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archangeldyke-all · 6 months

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a request for butch Sevika & reader that met via blind date at a lesbian bar & maybe ended up hooking up afterward pls <33 (butch sevika with a shitload of tattoos🙇🏾‍♀️)

love this i pray this happens to me someday lmaoo

men and minors dni

you're catching up with your old friend kimmy when she asks you if you're still single.

"why?" you ask.

"i love that you're immediately hostile, that's super healthy." she says. you roll your eyes.

"you're gonna try to set me up again!" you accuse. the last three times kimmy sent you on a blind date with one of her 'friends' you ended up getting drunk as the woman across the table sobbed about her ex to you. "i'm not interested in your messy ass friends." you say. kimmy punches you.

"well then you'll love this one, because she's not my friend. she's my coworker." you give her a deadpan look. "i'm not asking i'm telling. i already told her you'd go." she says. you gawk at her.

"what the fuck is wrong with you!?" you ask. she shrugs.

"i think you guys are perfect for each other. for real this time."

"if i spend the entire night playing therapist ,i'm charging you therapy rates for however long the date is!" you spit.

"i'm gonna love telling this story at your wedding." she giggles.

two weeks later, you're meeting the mystery woman 'sevika' at dinner.

you're gulping down a fruity cocktail as you wait for sevika to arrive at the bar. all you know about her is that she works in the office beside kimmy's, she's gonna be 'the tall dark and handsome one,' and she 'likes boring drinks, like, whiskey and stuff'. all kimmy's words.

you pause to take a hefty sip of your cocktail, when across the bar, the door swings open and the most handsome woman you've ever seen walks through the door. your mouth drops open as you take her in. she's-- gorgeous. she's tall and sturdy and strong, one of her arms covered in tattoos, both of her arms covered in muscles. she's wearing a white wifepleaser to show off her strong arms and broad shouders, and black slacks that cling to her muscular thighs. you blink.

the woman catches sight of you and smiles, and you smile back and wave, then look away from her, focusing on your cocktail again. you're absolutely flabbergasted when twenty seconds later, the same woman is tapping your shoulder and saying your name.

you blink up at her, your mouth open in shock. "yes?"

"kimmy's friend?" you blink again, slightly confused as to how the gorgeous woman above you knew all this about you. she chuckles at your face and reaches her tattooed hand forward.

"sevika." she says. you blink. this is sevika?!

"holy shit." you whisper. sevika grins. you quickly reach forward to shake her hand. "shit, i-i didn't mean to say that out loud." you say, laughing and scratching the back of your neck in embarrassment. sevika chuckles. "'s just-- kimmy didn't tell me you were..." you trail off, gulping down the embarrassing adjectives that were swirling in your head.

"tall?" sevika guesses. you laugh and shake your head no.

"i'll tell you if this goes well." you say.

it goes extremely well.

you and sevika chat over shared nachos and cocktails. she seems to be just as attracted to you as you are to her, her eyes trailing up and down your body as you speak-- or even more distracting-- focused on your lips, her on tongue darting out to lick her own.

when the night comes to a close and the bar starts cleaning out, sevika glances over at you.

"so?" she asks. you smile at her.

"so what?" you say.

"so, did it go well?" she asks with a cocky smirk. you grin and shrug.

"take me outside and i'll show you how well it went." you whisper. sevika sprints out of the bar, dragging you behind her.

in the alleyway, sevika's got her lips on your tits and her fingers in your cunt. you're grunting and moaning and scrabbling at her hair and shoulders, and just as you're about to cum, she pulls away completely. you gasp and look up at her.

"wha--?"

"kimmy didn't tell you i was what?" she says, smirking down at you. you laugh and surge up to kiss her.

"fuckin' perfect." you say, honestly. sevika grins.

"feeling's mutual."

taglist!

@lesbeaniegreenie @fyeahnix @sapphicsgirl @half-of-a-gay

#sevika #sevika imagine #sevika x reader #sevika arcane #sevika x you #soft sevika

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sixosix · 5 months

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IM HERE. IVE ARRIVED. I HAVE THOUGHTS. when i said i might not come back here cuz i was busy? yeah, FUCK THAT. only divine intervention can keep me away from ur account. THE NEW THAWED PART?? WHAT THE FUCK. i wake up this morning expecting a chapter like, late afternoon but i forgot TIMEZONES EXIST . so u can imagine my absolute shock when i check my notifications bar and hit tumblr writer user sixosix posted new thawed part?? dude. the scream i scrumpt when lyney recognized the reader OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDD. i knew it was over when the flower landed by her feet but him saying her name had me DSINFIDSJFJDS?!?!!??! DURING THE SHOW TOO. HE DIDNT WAIT UNTIL IT WAS OVERIJ DSJUFUDJSFIJDSAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!! even rereading that part now as i write has me going crazy like i cant even put my excitement into words its SO?!?!?w??VFDXJDVNDSFNC god. okay. the scene where he grabs THE READER BY THE WAIST. 'CAUGHT YOU' ????? YEAH AND I CAUGHT FEELINGS YOURE NOT SPECIAL LYNEY?? THE GRIP ON THE WAIST. AUUUUUUUGH. ARUEGJHHH. ARHGHHRJGFDKD... IM ON MY DEATH BED!! TAKE ME TO THE BEACH SO I MAY GAZE UPON THE SEA ONCE MORE!!!! the mr lyney. miss lynette. falls to my knees. dies. dies. dies. BUT GOD THE FACT THEY THOUGHT SHE WAS DEAD TOO? no wonder lyney chased after her !!!! if my girlfriend (one-sided (?)) turned up alive out of no where i would do the same fr. a real man would drop to one knee and propose right there (grow some balls lyney) LYNETTE!!!!! SO CUTE!!!!!!!!! IM GONNA BITE HER SOKFDOSAKDASIJD THE SLOW APPROACH LIKE A TIMID CAT AND THEN THE SMIEL AUHGHDJFSKJFD?!w?FDDJNFODSJKFND!!!!! i cant imagine how she felt finding her bff again im so AUUURHGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! i know she knocked some sense into lyney afterwards LMAOO also reader pretending to be working under tart... ohh i know thats gonna backfire on her later in the story. ALSO CHILDE MENTION YIPPEE YIPPEE YIPPEE!!!!!!!!!!!!! do i have my doubts about lyney and lynette believing readers lie? absolutely. you dont grow up with someone and not know when theyre lying.. especially lyney. have u ever watched barbie in the dreamhouse?? theres this episode where ken tries to get a job but he doesnt bc each time barbie has an emergency, so he just becomes a (barbie)house-husband.. thats the vibe im getting from lyney and reader the 'i'm happy to see you' from lyney, and reader (kinda?) dismissing it with the 'goodbye miss lynette and mr lyney' ????? AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH ??????? sending u the number and email to my therapist rn ure paying for my next session. also i love aether, paimons and readers friendship, especially their little banter at the end. ALSO. SIGH. reader calling rosalie maman. when i tell u i screamed i MEAN IT. THEY MEAN SO MUCH TO ME. I LOVE THEM SO BAD IM GONNA SOB!!!! ............im gonna say, im a bit paranoid though.. youre not gonna hurt rosalie right. righ.t Right. blinking at u. blinking at u. blink blink blink . BLINK. BLIIINK !!!!!!!!!! ok sorry for clogging up ur asks with this . i have no idea how to end this its so long LMAOO. there are so many other parts i loved (brief melusine scene, audience reactions, etc) but i just didnt know how to convey my feelings into words ifgjdifjdji. i love thawed and ur writing SOSOSOSO much and im so excited for future updates!!!!!!!!!!! THATS ALL I GOT TO SAY!!!!!!! ramble mode OFF!!!!!!!! BYEBYE AND TAKE CARE MUAAAAAAAAAH

HIII LIS!!!!! ohh seeing your asks rlly brighten my day. LMFAOOO your comment actually had me laughing out loud “I JUZT WOKR UP WHAT RHE DICK” HAHSA

YES. DURING THE SHOW!!! i want to emphasize that lyney did not care about the audience or the weeks of practice for this very moment if he sees the reader !!!! HELPPP nooooo dont lie on your death bed yet we still have a few more chapters to go through 💔💔

ONE SIDED GF 😭😭😭 IJBOL he definitely wouldve proposed if it wasnt for aether im telling u. YESSS LYNETTE APPRECIATION i love her so much i try to add her as much as i can bc her interactions w lyney are so fun. Theyre literally siblings 😭❤️❤️

CHILDE MENTION !! this is definitely gonna bite her in the ass later but hey thats for another chapter

YES I E WATCHED BARBIE DREAMHOUSE IMQHAHSHEH thats so funny that you said that im saving that as a screwnshot LMFAOOO

Yes i want to up the angst and pain. reader my self destructive thawed!reader … ❤️ but i also need the therapy please do send my number

Rosalie. rosalie, rosalie, rosalie. our maman. reader’s maman especially. Anyway.

AWW its okay!!! dont ever worry about your asks being too long !! i meant it when i said i love reading through them. THANK YOU FOR YOUR SUPPORT ❤️❤️❤️❤️ TAKE CARE TOO LIS MWA MWA

#606:inbox #606: plasmacan #<3

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bi-bats · 6 months

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just barely holding back from sending you the entire list lmaooo. once again, feel free to pick and choose

1, 3, 5, 15, 24, 37, 42, 54, 77, 85, 100, 129, 131

Bean, my beloved. Hello dear thank you for always coming through 💖

A book that is close to your heart

Vicious by V.E. Schwab. If I had to pick a favorite book, it's probably this one. My original copy of this book is SO fucked up lmaoo

3. A stand-alone that you wish was a part of a series

OH Wilder Girls by Rory Power. What a phenomenal fucking book. It had an open ending that left me satisfied, but also really thinking about what was going to happen and wishing that I knew. I still think about this book and I read it like... four years ago?

5. Something in fiction that reads like poetry

THIS IS HOW YOU LOSE THE TIME WAR BY AMAL EL-MOHTAR AND MAX GLADSTONE HOLY SHIT HOLY FUCK I FUCKING LOVE THIS BOOK AND I HAVE FOR A LONG TIME AND ITS ONE OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL BOOKS I'VE EVER READ I'M ABOUT TO READ IT FOR A FOURTH AND PROBABLY FIFTH TIME

15. A book rec you really enjoyed

The Watchmaker of Filigree Street by Natasha Pulley!! This book has something for literally everyone, I'm actually in the process of re-reading it because I didn't know it was a part of a series when I first read it and my therapist keeps telling me that the way that she puts the overall plot of the series together is one of the most interesting things he's ever read

24. A book on your nightstand

The Cabinet by Un-Su Kim, The Stepford Wives by Ira Levin, The Martian by Andy Weir, Vicious by VE Schwab, I'll stop there because I'm not typing out like 20 titles for this and I wish I was joking

37. Your favorite heist book

I'm actually not entirely sure that this counts, but Anxious People by Frederick Backman. I have a bunch of heist books that I want to read, but I haven't gotten around to yet. This is one of my all time favorite recs though! I love Frederick Backman fr he's such a great author

42. A book that made you want to scream by the time you got to the end

Lost Boy by Christina Henry oh my god. Ohhhh my god. Oh my sweet lord. Everything by Christina Henry is phenomenal, but this one in particular fucked me up. This was one of those books that leaves you feeling raw and hollow at the end. It will stomp on you. It will shred your heart. It will be worth it.

54. A book with the best opening line

Poison for Breakfast by Lemony Snicket. The opening line is literally "This morning I ate poison for breakfast." Full disclosure, if you go into that book expecting a full plot, you won't enjoy it as much. It's really a very wandery story without much plot, but I had a good time and normally I hate stuff like that. There's just something that's really so lovely about Lemony Snicket's way of writing though. Also, the audiobook is narrated by Patrick Warburton my beloved

77. A book so useless that you could use it as a coaster

Those We Drown by Amy Goldsmith. This is the only book I've ever given a zero star rating to. I've never read fanfiction as bad as this book. This is comparable to my wattpad writing when I was 12. Maybe worse. I wouldn't even use it as a coaster, because I returned it.

85. Your favorite book about magical realism

Right now it's probably Even Though We Knew The End by C.L. Polk. This book was so beautiful, and so quick, and the vibes of it were absolutely impeccable. It's a queer, noir, magical realism murder mystery. It was also slightly devastating, but in a really beautiful, hopeful, satisfying way.

100. Your favorite gothic novel

We Have Always Lived in the Castle by Shirley Jackson. This is one of my favorite books of all time, and it's definitely my favorite haunted house story of all time! The plot is just phenomenal and Shirley Jackson is SO incredible. Also it's far superior to The Haunting of Hill House (which she also wrote)

129. A book with beautiful prose

Gallant by V.E. Schwab. She couldn't just have one book on this list. She's my favorite author by FAR. I just. kdfharughu. I don't know how she does it. There are always SO many banger lines in her books. The way she writes is just so. SO. Idk man. If you like my stuff, read her stuff, she's such a huge inspiration to me.

131. Recommend any book you like!

A Psalm for the Wild Built by Becky Chambers OR The Echo Wife by Sarah Gailey. Literally any book by either of them is phenomenal, but those are two of my favorites! They do have VASTLY different vibes though. A psalm for the wild built is like. a solar-punk utopian book about happiness and existence and success not being defined externally. And the echo wife is like. a sci-fi character study of two (three?) horribly fucked up people and also murder and also becoming the thing you fear the most and losing your humanity and rguahrgur. They're both amazing books though!

book rec ask game

#batsasks #book recs #bibatrambles #🫘 this was a terrible idea #thanks for the ask bestieeee!!!!#for context I've read every one of these and some of them i've read more than once #except for the ones on my nightstand #i'm currently reading those

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petrichor-reminiscence · 17 days

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more restoration thots

so, this is me just copy-pasting my original notes i was taking while watching, and i took them on my phone so uh apologies for any spelling mistakes or grammatical errors lol ^^; i cleaned it up the best i could but if i missed anything uh no i didn't

note below the cut, spoilers!

the retro convention opening is WILD lmao, keepsake coozie

lmao box canyon bozos 8 love that

this convention is so funny

typing on my phone im dying

all mysteriously disappeared

???

undisclosed oooooooh lmao

Dylan Andrews hasn't met the reds and blues, confirmed retcon then?

KAIIIII

WOOOOOOO

her intro music? iconic

oh shit

"you bitches are on your own"

"epic" LMAO

OMFG IS THAT LOCUS

NO ITS META

OH FUCK

FUCK FUCK FUCK

IM DYING KFKGKKGKGK

why does this intro feel like a marvel movie

THE REDSSSSS

WOOOOO

WHERE IS DONUT

WHERE IS LOPEZ

SCREAMING

"that's me hi I'm grif"

IN CHARGE OF AMMO LETS GO HAHAHA

"I'm morally opposed to counting"

"I think counting is a gateway drug to mathematics" LMAOO

THE BACKWARDS ONE HAHAHAHAHA PHENOMENAL WAY TO SAY DIVISION

DND REFERENCE

"why are we even here"

WHERE ARE THEY

GRIF STOP GETTING META I WILL CRY

he'll have Lopez do the inventory BUT WHERE IS LOPEZ

BLUE BASE?!?!

SHEILA SOUNDS WRONG

so does caboose, but that's a given

I've gotta gonna stomach it jfjgkgkg

Lopez also sounds wrong

CABOOSE CAN SPEAK SPANISH?!?!

W H A T

HAH can only speak but not understand that is so caboose

okay Sheila is starting to sound a bit more normal

oh fuck is the light epsilons message?!

IT IS THEY PULLED A STARWARS

OH SHIT

OH SHIT OH SHIT OH SHIT

LOPEZ SPEAKING IN ENGLISH WITH THE SPANISH SUBTITLES

IM DYING HOLY SHIT

is this after thirteen or seventeen? I'm thinking thirteen because Dylan hasn't met them but I can't fucking tell quite yet

unsc military hospital?!?!

IS THIS WHERE WASH IS

OMFG IT IS HE HAS A KITTY ON THE NIGHTSTAND

DOC

he's in pt bitch what happened

screaming

kfmgkkglgmf

"I think I've earned my issues with authority"

DOC KNOWS ABOUT HIS IMPLANTATION TROUBLES NOW?!

he doesn't remember a lot of that??

I'm screaming omfg

someone else's memories? man wash is goin through it

WASNT MUCH OVERLAP IN THEIR PERSONALITIES?!?!? SCREAMING

doc and omega are similar

wash DID feel everything alpha felt confirmed

where tf is tucker

shipyard?

WHOM

is this locus give me locus

NO ITS META TUCKER

theta sounds like apple bloom lmao

tucker is flashing?!?!

SIGMA SHUT

omfg poor tucker I'm gonna start fucjing crying

w h a t

omfg the ship charons ship

Simmons is in charge of zingers

Simmons stop saying sick burn ill cry

caboose sounds so wrong but I'll still have to suck it uppppp

tucker been missing for months again JDJKGKG

everything feels so off im gonna cry

why is grif so aggressive rn?!

oh shit here comes sheila lmao

grif holy shit what is WRONG with you right now?

the music is so evil omfg

CHURCH

he's still dead

lmao I love him

so the rest of the seasons WERE simulations!! gotcha gotcha retcon confirmed

Simmons oh my god you are going crazy

wait no wonder everything feels off

they've been going insane by themselves after everything at chorus ofc they'd act differently

"did you tell ALL the simulations they're real?" "... no?"

"I can't predict how to communicate with caboose" I love this

HAHA HIS WEIRD BRAIN I LOVE THAT

he's literally pyroland tbh

he's so off but I still love him

animated infographic LMAO

there better be fucking sand cutting or slime videos to the side lol

"I hope there's ads!"

OMFG DAVID CAMP CAMP CAMEO

lmao ofc sarge is in a political echochamber lmao

LMAO HE MADE A META JUMPSCARE CHURCH THAT WAS SO UNECESSARY I LOVE YOU

he added a bow-chicka-bow-wow for tucker

aw tucker :(

the visuals omfg

CRYING BABY NOISES IM KFKGKG

CHURCH ON A THERAPY COUCH

LMAO THE DIRECTOR IS THE THERAPIST

"I'm taking full accountability for holding someone else accountable"

oh shit tucker was the great destroyer! holy fuck!

destined to destroy their enemies, the humans

oh shit felix

he's a mix of fucking EVERYONE?!

even felix?

HOW DOES THAT MAKE SENSE?!

lmao real tucker was the best soldier

he sells tshirts

fuck he withheld the epsilon fragment uh oh

uh oh potential alpha that's unpredictable and terrifying

lol the reds are gonna say no aren't they

this whole epic build up with the help us question? they're gonna say no

HAHA THEY JUST LEFT CALLED IT

LMAO

jesus grif be nice to caboose im gonna have to smack him

simmonssss cmonnnn

caboose noooooo

my heart is breaking rn

oh fuck meta tucker

HES BACK ON THE SHIP

the echo of tuckers actual voice im screaming

oh shit gammas time deception shit noo dont torture my boy

sigmaaaa you are so evil you bastard

oh shit omega

TUCKERS ECHO IM SCREAMING

I can't tell if sigma is actually elijah or not rn

oH shit ten years of torture??

NOOO!!

TUCKER NOOOOOOO

HIS SCREAMING IM GONNA DIE

oh fuck

i'm kfkgkfllskdogo this is more heartbreaking than i expected

YAY WASH TIME

the fucjing recording in the hospital i hate this

this feels like a containment situation not an actual hospital

DR GRAY

oh fuck them treating him like he's crazy

no I'm gonna

gray I will have to fight you

ADMIRAL DONUT?!?!

DOC YOU TOO?!

screaming

CALLING HIM DAVID OH SHIT

gray I wanna hit you

oh poor wash this fucking gaslighting I'm idkgkvkv

oh my god they need to get him out of there wtf

they're treating him like a crazy dementia patient

omfg there they go

there goes the reds in the warthog aka puma

omfg sarge shooting him while talking to him kdkgkvk

479er!!!

SC REAMING

cant tell if its her same va but at this point that's to be expected

omfg epsilon never liked her lol

haha serial killer caboose

THE SLOW TURN CABOOSE AHAHAHA

omfg they are going back to hargroves ship

oh shit they're going for the recovery unit!

his random shut up caboose moments lmao

uh oh pure stealth

lmao immediately abandoning it just like i expected

lmao sarge talking about blasting through everything for eight minutes

lmao even epsilons fragment memory message shit is sleeping haha

dammit sarge

omfg caboose still has his confetti gun

WHERE IS FRECKLES GIVE ME FRECKLES

caboose yelling pew pew omfg and him and sarge back to back im loving this

there's no one in the room

CABOOSE WINS THE PARADE

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA

lmao command went to zoom LOL

THEM COMING IN THE ZOOM WITH THE FUCKING GREENSCREEN BACKROINDS AND POUNTING WEAPONS LMAOOO

THE CAT FILTER AHAHAHA

he muted himself

screaming omfg

SOMEONE SAID CHAT

HOLY SHIT

oh shit they're in the main room

grif better find the gridshit

*grifshit

fuck

whatever you get the idea

oh fuck the metas armor TUCKERS THERE

OH FUCK

they're so dumb

they're so fucking dumb

"we're so fucking dumb" EXACTLY WHAT I SAUD

SARGE SAID MONKEYING ABOUT AHAHAHA

oh fuck

chrome dome lmao

oh fuck they're getting their asses kicked

church's late warning lmao

LMAO HES BEATING THEM WITH THE HEALTH KITS

OH FUCK

aw simmons standing in front of caboose trying to talk to tucker

im gonna cry

I'm gonna fucking cey

I fucking jfjgkkgkvb

stop stop stop it stop it

simmons is just making him mad by talking about how shitty blue team i'm fuckin oasigjsdaoigj

NO NOT CABOS

OH FUCJ

NO NO NO NO

I swear to god

THE REDS FUCKIN LEFT

or well they tactically advanced

tucker coming through at intervals

"dont feel bad afterwords I forgive you" FUCK

TUCKER LETTING HIM RUN OFLGKBKH

IM GONNA CRY

did sarge go to save caboose?!

OH ,my GOD

NO NO NO

TUCKER META IS MAKING ME WANNA DIE

SARGE HUZZAH

FUCK YEAH SARGE LETS GO

OH SHIT HE WAS BADASS FOR A MOMENT UNTIL HE RAN OUT OF AMMO

OH FUCK HES BADASS RIGHT NOW

sarge is killing these one liners holy shit

OH FUCK THE SWORD

SARGE JUST GOT STABBED

NO NO NO NO NO NO

NONONONONONONO

FUCK OFF THAT ONE TUMBLR USER WAS RIGHT IM SO PISSED

OH FUCK DID THEY REALLY KILL HIM

FUCK

him holding simmons arm im kfkgkgk

grif on the verge of tears with his voice cracking nooooo

HES TALKING TO THEM LIKE THEYRE HIS SONS

HE SALUTED SARGE

HES GIVING SIMMONS HIS SHOTGUN

HE TOLD HIM HES PROUD OF HIM

"grif?" "I'm here sarge" like INSTANTLY

GRIF AND SRGES MOMENT

SARGE BELIEVED IN HIM

FUCK

NO THIS HURTS

"remember that for me" OH FUCK OFF NO

HES GONE I CANT I CANT I CANT I CANT

okay back to wash

let this man free ffs

doc with a medical mask as a disguise

omfg doc busting him out

BLOOD GULCH

THEY BURIED HIM IN BLOOD GULCH

this time they had to actually bury him for realsies

aw he's got a button for vaguely southern insults

them talking about sarge I'm gonna aklglgkhkb

aw he the official leader and his first decision is??

he's discharging grif

OH MY GOD HES SETTING HIM FREE

OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD

"come with me" !!!

NFKLGLGKGKGKG

they're together they love each other and they need to make out right now

omfg

simmons is gonna stay and help as a good leader

I love him so much OH my god

WHY ARE WE HERE KFKFKVKG

grif please don't leave please

OMFG YAY

FOR OLD TIMES SAKE

SARGE WOULDVE WANTED IT

he never gave up on grif im gonna cry

I'm already crying what am I saying

GRIF SALUTED SARGES GRAVE KDKFKKF

omfg is church gonna get his body back??

I KNEWIT

CABOOSE WAS GONNA DO HIS THING

I KNEW IT FROM THE MOMENT HE GRABBED THE OTHER MEMORY UNIT THING

HES GONNA TELL CABOOSE HOW TO BRING HIM BACK

we lost one leader in 13, then got one back kinda with his messages, then lost one AGAIN, then maybe gaining another one

omfg them trying to tell him they can't bring him back

him repeating memory is the key im fkkgkvf I'm screaming

aw their memories of blood gulch

them sitting there reminiscing on old memories I'm gonna fucjing cry

THE MUSIC DOESNT HELP FUCK OFF

FUCK OFF FUCK OFF FUCK OFF

they're all laughing and reminiscing I'm gonna jfkgkkgkg

omfg the memory unit glowing

THE FLASHBACKS I CANT

the three worst soldiers ever

it's so true though, they are The Worst and I love them so much

oh fuck metas here

oh no

HE HAS THE GRIFSHOT WOOOO

"ready?" "no simmons I am not" about sums it up

simmons fumbling with the shotgun

them charging so slowly with like no motivation omfg it hurts

DOC AND WASH JFKGOGOKGG

oh fuck wash is gonna do something stupid

lmao I love them

OH FUCK WASH

OMFG

"one last story to tell"

omfg he's telling the story about church and tex

kfkgolglglgkvk about og leonard and allison

I can't

"one last adventure grif"

i'm screaming

they're all gonna die aren't they

oh fuck meta is kicking their asses

please church or anyone come back im kfkglg

istg are they gonna kill off everyone except for church?? reverse season 13?

oh fuck there goes diamond arm

*simmons

caboose telling the whole story of church and alpha and the whole lineage is fucking beating me up

the memory shit

CABOOSE SHUT UP IM GONNA DIE

the best memories never die"

CHUR CH OMFG CHURCH????

[7:54 AM]CHURCH CHURCH CHURC H CHURCH?!

lmao grif calling him sir

SIMMONS A CC EPTING HIS LEADER ROLE

FUCK

someone stepped on him, meta?

oh fuck is meta

OH FUCK

omfg Simmons is being a badass

"cmon you dirty blue"

FUCK SIMMONS IS BADASS TN IM KFKKGKV

why is he showing off

OH ITS CUZ HIS ROBOT ARM BROKE HAHA

reminding me of why he was my literal first fictional crush- i mean what who said that

THE SHOTGUN NOOOOOO

WASH SHOW UP RIGHT NOW

WASH COME ON

OMFG CABOOSE

he got thrown?

THEJEEP?!

WHO THREWW THE JEEP

WHO TF THREW THE JEEP

CHURH OR WASH MAYBE

UH OH

TEX?!?!?!

TEX!!!!!!

TEX!!!

TEX IS BACK TEX IW BACK TEX IS BACK

HER IN CHURCHS BODY IM

HEYRE FIGHTING OMFG

jsjfkgkJGKVKVKKGKG

:because I wanted to win" I LOVE HIM

he brought back tex ON PURPOSE

OMFG THEYRE GONNA HELP

ope there they go, so helpful

fucking wash you're a dumbaaa

oh fuck recovery beacon?!

Oh FUCK

LMAO

wash is a dumbass he broke his leg

oh fuck what did he do

wash what did you do

NO HE PULLED A SEASON 8 TEX ON HER

HE BROKE HER BACK LIKE SHE DID TO META IN 8 NOOO

NOOOO

TEX NOOOOO

OMFG THE DROP POD MAINES DROP POD

MAINES DROP POD WHO IS IN IT

CAROLINA!!!!

CAROLINA SHES HERE SHES HERE

YES I MISSED YOU

"she's tex jr" LMAO

CMON LINA THE DEATH BATTLE PREDICTED YOUR WIN COME ON

at least I think she won the death battle vs meta ^^;

TEX!!!

OMFG SHES GONNA GO THROUGH THE PORTAL AND TURN BLACK

OMFG MOTHER AND DAUGHTER REUNITING

THE MUSIC HER MUSIC

JRJFJ B B JGKGI

"she's back in black... stuff" ICONIC

HOLY FUCK

KICK HIS ASS GIRLS!!!!!

THE MUSIC FOR ROUND ONE BULLFIGHT LETS GOOO

FUCK

omfg caboose wtf are you doing

caboose

holy shit

caboose what the fuck

I love him

oh shit

the wall is crumbling

oh fucl

oh fuck blood gulch is breaking

this is symbolic somehow to me but my brain is dead too MUCH

"not my fault, someone put a wall in my way" YES ICONIC YES WOOO

THERE GOES THE SWORD

FUCK

LINA NO

TEX FUCK YES FUCK HIM UP

Istg if they make washilina canon im killing myself

oh fuck tex!

NO!!!

I'm sad now

FUCK NO HE HAS HIS GUN META HAS TAKEN BACK THE GRIFSHOT

NO HE STABBED HER

SHIT

SIGMA HOLY SHIT

SHES IN A ROBOT BODY THO SO MAYBE SHE'LL BE OKAY???

stop calling her a shadow :( I'll cry

LITERALLY SEASON 8 REFLECTIONS HOLY SHIT

DAYUM SIGMAS CHEEKS

are they gonna use the car again

holy shit she's based on caboose and the rest of em

YES SHE ALWAYS KICKED THEIR ASSES

YES TEX LETS GO

SOME T ING SOMETHING ABOUT OTHERS MEMORIES INSTEAD OF DIRRCTORS SDAJGOIASDJ SCREAMING

HAHA SHE GOT HIS NUTS AND ITS NOT GRIF FOR ONCE LOL

LETS GO

"like some kind of ball? from sports?"

SARGE IS BACK LIKE MUFASSA

DONUT IS BACK IN A CHEERLEADER OUTFIT

YEAH

WOOOO

"that was the best throw... ever. of all time." SCREAMING

FUCK YEAH THAT NERD HAS A REALLY GOOD ARM

TEX GET HIM PLEASE

she got him!!!

[8:06 AM]OH ,fuck

THETA NO MY HEART HURTS :(

HAHA SIGMA FUCK YOU CRY ABOUT IT

TEX NOOOOOO!!!!

I mean she had to go too ig

CHURCH?

tex!!

OMFG HIM AND TEX HIM AND TEX

THEYRE TOGETHER AGAIN FINALLY

THEYRE TOGETHER AGAIN THEYRE TOGETHER AGAIN

THEM WALKING OFF IOSADJGOASDJG

LEANORD AND ALLISON FJVKGKKVKBKVKVLGPPFOG

TUCKER PLEASE BE OKAY OH MY GOD

HES OKAY THANK GOD

OH MY GOD

FUCK YEAH

they're back home:) I'm crying

"ow-sicka-ow-ow

Simmons I love you

Simmons I love you so much

but tucker is right dont ever do that agai

lmao kept asking if there were hot nurses I love you tucker

aw them reminiscing about tex and carolina handling it well!

CABOOSE DESTROYED IT

THERE THEY GO

ITS OVER

SHE SAID GOODBYE TO TEX

HE SAID GOODBYE TO CHURCH

IM HURTING

it's over Lina is right

"the right part is the part that is the sad part"

me too buddy

lol wash breaking his leg, dumbass

doc being an actual medic? lets go lets go

OH FUCK OH FUCK OH FUCK

HES BEEN IMAGINING DOC THIS WHOLE TIME?!?!?!

FUCK

HOLY FUCK

OH MY GOD

OH MY GOD OH MY GOD

"is the floating eye in the room with us right now wash?"

OH SHIT WAIT

NORTH!!!!!

YORK!!!!

FLORIDA FLOWERS!!!1

CT!!!

MAINE!!!!!

I'm screaming I'm actually screaming

omfg it was all Carolina talking

her and wash having the sweetest moment

if they kiss I'm killing myself

"am I gonna be okay?"OIASJGIOSDJGIOSDAJGOIAS STOP BEING ME AGENT WASHINGTON

MY HEART BREAKS FOR HIM OASIDJGSDA

"were gonna be it together" they better be siblings or I'm killing myself

oh shit it's 9er!!!

OMFG ITS ONE LMAO

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA AND THE FUCKIN MUSIC TOO

lol ofc had an entire room full of shotguns

grif is gone now? :(

he's leaving I cant my heart hurts

omfg there they are

"hey Simmons"

"yeah?"

"did you ever figure it out?"

SCREAMING

GRIF YOURE GONNA MAKE ME CRY

FUCJ GRIF IS REALLY LEAVING

THERE HE GOES

FUCK THIS HURTS

MY HEARTBHURTS

lmao caboose screaming at him

"beat it!"

lmao I love them

he's apologizing for the shitty war lmao

HAHA THEY WERENT GOOD CABOOSE YOURE RIGHT

that's it

it's over

everything hurts

it WAS og sheila!! i wonder why she sounded so off to me

META WAS MILES LETS GOOOO good for hm!

the pictures of their old stuff too

I'm so fucjijg

jfjgkkg

ouchies

like can you not

SECRET ENDING AYO?!

"bow-chicka-bye-now!" TUCKER IM GOING TO KMS

(after a good sob-sesh lol)

now that i am semi-alive and semi-coherent, here are some (potentially) rational thoughts and feelings

wash's ptsd? FUCK dude. doc being a hallucination the whole fucking time?! FUCK dude. i, that hurt me so much, i'm fucking OWIES. as a ptsd-having bitch myself, uh, hey OUCH. carolina reminding him that the memories will live on, that it wasn't his fault, and it all manifesting in the old freelancers i'm gonna oijdgoidasjg i'm gonna kms i swear to god i swear to gOD this is it this is the last fucking straw

and SARGE

fucking SARGE

that was fucking awful

i loved it and i wanna kms

the way he died sacrificing himself for a fucking blue

the way he told simmons he was proud of him, told grif he never gave up on him even when grif himself had given up, giving SIMMONS HIS SHOTGUN.

man.

them burying him at blood gulch, simmons becoming team leader and having a badass moment only to be instantly cut down by the meta is both so silly and so fucking aosidgjdsoaigjd hhhhh

badass simmons supremacy

missing season 15 knife simmons right about now :((

and the fucking GRIMMONS

FUCK DUDE

simmons finally getting everything ready and in order for grif to be free

if you love something set them free or whatever

FUCK DUDE MY HEART HURTS SO MUCH

and the new va for caboose was trying his damndest and i'm so proud of him

and caboose bringing back TEX INSTEAD OF CHURCH BECAUSE HE KNEW THEY'D NEED HER?! AND TEX BEING RESURRECTED IN THE MEMORIES OF THE ONES WHO SAW HER AS BADASS INSTEAD OF A FAILURE?1 CHURCH AND TEX FINALLY GETTING THEIR HAPPY FUCKIGN ENDING?!!??!?!?!

thank you burnie for that one at least

you did angry mom and angry dad a service

tex just being forgotten, being fucked over, that was never satisfying to me, it always just hurt so much, i'm so glad they got the ending they deserved

i'm screaming

i'm gonna fucking cry

AND SO MANY FUCKING CALLBACKS TO SEASON 8, CUZ LIKE AFTER THAT I'M PRETTY SURE THAT'S WHEN BURNIE WASN'T WRITING IN THE FRONT SEAT ANYMORE

I'M ACTUALLY GONNA FUCKING OIADSJGOISDAJG

and poor wash, no wonder i felt so fucking sick to my stomach watching all of the scenes with him, just, the ptsd and everything like that FUCK dude

he just like me fr man :(

and can we talk about ADMIRAL DONUT?!

FUCKING ADMIRAL?! DONUT LET'S GO YOU'RE THE FUCKING BEST

and him appearing to simmons in his mind in a cheerleader fit was fucking phenomenal 10/10

everything feels so empty right now

fuck nothing has made me wonder 'why are we here?' more than this moment right now

my dread is gone, it's all over, we've reached the conclusion and i've seen it and i don't have to wait anxiously anymore

but everything hurts right now man :(

and the ending with wash and lina i genuinely could not tell if they were pushing romance or not

i think they were purposefully keeping it vague to keep shippers from going haywire, or maybe it was really just platonic sibling 'i'll be there for you' love

they are the siblings ever. of all time.

AND SIMMONS HAVING A DAMN GOOD THROWING ARM?! HELLO?!

WASHINGTON SAYING THAT WAS THE BEST THROW EVER OF ALL TIME?!

CABOOSE SYAING NOT MY FAULT SOMEONE PUT A WALL IN MY WAY?!

i'm

this is too much

idk i want him to sleep but i am so unwell right now i fucking dioajgoidsjgiodsjg

but tex and church got their ending and i'm gonna try to focus on that

plus, it's fictional, we can write all the fix-its or aus we want

i need to remember that

it's impactful to me, it's been my whole fucking life basically, but it's a story and i don't want to let myself suffer genuine consequences from stressing out over a story

it'll be okay

church and tex got their happy ending it HAS to be okay

aaaaand these were my brain-rot notes! lmao hope any of y'all enjoyed reading my reactions here to some scenes haha

#rem rambles #red vs blue #rvb #rvb 19 spoilers #rvb restoration spoilers #rvb 19 #rvb restoration #my thoughts and notes while watching the final season #followed up by some more coherent thoughts at the end lol #also sorry to any of you carwash enjoyers but i just hate that ship so much #genuinely couldn't even tell you why #they're just so sibling-coded to me man i can't see a romance with them it just doesn't feel right to me lol #anyways uh yeehaw here's my brain vomit

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riverstardis · 1 year

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black alert:

ethan’s started on the energy drinks :(

lily sees him “have you slept?” he ignores her “i know i’m still the pariah of the department and it’s none of my business, but you have to stop beating yourself up about olivia. mistakes happen, believe me i know. why don’t you go and see mrs beauchamp? perhaps she could spare you for the day” “what and let everyone down?” “you are exhausted. staff welfare is just as important as patient welfare” 🥺🥺🥺 i guess she’s realised how she treated alicia was wrong then? presumably it was ethan calling her out on it that woke her up

ooh it’s lofty’s interview and henrik’s there lining up his pens

ethan actually does go and speak to connie but she’s on the phone and when she gets off she says that st james’ have declared a black alert and it’s only a matter of time before they start diverting (wow that never happens! /s) so he feels like he can’t ask to go home and instead says to let him know what he can do to help :(

zoe’s back! she went to visit nick jordan

cal says good morning to ethan only to get a blunt reply😢

ah a guy asks ethan if he works there and then hands him a letter about his suicidal thoughts :(

connie interrupts them talking in the relatives room and says she needs a word with ethan outside and then asks him what he’s doing

“i have a patient who has expressed suicidal thoughts” “you’re a registrar not a psychiatrist” bit of an odd way to phrase what she means seeing as you can be a psychiatry registrar??

he says he owes the guy a level of care and connie interrupts him like “what’s this really about?” lmaoo nothing gets past connie😭

when ethan goes back in the guy says he’ll go and that he should never have come there but ethan’s like no you did exactly the right thing and tells him that if he goes to reception and gets booked in then they can properly help him. he says he will but then just leaves instead. no prizes for guessing whether he’s gonna end up dead by the end of the episode😕

also this guy is played by the guy who played renfield in young dracula lol

ethan’s treating an elderly woman who’s only a few hours from death but first she was in the corridor then the only bed available was in cubicles and all the wards are full and he goes to admin, slams the file he’s carrying down and start ranting about it :(((

then henrik appears and tells them all st james’ have closed their doors😬

now ethan’s opening another energy drink (his third of the day possibly?) and louise is trying to deal with some guy with a sore ankle who’s demanding to be treated but refuses to be triaged first and ethan goes over to help and at first he’s being polite but the guy says he called an ambulance ethan starts having a go at him and cal and charlie have to calm him down :(

charlie says he’s got a mate who’s a therapist (ben harding presumably) and suggests to cal that they both go and see him but cal says he hasn’t told him because look at him and the last thing they need is some therapist getting involved “you can’t fix everyone so just stop trying!”

louise manages to get the difficult patient back to reception but he then starts filming everything saying he’s going to put it online to show what the nhs has become and lofty tries to help louise but the guy just pushes him backwards and he goes through the glass panel😬

connie suggests to hanssen that they set up a triage/field hospital outside and lofty volunteers to run it. go lofty!

dixie saying to iain “you could’ve died” and he replies “nah, cat with nine lives me” and she goes “jeff used to say that” :(((((

jess has dropped the complaint but they’re still going ahead with the investigation but she asks dixie out for a drink. dixie turns her down

ethan’s treating an rtc patient and connie wants to stop because she has a hematoma her heart or something like that but ethan suggests they do a clamshell thoracotomy. connie says that not something she wants to do here and he says but it’ll give her a chance and if they don’t she’s dead. just you wait connie he’ll be doing them in the back of ambulances next

lily checks over the difficult guy from before and says he has the common cold💀 he still refuses to leave though talking about how he pays his taxes and louise has a go at him and lily goes “you just got owned”

connie talks ethan through it and they manage to get a faint pulse and she’s like “you may very well just have saved that woman’s life, dr hardy. you’re a credit to this department, don’t forget that” 🥺🥺🥺

aw rita’s impressed with how well lofty’s doing running the tent

aw the difficult guy gives louise an envelope with an apology note and a lot of money in for the infuser, which puts the girls way ahead of the boys

they managed to get the elderly woman into hdc and ethan cries as she dies😢

ooh i was thinking i feel like this woman who’s playing the friend of the elderly lady has been on before because i recognise and i just realised she was the patient ethan treated on his first day!!

cal texts ethan “we need to talk…” not ominous at all😭

jess and dixie kiss but dixie says she can’t do this

so ethan goes looking for cal but first finds lily in the small resus looking at her dead patient who’s covered with a sheet. she says he had a fight with a bus and was basically doa :(

“look, earlier you said you were the pariah of the department” “am i not?” “not to me” yayyy they’re friends again!!

then he’s just about to call cal when he notices the dead patient’s hand is slightly uncovered and he recognises the ring, he pulls back the sheet and it’s the suicidal guy from before😢😢😢😢

the worst part is i’m not sure whether he threw himself in front of the bus on purpose, because we saw him get out pills in his car but then he seems to bottle it and runs off so it’s entirely possible that the bus wasn’t a suicide attempt. or maybe it was who knows.

rita tells lofty he got the job and he goes and hugs dylan🥺

#classic casualty #black alert #featuring ethan’s mental health in the gutter :’(#tw suicide

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b4byb4ts · 2 years

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ive been gone for SO so long but i think i want to start using this acc as like a but of a diary type thing--

so.. last time i was here i was super deep in my ed and going through a LOT of shit.. since then i accidentally recovered from my ed, not as much mentally but i have gained,,all of the weight i lost back,, i eat pretty "normal" but i still feel incredibly guilty and feel like the "i never want to eat again" type feelings..

i lost one of my closest friends bc of my ed, and though it has completely destroyed me,, honestly it was probably for the best, its part of why i recovered. he told me he didnt think i would ever recover after he tried to force me to and i said i didnt want to, but after that we stopped talking (his choice not mine) and i at first took it as a "okay well im going to get as sick as i possibly can" but then realized that was what he wanted so i instead forced myself to recover fully out of spite as a big "fuck you" to him.. and i even tried to tell him thinking fkr some reason he would care. he didnt. i got a thumbs up and a good luck along with the most like.. "youre a waste of space" type of look ive ever gotten. and it COMPLETELY destroyed me.

moving on... i got a new job at a v popular coffee shop in my town and its absolutely amazing, everyone i work with is absolutely lovely and i just love it so so much.

I also got back with my boyfriend and ive never been happier in a relationship, im absolutely sure that he is "the one" like i trust him more than my own mother and im more comfortable around him than anyone ive ever been with before everything is just so so lovely.

not that everything has been perfect like it sounds though,,, im still not mentally recovered, again, better than before, but still not great,, i constantly crave my ed like i want to relapse so bad i just,, cant for some reason,,?

more on,, health,, mental AND physical,,, i got diagnosed with pretty much a chronic illness, i still dont know the cause for it,, like i have treatment for the symptoms but no clue what the cause is. i got diagnosed with adhd during my ed but that is,, obviously still there,, i just very recently got told by my therapist that she thinks i may be autistic,,, i looked into it and it seems VERY possible which is,, a lot to think about because i have no clue how to tell my parents or if ill even be able to get diagnosed,, plus ive got a TON of shit with my family going on,,, my dad lives in a different state but there's a LOT going on with him which stresses me out,,a lot.

OH one last thing -- i learned to crochet!!! i learned with,,, disordered intentions (i thought if i learn to crochet i will be using my hands more so it will be easier to not eat) but i love it SO SO much, I'll probably be posting a lot abt crochet now because its like,, all i do lmaoo

anyway, thats all ive got for now i think -- hopefully i wont just disappeared again (even though nobody actually reads this-) but if you are reading, thank u so much for actually caring enough to read all of my rambles <3

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bottomvalerius · 2 years

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okay I’m gonna do the thing where I publicly post like this is my diary but it’ll be under a readmore so it’s still very chill and cool actually LMAO

this is probably like completely nonsensical to most but I’ve been. Really struggling with identifying as a submissive and I can’t tell if it’s just this dynamic isn’t working anymore or I’m just going through some shit mentally, but my domme has given me like. Not much to work with, and it’s making me feel very bitter for some reason ? LOL like the appeal of this dynamic was that she was supposed to be my mentor, and as another switch, she would get where I am coming from and be able to like idk sympathize with where my fears and insecurity are coming from ? I know she struggles with empathy and will not pick up on things unless I’m very explicit about it, but I feel like I HAVE been

The last time we were in person I had a massive anxiety attack and she just did not handle it well. And we talked through like okay well this is how you can identify when things are wrong and this is what I myself can do better and communicate clearly, but then nothing and I mean Nothing has come from it. She said she would check in more but she hasn’t, and idk if she meant just when we’re in person or what. I’m not doing my protocols anymore because writing a journal entry LITERALLY made me so anxious I almost puked. And when I tried to be like “I’m not sure how to engage with my submission anymore” she very quickly hit me with the “I’m not your therapist.” And like. Yes. I know that. I’m not trying to have you diagnose me, I just want comfort from you as my dominant? And some reassurance that these feelings are normal and I’m not some fuck up ???? And that’s like basically been our last conversation because then my job got insanely busy and so has hers. So I’m just like. In this weird limbo. We text every day but it’s so forced and she isn’t like checking in with me anymore, and that to me is making me think I’m doing something wrong and I hate feeling this pathetic about shit lmfaoo

I have a lot of fun with her, and I’ve been learning a lot about myself, but I feel like all of that has just been swept up and I’m left feeling like. Idk like I’m Too Much like always and I’m no longer this perfect, bratty, engaged submissive and it makes me literally sick to my stomach LMAOO WHICH I UNDERSTAND that is super pathetic and shallow of me, but idk like this part of my sexuality is LITERALLY part of my sexuality and I feel like I was so close to reallt getting into the scene and now suddenly I’m like “do I even belong here and am I even made for this ???” which has just. Been. A lot for me LMFAOOO

#rambling #personal shit #very casual talk about d/s dynamics undercut so don’t read if that’s not your jam I guess LOL #i may delete later I just wana. scream. and then post nonsense

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stinkyme · 7 months

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Helloooo Stinky, how are you??

Hopefully you enjoyed your weekend and relaxed a bit! ❤️

I just discovered that after work, people can just disconnect!? Like they don't think about everything that happened and what else shit needs to be done. LIKE HOW CAN THEY PLS, I WANNA KNOW 😭😭

(lol, I know I'm an overthinking mess but I didn't realise that it's THAT BAD).

However I felt like shit these days and my only thoughts were about work and overstressing about a lot of issues, so I'm back at my need for fluff and comfort from the one and only Chuuya (where's this man when you need him, istg he's the only one I need)

I'm really snappy because I'm stressed out and I can't sleep properly or I wake up having nightmares about work. Imagine just telling this mf that I wake up at 6 am because I remember smthg that needs to be done at work. He'd get angry, not at me but at the job. He would have beef with all the managers I have at work. I think that at first he'd be annoyed but seeing it impacts a lot of his s/o life, and seeing her spiraling all over again he'd get concerned. Like really concerned.

"Doll, that's really not good for you, you can't keep going on like that"

He'd try he's best to understand why she can't unwind (good luck boy neither me nor my therapist can understand why I can't unplug after work).

Then he'd just start doing all sorts of things to get her out of the house and change environments. He'd keep reminding me "love, it's just a job, you can change it whenever you want". He'd give a lot of hugs and would stress a lot if sent out on a mission for more than one day and have to leave her alone.

(he's burning the place down for sure)

I'll probably spam you in the next few days with scenarios or ideas about this which come to my mind so I'm sorry in advance.

no need to apologize, feel free to send me anything! :D

I hope your weekend was good as well and that you were able to relax a little bit from everything that has been going on :) <3

I realized my reply will be long, so I will put read more LOL

LOLOL, as for work yeah, I used to be like that too, waking up and sweating myself over stuff, literally my mind was flooded with work 24/7 and constant anxiety as to what will happen. The thing is once you start working in more stable environment it's a bit easier to chill afterwards. Stuff will still happen, but it won't affect you as much because it won't be pure peer pressure on you only. So, I hope you will be able to find a place like that and slowly learn to disconnect and unwind. Job is job, it's something that ends once your shift is done, period. No need to let it exhaust you when you are not there, you deserve to have a chill time afterwards. Finding ways to unwind and relax, get out of your head is very important. Through walking, cooking, art - whatever you are able to do :) You can't unplug most likely because of a control issue. There is a belief that the more you think about it - the more in control you are, which you are not. Just let those thoughts pass like little leafs in the water and keep reminding yourself that you do not need control over work while at home :)

that's very true about chuuya!! he would also help you to find healthier ways to let out all the stress and anxiety after work and remind you how important rest is. Because if you are "resting" but worrying the whole time - it's not really rest at all. So, he would find some ways...maybe book you a spa day or make one at home, give you a nice massage, keep you occupied with movies or cooking or something like that! Before bed, he would make sure he cuddles you and gently takes care of you so you fall asleep first and he would deeefinitely have beef with your work place, probably giving them bad reviews while you are asleep and cussing them out in the comments LMAOO

#stinkyanswers #chuuya lover <3 #i hope you have been doing a bit better!! sending you lots of love and hugs :) <333 #and chuuya would take great care of you he told me btw :3 <3 #me and him are on our way to burn your workplace as we speak

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troidatoi · 9 months

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Day 2 - 8/24/2023

Wooo, day 2! Happy Mamba Day to those who celebrate! I still miss you a lot, Kobe.

Today was okay. My sleeping schedule is so fucked. I keep sleeping late and waking up late. Maybe because I'm still funemployed but I know that someone is going to hire me soon. I told my personal trainer I can't do sessions with him anymore until I find something new and I was sad face!! I'm probably going to have to tell my therapist I can't afford her anymore until someone hires me and might have to stop pole for a little bit which makes me even more sad. I got an email back from Fox Sports and have an interview with them next week and it's an hour?! Like dawg, it's the first interview, no phone call or anything. LMAO. I'm grateful obvi because I've always wanted to be in entertainment or sports. :) And I lowkey teared up when I saw the email because I'm so desperate for a job right now but I just got to trust that I'm doing the right thing and someone is going to hire me. Plus I got the email yesterday which was Kobe's birthday and I'm not saying it's a coincidence but I'm also not not saying that. Whoever ends up hiring me, I hope it's an amazing job that's perfect for me.

I started eating one meal a day to help with my leaky gut. It's only day 3 and I'm okay so far. Plus it helps because I have Invisalign and I don't have to take them out as much anymore. I am also hoping because I'm not eating as much and eating as frequently my body has time to digest and also get rid of the bad bacteria. Some days are better than others but I hope I can heal my gut and I can eat whatever I want again. It's so tiring to try to figure out what to eat and most of the time I can't have anything. I know it's for healing and the longer I stick to my treatment plan then I know that I'm going to be okay. I have to remember that everything always works out for me.

I also baked some cookies today because my friend wanted to buy some from me and I don't like charging my friends. She was adamant on paying though so I said okay. LOL. I've only done it once because my best friend asked me to make her cookies for a company holiday party and I was like okay. I also like don't know how much to charge people because nowadays people be overcharging like RELAX. People always tell me to sell my stuff but honestly like fuck off because I don't want to monetize a hobby. LOL. I did want to go to pastry school and own a bakery but my parents said no and I was forced to go to UCLA. :) So now I bake as a hobby but it's also extremely therapeutic for me. I'm grateful that people like what I bake. I wish I could have a career in it but doing anything in food always seem so risky and uncertain. I wish there was more funding for things like this and music and the arts because I feel like a lot of people are passionate about things like this but are stuck doing something they don't necessarily like because of money. I know for a fact if money wasn't an issue, I'd probably going to pastry school and just work at a bakery. I was even looking at pastry schools in France. LMAOO. I don't know if I could survive like 2 months in France but it'd be cool to take classes and learn more things! I do hope to go to Europe in 2025 so manifesting that!! <333 Anyways, I hope she likes the cookies!!

I think I'll end it here. I hope the rest of the week is amazing to not only me but to you too!! And again Happy Kobe Day! <3

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weirdo19 · 2 years

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Bro I’m simultaneously laughing and crying over how quickly buck got off the ladder truck when he realized it was going down. Bestie really said “not again and never again”

The poor ladder truck, it went down so fast. I think this is the 3rd ladder truck they’ve destroyed or lost to a crazy citizen. I wonder what the LA fire department thinks about this lmaoo.

I’m giggling at buck and Taylor avoiding each other but also just want this messy break up to happen already.

BUDDIEEEE BITCHES

LMAOOO NOT CHIMNEY CHUGGING THE GLASS OF WATER AFTER MADDIE SAID I JUST WANNA TALK LMAOOO

Omg they need to stop with the parasites and bugs

“I don’t have your bone structure. I could never pull it off.” PLSSS IM GIGGLING

FROM DEAD PEOPLE, WTFFFFFFFF

Ohhhhhh poor Karen, I would still be bothered by it too. Hen should be a little more understanding man.

Nvm why’d I even doubt hen, of course she was understanding

YAYYYY DISPATCH MADDIE

HOW DID THEY GET A LADDER TRUCK SO FAST WTF

Not the team interrupting buck so he doesn’t say anything morbid and it all failing just for buck to dramatically say “until they stick a knife in it.”

IM DEAD HOW DID BOBBY NOT KNOW

BATHENA HONEYMOONNNNNN

Wtf did I just watch, IF THAT COUPLES DIES IM THROWING HANDSSSSSSS WITH 9-1-1 WRITERS. OH THEY DID NOT JUST MAKE HIM FORGET 6-7 YEARS OF HIS FUCKING LIFE. AHHHHHHHHH

DAMNNNN BUCKLEY SIBLINGS WITH RELATIONSHIP PROBLEMS

okay that couple deserves better, 9-1-1 writers really screwed them over. Okay that couple is cute but having a flashback montage of them was not great use of air time. No one kill me

OMG BT FIGHTTTT, HES ON THE STAIRSSSS. OMG HE MUST HAVE ALOT OF SHIT TO SAY. Also….. that green shirt looks mighty fine on him.

Omg damnnn this is exactly what I wanted, thank you 9-1-1 writerssss. Me yelling “drag her”

Oop “clean slate” “just not together”

Also I can tell Oliver stark was mad excited to film this scene, I just know it.

YAYYY MAY AND EDDIE FRIENDSHIPPPPP

ooooo not Bobby problems, just let this man resttttt. EEEEEHHHH ITS GONNA BE AN EDDIE AND BOBBY SCENE WOHOOOO

Also eddie looks so fucking good standing like that. okay Eddie this seasons has been saying shit that hits to close to home, like that scene with his father. Daddy issues me too. Now this scene with Bobby about him taking credit of all the good things too not just the bad. Sounds like every time my therapist has talked to me.

FUCKKKK LEAVE BOBBY ALONE, LET HIM BREATH FOR JUST TWO SECONDS. IM SO GLAD EDDIE VISITED HIM NOW I JUST NEED BOOBY TO THROW THAT BOTTLE OF ALCOHOL AWAY. OMG HE OPENED THE BOTTLE. YAYYY HE DUMPED IT

YAYYYYYY SURPRISE HEN KAREN VOW RENEWAL. OMG NEA LOOKS SO CUTE, NOT DENNY WALKING THEM DOWN THE AILE IGHHHHHHH SO CUTE.

Ewww BT, WHY DOES SHE HAVE HER HAND ON HIS FACE, WHY ARE THEY SMILING, IM CONFUSED. Is this what being an adult is like, being mature because if so I don’t like it, WHERE IS THE PETTY?

I’m mad maddie didn’t have more of a reaction to chimney literally PUNCHING BUCK IN THE FACE. You know, buck the man who she raised as her own son and her brother.

EHHH CHRISSSSSSS AND EDDIE. ADORABLE

BATHENA HONEYMOONNNN

Why are they walking? Someone could literally be dying? YAY EDDIEEE, but like I needed a scene of him saying he’s back like when he left but fine this is good too.

Great season finale

#911 fox #911 on fox #911 spoilers #evan buckley #trauma #poor ladder truck #911 season 5 #taylor kelly #eddie diaz #bobby nash #911 #chimney han #maddie buckley #bathena #athena grant

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1-800-marvelswhore · 2 years

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Nothing Even Matters.

genre>> eventual smut. fluff. angst. childhood best friends to lovers au.

synopsis>> he was your best friend. nothing more. nothing less. you never thought he reciprocated your feelings... until he did, but you wanted him to achieve his dreams so you lie and deny any feelings for him. but at what cost?

warnings>> unrequited love (that's actually requited), a shit ton of angst, hurt feelings, strong language, mentions of alcoholism, implied sexual content (nothing explicit), reader is a bit of a bitch, terrible coping mechanisms, reader passes out, mention of throw up! this chapter is really quite sad for the first one but the beat goes on.

word count>> 2.8k

note: whew! let's get this bread!! welcome to my first chapter of "Nothing Even Matters" This randomly came to me as I listened to the song- well Nothing Even Matters by Big Time Rush lmaoo. The contents in this chapter doesn't quite sync with the lyrics, but as the story develops the more it'll sync. Anyway! Thank you for reading <3

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Maybe drinking away the rest of your remaining brain cells and sorrows wasn't the "smartest" or "rational" thing to do at 6 pm on a Sunday evening. The sun had barely set and you were already on to your 4th shot in the measly time of 15 minutes. You couldn't care though you've had enough of being sober.

You were completely and irrevocably in love with your best friend, but he didn't reciprocate; not his fault. You knew you couldn't control who he does and doesn't have feelings for, but some part of you had always hoped maybe? But when you came down from being too hopeful it shattered you. Each and every time.

You sniffled at the thought and shook it off, you signaled for the bartender who's name you had learned was Min Yoongi. His skin was milky white, he had cat eyes and a button nose that was to die for. The best part was his pearly white teeth and cute gummy smiled that followed though.

"Another one? It's barely 7, don't you want to... I don't know slow down? Why're you drinking so much anyway? And on a Sunday, what's that all about?" He questioned cautiously. You'd come to this bar a lot and from your frequent visits Yoongi has no doubt in his mind that you suffered with alcoholism.

"I'm sorry do you get paid to interrogate or to pour drinks? I wanted a shot not a therapist." Your words slurred, but they still came out as venomous as you wanted.

"Jeez. Sorry for being a decent human being." He spat sarcastically. You were too buzzed to care though.

To anyone who was close to you they knew of your unrequited feelings for your best friend...everyone except who mattered that is. You dealt with the rejection, but when you saw him you acted as normal as can be. He didn't see how you were when he wasn't around and you liked it that way. You always knew no matter the feelings you had for him he was still your best friend before anything.

It has been different though recently. Taehyung hadn't contacted you in almost 3 weeks and it broke you more and more as each day passed. That's when you started drowning yourself in liquor and despair.

Cause and effect, you see?

Every action has an equal and opposite reaction. You knew the phone worked both ways, but you couldn't bring yourself to text or call him first. Too worried about what he'd might tell you if you did.

You shook your thoughts off as Yoongi had slid you your shot of tequila making you buzz with excitement to feel the burn down your throat.

"Keep 'em coming too and you'll get quite the hefty tip from me mister." You lifted your shot and scarfed it down in one gulp. Yoongi just blanked at you and continued wiping the bar down while pouring you shot after shot.

1 hr 30 minutes and a tequila-full bladder later...

"I-I'm gonna go p-pee." You hiccuped and stumbled to the bathroom. Your vision began to blur and you thought maybe you should have stopped after the 10th shot, but your mind wasn't racing at 1000 mph...you were happy and as temporary as you knew it was you were relieved.

You looked at your reflection and wanted to heave whatever alcohol you had drunk this evening. Your hair was frizzy and your pupils were blown. You hated how you looked. You knew you didn't have healthy coping mechanisms, but this was better than sleeping around you tried to argue with yourself.

You looked away from the mirror and went into a stall; fighting the urge to throw up as each minute passes. You finished emptying your bladder when a knock sounded on the door.

"O-occupado!" You tried to yell, but wound up hiccuping instead.

"Y/n?" You froze. What the hell is he doing here? You couldn't ever mistake that deep, baritone, tender voice.

You flushed the toilet, washed your hands, and swung the door open and therein was your best friend standing before you. If not for his addicting scent of sandalwood and maple, maybe you'd think you were hallucinating, but in your peripheral you noticed Yoongi wiggling your phone in his hand and you huffed.

That traitor. What was the big deal? So you drink everyday at hefty amounts, but who cares? You're only 24 you're not going to die.

"W-what are you doin here Tae?" You spoke voice less slurred as his presence made you somewhat sober up.

"Worried about you is what. Do you know the amount of predators out there waiting to take advantage of intoxicated women?" He furrowed his brows at your carelessness.

He cared about you. More than you thought he did and seeing you like this was killing him inside. He wondered why and when did you start drinking so much and he hated himself for not being there for you.

"I can take care of myself thank you very much. Sorry to have put a stump into your night, you can go now though. I'll get a Uber home." You brushed him off. Your heart was beating so fast and hard it felt almost hard to breathe. You huffed softly and walked towards Yoongi giving him a scowl.

"Hey now, who leaves their phone unlocked while they're drunk as fuck? Better me than a thief I like to think, I do think you need to go home you had enough to drink." He said calmly not caring about the amount of daggers you were throwing him right now.

Was he serious right now? Fuck him.

"Are you fucking serious right now? Fuck you." You decided to voice your thoughts. He simply shrugged and threw his cleaning rag over his shoulder walking away.

"Look Y/n, let me drive you home so you can lay down. You must've had a long day." Taehyung suggested. You scoffed at that. A long day it was indeed. Not that he needed to know that, but maybe it was your alcohol induced mind that made you think he didn't deserve to know about your day.

"Taehyung no. You go home. Like I said I'll take an Uber home." You said dismissively. You walked past him and quickly exited the bar secluding yourself on a bench in the parking lot.

Truth was you didn't even trust an Uber. You knew you were wasted 10x fold, but you were stubborn. Always have been. You were too embarrassed to even be in Taehyung's presence, which is ironic because he's seen you at your absolute worst. But even so you couldn't hide your humiliation right now.

"Do you really think I'm going to let you take an Uber? My mom would behead me." Taehyung spoke softly. You simply glanced at him and inhaled sharply. You've been so keen on ignoring him you failed to take the time to admire how he looked.

Dressed in denim jeans and a leather jack with a Metallica t-shirt underneath he looked straight out of your wildest dreams. You bit your lip and just shook your leg up and down anxiously. A habit you ensued at the measly age of 4.

"Look Tae-" You started but was interrupted by Taehyung.

"Stop fighting me on this, okay? I care about you so let me take you home and-" This time you interrupted him.

"Care about me? That's fucking rich." You scoffed to yourself but Taehyung had heard you.

"And what's that supposed to mean Y/n, huh?! All I've done for the past 15 years is care about you so I don't know if you've lost some brain cells in the amount of alcohol you drank tonight, but don't dare insinuate that I don't care. That's just cruel." He seethed through gritted teeth.

In hindsight, you weren't sure why you said what you did. You had no reason at all to believe he hadn't cared for you, but it's as though you wanna push him away. Hoping it'd make things better for you.

Was that selfish? Maybe.

Were you thinking rationally right now? Nope, not at all.

"Listen Kim, call me cruel all you want, but from the time we turned age of 16- well you 17 and you got all popular and became a male model or whatever the fuck it is that you do," That was uncalled for. You knew his job meant the world to him, but the ball was rolling and there was no stopping now. You noticed him wince and it made your heart crack but instead of stopping you continued. Digging the knife you thrust into his chest deeper. "So excuse me for thinking you give any fucks about me at all anymore. Why're you here anyway? You haven't contacted me in almost 3 weeks and now all of a sudden you come to my "rescue" what, do you get off on being the superhero? Well guess what? I don't need you," Deeper the knife plunged as you continued to speak. "Never have. So go fuck yourself."

You said those words...so carelessly... so vehemently.. without thoughts about the repercussions of your words and actions. You were far too drunk and your mind wasn't even on the Earth's axis. You reckoned you probably wouldn't even remember these events the next day; you sure hoped you wouldn't

"I haven't contacted you in 3 weeks because I was offered a job in Paris. I wasn't sure if I was gonna take it because," Taehyung clenched his fists as his eyes glossed over. "I wanted to make sure you'd be alright without me. Thanks for that confirmation by the way. So yeah, maybe I'll go fuck myself there and respect your wishes." He chuckled humorlessly.

You froze. The world was spinning and you felt bile rising in your throat before you suddenly hurled everything you had consumed in the last couple of hours. The world never stopped spiraling from underneath you and finally the world went black.

The next morning...

You woke up as the shine was beaming against your face. You looked around squinting as your eyes struggled to adjust to the brightness of your surroundings. You looked down and noticed you were no longer in your outfit from the previous night, but you were in a t-shirt much too big for your frame.

You continued to look around as you noticed a picture of you and Taehyung framed on an oak wood dresser. You stalked towards it cautiously finally coming to the realization of where you were. Of course, this was Taehyung's room. Where else would you be? You knew Taehyung would never leave you in the streets even after those venomous words you spat him last night.

Wincing at the memory you walked down the stairs slowly and noticed Taehyung sitting at his desk, glasses on, his dog Yeontan on his lap, reading a book. What a sight. You didn't have time to admire though because you didn't want to seem like a creep so you cleared your throat instead.

"Do you have aspirin? My head is killing me." You rasped shyly. He didn't spare you a glance as he answered dryly.

"Bathroom cabinet. Water is in the fridge." Was all he said. You nodded solemnly, but you knew you deserved it. This wasn't worse than what you had done, but this felt so very shitty.

You were in denial but deep down you knew you were a struggling alcoholic. You knew this for a fact because at the moment you craved pineapple vodka. You were hungover for fucks' sake, but you were still craving alcohol? If that wasn't alcoholism you didn't know what was.

"Fuck." You sighed softly to yourself. You knew you had to apologize and it couldn't be anything simple. No you had to apologize from deep within your heart. No words could even begin to fix what you broke, but you could try. Never was there any harm in that. You grabbed two aspirins and just decided to open the tap to take the pills.

You rinsed your face and stepped out the bathroom. Yeontan yipped at the sight of you and it made you smile sadly.

"Taehyung could we talk?" You cautiously spoke. He closed his book and took off his glasses. His demeanor at the moment was intimidatingly sexy as he stood up tall, dark, and handsome as always. Boy, did you have feelings for this man.

"No. I'm going to talk and you're going to listen, got that?" He asked you arms crossed over his chest as he sat on his desk now staring at you intently with dark eyes. You nodded in response to which he clicked his tongue. "I didn't appreciate being spoke to in the way you spoke to me last night. I didn't deserve that whatsoever and you didn't even have a care as you spoke," You were about to protest when he simply put a hand up stopping you. "Especially not with how much I love you." He spoke more softly at the last sentence.

Your heart stopped and your breathing halted. What did he just say? Those words were like a sweet melody that you'd like to play over and over on repeat. Like a song you'd never get tired of- a tune that gave you a sense of comfort.

Taehyung began walking towards you slowly, stopping a safe 5 feet away.

"I love you so much and it wounded me as you spoke those words to me last night. I don't know why you said all those things, but I don't care. I want to be yours. And I want you to be mine." His eyes began to pool and you wanted to wipe his tears, but fought against it. "Say those 3 words and 8 letters and I'm yours forever. No Paris. Nothing will stop me from loving you." He said softly staring into you so intently you felt as though you would melt.

Part of you was so happy. You wanted to tell him you loved him- that you had for as long as you could remember, but one thing in his confession stuck out the most; "No Paris." You couldn't possibly be the one to stop him from pursuing his dream. For as long as you knew him, Paris had always been his endgame. What kind of person would you be if you were to prevent him from going? He'd grow to resent you, you were sure.

You closed your eyes and tried blinking away the tears in your eyes. What you were about to do would fucking ruin you, but it had to be done. He deserved that job in Paris. You knew he needed it much more than he wanted it and you'd be a complete fool to let him throw that away.

"Taehyung... I love you. But purely as a best friend. Nothing more. Nothing less. I- I don't see you that way and I never will." You stared down at the hardwood floors fighting the urge to throw yourself into him and kiss him into oblivion.

A couple beats passed and he'd still not said a word to you so with great hesitancy you looked up at the 5'11 male. His eyes were bloodshot and tears were staining his cheeks. It fucking broke you. Broke you beyond repair. There was no fixing what was broken here.

Without another word he stormed out of his house slamming the door in his exit. As soon as the door closed you choked out a gut-wrenching sob. With wobbling legs you walked up the stairs to his room staring at the picture on his dresser. Another choked sob escaping you as you recalled the day it was taken.

It was Christmas day, Taehyung decided to throw a house party with only close friends and family. You were dressed as an elf and Tae dressed up as Santa. It was comical really. You both were under a mistletoe and Taehyung had lowered his beard, but instead of kissing you he licked your cheek. A close family-friend of yours, Jungkook , had captured the moment just in time.

Smiling grimly as you reminisced that moment you made a promise and swore to Taehyung and to yourself.

"I promise you Taehyung. The sun will shine on us again... I will find you and we will be who we could've been. I love you. Don't give up on me." You whispered to the framed picture. You placed it back to its place, got dressed and folded the clothes Taehyung had let you borrow for the night.

You left.

Not a single trace of your being there except the neatly folded clothes on Taehyung's bed. Duvet made and two tear drops on it.

They say there's no greater feeling than love. They're wrong.

Loss is a bigger feeling than love because you knew this feeling in your chest wouldn't go away.

There was a Taehyung shaped hole in your heart and nothing will be the same until you see him again.

But until then... you'll wait.

After all... love conquers all.

It's making you cry every time You give your love to me this way Saying you'd wait for me to stay I know it hurts you - Cry , Cigarettes After Sex

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mentalwordvomit · 3 years

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Hi, feel free to ignore this, but I just wondered how you found out you had bpd? Was it something you found out yourself or were you told you have it?

And as a bonus question, how do you explain your bpd to others (if you do)? I know I possibly don’t even have bpd but I feel like I’m literally on the edge and my parents don’t get how bad I am rn. They just think I’m lazy I think.

(I was gonna go anon but I changed my mind, I’m exposing myself for the mess I am, woohoo)

ok so

1. I can't remember exactly how I learned about bpd, but I do have this distinct memory around Sept 2018 of looking up bpd memes on tumblr before one of my classes. Lol I was listening to Rainbow Kitten Surprise and just scrolling through bpd memes thinking 'damn these hit different'.

at that point I had been aware that I grew up in an abusive household and that something was wrong with me, but I didnt know what. My mom kept suggesting that I might just have a lot of anxiety but it felt like way way more than that.

It wasnt until Feb 2019 though that I actually did anything about it. I had confided in my boyfriend at the time that I thought I might have bpd, and he encouraged me to get a screening for it. So I did. I got super super lucky because I was able to set up an appointment within a week which is almost unheard of for bpd shit, and my therapist was awesome. She screened me for bpd but said she wanted to get to know me for real before she officially diagnosed me with anything.

I was officially officially diagnosed in July of 2019. So it was almost a year process.

2. Dawg fantastic question, I kind of just word vomit it at people lmaoo. I used to never tell anyone I had bpd, cause of the stigma, but I decided I'd rather help fight the stigma than wallow in it. So most people I know, know i have bpd.

I'm still not great at defining it for people but the basics I tell them are this:

*BPD is usually the result of repeated childhood abuse and gaslighting

*it affects my moods and my personality. If it only affected my moods it would be classified as a mood disorder, but unfortunately its my whole damn self

*My brain never learned how to cap emotions so i feel things as 0 or 100. Which isnt a bad thing or a good thing. It means I feel unbridled rage, but it also means I feel deep deep love

*(this one is not scientific but it gets the point across to neurotypicals so use with care) "it's kind of like the worst symptoms from every disorder baked into one" (and then smile with tears in your eyes for dramatic effect)

also yes for exposing ourselves for the mess we are! Being put together is boring and overrated anyway :)

#ask #bpd #actually bpd #vent #borderline personality disorder #actually borderline #borderline thoughts #tw #bpd problems #bpd meme #borderline

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katoodlez · 3 years

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uwu meter exploded and i ate dinner at 2am after watching this aka the sam and bucky show episode 5

The new episode was sO goOd omg tbh i didnt think i was gonna be able to watch it last night and i legit cried. But i did and i am very very thankful. Because it was a very very good episode. But before we start stOP reAdING cuz theres gonna be MASSIVE SPOILERS IN THIS POST.

Alrighty without further delay, the Sam and Bucky show episode 5 and all its best things (there are a lot, to no one’s surprise). Im gonna go in chronological order to avoid losing my mind.

1. The fight in the beginning. Omg. Walker looked like he was gonna do both Sam and Bucky in with the shield like 6 times and it was lowkey scary. And when Walker knocked bucky into the electric tower or whatever it was— skdjfjs i saw some people post abt Sam’s glare mid battle like “if this is sam looking at walker after he hurt bucky” anD IT ACTUALLY WAS marvel why.

2. Walker ripped Sam’s wings off omg. That was so brutal i audibly gasped. I think we’ve seen the wings being shot at or broken but never ripped clean off. 0 _ 0

3. I like how the fight ended with all three of them on the ground and the shield just lying there. And then Bucky picked it up, left it for Sam and left. Walker was defeated but it kinda shows how Sam still wasn’t sure about the shield, he just knew in that moment that Walker absolutely couldn’t be the one to have it. I feel like that fight scene really conveyed how all of them felt about the shield and it was done really well. (Ok but on a side note, remember in episode 2 when Sam was like “bruh we cant just run up on the man, beat him up and take it?” I guess they went with that plan after all)

4. TORRES MY BELOVED. He’s back and I’m so happy 🥺🥺🥺🥺 also i love how he’s not afraid to give Bucky sass lmao.

5. WHEN SAM TOLD TORRES TO KEEP THE WINGS. listen i havent read the comics but i know what happens in them and Torres is such a Falcon fanboy omg if he’s gonna be the new falcon im gonna be so happy for him ahhHhHh

6. Sam’s conversation with Isaiah Bradley. Man. I’m really really happy that we have that scene. The scene with Isaiah in episode 2 left me reallly uneasy because it ended on a really bad note with unfinished and unsaid things between Sam, Bucky and Isaiah. Also Sam didn’t really get to talk at all in that scene and I felt like he def had things he wanted to say. I appreciated how Sam said that he really didn’t get some stuff and he had Isaiah explain more of his backstory. I think Sam believes that things can change, for good reason, and at the same time Isaiah believes that nothing will change, also for a completely fair reason. But having the time to let the two of them talk, esp with the shield in the room and without Bucky’s complicated history was a really well written piece of dialogue. Thank you screenwriters.

7. SARAH WILSON SUPREMACY. I’m glad we got more of Sarah in this episode ahhh. She’s such a caring sister and I’m here for it. Sam and Sarah sibling dynamics also >>>>>

8. Sam calling in the favors to help fix the boat was so heartwarming omg. And Bucky just showing up lmaooo

9. Bucky flirting with Sarah to get on Sam’s nerves LMAOO

10. Sam and Bucky fixing the boat together was something I needed to see. That entire montage, the teamwork and warm lighting and akskdjajd my heart 🥺🥺💕💕💕

11. Bucky waking up to Sam’s nephews playing with the shield reminded me of the Black Panther end credits scene but also of that one scene in Wandavision with Pietro and wanda’s kids lollll

12. Sarah asking Sam if he’s gonna let Isaiah tell him what to do and then Sam asking/telling Bucky to stop letting others, even Steve, tell him who to be was just. Skdkfjaod. The character conversations in this episode ahHhh

13. On that note, Sam and Sarah having a chance to talk about themselves, their boat and their family was just amazing. They’re fighting to keep their history and also understanding each other at the same time.

14. Sarah telling sam that there’s the fight out there and then theres the fight in here is so special. It in a sense reflects/applies to not only Sam and Sarah’s relationship and struggles, but it also applies to Sam and Bucky’s relationship and struggles esp with Steve and the shield’s legacy, Bucky’s history as the Winter Soldier and all the weight he carries with it. They gotta sort out the inside stuff before getting into the thick of what I’m sure will be the final battle next week as superheroes in the face of the world.

15. On that note. Sam and Bucky finally having the chance to talk was so relieving and eye opening for both characters. Bucky finally understanding Sam’s perception of the shield and its weight on his conscience because he is an African American representing his people and Sam finally understanding a more personal side of Bucky’s relationship with/perception of the shield feels like a knot in their friendship that has been resolved. The development in this show is just through the roof omg.

16. Okay but Bucky talking about how Steve told him about the plan to give Sam the shield... wkerjkakdja I feel like that makes Endgame’s ending a little better 😭😭😭

17. Shield training shield training shield training ahhhHhHhHhh i swear whenever either sam or bucky touched the shield in this episode i started physically vibrating LOL. Its so cool to see the shield in the hands it’s supposed to be in again ☺️☺️ Sam’s training montage with the shield was also AMAZING omg it was so so cool to watch him grow with the skills

18. Not Sam asking Bucky if he has nightmares and talking to him about amends and stuff skdjfjskd lowkey Sam is the superior therapist in this show and he doesn’t get nearly enough credit for it aksjdjskdjajd. Also the implication that Bucky will go back to Nakajima and give him closure for his son I— 😭😭

19. Also im so glad the scene where they’re walking away from each other ISNT the last episode. Its sort of like a “we’ll see each other soon” walk : DD

20. Okay but Bucky helping the Wakandans capture zemo at the memorial (which i think is for his family? 😭😭😭) and then the favor that Bucky called in for sam. WHATS IN THE GOSH DARN BOX OMG. i think it’s either new Falcon wings, a vibranium Redwing (please let it be this) or a suit of some kind

21. And lastly what the heck does Sharon wanna kill Sam for?? She workin for the flag smashers now or sumn? Also Batroc coming back when the last time i think we saw him was in CA: Winter Soldier 0 _ 0

Did it take me an hour to write this post? Yes. Did I get everything? No. I dont think I discussed Walker in this post but he was super scary and deranged and Wyatt Russell blew it out of the ballpark in this episode. Also whats the special character that everyone was hyped about? Anyways. Until next week 0 _ 0 season finale and im not ready for it to be over

#the falcon and the winter soldier spoilers #the falcon and the winter soldier #tfatws #tfatws spoilers #bucky barnes #sam wilson #winter soldier #falcon #hello marvel please bring redwing back thank you #marvel #mcu

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lailarain · 3 years

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Warning: Spoilers for Super Danganronpa 2.5: Komaeda Nagito

Let's be honest, I'm only here for Nagito lol

(I really wanted to watch the english dub but I could only find the japanese one so yeah😔)

Episode 1(the only episode):

IT'S NAGITO BABY YES

Wait isn't that other blonde bitch, peach hair bitch, and white hair girl?

Run of the mill guy my ass🤨

SAYAKA IS THAT YOU

WAIT DID NAGITO JUST GET HIT BY A CAR

Wait isn't he the ultimate lucky student? He seems really unlucky. Is this even canon

Okay I googled it and this is canon so wtf is going on

Is this an alternative universe or some shit

WAIT MAKOTO IS FLIRTING WHY IS MAKOTO FLIRTING WHAT IN THE LITERAL FUCK IS GOING ON

DID HE JUST CALL HER DARLING

WAIT THAT'S EVERYBODY EVEN THE SCARY TEACHER LADY

WAIT KAZUCHI AND FUYUHIKO ARE FRIENDS WITH HIM THAT'S SO WHOLESOME

HE'S JUST SITTING THERE SO CHILL WHILE THE BASEBALL COMES THROUGH THE WINDOW THAT'S SO HIM THO

LEON DID THAT WAIT WHAT

Wait it's normally the other way around where Nagito's good luck gives everyone else bad luck

I see Soda is still a simp😅

And an idiot, apparently

NAGITO IS SO DRAMATIC LMAOO

WAIT THE TEACHER SOUNDS LIKE A LITERALLY TWO YEAR OLD IS THIS REALLY WHAT SHE SOUNDS LIKE IN JAPANESE?!?!?!?

Kazuichi is cool and all but this dude has gotta stop being a SIMP

WAIT NAGITO WHY ARE YOU SAYING THAT YOU COULD AT LEAST BREAK IT TO HIM KINDLY?

Nagito is....speaking facts actually😳

THE FISTBUMP SO WHOLESOME AGGGHHH

WAIT WHO ARE YOU AND WHAT HAVE YOU DONE WITH NAGITO

HE BASICALLY WORSHIPS PEOPLE WITH TALENT WHO IS THIS GUY WTF IS HE TALKING ABOUT

Okay Nagito you're getting a little scary😀

Peko in the bush be like 😡

FUYUHIKO NOT JUDGING HIM FOR WHO HE IS YES

Fuyuhiko is still the same I see🤣

WAIT WHY IS NAGITO THIS UNLUCKY

NAGITO WYD😳😳😳

Can we get an f in the chat for Nagito

WAIT IS THAT HAJIME WHAT

Or.....Izuru maybe?

WAIT WHY ARE THERE POLICE OFFICERS ALL OF A SUDDEN WHAT'S GOING ON

WAIT HE JUST KILLED THEM

WHAT ARE THOSE RED SQUARE THINGS

Awwww Sonia had fun

WAIT WHAT'S GOING ON

IS THAT A MURAL

WAIT IS KAZUICHI DEAD WHAT'S GOING ON I'M SO CONFUSED

SOUDA WAS WHAT?!?!?!?!?

He wants to avenge his friend aww🥺

DAMN SONIA IS A BADDIE💅

Nagito what are you doing go with them🤨

Poor Nagi you're special too🥺

WAIT HAJIME KILLED SOUDA WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON

WAIT I THINK HE'S TALKING ABOUT NAGITO BUT WHY WOULD HE KILL HIM JUST FOR BEING NAGITO'S FRIEND?!?!?!?

SONIA HAS A BAZOOKA WHY DOES SHE HAVE A BAZOOKA

WAIT DON'T TELL ME PEKO IS DYING

WAIT DON'T TELL ME FUYUHIKO IS DEAD

HAJIME WHAT ARE YOU DOING DON'T YOU DARE

PEKO NO

WAIT THIS CAN'T BE AN ALTERNATIVE UNIVERSE BECAUSE HE CLEARLY REMEMBERS WHAT HAPPENED TO HIM IN GOODBYE DESPAIR SO WHAT'S GOING ON WHY DID HAJIME KILL THEM

WHY IS HAJIME TRYING TO END THE WORLD WHY IS THE WORLD EVEN FIXED IN THE FIRST PLACE

WHAT NO THEY'RE DEAD FUCK

PETITION TO GET NAGITO A MF THERAPIST

WAIT PLEASE TELL ME NAGITO IS GONNA PULL OUT A GUN AGAIN

Wait did the screws just-

WAIT NAGITO DON'T YOU DARE DIE ON ME AGAIN

WAIT DID HE JUST SHOOT-

NAGITO NOOOOOOO

I ONLY GOT TO SEE YOU FOR 19 MINUTES WHYYYYY

WAIT HE'S ALIVE WHY DID HIS OUTFIT SUDDENLY CHANGE

Wait WHAT "ILLUSION" WHAT'S GOING ON

WAIT BUT I THOUGHT THEY GOT RELEASED FROMT HE PROGRAM AFTER JUNKO DIED WTF

WAIT SO THE WHOLESOME KAZUICHI-FUYUHIKO-NAGITO TRIO WASN'T REAL!?!??!?

At least Nagito has come back to his senses😭😭😭

WAIT SO THAT MEANS HE REALLY WANTED TO BE FRIENDS THATS SO SWEET

Ohhhhhh so THAT'S why Makoto was so florty it's because he viewed Makoto as a lot less awkward than he actually was

WAIT HE'S AWAKE YES

AWWWWW MY BOI IS SO HAPPY AHHHHH

AWWWWW HE'S HUGGING THEM

WAIT IS THAT IT!?!?!?

Well, at the very least, I'm happy to see an entire special centered around my favorite boi.

Okay, as for how I rate 「Super Danganronpa 2.5: Komaeda Nagito」、I think I'd rate it 9/10. I loved the idea, the story, and the way it was centered around my favorite character in the whole francise. I extremely enjoyed how wholesome the friendship of Fuyuhiko, Kazuichi, and Nagito was. However, I was confused as to what was happening during the majority of it. And while there's nothing necessarily WRONG with that, I'm still confused as to why he would've wanted to be friends with Kazuichi and Fuyuhiko, of all people. I would've found it more realistic if it was instead Chiaki and Hajime. I also wonder how he knew that Hajime and Izuru were the same person from the moment he woke up, even though he was dead and not present furing the big reveal at the end of the second game. I'm also curious as to why he despised talent in the weird virtual world. It's likely that they answers to all those questions were obvious and I'm just a huge idiot tho. Overall, it was nice to see what could've been of Nagito, and to discover how much he actually does value friendship. It helped understand and grow to know better the lovable, chaotic boi that we all either love or hate, known as Nagito Komaeda.

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