I know that being positive in the face of adversity is quite an important thing but I also think that taking a moment to just breathe and entertain the thought of "but what if this happens instead of that" is important too. Not in the sense of, "if this does happen, everything will be over" but actually in the sense of, "if this does happen, it will not be the end because these are the ways with which I can continue".
I just think that knowing life can still be alright if it doesn't go the way you most wish it should, makes facing the adversity a little easier. Makes it less scary. And if something is a little bit less scary, that makes it that much easier to achieve.
how do you tell those few people who matter, who actually care, that you do not want to die but that you aren't very keen about living either
how do you iterate this going through the motions: clock-in, clock-out, eat, sleep, lather, rinse, repeat as nothing more than madness, sorrow, rage, silence, this endless, lonely fortitude
how do you sit on a fence without falling to either side, beauty here, decay there, both of them alluring, like the Sirens of Odysseus
how do you tell your best friend that you love her more than anything in this world, for calling you Sweet Sister
how do you straddle a conundrum, do you grip it with your upper thighs, as if it were a bucking horse, untamed, not yet broken, wild
Jan 3 is the Feast of St Geneviève. This full-page miniature depicting Saint Geneviève on a leaf pulled from a book of hours.
A contemporary of Clovis and Attila, and later the patron saint of Paris, Geneviève († 512 CE) is painted holding a large lit candle, one of her attributes. A demon, with a breath, extinguishes the flame that is immediately rekindled.
According to her legend, Geneviève, with her companions, visit at night the construction site of the Basilica of Saint-Denis that she has built when the wind extinguishes the candle that lights the path of the small group. Geneviève then takes in her hand the candle that miraculously lights up and its flame will withstand all the storms.
This isolated fragment comes from a manuscript made around 1510 in Tours by Maître Claude de France.
Bibliothèque de l'��cole nationale supérieure des Beaux-Arts, Paris, Mn. Mas 95
[Robert Scott Horton]
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“Adverse conditions are your spiritual teacher; Demons and possessor spirits, the Buddha’s emanations; Sickness is a broom for negative karma and defilements; Sufferings are displays of ultimate reality’s expanse—”
— Serlingpa, (Mind Training: The Great Collection, p. 195)
"You think your pain and your heartbreak are unprecedented in the history of the world, but then you read. It was books that taught me that the things that tormented me most were the very things that connected me with all the people who were alive, or who had ever been alive."