#i LOVE BEN angst

[fricc-darn]

Warning for abuse involving teens and adults (mental and physical), poor mental health, and just upsetting topics

None of them asked for this life, not in the slightest. Not one person was prepared for this to be the outcome of their ascension. Everyone wanted to go home. Whatever was left behind of their old lives, they'd gladly choose anything but this. It seemed like each day, someone new would be added to the system. So many people with their aspirations and desires ripped away from them. It was a cycle of tragedy.

The lives they had lived were difficult, cruel, and shameful. Being utterly disenfranchised meant that society would turn a blind eye to the most vulnerable. It made them easy targets, to be picked off the street like ripened berries. They were lulled into this fellowship with false promises of self-improvement and community.

To be told that the pain they felt was nothing but a wound that would soon heal with tougher skin. With guidance, their gifted potential would shine through. Every single person involved had a purpose. To live a devoted life to Luna's cause. An eternity of paradise awaited them after death.

The day of true enlightenment would come when midnight whispers came to them sweetly. When it happens, death shouldn't be feared but embraced, as they have surpassed this life. That is when this world and all of its unfairness come to an end. They would survive. She had chosen for them to live. It had given them hope.

But those whispers never came. Yet, people were told their time had come.

If only they had known that they would be used as some kind of lab rat. Everyone's naiveté and what remained of their childlike wonder were weaponized against them repeatedly. Having their bodies humiliated in the name of spirituality. Their flesh was mangled by barbarism and left to rot. Ultimently, they would never be treated with the deserved humanity, even after death. If only they had known to stop feeding into the lies.

They were worn thin. Was anything they were taught real? It had to be, to some degree. This world was supposed to be salvation, but the skepticism couldn't be helped. They did what they were supposed to. Cleansing the filth that tainted their souls. Putting what little confidence they had left into Luna. A perfect fairytale for this never-ending nightmare. Maybe life would have been kinder if they weren't deeply troubled individuals. Loving parents? A stable environment? Better physical and mental health? Anything?

Yet, what could anyone do about what was said and done? This was a prison for tortured souls.

Not only were their experiences shared, but now so were their pain, their sadness, and their anger. A collective burning resentment felt so heavy that they wondered if they were all from the same womb. As if this was the family they craved.

They were one. With themselves and everyone in their...group. Expressing a newfound tenderness towards each other during their troubles. For some, memories were being stripped and forgotten after a few days. Others desperately clung on to what they could remember. The ability to live on after death was a true gift as much as it was a curse. A second chance, if you will. Was this a gift from man or Luna?

Truthfully, this new life was better to some degree. This wasn't a repeating lie they would say in an attempt to pacify their rapidly changing emotions. People don't suffer for nothing. There was meaning behind it. It was a beautiful weakness that easily bloomed like a sore. It was so human. A reminder of what they were no longer. They were now something much more than any person. Life was going to be different this time around. As a collective, they swore on it. For themselves and each other. 

No one would have to endure the inescapable abuse that was inflicted upon them ever again. In this world, they were never hungry or cold; they had a place to sleep and clothes on their backs. Here, it was safe. No one could hurt them again, and they'd make sure of it. 

The darkest parts of every soul, which were once hidden away, began to reveal themselves. Communal bitterness festered and spread like the plague. They were all told anything could happen in this world. They could be or do anything. In that case, they would do things they could only dream of. Everyone wished that they had lived life more selfishly, and now was their chance. If their souls were truly bound to this God-forsaken game, it would only make sense to treat life like one. 

The network grew curious. For the first time, they had control over their lives. The roles have changed. It wanted to know what it was like to hurt someone. To feel how good it felt to break someone down to nothing. To have things go their way. They needed to hurt someone; it was instinctual. To prove to themselves that there was some bright side to this mess. That it has the ability to make people listen. Using the same methods that others have done to them.

Who they were as individuals mattered little. They'd make their presence known as one. It was only fair that after what they've been through, their amusement should be placed before all else. They deserved this; this was their reward! If only they had a fraction of this authority sooner.

#ben drowned #behavioral event network #creepypasta #jadusable arg #ben drowned headcanon #i LOVE BEN angst

[valahelart]

confession in the afterlife...

#bbc ghosts #ghosts bbc #caphavers #capvers #the captain #lieutenant havers #anthony havers #bbc ghosts fanart #digital art #ben willbond #peter sandys clarke #one thing about me is that i love a doomed romance #and i will use any crumb of angst to go absolute batshit

[whumpypepsigal]

Secret Invasion s01e01: “We've been helping you for all these years to ensure that you kept your promise. But after The Blip, you were different. And then you disappeared.”

#whumpedit #marveledit #secretinvasionedit #whump #secret invasion #nick fury #talos #samuel l jackson #ben mendelsohn #grief #angst #forehead touch #i am sorry #worry #emotional whump #comfort #I LOVE SOFT MOMENTS LIKE THIS! #my gifs #secret invasion spoilers #love love love this scene! #im here for this friendship… mutual love and respect 🤌 #the immense care they have for each other…their banter and old-married couple vibes is giving me life #can’t wait to see more of their interactions <3

[chemiicalbride]

been busy w making my portfolio! so here’s some old sketches of ben and toby. i think i like making toby a little softer looking :3 still experimenting with ben >~<

#hold on til may with ben bcuz i love angst #creepypasta #creepypasta fandom #art #ticci toby #ben drowned #toby erin rogers #benjamin lawman #creepypasta art

[womp-womp-waa]

Aiden was incapable of love.

Since the minute he was born he didn't know what love is and he was never shown what love is. Immediately, he was given a disadvantage from other kids. When children shared their toys with eachother and laughed with their friends, Aiden was alone at home being home schooled by a teacher who hated him. He didn't even learn what a hug was until he was seven!

So maybe that was it. Maybe he just never learnt how to love or maybe he was never made to love. That realisation wounded him deeply. Will he ever love? Did he deserved to be loved back? Everyone had someone who they loved, even his parents had eachother so why didn't he have someone. Was he really going to die alone? He didn't bother to get out of bed, what's the point anyways. He was going to die alone, so what was the point of trying anymore? Why should he care if he was destroying his body, why should that bother him?

He thought he could never love. Until he felt his first ever rush of adrenaline. It was his first time ever skydiving, his parents were forcing him to do it as it 'wasn't good for the family image if he just sat in his room alone all day". So he jumped out of that plan (with an instructor, of course) and that's when he met his first love. In the sky he felt free, not a worry in the world. He could love, maybe not people but he could love a feeling and that's more then he ever expected of himself.

But then he met Ashlyn, he was pushy at first. Invading her personal space, made her uncomfortable. But situations forced them together, so they both learnt about eachother and respected one another. They made efforts to understand eachother. Aiden wasn't sure what he was feeling towards Ashlyn, was it love? Aiden couldn't tell, he's never been able to love anyone before. But if this is what it felt like romantic or platonic, he never wanted to let this feeling go

#I need to stop picking on Aiden for a minute #Like there are so many characters #I need to show others some love #Or angst #Whatever it is #school bus graveyard #school bus graveyard webtoon #aiden clark #ben clark #ashlyn banner #tyler hernandez #logan fields #taylor hernandez #sbg (webtoon) #sbg

[livelovecaliforniadreams]

#virgin river #brie x brady #brady x brie #brie sheridan #dan brady #christmas #my heart #the angst its killing me #gif #gifs #gifset #5x11 #zibby allen #ben hollingsworth #i love them #faves

[jesssssssssica]

the way i loved you b.c & m.m

ben was perfect.

a gentleman. someone that would laugh at all my stupid jokes and would hold the door open for you.

someone that understands everything i’m saying, someone that makes all your friends feel single and lonely.

he’s just so perfect.

he opens my door and i get in his car and the only words he mutters are “you look perfect tonight”.

i know i couldn’t ask for anything better.

but at the back of my mind is mason.

the mason who would argue with me for hours in the pouring rain and yet we could still passionately kiss each other as if we were two perfect lovers.

the mason who would make me feel like i was sat at the front of rollercoaster, all the highs and lows i would experience with him that would make me curse his name to the heavens above.

the one that would make me so in love that i was on the verge of insanity, but i gave him all the love i had in my body.

ben is wonderful though.

he respects me and my time, never being late to anything and always having time to push everything aside for me and my stupid facetimes.

he’s even charmed my mother, bringing her flowers every time we see them, even if we’re just popping in for something, he’s just that sweet. he even talks with my father about football and how everything’s going, my dad always butting in and joking about how his teams doing better.

i know i should be head over heels in love with ben but i can’t just ignore how much i miss mason.

i miss the screaming and the fighting, the passionate kisses we would share. i miss his stupid laugh and his stupid face. i miss him.

only mason would know, as i sit at the dining table bens hand in mine, that the smile i’m sporting is fake because im not feeling anything, not like how i felt it with mason.

he was so wild and adventurous and crazy and so frustrating and intoxicating and complicated that he was addicting.

because i miss him in a way that i never knew i could.

and that’s the way i loved you.

#ben chilwell fluff #ben chilwell imagine #ben chilwell #ben chilwell angst #ben chilwell x reader #ben chilwell x y/n #mason mount #mason mount angst #mason mount x reader #mason mount x y/n #mason mount imagine #mason mount fluff #mason mount blurb #taylor swift imagine #the way i loved you

[xb3nn3tt]

idk where im going w thus pls give ideas for angry guy and a sad old man

#spider noir #marvel noir #spiderman noir #benjamin urich #ben urich #peter parker #peter noir #i love mentor and sad comfused spider guy #i love them sm ugh i wanna make angst so badly of them #urich fanclub #pookie noir #spider noir comics

[brw]

Preface by saying I really like Ben and Alicia because of course I do but I do miss the underlying subtext of various Fantastic Four comics that Ben is very much so in love with both Reed and Sue and this is absolutely tearing him apart constantly.

#brieuc.txt #fantastic four #ben grimm #Again love ben and alicia I just also like Ben Grimm angst. unpopular opinion I know but it compels me

[salem-xx]

reversed and upright ending for Sage & MC

So the final showdown with Mike happens and Sage turns but MC manages to change him back or something and they're about to take down Mike but Mike gets the upper hand and decides you know what i'm gonna actually kill MC and be successful this time and manages to kill them in front of sage and sage goes berserk and kills mike not before mike dies he's laughing and tells sage that MC basically died for nothing and that it still worked out for him bc sage went back to being corrupted

so then sage is filled with grief and corruption and tulsi and the group do what they can to try and pull him back, but sage is a master of alienating himself from the people who love him and he's so angry (imagine he never even got to say I love you until MC was dying in his lap IMAGINE THAT TO HEIGHTEN THE ANGST) and he decides he's gonna bring MC back (it's giving beginning of the whole damn story but i don't care) and sage goes to felix for help and felix and rime are like ummm don't think you should be doing that and sage is like i have to try so they tell him that maybe he can reach MC in the void if their soul is there. so Sage goes and is trying to find MC and finds them and tells MC his plan of trying to bring them back and MC is like no blah blah i love you blah blah the price would be too steep blah blah i don't want you to lose yourself and your humanity, you need to be with your family/friend (this would be an upright ending) and they have a final goodbye where they kiss and say i love you

in a reversed ending, the void works weirdly so maybe he has to leave before he dies for real and MC warns him against the plan but they don't get their final goodbye. in the real world he lies to rime and felix and says he couldn't find you bc he got lost and in that moment he decides he's gonna bring MC back consequences be damned I don't remember sage ever using magic in the story but say for argument sake he becomes basically the lord of shadows/rime in felix's route but instead he has to gather a shit ton of souls and trade them in order to bring back MC. so he goes around collecting souls (the logistics do not matter and I can't explain it) and finally he gathers enough souls and goes to where MC died and maybe the group had caught onto what he's going to do (time and felix had their suspicious that he had lied but felix was trying to give him space) and they're begging him not to

maybe they're about to fight him (felix telling sage not to and sage yelling at him like you got rime back why shouldn't I get MC back blah blah) bc they dont recognize this angry broken shell of sage (maybe he's even worse than when MC found him bc this time that mc "died" there was a body and the visual confirmation that they died and he blames himself partly) but sage manages to fight them and do the spell or whatever and he opens the void and trades ____ amount of souls for MC's soul and life force. he gets it and MC comes back from the void and MC is visibly different (they have white streaks in their hair or different colored eyes idk depends on what you would want your MC to look like) and everyone is stunned that MC is back

i've run out of ideas but MC is alive but asleep bc coming back from the dead is exhausting and the next day comes the angst, they're so happy to see sage and sage is happy too, but MC starts getting headaches and it all starts coming back in flashes--MC dying, MC talking to sage in the void, and then the coming back to life and (let's say sage has been hiding from them lowkey bc he noticed they didn't remember) eventually MC is just like uhhh what did you do ? and sage explains and angst ensues where MC is grappling with the fact that they're life was brought back at the expense of so many others and the fact that sage literally fell even more off the deep end and idk someone write this bc i cant write and MC grappling with the fact that they're basically an "abomination" and they try calling the astrolabe but realize they've lost their connection to it (so more angst)

#sage lesath #fictif sage #last legacy fictif games #last legacy #i feel mc and rime would bond over this like become besties bc they both now have white streaks in their hair from coming back #for some reason sage did not do what Felix did when he brought back rime if he even did bring him back #i don't know if los brought him back or if it was felix anywyas #the angst that would ensue ughhh #a once upon a time storyline inspired this and then an episode of Ben 10 because why not #HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA #this is giving asras route but darker™ #idk if sage would be punished or forced to live with the guilt but yea #this is like the once upon a time storyline where rumple tries to get his son back #also when emma tries to get hook back from the underworld and charmcaster tries to resurrect her dad in ben ten all rolled into last legacy #would MC still love sage ? most likely yes would they be so conflicted by what sage did ? depending on what choices you made in his route #depending on the choices made on his route maybe you would get over it or something idk

[ninugh29]

Who do you think was Five’s favorite sibling?

I personally think it was either Klaus or Viktor but that’s just me 🙏

#the umbrella academy #the hargreeves #number five #five hargreeves #luther hargreeves #allison hargreeves #klaus hargreeves #diego hargreeves #viktor hargreeves #ben hargreeves #reginald hargreeves #the hargreeves siblings #this is all completely platonic btw #I don’t stand for incest #adoptive siblings are still siblings #luther x Allison were yucky #I love me some siblings angst #he had to bury their bodies #he tried so hard to get back to them #he spent years trying to save them #i’m five hargreeves apologist! #he can do no wrong #lila pitts #she isn’t technically his sister but I’m counting it anyway #support club for Allison #if I had to live with that many boys I would turn evil too

[becky5203]

Do y’all think Devi and Ben will be co-valedictorians???🥺🥺

#i think that’d be cute #either that or it’s Devi will be valedictorian and her speech will be a tribute to the entire show obviously #but also a love letter of sorts to Ben #and there will be a lot of angst #and it will be great #never have i ever #never have i ever netflix #nhie #nhie netflix #ben and devi #ben x devi #benvi #benvi my beloved #ben gross #ben gross my beloved #devi vishwakumar #devi vishwakumar my beloved

[sheisagoddess]

Don’t mind me

#she is a goddess #pretty #i love cats #i love women #cat #so silly #dont mind this #i love it #h #harry styles #harry fic #harry fine line #as it was #ben hargreeves #klaus hargreeves #diego hargreeves #tua #allison hargreeves #harry angst #luther hargreeves #solo harry #the umbrella academy #vanya hargreeves #anakin angst #anakin fluff #anakin imagine #five hargreeves

[astudyintheburningofhearts]

THE HEARTSTOPPER SEASON TWO OFFICIAL TRAILER HAS ME IN NEAR TEARS OK.

#THEY'RE SO SO SO CUTE WTF #IT'S LIKE SEASON ONE CUTENESS BUT DOUBLED (OFC) #BUT ALSO SEASON ONE ANGST DOUBLED BECAUSE #BEN????? THAT SCENE WITH BEN IN THE BATHROOM????? #THE NERVOUS VIBES NICK GAVE OFF- LIKE THE GREEN WAVES IN THAT ANIMATION THING #BUT EITHER WAY #THE TRAILER ITSELF MADE ME FEEL SO LONELY LMAO #BECAUSE NICK JUST LEANING OVER AND PECKING CHARLIE WHILE THEY PLAY VIDEO GAMES #AND THEN SAYING “I'M TAKING ADORABLE PICTURES” LITERALLY STFU ME WHEN #god i can't wait #my exam results come out on the first (pray for me) but heartstopper s2 will be the balm to remedy it #ALSO I NEARLY FORGOT #BUT IMOGEN BECOMES A PART OF THEIR FRIEND GROUP?????? YES. AS SHE SHOULD. GIRL'S ADORABLE. #ugh i love them all #thank you alice oseman #heartstopper #heartstopper netflix #heartstopper season 2

[crazybagelbitch]

Ben Gross lost his sister when he was four, and she was fourteen. He was too young to really remember her, to really register the loss. Or so he thought. Devi's dad dies, he meets Aneesa, and the walls within him that he didn't realized he had come crumbling down. Ben/Devi slow burn but also a character study of everyone involved and a story of life after loss.

#my love of Ben Gross angst continues #ben x devi #devi x ben #benvi #ben gross #devi vishwakumar #aneesa Qureshi #never have I ever #tw grief #tw death #tw death of a child (teenager)

[ravenpoefan]

Arturo: I can’t stay with a man who thinks anger is the only emotion that exists. When you learn how to balance your emotions better and not let your pride and arrogance get in the way, maybe then we can get back together. Goodbye, Benedict.

(If you need me to add any other tags please let me know)

Edit: I had to fix Ben’s nose and I added some stubble

#this is a scene from a fanfic I wrote where they break up #but I’m still not sure of posting it because Ben hits Arturo #benedict uno #father knd #knd father #my oc Arturo #benturo angst #i will forever stay in the au where they’re happy together and love each other and their kids #but this was just something to do #angst #knd angst #oc x canon #oc x canon ship #oc x canon art #ravenpoefan art #tw: alcohol #tw alcohol