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#love #doodle #sketch #art #life #drawing #pencil #blackandwhite #couples #hugs #intimate #close #connection #lonely #embrace #together #missyou #holdme #holdmetight #allnightlong

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I miss laying with you

#doodle #sketch #art #drawing #ink #scribble #couple #love #loveme #holdme #cuddle #missyou #wantyoualways #together

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He said I had unrealistic romantic ideas but someday I want to feel chosen. I want someone to be able to tell me not just that they love me, but why

#blurb #words #love #someday #chosen #relationship #breakup #romanticexpectations #tellmeyouloveme #tellmewhy #want #longing #tobeenough #enough #needs #Igrewforyou #Ilearnedforyou #youleft

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#blurb #words #love #thoughts #reflection #regret #learning #growing #loss #lostlove #lifehurts #growingpains #nexttime #breakup #promises #selfworth #believeinlove #reality #numb #surreal #denial #bitter #hurt #pleasecomeback #lovemeonemoretime #andthistimeillbelieveyou #icanbeenoughforyou #neverenough #missyou

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I'm fucking dumb but I can't stop

#words #love #breakup #unrequitedlove #over #broken #lost #lonely #iwillalwaysloveyou #cantstop #hopinglikeanidiot #tryingtoletgo #learning #sitwithit #growingpains #pleasejustloveme #neveragain #youstillmakemehappy #Notmycontentnottryingtosteal

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#blurb #words #love #life #learning #growing #lettinggo #movingon #lostlove #emptyarms #missyou #loveyoualways #hurt #lonely #habit #comeback #enoughalone

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I am a prison

#for myself #foreveryoneilove #doodle #draw #sketch #coloredpencil #love #desperate #longing #empty #sorry #nevermeanttotrapyou #fleshprison #prison #skeleton #desert #lock #escape #makeitstop

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Canicule d'amour dans mon cœur

Je nous ai brûlé dans le chaleur

Pas gentil

Les idées des grands amours

Sont romantique mais

Insupportable

Je t'aime pour toujours

Je t'aime a la folie

(et comment ça marche si je suis déjà folle ?)

Je t'ai fait mon monde, mon hero,

Mon desert roussi

Sous le grand soleil de mon cœur

Affamé

Même après que je pleure des tempetes

C'est la sécheresse

Tu es parti

Avec une partie de moi

(que t'as même pas demandé)

Je vais apprendre à brûler doucement

J'apprends toujours trop tard

(je suis bête, hein ?)

#love #words #blurb #thoughts #heartbreak #burninglove #sorry #amour #coeurcasse #quitté #tumemanquestrop #regret #learning #growingpains #sun #storm #drought #soleil #secheresse #canicule

[laurafrayz]

Confession :

I like to get tattoos when I'm going through really difficult, painful life shit

Because tattoos are a socially acceptable way to hurt yourself

#nevermind #pain #life #tattoos #recovering #confession

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Every morning I wake up confused. Pulling out of a dream I fully believed, and wondering, where am I, what's real. Every morning I have to remember that you are not a part of my reality anymore. I dream of you, and wake up to lose you all over again. And again. I can't stand this much longer, I either want to never sleep again, or never wake up

#love #doodle #sketch #art #drawing #coloredpencil #growing #sad #alone #dreams #broken #brokenheart #brokenlove #relationship #breakup #drifting #sleep #escape #ocean #houseplants #bed #neverwakeup #comeback #heartache #everythinghurts

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My brain refuses to understand you're gone. You live in my head and my heart, you'll never be totally be gone. So it feels too surreal that in reality I will not see you, feel you, smell you, hear you, lay with you, nothing, nothing, nothing with you anymore. Please come back? No, never. I learned and grew so much with you and wanted it to just keep lasting forever. I guess I was being selfish again, I was getting everything I needed from you, and you were getting....?? I'm sorry I couldn't be enough somehow. Three weeks without you has felt like forever. And even just in these three weeks I feel like I learned and grew a bunch more again. I wish I could use what I've learned to "fix us". I just keep trying to get through these days, and let time reveal wtf is going on. I miss you, dammit. Why is life never fair...

#love #doodle #art #growing #nature #painting #nightsky #romance #relationship #losingyou #missyou #learninghurts #wishlovereallycouldsolveall #single #breakups

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All the essay-long texts deleted. The five page long letter never sent. All the million moments a day of wanting to text all the dumb nothings. A good thing happened, a frustrating thing happened, I'm having feelings, how is your day, I'm so glad you're in my life. A million times a day I have to stop myself and remember. Get sad, want to cry, move on. Get frustrated, cry out, why can't we just go back to normal, dammit! And move on. A million tiny moments of mourning and shifting. Just ticking my way through each one. Ticking, ticking, until I've made it to one week. And still nothing feels right. It might not ever be really right.

#doodle #sketch #art #drawing #ink #growing #love #regret #loss #pain #hurt #heartache #heartbreak #breakup #relationship #mourning #time #feelslikeforever #timehealsallwounds #Idontbelieveillloveagain #waiting #broken #surreal #unreal #makeitstop #please #whendoesitstop

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"Oh."

I guess you never promised me you wouldn't

So I shouldn't be surprised you let go.

Still, here I am, falling, falling

Wondering, how did this happen, WHAT happened, how does everything suddenly just go away

And feeling like such an idiot for believing that it wouldn't

I would be mad at you, but I guess you never promised me anything. So I just really played myself. I just can't understand why

You lifted me up

And then you let me go

#doodle #sketch #love #art #drawing #ink #regret #brokenheart #breakup #trust #youliftedmeup #andthenyouletmego #disappointment #hurt #lonely #confused #all good things come to an end

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That feeling when you want to text your significant other about how sad you are but then remember that you can't because the reason you're sad is they broke up with you. Repeat this a million moments a day for weeks about all the other thoughts and feelings you can't share anymore either.

Therapist: the universe knows what it's doing

Me: yeah, FUCKING WITH ME

#relationships #breakups #brokenheart #lost #why #missyou #hurtslikefuck #fucktheuniverse #lovelost #stillloveyouforeversorry #sad #lonely #nolove

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#doodle #sketch #art #drawing #nature #coloredpencil #portrait #boho #bohemian #woman #lady #feathers

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My doodles become my ink. As I earn them like a warrior inked after battles. I needed to be strong as the mountains, resilient as a sequoia, that could be burned and still live and grow. I needed to know myself and love myself, find balance, my place in the universe, know I am the same as the stars. Know I am enough... I'm working so hard to learn and grow, and it isn't at all like the romanticized adventure growth in movies, it's so much slow growth with work and pain and mistakes and learning and more mistakes and I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you, I'll get it right next time...

#tattoo #doodle #ink #inked #reflectivebirthdaytimeagain #mandalamoon #mandala #sequoia #sierranevadas #nature #balance #strength #growth #resilience #self

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Someday something will grow where I buried you...

I wish I had done more than just bury you. I wish I had pulled you out by the root and burned you down to nothing, so there would never be any trace of you again. Instead I must learn to grow up out of the heavy corpse you left in my garden, and see it as only fertilizer

#doodle #sketch #art #drawing #ink #charcoal #sad #past #regret #ifonly #growing #learning #badtogood #love #betrayal #movingon #healing #stillangry #ittakesyears #dropdeadbastard