#shizophrenia

[katrinthecat]

Don't you, Emily?

(Hiding from God in her head)

#hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel sera #hazbin hotel sir pentious #hazbin hotel emily #sera #emily #sir pentious #angels #seraphim #shizophrenia #mindless

[jennifer-hamilton-wb]

Happy to see recent up tick in people tagging things as unreality. in places where I hadn't otherwise expected it, i'll see it in the title next to the false statement. There's still a long way to go, but it's good to see the internet slowly becoming a safer place for me and others like me.

#next can people try not to throw around terms like crazy or psychotic or delusional or insane? that would be nice. #but the [unreality] stuff is great #I love to see it #schizophrenia awareness #shizophrenia #actually schizophrenic #jen rants about the psychiatric system again #(once again the above tag is for organisation. not nessesarily topical)

[ayanamiagony]

toxic jerma

#jerma #cruelty squad #toxi #funny #shizophrenia #jerma985

[zebulontheplanet]

There are two types of people I’ve met with schizospec disorders.

Either those who believe shizospec disorders are silly quirky little hallucinations and being “delulu” or fucking hating it and believing they’re monsters.

#zebrambles #shizophrenia #shizospec #shizospec disorders #Schizoaffective #actually schizospec #actually schizoaffective #Schizophreniform disorder #Schizotypal personality disorder #Brief psychotic disorder

[cairocreations]

Okay- poll for my fellow brainworm owners- because I need to know

Please don’t answer if ur not mentally ill or neurodivergent!!!

More rambling abt personal stuff under the cut, Reblogs on this are appreciated but no pressure

This happens to me ALOT- mainly when I’m in a good mood and have energy, which is very very annoying.

Like— “Well today I focused on my assignments! I must not have ADHD and have been lying to everyone for seven years!” When logically that makes NO SENSE and also I’m exhausted and a day before I had a breakdown because I couldn’t focus on anything.

For some reason my brain has unfortunately decided that I’m not allowed to be happy or have energy because it means I’m some grand con artist who’s fooled everybody into thinking I’m mentally I’ll when I literally have diagnosises and am the textbook definition for some of this shit!

“Oh I’m in a good mood- I must not be mentally ill…” then a few minutes later I’m crying sobbing and gasping because I can’t communicate what I need and then that just makes it harder for me to talk and then I’m crying for 2 hours and repeatedly calling myself a bad dog even though I did literally nothing wrong and just wasn’t with people who knew how to help me.

#mental health #poll #mental health poll #nuerodivergent #nuerodiversity #imposter syndrome #autism #asd #adhd #attention deficit hyperactivity disorder #anxiety #generalized anxiety disorder #gad #obsessive compulsive disorder #ocd #my polls #polls #bipolar disorder #bipolor #borderline personality disorder #bpd #shizophrenia #narcissistic personality disorder #npd #sorry for all the tags #sorry for being depressing #just wanted to get reach #and #i’m curious #this is a safe space

[plshelpmeimfat]

Dziś w nocy znów widziałam te dziwne postacie wszystkie się na mnie patrzyły następnym razem wydlubie sobie oczy

#jestem obrzydliwa #schizofrenia #shizophrenia #shizoposting #gruba szmata #nienawidze siebie #bede motylkiem #chce byc lekka jak motylek #chce widziec swoje kosci #jestem gruba #nie bede jesc #nie chce jesc #az do kosci #ed not ed sheeran #ed not sheeren #mental health #samobojca #samobójca #mysli samobojcze #samookaleczanie #notatki samobójcy #nie chce żyć #nienawidzę życia #nie chce jeść #nie chce być gruba #nie jestem glodna #nie jestem idealna #zabije się #nie chce mi się żyć #chce sie zabic

[impunkster-syndrome]

Finally got wind of that "pro delusion" blog and I really encourage all people who have a difficult relationship with reality to stay away from it.

Url is "prodelusion" and they advocate for encouraging delusions, like it is bodily autonomy in practice and not something potentially dangerous and could possibly harm others. There is a difference in not supporting unwelcome reality checks and encouraging reality breaks.

Do not harass them. Just block and report if applicable.

Edit: Found that they consider this transabled/"medpunk". It's ableist. Fuck you.

If anyone who does want to know how to treat people with delusions: Don't encourage them, or disprove them without consent. Both can send someone further into a delusion and can put them in more distress. Stay neutral, and focus on the person experiencing it's feelings and how to not engage with the delusion.

Section below the readmore is going to be why this is harmful, written by me who has stress and trauma based delusions and hallucinations. Please, do not read past that if it may trigger your own delusions and hallucinations. It's going to mention:

- How distressing double-bookkeeping can be at times

- What I call "persecutory erotomania," something I experience where both of those types of delusions collide

- Persecutory delusions

- DMS (Delusional Misidentification Syndrome), like clinical lycanthropy but on a less severe scale, Cotard's

It opens with short descriptions of delusions I have gotten before.

My delusions and hallucinations are stress and trauma-induced. I have to say that and that my experiences do not apply to everyone. My delusions and hallucinations tend to be episodic but it is very easy to trigger one. Sometimes it is getting a hit to the head, other times it is just stress or encountering a trauma trigger.

Some of my delusions are harmless. Being physically a character/doll/cat but stuck in the body of someone else or hexed to never be able to show anyone what I really look like.

Others are not. Believing that something outside my room is here to kill me, my abusive ex is trying to get me back through magic, thinking my arm is rotting and needs to be sawed off due to it, thinking I am a pre-contract magical girl and hearing Kyubey communicating with me telepathically to find it which would make me go out at night alone.

My percieved reality is quite different from the one in which everyone else seems to live because of this. So when I tell people that it's stressful to be aware of this but also be desperately seeking some sort of understanding, a lot of them don't understand and immediately try to disprove it to help. That, along with my delusions often having some little grain of truth to them, makes them more distressing.

So, I stopped telling people. Even when I feel like I cannot take living in two different worlds and once and like it is tearing me apart, I hardly tell anyone.

Encouraging even my harmless delusions will make me more isolated as I dive deeper into it. They aren't exactly always harmless either. As a doll, I am fragile and feel like my body will break if I am not careful. I wouldn't be able to do things.

It is not empowering to encourage delusions, especially those that cause harm or can very quickly if encouraged. It is downright dangerous.

#psa #psychosis #shizophrenia #schizospec #madpunk #mentally ill #anti radqueer #anti medpunk #delusion #hallucination #anti transabled

[koko-from-the-future]

If you care about schizospecs just shut up

The same people calling themselves "delulu" make fun of us schizospecs - I'm so TIREDDDDD of the "I'm in your walls joke" or the trend of making up events and then when people ask, no BEG to be told the truth people flat out lie and then gaslight us when they see the damage they've caused.

I hope you never have to question your reality,

I hope you never sit frozen in agony wondering whether it would be better to 'live' in this world or to die in it.

#disability #actually stpd #shizophrenia #madpunk #disabled

[n0-al-3n8y]

~ except no Jules here ~

can't survive without being numb

#euphoria #tw drvgs #rue bennett #zendaya #addiction #mental illness #shizophrenia #actually schizophrenic #actually cptsd #actually mentally ill #depression #depressing shit #elliot alderson #mr robot #rami malek #tw addiction #i hate my brain #tw drugs

[wa1tngtill1d13]

#litrally crazy #shizophrenia #mentally ill #tw depressing stuff #kinda depressing #crazy #dark thoughts #tw selfhate #depressing life #i feel empty #sh mention #s3lfharmm #self h@rm #actually mentally ill #im not mentally stable #mental illness #menswear #mental issues #mental problems #mentally fucked #mentally unstable #mental health #messy moodboard #meme #personal #myself #insane #tw yandere #yandere #fvcked life

[sweetdees-gf]

VENT!!

TW: Psychosis, (child) r*pe, m*rder, cannib*lism, p*rn

psychosis is really fucking scary. I thought I killed my cat and lizard. I thought I was dying. I thought my family had abandoned me and been replaced with special agents trying to send me to jail. I kept asking hospital staff “are you staying? will you stay with me?” because I thought my family had left me. i thought I was being filmed at all times. I thought my family was watching from cameras telling the nurses and patients what to do next in order to torture me. i thought my dna was being collected for evidence so I tried not to go to the bathroom or touch anything. I thought I was being accused of canib*lism, p***philia, r*pe, and m*rder. I thought my little brothers were being “played” by child actors. I thought I was being poisoned with rotten food. I thought all the nurses were trying to sleep with me. I thought all the male nurses were trying to physically restrain and hurt me. There was another psychotic patient there and I believed that I was communicating with him and that he was being punished in the same way I was. I thought I was on a movie or TV set and every one in the hospital was an actor being told to act like people from my life or characters from my favorite movies and shows to try and appeal to me to get information. I rejected visitation from my father because I believed he was the ringleader of it all and when he came around it meant I was being arrested. I thought I was being sent messages through music and tv. I thought certain programs were carefully curated to mimic my life and talk to me. I thought the books they were giving me were AI generated. I thought they were giving me child p*rn to read. I thought they were just finding the most racist shit possible and giving it to me. I thought everything in the books were metaphors for r*pe, beasti*lity, racism, or child r*pe. I thought everyone was in on it, everyone I’d ever met , my school, my family, I thought every moment of my life was leading up to them “catching” me.

#psychosis #mentalwellness #mental illinois #mental instability #mentally disordered #mental heath issues #mental health #shizophrenia #phsyco #psychotic episode #psychotic disorders #actually psychotic #psychotic break #psychotic symptoms

[wheelie-sick]

I feel so embarrassed about some of the things I said and did while in psychosis. I've been coming out of an episode for a couple of months and it's so upsetting to look back and process it all because I just get so embarrassed by my delusional self.

this wasnt from my most recent episode, this was from 2021 but still

I'm just processing that I really did, in fact, tell many people in my life that I'm psychic and can talk to ghosts (I am not! I can't!) ...... and also that I was talking to the Norse gods and that they had chosen me, and also that it was my destiny to bring lost souls on Earth to the afterlife and just. now that I look back at it all it feels so obviously untrue?

I used to go around to roadkill and perform different blessings on them so that they could pass into the afterlife because I believed that was my job. all of the traffic saw me (thank god because I would not be here if they didn't) and this was when I lived in a small town so everyone knew who I was. they. all. know. and they probably remember because when you see teenager standing in the middle of the fucking road doing witchcraft on a dead squirrel you don't forget that!!

I just wish I could go back and undo it and make myself no longer psychotic because all of these memories make me want to turn invisible. I don't mind people online hearing about it but the people I know in my real life?? the people I interact with daily??? it makes me want to shrivel up like a raisin

and they all pretend that they don't know about my schizophrenia. everyone pretends that they believe the abilify is for "anxiety." that or they all have come up with some absolutely wild ways to explain it all away.

it's just so frustrating. it often feels like psychosis takes away my autonomy. I didn't get a choice in doing those embarrassing things I never stood a chance at not having embarrassing memories.

!! I have religious psychosis. your religious beliefs might be true but my beliefs were delusions. do not try to talk to me about your religion at all !!

#actually schizophrenic #ActuallySchizophrenic #pseriouslyschizophrenic #pseriouslypsychosis #neurodivergent #shizophrenia

[palestinebird]

I'm fleeing Russia in this May.

I will go to the migration police at the airport.

I don't know which country is better yet, I don't have the energy to think about it.

In November I was refused treatment by the last two shock therapy clinics.

I wrote a court letter to the local health care, they initiated a counter-suit for the reason that I am unable to take care of myself and need forced hospitalization.

#psychosis #depressing shit #shizophrenia

[niyaluvszaza]

#body dysmorphia #i’m so exhausted #vent #personal vent #so fucking exhausted #venting #tired af #tired #tired of this shit #vent art #trauma #real #trauma vent #grieving over someone who isn’t dead #shizophrenia #self hate #self harm #sorry for being depressing #i'm so fucking tired #sick and tired #depressing shit #batshit crazy #child abuse #i hate calories #cry for help #cw vent #vent post #hate my body #hate everything about myself #hate my face

[747airplanes]

guys imagine being schizophrenic during that time right before the battle of Hogwarts when Voldemort is screaming in everyone's heads and you're just wondering why everyone is also hearing the voices and have a whole existential crisis 💀

Or you're not worried at all and you're like "ha first time?" To the rest of the students lmao

#harry potter #harry potter memes #funny #shizophrenia #dark humor

[vsemsvetit]

#shizophrenia