#isolation posting

[catsauceeartofficial]

Accepting isolation, craving belonging

#art #digital art #comic #long post #this is kind of vent? #I don't want to be all I had a rough childhood wahh #I just find it bizarre to have so many little aspects of my childhood shape me #I crave isolation #I thrive in isolation #But I want to belong #I want to intimately know someone #and I want someone to intimately know me #This is to all the people who have loved me #even if we dont talk anymore #i love you and have loved you and i want nothing but for you to be happy #original post

[horang-07]

FNAF SPOILERS! SCROLL! TALKING ABOUT THE SPRINGLOCK SCENE!

i’ve seen so many people discussing the springlock scene in both negative and positive ways and i think it brings up really cool points about how matthew played that scene and balanced fan expectations with his own characterisation.

i think the discussions around this movie have rlly exposed the disconnect between fanon and canon in fnaf, especially talking abt the core games in isolation, bc frankly in the game universe (ignoring the books) we get Very Little characterisation for William other than the obvious, but Matthew managed to add so much in the way he talks and his body language.

in the reveal scene, we see afton at arguably his peak. in his first scene, he comes off as somewhat demeaning and judgemental until he recognises mike’s name, at which point he seems to have this nervous energy, rushing to cover it up but stumbling slightly, his reaction to the tables being turned even slightly is massive.

this is a man who committed multiple mrdrs in essentially broad daylight, hid the bodies in the most obvious place, and still got away with it, and then kept the crime scene as a trophy of his actions, and an ongoing prison sentence for his victims. he has been in complete control for decades, and is confident that he can deal with any kind of threat quickly. his confidence in his reveal is palpable

it changes when vanessa shoots him. the whole parallel with vanessa and the animatronics is hugely interesting too- how william refers to the animatronics almost endearingly as “kids” when he wants them to obey, how both vanny and the animatronics have an unearned loyalty to him, almost a pseudo-adoption through what he did to them, taking them from their parents and keeping them under his thumb, forever stuck as naive, forgiving, obedient children. vanessa breaking from that control shakes him, but the mask slips back into place almost immediately.

then, he’s outsmarted by the brother of one of his victims, and the child he planned to end next. his pseudo-children turn on him and he can no longer manipulate his appearance or shed his skin to escape. he explodes on them, and his language is incredibly telling that he is being dishonest.

he calls them small, trying to belittle them into submission, even though they are ten feet tall metal animatronics powered by rage. he is grasping at straws to regain control, and failing miserably.

finally, the springlocks go off. the locks in the movie look more like a ribcage, so the first two likely puncture his lungs. they’re slow, and painful, but he doesn’t scream or beg or sob. he grunts and groans, gritting his teeth and only letting out sounds of pain that sound almost involuntary. there is no way in hell he would visibly let himself show weakness or pain in front of these creatures that he believes he has control over. he isn’t brought to his knees until there are eight metal spikes embedded in his abdomen. he doesn’t let the mask fall for even a second, until he literally PUTS THE ACTUAL MASK ON and finally collapses. even then, he’s fighting for consciousness, twitching and writhing with no control over his body. william afton thrives on control, and his soul will not rest until he gets it back.

it’s why he keeps the pizzeria- he always comes back. he can’t help but return to the scene of the crime, putting on his old costume, continuing his killings. he revels in being a constant threat on the horizon. and now, he knows he is going to die, and he knows the suit will bring him back, and noone will be able to get rid of him then. so he puts the mask back on, and waits.

in terms of the sfx- they’re pretty accurate. with stab wounds, you need to leave the knife in the wound as long as possible for best chance of survival, as it stops the blood from escaping. in terms of the springlocks, there wouldn’t be copious amounts of blood as the locks are keeping the wounds filled- which is good because it means a slower, more painful death.

#fnaf #fnaf movie #eden rambles #william afton #matthew lillard #springtrap #five nights at freddy's #fnaf spoilers #idk i thought it was a great scene #ppl just need to manage their expectations of what fnaf 1 Actually Is in isolation #not the years of other media and fandom and lore and theory #we literally saw him get springlocked one time in 8 bit with no audio and four frames. how is this worse in comparison #wanna make another post talking abt how the film explores images vs the reality when you look deeper #specifically abby and her drawings/the drawings at freddys vs mike’s motivation being based on the images he sees in his dreams #and how it’s so perfect for fnaf 1 being a game almost entirely made of just scary images without actually exploring the reality #that these robots are Children and Scared and Lost #tldr the fort scene was necessary

[free-my-mindd]

Isolation is my favorite form of self care.

#text post #my thoughts #isolation #self care

[babacontainsmultitudes]

HEH.

IT'S HERE. THANK YOU FOR WAITING. THANK YOU FOR VOTING. IT'S. IT'S HERE.

*Excluding episodes 43,45, and 46 of S2 since their transcripts are not yet out. ;) Dw, I'll make an updated version of this once season 2 is over. Also some bonus "heh"s if the players were imitating Freddie.

Heh, now go vote for Glenn.

#dndads #(also I'll post a version eventually that's literally just the isolated 'heh's but for now I need a break) #I have been so hyperfocused for the past 6 hours you have no idea #dungeons and daddies #hot glenn autumn #glenn close dndads #taylor swift dndads #glenn close #taylor swift #freddie wong #dndads audio #dndads compilations #please go vote for him I adore Carlos but no. It's Glenn time babey #(also I'll @ the polls a bit later with this but again. need a break lol)

[boxur]

if you want HADES to be a story where the protagonist permakills their dad and runs away from home and stays angry forever? that's hades and chronos. that's the literal exact cycle of abuse and misery that zagreus is subverting by choosing to love his family in spite of hades' poor treatment of him, despite all the factors that exist that would make it so easy to just, not. if you want zagreus to stay angry forever and hate his family for wronging him and abandoning them permanently, you just want zagreus to be hades. and the whole entire point of the story is that zagreus isn't hades. he's better than him.

the tagline of the game is "there is no escape", but the turnout of that is not "so all your efforts are futile." it's "there's no escape, so learn to live anyway. you have no choice."

#i posted this before in that other thread but i wanted to isolate it from the initial post because i feel like they're saying two different- #things dljafslkdf #hades game #hades #supergiant games #zagreus

[segernatural]

sure it was a perfect storm of a pressure cooker but i promise destiel was about destiel

#like 2020 was all building towards something. the isolation the pandemic the general uncertainty of day to day life #toss in the heated election and counting process. sure it *couldve* been anything else. but it *wasnt*. #it was destiel. that night there were even other rumours circulating about other shows. another show even had a huge reveal! #but the most widespread and known was destiel because of course it was! because thats what everyone was losing their mind over! #look at the statistics chart of a history of destiel interest over time! i promise the destiel interest is about destiel! #were people all equally invested? no! were some people memeing? yes! but by and large nov 5th became a juggernaut bc of destiel #as someone who literally was refreshing for election news and developed mania from seeing destiel go canon. it was about destiel #sure the intersection of destiel and election results was fun. but i posted way more destiel than election stuff. cause it was about destie #anyway. idk why im on a soapbox #char speaks #destielputinelection #destiel

[ewwww-what]

Just watched boys night. Will never be normal again.

#please they are so deeply awkward with each other it’s my favorite thing ever #these kids were entirely socially isolated and lonely until they met each other #I’m so glad that they just kind of don’t know how to be friends sometimes #PLEASE #popular kids who are so cool and also SO not cool I love them #the bad boys #(some of them aren’t even boys if you think about it..) #fantasy high #d20 #d20 fantasy high #dimension 20 #d20 fanart #fantasy high fanart #fhjy #fabian fantasy high #fabian seacaster #fabian aramais seacaster #gorgug fantasy high #gorgug thistlespring #riz fantasy high #riz gukgak #fh #the bad kids #I’m playing a game right now where I try to let myself post doodles instead of only finished work and it’s so much harder than I thought #undescribed #not described #my art

[chrxnicdaydream]

Something I think about way too much is how Chuuya’s accelerated healing & (for the most part) physical invulnerability probably reinforced his beliefs that he isn’t human for a long time. And even now, it’s probably still a plaguing thought that he has to fight against.

The fact that one of the only things that causes him to sustain physical damage is the very power that he feels segregates him from humanity.

The fact that during one of the only times that Chuuya is physically vulnerable— for that short period after corruption— Dazai is the only one who gets to see him like that. And how it’s in those moments that Dazai is most tender with Chuuya.

#hoshikawa captures the horror of it so well #while harukawa captures the isolation beautifully #both are true and important. meanwhile Dazai being like #your beauty never ever scared me #i’ve been wanting to do a deep read through of the manga and post my thoughts as i go #so maybe posting this will finally push me to start #rambling about bsd again #bsd #bungou stray dogs #nakahara chuuya #bsd chuuya #skk #soukoku #bsd dazai #bsd meta #bsd analysis #character analysis

[inkskinned]

you wanted to be a good friend, because you loved your friends, but the truth was that everyone else somehow had a pamphlet on being normal that you never received. most of the time you learn by trial-and-error. you are terrified of the next big mistake you make, because it seems like the rules are completely arbitrary.

you've learned to keep the prickly parts of your personality in a stormcloud under your bed - as if they're a second version of you; one that will make your friends hate you. it feels feral, burning, ugly.

instead, you have assembled habits based on the statistical likelihood of pleasing others. you're a good listener, which is to say - if you do speak up, you might end up saying the wrong thing and scaring off someone, but people tend to like someone-who-listens. or you've got no true desires or goals, because people like it when you're passive, mutable. you're "not easy to fluster" which is to say - your emotions are fundamentally uninteresting to others around you; so you've learned to control them to a degree that you can no longer really feel them happening.

you have long suspected something is wrong with you, but most of the time, googling doesn't help. you are so-used to helping-yourself, alone and with no handbook. the reek of your real self feels more like a horrible joke - you wake up, and, despite all your preparations, suddenly the whole house is full of smoke. the real you is someone waiting to ruin your other-life, the one where you're normal and happy. the real-self is unpredictable, angry.

your real self snarls when people infantilize the whole situation. because if you were really suffering, everyone seems to think you'd be completely unable to cope. but you already learned the rules, so you do know how to cope, and you have fucking been coping. it's not black-and-white. it's not that you are healed during the other times - it's just that you're able to fucking try. and honestly, whenever you show symptoms, it's a really fucking bad sign.

because the symptoms you have are ugly and unmanageable for others. your symptoms aren't waifish white girl things. they're annoying and complicated. they will be the subject of so many pretentious instagram reels. if they cared about you, they'd just show up on time. you care, a lot, so deeply it burns you. you like to picture a world where the comments read if they loved you, they'd never need glasses to see. but since that's a rule you've seen repeated - "one must never be late or you are a bad friend" - you constantly worry about being late and leave agonizingly early. there are no words for how you feel when you're still late; no matter how hard you were trying.

so you have to make up for it. you have to make up for that little horrible real you that you keep locked in a cabinet. you are bad at answering emails so every project you make has to be perfect. you are weird and sensitive so you have to learn to be funny and interesting. you are an inconvenience to others, so you become as smooth as possible, buffing out all the rough parts.

all this. all this. so people can pass their hands over you and just tell you just the once -how good you are. you're a good friend. you're loveable.

#spilled ink #woke up at 530 to write this lmafo #me in a cold sweat: #how do i be normal #edit in the tags: #hey so i've seen y'all talk about like ... wondering if ur ''allowed'' to relate #like if this is about X specific diagnosis #and when i first posted it i really almost labelled it ''please don't assume this is about a specific condition'' #because as an artist i am often walking this line of discussing a symptom or discussing my conditions etc #and sometimes yes ! i do want to talk about an experience that is specific to who i am and my condition #but sometimes the effort of the post is about the EXPERIENCE rather than the diagnosis #because yes i am not neurotypical and as a result that influences my work but it is ALSO true that there are many reasons #why someone might experience this particular vague horrible feeling that you are... almost being CHASED by what you ''really'' are. #that you're outrunning your symptoms... that you're not really normal you're just sort of a mockery of a person #.... that's a really isolating and horrible way to feel no matter why you are feeling it. and the nature of this PARTICULAR post is that #it is inherently talking ABOUT that sense of isolation & of feeling not-deserving & of minimizing your own experiences to make urself #palatable for society in a way that others find easy-to-deal-with.... #this post is about a certain experience such that my impression is there's a higher likelihood that those who relate #would have more difficulty thinking they ''deserve'' to relate - that it doesn't REALLY belong to them #bc often we are the kind of people who are SO used to being alienated and set aside and ''different'' that we AUTOMATICALLY assume #that things are not ''for'' us... they never have been why would it start now #we are the kinds of people to be ... ''too normal for X diagnosis but too symptomatic to be normal'' #[or as this post points out... so good at ''coping''/masking/hiding it that we essentially conform to whatever shape we're poured into] #but i have witnessed others already say in the tags ''thought this was about me but it's about X so it can't be'' #and im like ... of course it was about you. #art is not a resource that is diminished by greater appreciation . #you reflect in whatever mirror fits your frame. not just the ones in your bedroom. not just the ones i specifically give you. #there will be - and often are - times that i will talk about my specific conditions... but if you're reading this #regardless of why you're here... we are here together. holding hands through space and time. and i love you for carrying it #and i know you're exhausted. i am too. but i understand. and i see you.

[rqg179]

there is something incredibly fucking comical to me about baron's profile having this horrifying fucking illustration and being caption Baron of the Baronies: Living Nightmare, Roëmænce Partnær and then just a little (he/they) off to the side

#diversity win! this nightmare manifestation born out of your fear of being isolated from your peers by your sexuality is nonbinary! #my post #fhjy #d20 #fantasy high

[stellar-collective]

Poppy oughta know by now that with Branch, clear communication is absolutely key

#i was SO CONFUSED when in the second movie it turned out they weren’t already in a relationship #i think it would be funny if Poppy was under the impression that they’d been dating for ages #but Branch is one of those people who are NEVER SURE if behavior is flirtatious or not bc he doesn’t wanna be jumping to conclusions! #and due to his isolation he wouldn’t know the difference between friendship hangouts and dates #they figured it out. eventually #broppy #poppy #branch #trolls poppy #trolls branch #trolls fanart #trolls #dreamworks trolls #trolls band together #my art #i’ve got maybe one more trolls post left in me. stay tuned

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

best BEAST!!

#fanart #Xuanwu #in case it does not show credits: Thank you to Minilisko #And a huge thank you for letting me post this to The Blog <3 #The best is real! The details and edits are so on point! What a marvelous creature!!! #There is an innocence to the beast...A porcupine dilemma of being unable to be close without hurting others. #The knife is protection and the knife is isolation. Safety over companionship... #It was just sleeping in cave when the cultivator's showed up. It woke up to arrows and swords! #Did it mean to harm anyone or did it just react to the world around it? #(speaking of the actual beast in mdzs now:) There was a tunnel to leave the cave and it stayed. #Do you ever wonder if the beast found it's way inside but grew to big to leave? If it entered to be safe but ended up trapped? #This is all to say: Hey Madam Lan I think I have a new friend for you. She understands your plight. #Forfeit your worries to the turtle. Let the turtle bring you joy

[free-my-mindd]

Sorry I didn’t text you back I’ve actually been busy isolating myself.

#text post #my thoughts #isolation

[nookisms]

Finished my second Kirby game

Went from "Yay there's so many different games to choose from! (he's a jolly fellow 🤨)" to "Humanity Is Extinct, Your Friends Are Kidnapped, And Something Haunts This Land"

Masterpost

#Kirby series #kirby and the forgotten land #Kirby #Waddle Dee Town #Tropic Woods #Meta Knight #clawroline #king dedede #forgo dedede #fecto forgo #Morpho Knight #go in the dark #text post meme #she speks #she speks originale #she edits #BEFORE ANYONE ELSE ASKS #yes I know kirby lore #it was a joke on how I went from 'Marx Betrayed You :(' to Eldritch Horror Monster #TECHNICALLY I haven't finished finished #I need to beat isolated isles but like. I'm pretty close #several of these screenshots are from ME!!! #the Meta Knight one was. SOOO hard. #he was not easy to work with

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

Body Doubling for ADHD and Autistic People

The Autistic Teacher

#autism #actually autistic #adhd #adhd post #body doubling #communication #time management #isolation #lonliness #neurodivergence #neurodiversity #actually neurodivergent #The Autistic Teacher (Facebook)

[53v3nfrn5]

The Loneliest House in the World Location: Elliðaey, Iceland

Originally built in the 1950s as a lodge for puffin hunters, this house is often referred to as the most secluded home in the world. There is a widespread misconception among foreign fans that the Icelandic singer, Björk, has lived on/owned the island. The artist, however, never purchased the island or a house there. Today, the island is deserted with no residents since the 1930s

#bjork #iceland #facts #nature #travel #world #places #aesthetic #architecture #naturecore #island #icelandic #bjork post #cottage #lodge #cottagecore #house #cute houses #isolated #lonely #secluded #famouse homes #homes #world things