#it‘s corona time

[lexiklecksi]

Fake news, virtual hugs, online meetings, care packages, video calls, conspiracy theories....

Seeking simplicity

When chaos reigns

Toxicity in our city

Running through our veins

Injection for protection

Breathing through fabric

Inhale positivity

Exhale bullshit

#poetry #poetryportal #poeticstories #13cupsofteareblog #imperialreblogs #brokensoulsreborn #poetselixir #savage words #writtenconsiderations #inspireamuse #corona virus #it‘s corona time #writerscreed #poem #poets corner #covid 19

[julianbrandtrelated]

Na, wer von euch kleinen Scheissern hat jetzt alles schulfrei?

#gruß geht raus an alle abiturienten #mein beileid #it‘s corona time #corona

[nickiswithoutidea]

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#just woke up from a weird af dream and had a panic attack why #it‘s really up and down this week for my mood #i‘m going from ecstatic to exhausted multiple times a day #it‘s not fun i want my structured life back i finally managed to build #also a normal sleeping schedule it‘s 4:30 am and i only had slept for roughly an hour when i woke up again #been trying to calm down for almost an hour now too #ugh #nick babbles #haven‘t used that tag in a long time cause i was less on here because i actually finally had a nice life and felt good 🙃 #so much that i didn‘t even feel the need to post about good stuff on here #then corona happened #fuck corona #of course something like that would happen when i finally have my shit together

[curlyhairedprince]

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#i am back at my parents for the first time in 3 months and it‘s so freaking weird #in the countryside it‘s literally like time stopped and corona doesnt exist at all #like a fucking parallel universe wth

[backtomills]

To everyone who is still going out, because you are young and feel invincible:

My father is the chief of an ER and my mother is a nurse at intensive care in North Rhine-Westphalia, the most critical area in Germany in terms of Corona infections. They are both professionals and very practical about their jobs, refusing to be called heroes because “it‘s our job“ and saying that if you cry about every patient, you won’t be able to do your job properly.

My mother has been coming home from work wrecked, and even scared lately, which she has never done before. Her Corona positive patients are doing horribly, some have died, many are close to dying. She has to be extra careful to not get infected because her patients are in a critical condition and they can’t afford to be infected. But, as she put it: “I am not afraid to get infected while I’m at work. While I’m at work I’m wearing my suit and making sure that we’re working safely. What scares me is stepping into the elevator afterwards, with 5 other people, because I don’t know if any of them are infected.”

My parents are not hugging me anymore for safety reasons, and it hurts all of us, but it’s the right thing to do. Because this isn’t about us, it’s about people whose lives could actually be in danger.

The rest of our family is living in Italy. My father is terribly scared for my grandma. She lives completely alone and has to go out to get groceries and has no one to help her. She can’t stay in the safety of her own home the whole time.

So please, even if you are young and invincible: This isn’t about you. This is about those who are vulnerable and those who are trying their best to protect the vulnerable ones. I know it’s hard right now. I am as bored and lonely as you are. And I am as young and invincible as you are. But my parents' patients aren’t. My grandma isn’t. And it’s important for them, and for everyone else who is vulnerable, that you stay home.

If you think and your friends or your partner can’t be without each other, imagine not being able to be without a tube, because you can’t breathe. Imagine what it is like to loose your family and friends, because they were vulnerable and someone else refused to do their part in protecting them, because they were bored.

Please. For the sake of everything that is good, for the sake of those vulnerable ones:

Stay at home.

#coronavirus #north rhine westphalia #germany #italy #medical workers #family #stay at home #quarantine #corona

[littlemisslol-fic]

Say... Eugene didn't find Varian yet in Alone We have no Future? 👀

Ohohoh fun! I’m assuming you mean a branch off the main story after Eugene got a funky new hole in the shoulder (haha rip), but if I’m misinterpreting the question let me know and I’ll write another one!

Also this got SUPER LONG so I’m very sorry! I’ll toss it under a cut lol, I just have a lot of thoughts I guess!

The Fic in question, for reference

1. Though I never really got into it in the fic (since it’s so short, didn’t really want to bloat it with a lot of objectively useless information) I always thought of the “politics” of Alone as one great big glorified gang war that crosses the entire area. There’s allies, rivalries, blood feuds, all that. it’s a delicate balance, where too much upset could spark a war. It’s part of why the Saporians were so sneaky the first time as opposed to just attacking, they couldn’t afford to outwardly cross Corona. Unfortunately, that’s a two way street, and Rapunzel is bound by the same conventions- even if she knows they did what they did, according to Saporia’s allies she would be attacking for no reason.

As long as Varian’s in their territory, he’s effectively on his own.

2. Andrew, for all his wanton cruelty, knows better than to break his toys. To him, in this universe at least, Varian is more valuable alive. In the wake of Fitzherbert getting shot, Varian’s been nearly docile- who knew all it took was a little murder to get him to finally shut up. Of course, they both think Eugene’s a corpse on the side of the road at this point, so Andrew’s content to go back to where they’d been before.

The Saporian base is the hallowed out shell of a series of old apartment complexes. The first time they’d brought Varian to the building they’d been prepared. I always imagined that essentially they’d gutted the basement level of one of the interior buildings, leaving tiny windows, concrete floors and walls, and to add the cherry on top, they’d remove the stairs, turning it into a concrete pit.

Poor Varian only just managed to escape the first time by slowly eating less food over the course of months until he was finally able to worm his way up an unprotected HVAC vent, one the Saporians had thought was too small for even him.

When they throw him back down there, it‘s been nailed shut.

3. Varian spends the first few days nearly catatonic. He doesn’t eat, barely sleeps; all he can see is Eugene’s body flat on the concrete and red, red, red, red-

Andrew eventually grows impatient with him.

Even though Varian’s important alive, it doesn’t make him invulnerable. Andrew’s already a well practiced hand at making the kid pull his weight. He doesn’t pull his punches, verbal or otherwise. Varian tries to be quiet with each blow, biting his cheek until he tastes blood, but at one point Andrew brings up Eugene again. He’s dead because of you, Andrew tells him, you chose to try and escape, and he was stupid enough to fall for your lie.

When Varian’s sufficiently cowed, Andrew leaves him a ballpoint pen, a stack of paper, and a list of inventions he wants blueprinted. Varian’s familiar with this, watching as Andrew scales a rope ladder to the upper levels and pulls it up after him. Something in him cracks, espeically when Andrew glares down at him with a final order.

Get to work.

4. Even if they hadn’t lucked out like they did in the original fic, of course Eugene and the ladies are going after their boy. Before politics had forced their hand, but with Eugene at least there were three people who could sneak into the Saporian base. Two just wouldn’t cut it, but three-

Well, three might just work.

They’re forced to be much sneakier than they had been in the original fic. Instead of fire and chaos, they work quietly to dispatch as many Saporians as they can. It’s a moonless night, clouded and dark. It’s an advantage they sorely need. Rapunzel works with her frying pan, so her victims are probably still alive... but Eugene and Cassandra have no qualms about staining the evening ruby red. Andrew goes down without a sound, his throat slit with deadly accuracy. Eugene can’t even find satisfaction in it, it’s too clean, too painless.

But it will have to do.

5. When they find Varian, the kid’s absolutely miserable looking. Cass kicks the rope ladder down into his little pit, but Rapunzel foregoes it entirely. She jumps from the ledge, landing hard and nearly stumbling in her rush to get to him. She sobs, bundling him close to her and rocking him back and forth. Varian clings to her, hiding his face in her shoulder as he cries.

Eugene stands nearby, feeling awkward. Feeling guilty. He hadn’t been able to protect the kid, hadn’t been able to stop Andrew- hell, Varian had ended up back here because Eugene had gotten shot in the first place. He’s still convinced that he needs to rip the band-aid off, so to speak, that he should leave Varian behind in the arms of his sister where he can grow into his own person without a dark, wandering shadow behind him.

But all of that disappears the second the kid looks at him.

Varian leaves Rapunzel’s hug, throwing himself at Eugene without preamble. He catches the kid, hugging tight, unable to stop himself.

“Hey, kid,” he says. Eugene’s eyes burn, his teeth grit against the tears. “You’re okay,” he tells Varian, even as the kid sniffles and clings to his jacket.

“You’re okay.”

OOP OKAY SORRY THAT WAS REALLY LONG LMAO I always love a good what if, even for my own stories! Thank you for the ask, anon!! 💕💕

Send me an AU, and I’ll come back with 5 points about it!

#asks #alone we have no future #varian

[carrocrossing]

I didn’t think the corona virus would have a big impact on my life, since I‘m a big introvert and never leave the house except for emergencies anyways, but everything actually feels very different.

It‘s not even a bad change at all. Everything just feels calmer, even tho the whole world is freaking out. The streets are empty. I have more time to clean the house and make food. It‘s like the hours go by slower.

I just hope that my family stays healthy. My mom is a nurse and my grandparents are over 80 years old, so I always think about them.

I hope you all stay healthy as well and that we all get through this relatively well.

Don‘t forget to wash your hands <3

#personal

[limetrea]

Interview in Dagbladet 18/09/2020

We have come home from the US on March 12th and took the second to last plane flying from New York to Norway. I was sitting in the plane seat, reading that everything is closing down at home on my phone, reveals Vegard Ylvisåker (41). - Yes, that was lucky, adds Bård Ylvisåker (38).

The two brothers, who eventually became world-famous as the comedy duo Ylvis, are sitting in a meeting room at Concorde TV in Oslo. Behinds them is a huge board with post-it notes with ideas for their new show „Ylvis på Holmen with Calle and Magnus“. They have just started filming the comedy programme which premieres September 20th on TV Norge. But it wasn’t actually På Holmen the brothers were supposed to be working on this autumn.

-          We were working on something completely different, but then corona came and we had to close the taps, says Bård.

-          We turned around and came up with something different. There are so many summer shows on TV right now. We wanted one too, that’s why we showcase our summer place on the islet, continues the big brother.

-          Yes, we walk around in summer clothes and white pirate breeches and film outside right up until Christmas, smiles the younger brother.

Became superstars

Ylvis became, as most people know, global stars after The Fox became a viral hit in 2013. The song climbed to the top of the charts all over the world, and currently has almost one billion views on YouTube. Ylvis have since received a number of job offers from the other side of the Atlantic, but the brothers who both live family life with children and dogs rather wanted to work in Norway.

-          We can’t live better than here, have an office 20 minutes from the house and family, make what we feel like making and get paid for it. We can dream of big things abroad, but it isn’t always more fun, Bård admits.

-          We still get offers but they would have to be made of gold before we would tear down existing plans and move on to something else, Vegard adds.

Challenging

The brothers don’t want to reveal what they were doing in the US when the first wave of coronavirus hit. But since Norway closed down they have used a lot of the time to work with ideas for Ylvis på Holmen, a show which they are hosting with former partners from „I kveld med Ylvis“ Magnus Devold and Calle Hellevang-Larsen.

-          Us four take turns in being the main host, and when I have the position, the others don’t know what is going to happen. They just have to improvise and go along as good as they can. It’s fun to see the anxiety in others‘ eyes, Bård admits.

-          It’s also fun to sit down in my chair and be open for everything, adds his brother.

On the board behind them there is a scribble of ideas full of notes with guest or secret written on them, but nothing about who is coming or what is to be done. The planning has therefore been challenging.

-          It is logistically challenging. We sit in our respective rooms and plan. There are many e-mails we had to hide from each other and it required tons of brainpower to work like this, Bård admits.

Played with a fox

Those who follow the brothers on social media may have seen that one of the fox artists utilized corona-time to play with an actually fox. There are many fox dens on Ormøya in Oslo where Vegard lives.

-          Some of the foxes have become very approachable and receive food from the neighbours. They have almost become tame. One day when I was standing outside a fox came. When I threw a ball the fox ran after it, picked it up and dropped it again to play. It was fun, says Vegard, but adds that the fox didn’t make particularly many sounds.

-          He said nothing, but we have found out that what foxes say sounds like cats being beaten to death.

Neither of the brothers is actually interested in foxes, even though Ylvis will always be associated with the song (and children’s book) which made everybody wonder about what the fox actually say. But now the brothers consider the experience of playing „What does the fox say“ on stages all over the world absurd.

-          It‘s quite funny when you can live off being an artist as a joke, says Bård while Vegard tells how strange it felt when the duo was on MTV award show in Amsterdam. They sat next to Ariana Grande, among numerous celebrities, but nobody knew who they were before they were supposed to go on stage and had to put on fox costumes.

-          Then suddenly everyone was looking at us and Miley Cyrus came and jumped on my back, Vegard laughs.

-          It is a bit nice that one can put on and off celebrity status, continues Bård. It was at its worst for a year, and that is exactly the right amount of time. We got to see how surreal and in many ways idiotic the circus is. It’s quite nice for things to be as they are now.

Received a porn offer

After the foxy success the duo also got an offer from more shady sources and Dagbladet has earlier written that Ylvis got an offer to make a comedy porn for the biggest porn company in Europe and USA, xHamster.

-          Yes, we received an e-mail from xHamster but we didn’t not make contact. But it’s flattering, Bård smiles.

-          Yeah, porn grows quickly these days. It has become mainstream, so maybe that is where we will go, his brother jokes.

Award in Cannes

The brothers have become comedy veterans and can celebrate 30 years as a comedy duo in October, when they received their professional breakthrough with „Ylvis – a cabaret“ in Bergen already in October 2000. They both think that the IKMY has been one of the highlights of their projects, but they still left the programme in favour of making new things in 2016.

-          We are a bit spoiled by being in a industry where there often is a connection between how much fun we have at work and how good the concept becomes. We have always shifted the course when we begun to get bored, and after 5 seasons of IKMY became a bit too safe, Bård admits.

After IKMY the duo found success with their peculiar musical-documentary project „Stories from Norway“, a concept which was awarded the best comedy programme at Gullruten 2018 and received the awaed for best comedy concept at the International format awards (MIPTV) in Cannes in 2019. Next time the brothers sit on an international plane might be in order to make a version of this programme in another country. But the comedians keep their cards close to my chest, both in regards to an international version or if it would be something new in Norwegian.

-          Such projects také long time to work out and it isn’t easy to get started with season two, says Bård.

-          We are hoping to také the concept to new places but so fat it is a side-project that we have, says Vegard.

The duo has no plans to celebrate the 20th anniversary and they aren’t much concerned that they are in or nearing their 40s.

-          We have always found joy in throwing ourselfs into deep water and therefore we don’t feel so sat (?), says the younger one.

-        Yes, we always come up with something new. And we don’t have an idea what the next thing might be, says the big brother.

#ylvis #vegard ylvisåker #bård ylvisåker #ylvis på holmen med calle og magnus

[velocipandacosplay]

My Femtrooper in all it‘s glory! This was actually the first time I wore this costume at a convention (thanks Corona), it was about time!! Armor kit by @imperialsurplus, the quality is great and I also got a pink shoulder bell with my kit 😍 despite me looking quite angry in the picture, I really enjoyed @austriacomiccon and I hope to go there again next year! #starwars #empire #stormtrooper #femtrooper #legacytk #stormtrooperarmor #firstimperialstormtrooperdetachment #dlt19 #armor #troopergirl #womenofstarwars #jesgistang #501stlegion #germangarrison #cosplay #costume #starwarscostume #womenofthelegion #ladiesofthelegions #blonde #austriacomiccon (hier: Messe Wels) https://www.instagram.com/p/CTme0HTqC35/?utm_medium=tumblr

#starwars #empire #stormtrooper #femtrooper #legacytk #stormtrooperarmor #firstimperialstormtrooperdetachment #dlt19 #armor #troopergirl #womenofstarwars #jesgistang #501stlegion #germangarrison #cosplay #costume #starwarscostume #womenofthelegion #ladiesofthelegions #blonde #austriacomiccon

[moriartysheadspace]

>> those rainy days ; start of autmn <<

It looks like this is my instruction post to the #studyblrcommunity ...

As you may have read in my bio, I‘m 23 y/o, working fulltime as a legal secretary (head of the office) in a medium-sized law firm and started to study law in parttime.

~ So, I‘m basically Rachel Zane in real life ~

And yes, it‘s quite tough and sometimes very difficult, but it is definitely possible!

Also I‘m from Germany, but trying to improve my english and just wanted to reach out to more people than “just” the german studycommunity. So please be patient with my english I’m really trying my best!

During my apprenticeship I discovered my love for “the law“ and the fire kept on burning during the last three years while I redid my A-Levels (which you need to study law at a german university) and started to work again in the law firm, where everything started. This year in April I started to study law at the university and the first semester was one of the difficult times, like ever. We had so much work to do in the law firm and also I‘ve became head of the office. So this was one reason why my first semester hasn‘t started how it should have started... and then came “CORONA“... At the university everything had to be reorganised. So our “Freshers“-Events were all canceled and some of them were did online. Till this day I‘ve never even met some of my study colleuages. Also the online courses/lessons didn‘t worked well and therefore I decided to reshedule my courses to the next upcoming winter semester and to do an complete based first start with my law studies.

I love restarts and I don‘t think that the last semester was a failure. I‘ve learned so much about myself and what I have to change to become a sucessfull student. Now I can start even better and more powerfull.

Currently I’m planning the new year with my new ‘Leuchtturm’ and try to plan my meals for the upcoming next week (I really love cooking books, btw). Also coffee and sugar keeps me going when nothing else is able to.

Just for your information: I have my own flat and so household chores, cooking, dealing with insurances, and so on, are also part of my daily life, and I sure will share some of my personal “Hacks“ for those of you who maybe move out of their home, to start their university life.

I‘m so looking forward to share my daily life as a enthusiastic little law student and to communicate with other studyblrs all around the world!

Please send me a message if there are any topics you’re more interested in!

~ Cheerio ~

#study #studyspo #studying #lawblr #studyblr #student #law school #law firm #leuchtturm #leuchtturm1917 #college life #workingformyself #productive #planning #students #law student #law studyblr #german studyblr #german student #gettingthroughit #failure #dealing with it #work life #worklifebalance

[caswlw]

I saw your reblog of the post about the podcast, but I was just wondering - do we know exactly which scenes they had left to shoot? I only rejoined the fandom actively on Nov 5th after two or so years, so I‘m not familiar with what was alteady shot and what wasn‘t. Obviously Misha wasn‘t in 15x19 and 15x20 *cough*, but how many scenes did he have left to shoot in the first place after the Corona break? It couldn‘t have been that many, since he wasn‘t in the last two episodes (we know that‘s a story for another day). So why does it seem like he‘s so exhausted? Of course the scenes he had to film (confession etc I assume) were very intense, but it seems like he had to do more than we know of, if that makes sense? Otherwise it wouldn‘t have been such a tiring or demanding proceedure as he describes,right? (well ofc the quarantining must have sucked, especially since he said he already feels like he is too absent from his children‘s lives) or am I missing something or reading too mich into it? Because, once again, it‘s very unclear whether or not or when he was even on set, the timeline is just confusing...(sorry if my rambling is not coherent at ALL) -🌉

ah ok so they finished filming 15x18 and every episode before it back in march iirc and then covid hit Just after they finished and they had the two final eps left to film and then they did so around august and early september !! any time misha talked about going back to film (which he did. numerous times) it would’ve been for 19 and 20. but idk i feel like the General exhaustion from everything he was putting on all year was getting to him, and if he Did film and then subsequently get cut from the final two eps.. i can imagine that would suck too

#bridge anon #man this makes my insides hurt

[itsmespicaa]

so I want to give a gift to monsta. and I heard you've sent them gifts too. how do you send it? do you give them news first, or send them right away? Also, I'm afraid they won't accept my gift

Hi there!

I have sent them a gift package, but that was before the pandemic. I‘m not sure if Monsta still accepts packages from fans now, but it‘s worth a try!

Even from before, they‘ve always been sent gifts and art and packages from fans all over the country/world, so mine isn‘t the first. I didn‘t tell them beforehand though, because it was a surprise (which they thankfully liked), so I would usually tell you to just send it anyway?

But due to corona, I honestly advise you to ask them first if they are accepting any packages and let them know beforehand that you‘re sending one to their support email and Official Monsta social medias (FB, Twitter, IG) just to be extra sure they know about your gifts. And please remember not to spam! The staff are working hard to get to everyone‘s messages, so their response might take some time.

I would also advise you to write down what it is on the front of the package to make it obvious and they know immediately it‘s a gift.

Oh, and be sure to send it to the correct address if they do allow you! It‘s on their website monsta.com :) But I‘ll share their contact info here anyway just to make it easier for everyone.

Hope this helps!

#i‘m so happy that you plan on sending one!! hopefully they‘ll be okay with it<3 #wishing you the best of luck! #reply #anon

[black-tea-and-notebooks]

January TC Challenge Part 1

Day 1: Happy New Year! Any hopes for the new year? (TC or non TC related?)

Non TC related: that Corona will hopefully be over soon, stop biting my nails, getting my finances in order, (finally) going to therapy

TC related: starting to work for him at my/our university, doing research for and with him, getting to know more about him (but not in a creepy way, just casual conversation etc)

Day 2: Do you have any nicknames/codenames that you call your TC? Do they have any they call you?

Nope and nope. But it‘s fine that way, i‘m not really a fan of nicknames, at least not in this situation.

Day 3: Describe the moment you knew they were more than just another teacher.

Hmm. Hard question. I just slipped into it, there isn‘t one particular situation where i knew that he was more. It was his laugh, his silly humour, the way he explained things, the passion he has for his topic, his cute little face and fluffy hair, his thoughts about how people and society should be, the books he recommended, the way he talks, his cute chin, and so many little things i can even put into words 🥰

Day 4: Do they decorate their classroom much? What does it look like?

As he‘s my uni professor, he doesn‘t have his own class room. But i know that his office (from the videocalls bc corona) has a GIANT bookcase and i hope that one day, when i‘m able to visit him there in person, i can look at his books.

Day 5: What’s the age gap? Did you ever think you would fall for someone that much older? Are you comfortable with the age gap?

10 years. I‘m okay with it. Although it‘s the first time that i fell for someone older than me, i usually stay in my age group or go for younger people. 10 years is still pretty possible to actually accomplish but i‘m also a little scared that he finds me too childish and immature... (i‘m 23 on paper but only on paper)

Day 6: Describe the first time you saw/met them. How did you meet? What was it like? Were you automatically attracted or did it take some time?

The first time i met him was in winter 2019. i found him cute and liked his topic but nothing more and i eventually forgot about him. Then in November 2020 i met him again (online classes) and it took me 1 or 2 weeks and then i fell for him.

Day 7: Do you plan on keeping contact with your TC after graduation? How do you plan on doing it? If you’re graduated, have you kept in contact? How have you managed that?

As i will (probably) graduate in 2023 i still have a lot of time left. So i don‘t know in what situation we will be. But i hope that we‘ll be on good terms (maybe even friends??) and that i can stay in contact with him.

#january tc challenge #tcc #teacher crush #teacher crush community #teacher x student #tc challenge #male teacher crush #male tc

[sunsetscurving]

okay rant time about me and my life because i just need to get this off my chest.

college is starting again on thursday and lemme just say that I‘m currently on the edge of a panic attack because... it‘s all so overwhelming. the situation of doing everything online, not being able to go to college in person and most of all: the change that‘s coming soon. this semester was supposed to be one of the best for me, my last semester before i‘m writing my bachelor thesis and lemme just say that i‘m so freaking scared. scared of writing my thesis. scared of leaving my comfort zone aka my friend group after we all completed our bachelors. scared of change. yes, i‘m so super scared of change and it drives me INSANE not to know how things will work out and how i‘m gonna go about them, how i‘m gonna handle them. i was actually excited to be able to take classes again, to get back some routine and stuff but when I got the confirmation of me getting inside the classes i applied to it all just got so... real. so freaking real. and it just sucks so much that i was just beginning to love college life and then corona hit and everything stopped within a second. and now a big change is standing in front of me again. and i am just so scared, guys. i‘m sorry for anyone who made it this far but i— i just needed to get this off my chest. sending hugs and kisses to all of you ✨

#annie talks #rant #i am sorryyy

[comehome-tome]

will you be an extra in the last season? i want to but im scared about corona

probably not. as long as the lockdown lasts i‘m definitely not traveling to belgium and even after that i guess it all depends on what the situation is like. they will have probably wrapped filming by the time international travel is allowed again. i‘m really not sure. in germany the numbers are going down and the incidence is 80 something so it might not take that long until traveling will be allowed again but it also depends on belgium. i just want everyone to be safe. i can’t really give you any advise bc everywhere the situation is different. just know that on set it‘s safe and they take all the necessary precautions if you decide to go

[taradeanwebster]

When I look back to my life, there are too many things I wanted to change. Like every person I know. There are too many chances. There are too many choices, I miss. My mind is killing me. I don‘t want to make things so bad. I can‘t sleep since days. And no one cared. It‘s because of corona. I know. But...every friend I know, left me on the top of this big, huge mountain of fear and lonelyness. I was crying days and screaming. I was hoping that anyone can hear me. But there was no one. And there was no exit, for no one, expecially for me. My soul started to dim the shine. And I was thinking about killing myself. I really wanted to take the LAST exit. How could I know there was another? But there WAS another. Otherwise the reader couldn‘t read this article. So There was no place to go, because all shops are close. And no one was ready to talk with me. I told myself to stand up and don‘t cry any longer so I can fix this huge problem. I did. Why am I so hard to myself? Depression isn‘t a fake thing. It‘s a real thing. And my thoughts where destroing me. I tried not to think. Not to care, but the silence was a killer, too. Drawing was my passion since forever. So I started to draw some things. Some brainstorming. (btw. let me know if u wanna see some of my drawings down in the comments).

If there was one person who to save me from this horrify time, everything was different, I guess. But what I am wanted to say is, that YOU are the most important person in your life. So all the messed up things in your life can ONLY fixing by yourself. Yes, the persons in your life can help you but in the end, it‘s your life and your soul. No one exept you can fix your problems. Drama is such a killer and if we let it in...we have to save ourself from beeing destroyed by feeling lonely and not good good enouth. And there is help. You are not alone. I was feeling so lonely, even if I‘m not. I was fixing and I am fixing my problems by myself but if you are thinking about you‘re not even worth it. YOU ARE. But you have to accept that you‘re in danger and you have to fight against it. Otherwise you can‘t be fixed. You have to accept yourself. Everyone has problems. Everyone has chances hat he has missed. Everyone hase the right to live his fuckin life. And if I could, I would save everyone. But I can‘t. It‘s your choice...

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