#Or just people don't wanna see that! I can respect that notion

[onlyseokmins]

"minors dni" but doesn't put the smut under a cut and slaps it w/ all the general tags one would search if they were simply interested in the fandom 💀

#I mean u gotta work a 2 way street w/ me you know? #Like none of the smut I came across when I was under 18 was purposefully sought out lmao #Ofc I didn't interact but like it's laughable if ur putting ur work right out there for anyone to access and then complain about minors #That won't stop some obviously but it's like make it makes sense you know? #Or just people don't wanna see that! I can respect that notion #Half of gifblr blocks smut tags right away bc they show up consistently under a general tag 😭 #Now tumblr broke so a reg search may still pop up smut but yk #🤷🏻‍♀️ 🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️ #ez.monches

[rainerioun]

𝖧𝖮𝖶 𝖣𝖮 𝖳𝖧𝖤𝖸 𝖵𝖨𝖤𝖶 𝖸𝖮𝖴? | 𝗉𝗂𝖼𝗄 𝖺 𝖼𝖺𝗋𝖽.

— Hello! I thought I'd try and give a more in-depth reading. Interestingly, some of the piles seem to be similar. Perhaps this reading is meant for just a few people. I tried to keep it pretty general and unbiased whether we're talking about platonic or romantic connections, but it seems like there are hints of romantic feelings in all of them. However, if you're inquiring about a friendship or something similar, feel free to take what resonates and ignore the rest. <3

HOW TO CHOOSE A PILE : The outcome may vary based on whether you receive clear messages visually or intuitively. If you resonate more with selecting a pile visually, trust that inclination. Personally, I believe the notion that 'looks can deceive,' so I prefer to take a deep breath and close my eyes, allowing the pile I'm meant to connect with to come to me. You might see the color of the pile, sense or hear a number, or simply feel its overall vibe.

Please don’t redistribute or edit my content.

MUST READ + MASTERLIST

PILE ONE

How Do They View You? King of Wands | Queen of Swords | Death.

To start, this person respects you heavily. They perceive you as someone exuding confidence and leading by example. You've influenced them at the very least. If you're experiencing change or have recently undergone a transformation, they want you to know they're proud of you.

How Do They View You? Dragon : Seeing One's Most True Self, Balancing Ego. | Oyster : Patient, Secret-Keeper, Hiding Inner Treasures.

They see the real you, not just the image you project. If you're shy or uncertain, they want to remind you not to underestimate yourself, and to embrace your genuine beauty and intelligence. They know that everyone else wants to see it too. I believe that they might perceive your confidence as a sort of façade.

How Do They View You? Trickster — Light : Transcending Convention, Stuffiness and Predictable Behavior. Shadow : Manipulating Others Through Duplicity.

I didn't view this card negatively; it felt more like confirmation of what I said earlier. This person understands that you don't reveal everything and perhaps even play a role, though it may not be intentional. They recognize your tendency to use humor as a shield, but they wish you would let them in a bit more because they can see through you already.

How Do They Feel Around You? Determination, Balance, Cleanse, Magic, Protection.

When this person is around you, they experience a sense of balance and comfort. They feel a protective instinct towards you, given what they know about you, or vice versa. They long to express their love and appreciation more openly and receive it in return. Reach out to them more often!

Additional. Photograph : Looking at Your Photos, Missing You, Nostalgia, Make New Memories.

They miss you if there's any current separation or lack of communication. They might even be keeping an eye on you, whether through social media or mutual connections, just to ensure you're doing alright.

Extra: Aquarius, Change, 10, Unique, Libra, Scorpio, Emotions, Bittersweet, Funny, Summer Blues, Phone Call.

Alien Blues : Vundabar | Fine Line : Harry Styles | I Wanna Be Yours : Artic Monkeys.

PILE TWO

How Do They View You? Ten of Wands [Reversed] | Nine of Swords [Reversed] | Knight of Pentacles.

This person acknowledges your ambition but finds it amusing that you can also be a bit absent-minded. It's not meant as an insult but more of a playful tease. They believe you sometimes overlook the risks around you because you're so captivated and excited by what lies ahead, which can come off as slightly immature. It reminds them of a naive child who might need a gentle nudge in the right direction, so you don't leap off the cliff hoping to grab the sun. I can picture someone stumbling clumsily while the other bursts into loud laughter.

How Do They View You? Moth : Impulsive, Hasty, Wishful | Bee : Earnest, Hardworking, Democratic.

I find this dynamic incredibly endearing. They see you as someone goofy or even whimsical. You're sensitive and vibrant, drawing people to you effortlessly, which they appreciate. Sometimes, it seems like they want to slow you down a bit so you don't scurry off too quickly. You give off a jittery vibe at times.

How Do They View You? Rescuer — Light : Provides Strength and Support to Others in Crisis. Acts out of Love with no Expectation of Reward. Shadow : Assumes that the Rescued will Reciprocate. Goddess — Light : The Feminine Expressed through Wisdom, Nature, Life Force and Sensuality. Shadow : Exploitation of the Female Nature and Form.

This person admires your kindness and charm. I can picture them giggling nonstop whenever they're with you. It's as if you have no worries, just frolicking through life carefree.

How Do They Feel Around You? Sweetness, Success, Rejection.

Once more, you're incredibly sweet to them. Normally, they feel content in your company, but there might be moments when they feel rejected. If they've made a move and you've turned them down, that's the reason. They need time to move on and accept that boundary if don't reciprocate their feelings. If not, it's because they've been dropping hints left and right, and you're just too oblivious to pick up on them.

Additional. Stabbed in the Back : Heartbreak, Pain, Separation, Shocking Attack. Camera : Remininscing, Keepsake, Perception, Learn from the Past, Make Memories. Coffee Cup : Meeting and Conversing, Savoring the Moment, Feeling Uplifted, Friendship.

Yeah, they're definitely feeling a bit disheartened that their attempts to win you over aren't hitting the mark or are just going unnoticed. But hey, you don't owe them anything, so no need to feel guilty. Regardless, they want to keep being part of your life, cherishing the friendship you've both formed.

Extra : Pisces, Indecisive, Kind, 7, Individuality, Unique, Communication, Taurus, Leo, Cancer, Junebug, Wheel, Fields.

Dangerously In Love : Beyoncé. | Hanging Your Picture Up To Dry : Cut Worms.

[18+, SUGGESTIVE.]

PILE THREE

How Do They View You? Ace of Swords, Six of Swords, Wheel of Fortune [Reversed].

I wasn't anticipating this kind of reading when I shuffled the cards. I almost reshuffled to get a more generic and 'safe' result, but I decided against it. It seems this person likes you a little more than they probably should. They perceive you as someone incredibly self-assured and inspiring, maybe even a bit out of their league. Yet, despite feeling like they're chasing you, they don't seem to mind the playful challenge and are willing to put in the extra effort to break through your defenses.

How Do They View You? Cheetah : Solar Force, Action, Achievement. | Starfish : Beautiful, Alluring, Superficial or Shallow.

This seems pretty clear-cut, lol. They view you as someone with the potential to reach any goal, maybe because your appearance tends to influence people without you even trying. They're strongly attracted to you, but they're also aware they're not alone in admiring you.

How Do They View You? Queen — Light : Radiates the Regal Feminine. Uses Her Benevolent Authority to Protect Others. Shadow : Becomes Arrogant When Authority Is Challenged. Controlling and Demanding. Hero/Heroine — Light : Passion for a Journey of Personal Empowerment. Shadow : Escapism and a False Sense of Heroism.

They definitely put you on a pedestal in their mind. Sometimes you can get a little sassy or assertive because you're clear about what you want, and they find that irresistible. They truly appreciate the natural authority you exude.

How Do They Feel Around You? Passion, Trust, Hunger.

Do I really need to elaborate? For my own sake, I'll keep it brief. You light a fire within them, and they feel like they cannot control such feelings.

Additional. The Snake : Competition, Enemy, Clever, Malicious, Look Over Your Shoulder, The Other Woman. Kisses : Unconditionally Loving, Giving and Receiving Affection, Falling in Love.

As I mentioned, they feel this urge to compete for your affection with others. They might even experience a twinge of jealousy seeing someone else getting your attention while they're so invested in you. My advice is, if this is a secret admirer or a third-party situation, it's best to tell them where they stand. If you're not interested, it's important not to lead them on. However, if polyamory is part of your dynamic, then there's no need to worry about what I'm saying; it seems like they enjoy the thrill of the chase.

Extra: 6, Virgo, Possessive, Cancer, Fussy, Moon, Emotions, Strong Needs, Candles, Stack of Papers, Show Off, Linger, Lust.

Fields of Elation : Sleep Token | Somebody Else : Bad Omens | Lost in the Fire : The Weeknd.

#metaphysical #occult #tarot #tarot reading #tarot readings #tarot reader #tarot cards #divination #divination reading #oracle #oracle cards #oracle deck #oracle reading #spiritual #spirit #spirituality #pick a card #witch #pac #tarot deck #advice #manifesation #tarot community #rainerioun #how do they see me #how do they view me #how do they feel #romance #friendship #general reading

[sendhearthhome]

Zuko and Who's Afraid of Little Old Me?

“The who's who of who's that? / Is poised for the attack / But my bare hands paved their paths / You don't get to tell me about sad / If you wanted me dead, you should've just said / Nothing makes me feel more alive / So I leap from the gallows and I levitate down your street / Crash the party like a record scratch as I scream / Who's afraid of little old me? / You should be”

This whole first chunk, to me, is Zuko confronting Ozai in Book 3 episode 11 The Day of the Black Sun Pt 2

“The scandal was contained”

Book 1 E12 The Storm, Zuko’s crew thought Zuko had been burned in a training accident, not by his own father

“The bullet had just grazed”

Within the theme of abuse, Ozai and Azula minimise the abuse Zuko endured, Ozai just 'grazed' Zuko’s face

“At all costs, keep your good name / You don't get to tell me you feel bad”

Ozai keeps his reputation, while Zuko is banished to spend over 3 years trying to get his honour back (which he never truly lost)

“Is it a wonder I broke? Let's hear one more joke / Then we could all just laugh until I cry / So I leap from the gallows and I levitate down your street / Crash the party like a record scratch as I scream / Who's afraid of little old me?”

“I was tame, I was gentle 'til the circus life made me mean”

Zuko was a gentle child, but Ozai thought he was too soft. The circus life can connect to the pageantry and brutality of the Fire Nation Empire

“Don't you worry folks, we took out all her teeth”

In Book 2, when he’s a refugee, Zuko feels humiliated and powerless, having gone from a prince to a ‘nobody’, his shame critically culminates here in Ba Sing Se

“Who's afraid of little old me? / Well, you should be (you should be) / So tell me everything is not about me / But what if it is?”

“Then say they didn't do it to hurt me / But what if they did?”

Ozai burned Zuko to “teach him respect” but really, it was just abuse

“I wanna snarl and show you just how disturbed this has made me / You wouldn't last an hour in the asylum where they raised me”

These two lines truly encapsulate the rage of realising how fucked up your childhood was only once you’re out of it. You couldn’t see it when you were in it but you survived hell, and now that you understand that, you’re so fucking angry

“So all you kids can sneak into my house with all the cobwebs / I'm always drunk on my own tears, isn't that what they all say? / That I'll sue you if you step on my lawn / That I'm fearsome and I'm wretched and I'm wrong / Putting narcotics into all of my songs / And that's why you're still singing along”

People have preconceived notions about Zuko: he’s spoiled, selfish, and volatile. While these are areas where Zuko has genuine growth in the series, it is important to remember that they’re used by adults in the Fire Nation (ex. Ozai and Zhao) to discredit and demean him

“So I leap from the gallows and I levitate down your street / Crash the party like a record scratch as I scream / Who's afraid of little old me? / I was tame, I was gentle 'til the circus life made me mean / Don't you worry folks, we took out all her teeth / Who's afraid of little old me? / Well, you should be (you should be)”

“'Cause you lured me / And you hurt me / And you taught me / You caged me and then you called me crazy / I am what I am 'cause you trained me”

 Zuko’s autonomy and free will are really what led him to join the Gaang. He realises he never deserved Ozai’s abuse, never lost his honour, and his actions are his own. 

But you can’t deny the poetry of ‘you created the thing that destroyed you in the end’

“So who's afraid of me? / Who's afraid of little old me? / Who's afraid of little old me?”

I lowkey want to write a zuko-centric song fic...

Let me know what you think and if you interpret the song differently!! <3

#zuko #prince zuko #atla #avatar #taylor swift #atla zuko #hearthhomeposts #Spotify

[xinnabon]

happy is you.

IDOL AU #xiao x gn!reader [confession]

cw! swearing.

SUM. you're so inlove w/xiao. and pretty much ask him a question at 3am in the morning and worry about so many stuff. YOU WANNA KISS HIM SO BAD in a sfw way pls.

part two but its angsty lol

taking in requests! info about taking in requests from me and etc. is right here! thanks again!

a/n school orientation starts in at least 8 hours for me and i thought, "why not write something nice after pfftt-- more than a week i haven't wrote anything??". but i'll try to take in requests if i have some and pretty much do it whenever i have spare time. also i really would love the fact to just be madly in love with someone. don't know how tho lol

it's 3am. staring at a dead end ceiling while you're all laid out in your perfectly warm mattress. blinking a few times, thinking about all the cute things you can ever do with xiao. my god, were you thinking about him-- no... missing him?

it felt like you were going into so many notions. this wouldn't really feel normal to yourself from way back but... is it that lovely? you just want to see him, hear him, hold his hand, and just see his confused face when he doesn't know what you're talking about.

you two already went out on dates together at least 6 times, won't you just shoot your shot already? no. at this point, you're feeling like one of those people that say "what if he doesn't actually like me and just came with me just not to embarrass myself?" no. that can't be right?

thoughts races as long as you'd like to. assuming this or that but i'm pretty sure he got it all figured out with his feelings for you these past 6 dates-- i mean. 6 dates.

not to mention, you really loved when he tried to relax himself. catching a few glances of you here and there. was it really that cute.

no. you can't go up changing your thoughts with new ones of him thats-- weird.

you let the mattresses take you aside and consume yourself with the bed and just groan on over. taking your phone and opening it up with barely any stuff. one of your notifs was youtube suggesting "how to cook an egg" kind of tutorial.

reading back conversations you had with xiao. it feels like you're talking to him again just... not actively? there's that one feeling inside you that just lets the world aside and it's just you two, you two alone, entertaining each other, go all stupid. that felt like you were only the one he needs. you do respect him with other people as well but that sort of thought really sounds nice.

fuck. you felt like a teenager. it felt like inserting a literal sentence to your head saying "CRINGE LORD" with pretty much all capital letters, on a bold font with a bright red. but the thing is, he was talking to you. putting up with all of your nonsense. it made you feel dizzy.

you always thought that there was just random people, not just perfect just a normal and average kind of type. after breaking up with a certain person, you can just wait on for someone else to walk by and get asked out anyway. but this. this was different other any ordinary thought you thought of just like before.

it was him. no. for sure he was the one. that, HE could ever fill the dream aside to somewhat reality. instead of letting it aside and let them ask you out, it was just you. you were all left that's behind this and now... you're head over heels for him.

the bright light goes against your face. its ringing. fuck no, no... did you want to see him that bad? you should end the call you're just disturbing him--

fuck. he answered. the silence was going on and eventually asked you why are you calling him at 3am in the fucking morning. fuck this wasn't supposed to happen but. you wanted to get things out.

"what... are we?"

the question left to entertain him. yet continues with the sudden dull silence. fuck you sounded so stupid too. by the looks of his voice, he sounds stunned. did you say something wrong? panic rushes through yourself and you wished you haven't "accidentally" pressing the call button.

"i think you're... unique. i'm not saying i don't take in interest in you but, i do know is that i want to be with you. we aren't... what you say, official? but... i'd like for us to perhaps-- be. that."

holy shit. oh my god fuck. FUCK. okay. pull yourself together. the atmosphere felt so awkward. you ended up flushing your face deep down to the pillow. okay. proceed.

"hah... well. take me out in another 6 dates, then? as lovers of course! ah, shit, wait... no, no. do you even want to be labeled as lovers-- god i messed it up again."

"uhuh. another 6 dates. as 'lovers'."

the call ends and so is the night. you probably took time just to see what the fuck actually happened? is this finally the fantasy you ever seek for? you couldn't believe it. you had someone to love. YOU actually have someone to love now?!

#genshin impact #genshin impact fluff #fluff #genshin fluff #xiao #xiao x reader #xiao fluff #xiao x gn!reader #xiao x gn!reader fluff #xiao x fem!reader #xiao x m!reader #xiao x male!reader #xiao x you #xinniereaders

[darlin-djarin]

in my relation to my post about how din's covert is not a cult

if you want to know how and why it isn't considered a cult, please look at @loveoaths post here

now here is what needs to be said: din's covert is NOT a cult. it is an orthodox religious group that takes their creed very seriously. they are not "evil" and "cruel", they are simply religious and din values that very much so.

the notion that dins covert is a "cult" also forms the idea that din should remove his helmet and go against the creed. this is wrong. if you truly believe this, you are not considering the real life consequences of saying things like this. even though din's religion isn't "real", there are many aspects about it that IS real in MANY religions around the world. the belief that din should take off his helmet because his religion is "wrong" can harm so many people in real life. imagine telling a hijabi, or a sikh, or anyone who wears a religious head/body covering that you don't agree with their religion and therefore they should REMOVE their head/body coverings... like wow. just. wow. even if din's creed isn't real, the things you SAY about it can harm real people. many people who wear religious head/body coverings were overjoyed with the mandalorian because they felt SEEN. they felt respected and they felt normalized to see something so similar on screen. implying that din should just take off the helmet because you think his creed is "wrong" is literally harmful, no matter the fictional or real life context.

so MANY of the mandalorian fans are just white americans who don't understand the real impact of religion. yes, religion CAN be corrupt and yes, it can be used for manipulation, but dins covert is a HEALTHY religious relationship, if you REALLY think about it. religion in the west has become something criminalized and something that people stray away from because a lot of christianity and christian beliefs have changed overtime to manipulate and abuse it's believers and so many people stray away from religion and/or disregard it altogether. therefore, so many people don't understand what a real healthy religious relationship is and people can't recognize one even if it's right in their face.

now there are many arguments towards din's creed that i've seen so i'm going to answer some of them so y'all can understand:

"but what if they get injured and people can’t save them without the helmet coming off?!?!”

mandalorians HONOR warrior deaths. if they die then they die with the helmet on. period. i don’t wanna hear shit about morality or whatever. you either respect other religions or you don’t.

“it’s cruel that grogu will never see din’s face!”

the helmet IS din’s face. it’s an extension of his body and his armor is a part of his identity. what din did, removing the helmet once for grogu to see him, was a special moment and was din’s active choice to do that. to HIM, he felt like it was necessary therefore it happened. it’s not cruel for din to hide his face. PLUS there is a whole love language for mandalorians. without the normalized “acts of service” people are used to, mandalorians MUST have a way to convey their love. through customized and personalized acts, mandalorians can show affection all the same. like a keldabe kiss. it’s just as important and valid as a real kiss and mandalorians invented a way to kiss others without having to break the creed. there are probably so many other ways that mandalorians created to show affection without breaking the creed.

"they hide in the sewers and hide their faces!!"

yes for PROTECTION. they were MASSACRED in the past. their planet is left in ruins, they are devastated. hiding away and not showing their face PROTECTED THEM for SO LONG. it was their way of survival and their religion stemmed from that.

"redemption/being forgiven for transgressions is impossible!"

YEAH NOWADAYS. back THEN redemption was available because mandalore wasn't blown to pieces yet. OBVIOUSLY THE CREED WASN'T PREPARED FOR GENOCIDE SO WHY WOULD THEY MAKE THAT RULE IF THERE WAS NO CHANCE OF REDEMPTION??

religion is always good in moderation. but there doesn't NEED to be any moderation because din's creed has absolutely nothing wrong with it. PLEASE stop calling it a cult.

#y'all make me afraid to become a hijabi atp #can't have a damn day #star wars #the mandalorian #“cult” my ass #din djarin #grogu #oil.

[adrianasunderworld]

I'd like to add on to all the telenovella drama, what if Lilith and the late Mrs. Schoenheit were close friends? Could you imagine her reaction to what Erik's done, especially if you throw in the papa crewel au?? She's not against him finding love again, in fact she's certain Mrs. Schoenheit would want her husband to find love again, but pursuing a woman who he knows has hurt both of their respective children and Lilith's darling grandchild? Now that won't fly, and she is making it known how disgusted she is, Lilith is going to drag that man through HELL for his decision.

I can see her stirring the pot a bit as well. After all, the Crewels and the Rosehearts are infamous in the Rose Kingdom, and with Lilith being a high class socialite whose child and now grandchild work at/attend NRC respectively, why wouldn't she know about what's happening? She has inside sources after all.

I just really wanna see grandma Lilith go off in this au, it's deserved.

Believe it not I've actually been thinking about this the past few days while my ask box was closed. Because Lilith knows of Vil, there's no way she doesn't. One day, maybe before the events of the au take place, Lilith visits and sees Vil and has some friendly conversation. "My look how big you've gotten! Your mother would be so proud."

"You knew my mother ma'am?"

"Oh I knew her for years and we worked together very often. She was so talented, witty, and it goes without saying beautiful. There a was a bright light that went out before her time... But let's not dwell on that, dear. How have you been?"

When Divus attended NRC, there was not a piece of school gossip or news she did not know about. Students would tell their moms,aunts,grandmas, etc what was going on and it would all circle back to Lilith. Now that Divus worked in the school and she has a grandchild there now? Bet your ass she's at it again. Then all of a sudden communication ceases. Not just for her, but for everyone she knows who has a son at NRC. Suddenly Lilith Crewel doesn't know, and she does not like that one bit. She's ringing Divus phone off the hook trying to get info of what's going on only to get the news his new boss has a ton of strict rules and regulations that is making it very difficult. And if this is the version where Crewel gets fired? Now she has dead silence from Yuu, and Lilith is livid.

At some point, something bad is going to happen involving Yuu and Lilith is going to go down to the Isles of Sages herself and rip someone's head off. Because as we've establish, Lilith takes everything over when something goes. She want's things done right, and thus she will do it herself. "Divus you take care of Yuu. I will take of this."

"Mother for once can you-"

"What did I just say?" He knows there's no talking her down at this point.

She's going to see Erik in Felicitys office with the trio, Riddle, Vil, and Yuu. Suddenly it all clicks.

"Well. It seems the rumors were true."

"Spare me any of your judgmental notions," Felicity replied. "I have no intrest."

"Oh I know you have no interest, and far be it for me to talk about marital affairs. But you," She pointed a finger at Erik, her red eyes burning a hole in him. "I expected better of you, Erik."

"What's that supposed to mean, Madame Crewel?" Though he had an idea. Remembering her friendship with Vils mother.

"You have turned a blind eye to not only your son, but to hundred of other peoples sons. Is your son just an ATM is that it? Is that why you won't intervene when he's suffering?"

"How dare-"

"I can dare all I want." She didn't allow him to finish. "If that's not the case then tell me. And don't give me some hearted 'because love' answer, because then you're just wasting my time. The fact of the matter is: You are a selfish selfish man, Erik Venue. And your wife would be so ashamed of you."

#twisted wonderland #twst yuu #twst oc #papa crewel #divus crewel #headmistress rosehearts au #lilith crewel

[thatspiritualbabe]

Why I Don't Like the Idea of "New Self"

I'm not sure I agree with this notion that you have to be an entirely new version of yourself or undergo a complete personality change in order to get your desires. By all means, I think you should work on your inner dialogue, speak kinder to yourself, and stop putting yourself down. You should work on valuing yourself, viewing yourself in a positive light, uplifting yourself, self love and self respect. But I think there's so many people who hear of this idea of "new self" and suddenly feel the need to become the loudest people in the room. You don't have to be! For me personally I was always a bit shy and reserved growing up, so it just feels fake to suddenly have to be the most bubbly person in the room. For me, it feels more natural to have a quiet, reserved confidence. I don't think there's anything wrong with that. I know what I bring to the table, but I don't have to shout it from the rooftops.

I also see this idea of "new self" become a limiting thing when it comes to manifesting an SP, that you can't have insecurities or imperfections, you have to be 100% confident 24/7 --essentially perfect-- or you won't get it. Okay first off, why are we told we have to hold ourselves to that standard? Chances are your SP has insecurities and flaws of their own. So if your SP can be human, I think you owe it to yourself to do the same. Give yourself a break. You're doing the best you can. You wouldn't be practicing manifestation if you lived a life prior where you were so used to getting what you want. Many people who decide to pursue this journey are those who have had failed relationships, failed careers, financial struggles, fake friends, etc. When you embark on your manifestation journey, you will learn with time and new experiences how to move forward from the past. There are many of us who have mental health struggles too, and I think the idea of "new self" can be detrimental if suddenly there is this expectation to have a different personality in order to get your desires. I think a long as you are making an effort to work on yourself, and giving your best that's all that matters. We all have bad days sometimes. It's okay to get emotional, as we continue to work through limiting beliefs. Don't ever let anyone in the manifestation community condemn you from having emotions. It's unrealistic to suppress this. And going back to the example of SP, your SP should love you at your best but also your worst.

That's just my take on it. I hope what I wrote makes sense. Sometimes I think of what I'm gonna blog about next and then when it comes to actually typing it I'm like how do I wanna explain this lol. If you scrolled this far, thanks for taking the time to read! I'm very new to this and I appreciate those who take the time to like, comment, and follow as I've been looking to connect with like-minded people for awhile. <3

#manifestation #spirituality #spiritual journey #law of assumption #law of manifestation #specific person #confidence #self love

[treesswayinginthewind]

Enjoying heavy songs - Amygdala

Trigger warnings: I don't mention anything explicit, just vaguely mental health struggles. Of course tread carefully around the MV.

I have recently gotten into reaction videos and as a Yoongi/SUGA/AgustD bias, of course I watch reaction videos of his songs, love to see people fall in love with his music, love to see them be blown away by the raw authenticity of his lyrics, by the emotions he shows.

But it has also brought to the surface reactions to a song that is my favourite of the whole D-Day album. (And they are all my favourite. The moment I say this, I wanna add a "but", unable to really choose, but that is a topic for a different day.) To be honest watching reaction videos of this song is a bit hit and miss. Most are not worth watching but there was one thought voiced that bothered me and I want to address it in this post.

Amygdala is the song that makes me wanna cry every time I listen, it's a song that I know all the lyrics to and I really can't claim to speak any Korean. It's the song that enables me to sing, yell, shout along to and feel oh so much. It is not a secret, that Yoongi's songs resonate with a lot of people who struggle with things in their lives, be it mental health topics, friends or family issues. His fans relate to him and his music because he gives our struggles a voice.

I am one of them. And although there are a lot of issues I struggle with that I might not be able to address and deal with (yet), his music means so much to me. It enables me to feel all those emotions, to get a release for all the anger, sadness and pain I feel without it needing to be about me. I can feel angry, sad and hurt over his story and still have a cathartic experience, feel relieved about my own issues afterwards.

It's not the only thing Yoongi's music does. He also gives us hope. He shares his journey with us with all its ups and downs, tells us that he has our back, that we can let go, that he's there for us. And he lets us know that he's okay too. That he is better and gives us hope that we can be better too.

I understand that the song deals with a lot of heavy topics. That the MV for Amygdala specifically shows things that are triggering for people and I respect and support people's decision to not watch and/or listen for those reasons. But, and I hope that the people I have heard voice this opinion are the exception, because some have said, that because of the topics of the song that this song and this MV are not something we should enjoy. And I reject this notion with all my heart.

I love this song. I love turning it up loud, dancing and singing along with it. And that's okay. I don't believe that Yoongi made this song, so we only listen once, make a sad face and move on. I don't believe that he made this song, so we say, yes he indeed had a difficult life, pity him and move on.

I am sure he knew that this is not the sort of subject matter that would top the charts. So it leaves the question, why did he do it? It's clear that making music is a way for him to process his own experiences and emotions. His music has always been like that. But I don't think it's far fetched to say that he probably knows that he is helping other people too. I like to think that he has seen at least some of the things people have written about his music, about how it makes people feel seen, how his songs and him talking about these topics makes space for them in the public discourse, makes people feel validated in their struggles. So I like to believe he made this song not just for himself, but also hoping it would help others. And with that in mind, I think it's wrong to insinuate that this song should not be enjoyed, CANNOT be enjoyed. I reject the idea that it should be a song, we can only listen to in silence with a solemn face. Of course his story should be treated with respect. Of course there are settings and ways this song could be consumed that might be inappropriate. But there is a difference between enjoying it and disrespecting it's subject matter.

I can enjoy this song because I feel seen. I can enjoy it, because I know he is better now. I can enjoy it for the emotional release I experience when listening to it. I an enjoy it for the skill that went into creating it. There are so many ways to enjoy this song that don't equal disrespect.

So if there is anyone out there who feels like they shouldn't be allowed to enjoy this song, this is for you. Please turn it up loud and sing along and dance to it and let it make you feel all the emotions. Let us enjoy the music, the beautiful lyrics, let us appreciate the skill with which he made this song.

It is okay to enjoy this song. It is okay to enjoy the MV. Both are brilliant. So much work and skill and dedication went into them. It is okay to feel joy while listening, because he's a brilliant artist, making something so beautiful from so much pain.

There is a delicate balance between wanting people to know this song, wanting people who struggle feel seen, create a platform for mental health topics and feeling like capitalising on pain in a society that is so obsessed with consumption. Maybe I am in a bubble, but I respect the fandom for how mindful they have been in creating content around this song and for the lack of content that uses imagery from the MV specifically in inappropriate ways.

But this should not mean, we should not "consume" the song and the MV. The worst we could do to this song is push it aside because "it's too heavy" or too delicate of a topic to talk about.

Let us enjoy the story he tells, the pain he sings about, the cry for help this song so clearly is. Let us enjoy it and feel it. Because despite his struggles, he is still here. And because even if we struggle, we are still here. Let this song be the voice that says, I struggle too and it's okay. Let us listen to it and remind ourselves. Let us talk about it and support each other. Because we are still here and we are not alone.

#yoongi #min yoongi #agust d #bts suga #amygdala #mental health #minmarch #suga bts #agustd dday #Youtube

[veritylarsen]

20240121

20240229 further clarification and "receipts" and such

it's truly wild that i received wind of this literally right as i come home from talking to the person in question, the both of us making it clear that we don't want to be insidious towards each other. but how can i not take a paragraphs-long post with no description of what they did to me at all as anything except harmful?

kelly garlick sexually assaulted me in january 2023, while i was still staying over at their apartment. i had a horrible cold, repeatedly telling them i didn't want to do anything, as they proceeded to touch and fondle me even while i was having a vomiting fit. during the conversation in which i officially cut off frequent contact with them, on december 2023, they were still telling me i should have been vocal about what i did and didn't want, as if i didn't tell them this continuously for days on end as it was happening and during the aftermath. i wasn't able to process the weight of what happened to me because of these repeated twists of blame until september once i broke up with them for the final time.

let me just say this with emphasis: i aspired to be best friends with a 16-year-old when i was 21, giving them and their friends drugs, and considered dating them once they turned 18. this is something i refuse to gloss over, even telling all my friends about in the moment as it was happening. it's something i tell people i meet after a bit, including kelly when i first brought it up on our second date, and give them the freedom to not want to associate with me afterward and i can just leave. i've been as straightfoward about this as i possibly can, with kelly especially because of our age gap, let alone because we were dating. let me also say, i accidentally hit kelly when i was reaching for a pillow to scream in during a particularly awful conversation. just because it was not intentional doesn't mean that was an action with a tremendous amount of weight, and i will continue to apologize for it online and forever.

i also wanna say, something they also mention, we are both mentally ill people that valued the relationship before our own respective processes trying to become better people. our relationship was bound to be destructive on both ends as a result, it takes two for that dynamic to happen. because of that, i encourage people who read this to take all of it with a grain of salt. if i felt the need to jot down everything harmful kelly said to me, this post would be way too long, and a real shitty move on my part.

there are really small details in the aforementioned post that are slightly incorrect and are nitpicky in nature to talk about when the core of it is still true. i met kelly while they were going to college in billings, when i was 23 and they were 19. while this is a notable age gap, the notion of my boundaries for date someone being four years younger than me and four years older than me, is a notion i still hold to this day. and when it comes to what has happened to me, i think it's valuable to mention that kelly still made all these decisions as an adult. when kelly first offered me to stay at their place during a visit while we were long-distance, i knew it was a wild offer. before i moved, right after i moved, and even during/past our first breakup, i let it be known that i don't have to live with them. this was a privilege they were giving me, and i told them they could kick me out at any time repeatedly during my stay. from april to september, i was living at kelly's half the time, and another friend's house the other half.

after the first show i've performed in march 2023, kelly told me about how envious they were that i was so much better at music than them, that i was bound to leave them for someone else because of it, etc. this happened so often before and after this instance that it became such a strong part of our relationship. i only mention this because it's weird to see them project this on to me. after witnessing them make their first album, i thought it was fucking amazing for them to have their chance to excel in sharing their art. like, i'm still really proud of them. i had a particularly traumatic 2023, and i want to apologize to kelly again if i ever made them feel like they didn't deserve this success. that's all i really can say, because i've never expressed a jealously to them that i never had. despite everything between us, i still think they deserve to share their art, and i encourage anyone who reads this to proceed to support them. all i have left to say is that they continued to tell me about how i didn't deserve the show i had booked during that conversation in december.

i really don't want to have to simmer within this trauma as i cut contact with them in order to move on and grow from it. i know kelly can say the same. it's weird that they're flaming me in that post for going to therapy, for "general issues," when i see someone who specializes in EMDR, is aware of everything that happened and what has been mentioned previously, and someone that isn't afraid to call me out on my bullshit. i think this devaluing of a person's recovery is frankly awful. there's a certain amount of power at display when it comes to someone calling out another person publically, something i'm even practicing by saying all of this. i think it is necessary if the person proves to be someone prevalent within their respected community. but i don't want to be a part of the DIY scene in denver, or anywhere for that matter. there's no need for a paper trail because of how open i have been to people about what i've done, with the wishes to grow at my own pace like everyone deserves, like kelly deserves. please just take all of this for what you will, and leave the both of us be.

#text

[hauntedpearl]

(this is soooo not meant to be mean to you in any way I just had to get this out)

Okay I hear you about looking at the GO leak with a focus on the queerness being a secret or not. But that is soooo not a Neil thing to do (historically, truly this man has always written queer characters since the 80s- looking at you Sandman). But I also don't want to come off as just defending him when I just wanna talk about the thing you know? This is clearly (to me) about the state of filmmaking right now. The obnoxious need for spoilers ahead of release has always been so irritating and gross to me. All the messages Neil gets asking for spoilers is just stupid and I don't understand the disconnect with the fans. The two seconds of attention you get from Neil telling you to "wait and see" can't possibly be that validating.

But my point is more about how things like this affect the industry in general. The Endgame marvel movies scripts were mostly redacted to the point of actors not even knowing what characters they were talking to to "avoid spoilers" (they didn't trust their actors basically). This degrades the final performance and thus the quality of the entire thing. If all the higher ups in the industry hear that fans just want spoilers, they will cater to that marketing landscape and the quality of storytelling and filmmaking will suffer for it. This isn't new with GO, this has been happening for a while. It goes right along with a million shows being made just to cancel after one season. This is related to why the WGA is striking. Seriously.

It's like how I was absolutely hoping to see Andrew Garfield in No Way Home, but all of the leaks and speculating made the surprise so much less fun in the moment. If I didn't know that was gonna happen I would have cried in the movie theater. But I did know. And that sucked. Because I also feel like when things are leaked out of context we are now in a state where filmmakers can go back and change things last second, once again to the detriment of the final piece. (I'm pretty sure I heard of this actually happening but I forget with what.)

I'm sorry to dump all this on you but this whole thing is super frustrating to me. I've seen a lot of people shitting on Neil or making this about something much smaller (and therefore blameworthy) than it is, which is just so unnecessary. I think there's a place for leaks in a whistleblower context, like the stuff with the Idol, but this kind of thing simply doesn't need to happen.

LASTLY I'm sorry but destiel cannot be compared to this whatsoever. Amazon WILLINGLY releases queer content. Period. Lmao. The CW?? An enemy. Yeah sure leak the tapes they were homophobic for spns entire run. Not putting the GO kiss out is not a censorship tactic?? It's just a keeping scenes in context to be fulfilling within the whole story tactic? I just don't think being respectful of storytellers and their audiences is an outdated notion. At least it shouldn't be.

Again I'm sorry for this ask, my frustration is not directed at you personally, but at the conversation I'm seeing in general.

again i GET what you're saying about the spoiler landscape. i just. don't watch trailers ever. the only exception to this rule for me has been the Barbie trailer. I pick up books w/o reading summaries bc I'm like. I WANT THE SURPRISE. im super anal about spoilers generally. like. i get wanting to keep things a surprise i fully do but i just feel like with this specific thing it's just. weird imo. esp if you also want to openly be like well they are soulmates. which is what they've been saying since forever.

like. here's the thing: fans don't WANT the spoilers. the marvel movie machine jsut wants to coast on the shock value instead of making a good movie with a good story. which is why they don't want the actors sharing anything bc if the audience is not shocked or surprised, the audience is not feeling anything. their stories have lost their points. like yeah people badgering him for spoilers is stupid but in general people want more of a teaser than anything else i think. i mean i don't think anyone's gonna be super happy if the context of the kiss spoiler came out rn ykwim? like that's a big spoiler in this scenario imo

also GAGDJDN NO NO EXACTLY THAT WAS MY POINT. I was saying that even in the context of "a ship going canon" sth like destiel getting leaked would be so much more different. than whatever this is. because that's a whole different can of worms. but yeah. essentially it's like. i personally don't see this as "ruining" the story in any way. and i think bc it happened from the official source, people are entitled to like. talking about it. making fun of it. whatever else. it's like. okay you wanted to keep it in but it's out now and FUNCTIONALLY it has changed nothing so just. let them be??

edit: like again this is my personal perspective on the whole thing i think it's fine if individual fans want to avoid looking at it or whatever it's like. their business. that's not a thing i have an issue with. but i kinda hate that the blame falls on fans for sharing things around. it's not like someone hacked into prime video's servers and stole the footage yk shdgjdkd someone ELSE was being an irresponsible employee at the hq so like be mad at Amazon for being stupid ykwim

#i mean i have been lukrwarm about how neil has talked about azcrowley over the years tbh so i guess that's def colouring my perception #where even if he's not blaming fans directly he's just like oh make this go away or whatever and it's like chill #it's fine peoplr still actually dont really know anything. it's just a shot no context #good omens leak #doe's inbox

[candygrlsworld]

Back to school rebrand📝🎀

Ok so this post is gonna be kind of a guide/personal post. I’m gonna be talking about how I’m going to be rebranding myself this school year and little tips on how you can too!

Idk I feel like this is different from my usual posts but I think this will be beneficial for me and you guys!

Mindset ✨

I want to just be unapologetically myself this year,

I'm just gonna be focused on my school work, dressing cute, being myself. I'm not going to try and get anyones attention, love, or respect. Imma just be doing my own thing in my own world. I'm not going out of my way to please people. Or be nobody's friend. Like if you like me come up and talk to me. And if you don't idc. I can chill by myself.

I know it’s messed up but I’ve tried opening up myself to people. So I’m not doing that this year. I just wanna keep to myself because I got hurt last year by trying to be everyone’s friend. I just want to be totally mysterious.

Just focus on self love, & my happiness.

Another thing I’m doing is I’m becoming serious this year. I’ve officially decided I’m going to FIT or Parsons to get my degree in fashion design. So I will be working hard with my school work and extracurriculars. I’ve already created a notion account to organize my school work.

(Link to the notion template I used)

And im just becoming a total nerd. Everytime you see me I will be studying. Like im going to make Rory Gilmore and Elle Woods proud!

Style ✨

I want to dress very simple, and have all my clothes be form fitting. I don’t want to stand out I just want to be comfortable. I also just want to be girly 24/7. I want the way I dress to truly represent who I am. Instead of playing a character.

My style in 4 words: Preppy, girly, y2k, & sweet!

Goals✨

Be more healthy, excercise, stretch, eat better

Keep my grades 90 or above

Stay in an extracurricular the whole year

Also I’m planning on posting on YouTube more and starting my own depop shop!!!

No people pleasing

Take my fashion design career seriously (no “trying out” diff hobbies and careers)

Don’t let people take advantage of me (if someone disrespects me, drop them, I’m not tolerating bullshit)

Be selfish (Protect my peace, not giving energy to things that don’t benefit me, putting myself first)

2022-2023 vision board🎀

Lemme break this down:

Work on my brand

Make some money to move out (might make a post on why I have to move out as soon as possible)

Eat healthier

Get really good at volleyball and make the team (also get good at roller skating)

Get a genuine girly bff so we can talk about fashion and life. (All my friends last year were fake)

Get better grades (again I wanna try harder in school cause I usually do the bare minimum and get 80s-90s

Tips✨

I will be giving tips based off my experience in high school so far since I am a junior this year. And also some tips I’ve collected from the internet.

Obvi my first tip is my “study like me” post where I break down all my advice for studying, so check that out if your interested in more academic advice.

Make 2022-2023 school year vision board (goals, how u wanna dress etc.)

Surrond yourself with friends/people that uplift you/are better than you and inspire you

Clean out room and phone. Get a new wardrobe, get a journal & change your mindset, just totally reset

BE SELFISH don’t give all your energy to people, take time to take care of yourself (even if u are working hard for school)

Keep a planner to organize school work and a journal to organize your thoughts! (Also because they are cute)

Romanticize school (trust me if you pretend your Elle woods it will make school fun and easier)

Let go of toxic habits, behaviors and friends (anything you do not benefit from get rid of it)

Videos & posts

@angeldiscovery reinventing yourself post

Really thewizardliz whole YouTube but these two videos have helped me video 1. Video 2

@dreamgrlarchive faboulisty reset

@angeldiscovery become the best version of you

Localblackchilds YouTube has a lot of good videos for school here two good ones

Protecting your peace & stay organized in school

Theplaygirldiaries podcast how to brand yourself

I hope this helped you guys out!! And I wish you all luck on this school year! It would be so cool to see you guys create your own post like this. (#2022rebrand maybe???)

As always I love you guys!!!!🫶🏽

~yours truly 💋

#me #thoughts #mystyle #yours truly #guides #personal posts

[fainthedcherry]

IT'S NEW YEARS OVER HERE SO LET ME LAUNCH MY BABIES AT YOU FOR IT!!!!

In case you want their backstories, I just recommend you go over to their Toyhou.ses respectively, as- typing on Tumblr is a pain for my PC. My PC hates Tumblr in particular for some reason, whenever I format text, and I can't LIVE without formatting text as a hobby-author man. xD

LINK TO MARCO'S STORY

LINK TO ZORRO'S STORY

For new users; Marco was made by Heavenly-Hellfire and Hollowed-Hartlocke. I bought him back in 2019! Still love him like it's day 1. My best, most adorable boy <3, he's become my actual role model, I love him sm ;:

In case you never read them before, hopefully you enjoy the reads!!! I hope you can forgive the older grammar on Zorro's. I def plan to rewrite it, once I finish working on my raider-code. (It's been taking so long bc I'm trying to learn to use the CSS mixin z-index class-type. I still can't figure out image borders for the life of me, but I learned rotation class-types LOL.)

I've wanted to redraw both their reference sheet for almost YEARS now. Ever since I've gotten Marco, I continuously evolved how I draw him, over and over, to a point his old ref had become a detriment, due to how differently I draw him nowadays LOL. One thing that desperately needed a redo for him especially, how his hair is supposed to be drawn + his wings. His wings looked like floppy chicken nuggets on the old one LOL. PLUS! I added a section of details, where I see artists I commissioned, struggle with or fail on. Hopefully the detail section is sufficient in fixing that! I'm not sure, if I should also add a mention, of Marco's dot details below the pink pattern, as even the distance between the dots is different. + I LOVE DRAWING EXPRESSIONS. So to also add a small box of extras for Marco's cool glowy eyes was a treat. <3

I plan to redraw his refs for his magic wind attacks perhaps, as for now, I have a shabby drawing, and I got a free animation program lately, so I can FINALLY unleash my years of experience animating, in the appropriate program now LMAO. My own limitations of using SAI to animate, was making my animations look choppy and bad for years unfortunately, so my art always looked very amateur-ish when I actually know how to animate..

Speaking of that, for the attentive...Yes, I plan to possibly try and draw a 360° turnaround of my characters, as the next natural progression of refs next. I am SO close, so so SO close to making my art finally look like it's part of my project I've been working on for years in private. Ever since this year, people have proven, that you CAN start an animated series on the internet, and it will receive an audience. I also wanted to start an animated series when I was a teen, and now that I'm an adult I can make it happen for sure, with the right talents. When the time comes, I might seek out a music producer and perhaps, if I'll have the money, hire animators, so that I'm not the only one who has to work on the series I planned.

For Zorro....He had it coming. Last time I drew his ref, he looked like a 16 yo/ mobian child, it pissed me off for so many years, once I learned how to properly make adult characters look adult lol. THE CEREAL SPITTER NOW ACTUALLY LOOKS ADULT AND LIKE THE BASTARD SELF HE SHOULD BE. I don't have too much to add to him, but I consider him still a WIP in my brain bc- RAIDER PAGE CODE. I WANNA FINISH. GRABBY HANDS. I CAN FEEL THAT IF I LEARN Z-INDEX FINALLY I CAN REALISE THAT CODE. I've wanted to make a code for my raiders 3 years ago already y'all it's painful to be patient w/ myself sdgkldslgdsg

I'm so satisfied, with my ref sheets finally looking, like a professional drew them imho!! If you disagree w/ that notion, feel free to tell me what's missing or where I need to improve on! :D

My 2024 started amazing and with laughter and appreciation for my friends, I'm so happy finally. 3 years in a row, all I did was cry each new year, and be in pain. 2024 feels like it could be my year. Year of the dragon, bless me with your energetic and powerful spirit please,, 🙏

ANYWAY. Forgive me in advance for watermarks, but I kind of? Am paranoid now over my art a bit bc my work is good now? Like I think I'm in the final stages of my artistry. I can feel, that I might find the perfect style soon. I need to experiment just a bit more. Just a bit more...I might consider loosening up my linework in 2024. I honestly still? Hate lineart? Like..My lineart looks good now, don't get me wrong but. I just love sketchy artwork so much more??? Sketching is so fun, creating is so joyful, when it's a sketch..But lineart kind of.....Ruins my art. I think I should loosen up. It's why I might change my approach a millionth time, but my artstyle has potential now. I don't feel, like my art is awful anymore or worth nothing, it now HAS worth, I now HAVE the right to have an ego about it, but some pieces still are missing, to give me the ultimate happiness and relief in my work. Perhaps if I do some more commissions, I might unlock my final potential? We'll see.

My aspirations for 2024;

Pass the prep-exam for my workplace (I LOVE MY WORK. I SINCERELY WISH I'LL PASS. I love work so much omg I don't wanna be fired so badly)

Draw more art of Finn & Marco so they finally pass Chloe in most images on TH (I REALLY DON'T WANT HER TO HAVE THE MOST IMAGES STILL. It should either be my comfort boys or C.I.Ta)

Be more experimental with mixing medias traditionally (I wanna start mixing mini craft-projects + my drawings or mix more pencils + markers and also glass pens + watercolours. I rlly rlly wanna experiment and go loose.)

Animate more and possibly even post said animations. I know animation takes me HELL OF A LOT of time, as I lack so much time to do so, but I'd love to do that

Stop stressing so hard over OTA's and commissions. I know I tell myself each year, "this year will be the year I wanna finish all my owed art!!" But every once and a while, I need to be a realist to myself, my optimism may be good, but it sometimes..Is a little over-eager. But I noticed in 2023, I really heavily strangle myself out. I haven't drawn any private art since 2020, really.....It says a lot about an artist, if they now haven't drawn a personal drawing and finished it, in the same quality of their owed work for 4 years now. I haven't been really honest to myself and my heart, and I'd like to forgive myself slowly, by allowing to both work on owed work, and start creative, passionate art-projects again, again, where I can let loose and just. Experiment. Do something new. Push the boundaries of my art. Combine medias, collages, etc, anything under the sun I wanna try. I limit myself so hard, over chasing a goal, I can't achieve, if I won't acknowledge, I'll cause my own death as an artist, if I continue to chase unattainable goals, I can't achieve, if I won't be gentle to myself.

Finish revamping my commission sheet. It requires, I draw new examples of course. The big thing I need to warn ahead; I will have a fat price-increase, due to work taking all the time I can have now. I can only work around 4hrs a day on art. My art takes around 20 hours to be finished. Every piece is done with love, with time, with effort. I'm not an artist, who adheres to algorithms. I'm an artist who lives with passion, with freedom in mind. I have an endless amount of ideas, I have an infinite amount of space and ways to create it. I am not a machine, I am, what an artist strives to be. To simply...Create. AI can go to hell, and drag NFTs along with it. I to this day get attempts to be hacked, by tech bros, believe it or not. I pissed off BAYC on Twitter once, and some butthurt idiot, is still trying to get to my Insta and Steam to this day. Won't happen anymore with 2FA idiot, lmao. I won't allow a 2nd hack to happen.

Finish giving ALL my characters on TH a floatie icon. I know w/ 100% certainty, that I got this task in the bag. This one is of no problem at all.

With that, thank you for reading my world-salad! Almost as tasty, as mom's olivier-salad. Yumyum. Btw secret lil teaser ig below here lmao. I started Finn's sheet too, and I've got it 1/3rds done, but I don't wanna burn myself out on ref-sheets, so perhaps you'll see Finn also reworked in a few months! ✨

#new years post #new years resolution #artwork #my art #digital art #art #artists on tumblr #character art #original art #semi realistic #sonic fan character #sonic oc #sonic ocs #sonic fan characters #reference sheet #reference sheets #character reference #character ref sheet #ref sheet #oc design #my babies #angel #raider #criminal (fictional) #happy new year #new year #new years eve #happy new year 2024

[sophieinwonderland]

Ngl as a chicano (Mexican-American) your "neutrality" on the transracial thing is disheartening. I don't think the conversation is about gatekeeping every culture ever.

Cultures are bound to overlap. No one (atleast that I know irl) is out here policing the all the exchanges of culture that happen in my city (Wether it be Black, Laos, Chinese, Korean, Japanese, Latin American, Jamaican, Eastern European, etc.)

The conversation is about the notion of them changing their physical appearance such as their face (to match stereotypes) and skin color (that they can revert back any second if they wanted, me having a headmate that has a white skin tone does not give me white privilege! So I don't know why this transracial bs should be tolerated the other way around.)

It's incredibly uncomfortable and anxiety-inducing to hear someone FETISHIZE a RACIAL IDENTITY. And yes I know "race" can be ambiguous and is basically an outdated scientific term, but in this context it's just someone's outward appearance and culture they were born into. It means a damn lot. And people don't get to say "uwu I think this race is cool I'm literally them now no one say otherwise" Like NO. I don't care how respectful they are how much they've studied whatever, you don't get to just romanticize and appropriate how an entire population of people look. Trying to change your physical appearance to "fit in" with an ethnicity reinforces the wrong external perspective of "skin color/facial features = ethnicity/culture".

I was held back in school for not being able to speak english properly. Once I did I was still being ridiculed by adults and denied of multiple diagnosis' not only because of my skin color but because of the neighborhood I belonged too. I had been apprehended as a child multiple times for being at the wrong place at the wrong time... But if I was some white kid with golden retriever hair it DEFINITELY would not have happened. My high school had a 5% white student population, and those kinds of high schools are practically blacklisted from every college in my area that wasn't a community college. (nothing wrong with community college) but you needed to be a "prodigy" to not get yelled at from your parents to failing to reach a private institution... or outright go through the process of moving to another state. My teachers always told us how they've seen them shred our application papers instantly upon seeing the school name, and they used that was a way to perpetuate an already shitty education system to be even shittier for a population that is already facing so many other difficulties. You wanna tell me with a straight face that someone who "identifies" as a racial minority should unironically be given the same positive treatments that transgender people are struggling to grasp?

At first it seemed like your stance was that the majority of them are trolls. That you would basically never come across these people in real life. That's what I thought too before looking into it. But you seem to be outright defending people who treat other races like a pair of slippers you can side into is just... wow... Also "transracial" was originally a term for parents who adopted a child of a different race, so in that definition of the word, I know plenty transracial people! POC adopted by White people and White people whose legal guardians were POC! They are not out here darkening their skin or going through surgery! "Racial dysphoria" is probably... a real thing someone can experience. But "transitioning" into another race as you would another gender is simply not okay. That is treating psuedo-memories as objective personal history. Feeding into that is a recipe for disaster. You simply do not approach this as you would being transgender. It can even be dangerous for the transracial person in question.

For the record I do not care about headmates choosing whatever skin color they want internally, but the internal world (headspace, wonderland, etc.) and the external physical world are very different. They're both equal levels of real to me, and I don't mean to be super harsh to anyone exploring their identity wether they have their birthdate on a birth certificate or can only make a guess of when they became existent... but I'm not gonna sit here and say that unironically going into a transID direction is ever going to be a good thing. Going through surgery and making your skin tone different will always be inherently privileged and disturbing, because you never really have to carry the burden that racial minorities do, and moving to another country to live and assimilate there IS NOT that same thing as the misunderstanding and appropriation of people. You don't need to demand that you be on the equal level of those who were born into it. Saying you are indifferent to "transID" people is genuinely disappointing.

Thank you for sharing your experiences. And I'm sorry for disappointing.

I'm also sorry for all of the horrible things you experienced because of where you were born and how you looked. I realize there's nothing I can say to make that better. It's absolutely terrible, and I genuinely understand why it must hurt to see people who didn't have to grow up with this type of discrimination identifying as your race as if they had experienced the same suffering

But like I said in my post before, I need consistency in my internal moral compass. And I've seen this position before.

I will not call a male “she”; thirty-two years of suffering in this androcentric society, and of surviving, have earned me the title “woman”; one walk down the street by a male transvestite, five minutes of his being hassled (which he may enjoy), and then he dares, he dares to think he understands our pain? No, in our mothers’ names and in our own, we must not call him sister.

This is Robin Morgan in 1973.

And I can understand that perspective too.

I can understand that it must have felt incredibly invalidating to have been discriminated against for her entire life because of her gender. To have had your grandmother have to fight just for the right to vote. To yourself become an activist during the Women's Liberation Movement, and fight for equal treatment; something that women still haven't really gotten even 50 year later. To live in a world where you equate being a woman with having to suffer.

And then she sees what appears to be men "pretending" to be women. She sees only insincere motives, wondering if they're fetishizing being a woman, even thinking that they would enjoy being hassled on the street like it's just some type of game for them.

I can understand the type of life that would lead someone to adopt this perspective, with all the terrible things she endured due to being who she was.

And I think the hurt and the pain she experienced was valid.

But I don't agree with her position.

And I don't make this comparison as an insult. I'm not trying to insinuate that you're a TERF or anything of the sort.

What I am saying is that the arguments themselves are similar enough to Robin Morgan's and others that I've seen that I can't agree with your position while maintaining my own moral consistency.

I hear you. I am sorry for what you've suffered. I understand your pain. I understand why you have the position that you do.

But it's just not something I can agree with. Again, I'm sorry to disappoint.

As far as if it's healthy or not for someone who feels dysphoric with their skin to transition, I don't think there's we can really say that. People also say that those who transition into different genders would be feeding into "delusions" and that it would be harmful to them. I'm certainly not going to jump on any similar position regarding another group of people who may experience dysphoria in their own skin.

I maintain that people have a right to decide what's healthy for themselves, in any context. Especially in a situation where there just aren't any statistics.

And I also just strongly suspect you're wrong about this. In addition to transgender people being more comfortable after transitioning, VR and AR therapy where someone sees themselves without a limb have reduced symptoms of BIID in BIID patients following treatment. I suspect seeing yourself on the outside in a way that matches your internal identity would have a similar effect on people who were dysphoric about other aspects of themselves, including skin color.

Lastly, on the name, an anon recently mentioned that it seems that their community is moving towards the labels of Trace and Diaracial to avoid this issue because there is an awareness of how using the term transracial can be harmful.

#ask box #transid #trace #transrace #transx #trans x #diaracial #racial identity #discourse

[poorlittlevampirebaby]

but i'm actually thinking how good ethan and aaron could be for each other ??? like if there's anyone who can understand how aaron's been victimized by the prison industrial system it's ethan, and bc ethan can empathize with that i think it would probably help him with his own like... snobbishness and elitism which i think is finally really starting to give way especially following his arrest and subsequent loss of his job. ykno with marcus like as much as he broke some of ethan's preconceived notions of class, i don't think ethan ever managed to actually respect his trade job, he never let himself understand marcus's pov and it was really frustrating. i'm wondering if aaron could bring ethan down to earth a bit. i'm wondering if ethan could help inspire more constructive ways for aaron to like deal with his anger and his sense of injustice. i think they are similar in a lot of ways because both are people with a very strong sense of what is right and wrong, they just have always dealt with it in different ways because of their respective upbringings. like i really think there's something here where aaron can expand ethan's worldview and ethan can... politicize ??? aaron more maybe idk

i wanna see them start like grassroots organizing in the village or something

#I LOVE THEM SO MUCH JUST THE POTENTIAL U GUYS THE POTENTIALLLLL #edale blogging

[traumasurvivorshelpingsurvivors]

[TW: sex discussion, consensual underage sex mention, CSA as a concept]

I don't get my deal with sexuality and I'm starting to realize I behave like a survivor except I have no memory of anything of that nature, and I was wondering if anyone could shed light on why I'm like this or how I could find out the truth?

As a child I masturbated constantly and had an intense curiosity about anything sexual, but I also had a major fear of pedophiles and didn't want to be left alone with an adult even my own family - I read a lot including newspapers so I can't tell if something happened that I repressed or just being so aware of sex crimes as a concept gave me that paranoia.

The older I've gotten (I'm 27) the more confusing sexuality has become - as an autistic person the stigma around disabled folk and sex has been a constant weight, but I genuinely was a 'late bloomer' irt attraction to others and I'm still pretty lukewarm. I had sex once at 15 with my then-gf and I just went numb and dissociated even though I wanted to do it, since then I've only had LDRs and it scares me if I meet my current bf irl the same thing will happen as it's already wildly variable when I enjoy sexting and when it just makes me anxious. I once had a sobbing panic attack when he wanted to do stuff on skype (which I'd done before just fine) and that doesn't happen to a healthy adult, right? He's not overly pushy, just has a more normal drive than me, but when he initiates I never know how I'll react and I hate he has to deal with that.

I'm a trans man, and frankly if I got to go on T the change I'd be most excited for is my sex drive increasing so I won't feel so freaky as I'm always skating a line between sexual and repulsed, feeling uneasy hearing people I follow discuss their sex lives and seeing most NSFW content besides stuff that doesn't involve another real person like written fantasies or 'character x reader' content. I have a decent amount of fictional/famous crushes and self-contained fantasies to an extent that occasionally verges on hypersexual and I still masturbate a lot, so asexuality doesn't seem like the answer, besides every asexual I know loves who they are when I detest being this way.

If nothing happened I should be more normal, but I can't remember anything of that nature and it hurts to not have an explanation. I just don't wanna be broken and weird and afraid when I'm not sure I even have an excuse to act like this and if I do I don't know how I could ever find out.

Hi anon,

It's important to remember that everyone's experiences with sexuality are unique, and it's okay if you don't fully understand your own feelings and behaviors around it. You may not have experienced sexual trauma, but if you have, it could be repressed.

I want to preface by saying that when it comes to exploring possible trauma, it's essential to have the guidance and mediation of a mental health professional such as a therapist. Someone with expertise in this area could get a better sense of who you are, what you've been through, and help you explore some possible trauma. It can be very dangerous to your mental health to dig around for potentially repressed memories, because memories that are repressed are repressed for a reason. If you find something you aren't psychologically and emotionally prepared to handle, that could have a great impact on your mental health and safety (from yourself). But also, if you for whatever reason don't have trauma, it would be similarly dangerous to implant the notion that you do. And so, a therapist would be able to assist you further in finding out whether or not you have trauma, and how to process that in a healthy way.

A question that I find helpful to ask for individuals who are trying to understand sexual behavior they displayed as a child is, where did you learn what you were doing? Because while it may be expected for a pubescent child to masturbate, it's less expected for a prepubescent child to masturbate. Respectively, while "Stranger Danger" is often shoved down children's throats, it doesn't necessarily explain your major fear of pedophiles, which makes me wonder, how did you know what they were? These may be questions you don't have the answer to, and that's okay, but these could be things to explore with the help of a professional.

I also just want to say that it's okay to identify as asexual if you feel the term is fitting for you, even if you feel hypersexual at times (I'm also ace). Asexuality is the lack of sexual attraction, meaning to someone in particular, which means that you can still enjoy sexual acts sometimes, they just aren't necessarily centered around a specific person. You may also already know, but asexuality is a spectrum ranging from sex-repulsed to sex-positive, and it's okay to fluctuate between these. If you feel that trauma has a role in your sexuality, you may resonate with the term caedosexual.

Please know that you are not broken or weird for having these feelings and experiences. It's okay to take the time to explore and understand your own sexuality, and seeking support from a professional can be a helpful step in that process.

I hope I could help. Please let us know if you need anything.

-Bun

#mod bun #trauma talks #tw abuse #tw sa #tw csa

[shiroandblack]

I don't know if the 07-Ghost fandom is dead or alive, but it's still one of my favourite mangas to this day and I wanna talk about how love is both a blessing and a harbinger of doom in this manga. Let's start with Vanessa Antwort aka Chrom's legal wife and queen (because sadly, Millea Klein was a concubine because she was 'too lowborn' to be the Queen of Raggs).

We know that Vanessa was deeply in love with Chrom, but Chrom was deeply in love with Millea. However, Chrom also didn't treat her badly at all. When Ayanami said that she was granted the greatest consideration, aka having the political power as queen and also having Tiashe/Teito (considering in this era his name was Tiashe, I will be calling him Tiashe here) kept away from her sight, he was correct. While yes, this was definitely for Tiashe's safety because she absolutely did not look fondly upon him, but I think this was considered a concession to Vanessa because Tiashe is basically a living reminder that Vanessa will never be the 'first' in Chrom's eyes. Also I imagine it would be deeply humiliating for a queen, who has yet to have any children yet with the king, to have a concubine's child, who until she and the king have a child is the heir to the throne, be paraded in front of her. So yes, I agree with the notion that she was treated well in Raggs. Especially by Chrom, who despite not loving her the same way he loved Millea, held a degree of fondness or friendship for her and I think treated her with the respect and dignity her status as queen warranted. I think that in another world where Vanessa was not in love with Chrom, this whole political marriage might've worked out well.

Now, we all know Vanessa and Wolfram basically helped start the Raggs war which saw the Raggs kingdom destroyed and its people displaced simply because of . . . Unrequited love. Wolfram, the Emperor of Barsburg, was deeply in love with Millea (who was originally born in Barsburg) while Vanessa was deeply in love with Chrom. Don't get me wrong, these two were manipulated to the high heavens, however it's also important to remember that they did choose to do these things despite knowing it was objectively wrong. So many atrocities in 07-Ghost were done in the name of love, but so many wonderful things as well.

The first example I can think of is Castor and Lazette, who while not a romantic relationship (I don't interpret their relationship as romantic, however if you do then it's your prerogative) is still a relationship full of love. Castor, a young heir to an old and wealthy noble house, died for Lazette, a character whose very species is considered inferior to Castor, nevermind social status. And we see him being moved enough by the depth of Kuroyuri and Haruse's relationship (I'm sorry if I got his name wrong it has been years, it's Haruse right?) to give Haruse another chance at life, instead of the poor, half-life Ayanami was able to grant him. And Labrador's entire past was a tragedy, but he sacrificed himself for love as many characters have done.

Now, let's consider what is arguably one of the most important love stories in 07-Ghost. Verloren and Eve. Of which the entirety of the plot of 07-Ghost wouldn't have happened without them. Verloren and Eve loved one another and when Eve died, it all came apart. It's ironic that despite Verloren acting as if Eve was murdered unjustly, he is in fact her murderer. Her death was unfortunate and dare I say it, almost accidental. She fell back and Verloren touches her to catch her, and we know that as the god of death, his touch kills everything. And because of this, he is obsessed with finding her reincarnation on earth to the point he basically kills people just to see if their soul is truly Eve's and he reincarnates time and time again, just to continue his search for her. And we find out that it's basically all for nothing, because Eve has reincarnated as the light in every human's souls, as the goodness in their hearts. I personally think that it's very fitting that someone as warm and empathetic as Eve had basically become the manifestation of human kindness.

So yeah, I find it beautiful that 07-Ghost shows the duality of love. How love, while generally a positive emotion, can also lead to something terrible. The worst crimes in 07-Ghost are all done in the name of love.

#07 ghost