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SS TIER KUUKOUS FROM THE NEW NAGOSAKA➕ CHAPTER
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where you go (i will go) — ii
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Summary: Your first encounter with the Dream Lord leaves an impression on both sides.
Pairing: Dream the Endless x f!reader
Words: 5.6k+
Notes: Holy smokes, thank you all so much for the kind response to part one! Part two is a long one, but it felt best to release it all at once. Buckle up, brochachos. I hope you all enjoy!
series masterlist // mood board // ao3
. . . 
“Pleased to meet you, stranger,
Welcome to the ending.”
- Pleased to Meet You, Between You & Me
. . . 
Part ii. 
For a moment, you think you must still be dreaming. Your eyebrows furrow as you stare up at your love, taking in the coldness in his eyes, the hard line of his mouth. You open your mouth to speak, but no breath comes. Your throat spasms, seeking air. You can feel your heartbeat raging in your throat, pounding against his fingers. 
He must feel it, too, because he grips tighter. And the foundation of your world crumbles away as you realize that this is not a dream. 
A wave of adrenaline crashes through you. Your skin is fire, nerve endings prickling like live wires. Your hands fly to his wrists, pulling desperately, clawing at the skin there. He grunts, hastily repositioning his body to sit on your chest, pressing down harder. You feel your head sink into your pillow, feel the unforgiving slab of ground beneath your sleeping pallet press against the back of your scalp. With another forceful push from him, you feel a sickening snap just under your jaw. 
And all hell breaks loose. 
At the bright burst of pain that tears through your throat, your fight or flight response roars. On instinct, your knees coil up to your chest and you kick, hard, with all your might. Your love’s hands are ripped from your throat as he is flung backward, away from the edge of your pallet. Your mouth gapes in eagerness to relieve the crushing ache within your lungs, but no relief comes. Only pain. 
You have the sinking feeling that something irreversible has occurred. Something which you will never come back from. 
A fire crackles in the hearth at your bedside. Turning toward it, you throw one hand outward, pulling yourself toward the flames, grasping for the fire iron there-
. . . 
Tap tap tap. 
You sit upright, stiff as a board. A muddled mix of vertigo and residual pain clouds your brain, and you shake your head gently to dispel it. While gods may not dabble in activities as mortal as sleeping or dreaming, even gods need time to recharge. To retreat into their own selves, sink away from the world, and simply be. You have the distinct feeling that your own rest has been prematurely interrupted. 
Glancing around the room, you find that you’re right. Night drapes your room in shadows. The clock by your bedside reads just past midnight. You only laid down an hour ago. 
Tap tap tap. Your attention turns to your bedroom window. There sits a raven, its profile pressed closely to the glass. It's dark eye blinks owlishly at you. 
With a sigh, you comb your fingers through your hair and prepare to lie back down. It had been five long days since you’d carefully penned your note requesting an audience with the Dream King. Each day that passed since your messenger dove had departed with no response in return left a heavy feeling in your stomach. It only soured with each black thread of selfish desire that you encountered in your Realm. Though you’d doubled down on your efforts to combat Desire’s meddlesome attachments in the last few days, you couldn’t rid yourself of the gnawing feeling that you were running out of time. It was exhausting. You needed rest. 
As you move to lie down, something makes you pause, though. Call it a feeling, an intuition. Your eyes shift back to the raven at your window. It’s dark eyes lock your gaze, hold it. 
“He spends all his time with - well, his librarian. And his raven.”
You approach the window slowly, perching yourself on the sill. With a resolute click, you unlock the window and slide the glass upward. The raven makes no move to flee. No, this is definitely no ordinary bird. 
“Hello,” you greet your guest quietly. You extend your arm in invitation, and the bird accepts, wrapping its talons around your forearm. You notice a cloth pouch tied to his right leg. “I don’t suppose you came here looking for breadcrumbs, did you?” 
At first, there’s silence. The raven peers at you curiously. And then- “No, but really though, do you have any food? ‘Cause I would kill for something to eat right now. Traversing the Waking World is hard wor– uh, I’m sorry. That was embarrassing.” You laugh, pulling your arm and the raven past the windowsill and into your bedroom. Although you’d expected some type of outburst, you can’t help but be slightly taken aback. It’s not every day you see a talking raven, after all. 
“Please, don’t be. To whom do I owe the pleasure of this midnight visit?” you ask kindly. 
The raven pushes his chest out proudly and dips his head with dramatic respect. “My name is Matthew, and I am the messenger raven of Dream of the Endless. I mean, if you really want to know, I’m basically his best friend, but he wasn’t much for making that an official title, so.” You chuckle at him. “And you are Agape, Deity of Love, I hope? Because it would be really unfortunate if I came and blew my cover to the wrong girl. Not that it’d necessarily be the first time that happened. Or the second.”
You smile kindly at Matthew. What a funny little guy. “You can just call me Love. You’ve come to the right place. I assume the Dream King got my message?” 
“He did. Sorry it took a few days for us to get back to you. Dream- Ah, Lord Morpheus just wanted to reach out to his sister and vet what you said. Make sure you really were who you said you were. He’s protective when it comes to the Dreaming.”
Now, that gets your attention. You can’t help but wonder what Death might have told the Dream Lord about you. Wonder what he might have even known in the first place. “That’s understandable. We want to protect the things we love. I’m kind of the deity of that. So, what says your Dream Lord?”
Matthew straightens to his full height and ruffles his feathers, a messenger preparing to deliver his news. “Your audience with Lord Morpheus has been granted, ma’am,” he declares. He dips his beak to the cloth pouch at his ankle and snips the string. You move your hand swiftly, catching the lumpy pouch in your palm. “When you’re ready, all you gotta do is use the sands in that pouch to travel to the Dreaming. Don’t worry - they know where to go.” 
“Thank you, Matthew. I appreciate you and your lordship’s hospitality. Please pass on my sincere gratitude to him. It means more to me than you’ll ever know.”
“Hey, any pal of Death’s is welcome in Dre- er, Lord Morpheus’ world,” Matthew says, fluttering his wings. You guide him back to the window, passing your arm through for him to hop out on the other side. “Will we be seeing you soon?”
You smile fondly. “I’ll let your Dream Lord do his work tonight. I’ll leave first thing in the morning.”
Matthew caws and nods his head. “We’ll see you soon, Lady Love!” he calls as he takes flight, a speck of black in the twilight.
You gaze out into the soft darkness until he disappears. Your hand closes around the pouch of sand of its own accord. “See you soon.” 
. . . 
“What do you think, Theo? Too much?” You spin away from your mirror to face him. Your soft white peplos swishes around your bare ankles, skimming your brown sandals. A crown of small red rosebuds is woven into your hair. It’s been ages since you’ve doned your official attire. As soft and roomy as the peplos is, you’re starting to think you should wear it more often. 
Theo seems to have a different opinion. Looking at your ancient garb, he cocks his head, ears drooping. You groan. “I know. Too much, isn’t it? I haven’t seen a deity in traditional attire in a century, at least. Not that I see deities much, or that there’s many of us left. It is comfortable, though.” With a wave of your hand, the peplos disappears. Instead, you lace up your canvas sneakers, shimmy into a set of fitted pants and a blouse, and throw on a blazer for formality’s sake. Theo lifts his head in recognition and satisfaction. You ruffle him between the ears. “I’m keeping the crown, though. Got it?”
You turn to your bedside table, eyes settling on the small pouch of sand there. Ever since Matthew left, you’ve been unable to stop thinking about it. You cup the pouch in the palm of your hand, feeling the sands shift and settle through the cloth. Funny how it can weigh so much more in your mind than it does in your hand. 
You turn to Theo, giving him a small, hopeful smile. “Wish me luck, buddy.” Deja vu washes over you. For the second time today, you get the feeling that something is occurring which you can’t turn back from. 
You open the pouch carefully, dipping your fingers into the sands within. They’re surprisingly soft as they brush against your fingertips. Taking a handful, you raise your palm and allow them to sift through your fingers. They spill over your hand, down to the floor, whispering against the floorboards. 
For one concerning second, nothing happens. Then, as if a breeze or a whisper has stirred them, the sands begin to scatter, swirling at your feet. The remaining sand in the pouch leaps out to join in, swirling around your ankles, knees, thighs, rising higher and higher. Small grains whip up to brush your cheeks, gaining speed. You close your eyes, shielding them against the vortex of sand twisting around you. 
You feel the exact moment that the crescendo of the winds seem to change, the moment that something shifts. Your senses alight at a crisp, fresh scent piggybacking along the winds. Salt water. You feel the soles of your shoes sink into something soft. The vortex around you dissipates. The sands return to the earth with a soft sigh. 
Nothing could prepare you for the magnificence lying in wait beyond your closed eyes. A cloud-freckled sky is draped above you, bathing Dream Country in golden sun and baby blue. The swaying sea behind you seems to touch the end of the world, interrupted only by the occasional rock formation peeking out of the waters. Beachrock crumbles into black sand, one of the most extraordinary sights you’ve ever seen. The black beach is rolled out like a tapestry, reaching as far east and west as you can see. And then there’s the sight in front of you - a towering stone wall that must stretch for miles between two mountain ranges. Two massive, ornately carved gates are set within the wall. The gate to your left features tall, curved spires that frame and surround the circular gate. Curved and pale as they are, they almost remind you of ox horns. The gate to your right appears smooth, its ivory surface gleaming in the sunlight. 
You look around, soaking in the view. And the fact that you are completely, utterly alone. 
You weren’t exactly sure what you were expecting upon your arrival in Dream Country, but a polite welcome and some directions probably would have made the list, if you’d had one. As you eye the circular gates before you, you suppose they’re as good a place to start as any. But which gate? you think. Staring at the two options before you, the ivory gate certainly looks less intimidating, what with the lack of colossal horns and all. 
Lost in thought, you almost don’t notice the shift in the air. It’s subtle, so subtle that you can’t pinpoint the moment that it emerges, only the recognition that it is suddenly there. A lingering breeze in your hair, a whisper against your skin, a stirring in your chest. You reach out your hand, feel the sensation against your fingers. Though you can’t see anything, it’s unmistakably there. Follow, it seems to say. 
And you do, feet shifting through the dark sands, trailing after the call that leads you toward the horned gate. As you draw nearer, the intricate carvings become more clear to you: Fantastical creatures, flora and fauna, detailed renditions of people and faces. The largest carvings portray a man with wild hair and a mask with a long nose, not so different from the gas masks you’ve seen on the battlefields of mortals. However, this is decidedly more ancient. You get the distinct feeling that this place has always been here, from the dawn of time. And if it belongs to an Endless, you suppose it has. 
Your hand reaches out on instinct, fingertips pressing softly against the horned gate. At your touch, the mountainous door begins to groan open. 
If you thought the beach was spectacular, you were definitely not prepared for this. Beyond the gate lies mountains and forests, a rolling blanket of green that only ends when it reaches snow-capped mountain ranges in the far distance. Pockets of villages dot the landscape, their clay tile roofs glowing a warm orange under the sun. In the center of the scene is a circular lake reflecting the sky above like a mirror. Glimmering waterfalls feed into it from all sides. At its center stands a towering silver and bronze palace. Its grooved towers shine in the sunlight, its spires reaching for the heavens like the hands of prophets.
The seasalt breeze steals your breath away, carrying it toward the palace like an offering. It’s magnificent, indescribable - truly a place of dreams. 
As you take a hesitant step through the towering gate, you find a dark-skinned woman waiting on the other side. Dressed in a purple suit with long coattails and tennis shoes, she is the pinnacle of regality and functionality. Her bespectacled eyes meet yours, and she smiles. “Welcome, Agape, Deity of Love,” she says kindly. “You’ve reached the Dreaming.” 
. . . 
The walk to the Dream Lord’s palace was long, but Lucienne made for excellent company. While this was your first diplomatic visit to another realm, you thought that there surely couldn’t be another ambassador in any plane of existence who could top Lucienne. Although she insisted she was only a librarian, she took it upon herself to relate to you the history of the Dreaming, including its recent return to glory. She guided your eyes to the location of the House of Secrets, the House of Mystery, and Fiddler’s Green. No citizen of the Dreaming was a stranger to her, and she introduced you politely to all you passed. Her love and loyalty to the Dreaming was unmatched, even palpable. It brought a smile to your face. 
As you finally pass through the palace doors, Lucienne says, “I apologize for our long journey, Agape. I can assure you, should you visit the Dreaming again, you will not have to travel all this way. All who enter the Dreaming must pass through the Gates of Horn and Ivory at least once so that their intentions may be assessed.” 
“There’s no need for an apology. And please, just call me Love,” you say in kind. After a pause, curiosity gets the better of you. “If you don’t mind me asking, what do you mean by assessed?”
Lucienne looks over her shoulder as she guides you up a set of winding staircases, climbing higher and higher. Through the palace windows, you swear you can see all of Dream Country. “Lord Morpheus carved those gates eons ago when the Dreaming was first created. Those who walk through the Gates of Ivory harbor lies and deception, but the Gates of Horn will only allow those with intentions of truth to pass through.” 
“Ah, I see.” You weren’t sure what it was that seemed to draw you toward the Gates of Horn in the first place, but whatever it was, it had been growing stronger the closer you got to the palace. With each passing step, you felt it hum more potently against your skin, the stirring in your chest strengthening into a gentle pull. Calling you somewhere. But where? 
With a gloved hand, Lucienne opens a set of oak doors before you. The enchanting scents of leather and paper flood your senses as you pass through the doorway. You find that she’s led you into some sort of library. The ceiling hovers stories above you; below it are floors and floors of walkways leading to shelves upon shelves of books. On the ground level, tall bookcases line the walls, towering ladders propped up against them to help readers reach the highest of volumes. You can see that there are spaces between some bookcases on either side of the room, giving way to yet more areas with even more books. Several wooden tables are set up down the center of the room, adorned with lamps, ink, quills, magnifying glasses and, yes, even more books. 
“This is absolutely amazing. What is this place?” you say in awe. You spin in a slow circle, trying fruitlessly to soak in the full majesty of the scene around you.
Lucienne smiles proudly, clearly pleased with your reaction. “This would be my library, ma’am,” she explains. She walks to the wall on the right, reaching her fingers out to brush the book spines affectionately. “In this library, I keep a record of every dream that has ever been dreamt. Every book that has ever been imagined, or lost, even if it was never published. I can remember the title, author, and location of each one. I am their keeper.” 
You pause in following her, trailing your fingertips along the leather cover of a book on the table next to you. Every dream ever dreamt. Could that mean that you- 
No, you cut yourself off firmly. Seeking to divert your attention, you turn to Lucienne and smile. “This is absolutely incredible, Lucienne. You know, I’m something of a librarian myself. I have a whole library in the Realm of Attachment with a book detailing the attachments of each mortal spanning past, present, and future. They serve as a record of the work I have done, and the work I have yet to do.” 
Lucienne regards you with interest, brown eyes twinkling behind her vintage eyeglasses. “Well, that is something I should quite like to see,” she says. She waves a hand, beckoning you toward a pair of colossal stained glass doors at the opposite end of the library. “Perhaps that will be an excursion for another time. For now, Lord Morpheus awaits.” 
Eyes settling on the doors that lead to the throne room, panic begins to rise in your chest. You feel as if your heart could crawl right up your throat  and run as far away from here as possible. Finally faced with the situation you’re about to walk into, you feel wholly, entirely unprepared. Perhaps this was a terrible idea. 
No, you tell yourself. You force yourself to trudge forward, taking one step, then another. You can do this. You have to fix this. And being here is your best shot. 
Lucienne seems to sense your apprehension, pausing as she places a gloved hand against one of the throne room doors. She eyes you carefully. “Are you ready, ma’am?” 
You want to spend all day in her library. You want to run away. You want to throw up. But your mouth says, “Yes.” And with a curt nod, Lucienne sweeps open the doors to the throne room. 
While all of the palace rooms have been magnificent, this is the one that steals your breath away. Your footsteps echo on the polished stone floor as you walk into the cathedral-esque room. Tall columns line the room on either side,  featuring the stone busts of characters from history’s most infamous stories. Characters born from dreams, you realize. On the far end of the room are a set of stained glass windows, three short ones, three tall ones. The tall windows are stained blue, red, and green, casting twinkling prisms throughout the room. The cathedral trusses above your head hold up a twilight sky of swirling clouds, constellations, and glimmering stars. 
And there, standing halfway up the winding staircase leading to a simple throne, is a tall, black silhouette. The Dream Lord. Though his back is to you and no introductions have been made, you know it could not be anyone else. Lucienne confirms this when she stops the two of you several feet away from the base of the stairs. “Lord Morpheus,” she calls, dipping her head in respect, “your honored guest has arrived.” 
Though he surely heard you coming, the Dream Lord only turns at Lucienne’s call. As he does, you finally observe the cold-hearted Dream King you’ve heard so many rumors about. He is the darkness of night in human form; long black coat, black shirt, black pants, black boots, dark hair that swoops over his forehead, ruffled like raven’s feathers. Like a run of ink, he bleeds into the scene around him, a stark contrast to the brightness of the throne room. The darkness only makes his other features more striking. His skin is marble, cold and pale, with facial features that could cut. His mouth is small and pink as a rosebud. If the rest of him wasn’t intimidating enough, there’s his eyes - deep as oceans, glimmering like blue crystals. No, like stars. Studying, analyzing. 
And they’re on you. 
Suddenly, you realize that while you’ve been lost in thought, he’s come to the bottom of the staircase. You get the itching feeling that you have been staring for entirely too long. Hastily, you mirror Lucienne’s stance and dip your head in respect. 
The Dream Lord takes the final step off the staircase, standing but a few feet before you. Standing so close to him, you realize that the sensation you’ve felt since you arrived in the Dreaming has been coming from here the whole time. From him. Here in his throne room, you can’t deny it. Your mind mulls over the call that greeted you, the feeling that led you here. You can’t imagine what it would feel like to hold power like that. Don’t discount yourself, you chastise. You have to be confident if this is going to work. 
“Greetings, Agape. Welcome to the land of the Dreaming.” Though he may look young, the voice that passes over the Dream Lord’s lips is decidedly ancient. It’s the crashing of a wave against a shore, a rumble of thunder in the night, the etching of a story into stone. It reverberates through the entire throne room, each word slow and deliberate. Some distant part of you recognizes it, and you suppose you should. 
Lucienne takes a few polite steps back, giving the two of you space to talk. Up above, you hear the flutter of feathers. Inclining your head, you find a very familiar raven perched on one of the stone busts above. Matthew. Vaguely comforted by a somewhat familiar presence, you turn your eyes back to the Dream King. Will yourself to hold his gaze. Be confident. 
“Greetings, Dream of the Endless. I have been known by many names - Ishtar, Inanna, Freya, Aphrodite, Venus, Parvati, Agape. You can simply call me Love. It is much simpler that way.” Feeling your nerves settle slightly with introductions out of the way, you give him a small smile. “Thank you for your hospitality and for granting me an audience on such short notice.” 
The Dream Lord dips his head slightly in acknowledgement. His eyes don’t stray from your face; they remain affixed there, studying thoughtfully. “Of course. A companion of my sister’s is welcome here in the Dreaming. Admittedly, I did not know whether to believe you when you stated as such in your letter. However, a visit with my sister remedied that quite effectively.”
There it is again, that gnawing curiosity as to what Death told him about you. It pokes and prods incessantly at the back of your mind. This time, you can’t resist it, saying, “If you don’t mind me asking, what did your sister share about me, Dream Lord?” 
Dream of the Endless inclines his chin, eyeing you with interest. Though his face is impassive, his eyes seem to challenge you. “Inquiring about the affairs of Endless when we’ve only just met? It is bold of you to assume I might share the details of intimate conversations with my sister with a stranger.”
Oh, now that response gets your attention. While intimidation is something you tend to shrink away from, a challenge is something you are more than happy to work with. “On the contrary, Dream Lord, I think I should be privy to information that involves my character,” you challenge, diplomacy slipping a bit. As you step out of your ambassador facade and more into your true self, your confidence grows. “Or does Dream of the Endless keep his gossip to himself?” You quirk an eyebrow at him. 
The Dream Lord pauses, watching you for a long moment. Perhaps to see if you’ll squirm. Just when you think you might’ve made a terrible mistake, he blinks, responding, “She refrained from sharing all the details of your history and circumstance. I should like to learn of those directly from you.” With a long glance, he turns toward the stained glass windows, clasping his hands behind his back. “What she did share is that you were once a mortal whom my brother, Destiny, deemed worthy of becoming a goddess. And that now my sibling, Desire, threatens the stability of your realm and your conditional divinity with their meddling. Which has brought you here, to me.” 
And there it was - your secret, laid bare in the light of the throne room. Above your head, Matthew ruffles his wings, clearly intrigued by this turn of events. You don’t turn to gauge Lucienne’s reaction. If there is anyone other than the Dream Lord who knows the truth, you figure it would be her. You inhale deeply, calming your unsettled nerves. You’d come this far; it wasn’t time to back down now. 
“You are correct, Dream Lord. I was once a mortal, until your brother and sister made me what I am today,” you say quietly. Building courage, your voice grows louder, “While I may not be Endless, my love and loyalty to my Realm knows no bounds. I will do whatever I have to in order to maintain balance between selfish desire and selfless love, for the good of my people. Your sibling, Desire, and I have been at odds for a long time. As they grow bolder, I’m afraid it’s becoming harder to outrun them.” You lick your lips, pondering your next choice of words. With a deep breath, you continue carefully, “I know that they have meddled in your affairs, too, as of late. As long as their ambition for mischief continues to grow, both of our Realms are at stake. That is why I am here, asking for your help.” You swallow thickly. “I have a proposition for you.” 
For a long moment, the Dream Lord says nothing. No one in the throne room dares to breathe. Though he does not turn around, Dream of the Endless does incline his head toward you slightly. “Go on,” he murmurs. 
You take a few bold steps forward, seeking his face. Seeking to convey just how much this means to you. “I propose that we form a partnership. Your sibling is taking a particular interest in interfering with my eros and philia attachments - romantic and soul ties. I believe that we could work together to combat this. If you supply the dreamscape, I can supply the subject matter. If we place their romantic partners and soul ties in their dreams, perhaps when mortals encounter them in the Waking World, they will be more likely to resist Desire’s temptations and fulfill the attachment.”
No response registers on the Dream Lord’s face. His eyes remain affixed on the stained glass windows above you. They cast his alabaster skin in shades of crimson, crystal, and emerald. After several quiet minutes, his eyes meet yours. “And what do I stand to gain from this proposition of yours?”
“A little work taken off your own plate. With me worrying about the subject matter, you will have fewer dreams to conjure up. And with their dreams seemingly coming true in the Waking World, mortals will be all the more eager to see what happens next in their dreams. The Dreaming will grow in power.” 
Another pause. “And if I decline your proposition?”
Your breath hitches. Your mouth tightens into a hard line. You have no response for that one. 
Dream of the Endless nods, your lack of response seemingly all the answer he needs. Slowly, he stalks toward the staircase leading to his throne, sitting down on one of the lower steps. His long coat spills around him like a shadow. His crystalline eyes fix on yours, holding your gaze. After several still moments, he finally replies, “While your proposition is intriguing, Agape,” you flinch slightly at the continued use of your formal title, “I am afraid I will have to decline. While Desire has been a thorn in my side as of late, I do not wish to sour the blood between myself and my siblings. In addition, my attention to the Dreaming has been divided for too long. Now that I’ve returned, my own Realm requires my full attention.” 
A tingling sensation passes through you as you try to process this news, radiating from your core to the tips of your fingers. Numbness is left in its wake. Your stomach shifts, suddenly nauseous. The throne room and your company within it feel incredibly far away.  This can’t be happening. In the distance, you think you hear the Dream Lord ask Lucienne to escort you away. This can’t be happening.
A gentle hand touches your shoulder, and you recoil instinctively. When you turn, you find it’s just Lucienne, eyeing you solemnly. Up above, you hear Matthew let out a startled caw, swooping down to land on the staircase beside the Dream Lord. “Hey, boss, don’t you think-” 
“Come, ma’am,” Lucienne says quietly, her kind eyes conveying a silent apology. “Allow me to escort you out of the Dreaming.” 
Your hands fist at your sides. No. 
All eyes in the throne room turn to you. You blink, startled. You hadn’t realized that you’d said it aloud. But now that you had, there was no turning back. Dream of the Endless rises slowly, methodically. Shadows sweep down from his feet, crawling toward you. “No?” he says, the indignance in his voice thinly veiled. You can feel him in the air, his powerful presence angry and oppressive, pushing in toward you. His bright eyes darken to lone stars within two pools of space. “You presume to tell me what I can and can’t do in my own-” 
“No, Lord Morpheus,” you say hastily, lifting your hands in apology. At your change of title and tone, the shadows halt their approach. “I would never. You have been so gracious to welcome me here for an audience. I want to offer you an invitation in return.” You pause, licking your lips. While his shadows have ceased, the fire in his eyes has not snuffed out. You know you must choose your words carefully. “Please, visit me in my Realm. The Realm of Attachment. I can show you my function, what I do, how I do it. I can show you what I have to offer mortals, what I have to offer you. Please. And then decide whether you want to decline my proposition.” 
You’re unsure of exactly how much time passes. It could be merely a second, it could be hours. You hold careful eye contact with Lord Morpheus as he absorbs, processes, ponders. You don’t dare breathe as he studies you. 
And finally, he nods. The shadows retreat back into his coat. The darkness dissipates from his eyes. The air around you lightens. “Very well, Love. You have intrigued me.” Your heart is hammering so loudly in your ears that you barely notice his change of your title. “I shall accompany you to your Realm of Attachment, after which time I will pass judgment on your proposal.” 
You breathe in deeply, relief washing through you. You turn to Lucienne, whose brown eyes regard you with surprise. Too elated to read into her expression, you turn back to the Dream Lord. “Thank you, Lord Morpheus. I cannot begin to tell you how much this means to me.” You grin brilliantly at him. “When should I expect you?” 
At that, the Dream Lord gives no response. Instead, he reaches into the pocket of his long coat, revealing a palmful of sand. Though his expression remains stoic, you swear there is a tiny twinkle in his eye as he brings the sand to his lips and blows. Like a tidal wave, the sands sweep over you. You shield your eyes behind the sleeve of your blazer. 
When you open them, you are no longer in the throne room. Instead, you’re back in the Waking World, standing in your bedroom with sand in your hair. Theo’s head perks up from his spot on your bed, his dark eyes looking at you expectantly. 
You pause, processing what just happened to you. One beat. Two. You groan. “Son of a-” 
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where you go (i will go) — ii
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Summary: Your first encounter with the Dream Lord leaves an impression on both sides.
Pairing: Dream the Endless x f!reader
Words: 5.6k+
AN: Originally posted to my other account, @alittlepunkrock, I'm not uploading to my second blog because my main is having some issues. RIP. We're looking at a good 15-20 parter, so I hope you all will come along on this journey with me. I hope you all enjoy!
series masterlist // mood board // ao3
. . . 
“Pleased to meet you, stranger,
Welcome to the ending.”
- Pleased to Meet You, Between You & Me
. . . 
Part ii. 
For a moment, you think you must still be dreaming. Your eyebrows furrow as you stare up at your love, taking in the coldness in his eyes, the hard line of his mouth. You open your mouth to speak, but no breath comes. Your throat spasms, seeking air. You can feel your heartbeat raging in your throat, pounding against his fingers. 
He must feel it, too, because he grips tighter. And the foundation of your world crumbles away as you realize that this is not a dream. 
A wave of adrenaline crashes through you. Your skin is fire, nerve endings prickling like live wires. Your hands fly to his wrists, pulling desperately, clawing at the skin there. He grunts, hastily repositioning his body to sit on your chest, pressing down harder. You feel your head sink into your pillow, feel the unforgiving slab of ground beneath your sleeping pallet press against the back of your scalp. With another forceful push from him, you feel a sickening snap just under your jaw. 
And all hell breaks loose. 
At the bright burst of pain that tears through your throat, your fight or flight response roars. On instinct, your knees coil up to your chest and you kick, hard, with all your might. Your love’s hands are ripped from your throat as he is flung backward, away from the edge of your pallet. Your mouth gapes in eagerness to relieve the crushing ache within your lungs, but no relief comes. Only pain. 
You have the sinking feeling that something irreversible has occurred. Something which you will never come back from. 
A fire crackles in the hearth at your bedside. Turning toward it, you throw one hand outward, pulling yourself toward the flames, grasping for the fire iron there-
. . . 
Tap tap tap. 
You sit upright, stiff as a board. A muddled mix of vertigo and residual pain clouds your brain, and you shake your head gently to dispel it. While gods may not dabble in activities as mortal as sleeping or dreaming, even gods need time to recharge. To retreat into their own selves, sink away from the world, and simply be. You have the distinct feeling that your own rest has been prematurely interrupted. 
Glancing around the room, you find that you’re right. Night drapes your room in shadows. The clock by your bedside reads just past midnight. You only laid down an hour ago. 
Tap tap tap. Your attention turns to your bedroom window. There sits a raven, its profile pressed closely to the glass. It's dark eye blinks owlishly at you. 
With a sigh, you comb your fingers through your hair and prepare to lie back down. It had been five long days since you’d carefully penned your note requesting an audience with the Dream King. Each day that passed since your messenger dove had departed with no response in return left a heavy feeling in your stomach. It only soured with each black thread of selfish desire that you encountered in your Realm. Though you’d doubled down on your efforts to combat Desire’s meddlesome attachments in the last few days, you couldn’t rid yourself of the gnawing feeling that you were running out of time. It was exhausting. You needed rest. 
As you move to lie down, something makes you pause, though. Call it a feeling, an intuition. Your eyes shift back to the raven at your window. It’s dark eyes lock your gaze, hold it. 
“He spends all his time with - well, his librarian. And his raven.”
You approach the window slowly, perching yourself on the sill. With a resolute click, you unlock the window and slide the glass upward. The raven makes no move to flee. No, this is definitely no ordinary bird. 
“Hello,” you greet your guest quietly. You extend your arm in invitation, and the bird accepts, wrapping its talons around your forearm. You notice a cloth pouch tied to his right leg. “I don’t suppose you came here looking for breadcrumbs, did you?” 
At first, there’s silence. The raven peers at you curiously. And then- “No, but really though, do you have any food? ‘Cause I would kill for something to eat right now. Traversing the Waking World is hard wor– uh, I’m sorry. That was embarrassing.” You laugh, pulling your arm and the raven past the windowsill and into your bedroom. Although you’d expected some type of outburst, you can’t help but be slightly taken aback. It’s not every day you see a talking raven, after all. 
“Please, don’t be. To whom do I owe the pleasure of this midnight visit?” you ask kindly. 
The raven pushes his chest out proudly and dips his head with dramatic respect. “My name is Matthew, and I am the messenger raven of Dream of the Endless. I mean, if you really want to know, I’m basically his best friend, but he wasn’t much for making that an official title, so.” You chuckle at him. “And you are Agape, Deity of Love, I hope? Because it would be really unfortunate if I came and blew my cover to the wrong girl. Not that it’d necessarily be the first time that happened. Or the second.”
You smile kindly at Matthew. What a funny little guy. “You can just call me Love. You’ve come to the right place. I assume the Dream King got my message?” 
“He did. Sorry it took a few days for us to get back to you. Dream- Ah, Lord Morpheus just wanted to reach out to his sister and vet what you said. Make sure you really were who you said you were. He’s protective when it comes to the Dreaming.”
Now, that gets your attention. You can’t help but wonder what Death might have told the Dream Lord about you. Wonder what he might have even known in the first place. “That’s understandable. We want to protect the things we love. I’m kind of the deity of that. So, what says your Dream Lord?”
Matthew straightens to his full height and ruffles his feathers, a messenger preparing to deliver his news. “Your audience with Lord Morpheus has been granted, ma’am,” he declares. He dips his beak to the cloth pouch at his ankle and snips the string. You move your hand swiftly, catching the lumpy pouch in your palm. “When you’re ready, all you gotta do is use the sands in that pouch to travel to the Dreaming. Don’t worry - they know where to go.” 
“Thank you, Matthew. I appreciate you and your lordship’s hospitality. Please pass on my sincere gratitude to him. It means more to me than you’ll ever know.”
“Hey, any pal of Death’s is welcome in Dre- er, Lord Morpheus’ world,” Matthew says, fluttering his wings. You guide him back to the window, passing your arm through for him to hop out on the other side. “Will we be seeing you soon?”
You smile fondly. “I’ll let your Dream Lord do his work tonight. I’ll leave first thing in the morning.”
Matthew caws and nods his head. “We’ll see you soon, Lady Love!” he calls as he takes flight, a speck of black in the twilight.
You gaze out into the soft darkness until he disappears. Your hand closes around the pouch of sand of its own accord. “See you soon.” 
. . . 
“What do you think, Theo? Too much?” You spin away from your mirror to face him. Your soft white peplos swishes around your bare ankles, skimming your brown sandals. A crown of small red rosebuds is woven into your hair. It’s been ages since you’ve doned your official attire. As soft and roomy as the peplos is, you’re starting to think you should wear it more often. 
Theo seems to have a different opinion. Looking at your ancient garb, he cocks his head, ears drooping. You groan. “I know. Too much, isn’t it? I haven’t seen a deity in traditional attire in a century, at least. Not that I see deities much, or that there’s many of us left. It is comfortable, though.” With a wave of your hand, the peplos disappears. Instead, you lace up your canvas sneakers, shimmy into a set of fitted pants and a blouse, and throw on a blazer for formality’s sake. Theo lifts his head in recognition and satisfaction. You ruffle him between the ears. “I’m keeping the crown, though. Got it?”
You turn to your bedside table, eyes settling on the small pouch of sand there. Ever since Matthew left, you’ve been unable to stop thinking about it. You cup the pouch in the palm of your hand, feeling the sands shift and settle through the cloth. Funny how it can weigh so much more in your mind than it does in your hand. 
You turn to Theo, giving him a small, hopeful smile. “Wish me luck, buddy.” Deja vu washes over you. For the second time today, you get the feeling that something is occurring which you can’t turn back from. 
You open the pouch carefully, dipping your fingers into the sands within. They’re surprisingly soft as they brush against your fingertips. Taking a handful, you raise your palm and allow them to sift through your fingers. They spill over your hand, down to the floor, whispering against the floorboards. 
For one concerning second, nothing happens. Then, as if a breeze or a whisper has stirred them, the sands begin to scatter, swirling at your feet. The remaining sand in the pouch leaps out to join in, swirling around your ankles, knees, thighs, rising higher and higher. Small grains whip up to brush your cheeks, gaining speed. You close your eyes, shielding them against the vortex of sand twisting around you. 
You feel the exact moment that the crescendo of the winds seem to change, the moment that something shifts. Your senses alight at a crisp, fresh scent piggybacking along the winds. Salt water. You feel the soles of your shoes sink into something soft. The vortex around you dissipates. The sands return to the earth with a soft sigh. 
Nothing could prepare you for the magnificence lying in wait beyond your closed eyes. A cloud-freckled sky is draped above you, bathing Dream Country in golden sun and baby blue. The swaying sea behind you seems to touch the end of the world, interrupted only by the occasional rock formation peeking out of the waters. Beachrock crumbles into black sand, one of the most extraordinary sights you’ve ever seen. The black beach is rolled out like a tapestry, reaching as far east and west as you can see. And then there’s the sight in front of you - a towering stone wall that must stretch for miles between two mountain ranges. Two massive, ornately carved gates are set within the wall. The gate to your left features tall, curved spires that frame and surround the circular gate. Curved and pale as they are, they almost remind you of ox horns. The gate to your right appears smooth, its ivory surface gleaming in the sunlight. 
You look around, soaking in the view. And the fact that you are completely, utterly alone. 
You weren’t exactly sure what you were expecting upon your arrival in Dream Country, but a polite welcome and some directions probably would have made the list, if you’d had one. As you eye the circular gates before you, you suppose they’re as good a place to start as any. But which gate? you think. Staring at the two options before you, the ivory gate certainly looks less intimidating, what with the lack of colossal horns and all. 
Lost in thought, you almost don’t notice the shift in the air. It’s subtle, so subtle that you can’t pinpoint the moment that it emerges, only the recognition that it is suddenly there. A lingering breeze in your hair, a whisper against your skin, a stirring in your chest. You reach out your hand, feel the sensation against your fingers. Though you can’t see anything, it’s unmistakably there. Follow, it seems to say. 
And you do, feet shifting through the dark sands, trailing after the call that leads you toward the horned gate. As you draw nearer, the intricate carvings become more clear to you: Fantastical creatures, flora and fauna, detailed renditions of people and faces. The largest carvings portray a man with wild hair and a mask with a long nose, not so different from the gas masks you’ve seen on the battlefields of mortals. However, this is decidedly more ancient. You get the distinct feeling that this place has always been here, from the dawn of time. And if it belongs to an Endless, you suppose it has. 
Your hand reaches out on instinct, fingertips pressing softly against the horned gate. At your touch, the mountainous door begins to groan open. 
If you thought the beach was spectacular, you were definitely not prepared for this. Beyond the gate lies mountains and forests, a rolling blanket of green that only ends when it reaches snow-capped mountain ranges in the far distance. Pockets of villages dot the landscape, their clay tile roofs glowing a warm orange under the sun. In the center of the scene is a circular lake reflecting the sky above like a mirror. Glimmering waterfalls feed into it from all sides. At its center stands a towering silver and bronze palace. Its grooved towers shine in the sunlight, its spires reaching for the heavens like the hands of prophets.
The seasalt breeze steals your breath away, carrying it toward the palace like an offering. It’s magnificent, indescribable - truly a place of dreams. 
As you take a hesitant step through the towering gate, you find a dark-skinned woman waiting on the other side. Dressed in a purple suit with long coattails and tennis shoes, she is the pinnacle of regality and functionality. Her bespectacled eyes meet yours, and she smiles. “Welcome, Agape, Deity of Love,” she says kindly. “You’ve reached the Dreaming.” 
. . . 
The walk to the Dream Lord’s palace was long, but Lucienne made for excellent company. While this was your first diplomatic visit to another realm, you thought that there surely couldn’t be another ambassador in any plane of existence who could top Lucienne. Although she insisted she was only a librarian, she took it upon herself to relate to you the history of the Dreaming, including its recent return to glory. She guided your eyes to the location of the House of Secrets, the House of Mystery, and Fiddler’s Green. No citizen of the Dreaming was a stranger to her, and she introduced you politely to all you passed. Her love and loyalty to the Dreaming was unmatched, even palpable. It brought a smile to your face. 
As you finally pass through the palace doors, Lucienne says, “I apologize for our long journey, Agape. I can assure you, should you visit the Dreaming again, you will not have to travel all this way. All who enter the Dreaming must pass through the Gates of Horn and Ivory at least once so that their intentions may be assessed.” 
“There’s no need for an apology. And please, just call me Love,” you say in kind. After a pause, curiosity gets the better of you. “If you don’t mind me asking, what do you mean by assessed?”
Lucienne looks over her shoulder as she guides you up a set of winding staircases, climbing higher and higher. Through the palace windows, you swear you can see all of Dream Country. “Lord Morpheus carved those gates eons ago when the Dreaming was first created. Those who walk through the Gates of Ivory harbor lies and deception, but the Gates of Horn will only allow those with intentions of truth to pass through.” 
“Ah, I see.” You weren’t sure what it was that seemed to draw you toward the Gates of Horn in the first place, but whatever it was, it had been growing stronger the closer you got to the palace. With each passing step, you felt it hum more potently against your skin, the stirring in your chest strengthening into a gentle pull. Calling you somewhere. But where? 
With a gloved hand, Lucienne opens a set of oak doors before you. The enchanting scents of leather and paper flood your senses as you pass through the doorway. You find that she’s led you into some sort of library. The ceiling hovers stories above you; below it are floors and floors of walkways leading to shelves upon shelves of books. On the ground level, tall bookcases line the walls, towering ladders propped up against them to help readers reach the highest of volumes. You can see that there are spaces between some bookcases on either side of the room, giving way to yet more areas with even more books. Several wooden tables are set up down the center of the room, adorned with lamps, ink, quills, magnifying glasses and, yes, even more books. 
“This is absolutely amazing. What is this place?” you say in awe. You spin in a slow circle, trying fruitlessly to soak in the full majesty of the scene around you.
Lucienne smiles proudly, clearly pleased with your reaction. “This would be my library, ma’am,” she explains. She walks to the wall on the right, reaching her fingers out to brush the book spines affectionately. “In this library, I keep a record of every dream that has ever been dreamt. Every book that has ever been imagined, or lost, even if it was never published. I can remember the title, author, and location of each one. I am their keeper.” 
You pause in following her, trailing your fingertips along the leather cover of a book on the table next to you. Every dream ever dreamt. Could that mean that you- 
No, you cut yourself off firmly. Seeking to divert your attention, you turn to Lucienne and smile. “This is absolutely incredible, Lucienne. You know, I’m something of a librarian myself. I have a whole library in the Realm of Attachment with a book detailing the attachments of each mortal spanning past, present, and future. They serve as a record of the work I have done, and the work I have yet to do.” 
Lucienne regards you with interest, brown eyes twinkling behind her vintage eyeglasses. “Well, that is something I should quite like to see,” she says. She waves a hand, beckoning you toward a pair of colossal stained glass doors at the opposite end of the library. “Perhaps that will be an excursion for another time. For now, Lord Morpheus awaits.” 
Eyes settling on the doors that lead to the throne room, panic begins to rise in your chest. You feel as if your heart could crawl right up your throat  and run as far away from here as possible. Finally faced with the situation you’re about to walk into, you feel wholly, entirely unprepared. Perhaps this was a terrible idea. 
No, you tell yourself. You force yourself to trudge forward, taking one step, then another. You can do this. You have to fix this. And being here is your best shot. 
Lucienne seems to sense your apprehension, pausing as she places a gloved hand against one of the throne room doors. She eyes you carefully. “Are you ready, ma’am?” 
You want to spend all day in her library. You want to run away. You want to throw up. But your mouth says, “Yes.” And with a curt nod, Lucienne sweeps open the doors to the throne room. 
While all of the palace rooms have been magnificent, this is the one that steals your breath away. Your footsteps echo on the polished stone floor as you walk into the cathedral-esque room. Tall columns line the room on either side,  featuring the stone busts of characters from history’s most infamous stories. Characters born from dreams, you realize. On the far end of the room are a set of stained glass windows, three short ones, three tall ones. The tall windows are stained blue, red, and green, casting twinkling prisms throughout the room. The cathedral trusses above your head hold up a twilight sky of swirling clouds, constellations, and glimmering stars. 
And there, standing halfway up the winding staircase leading to a simple throne, is a tall, black silhouette. The Dream Lord. Though his back is to you and no introductions have been made, you know it could not be anyone else. Lucienne confirms this when she stops the two of you several feet away from the base of the stairs. “Lord Morpheus,” she calls, dipping her head in respect, “your honored guest has arrived.” 
Though he surely heard you coming, the Dream Lord only turns at Lucienne’s call. As he does, you finally observe the cold-hearted Dream King you’ve heard so many rumors about. He is the darkness of night in human form; long black coat, black shirt, black pants, black boots, dark hair that swoops over his forehead, ruffled like raven’s feathers. Like a run of ink, he bleeds into the scene around him, a stark contrast to the brightness of the throne room. The darkness only makes his other features more striking. His skin is marble, cold and pale, with facial features that could cut. His mouth is small and pink as a rosebud. If the rest of him wasn’t intimidating enough, there’s his eyes - deep as oceans, glimmering like blue crystals. No, like stars. Studying, analyzing. 
And they’re on you. 
Suddenly, you realize that while you’ve been lost in thought, he’s come to the bottom of the staircase. You get the itching feeling that you have been staring for entirely too long. Hastily, you mirror Lucienne’s stance and dip your head in respect. 
The Dream Lord takes the final step off the staircase, standing but a few feet before you. Standing so close to him, you realize that the sensation you’ve felt since you arrived in the Dreaming has been coming from here the whole time. From him. Here in his throne room, you can’t deny it. Your mind mulls over the call that greeted you, the feeling that led you here. You can’t imagine what it would feel like to hold power like that. Don’t discount yourself, you chastise. You have to be confident if this is going to work. 
“Greetings, Agape. Welcome to the land of the Dreaming.” Though he may look young, the voice that passes over the Dream Lord’s lips is decidedly ancient. It’s the crashing of a wave against a shore, a rumble of thunder in the night, the etching of a story into stone. It reverberates through the entire throne room, each word slow and deliberate. Some distant part of you recognizes it, and you suppose you should. 
Lucienne takes a few polite steps back, giving the two of you space to talk. Up above, you hear the flutter of feathers. Inclining your head, you find a very familiar raven perched on one of the stone busts above. Matthew. Vaguely comforted by a somewhat familiar presence, you turn your eyes back to the Dream King. Will yourself to hold his gaze. Be confident. 
“Greetings, Dream of the Endless. I have been known by many names - Ishtar, Inanna, Freya, Aphrodite, Venus, Parvati, Agape. You can simply call me Love. It is much simpler that way.” Feeling your nerves settle slightly with introductions out of the way, you give him a small smile. “Thank you for your hospitality and for granting me an audience on such short notice.” 
The Dream Lord dips his head slightly in acknowledgement. His eyes don’t stray from your face; they remain affixed there, studying thoughtfully. “Of course. A companion of my sister’s is welcome here in the Dreaming. Admittedly, I did not know whether to believe you when you stated as such in your letter. However, a visit with my sister remedied that quite effectively.”
There it is again, that gnawing curiosity as to what Death told him about you. It pokes and prods incessantly at the back of your mind. This time, you can’t resist it, saying, “If you don’t mind me asking, what did your sister share about me, Dream Lord?” 
Dream of the Endless inclines his chin, eyeing you with interest. Though his face is impassive, his eyes seem to challenge you. “Inquiring about the affairs of Endless when we’ve only just met? It is bold of you to assume I might share the details of intimate conversations with my sister with a stranger.”
Oh, now that response gets your attention. While intimidation is something you tend to shrink away from, a challenge is something you are more than happy to work with. “On the contrary, Dream Lord, I think I should be privy to information that involves my character,” you challenge, diplomacy slipping a bit. As you step out of your ambassador facade and more into your true self, your confidence grows. “Or does Dream of the Endless keep his gossip to himself?” You quirk an eyebrow at him. 
The Dream Lord pauses, watching you for a long moment. Perhaps to see if you’ll squirm. Just when you think you might’ve made a terrible mistake, he blinks, responding, “She refrained from sharing all the details of your history and circumstance. I should like to learn of those directly from you.” With a long glance, he turns toward the stained glass windows, clasping his hands behind his back. “What she did share is that you were once a mortal whom my brother, Destiny, deemed worthy of becoming a goddess. And that now my sibling, Desire, threatens the stability of your realm and your conditional divinity with their meddling. Which has brought you here, to me.” 
And there it was - your secret, laid bare in the light of the throne room. Above your head, Matthew ruffles his wings, clearly intrigued by this turn of events. You don’t turn to gauge Lucienne’s reaction. If there is anyone other than the Dream Lord who knows the truth, you figure it would be her. You inhale deeply, calming your unsettled nerves. You’d come this far; it wasn’t time to back down now. 
“You are correct, Dream Lord. I was once a mortal, until your brother and sister made me what I am today,” you say quietly. Building courage, your voice grows louder, “While I may not be Endless, my love and loyalty to my Realm knows no bounds. I will do whatever I have to in order to maintain balance between selfish desire and selfless love, for the good of my people. Your sibling, Desire, and I have been at odds for a long time. As they grow bolder, I’m afraid it’s becoming harder to outrun them.” You lick your lips, pondering your next choice of words. With a deep breath, you continue carefully, “I know that they have meddled in your affairs, too, as of late. As long as their ambition for mischief continues to grow, both of our Realms are at stake. That is why I am here, asking for your help.” You swallow thickly. “I have a proposition for you.” 
For a long moment, the Dream Lord says nothing. No one in the throne room dares to breathe. Though he does not turn around, Dream of the Endless does incline his head toward you slightly. “Go on,” he murmurs. 
You take a few bold steps forward, seeking his face. Seeking to convey just how much this means to you. “I propose that we form a partnership. Your sibling is taking a particular interest in interfering with my eros and philia attachments - romantic and soul ties. I believe that we could work together to combat this. If you supply the dreamscape, I can supply the subject matter. If we place their romantic partners and soul ties in their dreams, perhaps when mortals encounter them in the Waking World, they will be more likely to resist Desire’s temptations and fulfill the attachment.”
No response registers on the Dream Lord’s face. His eyes remain affixed on the stained glass windows above you. They cast his alabaster skin in shades of crimson, crystal, and emerald. After several quiet minutes, his eyes meet yours. “And what do I stand to gain from this proposition of yours?”
“A little work taken off your own plate. With me worrying about the subject matter, you will have fewer dreams to conjure up. And with their dreams seemingly coming true in the Waking World, mortals will be all the more eager to see what happens next in their dreams. The Dreaming will grow in power.” 
Another pause. “And if I decline your proposition?”
Your breath hitches. Your mouth tightens into a hard line. You have no response for that one. 
Dream of the Endless nods, your lack of response seemingly all the answer he needs. Slowly, he stalks toward the staircase leading to his throne, sitting down on one of the lower steps. His long coat spills around him like a shadow. His crystalline eyes fix on yours, holding your gaze. After several still moments, he finally replies, “While your proposition is intriguing, Agape,” you flinch slightly at the continued use of your formal title, “I am afraid I will have to decline. While Desire has been a thorn in my side as of late, I do not wish to sour the blood between myself and my siblings. In addition, my attention to the Dreaming has been divided for too long. Now that I’ve returned, my own Realm requires my full attention.” 
A tingling sensation passes through you as you try to process this news, radiating from your core to the tips of your fingers. Numbness is left in its wake. Your stomach shifts, suddenly nauseous. The throne room and your company within it feel incredibly far away.  This can’t be happening. In the distance, you think you hear the Dream Lord ask Lucienne to escort you away. This can’t be happening.
A gentle hand touches your shoulder, and you recoil instinctively. When you turn, you find it’s just Lucienne, eyeing you solemnly. Up above, you hear Matthew let out a startled caw, swooping down to land on the staircase beside the Dream Lord. “Hey, boss, don’t you think-” 
“Come, ma’am,” Lucienne says quietly, her kind eyes conveying a silent apology. “Allow me to escort you out of the Dreaming.” 
Your hands fist at your sides. No. 
All eyes in the throne room turn to you. You blink, startled. You hadn’t realized that you’d said it aloud. But now that you had, there was no turning back. Dream of the Endless rises slowly, methodically. Shadows sweep down from his feet, crawling toward you. “No?” he says, the indignance in his voice thinly veiled. You can feel him in the air, his powerful presence angry and oppressive, pushing in toward you. His bright eyes darken to lone stars within two pools of space. “You presume to tell me what I can and can’t do in my own-” 
“No, Lord Morpheus,” you say hastily, lifting your hands in apology. At your change of title and tone, the shadows halt their approach. “I would never. You have been so gracious to welcome me here for an audience. I want to offer you an invitation in return.” You pause, licking your lips. While his shadows have ceased, the fire in his eyes has not snuffed out. You know you must choose your words carefully. “Please, visit me in my Realm. The Realm of Attachment. I can show you my function, what I do, how I do it. I can show you what I have to offer mortals, what I have to offer you. Please. And then decide whether you want to decline my proposition.” 
You’re unsure of exactly how much time passes. It could be merely a second, it could be hours. You hold careful eye contact with Lord Morpheus as he absorbs, processes, ponders. You don’t dare breathe as he studies you. 
And finally, he nods. The shadows retreat back into his coat. The darkness dissipates from his eyes. The air around you lightens. “Very well, Love. You have intrigued me.” Your heart is hammering so loudly in your ears that you barely notice his change of your title. “I shall accompany you to your Realm of Attachment, after which time I will pass judgment on your proposal.” 
You breathe in deeply, relief washing through you. You turn to Lucienne, whose brown eyes regard you with surprise. Too elated to read into her expression, you turn back to the Dream Lord. “Thank you, Lord Morpheus. I cannot begin to tell you how much this means to me.” You grin brilliantly at him. “When should I expect you?” 
At that, the Dream Lord gives no response. Instead, he reaches into the pocket of his long coat, revealing a palmful of sand. Though his expression remains stoic, you swear there is a tiny twinkle in his eye as he brings the sand to his lips and blows. Like a tidal wave, the sands sweep over you. You shield your eyes behind the sleeve of your blazer. 
When you open them, you are no longer in the throne room. Instead, you’re back in the Waking World, standing in your bedroom with sand in your hair. Theo’s head perks up from his spot on your bed, his dark eyes looking at you expectantly. 
You pause, processing what just happened to you. One beat. Two. You groan. “Son of a-” 
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Snow Day | Helmut Zemo x m!reader
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summary: you and Zemo get to spend the day together, only it's the weather that makes you actually have a plan for the day.
tws: swearing, smoking, mentions of violence
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Snow was coming down thick and heavy, blanketing the outside the same way that a duvet would, completely covering and swallowing everything it touched; it was early, the clock hardly touching seven o'clock in the morning, and already Zemo could feel the bed beside him was cold and barren, and the smell of coffee was hard to ignore as he dragged himself out of bed.
The clouds were a thick grey, almost black as they clung to the pale grey coloured skies; the wind howled against the window frames and the doors, begging to be let inside, and the ice made everything so slick that even pigeons couldn't cling to the branches of densely covered trees. Zemo sighed when he saw you in the kitchen, standing in front of a white canvas; he tilted his head to the side as he let out a yawn.
His hair, usually so neat and so tidy, often slicked and combed so that every single strand would sit properly, was messy; sticking up this way and that way, ruffled and unkempt. A reminder of what had happened the previous night, as well as how he had tossed and turned in his sleep every time you broke the way that he held you so tightly; bags under his dark brown eyes, and even worse, his scruff was starting to grow out again.
The chill of the air was the first thing to hit his bare chest, making his breath hitch as he clenched his jaw slightly; it crept down to his bare legs, nearly gracing the waistband of his boxers as he wished that he had thought twice and had put his dressing gown on. Or brought the duvet with him.
"Mein Bärchen?"
You hummed as you looked at him, a smile coming to your lips as you gestured for him to stand next to you. "It's snowing."
"I can see that."
"I'm just thinking," you started, "the last time we were together when it snowed, when we spent all day watching horror films, all snuggled up."
He nodded slowly, his hand coming to the small of your back as he dared to flash you a tired smile, doing his best not to yawn and not to shiver. Fuck, you were so warm. All wrapped up in his hoodie, a pair of thick and soft pyjama bottoms, fuzzy socks; he wished he had thought of that.
"And you want to do it again?"
You nodded, daring to meet his gaze as you raised your brows a little bit. So fucking hopeful that he worried it would almost kill you. "Please? If you're not busy helping Captain America, that is."
Zemo scoffed, shaking his head as he let out a quiet hum, dipping his hand under your hoodie and grumbling at how warm you felt against him. "I think we could probably arrange it."
"Really?"
"NatĂźrlich," he shrugged. "Anything for mein geliebter... mein Mann."
You wanted to roll your eyes, but you were too tired to do so as you broke away from him, forcing a sigh from the back of his throat as he shook his head and took a seat at the breakfast bar; it was his turn to pose in front of the white canvas this time, and before he could say anything, you were already taking a picture on your phone, making him smile as he wondered what could possibly go wrong.
Last time, he had the Punisher threatening him, as well as the infamous Wolverine; he wondered if they would do it again, given that they were your self-appointed bodyguards. That always made him laugh. They weren't bodyguards, just overprotective friends of yours... but, taking pictures made you happy, and Zemo would do anything to keep you that way.
He didn't say anything as you made two cups of coffee, merely watching you with the sort of tender curiosity that came with being together for so long; the first time he had met you was so long ago, now, but the memory was still fresh as wounding from barbed wire. He happened to be sitting in a little cafĂŠ with Sam when you had strolled in with Frank; he thought you were handsome from the moment he saw you, and when he heard your voice, he knew he had never heard a complaint about music in the car sound so good before.
Nothing changed since. He still knew you were handsome, still reminded you of it every time he got the chance; still loved to hear you talk, no matter what the subject was. Still loved to hear you laugh and to see your smile. You still took his breath away when you dressed up in the fancy suits and tuxedos he bought you for when he took you out; only ever the finest for the Baron's boyfriend. Fuck, you still took his breath away when you were wearing stained jogging bottoms and a ratty old hoodie.
"And this one's for you," you gently pushed the mug across the breakfast bar. "Biscuits?"
Zemo thought about it for a moment, pursing his lips before he nodded. "Sure."
He took the opportunity to check you out as you rummaged for them in the cupboard, chewing at the inside of his lip and trying not to say anything, but he couldn't stop himself.
"You look so good today."
You grinned as you brought the biscuits down, shaking your head as you scoffed. "You tell me that every day."
"And?" He raised a brow. "You look good every day."
"You're terrible," you told him, taking a swig from your coffee. "Smoke?"
"I'd love one," he agreed. "So, horror films and blankets today?"
You nodded as you started to roll cigarettes. "Unless there's anything you wanna do?"
"Be with you," Zemo said softly. "As always, mein Mann... you know I'm happy as long as you're happy."
You rolled your eyes but your smile didn't fade, and he knew that he had you exactly where he had wanted you; trying not to laugh, grinning, happier than a pig in shit. You were everything to him, all he needed from you was to see you happy, to see you smile, and he would do anything to make sure of it; if you said it would make you happy, Zemo would have gladly beheaded kings and stabbed princes, he would have happily brought palaces down to rubble and dust. Anything for his beloved, for his man.
Anything for you.
"Come here," he gestured, and when you were close enough, he grabbed you, and swiftly pulled you down onto his lap. His arms around you securely, kissing your neck ever so softly. "Whatever you want to do, mein geliebter, I will happily go along with you."
"What if I said I wanted to go for a hike?"
"I'd go with you," he told you sincerely. "Du bist mein Herz. Just don't go anywhere I can't follow."
"I'm messing," you laughed softly, grinning. "I'm perfectly happy to just laze on the sofa with you..."
"As am I," Zemo agreed. "So, is it a date?"
"It's a date."
"Now," he gently bit at your skin. "Do you want me to finish rolling?"
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mayullla ¡ 2 years
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Title: Robotic Parts
Character(s): Steampunkish robotic scientist (Unnamed character / Original works)
Summary: While many has chips and wires in their body and blood, trade a part of their body for something more metal you choose not to. Walking down the alley you caught the eyes of a particular famous robotics engineer.
Warnings/tags: Fem!reader, male!yandere oc, delusional yandere, general yandere themes, dark themes, horror themes, kidnapping/abduction, implied mutilation later toward reader (arms and legs), drugging, needles
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There are many cyborgs, men and women choosing to trade their limbs for robotics some other part, for something better, something stronger to protect themselves or to have something that they once didn't have or lost. Different reasons, some more natural than others, some more obvious than others. But there were a few who didn't trade their veins for wires and skin for metal. Maybe to them, it was not the time yet or maybe they chose not to.
You were the same, yet to exchange yourself for metals, chips and wires. Maybe that was how he took notice of you.
You weren't special, not necessarily there are many who also didn't choose to do the same as you.
And it is not that you are innocent to it, sometimes you do feel like someone was trying to dig holes in the back of your neck but whenever you try to look whenever you try to find the person... you find nothing… It happened over and over and over but you can't find them...
You asked your friends if they felt someone watching yet they say they didn't. Some of your friends tried to help, always keeping an eye out when they saw the concern on your face. But they didn't find anything. Didn't see anything.
They told you to report it to the police, but they could not help. You should have pushed for the police to help you, you should have asked your friend if you could stay in their place that day instead of going home alone, and you should have yelled louder but how could you when your mouth was suddenly covered by a damp cloth. You tried to struggle even more before fainting.
You woke up to total darkness, your head on someone's lap in a car as they continued to stroke your hair. “You shouldn't wake up yet. Sleep.” You didn't recognize the voice as you struggle to stay awake yet were forced back to sleep.
The next time you woke up you were strapped into a metal table your hands and shoulders strapped down as well as your feet and waist. Your eyes were blinded by the bright light that was above you.
You tried to look away but as you looked around your heart dropped at what you saw.
Robots parts littered the place, the table and some hanging on ceilings. Some were full bodies lifeless and unmoving, with eyes without pupils that made them eerie and unnerving. Others were separated, with only hands or legs, you saw a torso and some heads with wires coming out from their necks. You wanted to push yourself away from them, the place was dark with the only light source on top of you. It was silent as you hold your breath, in fear and terror.
You jumped, almost choking yourself from the strap on your neck when you suddenly heard a door slide open.
“It seems that you finally woke up. That’s good. I was starting to worry a bit if the medicine side effects were a bit too much for you.” You could hear steps drawing closer and closer to you flinching at each sound you tried to look at the person who kidnapped you.
“Don't be afraid, I am not gonna hurt you.” your whole body flinched when a hand suddenly touched your hair combing through his fingers, the man only chuckled at your scared face. It was hard to look at him as the light blind your eyes from getting a clear look at him. “You are quite the adorable one, I always found you to be so cute but now that I have a closer view of you… you really are beautiful.”
The hand that held your hair slowly moved to touch your face. It was careful if not loving.
It was vile and you want nothing more but to push that hand away.
Unfortunately, you didn't have the chance to voice your thoughts when the man started to laugh, "Yes. Yes! I am so glad I found you my beautiful muse you will be even more breathtaking when I turn you into the prettiest doll."
What he said raised the alarm bells in your head as you forced yourself to move even just a little bit. "What do you want from me?" You spat out, fear was evident in your eyes as you tried to break from from the straps that bound you to the table.
You have to get out, you need to. You need to run away from the room, from that man in order to live because there is no telling what he would do to your body.
"Oh, no no! You should not hurt yourself like that. Huu… I knew something like this would happen eventually, you leave me with no choice." You hear the man sigh as he grabbed something from the nearest drawer.
"This will only sting a little, my dear." His words made you panic even more, as you tried to move yet when something sharp touched your neck, pricking you. You can't help but cry out.
"If you stayed calm as you were before maybe I would not have to hurt you like this." the voice was almost nagging, as you tried to breathe scared at what he has put on you.
"The effects of the drug are nothing too serious, it won't hurt you in the long run just feelings of numbness and unable to move how you please." He told you tossing the needle that he used on you to the trash, taking cotton dipped in alcohol he started to clean the blood on your neck.
"Don't worry you will still breathe, I have no plans on killing you. Why would I when I have so much to give you." There was a delight in his voice that made you scared, as tears started to leak from your eyes nonstop.
He left the table only to return with a box, opening it. "These arms and legs are my delicate treasure. I put in hours over these lovely things."
You looked at the thing that the madman was holding, eye-widening when you realized what they were. 
The two arms and two legs you saw in the box, you didn't want to believe it as you tried to struggle even more yet you felt your muscles heavier and almost unmoving as you weakly tug your restraints. 
Anything is better than getting chopped up by this madman.
"Are you excited? Well of course you are!" The man chuckled as he delicately placed the metal arms down on the table as if he would break them from the light impact to the table.
"I spent many years making them, it was a shame that nobody really matched them till now." Sitting down in a chair he rested his chin on his hand, as the other placed on the hair on your scalp.
He was looking at you, eyes almost full of love and adoration yet you could see it.. you could see how unhinged they were, the craze that swirling inside them. "You were almost like a flower among the dried leaves when I saw you. It took some time but I was finally able to get you in my grasp."
"Don't worry my dear I will make you beautiful, you will be my lovely art that people will only be in awe of when they look at you." His words terrified you as you tried to tug your restraints even more while he acted as if he was ignorant of your panic and continued to play with your hair.
"I will take care of you, and keep you pretty so you don't have to worry about anything else. Now sleep, let me do all the work."
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valeffelees ¡ 11 months
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i didn't think i was going to make a post today, i've been under the weather for a while now 🌧️ and haven't really been making any substantial progress on anything as a result. i've been drawing, mostly. and no shit, i don't think i've spent this much time on my tablet since i was... fuck, sixteen? wild times.
but i dunno, i guess i just missed hanging out and wanted to share a bit of a WIP i talked about very briefly once before in a SSS (🐍) post, an alterous Dev/Niall (and pre-slash Simon/Baz) fanfic with the working title Niall vs the Amatonormative Agenda. i really like this fanfic. it started out as a runaway document where i could shove words when they didn't have anywhere else to go, and slowly turned into a canon compliant coming of age character study that follows Niall's POV exclusively from the Crucible ceremony to the Leavers ball. it's focused entirely on his life, his complicated relationship with Dev, and his friendship with Baz. i dunno if i'll ever post it in its entirety, but it is very near and dear to my heart these days.
[...] with thick, black hair combed around a sharp widow’s peak and droopy, down-turned eyes like a coonhound. He’s panting hard, his whole body heaving as he slumps down into the grass and tries to catch his breath, pressing his shoulders back against one of the beams supporting the underside of the stands. An ivory wand with a leather handle still too-big for his growing hands is clutched in his left fist. “Um,” Niall says. “Shut up!” The boy bares his teeth at him, scowling viciously. “Shut up or I’ll make you shut up, I’ll spell your tongue off!” “Baz!” Niall twists around and peeks through the gaps beneath the benches. Simon Snow is storming across the football pitch, flushed crimson and ripping at the fluffy inch of hair that peeks out below the brim of his boater, sparking along his forearms like a loose wire and steaming with so much magic that Niall starts all but going cross-eyed from it, he can feel it in his throat, acrid and sticky. He cups his palm over his mouth. “Baz!” Simon Snow shouts again, whipping around, his eyes cutting across the Wavering Wood’s gloomy treeline. Ceridwen, he looks like he’s gone mental. (And kind of like he’s about to cry.) “Give it back!” He spins, searching. He doesn’t find them. A noise like the growl of a small, rabid animal pinches from his narrow chest, and then he’s off. Sprinting in the direction of the drawbridge. Niall turns back around. “Baz Pitch?” “Grimm-Pitch,” Baz replies tersely. “You’re Dev’s cousin.” He blinks. “That’s correct.” “I’m their roommate.” Baz looks barely old enough to be at Watford, honestly. He still has one of those squished up little kid faces. His cheeks are puffy and round, his brow is shallow, his chin is short and flat. But he has a tall, straight nose like an adult, so he’s probably going to have a growth spurt sooner rather than later. Drop a layer of baby fat, shoot an inch and a half taller overnight. That’s how it went for Niall, at least. But then again, he’s older than he should be for a first year, he’ll turn thirteen in January before the end of Christmas break. “What have you done to the Chosen One now?” Niall asks, shifting to uncross his legs and stretch them out, moving his Magic Words textbook to lay open on his thighs. Baz settles down next to him, drawing his skinny knees up right to his shoulders with his arms tucked into the space between, flipping his wand back and forth from one hand to the other. His expression is blank—the kind of calculated, intentional blank that children shouldn’t know how to do—but his gaze is keen, almost feral. “Nothing he doesn’t deserve.” “You’re creepy.” “Are you going to tattle on me?” “No,” he says, after what is probably too short a moment of consideration, “I don’t really care. I just want to finish my homework.” “Well, good.” Baz purses his lips, looking Niall up and down with a single quick, deliberate flick of his eyes. (Grey, like a clean riverbank.) “Otherwise I would’ve had to spell you Six ways to Sunday.” “You couldn’t.” “Could too.” “Could not.” “I’m a Pitch.” “You’re eleven.”
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ask-icancraft-it ¡ 6 months
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“I Love You Too.”
(( A follow up to 'I Love You.' I've been fussing over this a while; it was a struggle to write. Sometimes you just gotta throw things out there and hope for the best. )) ________ Felix blinked, completely taken off guard by the tall silhouette blotting out the light outside his apartment door.
“I love you too,” Tamora repeated in a whisper.
The handyman’s face was hard to read as he stood in his pajamas, combing his fingers through his hair. He seemed more stunned than anything. Wordlessly, he invited her in, and they sat together on his couch. 
Slowly, Felix reached out his palm, and Tamora tangled his fingers with hers. His eyes brimmed with tears as he held on tight.
“I was…so afraid that you never wanted to see my face again,” Felix sniffled, realizing this wasn’t a dream.
“I should be the one saying that; not you,” Tamora gulped. “After all the things I said…”
“It’s going to take more than a few angry words to shake me.” 
The sergeant was amazed at how easily things rolled off Felix’s shoulders; how fearlessly he expressed his feelings. He was a far stronger person than she was in so many ways. Squeezing his hand still joined with hers gave Tamora the courage needed to follow his example.
“I got so caught up in how good it felt to be with you that I nearly forgot how hard loving someone can be…when you could lose them. And when you told me you loved me, everything came rushing back at once. All the pain and grief...”
Tamora’s teary gaze met Felix’s as she took in a shuddered breath.
“I acted out of self-preservation. I realized I was in too deep because…I love you too. And that terrified me. I’m terrified that what happened with Brad will happen again. I let my guard down.”
“Oh, Tammy…” Felix kissed her knuckles. It broke his heart to see how deeply her backstory affected her. 
“I don’t want to lose you,” the sergeant whispered. “And like an idiot, I thought pushing you away was the answer. I’m sorry.”
A bittersweet smile crossed the handyman’s lips.
“And I’m sorry…I’m sorry I didn’t tell you what I knew. And I’m sorry if I ever made you feel like you needed fixing—”
“No,” Tamora winced. “Forget all those dumb things I said, Fix-It. I took every insecurity I had and put them on you. Dammit…Why do you even love me? That is if you still do.” 
“Still do,” the handyman chuckled, squeezing her hand. 
Lost for words, the sergeant pulled him into a tight embrace, both taking in the comfort of the other’s arms. “Sometimes…I get scared about losing you too,” Felix confided. “What the last thirty years have shown me is…you never know what’s going to happen. A game-breaking glitch, a faulty wire, outmoded—I’ve seen a lot of folks go. Some of them friends.”
Tamora blinked, pulling away to look into the handyman’s world-weary eyes. It was the first time she’d ever seen him like this.  Felix placed a hand over hers when she cupped his face.
“There’s always a risk when you care for someone. It’s okay to be afraid…But Tammy, don’t let fear deprive you of all the good things that can come from taking a chance.”
With those words, Tamora felt heard, understood, and comforted all at once. Nodding, more tears threatened to fall. 
“I love you,” she said with a newfound acceptance.
“I love you too.”
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Find the Word Game XX
(Double Feature)
tagged by: @ashen-crest & @chayscribbles my words: angle, light, hard, cold, strange, dull, hair, hot tagging: @drippingmoon, @drabbleitout, @calicoy, @zmwrites, and anyone who sees this. no pressure to do it as usual your words: escape, fault, memory, sprint, listen, ring
angle (Eternal)—
Through holes in the walls and a top corner, they watched black fog shrink into the building and disappear from sight. Thrive motioned for Warren to stay behind him and they crept forward. They reached the door and Thrive slid it open. The building was empty. Broken tables and panels lined the walls and a volumetric projector hung from the ceiling, wires and cables sticking from it at odd angles. Dust covered the broken and rotted floor. Warren had seen this room before, shiny and new, in a memory. "You think it was the Emmuli sending the signal?" he asked, distracted by the alien insects crawling over every surface. Thrive didn't answer. He frowned and entered the room, examining every piece of equipment there for signs of tampering. He used a little finger to move the metal casing hanging off of a control panel in the wall. Warren glanced behind him, goosebumps forming on his arms and his muscles tensing. "It doesn't feel good in here." "No," Thrive said, "it doesn't."
light (Aurora)—
With Warren sat at one of the tables, scrolling through heavy walls of text on a tablet he'd taken from the terminal, and Thrive pacing deliberately around the entire basement with his nose in a tome, the time seemed to get away from them. Warren made notes in his comm device of anything that looked out of place even a little bit as he worked backward from the present, though still being as human and not silhou as he was made the task somewhat difficult. Thrive finished one tome and started another, continuing his path weaving himself through the shelves. He remained engrossed, utterly silent the entire time, his brow creased in concentration. Every time he passed over a light in the floor, the holographic parts of his form suit would explode to life, casting a multitude of glitter on every object in the reflection's way. After some time Warren found it harder to focus on his reading as the words became more and more jumbled together. He rubbed his eyes, setting the tablet on the table, but when he picked it back up again, the documents had ended. "Okay, well, I just hit a wall," he said. "The digitized history only goes back as far as the beginning of the Milky Way War. It stops with the arrival of the eliyi."
hard (Meridian)—
The next morning Warren found he almost couldn't get out of bed. Thrive had to physically get him sat up, into the bathroom, and at least presentable for Angelina, as he was so bogged down by despondency and anxiety that getting those tasks done alone was impossible. Having spent the entire night with his arms around him, Thrive anticipated this and reacted accordingly, setting forth their earlier agreed upon method of respectfully assisting and moving him from place to place whenever his depression got bad. He gave Warren his toothpaste-laden toothbrush and disappeared into the bedroom to pick out some clothes, draping a nice hoodie and a pair of jeans on the bed. The idea was to start the tasks for him rather than do them completely, as starting was the hardest part and he could usually take over from then. This particular morning proved more difficult than most, as Thrive had to carry him from the bed to the bathroom to even get to that point. Warren was mostly autonomous by the time he combed his hair, opting not to shave in favor of looking as haggard as he felt to perhaps show Angelina that he was remorseful.
cold (Meridian)—
Thoeala and Calen had come down to help, completely shaken at the horrors of the scene. They combed the crater, too, and though they did their best to stay present, Warren could hear Thoeala's wails of grief from where they stood. They marked all of the remains they could find, and it took them hours. By the end of it, all Warren wanted to do was curl up in a ball and sleep forever, but the hardened look on Thrive's face and his cold, silent demeanor kept him on edge. "We'll bring the remains with us," Calen said thickly when they reunited at what was left of the port. "We can send them to ———." Thoeala approached, handing Thrive her tracker holo gun with shaky hands. She looked nauseated and pale. "I managed to identify a few of them." Warren swallowed. "———?" She nodded dazedly. He wasn't sure what he'd expected. He had no feeling left to react in any way.
strange (Eternal)—
Thrive nodded to the screen. "I think I see Ashva in the distance there," he murmured to Warren. Warren watched DeCosta point to something else in the feed—a strange construct, six long cylinders almost blending into their background, blinking a single lazy red light at the corner of each arm. "Activate Project Ingress!" DeCosta exclaimed proudly. Warren's focus darted from the arms beginning to extend out toward each other to the very small shine of Andromeda millions of light-years away. Then clarity hit him like a brick to the skull and his breath caught in his chest. He clamped a hand around Thrive's wrist like a sudden vise. Thrive looked at him, then his wrist, then to the screen again. "At the edge of the galaxy we have constructed a doorway," DeCosta continued as the arms connected into an enormous hexagon floating in space. The machinations within the arms began to work, spinning and spitting energy from the edges while the empty center started to warp and bend. "A doorway into the unknown, a doorway into the known—a gate leading directly into our neighbors' front yard." A dangerous trench formed between Thrive's brows and Warren watched with a very heavy gut and bated breath as the situation dawned on his face. It was as if he'd just seen someone desecrate hallowed ground, disbelief and betrayal and anguish and fury all encompassing him and his body language within an instant.
dull (Meridian)—
The outside activity sounded as if it died quite a while ago. A quick glance under the door told Warren the hallway lights had been turned off, and the house was blanketed in silence. Dull, throbbing pain behind his eyes served as a reminder and a cautionary tale, and he let out a careful wince as he rubbed his forehead. The mattress shook with the sudden force of Thrive bolting upright. "Hey," Warren said, leaning to him. He cleared the hoarseness from his voice. "Hey, easy. Easy." At the sound of Warren next to him, breathlessness exploded from Thrive as if he'd stopped respiring in his sleep, and he passed his hands over his face, relieved, settling back down onto his pillow. Warren rubbed a hand over Thrive's arm. "I thought obhelians couldn't dream." "It wasn't a dream. It was a trauma response." "Yeah...I'm too familiar with those."
hair (Warpath)—
Warren held Cascidi's gaze, idly cracking his knuckles. A tingle passed as slow as molasses down his spine, and he found himself drawn to the very subtle smile creeping across Cascidi's face. It wasn't a smile of recognition, however—it was a smile Warren had seen quite a few times over the course of his long, long life. A Cheshire grin, a roguish smirk. The hair on the back of Warren's neck stood on end. "Okay," he exhaled. "...I think you're gonna have to clear out for a while." Scot looked at him. "Why is that?" "This guy's making serious eyes at me and I think I'm about to make a hasty and conflicted exit to get my back snapped." "That may be the better scenario," Scot said. "You could develop trust with him, therefore further convincing him to join us in our investigation." Warren's attention darted to Scot. "Hey, don't mess with him. This is one of the best hackers this side of the Node we're dealing with. If you root around his shit, he'll know." Scot imbued him with a rare smile. "But he's not the best, is he?"
hot (Warpath)—
"Are you sure you don't need me to accompany you?" Warren rubbed the back of his head and let out a slow exhale, waffling on Scot's front doorstep. The suburb near the capital house had grown exponentially, with some venevans trickling in from their refugee settlement. "Nah," he said at length. "I'm just…I think I'll be okay to go myself." "I may join you in any case," Scot said, and the seams of his face lit a soft lavender. "If for no other reason than perhaps I should make a visit to NodeSource." "Got some hardware upgrades?" Warren asked, grinning. "...Perhaps." Scot was suddenly unreadable, and Warren's ears went hot. "Each day that passes in Orthrive'poliea's absence is a day I can prepare for his arrival and subsequent experiments—" "Okay, okay," Warren said quickly, waving his hands at him to shut him up. "I get it. I'll be leaving in the morning, so make sure you're at the capital shuttle pad or I'm going without you." "Understood."
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mirrorballmika ¡ 2 years
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come what may (ao3)
bose/mika, post s2 finale, 3.5k
first df fic!! I haven't watched DF fully, so if I got something major wrong, I’m sorry
Her bedroom doesn't feel right.
Her dad tore it apart when they got home. Her mom did the same to Miles' room, combing it for anything Danger Force-related. It didn't matter how much they protested, how Miles insisted it violated their personal freedoms. All they cared about was that they had lied to them. So her dad went through every nook and cranny of her room, picking away ShoutOut piece by piece.
The gumballs in her drawer. The spare mask beneath her mattress. Her old logoless uniform hidden in her closet. He doesn’t ask why she kept it. They don’t want to hear anything about Danger Force. They made that clear downstairs when she and Miles begged and pleaded to let them stay.
Her dad even found her journals hidden beneath her floorboards. Three of them now, containing the complete story of ShoutOut. Every mistake is recorded there, telling her how to be better. Every lesson she learned is there; how to throw a punch and land a roundhouse kick. She made a guide on how to best patch herself if something goes sideways. A profile on all the weapons ranked according to her confidence with them. She’s recorded every villain she fought thus far and their known weak spots. Her entire superhero career is in those books.
If they don’t want her in Danger Force now, they really won’t when they read those.
That was half an hour ago. She lies flat on her bed, staring up at the ceiling. With all connections to ShoutOut gone, the colours on her once-vibrant walls feel faded and washed. The four walls that once denoted her safe space now feel like barbed wire around a fence. What’s more, she feels empty, incomplete. As if her dad took a limb or an organ when he left along with her things.
She clenches her jaw and presses the heels of her hands into her eyes. If she presses hard enough, maybe she’ll wake up, and this was all a bizarre dream. It’s what she used to do when she was really little and wanted something to stop. It never worked, obviously, and she should be too old for silly tricks like that. But the other option is allowing it to be real. So she pushes until colours explode behind her eyelids and until her head hurts, hoping that somehow there’s a way out of this.
A sharp tap on her window jerks her out of it. She sits up, blinking her vision back into focus. Her power unfurls at the back of her throat on instinct, building like a car engine. She crosses the short distance from her bed to the window and steadies her trembling hand as she grabs the curtain. She doesn’t think about how someone might have found her so quickly, only that she’ll scream them out of the freaking sky for trying her here.
She yanks back the curtain, ready to scream. But the face on the other side stops her in her tracks, and her powers fade like an abandoned campfire.
“Bose!”
Her parents thankfully haven’t thought to put lock her window (yet), so she hastily pulls the frame up and steps back. He pulls himself through like he’s done so many times, his landing only slightly unsteady. His bright eyes are tinged with red; his eyelashes are spiked with fresh tears. His chest heaves, his cheeks flushed, and she realises he must have run at least some of the distance from his house to here. His hoodie is tied around his waist, his hair wild and windswept around his shoulders, and she looks him up and down again because he’s really here.
“Hi,” he says casually, as if the rest of today didn't happen.
“What are you doing here?” she asks, only to decide it doesn’t matter. She launches at him, her arms wrapped around his shoulders. His shirt is slightly damp, confirming her theory that he ran here, his heartbeat quick against her chest. He doesn’t hesitate in hugging her back, his arms tight around her waist. She buries her head in his shoulder, revelling in the safety his presence always brings her. She squeezes him as tight as she possibly can because he’s here, and he’s real, and he’s beside her.
There’s something beautiful in the way Bose O’Brien hugs; so open and honest that it brings sanity to her frenzied mind. She’s glad to see that’s not changed.
“I was worried I wasn’t going to see you again,” she confesses into his shoulder.
“Me too,” he replies. He tightens his hold on her until she’s pressed flat against him. Maybe if they hold each other tight enough, they can hold the pieces of Danger Force together between them.
Minutes pass before they finally break apart. She leads him over to her bed, and they sit down, her cross-legged, him with one leg tucked beneath the other. Their knees touch, their hands brushing together on the covers.
“How are you holding up?” he asks. “How’s Miles?”
“Miles is…” Her voice trails off into a heavy sigh. She wishes she could say that Miles is Miles, keeping calm, waiting for a solution to present himself. She doesn’t want to talk about the defeat she saw in her brother’s eyes, the slump of his shoulders, and the horror she felt, realising the perpetual optimism she secretly envies has finally been defeated. Telling him about the soft cries she heard on the other side of Miles’ door feels unfair to him too. So avoids Bose’s eyes and says, “He quoted the Constitution at our parents and said they were violating our inalienable rights to freedom of movement and association.”
Bose chuckles warmly, although Mika strongly suspects this is the first time he’s heard about the Constitution.
“Sounds like Miles,” he says softly. “But I’m guessing it didn’t work.” His lips press into a thin line, and he runs his hand through his hair as he looks at her, brown eyes wide and impossibly soft. “And… what about you?”
She bites her tongue. She could tell him she can’t remember ever feeling as bad as this. Her one purpose in life is gone, and she doesn’t know what she’s meant to do now. She misses him and Chapa. She feels like she let them down and that the blame for all of this sits like a rock on her chest, and she can’t breathe without thinking about it. About how her inadequacy has threatened to swallow her whole since the minute that tape came off her mouth.
She could tell him; part of her wants to, but she doesn’t. Because if she does, it’s all real, and she won’t stop once she starts. So she presses her nail into her palm, swallows the lump in her throat and gives him a simple, “I hate this”.
Bose nods and pulls her into another hug. His hand rubs up and down her back, and she deflates against him, her hands curling into his shirt. She might not have said anything, but the thing about her and Bose is that she doesn’t really need to. He knows her too well by now. It’s equal parts reassuring and terrifying.  
“What about you?” she asks. She lifts her head from his shoulder. “I mean… first off, how did you even get here? My parents turned our house into freaking Guantanamo Bay. I’d thought yours would do the same.”
“Oh, is Guantanamo Bay that video game Henry told us about?” he asks. “I’ve been meaning to check it out.”
“Honey…”
“Sorry,” he says sheepishly. She rolls her eyes fondly. The smile on her face feels both good and alien. Stupid as it sounds, she was worried she wouldn’t smile again after tonight.
“My mom is pretty mad at me,” Bose tells her. He looks down at his hands, fingers pulling and picking at his nails. “I tried to explain everything to her, but she wouldn’t listen to me. It got… it got pretty bad. She said some stuff, and then I said some stuff that she really didn’t like.” His jaw clenches, hurt flashing in his eyes. “Then she sent me to my room.” His hand curls into a fist, his shoulders tensing. Anger doesn’t look right on his face. His face was made for giggles, smiles, and dimples and seeing him like this hurts her in ways she can’t explain.  “I snuck out through the side entrance, though. She doesn’t know about it.”
“I thought she found that entrance during that thing with the cat.”
“Other side entrance,” he says. “I didn’t even know about it until two weeks ago. It’s still good for sneaking in and out. Probably better than the other one. I’ve snuck out twice, and they didn’t even notice.” He lets out a heavy sigh, eyes closed for a second. Mika wonders what images are playing out in his mind. Going by the look on his face, they’re not good, and she grasps his hand. He gives her a grateful smile as she rubs her thumb across his knuckles, squeezing her hand back.
They sit silently for a few minutes, hands clasped and heads touching. Bose’s free hand curls and uncurls on his knee, his jaw clenching. Mika just tries not to let her self-pity drown her, but the look of absolute hopelessness on her best friend’s face doesn’t do much to stop her.
It shouldn’t be about her, yet she can’t look at him without feeling like she did this.
“She hasn’t told my stepdad yet,” he says weakly. “At least, she hadn’t when I left. I don’t even know how he’ll react.” He smiles bitterly, an expression so unlike Bose it almost makes her heart stop. “I don’t think he’ll be too happy to find out his favourite superhero was his dumb stepson.”
“Bose…” she whispers softly. Her hand travels to his shoulder, rubbing in circles against his shirt.
“She said she might call my real dad and tell him, though.” He shrugs, picking at the cotton on her bedsheets. “So I guess there’s that.”
“Oh honey,” she sighs. The nickname rolls off her tongue, as natural as his own. He sighs and lets his free hand slide over to hers. His fingers run over her knuckles, the feather-light touch a stunning contrast to his heaviness slumping his shoulders.
“Can I ask you something?” She blinks his response kind of unexpected given the circumstances.
“Uh, sure.” He slides off her bed and stands up, pulling at the hoodie around his waist. He bounces on the balls of his feet, radiating so much anxiety that Mika stands too, arms folded over her chest and her steps tentative towards him. “Everything okay?”
“Uh… yeah.” He wets his lips quickly, tossing the hoodie sleeve between his hands. “I just wanted to ask, um… when you told your mom we were kissing-”
Her eyes nearly bulge out of her head. She didn’t know where that question was heading, but it wasn’t there. That moment honestly seems like a lifetime ago.
“Yeah?” She takes a deep breath and prepares herself to remind him that they weren’t really kissing.
“When you told her we were kissing, but it was a lie, obviously,” he continues. He laughs a little, trying to combat the nervousness that hums in the air like electricity. She nods slowly, and he runs his hand through his hair. She sees him wet his lips slightly. “But… what if we really had been kissing? What would you have done? Would-would that mean anything?”
The words take a bit to register with her. Partially because of how they’re worded, because it’s Bose, and words sometimes are different for him than they are for everyone else. But then she realises, and the next few seconds are dedicated to her absorbing their weight. All the while, Bose looks at her, his hands still fidgeting with that hoodie sleeve.
She’s an intelligent girl. It’s what people know her as. So she’s not in the business of lying to herself just to make her life easier. She won’t pretend she doesn’t know why her mind immediately jumped to kissing Bose. Or why her heart picks up whenever he brushes past her. Or why his smile often leaves her breathless and his embrace feels like home. Why he’s sometimes the first thing on her mind when she wakes up, and why she always sees his face when she listens to those stupid love songs.  
So yeah. She likes him. Yes, in that way.
But he doesn’t like her in that way. She knows that because she knows Bose, and because she saw him with Glerp. She watched him go on his thousand dates. She knows how he acts around girls he likes, and it’s not how he acts around her. She won’t kid herself into thinking he does. Because she’s smarter than that and because it hurts less this way.
She’s also smart enough to know how awkward it would become if he knew she liked him. And she cherishes this friendship more than anything in the world. So she paints on a gentle smile, straightens her spine, and meets his anxious gaze.
“Bunny,” she says softly. “It was just a lie to throw off my mom. It didn’t help in the long run, but… that’s all it was. Pretend.” She pats his shoulder and hopes her smile is enough to hide the pain. “Don’t worry, we’re not actually going to start kissing.”
“Oh. We’re-we’re not?” He frowns, his face falling, and Mika’s hand freezes. She knows she recognises the disappointment creasing his features and the sadness in his puppy-dog eyes, but her brain tells her it’s impossible. Realisation creeps up on her, slowly, until it threatens to engulf her entirely.
“W-why?” Her mouth is impossibly dry, her voice cracking on a single word. She clears her throat, but it does little good. “Why would you ask that?”
Bose takes a deep breath, his shoulders rising beneath her hand. Her hand moves of its own accord, travelling down to wrap around his wrist. Their thumbs brush, his hand turning against hers. She doesn’t know if the quickened pulse she feels is hers or is.
“Because… I like you, Mika.” He looks down, a pink blush across his cheeks. “Like, I like you like you.”
For a second, there’s nothing, just the two of them and the words hanging in the air between them. He waits, his eyes searching hers before he steps away from her, his hand slipping out of her grip. He spoke the words so quietly and carefully as if he was afraid they’d break something, but they echo around her head and plaster themselves on the walls.
I like you, Mika.
She prides herself on her way with words, but all she can do here is a simple “What?”. He stands at her window seat, pulling on his hoodie. She hadn’t even noticed that it had started raining outside.
“I like you,” he says again. He runs his hand through his hair, and flashes her a smile she almost believes. “But you don’t like me back and that's cool. It’s fine. We can still be friends; I am so okay with still being friends-”
“Bose.”
“Maybe Schwoz can build another memory wiper. Or Ray can talk to our parents. I’m not sure if I want him around my mom, but my stepdad, sure-”
“Bose.”
“And if you don’t want to be friends, that’s fine too. We can just… You know… be in Danger Force. And I promise I won’t bring it up-”
“Bose!” She ended up in front of him, her chin tilted up to look him in the eyes. Bose’s ramblings die on his lips.
“I’m sorry,” he says quietly. “I didn’t mean to make things weird.”
“It’s okay.” He goes to say more, but something stops him. She stares up at him, a million thoughts racing in her head. She filters through them and narrows everything down to three common threads. Number one, she’s liked Bose for god knows how long. Number two, she convinced herself Bose didn’t like her back. Number three, she was clearly wrong because he just said he likes her.
And he’s here, standing in front of her.
This might be the closest she’s ever been to him; their breaths mingling, the overhead light dancing in his eyes. His hand cups her cheek, his thumb brushing beneath her eye. Her hands are shaking, but she hooks her fingers around his belt loops. She pauses for half a second, wondering if this is really happening, then pushes herself up on her toes.
In all the time she’s liked him, she’s never once wondered what kissing Bose would feel like. She'd thought there was no point in wondering about something that won’t ever happen. Well, she was wrong about that, and now she knows what it’s like. Bose’s lips are soft, and he wraps his arm around her waist. His kiss is careful but also playful, and that infectious happiness she loves radiates through his touch. She grins against his mouth, her hand tangled in his hair. He kisses her in a way that makes her toes curl, her heart flutter, and a giggle sticks in the back of her throat. His kiss makes her feel all the things she usually associates with; safe and reliable and more at home than she feels here, in her own bedroom. He kisses her in a way that doesn’t make her forget what just happened or make it unimportant, but puts it all in a box and puts it to one side.  
“Mika-” They break apart just as the door clicks open. Her mom steps into the room, whatever she is about to say dying on her lips. Her eyes nearly bulge out of her head when she sees Bose. Specifically when she sees Bose’s hands on her daughter’s waist. Bose lets her go and stumbles back, pulling his hoodie further down his body. Mrs Macklin folds her arms and looks him up and down, her demeanour more than making up for her initial shock.
“I think you’d better go home, young man,” her mom says.
“Yeah. Of course. Uh… good night Mrs Macklin.” His show of politeness doesn’t impress her. He turns to Mika instead, pulling his sleeves over his hand. “I’ll… see you later, Mika?”
Mika nods. It’s not a definite answer. But she’s not giving up on Danger Force, and certainly not on him. She hugs him again, not caring if her mom is right there. She hugs him because she needs it and in case this is the last she sees of him for a while. She lets it linger for as long as she can, and Mika feels overwhelmingly hollow when he lets go.
He climbs up on the window seat, giving her mom her third heart attack of the day.
“Through the front door!” she snaps. Bose winces and slides back down. He gives two little thumbs up and, despite everything, Mika hides her grin behind her hand. “Of course. That’s how people get in and out of houses.”
“Wait in the kitchen,” her mom says. “I’ll get my husband to drive you home. Do your parents know you’re here?”
“No.” Her mom exhales and rubs her forehead. Mika winces and looks at the floor, hands pressed behind her back. She knows a stress headache when she sees one.  
“Well, we’ll all have to have a serious conversation about this. Chapa’s parents too.” She opens the door further, a signal even Bose can pick up on.
Mika looks up and catches his eyes one last time. She tries to smile at him, and it’s helped when he grins over at her. Butterflies dance in her stomach, and she doesn’t hate it, at least this time.
Bose waves at her before disappearing through the door, his footsteps growing quieter on the stairs. She hopes Miles is down there and runs into him too.
Mika bites her lip, her mom still hanging in the doorway.
“So you weren’t lying about the kissing thing?”
“Technically… yes, I was,” she confesses. She sighs, her shoulders deflating in time with her mom’s. “It’s complicated.”
“I’ll say.” She doesn’t close the door on the way out, but Mika denies the invitation. Downstairs feels even more difficult than her bedroom, and she doesn't want to say goodbye to Bose for the third time.
Instead, she sinks onto her bed and closes her eyes. Having your world turned upside down twice in one day tends to make a girl dizzy. She’s not opposed to change, but adjusting will take some time. From part-time superhero to full-time nobody. From silently crushing on her best friend to kissing him in her bedroom. It’s a lot, and it pulls her in two different directions.
One tears her apart. And the other, despite everything, makes her feel like she’s still together.
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marenwithanm ¡ 1 year
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Inspired by this post right here , have a post I'd like to call
Ranking how easy each linked universe link would be to cosplay!
1-5, 1 being hard, 5 being easy
Read more if you dare ~
First up to bat is Sky!
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So there's a lot of ways to approach his outfit. I think his shirt, pants and boots could easily be thrifted. Earrings too probably. Hack up a green shirt and put it back together with some slits and there you go. His white undershirt seems pretty simple too, minus the blue, but I'll come back to that.
The red wrap+belt might be a tad more difficult, I could argue for making the red wrap out of a base or from scratch. The cape though, make that from scratch. Thrift some white bedsheets and make a simple cape. You've got a lot of options for his blue designs. Vinyl appliques, topstitch some blue fabric, paint, even embroidery if you're crazy (like me lol)
I don't think his wig would be... Terribly difficult? He's just got chin length hair and bangs. I just feel like it would be hard to get volume into it and keep it from looking flat and lifeless.
The chainmail is where I stop bc. I know nothing about chainmail in cosplays. How make it? I met a guy once who made his own chainmail by individually twisting metal wire around itself for each loop, and I think that is utterly insane. I embroider and I don't even have the patience for that. But I wouldn't know an easier way to do that so ¯⁠\⁠(⁠°⁠_⁠o⁠)⁠/⁠¯
Overall Sky gets a 4/5 his base outfit is pretty darn simple with some minimal sewing knowledge required if you want it 100 percent accurate. His cape would be fairly easy to paint, so maybe not a beginner cosplay, but not too hard!
Now Four (sword not included)
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So Four's tunic is where a lot of the difficulty comes in (clearly lol). I could see fusing four shirts together, but I would be concerned about the way they would fit together being different patterns, different fabrics, ect ect. I would probably not bother and just make his tunic from scratch. If you want 1000 percent accuracy, you could make his tunic lace up in the front, which would look awesome but is out of my skill set lol. His hood I feel like would need a couple mock ups to get the right shape. His whole tunic actually. It's kinda dress like. The drape is important if ya feel me.
Other things I would make would be his weird belt, his kinestones, and his Ezlo bobble (don't want it to be too heavy or else it would drag down the hood, so no metal = harder to thrift) For his earring I would probably dye a plastic feather.
Now his tunic would require quite a bit of embroidery, which sounds very fun to me, but a nightmare to many others I'm sure.
His wig would be pretty simple, but again I feel like it would be hard to make look good, especially with the headband. I'm not really a wig person so I wouldn't know though.
As for easy things, his tights, boots, and undershirt would be pretty simple to thrift or cobble together 👌
Overall Four gets a 2/5. Definitely not the easiest out there. There are ways you could make it easier on yourself, but there's quite a few skills you need to even start.
It's time for Time! (Kaepora Gaebora not included)
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Oh Time buddy where do I even start...
Let's start with the easy stuff. His underclothes are super simple. Just black turtleneck and black pants. Thrift em, easy.
We've discussed how much I don't know about chainmail, so I'm choosing to ignore that. The boots I think depend on how much you care for accuracy. Brown boots are easy to come by. This particular style? Not so much. I've only ever modified shoes via paint so I wouldn't know all that much here.
With time's wig, I think the biggest thing would be getting his bangs right. I think using that combing backwards technique would work well, but I haven't used it so idk
Ok ok let's address the elephant in the room. I have no idea how to make armor. I know there's a lot of different methods, I've never used any of them, I don't know. Armor isn't necessarily gonna be harder than embroidery, but my complete lack of knowledge might tank time's score a bit.
For time I'm gonna give a 1/5. You gotta know quite a bit of cosplay stuff for this guy. I've done about four cosplays now, and I look at him and shudder in fear. Do Time if you're good with armor and chainmail.
Let's go downfall boys, starting with Legend (seasons rod not included)
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I think legend's might be one of the most fun (for me lol) I could easily see both his tunics starting as thrifted bases which you hack up to fit the design a bit more. If you wanna be lazy, just find a blue beanie for his hat lol. If not, it's just a standard link hat but blue.
For his shoes, basically find some brown books and add some feathers. For his weird belt maybe buy a Hufflepuff scarf 😆. His bracket and rings could be super fun to thrift and modify if you're into that.
Now, admittedly, you would have to embroider stuff for legend, which hikes up the difficulty a lot lol. But whoopsie ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯
I think his wig would be super fun. I don't know much about dying wigs, but this could be a fun project to learn about it bc it's such a small, low stakes section of his hair.
Overall, Legend gets a 3/5. The required embroidery makes things difficult, and modifying some bases to fit could be a bit hard, but overall seems like a super fun cosplay to put together.
The hero of Hyrule!
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Ok so I feel like a lot of this outfit could be thrifted and modified. Just buy the pants, find a brown shirt and add yellow accents, maybe tear the sleeves off a green shirt, dip the neckline, and open the bottom up. Not too bad. I could see the boots being easy too. The gloves is where I'm not sure on. I've never actually made gloves bc I'm not good at sewing tiny, form fitting things. So I'm kinda ¯⁠\⁠(⁠°⁠_⁠o⁠)⁠/⁠¯
I think his potions could be fun to make. Of course, he doesn't have them in the comic, but hey it could add some depth to the costume. Just buy some glass bottles and line the insides with different paint colors. Could be a fun afternoon.
I'm not really sure where to start with his wig. Fluffy wigs are hard to make fluffy as far as I'm aware. Synthetic hair tends to lay quite flat. But I've seen ppl curl them, I know it's possible, but I don't really know how. So this is gonna be a "do your own research" thing.
Overall, debating between 4 or 5/5 for Hyrule. I think his getup is as hard as you make it really. If you go all out in accuracy, probably a 4. If not, a chill 5. Probably the simplest you'll get from the lu boys.
Child timeline with Twilight!
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Not the chainmail 😭 we've established I simply do not know. I am actively ignoring it. Anyways, his under clothes are just white/cream pants and shirt, easy, thrift store. His tunic could be pretty simple, just take a green Tshirt, cut some slits, and transfer a dark green sleeve from another shirt and boom you got twilight tunic. The wrap wouldn't be to hard, basically the same as sky's so I'm just gonna move on.
I think if you don't wanna go to hard, his boots are easy, just get brown boots, thrift stores my beloved. But, on the other hand, twi's a cowboy, his boots gotta be intricate! I don't know much about shoes so I couldn't say how but y'know ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯
Twilights hair is basically the same as Time's in the bang's swoop being important. I think you could do it with a tutorial on wig styling 👍
So his wolf pelt... I'm not quite sure what to think. I know they make fabric that mimics fur, but the idea of letting that furry monstrosity near my sewing machine is giving me chills. I would have to clean it out after ever seam. I dunno man I'm afraid of that fur 😆
Let's give twilight a... 3/5? I'm really not sure what to do with his chainmail and wolf hoodie, but the rest of him doesn't seem too terrible. Basic sewing knowledge needed
The best timeline adult timeline with Wind!
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Ok I lied when I said Hyrule was as simple as we were gonna get. Wind is challenging for that spot. Let's break this down. He's got a greenish undershirt, orange capris, and black booties. Thrift em.
Like four, most his difficulty comes in the tunic. But unlike four, you've got a lot of options. For legend and four, I only mentioned embroidery for their tunics because I don't know if other methods would look good in such small details. but with sky and wind, you can basically do whatever you want! Alter a blue shirt (or maybe dress with the length of his tunic) to fit the neckline and slit. Then, for the details, you could do embroidery (you're crazy, but sure), white fabric topstitched on (mostly worry about the curves), vinyl (again, you're crazy, but sure), even paint (underrated option in my opinion)!
His wig seems pretty easy, again just getting it to be fluffy is the issue. And that's one I can't help you with lol.
You could basically stop there, but if you want some finer details, the spoils bag would be a fun felt project, his swirl belt buckle seems like a job for polymer clay and paint, and I think a bead + gold wires and some kind of pink see through sheet could make a very cute joy pendant.
Another case of "as easy as you make it" let's give wind a more solid 4/5 since it's maybe slightly harder than Hyrule.
Nebulous timeline placement with Warriors!
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Hhhhhhhhh I'm crying what. Chainmail, armor, and custom shoes???? Just kill me now.
Ok ok so we all know how I feel about chainmail and armor, I'm gonna leave those alone. He's got the same under clothes situation as twilight just white shirt and pants. His tunic I could see as a modified dress or very large shirt. Make the v neck the deepest v in the world lol.
He has... So many belts. I've not been mentioning belts unless they're weird bc, again, thrift store. But I. I think you're gonna buy out the whole store's worth of belts my goodness. But yes, you can modify belts to fit the areas he's wearing them.
His amazing scarf cape kind of scares me. It's too beautiful, it relys so much on the drape, and I am but a poor soul on the internet. Buuuut I could see maybe a deep blue knit fabric, or even just blue bedsheets at, again, the thrift store. I dunno what the orange is, if it's embroidery or what. I'd find a reference of it, but it's midnight and I've already spent way too long on this lol
The shoes... Like ok they're cool conceptually with them being a reference to historical army shoes. But you're not gonna find those out and about. Luckily, I think if you took some brown boots and did some cut outs in the back, you could get a similar affect.
Finally, his wig also kind of scares me bc his hair is so nice, but this one seems simple with some bangs styling required 👍
Overall warriors is getting a 1/5. I don't think he'd be as hard to make as time, but definitely harder than four with the shoulder armor, customized tunic, cape, and customized shoes.
Last but certainly not least, the Wild child!
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So wild is basically a cartoonized version of his botw self, and there's plenty of botw link tutorials out there if you want some more advice. But! He doesn't seem too bad. He's got the white underclothes deal, easy to thrift. his tunic could just be blue with your choice of white applique like wind. You could be extra and do the dualing colors. Can't remember if wild keeps that design element in the comic itself, but it's neat! Basically Frankenstein two shirts together. The only concern would be how the different fabrics interact and how the differences in pattern and sizing interact. But with only 2 pieces it shouldn't be too bad.
His boots are as simple as you make them. If you want the orange flap, I could see it made out of some wiggly foam and painted. His arm wraps are basically any grey fabric in strips so I'll leave that to your disgression.
His cape doesn't seem all that hard, your choice of applique on the back, make it out of a simple cape pattern, basic sewing knowledge maybe required.
Honestly my mind concern is his wig since long wigs are always such a pain. But styling wise, looks pretty simple.
Overall, wild gets maybe a 3/5? About on par with legend, maybe a bit harder. Or maybe not necessarily harder than legend, but more effort.
Bonus Malon bc I love her
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Another case of as hard as you make it. I don't think it would be too hard to find a pink skirt and white shirt. If you want it too be accurate, you'd have to do some finagling, but it wouldn't be too bad. Her waist wrap is similar to sky, and whatever that brown drape from her belt is doesn't seem to hard. Her yellow cape thing could honestly just be like a square of yellow fabric, it's all in how it's tied.
Shes another, simple shoes, unless you consider this is a cowgirl, they gotta be good wink wonk. but not actually, make it as hard as you want lol.
Honestly, her wig is what scares me most. She's got the time bangs and the long hair.
Let's give malon a 4 or 5/5 like Hyrule. As easy as you make it! Quite a range you can get while still having it look good.
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randomwriteronline ¡ 4 months
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To love is to hurt.
To love is to hurt.
He opened his eyes to the feeling of his heartlight spasming like an air bladder squeezed too quickly.
It hurt. It hurt. It hurt.
He looked down.
It was all coiling around his spine.
It was all bursting from him like ribbons, writhing and wiggling and settling against his frame, snaking under his armor pieces, latching onto them - if he tried to rip them off they would have clung harder, they would have torn and sent horrendous pains through circuits until he had to stop hurting himself, leaving them to grow further, twitching incessantly all the way across him as they took over, as they held tight, as they grew further and further and further until they began turning into a barely shaped mass of incessantly moving grossly wet disgusting serpentine worms of flesh and blood that pushed off the very shell he was made off and engulfed his skeleton until it was no more, swallowed away, devoured by the mass, buried now beneath pulsing wires aching with electricity, beneath a living blanket pressing much too tight around him, much too tight, like a trap sewing itself onto him, unable to pierce through the protodermis and instead being pierced in turn, sputtering blood out of him, boiling hot, burning, begging him to shed his carapace, the last thing he had, the last thing it could not take from him, the disgusting parassite no larger than his closed fist beating hard and painful against the metal as though to crack it, dent it, tear it off somehow, contorting his fingers with its warm ichor and humid flesh and blindingly desperate pain to make him reach out and tear himself apart, tear himself undone, rip his every little minuscule shred of identity off of himself to replace it with some new unknown appalling horror closing around his throat, replacing pistons and cogs and joints with pulsing boiling shaking alienly inside inside him trying to cling harder turn him move him against his will until he was nothing of himself ever again, and his mask dug deeply excruciatingly horrifyingly into his face, and his mask would not turn off, and he could not take his mask off, and he could not stop looking, and none of it could stop growing and writhing and turning and curling and moving and twisting and tightening and pulsing and twitching and jolting and tensing and
And he opened his eyes to the dark, to arms pulling him to sit up. A palm grabbed his nape and placed his face against a cheek.
The breath against his ear was warm, harsh, loud.
It hissed as it was exhaled until the lungs it had been held into were completely empty.
It hissed as it was inhaled until the lungs it was flowing into were completely full.
It covered the sound of his horrible heart beating frantically.
It covered the feeling of his horrible heart beating frantically.
Eyes shut tight until the pressure made him see stars, one hand clamped around the arm sustaining him, Kopaka imagined the loud breathing was the winds of Ko-Wahi passing through him from the top of mount Ihu.
He imagined it so hard and so much that for a single moment he really believed he was there.
He really believed there was still time.
He really believed that.
Gentle fingers combed through his hair.
The breathing never stopped, comforting, familiar.
He couldn't look. He couldn't.
He couldn't look.
He couldn't.
Pohatu breathed.
Slowly.
Sweetly.
Soothingly.
His trembling quelled at last; he leaned into his brother's steady embrace, hard and soft all once.
That hadn't changed.
They waited a long time, very quietly, before Kopaka felt tired enough to start slumping into Pohatu's hold. He was laid down without a word, wrapped still in a body just as horrid as his own was; but somehow it felt better, to have this sort of foreign warmth and pressure coiled around his bones.
Distracting him from his abnormality.
He slipped into dark sleep, still not serene.
But at least, if Pohatu held his grip tight onto him, he could drag him away from the festering organs he'd glimpsed on the Star if their nightmare crawled out from within him again.
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Fugue - 11 - Hope in These Wires
Pairing: mShenko
Rating: M
Tags: Angst, Grief, Major (Canonical) Character Death
Summary: Alchera, and the two-year gap.  
Chapter Summary: Welcome to N1
Thank you, thank you to @pigeontheoneandonly for spotting exactly what this chapter was missing, and Real Life Romance Option for coming up with the coolest solution ever.
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17 February 2184, Local Cluster, Sol, Earth, Atlantic Ocean Argentine Basin, Interplanetary Combatives Simulator Training Facility
A thrum of energy stands the hairs of Kaidan’s neck on end well before he lays eyes on the source. The supply ship that’s been chugging its way out into the Argentine Basin for the last hour rocks lazily as it tethers to the giant cylinder spanning five hundred meters wide, sunk over two thousand meters into the Atlantic Ocean. Kaidan makes his way to the starboard side of the ship and looks over the railing at his new home for the next six weeks.
The Can is a far cry from the rugged wilderness of Ilha Grande, and the sleepless, endless, relentless three weeks of physical training in the thick of Rio’s sticky, damp summer that have him running a few kilos short of his normal weight with hands that won’t stop shaking.
Under the heavy, humid night sky, Kaidan had spent much of what little time he had for sleep curled up nursing a bad case of nausea, dizziness, and some of the worst abdominal pain he’s felt since BAaT.
Back at BAaT it had taken him a while to learn the difference between the migraines and the warning signs of low blood sugar and electrolyte imbalance. So many of the symptoms overlapped.
Never thought he’d see the day he’d be thankful for over a decade of managing the migraines, and the higher pain tolerance that came about because of it. Out in the wilderness, instead of Shepard’s arms to hold him through it, all he had was the hard, stony ground, the roiling thunderstorms that dumped rain a few times a day, and a gravity well that never moved.
Twice he’d almost quit. Once when he skirted the line too close to a full blood sugar crash on week two, and in the final stretch, when the electrolyte imbalance started spiraling a little too out of control.
But he’s a medic. A good one. He’d kept Shepard alive on Sharjila. He could keep himself on his feet at the Villa.  
And he had, until collapsing shortly after the official conclusion of Selection, and landing himself in the infirmary for two days, hooked up to IV fluids and a hefty dose of potassium chloride.
Staring at the blank ceiling while the world moved on around him reminded him too much of those first few days after Alchera. When nothing felt real, and too real at the same time.  
Is this how you felt? he’d wondered. Like you weren’t enough?  
But no answer came.
When Isaacs came to see him, he’d been sure it would be a discharge notification. Instead they’d ordered him to get out of bed and report to the armory.
He’d met the minimum standard required to train for N1.
Hard to know whether it was something he really earned, or someone else pulling strings he couldn’t see, but he’d been too exhausted to care.
And now…things get hard.
Shepard had described the Can as the nine circles of hell. The most advanced simulation technology humanity had to offer, capable of generating countless alien landscapes, re-creating nearly any hostile environment you could dream up, and lined with eezo-powered plates that could redefine gravity in any plane, for any situation. The buzz it generates makes Kaidan’s teeth itch, and he’s not even inside it yet.
He hoists a ruck sack over one shoulder – it feels light as a feather compared to what he’s been carrying – and grips the hardcase with his newly-issued armor in his other hand. About the only thing he hasn’t struggled with so far is learning the ins and outs of a spec-ops grade suit.
Because he already knows it by heart.
Better VI. More efficient shield modulators. More robust medical exoskeleton. It’s a simpler version of what Shepard had put on every day, the suit Kaidan had known as well or even better than he knew his own. The suit that, in the end, hadn’t saved Shepard’s life.
Now it belongs to Kaidan. He just has to earn the right to keep it.
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Toxic (3/3)
Toxic | saratogaroad rating: G+ wordcount: 1160 characters: Noctis Lucis Caelum, Gladiolus Amicitia, Prompto Argentum relationships: background Promptis other tags: background relationships, Canon-Typical Violence warnings: Canon Typical Violence chapter: 3/3
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Gladio comes to a realization that has been a long time coming. Noctis realizes a thing or two as well.
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Zegnautus Keep presses down like a weighty thing, a sword ready to fall on their heads. Prompto is safe, thank the Six, and so is Noctis. The four of them are together again.
Gladio's heart still sits heavy in his chest, a rock in the pit of his stomach as he sits and keeps watch. They've barred the door to the barracks, ripped the loudspeaker off the wall and left sparking wires in its place. Umbra, Six only know how he got in here to begin with, lays on Noctis' bare feet. Exhaustion clings to the mutt like a second coat, clings to all of them like capes. Prompto is conked out, half sprawled in Noctis' lap, Noctis himself is asleep sitting up against the cold concrete wall, Ignis is actually snoring on another bunk, shoes still on, and Gladio...
Gladio sits, elbows on his knees and hands clasped together, and watches. He watches their chests rise and fall in ease, listens to the snoring, and tries to push back the lump in his chest. They're all safe, no thanks to him, and have been keeping that way for a while.
Hell, Noctis survived a Malboro, getting stabbed in the freaking lung, and making his way through this hellhole of a fort with nothing but life-sucking magic and his father's sword. It's clear he doesn't need Gladio anymore. Maybe he hasn't for a long time.
Maybe that's okay.
"You tryin' to drill a hole in my head?" Noctis asks, voice sleep muddled. Gladio tenses as the prince--no, his King now, and he's been for a while--stretches his leg as best he can without dislodging Prompto. He rolls his neck and looks Gladio in the eye, tired but aware.
Gladio swallows hard and looks down.
"No," he says quietly, "Just...trying to figure out some things."
"Uh-huh." Noctis doesn't sound convinced. He quirks an eyebrow, pensive. Either he's too tired to speak or waiting Gladio out, but the silence pulls. Gladio licks his dry lips and shakes his head.
"I've been...kind of an ass."
Noctis raises his other eyebrow; they both disappear beneath his fringe in his shock. Shame colors Gladio's face as Noctis says, "Kind of?"
Gladio looks away. "Okay, a lot of an ass. And a really lousy Shield."
"That's what happens when you run off out of nowhere." Noctis shrugs a shoulder, voice oddly casual. "But I think--"
"Noctis," Gladio cuts him off. Noctis blinks at him, startled by the use of his full name, and Gladio sighs, because he knows he's lost the right to call him Noct, after all this. He takes a breath, squares his shoulders, and looks up to meet his King's gaze. "I need to tell you something."
"...What?"
"I'm sorry. A lot of the things I've done were out of line."
Noctis blinks at him again. Once, twice, three times. Then his shoulders sag and he tips his head back against the wall. Absently, he starts to comb his fingers through Prompto's hair, the Ring a stark contrast to the sunny color.
"I'm not," Noctis sighs, "Going to say it's okay, because it's really not, but I get it." He looks over, peering at Gladio through his bangs. "I get it. None of us are taking this shit well."
"No kidding," Gladio looks down at his hands, the blood caked beneath his fingernails, the calluses in the joints of his knuckles. "I just...I said some really bad shit to you. Did shit I shouldn't have." He swallows back acrid bile, "...You could have died because I was an ass."
"Gladio..." Noctis sighs, "I made that call and I was stupid about it, okay? That one's not on you."
"I made you feel you had to," He clenches his hands together. Once they'd gotten Noctis settled in the sleeping car, Prompto ever at his side, Ignis had taken Gladio aside and explained, in no uncertain terms, what Noctis had said. Ardyn had nearly made him a replicated image of Lady Lunafreya, a blade between the ribs meant to kill painfully slowly.
He would have died in the swamps, cold and alone, all because Gladio had been such an ass and forced him into feeling that he needed to go it alone. His knuckles go white beneath his grip.
"I made you think you needed to prove something," He says, grimacing as Noctis makes a choked noise in the back of his throat, "And that's..." He sighs heavily, stomach knotted somewhere by his feet. His father would have disowned him for his actions; Iris would have kicked his ass then made him get up and do it all over again. He'd have deserved both of their reactions.
He also deserved Noctis'. He can't deny that any longer. He forces himself to look up again, to meet Noctis' knowing, understanding look.
"I'm so sorry, your Majesty," Gladio says formally. He stands up, presses a hand to his heart, and bows low. Noctis makes a choked off noise again. "I hope someday you can find it in your heart to forgive me." Noctis is silent for a long moment. Gladio does not move, life in his King's hands.
"...I forgive you," Noctis says softly. Gladio looks up so fast his neck cracks painfully. Noctis is looking at the ring on his finger, the shard of crystal gleaming even in the dim light. He looks to Gladio. "So stand up already and get over here." He slips down against the concrete. "It's cold."
Gladio's heart skips a bit. Noctis shifts just enough to make room for him on the too-small bunk without disturbing Prompto.
"...you...really want to share with this big of an idiot?"
"No," Noctis shakes his head. "I want to share with my big brother." He smiles, though it's a tired, ragged edge thing "Family fights, right?"
His heart starts beating again. "Yeah," Gladio chuckles softly. He stands up just long enough to sit beside Noctis, toeing off his boots. "They do. They can be really stupid about apologizing, too." He settles against Noctis' side. Umbra lifts his head, sniffs the bottom of Gladio's foot, sneezes, and settles back in. "Works out, though."
"I hope so," Noctis says, leaning against his arm, "cause if you fought like this with Iris, I'd have to kick your ass."
Gladio can't help it: he laughs. Prompto stirs enough to lift his head and blearily blink at the two of them, but when no yelling pierces his half-asleep world, he burrows his face back into Noctis' stomach and drifts off again. Noctis sighs deeply, leaning his head on Gladio's shoulder.
"I'd like to see you try," Gladio finally says. Noctis barks out a half-asleep laugh of his own, but offers no contest. Before too long, he's asleep again.
Once more the dutiful Shield, Gladio returns to his watch with a lifted heart.
Whatever happens later, whatever they end up facing, he's sure of one thing: everything's going to be alright.
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i dive into a sea of memories, and collect the pieces of our love
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Rating: Mature
Categories: Gen Fic, M/M
Fandom: Jujutsu Kaisen 呪術廻戦
Relationships: Getou Suguru/Gojo Satoru Getou Suguru & Gojo Satoru
Tags: Angst, Angst and Feels, Hurt No Comfort, Emotional Hurt, Extra Angst, Heavy Angst, SatoSugu, Mentions of Killing, Mentions of Death, JJK Volume 0/Cursed Child Spoilers, Hidden Inventory (Gojo's Past) Spoilers, Shibuya Arc Spoilers, I've had SatoSugu brain rot for over a year (close to two years) and I make sure I make it everyone else's problem, Crossed post on Ao3
Summary: He cannot help, but only think of him. He thinks of every single moment and feeling he has ever shared with and of him. Life can be cruel, and he is not sure how he got here, but sometimes all you can do is dwell on the past as you try and accept your present. It is hard to lose your one and only and the person you ever had. Like slides from movie your brain will play back all those times you ever had of and with them and all you can do is watch.
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In celebration of Gojo's 1000th day (I know I'm bit late, but let's ignore that) I present some SatoSugu Angst. Also if you do not know what I mean by 1000th day then I would suggest not reading because it might spoil some things for you. Anyway I have severe SatoSugu brain rot. I love them dearly and am obsessed with their relationship and how they interact with one another and how Akutami writes them. The title of the fic is a translated lyric from King Gnu's song 逆夢 (Sakayume) which was featured in the JJK Volume 0 Movie. I looked up multiple sources for the translation of the lyrics and that seems to be the general translation for the lyric. If you have better translations for the song please let me know! But this song absolutely is about Getou and Gojo and makes me sob deep down. BEFORE READING: Volume 0/Cursed Child Spoilers Hidden Inventory (Gojo's Past) Spoilers Shibuya Arc Spoilers (Don't say I did not warn you) Use of King Gnu's lyrics for title. I don't own them. [See end for more notes]
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   "Back then, I thought/That you would always be by my side/As if it was a given."
          The amount of time that has passed is undetermined. The same image keeps playing, flickering like a reel of film projecting onto a screen. The sound of a voice imprinted in his mind on a loop saying one thing. He knows what he saw, what he heard, what his cursed energy told him, but deep down in his soul all the facts are deemed false. Whoever that was, it was not the person who he formed an unbreakable connection with. His whole life flashing like slides as he transcends somewhere out of this world. Unsure when the tears started to flow down his face and unsure if it was from laughing or crying. He combs through every scenario of how this could have happened. What curse made him be banished to this realm? The wiring linking back to right before becoming engulfed by this prison. Every single memory with him, about him, of him is what came rushing back to the blindfolded man before the darkness engulfed him.
           How long has it been now? How many times has he thought of these memories? He is starting to become unsure how long he has been in here. Has it been a second, a minute, an hour, a day, a month, a year? Longer than that? 1000 days? Maybe no time has passed at all. Even so…however long it has been, all he can think about is him . His voice. A ghost of his past that he thought he killed, and yet he remains. Well, only his physical embodiment remained, His soul…unfortunately that was lost long ago, perhaps even before he had to take the life of his one, his only.
          He thinks about the first time they met at Jujutsu Tech. How the boy with jet hair and bangs in his face and eyes that closely match had no idea who he even was. He thinks about how they did not even get along at first, but as the days passed, even with different moralities and ideas, one was not seen without the other. He chuckles as he thinks of their fights at Jujutsu Tech, and how the cursed manipulation user would still wield his technique even though he was prohibited from doing so. And all the times Yaga would yell at them for their conduct. How they would drive Shoko crazy from their antics as well.
          He thinks of how all their bickering would end in laughter and no matter their disputes they each knew they could trust and confide in one another even as the sun is setting. All the late nights spent in each other’s rooms to the point it became difficult to tell which room was whose. With clothes left on chairs, souvenirs from all the missions and trips. Different foods and snacks they would bring back to share with one another. He thinks how sometimes their late nights would bleed into early mornings; with droopy eyes and cracked voices as they would fall asleep in one of their beds, because having to travel back to the other’s bed was still too far.
          He thinks about how for the first time he could be free. To travel and see the country and all its variety. How, for the first time, he never had to feel alone and was not treated differently just because he was born with a destiny already planned out for him. Finally, instead of hearing “you” or thinking there was only “me” there was a “we” and an “us.” Neither one of the two had to do anything by themselves because they made a team.
          He wishes that those days of the beginning could go on forever. How he wishes he could hold onto them a little longer. He curses the moment those days became less and less and he wishes he could go back to the day when it was their last. Before everything started to crack and crumble then shatter altogether. Maybe if he knew their last day of laughter and happiness before “we” went back to “you” and “me” he could keep it like that, even if it was just a little longer.
          Unfortunately, he knows when things changed for the two of them. Maybe regardless of the events that had occurred, he could have been more present, he could have gone to change his mind, change his soul before he left completely. That day still haunts him, still lingers, and as much as he wants to deny it, to ignore it, that day was the day he lost all his youth, his hopes, his dreams, all his plans and what could be.
         He remembers how he died that day and how he came back. He remembers thinking how the only person he has ever had was dead too. How he would burn it all down knowing he could not exist in a world where the other was not. He thinks how he should have burnt it down regardless because honestly there was not much left of it anyway. At least not enough for anyone in the future to prosper from it. He thinks of his own face that day. Even though they both have lived, someone who they promised to protect was not. He remembers the brightness and glimmer in his eyes fading along with his smile. How his face became a ghost of what it was.
          That is when the separation started. That is when he was sent on missions alone constantly–when he was recognized as the strongest and no longer needed someone to rely on. That is when everyone started to rely on him . Maybe he could not have changed his destiny. Over all the missions he went on, he would think of him. He would think of how it would be so much better if he were there as well. Just because he did not need him by his side does not mean he did not want him by his side. But that is a lie too: he did need him. With him by his side he was someone, he meant something to people beyond his power, his cursed energy, his six eyes. He remembers all the feelings he felt as a child while in isolation in the confines of his family’s estate flooding back to him as a teenager when he began to spend mission after mission alone. No one to share crepes or other desserts with when he would buy them on their missions away as his best friend would follow and oblige his sweet tooth. Before he knew it all the days were blending together and he wondered if that is what it was like for him as well.
          He should have been there more for him. Maybe convince Yaga that they should do a mission together instead of separately, and have Shoko join them too so it could be like it was in the beginning . Maybe instead of crashing in his own room from the tiring days, he could have gone to his room, to spend the night there like they used to. Talk about their plans and dreams like they always did. He should have been there more for him . He should have been present, because if he himself was still hurting from that fateful day he could only imagine how the other man felt. All he wanted was to see from his eyes and maybe, just maybe, they could fix it together. They could work through all the problems; all the issues they were going through like they always did. Even if there was fighting, he knew laughter would follow.
           He can feel himself finding it hard to breathe. Was it this place he was in? Was it something else? Maybe this time he is actually…dying. How long has it been now? How long has he been lingering on every day he had with him? Every moment. Maybe…maybe…he could not change a single thing. Maybe no matter what he did it would have gone like this. Maybe if he was never in his life, none of this would have happened. Maybe he would have had a chance for a happy life. Besides, you cannot grieve for something you never had in the first place. Maybe he should have stayed in isolation…never gone to Jujutsu Tech. Learned everything from home. Not involving anyone else in his life. Was this the curse he was born with? He could feel the heaviness in his chest growing. Suddenly a thought occurred… 
            Is this what it feels like to swallow curse after curse? Is this how Suguru felt all this time?
        He starts to think of that excruciating day when they met each other in Omoide Yokochō, how he was instructed to execute him, his other half and could not. Instead, he stood there and let him walk away. He regrets letting him go, blending with the crowd. The words he said to him that day still haunt him and quite honestly, he still does not think he has the answer to the question he asked him all those years ago. The heartbreaking honest answer, he kept hidden deep behind his six eyes was he never wanted to become the strongest. He did not want the whole Jujutsu world to rely on him, to use him. He did not solely want to be the strongest, or at least he did not want to be the strongest on his own. If he was going to be the strongest he wanted to do it with him by his side.
            He wanted to go back to when the two of them felt like they were on top of the world. He wanted to go back to when they would say, “We are the strongest.” The only way he has tried to fill this hole is teaching. Teaching the young jujutsu sorcerers and guiding them so they can create a better world, and prevent being in a world like the one he grew up in. He knew at one point that is what the other man would do, before he changed, before he went his own way. He knew they were supposed to teach the new generation. Guide them together, but instead he does it himself, for both of them, for a lost dream they once shared.   
His mind keeps circulating on the same thoughts. Should he have held onto him harder, or maybe a little less? Maybe he should never have let them become as close as they were. Maybe they should have just stayed classmates, nothing more, nothing less. But…he became greedy, in order to feel human. To have someone’s warm breath against your ear as they whisper a secret. To share meals with. To walk alongside someone as shoulders brush against one another. To smile, to laugh, to cry, to fight with. All to feel alive. If he did not share these moments with him, would there have been anyone else who would come along in his life to share them with, to make him feel the way he did with him. To feel things he did not know a person could feel. If it was not for him, would he have been blessed–would he have been cursed–with all these memories, experiences, feelings if it were not for him.
            He thinks of all the years that passed and how the years apart became longer than the years together. He thinks about the possibility of him leaving too. Leaving Jujutsu Tech and going to chase after him, to be with him. Maybe he would not feel the burning of the hole in his heart grow if he were to be by his side again. The life he lived up until this point was originally because of him, before his soul switched, this is the life that he originally wanted.This is what they were supposed to do. To protect, not to harm. He thinks maybe they did curse each other…
            Sitting in the empty classrooms of his youth as the sun set and the sky would change colors, he would sit reminiscing about the things he would tell him. How he made him listen to him, even when he was acting arrogant. No one had ever done that before, but for him, he listened to his friend as he would look into his dark and shining eyes. Through his words he trusted him, and would give him everything.
            That day he came back to their school where they had created so many memories. He could feel him even before seeing him. Even if it had been what seemed like another lifetime, he still memorized everything about him. Then there he was. With the people he now called his family, preaching about his new beliefs to his students. How his voice, his words pierced him because in a different life they were to be side by side teaching these students together. On that day though, he hears that man speak of a different world, a different life his former self would be against. He now speaks of war, of cursing each other. How he remembers his stomach twisting from his words. When did he believe bloodshed would fix everything? Does he not remember that day they almost died, how someone did die, how multiple people died, and what it felt like to see someone with a life lose it in seconds. How horrendous that felt. Here he is now calling for a war, where more lives can, will, and were lost.
            Finally, that day came. The day he had been avoiding since the day he turned his back, never to return. He is not sure if it was cruel or fitting for it to end that way. He really did not want it to be this way. Maybe it would have been easier for him if Yuuta and Rika were the ones that ended his life, or maybe it would not have. Until the end he trusted him. For the other man he held no hard feelings for those of Jujutsu High. They both knew how this would be their last moment with each other. He remembers how he looked into the injured man’s eyes and though they were the same eyes he had always gazed into all those years ago, he knew they were different now. He remembers how he would do anything to see them glow again even just for a moment before he would have to do what he has been dreading to do for all these years. For a second he hoped they could be like they were before.
            It was not that long ago this happened. All the feelings are still there like an open wound. The way he says his name still makes his heart beat a little faster, because it always sounded different when he would say it. Then, when he would speak his name off his tongue he could not help for his stomach to flip, to clench just slightly because was this really going to be the last time he says his name to him. No matter how much he wanted to shove that evening away from his thoughts, it still plays like it was yesterday, every day. He recalls how he wishes he would curse him even if it was a little in the end, but they both know that they could never do that to each other. Though what they will not admit is they already did curse each other. The truth is already there to prove it had done its toll on the two sorcerers. 
He thinks of his last words he said to him and just before he took his last breath. He had laughed and for the man reliving his memories like a featured film, to see him laugh one more time, for his eyes to soften like they once were when they were younger filled him up to the point of absolutely destroying him. Because after this, his worst nightmare was about to come true. To be in a world where the other man would not exist. It did not matter if they were not physically present in each other’s lives these past years, they still both knew that the other one was still breathing, still living their own life. And now…and now…this is where everything ended.
            He thinks back to how he took his last breath before taking someone else’s. He did everything he could to keep his composure, but he knew that the only person he ever had, knew that he was anything but composed. In a flash it was over, but everything else remained. Before he could do anything else he stood there before the man that he thought would always be in his life and let the tears fall from his eyes. The ones he always held back after all these years because now there would never be a “we.” This was it, this is how it ended.
            He thinks about how he had to leave his body there in the alley, to ensure the safety and lives of the jujutsu sorcerers of the future. He thinks back of having to tell Shoko of the death of their friend. She had always kept herself more composed and indifferent of their friend’s leaving. In that moment though he sees how her face drops and eyes begin to water as she too grieves the loss of her friend. Seeing his nonchalant friend and coworker break that composure caused him to break more than he already was. He had convinced her to not dispose of his body and because she was one to not want to get in the middle of things she did not go against his words.
            For the first time Gojo cannot be greedy, he spends the last remaining time he has left with Geto before letting his “family” give him a proper burial. The tears flowing down his face and how he wishes he could have more time and thinks about all their firsts and all their lasts, just as he is reliving them again in the place where time does not exist. Oh how he wishes he could see how they saw each other in each other’s eyes…
    Ever since that day he goes through each day missing him living the fantasies of what they could have had, knowing they are all false realities. He tries to live a life that he would have wanted him to live before things shattered, because that was the only life he ever really wanted. Even though a lot of the days were difficult, and it felt like he would wake up and fall asleep with tears in his sky filled eyes, there were days that felt like the past did not exist only the present. He held onto those days, those moments, because he knew they were precious.
            The hardest days were the ones where it seemed like a new life was forming and though the past can never be erased a new life for the future can still bloom, but then a certain smell, song, sound, place would appear or he would come across something that threw him back to the past and then that is where his mind would live. He would feel the uncertainty clinging with doubt, if he could even be able to get out of the whirling winds of the past to be able to live in the present again. Those days are the hardest because of how warming it is to live in the happy, beautiful moments of the past, because at one point everything he ever wanted was there.
            Now he thinks back to what was moments ago, or has it been longer than that? How long has it been since he saw him? It was him, his body at least, but everything else was not. In the remnants of his soul, he knew that was not the person he shared the deepest connection within his life. How could he be fooled? Did he really miss him that much? Was that truly the thing he desired most, was to have him back? He knows there is so much more in this world and in this life, but without him in it, it is a bit bleak.
            His name keeps ringing inside his head along with his own from the person who he cared about most in this world. When did everything become so cursed?
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Worlds Apart...|| Eddie Munson X Reader Part 2
cw:angst, violence
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https://nightvampii.tumblr.com/post/690495106385641472/watching-you-without-me-eddie-munson-x-reader
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"Eddie's dead, Y/N..." Dustin sighed, sitting on his bed as he watches you pace around his room.
"But, Dustin what if he's still alive? You know, like how Will was in the Upside down?"
"The difference between Will and Eddie is that Will was still alive in the Upside down, Eddie died in my arms." He tried to reason, he removed his hat from his head. "What's going on with you, Y/N?" He asked a genuine worry to his voice compared to his usual sarcastic tone.
You bit down on your bottom lip, your pacing slowing down before you sat next to Dustin, your hand fidgeting with the handkerchief. You took in a deep breath, letting out a shaky sigh before you spoke, your eyes already pooling with tears.
"I've been having these nightmares, about Eddie...and his death.."
Dustin listened, his hand placed over yours noticing how you were shaking. "It's okay, take your time... I'm here." He reassured. You nodded, before continuing on. "I've been having these nightmares after we left... I've also been having headaches..." This raised concerns for Dustin, his entire demeanor shifting, "So, like how Max was cursed..." He added, and your hands clutched onto the handkerchief tighter. "I think we need to tell the others, Y/N..."
"Wait... but something was different about the nightmare I had last night." Dustin turned his body to face you this time, you look to him the tears that stained your face becoming clearer to Dustin. "Music played in my room while I was stuck in the night terror..." "Okay, hold on, back track!" Said Steve, his fingers combing through his hair. "You're tellin' us, that because of your nightmares, you believe that Eddie is alive, Y/N?" "That's not all of what I'm saying, Steve. I'm saying that, there is a possibility that he might be alive, just in the Upside down..." You stated, standing up from the couch that you sat on next to Robin. "When I woke from my nightmare... music was playing on my stereo." You walked to the stereo, grabbing the cassette that was inside of the stereo looking for the wire that connected to it. Your eyes traced where the plug end was, only to find that it wasn't plugged into the wall. Your eyes looked towards the window, the feeling of someone watching you causing the hairs on your neck to raise. Your hand reached the back of your neck, as you looked to Steve. His expression seemed puzzled, "So, you believe he's communicating with you from there..." He questioned his eyes rolling before he turned away and sat by Robin. "So what makes you think that he's trying to communicate with you, Y/N?" Robin asked, her leaning forward, a look of wonder painting her face.
"The song that played in the cassette... it was Watching you without me by Kate Bush."
"Oh great! Another Kate Bush song !" Steve exclaimed, him sitting back on the couch shaking his head. "You guys don't believe me..." "It's not that we don't believe you, it's just... hard to understand. You and Dustin said that he died in front of you guys." Dustin looked at you, then to Steve before he sighed in annoyance. "Okay, even if Eddie is still dead, we have to worry about the fact that, Y/N is literally cursed by Vecna..."
The wounded Vecna trudged his way to Eddie's body, the wounds slowly healing as he looked down at the boy that laid before him. A low growl emitted from his throat, he lifted the corpse from the ground, approaching it examining the injuries. "A boy who wants to be a hero..." he placed his hand to Eddie's cold unmoved chest, his eye closing focusing his energy into the boy's heart. Thump- thump...thump-thump...thump-thump A gasp came from Eddie's lips, him groaning in pain and coughing from the dried blood in his throat. He wasn't fully conscious, his body too weak to comprehend what was going on. Vecna lowered Eddie, to the ground, him immediately collapsing, coughing and too weak to stand up.
Vecna took a step closer, calling one of the Demobat's over to him, as the Demobat approached, Vecna snapped the creature's neck, its head severing from it's body. Eddie looked up at Vecna, his eyes trying to focus, "W-what... what's going on..." "You will soon understand..." Vecna moved the leaking Demobat over Eddie's mouth, the blood from the twisted animal dripping into the boy's mouth. He ingested the blood as it dripped, his eyes falling fully closed. "I will make you stronger, Eddie..." Vecna growled before leaning down to the barely conscious male.
"You will serve me, and work by my side... Your friends... they left you here to rot." Eddie opened his eyes seeing Vecna had vanished, his mouth spitting out the blood to the ground. You changed the cassette from your Walkman about to flip it over to side B, before you reach into your bag taking out the cassette with Kate bushes song on it. You put Eddie's cassette back in, pushing play on the device, the song I'll wait by Van Halen playing in your headphones. You were home, trying to clear your mind.
"You've got me captured...I'm under your spell." Eddie had limped his way over to your home, well... the Upside down's version of it. He opened the door to her home, making his way to her room falling down onto it in pain. "I guess I'll never learn, I have your picture yes I know it well..." Eddie shed his jacket off of his body, his body in pain as he laid on the bed. His bites from the Demobat's started to heal, the left over marks from the previous bites fading as he laid on the bed, panting. You were laying in a fetal position on the bed, your eyes closing as your breathing slowed. Screams echoed throughout Y/N's room, the temperature of Eddie's body rising as he thrashed himself around on the bed, his finger nail rotting off his fingers sharp black nails growing out of nail beds. His veins popped out of his hands, his skin's hue getting paler. His eyes are darkened from their already dark brown colour to a dark red-like shade, vein-like lines appearing around his eyes. His canine teeth growing downward into a point as he continued to thrash around, he sat himself up from the bed. The pain grew worse in his back, his back contorting as blood dripped, black wings growing out from his back. He hunched over, his knees coming in contact with the ground as he panted and snarled. You wake up from your nap, looking at the clock by your bed. You held the Walkman that was next to your head, pulling the headphones off of your head. You made your way onto the edge of the bed, a chill coming over you as you felt a pair of eyes on you... You look up from the ground, seeing no one. Feeling uncomfortable in your home, you reach for the phone dialing Steve's house number, "Hey Steve, can you come over... please?" Eddie's eyes loomed around the room, that he was in.. He walked around your room, his eyes darting around at the familiar items. His senses were heightened, the sound of the vines in your house moving made his head whip over to its direction. He walked out of your room, approaching the bathroom turning in the direction of the mirror. He leaned into the mirror seeing himself, a wave of fear taking over him as he stumbled back against the wall his wing hitting it causing a groan to escape his lips. He stared at himself, tears falling from his eyes... He noticed that the tears weren't tears, he reached his hands to his face, him jumping from how different his hands looked.
"What the hell..."
He wiped tears from his face, acknowledging their red colour. He peered up at the mirror, seeing Vecna appear behind him. Eddie jumped, his back now against the sink as he turned to face the monster that wasn't there. He sighed, feeling relieved that he was alone. Knock Knock.
You approached the front door, opening it seeing grey clouds and red lightning. "Hey, Y/N-" "Y/N?!" You stood in the doorway, your eyes white and in a trance like state. Steve's eyes widen seeing you like this, and quickly begins shaking your shoulders attempting to wake you up. "Y/N! WAKE UP!"
Steve’s mind began racing as he pushed past your still body, running to your room to find your Walkman. Eddie walked out of the house, he could sense Vecna and began following after where he was. His wings began flapping, as his feet lifted from the ground, he kicked his feet as he flew upward, not used to flying. He began flying in the direction to where Vecna’s home resided.
You stepped outside of your home, walking around your front yard hearing the clock chiming. You turned around seeing that the door to your home turned into the clock that chimed in your ears.
“Hello, Y/N…”
Your eyes darted to the direction the voice came from, the squelching sound of Vecna’s footsteps drawing closer. You begin to run, your chest heaving up and down as you run from Vecna. You find yourself seeing a wooden door ahead of you, opening it and slamming it shut. You caught sight of Eddie’s body laying on the ground, a scream slipping from your lips as you ran towards Eddie’s body, the squelching steps drawing closer and closer to you as you ran towards Eddie. 
Steve came running back from your room after successfully finding your Walkman on your pillow, he ran his way to your still body. Your eyes twitched, as you stood still in front of the door to your house. Steve placed the headphones on your head, playing the music in your ears. He made his way towards a phone in your living room, calling Robin. “Robin, get everyone now! I’m at Y/N’s house, she’s in trouble!” He spoke quickly, the panic being very apparent in his tone. Eddie arrived at Vecna’s home, his landing on the ground causing him to face the plant. “Shit!” He muttered as he stood up, “I will never get used to this…” Him dusting himself off before making his way towards the door of the home, the stained glass rose gleaming faintly. He opened the door and looked around, before making his way upstairs to where Vecna resided. Upon approaching the attic, he saw the vine move around the door, he took a deep breath then entered seeing vecna strung up with his tentacles. Eddie trying overcome his terror approached Vecna.
You stop in your tracks, hearing the song I’ll Wait by Van Halen playing, you couldn’t tell where it was coming from but your surroundings began to warp around you a gate opening in the distance where Eddie’s decomposed body once laid. You began running toward it, a vine gripping your ankle and pulling you to the ground. “No! Fuck-” “Y/N…” The squelching steps grow nearer, you turning your attention to your ankle. You looked around for anything that could free you, seeing Eddie’s old pocket knife on the ground. You turn your attention seeing Vecna. He approaches you, the vine lifting you from the ground as you are turned upside down. “You cannot run from me forever, Y/N…” “Fuck you!” You screamed, the pocket knife you had being tucked away in your sleeve. Vecna approached closer to you, his face inches from yours as he came nearer. “It’s time to end your suffering…” He stated before flipping you up right, the vine releasing your ankle and his left hand reaching over your face. 
Steve watched as you began levitating from the ground, him dropping the phone from his shoulder as he ran over to you, holding your ankle in an attempt to hold you down onto the ground. He screamed, the lights flickering as you continued to hover in the air, the headphones and walkman still on your body. Eddie grabbed one of the bullet casings that were on the ground from Nancy’s previous attack on Vecna, his eyes looking from the cases to the broken glass that covered the floor. He went to the monster, beginning to rip the tentacles that connected to Vecna off of his body. Vecna fell to the ground, snarling as he fell. Vecna stood up, staring down the boy turned Demobat like human and lifted him into the air approaching him. You let the pocket knife fall from your sleeve into your hand, unsheathing the knife before slicing it at Vecna’s wrist, the monster dropping you from the pain you’d inflicted. You scurry off to where the music was coming from.  
“I’ll wait ‘til your love comes down…” You had seen an opening towards your body, seeing you lifted and seeing Steve’s panic and him pacing around as he watched you in the air. You ran towards the portal opening, your hand reaching through to it.
“I’m coming straight for your heart…” Your body fell to the ground, Steve ran to your side, and held you in his arms. Robin, Nancy, Dustin, Mike, Will and Lucas come through the door seeing Steve holding you in his arms, his eyes looking at the group then back down to you, seeing your pale face unconscious. “No way you can stop me now…”
Vecna choked Eddie as he was hovering in the air, he stood in front of the Demo-boy. “I saved your life, you will obey me… if not…” He used his left hand hovering it over Eddie’s face showing the sight of you mangled on the ground in a manner like Chrissy’s body, before releasing the boy onto the ground coughing and catching his breath. Vecna looked down at Eddie, “You will be sent to the other side…”
Eddie stared up at Vecna, his hand holding at his neck, “I can’t let people see me like this…”  He croaked, slowly standing up from the ground. “You won’t, you will control your power… and find me, Will Byers.” Will stood in the doorway of the house, the hairs on the back of his neck standing up, his breath hitching as he turned around to look outside, seeing a figure with torn up clothes watching the house from the outside.
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The Consort - Chapter 19 - Part 2
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*Warning Adult Content*
Finn
Every sound makes me jump.
I listen for his footsteps at the door, waiting... just waiting for him to return.
My breakfast is heavy in my stomach.
A light coating of nervous sweat glistens against my upper lip.
The last shreds of hope have long since shriveled up and faded away.
There's no one coming to save me.
It all makes sense now, really.
Brayden didn't want me, so he set me up to be somebody else's.
It was obvious that my scent was hard to resist.
A piece of me really believed he would cave in to that surrender, though, claiming me as his own.
Now when Axel claims me, there is no chance Brayden will be tempted by me anymore.
He knows what will happen should he feed from me and the consequences will be dire.
Soft footsteps pad down the hallway.
I freeze beside the door, my pupils dilating in distress.
The door handle turns and my heart sinks when Axel steps through the threshold.
His hair is combed to the side, his attire reminiscent of a wealthy businessman.
If I didn't know the type of immortal demon he was, I would probably find him attractive.
He turns to greet me and our eyes collide.
I press my back against the wall and hold my breath.
Axel smirks and moves closer to me.
His scent envelops me, a sultry, minty wave of seduction only immortals have the power of holding.
His cool fingertips slide around my face.
"I can't wait to taste you," Axel whispers.
I tremble beneath him. Axel presses his lips against mine, this time demanding my kiss in return.
His hands feel like they're everywhere, touching me possessively and protectively.
I fight my instincts as much as I can.
Mentally I chant over and over again that this is wrong.
He is evil.
But eventually my walls of will-power begin to crumble, his immortal powers far outweighing my mortal, mental strength.
His tongue slips into my mouth and our kiss deepens.
His touch and kiss is so unlike Brayden's.
He's aggressive and rough, devouring me with dominant expertise.
As we continue to kiss, I begin to feel him straining to keep his control.
His hardened groin presses against my thig, and his fangs elongate so much that it becomes hard to kiss.
I pant for breath as he pulls away from me.
He presses kisses all along my jaw and down my neck.
The tips of his fangs slide into place along my jugular.
My pulse goes into overdrive and tears of surrender slip down my cheeks.
This is it. There's no turning back now.
His fangs pierce my skin and I cry out in pain.
They sink in further and the pain is so unbearable I am afraid I will pass out.
Axel holds me against him and drinks deeply.
I can feel his tongue massaging my neck, the sucking motion pulling my blood into his eager mouth.
The pain begins to ebb.
Replacing it is a tingling pleasure that starts off slow but begins to build.
It's like a tumbling ball of snow, gaining momentum with every passing second.
His touch loses its chill.
Instead it feels hot... so hot that it reminds me of an insatiable fire, each flame thrashing against me again and again.
The feelings are overwhelming.
To my horror, I can feel myself hardening.
Axel rubs against me and I moan in pleasure, angling my head to the side to give him further access to my neck.
It's like the logical part of my brain is wired shut.
All I can do is feel... feel and enjoy the waves of pleasure coursing through me.
But then Axel stops drinking.
He freezes against my neck for a split second before jerking away from me.
He stumbles back a few steps.
My fresh blood coats his thin lips.
A few trickles of blood fall down the length of my neck.
They burn my skin and I raise my hand to wipe them away.
"What....?" he whispers.
Axel reaches his hands up to his throat.
His expression becomes panicked.
The red of his eyes turn to a shallow and sullen black.
Cracks appear at the corners of his eyes and quickly travel down his cheeks, a human version of a broken eggshell.
He frantically claws at his neck until his nails create small divots in his immortal flesh.
He speaks to me but his eyes swivel towards the door.
"You..." he croaks out.
"You'll pay for this."
His words are muffled.
A terrible gurgling noise settles in the base of his throat before his eyes roll to the back of his head.
He slumps to the floor, the heaviness of his body sending a deep thud ricocheting against the floorboards.
I shudder against the wall, staring at his still body in confusion.
What's happening?
Is this a part of what happens when a vampire drinks Nirv's blood for the first time?
Yes, that must be it. This is just the first step.
Maybe it's so powerful that it knocks him out.
Maybe he'll pop to his feet and magically be alright.
I swallow hard and stare at Axel's unmoving body.
He can't be dead.
He just can't be.
I refuse to believe that he is because if that is true, it would be all my fault.
The floorboards creak a few feet away from me and I whip my head to the side.
My heart flutters when a familiar face comes into my line of vision.
It's Brayden.
He stands in the doorway, casually leaning against the wooden panels with his hands stuffed into his pockets.
Despite my state of confusion, he doesn't at all look surprised with the situation before us.
His red eyes stare back at me apologetically.
"Hello, human."
Over the past week, I have felt more anger, confusion and betrayal by this immortal man than I have from anyone else in my entire life.
He set me up, allowed me to be taken hostage and refused to come to my aide when I needed him most.
"Y-you came after me," I stutter in disbelief.
"I did."
I look away from him, turning my attention to Axel once again.
His lifeless body seems to stare back at me, daring me to wait long enough for him to waken.
"We should go," I whisper.
"If we're here when he wakes up, he's going to try and... "
"He's not going to wake up."
Brayden takes a step towards me and I flinch.
He must notice because he stops in his tracks.
The brightness in his eyes have dimmed so much since the last time I saw him that they almost look brown.
"He claimed my blood," I whisper fearfully in objection.
"He was the first to drink it and now anyone who drinks it afterwards will..."
My voice tapers off, unable to finish the horrid thought.
Brayden listens to me but a look akin to guilt floods his features.
"That is true, human," he replies evenly.
"The blood of a Nirv is deadly to anyone who is not the original vampire who claimed it."
He glances to the side, eyeing Axel's lifeless body with a heated gaze.
A flicker of red swirls in his eyes before he lets out a heavy sigh.
"But he wasn't the first to claim your blood," he whispers.
"I was."
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