... Ok so. In my post I made like 10 minutes ago about Jimmy not dying first I also had, in the notes, the words "and now he's gonna die immediately" and uh. Yeah. I almost punched the concrete wall I'm leaning on over this session. How yall doing?
Made this after a failed attempt at a psychiatry appointment earlier this year. Awful practitioner, made me give up on the field for 8 months.
But I found someone I like now. He validated my autism and ADHD diagnoses rather than trying to diagnose me with modern day hysteria and give me more or different anxiety meds (I’m already on 4, tyvm)
Turns out what I needed was treatment for ADHD. And now that I got it, this (non) fictional character is no longer having a hard time. At least not with overthinking and spiraling and intrusive thoughts.
But I sometimes forget how unique the show is for the amount of (oddly sexy) man crying it features. I’m fucking here for it tho. Especially the bathtub scene.
It just occurred to me that the academia aesthetic will be less likely for the new characters because they’re no longer in the academics, they’re in government and I think that is the true tragedy. Sure I’m totally for creepy motherfuckers in suits, but what about the brown cardigans!? The glasses chains?!?! People might not draw glasses chains on these new people. 🥺 in the show I associate with glasses chains.
Yesterday night I went to a club for a queer/cosplay night with some friends and we decided to go as Loki's Variants.
I was president Loki, and I was not prepared for the amount of drunk gays who asked me for hugs blabbering about how much they like Loki and some getting teary eyes. Some bowed, and one guy even got on his knees.
Remembering it now, it's kinda obvious how much queer people would like a character like this, but I was absolutely not prepared.
My NYCC 2023 cosplay! I've been wanting to make Link's Glide Suit since the game came out, and sure, it was horribly complicated to make, but I had fun. Also featuring this awesome Rauru cosplayer I found who goes by Mochiany on youtube and tiktok.
Some process photos under the cut
Wearing a backpack would have interfered with the wings, so I made a detachable backpack that clipped to my shoulders. The cowl also pulled up into a facemask.
I just barely finished making this whole thing because of a series of setbacks. I was still painting it the day before I left for the con.
Hey guys, I am starting the process of trying to write the book that I needed as a undiagnosed adhd-er, likely undiagnosed high-functioning autistic who was rejected by almost everyone I cared about.
The thing is, I'm 30 years old now and while I'm still dealing with the trauma of some of those experiences, things have certainly changed. I want this book to mean something and to actually be helpful so I have some questions for you guys. Feel free to reblog to answer, or send me an anonymous ask. Just trying to dial this idea in:
What are you guys tired of seeing in media geared toward you?
What feels patronizing?
What doesn't help?
What just makes you feel worse?
What do you feel like is the source/cause of your struggles?
I really appreciate anyone who is willing to share and would really appreciate a reblog if you feel comfortable, I am trying to get as many eyes on this as possible.
Going to gently tag some moots I know are minors/teens, but please don't feel at all pressured to answer or even acknowledge the post:
Kayne is one of those characters where there's not really enough material of him for me to have an active ongoing obsession with him, but whenever I think about him it's like someone doused my brain in dopamine and I start visibly shaking
Having a crazy good week in a crazy good year, man. Summer vacation just started, I have a festival volunteering gig lined up with my friends, and have just had more near-consecutive late nights out with friends in a row than i have ever had in my entire life (did a VFX studio tour that came with free pizza, attended my college's end of year party in FABULOUS gomez addams cosplay, and attended an indie games arcade social mixer for the volunteers).
I even debuted my preferred name with my workplace!! :D i'd been awkwardly using my legal name there the whole time, but after an entire year at a college where everyone just calls me Can and forgets I even have a legal name, I decided to make the change and they've been great about it!!
Anyway it'a crazy that in-person art school with a bunch of cool gay neurodivergent ppl made me realise I'm more of an extrovert than I previously figured - that's what a healthy social environment does 2 a guy i guess!! Hope next year is just as fun, if not more 🥺💛