Sphallolalia | Part 7
Series:
⇢ Pairing: San x fem!Reader
⇢ Genre: flirty af fluff, hints of angst, suggestive, kinda smutty, older reader (noona)
⇢ Synopsis: As your best friend’s maid of honor, you must endure the shameless best man’s flirting until after the wedding. It's just sphallolalia... right?
Part 7: Middle of the Night - Moodboard
⇢ Genre: fluff, angst, & suggestive
⇢ Warnings: language, mentions of sexual assault (involves one-time-appearance character)
⇢ Word Count: 6,561
a/n: I split part 7 back into two parts. If there should be any other warnings, let me know!
Masterlist, Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6, Part 7, Part 8, Part 9
taglist: @joongiebug (url doesn’t exist), @simluvbot, @kimtae-bae (not taggable?), @justsayk, @sunsethw4, @baguette-atiny
Perfectionism is not something you ever really associated with bouquet making… until today. You have not actually tried to make a bouquet before, and honestly, it is kind of stressful, especially with Mina hovering over your shoulder watching every little thing you do. After adding a few things to a bouquet, she will take it from you and tweak it a bit. There are barely any apparent differences when she does this. It only makes you more paranoid about what you are doing.
But what pisses you off the most is that after making two bridesmaids’ bouquets, Mina decides to make her own bouquet bigger and needs more of certain elements from the ones you already made. You have to remind yourself that all of this is for her day, and you have to respect that. Taking apart and spreading your masterpieces across her living room coffee table is painful. You have spent about 3 hours working on things, most of that time on those 2 bouquets.
“There aren’t enough flowers to do all of the bouquets and boutonnieres now,” you sigh when she thinks she has perfected her bouquet.
“We can go to the store sometime soon and get more. We need to get stuff for centerpieces anyway,” she says, slumping back against her couch, “I want to get those little strings of fairy lights and put them in clear vases with those iridescent glass rocks and flowers. I really need everyone to respond to the RSVP, so I can get an idea of how many tables we need.”
“You invited like a hundred people. With the tables at that hotel you’re looking at, eight can be seated at each. Until most people respond, just get enough for like fourteen tables. Some people might bring more than one plus-one.”
“But what if I don’t end up needing fourteen tables?”
“Take what you don’t need back to the craft store.”
“I can’t do that if I’ve already made stuff with those things.”
You peer over at your friend, whose head is leaned back on a couch cushion and eyes are closed. “Mina, use your brain. Don’t make decorations for all fourteen until you have a better idea of how many you need. Buy enough stuff for fourteen just in case. How do you have a degree?”
“I don’t need your sass. I’m stressed,” she groans and barely turns her head to look at you, “Speaking of plus-ones.”
“Don’t,” you warn and start cleaning up the mess from the bouquets to elude the conversation.
“Have you met anyone?”
“No, I’ve been busy.”
“My wedding will be here before you know it.”
“Why do I need a date? I don’t mind not having one,” you say, hands pausing on the table.
“I don’t want you to be alone during the reception. I want you to have a good time with someone because I’ll be busy making the rounds among family.”
“I’ll be busy making sure everything is going right, so a date would be by themselves anyway.”
“If we have it at that hotel, they have staff to help with most things. You need a date.”
“Mina… I don’t need a date.”
You crawl from your place on the floor onto her couch, mentally exhausted from making bouquets. Her meddling in your love life is the last thing you need right now.
“Have you been on any dating apps?” She asks, following suit onto the couch.
“You do realize I met Mark on one, right?”
“Mark isn’t the only guy who uses that app.”
“But most guys on dating apps are like Mark. You wouldn’t know. You’ve never used one.”
“I watched Kyungmi use one, and since I knew you were coming over, I watched a bunch of YouTube videos on how to set up a good profile.” She grins, pleased with herself.
“What the hell, Mina? I already deleted that app from my phone.”
“Then redownload it?”
“Are you not picking up on my reluctance?”
“Oh, no, I am. I’m choosing to ignore it because I want you to find someone to make you happy.”
“Being in a relationship isn’t the only way to be happy.”
“But it helps.”
You stare at her, unimpressed, and lie, “I don’t want a relationship right now.”
Because deep down, you’re interested in someone who will never be fully interested in you, but you can’t tell Mina that. Alas, you give in to her wish and hand over your phone when the app finishes downloading. She quickly dissects your previously made profile.
“You need different pictures,” she says as she swipes through them.
“I don’t have any recent pictures.”
“Why not?”
Your photos app is pulled up, and she starts going through all your old photos. The selection is minimal as you only take ugly selfies to annoy her with and random screenshots of things from online.
“I don’t know. I just don’t take serious selfies.”
“You can take one right now.”
“Do you not see how bad I look right now?”
“I can do your hair and makeup.”
“I don’t have time to do all that,” you remind her that you have things to do tonight.
“Then we’ll use this old one,” she suggests, stopping on a decent selfie of yours.
“That’s from like five years ago.”
“But it’s a good picture.”
“I don’t even look like that anymore. That’s basically catfishing,” you complain.
“It’s not catfishing if it’s actually you.”
“Still doesn’t feel right, but whatever.”
She smiles to herself while adding different pictures and changing your bio. One thing she does before swiping through profiles is block Mark, who was found in your old conversations. It is redundant, but it sets the tone for the time being. No fuck boys will be tolerated, who, to you, seem unavoidable. This leads to inevitable arguments over potential suitors for the next hour as she swipes and converses with other users. It could have gone on even longer if you hadn’t mentioned you needed to leave soon to go grocery shopping.
Looking over all the new conversations in your account, Mina tells you, “Check your account when you get home and tell me if anyone messages you.”
“Any decent guy my age isn’t going to be on a dating app,” you grumble as she hands over your phone.
“Are you not a decent woman on a dating app?”
“At this point, it’s not me on the app.”
“Hey! I’m trying to help you out!”
“Help I didn’t ask for.”
“Do you want to die alone?” She jokingly asks, but it stings a bit.
“I want to meet someone normally!”
“Dating apps are the new normal!”
“I don’t think they’re for me. No one I’ve met on there has ever worked out.”
“Just try it one more time. You never know. You could match with ‘the one’ tonight.”
You sigh and stand from her couch, “I better go before I lose motivation to get groceries.”
“Have fun,” Mina teases as she walks you to her door, “Send me screenshots of messages and I’ll tell you how to reply!”
“I might just delete the app when I get to my car then!” You shout before entering the stairwell and listen to Mina’s incoherent rant as the door shuts behind you.
Although Mina thinks the dating app will spawn a new and amazing relationship for you, you know it won’t do much besides get you sexually charged pickup lines that you have received multiple times before. And you are mostly correct as you read the previews of messages from your app’s notifications. Some make you uncomfortable while you shop around, tossing random food items into your basket that you probably won’t make anything with.
You make sure to throw it in Mina’s face by sending screenshots. It makes you laugh that she’s actually surprised and disappointed that barely any of them are looking for serious relationships.
Once you are home and have put away all your groceries, you settle on a ‘healthy’ frozen dinner. The meal is kind of small and sad compared to the image on the packaging. Nonetheless, you remind yourself you have a dress to look good in. Eating healthier is a change you should probably make anyway. It’ll be worth it, right?
But the sad frozen dinner is bland, and the middle of each portion is still cold. You don’t feel like reheating each thing because you are beaten down from the long day. Maybe next time you should just get stuff to make salads. It is a bit more effort, but at least you could eat more. Could you survive on only salads until the wedding, though?
As you toss the bowl in the trash, your phone goes off on your coffee table. Mina’s name shines on your screen. Hopefully, she’s not about to bug you more about that dating app.
“Hey, I forgot to ask earlier. Do you remember that hairstylist who did your hair for your school dance?” She asks as soon as you answer.
“Vaguely, yeah.”
“You don’t happen to still have her contact information, do you?”
You think for a minute, chewing on your bottom lip, and then you recall something.
“I might have it in my phone from high school. I’ll have to dig around to find it.”
“Oh, my god. Please? I was so jealous of how she did your hair. I wanted to be older so bad so I could do it too.”
Oh, how the tables have turned.
“I’ll start looking and text you if I find it.”
“Okay, thank you so much. Bye!” She sings before the call ends.
Now, where the hell did you put the box of your high school memories? Somewhere deep in the recesses of your closet, it is there. Inside the box is your small phone from high school still in its brightly colored phone case you ordered online. You plug in the charger and hold down the lock button until the screen lights up with a battery graphic.
The first thing you see when it awakens is the lockscreen of you and your high school boyfriend smiling at each other. You remember that one of your friends caught the candid moment in a picture and later sent it to you. It was a sweet surprise as it was difficult to get him to take photos with you. You can almost feel the emotions you felt in the photo now while looking at it. The feeling of your first love and being in love. Your heart hurts thinking back to all those years ago. With this finding, all the good memories flood your mind, outweighing the bad. You can’t remember many specifics, only the happy and giddy feelings you had.
You wonder what he is up to and how he is, but you can’t bring yourself to check his social media accounts. Seeing him thrive without you would just hurt and make you feel worse about your own life. But what if he is single? Could you reunite and mend your broken relationship caused by immature reasons that you can vaguely remember? Would he still think you’re attractive? You don’t look the same as you did in high school, not that you think your appearance peaked in high school. None of that really matters unless one thing: Does he ever think of you?
This isn’t the point of you digging up your old phone. Quickly, you force yourself to look through your old contacts; there aren’t many as you knew a limited amount of people in high school. With no luck in finding that hairstylist’s number, you inform Mina that you don’t have it.
Unfortunately, curiosity gets the best of you, and you open your messages app. You scroll down to the conversation with your ex. Against your best judgement, you open it to find the memories left in this little device. The last thing you sent him was a selfie of you making an ugly face to which he had sent one right back. His sweet messages telling you good morning and goodnight still prompt the butterflies in your stomach. Scrolling through your conversation takes you back to before the heartbreak, and you begin to miss it. You’re not sure if you miss him or just the feeling.
The wrongs he did to you pale in comparison to the good. Your mind very well could be making those things up to preserve the little positivity you have left. Maybe there is hope for finding an innocent love like you once had, but then you remember where you are in life and all the odds against you.
Before you break down from all your nostalgic emotions, you turn off the phone and stash it away once again. You get ready for bed, washing your face and changing into pajamas. Your stomach quietly growls, and you remind yourself that you have already had dinner and should not eat anything else this late at night. The frozen dinner was not very filling to begin with, so maybe you could have a small snack that won’t make you feel guilty. No, you must keep your will strong.
As you plop down on your bed with a sigh, you feel your phone vibrating somewhere in the sheets. When you read the name of the late-night caller, you simultaneously get butterflies and annoyed.
“What do you want?”
“All I want is you, beautiful.” San’s voice is low and resonates through your body.
There’s a brief pause before you groan and he giggles to himself.
“What’s wrong?” He asks with lingering amusement.
“Just stressed about things.”
“Do they have to do with the wedding?”
“Kind of, but not really. I don’t want to talk about it.”
He hums understandingly, “Sounds like you need a distraction as well. You want to go get pizza?”
“San, it’s like midnight?”
“So? Would a restaurant still be open if you weren’t supposed to eat pizza this late?”
“Do you not remember me worrying about my dress?”
“One meal isn’t going make a noticeable difference. Just live a little with me.”
With a sigh, you give in, “Fine. But I’m already in my pajamas though.”
“The red plaid ones?”
“Uh,” you glance down to check, “Yeah? Why?”
“Those are cute. I’ll wear my pajama pants if that makes you feel better. I’ll come pick you up.”
“Fine.”
“You better not change clothes and make me look stupid by myself.”
“You do that enough on your own.”
He scoffs softly, holding back his laugh, “Alright, I’ll head over now.”
In less than ten minutes, he is already calling again, but you decline the call and head down. The driver’s side window of San’s car is down with his arm hanging out. You notice he is preoccupied with his phone and take the opportunity to mess with him. Quietly, you sneak up next to the SUV and abruptly high-five his hand, which automatically catches yours.
“You scared the shit out of me,” he says, leaning out the window with wide eyes.
He lets go of you, and you giggle at accomplishing your goal.
“I thought you were ignoring me and weren’t going to come down. I was about to head up there to kick down your door.”
“I doubt you could do that.”
He gives you a look like he has something hidden up his sleeve and then gestures with his head for you to get in. Slipping into his car, you see he has kept his promise about wearing pajama pants, but you didn’t expect them to be similar to your own.
“Were you trying to match me?”
“Yeah, so we can look stupid together.”
“We could have done that without matching.”
“But now we look like a couple,” he says with a grin and raised eyebrows.
“We’re not,” you roll your eyes, but an idea hits you, “Mina made me redownload a dating app.”
San’s head snaps in your direction, “Why?”
“She wants me to have a date for the wedding. She also thinks being in a relationship will make me happier. I just don’t like using dating apps anymore.”
“No, delete it. What she’s wanting you to find isn’t going to be on a dating app. Those apps are barely used for actual dating. They’re hookup apps at this point.”
“See! That’s what I said, but she didn’t listen. I sent her screenshots of the gross messages I got earlier, and she was surprised.”
“Has she ever used one of those apps?”
“No, because she met Mingi almost immediately in college.”
“Thought so,” he mumbles, “The reason for you using that app isn’t going result in an actual good relationship. If you don’t want it, then nothing is going to work. Love can find you when you are ready and least expect it.”
“That sounded deep coming from you.”
He chuckles, “I know a thing or two about relationships.”
You observe him lift his hand to his face and stick the tip of his thumb between his lips. Little clicking sounds follow.
“Don’t bite your nails,” you scold.
His hand drops immediately as he glances at you.
“Under your nails harbor germs.”
“I haven’t died yet,” he jests.
“San!”
“It’s just a harmless habit.”
“You could get sick or get an infection in your nail beds.”
“Like I said, I haven’t died yet.”
You groan out of annoyance, and he smiles, pulling into a parking spot outside of a 24-hour pizzeria. The restaurant is located in a quaint strip of businesses. You have passed it thousands of times but never actually stopped here before. Surprisingly at this hour, a few people are dining in the restaurant and two people are at the register.
“Are you fucking serious?” San mutters under his breath as you get in the line.
“What?” You give him a worried glance.
He shakes his head and changes the subject, “What are you getting?”
You hum as you scan the menu before answering, “I think a slice of cheese. Are you getting just one slice?”
“Yeah, it’s a bit late for a lot.”
“I told you it was too late for pizza.”
He mimics you in a small voice as the cashier calls for the next in line.
San greets the man and orders, “We’ll get one slice of pepperoni and one slice of cheese.”
“I thought you were getting just one?” You slink up next to him.
“I am. That was both of our orders,” he answers, handing over a card to the man.
“San-”
“Are you two dating?” The cashier interrupts.
You shake your head while San nods, which causes you to give him an annoyed look.
“Here’s your receipt,” the man says with a smirk, “Your pizza will be out shortly.”
San snatches his credit card, the paper, and the complimentary cups from the guy.
“Why the hell did you say yes?” You try to keep your voice down as you walk away from the registers.
“For fun,” San responds curtly, the complete opposite of fun.
Peeved, you follow him to the fountain drink machine and grumble, “You didn’t have to buy my food.”
“I asked you out. It’s only fair,” he answers while filling the cups with ice.
The words ‘I asked you out’ set your body on fire, but you know he doesn’t mean it like that. Though the delusional side of you pretends he does.
“To be honest, I’m really surprised you agreed. I was prepared for a hard no.”
You take a cup from him and fill it with one of the sodas.
“Who was your first pick?” You ask, letting go of your anger.
“Usually, Mingi, but he’s busy.”
“In the middle of the night?”
San simply hums as he heads to a booth, and you follow suit. Something is fishy about him tonight. You’re becoming suspicious of him.
“Do you not work?” You address your first observation: he asked you out around midnight on a weekday.
“I work for my uncle’s consulting firm, so I get to work from home most days.”
“Consulting firm? That sounds boring.”
“I spend my days telling businesses how to spend their money and asking rich people for donations, so yeah, it’s kinda boring. But at least I get to do all that in my sweats.”
“Must be nice to get to work from home… So what kind of businesses do you consult?”
“I’m currently working with a nursing home. They’re running out of money and don’t know what to do.”
Your heart feels heavy as he explains the home’s situation. There’s a passion in his eyes that is admirable. This is the most mature he has ever sounded. It’s actually really attractive.
“Many of the residents have family in the area, and if the home closes, they will have to relocate and most likely be moved farther away. People don’t visit homes as often as the residents would like, so more distance between them will cause even less visits.”
“That’s so sad.”
“Yeah,” he nods and solemnly looks down at the table.
Two plates land on the table with a clank, startling you. The cashier from earlier smiles at you and places a napkin next to each plate. After thanking him, you grab your napkin and notice something written on it.
“He gave me his number?”
San irritatedly rolls his eyes and takes a bite of his slice. The two of you sit in silence for a minute before he breaks it.
“What was your first kiss like?”
You are bewildered by the question. That is a memory you have repressed because, in all honesty, it wasn’t that great. In fact, you cringe thinking about it.
“Um, well, in high school, I had been talking to an upperclassman and told him my birthday was coming up. On that day, he found me in the hallway on my way to a class and just kissed me and said ‘happy birthday’ like that was a gift. At the time, I thought it was so cute and bragged to my friends about it. He turned out to be a douchebag and stopped talking to me because he was bored.”
“Bored?”
“I wouldn’t do what he wanted me to,” you say, giving San a look hoping it conveys you’re talking about sexual things.
Recognition flickers in his eyes. “Yeah, he’s a douchebag. This is why you shouldn’t date older guys. You should try dating younger guys.”
You narrow your eyes at him, and he just grins.
Ignoring that, you add, “Now, he has a tattoo above his dick that says ‘crotch rocket.’”
“How the fuck do you know that?”
“He works in adult entertainment.”
“You found him in porn?” San asks a little too loudly.
You shush him before continuing, “I didn’t find him. One of my high school friends did.”
His laughter is almost contagious. “I’m gonna need to see this tattoo.”
“I am not searching porn sites to find my first kiss. Absolutely no way.”
“I’ll find him myself then.”
You roll your eyes and reciprocate his question, “What was yours like?”
“Not nearly as romantic,” he jokes, making you scoff, “It was during a game of truth or dare.”
“Ah, this sounds like a high school story too,” you comment before taking another bite of pizza.
“It was actually in middle school.”
“What?” Your eyebrows shoot up.
“I got dared to kiss a girl by her friends because she had a crush on me. I didn’t like her, but I didn’t want to look like a loser.”
There’s a hint of affliction in his eyes as he explains. You can tell he’s either regretful or ashamed, and it pulls at your heart.
“I’m sorry she stole that from you.”
“I’m sorry he stole that from you too.”
His sympathetic eyes dance around your face before landing on your mouth.
“You got some marinara on your lip,” he says, naturally wiping the sauce off with his thumb and then licking it off his finger.
You feel your cheeks heating up from how intimate that felt and need to move the conversation along to hide your embarrassment. Your second observation is that he mentioned needing a distraction, but from what?
“So what’s wrong with you?”
He gives you a look of confusion as he is quite clearly enjoying his time.
“What did you need a distraction from?”
“Oh… I’m also stressed about things.”
“About the wedding?”
“I don’t want to talk about it.”
“So you invited me out in the middle of the night to emotionally eat and not talk about our feelings?”
He hums as if it is completely normal.
“This isn’t a healthy coping mechanism.”
“You worry too much.”
The silence falls over you again, and you defeatedly return your attention to your slice of pizza. But it doesn’t last long.
Suddenly, San speaks up, “Mingi is going to start staying at Mina’s apartment more often. That’s why he was busy tonight.”
“Oh, really?” You say, and he nods, “I was wondering why you two still lived together.”
“We promised each other that we’d live together until one of us got married. Now here we are.” The way he says the last sentence tells you he’s exasperated. You feel the need to assure him that living alone isn’t the worst thing in the world, although admittedly, it kind of feels like it sometimes.
“Living on your own isn’t too bad. No one eats your food, uses your shit, breaks your furniture…”
“Sounds like you’ve had a roommate from hell.”
“It wasn’t really my roommate; it was her visitor. In my second year of college, I had a roommate. She kept bringing a guy over, and I always heard them yelling and arguing. She had trust issues, and he had anger issues. One late night when they came back from god knows where, they got into a huge fight. He ended up punching a hole in my bedroom door out of rage.”
San’s expression holds hints of horror, confusion, and concern. “Did you call the police?”
“I didn’t have time. I had a paper due at midnight.”
“Y/N!”
“I know! But at least the landlord believed me and allowed me to break my lease to move into a one-bedroom apartment.”
“Was your roommate okay after all that?”
“I don’t know. They both ran after it happened. I never saw her again, and I think she blocked my number.”
He nods as he seemingly thinks about his next words. There’s a small hesitance when he asks, almost like he might step over your boundaries, “Do you not have, like, friends from high school you still hang out with?”
“I did. But it has been years since I talked to any of them.”
“What happened?”
“After graduation, none of them really stayed in touch. My best friend went to the same college as me, but she ended up transferring somewhere else. We haven’t talked much since she moved out. I figured if she wanted to, she would. I was the only one to try to catch up, but she would stop replying after a few messages,” you answer honestly. It brings up many emotions you cannot define but it hurts. So many questions about why it has turned out like this.
“I can’t imagine not talking to Mingi ever again.”
“I couldn’t imagine that in high school about my friends, but we had nothing that kept us together anymore.”
“What do you mean?”
“School. We were stuck in the same place, and once we were out, it was like it never happened. It’s like we’re strangers now.”
He nods solemnly.
“I’m dreading the day my best friend gets engaged to her high school sweetheart,” you mumble, letting a little piece of pain slip out.
“Why?”
“I’ve always pictured her and our other friends in my wedding, but I don’t think she felt the same way about me. I was always the second friend, the second option… I’d be surprised if I was even invited. She could already be married for all I know. I don’t get on social media anymore.”
“Why would you want her in your wedding now?”
You sit for a second thinking about it. “I don’t really have anyone else to ask.”
“You know you don’t have to have a traditional wedding, right? You don’t need a big bridal party. There aren’t requirements for weddings.”
“I guess.”
“I would want only the people close to me to be in mine- I mean, ours.”
“Shut up,” you say in slight exasperation, and he grins with a little giggle, his eye smiles and dimples on full display.
“You really hate weddings, don’t you?”
“Yeah, basically.”
San opens his mouth to say something, but your phone lights up next to your plate with a call from Mina, effectively interrupting the conversation. As you reach for it, San snatches it out from under your hand. When you protest, he places it face down next to his plate.
“Until I drop you off, you’re mine.”
“What if it’s important?”
“It’s not.”
“How do you know?”
“Because it’s about me.”
“What did you do?!” You yell, to which San shushes you.
“Don’t worry about it… for now.”
“Did you ruin something?”
“Physically, no.”
“San!”
“Can I get anything out of your way?” The cashier swings by offering to take your empty plates amid your argument.
San quickly grabs your plate and crumbles your napkin before tossing it onto the plate and looking coldly into the man’s eyes. You glare at San as he stands from the booth. You try to apologize to the cashier, but San grabs your wrist and tugs you to the exit. Finally, your third observation: his hostility towards the pizzeria employee.
As soon as you’re out the door, you interrogate him, “Why did you do that? What is your deal?”
“He’s just a fucking loser who’s stuck working at a shitty pizzeria.” San unlocks his car with the key fob as you approach it.
“Just because he has a service job doesn’t make him a loser. I work at a retail store. You want to shit on that too?” You challenge him, ripping open the passenger’s side door.
“No, I did that because I see him at bars pulling the same shit as me. He has no good intentions.”
His door slams once he’s inside, him giving you a stern look.
“But I can hang out with you?” Your tone is bitter as you ask the question.
“I’m not trying to get with you,” he says while starting the engine.
It’s quite obviously the truth, but why does it hurt so bad?
“He’s not actually interested in you.” His voice softens.
“How do you know that?”
“He probably gave you his number to get back at me for getting him banned from a bar.”
Your head snaps in his direction. “How did you get him banned?”
“He followed a girl into the restroom, and I told the staff.”
“Sounds like someone else I know.”
This causes something to snap inside him.
“Don’t you dare compare me to that fucker. There’s a difference between waiting outside for someone you know and following an unsuspecting, drunk woman into it. I’m not some fucking monster.”
You’re too shocked by his outburst to respond. Your silence draws his attention. He exhales deeply and continues with a gentler voice, “You’re too good for him… He doesn’t deserve your time.”
“And you do?” You counter out of annoyance.
“No.”
You don’t know how to feel after that. He helped you dodge a bullet but then shot one of his own. From what you have gathered recently, San isn’t a bad person, so why wouldn’t he deserve your time? What has he done that was so bad? Without knowing what else to say, the two of you remain quiet until he pulls into a parking spot outside of your apartment building.
Before you reach for the door handle, San quietly confesses, “Me and Mingi have been going through the things we bought together and deciding who keeps what. We got into a huge argument over the TV that I paid more than half for, so I told him to go fuck himself and find another best man.”
Anger bubbles up inside you and spills over.
“What the fuck? Why would you do that?”
“Because I was mad-”
“That’s not a good reason! You are his best friend. He wants you next to him on one of the biggest days of his life, and you drop out because of a stupid argument? Out of all the childish shit you’ve done, this has to be one of the dumbest things. You are an adult. Act like one,” you scold, noticing the corners of his lips curling up, “Why are you smiling? I’m literally yelling at you.”
“Because you care.”
“Huh?”
“You wouldn’t be yelling if you didn’t.”
“I have no choice but to care. This isn’t just about you. It’s my best friend’s wedding too. And I’ve had to deal with you this long. You can’t back out now. We’re all depending on each other, including you. You’re being a pain in the ass. After you drop me off, you need to go back to your apartment and make up with Mingi.”
“He isn’t at our apartment. He’s at Mina’s.”
“Then call him and fix this.”
“What if I don’t want to?”
“Do you really not want to?”
He opens his mouth like he’s going to say something but then closes it.
“I know you’ve been enjoying being the best man so far. I can tell by the way you act although that includes annoying the shit out of me,” you admit reluctantly and sigh, “Do you really want to spend the rest of your time living with Mingi estranged?”
He begrudgingly shakes his head. Both of your attentions are drawn to your phone in your lap lighting up again with Mina calling.
“Don’t,” San begs.
“I already ignored her call earlier. If I do it again, she’s going to think something is wrong,” you reason with him before answering, “Hello?”
“Hey, I’m sorry I’m calling so late, but have you talked to San tonight?” The attitude in her voice reveals how pissed she is and rightfully so.
The car is silent enough for the said man to hear her speak, and he shakes his head with pleading eyes.
“I’m currently bitching him out right now,” you reply with just as much spitefulness.
“Are you with him?” She asks, baffled at the possibility.
San shakes his head more vigorously.
Not just for San’s sake but also your own, you lie, “No, I’m texting him. He’ll probably call Mingi in a little bit.”
“Oh, thank god. I swear men are so fucking stupid.”
“I know,” you agree, staring San directly in the eye.
“Okay, that’s all I wanted. I’ll talk to you tomorrow!”
After hanging up, you turn your full attention back to San, “Promise me you’ll fix this?”
“Only if we kiss on it.”
You glare at him sternly.
“I promise,” he says with a pout.
“Good.”
As you open the door and get out, San uses it as another opportunity to tease you.
“I always knew, in your own mean little way, you cared about me.”
“I always knew, in your own mean li- Shut up,” you mock, cracking him up in the process, and slam the door.
No matter how riled up he gets you, you always melt hearing his laugh. He knows exactly how to push you away and reel you right back in, and you just let him. You hate that he has that kind of effect on you. So much so that you fight the urge to punch the exterior wall of your apartment building as you head inside.
Your apartment is quiet, no flirting or teasing. The scent of coconut and vanilla lingers in the air, not cologne that smells of sandalwood and spice. Solitude welcomes you home without a charming smile and dimples. There is no longer a distraction to solely occupy your busy mind. The pitiful thoughts of your past creep back into the spotlight. The warm embrace of your bed is not enough to fend off your unrelenting insecurities.
After reminiscing on your high school days, your heart feels heavy. All through school, you thought you and your friends would be inseparable after graduation. Why do they ghost you when you want to catch up? Why don’t they reach out just to see how you are? It makes you question if they were ever really your friends. Were you annoying? Did they secretly not like you? Were you not enough?
Your paranoia is interrupted by a text that vibrates your phone under your pillow. When you open the message, you can’t hold back the burst of laughter that erupts. San truly is something else.
From: San🖕
Is this that guy? https://www.pornhub.com/view_video.php?…
1:37 AM
The title of the video alone makes you cringe: “Lil Step Sis Takes a Ride on the Crotch Rocket.” While you’re ashamed this man took your lip virginity, you’re kind of thankful San has brought it up again just to make you laugh.
From: You
YOU REALLY LOOKED HIM UP?
1:37 AM
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From: San🖕
He’s not very good at his job
1:39 AM
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From: You
OMFG STOP WHY DID YOU WATCH IT?
1:40 AM
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From: San🖕
We should remake that video and show him how it’s done 😜
1:40 AM
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From: You
EW NO. I’m NOT into that.
1:41 AM
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From: San🖕
All you have to do is pretend to be stuck in something
1:41 AM
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From: You
ADLKSAJFA NO
1:41 AM
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From: San🖕
If I guess one of your kinks, you would be down??
1:41 AM
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From: You
You’re not taking me to bed.
1:42 AM
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From: You
EVER.
1:42 AM
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From: San🖕
Who said it had to be on a bed? 😏
1:42 AM
Now, the only thing you can think of is him bending you over every surface in your apartment that isn’t your bed. It seems like his boldness with you is spreading to the nonphysical ways of communication. Even though it makes your heart pound in your chest, you have to keep him in line.
From: You
I think you’re becoming a little more forward over text than in person.
1:43 AM
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From: San🖕
I mean
1:43 AM
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From: San🖕
I can drive back over if you’re interested
1:43 AM
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From: You
I’m sure you’d come running.
1:44 AM
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From: San🖕
Running isn’t really my thing, but I can still come for you 😘
1:45 AM
Your eyes drift to the time at the top of your screen, and you feel a little disappointed that it’s so late. As much as you want to continue this little banter, you really need to sleep because you have work later in the morning. But you can’t let him know that’s how you feel.
From: You
Oh, no, would you look at the time.
1:46 AM
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From: San🖕
Don’t leave me hanging!
1:46 AM
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From: You
Lol too bad. Thank you for tonight. It was fun… kinda.
1:47 AM
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From: San🖕
Of course! and I’m sorry I’m a pain in the ass 😜
1:47 AM
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From: You
You better be. Goodnight.
1:47 AM
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From: San🖕
Night, beautiful 😘
1:48 AM
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