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borderlinebelle · 3 months

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Has anyone ever taken a stimulant for ADHD and it cured your manic mess but simultaneously erased your creative joyful childlike wonder at the world and your interest in the people you share it with?

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Am I cured or broken indefinitely to better suit “adulthood”?

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As I wade through the vibrant and manic mess that was the BEFORE STIMULANTS and I look out onto the starkly dull and muted tones of the AFTERS STIMULANTS… the pendulum swings and I violently and obediently bend with it.

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I can balance my budget now. Proficient in punctuality and productivity. Finishing work projects that used to take weeks? EASY. Calculating and efficient, I am almost unemotional as I smash through barriers that once kept me at a stand still for weeks.

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The counter balance to these super abilities is glaring:

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1. I find it difficult to produce an ounce of creativity.

2. I am colder, more calculating.

3. I find empathy over other people’s emotions a far off tingle of familiarity I reach for and only brush.

4. I find even accessing my own emotions to be difficult.

5. I find little pleasure from completing tasks just a dull and far off ✅ that reminds me of pleasure but has none of the organic material.

6. I lack spark behind my eyes.

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In conclusion, the video I filmed for today’s YOUTUBE launch felt… soulless and lacking. It felt disingenuous. I wasn’t talking to YOU, my mental health friends. I was just … talking.

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TO BE BRUTALLY HONEST: I’m unsure how to proceed with the channel, with my content… with my identity outside of MANIC PIXIE DREAM GIRL … I feel really really defeated if I’m honest. I’ve spent my entire adult life in survival mode and for the first time, on this new medication, I can see dozens of strategies to LEAVE SURVIVAL and CHASE AFTER THRIVE… but I didn’t think it would COST ME… my personality, my creativity, my identity.

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Idk but, I guess .. that’s the way with these things. Mental health, medication, stabilization…

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Mental health isn’t “pretty and punctual” so said my producer tonight. It can ALSO be “imperfect and valuable”. Nothing is a perfect science, everyone is just doing their best I guess.

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Fighting your own brain 🧠 daily, hourly, weekly, monthly, yearly is exhausting work. I’m so deeply proud of everyone out there choosing to fight another day. I hope to continue being as brave and resilient as you all are.

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It’s 12:00am. I’ve officially missed the “NEW VIDEO EVERY SUNDAY” standard I set for myself and I have to admit I’m taking it very poorly and I feel pretty defeated, but I had to come let the few who support my cross platform… that I’m sorry I couldn’t get there today.

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Returning to YouTube after being run off by a parasocial making very real threats years ago, has been a delicious dream of mine for so long.

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I just deactivated both my Instagram and Facebook as they were both just reminding me of this missed deadline, of this empty channel, of what feels like a failure. In the age of comparison and competition, TO BE A HUMAN IS NOT EASY.

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So I’ll regroup, recoup, lean into coping mechanisms, touch base with my therapist + psychiatrist… and keep trying to find a way through.

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Thank you for your interest in my content.

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I appreciate you deeply.

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I anticipate that this hopefully … won’t be the end.

🖊️ xoxo borderlinebelle

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newkatzkafe2023 · 4 months

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Wukong Verse incorrect quotes #18 Game Night 🌙

it was a calm rainy 🌧 evening when

(Mk Reborn Wukong) I HATE YOU!!!!!🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬

(Lmk Wukong) OH WELL NEXT TIME DON'T STEAL MY MONOPOLY!!!!!😡😡😡

(HIB Wukong)(sighing🤦) Mk Reborn Wukong give your 200k Lmk Wukong you landed on his property😒😒😒😒😒

(MK Reborn Wukong)(Pissed) No he's in jail i'm not giving money to a criminal🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯👿👿👿👿👿👿👿👿👿

(Lmk Wukong)(Angry)THAT'S NOT HOW YOU PLAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯

(Netflix Wukong) Why are they both Screaming😥😥😥😥

(HIB Wukong) Shut the f*ck up Netflix Wukong you don't get to talk after stealing my last railroad😠😠😠😠😠

(Lmk Wukong)(Dramatic) I WISH I WAS NEVER BORN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!😡😡🤯🤯😫😫😭😭

(Mk Reborn Wukong)(Enraged) US TOO YOU THINK ANYBOY WANTED THIS!?!?!?!?🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯

(Lmk Wukong & Mk Reborn Wukong)( Screaming and shrieking)

(Y/N) I can see why you Participate very often😥😥😥🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

(Nezha Reborn Wukong) Yeah free entertainment😆😆😆🤣🤣🤣🤣

FEEL FREE TO REBLOG😊👍

#monkey king netflix #monkey king reborn #monkey king x reader #x female y/n #nezha reborn #lmk monkey king #incorrect quotes #odd1sout #game night #rage quit #distruction of private property #Somebody's getting punched👊

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ahnocontext · 9 months

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chaos

#achievement hunter #ahnocontext #michael jones #gavin free #ah #rooster teeth #rage quit #also hi i haven't posted ah clips in over a year

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the-chaotic-pix · 2 months

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"I just spent 4 hours doing that boss fight... and I still didn't win"

-my brother while playing Dark Souls III

#dark souls #dark souls 3 #quotes #lol #funny #brother #funny memes #haha #soulsborne #rage quit #sister friede #meme #video games

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neeksxoxo · 11 months

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if that genetically inherited blonde sarcastic hopeless at love absolute messed up teenage angst in a person boy and that solid fairylike ethereal smart detective observant beautiful boy don't talk to each other im quitting earth bye

#kitty #kit x ty #KitTy #kit ty #twp #the wicked powers #tda #the dark artifices #tsc #the shadowhunter chronicles #kit herondale #ty blackthorn #rage quit

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diovoppio · 1 month

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This is what I am talking about, btw

We landed with our squad of 3 people and one other squad of 1 person) This is obvious information considering our squadmate was Valkyrie and her passive tracked them.

We begin to loot and dodge attacks, we all take our shitty attempts at shooting the enemy. Valkyrie gets downed, I revive her seconds later while me and @rudegizmo secure the elimination. Before our squadmate finished reviving, talks mad shit about us and dips. This person is in the 400s lvl area !

That wasn't us getting downed though 😅

#Apex Legends #apex clips #rage quit #video game clips #wtf actually was that #lvl 400 swag #Apex Valkyrie #Apex Wraith #Apex Lifeline #videoppio

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mothlagoon · 2 months

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Live laugh love lust and loathe :)

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steven1123x · 1 month

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When I rage quit in Fortnite

#steven universe #rose quartz #Fortnite #rage quit

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howlingday · 1 year

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Jaune: Yang, we're ready for you.

Yang: No. I said I'm not doing it.

Jaune: Yang, we really need yo to-

Yang: I DON'T FUCKING CARE! I said I'm not doing another Rage Quit, and I meant I'm not doing another Rage Quit!

Jaune: (Sighs) Fine.

Ruby: What's the game anyways? (Sips drink)

Yang: It doesn't matter. There's nothing he can say that will get me to-

Jaune: It's Surgeon Simulator.

Ruby: (Spits out her drink)

Yang: WE GOTTA GO! (Sprints with Ruby) WE GOTTA FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOO!

#rwby #achievement hunter #rage quit #let's play #jaune arc #yang xiao long #ruby rose

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borderlinebelle · 16 hours

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#2.5hrs at the rmv later i have to go back tomorrow?????#rmv #rmv hell #rage quit #bpd rage #tomorrow too #personal #fucking hell #IMAGINE #AS I REPLAY IT MY BLOOD SCREAMVERS #I WANT TO RINSE MY BRAIN #I WANT A NEw one or to be a fucking rock #pls pls pls this is a lot of emotions for one human body 🧨👍🏽🙂🫨🫡🤭✅🙂‍↕️🧠😊☺️👁️wow

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avianii · 5 months

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low quality sketches I'm throwing here so maybe one day I'll render them

#tried to draw Alex #did not work #rage quit #ill come back to him later #Farah thooo #cod

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has-gilgamesh-doneanythingwrong · 1 year

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FGO NO.1 BEST BABYGIRL/ PARTNER POLL

This poll is inspired by @hasarjunadoneanythingwrong's idea for a boyfriend poll for fgo guys. vote for your best babygirl out of only 10 choices. I am sorry for missing out on many other quality babygirls, as well not including enough muscly choices. :(

#fate series #fgo #THERES NOT ENOUGH SPACE FOR ALL THE BABYGIRLS FUCK THIS #gilgablog #rage quit #i got polls i guess. im using it for good

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internationalgamer · 3 months

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