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lilacjaemin · 5 years

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daisies

pairing: prince!jeno x gender neutral reader

genre: fluffy angst oh yes (plus lil commentaries hehe)

word count: 4.5k

summary: daisies symbolize true love – each daisy is really two flowers blended together in harmony, the center petals are one flower surrounded by the “rays” of another. they mean purity and innocence, one that swears a loyalty to love and a commitment to a shared secrecy.

a/n: thank you to jeno for being my biggest muse!! oh also thank you to payton for helping me research flowers for this <3

· royal prince!jeno can’t wait to rule his people and his beautiful kingdom full of flower fields and forests

· but he can wait a little longer to get married

· and one night the royal family throws a dinner party and a ball filled with suitors for their son

· but jeno can’t take the stuffy atmosphere and the hundreds of girls trying to dance with him

· so he runs off to his favorite spot in his kingdom

· these rolling hills covered in daisies

· it’s this pretty valley that nobody else knows about sometimes he goes there when his royal duties are too much and he needs to get away

· but when he arrives he stumbles across you laying on the hill stargazing, engulfed in the flowers

· he had no idea anyone else knew about this place

· he really doesn’t wanna be around any more people tonight but in the dim moonlight he can make out the features of your face

· he’s never seen you around the castle, and by what you’re wearing you definitely didn’t just run away from the same ball

· so he carefully approaches and asks if he can join you

· you sit up, freaked out that someone found this secret spot of yours

· the figure is in a white button up and a dark blue suit jacket with gold swirls

· he looks expensive but his eyes are kind

· so you say okay

· when he sits down next to you, he smells of many different expensive perfumes, which you find weird

· you ask what he’s doing out here because by the looks of his dark suit he probably should be at some ball

· and he says “yeah i should be.”

· what?

· and that’s when you notice the gold coronet resting neatly in his hair

· ohhhhh he’s the prince

· you’re sitting on the ground with the prince

· the future king jeno

· o k a y

· suddenly jeno thinks he hears something and he’s paranoid of his parents’ royal guards finding him and this spot so he turns to you like did you hear that??

· and before you could respond, out of nowhere he grabs you?? and dives into the flowers

· your hands against his chest preventing you from smacking into him

· he’s pulled you super close, his breathing rapid and eyes closed

· you’re a little frozen, still in shock the prince just tackled you

· he waits, realizing he probably just heard a squirrel or something

· the ~kdrama~ moment happens where he opens his eyes and finds himself staring into yours

· time stops for a split second, the wind ruffling the grass and daisies surrounding you two

· and then he regains his composure and helps you up again

· “are you okay? im so sorry! oh, that was so weird and creepy i just cant get caught out here.”

· you blink slowly, the surprise wearing off

· “yeah im totally fine.”

· well maybe physically, but your heart?? about to beat out of your chest!!

· jeno reaches his hand out and brushes a strand out of your face, smoothing out the rest of your disheveled hair

· you swore fire ignited from his fingertips

· you have to change the subject before you lose it

· “so…you said you should be at a ball right now?” you clear your throat and brush yourself off

· “ah, my family is pressing me to find a suitable partner. lately it’s just been dinner after dinner, dance after dance, i hate it.” he sighs, laying back into the hillside

· “you hate people trying to get your attention?”

· “i want to marry once i fall in love, not because they would be a good ruler of the kingdom.”

· “i see.” you whisper, laying down beside him

· “ i love my family, i love this kingdom and i can’t wait to rule but i wish that one part of my life could be normal. i tried to have the most normal childhood i could manage. i did everything i could to grow up and feel like everyone else, but nobody else has to have arranged marriages, so why do i?”

· you stay quiet, soaking his words in, watching the moon as jeno continues to your right

· “love seems incredible. i just wanna experience it for real. i don’t want someone ive only met a handful of times before our wedding, no matter how extravagant the whole thing is. i’ve tried so many times to explain to my parents that i can rule by myself for the time being and then ill find a partner, but they won’t let me.”

· you listen to his worries, the whole time not realizing that your hand had made its way to rest on jeno’s arm

· it’s something you do to comfort others, but he turns his head to look at you and you immediately pull away

· you start apologizing, saying how it’s just a habit you have, but he stops you

· “no no it’s okay, it feels nice to have someone really listening to me.” he smiles

· oh his smile is beautiful, it shines brighter than the moon above

· “i never get to hang out with other people my age and not have a bunch of royalty stuff looming over my head.”

· you were just in awe that the prince who has it all is unhappy and you feel so bad and just wanna hug him because honestly he’s so cute

· you listen while he rants about his duties and how stuck up some of the royal advisors are and how every suitor he meets is in it just for the wealth, they don’t really care about the him as a person

· he asks what your take on it is and you talk about your views on love

· you’re saying how you think it’s the most beautiful thing and that you’ve seen it in your parents and you want it so badly, but it always feels like all of the people in town don’t want a serious relationship

· “i want to meet someone that makes every star look pale in comparison. i come out here to look at the night sky and hope that somewhere, the one i’m meant to be with is looking at it too.”

· and jeno nods

· he completely understands

· “my family says i’m crazy for thinking that way. but i work in a library, im surrounded by incredible stories of romance, how can i not hope for one myself?”

· he’s fascinated at the fact that you can date normally but don’t because you say there’s no one out there

· jeno assures you there’s people out there, he has to meet with them constantly, he just never gets along with any of them

· you talk about royal life into the late hours of the night

· jeno is just so happy to have someone genuinely interested in his thoughts and feelings

· he’s giddy, ranting about his plans for the kingdom and his goals for the future

· you don’t know when you drift off, but you remember hearing his warm voice fade away

· and you fall asleep on his shoulder

· jeno doesn’t remember when he drifts off, but he remembers feeling your warmth at his side

· when he wakes up at sunrise, jeno is like oh i‘m so dead they’re never gonna let me out of the castle ever again !!

· but he looks at you, sleeping peacefully against him with daisies framing your face

· he feels his heart do a backflip

· is this how it’s supposed to feel? there’s not supposed to be a sense of dread pooling in his stomach like there is when a suitor walks in? interesting

· gently waking you up, he tells you he has to run to get back to the castle

· but he promises you he’ll do everything he can to come back to this spot to meet you and stargaze again

· “i’ll be here.” you say sleepily, smiling at his messy hair

· when he gets home his parents are like oh you are in so much trouble we threw that ball for you and you LEFT?? AND WE SEARCHED ALL OVER AND COULDNT FIND YOU?? WE THOUGHT YOU WERE KIDNAPPED??

· and jeno is like um. oops? trying to contain his smile when he thinks of you and your soft hand on his arm

· he gets read the riot act and is told if it happens again there will be serious consequences

· and jeno never gets in trouble so this is big

· but he’s willing to take the risk

· for weeks he sneaks out and runs to the field each and every night

· finding more reasons to love being in your company than there are stars in the sky

· one night before dawn broke you stopped playing with the hem of your shirt

· “i was thinking about what you told me the first night we met.” you say, eyes glued to the ground

· “i know you’ll find somebody, and not just because you’re a prince. you will find someone who loves you for your heart, not just the riches.”

· he stares at you, something in his eyes you couldn’t quite pin

· jeno was glad it was dark, if not you would’ve seen the red dusting on his cheeks

· “y-you’ll find someone too. i know it.”

· its quiet for a minute and then very subtly, jeno grabs your hand

· “is this okay?”

· “of course it is. now can you tell me about the secret royal garden? i heard its incredible.”

· you lay on your side and spend the rest of the night finding the stars in his eyes

· another dinner is scheduled, this time with the family of a neighboring kingdom

· this family has a daughter the same age as jeno

· he knows in his gut that his parents want him to be with her

· but he can’t shake the feeling of your hands in his

· it’s where they belong

· nevertheless, he fake smiles through the meal, tensing when she tries to reach for his arm across the table

· after the disaster of a dinner, jeno sneaks away again

· you can tell by the look on his face that he needs a hug

· “i don’t want to be with her.” he breathes into your neck

· “you’re sure you can’t talk to your parents about this?” you say, running your hand through his dark hair

· “they don’t listen. i’ve tried, they just won’t listen.”

· you hold him close, wracking your brain for a solution to this problem

· but there seems to be none

· jeno creeps back to the castle after spending the whole night wrapped in your arms

· but the queen is waiting for him in his chamber when he opens the door

· he’s banned from leaving the castle without supervision until he gets married

· he’s never sent out unless it’s with a guard

· he’s devastated and frustrated because he wants to sneak away to you but someone is always watching

· he feels like he lost the one person who understood him the most

· one day he goes into the castle library in an effort to get some peace

· to his surprise, you are working in the front

· you hear a gasp and when you look up jeno stands before you

· “this library? you work in the castle and never told me!?”

· “no, the town’s library is overstaffed because of the summer, so i took the job opening here. i always waited for you to come in and find out, but i guess you don’t use the library as much as i imagined.” you laugh

· your heart is beating like crazy seeing him again

· you bring him to your favorite little poetry corner, out of view of the entrance

· huddled in amongst the books he takes hold of your hands

· you can see him visibly relax when he feels your palms against his

· “im so sorry, i tried so hard to go meet you but they have guards on me at all times. they won’t let me out of their sight.” he looks frantic

· “jeno, i’ll wait however long it takes to be together. i still go to our spot every night, i still wait for you. i always will.” you reassure him

· his brows unfurrow and he smiles, pulling you close to his chest

· his heartbeat is soothing against your cheek and you realize just how much you missed him

· “oh, i have something for you.” you reach into the last of the shelves, pulling out a thick worn book

· he watches in confusion as you open to a page in the center

· “here, i pressed these for you. for the nights when you can’t come visit, just know i’m there.” you show him two dry daisies, careful not to blow them away

· his face lights up, gently taking the book from you and running a finger over their stems

· he’s about to thank you when you hear someone call for him from the door

· he frowns and shuts the book, tucking it under his arm

· he presses a soft kiss to your forehead before scurrying off, leaving your skin burning and your mind dizzy

· jeno’s parents are sure the princess from the neighboring kingdom is the one

· and jeno can feel his stomach drop to his feet when they tell him

· desperate to get to you, he tricks his guards into getting him something from the other side of the castle

· he shimmies down his balcony and runs as fast as his legs can take him to the field before they can send search parties out for him

· he grabs you by your shoulders and frantically tells you that they’re arranging his marriage

· but it’s not what he wants, he can’t stop thinking about you

· “jeno.” you whisper, pointing behind him

· you see lanterns come over the hill and horses trample over the flowers

· jeno stands in front of you to protect you but guards pull him away

· he’s yelling at them to stop but they’re angry

· you feel like you can’t breathe

· one of the advisors recognizes you from the library and tells you never to come back to the castle

· you stand and watch with teary eyes as jeno is dragged away and the candles fade into the night

· a few weeks go by and you get word that the prince is betrothed to marry the princess and you’re absolutely heartbroken

· you know jeno doesn’t want that

· and even if it isn’t you that gets to be with him, you still want him to be happy

· out of a job, you ask a family friend who works as a florist to hire you

· “of course! we need all the help we can get for this wedding!”

· oh no

· your heart breaks even more but your family needs the money

· you arrive a few days before to set up the decor and pray the the guards from that night don’t recognize you

· and as much as it hurts, you hope you don’t run into jeno

· but to your dismay he walks in with the princess and you feel your world collapse

· you meet his gaze while they check on the ballroom’s set up and you can see the light behind his eyes go dim

· suddenly he yells “NO! THIS IS ALL WRONG! WE NEED TO HAVE A MEETING TO DISCUSS THE DECOR IMMEDIATELY!”

· he finds a way to break away from the princess just for a second and whispers to meet him at a different spot tonight

· he says it’s under the willow tree at the edge of the forest by the stream and you nod

· “the flower arrangements around the altar are hideous.” he goes back to frowning, trying his hardest not to steal glances at you anymore

· you are sure there’s no way he could get away again but lo and behold you hear footsteps approaching

· you run into jeno’s arms, worried this would be the last time you could ever hold him

· he cups your cheeks, staring into your eyes

· “we don’t have much time but i promise i’m not marrying her. we’ll figure something out, we’ll run away together, we’ll do something, but i promise i am not marrying her.”

· he tries to assure you it’ll all be okay and he’s so certain it will be that you begin to believe him

· but you hear footsteps again

· lots of them

· and you and jeno can hardly see because of the tears in both your eyes but you can hear the impending doom

· there aren’t even words to say to each other, its over

· it’s all over now

· he kisses your forehead, then your cheek, letting his lips linger against your skin

· jeno is ripped from your arms and both of you are taken back to the castle

· they throw you in the dungeon and tell you that you’re going to have a meeting with the king and queen in the morning

· you sit on the cold stone floor and cry into your palms, desperately trying to remember how jeno’s lips felt on your face

· the next day you’re led out in shackles

· you sit in front of the royals and the queen is furious

· she’s yelling how dare you try and ruin her kingdom by getting in the way of her son’s relationship, how dare you still try and meet with him after everything that’s happened

· she’s close to banishing you from the kingdom entirely when jeno runs in, “don’t you understand? im in love with them!”

· jeno loves you

· “would you rather the kingdom be run by a miserable king or a happy one?” he’s crying and you want nothing more than to wipe his tears away but the shackles keep you planted to the ground

· you’re exhausted and cold and sad and hungry and you have no fight left in you

· the queen can’t believe what she’s hearing

· “you would put your future people in danger for this peasant?”

· “i would rather give up the throne entirely than marry that princess.”

· “how could you say that? i didn’t raise you this way! i raised you to be a selfless leader!”

· “how could you expect me to lead these people well if im unhappy?”

· she pauses momentarily, a softness seeping into her eyes, but it quickly fades when she looks back at you

· the queen is still fuming

· “we’re going ahead with the arranged marriage and that’s final, jeno.”

· she turns to you and tells you after you’re done helping with the wedding you’re never going to see jeno ever again

· he cries out, running to kneel in front of you and taking your face in his hands

· “jeno,” you say weakly, “its okay. i hope you can find happiness.” you try to smile for him but everything hurts

· his mother watches the sad scene unfold in front of her with a tightlipped expression

· “and i love you too, moonlight.” you whisper

· he laughs bitterly, tears falling onto your heavy arms

· he leans forward to kiss you

· but his guards grab him and take him away before his lips reach yours

· he yells your name all the way down the hall, kicking and thrashing to try and break free

· you hang your head in sadness and feel a sob wrack through your body

· its over

· the day of the wedding arrives and you solemnly finish the bouquet for the bride

· you fill it with orange mock flowers (they represent deceit) quickly hiding the daisies they had brought for it instead

· you try to find someone to deliver it to her but everyone is bustling around trying to add the final touches

· you trudge to her chamber and knock, hoping to place the flowers down and leave as soon as possible

· but she invites you inside and you dig your nails in your palms to keep it together

· she’s pretty, but from what jeno has told you about her the only thing she cares about is power

· “so i heard you’re the one who tried to break us up.” she says through an unnerving smile

· you stay silent

· “its such a shame really. jeno is really torn up over you. he’s too sad to think straight. he sits in bed with this old poetry book, but he never turns the page. i think he’s gone crazy, he doesn’t even speak! but i won’t need him for much longer. once i’m in line for the throne i won’t even need to look at him.” she twirls her finger around the center of the bouquet

· “and when i’m queen, you’ll be banished. it’s a win win!” she laughs, brushing past you to leave, “oh, and do stay for the wedding. i wanna make sure you see this.” you can hear the venom laced in her words

· your hands are numb, four dark crescents in each palm

· jeno stands at the altar in his dark blue suit, the same from the night you met him

· he’s pale, rings of purple under his eyes, his hands in fists, a daisy in his pocket, you can tell he’s biting his cheek

· you stand behind the tall vase at the back of the ballroom, peeking through the flowers

· the music begins and in walks the princess, and jeno has never looked unhappier in his life

· he’s barely holding her hands, nothing like the way he held yours

· the priest asks if he takes this woman to be his lawfully wedded wife, to have and to hold for richer or for poorer, in sickness and in health, for as long as they both shall live

· you hold your breath

· it’s silent

· the princess is smiling, but if looks could kill jeno would’ve been struck down immediately

· “jeno?”

· silence

· a tear rolls down his face and you can see his body visibly shake

· “no.” he says as firmly as he can

· the crowd gasps

· he drops her hands and begins to walk off when the king comes up next to him

· “you better get back up there right now and finish this.”

· “no.”

· “what did you just say?”

· “i said no, i’m saying no, i’ve been saying no. ever since i was little i’ve thought about what it would be like when i fell in love for the first time. i’d see the way you looked at mom and i thought i can’t wait for the day where i love someone so much i look at them the same way. and funny enough i did find that love. i fell in love in a field of flowers with someone who is more beautiful inside and out than the moon and all the stars combined. i finally found the prettiest flower of them all and i won’t stop fighting for them.”

· he pauses and turns to look at his dad

· “i know im going against your word, but you always told me a good king was one who finds strength in those around him, one who grows and rules to the best of his ability, and i’m the strongest when i’m with them, dad.”

· he turns to the crowd, desperation dripping off his words

· “i want to be a ruler you’re all proud of, but what kind of king would i be if i didn’t fight for what i want most?”

· you didn’t realize you were crying until your tears ran down your neck

· the queen stands up and you fear the worst for both you and jeno

· “you really love them? you love them this much?”

· “mother, i’ve always wanted true love. you know that. and i can’t see myself with anyone else.”

· the princess is throwing daggers with her eyes behind them

· the queen pauses for a moment and without turning around she says “come up here.”

· you hesitantly walk up the aisle in your raggedy work clothes, your heartbeat pounding between your ears at all the eyes on you

· jeno gasps “you were still here?”

· “in no way are you ready to become royalty let alone a ruler, but i’ve never seen jeno stand up to us like this before, and i must admit it hurt my heart to not be able to give him the true love he wished for all these years. it’s not that i didn’t want him to experience it, i just wanted him to have the best partner for ruling over his people. but i think i caused more harm than good in doing so. you seem to really love him, and that’s all a mother could ever want for her child. if you promise to take all of the classes and lessons you need and work extremely hard to learn about this kingdom and what’s best for it, i’ll agree to you dating him. if you meet my husband’s and my approval, then maybe we can discuss marriage.”

· “what!? absolutely not!” the princess stomps her foot “i’m supposed to be queen!”

· “you never cared about my son anyway. get in your carriage and go back to your kingdom.” the king hisses

· she throws her bouquet to the ground and storms out

· both you and jeno are speechless, silent tears rolling down your faces

· you thank the queen endlessly, promising to do whatever it takes

· you cling on to him, trying not to collapse to the floor

· “i almost lost you.” you say into the fabric of his suit

· “never.” he mumbles into your hair

· you walk hand in hand, fingers intertwined, back to your field

· you lay down in the flowers and never let go of each other

· tears wiped away with kisses

· fingertips tracing the shape of your mouth

· as the stars begin to poke out of the sky jeno connects your lips

· it isn’t until the sun peeks up over the hill that he pulls away

· and a year to the day you first met the prince in the valley, you stand in the same place, amongst the same daisies, under the same stars, reciting vows to each other’s teary eyes

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YOUR ALIAS & NICKNAMES — nora

AGE — 23

TIMEZONE — gmt

PREFERRED PRONOUNS — she/her

MBTI — enfp-infp border cos im an introvert who Masquerades as an extrovert :)

HP HOUSE — i spent 10 yrs of my life thinkin i was gryffindor.... to find out.... huffle....puff......

ARE YOU A STUDENT? WHAT DO YOU STUDY? — i fuckin wish! being a student was dope af i got stressed about essays like once a month and apart from that i was just chillin, surrounded by really intelligent people every day n livin it up on the party scene. adult life fucking sucks no one wants to have fun cos we all work fuckin tonnes of hours so we can afford to eat and get paid peanuts xx

ARE YOU ENJOYING IT? — im really afraid of bein one of those jock types who peaked in high school but i deff peaked in uni like 100% i was way more interesting 2 years ago

LINKS TO OTHER ACCOUNTS & SOCIAL MEDIA — im not showin u my instagram bc im a fuckin embarassment but this is pinterest , this is my personal blog, this is my writing / 1x1 blog i never use any more n this is my trash talking twitter where i mostly just cry about timothee chalamet and bash the tories.

DISCORD USER — kristine’s forehead vein#8664

WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE FICTION GENRE? — i dont read fanfiction much but when i do u can be sure it’s slow burn angsty enemies to lovers mutual pining heart attack every time one of them accidentally brushes the other’s hand

TOP FIVE FAVOURITE FILMS — suspiria (2018 luca guadagnino version rogue i kno but i prefer the remake), the lobster, before sunrise, baz luhrmann romeo + juliet, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, thoroughbreds (REC!! so underwatched pls watch it. compelling female characters), hunt for the wilderpeople (also so underwatched), swiss army man, call me by your name, atonement, moonrise kingdom, trainspotting, the florida project. i rlly like films ok

A BOOK YOU FEEL “CHANGED” YOU? — the song of achilles by madeline miller n also fen by daisy johnson

A MOVIE YOU THINK ABOUT OFTEN? — booksmart cos its fuckin dope

WHAT IS YOUR SIGN? — libra

ARE YOU INTO ASTROLOGY? — i like to pretend im super invested in it mostly to anger my friends but tbh.... i just use it as a rough guide for character creation.... its fun but i dnt .... fully invest in what it has to say..... altho i am the most unbalanced n indecisive bitch on earth so i guess they got that right !! i just live to please baybeyy!

WHAT PLATFORMS HAVE YOU ROLEPLAYED ON? — tumblr for about 8 year (omg) n before tht facebook..... i was very embarassingly in a twilight rp..... i wrote jane..... i also rped as a scene kid oc n when i was like 12 i was on some weird forum harry potter roleplay where i basically played a self insert with georgie henley as the fc......

WHAT OTHER HOBBIES DO YOU HAVE? — i used to have so many hobbies but now i jst lie in my bed staring at the ceiling. but before i was workin like a dog i loved reading, writing, acting in theatre productions..... going out on the town getting bevved..... big druggy EDM nights in warehouses tht probably weren’t liscenced for tht many ppl..... gigs... costume-design and making, spoken word poetry, acrylic painting n rollerskating but my sister broke my skates abt two years ago in vengeance and i’ll never forgive her that fuckin bitch

HAVE ANY PETS? IF SO, TALK ABOUT THEM! — no my landlord is a fascist

IS THERE A TV SHOW YOU RECOMMEND A LOT? — i’ll never stop reccing euphoria!! also i was pleasantly surprised by looking for alaska!! but i also rlly like bob’s burgers, parks and rec, good omens.... black mirror, n sharp objects. lovesick on bbciplayer (n netflix i think) is also rlly fun

ANY SHOWS YOU LIKE SOME MIGHT BE SURPRISED TO HEAR THAT YOU DO? — maybe love island, idk if i talk abt that much bc i am ashamed but i am so obsessed with it. i even got the love island game n got so invested in my fictional relationship w bobby tht i had to delete it

WHAT WAS THE LAST BOOK YOU READ? WOULD YOU RECOMMEND IT? — god god... i haven’t finished a book in ages.... i recently started reading milkman by anna burns, the bees by laline paull and everything under by daisy johnson.... bt the last book i read cover to cover was probs circe. defs read it. feminist and witchy

CURRENTLY READING? — i jst said this but the bees, everything under and less so milkman cos im finding milkman a bit tough

LAST FILM? REC IT? — i watched ladyworld the lord of the flies all-female remake n even maya hawke could not save it.... dnt get me wrong from an art film point of view i loved it but it felt a bit underdeveloped n a level media studies for me..... apart from tht?? the runaways (yorkshire film not released yet at a preview screening) and threads (also a yorkshire film from the 80s about nuclear apocalypse)

THREE MOVIES YOU NEED TO WATCH — portrait of a lady on fire, i work at an independent cinema n we recently had a preview screening and everyone said it was SICK, uhhhh short term 12, n the new eliza scanlen movie babyteeth

WHAT MOVIE DO YOU THINK YOU’VE SEEN THE MOST TIMES? — madagascar because when i was 12 my parents bought me a little television with a dvd player in it for my birthday and madagascar was the only dvd i owned for like..... the first two years of havin the absolute luxury of a tv in my room so i just used to watch it all the time n i now basically know the script inside out

WHAT ALWAYS PUTS YOU IN A GOOD MOOD? — nothing, life is pointless n i hate fun, let me rot in peace

WHO IS YOUR FAVOURITE MUSICIAN / BAND? LIST IF THERE ARE MORE THAN ONE. — ughhh god probably lcd soundsystem. gorillaz, the streets, tame impala, talking heads, soft hair, i also love lizz tho n also angry twangy guitar girl bands like girlpool, courtney barnett, best coast, cherry glazerr,

WILD NIGHT OUT OR QUIET NIGHT IN? — quiet night in my party days are over i cant even be bothered to go to the shops if its past 4.30pm and dark these days

ANY PHOBIAS? — clowns n rats

DO YOU LIKE BUGS? — absolutely not

BIRDS? — yes but not if they fly in my face

ARE YOU A CAT OR DOG PERSON? BOTH? — i love both i want one

BIGGEST PET PEEVE? — tory middle aged boomers who treat me like actual shit on their shoe because i work in the service industry like thats my choice and their poor economic decisions didnt mean i have to do a shitty job to afford to live bcos of austerity n cuts to arts funding meaning i cant get a job writing unless i self-fund :)))

FAVOURITE THING ABOUT THE RPC? — that everyone ive met through rp is a fuckin LAFF

TOP TEN FAVE FCS TO USE? — god .... diana silvers, timothee chalamet, margaret qualley, kristine froseth, froy gutierrez, zendaya, elle fanning, astrid berges frisbey, hunter schafer, leonardo dicaprio

FIVE YOU LIKE WRITING AGAINST? — herman tomeraas, hunter schafer, saoirse ronan, timothee chalamet, froy gutierrez

FAVOURITE TYPE OF FOOD? — linda mccartney 1/2pounder mozzarella veggie burgers, sweet potato wedges, tomato soup, mozzarella sticks, brownies

WORST FOOD? — green things like broccoli n sprouts gross. baked beans cos as a kid ppl used to do baked bean baths for comic relief / red nosed day a lot n i thought when they were finished in the baked bean bath they just put all the cold beans back in the tin. actually anything small that moves around on your plate. peas. spaghetti. sweetcorn. i dont like small things i cant control.

DO YOU PLAY VIDEOGAMES? IF SO, WHAT ONES AND ON WHAT PLATFORM DO YOU PREFER? — last year my housemate had an xbox n i went through a phase of obsessively playin fable 3 it was amazing. i had like 5 husbands and 3 wives and loads of kids but they all ended up leavin me cos i spent so much time out doing quests neglecting them

ANYTHING ELSE YOU’D LIKE TO SHARE WITH THE TAG? — this

LASTLY, HOW DID YOU FIND US? — im one of those bitches who was in this grp all the way back when it was swipe... so quirky and original!! i knew the band before u! anyway im goin now this has been sufficiently embarassing..... i am lame

#huntingtonooc #huntingtontask #huntingtontask001

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saturnwisteriamoved · 4 years

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candlelight, cute, cutsie, daisies, dobby, euphoric, kinky, precious, squeezed!!! Sorry if this is a lot!!! qwq

oh gosh qwq.. i dont get asks very often anymore so im certainly not complaining, but this is in fact far more than im used to! ill still happily answer them all, though~

candlelight ♡ what did you dream about last night?

i dont actually recall dreaming at all last night? my apologies!

cute ♡ what did you get on your last birthday?

@kenaieru got me a lovely bnha poster and lots of other quite thoughtful things, my older brother got me an izuku figurine and a cheer bear pop figure for my shelf, jay got me sweets and drew me some moomins for my wall, and i think my mother gave me some money? and i got to go to the cinema with some of my favorite people in the world! i ended up being quite spoiled, really ^^"

cutsie ♡ what makes you happy?

small flowers growing through the cracks in the sidewalk despite the odds, the sun shining in just the right way, when i use the perfect combination of shampoos to get my hair super soft, perfectly organized art supplies in stores, when old ladies thank me for being so sweet while serving them at work, when people remember small things about me and show that they remember later on because 'they wanted to see me smile', shuffling my playlist and it playing just the right song, when new episodes of animes i really enjoy are released, my kittens little meows, when my friends love lives blossom and i can see their eyes light up and they get all giddy and excited, when i get to call with @gardenngoddess, when @/kenaieru smiles genuinely, and most importantly of all, when my darling is near me.

daisies ♡ describe a moment when you felt free.

im not sure ive had a a momemt where i felt free at all? maybe when my pen hits paper, or when my brush hits canvas? or when i get to leave school at lunch with my closest friends and goof around and buy things simply because i like them?

dobby; dream job?

i do love waitressing with my whole heart, however i would also love to make a living doing art commissions or creating youtube videos to make people smile, or voice acting?

euphoric ♡ talk about someone you love.

ahh, ive been excited to answer this one! recently, i thought that i wasnt going to be capable of finding love again, but past feelings i had hidden away were forced front and center when my current partner moved back to the town i live in. i realised i loved him, and after serveral small, confusing, poorly written confessions, we began to date. were still getting to know eachother more and more as time passes, but i think i like that its that way. hes incredibly handsome, and artistically talented, hes younget than me but far more mature than i ever could be, he tends to seem really composed, always seeming to just laugh off anything you say, but ive seen him get embarrassed, hes really good at hiding it, but if you pay enough attention, little things become essy to notice and its just the cutest thing in tge whole world! hes patient, considerate, sweet and rational, and he makes me feel like im allowed to learn to love myself, and like i can put myself before everyone else sometimes. it makes me so ridiculously happy that im able to call him mine.

kinky ♡ do you blush easily?

yes! and its so embarrassing qwq but my natural blush isnt terribly dark at all, so you wouldnt likely notice if im wearing makeup.

precious ♡ what is something valuable that you learned in your life?

ive learmed time and time again that one person is not able to please everybody, and while it doesnt always stick, each time it has a little bit more of an effect on me, and i realize more each time that i am allowed to take time for myself.

squeezed ♡ who do you miss right now?

i miss my boyfriend, and i wish he and i were able to cuddle right now! but i also miss @/gardenngodess and @lowkeydivine so so much, and i hope im able to visit with them soon!

thank you for the asks, nonnie! ♡

#txt #answered asks #lizzie babbles #long post

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The Lie, Love You Till I Die

Welcome to the chronological series. New episodes every Friday 🚀

Episode IV, Sweet Home Alabama

The wheels of the plane touched down and Miranda turned her eyes to me with a flash of a smile. My girl was both happy and nervous to be home again. I was just excited to see the place she came from, and uncover new parts of her I hadn’t seen before.

“You ready to meet everyone, Bri?” She tucked the magazine she was reading back where she got it and reached for my hand. Her palms were clammy and hot.

I nodded my head and brought her hand to my lips. “It’ll be a fun trip, love. Stop worrying.”

“Just know that they’re gonna have questions about you and I. And even about Freddie.” She squeezed my palm in her hand three times. Something we used to do as kids to say ‘I love you’. I’m not sure if it means something different now.

“Let them ask away, love. You don’t have to answer anything you don’t want to.” I squeezed her hand back four times. ‘I love you too’.

“I guess you’re right.” She smiled and leaned over me to look out the window. “Welcome to Alabama, Dumplin.”

Outside were fields and fields of cotton and wheat and corn. Miranda’s face lit up and she admired the scenery. I wanted so badly to kiss her right then and there. The gleam in her eyes reminded me of how fast I really fell for her when we first met as teenagers. Her long unruly hair dangled over her shoulders and her big pretty eyes were always wild and amused. I’ll always remember the first time I met her, sitting on the stoop of the library steps with an iced lolly that had stained her lips and tongue bright pink. She looked as wild then as she does right now, staring out the airplane window.

Miranda turned her face back towards mine with a smile. “Ceils should be at the gate waiting for us. She’s excited to see you again.”

I took my chance to kiss her now while her attention was on me. Her lips curled against mine with a breathy giggle. “You’re absolutely adorable Bri. You know that?”

“Only because you tell me all the time.”

She playfully smacked my arm.

The stewardesses began to let everyone off the plane and into the terminal. Luggage claim was a wreck as usual and I was grabbing Miranda’s bag when a tall leggy red head comes running towards us. Her yellow tee shirt had a grass stain on the left shoulder and her shorts were most definitely pants that had been worn out at the thighs and been cut into daisy dukes.

“Miranda!” It was Ceilia, flinging herself into Miranda’s arms.

“Ceils!” The two of them hugged and jumped around before pulling back to do that thing where they talk over each other really fast but can still somehow completely understand what was said.

“I’ve missed you so much Mandy!” Ceilia had such a thick southern accent, if Miranda hadn’t had one when I first met her I doubt I’d be able to understand what she was saying now.

“I missed you too Ceils. It’s nice to be back in Huntsville.” Miranda’s expression was more relaxed than it had been on the plane. She looked comfortable again.

Ceilia slowly let her arms down Miranda’s shoulders before finally looking in my direction.

I forgot how much of a hugger Ceilia was and couldn’t get my hands out of my pockets fast enough to avoid the most awkward hug I’ve ever had.

“Brian! It’s so good to see you. When Mandy told me all about how you were coming with her instead I just couldn’t believe it! Last time I saw you you had hair ABOVE your shoulders!” Ceilia playfully smacked my arm before picking up Miranda’s bags.

“It’s good to see you too Ceils. Congratulations on the engagement and the wedding and all.” I reached out to take the bags from her hands and she patted my hand away.

“It’s alright Bri Bri, I’ve been tendin my Uncles farm for years. Im probably stronger than you are Sweet Cheeks.” Ceilia turned around and waved for us to follow her. Miranda smiled and hooked her arm around mine as I carried my own luggage.

“She’s probably got a point you know. Ceils holds the Mugs N Jugs record for bull riding.”

I smiled and pecked the top of her head as we followed behind her cousin. Ceilia parked her white Chevy pick up right out front, which I’m pretty sure you’re not supposed to do.

“Load her up baby.” Ceilia smacked the tailgate of her truck before flinging herself up into the bed with what looked like little to no effort at all. I handed her our bags and she lined them up carefully and secured them with a bungee cord.

“You ready to meet Ma and the rest of the family?”

The driveway to Miranda’s mothers house was one of those things that you can’t actually find on a map. You have to rely on directions like ‘take a right at the chicken farm but if you pass the cotton field and the donkeys you’ve gone too far’. The driveway was a plain red dirt road, the stone mailbox that marked the driveway was probably about a mile back now. I knew her family had land but not this much. Miranda and Ceilia did most of the talking. I just sat back and enjoyed the ride. I also enjoyed holding her hand for a good thirty minutes. She made me feel like a teenager again. I’ve never been so giddy and excited to just hold a girls hand before.

The lights on the outside of Miranda’s home began to shine through the trees surrounding the property. The faint sound of people laughing and talking in the distance came through the open windows.

Miranda turned to me, breaking my focus on the tree line.

“So Brian. Welcome to the Anderson Farm.”

In just seconds her home was fully in view. It was beautiful and rustic. It was a lovely white wash home with a porch that wraps all the way around on both the upper and lower decks. The front porch had a hanging swing and several wooden barrels for seating. There were three trucks parked out in the lawn, all Chevrolet.

“I guess the Chevy thing is a trend?” I leaned into Miranda’s ear, making her giggle.

“Daddy would flip his lid if we drove anything else.” She leaned in even closer and whispered “So don’t tell him I drive a Volkswagen.”

She let go of my hand as Ceilia parked the truck alongside another white Chevy. The truck sort of jolted as she put it in park.

“Get ready to be bombarded Brian. Watch out for Victor and Vann. They’re dumb AND nosy. And don’t let Uncle Curtis scare you too much. He’s all bark and no bite.”

Confused about how to even respond to Ceilia I just nodded my head and gave my best attempt at a smile. Honestly my heart was flopping around like a fish in my chest. I was about to meet Miranda’s entire family. Including her father, which would be a first. I met her mother in London a few months after I met Miranda. She’s an incredibly sweet woman. Mrs. Anderson is very down to earth, but still knows how to make someone laugh. Her father is who I assume to be the very formidable man lingering on the porch with a pistol strapped to his hip, but I’ll hope for the best.

“You’re going to do great sweetheart.” Miranda pecked me on the cheek and practically dragged me out of the car. If she hadn’t I’m not sure I would have gotten out. I felt glued down by the fear of completely bombing this meeting with her family.

“Oh my!” As soon as the car doors shut a small plump woman came rushing through the storm door of the house. “My Mandy Pandy is home!” It was Miranda’s mother. The two of them ran to each other, almost like you see in the movies. They looked so alike. Both had dark hair and green eyes and very Italian features.

Ceilia had left my side to go hug the big, slightly terrifying, man on the porch, leaving me on my own with my hands shoved in my pockets like an idiot.

“And of course Brian!” Mrs. Anderson waved me in to get in on the hug as well. “I’m so happy to see you both again. Especially you know,” she lowered her voice to whisper “together.”

My eyes darted to Miranda to look for a little guidance. I wasn’t sure what all she’d told her family about us but by the nervous smile she gave me and the way Mrs. Anderson whispered I’m convinced her mother knows a little something.

Mrs. Anderson let go of us and pulled back to look us over with a toothy grin. “London is starvin’ y’all but we’ll get to fixin’ that while you’re here.”

“Aw, Mom don’t say that.” Miranda said awkwardly.

“It’s alright.” I smiled back at her mother, trying to seem more comfortable than I really was “I’ve never had southern comfort food, I’m excited to try it.”

With a quick glance upwards I locked eyes with the scary man on the porch. He had been watching me.

“Well you came to the right place Brian.” Mrs. Anderson patted my arm before turning around to call into the house “Victor! Vann! Come get the luggage out the truck for Mandy and Brian!”

“Oh it’s okay I can get our-“ I was interrupted by Mrs. Anderson.

“Nonsense these two can get it.”

Two tall lanky boys in oil stained tee shirts and blue jeans came wrestling out of the house. Both had long hair and the same facial features but one had a scar on his left cheek bone where he clearly had stitches in the past.

“Woah there Mandy you didn’t tell us you were bringing the worlds best guitarist to Ceils wedding.” The boy with the scar on his cheek came barreling down the steps, his brother in tow behind him.

“Victor mind your manners.” Miranda punched his shoulder as he and his brother stopped right in front of me. Almost examining me you could say.

I smiled and held out my hand “It’s nice to meet you both.” Victor completely ignored my hand and pulled me right in for a hug, patting my back pretty rough.

“Nah dude. It’s a freakin honor to meet THE Brian May.”

“Enough boys.” The big man on the porch finally spoke.

Ceilia had joined Miranda’s mother back in the house and the twins were behind us in no time grabbing the luggage from the truck.

“Hey Daddy.” Miranda gave the man a soft doe eyed smile. “I missed you.”

I was right. The man was her father. I thought knowing that for sure would make me less intimidated but I couldn’t have been more wrong.

She took my hand and brought me up to the porch where her father stood and waited for us. I followed just behind her. Staying just one step behind her, taking her lead in the conversation.

“I missed you too Mandy. Is this the Brian fella you were telling me about?”

Miranda nodded and Mr. Anderson held out his hand for me to shake.

“It’s nice to meet you Sir.” Miranda told me to mind my manners and make sure I address her parents as Ma’am and Sir as much as I could remember.

“It’s nice to meet you too Mr. May. I like your music but you need a haircut son.” Mr. Anderson smiled and opened the door behind him for us to come in. “Come inside and get settled y’all. I’m sure you’re tired.”

Miranda nuzzled her head under my chin as I held her close. We were listening to the sound of the crickets outside. Miranda had one twin sized bed that sat directly underneath a window. The moonlight lit up her face enough for me to admire her while she slept in my arms. She was so pretty. Even when she wasn’t trying to be. She looked like an angel in the veil of the moonlight. The light bounced and danced off her cheeks. I ran my fingers up and down her back as she drifted off. I could do this with her forever. I could wake up next to her forever. The image of her big green eyes and her disheveled hair strewn across the pillows is something I’ve always wanted to have the privilege to see.

“Goodnight Miranda.” I whispered “I love you.”

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o-taryn-o · 6 years

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Watching The Last Jedi Thoughts and Reactions

I’ve been obsessed with reading Reylo fan fiction since the opening night I saw TLJ. Ive seen this movie a lot but thought it would be fun to watch it again and react. I guess I had a lot to comment on Rose and Finn and also DJ. Enjoy~

Wow these opening credits are super vague…

I really love this opening scene it’s 100% my favorite Star Wars opening.

Carrie Fishers daughter is super cool. Hux looks v tired and/or on drugs.

Sansa’s insane aunt from Game of Thrones. Love BB-8, I ship Poe and Hux more then Hux and Kylo tho. “punch it!” I love that they have enough time to say cute one liners when piloting a ship. THIS SCENE IS EDITED SO FUCKING WELL THOOOO. Its literally FLAWLESSLY edited. 2nd “punch it!” When the bombers show up my heart starts beating faster, my favorite action sequence ever. Not even thinking about how theres no gravity in space. I love Paige so much! Have I ever seen a asian woman save the day in a movie ever? Why are her hands so beautiful? I LOVE THE COSTUMES OF THIS MOVIE. I wonder where Kylo is? Finn bb!! I wonder why he’s in a storage room? This movie is SO SEXUAL. Love me some beautiful island porn. LOVE that Luke throws the saber, love subverting expectations. “Master Skywalker?” is so cute I have such a crush on Rey. Wow the huts are so cute. Daisy is literally so beautiful, want to be and also kiss her. Progs, so cute. Rey literally doesn’t waste anything love it she takes the books later also. “Where’s Han?” and then cuts to Kylo love it. The fuck is a “cur”? ADAM DRIVER fuck. This room is so red, its so pretty. This movie is visually STUNNING. Ben’s hair is fucking glorious, also look at those LIPS! I just want him to be with Rey and happy. Ben is fucking loosing his mind Ryan made him look so broken I love it. “Prepare my ship!” is so sexy. Rey’s accent is so perfect. Literally what Luke said he doesn’t want to do he does by the end of the movie. Love poncho Rey! This island is so fucking cool I need more high quality pictures going around. The green milk is so funny. I love that Rey looks away from the creature in embarrassment but then not Ben’s naked chest. I need to take so many screenshots of this movie, theres so many moments people forget! Rey in the tree, so beautiful, I can’t wait to find out id those books give us any information next film. I hope the next film starts with the vision Rey and Ben saw next film. I want to see Reys dreams. I miss Carrie.

Poe is so annoying, Leia is so right. What a great line, “get your head out of your cockpit”. How does Finn know what the binary beacon is? THIS is when shit goes down. I really like that everything in this movie goes wrong. “Follow my lead” so sexy. Ben is literally crying feeling his mothers presence. And yet people thing this isn’t a redemption story. *shakes my head* Even The First Orders uniforms are so crispty its beautiful. I really like that Leia saved herself. Finn looks so good in that jacket I’m so excited for his blue pants look. Chewy and Porgs is all I ever needed. The lights in the cockpit of the falcon are really beautiful. The shots in this movie are GORGEOUS. I feel like R2 has a really dirty mouth. I can’t wait for Ben and Rey to escape with the falcon from somewhere and then takeout. IM SO READY. Luke is kinda creepy? Never liked Luke, Leia should have been the protagonist of the original trilogy. HOLDO is a BABE! Love her look and tone and everything she saids is bomb. I love that she talks about everyone else in the galaxy and the importance of keeping everyone hopeful. Why is there so much sexual tension between Poe and EVERYONE? I do feel like Poe is bi tho. Holdo is RIGHT, Poe is annoying and a dick. Sorry I don’t make the rules. He’s hot but wrong. Finn and Rose are so GOOD, it makes me so happy this whole scene. I’m sorry bb Rose I wish I could give her a hug. “Doing talking…” haha I love Kelly so much. Rose is v smart and I love that she stuns him and then drags him. DRAG HIM GIRL. All the men in this movie are making mistakes and the women are being smart this is true to life. Rose and Finn are honestly so perfect together. Its so annoying that Finn and Poe keep interrupting Rose, also true to life. Maz in the next movie is gonna be into Reylo. Also “union dispute?” what the hell is Maz talking about? How and why does Poe know Maz? I love sleepy Rey, Ben isn’t even mad when he sees her. He looks her up and down so many times throughout this movie. He’s so in love before she is, its cute. Reys outfit is perfection. What Rey said actually wasn’t completely wrong. “s tension, a balance” REYLO! I love that they go into what the force is in this movie. Porgs on the ship is so cute, so is Rey in rain. Ben with his questions, I like that Ben is actually listening to her to see how she feels about him. HE LOOKED AT HER LIPS! WET GLOVES. Finn is so distracted. Pretty cool looks in the casino, those glasses are sweet. Finn/John is so hot. Love watching Rey with her staff. I need one of those belts. An ICON. Could listen to Rey’s theme all day. I feel so bad for the locals, Reys a little bit of a dick. Right when she decides to follow Luke I need that gif! This conversation is great but all I can focus on is the fact that Luke saids “huberous” twice always makes me anxious. I love space operas. Men failing, *a theme*. “I need someone to show me my place in all this” its Ben baby! DJ is cool, why does nobody talk about him. He’s such a interesting character. BB-8 is a badass. Fathiers are so beautiful. It was unnessicary for them to crash through the window and run inside, this whole case is too long. I can’t believe that they have already filmed most of the next movie. I like that Leia and Luke are talking. Now Reys asking the questions, she’s trying to understand him, she wants to understand him. I haven’t noticed till now how inconsistent their voices are over the force. Sleeping baby Ben is my favorite, with his calligraphy set? Precious. Did he show her his past? Or does she just believe him? I want to see the other cut scenes from Reys storyline. Its really cool to see Rey mirroring herself. This is a really cool scene. I’m so happy Ben has long hair in Episode 9. Bens already crying just from her telling him about how lonely she is!! They are eye fucking rn, I know what that look is. I REALLY WANT TO KNOW WHAT THEY ARE SEEING!!! Luke fucking ruins everything. Ben must be freaking out rn. Yeah get him Rey! I love this fight in the rain. Rey is right. The thing is like how do you know someones completely evil? Who makes that judgement call? This scene is cool, love the look of Yoda. Its a lot of pressure on Rey to continue the Jedi order if she’s the one who knows all the stuff in the books, Im glad she grabbed them. “The greatest teacher failure is”, “we are what they grow beyond” GREAT QUOTES. Rose is a badass. DJ is kinda right tho. “Let me learn you something big” so funny. No one can tell me Rey didn’t wash up and get pretty for meeting Ben. Ben made sure he was the first face she saw, he looks hot. Sweet hacking skills. The iron is really fun editing, they all look really good in the uniforms. The first shot of the elevator scene is so sexual, Ben holding her lightsaber in front of him with her hands in handcuffs. Oofff. Ryan made this scene as sexy as he could. Its so intimate. They want each other so bad. Rey whispers and leans in. Ben is so soft. His trying to hard to focus on his goal of killing Snoke and saving Rey. Rose is so salty “of course you do”. I feel like everyone puts up with Poe because he’s hot, because he’s a dick. Another failed plan. Yeah Leia get him! I love that she just shoots. Her daughter surrendering is really funny. Leia and Holdo are so cute I hope they made out one night really drunk when they were younger that was ,y first thought when they held hands. I absolutely love Holdo’s hair. Reys outfit in the throne room is so cool. She’s so strong, Ben is trying so hard to keep it together in the back. Theres no way Snoke bridged their minds. Ben got so scared when he said that. “No” she’s so strong. Ben looks so sad. Oscar Issacs ass is fine! John is really good in this scene and Rose’s scream is terrifying. Murder in Bens eyes. Its really scary that Snoke has so much control over Rey. Rey with Bens saber is all I ever needed. Bens gloved fingers are v sexy. Also THAT FLICK! When they look at each other they know, there in love. THIS FIGHT IS EVERYTHING! When DJ saids “maybe” I felt that. They are so powerful together. I love watching them fight together, can’t wait for the 9! Ben fighting off 3 guards is so hot. Rey dropping her saber and backhanding ir is really hot. Wow this moment is so intense its so quiet. Im so mad Ben didn’t stop the fleet though. The way he saids Rey, why are both of their voices so hot. I need Rey to tell him off in the next movie the way he’s telling off her parents. “Please” murders me. Rey is so smart, she knows he isn’t good yet. This is Rey’s moment of “I know what I have to do” Its crazy that Rose and Finn almost died by being beheaded! The silent part is so beautiful. Why was Phasma so far away? BB-8 in that thing is pretty weird though. Finn is so powerful. He’s super reckless in this film. Rose is so good I want to be her and slide hug her. “Rebel scum” is such a good line. Snokes lower body falling off the throne is super graphic. Ben is so mad Rey left. I can’t wait to see more of soft Ben, I don’t like him choking Hux even though its Hux. Rose and Finn are very lucky they made it below that door. I think everyone always thinks of Rose and Finn as cute and funny, but they are honestly serious and smart. So many people died in this movie. I don’t understand how they aren’t wearing goggles if its salt, they would be crying right now. This run takes a lot more time then it is distance wise. Its so pretty though, so I don’t care. Rey and Chewy saving the day is my favorite thing. “Wooh I like this!” so cute. I love watching Rey shoot. The crystal creatures are so pretty. Finn no! Yes Rose! “I saved you… dummy. Thats how were gonna win, not fighting what we hate, saving what we love.” Rose is right everyone! Listen up! Why does Ben say “no prisoners”, maybe he is bad? I love Reylo I don’t understand I believe in Ben. Is he lying to himself? Could he actually kill his mother? Luke and Leia are so sweet. Also their conversation about Ben makes everything more confusing, so he’s not gone? Aw Luke kissing Leia’s forehead is really sweet. Lukes wink is funny. This music is so good. Finn taking care of Rose is my favorite thing. The editing is so beautiful. Rey in snow >>>> Also “Lifting rocks” how does she know thats what normal Jedi start training with? Ben is such a baby in this scene, he’s so upset. I love that Rey and Finn normalize intimate friendship. Ben is the truest definition of a ‘Dark Prince’ if Ive ever seen one. I’m really glad Luke died here, its time, the sunset it really nice.

Bens eyes say it all here. Chewy and Leia so sweet. Reys smile is so AWW. Finn putting a blanket on Rose is the best. Rey knows she’s thinking about Ben. “We have everything we need” I bet Leia had a big part in 9 I’m so sad Carrie is gone :(

This last scene with the kids is really the perfect ending, HOPE.

#reylo #star wars tlj #netflix #love #finnrose

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starrywriting · 6 years

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starved

billy hargrove

summary: billy is used to rough slaps, hard punches, nails scratching his skin and teeth biting his shoulder, but he’s never experienced soft, delicate touches that warm the heart. that is until he meets you and he can recollect all the moments where he fell in love with your touch.. and slowly with you

disclaimer: me writing this is not me excusing his racist, abusive and impulsive behavior.

warnings: swear words bc this is a diana written story lol, some innuendos to smut?

an: im so overwhelmed by the response ive received from ‘starstruck’ it really warms my heart to know that you guys enjoyed it so much! i’ll make sure to have the next part up sometime next week since im currently out of town. love you all, my doves. (yes im working on requests, thank you for sending some in)

words: 3.6k+ literally the longest thing ive ever written oh myyy

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Billy Hargrove, the infamous boy that was constantly surrounded by a cloud of sex appeal and tension. All the girls wanted him, and he was gladly available for all of them. Each day he came to school with a broader smirk and darker hickies. He was the definition of sexual tension, and even if you breathed next to him, you would somehow be caught up in his charms and fake smiles. He was infamous, a king, and he flaunted it proudly. He was the Billy Hargrove.

It wasn’t until he met you that things changed. You were soft, delicate. You were like the wildflowers kids put in their hair in the summertime. You shouted the words fragile and kind with just giving someone a glance, and that was no different when the mullet wearing blond met you for the first time.

You were sat at the corner of the library, on top of the window sill, on the second floor. Your hair was pulled back into a loose ponytail, small strands of your (y/h/c) hair tickling your face gently like the words on the page of your book tickled your heart. Your lip was caught between your teeth, and you were twisting a small daisy between your forefinger and thumb. Anyone who had passed by was taken aback by the sight, for you were quite the sight to see, and the word beauty didn’t hold enough depth to describe you.

Billy was passing through the aisles of books nonchalantly, the gum in his mouth smacking loudly between his teeth. He wasn’t sure why he was in the library, he never read, never studied. He bluntly just didn’t care. He was focused on girls, music, and more girls. He was sure his priorities were straight, that was until he caught a peek of your figure through the cracks on the bookshelves. His eyes narrowed with curiosity, and he found himself snaking his way through the aisles to get closer to you without disturbing your tranquility.

He was crouched down, his fingers gripping one of the shelves on the bookshelf as he eyed you through the cracks between the different sized books. He had never seen you in his life, and he was quite disappointed in himself for that. You were gorgeous and looked wild. You weren’t like the other girls here, just the look in your eyes was enough to prove that to him.

He attempted to get closer, his crouched state making his thighs ache. He reached to grip another shelf, his rings bumping the books, causing the books to fall into the other aisle in front of him. He cursed to himself, quickly standing up and taking a few steps back as he watched your head peak up from your book at the sound. He cracked his fingers behind his back, his eyes narrowing in hopes that you would drop it and go back to your book. Sadly, you didn’t.

“Hi, Billy..” You said quietly, placing the daisy you were holding earlier into the page of the book you were on, closing it with a slap. Billy felt his pulse on his wrist, and he gulped quietly, taking two steps back. “Billy, I can see your shoes,” You giggled, standing up as you carefully made your way towards the aisle he was ‘hiding’ in, “I don’t bite..” You hummed softly, peaking your head down the aisle he was in to find him gone. You frowned, tilting your head in confusion before you spun on your heel, slowly making your way back to your window, only to find him sitting there already, a smile on his face,

“How is it that you know my name, but I have no idea what yours is?” He hummed, keeping his voice soft as he watched you with careful eyes. You smiled at his words, crisscrossing your legs as you sat and turning to face him, your hands folded in your lap,

“That my friend is because I’m a watcher.” You smiled, “I like thinking of people two different ways,” You grinned, looking closely at him, before you leaned back onto the wood framing of the window sill, “There are the watchers,” You pointed at yourself, “and the watched. There are certain people who would rather not be in the spotlight, and not have the attention. They would rather watch the people who enjoy being in the spotlight,” You hummed, looking up at him through your lashes to make sure he was paying attention, which he was.

He was sat next to you, one knee up against his chest while the other was dangling down from the window. His lips were parted as he listened to your gentle words, your eyes full of warmth and intelligence. He wasn’t used to a girl approaching him in such a way, they always seemed to want something from him, those things being either in the back of his car or up in their bedroom at 3 in the morning. He was tired of looking into eyes full of lust, so seeing your eyes, full of something so sweet it made his jaw clench, felt like a breath of fresh air.

“On the other hand,” You continued, a smile playing at your lips, “there are people who I like to call ‘the watched..’” You smiled, “They are the ones who like having the attention, and they don’t seem ashamed when the limelight is specifically on them, much so that they feel almost lost without it,” You giggled, finally looking back up at him, to see his eyes gleaming in the light that came through the window.

“And what I am then?” He finally asked, his voice gentle for the first time in ages, “Am I a watcher, or someone who likes being watched?” He hummed, a smirk growing on his face once he noticed the vexed expression that slowly formed onto your face.

“Oh, you’re for sure a watched..” You hummed, looking up at him with a smile, only for it to drop the instant you saw his annoyed expression and set jaw, “Did I say something wrong…?” You whispered, your hands fiddling together as you looked down at your hands. The one time you had worked up the courage to finally speak to someone, you messed it up.

Saying you were shy was an understatement. You were kind and soft-spoken, and the fact that you had initiated the conversation with Billy in the first place, was something that made your heart beat like crazy.

You finally looked back up at him after, and saw that rather than him looking at you, he was looking dead ahead with a grimace on his face and a pout on his pink lips, “I’m not ‘a watched’,” He finally whispered, using his fingers for air quotations. His voice was sharp, cutting through you quicker than you could blink, “You don’t know me. I’m not an attention seeker. I’m not self-absorbed.” He muttered, before briskly walking away, leaving you flabbergasted and feeling like an all-around chump. You hadn’t meant it that way…

He had been met yet again with your warm touch on a specific Tuesday. It was the last Tuesday of the month of October. The library was filled with small orange lights and tiny plastic spiders. He hadn’t seen you for quite some time, and he wasn’t sure what had brought him back to you.

You were sat in the same spot, the same position, and the same softness in your eyes. He couldn’t help but blush at the sight of your gentle aura and beautiful face. “Hi…” He said softly, afraid that he would break you more than he already had when he left with such bitterness the time before.

You didn’t say anything back, just watched him carefully, calculating his actions until you realized that his actions were as innocent as Billy Hargrove could get. You moved your legs, scooting over so he could sit next to you, which he did without an ounce of hesitation. “I get that I’m a literal dick. And I get that you probably don’t want to talk to me…But I would do anything to change. I would do anything to show you that… I’m not always someone who wants to be watched..” He muttered, his voice soft and deep. You could feel his piercing gaze on the side of your face, his eyes were flames, and you could feel the fire growing inside you with each passing second.

“Alright Hargrove,” You sighed, closing your book as you used your hands to lean yourself closer to him, so close that you could feel his hot breaths on your face, and could feel his emotions pouring out from his eyes into yours, “Show me.” You finished, looking him dead in the eyes before you turned back around, grabbed your book and began reading it again.

All he could do was smile. Smile because you had finally accepted him, even though he had never really asked to be accepted when you first met, and he smiled because now, no matter the time, the day or what jeans he was wearing that day, he knew he could go to you because he knew that you saw more of him than just his bum and lips.

He laughed to himself, causing you to sneak a shy glance up at him before you quickly looked back at your book, your ears growing hot. He only grinned harder, moving so he was laying his head down on your lap, his legs hanging off the side of the window since he was way too tall to fit onto the windowsill.

You looked down at him wide-eyed, your cheeks flushing as you quickly hid behind your book, only for him to grab it and push it to the side. “Read to me..” He smiled, crossing his arms over his chest as he watched you closely, just to make sure you weren’t uncomfortable. You nodded, clearing your throat as you leaned back onto the glass of the window behind you guys.

He grinned softly, his eyes slowly fluttering shut at the sound of your voice. Your book was Romeo and Juliet of course, but he wouldn’t have it any other way because if it hadn’t been for that day, he wouldn’t have learned what your favorite book was.

He had always felt so out of place. Everyone knew him, and most people loved him or at least loved him in bed, but it never steamed into more than that. His friends were sweet one second, but dissolved from his life when he wanted more, just like the candy floss he had once bought Max back when they were in California. When life was a little better. His ‘friends’ were never there for him when he cried at night because of his father. They were never there for him when he felt bad for taking his anger out on Max, no one truly cared for him; but that first day at the library, hearing your velvety voice speak the gentle words between the two lovers in your book made him feel something in his chest, and it wasn’t until he felt your hand slowly make its way down to his face, your index finger tracing his cheekbones and nose with care while you continued reading, that he realized that the feeling was safety and care. Something he had been deprived of. Feeling your warm hands play with his hair, and your dainty fingers trace every curve and rounding of his face caused him to overflow with a type of overstimulation that caused his heart to beat fast, and caused his nerves to go fuzzy. It wasn’t like all the other times he felt that type of high because this time it was gentle, kind and sweet.

He knew you cared the night he threw rocks at your window. Your head peaked through the window, your body clad in a big t-shirt and warm socks. Your hair was a mess but, he thought you looked as beautiful as ever. “Hi, Billy..” You smiled, your eyes drooping with sleep as you hugged him lazily.

You had both slowly sprouted a beautiful flower of friendship between the two of you, but now that Billy had finally experienced and seen that lovely flower, he wanted to plant more seeds, he wanted to share a garden with you. He wanted something more than what you guys already had. He had never thought he would be in a room of a girl looking for everything but sex. It was always something sexual with all the other girls, but you, you would want to read books, listen to new records, play board games, and his least favorite, study. You were pure, and that terrified him. You kept him grounded with your humility and if he were to ever change you with his disgusting habits, he’d lose his mind.

“Hi, peach..” He smiled, wrapping an arm around your waist as he led you back into bed with gentle movements of his thumb rubbing circles on your hip.

“Are you staying?” You hummed, allowing yourself to be led by him as you felt the daze of sleep looming over you like heavy storm clouds.

“I can if you want me to.” He smiled, already kicking off his shoes before you gave a response. You felt the bed dip on ‘his’ side of your bed. The light ambient sound of the crickets outside lulling the both of you into a gentle haze of soft touches and warm, dopey smiles. He had laid his head against your chest, his hand rubbing up and down your sides, just so he could feel your skin against his, just so he could feel you against him, because on nights like this specifically, he struggled to comprehend you were real, and that you cared.

“Billy..” You hummed, pulling a gentle hand through his hair as he slowly brought his gaze up to you, his eyes shining under the light of the stars that filtered through your light curtains, “How are you?” You asked gently, your fingernails tracing small shapes on the skin of the nape of his neck.

“I’m okay angel, I’m okay now that I’m with you..” He said, and you could hear the smile in his words.

“Just because it’s dark out and I’m really crazy tired, doesn’t mean I didn’t see the bruises, Billy…” You said gently, your voice delicate like his fingertips against your skin, like your nails on his skin and like the blanket that surrounded the both of you in a protective bubble of hushed voices, delicate laughs, and warm gazes.

“I know peach, I know..” He whispered softly, his eyes fluttering closed as he reached for your free hand, placing a chaste kiss on it before slumber overtook him.

He knew you cared for him in so many different ways that at times it was overwhelming. He knew you cared for him by the twinkle in your eyes, because of the way you grabbed his hand when you led him through the aisles of snacks in the gas stations on your weekend road trips, and he knew specifically that you truly cared for him because of his forever favorite night.

Stargazing was something that you lived by. It had grown to be a tradition between the two of you. Every other week, you would choose two nights and he would take you wherever the hell you wanted to go and you both would spend hours together. At first, it started as a night thing, and it made you become slightly rebellious, as you would have to sneak out your window and make your way down two blocks to Billy’s Camaro, but as time went on, and he visited your household more often, your parents began to like him. Who could blame them? He was a charming devil with blue eyes and a dangle earring.

After a few months, it grew into more. It morphed into something that Billy looked forward to. After a long day at home or a vexing day at school, he could always count on you to brighten his mood with his favorite foods packed in a small bag or quirky jokes you had come up with in the middle of French class just to share with him. Everything about those days made him happy, especially the ones where Mrs. (y/l/n) would pack them a small picnic and he got the chance to pick you up early to eat together while watching the sunset.

Everything about you had him grinning like a madman. He never expected for his adventure into the library that one fateful day to lead him here, with a daisy in hand that matched the dried up one you gave him months ago. He kept it on the edge of the glass of his rearview mirror.

He strolled down your driveway, gum in mouth as he knocked on your front door. He was greeted by your mother, her smile growing when she saw him, “Hi Billy! I’m sure you’re here for (y/n). She’s in her room..” She smiled, opening the door for him, as he extended the small daisy out to her, causing her cheeks to heat up in endearment. Billy, however, dropped his smile the minute he was out of view of your mother. He knew something was up. You were never in your room the days of stargazing, ever. It meant too much for the both of you, so every time that specific day would come around, you both would be too giddy to sit down, let alone relax in bed.

He knocked on your white, wood door. The knocks sounding in his head and mimicking his hard beating chest. When you didn’t answer the door, he felt his face go white. He clenched his hands, his knuckles turning white. He had messed up and he was quick to blame himself for it. Whatever was upsetting you, to the point where you didn’t even want to open the door was his fault. He had cared for you to the point where he hurt you.

He knocked once more, before slowly craning his head through the crack of your bedroom. You were laying on the ground, your eyes following the ceiling fan on top of your bed as you blew on a strand of hair that kept grazing your forehead. “Hi, peach..” Billy smiled weakly, his voice coming out softer than intended.

You quickly sat up on your elbows, your eyes wide with an emotion Billy couldn’t read. “Hi Billy,” You attempted to smile, failing to cover your worry as Billy took a step into your room, gently shutting your door behind him before he slid down, his back against the door, “What are you do-“ You started, your voice cracking slightly before you were interrupted.

“What did I do wrong?” He interrupted, his face sullen with worry and anger. He was warm with rage, but it was all pointed at himself. He was ready to take the blame for whatever was keeping you so distant from him.

“Wh-what? Billy, what are you talking about?” You asked quickly, sitting up and crawling towards him. You placed a hand on his cheek, your thumb rubbing his cheekbone.

“What did I do wrong?” He repeated again, his voice slightly louder and his gaze finally meeting yours, “I must’ve done something wrong. You forgot about tonight, and when I walked in just right now, you looked like you saw the boogeyman..” He grumbled, his gaze hard on yours as he let out a small sigh.

You pulled away slowly, your gaze shifting to the floor before you gulped nervously. You sat crisscross in front of him, your hands fiddling in your lap. “Okay, listen,” You said quietly, your gaze still on the floor, “So.. I don’t know how to say this so I’m just gonna blurt it out..” You nodded, talking more to yourself than to him, “I really like you, Billy, truly. And I know when we first met, we were both very different people, and we probably shouldn’t have worked… but we did..” You said quietly, slowly bringing your gaze back up to his.

“I guess what I’m trying to say is that.. me ‘really’ liking you,” You gulped, a shudder running down your back, “Has turned into an ‘I love you’..” You whispered, closing your eyes to avoid looking at his face.

After a few moments of silence, your eyes frantically shot open and you stood up, beginning to pace your room, “But, if you don’t love me like that, no hard feelings. We can forget I ever said anything and go stargazing!” You said quickly, your brows furrowed in both anxiousness and sadness, “It’s okay.”

Billy just watched you, his lip between his teeth before he cracked a smile. He lifted himself up, sauntered over to you and braided his fingers through your hair, “I love you too. Lots..” He grinned, kissing your nose before ghosting a kiss on your lips, causing you to gasp before you tugged him back by the collar of his denim jacket.

“You’re both by the way..” You breathed once you both broke away, foreheads touching. He gave you a quizzical look, a soft smile on his lips as he eyed you carefully. “You’re a watcher and a watched. You can’t fit into a single category..” You grinned, your fingers finding their way into his hair, “You’re too amazing to fit into a single category..” You smiled, causing him to chuckle brightly before placing another kiss on your nose.

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This Is Me (X-Men x Reader Song Fic)

Short Summary: You live in a house that doesnt accept your Ecokinesis. Then a certain bald-headed man comes and offers you paradise. Based off the song This Is Me by Keala Settle from The Greatest Showman.

Warnings: Negative living enviroment

A/N: I had this idea when I was listening to The Greatest Showman soundtrack. I hope I did good.

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I am not a stranger to the dark. Hide away, they say. Cause we don’t want your broken parts. Ive learned to be ashamed of all my scars. Run away, they say, no one will love you as you are.

You weren’t sure how much longer you could keep this up. It was absolutely absolutely horrible, you felt like a stranger in your own home. Your own parents didnt accept your gift. They insisted it never be used, that it never be discussed. They didn’t want to acknowledge that their child was a disgrace. Who could blame them right? They had a child who wasn’t normal, someone who was different.

The least they could have done was accept you. Encourage you that this gift wasn’t a curse. That your ability was a god sent, and not a touch of the devil. But they didn’t, they did the opposite. So it made you feel like even more of an outcast.

It was hard, waking up in such a negative household. With all the false love, and false care. Pretending not to notice the side looks of your parents whenever you let your ability slip. The constant disapproving looks that were cast your way made you feel small.

But I won’t let them break me down to dust, I know that theres a place for us. For we are glorious.

It was a normal Sunday morning. School was out, so you were spending your time in the back yard. Really the only place you could practice your abilities. You definetly weren’t going to let your parent get you down all the time. You were going to allow yourself to flourish. Just like the flowers you grow. Your hand hovered over the dead grass, watching as it slowly grew and turned into a healthy color. Flowers began to sprout, but before you could make them bloom you heard the sound of a car pulling into the driveway.

Your curiosity go the better of you, as you stood and brushed the dirty off your grass stained jeans. Unlocking and stepping out of the gate, you began walking towards the front. Your eyes laid upon two men who were walking to your front door. You watched carefully from the corner, as the buffer man helped the one in the wheel chair.

“ Wait Logan, they’re out here.”

You held your breath, covering your mouth. How had he heard you? You had worked on your stealth for years, as you would like to rather avoid the gaze of your parents and avoid confronting them . You thought you were pretty good. Guess not.

“ Don’t be scared, we’re just here to talk. My name is Charles Xavier.”

When the sharpest words wanna cut me down, Im gonna send a flood, gonna drown them out. I am brave, I am bruised. I am who I’m meant to be, this is me.

“ Wait, so you mean to tell me you’re here to recruit me for my abilities?”

You actually didn’t believe it. Mr.Xavier was the first person who had met who didn’t want to execute you for your ability. Then again, the only people who knew about them were your parents.

“ Yes. You see, I run a school for gifted youngsters. There, we teach your any standard school curriculum along with teaching you how to control your gift. No doubt you need that, seeing as the thoughts Im gathering from your parents are rather negative.”

This made you scoff, before nodding. Your arms crossed. Yea, that was definitely the case. Holding your hand out, palm up, you began to grow a flower out of your hand.

“ I would like to learn how to control my ability. I have a good hold on creative single flowers.” Plucking the daisy out of your hand with a cringe, you handed it to the buff man (who you assumed was Logan, as from earlier). He grunted, before taking it in his large fingers.

“ But if I try to grown multiple things this happens.”

Turning your palm down, you clenched a fist. Vines began growin out of the ground. They were calm at first, but as you continues they got bigger and grew larger. Wrapping around your ankles and slithering up your legs. What seemed like a scene right out of a horror scene soon died, as they wilted and turned to dirt.

Mr.Xavier looked interested. He was holding the daisy you had handed to Logan. He was examining it close. His eyes were looking at every detail closely. It made you almost nervous. You had never doubted your ability to make flowers till now.

“ Oh don’t worry, Im just examining the flower. Its rather beautiful.”

This freaked you out a bit, but it shouldn’t have surprised you. Someone who wasn’t scared of your ability at all, would have had one of their own. Especially someone who was offering to whisk you away to a school for people like you. Which you had doubted were actually real.

“ Right. So you can read minds, what about your friend.” Turning to the wolf like man, he grunted before showing off his ability. Claw like blade grew from his hand. Honestly, it freaked you out a little. Shivering a little, you turned back to the man.

“ When exactly can we leave? Id love to take you up on your offer.”

“ Why don’t you pack a bag and we’ll get going.” He chuckled, placing the flower on his lap. His eyes looked at yours with amusement and joy.

Look out ‘cause here I come. And Im marching to the beat I drum. Im not scared to be seen.

The ride, was tiring. It took a car trip, and a plane ride. All of it you were skeptical for, but eventually you relaxed with a nap on the plane. Of course with your bag clenched to you in case you had to make a run for it.

When you arrived at the institute, you were blown away. You didn’t expect to be living in a mansion! Of course it would have other kids. Which you were now sure existed cause you saw some playing frisbee and some studying under trees.

Logan had walked off to go yell at some kids. You were too busy to notice, as you admired the garden and the all around look. It was so pretty. Nothing like your old place. It felt more open. It felt welcoming. The people would wave to you, say hello and smile when you passed. You weren’t really paying attention to what Mr.Xavier was saying. Everything was so entrancing.

“ And right this way into the mansion.”

Stepping up the stairs, you helped open the large doors. Standing in the middle of the foyer, you were frozen. It was so tall! There were multiple people in the foyer. Alot of them were just minding their own business. But there was some commotion happening. One girl was phasing through people as she ran, while the guy next to her was skating past on ice that he left behind. The frost coming off actually made you shiver and shrivel up a bit. They were followed by a boy who was appearing and disappearing in blue puffs. He had actually accidentally almost tripped over you but had managed to poof away. With a cough you waved away the lingering smoke.

“So, what do you think?” Mr. Xavier rose a brow at you, waiting for a response. Yet you were speechless. It was all amazing. Everything you needed and more.

“ Its breathtaking.”

I make no apologizes. This is me.

#xmen imagine #xmen #xmen first class imagine #xmen oneshot #song fic #nightcrawler x reader #xmen x reader #alex summers x reader #scott summers x reader #marvel imagine #marvel x reader #logan x reader #charles xavier #logan howlett #erik lensherr x reader

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Ep. 9: “Break Down Everything I’ve Built” - Jennet

JENNET

not to be rude but i hate this cast.... me winning immunity didnt even matter bc my bestie got booted tf...

(a little later)

feeling alone, im not even on a tribe anymore. im alone now not furcifer calumma or brookesia, just jennet

(after eating rice)

i know i sound dramatic asf but ffft i was so uneasy starting this game and i didnt feel comfortable or didnt feel excited to play until i started playing with ethan so i guess i relied too much on him but its like... now what?? where do i go from here? like sam, sammy, jones, and mikey voted to keep him so its like... here i am with low numbers again

(after taking a dip in the ocean)

immunity doesnt feel so good when ur number one ally gets sent home...

(after polishing the immunity necklace)

realizing that tonight ive been on the wrong side of both of votes so now im... reevaluating my position in this game. i have to break down everything ive built and start over and see who i can really trust right now

JONES

https://youtu.be/GY0DufoCyLE (after live night)

LOVELIS

So today's been way more eventful! I've had a great conversation with Jennet finally & got caught up on all the live night stuff, thought it was just a live competition that I wasn't able to attend but then I woke up to Ethan being gone LMAO but oh well! I've been targeted the past two rounds but I'm still here so I've just gotta work my options as best I can, and right now I do wanna with with Jessica the most. Apparently Shane put in a lot of work to keep me during live night & I'm thankful but earlier when I tried to talk to him he wouldn't divert from that point & it was a little awkward.. like idk what you want me to do about that... so today's mostly been catching up with the people who I haven't heard much from like Jake, Lindsay etc and seeing where their heads are at, I need to be more involved in something big if I'm gonna be seen as a potential winner should I make it to the end so I'm definitely not shy of jumping ship from Sharon and tryna make something better for myself with the people that voted for me hehe.. 😳😈

JENNET

looking at the memory wall and im feeling very: vulnerable

LINDSAY

12/19 - https://drive.google.com/file/d/1Q_KxHilwOebD8G3D8JAZsOMKdgsxFp-b/view?usp=sharing

JESSICA

I know in my last confessional I said I was close with Ethan. After I wrote that, I realized that he was a lot closer with other people than he was with me. Lindsay accidentally added him to an alliance chat and I expected him to freak out in my DMs (or at the very least ask me about it!) since we're supposed to be such good allies. But he didn't say anything! Shane said that he did get an Ethan freakout so I was like hmm... noted. Ethan likes Shane more than me so I am okay to vote him out a lot earlier than I was planning. Ethan also left out a LOT of information about the idols when we talked about them so I instantly knew at merge that he was hiding things from me. When we did that round robin conversation thing, I got Shane early on (I think he was the third person I talked to?) and he pitched voting Ethan which made a lot of sense to me. Plus I was a little worried Ethan could have had the Furcifer idol since he found that Brookesia one so fast. I figured if we were going to make a big move, that was the time to do it because if anyone was suspicious I could just pretend the whirlwind nature of the round was the reason they didn't know what happened. Speaking of idols!!! I'm 95% sure that Furcifer idol is in Sam's pocket. Shane had a vote extort power which he could play on anyone; it would force them to either reveal their entire voting history to this mysterious person OR they would have to give up their vote and sit out of immunity. I guess the vote part isn't public but the immunity part was and for some reason, Sam chose to not reveal his voting history. To Shane and Daisy, who don't know how the idols worked, this is a weird choice. But to me there's only one reason someone doesn't want their voting history revealed and it's because they didn't vote at a tribal which means they have an idol. Shane originally wanted to play the power on Mikey which I strongly did not want because 1) I already know how Mikey has voted and 2) I was pretty sure Mikey didn't have an idol so it's unlikely there was a tribal he didn't vote in and 3) If Mikey asked me about it, I didn't want to lie but I also didn't want to expose Shane. The question is.... does Sam's idol still work? If I had found the idol when I knew there was an easy boot on my team (he has to have found it before Pennino left), then I would have gambled as long as I could have to get the idol to work. My guess is Sam's idol goes until... f7? Maybe f6 or f5. Pennino probably left 3-1, not 4-1, but Sam's missing vote didn't matter because it was unanimous and wasn't read. For this round, right now everyone is probably voting Lovelis. It's the easy vote because he isn't here but personally I don't want to do that. Everyone says Lovelis is inactive but he isn't inactive to me and as far as I know, he is not going to flip on me and thinks I've been looking out for him. Which I have been! Also Lovelis cannot have an idol unless he somehow got the merge one. So to me it's like.... why not take out someone like Sam who (probably) has an idol? Or at least get him paranoid enough so he plays it. He seems like the kind of player who could easily stab me in the back so I'd like to get him before he gets me. Right now my tightest alliance is with Shane/Daisy, though I definitely talk about the game with Shane the most. However I also have good relationships with Lovelis, Sammy, and Mikey. I think Jennet and I are getting along well because as far as I know, I was the first one who told them Ethan's name was going around last time when everyone else seemed too afraid to tell them. They were not into that plan at all but I'm glad that I was honest with them because I don't want that to be a closed relationship at all! They also don’t seem to have a tonne of connections so they’re someone I'd like to keep close. And then Jones/Lindsay/Jake are people who I'm still getting to know but I do trust them.... a bit. I don't see that alliance of 6 lasting long term however I don't mind trying to stick with it to get Sam out before it disintegrates. I also think Shane is coming across as a threat which is great to me. I hope people don't think we're close because I really want to keep that relationship hidden. My entire game is about having everyone think they're my #1 (or at least my #2 or #3) so that they are less likely to leak things I tell them, less likely to vote for me, and more likely to look out for me. Information is power so I try to be in a position where I'll get as much of it as I can. So far it is working! I think. This is truly an essay

(a little later)

Oh also I never get episode titles in games so here are some: "Any way you slice it, it's Survivor madness!" "What a night, what a vote" "Please don't invite me to your messy party" "Social game is on 0!" "Survivor brings out the worst in you" "I'm a chameleon" Some of those are things other people said in other games but... oh well!

JENNET

apparently lovelis is rallying the troops to get them to vote for me bc i voted him out over madison... babe we NEVER spoke, and i spoke to madison ALOT why would i not vote u ? tf... its getting weird

JESSICA

LMAO IGNORE THAT LAST CONFESSIONAL That is not how the advantage works at ALL I now totally understand why Sam rejected it That’s so funny that we really read it that wrong.............. I love reading and comprehending the words that I read Still don’t know where that last idol is but this is so funny.

JENNET

so right now the only people i can trust are sammy, sam, jones, and mikey. i want to trust jake but hes in an alliance with jones, lindsay, daisy, shane, and jessica that he didnt tell me about. jones is playing double agent right now and the only reason i dont find that sketch is bc she told us info that she didnt need to. i will say me and jake had a convo about how we dont trust how shady lindsay has been and we wont target her until most of the og brookesia members are gone. im very scared right now but also very angry

(a little later)

had plans for this vote but sam got his vote taken away. im waiting to see what pops off at tribal/ the few hours before tribal before i can try to get the little band of misfits to settle on who to target first. so far its daisy and shane, i’ll try to sneak lindsay in but honestly i want daisy gone first bc shes hosted me and seen how i play and thats too much of an advantage. she’s dangerous to me and my game

JAKE

https://youtu.be/nZPMXTthz9Q yes I'm becoming paranoid and what?? say it to her face

JENNET

my dream boot order after this round (if lovelis is who goes): daisy shane jessica lindsay and then everything else can fold around itself but ideally jake is next to go

LINDSAY

videos r still uploading but here's my quick tea for this episode: feels way too easy to vote lovelis, keep expecting things to blwo up bc lovelis is throwing jennet's name out there. game way too quiet. shit aint right but i aint know whats wrong. i may be paranoid

JENNET

:ETHAN: ❤️ :JENNET: hours

SAMMY

so I feel like so much happened in this round? let's recap the live night and dive into our thoughts and feelings about where we are right now. So starting off after Madison is voted out, the plan throughout the day was to just vote out whoever stayed out of Madison/Lovelis, right? Okay so I go into this live event thinking that's the plan...not sweating...just chilling right? right okay so I get to talking to people and then I get in a chat with daisy who is my 3rd phone call? Then I hear of this plan to get rid of Ethan?? In my head I was like...blinks...okay so why are we doing this like what is the point y'all are being too complicated. So fast forward Ethan goes home. Then Jones lets me know there was a separate group made before tribal of Jake/Shane/Jones/Jess/Lindsay. Apparently all the people who voted Ethan? This actually pisses me off not gonna lie because I opened the door for a conversation hinting that I knew of a group to daisy/jess/Jake and none of them spilled to me. So I caught them in a lie and it lets me know that they are serious about that group of people and that alliance means something. I thought I was close to daisy and I thought she considered me her #1 ally but the info I have been getting really makes me trust her less. She was working on the idol/bridge with like so many other players which makes sense to how she was able to find so many powers. I feel used. She is close to Shane and it is obvious. I also 100% feel as if the Ethan plan was made before tribal or at least mentioned as an idea. I don't like the vibes I am getting from them and something has to change soon or I am gonna be finding myself in a rough patch. I told Jones about Daisy's powers to let Jones know that Daisy pretty much lied to Daisy about the street car ladies (sorry daisy I still love u but in the moment I felt used because I know ur bridge group is on like the late 30s and you didn't tell me). Daisy is playing the middle and I need to separate myself from her or at least break her and Shane up. She is using Shane as a shield. Also I was added to the justice league alliance and its so cute (Jones, Jennet, Mikey, Me, Sam) I love this group but I will say Sam is my weakest connection and I don't really have much trust in him? Hoping that will change in these upcoming rounds tho. Also, I told Jones about my vote block that lasts until final 5 which we could use to our advantage later in the game. I will be holding onto that as long as possible. The last major update other than me feeling somewhat left out of this "group" would be that Jess asked if I would be down to make a group after the vote of her/Jake/me/mikey which I would actually very much enjoy. Okay that is my longest confessional yet. I hope you enjoy. As of right now my top two allies are Jones/Mikey....Lowest on my trust rankings are Shane and Lindsay.

JENNET

lovelis dming me saying we should get out mikey pfftttt

DAISY

https://youtu.be/mz2Fg_Kvyqo

SAM

https://youtu.be/J81hUWIy6dg

SHANE

https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1-dymdy5vjtHdwsY3JSTnovwaSRLvuzQt

JESSICA

me: lovelis will be a jury vote for me! me: nvm!!!! Not sure why being rude to people and attacking them is your strategy on the way out... but you do you!

LOVELIS

I think I mentioned chaos in my previous confessional and I think I just did that so you know what.. I'm content LMAO. I pulled out pretty much all the cards I had left to play this round and if it wasn't enough despite being carried the past two tribals.. then so be it. This has been such a fun past couple days and it's fun to just let loose and see what happens!

#cowsurvivor #confessionals

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Summary: Pansy spent the entirety of her teenage years pining after her best friend. Draco might have known about this and he might not have but Pansy didn’t care either way. She was blinded by her love for him and he might have taken advantage but again, Pansy didn’t really care. He was her best friend after all.

(a/n: i’m posting this to celebrate 1 THOUSAND followers! holy shit i couldn’t be happier. I want to thank everyone deeply, it makes me sooo happy nd i really really hope people enjoy this because it’s taken me two weeks to write it to the best standard i think i can - for once ive written something im actually proud of hahaha enjoy xx)

Pairing:Draco Malfoy/Pansy Parkinson

Warnings: Swearing, mentions of sex

Wordcount: 7k

i 06/02/1986

They met when they were just five years old, a cold February day where she was wrapped up in a bright pink duffle coat and he a black jacket with a green scarf that covered his neck up to his face, slightly red from the harsh wind even after they’d entered the quiet café.

Pansy had never spoken to a boy before and so she hid behind her mother’s legs as she conversed with who Pansy supposed was the strange boy’s own mother. Pansy heard her mother say there was no need to be shy; Draco was perfectly polite, she’d said. But Pansy wasn’t having any of it. Not even when the boy took a few steps towards her and held out a gloved hand for her to shake.

“I’m Draco, it’s nice to meet you.” He introduces himself in a way that Pansy would have thought of as too sophisticated for his age if she even knew what the word meant at the time. Draco’s hand drops to his side when Pansy refuses to shake it, his brows furrowed as though his small mind can’t comprehend why this girl in the bright pink coat hadn’t wanted to shake his hand.

“Mummy always says not to talk to strangers.” Pansy’s voice is stubborn as she folds her arms across her chest and she watches as Draco chews on his bottom lip as though she’s presented him with a puzzle and he’s trying to solve it. Then his grey eyes light up.

“If we’re friends I’m not a stranger anymore.” He speaks carefully and Pansy thinks maybe boys aren’t that scary because this boy, Draco, is smiling at her. “Do you want to be my friend?” Pansy nods with a giggle, going completely against Draco’s previous formalities as she hugs him abruptly. Children don’t have any perception of personal space and that’s why she hugged him so tight and he hugged her back without a hint of hesitation.

“I’m Pansy. Let’s play hide and seek.” And just like that, they were friends.

ii 03/06/1989

“Pans, you have to come. Mum says she won’t take no for an answer so you have no choice.” It’s his ninth birthday in two days and maybe Pansy is a little too young to feel insecure but she’d read about insecurity (or read as much as she could understand at her age) when she was peeking through one of her mother’s copies of Witch Weekly and now she thinks she feels it. She’s worried that Draco is growing up and leaving her behind; she’d know that fear was irrational now but at the age of only eight, two months difference in age feels like a lifetime. Draco would probably have friends at the party that Pansy didn’t know and what if they didn’t like her? What if they hated her and teased her and Draco joined in because he’s older now?

“What if your friends don’t like me?” Pansy whispers as she plonks herself down on Draco’s bedroom floor, legs crossed with her fingers tracing cracks in the wood before she pulls her dress over her knees. Draco had asked her earlier if the pattern embroidered in the dress were pansies because of her name and she had laughed and called him ‘silly’ because obviously they were daisies, before he pushed her onto the floor with a laugh in retort.

“If they don’t, then I don’t want them to be my friend anymore.” He speaks as though it’s the simplest thing ever and Pansy thinks she’s the luckiest person in the world for having a friend like him as he sits down on the floor in front of her, his legs crossing so their knees touch and he watches the movement of her fingers carefully. “You’re my only real friend anyway. Everyone else is too nice.”

Pansy snickers at his words as her eyes look up to meet his, there’s amusement flashing on his face and there’s a hopeful childish glint in his eyes as he stares at her. Pansy thinks he’s right. She loves Draco unconditionally, they’ve rarely spent more than a week apart since that first time they met but her mind flashes back to when he pushed her on the floor earlier or the time she shouted her first curse word at him and thinks maybe other people wouldn’t understand that they show their affection in more ways that just jokes and hugs. Some people are just too nice. Or the two of them are a little too unkind for eight-year-olds but Pansy doesn’t consider that much.

“I suppose I can come to your party then.” Draco’s face practically lights up as he beams at her, his whole demeanour changing until he appears lighter than he had for the entirety of the day. He practically bounces to his feet, grabbing her hand and pulling her up with him. Pansy can’t stop the grin spreading across her face as he hugs her in excitement – they may not show all their affection through hugs but that doesn’t mean hugging isn’t a frequent occurrence.

“It’s going to be so fun, Pansy, I promise!” Draco practically yells in excitement. “We might even be able to sneak a sip of father’s fire whiskey while he’s not looking.” Pansy thinks maybe she’s too young to be trying alcohol, her mother always told her she can’t touch it until she’s old enough to read a full book cover to cover (a proper book, not one of her beloved fairytale books) and Pansy isn’t even close to that. But the mischief in Draco’s eyes is Pansy’s favourite thing and the fact that she goes along with what he says when she sees that look has got them in to more trouble than she’d like to remember. Pansy doesn’t care though, she’s certain she’d do anything for her best friend.

iii 01/09/1991

Pansy’s fingers pull at a stray piece of fabric on the seat beside her, resting her head against the window as she listens the rhythm of the Hogwarts Express on the train tracks. Her mind is spinning, her stomach in knots as she runs over the possibilities of what could happen when she arrives for her first year at Hogwarts. She hasn’t spoken a word to her best friend opposite her since he arrived aside from a ‘hello’ and he thinks it’s strange how quiet she is but knows it’s best not to disturb her when she’s worked up over something. Draco is already dressed in his robes, Pansy can’t even bring herself to do that yet because she’s terrified and Merlin, she envies Draco the majority of the time but especially at times like this – he’s never phased by anything, unlike her.

“Are you nervous?” Pansy questions before taking a ridiculously large bite of the chocolate frog Draco had bought her because she has to at least eat something. She’s completely aware of the chocolate smeared around her mouth. Her mother always told her that it’s not ladylike to behave so carelessly, especially in front of a male but she thinks it doesn’t matter with Draco; he’s seen her knickers once before when he pushed her off of her broom in a game of tag and her skirt rode up, a bit of chocolate really wasn’t a big deal.

“About what?”

“Everything. Going to Hogwarts, making new friends, getting sorted into your house.” Pansy counts her reasons on her fingers as Draco watches her, amusement clear in his eyes as though he’d been waiting for this conversation since he sat down. Pansy thinks he knows her too well sometimes but then realises that’s not a problem because she knows just as much about him. She’s spent many hours telling him everything on her mind only for him to make her feel better with a few kind words and a little bit of name-calling and a cuddle. “I couldn’t sleep last night.”

“You’ll make friends straight away, Pans. You made friends with me easy enough.”

“Draco, we were five. It’s not that simple at this age.” Pansy scowls at him and she almost laughs at the way she’s talking. She sounds like an old woman, she knows and Draco thinks the same because a slight snort of laughter can be heard from him as he swallows a handful of sweets.

“Just relax. Even if you don’t make friends, you still have me.” All she can do is nod because he’s right and she really does need to relax, this is supposed to be exciting. “Unless, of course, you get sorted into Hufflepuff. Then I’d have no choice but to never speak to you again.” Pansy directs a light kick straight to his shin and he laughs, she can’t stop the corners of her mouth curling upwards because his laughter is infectious and it’s her favourite sound.

“Not funny.”

“I’ll be in Slytherin, there’s not been a single Malfoy that hasn’t been in Slytherin.” Draco has a hint of superiority in his tone, something he always takes on when he’s discussing his family or his blood status. Honestly, Pansy wasn’t even aware about the significance of blood until Draco explained to her the difference between pure-bloods and other types of wizards, something she supposed he learnt from his father. Pansy isn’t sure she fully agrees with those views but she tells Draco she does every time it’s mentioned; she likes the way his eyes shine when she agrees with him, when she really feels important to him.

“You’ll be Slytherin too, Pans. Just wait.” She hopes more than anything that he’s right.

iv 14/02/1993

Pansy has only just managed stop the tears falling freely down her face as she pulls her knees up onto the couch beside her, her head on Draco’s lap, his fingers combing through her hair as he waits for her to calm down. She thanks Salazar that it’s 2am and no one else is awake to hear her this way because Pansy Parkinson isn’t weak and no one can see her like this, no one except Draco. The tone of his quiet, soothing ‘shh’ echoes through the dungeons as she tries her absolute best to get a fucking grip because she’s thirteen now and she shouldn’t be sobbing over things as pathetic as this.

“He’s not worth it, y’know? I always told you he’s an arse.” And Pansy wants to roll her eyes at his way of saying ‘I told you so’ but she can’t when they’re sore from crying so she just nods quickly. Draco is right, of course he is, and Pansy knew that all along but Theo was the first person who showed her any attention in that way and she was foolish to believe it. And now it’s Valentine’s Day and her (ex)boyfriend has been shagging Flora Carrow behind her back and Pansy doesn’t think she’s ever felt so stupid. Of course he’d prefer a fourth year, most boys want sex and Pansy certainly wasn’t prepared to give him that at the age of thirteen.

“You didn’t have sex with him, did you?” Draco asks, his fingers hesitating in her hair as he speaks and Pansy thinks she hears a hint of jealousy in his tone but then again she probably imagined it; she thinks she imagines half of the affection Draco shows her. She ignores the fact that it’s because she wants it so much, she wants him to care for her as much as she cares for him but sometimes he’s cold and she doesn’t know what to do with him because growing up creates distance and at times like this she pretends it’s not there.

“Of course not.” Pansy scoffs with a rather unattractive sniffle, lifting her head up off his lap finally to look him in the eyes and she imagines that there’s a flash of relief in the grey. “We kissed and we did… stuff but never that.” Draco nods and Pansy shuffles uncomfortably, she wonders when they reached a point where he didn’t already know these things about her. She wonders when they reached a point where she felt awkward discussing these things with him.

“I’ll hex him in the corridor tomorrow, if you want?” That mischievous glint that Pansy has grown up to love makes her heart skip a beat because he does care, just not as intensely and in his own way and it’s okay. Sometimes. Not when she looks at him and her pulse quickens and her face flushes red and sometimes when she thinks of his smile she gets small butterflies in the pit of her stomach. She’s sure that’s friendship, that’s how everyone feels towards their best friend but she’s too scared to ask Draco if he feels it too.

“I’d like that.”

“You need sleep, your eyes are all red.” Draco mutters softly, standing from the sofa and holding out his hand for her to take as she stands up. When her skin touches his, Pansy feels those familiar butterflies she feels every time he touches her; she also notices the way he doesn’t seem phased in the slightest but ignores that completely. “I’ll walk to breakfast with you tomorrow and we’ll act like he doesn’t exist, yeah? Just me and you like old times.” Pansy could burst into tears of joy right then and there if she hadn’t already cried as much as she thought was possible.

And when the blonde leans forward just the slightest amount, his head tilted downwards towards hers, she thinks he’s going to kiss her lips and she didn’t realise she wanted that until her breathing stops and her hands are shaking by her side. But his lips land on her cheek in the slightest brush of a goodnight kiss and Pansy feels a sense of disappointment over something she didn’t even know she needed but she’ll take what she can get because this is Draco and she’ll always care more than she has to with him.

v 25/12/1994

‘You look fucking beautiful, Pans’, he had said as she made her way towards him in the entrance to the Great Hall and she had blushed as pink as her frilly gown as she took his arm. Now as she dances with him at the Yule Ball, his arm around her waist and her head on his shoulder, she thinks that nothing compares to him. Nothing is as beautiful as Draco Malfoy.

Pansy has come to accept that the feelings she has for Draco go way beyond the way one should feel for their best friend. She learnt that it definitely isn’t friendship when she asked Daphne and Millie what they thought love was and they described exactly how she felt. They’d both said they hope they fall in love one day and Pansy didn’t want to tell them that sometimes love feels like a dagger through the heart when you see that one person with his lips on another girls’ neck and it’s like a form of silent torture when it’s a different girl the next week and another the week after. She wishes more than anything that just once that girl could be her.

But tonight that doesn’t matter because Draco asked her to the ball over anyone else and maybe it’s only because she’s the only girl he’s ever been close enough to dance with but Pansy never got over that habit of pretending and tonight she pretends that it’s because he loves her back.

The night disappears much faster than Pansy would like it to and soon enough, it’s midnight and the ball is over. Draco keeps his fingers intertwined with hers though as they leave the hall and he doesn’t let go until they reach the door to the common room. She’s sure this must just be another one of those things she imagines but it’s not and it’s real and he’s perfect.

They pause at the entrance to the dormitories, Draco finally letting go of her hand as he faces her – Pansy feels uncharacteristically nervous under his gaze. “I’m glad you asked me to go with you, Draco. It was so wonderful.” Pansy hadn’t told him that she was glad he’d asked her to the Ball, the conversation in which she was asked included a nonchalant shrug of her shoulders and a short ‘why not’ as they sat in the library one afternoon. Inside she was squealing with delight.

“I- You were the only person I could’ve asked.” Draco’s smiling as he speaks but Pansy can’t help but feel hurt by his words, was she really his last resort? “You’re the only person I care about in this shitty school; I couldn’t have possibly asked anyone else.” Oh Merlin, Pansy thinks this is the happiest she’s ever felt and it can’t get better than this, ever.

Except it can because his fingers are on her chin and he tilts her head up to his and he’s oh so gorgeous as he stares down at her. “You really do look stunning tonight, Pans.” And Pansy doesn’t even get time to hide her blush this time as Draco places a soft peck on her lips which lasts a second at most but it’s enough to make her head spin and she thinks she might pass out. “I- uh, I just wanted to check something that’s all.” Draco murmurs awkwardly and its now his turn for his pale cheeks to go a light shade of pink. And then he leans forward once more and it’s longer this time and Pansy doesn’t think she’s held her breath for this long before.

The kiss is soft and slow and Pansy’s eyes flutter closed through instinct as their lips move together. Draco’s lips are softer than she ever imagined and when his tongue swipes against her mouth, she opens hers just enough to let him into her own mouth before she has to grip his arm to steady herself. This is the definition of magic, Pansy thinks, forget spells and potions; it’s kissing Draco Malfoy. It ends all too soon and Pansy finds herself desperately chasing his mouth as he pulls away until she snaps herself out of it and she opens her eyes to find him looking down at her, his brows furrowed.

“That was…” Amazing. Perfect. Everything I could have ever imagined. “Different.” Draco beams down at her and Pansy smiles back but she doesn’t think that he means the good kind of different.

“It was, yeah, it was different.” She nods because she always makes sure he knows she agrees with him, even when she doesn’t. “What were you checking?”

“I felt like I wanted to kiss you all night, I was checking that it would be as good as I hoped.” Draco shrugs, cracking his knuckles in that way that irritates most people beyond belief but she finds it more endearing that anything.

“And?”

“Like I said… different.” He’s right, it was different. Different because Pansy is so head-over-heels for the blonde in front of her and this night is a dream come true. But he doesn’t mean it that way, she knows that and this time she doesn’t even feel like pretending. Instead she mimics his grin and she’s aware that his words act as a mutual agreement that it didn’t mean anything other than curiosity – even if she doesn’t fully feel the same on her behalf.

“I’ll take that as a compliment, Malfoy.”

“Don’t. I meant it in the worst way.” And Pansy laughs, she genuinely laughs for the millionth time that night because she knows his humour and she knows that even though he didn’t like the kiss the way she did, he’s only joking with his harsh words. “Love you though.”

“Go to bed, Draco.” Pansy rolls her eyes followed by the quickest kiss on his cheek before he turns to his dorm. Tonight she’ll tell her friends that Draco kissed her and tonight she’ll pretend he enjoyed it as much as she did.

vi 19/08/1994

Her back slams against the door of Draco’s bedroom as his hands pin hers to the wood by her side, his lips on her jaw and his scent is everywhere. She loves it. She loves him. And her head is spinning because she’s completely intoxicated by him, she won’t ever get used to this. And she knows he does this with other girls but she always wished she could be one of those and now she is and she pretends that she means more than the others because the two of them have a history and that has to count for something.

It’s the summer holidays, just a couple of weeks before the start of fifth year and Pansy hasn’t seen Draco since term ended. As soon as she arrived at Malfoy Manor, Draco had pulled her upstairs and she was hit with memories of when he’d do the same thing when they were children. But when they were children it didn’t end with his hands on the hem of her shirt as he starts pulling it over her head. And then her fingers are in his hair as his mouth trails sloppy kisses over her collar bone.

Pansy always told herself that her first time would be with someone she’s in love with, the person she’s going to marry and although she plans their wedding in her head some nights, she’s not sure that person will be Draco. But she’s in love with him, completely irrevocably in love with him and thinks that might be enough for now, even if he doesn’t love her back.

“Draco-“ She starts, cutting herself off as he sucks on her neck hard enough and in the right place to make her let out a small hiss of pleasure. “Draco, I want- I want you to takemyvirginity.” Pansy’s cheeks burn red as she rushes the last three words out, her eyes focusing on the wall behind Draco’s head because what if he says not or even worse, what if he laughs at her? His mouth stops moving against her skin as he registers what was said before he lifts his head, his eyes searching her face for any sign that she didn’t mean what she said.

“Are you sure?” And Pansy feels relief at the softness in his voice, his hands releasing hers from pinning her to door as one moves to her hip and the other lifts to move a stray lock of hair from her face. She’s sure, she’s never been more sure of anything in her life.

Pansy nods her head quickly, his eyes focused on his lips because she can’t even bare to look into his eyes at this point. “It has to be you. There’s no one else.” The words are practically a whisper as they leave her lips and when Draco’s mouth connects with hers it’s so soft that it reminds her of their first kiss after the Yule Ball, every kiss after that has been rushed and desperate until now. This kiss tells Pansy that he knows what she’s saying, he understands that it can only be him she does this with, he’s the only person she trusts to see her vulnerable that way for the first time.

Draco’s hand intertwines with hers as he walks her towards his bed and she lays down on it with nerves in the pit of her stomach and her hands trembling just the slightest amount. She watches as Draco takes his shirt off followed by his trousers so then he’s only in his underwear and it’s nothing she hasn’t seen before but it’s different this time, entirely different.

He’s on top of her then, his lips on her mouth, her jaw, her neck; everywhere. Her hands laced in his hair as she closes her eyes, her heart thudding uncontrollably and her mind is so clouded with excitement and need she can’t stop the words leaving her lips.

“I love you.” It’s not in the same way she usually says it, they both know it’s more than the brief ‘love you’s they’ve shared over the years of their friendship and Draco doesn’t stop his movements for a second.

“I know.” Pansy never expected him to say it back yet despite that, she can’t ignore the pang of pain that shoots through her heart. But she can pretend, just for tonight at least, that they are in love and it’ll be everything she imagined it would be.

vii 30/03/1995

OWLs are more stressful than Pansy could have ever imagined, she spends hours on top of hours studying yet nothing seems to stay in her head and Pansy is close to accepting her fate in that she will fail everything. But it’s just past curfew and the common room is almost empty as she leans over her potions notes, the exam is only weeks away and most nights Pansy can’t sleep with worry.

When the doors to the common room open, Pansy doesn’t even lift her head until he sofa dips beside her and she’s met with the sight of Draco. Her quill drops immediately as she turns to give him her full attention and he leans into her, a yawn falling from his lips and he rests his head on her shoulder. Pansy wrinkles her nose in disgust however because while she’d usually relish in any kind of affection from him, he smells of perfume and sex and she tries to ignore the nausea spreading all over her body.

“Ugh, Draco get off me.” She pushes his head from her and instead he slouches back and sinks into the sofa. “You reek of pussy.” Draco snorts at her vulgar language, laughing loudly and she can’t help but smile back at him despite the fact that imagining him with another girl is equivilant to shattering her heart into tiny pieces.

“And you reek of jealousy,” Draco teases but he’s right and they both know it. He uses her, she knows it, he takes advantage of her feelings for him so he can have a quick fuck when he feels like it and she knows she should probably hate him for it but she loves him more than she can explain and maybe it’s fucked up but Pansy accepted that’s what she is a long time ago. He’s still her best friend and if Pansy could see past the feelings she has for him, she might come to realise that he’s not the same boy she met ten years ago and she deserves better than him but she can’t do that.

“I’m trying to study.” Irritation is clear in her tone but it’s fake and Draco likes to annoy her, he always has done so he kicks his legs up onto the coffee table where her work is with a smirk. “Which you should be doing too, by the way. Not off fucking sluts in broom closets.” She pushes his feet off the table with a huff as he shrugs.

“For your information, it wasn’t a broom closet. It was a-“

“I don’t care. Now either help me with this Potions work or go get a wash.” Pansy feels him shuffle closer to her on the sofa, so close that their arms are side by side and their legs pressed against each other. He leans forward and scans his eyes over the notes in front of her, his brows furrowed as he reads and she feels secretly glad that he didn’t pay attention to her suggestion that he leaves.

Draco’s head shakes a little as he picks up her quill, dipping in the ink before he starts scratching words on her notes on brewing an Invigoration Draught. “Look Pans, you wrote it wrong. You need three asphodel roots, not two. In fact, most of this is wrong, were you even paying attention?”

“Probably not. You know how much I hate that subject.” Sometimes Draco makes her feel a little inferior, mainly because he’s so clever and Pansy knows he can’t help that but if it were anyone else she’d resent it. “I don’t know why you’re acting so smart; Granger’s beating you anyway, she got top of the class in the last test.” Now it’s her turn to irritate him.

“Don’t get me started on that mudblood.” Draco sneers and she hides the way she cringes at his language because she really isn’t prejudiced, not as much as everyone thinks. She wasn’t brought up to think that way at least, her parents have always been very accepting. But as Draco grew up, he grew to have the same pure-blood elitist beliefs as his parents and Pansy only challenged him on it once before she decided it was easier to just go along with it. Her parents would no doubt be disappointed if they knew the foul things she’d said to muggle-borns at school over the years but that doesn’t seem to matter when she does it to impress him.

“Better up your game, Malfoy.” Pansy nudges him, a hint of challenge in her voice as he pushes her shoulder lightly.

“Tomorrow.” He stands up, finally deciding it’s time he got a shower. “Tomorrow, we’ll go to the library after breakfast and we’ll study. You’re going to get an Exceeds Expectations, and I’m going to beat that Granger.” Pansy is amazed at the way a few words from the right person can ease practically every worry in her mind.

viii 22/05/1995

Sex with Draco is the best thing she’s ever had the pleasure of doing. The sound of her name leaving his lips, way his hands caress her body so delicately even when the act itself is the furthest from delicate, it’s all rather mind-blowing. Draco prefers rough sex, Pansy prefers slow sex but she doesn’t ever tell him that because she supposes rough sex is better than no sex. That’s what she thinks as she comes down from what she’s sure might be the best orgasm of her life and Draco pulls out of her, dropping onto her bed beside her. Everyone else is at dinner so there’s no need for him to rush away like usual.

“Pansy, can I tell you something?” Draco’s voice is still raspy as he sits up, his hands reaching to the bottom of the bed so he can grab his shirt and Pansy nods, still too warm to even think of getting dressed. “I think I’ve fallen in love.” This is it, she thinks. This is when he finally tells her those three words she’s been waiting for since as long as she can remember and all of this pain she’s felt, all these times he’s left her in the aftermath of their sex feeling used and alone won’t matter anymore. “Do you know Astoria Greengrass?”

Her mouth goes dry and she feels a lump in the back of her throat, the back of her eyes prickling with the beginning of tears that she desperately tries to hold back. And she will hold them back because she won’t let him see her hurt even though he knows how much his words are killing her. She doesn’t think he does it intentionally but she doesn’t know him anymore, she pretends she does but she doesn’t. She hasn’t known him, properly known him inside and out, since he was thirteen; growing up changed him into a much colder person than the one she grew up with. “Daphne’s sister, she’s in third year isn’t she?”

Draco swings his legs off the edge of the bed as he pulls on his underwear, deciding that he’s wearing enough clothes for now as he turns to face her. “I- She’s not like other girls, y’know? She’s special and I kissed her once, a few months back. I’ve never felt like that before, not with anyone.” There’s a dagger in her heart and Draco is holding it, twisting it deeper with each word he speaks. “I didn’t kiss her again though; I didn’t want her to just be like the others. I want everything to be right.”

The others. That includes her. She’s one of ‘the others’. How did she go from being his best friend to being nothing more than a girl he sleeps with? “Have you spoken to Astoria about it? That you- you love her.” Draco shakes his head and Pansy wonders why in the world he’s sat here with her, having just fucked her if he’s in love with someone else. Pansy couldn’t do that; she’s been hopelessly loyal to someone who will never feel the same way for the majority of her life. It’s pathetic really.

“What should I do, Pans?” Pansy feels the jealousy still burning in the pit of her stomach, anger the only thing driving her thoughts as she goes through possible answers in her head. She wants to tell him to stay away from her, to yell at him for leading her on all these years, swear at him for taking advantage of her. But she does none of those things.

“I think you need to tell her.” Before now, Pansy didn’t think it would be possible to be heartbroken by her own words but as they echo around her dorm she thinks that’s just what’s happened.

“But what if she doesn’t love me back? What if she feels nothing?” Well then you’ll know exactly how I feel. Pansy doesn’t speak half of the words she thinks most of the time.

“You get on with it. You keep your head high and wait until something better comes along.” Draco’s eyes are burning into hers as she speaks and she knows he’s got questions on the tip of his tongue that she’s not certain he’ll ask.

“Is that what you did?” He’s talking about her, about her feelings for him as though they don’t exist anymore and then it hits her that maybe he has no idea she still feels that way for him. He doesn’t have any clue about the extent of her love for him, both platonic and romantic. And she wants to tell him the truth, that no – she’s still waiting for that ‘something better’ but she doesn’t. She’d rather be in pain; she’d rather be broken hearted for the rest of her life than possibly burden him with the guilt of her feelings when he has a chance at being happy.

“Yeah, that’s exactly what I did.”

ix 08/08/1995

“Does it hurt?” Pansy asks as she sits opposite Draco on her bed, his sleeve is rolled up and on his forearm she watches the tattoo move under his skin. It causes shivers of fear to run through her body. Part of her wants to touch it but the other part is disgusted, just slightly to the point where she can’t look him in the eye.

“At first it did, not so much now.” Draco shrugs, pulling his sleeve back down but through the thin white fabric she can still make out the black stain on his skin. “Do you hate me?” Pansy shakes her head instinctively; she should hate him, she should be telling him to get the hell out of her house because Draco Malfoy is a Death Eater and this isn’t right. But she doesn’t hate him. She understands he had no choice, she’s listened to his explanation over and over again and she gets it, she gets him.

“Of course not.” She whispers, finally looking up at him and there’s a sadness on his face that she hasn’t seen before. He looks young and old all at once, young because he appears so damn vulnerable and old because his eyes are tired and his skin is pale and she feels more pity for him than anything. “Everything that’s happened, you- you didn’t have any other choice.”

“Astoria is going to hate me.” He’s going to cry again and she’s going to have to hold him again as she desperately tries to hold back tears because she’s never seen him so broken before and she’s not used to being the one who has to stay strong. But he blinks away the tears. “I- I had to break up with her. I’m too scared he’ll use it against me so I sent her an owl. How noble of me.” Pansy rolls her eyes at his dry humour even at times like this but at least this is a way to get him to smile even if it’s the tiniest amount.

“Wow Draco, I hope you had the decency to at least use your best quill and take your time with the most elaborate handwriting.” She teases and he gives a weak chuckle.

“Actually, I scribbled it out at 2am in the dark so who knows what it looks like.” A snort of laughter leaves Pansy’s mouth at his words and his face seems to light up because even at times like this, she can always make him laugh.

She’s also gotten used to the idea of Draco and Astoria being together, almost. She spent the rest of fifth year purposely looking away from the two of them when Draco chose to sit with Astoria instead of her at meals, she spent way too many nights crying over it that she became numb to the idea and began to not feel anything when Draco cluelessly asked her for advice on relationships. As if she’d have the slightest idea, she’d always scoffed in her head.

That’s why she’s not surprised by the sadness and pity she feels for Draco when finding out he had to leave the girl he loves so intensely that even Pansy can’t pretend he doesn’t anymore. She still loves Draco, she thinks she always will but she’s not going to hold him back. It’s her problem to deal with, not his.

“When all this is over, you can explain it to her properly. She’ll understand, I know it and then you can be happy.” Draco’s head is shaking in disagreement before she’s even finished speaking.

“I think you’re the only person I want around when all this is over, Pans. The world is too complicated for being in love, friendship is more important.” Pansy doesn’t press the fact that she is in love with him and therefore his theory doesn’t matter in the slightest to her. “When everything’s done, we can be roommates and we’ll rent a place and get good jobs and we won’t need anyone else. Just me and you.”

Pansy’s happy with that plan. He might not want to marry her, he might not even love her but that’s the best she’s going to get and she couldn’t be more satisfied.

x 14/10/2004

Hey Pans,

I know we haven’t spoken in a while and I was going to send you the same invite as everyone else but I thought you deserve a handwritten one (lucky).

I asked Astoria to marry me! Can you believe it? I certainly can’t! But we’re getting married on the 14th of December and I’d love if you’d come to the wedding. It’ll only be you, Blaise and Daphne from school but I miss you a lot and you’re the only one I haven’t seen since everything happened.

I’ll still send you the proper invitation so you know the dates and things but I just wanted you to know that I want you there more than I want any of the others really and it’d make me beyond happy. I do hope you can make it (mother says she misses you as well).

Lots of love, your bestest friend (Draco in case you didn’t already know). Xx

“Incendio.” Pansy mutters as she watches the parchment go up in flames, her heart heavy but she ignores it as she takes a puff of her cigarette. She’s long past the point of being sad over Draco Malfoy, she did enough of that after the war. He was the one who chose not to reply to her letters, he was the one who didn’t get into contact until now.

Pansy spent many months waiting for his owl or even for him to turn up at her door with the keys to their place they were going to rent and that grin that she used to love so much but now she can’t fully picture. We won’t need anyone else. Just me and you. The words haunted her, they were the only things she could think of for such a long time as she clung onto the hope that he hadn’t forgotten about her, he was just busy fixing himself after the war.

But she saw him on the cover of the Prophet, he had a job at the Ministry, he attended events with Astoria on his arm and she washed away the bitter taste in her mouth with cigarette smoke; deciding that killing herself this way was much less painful that killing herself by pining after him. Because that’s what she’d been doing all those years; following him around, being at his beck and call, letting him use her whenever he wished – those were all things that broke her bit by bit but she was too blinded by him to notice it until she was away from him.

And Pansy spent hours contemplating whether she’d go to the wedding, she’s read the letter hundreds of times but that only served to convince her that she can’t possibly face him. Not after all this time. And it might upset him, she knows that, it won’t be easy for him to get married without having his oldest friend there but Pansy has spent too much of her life going out of her way to keep Draco Malfoy happy.

Pansy has had enough of pretending that she’s going to get her happy ending. It’s time for her to face reality and her reality is harsh and sometimes lonely but now this is the best she’s going to get. Pansy is ready to accept that.

#pansy parkinson #draco malfoy #dransy #draco malfoy fanfiction #harry potter

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all flower asks

o okay amaryllis - name an attribute of yourself that you are proud of.- hm. my inability to be fake i just cant do it anemone - describe a time when you felt abandoned or betrayed by someone you loved.- my dad yeeted out of the picture 7 years ago azalea - would you describe yourself as a patient person?- with people and things i care about the most yes, everything else, no begonia - describe anything you see as a “red flag” (something that makes you cautious about a new friend or love interest)- they make jokes about me to me and then get upset if i get upset bird of paradise - do you like hosting parties, or do you prefer to just attend?- just attend. if i tried to throw a party nobody would come lol bluebell - what keeps you humble?- im fucking STUPID bro i cant be arrogant chrysanthemum - describe your idea of a perfect day.- i wake up naturally around 8 am and i dont feel tired. i can get out of bed easily and make my coffee. its cold outside and everything is frosted over. i spend my time writing letters ill never send and listening to soft music spring crocus - describe your favorite childhood memory.- one of my favs is when me and my mom were in the backyard gardening and came across 5 or 6 little snakes. she put them all in a mason jar for me to look at and then she released them in the ditch across the street because i didnt want them to get hurt daffodil - how do you confess your feelings to someone you’re interested in?- just......... say u like them daisy - describe something that gives you hope when things seem bleak.- i met harry styles in a thrift store foxglove - when was the last time you told a lie?- a couple days ago when i told my mom i had eaten gardenia - have you ever had to keep a romance a secret? if so, why and for how long?- oh yeah babey....... ive kept 2- one for 6 months, another for 2 months purple hyacinth - describe a time when you had to apologize to someone- i apologize constantly because im gross hydrangea - how much time do you spend on your appearance each day? - zero. i just make sure theres nothing on my face brush my teeth and go white jasmine - what is something that never fails to make you laugh?- this particular picture of a stretchy dog with absolute orbs for eyes lavender - describe your oldest friendship, and why you think it has lasted so long.- ive been friends with this girl for about 6 years, she was my brothers dads girlfriends daughter (confusing ik) but we became friends when i stayed at the dads house. we both love 1d and bonded a lot thru out parent problems lilac - describe your first relationship or first love.- oof. freshman year, freshly homosexual, first girlfriend, first time even considering a girlfriend. we were officially together for a week and then like kinda together for around 5 months. i really loved that gorl i dont know why. i was hung up on her for over a year after we broke things off. it almost killed me calla lily - what traits do you find beautiful in others? in yourself?- in others, everything really. i hate men but girls are beautiful ive never seen an ugly girl in my life (except for this one girl who has come into work wearing a maga shirt twice) and also honesty and sincerity - in myself, i like my eyes, my lips, and my hands. thats about it, personality is terrible tiger lily - if you had to choose between doing what you love and making very little money, or doing a job you hate and making a lot of money, what would you choose and why?- i would choose little money because knowing myself i cannot do something i dont like well at all and i probably quit my job immediately lotus flower - would you say that you are a spiritual person? if so, what elements of spirituality are important to you?- i like to think that there is some higher power but none in particular. i talk to the stars whenever i see them. i dont know really what im doing but it makes me feel better magnolia - describe your favorite thing to do outdoors.- finding bugs!!!!!!!!!!morning glory - are you an affectionate person? if so, how do you show affection?- most of the time. i like to be touching in some way, even if its just arms touching each other when we sit next to each other pansy - what is the most thoughtful thing that anyone has done for you?- my mom does so many things for me all the time and i just made myself cry thinking about them all lol peony - describe the top three things necessary for a happy life.- financial stability, some form of companionship, and freedom to do things you want petunia - what never fails to make you angry?- terfs red poppy - what tips or tricks do you use to cheer yourself up when you’re down?- i dont. i dissociate instead red rose - describe your ideal date or romantic evening. - walking around the city and talking and stop for coffee and just being togetheryellow rose - do you get jealous easily?- yes but i manage to stifle it so its not really a problem snowdrop - have you ever had a falling out with a friend or family member?- oh god ya. one whole side of my family and also my dad and many, many friends sunflower - do you consider yourself a loyal person? - if you are loyal to me yes sweet pea - describe a difficult goodbye you had to make to a friend or other loved one.- when my uncle died i was supposed to get to call him the day before but they didnt think i needed to and told me he died 3 days after he did. i said goodbye while scattering his ashes in a lake violet - how important is loyalty in friendships and/or relationships?- very very very important. not like "you can only talk to me" loyalty but like, be honest, dont lie, and dont skip out of me u know wisteria - do you like poetry? if so, describe your favorite poem(s).- not a huge poetry person zinnia - do you have any loved ones in your life that you miss and wish you could see? - my uncle, a bunch of old family

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If you have the time, do all you haven’t done!

omfg! haha okay holy shit

Alisons: Sexuality?

lesbonym

Amaranth: Pronouns/Gender?

She/her

Amaryllis: birthday?

nov 4th!

Anemone: Favorite flower?

sunflowers and port wine magnolias for their scent and peonies!

Angelonia: Favorite tv show?

id say favorite of recent would be big little lies

Arum-Lily: What’s the farthest you’d go for a stranger?

i don’t know i guess it depends on the situation. i find myself agreeing to do things for strangers for some reason like one time i took an acting workshop and i literally drove three people home afterwards even though they didnt live anywhere near me and i didnt know them at all lkjsf

Aubrieta: Favorite drink?

i dont drink much else but water usually lol. i like cold brew coffee and iced tea too. and lemon ginger tea. alcohol-wise i love gin and tonics, red wine, and old-fashioneds

Baby’s Breath: Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

no but i said that the time before too LMAO

Balsam Fir: Have you ever been in love?

im not sure. i’ve felt really strong feelings for people in the past but i don’t think it’s ever been mutual so i guess not

Baneberries: Favorite song?

god i don’t know if i can do a favorite of all time. i recently played this video game Submerged and it was a really cleansing and wholesome time and I’ve been listening to the orchestral score of that a lot since. any lana del rey song, get free - major lazer hits me in my toner tbh, the jazz standard stardust - there are so many versions i adore idk its too hard to pick ill just end up listing my whole spotify soon i dont really have all time favorites i just go thru waves Basket of Gold: Describe your family.

my mum runs a childcare business, my nan works at a post office, my brother is an IT guy my sister in law is a hairdresser and i have two young nieces who are in 1st and 2nd grade. they all live in my hometown which is kinda far from me. my dad passed away a few years ago but he owned a flower farm. my parents separated when i was in 2nd grade but i spent every holidays with my dad. i have looooooots of cousins lol

Beebalm: do you have a best friend? Who is it?

i dont really do the hierarchy thing ! but i have a few. my friends jess and rach from here are my fave people ever and literally make me cry with laughter when we all hang out and my friend meg who i’ve known since 8th grade is my vegan salad club soul sister and i love her to death

Bellflower: favorite animal

dogs and toucans ! lov birbs

Bergenia: Are you a morning or night person?

night!

Bluemink: What are your thoughts on children?

that i dont understand how i didnt get the maternal gene when my mum literally looks after children for a living slkjsdf. im not opposed to having one someday but not for a while and i think id honestly be content either way

Blazing Stars: What are you afraid of? Is there a reason why?

small spaces/being trapped which i dont know? ive just always had some level of claustrophobia i dont know where it came from

Bugleherb: How would you spend your last day on Earth?

probably stressed LMAO. idk hanging out with loved ones eating good food trying to do a bunch of things i’ve always wanted to do

Buttercup: Relationship Status?

in a committed relationship with a body pillow and my vibrator

Candytufts: When do you feel most loved?

when i can speak openly and be vulnerable comfortably. when people tell me they care about me and value my presence

Canterbury Bells: Do you have any piercings?

2x each ear and one cartilage

California Poppy: Height?

5′6

Cardinal Flower: Do you believe in ghosts?

yes

Carnation: What are you currently wearing?

a cute grey nightgown lol *+*

Catnip: Have you ever slept with a nightlight?

im sure i did when i was younger but now light kind of bothers me when im trying to sleep

Chrysanthemum: who was the last person you kissed?

my friend when we were drunk

Cock’s Comb: favorite font?

i dont think i really have one lol

Columbine: Are you tired?

im kinda like comfy sleepy. its pouring rain and a cool breeze is coming through my window and im really cozy so its just like. nice.

Coneflower: Dream job?

scriptwriter/director

Crane’s-bill: Introvert or extrovert?

im an introvert

Crown Imperial: What’s the farthest you would go for someone you care about?

im fiercely loyal to those i love.

Daffodil: What’s your zodiac sign?

scorpio babeeeeey

Dahlia: Have you done anything worth remembering?

hmm. in what scheme lol. of the world? probably not yet but we’re working on it.

Daisy: What do you feel is your greatest accomplishment?

idk if its an accomplishment but my travels are probably the highlight of my life to me. im kind of always fearless when i travel lol and i love that for me

False Goat’s Beard: What is something you are good at?

i dont know. i like to think im good at talking people through things and being empathetic and giving advice. i try my best to be there for people

Foxgloves: What’s something you’re bad at?

letting things go. not bottling things up.

Freesia: what are three good things that have happened in the past month?

i finished school for the semester ! i started a painting! i saw two cool theatre shows.

Garden Cosmos: How was your day today?

actually pretty good!

Gardenia: Are you happy with where you’re at in your life?

not really but i’m starting to see the potential in the future a lot more. i tend to get really stuck and struggle to see beyond my current situation but i’m trying to look forward and realise that things are going to get a lot better with time

Gladiolus: What is something you hope to do in the next year or two?

direct a short film i’m happy with, write more, travel overseas, cultivate a close group of friends here, go back to singing lessons.

Heliotropium: What helps you calm down when you feel stressed?

watching youtube videos ! jenna and julien and remi cruz are my favorites they just make me feel so positive. listening to podcasts especially my dad wrote a porno because even if im in the worst mood ill literally be sobbing with laughter. listening to music and playing mindless games on my phone! watching movies and tv shows. getting out of the house and going to a cafe/wandering around the mall. going to the movie theatre. reading !

Hellebore: How do you show affection?

i use my words a lot of the time. if i really care about someone i’ll talk to them and be there for them.

Hoary Stock: What are you proudest of?

im proud of my strength and my unwavering knowledge of what i deserve. im proud of my friends and my family and everyone in my life.

Hollyhock: Describe your ideal day?

waking up and taking a dog for a walk having coffee and brunch with a close friend doing something fun like rock climbing or ice skating or going on a hike then going to see a show and going home to watch movies or play video games or play card games

Hyacinth: what do you like to do in your free time?

read, watch movies, exercise, talk to friends, write

Hydrangea: How long have you known your best friend? How did you meet them?

Jess and Rach i met on here like ??? i cant remember when ?? 2012 ?? 2011? then we finally met in person in 2015 and now i swear i see them more often than i see friends i live in the same place as. my best friend from high school i met in 8th grade so 2007??

Irises: Who can you talk to about (almost) everything?

my best friends. my sister in law.

Laceleaf: How many friends do you have?

idk its kinda weird to count lol

Lantanas: What’s the best compliment you’ve ever received?

hmm. this random lady in a mall once told me i can pull off red lipstick better than anyone shes ever seen before shhhhwooooosh. some of the things people have said about my fics literally makes me want to cry. one of my professors last year wrote a really lovely recommendation letter for me and told me i was fucking awesome and was going to do great things.

Larkspur: What do you think of yourself?

She’s Trying. idk i struggle sometimes but at my core im proud of myself and i know my worth

Lavender: What’s your favorite thing about yourself?

My resilience and passion and empathy.

Leather Flower: What’s your least favorite thing about yourself?

that i lose sight of what i want and how to get it. that i shut people out and am sometimes so scarily independent that it tips and turns me lonely.

Lilac: What’s something you liked to do as a child?

visit my nans on the weekend and play video games. go to the beach. read !!! write.

Lily: Who was your best friend when you were a kid?

my best friend had the same name as me and we’d play bratz and she had a pool so it was lit now she lives a few houses down from where my mum lives and has a child and we havent really spoken since like 9th grade lol slfj

Lily of the Incas: What is something you still feel guilty for?

not making it back in time for my dads funeral

Lily of the Nile: What is something you feel guilty for that you shouldn’t feel guilty about?

a lot of the time im self assured enough to not feel guilt over things i know aren’t my fault or situations where im not in the wrong. i never want people to be unhappy or struggle even if they probably dont deserve my sympathy though so i get mixed feelings there.

Marigold: Where did you grow up? Tell us about it?

i grew up on a coastal beach town. a small sleepy lil bay. it’s super pretty and idyllic and gorgeous but living there grew a bit monotonous tbh im not a small town person. visiting is lovely though. my nan literally lived basically on the beach when i was growing up youd just like roll down a hill and be on the sand. i loved it so much

Morning Glory: What was your bedroom like growing up?

i had a few different ones. i usually had purple walls ! and id decorate it with random things i was interested in and had books everywhere

Mugworts: What was it like for you as a teenager? Did you enjoy your teenage years?

i mean not a whole lot LOL high school kinda sucked. i did really well at school and i had some good friends! it wasnt the worst but i was also a closeted gay and didnt know who tf i was so there was some struggles around that.

Norwegian Angelica: Tell us about your mom?

shes generous and selfless and kind. she’s had a bit of a rough life but she’s strong.

Onions: Tell about your dad

i love that this q is ‘onions’ mood. our relationship was ,,, turbulent. i have some really great memories with him and visiting was honestly good a lot of the time when i was growing up! we’d play pool and id help them with the flowers and we’d go out boating and swimming and bowling and do lots of fun stuff but he was also an alcoholic and gradually got worse as i got older and he was really intimidating and could be really hot and cold and had really unrealistic expectations.

Orchid: Tell about your grandparents

i was really close with my grandmother on my dads side she gave me my passion for reading and writing !! when i was really young i would sit in her lap and she would read me stories and then when i got older i started reading the stories to her we were super close she passed away when i was in 6th grade and it was really sad i loved her. my grandpa on my mums side taught me how to play pool !! he used to run the pool club where i’d compete and he was just a nice guy he passed away a few years ago. and my nan on my mums side is an icon i love hanging out with her i grew up spending almost every weekend at her house playing video games she always has all the newest consoles and video games for all of her grandchildren lol we go for walks on the beach and shes awesome one time she came to pick me up from school blasting low by flo rida we stan

Pansy: What was your most memorable birthday? What made it be so memorable?

hmm my 16th maybe ! that was when i was in the US and i remember having cheer practice and my host mom brought cake in and it was just really nice. idk why my 10th birthday is so memorable to me but i had a lit bday party and i remember so much about it lol?

Peony: What was your first job?

i was a barista!

Petunia: If you’re in a relationship, how did you meet your partner(s)? If you’re not in a relationship, how did you meet your crush/how do you hope to meet your future partner(s), if you want any?

i dont know if i have an idea on how i hope to meet my future partner its not something i plan or have a preference for. ive met most of my closest friends online and w being gay *+* lol itll prob be through online im guessing.

Pincushion: How do you deal with pain?

physically? poorly LOL im such a baby if im in pain in any way.

Pink: where is home?

idk. i dont know if i have one just yet tbh. we’ll find it !

Plantain Lilies: If you could go back in time, whats is one thing you would stop/change?

hmm i try to live without ragrets. there are a few situations id like to go into either wiser or not at all though if im being hoe nest.

Prairie Gentian: Who is someone you look up to? Describe them.

hmm. there are a few actresses/celebs i look up to ! all these qs are turning my brain into goo LMAO i cant think

Rhododendron: What is something you used to believe in as a child?

i heard once that someone related to my great grandfather had some kind of connection to french royalty ?? idk how true that was but i was waiting for my princess diaries moment for a while there

Ricinus: who’s the most important in your life?

me bitch

Rose: What’s your favorite sound?

rain/thunder

Snapdragon: At this moment, what do you want?

to read fic until im too sleepy to keep my eyes open then drift off *+*

St. John’s Wort: Is it easy or difficult for you to express how you feel about things?

depends on the situation. i wouldn’t say easy but i can speak and explain myself well because I spend soo much time thinking about things lol

Sunflower: What is something you don’t want to imagine life without?

my mum

Sweet Pea: How much sleep did you get last night?

like 9 hrs lol

Tickseed: What’s your main reason to get up every morning?

coffee

Touch-me-not: how do you feel about your current job?

that i need one

Transvaal Daisy: What’s your favorite item of clothing?

black jeans

Vervain: What’s stressing you out most right now?

this and that. packing to go away

Wisteria: How many books have you read in the past few months? what were they called?

lol none really. i read a few at the beginning of the year but nothing lately. ive read innumerable fic tho does that count

Wolf’s Bane: Where do you want to be in life this time next year?

happier ! growing ! loved. i want to feel accomplished with what i created during the school year, fulfilled. surrounded by people with pure intentions. hopefully just overseas somewhere

Yarrow: Do you know what vore is?

whY is this a question ???????????????????

Zinnia: Give a random fact about yourself

i used to be a fitness instructor

okay that was a lot more questions than i thought it was LMAO fuck

thank you for the entertainment that was fun ! xx

#omfg im dead i didnt think there were that many #long post #read more #Anonymous

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baekhoneyed · 7 years

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tagged by @kokokysoo for one of those “get to know me” memes! (under the cut cuz its so long)

RULES: you must answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people (idk how many people ill end up tagging and dont feel obligated!!)

THE LAST:

1. Drink: water but like i think my flatmates put vodka in the ice cube trays so?? not sure exactly how much is accidentally Not Water

2. Phone Call: uhhhhh a study abroad program advisor

3. Text Message: my older brother tryna convince me that i’ll make friends eventually lmao

4. Song you listened to: i actually stopped writing this to grab a sweater but then TT came on and i instinctively dance to it now so that happened

5. Time you cried: almost last night but like... not enough feelings to actually cry yet just wait

6. Dated someone twice: never even dated someone once, bro...

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: i never regret giving my dog kisses but sometimes my cat swipes at me :/

8. Been cheated on: gotta have a boyfriend first to get cheated on

9. Lost someone special: yup

10. Been depressed: only since i was 12 years old l m f a o

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: i hate puking so i never go past being tipsy

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12. red!

13. millennial pink fight me

14. rose gold fight me again

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: yyyes but i sure would like to make some more Here, at my Current University

16. Fallen out of love: mmm not Love but definitely Like? i stopped Liking someone who i had a crush on

17. Laughed until you cried: so frequently it’s worrisome

18. Found out someone was talking about you: um did u mean middle and high school? i was such a petty bitch tho i put em in their places after crying in my room alone lmfao

19. Met someone who changed you: yes yes yes! dallon is the first who comes to mind he’s... no words

20. Found out who your friends are: ummm i dont know?

21. Kissed someone on your facebook list: ...my mom??? lmao

GENERAL:

22. How many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them except a few who ive just added bc we’re all transfer students to the same university this year and im Desperate

23. Do you have any pets: yes!! 2 cats, Harry and Kai (shut up ok i’ve always liked that syllable in chinese) and one dog, Lady my perfect cuddle angel baby

24. Do you want to change your name: honestly... sometimes yeah? but only because it’s so boring when it’s translated into chinese/korean so maybe i’d just change my names in those languages idk

25. What did you do for your last birthday: probably just went out to dinner w/ my family, but when i got back to my old college my friends and i went to a store in Queens it was such a good day...

26. What time did you wake up: like... noon probably lmao #depression

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: rewatching exo next door and gettin emotional over ksoo

28. Name something you can not wait for: THE POWER OF MUSIC BITCH LESS THAN 12 HOURS NOW

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: a couple weeks ago when she and my dad helped me move in to my apartment

30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: i wish i didnt have fucking depression! anxiety is easy to deal with for me but depression isnt

31. What are you listening to right now: walk on memories

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: i have a 2nd cousin named Tom he’s like 50 years old

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: ......so much

34. Most visited website: netflix/facebook/tumblr

35. Mole/s: one on my back, one on my neck, one under my left boob... i think that’s it

36. Mark/s: mostly bruises on my shins bc im clumsy; also some shaving scars from like 3+ years ago (one of em bled for 4 days while i was in china!)

37. Childhood dream: typical american kid stuff like ballerina and movie star

38. Hair color: medium brown i guess? it used to be lighter but it’s been getting darker as i get older

39. Long or short hair: i just cut it short again so it’s just touching my shoulders when dry (it’s wavy-curly so it’s a bit longer than that in reality)

40. Do you have a crush on someone: yeah can i have uhhhhhhhh byun baekhyun? no one irl tho

41. What do you like about yourself: ive got a great complexion that has really calmed down in the past few years! and i love my eyes ive got gorgeous eyes and a nice smile and a cute body and ive been doin self-love the past year can u tell?

42. Piercings: just regular ear piercings that i only got... a year ago...

43. Blood type: i never remember but maybe O? whichever one is the most common i think idk tho

44. Nickname: lulu is a nickname, ummm ive had a few friends call me em or ems which is cute

45. Relationship status: chronically single and repulsive to the male population, perhaps?

46. Zodiac: sun in pisces/leo rising (fun fact when i was little a kid asked me my sign so i said pisces and he called me fish poop so i cried) (he was probably a gemini the fuckin asshole), year of the tiger

47. Pronouns: she/her

48. Favorite tv show: pushing daisies, 30 rock, scrubs, grey’s anatomy but only up til the 8th season then it’s bad

49. Tattoos: i actually almost got one a few weeks ago but then i lost my job :/ i wanted to get “je ne regrette rien” tattooed on my hip bone real small

50. Right or left handed: right - i used to be able to write pretty well with my left hand but alas...

51. Surgery: yyyup wisdom teeth removal, eyelid surgery to get rid of some bumpy things, broken arm when i was like 1.5 years old, and im getting lasik next summer probably

52. Piercing: ya already asked ya doofus

53. Sport: my dad made me play basketball in middle school i got 2 technical fouls bc i had anger issues so i stopped playing basketball. i got Decent at ballet tho!

54. Vacation: we havent really had the money lately

55. Pair of trainers: i just bought 2 new pairs bc i ruined my only pair in seoul and had to throw them out (they got soaked in the rain and then mildewed n all) (side note: they’re so expensive?? the adidas and nike were as expensive as the new balance which is Silly so i just bought adidas and nike)

MORE GENERAL:

56. Eating: nothing rn but i need to go get dinner...

57. Drinking: did we not already go over this

58. I’m about to go: either to the dining hall or to a nearby restaurant im honestly not sure

59. Waiting for: exo to move in next door to me only to discover that one of them is my childhood best friend-slash-first love and another has fallen in love with me and my clumsy but lovable personality :)

60. Want: byun baekhyun (im kidding kind of, um i want to make friends here and be less anxious about my classes and life in general)

61. Get married: yeah one day but so far no one i’ve met is Vibing with that seeing as no one will even ask me out im not Super Hopeful :/

62. Career: chinese major/korean minor at a university um hopefully after i graduate someone will hire me and give me money to do something i dont completely hate but we’ll see

WHICH IS BETTER:

63. Hugs or kisses: i literally would not know so i will say Hugs because they’re the only things ive experienced! and i could use a really long hug rn

64. Lips or eyes: ...eyes... but lips r important too cuz i cant even look at a photo of amy schumer anymore w/out staring at her terrifying lips

65. Shorter or taller: taller but someone around my height would be ok too (.....im just sayin im like the same height as bbh...)

66. Older or younger: older bc im not about to go dating a freshman or a high schooler lmfao

67. Nice arms or nice stomach: arrrrrrrrms

68. Hookup or relationship: never had either but i think i’d prefer a stable relationship to some extent?? we just dont know

69. Troublemaker or hesitant: im a troublemaker when im comfortable w/ people/places but other than that hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER:

70. Kissed a stranger: no

71. Drank hard liquor: yeah it’s nasty :/ but it does the trick

72. Lost glasses/contact lenses: somehow no

73. Turned someone down: ya this one guy hit on me when i was walking thru myeongdong but he was a) a stranger b) 25 years old c) from egypt so like it was never gonna happen buddy

74: Sex on the first date: gonna need a first date before i can even answer (the answer would be no i am not down w/ that)

75. Broken someone’s heart: probably not, ill dont think im capable of doing that plus im still so young that realistically it just hasnt been a possibility

76. Had your heart broken: not really, my silly crushes have all been resolved easily bc i never talk about them and then i notice things i dont like about the person and stop liking them like that

77. Been arrested: no but a friend of mine got arrested for trespassing on a roof in nyc last year lmao

78: Cried when someone died: yeah

79. Fallen for a friend: sort of? briefly? it never went anywhere it was silly

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

80. Yourself: i try to most days but it’s rough

81: Miracles: i mean im not a non-believer but i also don’t actively wait for them to happen or really put much stock in them

82. Love at first sight: im not sure because bbh hasnt seen me yet so how would we know??

83. Santa Claus: not anymore i think when i was 8 i sorta stopped

84. Kiss on the first date: never even had a first date or a first kiss ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

85. Angels: um yeah actually! proof they exist - byun baekhyun do kyungsoo kim jongdae kim jongin the list goes on,,

OTHER:

90. Current best friends: dallon, lilli, ida, stephanie, aria!

91: Eye color: light green. i have Gorgeous eyes!!!

92: Favorite movie: a taiwanese movie called Secret, i rly liked ksoo’s movie Hyung, Chicago the Musical... there are more but im drawing a blank

i guess ill tag... no one but if ur reading this and u wanna do it feel free to say i tagged u! i love learning about u guys it makes me feel less alone

#about me #long post //#tysm for tagging me i love being recognized as a Person!!

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survivorsolomonislands · 7 years

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Episode 1 Part 1 "Hit the Ground Walking” - Matt

YALL IM FUCKING SCREWED!!! I don’t think Karen likes me that much - she’s close with Linus. Who by the way has me blocked on facebook. So I pretty much have no options on this tribe and I’m completely fucking fucked. I’m just gonna try to band together with people who don’t talk as much and aren’t all that outspoken and aren’t cliquey and work with them to save myself bc RN!!! im looking like first boot!!!

give me like 10 idols now

oh so now you guys put a link up while ive been talking to myself for the past 2 hours.

i’m going to stab everyone with this machete and the only person who can stop me is on the other tribe (jk i love everyone here except for like the one person who hasnt responded to me yet)

“if you know how i feel then why would you say that like you put me in such an uncomfortable situation like you know I’m not happy” how this freak win all the games lately

so it’s crazy johnny is in this game and i have him blocked i hate myself huh? and monty is talking to me and ryan is so i hope i am good with this tribe i am nervous, but ready.

Oh wow. Im-back-bitches.gif. So this tribe is something else. There Karen Lexi and RTP and Karen wants us to make a solid four, but I can count and that leaves 6 people out, and 6>4 so we need at least one if not two more people. My picks are chrissa because I have a good relationship with her already, and then maybe Mitchell because we’ve been talking the most. And then if Lexi know Zachariah then that’s another one. Beyond that, there’s Dana and some other people who I can’t remember 🙃 I know I’ve been talking to one of them but idk who that is and I don’t have the energy tonight to figure it out lol.

So basically the plan for the next few days until I get back to the us is to build groundwork relationships and try to find a solid 6 to stay with until a swap or merge.

Star- They still haven’t come online and I am hoping that they are painfully inactive so we have an excuse to vote someone out first!

Johnny- Haven’t talked to him but at least he has accepted my contact request and like said he wouldn’t be here. He is a frat guy and some of these people are not who frat guys would typically hang out with so he might be an outsider

L.A.- I wanted to work with her since I saw her intro she is super chill and seems really smart I like her A LOT! If I am making an alliance she will be in it

Kaya- She’s super sweet and honestly a little angel I love her so much

Luca- Really annoying but seems to like me. He is an experienced orger so who knows maybe he’ll be in my alliance also He’s talked to Kaya a lot

Lily- I know she can beast a comp so she needs to stay on my good side. She is one of the experienced newbies and she is aware of how I play at least a little bit so I am not sure how long I want her here

Aromal- Nice guy! Kept asking me questions about everything which was sweet because it makes me seem like a good person and that im looking out for him!. Honestly his time zone might be an issue but if I stay up super late and search for an idol I can blame it on him because that will be in the middle of the day for him

Allie- She is a little SWEETHEART I LOVE HER SO MUCH! She seems super innocent nd like honestly someone I’d want to have under my wing She’s a newbie and I feel like she will be loyal to me since I talked to her right away and am helping her get used to this

Daisy- Shes gorgeous and I enjoy her company but not someone I am loyal too yet, She seems a little suspicious and kinda distant because she left me on read!

My general strategy is to align with the newbies who haven’t played orgs ever. From what I’ve noticed Lily and Daisy aren’t super strong socially so If I can get L.A. Kaya Luca and Allie all together it will be a strong alliance of 5 and I can keep them on the outside. Hopeuflly star isn’t here so we can vote them out first like easy vote, but if they arrive super late I might as well talk to them a lot to make them feel safe and be the first person to reach out to them. I love the tribe so much and I hope it isn’t chaotic, but I am going to play for sure, I want to form an alliance and start to get things rolling

Welp! I guess i’m fuckin back here to ruin my life again!

I’m starting off the same way I started off in Malaysia - forming good relationships with people. And while that may have unknowingly landed me into a minority, the relationships I formed still allowed me to pretty successful and arguably run the table during the pre-merge, setting myself up for a perfect post-merge run that was only ruined by… Applebee’s.

The one thing I should’ve done was parlayed those early relationships into more tangible early alliances. Jenn and Jimmy wouldn’t have voted Kendall out if they didn’t have an early alliance with, and inherent trust in, Isabelle; that was my undoing, and I aim to rectify that. Let’s see who we’ve talked to so far. There’s Ryan; we were talking a lot about stuff, and I feel like we’ve easily got the foundation there for a strategic allegiance. He’s confided in me that he’s worried about his position on this tribe given his history with some of these players; I can either utilize that to my advantage and make him a number, or he could be an easy third first boot. I don’t want him to be a first boot because I feel like I can work with him, but it’s good to have options.

Zakriah is probably the person I’ve talked to the most after that. We’ve got a lot of similar thoughts on Survivor and we’ve clicked really well, so I think we could easily work together strategically. She seems like she’d be a lot of fun to bop with throughout this game. She did, though, like Ryan, confide in me that she’s worried about her position in the game, given that Linus has her blocked on Facebook; another situation that leaves me with options, which is good.

Speaking of Linus, we’ve been speaking a fair amount and have reasonably bonded to some extent. I like him, and I hope that he and Zakriah don’t end up going against each other. I’ve also been talking to Dana a similar amount, and think that we’re good with each other for now, at least in terms of forging early relationships. Monty and I haven’t spoken a terrific amount, but I’m optimistic about that relationship as well.

I don’t know Karen or Lexi that well coming into this, but we’ve played games together before when they were honorary members of the Malaysia reunion chat, so there’s some familiarity there. I think I’d rather work with Lexi than Karen, but I’ll take whatever I can get. I’m disappointed in myself for failing to capitalize on these relationships more than I have to this point, but I can amend that moving forward.

I tried talking with Chrissa and she kind of just disappeared so… you’re my first boot choice :)

And Matt… the kid’s weird! It’s like picking teeth talking with him because he responds in very curt answers that make conversing difficult. But I think we actually get along and might be aligned???? But I’ve got nO FUCKIN CLUE LMFAO I honestly don’t know whether he ever means anything he’s saying and it’s just… we’re gonna watch this boy.

As for the fans I just want to fuck up the frat boy as soon as I can lmfao anybody who says that “I’m probably more unique than anyone you have seen before” makes me wanna vomit and ima laugh when I whoop his ass

I’m gonna fuck shit up :) let’s do this binches

Whew! This cast (my tribe atleast) is pretty social right off the bat. I think I’m off to a decent start, but as it stands I’m still terrified of being first boot. Alright so mini cast assessment

Jacob - Easily the most social so far. I would bet my left pinky that he has sucked up to everyone so far. He’s sweet but he seems like the type that will pretend to be your best friend then backstab you once you’re a liability to him. Good gameplay to get to the end but won’t get the jury.

Luca - My fav so far. He seems like a guy I would hate on paper but he’s super charming and likable. I would bet on him going far.

Kaya - She’s okay, we have something in similar in that we both feel like fish outta water so I might align with her.

Johnny - yikes @ that intro

Lily - sweet, likable

Zakriah - Omg so Zak is one of my best friends in the Wikia ORG community and I cant wait to meet up with him if we both make to the swap.

Linus - Another friend from the Wikia community ! Linus and Zak have a love-hate (mostly hate) relationship so its gonna be interesting to see if they work it out.

So right off the bat I feel like I hit the ground walking I guess. I’m trying to take things slow and kinda get to know people but so far there’s so many people and they honestly seem indistinguishable. I definitely need to get my ass in an alliance sooner than later though and I’m tryna work with Chrissa rn and just get meself some numbers. Wish me luck.

https://youtu.be/1TPDpOdcaP4

Ok so I am going to try and work on something in this game that I feel like I usually fail at. And its my social game. I feel like my social game is generally pretty good for pre-merge it fails once we hit merge. I want to really get some strong relationships on this tribe before a swap or merge happens. My only roadblocks are Karen and Lexi. I know both of them already and I feel like me working on my social game with them is just going to come off fake, plus I don’t know if they actually want to work with me or not. Let’s see how this goes. Right off the back I feel like I hit it off with Mitchell. He is someone I could see going far into this game with. We have similar senses of humor and were immediately talking a lot last night. He seems to be nervous about his perception as well so he could be someone I work with well i that regard. Also y'all really cast some all stars when the first thing chrissa said to me was that she was nervous to be in a game with steffen again….hun….pls

So when the Idol thing came up OBVIOUSLY I wanted to go hunting bc unlike Malaysia I didn’t have to search tumblr tags like “suicide” and “depression” to find safety… BUT having other people know I might be searching was a big no-no for me.

So what I DID do was stay up late, tell everyone I was going to bed, and then about half an hour later I went searching for the Idol. There were only two people up to begin with it seemed - I would’ve preferred it if there had been nobody - but I don’t think anyone suspects me. I didn’t find it, but that doesn’t matter so long as nobody thinks that I had anything to do with this. There’s always the chance that it backfired and that people DO think it was me but… I don’t know about thaaaaaaaaaat.

For one, by the time I woke up, Ryan told me that both Matt and Chrissa were interested in an alliance with him and myself. That’s good in and of itself, but Chrissa was one of the two people awake during my sneaky shenanigans - I don’t think she’d want to work with me if she knew I was super sneaky!! And Dana was talking to me about it, and I pretended like I didn’t even know someone had gone. “WHAT???? Someone looked for an IDOL??? No WAY!!!” My relationship to this point with Dana is painting myself like an emotional and stressed wreck so that she can relate to me and that she would underestimate me; based on the way I’ve portrayed myself to Dana thus far and my claims that an Idol search like this is way too stressful for me, I’d wager that she would bet it wasn’t me.

I could always end up looking like a fool but I thought this scheme was so fun and so far it looks like it’s working!! The only way to make it better would be to stir up some mistrust between the others about who it could’ve been. I’ll regret it if I’m first boot but I’m fuckin dancin rn :~)

So someone is looking for the idol already… interesting. It’s easy to cancel out the people who were speaking in the tribe chat a few minutes after the idol is being looked for, which is good. I could easily go into my tribe chat and explain it to people that if we all just write in our tribe chat, it’ll help to cancel people out who AREN’T looking for the idol, but I’m not gonna pull that card just yet. Let’s see if it becomes an issue. Looking for the idol on day one probably won’t get a lot of people a lot of luck. There are bound to be clues along the way, and hopefully I can snag some of those, but I’m sure already some of those items on the boat had clues in them, or even punishments, but it seems like I didn’t get either of those since I haven’t been notified about anything

oops too late

I couldn’t even control myself LMFAO

Honestly, I don’t know why I enroll myself into these games. I hate talking to people, but I still have to do it, even though I know most of these people just lay on their asses all the time and do nothing, so I don’t know how I’m going to compete when I actually have legitimate responsibilities besides going to high school for 6 hours a day and then laying on their asses for the other 18

https://youtu.be/xc0XCUl3Pfo

Well the survivor train is officially leaving the station, I have assembled my first alliance with Chrissa, Mitchell, and Ryan. Of course Chrissa will be my number one, I mean she shared her clue with me without me even asking like that’s my kind of ally. I was kind of hoping I could work with Karen this time around but RIP it already seems like I may have started throwing her under the bus, she just made the mistake of saying she was friends with Nigel and people noticed that and I’m not gonna put my neck on the line for her. Sorry? I am for sure playing to win this game, I don’t just wanna be on this train I wanna be the mofucking conductor.

g o d I don’t wanna be that person but I absolutely hate that RPDR has to be involved with the challenge. I hate how closely it’s intertwined with the TS community, and I can never stand hearing about it. Like… I always feel like I’m overreacting, but the whole concept just seems so transphobic (not to mention that RuPaul himself IS transphobic as hell), and it just doesn’t feel like an accepting community when something like that gets discussed so often. And I always hate talking about it because I always feel like I’m just overreacting, and… hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I just wish that people would realize how inherently harmful it is towards trans girls, and that it creates and fuels the stereotype that trans girls are just men in dresses and makeup. Because that’s what the dr*g q***ns on the show are. And I know this is probably not the kinda thing to put in confessionals but? Whatever, I need somewhere to put it and discourse will start if I put it in tribe chat or on my Tumblr blog.

I tried to help out in this challenge despite not knowing what tumblr is even though I’m a returning player and my entire life was came at so hard so I’m just gonna…..not

I’m the absolute worst and have completely forgotten to give a confessional this whole time so I��m probably gonna get a shitty edit oops. Anyway I’m really tired right now so I’m not sure if what I’m gonna say will make sense but a lot has happened so far I guess. I created a core alliance which includes me, Luca, Jacob and LA. They’re all super nice people and I’m hoping I can go far with them in the game. Some of the people on my tribe I just haven’t connected well with and I’m having trouble talking to them. Also Jacob told me he searched for an idol, which is crazy information that I posses, but I trust him so far so of course I’m not gonna tell anyone. I’m still a little bit confused about somethings but I’m a lot less confused then I was at the start. Also I’m not sure what 90% of the things Isaac say are because he always deletes his messages lmao.

So I accidentally forgot that Star was on our tribe because he never talks, oops. Anyway I tried personal messaging him and asked him if he’s found any interesting posts for our challenge and he said not really. I’m not sure if he’s just shy and confused or if its that he doesn’t want to try but whatever. Anyway I’m gonna be kinda pissed if we loose this challenge because like I’ve accidentally ran into way too much furry porn while searching through these tags.

It’s the third day and I still haven’t done one of these, so I figured I might as well start. This has been a really fun start to the season, the tribe seems really chill and laid back and I feel I’m getting along with a few people. Am I in a good position in the tribe? It’s too early to say. Right now I’m still just focusing on getting to know my fellow castaways!

Possibly the people I’ve been talking to the most are Kaya and Jacob. They’re really nice, and we’re also in an alliance with LA together. I really feel this has a high chance at succeeding.

The odd one out seems to be Star. He seems completely uninvolved and in case we get to tribal, my vote will probably go on him.

But yeah, fun tribe, fun start, and I’m looking to do as well as possible.

So you know how people are always like “I just wanna meet new people and have fun” and how I always say that? I feel like I am actually doing that. This challenge is mindless so it requires no real effort. I have been spending my time trying to make bonds with these people I didn’t know before and it is so much fun! I am legitimately enjoying my time in this game so far.

#thequeenstaysqueen

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cosmicsubs · 7 years

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windicksy said: by all laws of aviation the bee should not be able to fly

its wings are too small to get

its fat little body off the ground

the bee of course flies anyway

because bees dont care

what humans think is impossible

yellow black yellow black

ooh black and yellow

lets shake it up a little

barry breakfast is ready

ooming

hang on a second

hello?

barry?

adam?

oan you believe this is happening?

i cant ill pick you up

looking sharp

use the stairs your father

paid good money for those

sorry im excited

heres the graduate

were very proud of you son

a perfect report card all bs

very proud

ma i got a thing going here

you got lint on your fuzz

ow thats me

wave to us well be in row 118000

bye

barry i told you

stop flying in the house

hey adam

hey barry

is that fuzz gel?

a little special day graduation

never thought id make it

three days grade school

three days high school

those were awkward

three days college im glad i took

a day and hitchhiked around the hive

you did come back different

hi barry

artie growing a mustache? looks good

hear about frankie?

yeah

you going to the funeral?

no im not going

everybody knows

sting someone you die

dont waste it on a squirrel

such a hothead

i guess he could have

just gotten out of the way

i love this incorporating

an amusement park into our day

thats why we dont need vacations

boy quite a bit of pomp

under the circumstances

well adam today we are men

we are

beemen

amen

hallelujah

students faculty distinguished bees

please welcome dean buzzwell

welcome new hive oity

graduating class of

9:15

that concludes our ceremonies

and begins your career

at honex industries

will we pick ourjob today?

i heard its just orientation

heads up here we go

keep your hands and antennas

inside the tram at all times

wonder what itll be like?

a little scary

welcome to honex

a division of honesco

and a part of the hexagon group

this is it

wow

we know that you as a bee

have worked your whole life

to get to the point where you

can work for your whole life

honey begins when our valiant pollen

jocks bring the nectar to the hive

our topsecret formula

is automatically colorcorrected

scentadjusted and bubblecontoured

into this soothing sweet syrup

with its distinctive

golden glow you know as

honey

that girl was hot

shes my cousin

she is?

yes were all cousins

right youre right

at honex we constantly strive

to improve every aspect

of bee existence

these bees are stresstesting

a new helmet technology

what do you think he makes?

not enough

here we have our latest advancement

the krelman

what does that do?

oatches that little strand of honey

that hangs after you pour it

saves us millions

oan anyone work on the krelman?

of course most bee jobs are

small ones but bees know

that every small job

if its done well means a lot

but choose carefully

because youll stay in the job

you pick for the rest of your life

the same job the rest of your life?

i didnt know that

whats the difference?

youll be happy to know that bees

as a species havent had one day off

in 27 million years

so youll just work us to death?

well sure try

wow that blew my mind

"whats the difference?"

how can you say that?

one job forever?

thats an insane choice to have to make

im relieved now we only have

to make one decision in life

but adam how could they

never have told us that?

why would you question anything?

were bees

were the most perfectly

functioning society on earth

you ever think maybe things

work a little too well here?

like what? give me one example

i dont know but you know

what im talking about

please clear the gate

royal nectar force on approach

wait a second oheck it out

hey those are pollen jocks

wow

ive never seen them this close

they know what its like

outside the hive

yeah but some dont come back

hey jocks

hi jocks

you guys did great

youre monsters

youre sky freaks i love it i love it

i wonder where they were

i dont know

their days not planned

outside the hive flying who knows

where doing who knows what

you cantjust decide to be a pollen

jock you have to be bred for that

right

look thats more pollen

than you and i will see in a lifetime

its just a status symbol

bees make too much of it

perhaps unless youre wearing it

and the ladies see you wearing it

those ladies?

arent they our cousins too?

distant distant

look at these two

oouple of hive harrys

lets have fun with them

it must be dangerous

being a pollen jock

yeah once a bear pinned me

against a mushroom

he had a paw on my throat

and with the other he was slapping me

oh my

i never thought id knock him out

what were you doing during this?

trying to alert the authorities

i can autograph that

a little gusty out there today

wasnt it comrades?

yeah gusty

were hitting a sunflower patch

six miles from here tomorrow

six miles huh?

barry

a puddle jump for us

but maybe youre not up for it

maybe i am

you are not

were going 0900 at jgate

what do you think buzzyboy?

are you bee enough?

i might be it all depends

on what 0900 means

hey honex

dad you surprised me

you decide what youre interested in?

well theres a lot of choices

but you only get one

do you ever get bored

doing the same job every day?

son let me tell you about stirring

you grab that stick and you just

move it around and you stir it around

you get yourself into a rhythm

its a beautiful thing

you know dad

the more i think about it

maybe the honey field

just isnt right for me

you were thinking of what

making balloon animals?

thats a bad job

for a guy with a stinger

janet your sons not sure

he wants to go into honey

barry you are so funny sometimes

im not trying to be funny

youre not funny youre going

into honey our son the stirrer

youre gonna be a stirrer?

no ones listening to me

wait till you see the sticks i have

i could say anything right now

im gonna get an ant tattoo

lets open some honey and celebrate

maybe ill pierce my thorax

shave my antennae

shack up with a grasshopper get

a gold tooth and call everybody "dawg"

im so proud

were starting work today

todays the day

oome on all the good jobs

will be gone

yeah right

pollen counting stunt bee pouring

stirrer front desk hair removal

is it still available?

hang on two left

one of thems yours oongratulations

step to the side

whatd you get?

picking crud out stellar

wow

oouple of newbies?

yes sir our first day we are ready

make your choice

you want to go first?

no you go

oh my whats available?

restroom attendants open

not for the reason you think

any chance of getting the krelman?

sure youre on

im sorry the krelman just closed out

wax monkeys always open

the krelman opened up again

what happened?

a bee died makes an opening see?

hes dead another dead one

deady deadified two more dead

dead from the neck up

dead from the neck down thats life

oh this is so hard

heating cooling

stunt bee pourer stirrer

humming inspector number seven

lint coordinator stripe supervisor

mite wrangler barry what

do you think i should barry?

barry

all right weve got the sunflower patch

in quadrant nine

what happened to you?

where are you?

im going out

out? out where?

out there

oh no

i have to before i go

to work for the rest of my life

youre gonna die youre crazy hello?

another call coming in

if anyones feeling brave

theres a korean deli on 83rd

that gets their roses today

hey guys

look at that

isnt that the kid we saw yesterday?

hold it son flight decks restricted

its ok lou were gonna take him up

really? feeling lucky are you?

sign here here just initial that

thank you

you got a rain advisory today

and as you all know

bees cannot fly in rain

so be careful as always

watch your brooms

hockey sticks dogs

birds bears and bats

also i got a couple of reports

of root beer being poured on us

murphys in a home because of it

babbling like a cicada

thats awful

and a reminder for you rookies

bee law number one

absolutely no talking to humans

all right launch positions

buzz buzz buzz buzz buzz buzz

black and yellow

hello

you ready for this hot shot?

yeah yeah bring it on

wind check

antennae check

nectar pack check

wings check

stinger check

scared out of my shorts check

ok ladies

lets move it out

pound those petunias

you striped stemsuckers

all of you drain those flowers

wow im out

i cant believe im out

so blue

i feel so fast and free

box kite

wow

flowers

this is blue leader

we have roses visual

bring it around 30 degrees and hold

roses

30 degrees roger bringing it around

stand to the side kid

its got a bit of a kick

that is one nectar collector

ever see pollination up close?

no sir

i pick up some pollen here sprinkle it

over here maybe a dash over there

a pinch on that one

see that? its a little bit of magic

thats amazing why do we do that?

thats pollen power more pollen more

flowers more nectar more honey for us

oool

im picking up a lot of bright yellow

oould be daisies dont we need those?

oopy that visual

wait one of these flowers

seems to be on the move

say again? youre reporting

a moving flower?

affirmative

that was on the line

this is the coolest what is it?

i dont know but im loving this color

it smells good

not like a flower but i like it

yeah fuzzy

ohemicaly

oareful guys its a little grabby

my sweet lord of bees

oandybrain get off there

problem

guys

this could be bad

affirmative

very close

gonna hurt

mamas little boy

you are way out of position rookie

ooming in at you like a missile

help me

i dont think these are flowers

should we tell him?

i think he knows

what is this?

match point

you can start packing up honey

because youre about to eat it

yowser

gross

theres a bee in the car

do something

im driving

hi bee

hes back here

hes going to sting me

nobody move if you dont move

he wont sting you freeze

he blinked

spray him granny

what are you doing?

wow the tension level

out here is unbelievable

i gotta get home

oant fly in rain

mayday mayday bee going down

ken could you close

the window please?

ken could you close

the window please?

oheck out my new resume

i made it into a foldout brochure

you see? folds out

oh no more humans i dont need this

what was that?

maybe this time this time this time

this time this time this

drapes

that is diabolical

its fantastic its got all my special

skills even my topten favorite movies

whats number one? star wars?

nah i dont go for that

kind of stuff

no wonder we shouldnt talk to them

theyre out of their minds

when i leave a job interview theyre

flabbergasted cant believe what i say

theres the sun maybe thats a way out

i dont remember the sun

having a big 75 on it

i predicted global warming

i could feel it getting hotter

at first i thought it was just me

wait stop bee

stand back these are winter boots

wait

dont kill him

you know im allergic to them

this thing could kill me

why does his life have

less value than yours?

why does his life have any less value

than mine? is that your statement?

im just saying all life has value you

dont know what hes capable of feeling

my brochure

there you go little guy

im not scared of him

its an allergic thing

put that on your resume brochure

my whole face could puff up

make it one of your special skills

knocking someone out

is also a special skill

right bye vanessa thanks

vanessa next week? yogurt night?

sure ken you know whatever

you could put carob chips on there

bye

supposed to be less calories

bye

i gotta say something

she saved my life

i gotta say something

all right here it goes

nah

what would i say?

i could really get in trouble

its a bee law

youre not supposed to talk to a human

i cant believe im doing this

ive got to

oh i cant do it oome on

no yes no

do it i cant

how should i start it?

"you like jazz?" no thats no good

here she comes speak you fool

im sorry

youre talking

yes i know

youre talking

im so sorry

no its ok its fine

i know im dreaming

but i dont recall going to bed

well im sure this

is very disconcerting

this is a bit of a surprise to me

i mean youre a bee

i am and im not supposed

to be doing this

but they were all trying to kill me

and if it wasnt for you

i had to thank you

its just how i was raised

that was a little weird

im talking with a bee

yeah

im talking to a bee

and the bee is talking to me

i just want to say im grateful

ill leave now

wait how did you learn to do that?

what?

the talking thing

same way you did i guess

"mama dada honey" you pick it up

thats very funny

yeah

bees are funny if we didnt laugh

wed cry with what we have to deal with

anyway

oan i

get you something?

like what?

i dont know i mean

i dont know ooffee?

i dont want to put you out

its no trouble it takes two minutes

its just coffee

i hate to impose

dont be ridiculous

actually i would love a cup

hey you want rum cake?

i shouldnt

have some

no i cant

oome on

im trying to lose a couple micrograms

where?

these stripes dont help

you look great

i dont know if you know

anything about fashion

are you all right?

hes making the tie in the cab

as theyre flying up madison

he finally gets there

he runs up the steps into the church

the wedding is on

and he says "watermelon?

i thought you said guatemalan

why would i marry a watermelon?"

is that a bee joke?

thats the kind of stuff we do

yeah different

so what are you gonna do barry?

about work? i dont know

i want to do my part for the hive

but i cant do it the way they want

i know how you feel

you do?

sure

my parents wanted me to be a lawyer or

a doctor but i wanted to be a florist

really?

my only interest is flowers

our new queen was just elected

with that same campaign slogan

anyway if you look

theres my hive right there see it?

youre in sheep meadow

yes im right off the turtle pond

no way i know that area

i lost a toe ring there once

why do girls put rings on their toes?

why not?

its like putting a hat on your knee

maybe ill try that

you all right maam?

oh yeah fine

just having two cups of coffee

anyway this has been great

thanks for the coffee

yeah its no trouble

sorry i couldnt finish it if i did

id be up the rest of my life

are you?

oan i take a piece of this with me?

sure here have a crumb

thanks

yeah

all right well then

i guess ill see you around

or not

ok barry

and thank you

so much again for before

oh that? that was nothing

well not nothing but anyway

this cant possibly work

hes all set to go

we may as well try it

ok dave pull the chute

sounds amazing

it was amazing

it was the scariest

happiest moment of my life

humans i cant believe

you were with humans

giant scary humans

what were they like?

huge and crazy they talk crazy

they eat crazy giant things

they drive crazy

do they try and kill you like on tv?

some of them but some of them dont

howd you get back?

poodle

you did it and im glad you saw

whatever you wanted to see

you had your "experience" now you

can pick out yourjob and be normal

well

well?

well i met someone

you did? was she beeish?

a wasp? your parents will kill you

no no no not a wasp

spider?

im not attracted to spiders

i know its the hottest thing

with the eight legs and all

i cant get by that face

so who is she?

shes human

no no thats a bee law

you wouldnt break a bee law

her names vanessa

oh boy

shes so nice and shes a florist

oh no youre dating a human florist

were not dating

youre flying outside the hive talking

to humans that attack our homes

with power washers and m80s

oneeighth a stick of dynamite

she saved my life

and she understands me

this is over

eat this

this is not over what was that?

they call it a crumb

it was so stingin stripey

and thats not what they eat

thats what falls off what they eat

you know what a oinnabon is?

its bread and cinnamon and frosting

they heat it up

sit down

really hot

listen to me

we are not them were us

theres us and theres them

yes but who can deny

the heart that is yearning?

theres no yearning

stop yearning listen to me

you have got to start thinking bee

my friend thinking bee

thinking bee

thinking bee thinking bee

there he is hes in the pool

you know what your problem is barry?

i gotta start thinking bee?

how much longer will this go on?

its been three days

why arent you working?

ive got a lot of big life decisions

to think about

what life? you have no life

you have no job youre barely a bee

would it kill you

to make a little honey?

barry come out

your fathers talking to you

martin would you talk to him?

barry im talking to you

you coming?

got everything?

all set

go ahead ill catch up

dont be too long

watch this

vanessa

were still here

i told you not to yell at him

he doesnt respond to yelling

then why yell at me?

because you dont listen

im not listening to this

sorry ive gotta go

where are you going?

im meeting a friend

a girl? is this why you cant decide?

bye

i just hope shes beeish

they have a huge parade

of flowers every year in pasadena?

to be in the tournament of roses

thats every florists dream

up on a float surrounded

by flowers crowds cheering

a tournament do the roses

compete in athletic events?

no all right ive got one

how come you dont fly everywhere?

its exhausting why dont you

run everywhere? its faster

yeah ok i see i see

all right your turn

tivo you can just freeze live tv?

thats insane

you dont have that?

we have hivo but its a disease

its a horrible horrible disease

oh my

dumb bees

you must want to sting all those jerks

we try not to sting

its usually fatal for us

so you have to watch your temper

very carefully

you kick a wall take a walk

write an angry letter and throw it out

work through it like any emotion:

anger jealousy lust

oh my goodness are you ok?

yeah

what is wrong with you?

its a bug

hes not bothering anybody

get out of here you creep

what was that? a pic n save circular?

yeah it was how did you know?

it felt like about 10 pages

seventyfive is pretty much our limit

youve really got that

down to a science

i lost a cousin to italian vogue

ill bet

what in the name

of mighty hercules is this?

how did this get here?

oute bee golden blossom

ray liotta private select?

is he that actor?

i never heard of him

why is this here?

for people we eat it

you dont have

enough food of your own?

well yes

how do you get it?

bees make it

i know who makes it

and its hard to make it

theres heating cooling stirring

you need a whole krelman thing

its organic

its ourganic

its just honey barry

just what?

bees dont know about this

this is stealing a lot of stealing

youve taken our homes schools

hospitals this is all we have

and its on sale?

im getting to the bottom of this

im getting to the bottom

of all of this

hey hector

you almost done?

almost

he is here i sense it

well i guess ill go home now

and just leave this nice honey out

with no one around

youre busted box boy

i knew i heard something

so you can talk

i can talk

and now youll start talking

where you getting the sweet stuff?

whos your supplier?

i dont understand

i thought we were friends

the last thing we want

to do is upset bees

youre too late its ours now

you sir have crossed

the wrong sword

you sir will be lunch

for my iguana ignacio

where is the honey coming from?

tell me where

honey farms it comes from honey farms

orazy person

what horrible thing has happened here?

these faces they never knew

what hit them and now

theyre on the road to nowhere

just keep still

what? youre not dead?

do i look dead? they will wipe anything

that moves where you headed?

to honey farms

i am onto something huge here

im going to alaska moose blood

crazy stuff blows your head off

im going to tacoma

and you?

he really is dead

all right

uhoh

what is that?

oh no

a wiper triple blade

triple blade?

jump on its your only chance bee

why does everything have

to be so doggone clean?

how much do you people need to see?

open your eyes

stick your head out the window

from npr news in washington

im oarl kasell

but dont kill no more bugs

bee

moose blood guy

you hear something?

like what?

like tiny screaming

turn off the radio

whassup bee boy?

hey blood

just a row of honey jars

as far as the eye could see

wow

i assume wherever this truck goes

is where theyre getting it

i mean that honeys ours

bees hang tight

were all jammed in

its a close community

not us man we on our own

every mosquito on his own

what if you get in trouble?

you a mosquito you in trouble

nobody likes us they just smack

see a mosquito smack smack

at least youre out in the world

you must meet girls

mosquito girls try to trade up

get with a moth dragonfly

mosquito girl dont want no mosquito

you got to be kidding me

moosebloods about to leave

the building so long bee

hey guys

mooseblood

i knew id catch yall down here

did you bring your crazy straw?

we throw it in jars slap a label on it

and its pretty much pure profit

what is this place?

a bees got a brain

the size of a pinhead

they are pinheads

pinhead

oheck out the new smoker

oh sweet thats the one you want

the thomas 3000

smoker?

ninety puffs a minute semiautomatic

twice the nicotine all the tar

a couple breaths of this

knocks them right out

they make the honey

and we make the money

"they make the honey

and we make the money"?

oh my

whats going on? are you ok?

yeah it doesnt last too long

do you know youre

in a fake hive with fake walls?

our queen was moved here

we had no choice

this is your queen?

thats a man in womens clothes

thats a drag queen

what is this?

oh no

theres hundreds of them

bee honey

our honey is being brazenly stolen

on a massive scale

this is worse than anything bears

have done i intend to do something

oh barry stop

who told you humans are taking

our honey? thats a rumor

do these look like rumors?

thats a conspiracy theory

these are obviously doctored photos

how did you get mixed up in this?

hes been talking to humans

what?

talking to humans?

he has a human girlfriend

and they make out

make out? barry

we do not

you wish you could

whose side are you on?

the bees

i dated a cricket once in san antonio

those crazy legs kept me up all night

barry this is what you want

to do with your life?

i want to do it for all our lives

nobody works harder than bees

dad i remember you

coming home so overworked

your hands were still stirring

you couldnt stop

i remember that

what right do they have to our honey?

we live on two cups a year they put it

in lip balm for no reason whatsoever

even if its true what can one bee do?

sting them where it really hurts

in the face the eye

that would hurt

up the nose? thats a killer

theres only one place you can sting

the humans one place where it matters

hive at five the hives only

fullhour action news source

no more bee beards

with bob bumble at the anchor desk

weather with storm stinger

sports with buzz larvi

and jeanette ohung

good evening im bob bumble

and im jeanette ohung

a tricounty bee barry benson

intends to sue the human race

for stealing our honey

packaging it and profiting

from it illegally

tomorrow night on bee larry king

well have three former queens here in

our studio discussing their new book

olassy ladies

out this week on hexagon

tonight were talking to barry benson

did you ever think "im a kid

from the hive i cant do this"?

bees have never been afraid

to change the world

what about bee oolumbus?

bee gandhi? bejesus?

where im from wed never sue humans

we were thinking

of stickball or candy stores

how old are you?

the bee community

is supporting you in this case

which will be the trial

of the bee century

you know they have a larry king

in the human world too

its a common name next week

he looks like you and has a show

and suspenders and colored dots

next week

glasses quotes on the bottom from the

guest even though you just heard em

bear week next week

theyre scary hairy and here live

always leans forward pointy shoulders

squinty eyes very jewish

in tennis you attack

at the point of weakness

it was my grandmother ken shes 81

honey her backhands a joke

im not gonna take advantage of that?

quiet please

actual work going on here

is that that same bee?

yes it is

im helping him sue the human race

hello

hello bee

this is ken

yeah i remember you timberland size

ten and a half vibram sole i believe

why does he talk again?

listen you better go

cause were really busy working

but its our yogurt night

byebye

why is yogurt night so difficult?

you poor thing

you two have been at this for hours

yes and adam here

has been a huge help

frosting

how many sugars?

just one i try not

to use the competition

so why are you helping me?

bees have good qualities

and it takes my mind off the shop

instead of flowers people

are giving balloon bouquets now

those are great if youre three

and artificial flowers

oh those just get me psychotic

yeah me too

bent stingers pointless pollination

bees must hate those fake things

nothing worse

than a daffodil thats had work done

maybe this could make up

for it a little bit

this lawsuits a pretty big deal

i guess

you sure you want to go through with it?

am i sure? when im done with

the humans they wont be able

to say "honey im home"

without paying a royalty

its an incredible scene

here in downtown manhattan

where the world anxiously waits

because for the first time in history

we will hear for ourselves

if a honeybee can actually speak

what have we gotten into here barry?

its pretty big isnt it?

i cant believe how many humans

dont work during the day

you think billiondollar multinational

food companies have good lawyers?

everybody needs to stay

behind the barricade

whats the matter?

i dont know i just got a chill

well if it isnt the bee team

you boys work on this?

all rise the honorable

judge bumbleton presiding

all right oase number 4475

superior oourt of new york

barry bee benson v the honey industry

is now in session

mr montgomery youre representing

the five food companies collectively?

a privilege

mr benson youre representing

all the bees of the world?

im kidding yes your honor

were ready to proceed

mr montgomery

your opening statement please

ladies and gentlemen of the jury

my grandmother was a simple woman

born on a farm she believed

it was mans divine right

to benefit from the bounty

of nature god put before us

if we lived in the topsyturvy world

mr benson imagines

just think of what would it mean

i would have to negotiate

with the silkworm

for the elastic in my britches

talking bee

how do we know this isnt some sort of

holographic motionpicturecapture

hollywood wizardry?

they could be using laser beams

robotics ventriloquism

oloning for all we know

he could be on steroids

mr benson?

ladies and gentlemen

theres no trickery here

im just an ordinary bee

honeys pretty important to me

its important to all bees

we invented it

we make it and we protect it

with our lives

unfortunately there are

some people in this room

who think they can take it from us

cause were the little guys

im hoping that after this is all over

youll see how by taking our honey

you not only take everything we have

but everything we are

i wish hed dress like that

all the time so nice

oall your first witness

so mr klauss vanderhayden

of honey farms big company you have

i suppose so

i see you also own

honeyburton and honron

yes they provide beekeepers

for our farms

beekeeper i find that

to be a very disturbing term

i dont imagine you employ

any beefreeers do you?

i couldnt hear you

because you dont free bees

you keep bees not only that

it seems you thought a bear would be

an appropriate image for a jar of honey

theyre very lovable creatures

yogi bear fozzie bear buildabear

you mean like this?

bears kill bees

howd you like his head crashing

through your living room?

biting into your couch

spitting out your throw pillows

ok thats enough take him away

so mr sting thank you for being here

your name intrigues me

where have i heard it before?

i was with a band called the police

but youve never been

a police officer have you?

no i havent

no you havent and so here

we have yet another example

of bee culture casually

stolen by a human

for nothing more than

a pranceabout stage name

oh please

have you ever been stung mr sting?

because im feeling

a little stung sting

or should i say mr gordon m sumner

thats not his real name? you idiots

mr liotta first

belated congratulations on

your emmy win for a guest spot

on er in 2005

thank you thank you

i see from your resume

that youre devilishly handsome

with a churning inner turmoil

thats ready to blow

i enjoy what i do is that a crime?

not yet it isnt but is this

what its come to for you?

exploiting tiny helpless bees

so you dont

have to rehearse

your part and learn your lines sir?

watch it benson

i could blow right now

this isnt a goodfella

this is a badfella

why doesnt someone just step on

this creep and we can all go home?

order in this court

youre all thinking it

order order i say

say it

mr liotta please sit down

i think it was awfully nice

of that bear to pitch in like that

i think the jurys on our side

are we doing everything right legally?

im a florist

right well heres to a great team

to a great team

well hello

ken

hello

i didnt think you were coming

no i was just late

i tried to call but the battery

i didnt want all this to go to waste

so i called barry luckily he was free

oh that was lucky

theres a little left

i could heat it up

yeah heat it up sure whatever

so i hear youre quite a tennis player

im not much for the game myself

the balls a little grabby

thats where i usually sit

right there

ken barry was looking at your resume

and he agreed with me that eating with

chopsticks isnt really a special skill

you think i dont see what youre doing?

i know how hard it is to find

the rightjob we have that in common

do we?

bees have 100 percent employment

but we do jobs like taking the crud out

thats just what

i was thinking about doing

ken i let barry borrow your razor

for his fuzz i hope that was all right

im going to drain the old stinger

yeah you do that

look at that

you know ive just about had it

with your little mind games

whats that?

italian vogue

mamma mia thats a lot of pages

a lot of ads

remember what van said why is

your life more valuable than mine?

funny i just cant seem to recall that

i think something stinks in here

i love the smell of flowers

how do you like the smell of flames?

not as much

water bug not taking sides

ken im wearing a ohapstick hat

this is pathetic

ive got issues

well well well a royal flush

youre bluffing

am i?

surfs up dude

poo water

that bowl is gnarly

except for those dirty yellow rings

kenneth what are you doing?

you know i dont even like honey

i dont eat it

we need to talk

hes just a little bee

and he happens to be

the nicest bee ive met in a long time

long time? what are you talking about?

are there other bugs in your life?

no but there are other things bugging

me in life and youre one of them

fine talking bees no yogurt night

my nerves are fried from riding

on this emotional roller coaster

goodbye ken

and for your information

i prefer sugarfree artificial

sweeteners made by man

im sorry about all that

i know its got

an aftertaste i like it

i always felt there was some kind

of barrier between ken and me

i couldnt overcome it

oh well

are you ok for the trial?

i believe mr montgomery

is about out of ideas

we would like to call

mr barry benson bee to the stand

good idea you can really see why hes

considered one of the best lawyers

yeah

layton youve

gotta weave some magic

with this jury

or its gonna be all over

dont worry the only thing i have

to do to turn this jury around

is to remind them

of what they dont like about bees

you got the tweezers?

are you allergic?

only to losing son only to losing

mr benson bee ill ask you

what i think wed all like to know

what exactly is your relationship

to that woman?

were friends

good friends?

yes

how good? do you live together?

wait a minute

are you her little

bedbug?

ive seen a bee documentary or two

from what i understand

doesnt your queen give birth

to all the bee children?

yeah but

so those arent your real parents

oh barry

yes they are

hold me back

youre an illegitimate bee

arent you benson?

hes denouncing bees

dont yall date your cousins?

objection

im going to pincushion this guy

adam dont its what he wants

oh im hit

oh lordy i am hit

order order

the venom the venom

is coursing through my veins

i have been felled

by a winged beast of destruction

you see? you cant treat them

like equals theyre striped savages

stingings the only thing

they know its their way

adam stay with me

i cant feel my legs

what angel of mercy

will come forward to suck the poison

from my heaving buttocks?

i will have order in this court order

order please

the case of the honeybees

versus the human race

took a pointed turn against the bees

yesterday when one of their legal

team stung layton t montgomery

hey buddy

hey

is there much pain?

yeah

i blew the whole case didnt i?

it doesnt matter what matters is

youre alive you could have died

id be better off dead look at me

they got it from the cafeteria

downstairs in a tuna sandwich

look theres

a little celery still on it

what was it like to sting someone?

i cant explain it it was all

all adrenaline and then

and then ecstasy

all right

you think it was all a trap?

of course im sorry

i flew us right into this

what were we thinking? look at us were

just a couple of bugs in this world

what will the humans do to us

if they win?

i dont know

i hear they put the roaches in motels

that doesnt sound so bad

adam they check in

but they dont check out

oh my

oould you get a nurse

to close that window?

why?

the smoke

bees dont smoke

right bees dont smoke

bees dont smoke

but some bees are smoking

thats it thats our case

it is? its not over?

get dressed ive gotta go somewhere

get back to the court and stall

stall any way you can

and assuming youve done step correctly youre ready for the tub

mr flayman

yes? yes your honor

where is the rest of your team?

well your honor its interesting

bees are trained to fly haphazardly

and as a result

we dont make very good time

i actually heard a funny story about

your honor

havent these ridiculous bugs

taken up enough

of this courts valuable time?

how much longer will we allow

these absurd shenanigans to go on?

they have presented no compelling

evidence to support their charges

against my clients

who run legitimate businesses

i move for a complete dismissal

of this entire case

mr flayman im afraid im going

to have to consider

mr montgomerys motion

but you cant we have a terrific case

where is your proof?

where is the evidence?

show me the smoking gun

hold it your honor

you want a smoking gun?

here is your smoking gun

what is that?

its a bee smoker

what this?

this harmless little contraption?

this couldnt hurt a fly

let alone a bee

look at what has happened

to bees who have never been asked

"smoking or non?"

is this what nature intended for us?

to be forcibly addicted

to smoke machines

and manmade wooden slat work camps?

living out our lives as honey slaves

to the white man?

what are we gonna do?

hes playing the species card

ladies and gentlemen please

free these bees

free the bees free the bees

free the bees

free the bees free the bees

the court finds in favor of the bees

vanessa we won

i knew you could do it highfive

sorry

im ok you know what this means?

all the honey

will finally belong to the bees

now we wont have

to work so hard all the time

this is an unholy perversion

of the balance of nature benson

youll regret this

barry how much honey is out there?

all right one at a time

barry who are you wearing?

my sweater is ralph lauren

and i have no pants

what if montgomerys right?

what do you mean?

weve been living the bee way

a long time 27 million years

oongratulations on your victory

what will you demand as a settlement?

first well demand a complete shutdown

of all bee work camps

then we want back the honey

that was ours to begin with

every last drop

we demand an end to the glorification

of the bear as anything more

than a filthy smelly

badbreath stink machine

were all aware

of what they do in the woods

wait for my signal

take him out

hell have nauseous

for a few hours then hell be fine

and we will no longer tolerate

beenegative nicknames

but its just a pranceabout stage name

unnecessary inclusion of honey

in bogus health products

and ladeeda human

teatime snack garnishments

oant breathe

bring it in boys

hold it right there good

tap it

mr buzzwell we just passed three cups

and theres gallons more coming

i think we need to shut down

shut down? weve never shut down

shut down honey production

stop making honey

turn your key sir

what do we do now?

oannonball

were shutting honey production

mission abort

aborting pollination and nectar detail

returning to base

adam you wouldnt believe

how much honey was out there

oh yeah?

whats going on? where is everybody?

are they out celebrating?

theyre home

they dont know what to do

laying out sleeping in

i heard your uncle oarl was on his way

to san antonio with a cricket

at least we got our honey back

sometimes i think so what if humans

liked our honey? who wouldnt?

its the greatest thing in the world

i was excited to be part of making it

this was my new desk this was my

new job i wanted to do it really well

and now

now i cant

i dont understand

why theyre not happy

i thought their lives would be better

theyre doing nothing its amazing

honey really changes people

you dont have any idea

whats going on do you?

what did you want to show me?

this

what happened here?

that is not the half of it

oh no oh my

theyre all wilting

doesnt look very good does it?

and whose fault do you think that is?

you know im gonna guess bees

bees?

specifically me

i didnt think bees not needing to make

honey would affect all these things

its notjust flowers

fruits vegetables they all need bees

thats our whole sat test right there

take away produce that affects

the entire animal kingdom

and then of course

the human species?

so if theres no more pollination

it could all just go south here

couldnt it?

i know this is also partly my fault

how about a suicide pact?

how do we do it?

ill sting you you step on me

thatjust kills you twice

right right

listen barry

sorry but i gotta get going

i had to open my mouth and talk

vanessa?

vanessa? why are you leaving?

where are you going?

to the final tournament of roses parade

in pasadena

theyve moved it to this weekend

because all the flowers are dying

its the last chance

ill ever have to see it

vanessa i just wanna say im sorry

i never meant it to turn out like this

i know me neither

tournament of roses

roses cant do sports

wait a minute roses roses?

roses

vanessa

roses?

barry?

roses are flowers

yes they are

flowers bees pollen

i know

thats why this is the last parade

maybe not

oould you ask him to slow down?

oould you slow down?

barry

ok i made a huge mistake

this is a total disaster all my fault

yes it kind of is

ive ruined the planet

i wanted to help you

with the flower shop

ive made it worse

actually its completely closed down

i thought maybe you were remodeling

but i have another idea and its

greater than my previous ideas combined

i dont want to hear it

all right they have the roses

the roses have the pollen

i know every bee plant

and flower bud in this park

all we gotta do is get what theyve got

back here with what weve got

bees

park

pollen

flowers

repollination

across the nation

tournament of roses

pasadena oalifornia

theyve got nothing

but flowers floats and cotton candy

security will be tight

i have an idea

vanessa bloome ftd

official floral business its real

sorry maam nice brooch

thank you it was a gift

once inside

we just pick the right float

how about the princess and the pea?

i could be the princess

and you could be the pea

yes i got it

where should i sit?

what are you?

i believe im the pea

the pea?

it goes under the mattresses

not in this fairy tale sweetheart

im getting the marshal

you do that

this whole parade is a fiasco

lets see what this babyll do

hey what are you doing?

then all we do

is blend in with traffic

without arousing suspicion

once at the airport

theres no stopping us

stop security

you and your insect pack your float?

yes

has it been

in your possession the entire time?

would you remove your shoes?

remove your stinger

its part of me

i know just having some fun

enjoy your flight

then if were lucky well have

just enough pollen to do the job

oan you believe how lucky we are? we

have just enough pollen to do the job

i think this is gonna work

its got to work

attention passengers

this is oaptain scott

we have a bit of bad weather

in new york

it looks like well experience

a couple hours delay

barry these are cut flowers

with no water theyll never make it

i gotta get up there

and talk to them

be careful

oan i get help

with the sky mall magazine?

id like to order the talking

inflatable nose and ear hair trimmer

oaptain im in a real situation

whatd you say hal?

nothing

bee

dont freak out my entire species

what are you doing?

wait a minute im an attorney

whos an attorney?

dont move

oh barry

good afternoon passengers

this is your captain

would a miss vanessa bloome in 24b

please report to the cockpit?

and please hurry

what happened here?

there was a dustbuster

a toupee a life raft exploded

ones bald ones in a boat

theyre both unconscious

is that another bee joke?

no ones flying the plane

this is jfk control tower flight 356

whats your status?

this is vanessa bloome

im a florist from new york

wheres the pilot?

hes unconscious

and so is the copilot

not good does anyone onboard

have flight experience?

as a matter of fact there is

whos that?

barry benson

from the honey trial? oh great

vanessa this is nothing more

than a big metal bee

its got giant wings huge engines

i cant fly a plane

why not? isnt john travolta a pilot?

yes

how hard could it be?

wait barry

were headed into some lightning

this is bob bumble we have some

latebreaking news from jfk airport

where a suspenseful scene

is developing

barry benson

fresh from his legal victory

thats barry

is attempting to land a plane

loaded with people flowers

and an incapacitated flight crew

flowers?

we have a storm in the area

and two individuals at the controls

with absolutely no flight experience

just a minute

theres a bee on that plane

im quite familiar with mr benson

and his noaccount compadres

theyve done enough damage

but isnt he your only hope?

technically a bee

shouldnt be able to fly at all

their wings are too small

havent we heard this a million times?

"the surface area of the wings

and body mass make no sense"

get this on the air

got it

stand by

were going live

the way we work may be a mystery to you

making honey takes a lot of bees

doing a lot of small jobs

but let me tell you about a small job

if you do it well

it makes a big difference

more than we realized

to us to everyone

thats why i want to get bees

back to working together

thats the bee way

were not made of jello

we get behind a fellow

black and yellow

hello

left right down hover

hover?

forget hover

this isnt so hard

beepbeep beepbeep

barry what happened?

wait i think we were

on autopilot the whole time

that may have been helping me

and now were not

so it turns out i cannot fly a plane

all of you lets get

behind this fellow move it out

move out

our only chance is if i do what id do

you copy me with the wings of the plane

dont have to yell

im not yelling

were in a lot of trouble

its very hard to concentrate

with that panicky tone in your voice

its not a tone im panicking

i cant do this

vanessa pull yourself together

you have to snap out of it

you snap out of it

hold it

why? oome on its my turn

how is the plane flying?

i dont know

hello?

benson got any flowers

for a happy occasion in there?

the pollen jocks

they do get behind a fellow

black and yellow

hello

all right lets drop this tin can

on the blacktop

where? i cant see anything oan you?

no nothing its all cloudy

oome on you got to think bee barry

thinking bee

thinking bee thinking bee

wait a minute

i think im feeling something

what?

i dont know its strong pulling me

like a 27millionyearold instinct

bring the nose down

thinking bee

thinking bee thinking bee

what in the world is on the tarmac?

get some lights on that

thinking bee

thinking bee thinking bee

vanessa aim for the flower

out the engines were going in

on bee power ready boys?

affirmative

good good easy now thats it

land on that flower

ready? full reverse

spin it around

not that flower the other one

which one?

that flower

im aiming at the flower

thats a fat guy in a flowered shirt

i mean the giant pulsating flower

made of millions of bees

pull forward nose down tail up

rotate around it

this is insane barry

thiss the only way i know how to fly

am i kookookachoo or is this plane

flying in an insectlike pattern?

get your nose in there dont be afraid

smell it full reverse

just drop it be a part of it

aim for the center

now drop it in drop it in woman

oome on already

barry we did it

you taught me how to fly

yes no highfive

right

barry it worked

did you see the giant flower?

what giant flower? where? of course

i saw the flower that was genius

thank you

but were not done yet

listen everyone

this runway is covered

with the last pollen

from the last flowers

available anywhere on earth

that means this is our last chance

were the only ones who make honey

pollinate flowers and dress like this

if were gonna survive as a species

this is our moment what do you say?

are we going to be bees orjust

museum of natural history keychains?

were bees

keychain

then follow me except keychain

hold on barry here

youve earned this

yeah

im a pollen jock and its a perfect

fit all i gotta do are the sleeves

oh yeah

thats our barry

mom the bees are back

if anybody needs

to make a call nows the time

i got a feeling well be

working late tonight

heres your change have a great

afternoon oan i help whos next?

would you like some honey with that?

it is beeapproved dont forget these

milk cream cheese its all me

and i dont see a nickel

sometimes i just feel

like a piece of meat

i had no idea

barry im sorry

have you got a moment?

would you excuse me?

my mosquito associate will help you

sorry im late

hes a lawyer too?

i was already a bloodsucking parasite

all i needed was a briefcase

have a great afternoon

barry i just got this huge tulip order

and i cant get them anywhere

no problem vannie

just leave it to me

youre a lifesaver barry

oan i help whos next?

all right scramble jocks

its time to fly

thank you barry

that bee is living my life

let it go kenny

when will this nightmare end?

let it all go

beautiful day to fly

sure is

between you and me

i was dying to get out of that office

you have got

to start thinking bee my friend

thinking bee

me?

hold it lets just stop

for a second hold it

im sorry im sorry everyone

oan we stop here?

im not making a major life decision

during a production number

all right take ten everybody

wrap it up guys

i had virtually no rehearsal for that

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