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And I think Castiel would convey that to the other 16 Castiels, or 17, or however many of them there were. “This is it. This is our one chance. And it’s not up to some other higher power to dictate from on high how we behave, it’s up to us to do our best.” That’s the thing that Castiel - that’s the main thing that resonates with me about the character is that he always did his best, even when he was making the wrong choices. He was always trying to do his best. And, I think that that is what he would tell them to do. “Try to do your best. Don’t, don’t throw your hands up and don’t give yourself over to fate, because it is up to us.” And I think that that is very true and if - I mean, you fall into an existential vortex if you don’t believe that. You have to believe that you can affect change and that you can do your best in life, right?

Misha Collins at Momento Con - September 4, 2021

#misha #cas #spncastedit #mishaedit #misha collins #spn cast #spn: gifs #not mine #momento con #my angel #castiel #free will

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When I was a kid my grandmother told me to “stay on the swings” (so I wouldn’t run into the road or go explore the woods behind her house and get lost). My mom and grandma had their visit and about 3 hours later my mom comes back outside and says “you’re still playing on the swings?” And I said “grandma told me not to leave the swings”. I only realised years later that I was probably overthinking her words and I probably could have gone inside.

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good morning bisexuals

#bisexual #this was curated for me #pride month

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In gentle hands

Happy Pride Month! 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈

#pride month #pride #happy pride 🌈 #lgbt #lgbtq #the falcon #sambucky #sam x bucky #bucky and sam

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He found a safe and happy place.

#bucky #tfatws #tfatws spoilers #spoilers #sambucky #James buchanan barnes #sam wilson #one people one world spoilers #episode 6 spoilers #finale spoilers #smiling bucky #happy bucky #at peace #perfect ending was perfect #Captain America and the winter soldier

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BUCKY + smiling in Episode 5 of The Falcon and The Winter Soldier

#bucky barnes #tfatws spoilers #tfatws #tfatwsedit #marveledit #I love buckys smile #Sebastian Stan #not my edit #this ep was so good #this ep was everything #james buchanan barnes #I will fight everyone for his smile

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wandavision | season one, episode eight

#wandavison spoilers #wandavision #destieledit #deancasedit #spnedit #supernaturaledit #dean winchester #castiel #sobbing #deancas

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I have never loved anything more than this post

Did you know that they had a man holding rob so they wouldn’t fall over cause neither did I

#twilight saga #bella #twilight #edward cullen #bella swan #new moon #behind the scenes #gif

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LET IT SNOW IS HERE! 🥳

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Thank you to all the amazing writers and artists who contributed. This zine has been the product of months of hard work, lots of love and joy!

We’re so excited to share it with you all and spread some winter cheer! Happy holidays! ❄️☃️❄️

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Honestly same

#ice age #sid #me #relatable

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five things you know and the one thing you don’t. [insp]

#spn #spnedit #destieledit #destiel #supernatural #not my gifs #not my edit #despair #season 15 #spoilers #destiel is real

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15x19 - Inherit the Earth

#spn spoilers #supernatural spoilers #spnedit #spn #supernatural #dean winchester #sam winchester #sam and dean #not my gifs #not my edit #inherit the Earth #I will never not reblog my free babies

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So I know everyone has already dissected this scene to its core, but it’s taken me a good 48 hours to digest this and I just needed to get it out.

I’m an aspiring actor, I’ve been training for a long time, with a lot of amazing teachers. I’ve watched a lot of shows and shipped a lot of couples. Some of them beautiful and canon, others, well, let’s just say waiting 22 years and counting for acknowledgement, closure, anything, it’s a damn challenge. I’ve seen a hell of a lot of will-they-wont-they’s, baiting, purposeful ignorance, deliberate fake outs, zero explanations, storylines that basically caused canon disintegration, the works.

In saying that, Dean and Cas were right up there on the list with the other “impossibles” because honestly, I didn’t think the writers would have the guts to do it, but I am so f*cking proud they did. It’s safe to say I’ve watched the scene a good hundred+ times already. 

I’ve seen a lot of “controversy” around Dean’s reaction/Jensen’s acting choices and whether or not Dean reciprocates Cas’ feelings, and obviously, I needed to add my own views to the mix.

Just work with me for a minute here.

Dean Winchester is an emotionally repressed trainwreck, and ironically enough, the one that is so full of emotion it hurts to watch. When Cas first starts his speech, he’s confused, really confused because why on earth would Cas start off on a rant now? Billie’s waiting to kill them, he just said he knew something that was more powerful than she was, something that could save them. That’s where he thought this speech was going.

The confusion turns to realisation that it’s a goodbye when Cas starts telling him how incredible he is, how his entire essence is love. Go back and watch the scene again, when Cas says “you’re the most caring man on Earth”, you physically see Dean look down, his eyes searching, he’s actively trying to make sense of what’s happening, he knows what’s coming and you can see him coming to terms with the shock of the words being said to him. He then looks directly at Cas. That look, that was pure shock.

Also, notice how he doesn’t stop Cas from talking? He doesn’t interject, make a joke, doesn’t talk about how there is no time for this now, they’ve got to at least try and stop Billie. He. says. nothing. He listens, he listens like I’ve never seen Dean listen before. Because it’s sinking in now.

When Cas really starts crying, when he says “you changed me, Dean”, you can actually see the pain in Dean’s eyes. He’s no longer in control of his emotions, he’s crying too. He’s never seen Cas like this, so raw, and vulnerable and human. This is the hardest, most emotional conversation they’ve both ever had. They are talking about the one thing that everybody knows, but is never addressed. When it wasn’t talked about, they could deny it, live in the lie. Once it’s said aloud, it’s real and they can’t turn back.

This above series of interactions is the part that kills me the most. The moment Cas says “because it is”, that’s the exact moment of realisation. Look at that last GIF, really look. He’s just worked it out, that he is Cas’ true happiness. He knows what’s coming before Cas even says it. Go back and watch the scene again, they pulled that off so well, the way the music swells at this exact moment. Jensen is giving us everything here, you can see what’s happening in his head - he is Cas’ happiness. He is the one thing on Earth Cas wants and thinks he can’t have. He is the reason Cas is about to die. He knows what Cas is about to say and he’s not sure he’s ready to hear it, not now, not like this. It’s almost a silent plea not to say it, because he knows. Of course he knows. It’s like he can’t quite believe Cas is really, after all this time, finally going to say it.

And because obviously Jensen decided that that wasn’t enough to break us, the loaded reaction when Cas says “I love you” has me nothing but convinced that it’s reciprocated. Because Dean knows. He’s always known. Those tears, that head tilt, that gulp. He’s so genuinely confused that they’re really having this conversation. It’s like he can’t quite believe that this is the reality before him because he’s been living in that denial, in that self-loathing and unlovable layer he believes to be true. He’s been under the ‘what if… but it could never be’ umbrella for so long. 

What also makes this real is that there isn’t anyone else around this time. When “I love you’s” have been said before, they have always been able to deflect it, with other people or other words. Now it’s just the two of them. No deflecting, no running away. Dean is forced to hear it, to absorb it, to realise it’s for nobody else but him.

Now, I don’t know if you guys felt this, but when Dean says “Don’t do this, Cas”, he wasn’t just referring to Cas sacrificing himself to the Empty, he’s telling Cas that he can’t just say this, not now, knowing he’s going to die, knowing that Dean won’t get a chance to think, to process, to say what he needs too. I keep staring at that GIF above, Dean is breaking down, I’m almost convinced that Jensen was using an “I love you too, please just stop this” inner monologue for this bit. Look at the way he’s looking at Cas before he realises the Empty has started materialising and turns around. That’s a look of pure heartbreak. Trust me when I tell you, it’s really hard to keep those inner thoughts inside if you’re so in the moment - actually, don’t just take my word for it, read any acting book, ask any actor, it’s so hard to keep that in and sometimes you don’t, and sometimes you do - it’s in both the resistance and the letting go that the gold happens. This my friends, is gold. 

Did anyone else hear “Cas, I-”, well, regardless of whether or not it was an “I” or a very sharp breath, the outcome is the same. Dean’s gone into immediate panic mode. The Empty at one end and Billie at the other, and all poor Dean wants to do is gather his thoughts on not what to say but how to say it. I don’t think he comprehended just how little time he had, he was so focused on what was being said that the reality of the situation caught him completely off guard.

Also, I know this post was about dissecting Dean’s reaction, but can we sidebar a minute to talk about Cas as he pushes Dean out of the way? He’s sobbing, he’s fully crying. That hit me really hard, I’ve never seen Cas cry like that, I’ve never seen Misha get to play that level of emotion before and it was the most heartbreaking thing to watch since The Doctor and Rose and Buffy and Spike, to which by the way, I find many parallels between those couples and this scene.

Speaking of crying, that brings me to this: Dean slumped on the floor, ignoring a call from Sam, sobbing his heart out knowing he’s lost everything. Dean-I’m-emotionally-unavailable-Winchester is sobbing. Maybe I’m wrong, but I don’t recall ever seeing Dean cry like this before either, the sobbing was so evident and piercing in that silence. The look around the room, the burying of his head in his hands, that is a classic writers romantic love trope if I’ve ever seen it, they really pulled out all the stops with this one.

So, to summarise, I think Jensen’s choices and Dean’s reactions were absolutely and utterly perfect. They both did it so well that it didn’t break from character that these two emotionally distant and repressed men are in love and finally voicing it. Jensen barely said two words and still managed to cause mass coronary’s across the fandom. That my friends is what you call a brilliant actor. I bow down to the talents of these two amazing human beings.

Before I leave this novel, I have to say there are now a few things I’m going to need from the powers that be to not screw this up, help me manifest this:

1. Dean gets to reciprocate his feelings to Cas in person. So, I’m gonna need Cas back and a very emotional Dean.

2. Dean to be actively dealing with heartbreak in the next episode (unless they decided to bring Cas back that soon, which I wouldn’t put past them at this point).

3. Sam to confront Dean about his feelings for Cas, because out of everyone, he’d be the one to hit Dean with the truth of his fears. Sam knows. Sam is supportive. Sam sees it all.

4. I’m gonna need some physical affection, cause after 12 years of nonsense, we damn well deserve it. A hug, and not just any old reunion hug, a proper, this is different now hug. A kiss because hello, in love out loud now. Forehead touching, handholding, really gonna need the works here.

5. A happy ending for the two of them, one way or another. We’ve never had one, it’s time.

Okay, have at it now, let’s speak these into existence please.

Note: GIFs are not mine, I did not make them, credit to owners who I’m not sure of, but they’re beautiful, thanks for making them.

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Or to annoy Simon because Si shrieks and goes “Baaaaazzzz!!” And moves his leg as far out of the way as possible while not actually getting up and Baz just laughs and chases Simon’s leg with his foot and it’s cute.

Hc that when Simon and Baz cuddle in bed, Baz puts his cold feet on Simon just to feel something.

#snowbaz #rainbowrowell #baz grimm pitch #carryonmemes #rainbow #carryon #simonsnow #waywardson #headcanon #i made it cute #let my boys be happy #cuddles #fluff #cute

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#george floyd #black lives matter #u.s. politics #protest #blm

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“I was never really insane except on occasions where my heart was touched.”

— Edgar Allan Poe (via qvotable)

#quote #edgar allan poe #text #quotes