#finding my soul

[serenityquest]

#losing my mind #finding my soul #inspirational

[euesworld]

"In a world so cold, I find my soul in your embrace.. I feel like I belong for the first time."

Your smell, your taste.. you are just so amazingly great - eUë

#world so cold #i find #finding my soul #finding myself #finding love #finding your way #in your embrace #sweet embrace #embrace #hug me #hugs #in your arms #hug me please #i belong #where i belong #i belong to you #i belong with you #i love you #you are amazing #amazing #spilled ink #spilled thoughts #spilled words #love quotes #love #love quote life quotes #love quote for her #quoteoftheday #romance #romantic

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

got a worm nibbling my brain. can someone help me find a piece of obscure media?

webcomic/indie comic from the 2010s. basically a sci-fi short story about a young girl (with red hair?) who was being raised by scientists as part of an experiment. she receives a haircut/has her head shaved, in preparation for her annual brain scan/testing. it is revealed that while her body is human, her "brain" is artificial, made of computer implants throughout her skull and spine. at some point her biological mother (also a scientist on the same campus?) encounters her and is repulsed, viewing her as a machine who has murdered her daughter.

it was very poignant and it bruised my heart and i can NOT find it anywhere

#i thought it was made by the creator of 'O Human Star' for some reason but apparently not? #goddammit goddammit goddammit #'i don't have to write down the title of this piece of media i encountered in my formative years bc i'll always remember it' #*cut to ten years later frantic googling* #fun fact 'a.i.' is now a completely useless search term #google in general is useless #and stuff i read 3+ years ago regularly vanishes from the internet #bookmarks are not enough! if you like indie media--download that shit! buy digital/physical copies while you can #save it to the cloud back it up and organize that shit!!! #keep a list of the stuff you read (organized by date/media type and possibly with keywords if you want it to be useful longterm) #(or a spreadsheet even if you're like me and rabidly consume short stories/comics like a pack of amnesiac piranhas on a feeding frenzy) #(that stuff PILES UP over the years ok. if you wanna make sure you'll be able to find it again a decade later--curation is key) #because art WILL touch your soul and then vanish into the void leaving naught but a 404 Error in its wake #i am an old man shaking my fist at the kids on my lawn but the kids on my lawn are me and my longterm digital planning skills circa 2012

[sketchy-tour]

These were meant to be warmups. ANYWHO!

Went to a random palette site and picked ones that were reminiscent of Wally's colors but still very different that I liked and grabbed some outfits to do a sort of challenge for myself. Idk, thought it would help me out of my funk.

Suffice to say, I'm feeling a bit better now~ These were really fun to do!!!

#welcome home #welcome home puppet show #wally darling #welcome home arg #WH Wally #welcome home wally #wally darling fanart #welcome home fanart #welcome home puppet arg #my art #Waaawwwyyy in a dreessss #Drawing the man to heal my soul #The top one feels so different from what I'm used to!! #Im usually so set on keeping my art soft but man doing something like this was kinda fun!!! #SHOUT OUT TO THEKNIFECLOWN for letting me steal their fit for the second piece!!!!! #limited colors also meant Wallys stuck with blue eyelids but ngl I find the blue so cute. A part of Wally's beta design I really really lik #Anyway its 5am and shoulda been in bed...AGES ago!!! #enjoy enjoy #sidenote please ignore that i just drew the same expression twice fjsjkdd god I didnt even REALIZE!!!!!

[uncanny-tranny]

The hardest, but most important, part of my transition has been untangling what my personal dysphoria is, and what is more a result of cissexism.

What I mean by this is that I learned that I am not dysphoric about certain aspects of myself, my body, and my life, but my discomfort in these aspects was influenced by the cissexist culture I live in which told me I couldn't exist as myself.

It's definitely a slow process, but I have found that it helps me self-actualize and actually see myself instead of what others demand of me.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #dysphoria #and what makes this really tricky is that often it isn't clear-cut as to what makes you dysphoric... #...versus what makes you uncomfortable due to your culture or environment... #...i still experience dysphoria but now i find that my motivation isn't to please the people around me... #...if i truly wanted to please the people around me then i would cease to exist altogether... #...and once i truly recognized that and came to terms with this reality i stopped feeling like i owed the world everything... #...i stopped feeling so disconnected with myself... #...i don't think this will be useful for everybody but i want to offer a different approach to it... #...by no means do i think that this is a 'cure-all' in fact it's not even close... #...because what i found that this has done is bring me *closer* to my trans body and my trans soul... #...i have found that my dysphoria has narrowed (especially since going on testosterone) and i feel more at peace

[ruhlare]

i don't like it when someone is easy to reach. when someone is open to everyone, when literally anyone can get their attention. it is a question of values ​​and principles not to be open to everyone and not to have the need for everyone's attention. people who are easily available won't value soulful connections.

#that's something i think about a lot #the same goes for social media #can't take people serious who seek online validation #especially some men are easily to find behind the posts and likes of women #this makes someone clearly unattractive in my eyes #does someone understand what i am trying to say? #how less do you have to think of yourself to fill the void with VARIOUS people? #i like people who stand out #my writing #soul #letters

[jout--jout]

collecting them like pokemon cards

#critical role #cr #bells hells #vox machina #mighty nein #imodna #beauyasha #percahlia #fjorjester #I CANT FIND THE SHADOWGAST AND LOVELETTERS ONE BUT THEYRE THERE IN MY HEART #FOR ALL THE BEAUTIFUL SOULS THAT ADDED THE ONES I COULDNT FIND/FORGOT IN THE REBLOGS I LOVE U

[tiffanyachings]

it would have been very beautiful. camilla would have had to cook (horrible bone soup)

#HELLO back at it again #tug introduced groundbreaking new findings about soul permeability but my mind bypassed all that in favour of this au #the division of labour is as follows: #dulcie reads the instructions; snacks; and changes the radio station every time she doesn’t like a song #if you complain she will remind you she's literally dying. life is too short and mediocre songs are too long #pal gets stuff from high shelves and battles his constantly fogged up glasses #he tried to help with prep once and promptly got himself banned from using knives for the rest of his life #cam does 98% of the actual cooking #trivia section - #you can tell i am new to this because i arranged them in the wrong speaking order. let’s all practice our right to left reading #cam has a silly novelty apron because a) the idea was unbearably funny to me and b) i need to spread the gospel (aroace cam) #the cookbooks next to dulcie are ‘a few teaspoons of salt’ (by ianthe tridentarius) #and ‘saintly feasts: food for saints and scholars’ which is a real book! though not written by cassiopeia the first #* #dulcie septimus #dulcinea septimus #camilla hect #palamedes sextus #the locked tomb #field sketches #<< i get to have an art tag now!

[mi-spark]

some silly stuff with my explorers team lol, sapphire’s human lingo occasionally rubs off on bubbles, who doesn’t grasp the weight of some of the words, and it gives her whiplash every single time

#pokemon #pokémon #mystery dungeon #explorers of sky #pkmn #pmd #eos #piplup #vulpix #sapphire (explorers) #bubbles (explorers) #myart #bubbles is the purest soul sapphire has ever known #sorry if these jokes have been made before #also i didn’t rip that food sprite from anywhere #i couldn’t find it on spriters resource (probably didnt search hard enough) so i made it from scratch in photoshop with a blurry ass #youtube video screenshot as my reference #it wasn’t a super convoluted method #but it definitely wasn’t the usual method of making pixel art lmao

[caelanglang]

Shhhh…. They’re busy recharging and being in love

#domestic skk sketch dump! #thank you to all the wonderful kind souls who left me warm messages that kept me going! these sketches are for you guys :3 #and for me bc theyre all self indulgent lol #artsy dazai is my hc plssss #also chuuya using dazai's knife skills and etc in the kitchen !! he's not completely banned guys ><; #hehehe feel free to find details and spin your own brainrots >w<! (pls don't zoom in too much its so messy with so much mistakes kajshdg) #big spoon chuuya or big spoon dazai? WHY NOT BOTH!!! #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd dazai #bsd chuuya #soukoku #dazai osamu #nakahara chuuya #skk #my art #sketch #domestic fluff #tooth rotting fluff #sketches

[chalkanthit]

The main girl!!

#my art #soul eater #se #fanart #maka albarn #maka #se maka #it's a crime that I actually draw her so rarely let alone Soul- #(we don't talk about the lack of Kid fanart besides actually liking him quite a bit) #I kinda love how my sister went from really disliking her to actually finding Maka quite reasonable.. most of the time dkdldkod #also watch me who has said to finally finishing Black star yet drawing a whole new Sheet on the whim instead- #sorry black star but I'll finish you!! #one day-

[valentjin]

i just think it's crazy that there wasn't like. a cutscene or something that showed off raphael's cool magical girl transformation sequence cause his ascended fiend form looks sick as hell

#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #raphael bg3 #raphael #bg3 spoilers #technically? i guess #anyway... the model for this form is so cool and you don't get to SEE it because there isn't a cutscene or anything #like idk imagine something like the kind of boss intro/midfight cutscenes you get in dark souls or whatever when the boss switches forms #regardless. i couldn't find many good pics of him in this form so i went and took some myself bc.. i care him.... #have you seen raphael's ascended fiend form? now you have :) #first post on this blog IS going to be raphael idgaf #my screenshots #mine

[cryxdraws]

Judging by my feed, it’s the DP anniversary. Good time to post this commission then, huh?

#dp #danny phantom #memes #johnny 13 #dash baxter #paulina sanchez #worth #there was a lot of time and money spent to make this #also Wes being the only soul alive to utter the word ‘p-stan’ is objectively hilarious i dont make the rules #i wonder if yall can find all the references #not canon compliant and never will be #(unless paid) #(but neither was my commissioner so >:D

[arthurily]

This needs to be talked about MORE

Look at John’s skills man. He takes the revolver from a falling man, takes aim, fires, all before he gets to hit the ground.

#red dead redemption 2 #john marston #i saw an edit with this scene that a had rlly cool angle for this scene #so fucking cool id sell my soul to find the scenes as they are in the edit #but like not edited🌷

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Bard-aby <3 except he's only loosely a bard bc i don't subscribe to absolutes <3

rambles:

BARNABY WITH PANTS??? BLASPHEMY!!! however this is a (dnd-inspired) fantasy au so. pants! loose pants tucked into modified boots because no one can tell me No!

based off of Clown's pokemon au human Barn, it seems like he might be a bit of a jewelry guy! he was wearing rings! and had an earring! also i think Barn just looks great w/ some extra shinies, yk yk

since ties aren't really a Thing in fantasy settings, i combined the iconic pattern w/ his vest for a two-in-one. then suspenders bc they fuck severely! his belt buckle is a bone both as a nod to the pattern on his tie / house decoration, and to go along with how Wally has an apple buckle! besties stay twinning!

you can't see it but on his other side he has his pack & his smoking pipe holster, which attaches to his belt! it's very high quality leather that he spent so much money on. his pipe is important to him - he carved it himself out of wood from an important tree from his childhood, so he wants it to be properly stored & protected! he has two kinds of tobacco for it - normal, and magic tobacco that essentially allows him to cast minor spells w/ the smoke

the feathers on his hat are from Ms. Beagle! in my mind he left the farm to go adventuring on a bit of a bad note, but his mama made sure to give him a couple feathers to take with so that she'd always be close <3

he keeps his claws blunt so that he doesn't accidentally scratch people/things, and so that he can play stringed instruments without cutting the strings. while i imagine for this au he plays a wide range, he prefers Loud Handheld Instruments that allow him to sing along. so in mind he has an Accordion here! loud! jaunty! but i imagine he also keeps a recorder in his pack for when Frank needs annoying. (he did have a lute, but he broke it over someone's head in the act of defending Wally's honor)

im still trying to pin down the right balance of colors for his outfit, but! for a little au tidbit - all of his spots are the same two blues as his ears. in this im imagining that he, at a young age, learned a very basic cosmetic spell that allowed him to change his spots color to mimic Ms. Beagle's! he wanted to look like his mama! but by the time he's in his late 20s he no longer changes his spots

ohhhh i forgot to add his pockets. Oh Well

#i wanted him to look um.... Put Together? #barn strikes me as a character that likes to look a lil sophisticated in a way! #and i wanted that to come across in this fit... dont know if i succeeded #i still wanted to have Bard-ish / Barnaby Vibes #i can easily imagine him reclined by a tree absentmindedly playin his accordion... smokin... in this outfit hat tipped down over his eyes #barnaby my beloved <3 #and bardaby my beloved <3 #also ill admit!!! #that lute is traced from a real image lmfao there was no way in hell i was scribbling that thing from scratch #scribble salad #wh fantasy au #i lowkey feel bad for barnaby when he finds out about the whole warlock thing #bc hes been traveling with wally for Years #barnaby likes to think that he knows everything about his little buddy #and then wally has to be like 😬 #yeah im actually not technically a real person #also there's this 'demon' i have a pact with & also a weird kinda non-platonic Cant Be Accurately Labeled intimate relationship with #oh and i sometimes sacrifice innocent people to it in a pinch. the rest of the time we eat enemies' souls #and barnaby just has to! deal with that! like oh great! his bestie has been lying to his face since they met! #ands its been Seamless Lying! #suffice to say barnaby has a crisis #and now since wally can be more open about home #there's a sort of... pointless Rivalry for wally's attention/affection #even though barnaby definitely misjudges the situation and how home feels about wally... #oh switching gears back to the instrument thing! #in my mind barnaby also knows how to play the harp really well #and howdy's tavern has a corner for live music - which includes a permanently placed harp <3 #so i think on quiet days barnaby will go play the harp while howdy cleans glasses & the others do their own quiet things #maybe its raining outside! or Snowing! but the tavern is cozy and warm & there is beautiful music <3

[uncanny-tranny]

I just have to say that it's so weird reading how transphobes think of trans bodies as mutilated and gross when they never would have thought my body pre-transition was worthy. The "argument" of mutilated beauty that transphobes have tossed around is just a fear mongering tactic, because they don't tend to actually love or appreciate and see value in bodies that don't "neatly" fit into male and female, with no overlap and no nuances.

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #i saw so many transphobes agonizing about a trans guy who developed acne from transition... #...they were agonizing about how he ruined his skin and beauty and how *they* didn't find him attractive anymore (how sad /s) #i read that and i realized... pre-transition i had a ton of acne (it's not gotten worse at all so far) #pre-transition i had very broad shoulders (to the point i was made fun of for how i'd act because of my broadness) #pre-transition i inherented most of the traits of the males in my family... #...and if i didn't transition - if i were cis? those same transphobes would think of me just as poorly and they'd hate my body and my soul #because it isn't about 'saving people'. it's about control. it's about manipulating the human experience into two neat boxes #and that excludes people like me. it excludes intersexness and natural variation in human bodies. #transphobia #transphobia tw #like this is shit i knew ever since i first interacted with a transphobe but it to this day blows me away