Broken Hearts
Sirius Black x Fem! Reader
Summary: In which Y/n wakes up from a dream on the morning of Sirius' birthday that shatters her heart yet again, reminding her of the one person she can never have.
Warnings: Secret pining, Heartbreak, Jealousy
A/n: I hope you enjoy it and I do want to make a part two of this, but I just don't know when that will be happening lol.
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The sun shone brightly down onto Y/n, the lake glistening beautifully in front of her, the birds chirping and a slow breeze blew. Y/n smiled softly. An arm wrapped around her waist, turning her around. She smiled widely.
It was the one who ruled her heart, her best friend, her companion of seven years.
Sirius Black.
He looked down at her softly, pulling her closer that made Y/n gasp at the proximity. Sure they were touchy as friends but this felt different than the others times.
Y/n gazed up into Sirius' stormy grey eyes, losing herself in the beautiful yet chaotic storm.
"I love you, Y/n." He said, making Y/n feel her world turn upside down.
"What?" She softly breathed out, unable to believe what she had just heard.
"I love you, Y/n." Sirius repeated, gazing softly down at her.
Y/n's face broke into a huge smile.
"I love you too." She replied, making Sirius' face light up even more and he leaned his head down as Y/n felt her eyes flutter shut.
His lips brushed hers when Y/n's eyelids flew open and she moved back, earning a quizzical look from Sirius.
"What's the matter, love?" He asked confusedly.
Y/n slowly shook her head, stepping back, leaving the comfort and warmth of Sirius' arms. "This isn't real." She whispered. "This isn't real."
Y/n's eyelids shot open and she sat up, breathing heavily as she looked around. Reality came crashing down on her and her heart shattered into a million pieces. Y/n threw the covers away aggressively and rushed into the bathroom, almost slamming the door before remembering her friends were asleep.
Her hands shook slightly as she reached for the cool water from the tap, splashing the liquid over her face, relishing in the coldness. Y/n looked up in the mirror, feeling her eyes tear up.
Why did it have to be her? Why did she have to be in love with one of her best friends, who would never look at her in the same way?
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A few hours later, Y/n found herself in the seventh year boys' dormitory, awaiting the birthday boy to step out of the bathroom. She along with the boys were all hidden, and when the door opened, they all sprang out, throwing confetti everywhere and screaming together,
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY PADFOOT!"
Sirius was stunned for a second before his face broke into a grin, grabbing James and Peter into a headlock, messing up their hair.
"Thank you, Prongsie and Wormy."
He released the pair who scowled at him, to which Sirius barked out a laugh. Sirius moved over to Remus and patted him on the shoulder in gratitude. Finally, his eyes moved over to Y/n, who felt her heart flutter. He came over, wrapping an arm around her shoulder and placing a kiss on her head.
"Thank you, love."
She smiled up at him, feeling butterflies erupt in her stomach. Sirius dropped his arm from around Y/n and a coldness washed over her. Remus noticed the expression on Y/n's face and he pulled her over, wrapping an arm around her. She sent him a grateful smile. Only Remus was aware of how Y/n felt towards Sirius.
Fast forward a few more hours and Y/n along with Lily, Marlene and Alice, found herself at Sirius' birthday bash. The music blared, the lights danced off the walls, people shook it out to the beat, drinks in hand and laughs erupted everywhere.
"How's my favorite girl? Enjoying the party?"
Y/n's lips turned upwards as Sirius came into view, Remus right behind.
"Yeah, it's brilliant, considering, Jamie, Rem, Pete and I are the ones to plan it out." Y/n answered making Sirius chuckle.
"We only got a party because it's my birthday." Sirius replied, "So really, it's all thanks to me."
Y/n rolled her eyes, "Oh shut up, you big baby." She said, and Sirius put a hand to his chest.
"You wound me, darling."
Y/n only shot him a sarcastic smile before grabbing Remus' arm and pulling him to the dance floor. "Dance?"
Remus rolled his eyes in annoyance but Y/n saw how the corners of his mouth twitched upwards for a second. "Well, you've already dragged me here, so why not?"
Y/n placed a kiss on Remus' cheek, "Aw, you're the best Remmy!"
Remus placed his hands on Y/n's waist as her arms came around his neck, and the two moved along to the beat. Y/n's gaze wandered around and in the corner it landed on her three other best friends. Sirius was trying to balance a spoon on his nose, but failing miserably. He was being cheered on by Peter and being laughed at by James.
Y/n felt herself smile at the sight. She loved her friends so much. Her eyes went back to the grey eyed boy, who had now given up his efforts and was instead laughing. Y/n admired him. The way he threw his head back, his hair framing his face, the joy on his face.
"Y/n, how long are you going to keep this up?"
Y/n tore her gaze away from Sirius to Remus who looked down at her with concern.
"You know Rem I can't tell him, it would ruin everything."
"It wouldn't, Y/n. Trust me, I'm his best friend as much as I am yours, I know everything about the two of you." Remus answered sincerely.
Y/n frowned slightly, "Please don't give me false hope, Rem." Y/n looked back to Sirius and felt her breath catch in her throat when her eyes locked with his grey ones. "You know it's not just a simple crush, I've fallen for him." Y/n said, while she kept her gaze on Sirius.
Meanwhile, Sirius was being told the same thing by the remaining two Marauders.
"Padfoot, just tell her already."
Sirius broke his eye contact with y/n and turned to look at James who had just spoken.
"She doesn't feel the same way. It would only destroy what we already have, and I can't afford to lose her." Sirius replied, his heart tugging at the very thought.
He watched her and Remus sway together, a smile on her lips and he felt himself melt. However that moment didn't last, as someone else came along, her eyes set upon Sirius Black.
Meanwhile, Remus had managed to at least make y/n think over about telling Sirius. Not only that but he had lit up a hope in her heart. Y/n excused herself to grab a drink to quench her thirst, and her eyes flitted to the corner where the boys were. Y/n felt her heart clench like it always did when she saw another person with Sirius. The girl pressed her lips to his and y/n looked away, her heart shattering for good.
Tears pricked her eyes and her hands shook. Her mind flashed back to the dream she had earlier the same day, which worsened the pain. She could not believe herself, couldn't believe she saw the truth in Remus' words. She hated herself, hated herself for falling in love with someone who would never return her feelings.
After all, a love kept like this would only ever result in broken hearts and nothing more.
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