip.

“Mr. Bright.” Vosler looked surprised. 

“Where is Andi!?!” Malcolm continued. 

“I don’t know. Thats why I’m here. She was taken, by them.”

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[kessielrg]

[Dragon Age] Oreos

Summary: In which Varric teaches his kid the proper way to dunk an Oreo. Hawke is there to be an as-…sistant. [oneshot][female humorous Hawke][modern AU]

Rating: K+

Word Count: 1,971 words

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“Now where did I put them?” Varric mumbled to himself as he looked through the pantry. He cursed to himself when he tried to reach a bit higher up. Curse the Maker for making him vertically challenged. Had to use a stool in his own home and still couldn’t reach the top shelf. Go figure.

“Got it!” the dwarf exclaimed as his hand got a firm hold of the plastic packaging. After a very careful extraction, Varric held the Oreo package close as he then moved the stool to its rightful corner. He placed the Oreos on a serving tray he had arranged on the kitchen counter. Humming some Kidz Bop song he heard earlier, he then went into the fridge to pull out the milk.

As he poured the milk into three glasses, Varric kept an ear out for the living room. The sounds of a young voice were easy to make out, but was she talking to someone else or just herself again? As he put the milk back in the fridge, Varric really wished that Hawke kept her medicine in the kitchen instead of the bathroom. The last time he checked, her prescription needed to be filled again, and Hawke had yet to do so. It worried him. It worried him a lot more than he was willing to admit.

Varric let out a sigh before taking the tray and heading into the living room. Varric had his own kid to tend to, and it wasn’t Hawke. Still didn’t stop him from letting out a sigh of relief in seeing both Hawke and Hana sitting at the living room coffee table. He wouldn’t have to force her out of bed today. Good. Not that the promise of deliciously nasty cookies was anything to ignore. Hawke was a sucker for sweets whether she was aware of it or not.

Hana seemed rather chipper though. Actively serving as the only genuine energy in the room, Varric’s daughter had her straw yellow hair pulled into two low pigtails today. She was gladly going on about some topic that Hawke couldn’t feign actual interest in. Was she going on about how pretty Selena Gomez was again, or that game that her birth giver introduced her to a few weeks back? Oh well, it didn’t matter now. Now that Varric had gotten everything ready, it was time for the main event.

“We have gathered here today for a very momentous occasion.” Varric announced, striding over to the girls and effectively earning their attention. “Today is the day that we teach 7 year old Hana Tethras how to properly dunk, and eat, Oreos.”

Hana put on a wide smile. Hawke even gave a rather generous round of applause. She even peppered it with a few “That’s our girl!” and “She’s getting so big!” cheers for extra effect. It only helped the younger girl beam with pride. Even Varric gave a light smirk of appreciation.

“Now teenybopper,” he said as he took a place across from the girls, placing the tray right in the middle of the coffee table. “How do you feel? You nervous? Already got a preemptive tummy ache from all the sugar your old man is going to let you consume?”

“Nope!” Hana told him with a firm shake of her head. She then slammed her hands down with determination before saying, “Bring it, Papa!”

“Rein it back kid,” Varric laughed, “Don’t want to get the milk all over the coffee table, do we?”

“Sorry.” Hana sheepishly apologized. She carefully took her milk glass from her father and placed it to her left. She even gave it a good, hard stare, as if she was pressuring it into not falling over later. Varric snorted before handing Hawke her glass as well, then went about divvying up the cookies.

“Ah, Oreos,” Hawke thinly mused as Varric gave her share. “The only cure for my depression.”

He tried to hold it back, Varric scoffed. “They are not. That’s what your medication is for.”

“Well, you don’t have to act so sure about it,” Hawke frowned. “Give me my delusions and plausible deniability, Varric. It’s all I got in this world.”

“You have me Hawke!” Hana quickly chirped. “And Papa too!”

Hawke gave Hana a rather tired look, not quite intended for the child to see. The woman absently placed a hand on Hana’s head. She then gently stroked the top of Hana’s head as if it were a calming mechanism. Maybe it was; something about little Hana did give off a rather comforting aura. But Hawke would be damned if she knew just what it was.

“I do.” Hawke carefully agreed- although the sentence came out more as a question. Seeing Hana’s bright smile only made Hawke a bit more dazed. Varric looked on with a rather concerned expression on his face. He gently coughed into his hand, leading the ladies’ attention back to him.

“Now, for your first proper lesson, I’ve decided to go the easy route. I’m not training my young’in with the normal Oreos- that would be an exercise and a half not to break them. No, we’re going to use double stuffed Oreos. The best kind.”

“Naw, what about the triple stuffed Oreos, Varric?” Hawke whined. “Why can’t we use them instead?”

“Too much stuff.” came the rather firm answer. “I am a man of correcting my previous mistakes, and I’m not taking that road again.”

Hawke gave a badly exaggerated groan before telling him, “Having a kid really ruined your sense of fun.”

“No,” the man asserted. “Having a kid gave me a greater sense of avoiding 3 AM puke fests because someone decided to eat too much cookie cream.”

“It was one time!” Hawke argued, despite the rather amused look she had- Hana was stifling a cute little laughter beside her. “Everyone was black-out drunk anyway, and it was the perfect prank.”

“I don’t think Sebastian would say the same.”

“Since when were you ever one for accurate reaccountments, hmm?”

“You know he’s a dunker, Hawke. It gives him a sense of purpose.”

“Was he? Always seemed more like a licker.”

“Anyway…!” Varric then loudly proclaimed. “We’re getting off topic.”

Hawke and Hana exchanged a look before erupting into a set of bemused giggles. Varric rolled his eyes. Surround yourself with girls, they said. It would be a joy, they said. At least one of them was directly related to him- he wasn’t sure why he kept the other around.

“Now that I have your attention again,” Varric told them, “Let us first begin by picking up the Oreo itself…”

. . .

In a way, this whole thing was just so Varric could easily say seven year olds had the fine motor movement to carefully manipulate something as delicate as Oreo cookies. Always write what you know, yeah? It was a bit hard to believe that his own spawn actually stuck her tongue out when she was concentrating. She definitely didn’t get that from his side of the family. If anything, it was something he could see Hawke doing…

“I finally got it!” Hana suddenly exclaimed. Varric and Hawke both looked at her at the same time. The girl was proudly showing her two Oreo halves. One side had just the cream, the other was completely clean.

“Great job, teenybopper!” Varric approved. “Hawke, lean over and muss her hair for me. I can’t reach.”

Hawke nodded, but didn’t mess up Hana’s hair. Instead, she gave her a small elbow nudge and said, “Great job, teeny. Now we can audition you for all those Oreo commercials. You’d be a shoo-in.”

Hana’s smile grew even wider at the approval. Oh, to be young and easily proud of your (usually useless) accomplishments.

“Remember to only use your teeth to scrape the cream off if your tongue can’t find a good pocket beforehand.” Varric reminded his kid. Hana gave him a firm nod before returning to the cookie. He gave her a smile as he returned to his own lot as well.

Hawke had also returned to her Oreo dunking. After two cookies, she no longer felt like licking the cream off before dunking, so she just let the Oreo soak for a few moments. It was almost a routine that she zoned out for. Dip the Oreo, wait a bit, then eat it. Nothing to think about. It was a legitimate surprise when half the Oreo fell into the milk as she tried to pull it out. She blinked a few times before looking up at Varric.

“Varrrric,” Hawke whined, “Cookies got lost in milk!”

“That’s because you tried to dunk too much of the Oreo in the milk.” he replied without so much looking at her. “Then you pinched it as you pulled it up, and all your mushy cookie got lost.”

“But I didn’t pinch it!” she went on. A small edge in her voice made Varric look up. For a moment, he wondered if she was legitimately upset about it. “I only had half of it in the milk- you saw it! Tell ‘im, Hana.”

“You’re so funny, Hawke!” Hana laughed. The poor girl obviously not seeing that Hawke wasn’t quite being dramatic on purpose this time. Not that Varric could blame her- he’d bottle that innocence up and repackage it back into Hawke herself if he could.

“A real barrel of monkeys.” Varric mused. He gave a small click of his tongue before asking, “Hawke, did you take your meds today?”

Hawke proceeded to look at him like he was crazy. The dwarf was unrelenting, though. He had full plans of staring her down until Hana interrupted all of their thoughts with a musing;

“What do they make Oreo filling with anyway?”

A silence followed after this. Mostly because Varric didn’t want to stop nonverbally bullying Hawke into confessing she wasn’t taking care of herself again. He had to relent, letting out a defeated sigh before telling Hana, “Dunno, teenybopper. We can look it up later if you want.”

Hana gave a thoughtful hum and a little nod of her head, her attention too focused on staring at the Oreos now. Varric shook his head at her, before trying turning his attention back to Hawke. But Hawke had left the coffee table. She had slunk her way onto the couch, and was now actively trying to find the TV remote. That meant in a few minutes, Hawke would find something on TV that interested Hana, and the Oreo eating portion of their day officially over.

And Varric would be the one cleaning up the mess, because of course he would.

Varric let out a sigh before starting to get up. He made a trip to the kitchen to get a note off the fridge, then went back into the living room and straight to Hawke.

“The pharmacy closes in six hours,” he told her as he handed the note over, “Call them, or I’ll sit on you.”

Hawke looked at him, not sure whether to be amused or angered.

“Having a kid really ruined your sense of privacy.” she said, almost in a grumble

“No,” he told her. “Having a kid gave me a greater sense of caring for others. I’m not asking you twice, Hawke. Call them.”

The corners of Hawke’s mouth twitched as if she wanted to tell him off. He never gave her the chance. Instead, he sat back over with Hana, and quite purposely started to make conversation with her. The girl was rather ignorant of the friction between the two friends. In a way, Varric was grateful for it. She’d know and understand it better when she was older. But for now ignorance was bliss.

He just prayed that every force used to beat Hawke down never reached his own kid.

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[kingsephir]

Super long post.

Hello everyone! I’m sorry I have not been posting pictures and such of Japan yet but after reading this status, I’m sure you’ll understand. I would like to preface this with, other than my medical problems it has been a wonderful and beautiful time so far.

We arrived in Japan on October 3rd and started our 2 week quarantine. I had just come off of a 3 month regimen of Latent Tuberculosis antibiotics. Very strong ones that I had to follow a strict diet and really took a toll on me each day. At the hotel, they give us three meals a day (but we could also go to the convenience store anytime) pretty much still withholding to my antibiotic diet, I ate parts of the meals that they brought and the first day I began to feel ill. One might say, oh maybe you’re just not used to Japanese food? Maybe you’re stressed? But honestly? I was in a good mood and I’d lived in Japan for a year before and the food has never hurt me. Even raw fish.

I figured, like usual, I’d just have some discomfort and it would just go away the next day. Well, it didn’t. It just got worse. So I switched to bottled water (even though the water here is drinkable), still got worse, completely stopped eating the quarantine meals and ate only from the convienence store (which made my husband almost immediately improve) and I got worse. Going to the bathroom 10-20 times a day, finally can barely eat, can barely drink. So on the 10th day due to a sort of loop hole, I was able to go to the ER in Tokyo. They gave me an IV and took a blood test and a CT scan. They said that my whole intestines were really inflamed and I had a bacterial infection. I was taking probiotics and still could sort of eat so they let me go. I just wanted to make it to Aomori. Last few days I had fevers and still never got better, I was eating only banana and rice porridge.

Finally, the day to go to Aomori comes. I take anti diarrhea medicine (absolutely horrible feeling but I was desperate and needed to travel) and while my husband carried almost all of my things himself (absolutely bless him through all this) I made it to Aomori and my supervisor and some other coworkers came and picked me up. I had been keeping in touch with my supervisor about my illness the whole time, so he knew what was going on. They drove me and my husband to our house, gave us the tour and it was absolutely wonderful. It was cozy and well stocked, my predecessor had left a lot of things but useful things so nicely and neatly organized it was like walking into a cozy air bnb. The drive there was also absolutely stunning, some of the most beautiful landscapes i’ve ever seen. Honestly. They had me sign papers and stuff and then they took James to the supermarket and the town hall to take care of the paperwork I couldn’t in my state, and get some groceries.

I slept the entire time (about 4 hours) he was gone.

When my husband came back, he took my temperature and I kid you not I had a fever of 104°F or 40°C!!!!!!!!!! My supervisor and (landlord? Not sure who he is yet but he’s super nice) quickly came back and took us to the clinic. They put me on an IV and anti fever meds. The clinic doctor wrote a referral to the hospital for the next morning. I felt much better after the IV that night.

The next morning, (19th) I went to the hospital early and waited in a bed in the waiting room. They did a ton of tests on me. Ultrasound, ekg, stool sample, blood test, xray. All kinds of things. They admitted me to the hospital for at least a week. So here I am, at the hospital.

I’m not the only one of the Chicago group that got sick but im the only one /this/ sick. There is another person in my prefecture that had to get an IV for half a day and got antibiotics to take. I have been suffering with this for about 15 days now. And though I’m taking it one day at a time and I know I’ll eventually be okay, I’m very tired. The Tokyo doctors mentioned it could be E Coli but didn’t know without further tests. Today the hospital im at will hear what bacteria it is exactly so they will be able to tweak my treatment.

I have not had anything but water since the 19th as they “feed me” through an IV, give me liquids (im not supposed to drink much water) and antibiotics. They just upped my feeding thing to include more calories so I think that is good. But it’s been extremely rough.

However, everyone around me here has been so extremely kind and understanding and helpful to me. My supervisor’s supervisor seems to be in contact with the higher ups about the food we (Chicago consult group) ate. I really hope they improve things for others because if someone brought kids??? They could die. I am not kidding either. It’s extremely serious. I had sent an email early on about the food and they emailed the hotel and then emailed me back and said that everything was up to code. So 🤷‍♀️

Lastly, I want to thank my husband for without him idk how I could make it. It would be so hard and lonely and I need so much help. But he is always kind, and always patient with me when I am sick. I truly am honored to be his wife.

My supervisor and coworkers and friends who have all supported me and given me medicine and said nice things, I so appreciate you all. My supervisor is amazing and is showing my husband around and helping him take care of things without me, I am so appreciative for the people around me.

And the doctors who have all seen me and listened to me. I have had some really top notch nurses here, one hugged me when I was crying, one would talk very slow and clear and explain in detail with simple words how things were working and what is going on, one makes me laugh a lot. They are all very kind and so helpful.

Lastly, thank you God, that I am sick in Japan, because even if I paid for everything out of pocket im looking at no more than probably about $1,500 and I get money back through my insurance so I don’t even pay that much.

So that is what has been going on.

After I get out of the hospital my work is giving me an extra two weeks at home to recover and I couldn’t be more thankful.

I hope no one else has to deal with this while moving to a new country and they get it all sorted out. ❤️

Thanks for reading my super super long post haha.

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[boyy-wonder-grayson]

It's too late

Requested: no

Summary: reader and Dick can't seemed to agree on what's best for each other

Warnings: violence, kind of rape mention barely, angst

Word count: 1793

Pairing: Dick Grayson x Reader

She woke up alone,once again. She extended her hand to touch his side of the bed, it was cool; that meant that Dick had been long gone. She sighed and rolled over to reach her phone. Not a text, not a call, nothing. It happened a lot lately. Dick woke up early in the morning and left her in bed alone; sometimes he didn't even go to bed with her at all. She brushed it off, telling herself that he was working too hard, that he was busy with work and patrol, nothing else. But she was lying to herself. She could notice that being a cop and on top of that Nightwing, was taking a toll on him. He had always been too hard on himself, and now was no different. But she was tired of this, of him pushing her away, of all the unsaid things,the repressed sadness and anger.  

She sent him a text asking if he was going to work late today or if she should wait for him to have dinner together, but Dick never answered. She got ready for work, the usual routine. When Dick was around, they used to have breakfast together. He would make the coffee and y/n would prepare some pancakes, just the way he liked them. But now the mornings were as cold as the nights when he was away. She got dressed, and left for work, alone. Just like every other day.

The day passed slowly. She kept staring at her phone throughout the whole afternoon but Dick never answered. She even called him at lunch time,but it went straight to voicemail. She didn't want to think the worst of this situation,but it was nearly impossible not to; her mind took her to dark places, 'what if Dick was cheating on me?' 'maybe that's why he leaves early and barely goes home anymore' 'what if…' , her brain was filled with every possible bad scenario, and she ended up in the same one 'Dick was cheating on me, that must be it'. She didn't want to confront him, scared of what the answer might be, but she knew that that conversation was long overdue. 

When Y/n got home she wasn't surprised to see that no one was there. She put her bag and coat on the couch and went to get something to drink. She sighed, she was stupid for thinking that Dick might be home by now, waiting for her with some wine and take- out like he used to do, but the sadness overtook her when she saw that she was,once again, home alone.

She decided to take a shower, to shake off the stress this whole situation was causing her, but when she went to grab some clothes she noticed that Dick's side of the closet was empty. Not a single item was there. His shirts, shoes, everything was gone.

This was not happening. No, she's just seeing things. Her stress and sleep deprived mind was playing tricks on her. But when she looked inside the closet, on the fake door that Dick had installed to keep his suit safe from the public eye,she noticed that it was empty. He was gone. Really gone.

She grabbed her phone with trembling hands and pressed Dick's contact name, waiting for him to pick up, to explain, but he never answered. Not any of the 10 calls she made. Not any of the 15 texts she send. 

She cried herself to sleep that night. And the next one.  And the next one after that too, and she kept doing it until she couldn't cry anymore. Dick had left her without an explanation or reason. That's what hurt the most. She could have understood if he had explained it to her, but he never gave her the chance, and now it was too late.

Six months later.

Y/n was walking alongside her friend. The pair had been drinking that night, celebrating that Y/n's friend was getting married. San Francisco was beautiful at night, and since it was almost Christmas the city was decorated with sparkling lights. The cold winter air made their breaths come out in puffs of air. They were trying to get a cab, but since the outside of the bar was full with people that apparently had the same idea as the girls, it was almost impossible. Fifteen minutes later Y/n's friend was able to hail a cab, and said goodbye to her best friend for the night. Y/n declined the offer to ride along with her  excusing herself saying that she wasn't far from home, and she'd rather walk.

Bad idea.

She decided to take a shortcut through and alley when she felt a strong hand gripped her bicep and pulled her again his chest.

"Now be a doll, and don't make a sound. This won't take long" the man said forcing her against the wall. She wanted to scream but she knew that it was useless. Instead she started to cry when she heard the man unzip his pants. She was scared, she never felt this helpless before. She pray for something to happen, someone to rescue her,and luckily her prayers were heard.

Before the man could do anything his body was ripped away from hers, and the man was sent flying towards the hard concrete. The vigilante that came to her rescue was punching the lights out of the guy. Y/n was still shocked so she didn't register when Nightwing kneel down in front of her; she flinched when his hand made contact with her cheek and that's when she broke drown and feel straight into his arms.

"Oh my God Dick" she sobbed into his chest "thank you, thank you" she kept repeating this while Dick tried to console her in the best way he could.

"We should probably get out of here", he said picking her up. He kept his hands around her every second on the way to the Titans tower, and her hold was just as strong. She didn't let go of Dick's hand, not for a second.

Once in the tower Dick took her to the med bay trying to check for bruises and scratches, but she was in perfect physical state. Mentally he couldn't say the same.

"You're staying here tonight okay? No buts" he command. He didn't dare look her in the eyes thought. He was ashamed of his past actions,but now was not the time to worry about that.

Dick took her to his room, and gave her some of his clothes for her to change he was about to leave the room when she spoke:

"Why did you leave?" She asked in a whisper. She didn't look up, instead she looked at the clothes Dick had gave her.

He was taken aback, he didn't expect to talk about this tonight, he thought that maybe they could talk about it in the morning, over breakfast maybe. And he could explain everything to her, but apparently she had other ideas.

"Can we talk about it tomorrow? You need to rest" he tried  but she was having none of it.

"No!" She screamed as tears streamed down her face "I want to know, I deserve to know!".

Dick's heart broke seeing her in distraught like that. He hated himself for leaving her but he thought that it was for the best.

"Y/n…" he whispered

"Please, Dick just... please" she sounded defeated. "I'm tired of thinking of a reason as to why you left. Where you cheating on me?" she finally asked

Dick's eyes widen in surprise, "No! I would never do that" He replied exasperated.

"Then what is it! I can't read your mind Dick" she yelled at him. She didn't care if any of the Titans heard, she deserved the truth.

"I-im sorry, okay? I didn't want to leave you. You have to believe me please" Dick said. He felt his eyes watered.

"This job, this kind of life that's not for you. You deserve better, you deserve a normal life. Not a life when you're worrying about me not getting home safe" he explained.

"Don't you think I deserve to make that choice?"she asked angry at him now

"You think you can decide what's best for me? I'm sorry but that's not on you". She added taking a step closer to him.

"And of  course I worry about you! You were my boyfriend Dick, what kind of person would I be if I didn't care for my partner at all?".

"It's not the same, and you know it" she replied annoyed. "I had to leave, you can't be in danger because of who I am!" 

She stood there in silence looking at him, and noticed how hard he was trying not to cry. And he failed when the first tear fell from his eye. 

"I didn't want you to leave, but I guess you had other ideas" she said "I guess you didn't know me as much as I thought you did".

"Please this can wait,  we can talk about this tomorrow" He said in a small voice.

Y/n shook her head and walked towards the door, brushing his shoulder with hers.

"I'm sorry but I'm not going to wait for you anymore.  I did for for six long months,and now I'm tired of waiting" she said crying once again. 

"Wait Y/n, please don't leave" Dick cried trying to grab her hand, but she pushed him away.

"No Dick, I'm sorry. I love you but I cannot keep waiting for you to decide if being with me is worth the risk or not." She answered grabbing the doorknob. "Goodbye Dick Grayson".

Dick was left there standing alone in the middle of his room. He understood now what Y/n might have felt when he left her, without saying anything to her. At least she had the decency to talk to him. He was a coward for not doing the same for her when he had the chance. He thought about  calling her and explained why he did what he did, but he never got the chance,or more like the guts; and when he found her tonight in that alley and saved her from that asshole, he realised that danger was always going to be present in their life and that maybe it wasn't too late to try and work things out in between them again. So he decided, that he was going to tell her everything and explained his reasoning for leaving her, but after what she said,his doubts were clear as water. It was now, too late.

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[duhliriouss]

A Pawn & A King:

Chapter One

AN: This is a long ongoing story that will contain many chapters around 3000 words each. This will contain lots of angst, abuse, smut, drama, conflict, oh and smut! Please let me know if you have any suggestions you would like to see in future chapters. Some constructive criticism is much appreciated as well since this is my first FanFic. If you haven’t already, please read the Prologue below before proceeding to chapter one. Enjoy!

Prologue

Warnings: swearing, therapy, angst, abuse, self harm, mental illness

Summary: Y/N had lived her whole life in Gotham being unappreciated and disgaurded. With no family and an abusive roommate to rely on, Y/N doesn’t have much of a choice to resign anywhere else in the city. Yet she keeps on giving naively until her decent into madness and her meeting of the Joker.

Word count: 3,033

Disclaimer: I do not own Joker - Todd Philips or any character associated in Joker

Chapter One:

Your day carried on like any normal Monday. Surprisingly, you always felt at ease while working at the bank. Away from your reality. Away from anything that resembled your worthless life and place you called home.

You didn’t sleep well last night.

Your last hours dragged as you struggled to hold normal everyday conversations, Yet you always held a smile. No matter how tired you were you tried hard at your jobs. You cared.

You always cared. Too much it always seems. No one ever saw you angry. Your anger only consisted of getting red hot in the checks and running away with tears flying down your face. You’ve always been an emotional person that it make you ache day in and day out.

You felt things intensely.

All this has made you quite the pushover over the years. Someone could slap you across your face and you’d thank them, and/or apologize for anything you might have done wrong.

You hated this about yourself. One of your major flaws was muttering apologies for every action you made. Your psychiatrist has helped you discover over the months it was how your, now deceased brother tormented you all your childhood. And of course not letting you forget the disappointment your father had for you all your childhood years.

You knew you shouldn’t be sorry for most of the things you apologized for. But you’ve lost control on how to handle yourself when the real moments came.

The clock hit 4:00 pm and it was finally time to finish the rest of your exhausting day.

You swallowed hard as your feet left the building.

You didn’t like walking through the allies and streets of Gotham. You were used to being alone and even though you’ve walked alone in these streets over and over day by day, you always clenched yourself tightly looking down at your feet as you walked a steady pace, only focusing on point A to B.

Walking by people fighting and screaming, creepy men whistling as you hurried by, ignoring the robberies and drug deals as you focused your attention on the ground was a daily thing in Gotham. Yet it never ceased or lowered your fear.

You made your way to the train station and took a seat. You finally looked up to take in your surroundings for the first time since you left the bank.

Graffiti scattered most of the walls, mixed with flyers and Thomas Wayne For Mayer posters. Your eyes darted carefully around you to find just a few other passengers. Not sensing anything intimidating you focused your attention back on the poster.

Moving Gotham Forward

you huffed a small laugh quietly under your breath. You didn’t give a shit about politics. But some things you couldn’t help but chuckle at.

The city has always been run by the rich. Spilling their euphonious sounding lies as the city eats it up year by year. And when you see Wayne on the news, You don’t see a difference. That was one thing you wouldn’t let yourself be a pawn over.

~

“How’s your job”

“It’s good.”

“Home?”

“Fine”

You kept your eyes down fidgeting and twisting your cigarette in between your fingers.

Every week your multiple breakdowns gave you mental notes to talk about in your therapy sessions. Yet when the time came... you just sat there. Struggling to say anything at all.

The quietness and the burning of her eyes on you quickened your heart rate.

“Have you been journaling like I asked”

“No Mam” Your voice was soft and apologetic.

“And why’s that?”

You finally lifted your gaze to meet hers

“I don’t have time, I never have any time”

“Ah”

You watched silently as she traced her pen over the stacks in her folder printed with your name. Silence filling the room again.

“How does it feel coming here every week, having someone to talk to. Does it help?”

You took your time trying to find the right answer. You didn’t know. You never really knew anything once you sat in that seat. Once you walked through those doors you WERE a closed door, fumbling over your words. Frustrating yourself when you couldn’t find them.

“I - I don’t know. I think it was better for everyone around me when I was locked up in the hospital”

Your sentence started off nervous but as your heart rate slowed to your words, you felt the familiar numbness hit your chest.

Unbeknownst to you, your physiatrist noted the strangely similar, yet still different personalities you and someone else shared.

“I’m here to help you, you shouldn’t let yourself feel a burden to the world around you”

You couldn’t help but let out a cold, almost sarcastic laugh. Taking a drag off your cigarette you shifted your body to sit up straighter. You replayed her words in your head and frowned shamefully, Furrying your brows together and keeping your gaze downward

“I’m sorry. I’m not laughing at the fact you’re trying to help me. I just -“

You didn’t struggle with your words this time. You simply didn’t know how to tell her you’ve been living with someone whom has beat you countless times, made you feel more of a burden than anyone else. Never mind everyone else in your life. You didn’t have a family because of your burdens. No one at your jobs appreciated you and now that you think about it, you don’t think you’ve ever met anyone who has actually appreciated you for you.

But what can you do? You were stuck. You didn’t have any other choices in Gotham to resign to. And being manipulated by Harvie for years now.. frankly, you were just too scared to make any decisions in your life.

You noticed you haven’t said anything in awhile.

You looked up again at the woman you knew didn’t truly care about the struggles you went through. Her eyes stayed down at your papers, flipping through the pages.

“You’re on 3 different medications, Y/N. Would you like me to up the dosa-“

“Yes, please”

You responded fast and eagerly. You’d do anything to not feel so bad anymore.

“Alright..” her words were flat and unamused.

“I’ve also been noticing your Bipolar Disorder has been more; manic recently. I’m going to prescribe you Lamotrigine. Just don’t take it in the afternoon with your anxiety med, and start taking your birth control in the morning instead. Taking all these together can make you become rather reckless.”

Your mind drifted off at “manic”. You stared past her left shoulder as she continued to speak into a complete zone out.

You were precisely dead inside.

“Can you remember that?”

Your eyes darted back to her. You gave her a warm fake-like, but believable smile and nodded your head

“Yes mam, thank you”

Her eyes studied you carefully then up at the clock that hanged over the door behind you.

“It seems our time is a little over schedule”

You both stood from your chairs rhythmically

“Let me know how you’re feeling next week”

“What?”

“You know, any side affects, nausea, change in mood”

“Oh yes.. right. Okay” you gave one last, sheepish smile before turning on your heels to the door. Keeping your head down preparing yourself to face the public again.

You opened the door quite fast and started to walk, fumbling to try and get your hands into your coat pockets to pull out another cigarette. Before you could take a third step you bumped right into something solid.

You bumped into someone. You clumsily tried to take a few steps back but a pair of strong hands kept you in place from falling, both hands on your elbows.

Your face shot up to look at the face of who you just humiliated yourself in front of.

But you were met with gorgeous, humbling green eyes.

“Oh.. hi Arthur” your cheeks instantly flushed still embarrassed and not sure how to react. As your eyes stayed locked, you took in his features being so uncomfortably close to him. His hair was slicked back and his lips curved into a slight smile, making the crows feet on the corner of his eyes accentuated

“Im so sorry, clearly I don’t pay attention to my surroundings as often as I should”

He let out a breathy laugh, letting go of your arms. You now kept your eyes to your feet.

“Where are you so eager to get to anyway?”

“I’m not sure. Just in my own little world I guess. I uh.. also have to stop at the corner store to pick up some food items for dinner tonight. Then I have to go to the laundry mat to put in a couple hours..”

You found yourself rambling. He didn’t need this much explanation. Stop talking!

You finally stopped and cleared your throat along with one deep breath. Not hearing anything you decided to slowly look up and meet his gaze. Arthur almost looked as nervous as you were. But he still held a somewhat amused smile.

“Y/N, are you alright? You seem more flustered than usual”

“Yes I’m fine.. just a busy a schedule today is all. Again, I’m sorry for running into you.”

He studied your face as you spoke. Noticing the dark bags that had accumulated under your beautiful (y/e/c) eyes. His eyes then wandered to your flushed cheeks before briefly landing on your plump red lips. You suddenly felt attacked under his gaze and tried it focus on anything else around the hallway.

Arthur noticed this.

Feeling awkward for clearly making you more uncomfortable he cleared his throat and went to stutter out a goodbye before entering the room you just left seconds before. But instead surprised himself with the boldness of what he said instead

“Would you like to get coffee tonight?”

“I - I can’t, I have to work and and cook dinner for Harvie and I tonight”

“Oh.. right” he laughed nervously “sorry that was stupid of me to ask..”

“It’s okay”

A silence filled the hallway

“Hey, can I uh” he slicked his hair back anxiously “can I at least give you my number? You could really use a real cup of coffee sometime this week. just call me on a night your not so busy, maybe?”

His sudden boldness caught you off guard.

You and Arthur didn’t know each other well. But you’ve been acquaintances for some time, and have run into each other quite often.

You first met when you had group therapy sessions together from time to time when you both were in Arkham State Hospital.

You also saw him once in awhile at the laundry mat when he picked up him and his mother’s clothes

And now coincidentally enough, you both saw the same physiatrist in the same day. He always was the appointment after yours. It has left huge opportunity’s for small talk. Which you both indulged in any chance you could get.

Most conversations you both shared with each other were rather awkward and short. But there was this strange feeling that made you not mind so much.

You could sit for hours in awkwardness with this man. He never intimidated you. And you felt more yourself in his presence.

But you still didn’t really know anything about him except that he lives and takes care of his mother and lives down the block from you.

“ s-sure..”

you looked up innocently at him. You didn’t think about your answer as it just poured out of you. You felt like you were under a spell Everytime he spoke to you. Especially now.

He gave you a ear to ear grin at your answer which was short stopped when you both noticed there was no pen or paper.

“I have a pen!” You unnecessarily shouted.

You dug through your black crossbody cotton-like purse and pulled out a pen with the banks name printed on the side.

“Here! I uh.. don’t have a piece of paper though...”

he chuckled at your ditziness and took two strides over to you until he was mere inches from you. Taking the pen from you

Your heart skipped. Adrenaline shooting up your spine deliciously.

You didn’t realize how much taller he was, your head only reaching to the mid of his chest.

Your nostrils filled with a sweet smell of cigarettes and a slight scent of .. some sort of mint?

You felt dizzy

“Can I see your hand?”

Without a word you lifted your left hand just enough for him to snatch it and it up bring it up to his chest. He began to write his number on the back of your hand.

You twitched to the sudden pressure he put against the skin with the ball of the pen.

neither of you spoke as he took his time to write. Your eyes instinctively fluttered shut, enjoying the gentle and subtle contact your body hasn’t felt for a very long time.

After finishing he gently let go of your hand. Bringing it back to yourself, you examined his work. Taking in the attempt he had made to try and hide his messy handwriting which failed beautifully.

You looked back up at him, your cheeks beaming red

“See you around, Arthur”

The air was heavy as you turned and walked away down the short hallway as fast as you could , overstimulated by everything that just happened. You needed to be alone outside again so you could breath and make sense of everything.

“See yuh” he let out softly, Barley enough for you to hear before shutting the main door behind you.

Once outside you turned and leaned your back against the old concrete wall, eyes shut and arms against your chest. You took a minute to breath. Once your heart rate slowed down you opened your eyes again and fumbled in your coat pockets again to light a cigarette. You took one long inhale then managed yourself to peel yourself off the wall and continue on with your day.

You were still very much flustered. You could not for the life of you stop thinking about what just transpired.

There was always a weird flirtatious vibe when you and Arthur had some time to converse,

but this was different.

You suddenly had a new feeling towards him that left bursts of butterfly’s go up your body.

You tried to shake it off as you got back on the train to go to your second job.

You were a little late. 10 minutes to be precise.

You walked through the doors of the laundry mat to find your boss, Nyle sitting at the register area looking not so amused

“You’re late, Y/N” he didn’t look up from his paperwork that was laid out on the desk

“I know I’m so sorry, I just..” You couldn’t lie. “I uh, my therapy app-“

“You think I need a fucking reason? You show up and do the fucking job. You only do three and a half god damn hours. If you can’t do something that fucking simple, you’re fired”

Tears sprung in your eyes at his words. You never got used to Nyle yelling at you. He was an old miserable man that was never happy no matter how well you preformed. Every little mistake was taken seriously.

“Y-you’re firing me?”

“Oh give me a break. You’re gonna cry now? You act like this the first time something like this has happened. You’re either late or you never do what I ask”

“I’ve only been late a small handful of times since I’ve worked here over a year ago! And I do what you ask of me all the time! It’s never good enough for you because your expectations don’t make any sense!”

Your breath caught in your throat and your body started to tremble. You shook as you felt heat rise all throughout yourself.

“Get out”

You turned and flung the doors open to leave, tears streaming down your face. You held on to yourself tightly as your turned into a dark ally and let yourself drop against the brick walls.

Audible cries left you and you didn’t care who was around to hear.

You took in your surroundings and didn’t see anybody. Piles of trash filled the ally and around yourself. You looked up but the cities buildings towered over blocking the sky.

You closed your eyes, your head raised against the brick. You muted your sobs so you could listen.

You heard a couple’s argument around the corner of the other side of the ally, sirens in the distance, more screaming that seemed even father away, and groups of laughing and clattering coming from a pub next to the ally side you just entered.

You started to silently laugh to yourself. Looking down at your cigarette, twisting and turning it between each finger. Your legs were half bent displayed out in front of you.

You stared at the amber of the cigarette while still listening to the cities commotion.

Without much thought you slowly turned the cigarette so the amber floated just centimeters from the back of your right hand. You slowly pressed it against your skin listening to the sizzle as it bubbled your delicate skin. You didn’t twitch or move to the sudden pain it Illuminated.

Instead you managed to display a small genuine smile.

The smell of burn skin hit your nostrils. You pushed harder until the cigarette was out completely, letting it fall from your hand.

Closing your eyes again you started singing softly to yourself.

( quick AN: Let’s stay together - Al Green)

Whatever you want to do

Is all right with me

Cause you make me feel so brand new

And I want to spend my life with you

You were talking about yourself

The familiar imaginary music beaming in your head. Your head stayed up against the cold brick, a sinful smile stretched ear to ear. Your arms laid stretched out to either side of your body Your voice cracking as you sung:

Oh baby

Let’s, let’s stay together

Lovin you whether, whether

Times are good or bad, or happy or sad

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[summerbreezeyy]

Love, Huh? - Chapter 6

Finally today arrived. The day you were meeting Yixing. After the dinner with the Oh’s, you texted him you were free the next day, but he had to be in China for a family wedding for a week. You met Yixing back when your ex was finding businesses to invest in, and his club was one of them. You didn’t instantly become friends with him, other than the fact that your ex was super jealous, Yixing was kinda scary at first. He had this intimidating aura, even your ex agreed. But you got closer. In secret though.

For the past week, the boys have barely left you alone. They would try to arrange their schedule so at least one of them would be home. You know they have many friends, especially Chanyeol. Even Kyungsoo has his routine hangouts with his group. And Sehun who likes to drink outside. But lately they’ve just been at home a lot. You overheard Chanyeol couple days ago talking to his friend, “Sorry babe, a bit busy tonight, the comeback is near. But I’ll see you next week at the show okay?” or when you unintentionally and accidentally saw a text message on Kyungsoo’s phone from ‘Kwangsoo-hyung’ that read “We miss you Soo-ya. Hope you can come next time!” when both of them (plus the youngest) were schedule-less and spent the whole night at home drinking with Sehun’s newly bought whiskey.

When all of them had to leave altogether one day, they called and texted you (or facetime at the clingy maknae’s case) all day. You wanted to tell them that you were okay, and to be alone for a couple of hours is totally manageable. But you didn’t, knowing that they still felt guilty (when they shouldn’t have) they couldn’t be there when you needed them. So you let them, do things that would ease their minds.

You told them about your plan today, since they had to finish everything up for their next week’s comeback. Like expected, when you were getting ready to meet Yixing, you checked your phone to find a lot of texts already came in the group chat, the one they already had before they added you in.

Yeollie [10:16] :

Hey @you awake yet?

Se [11:03] :

Sleepyhead wake up

You [12:24] :

Sorry just checked my phone. Been awake since 10 you ass @Se

Almost ready to head out tho, leaving in about 15 minutes. So excitedd!

When are you guys coming home tonight? I was thinking of Ramyeon night?

Kyungsoo [12:26] :

We should be home at around 8 or 9 I think. Don’t wait for us to have dinner. Chanyeol would pick a movie for tonight, but if you’re tired you can go to sleep early. Have fun with your friend and be careful.

Yeollie [12:26] :

At 8!

Oh Soo answered that already lol :p

Have fun we miss youuu!

Wait I thought you were meeting him at 1?

Se [12:27] :

My ass is great, you just jealous

You [12:27] :

*you’re

@Yeollie always the sweetest! I miss you guys too! And this morning when Xing told me the address, turned out the café is just a couple blocks away, so I’m walking there!

@Kyungsoo yes sir!

Se [12:27] :

Hmm.. Kinky

You [12:27] :

Shut up, you’re the only kinky ass in this gc fool, my eyes are still suffering from what I saw

Se [12:28] :

…

Okay I’m shutting up

Yeollie [12:29] :

Ohh! Tell me! I wanna know!

You [12:29] :

If Sehun continued being a brat I would happily tell you :)

Kyungsoo [12:29] :

Back to actually important thing, you’re gonna walk there? Can’t he pick you up or just take a cab instead. It’s safer.

You [12:30] :

I think I could walk just fine, Soo. No need to be paranoid. I’m not dying or anything. Gonna keep annoying your asses for a long time so count on it!

Se [12:31] :

You’ve been saying ‘ass’ waaay too many times today. Didn’t know you’re an ass-kinda girl

You [12:31] :

Sehun, I’m thiiis close to type in what I saw 3 christmas ago in your room when both your hyungs were visiting their parents

By the way, aren’t you guys supposed to be working now?

Get off of your phones! If they fired you and you’re jobless who’s gonna feed me :(

Yeollie [12:32] :

I’m lunching and Soo’s at makeup and Sehun is messing around like usual, we’ll keep our job just fine and you’re gonna be eating good food for the rest of our life!

Oh and by the way, we’re watching Captain America tonight ! But like Soo said, if you’re tired you could just go to sleep!

And please Sehun, keep being annoying. I can’t wait for when she’s fed up with you and finally tell us your kinks.

Se [12:32] :

Yes mommy

@Yeollie interested much ???

You [12:32] :

Ooh, I see, another kink. I’ll keep that in mind, baby ;)

By the way @Yeollie I still find it weird you’re Team Cap but ordered Iron Man costume instead. And don’t worry. I can sense it’s close to when I finally do :)

But not complaining about the movie tho, I got to stare at Chris Evans’ face (and abs and arms) for 2 hours, I don’t even think I’m gonna be sleepy.

Se [12:33] :

Why are you only mean to me :(

He’s weird that’s why! Everyone who’s Team Cap is weird!

You [12:33] :

Faulty logic. You’re Team Iron Man but still the weirdest out of all of us

Yeollie [12:33]:

*online high-five*

And Team Cap rocks!

You [12:33] :

Preach!

Se [12:34] :

@Kyungsoo hyuuung help me they’re bullying me :(

Kyungsoo [12:34] :

Oh I didn’t tell you? I’m also Team Cap.

Se [12:34] :

HYUNG! HOW COULD YOU?

You [12:34] :

Should we change this gc name to ‘Cap’s bitches’?

[12:35] Yeollie changed group name to “Cap’s Bitches”

Se [12:35] :

HYUNG SERIOUSLY!

Kyungsoo [12:35] :

Jesus

At this point you were laughing close to tears. You continued eating your lunch, a text came in, from Kyungsoo.

Kyungsoo [12:37] :

Hey you had lunch yet?

You [12:37] :

Eating rn!

Kyungsoo [12:37] :

Good. Don’t forget your meds too

You [12:37] :

Yes daddy

Kyungsoo almost choked on his drink, that his makeup noona looked at him weird.

“Funny pic,” he half-assedly explained.

You [12:37] :

Wait that came out weird

Sorry lol

Kyungsoo [12:38] :

You should thank God this is not the gc

You [12:38] :

Sehun won’t let it go I know :)

Hell I think Chanyeol would also tease me about it

By the way I’m gonna head out shortly

Have a fun day at work! See you tonight! xx

Kyungsoo [12:39] :

See you, and be safe.

Leaving Kyungsoo and the group chat (that was just filled with Sehun’s whining at this point) on read, you finished your dishes and went back to your room to grab your bag. Picking up the phone you left on the counter, you saw the last messages on the group chat.

Se [12:44] :

I hate everyone

[12:45] Se changed group name to “im leaving the band”

A laugh came out from you. Finally things were starting to be normal again. Except of course the constant nagging and worries from them. But you found yourself liking it, that they care about you. And of course, it did feel nice to bicker with Sehun after so long.

“I miss your bratty ass,” you smiled mumbling to no one.

When you were checking out the chat, someone rang the doorbell. Weird, no one was supposed to come over.

You [12:45] :

Hey anyone expecting someone today?

I thought the cleaner was supposed to come tomorrow?

After the quick texts, they didn’t answer and the bell rung again. So you took a look at the peephole, and found the person you didn’t expect standing in front of the door.

“BAEKHYUN!” you exclaimed.

“GIRLIE I MISSED YOU!” he then proceeded to hug you.

“What are you doing here?!”

Baekhyun let you go before answering, “Your boyfriends told me you needed company today!”

Ah, of course. The boys.

“They told me to come last week too, but I was busy so I couldn’t. I was so sad I couldn’t see you earlier. It’s been sooooo long!!” he explained.

You hugged once again, indeed, missing him. Before the shitshow happened, he was one of your closest friends other than the EXO, the boys’ band. You then told him you were meeting Yixing and he was more than happy to come with you.

So you walked with him to Yixing’s café. He started to talk about the things you missed out about him, like how he became the million seller with his last album, the first Korean solo artist to do so in 19 years (yes go off king), and some of the guys he dated. He also mentioned his plan to collab with Kyungsoo again and how he had high hopes about it, since the first made him got a best friend in the latter and also in you and the two others.

It took him about 10 minutes before asking, “So what happened?”

“Bad relationship, and like usual, they were there to pick up my pieces,” you answered with a sincere smile.

Baekhyun didn’t pry. And that was really what he really need to know. That you were okay.

15 minutes of walking and you finally arrived. And you didn’t even have to enter the café to find Yixing, he was standing on the entrance looking down to his watch and phone. He only looked over when you called his name, and you launched into each other’s arms.

“I’m sorry,” he whispered as he held you.

“Again, not your fault, and never will be.” You stepped back from him and introduced him to the other person. “This is Baekhyun, and this is Yixing,” you said to both and Yixing offered his hand. Baekhyun zoned out for a minute before shaking the other’s hand.

“Come in! And choose your favorite treat please!” the tallest welcomed you in.

After choosing the mouthwatering red velvet cake and rose tea for yourself, all three of you were seated in one of the tables.

“So I never knew you had a café,” you said to Yixing.

“You know I’m a sweet tooth. Once I’ve saved enough, this happened,” he gestured the café. “Have you been okay?”

“Yes, how ‘bout you?”

“Me? I’m okay. Well not really. I’m drowning in debts cause I made a leap of faith when this lot became available couple of months ago, so,” he laughed.

You laughed with him too, “Your parents are rich, Xing. You need to worry about nothing.”

“Exactly why I’m not depressed about the debts,” he paused to take a sip of his drink. “Is this one of the guys you live with?” he asked pointing at the guy sitting next to you, currently head deep in his strawberry watermelon cake.

You chuckled seeing Baekhyun’s excitement eating the treat. “No. He’s their friend though. Mine too.”

Realizing he was being talked about, he looked sheepishly to the both of you. “Sorry, this is really good,” he talked with his mouth full.

“By the way, where do you live? You said it’s not far?” Yixing asked you. When you told him the name of the building, his eyes widen. “No way.”

“What?”

“I live there too!”

“No way.”

“Do you live there too?” Yixing asked Baekhyun this time.

“Sadly, no.”

All of you ended up talking about music, with Baekhyun giving songs recommendation for Yixing to play in his café, most of them are his songs though. Not that anyone complained, his songs are bombs. Baekhyun also asked about business things, turned out he was thinking about opening up a clothes store for his brand.

“Sorry I have to take this,” Baekhyun said when his phone rang, and he walked out of the café.

“Does he know?” Yixing asked once Baekhyun left.

“A little bit.”

“The other guys?”

“They know.”

“Good. You need the support.” He paused again. “I’m really sorry though. I didn’t know it was that bad.”

“Like I’ve said over and over again, it is not your fault.”

“His mom called a couple days ago.”

Your breath hitched. “Why?”

“He’s been spiraling out of control.”

Your heart skipped a beat. “But why would she call you and not his friends?” They were friends yes, Yixing and your ex. But not that close.

“She asked my number around, knowing I know you, to ask me to tell you. She’s his mom but still a woman. She couldn’t ask you for this.”

“For what?”

“A call. To him.”

And this time you were sure you weren’t breathing. “What happened to him?” you asked him with your head hung low.

Yixing took your hand in his, “Drugs.”

Your head snapped up. “What?”

He took a deep breath before continuing to explain, “He did drug business behind my back at the club, another reason I closed it down other than the fact that all the investors left after what happened. And the police knew. That’s why they tried to push you into suing him, cause they don’t have enough proof to put him behind bars. He never used them before. But his mom told me he’s been doing it. And she begged me to let you know, to ask you to call him. Just once, to tell him to stop.”

Your head fell again, you were holding back tears. You were afraid, of him. You were afraid of what he did to you and also about what would happen to him.

“You don’t have to do it, not after what he did to you.”

“I… I’ll think about it,” you replied weakly.

“Don’t think too hard. I don’t agree with this too. I only told you because his mom literally begged me on her knees to let you know. But you don’t have to do anything you don’t want to, okay?”

You just nodded. When Baekhyun came back, you tried to fake a smile and masked your feelings. After about another hour, with promises of visiting in the future, you left. As both of you walked out of the café, you turned to your side to the guy who spent the last hour staring at your friend, “You know, he’s gay, he’s single, definitely ready to mingle, and I also noticed his interest in you” you watched his eyes twinkled, “Go get that dick,” you lightly smacked his bottom as he blushed and walked in once again to face the guy behind the cashier. You saw them pulling out their phones, clearly exchanging numbers. “Happy?” you asked as Baekhyun came out smiling wide.

“I just got myself a sugar daddy, of course I’m happy!”

“Oh don’t even try. He’s my sugar daddy.”

“Honey, you already have 3, you don’t need more.”

[mysteryofren]

Nice To See You’ve Made A Friend

part 12 of So Happy Together

Note: since i didnt upload for a few days you get 2 in a row!!

part 11: https://mysteryofren.tumblr.com/post/616033575057358848/the-first-order

  The next morning you woke up before the girls. You looked at how Gideon was asleep on El and how Phas was hanging off the air mattress with half her body on the floor. You smiled. These idiots were your friends. You picked your phone up and unlocked it. A message from Hux. 

‘So last night was pretty fun, but we still never discussed what happened.’

‘Yeah im sorry, i should've warned you before hand :/’ 

  You got up and headed to the kitchen. Gideon woke up and followed after you. You gave him his food and mixed his meds in with them. Luckily he was a good boy and took his meds with no fuss so you never had to hide it from him. While he ate you went around the kitchen looking for things you could use to make breakfast. First you made some eggs, then you had decided to make pancakes. As you were taking the ingredients out you heard a car pull up. You went to get the door and you watched your grandfather get out of his car.

“Ahh hello my dear, how are you?”

“I'm good. I hope you don't mind, my friends stayed the night it was late and they wanted to come with me.” 

“Of course not my love,” he walked in the house and put his bag down before hugging you. “Your friends are always welcome here.”

  You hugged him tight and helped him take his bag upstairs. When you reached his room you put his bag down on the bed. 

“There is something i need to discuss with you, but let's go downstairs so i can help you with breakfast.” oh no. up until now you forgot he knew about what you had done at school. You two headed downstairs as he started bringing down bowls to start mixing the ingredients. You brought down pans, and nervously looked at him. 

“I'm not angry. I know you'll have an explanation as to why you had skipped your classes.”

“I'm so sorry pop pop. I just was having a horrible day. I already spoke to Luke, and I explained it to him too, and I apologized. He knows I don't intend to miss class again. “

“I know he let me know he spoke to you. What happened, my love? You've never done something like that and I heard from my friend Mace that your grades had gone down. What's wrong, tell me.”

You felt tears welling up in your eyes. You turned to him and hugged him as they fell down your cheeks.

“It's a long story pop pop.” 

“We have time my dear.” 

 You both started cooking, and you told him about everything. You told him about how Ben had consoled you after the phone call with your parents. How he talked to you and listened to you. How you both had talked for days. How on new years he kissed you, and you two spent the rest of the night glued to each other like you two were in love. Then you talked about how he ignored you, and how you found out he was with Rey. you told him about the good things too. Like how you and Matt became friends. How you guys formed the first order. The lunches on the lawn, the late dinners at Maz’s diner, and the trip to the ice cream shop. The funny conversations and stupid debates. You also talked about the night before. The way you guys all skated and sang along to the music, the games you guys played, and conversations you had. Then you went into how Rey had ruined it. 

“That does sound like quite the story. I'm so sorry that all this has happened to you my love. Do you think that something could have happened with Ben?”

“I don't know, but I don't wanna sit on it. It just makes me more upset.”

“No problem my love. Don't let him and your cousin get to you. You're too beautiful and too smart to dwell on one boy. I know you'll find someone who loves and adores you.”

“I know i will. It's just he's the first guy i've ever felt this way for.”

“You'll feel it again, trust me. Before i met your grandmother i met a woman who i thought i would marry. She broke my heart badly, and I thought that was it for me, but then I met your grandmother.”

   It was weird to think of him loving anyone else. Him and mama had seemed like they were with each other forever. You two had finished cooking when Phasma and El came downstairs. El hugged your grandfather when phas went to him to say hello.

“Phasma i haven't seen you in a while, how have you been?”

“I'm very well sir, how about you?” it's a little weird how quickly she can change from her normal goofy self to an overly formal robot. You guys grabbed plates and served yourself and went out to the backyard to eat. You watched Gideon trot around chasing little bugs, and watching squirrels play. Your heart was so full of love for him. He's probably your new best friend. Your grandfather joined you guys for breakfast. You all ate and listened as your grandfather told stories. He asked about what Phas and Elaine were up to. Elaine had told him about the NYU coach coming to her game. You all talked about it for a moment when he decided to go to the game along with you and the rest of the group.

After you all had finished eating your grandfather announced that he would be having to go back to work in his home office. After he left you three together you decided that you would all go to the dog park with Gideon. As you cleaned after breakfast you received another message from Hux.

‘I agree. Not that i didn't enjoy kissing you, but i was caught off guard. Had i known it as going to happen i would have made it better.’

‘Well next time ill let you know when im gonna do it ;)’ were you really flirting with Hux. Are you really this desperate. No. it's not desperate. It's harmless flirting, you both know there's nothing behind it. 

‘So what are you ladies up to today?’ 

‘Were taking my dog to the dog park, and then we might have lunch at the park but were debating on it’

‘I don't understand how you can handle a dog. Cats are far superior.’ 

‘And how would you know?’ 

Just then he sent you a picture of him. You could tell it was a bit old, but he was in sleep clothes with a tiny ball of orange fur in his lap. 

‘This is Mllicent. I took her on her first day home with me. When I brought her home with me my dorm mate and I agreed to keep her a secret as to not get in trouble.’ another photo came through this time the cat was a bit bigger. She was curled up on a laptop. 

‘HUX SHES BEAUTIFUL!!!!!’ you sent back. 

‘She means everything to me. She's a little ray of sunlight in this dark disgusting school. I plan on bringing her with me to college.’ 

‘I hope they let you, it'd be sad if you had to leave her at home.’ 

 You decided to run upstairs and start getting ready with the girls. You told them about Hux’s cat, but apparently Phas already knew. Once you all finished getting ready you decided you were going to do the picnic. You all made sandwiches and grabbed some extra snacks when you figured you would invite Hux and Matt. you shot em both a text when Hux told you he couldn't, because he had to work on his entrance essay. Matt agreed and asked if you could take his dog. You remembered Ben telling you about Chewie. You agreed and made Matt a sandwich too. 

You all packed the car, and made sure to grab some things for Gideon and Chewy. Before leaving you ran upstairs to say goodbye to your grandfather. You were about to knock on his door when you heard he was talking to someone. 

“Maybe if you called her, you would know she is in fact not okay. She's going through a lot and her father and mother ignoring her is not helping one bit!” he was talking about you but with who? You heard nothing for a moment then you heard him speak again. 

“No don't bother, i've already spoken to her, she's promised it won't happen again and i believe her.”

Another pause. 

“Alden not to be rude, but i think i know her more than you do. Maybe if you took the time to do so you would learn she's quite the woman. She's a good student, a good friend, and she's truthful. She had her reasons as to why she had done it, but i have full confidence that she won't be doing it again.” 

Alden. He was talking to your father. He knew you had skipped. He cared enough to want to know about it, but not enough to call you and ask about it?

“No Alden. I refuse to let you pick and choose when you want to be a parent, now if you will excuse me I have to work to get done before she gets back tonight.” why was he concerned with what you were doing all of a sudden? He's right, your father can't pick and choose when he wants to step in. you waited a few minutes before stepping inside so he wouldn't assume you had heard everything. 

“Alright pop pop were off.” 

“Alright my dear let me know when you get back we have been invited to the Skywalker house once again for dinner.” oh great more Ben. 

“Yes sir!” you gave him a little salute before running down stairs. You got down to the car and told the girls about what your grandfather told you. You all talked about it, and they offered to go with you, but you let them know you would be fine. If Ben went then that meant Matt had to go too. That made you feel a bit better. 

 When you arrived at the dog park you looked around desperately for the mop of blonde that was Matt. You saw him sitting down on a bench throwing a ball for chewie. You all ran over to greet him, and you watched as he interacted with El. they were so cute you wish she would get over her rule and just be with him. They were made for each other you were sure of it. You all spent the day playing with the dogs and laughing together. Gideon and Chewie seemed to really love playing together. Eventually you all got hungry and the dogs were tiring out. You put them on their leashes and went by the woods in the park to eat your lunch. Phas laid out the blanket you had brought while Matt got the dogs to sit down by the blanket. Elaine brought out the food and drinks while you poured water and dog food into bowls for the dogs. You all started to eat when you heard Matt say your name.

“So I heard my grandparents invited you and your grandfather to dinner. If it helps i'm gonna be there too.” 

“That helps a little, but that just means Ben is gonna be there too.” 

“Yeah but, it'll be fun. It'll be you and me against everyone else there.”

 You stayed at the park a few hours before it started getting a little too cold. You all cleaned your area and said your goodbyes to Matt and Chewie. You drove the girls back to the dorms before heading to your grandfathers. You got to the house and ran in with Gideon. He slowly walked in and went straight up to your room to lay down. You went upstairs and started getting ready for the worst night ever. You didn't know if it would be bad or not, but for some reason something in you said it was going to be bad. Very. Bad. you still got ready to go anyways. You figured if there was anything you could do it was look good and happy as a big fuck you to Ben. you were shaking as you got ready. Why was your anxiety so bad right now? Matt was going to be there so everything was going to be fine. If anything did happen between you two you know Matt would step in he did before. Your grandfather would surely raise hell if Ben tried anything. Oh god what if Rey was there with him? Your grandfather would certainly keep her from doing anything like what she did the night before. 

  Your grandfather called you from downstairs. It was time. You went down stairs trying to steady your breathing. When you reached the last step you saw him giving Gideon his medicine. You both got in the car and he drove in silence. Why were you feeling worse? What was happening to you? 

“It's like each time we go to this house you're nervous. You look like you might cry.”

“Yeah i don’t know whats wrong with me. I just feel anxious. It's like some force is telling me not to go.”

“I assure you it will all be fine. Your friend Matt will be in there so you won't even have to interact with Ben. Luke knows about Ben not speaking to you either, but Ben wont say why.”

“Pop pop you told him?!” 

“Ben did. He told him the day before you skipped.” he was ignoring you that day. Great. You pulled into the familiar driveway of Anakin and Padme's house. You stepped out of the car and it felt like you couldn’t breath. Your grandfather held your hand tight as you walked up to the front doors. He knocked on the door and it opened on the other side stood Matt.

“Mr.Kenobi!” he said while shaking his hand. “It's so good to finally meet you sir, im a close friend of Y/N’s.” 

He smiled at Matt’s enthusiasm, as he shook his hand. “You must be Matt, my granddaughter and her best friend speak highly of you. I'm glad to finally meet you in person.” 

  He walked away, you assumed to find Luke when Matt closed the door. 

“So he's here, but lucky for you we can go hang out in my room until Dinner.” you agreed and he took you to his room. You walked in and were surprised. It didn't seem like it would have belonged to him. He had some gaming things by the tv, but he also had some instruments, and music posters. He explained that him and all his brothers play an instrument of some sort. He keeps his at his parents and grandparents house. He had a keyboard on one corner, and a guitar on his bed. He put the guitar in the corner by the keyboard to make room for you. The two of you sat and spoke for about an hour when someone knocked on the door. 

“Dinners ready. Mom saved you and your friend a seat.” it was Ben. so he wasn't even saying your name now?

“Something in me is saying i shouldn't go down there.” you whispered. Matt grabbed your hand. 

“Listen you have me down there. Whatever you think he's gonna do. He's not gonna do it. He already knows not to fuck with my friends.” you both got up and walked down. You saw everyone at the table. Leia and Han were here. There were 2 other people. 2 faces you had hoped you wouldn't have to see for another year. The man stood up as you walked in with Matt. he saw the look on your face and held your hand. The man walked over to you and Matt. 

“Hello Y/N, nice to see you’ve made a friend.”

 You were speechless as you looked over to your grandfather. He looked as shocked as you. It felt like all the blood had drained your body. You knew why you were panicking. Your parents were here.

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Big News

Summary: Sarah and Ava have big news for the groupchat.

WC: ~1.5k

[Other Bekker renamed the chat “HOUSE PARTY”]

Other Bekker: it’s official

Other Bekker: i own a house

Other Bekker: with my WIFE!!!!!!

Bekker: We’re throwing a housewarming party and everyone’s invited!

Dr. Lanik: What’s the dress code

Other Bekker: casual if you wear a suit ill kill you

Ethan Choi: When? 

Bekker: We were thinking it would start at around six or seven? It would mean a lot to us if Crockett could make it.

FreeWilly: Will there be alcohol?

Other Bekker: some of us are sober. No

no-ah: I’m in

Maggie<3: Wait who’s sober other than Crockett?

Dr. Lanik: Me

Other Bekker: me

connor: @OtherBekker there was an open bar at your wedding

Bekker: Circumstances change

Ethan Choi: This is such a fun conversation. Let’s not have it.

April: So back to the party… details!

Other Bekker: ill send the address in a bit but its gonna be potluck style. Everybody brings food. itll be pretty casual so dont be that asshole (@Dr.Lanik). starting at six ish and ending at maybe 10 or 11 depending on how tired we all are

Ethan Choi: Crockett’s program usually ends at like 5:30 so we might be a little late?

Other Bekker: ok sounds good. how is he btw

Ethan Choi: Pretty well. He’s outpatient for another few weeks and then his doctors are going to discuss long term options. Hopefully he’ll be back at work soon, too

April: Tell him we’re proud of him?

Ethan Choi: As soon as I pick him up tonight.

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Sarah: are we telling them tonight?

Wifey: I was thinking so, yes. I mean, we have our house, and the paperwork went through.

Sarah: im so excited

Wifey: Me too, honey

-

Nat: Not to alarm anybody but whoever’s in charge of Connor right now, come to treatment 4

FreeWilly: love the implication that we take turns babysitting him

Dr. Lanik: We kind of do. I think it’s Maggie’s turn.

Maggie<3: I’m not at work. Who’s next in line?

April: @QueenElsa

Queen Elsa: Fine

connor: im a big boy i can take care of myself

Nat: You literally have a concussion

Ethan Choi: Why?

Nat: He fainted after a surgery. His sugar is low on the finger prick and he said he hasn’t had any water since his shift started

Dr. Lanik: @connor We’ve talked about this

connor: ok boomer

Dr. Lanik: @connor Stop calling me a boomer! We’re the same age!

connor: ok

connor: boomer

Bekker: Can you grow up @connor

connor: no

Queen Elsa: Update for everyone, Connor is getting a CT. He’s eating a Snickers bar right now and we’re pushing fluids

FreeWilly: youre not you when youre hungry

Dr. Lanik: @Bekker @OtherBekker What day will your housewarming party be? My daughter’s birthday is Friday.

Maggie<3: IM SORRY YOUR WHAT

Other Bekker: ?????

Bekker: We were thinking Saturday.

April: @FreeWilly Did you know about this???????

FreeWilly: uh yeah?

no-ah: Why did none of us know you had a daughter?

Dr. Lanik: I just don’t see how it’s any of your business.

Nat: How old is she? Who’s her mother? What school does she go to? How did we go this long without knowing?

[Dr. Lanik has sent an image to the chat]

Dr. Lanik: This is Emma, she’s almost eleven, and this is the most information any of you will ever be getting about her.

Ethan Choi: Well this has been a wild ride

Other Bekker: now taking bets on how crockett will react. $10 says he thinks its a joke

no-ah: Coward. He knows everything. $20 says he already knew.

Other Bekker: youre on

Queen Elsa: ...Anyways, Connor’s CT came back alright. It’s a minor concussion; he’ll be fine soon. 

Maggie<3: That’s good

Dr. Lanik: @FreeWilly and I will look after him.

Ethan Choi: Just picked up Crockett, he says hi. He also has letters for each of you as part of his process

Nat: That’s sweet

Ethan Choi: I have been assured none of them contain nudes

Other Bekker: thank g-d

Ethan Choi: I’ll be giving them to you all at work.

Ethan Choi: Crockett will be cooking something I won’t even try to pronounce for the housewarming party

Other Bekker: his cooking is all so good...

no-ah: It slaps

Queen Elsa: Is it that pasta thing??? With the crawfish????

Ethan Choi: Honestly, I don’t know.

Nat: Owen and I are bringing cookies.

Bekker: Important question, @Dr.Lanik… will Emma be coming?

Dr. Lanik: No. I don’t want her near any of you.

connor: hes got a point

Maggie<3: Have you never, in your life, had to bring her to a doctor?

Dr. Lanik: We use East Mercy so that you all keep your noses out of my life.

FreeWilly: ouch

April: I mean, if I had a daughter, I wouldn’t want any of you near her either.

Nat: Harsh, I trust you with my son

April: You’re different.

Bekker: Do I hear wedding bells?

Nat: @April What if we kissed in the doctor’s lounge… and we’re both girls?

Nat: Haha just kidding

Nat: Unless…?

April: Did you just hit on me with a meme

Nat: Did it work?

Other Bekker: another win for the gaydies

Other Bekker: THEY BOTH JUST WENT INTO THE DOCTORS LOUNGE JHGFKHFRH

Ethan Choi: Crockett laughed 

connor: do you read these messages to him?

Ethan Choi: Sometimes. He likes to be in the loop.

FreeWilly: hot take but. we could just add him back to the chat?

Ethan Choi: He’s not ready for that yet, but he does like to be updated on your lives and one-on-one texting is stressful for him

Other Bekker: we spend more time talking about crockett now than we did when he was in the chat

no-ah: Sweet I have my Crockett letter

Ethan Choi: I'll put them in your lockers. My shift is starting so I'm turning my phone to silent. 

Other Bekker: Crockett Time

Bekker: Did he write me one?

Other Bekker: @Bekker both mine and yours are in my locker i think. one is for "blonde bekker" and one is for "brunette bekker"

no-ah: That's what he has your contacts saved as 

Queen Elsa: Mine is just a smiley face sticker in an envelope?

Other Bekker: jsyk we should probably keep these private! this is important to him

Maggie<3: I'm so excited to see him again on Saturday, I've missed him.

FreeWilly: He's been busy. I think his program is like eight to five every day but Sunday

Nat: What's that even like?

Other Bekker: they have an in house aa group that meets a few times a day and theres a ton of other support like therapy to get to the root of the problem. i mean before he got sober the first time he was self medicating 

Other Bekker: he does a lot of art therapy i think. when he was inpatient he kept mailing paintings to my wife and i 

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Curry (Not Dr.): Hey, it's Elsa Curry from Med. Sarah gave me your number. I was just wondering why you gave me a sticker?

Crockett: dont u put them on the inside of your binder? the one u put ur case notes in at the end of ur shift 

Curry (Not Dr.): How did you know that?

Crockett: u pull ur binder out when ur stressed to reference old cases. i thot u might like another sticker so u know ur not in this alone

Crockett: :)

-

[crickett has renamed the chat "dick bros"]

crickett: @connor do u wanna fuck again this weekend lmao

connor: ???

connor: i thought that was a one time thing

Ethan Choi: It doesn't have to be. 

-

Maggie<3: @Bekker @OtherBekker Sorry I'm running a little behind! I couldn't find my keys

Bekker: No harm, no foul!

[Bekker has sent an image to the chat]

Bekker: Definitely hurry, we're having so much fun!

-

Crockett: baby

HUBBY: I'm sitting right beside you.

Crockett: ik but im feeling kinda overwhelmed 

HUBBY: Do you want to go home?

Crockett: i think i just need air will you cover for me if someone comes looking

-

Other Bekker: THANK YOU @Maggie<3 FOR ACTUALLY HELPING CLEAN UP 

FreeWilly: sorry!

connor: sorry ahhhhhh i didnt think about it 

Nat: Congrats again, you two, this is huge!

April: ^^

no-ah: Will we get to meet her, or will she be a secret like Laniks daughter?

Bekker: You'll all definitely get to meet her, but let's not do so much at once? Adjusting to a new home is hard, and from what the adoption agency tells us, she's had a rough go of it.

no-ah: Of course! 

Queen Elsa: No little girl could have a better home! Congratulations on your daughter and I wish you really good luck. If you ever need help, we're all here!

Dr. Lanik: She's about eight, right?

Bekker: Yes

Dr. Lanik: If she needs help adjusting, let me know, and maybe Emma and I can help. She was about that age when I adopted her.

connor: the Lanik lore we are getting today omg

Dr. Lanik: You'll both be great parents, and @OtherBekker don't hesitate to let me know if you need extra time off. This is a big deal and you shouldn't have to stress about work when you should be worrying about your family. @Bekker I'll also ask Dr. Latham to be lenient with you as well.

Other Bekker: thank you from both of us <3

connor: who knew lanik had a heart. 

#chicago med #fic #mine #medgroupchat

[winterflash-2019]

Crossing Paths pt 7

part 6

It’s been a month since the incident at CCPN and Barry has been avoiding you like the plague. You called and texted him at least 100 times but each time you never got a response. You tried to tell yourself that he was probably busy but at the end of the day your thoughts of him possibly breaking up with you returned. Here you are walking into Jitters with your laptop. You still went to Jitters because it gave you some sort of closure, it’s where you come for inspiration on your articles and temporarily forgetting about Barry. You ordered Barry’s usual for yourself this time and sat at the same table you sat at every day.

 Sighing you opened your laptop and got to work it wasn’t long before you heard the name “Barry” so you turned around to see him standing at the counter for coffee. You quickly get up and make your way towards him, reaching out you touch his shoulder and his eyes widen when he sees you.

“Can we talk” you could tell he was purposely avoiding eye contact with you and you feel your heart slowly breaking. He grabs his coffee before following you to your table.

“Did I do something” you were so nervous and scared as you looked at your hands in your lap. You felt Barry’s eyes burning a hole in your head but you never look up at him. 

“No”

“Then why are you avoiding me…am I not good enough”

“No y/n, you’re perfect I-I just thought we needed some space”

“ Why? Nothing happened…you said it yourself I did nothing wrong”

“Y/n please-“

“No Barry tell me what’s on your mind”

“I think we should…break-“

“No”

 “What”

“I said no” 

“Y/n you don’t understand”

“I understand and I said no Barry you don’t get to make that decision”

“You could get hurt then what am I supposed to do” this causes you to look up with anger surging through your veins. He avoided you for a whole month and now he thinks he can make the decision to break up with you…no it’s not going to end that way.

“Barry do you know how dumb that sounds? I will be in more danger if we’re not together you think I’m a target now I’ll surely be one if we ever broke up…it’s only a matter of time until you find me dead in-“

“Don’t say that” he interrupts with a snarky tone. He completely hated when you said bad things about yourself but he had to admit the fact that you were right. He never thought about it that way, vengeful metas will surely use you as leverage and he can’t have that.

 You grabbed his hand from across the table which brought him away from his thoughts. 

“Listen Barry, I know you get scared sometimes…I do too but we have to stick together because I-I love you Barr” your voice was so quiet and calming. It was true Barry loved you and of course he heard you say it before but that was future you.

“What did you just say”

“I said I love you Barry” Barry smiles brightly at you and you smile back with a giggle

“I love you too”

-----

Later that day you convinced Barry to spend the night at your place since he let Iris have the loft and he didn’t want to go back to Joe’s place so you thought about asking him to stay with you. Barry sat on the couch reading your article while you were making dinner.

“Babe this is so good” he calls out from the living room

“You really think so” you said now standing in the entrance of the kitchen with a big smile on your face and Barry chuckles at how cute you look.

“Of course baby” he gets off the couch and wraps you in his embrace. Your nerves were all out of wack asking Barry to move in with you seemed so easy but hard at the same time.

“Barry can I ask you something” He looks at you with a smirk

“Anything” 

“Well I was thinking and I was wondering if you maybe…wanted to move in with me” you held your breath as you waited for his response. Barry opened his mouth but words never came out, he was shocked, excited, and nervous at the same time.

“Are you serious”

“Absolutely”

Barry smiles and kisses your nose “Hell Yeah I’ll move in with you”

You laugh as a tear fall out your eye while trying to wipe it away quickly.

“Why are you crying” he chuckled

“I was scared you would say no” you mumble and he shakes his head at you before playfully shoving you back in the kitchen.

“I still have to get the rest of my things at the loft this weekend” he says while walking down the hall and to the bathroom.

You heard a knock on the door but thinking Barry was still in the living room you continued cooking. You heard a few more hard knocks on the door so you turned the stove off and looked in the living room 

“Barry?” You looked around the room but you see nothing, shrugging it off you walk to the door

“Who is it” you ask but no one answers

“Hello?” You swing the door open and you see an older looking man with gray curly hair in a wheelchair and a woman with long black hair standing next to him.

“So sorry to disturb you this evening Ms. L/n, is Mr.Allen here” you look at the man confused as to why he wanted Barry this time of night.

“Why do you need him” 

“Just to discuss some things from work”

“Don’t you have his number”

“Well Ms. L/n I just started working at the precinct not too long ago” you look at the woman who smiled at you but before you could ask another question you hear footsteps behind you.

“Babe- y/n stop close the door” Barry’s eyes widen when he sees Devoe at your door, he didn’t want to alarm you so he calmly tells you to close the door.

“Why? What’s going on”

“That won’t be necessary now Barry” Devoe challenges and you felt a wind push you back and the door was slammed.

“Barry what’s going on” You ask but Barry was running around tossing things in a bag. Deveo knew where you lived now and Barry did not want you here by yourself so he had to do the only thing he didn’t want too…take you to Star labs. 

“Barry” you called out, your tone sterner and he stops running to face you

“What the hell is going on”

“You can’t stay here” he whispers and you frown

“Why not”

“I can’t explain everything now but please just trust me” you sigh and nod your head and Barry picks you up and runs to Star labs. When your feet hit the ground a wave of nausea hits you and you fall to your knees, vomiting all over the floor.

“Y/n” Barry rubs your back and hold your hair with his free hand while you finish throwing up your insides.

“Okay I’m not cleaning that up” Cisco says as he folded his arms and Caitlin looks at you curiously as you wipe your mouth with your sleeve.

“Cait can you take y/n to the med bay please, I have to talk to Cisco and Harry” Caitlin nods and you look at the red-headed woman who looks at you with sympathy as she helps you off the floor.

“I’ll explain everything okay” she tells you and you look at Barry, your heart racing. You didn’t know what was going on or why he was so panicky all of a sudden all you know is to trust him so you followed the woman that you now know as Caitlin.

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“So, you’re saying Devoe wants y/n” Cisco asked for the 5th time and Barry internally groans

“Yes, Cisco that’s exactly what I’m saying, but why is the question” Barry hears footsteps and he turns to see you behind Caitlin looking exhausted. Harry looks at you, thinking to himself about how strange you were acting.

“Barry how about you and y/n go back home” he looks at Barry who was now by your side.

“Harry I already said I can’t y/n has to-“

“You’re capable of taking care of her if anything goes down; she needs to go home and get some rest…now” Harry walks off and Barry loos at Cisco who just shrugs his shoulders.

“Barry, I think it will be best for you to walk her home, she needs fresh air plus there’s a huge possibility she’ll throw up again if you use your speed”. Caitlin quietly tells Barry and he nods before grabbing your hand, leading the way out the lab.

“Barry…is Devoe part of the reason future me came here” your quiet voice asks and Barry stops walking and looks down at your tired expression.

“Yeah” he whispers and you feel your eyes water but you couldn’t hold them in so you sob while the tears glide down your face. All in wanted in life was to be happy and when you met Barry that’s exactly what he made you but now Devoe seems to want to ruin everything for you.

“Y/n hey listen to me it’s okay…I promise everything will be okay” he wraps his arms around your small frame and you cried even harder as more sobs took over your body. Thing is you’ve been more emotional the whole month Barry avoided you and throwing up tonight wasn’t the first time.

“Come on let’s get you home”

----

3 weeks later you felt super sick. You hated the smell of coffee now and you were craving nothing but ice cream and French fries. You sat at your desk once again struggling with your report but not because of writers block mainly because of how sick you became second by second, your boss had came in with a cup of coffee and you almost started gagging from the smell. Your boss stands in front of your desk with his coffee in hand causing you to vomit in the trash can by your desk.

“Whoa y/n are you okay”

“I’m fine” your voice was hoarse from the vomit session you just had and your boss just looks at you with an eyebrow raised.

“Go home y/n” he says and you nod thinking about going home and taking a hot shower sounded nice right about now. You said your goodbyes before cleaning up your desk and stuffing your laptop in your computer bag. You let out a frustrated sigh as your skirt limited your movements, you walk out the door and breathe in the fresh air almost feeling better…almost.

When you got home you immediately stripped your clothing and hopped in the shower. When you got out you threw on one of Barry’s long-sleeved shirts before laying on the couch and calling Barry. When he answered you could tell he was talking to Joe but soon he says hello in the phone and you tried not to gag while Barry was on the phone.

“I’m sorry babe but I have to cancel on lunch today”

“Why…is it work?”

“No not work um i-im sick I go home not too long ago”

“Well I’ll be there in-“

“Babe no Singh needs you at the CCPD”

“And you need me at home, you’re more important” you smile at Barry’s words before you hear him clear his throat.

“I’ll be there in 5” and with that he hangs up the phone

---

When Barry gets home you weren’t on the couch, he heard you in the bathroom throwing up your insides again. He hurries and rubs your back while pulling your hair out your face.  When you finish you flush the toilet and rub your forehead.

“Babe what did you eat?” He asks with his nose scrunched up and you tiredly look up at him with watery eyes.

“I don’t know” you cry and Barry picks you up bridal style and carries you to the bedroom, gently laying you down on the bed he grabs blankets and pillows so you could get comfortable. You look up and you see him with big belly burger and you were beyond relieved.

“I have to run down to the lab babe you think your fine here by yourself” Barry asks, he was so scared to leave you by yourself since he knows Devoe is now after you and you could tell but you nod your head already half way asleep.

 -----

Barry was bouncing his knee while glaring at the floor, its been 3 hours since he left you and he wanted to go home.

“guys are we done yet, y/n’s sick and she needs me” His voice causes the other to stop what they were doing and look at him. Caitlin looked at Harry and he nods

“You’re free to go Barry” with that being said Barry was gone in a flash but when he gets home all the lights were off, figuring you turned them off and went back to bed he went to check on you except you weren’t there. 

“No…y/n”

 -----

 You woke up with a rope tied around you, looking at your surroundings you realized there were none just like there wasn’t a…ground? You looked down to see you were suspended in the air only hanging by a piece of rope which causes you to panic.

“Hello, Ms. L/n” you look up to see the same man in a wheel chair except he was in a floating chair.

“Devoe” You growl and he presses a button, causing a blue scan to go over your body and he chuckles before looking back at you.

“Party for 2 my dear” he smirks but before he could say anything you hear a voice that instantly calms you.

“Let her go” Barry growls and Devoe’s face turn red with anger as he presses another button and the rope jerks a little causing you to let out a scream 

“IF YOU HURT HER I’LL KILL YOU” Barry screams, he was done playing Devoe’s games he took it entirely too far and Barry was going to end it.

“Oh Barry, I’m not going to hurt her…the baby could get hurt and then I wouldn’t be able to kill it” Devoe taunts and your eyes widened, you couldn’t be pregnant…could you?

Barry freezes when the word baby comes out Devoe’s mouth, it would explain why you were emotional and vomiting lately but he couldn’t lose focus now or Devoe will hurt you.

“Barry he’s just messing with your head, focus on my voice barr” you call out and Devoe snarls

“You stupid woman, I just found out from my scan…you see Barry ms. l/n here is indeed pregnant so congrats” Devoe presses the last button and the rope snaps and you go free falling towards the hard ground and Barry races to catch you if it wasn’t for you fear of heights you wouldn’t have passed out.

tag list” @onceuponateenpanwolfian

That cliff hanger though ;) but please tell me what you guys thought about this, I was literally at school typing this any chance I got. 

-winterflash-2019

#Barry Allen #barry allen x reader #barry allen imagine #cw #The Flash #iris west #caitlin snow #cisco ramon #harry wells #grant gustin #grant gustin x reader

[thedappleddragon]

hooray I think I was productive today :) friends can read this time (except cassidy, you gotta leave, birthday spoilers) but if you figure out my secret project dont tell anybody 

uhhh I dont remember much of this morning other than I just wanted to keep sleeping and my cat was probably clawing at my sheets again. I knew I needed some tape so I could tape together patten pieces for my project and my mom needed meds picked up, so I gathered my things and went to the store by myself with my mom’s card and a short shopping list. all fuckin morning I kept repeating the Minecraft creeper song and the clip from “Korone saying eating Myke Tyson's ass Good Ending” where she has the birthday cake hat. so imagine me, sitting in my car, singing “eating, mike Tyson’s, ass. NOOO” on repeat while looking for a parking space. I ended up walking laps around the store because I didn't know where they kept the fuckin hummus and I had to text my sister and ask. then there was SO much trouble at the pharmacy. basically they didnt have my mom’s insurance on file so I put her on speakerphone while she acted like a boomer not being able to read her own insurance card. the worst part is that because the pharmacy lady was talking to my mom over the phone, I couldn't kill time and be on my phone. so I had to just STAND THERE staring into the middle distance for entirely too long playing with the 2 sets of keys I had clipped to my hand purse wallet thingy. at least I felt cool in my outfit and my boots. eventually it all pretty much worked out and I got to bring home 2 out of her 5  medications and all the groceries. but the lady at checkout thought I was struggling with the machine or an idiot or something (or maybe she was trying to be helpful, whatever) and came over to help me like 3 times. like!! I'm sorry im tired and a little overstimulated and like to take my damn time!! whatever its fine lol. afterwards I drove over to dollar tree to get tape, but I ended up getting a lot of other things too. I saw that they had a brand of tape where you could buy extra rolls without the plastic thing that holds them so I got both. there was also satin ribbon which I was very tempted to get to add to my project, but since I did have fabric to color match to I put it away. instead I got a set of tiny jars, glitter, and craft glue to make into liquid glitter jars. my first idea was to maybe make them into a necklace with fake flowers and shrinky dink fairy wings, but I think they'll just be for decoration. I wanted a snack while I was there and got some crackerjack, like from the baseball song. if you didnt know, yeah its real and its just candied popcorn and peanuts with a little sticker inside. but its really damn good! that's why I ate 2 out of the 3 boxes kn the back and shared the 3rd with my dad. after checkout I sat in the parking lot eating crackerjack straight from the box since I forgot hand sanitizer and watching tiktoks. when I tried to go home there was a huge line of cars outside the entrance to the neighborhood with an ambulance in there and police lights up front, so I turned the other way and took the other entrance. when I came home I found my mom in the process of ripping up carpet in front of her bathroom so she can replace it with tile. we had discussed this earlier today but I thought this would be an eventually project, not a today project. so I spent some time cutting carpet, ripping up foam, sweeping, and prying away the spiky wooden boarders. we need to either remove or hammer down some nails that go down into the concrete before we can start laying down tiles. I spent some time taping together my pattern pieces, cutting 1cm strips off the side of 25 pieces of paper until I got 5 long lines of 5 sheets that I would need to match up and tape together. I didnt have enough space on my bed so I brought it all out to the kitchen floor. it was the biggest clean flat surface in the house I could think of. I got frustrated about pieces not fitting perfectly and my printer cutting off important parts at the very bottom of pages, but I made it work. I roughly cut around each piece and when I brough them all back to my room, I saw my cat had gotten sick on my bed which made me more frustrated. she was asleep on my blankets and very warm so when I picked her up I was worried for a moment that she might have a fever, but she’s fine. I let her out of my room so I could take off the sheet she messed up and ran it and a couple other things through the wash. for the rest of the afternoon I let my cat stay outside without me, and she ended up staying outside for hours, never straying too far from the door but not coming inside when I invite her. I'd check up on her every so often and set her food dish. my sister kept asking me to find my wallet that had mom’s card in it which frustrated me more, and by now I was also getting hangry, so I was fuckin mad and tired and needed to be alone in my room for a bit. I have her card info saved on my phone so I just texted that to her so she could pay for food. I noticed my dad’s boss had called me and I missed it, so I called him back nd he just said It would be a couple days before any updates. I wish he would have just texted me but whatever. I sat outside with my cat while we ordered, making sure she was ok and wasn't hurting her eyes in the sun. I went in the car to pick up food but made my sister go in alone. we ate together in her room while I watched tiktoks and she worked on homework. after that I looked at the stuff u got from dollar tree and started making the 5 mini glitter jars in the bathroom. they all turned out pretty cute, but the pink and red ones are lowly leaking baby oil through the cork stopper. after that I had 2 tiny jars left, so I shoved in dried rose petals and baby’s breath and crushed leaves, all from the flowers my dad got me for valentines day. I think they turned out ADORABLE, and I'm going to borrow some earring making supplies from a friend who bought them in bulk to start a small buisness of reselling aliexpress charms as earrings but quit after a while and still had a ton of leftover supplies. I think I might want to add some twine and shrinky dink fairy wings to the earrings, so I spent a while making 2 test pieces and fucking up a scrap piece to test how to make the hole for the earring hardware. I talked to my dad bout my whole process when he walked in on me preheating the oven, and he agreed to buy the smallest drill bit the hardware store had to offer so I could just drill the hole after baking. luv u papa <3 by then it was getting a little late so I went back to my room. I only have a week or so to finish my project, and I didnt want to get into pinning and cutting fabric tonight, so instead I prepped my patterns. I zoomed into the pattern pdf so it was life sized and traced the missing edges that got cut off by my printer and cut out all the pieces with an xacto knife. I was struggling all day to figure out what the hell these 2 huge shapes labeled lower front and lower back were supposed to be, until I looked through the pdfs again and realized it wasn’t even for the version of the pattern I was using!! so I folded them up and added them to the scrap paper pile. now I have all my pattern pieces nicely prepped resting on an open drawer because otherwise my cat would step all over them. tomorrow I think I'll start pinning and cutting, but not until I read through all the instructions like 3 times and try to look up a youtube tutorial. but its 2:30 am now and im hungry, good night sleep well mwah <3

#thanks for coming to my ted talk #I didnt daw ay all today huh #I might have to Joanns again to get a zipper and special fabric marker that goes away with heat or water I forget which #April 2021 daily #2021 daily #also I got a dog sticker in my crackerjack box :) #I put it on my shirt uwu #long post

[melbenoisthf]

What:  Melissa goes into labor and calls Finneas

Where: New York 

When:  Early Monday 9/23/2020

Who: Melisisa and @ffsfinneas

Melissa 

Melissa was at home sitting on her couch cuddling with her dogs when she got a feeling.  She had been having light ones at first but this was a lot more. She waited a little before another one came, yes this was it she knew this feeling.  After she was sure it was contractions. So she called up Finneas. "Baby" she smiled at moment "What are you doing right now?"

Finneas

Finneas was working at the studio getting frustrated with everything because he would much rather be at his own studio where he knew where everything was when he got a call from Melissa. He picked up immediately. “Hey baby.” He paused. “I was actually just finishing up here to head home. You called to ask me to pick something up for you? Cupcakes? Cookies? What is it?” He asked with a chuckle.

Melissa

She laughed hearing what he said "Oh yes cookies and Emily reminded me I need cheeseake" she smirked a moment. She wanted to tell him but not to freak him out to fast.  "What are you up too?" she asked hoping he wasn't to busy

Finneas

Finneas chuckled. “ Okay só cookies and cheesecake, that it?” He asked, shaking his head. “I’m just packing everything and get ready to go home.” He paused. “Why is something wrong?”

Melissa

Finneas was really the best it's why she loved him and wanted to be around him all the time. "Yes please, all the cookies." she did want it but really did not need it right now. "Oh I'm glad your not busy" she nodded and looked down. "no no... nothing wrong" she bit her lip "I just miss you" she smiled as she was getting herself up to try and get her bag ready.

Finneas

Finneas got everything he needed and headed out of the building, going towards his car. “Of course not, you know I’m not ever busy for you. Although today has been a particularly frustrating day, I hate having to come to the studio.” He sighed. “Oh I miss you too, I’ll be home shortly.” He said as he got into the car and drove away.

Melissa

She smiled at the thought, she really didnt want to worry him.  So she was hoping he could just get home and till him. Since her last labor was along time she was sure that this one would too. "Oh no that's no..." she stopped making "shit" she had say it hurt she couldn't hold that fact back. "just...get home"

Finneas

Finneas noticed her cursing and immediately knew something was wrong. “Baby? You okay?” He had put her on speaker so that he could drive and talk to her. “The baby is coming isn’t he? Oh God ... I’m going, I’m going as fast as I can!”

Melissa

She made some more not to nice sounds before she could talk "yes but..." she took a moment to breath . "baby drive save this all takes hours... im fine" it hurt a lot but really she had a couple hours to go before anything was going to happen.  "I need you here safely..." she said making it to their room. She had call Chris after this soon too.

Finneas

Finneas sighed as he nodded his head, even though she couldn’t really see it. “Yes of course, always.” He was nervous and stressed out and this wasn’t even his baby. But he loved Melissa and he wanted things to go well, he should’ve been there for her, why did it have to happen when he was working. “I’m almost there.” He said and after a few minutes he was parking the car in front of their place.

Melissa

"I love you you know that right" she wanted him there, during all of it. Not in the room that was for Chris but still he would be there always.  She knew there was a chance this could happen when he was gone and didnt worry to much about it. She was doing her best to get her bag, that was already packed ready. while waiting for Finneas to arrive she called Chris and told him and he said he was coming to the hospital now.

Finneas

Finneas couldn’t help but smile at her words even though he was so stressed out. “Yeah I know that baby, I love you too so much.” He said before ending the call and running up the stairs to their apartment. He got the keys and entered the house, looking around to find Melissa. “Baby? Where are you?” He shouted out as he walked deeper into the house.

Melissa

She was in their room now sititng on the bed since she needed the break. Telling Chris was just as crazy as telling Finneas. He was freaking out and wanitng to hurry too.  Hearing someone come inside she smiled happy Finneas was here" Babe im in our room" she said and just like that another contaction happened.  "ohhhhhhh" she called out this all hurt.

Finneas

Finneas ran to the bedroom and saw her sitting on the bed. He quickly made his way towards her and knee down in front of her, holding both her hands. “Okay it’s okay just breath alright? We’ll get you to the hospital and you’ll be fine. Your baby boy is finally coming.” He said with a smile.

Melissa

she smiled seeing Finneas she did need him, and just seeing him helped. She smirked a little at him, and his reaction to it all.  "I'm it's gonna" she held on to his hand as another one hit her. "pass" she made a face and was breathing till it passed. she put her hands on each side of his face and kissed him "you need to breath too" she said and let out a deep breath.

Finneas

Finneas looked her over, as if that would solve everything but it was his way to check if everything was alright. “Okay we have to get you to the hospital as soon as possible.” He told her and stood up, holding her hands to help her up too. “Yeah well I can’t ... I’m more stressed out than I was at the Grammys or the Oscars and it’s not even my kid.” He chuckled slightly, grabbing her bag that was already packed.September 23, 2020

Melissa

"It's not real big rush Ellie took like 12 hours" she chuckled a little, it all hurt and was coming. But it wasn't like he was really on his way into the real world right now. "you're cute and it's sweet" she smiled at him. "Chris is on his way too.." she said so he knew."but breath baby breath" she said holding his hand as they went out to the car

Finneas

Finneas shrugged his shoulders. “Doesn’t matter I’ll be a lot more calm when you’re in the hospital getting taken care of by professionals.” He helped her walk ou towards his car and sighed. “I’m not cute, I’m stressed out as hell, how is that cute?” He asked with a chuckle, helping her get into the car and walking around to get into the driver’s side. “I am breathing ... you breath as well baby.”

Melissa

She was doing her best with all of this. She didnt want to act crazy, she didnt want him to freak out too.  They were not to far from the hospical so that was good too. "It's jut so cute" she said breathing for a nother one to hit knowing one would soon enough. "I am i am" she laughed lightly trying to make the most of what they said. Once they got driving another one hit and she grabbed his arm a bit hard as she helped one pass

Finneas

Finneas turned his head to look at her for a moment when he felt her grabbing his arm. “We’re almost there baby just a bit more.” He sighed, turning to look back at the road once again. He was getting so anxious and stressed, just wanting to get to the hospital already so that Melissa could get the assistance she needed.

Melissa

She did her best to hide how much it did hurt. it just came in waves and it sucked everytime it happened. She had grab his arm to help each one pass till they made it to the hosptial.  Once there it took a little to get checked in, and got her into a room.  "Know you can be with me here for a while...but once it gets really going it's going to be just me and Chris"  she love to have him there but it was Chris's son so he had the right to be in the room alone with mel

Finneas

Finneas was with her every step of the way as they got to the hospital and she got sorted out. He wanted to be with her for as long as possible but he knew when Chris got there, he would take his place and Finneas respected that, he was the father after all. “Yeah I know, I respect that. I just know I’m going to be a huge nerve wreck out there, not knowing what’s happening.” He chuckled, shaking his head and placing a kiss on her forehead.

Melissa

For all she knew it be a few hours before everything really got going. so she did hope Finneas could be around for a while, she did want him there. "I know you are, you and everyone else showing up" she smirked a moment at him.  "It's crazy its happening..." she thought with a smile. that in a few hours her son would be here. "You ready to get no sleep for a while" she laughed.

Finneas

Finneas let out a sigh, nodding his head. “Is it stupid though? I mean, it’s not my son, why the hell am I such a nervous wreck?” Maybe most people thought it was stupid but he couldn’t help it, he cared so much for Melissa and now this baby. “It’ll be fine though.” He chuckled at her words. “It’s fine I don’t mind.”

Melissa

She shook her head at him "Not at all, if you were having a baby with another women... I'd be nervous for you and her" she nodded. "and its since I love you...and you love me...so you love him" she looked down a moment and smiled. Thankfully she had the meds now so she wasn't as hurting as much.

Finneas

Finneas nodded his head, he just wanted everything to go well with her and the baby and that both of them got out of this healthy. “I love you. And him too already.” He shrugged his shoulders, running a hand through her hair. “Now breath and try to rest and save your strength.”

Melissa

She smiled at him a moment, it was so nice to hear. She knew he loved her she could really feel it.  "im fine for now" she wasn't tired yet and couldn't sit back and sleep right now. "you need to sit down and relax too" she looked at the chair in the room and smiled at him. "I have a feeling it will be a couple hours..."

Finneas

Finneas didn’t think he would’ve fallen for her or anyone this fast mostly after his breakup with Claudia but he couldn’t help it. Melissa came into his life and really made an impression and now Finneas can’t see his life without her on it. “Nah I’m good for now, I don’t think I can sit down to be honest.” He sighed. “Plus I’m sure Chris is about to get here so I’ll be leaving the room anyways.” He shrugged his shoulders, using one of his hands to hold her’s, caressing the back of her hand with his thumb.

Melissa

She looked at him "sit down" she made a face at him "and you can be with me..and him till go time that's when you will have to go" becuase the hours and hours of waiting was time Finneas and friends could see her. But once it was close to go time that's when Finneas would.  She held onto his hand smiled at him. "i think tyler, and everyone from my show is going show up" she laughed.

Finneas

Finneas sighed and pulled the chair next to the bed before sitting down on it. He kept holding her hand, nodding his head. “Oh I just thought I would give you guys some privacy and all, I didn’t want to bother or impose in the moment, it’s your moment.” He shrugged his shoulders. “Of course you have a lot of people who care about you, there’s gonna be a bunge of people out there waiting.” He sighed. “Kinda wish Billie would be here too, at least I wouldn’t be alone outside.”

Melissa

She looked at him and smiled when he sat down. him standing walking would bother her way to much, so him sitting was for the best. "all it's going to be is this, sitting waiting, me being in some pain" she smirked a moment. it wasn't to bad the pain meds they gave her were really good. Made a pain go from a ten to a four really. "I wish you could be here too..." but she wanted it to be for her and Chris right now. "you should call her... and ask her I hope she come for you..." she smiled at him. Still feeling so bad she was in the middle of them.

Finneas

Finneas knew it was all a waiting game now, these things could take hours. Although he was going to be there for her the whole time or at least for as long as he could. “I know, it’s okay though I’ll be right outside and it will be as if I’m here with you.” He sighed, shaking his head. “I’ll send her a text letting her know what’s happening but I doubt she’ll show up. Even if she wanted to, she wouldn’t get here in time, she’s in LA.”

Melissa

She smiled at him a moment wondering how she got so lucky. A few months ago she thought she be alone during most of this. that Chris would be around but it wouldn't be like this. "You should call her, I think using your voice shows how much you mean it...even if she cant make it in time I'll be here a day or two so she can still meet him" she nodded. "She's not his real aunt at all but shes auntie billie if she wants to be" like a lot of her friends they were aunt/uncle to her kids

Finneas

Some people thought it was stupid what he was doing, that he was crazy for being with a girl who is pregnant with another guy’s baby but it wasn’t like he could really choose who he fell for. He didn’t plan for this but now, he couldn’t live without her, that was how much she meant to him. “Yeah you’re right, I’ll call her and hopefully she picks up.” They had talked and they were on speaking terms now but he knew she still didn’t support this relationship. “I know it might take a while for her to want to get involved and all of that, probably until she realises that what we have is real and you’re not just trying to find a dude to act as your kids’ father.”

Melissa

She heard things too, about the two of them. That Finneas should not be with her, that she was having her second kid with a second guy. that he cmae in the middle of her being pregnant.  That their age was pretty big gap and more. But really she did not mind any of that, she just clicked with him and it felt really right round him. That she felt safe and loved. "I hope so too" she smiled at him.  "it is... and I've told her can tell her myself in person that Im not with you to help with my kids,  or to be their dad. Im with you since we just...click and I love you." she smiled at him. "Yeah i know you will help with them, and love them but that's okay"

Finneas

Finneas was pretty good at ignoring the hate and what people said about him but he got pretty pissed when they would comment on Melissa or say bad shit about her. He knew it affected her in a way and as much as she denied it, he just knew. But it was worse for Finneas when it was his own sister doing that because it hurt a lot more than a group of strangers that he didn’t know. “Just give her time, don’t force it or it will be worse. You have to let her come to you, Billie does things when she wants to.” He smiled at her, placing a kiss on her lips. “I love you too. And I’m glad we did, I haven’t been this happy in a long time.” He paused. “Yeah but that’s because I want to not because you’re asking me to.”

Melissa

She nodded and looked at him. "I have why I haven't really spoke to her in a long time" a little when she was first hanging out with Finneas. but after that she stopped and just hoped she would come around. That she see that what her and Finneas had was real. that it wasn't about the kids or anything.  "She dose but she cares... in her own way Im sure" she smiled as she kissed him back.  "same here... " she knew he knew it all too. "and i love that about you. but with this boy Chris will be in the guest room for a while...so you dont need to help for a while" she knew her and Chris need this time

Finneas

Finneas sighed. “Yeah she’s hard to deal with and her personality isn’t the easiest to understand but she’ll come around eventually. She’s just worried that you’re using me and that you’ll hurt me, she’s being protective and I can’t blame her for that. She was the one who was there to catch me and get me off the ground when Claudia broke up with me, she knows how broken I was and doesn’t want to see me go through that again.” He paused, looking down at the floor. “I can leave if you want to have some alone time with Chris and the baby.” Did he want to be there? Of course but he also felt like he was bothering and getting in the middle of them and their alone time with the baby. “I’ll go back to LA for a while, I should because I need to work closely with Billie for her new album anyways.” He shrugged his shoulders.

Melissa

She smiled at him "I know that, and it's sweet she loves you so much she wants to protect you" she got it. She had friends that didnt trust people she got with. After what happened with her ex they worried, she did at times too. She still had the spot in the back of her mind that said they dont stay sweet.  But Meliisa knew Finneas was serious. No guy who had bad heart would stay around with the kids thing came around.  "No... plesae dont I still want you there... I mean you can if you need it. But just know the baby is on me and Chris" she nodded at him pulling him over to kiss him.September 24, 2020

Finneas

Finneas nodded. “It would be the same way if the roles were reversed. I was worried too when she started dating Jordan but as soon as I met him I understood how much he cared for her and how good she was to her.” He just hoped that Billie would give Melissa a chance, to get to know her. “I just feel like I’m getting in the middle of it, you know? And this is a moment you should have alone with your baby’s father.” He paused. “I do have to go back eventually though, my life and my work place is there.” He told her, letting out a sigh.

Melissa

She looked at him for a moment "I would too... I mean my sisters are not famous at all... they dont have life I do" she nodded they were marired and happy too.  "But I get it, I do understand why she's worried but I hope she comes around so we can talk and become friends" she smiled at him. "you're not...you're there for me and I need you" she said looking at him. "But I know you need to work..but you wont worry as much knowng Chris is there helping me"

Finneas

Finneas nodded. “Yeah I get that.” He paused. I hope so as well and then she’ll understand how good of a person you are and how good you make me feel.” Finneas smiled at her words. “I’m always gonna be there for you, no matter what.” He looked down at her. “That’s why I thought leaving now and finish the album was the best option, while you have him around. I do want to be there for you though but as much as you deny it, I still feel like I’m intruding.” He shrugged his shoulders.

Melissa

She didnt want him to go, but she knew he had too. He had to  work, there was no getting out of it. But the more he was gone now the quicker it would be done too.  "I hope she can see this is all real" she smiled at him a moment. 'I know you need too..but i dont  want you too... it's not home now without you" she smiled at him with a sigh. "But you're not... Finneas at all' she said looking at him.

Finneas

His life was in LA that’s where his family was and where his work was, he needed to go back. He had come to be with Melissa because of the pregnancy because he hated the thought of her being all alone through it. Chris would be with her and the baby for now and he trusted her enough to let that happen. “I know me too.” He nodded his head. “I don’t want to go either but it’s where my life is. I wish you could come with me though.” He looked down at her and sighed. “Yeah I guess, I don’t know I just can’t help it, feeling like this.”

Melissa

Location, it was the worst for her. She had friends she lost from living so far away. Part of her issues with Blake was he was so far away. from her.    Ellies father was the same since he did travel for work a lot.  But she knew Finneas lived in LA he was only here for her during the pregnancy.  But having him go back wasn't anything she wanted to think about. "I know...but once this boy is born and older im back to Vancover for Supergirl but I know it's ending after this season...." she was sad about it, but it was time. "I bet but dont think about that.."

Finneas

Finneas wanted to believe that distance was something they could both overcome. He knew it would be hard, mostly when he goes on tour and stays away for months but he was going to try his hardest to make it work. And he knew Melissa will as well. “After you finish shooting, you going back to New York? Ever thought about living in LA?” He asked, titling his head to the side. Finneas nodded his head. “Of course lets not talk about it though, you need to relax and save your strength.”

Melissa

She didn't want to think about the times in a few months. That she was filming and he was on tour. It be times they would have to be apart. That their work kept them apart and he sucked.  She shugged and bit her lip. "I been in Vancover for so long I do love it there...and I love it here" she looked at him knowing he was in LA. "I dont know yet... LA has a past for me..but your there" but Ellies father was in NY too.

Finneas

Finneas nodded his head at her words, understanding what she meant. His life and work was in LA, his family was in LA, it was where he felt at home. And that for her was New York and he had to respect that, as much as it sucked for them to be away from each other, literally on opposite sides of the country. “We’ll figure it out when we get there, there’s no point thinking about it now.” He sighed, placing a kiss on her forehead. “Just know that I love you and that’s not going to change, no matter what. You’re very important to me.”

Melissa

It was going to be hard to work out, but she had hope that they could do it. She really had no plans for after Supergirl ended. That was going to be next year so she had a bit of time to plan.  She smiled at him a moment hearing what he said. "i love you too.." she did she was going to make this work. It would be better afer Supergirl for her to be in New York still but she could go to LA for him and herself really. But she would have to work it out with her kids. the kids is what held her back the most, she could leave but her kids fathers did matter too

Finneas

Finneas knew it wasn’t going to be easy but no one said it would. He wasn’t going to give up do easy because he knew this was a relationship worth fighting for. When you really loved someone, you tried everything to be with that person no matter what. Although he was well aware that if it came down to it, Melissa would put her kids first and he had to respect that, he couldn’t blame her for it and he would completely understand. “How are you feeling?” He asked, caressing her cheek.

Melissa

She wanted more then anything to make this work with Finneas. That may mean living in two places having to travel a bit with her kids. That she could be in New York for her kids while Finneas was working. But when Finneas was not she could be in LA with him. it would be hard but she had to plan it somehow. "It hurts but its not to bad...." she looked at him. "I know  they should be in to check...things" she smirked

Finneas

Finneas was aware that this would be something they would’ve to work together on, Finneas could travel to New York to be with her whenever he had free time or just rent a studio in New York and work there but his studio was in LA and that’s where he felt comfortable. “Okay do you want me to go call them or should we wait?” He was new when it came to this he had no idea what he was supposed to do, he felt pretty useless just sitting there next to her. But at least it would be a good training to when it was his own kid.

Melissa

It sucked to think about but she didnt want too right now. She had other things going on right now and had a while to plan it. "No no they should come in sometimes" they had to check how far along she was to see if it was moving along like it should. Soon enough she got a text Chris had landed and was on his way to the hospital. "Chris should be here soon" she smiled at him "but again that dont mean you have to go..."

Finneas

Finneas sighed. “Okay ... I just feel pretty useless just sitting here while you’re going through childbirth.” He chuckled, shaking his head. Although deep down he knew that she wanted the support and to not be alone above anything else. “Okay ... you know I’ll be here for as long as you need me Mel.” He paused. “Just want to make sure I really won’t be bothering because this is your moment and his moment and I wanna respect that.”

Melissa

Melissa laughed a little "that's how it is with you boys, you get none of the work during this" she smirked. She may scream at chris and break his hand soon. But really the guys didnt have as much to do during all of this.  She held his hand and smiled at him, she did love that he was here it was relaxing to her. she made a face as another one hit, it was't the worst but it wasn't like it didnt hurt

Finneas

Finneas chuckled. “Which is a little unfair because we also made the baby. But let me know if you need anything maybe some water or something.” Being busy helped him be distracted from all the stress he was feeling right now. He held her hand, caressing the back of it with his thumb.

Melissa

She smrked "Yes you get the fun part, women get the painful part" she made a face. "and if we ever get this you carry it next time" she teased. She knew he couldn't ever. But wouldn't hate to have a kid with him in the future. She loved him enough to do that someday.

Finneas

Finneas titled his head to the side and chuckled. “Hey you say that like you don’t get your own fun too.” He paused. “I mean depending on who you do it with, women get their fun too.” He offered her a smile and shrugged his shoulders. “You know I would if I could right? I mean you already went through two of them, would feel horrible to make you go through a third. But I’m not going to lie, I would love to be a father someday.

Melissa

She laughed "Yes we do, but you get the fun only not something big getting pushed out of something tiny pain" she shook her head. 'But Im sure it will be fun....with yoiu" she smiled at him. "I know....but if I want this again...  it will be a few years I need a break from it" she had Ellie almost two years ago and now her son. She want another full two years before she try again. "I think you would be a great dad someday Finneas...."

Finneas

Finneas chuckled. “Okay that’s true fair enough. But it’s all worth it I’m sure.” He shrugged his shoulders. “Well you’ll let me know after we try it out.” He winked at her with a smirk before pressing a kiss to her cheek. “I know and I respect that. To be honest I don’t think I would be ready to be a father now. I want to have a stable life before I bring a kid into this world.” He paused. “I don’t know if I would ... it scares me though, thinking that another human being so little and fragile is dependant of me to survive it’s crazy.”

Melissa

"It is, all the pain and how hard it can be for nine months is worth it" it did depend everyone and every time wasn't the same. "I think it will be great" she smirked a him a moment. They still had had sometime because she had heal and everything after the birth of her son.  She smiled "That's good and you will get a good taste being around ellie and my son... but it's not the same as when one is yours" she watched her friends kids, her sisters kids but when it came to her own it all changed. "it goes from that to running around after them and hearing them say they love you and dada and mama it's amazing"

Finneas

Finneas could imagine, that all the pain and suffering was worth it in the end, there was nothing like holding your child for the first time or at least he guessed not. "Well I hope I can reach your expectations hopefully you won't be let down." He chuckled, shaking his head. It would still be a while before they could do anything but he wasn't in a hurry anyways. "For sure, I guessed that much. But it will definitely be good for me to get an idea of what it's like to deal with kids and stuff." He chuckled. "Yeah I can imagine."

Melissa

She chuckled a moment at him. "I think you will" she wanted too with him but her body was not ready for that before and not a bit after her son was born.  "Ellie already likes you a lot so that's good and Im sure he iwll too" she smiled at him.  She took a moment to breath out another round of pain before she looked at him.  "and you get to see so mucn now..." seeing her son grow up too.

Finneas

Finneas shrugged his shoulders, hopefully it will be good when the time comes that they'll be intimate for the first time. He did want to give her a good time. "I know, I'm so glad that she does and hopefully the same will happen with him. I know they have their dads but I do want to be there for them too." He sighed when he saw her in pain, he hated it and he wished he could take it all away from her. "I know, it's great."

Melissa

She smiled at him "how cant she not you're amazing" she grinned at him. Soon enough at doctor came in and checked in on her, everything was going well and was moving along fine so far.  Once the doctor left she looed at him. She knew she had a couple hours before he would be born and she was excited.  After another text came in she knew Chris was here "He's here..." she said looking over Finneas.

Finneas

Finneas rolled his eyes. "I'm not really that amazing ... you're biased." He chuckled, shaking his head. As the doctor came in, Finneas moved a bit to the side to let the doctor have space to check in on Melissa. At her words, he nodded his head. "Do you want me to go get him? Or did you text him the room number?2

Melissa

She smirked "You are too, have you seen yourself" she wnked at him. The doctor check was weird but it had to be done but it was quick thankfully. "No I told him the room number" she said knowing it wont take long for him to get up to the room.  It was going be a another hour or two of this sititng, waitng talking for it to all go down. So when Chris got here it would be them doing the same, but with another subject

Finneas

Finneas shook his head. "I'm not but I'm really glad that you think that, I love you." He told her, placing a kiss on her lips for a few moments. He knew it would still be a while before the baby was born so the three of them would be in the same room just keeping each other company. "Okay but ... can you imagine how the nurses and doctors probably think this situation is weird? Like you're here having a baby, your boyfriend is with you but the baby daddy is someone else." He chuckled at the whole situation.

Melissa

She smiled kissing him back, taking the moment in really.  "I love you too" she said with a smile. "Please I'm sure they have seen it all over the years and all they care about is me and getitng the baby out and the baby, no who you are and who the other guy is" she said. She was sure that hospitals have seen it all really. Soon there was a knock at the door and she knew it had to be Chris and it was.