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authorforrosie · 2 years

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Requested by: anonymous.

Request: Hi I have a request about Ko mun yeong about to marry the reader but her mom comes and stabs the reader in front of everyone but the reader recovers and after the reader recovers Ko avoids the reader because she is scared that the reader might get hurt because of her but the reader convinces her that their will always be safe.

Title: She pushes you away.

Pairing: Ko Mun-Yeong x you. [GxG.]

Warnings: mention of violent scene, Kn*fe, stabbing, sobbing, trauma as in PTSD trigger.

Words: 1049.

It was supposed to be the most perfect day in Ko Mun-Yeong and your day. A day where you both make the most memorable moment in your life. That's when you become her wife. She already wanted to marry you the first time she saw you. You looked so glorious in her opinion at that time like always.

Sadly the destiny had other plans which showed when her mother stood in front of you with a kn*fe in your stomach. Her ice cold emotionless brown eyes met the pain filled Mun-Yeong's warm brown eyes. Everything went in slow motion for you and Mun-Yeong.

Her mother glanced around emotionless before making a dramatic exit. You gasped falling on your knees in the process. Your tearful y/e/c eyes glanced into her deep painful brown eyes. Her arms reached out to hold you and let you down on the ground slowly. One of her friends tore their suits and put them on your wound. Which didn't stop bleeding.

„Y/N please don't die on me. I love you. We still haven't married yet and traveled the world. I don't know what to do without you..." sobbed Mun-Yeong.

You tried to speak by opening your mouth yet couldn't. Blood rolled down your chin from your mouth. Mun-Yeong sobbed louder. Everyone knew not to touch her since nothing could take the pain.

Mun-Yeong felt so lost, cold and empty without you. Her world broke into pieces by stopping. Everything went even more in slow motion. Until the sirens that came closer by every second could be heard.

- -

Time went by slowly in slow motion just like her whole world. Tears after tears rolled down her cheeks from her eyes. Her eyes were red, swollen and puffy from all the crying. Billions of scenarios went through her mind. Especially the negative ones. The ones where you die and don't wake up anymore.

Ten hours later a doctor walked towards the waiting room next to a nurse who held a clipboard in her hands. Both saw a woman sleeping on the uncomfortable hospital chair with tears on her cheeks. The nurse sat next to her, putting a hand on Mun-Yeong's shoulder.

„Ma'am are you here for Y/F/N Y/L/N...?" Asked the nurse gently while shaking her shoulder softly.

It took a moment for Mun-Yeong to wake up. She yawned, stretching her arms in process. Her hand rubbed the sore muscles in her neck from sleeping on uncomfortable hospital chair.

„Yes I am here for my fiancé..." Answered Mun-Yeong with worry in her voice.

The doctor sat down next to Mun-Yeong. She and the nurse glanced at each other before she looked back at Mun-Yeong.

„Y/N is out of the critical state. We stopped the bleeding and stitched up her wound. She should be recovering in no time." Announced the doctor with happiness in her voice.

„Can I see my fiancé..." Mun-Yeong asked with relief in her voice.

Mun-Yeong glanced at Doctor Bae and Nurse Kim with hope. Doctor Bae and Nurse Kim could only nod their heads at each other.

„Yes you can. The nurse Kim Jennie will show you the room." Answered the doctor Bae Irene with sympathy in her voice.

Nurse Kim Jennie walked away with Mun-Yeong following behind her. Both women started a conversation with each other about different subjects.

Mun-Yeong sobbed again with her nerves wrecking since the sight in front of her was sad. You hooked up to a heart monitor and an IV stuck in your arm.

She didn't know where to touch you without hurting you. Since every movement hurts you through the big wound on your stomach which was stitched up and covered by a huge bandage around your stomach.

- -

You've been out of hospital since yesterday. You had to stay there for four weeks. For two weeks Mun-Yeong has been ignoring you. You didn't know why or if you did anything wrong.

After overthinking about everything you couldn't take it anymore and decided to confront Mun-Yeong. You wanted desperately to know why she was ignoring you.

You drive towards her house with a sad expression on your face. Stopping the car when you arrived at her house which was very glorious in your opinion.

When you knocked on the front door you saw Mun-Yeong. She wore a beautiful black dress. You couldn't help yourself from checking her out.

„What are you doing here...?" Asked Mun Yeong with seriousness in her voice.

„I am here because you are ignoring and avoid me. I wanna know why." Answered you with sadness in your voice.

Mun Yeong glanced away since she knew she couldn't resist you if she looked into your eyes.

„You should stay away from me. I am not good. I am scared that I will hurt you like my mom hurts others." Confessed Mun Yeong with sadness in her voice.

You only lifted her chin with your thumbs. Your y/e/c eyes glanced into her deep brown eyes. Which had fear in them.

„No I am not going away. Do you know why? It's because I know that you are a better person than your evil mother. Who always tried and still tries to ruin everything for you. You are way warm hearted to do anything to hurt people. I've seen you a long time already and I know you only hurt people when you have to protect your loved ones." State you with admiration and seriousness in your voice.

Your statement caused her to grin with a happy expression on her face. She couldn't believe how lucky she is to have someone like you in her life.

You both glanced at each other's lips. Mun Yeong knew she couldn't resist anymore so she pulled you closer and kissed your lips passionately.

„I love you. My beautiful soon to be wife." Confessed Mun Yeong. She grin.

You and Mun Yeong decided to spend the day making out while watching K-Drama's. Your wedding was rescheduled for a few weeks and let's just say Mun Yeong definitely took revenge on her evil mother. So badly that her evil mother left the country.

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popcornforone · 1 year

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He Knows…

Marcus Pike Fan Fiction

I’m stressed at the moment & my mental health isn’t in the best place right now. The only things that make me happy or motivated are talking to friends, watching films or writing. Nothing else seems to help at all. So someone suggested I wrote down what was going on in my head, & it turned into this.

If this is too much for you all I’m sorry I really am but I just let go & it really helped. I am always here if you want to talk or not you know that right. It is okay not to be okay peoples.

Synopsis: You have a moment & the world is just on top you but your partner Marcus Pike knows exactly what to say & sometimes that’s nothing at all.

Word Count: 2K

Warnings: this is extremely personal & talks about anxiety, stress, mental health issues, depression & feeling alone. Some anger & panic attacks. Please remember people that everyone is going through there own issues & struggles sonic this is too much & hits to close to home I’m sorry. It’s just sad & heartbreaking & sweet.

All feed back is welcome peoples. Thanks for the read & thanks for putting up with my mood in the last week. I almost didn’t publish it but I thought if this helps one person say or not say something then I’ve done my job.

Marcus knows, he really does. He’s not told you that he knows but he knows. He’s seen the signs, he knows what you go through, he knows it’s going to happen. He wants to help but he knows to not ask, you have to ask him. He knows you won’t over react if he does but he wants you to tell him so you can get it out of your system yourself. He’s carrying on as normal waiting for you to finally speak. He knows he has to be there when you do.

It’s another four days that pass. He comes home to your shared apartment in Washington & sees the contents of your bag scattered across the hall. He can’t smell the dinner that you’ve usually made a start on as he arrives, which he often helps with. He knows where to find you & he knows where to go. He takes off his shoes & socks & expensive dry clean only jacket & walks towards the bathroom. He can already hear the gasps from your mouth & the water hitting the floor. He pushes the door open carefully. He knows.

You sit on the wet room floor, in all your clothes, the hot water running hitting you & the tiles. You’re rocking back & forth going “it’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay” in a hushed tone. Silent tears merging with the mist & water which is cascading. Your inner monologue desperate to scream to the world but it’s soft whimpers that escape your mouth. You don’t even notice the door open, let alone it being Marcus. It’s only when that large arm covers you to protect you like an eagle that you register what’s happened. He’s in the shower sitting down with you on the floor fully clothed, stroking your arm, holding your other hand going “shhhhhh let it all out, we’ve got this, you’ve got this, in your own time if at all”. He knows.

You are a firm advocate of it’s okay not to be okay. You’re always a little to honest with everyone about your emotional feelings, but sometimes you lock it away completely, & it builds up inside you until you can’t ignore it. You’d thought it was just because it was your time of the month, or it being allergy season, or 1 too many deadlines at work which didn’t actually need to be looked at for a little while. & yet today on this random Wednesday as you sat in the traffic on your drive home which was longer than usual & the supermarket didn’t have what you wanted for dinner, it just made you snap. You got home & didn’t even get the few bits of shopping out the boot of your car. You’re amazed you even shut the door to your apartment. You were going to have a shower before a work out, a work out to get rid of the stress, but even your brain couldn’t focus to do your release exercise. So you felt the warming mist of the shower & then fell apart in your bathroom, sitting underneath the warm water for the last 15minutes.

You lock eyes with Marcus. His job is so much more stressful & important than yours (he works for the government after all) but he feels your pain. He’s the one who’s had to cope with you for the last few weeks as your mental health has slowly deteriorated. You tell him everything in a ramble, it’s not coherent & you rub your face into his wet blue shirt as you cry from time to time. He just listens. He doesn’t come up with answers, he just listens. He caresses you keeping you under his arms, safe & secure with him. Your apartment you share is all you need & his warm smile. He knows you need this.

“Sorry baby”you say when you’re finished. “That was all a bit too deep, I just feel like I’m letting myself down all the time, that I’ll lose my job, that you’ll see through me & leave me &…” his lips touch yours like a feather to sooth you. He slowly as you spoke that sentence, lifted your chin so your eyes were engaged but he couldn’t resist. It’s probably not what you need at all but he wants your anxiety to be replace by loving butterfly’s in your stomach, filled with excitement. He knows this precious moment may help.

“Anxiety is such a pain, isn’t it baby” he says as you break from the tenderest kiss to ever occur in the world• “there’s nothing I can say to help you though, you’ve heard it all before, we all deal with it in different ways”he gives you a comforting squeeze as he can see you trying to control your breathing “I mean mines not the best method but it works for me. Touching my chest, patting myself down with 3 soft taps, & I feel like it’s moving & going else where. I’m at peace once that’s happened, & I do that everytime I have to speak at work &…” Marcus pauses unsure if to admit to something which would show so much weakness. But you’re vulnerable & he knows you probably need to hear this. Barring his souls only shows strength not weakness.

“Every time we go out as a couple I do it, I’m anxious someone else is going to catch your eye, someone more fitting, someone more handsome & that I will be heartbroken once again” he sighs “I’m anxious every morning, that I’m not enough for you & that one day like all the rest of the the women in the world, you will discover that” it’s your turn to put Marcus at ease. You rest your forehead against his & you both close your eyes inhaling the other in, water still flowing across the two of you. “Why would I ever even consider looking at anyone else baby, I love you, I love you so much, you know that right?” & it’s your turn to instigate the kiss. You hands cup around his face, the beard he’s trying to grow feel corse against your palms & his tash tickles a little, but you want to touch as much of his face as you can. He’s warm, he’s comfort, he’s a loving embrace at the end of any day. You know that & so does he.

Marcus has finally found someone he can trust in you. He never wanted love again after what happened but he knew he had to be in your life the second he’d met you. Someone so honest & true & loyal. Someone who just got him & didnt care about the past. Marcus to you is just Marcus, the man you met at the bus stop, who looked like his world was ending but was soldiering on. The man with all the confidence in the world reduced to a shell due to other peoples actions. You simply asking him if he was okay, started a chain reaction that has lead to your moment right here. He suffers as well & has his moments but he knows not to bottle it up any more.

“I think we need to get out the shower my love” he whispers his hand still trailing across yours as he reaches to turn the cascades of water off finally. You both shiver as he helps you to your feet. You pull Marcus close & you never want to let go. He may be drenched from head to toe looking rouged & sexy, but it’s his hand trailing from your scalp, down your head, neck & spine. Flat & calm while the other arm is wrapped round your waist. He is your comfort person & he is here as your safety. He’s the person you’d want to call at 3am just to say nothing to you, who’d happily walk around a garden centre explaining the difference between one sort of decking & another. He is just that person. He gives you exactly what you need for the right situation, & right now you just need comforting silence or words. He knows.

You both strip out of your sodden outfits & dry off. No tease, no oral, no sex, no love making, you’re just comfortable with each other as you both go into the bedroom & slide on your jammies. Yours are navy covered in the stars of the night sky, his are grey & blue & plain, but you always admire how it just scraps across his skin as he puts the tshirt on. It makes you wonder what his skin feels like despite it being something you touch so regularly. He takes your hand as you towel dry your hair, kissing each knuckle tell you the words “it’s okay not to be okay baby remember”. His hushed tones & lips smoothly forming love on your hands makes you tremble but in a good way. It’s not sexual is just soothing & secure. A million storys & secrets told to each other with a simple glimpse, as your eyes meet. He knows you’re almost there.

You both head to the kitchen to cook, after you send him outside to get the groceries from the car. He’s standing there peeling carrots, when he notices your hand start to shake stirring the sauce. Your bottom lip quivering starting to frown, eyes filling up as you gasp for air. He takes your hand from the spoon & brings you 5 steps back. His touch is an instant calm & you gasp at the air trying to control everything, which you know you can’t anymore. His embrace from behind is warm & firm & as he holds you against him he lowers his head & whispers “it’s okay my love, let it go” he knows you need to release.

You cry & moan & scream. This anguished noise of emotion goes on for a good couple of minutes. Marcus doesn’t let go, he want to feel all the negativity leave your body & after a while he feels your shoulders relax. “Breathe with me baby” in for 4 & out for 5 you both do in unison. You’re almost calm. & then you feel his hand trials down your tshirt which is also holding yours. He placed his on top of yours & motions the three small pats he does for anxiety. Small soft but they do what they needed to. The feel of touch & the idea that you are doing this together, so you can move on with your life yourself, it actually helps. He knows what he’s doing.

You eventually open your eyes, the world feeling clearer you mind less stressed, just a feeling of relief & calmness covering you. He’s still stroking across your hand, calming you like he would rock anyone or thing to help them through this. You go to speak & he shhhs you “I know baby, I know it’s okay, I’m here”. You bring his lips down to yours for a cherished kiss, one that perks you up. He can feel through your lips your more like you. The warmth is starting to radiate through you, making you the kind generous thoughtful person once again, that he met that day. Your own cloud is lifting making you see the sunshine.

When you break you look into his eyes, both of your sets are stinging a little from the intensity of all of this, but it was needed. You already feel so much more like you, just by this release you’ve just had. His smile smoulders & you see the glint in his eyes that shine brighter than the night sky. “Hey Marcus,how are you?” You smile & ask “better, I’m better my love” you stand there with him holding onto you smiling, for a few seconds more before you let go. You are back to being a bit more like you. The anxiety will hit again for you both, you both know it but all the while you’re honest with each other & can help with each others issues, that’s all that matters. Your relationship & love will concur everything. You know that & so does he. He knows…

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travelingkai · 8 months

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I listened to a podcast today that highlighted the importance of losing your mind. Letting thoughts float and not letting them stick around. I never thought of it this way. I never truly let myself think (the problem right there) that my thoughts were a big reason why a lot of my actions never paralleled to who I am truly meant to be. My thoughts bring me into an intense spiral to where I feel empty, worthless, and not enough. And I let the feeling settle over me until the thought fades and I move on with my day. But the icky feeling of worthlessness still lingers. Now, I am truly analyzing this. I tried to go through my day today ignoring my thoughts and just doing what I need to do. It’s been helpful and I feel a big shift in my anxiety. It’s only been a day but it’s been a good day. And this pocket of truth has already helped me. I wanted to share so hopefully maybe you can explore your relationship with your mind. And maybe lose it once in a while.

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psychemeanscure · 1 year

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HAPPY 35TH BIRTHDAY! KIM SOO HYUN

And so to celebrate his special day! Here is,

Happy Valentine

enjoy y'all~ ^^

#kim soo hyun #seo yea ji #moonmun #moon gang tae #ko mun yeong #itsokaynottobeokay #its okay not to be okay #psycho but its okay #a03 fanfic #a03 fic #hyunjicouple #hyunji

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moueva · 6 months

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Failtober 27 : Godfather Death Are you #okay ? （ ´･△･｀）

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kdramachingoo · 1 year

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"I wish I had an older brother like you"...Moon Sang-Tae was the best older brother I have come across in Kdramas... This drama was such an emotional rollercoaster...cuz you may not have the same story but it does resonate in different ways for different people...🌸🌸

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y-r-all-the-names-taken · 1 year

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do u get deja vu?

#itsokaynottobeokay #seo ye ji #kim soo hyun #ko mun yeong #moon gang tae #kdrama #korean #drama

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inikumi · 1 year

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Kita tidak bisa membahagiakan semua orang.

Kalau tidak bisa membantu, langsung tolak

Kalau lagi males berbicara, jangan bicara

Kalau tidak suka, cuekin

Terkadang kita memang perlu untuk terlihat tidak baik-baik saja.

#itsokaynottobeokay #self worth #youworthit #worthit

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truecampbell · 1 year

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Dissociation.

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soaddictedtoyourheart · 6 months

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#semicolon #semicolon project #itsokaynottobeokay #tumblr

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thenovamuse · 1 year

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authorforrosie · 2 years

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Dating Ko Mun-Yeong from It’s Okay Not To Be Okay would include:

•Ko Mun-Yeong were straight forward when she first met you. Because she thought that you are very attractive and absolutely smart. She couldn’t stop glancing at you when you entered the book store.

•You fell in love with her at first sight. You couldn’t stop blushing and being shy around her.

•Ko Mun-Yeong would make the first move and ask you out after you both went out for a date. She decided to take you out to a restaurant.

•You would glance at her with love when you are out in public together. You would hold her hand to make her feel comfortable when there are too many people at a public location.

•Ko Mun-Yeong and you started dating 1 year after meeting. Since she tried to push you away first. Until she realized that you are the love of her entire life.

•You found it smart, logical and cute how she formed her own judgments and stuck to them for life. Especially around people who tried flirting with you in front of her or who hurt you.

•Ko Mun-Yeong wasn’t and will never be ashamed of her own opinions. Even when she expressed it openly. You found it very attractive.

•You and Ko Mun-Yeong open up about your mental health issues right away. Since you both aren’t ashamed of them.

•Ko Mun-Yeong cares deeply about her love ones. Especially you. Sometimes on bad days when you can’t let her in. She will hold you and kissing you everywhere with care until you are ready to let her in. Mostly on bad mental health day’s. Ko Mun-Yeong would always protect you and when you both fight she often distance herself with a guilty feeling until she is ready to apologize with presents and words.

•You often wrap your arm around her waist in a protective way Ko Mun-Yeong still commands the room. Especially when she’s wearing a dress and people look at her.

•Ko-Mun Yeong can pick up herself on a bad day and fight the mental health problems. Mostly with her antisocial disorder, Fear of becoming like her evil mother and childhood trauma.

•You both would influence each other’s life positivity. You both heal each other’s trauma especially with the help of a therapist.

•Ko Mun-Yeong ask you to marry her in a unexpected moment. When you both go stargazing together on a empty field. Her hands would caressing your shoulder’s. Your head laid on her chest. Until the one unexpected moment when shooting stars could be seen. You gasp when she went on one knee. Opening a beautiful small jewelry box. There was a beautiful golden engagement ring with diamond on it. You said „Yes” without any hesitation.

•You both marry at an altar where she waited in a white dress until you came out in a white dress. Someone close to you walked you to the altar. You both cried while smiling. Her deep brown eyes never ended the eye contact with your y/e/c eyes. Not even when you stood in front of her.

•Ko Mun-Yeong never regretted marrying you. Not even when you both started a family. She absolutely adored her family.

•You both knew you would continue healing each other. It would never stop. Which you both are very deeply happy with because Ko Mun-Yeong is the absolutely love of your life.

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