#times I was in denial

[d3adp00ls]

2019 me: *singing wish you were gay by Billie Eilish*

My friends: 👀

2019 Me:IM NOT GAY THE SONG ISNT EVEN LIKE THAT ITS ABOUT-

Me now: Boobs are so hot and so is BillIe Eilish like the things I would let her do to m-

My friends: OK WE GET IT SHUT UP

#Nah cuz I rlly wonder how younger me would react #i remember how my older sisters talked to me abt it and I was like #I’m not gay #but I am 🤷🏾‍♀️ #billie eilish x reader #pansexual #gay #right now my friends are in denial #fun fact: Billie Eilish was my gay awakening #literally everyone I knew knew I liked her while I kept denying it #times I was in denial #wish you were gay

[stonerzelda]

no but the way this image really did actually awaken something in me in like 2008

#i was in denial abt it but yeah i do remember staring at this for several long minute periods of time but i was always too scared to #save it to the family computer HDGDJFJ #it made me 🤔

[shmaroace]

don't get me wrong, i love all the positivity around being aro, like "be proud of being aro!! love who you are!!", but we never talk about how hard it is to reach that spot. so here's to the aros who are still trying to understand themselves, who aren't proud of who they are yet, who are still coming to terms with their new identity.

#i was in serious denial about being aro for a long time like i knew the label and knew it fit but i refused to use it for several months #even after that point it took a while for me to be comfortable with the label or saying it #and this is not a bad thing!! being aro basically requires you to undo all the societal brainwashing you grew up with #and there is so much arophobia that it's hard to find positivity #i got lucky w/ this blog and the people i follow but i know i had a hard time being as proud of myself and my queerness as i am now #this doesn't even really have to be an aro statement like i think it could fit most queer experiences #sorry for the long tags haha #aro #aromantic #arospec #aromanticism #aro pride #aro positivity #aroace #aspec #1k #5k #6k #7k

[ghostbsuter]

There was a teen in the cave.

A teen no one knows and looks like he could be a wayne, stands in the cave.

"Actually, I'm a wayne." He says with a shrug.

Bruce, Batman, carefully thinks of the implication.

"Not yet," The teen, Danny, doesn't say anything. Simple smiles. "You're not a wayne, yet. You will be. But not yet."

Then Bruce sighs, dropping the batman mask in order to take in the teen.

"Does future me know of the time travel?"

Dannys smile grows into a grin, deciding to take pity on the man. "You, grandbat, have..." He makes a vague gesture. "Theories, which none of your children ever confirmed."

The bat's mind short-circuits at the choice of words

Dick is sputtering incomprehensibly, there are Baffled expression all around.

Because.

Because that child isn't Bruce's, but one of theirs.

"Who is it?" Jason demands, hand clenching his gun uselessly.

Danny continues to smile, a hint of mischief now peeking out.

The cave is filled with theories, some yell, some sob, yet all eyes leave danny.

All but one pair.

She had known the moment his body language switched just enough for her to read.

She had known the moment he disappeared before the clan.

Had known when his hand found hers, shoulders bumping.

Her heart clenches, throat dry and memories of her childhood flooding to mind.

So she asks, voice soft and hesitant.

"Am I a good mother?"

And danny looks up at cass, adoration and pride laid out plain for her to see and accept.

"You're the best."

And so they both watch the clan together, silent and comfortable.

(Cass doesn't question when she finds him, how and why. All she knows is that she's more attentive when out on patrol, looking and waiting.)

(This is how Cassandra Cain-Wayne returns one night from patrol, a child, barely out of toddler stage and clinging to her form.)

(This is how the Batclan officially meets one Daniel James Cain-Wayne, freshly washed and clothed, a cookie in hand and hiding shyly behind Cass.)

(When they meet, all they say is "Welcome home, danny," and "Good to see you again.", Danny doesn't necessarily get it, but that's okay. Maybe his new mom will explain it one day when he's bigger.)

#dcxdp #dp x dc crossover #dpxdc #fic prompt #writing prompt #dc x dp prompt #cassandra cain is dannys mom #time travel shenanigans lead to conspiracy theories #half of the batclan think jason is the dad #or dick #damian and tim are outruled just bc age and tim denying it with no one protesting #alfred knows #danny moves like cass #he gave them both a cookie in the shadows #danny won him over by calling him great grand bat #he tells him of all the mischief they got up to bc no one would believe the baby had alfie wrapped around his finger like that #theyre just in denial #theyre all wrapped around the finger #danny “i mastered how to wrpaonize my cuteness” cain-wayne

[ruporas]

kiss (ID in alt text)

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun stampede #trigun maximum #this is also from a while ago... *kicks rocks* i keep on forgeting to upload stuff. also as u can see... my numerous kisses from before #but stampede vs maximum in my brain basically #ultimately they are both screwed in every versions but at different paces(?) #stampede im so screwed (trying to be normal) #maximum im so screwed (already resigned that they cant be normal about it) #doomed for tragedy but kiss kiss while they can #i very much enjoy drawing stampede vs max schtuff bc i have a hard time verbalizing What exactly their differences are #but i guess w stampede - to me - they feel more impulsive while simultaneously capable of being in deep denial #and with max its the opposite - hesitant and slow but the acceptance is already there........ my brain is mush so im not going to #elaborate more than that but i think this is also why i find stamp vw x max vw interactions fun to think about #ruporas art

[keferon]

Well...I have to say I know nothing about canon Combaticons and their gestalt, but I read The Combiner Quirks of the Combaticons by Gayrob0t today and this is so so good odktjfjfmfn I just had to draw at least one scene from it

#transformers #maccadam #Combaticons #Bruticus #First aid #tf first aid #LISTEN #this fic is f u n n y #I love those idiots even though I know nothing about them #First Aid having...a time.. #just imagine being a part of a gestalt #and then the whole other gestalt is getting a crush on you #what kind of rainbow mess is this #ahahahah #anyway #size difference is fun #the denial all Combaticons are boiling in is also fun #this fic is in progress #so it's not my usual 50-100k words hahah #it is pretty short and absolutely hilarious rigkjfkgm #fic fanart

[imminent-danger-came]

2x02 // 3x01 // 3x03 // 3x13 // 4x12

Team huddle!

#so funny that there are no team huddles in s1 because they didn't plan back then #And then for most of s4 MK is in denial that there should be a plan beyond ''get my friends!'' #lmk #lego monkie kid #lmk parallels #plan man #one day I'll make my post of every time they mention the word ''plan'' #that'll be a long one #''How could you lead us into this fight without a real plan?'' ''We've basically winged it without a real plan!'' #yeah #4x12 did so much for me personally #Me pre s4: oh yeah it looks like MK took on the role of planning especially after Wukong failed to do so #And even further back MK focused on developing this skill after 1x10 when he was worried about winging it with his friends on the line #''What's the plan monkie man?'' ''I don't know. Wing it?'' ''Yeah! Sounds great!'' ''No! I didn't mean you guys too!'' #s4 special: Hold my beer #Me: REALLY????? YOU'RE BRINGING THIS TO THE FOREFRONT FOR MK??? #no one else may care but lmk writers just know. I do #I care

[rennelelorren]

My first actual zutara art, guys!!!!

And, wow, my inner child was healed a little in the proces (I always was scared to draw them).

#atla #avatar the last airbender #atla fanart #zutara #katara #atla katara #atla zuko #zuko #fire lord zuko #technically it`s my second art for ship but this time zutara is the main focus and there no denial of it #zutara fanart #I was scared to draw them for ages #but it`s come sooo easy that I almost feel dumb #укртамблер #украрт #український tumblr

[kelin-is-writing]

fwb!touya who despite your agreement on not necessarily having to stop seeing other peoples, has deleted the contacts of the two or three girls he used to occasionally hook up with, when you weren’t around, the moment you two had started your relationship and everytime he crosses paths with them at school he barely even acknowledges their existence. why? ohh that’s because the moment you, the girl he desires on a soul-type of level, has agreed to be in all this with him touya’s eyes haven’t been able to look away from you, not even for a split second.

fwb!touya who a mere call or text for you telling him how much you miss and want to see him, is enough to make him skip practices with his rock band only to run over to your place and spend time with you. be it doing homework, watching movies or those weird reality shows that secretly pique his interest, playing games that usually end up in heated makeout sessions, you putting on nail polish while he styles your hair, cooking together, napping together, having sex four or five times. just you two basically being all over each others at any given occasion. touya wanted you close to him as much as possible and he was going to have exactly that.

fwb!touya who keeps telling himself you two are just ‘friends with benefits’ but from time to time he finds himself playing the guitar, compose and writes songs while thinking about you. he would’ve never wanted to admit it, for the moment, but you’ve been his muse since the first day you guys meet and the major reason for it was your smile, your laugh, your voice… that beautiful spark in your eyes whenever you looked at him… it made his heart warm up and a pleasing emptiness take over his stomach… shit… this wasn’t good at all, he was going into a dangerous territory right there and it wasn’t supposed to happen.

fwb!touya who has never marked any girl he’s sleep with before nor has he ever permitted them to mark him, because he has never felt the need to do that with his past flings; yet it took only one week, three days, fourteen hours, thirty-two minutes and twenty-six seconds in your relationship to make him go around the campus proudly, a shit-eating grin on his face, with your glossy lipstick imprint onto the side of his neck right where everyone could see it while you walked around with his teethes’ mark on your neck; a statement dedicated to everybody in the school that told all of them he is yours and you are his.

fwb!touya who never holds back from showing off to everyone your close relationship. you could be talking to a classmate and he would walk up to you surrounding your waist with an arm, pulling you flush against his side, and ask genuinely curious and interested what you guys were talking about while leaning his cheek against your head as he hummed along to the explanation you gave him with that voice of yours that is as beautiful as you are, completely smitten and mesmerized. once you were talking with another classmate of yours, that was assigned as a committee with you for a school festival, about some preparations when he came up to you ignoring the other person’s presence and just fixing his intense gaze on you while asking if everything was alright and if you needed any help while delicately moving a strand of hair behind your ear and then rest it gently on the back of your head to let you know that it was fine to lean on him whenever things became too much.

fwb!touya who keeps telling you and himself that the two of you are just ‘friends with benefits’, but the way he fucks you, talks to you and overall treats you are far from being those of an actual ‘friends with benefits’ and he doesn’t notice until a random guy who’s a schoolmate of you two and fan of his band starts asking him about you, throws glances your way, tries (but fails) to flirt with you and touya is watching over you two seething as he smokes by the fences outside the school’s building, tomura being the one who makes him notices that he’s clenching his jaw so hard they can hear his teethes scratching together. it’s right then that he realizes that the reason he had suggested all that thing between you two wasn’t only because he was attracted to you, but because he has been in love with you the whole time since the start of your friendship.

#boku no academia #my hero academia #bnha #mha #dabi #touya todoroki #bnha smut #mha smut #dabi smut #touya todoroki smut #bnha x reader smut #mha x reader smut #dabi x reader smut #touya todoroki x reader smut #fwb!touya #— ❥ kelwrites; #I’M BACK WITH ANOTHER FWB!TOUYA PIECE BECAUSE I WAS RECENTLY LISTENING TO A SONG AND IT INSPIRED ME ALL THESE #also you guys seem to like A LOT the previous piece i wrote about fwb!touya so i told my self ‘why not??? if peoples likes it!!’ #and yeah guys… fwb!touya is 1000‰ the type of fwb who’s BOUND to become a huge ass simp for you. that’s a fact actually. #he would be so in denial for the longest time EVVVER but that’s too late because it just comes naturally to him to act like a simp over you

[puppetmaster13u]

Prompt 146

So. Dan is a combination of both Danny and Vlad. Which he has never had an issue with before, but this is just frustrating. It’s not like he can’t deal with the fact the combination of the obsessions forms a protect family one, and he can deal with it. It’s not like he has one anymore. 

Which is where the gobsmacked annoyance came from- he was planning on destroying his sort-of past-self, showing this was inevitable. But his obsession, apparently like his old man, decided instead to latch onto the kid, definitely not helped by the fact the brat is like two years dead. If that, he can’t recall, all his ghostliness knows is that the brat is a fucking baby. 

He was going to destroy him, he swore! That had been the plan! So how the fuck did he get to helping the brat and the brat’s Jazz packing bags to run away? How the fuck is he responsible parent material, because he is damn sure he definitely isn’t. 

Damnit. He’s taking this half-grown clone daughter too. Fuck Vlad, he can rot in that thermos and the Fentons can stay trying to figure out why the portal is no longer working. Being the responsible one sucks though, he’d rather go back to destroying the world but killing the league a second time also sounds like too much work right now. Damnit again. 

#dcxdp #dpxdc #prompts #dad dan #Dan has acquired three sibling-children #At some point he’s going to be spotted by a time travelling hero who was sent back to stop him #Bad News: he was seen with the brats #Good News: the heroes now think he went evil after something happened to said brats #In Other News: they’re all committing to the bit #Dan has no clue how to raise teens or children or babies but he’s trying #Also he Will kill or maim if someone threatens any of these three #His Obsession really latched on hard- almost like he wasn’t able to fulfill it & it was driving him mad #Danny still calls & videos his friends & sends them gifts from all the places they’ve been #I think Dan should have a sun core for the poetic & scientific reasons #Jordan is in denial that He Is Dad Now

[purpleshadow-star]

I'm actually so glad that they brought up the fact that Hades saved Sally's life cause... yeah. He did. Sure, it wasn't for a super good cause, but he still did save her.

#i think I've mentioned this in a post before #but I'm glad it was explicitly said in the show #also i love how hades immediately beloved percy when he said kronos was coming back #unlike the other gods who were in denial for the longest time (at least in the books) #riordanverse #rick riordan #percy jackson spoilers #percy series #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson disney+ #percy jackson tv series #percy jackson #pjo hades #hades #pjo spoilers #pjo series #pjo tv show #so many tags omg #pjo show #pjo disney+ #pjo tv #pjo tv adaptation #pjo tv series #pjo tv spoilers #pjo

[cavityinmybrain]

something thats been helping us a lot recently has been letting alters just exist. i see a lot of systems who have strict roles and distinct alters, and it can be stressful to see that be the “norm” when our system isnt like that.

we’ve tried forcing individuality, but it only let to more dormancy. we tried figuring out everyones role, but there are too many alters who front just to do very specific things.

now, we are just letting ourselves exist as we are and communicating is way easier. we dont lose so much time anymore. i can remember a lot more (even if i still have emotional detachment).

i guess im just saying that as a system, do what helps you.

tracking fronts? go for it. assigning roles? pop off. making picrews and profiles for every person? thats so awesome.

if you can’t do any of that? you aren’t less of a system.

#plural positivity #system #plural #traumagenic #traumagenic system #multiplicity #sysblr #endo friendly #accepting of all plural types #system positivity #i thought it would be nice to have this as a reminder the next time we feel Denial

[itsajollyjester]

The ending they deserved :(

#finnick odair #annie cresta #odesta #i'm in denial #what sewers #Ive never met a sewers in my life #Also why are babies so hard to draw #I redrew him so many times and im still not 100% happy with how he turned out lol #the hunger games #thg series #thg #catching fire #mockingjay #artists on tumblr #clip studio paint #digital art #fanart #digital aritst #hunger games fanart #odesta fanart #finnick x annie #jolly art

[d3rpydoods]

I saw like 2 posts of this ship and knew what i had to do

#love the idea of bi han in denial over the fact that kung lao's getting through to him #kung lao w bi han be like “me and the bad bitch i pulled by being autistic” #I spend like 3 days on this #exam-procrastination motivation hits different #“THE VOICES” #anyway imma lay down now #everything hurts #i'll probably take a break from animatics after cramming 2 out in so little time #anyways enjoy #bilao #kunghan #bi han #bi han mk1 #kung lao #kung lao mk1 #mk1 #mortal kombat #my questionable creations #animatic

[thavron]

So I think I've cracked this moment.

So this moment has bothered me. I've seen several people say this is Crowley breaking up with Aziraphale, but I think it has a different meaning. I think he's saying, "I understand."

Hear me out.

It was actually listening to the song Good Old Fashioned Lover Boy that caused me to have a little epiphany. I love how it's juxtaposed over Crowley rushing back to Aziraphale, indicating that he is the Good Old Fashioned Lover Boy, but there is more to it.

That song was released in 1976, which is a time when being gay or being queer of any kind was deeply frowned upon. Though laws in the UK banning same sex relationships had been lifted by this time, for consenting adults over the age of 21. Freddie explicitly coming out at this time was something that could have ended his career. Freddie danced with the media on this one, hinted but was never forthright and kept his romantic life largely under wraps. This is something that queer people did in general and had to do well into the 90s. They flirted in code, they romanced behind closed doors. They kept their love out of sight.

Much like our Ineffable Husbands.

Editing to add- that the reason this triggered something for me, is that despite the secrecy, Freddie Mercury got up on stage and sang a song about a man taking another man out on a date at the Ritz. Everyone knew. Just no one knew knew. And it wasn't enough to end his career. Much like our Ineffable Husbands. Everyone knows, including them. Just no one says a thing about it.

Which brings me back to A Nightingale Sang in Berkeley Square.

This song is about one magical night. A couple meet, fall in love, feel the magic of their romance, and then as the sun comes up they go home. It is something like a dream that has to be let go with the harsh light of day. But there is hope, because sometimes they can hear the echo of the nightingale. A promise perhaps to meet again.

So I think it is widely assumed that there is more to the 1941 flashback. I tend to concur. I think we will see the origin of why this song is important to them. I suspect the song is about them. They have one magical night, where they are both brave and express their love for each other. But then the sun comes up and they realise that they have to go back to their lives. I think they will acknowledge that the incident with the zombies was a close call, and they need to cool off and stay away from each other. Slow down.

So 1967 is the first time they have seen each other since. They both know how they feel, they're just waiting for the right time. They shouldn't have met at all, except Aziraphale wants to give Crowley the holy water. I think that explains the awkwardness but also their softness toward each other. It's a meeting of lovers, but the time isn't right just yet. No nightingales are singing. That's what Aziraphale means by "You go too fast for me." Not yet, it's too soon. We're still under suspicion.

So the end of season one, the world is not over and our ineffable husbands are free. What do they do? They go for date at the Ritz. You can not tell me this is not a date. Sorry, don't believe you. "The Ritz is the most romantic hotel in the world." It's like their whole selling point. It's why it pops up in the lyrics of Berkley Square, and also in the lyrics of Good Old Fashioned Lover Boy. It's the place where magic happens. And for me, the playing of the song, and the reference from God herself, it's saying the time is right. They can finally be together again. This is their moment.

So Season Two. I've read reviews of season two where people liken it to fanfiction. Neil calls it is a bridge season. I think it's the dream. Not actually a dream, I don't think Neil is that unoriginal. But in the song they liken that one magical night to a dream. It's a fantasy that they get to live until the sun comes up. They get to live their dream for four years. They are together and they are in love but they are still living in secret. They still don't acknowledge it. They're still holding back. One of the themes in this series is timing is everything. Maggie and Nina's relationship doesn't work because timing. The magic trick worked the time it mattered. Timing is important, and the ineffable husbands are bad at it. They should have thrown themselves into this but they were too cautious and they missed their chance.

I think this conversation is when Crowley realises. Not that he is love with Aziraphale, that was established in 1941. But that everyone knows anyway. There is no reason to hide. No one cares that they're an item. Aziraphale has a similar epiphany after his chat with Shax. So they both decide to move the relationship along, but damn do they have bad timing.

Now I am as confused and heart broken as anyone about the final fifteen. And I am certain that there is something that we are not seeing, a trick that we've missed. There are six minutes unaccounted for. Neil says its a continuity error, but he's demon, he lies.

So here is what I think, and why this line "that's the point, no nightingales" is important. At some point during that conversation Crowley catches on. Whether they have a moment of stopped time, or the fact that Aziraphale is acting so utterly unhinged, there is something that happens that we don't see and it clues him in. He is hurt and angry yes, but he understands. What he is understanding is that the dawn came stealing up, and that the interlude is over. The nightingales stopped singing, and they have to go back to work. He gets it and that's how he lets Aziraphale know.

"You're an idiot, we could have been us." He doesn't like the plan, whatever it is. He thinks running would have been preferable, but he is resigned to it.

Then that kiss. One last goodbye just in case the world ends? Desperate longing and years of pent up frustration? I don't think the trick is here. I think this is misdirection. We're all looking at the kiss, we missed the coded message that came right before. I think "No nightingales" may also suggest that this isn't the kiss. The romantic kiss will come later, when the nightingales sing again. And they will, of that I'm certain now.

The song playing in the car, a message from Aziraphale or from the Bentley reminding him to have hope. Two things we know about Crowley. He is an optimist. He loves to rescue his angel. We also know that he is the trusted stooge with the steady hand. Aziraphale will perform the theatrics, he will do the rest. The fact that he waited and didn't just storm off like he did when he was rejected in series 1 tells Aziraphale that he is still here. He's still in this.

That's my interpretation anyway.

#good omens #good omens meta #yup i have way too much time on my hands #and i hate unhappy endings #and will live in denial about this

[biadoodless]

they smooch !!

#the owl house #toh spoilers #watching and dreaming #lumity #yes i know i forgot amitys roots shhh #this is me coping with watching and dreaming #currently in denial that this is the last time im seeing them #cant wait for the next season !!! #my art