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the-part-where-i-shut-up · 2 years

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so i lied to my orthodontist and said i’ve been wearing my retainers and he told me to bring them to our next appointment. well fun fact i tried them on and they Do Not Fit. so that’s gonna be an awkward conversation

#ITS SO STUPID BC MY LAST OFFICIAL APPT WAS LAST YEAR #WHERE HE SAID I COULD STOP WEARING THEM #IG HE FORGOT?? THAT I WAS DONE WITH ALL MY ORTHODONTIST WORK??#the only reason i went in today is bc my molar is growing in weird #and my dentist wanted to make sure it wouldn’t affect my permanent retainer #i told him abt my molar and he didn’t even check he just asked me abt my retainers #🧍‍♂️ bestie what #kinda dug myself into a hole but i was genuinely so confused #bc i thought i was supposed to stop wearing them #tbh i’m surprised my top one sort of fits #apparently my permanent retainer shifted which is why i’m going back to get a new one #it’s like a wire glued to my teeth #but yeah my bottom retainer does not fit #and it rlly hurts if i force it on which i’m pretty sure is bad for my teeth lmao #so imma just. pray my next appointment goes. uh. fine #idk the whole situation today was so frustrating #the doctor and the assistants were not listening to a Word i was saying #oops sorry for the rant in tags LMAO

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ryan-is-a-god · 7 months

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I'm pretty sure my entire life's problems can be chalked up to never getting enough sleep and having a negative attitude. Of course getting my ADHD treated helped immensely but that doesn't solve everything.

One day I was so tired, and I struggle to sleep normally; I literally left a conversation and said I'm going to sleep at like 9pm. Please note that I usually would never consider sleeping earlier than even 1 am before.

Anyhow, the next day omg I woke up at 6:30 am because I didn't want to oversleep and I was so rested I made delicious food and watched anime first thing in the morning, specifically a very positive anime, I think it might have been my next life as a villainous. I actually for the first time in a long time, worked out. Well, not working out per say, because I still have to trick my brain, no I played sports with my sibling, turned on good ol' Wii sports and played some DDR. After that I started sleeping and waking up at a decent time every day, and I actually felt fine even if I messed up a day here and there.

Only recently did I mess up my sleep for a few consecutive days, in which I felt sluggish and tired like I always have before. Recently I was discussing how much sleep a human requires, I assumed it was 5 hours for most people, and found out that it is actually 7-9 hours for adults, and even more time for younger people. Of course some people can get less but that's not true for most. Here I thought I was the insane one for struggling to wake up with less than 7 hours now, and when I was a teenager, good luck getting 5!

The point of this is just that I was so defeatist, I will never sleep normal, never wake up at a good time, never feel rested, but I did! I actually did! So now I'm going to ensure I get enough sleep tonight, I'm not sacrificing my sleep for anything. I even managed to stay pretty well on track during school, and these assignments are never ending.

I had a friend who did everything in highschool; I admired her so much, she worked out, cooked all her food, woke up early, studied, was literally the valedictorian, and still had time to hang out and play video games.

The most impressive part to me was that she managed all that while keeping a good sleep routine, eating healthy, and exercising.

She's half the inspiration for why I still keep up with this new schedule now, because, I know she did it, and I know it wasn't always easy for her, and really we all can do this, if anything this part should be the easy part.

Anyways this is partly to remind myself to get adequate sleep and work out today after I finally clean my room and work on my assignment. The other part is to remind everyone that taking care of yourself is always the base priority, everything that is so hard, like managing time, or work, or whatever, is secondary and usually gets easier the more you take care of yourself.

I mean just a year ago or so I thought I was gonna die on the couch barley able to move, and now I'm doing what I thought was literally impossible; taking care of myself, doing school work, AND actually having time to work on side projects!

I probably missed a lot of what I wanted to say, and while I would usually scold myself for writing this instead of working on my assignments, this took only a few minutes, contrary to the hour or two I use to feel was being wasted away.

Remember if something is hard to do, just make it fun. I don't like cooking, but I do like eating fancy looking food while watching anime. I don't like exercising, but I do like playing video games like Wii sports or actual sports. I don't like sleeping, but I do like lying down in a warm blanket with a favourite movie playing as I close my eyes for just a moment.

#just a little ramble #personal #healthy life changes #adhd #this probably needs editing #this did wonders for my anxiety #except for at the scary eye doctor #sorry I don't view having my corona potentially scratched as a unreasonable fear #it isnt a phobia it is a normal human reaction #now im ranting in the tags #oops #just still butter about it lmao #mental health #life goals #unintelligible goblin noises

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alpinefrsh · 12 days

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Omg?? You’ve made me obsessed?? Again??

Lmao you probably don’t want me bringing up your old writing but I just started reading the ‘God doesn’t know what a cat is’ series from like, two years ago, and an Exdei and Tommy dynamic is not something I knew I needed but I love it too much to not talk about it now >:D

Anywayyyy— kit-kat. Raccoon babies are called kits. The name still applies and I love it.

Have a good day/night! o/ <333

LMAO- Yeah, I was very interested in what kind of dynamic Tommy and Exdei would have- and we almost got it in canon too.

That was a fun series to write. I actually- there was one last fic for that series that I still kind of want to write. But it's also unbelievable petty and stems almost purely from this one time I read an sbi fic with dark wilbur- and I don't remember what was up with the others, I think they were all chill- but see the thing is, I don't like dark fics (or more specifically, I don't like fics where the characters are made dark, because it almost always feels wildly out of character and then I just get annoyed reading it. Not for me, but that's fine, I'm not here to tell people what they can and can't write. Back button exist for a reason.) So anyway, the only reason I'd given the fic a shot was because either in the tags or the description, it said that he'd get his shit together and stop being an asshole. BUT THEN HE JUST DIDN'T. He would kind of get better. For a little bit. But then it was like- oop! Still being manipulative and disregarding boundaries and other people's personal agency. Lovely.

Idk, maybe it really did come around at some point, but I got fed up and left before then if it did.

Sorry about the rant, all that is to say, the only other fic I'm at all considering returning to that series to write would be one where Exdei is being a possessive bastard, and Tommy gets (rightly) pissed off by it. The whole premise of the fic is basically just Exdei learning boundaries and respecting Tommy's space and right to do whatever the hell he wants.

It's funny, the first fic in the TIITTV series actually has a very minor ref to the Cat series. Specifically, Tommy has a little moment where he thinks about the possibility of Drista having mind-reading powers. It's, again, a super minor reference that barely counts as a reference. But Tommy had a similar moment with Exdei in the Cat series, and I had that in mind when I wrote it.

Aww, kit-kat is still fitting. That's awesome :D

Well, in any case, I'm glad you enjoyed the series <333

Ty, you too! o/

#inbox #(sorry again for the mini rant I feel a little too strongly about characterizations sometimes)

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thousandsofmoths · 2 months

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Hi hi! I hope I didn't click send on this ask too early by accident the first time so I'm writing it again.

I saw your blog from the "request doodles" post. And then I saw you like clowns and I do too.

What do you think of Killer clown!Nikolai? I mean- Have you been on the clown side of tumblr? They have clown "breeds" and such. I don't have all the concepts grasped either but "killer clowns" are basically what the name suggests but they can also be protective of the people they deem as precious and all.

Oh God this would sound so weird to someone who doesn't know what's going on. XD

But I think Nikolai deserves to be a clown. :o)

Anyways have a nice day! (And reading those tags you should really sleep-)

omg- so i think i've seen that side of tumblr a long time ago (before i had an account, i saw it on Pinterest probably??) i haven't been on clown tumblr myself but i kinda understand where you're coming from- my understanding of it is like this adopt thing? i haven't seen it in so long though so i can't comment on it much.

sorry i might go off on a rant because it's one of my special interests. and i happen to really like nikolai so oops. i may have not understood the ask 💀

anyways, yeah i think that does fit nikolai! i don't really know what my "opinion" would be on it because im kinda indifferent to the whole killer clown thing in general. he's sort of an exception to me because i find his character and personality interesting. i like when you can decipher meaning behind the personality and its not just "im insane for no reason!1!1" and i think he's just so silly too.

in general, my interest in that stuff sides with not scary clowns because i genuinely loved circus related stuff as a kid and i think people shouldn't be afraid of clowns :( but at the same time i understand the appeal and the history behind why they've become "scary"! so i can enjoy that in fiction as well. there was a time a few years ago when i hated any clowns being depicted that way but my opinion has changed lmao. (ex. i'm an ICP fan for aesthetic i guess. i love the joker. i will forever hate pennywise.)

sorry i made this so unrelated to nikolai & i have no idea if that's the kinda thing you were asking or not tbh 😭🤍

(unrelated side note: i got so excited about clowns that i accidentally kicked the table that my plants were on and broke the pot of my cactus. i had to save it mid-answering this. my poor cactus. i love having adhd energy sometimes /s)

#answered #asks open #asks #nikolai kinnie bsd #bsd nikolai #bsd #clownblr #nikolai gogol #clown #special interest #rambles #.txt

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e77y · 18 days

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Long but relatively unserious vent/rant below the cut (sorry I added this in bc I realized how long this post is oops)

Being at the center of some kind of internet witchhunt (which ik is kind of buzzwordy but) is literally my biggest fear ohhh my god. Even a small scale one… I think I would Die. Maybe it’s because I had a similar thing happen with my friend group in high school where one of them convinced the others I was like evil and spread all these rumors about me… 😭 He was splitting on me but still. That’s an explanation, not an excuse. And it basically confirmed all of my intrusive thoughts about myself, and my personality completely self-destructed and changed, and I haven’t interacted with any of those people the same way since. I isolated from them for MONTHS and just loathed myself. Bleh

The reason it’s on my mind is bc I’ve seen this happen to friends and mutuals and even just people I’ve followed in small fandoms, where the whole fandom hates them bc of this little drama and like. I KNOW that fandom drama is not the end of the world, but truly I think that would destroy me for months. And I would never be able to set foot in those spaces again :’) Getting a handful of rude comments about a fucking transfem hc I had at like 14 made me stop writing fanfic for YEARS 😭😭😭 sigh. Just bc they said it was ‘out of character for him to want to be a girl’ 🙄 (<- character who canonically felt confident when dressed as a woman btw. initially for a disguise but then she grew to love it. BUT I DIGRESS KNSHFJW)

All this to say I think that’s why I tiptoe around everything I say online… I am SO scared of ruffling feathers, but I know that fandoms are places for like! Having fun! And it’s not a big deal! And it doesn’t affect my real life! But like idk.. I just hate the idea of being hated by anyone. I’m sure that I ANNOY some people, and that’s whatever; I talk a lot and make overly personal posts sometimes (like this lol) but I don’t wanna be HATED yk? And idek if it’s better to be hated and ostracized publicly or resented in secret by people who still interact with you… :( Agh. If you ever have an issue with me, please DM me instead of letting it build up into something worse!

ANYWAY LIKE.. with fandom stuff. Idk. I want to have fun! I want to write and post things on Tumblr and AO3 etc but I am just very scared of peoples’ opinions, especially now that I have a decently popular/well-liked longfic in DnDads. For some reason I have convinced myself that writing bad or self-indulgent NSFW will make everyone hate me lmao. Like girl the POINT of fanfic is to be self-indulgent……….. sigh I need to get out more

^ light-hearted… but also kinda true haha. I stay at home a lot just bc I don’t have many reasons to go out atm and only a handful of close friends to go out with. Hopefully that will change when I move next semester lol. And whenever I get interests, they’re VERY strong and long-lasting, and fanfic writing is one of my main hobbies, so I get REALLY into online communities. And rn that is kind of my little niche fandom Tumblr bubble… which is embarrassing and probably unhealthy but whatever. I just inevitably get a lot of anxiety about things that are important/fun to me (bc OCD), especially bc I’ve never really had mutuals/‘friends’ in a fandom before this, excluding my irls

Anyway this got longer and more vent-y than I intended so I will tag accordingly, and sorry to whoever is reading this lol; I just wanted to get my thoughts written down in a public forum bc idk… Makes me feel less insane when ik other people can see it, too. Helps me not take it too seriously and spiral lol.

#vent #cw vent #rant #delete later #<- like tomorrow morning I’m shre #usually I delete stuff like this immediately but I’ll try to keep it up #was talking to my mom earlier about OCD and intrusive thoughts and whatnot….#she definitely has it too. like undoubtedly #her intrusive thoughts and compulsions sounded exactly like mine #which sucks for me bc my dad ALSO definitely has OCD (in a more outwardly recognizable way) so! wahoo! double whammy #just feeling kinda defeated about mental health stuff #I feel like it’s never gonna get better #I need to go to therapy or a psychiatrist or SOMETHING #it’s been like 4 years now since I was originally supposed to go lol #and I keep putting it off out of fear (I think)#my friends (irls) have all been getting diagnoses and prescriptions lately #which is exciting for them but :( idk. I feel like there’s no way to medicate whatever I’ve got going on except SSRIs????#and I don’t really want that #mostly though I’m just scared of going back to therapy or to a psychiatrist bc I think they’ll think I’m lying or crazy or whatever #which sounds stupid when I write it out but idk #I should probably keep a journal but when I’m only writing for my own eyes I just kinda wallow in it and write concerning poetry lol #I like journaling in a way other people can see (even if y’all DON’T like seeing it lmaoooo) bc it makes it feel more real?#and out of my head.. concrete etc.#wackyposting #<- seriously need to change that tag still lol

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timegears-moved · 11 months

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totk rant anon here again! i sent an ask yesterday but it might not have gone through? or you just might not have gotten around to it yet. in case you didn't get it at all, the most important info i wanted to convey is that if you do the windblight fight in air and lightning with any character other than link you get a very interesting line from revali at the end which i feel provides important context for the following cutscene! and if you want i can let you know exactly what he says so you don't have to play through that mission again.

now, on a slightly different note, i'm a bit late in saying this, but i believe you can actually progress relentless as a waterfall even if you have mipha on your team? you just have to take her over to the relevant captain and use her healing powers yourself (either by using her special move or, if you don't have that charged, using her water spout move.) alternately you miiight be able to order her to go there while switched to a different character and that might work too?

to be entirely honest it's been a while since i played through that particular mission so i might be wrong, but i think that generally when missions have requirements for specific characters to do certain things (i.e. move to a specific location) if you have that character on your team you have to do all the work yourself to progress the mission, whereas if they're an npc they'll move on their own. that being said, mipha being a healer makes it a bit more complicated than most instances of this, since she's also required to use her healing powers here, while with most characters all you need to do is move them to the right location.

OOPS sorry anon i did get your other ask but i didn't see it until just now!! i'll answer them both here!

OKAY SO LMAO i just finished redoing air and lightning with your advice (i had to go back and get the korok seeds anyway) and ummm? what the fuck GSJSBSKWJKSH???

jesus christ revali. i have to admit i have seen this quote in another post in his tag before but a lot of the replies were saying that this was in regards to teba??? so i didn't think much of it at the time. but like. learning now that he ONLY says this when you don't play as link makes it obvious that this isn't about teba at all??? insane.

and you're right about it giving additional context to the scene right after. like revali's very abrasive backhanded thanks to link seems to me like it's stemming from embarrassment at being saved by someone he wants to impress (not that he'll ever admit that). but link not being there allows revali an opportunity to say that he doesn't want to seem weak or vulnerable to him.

i'm gonna be honest totk is looking to be my least favourite of the trilogy rn so i'm not too bummed out by that sjbsjejdj. excited to get the aoc dlc though my autism desperately needs it

also in regards to relentless as a waterfall my issue was that my objective never changed from capturing the three outposts even after all of them were captured? i wouldn't have even known that mipha had to heal that captain if i hadn't seen a video of it. i may test what you said out though! not rn since i've had enough of that mission after doing it three times jshsjsosksk but of that is the case i wish the game was more clear on that because it was very confusing.

#asks #anonymous #may buy the dlc after i post this. was holding off to make sure i actually wanted it but my opinions on aoc have improved greatly so :)

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mxsinizter · 8 months

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Tagged in an ask game by @cirrus-ghoulette a month ago lmao, sorry for responding to this so late! Fun thing to do to get out of my head tonight, so thank you very much <3

Am very sleepy tho so who knows if this makes sense, oops

Are you named after anyone?

Uuhh, complicated answer for my birth name lmao? Either no/I genuinely don't know orrr yes, the feminine version of a fictional character as per my brother's insistence lol. <- I swear I remember him and a parent saying yes that was true, but my sisters are very firm that no, that's not what happened so ig I'll never find out 💀

Name I go by at school, or certain settings, is just my initials. So no.

And no for the name Zephyr, a name I picked for myself at least 2 years ago if not 3 by now. (Name I very much prefer but only go by online!)

When was the last time you cried?

Last morning from stress 😅

Do you have kids?

Definitely no, unless my plushies count, then yes, many

Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Yeah, I guess. Sometimes I don't even realize it myself 😅. And it's either not very obvious or most of my friends aren't well at catching it haha.

What's the first thing you notice about people?

I've never thought about this, huh, but I guess how they hold themselves and the "vibe" they give off? Used to be very socially anxious and definitely still am at a lower degree, so I catch that when I know I may have to potentially interact with someone or be around them.

What's your eye color?

Dark brown

Scary movies or happy endings?

Happy endings

Any special talents?

Pfft, no. Unless you count repeatedly doing 4 paged research papers only until hours before they're due.

Where were you born?

Born and raised in Southern California

Hobbies?

Umm, atm? Putting my OCs in fun, brief situations. It's helped a lot in current lack of motivation in, well, anything. Helps keep me creating w/o any sort of pressure to reach a goal. To the friend who lets me rant about them at any time, tysm <3

Pets?

... complicated. Gonna say no, lol.

What sports do you play/have you played?

Never in any teams, but I could go for a chill game of volleyball or badminton, or do some bowling any time.

How tall are you?

I am 5'7" :D

Favorite subject in school?

Hmm, theatre I guess? Didn't have any big theatre thing at school or anything like that but for 3ish years in hs we had a decent teacher that knew his stuff and he made me excited to go to class and helped me crawl out of my comfort zone haha. I've enjoyed the few threatre classes I've taken in college for extra credits as well.

Dream job?

Hm. I do not have one anymore... used to want to do animal rehabilitation though. Just let me file shit for a living at this point please 🥲

Not tagging anyone, just wanted to do something for fun and respond :,)

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moeblob · 3 years

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My manakete OC I draw from time to time... Nadja.

#fe oc #nadja #feels like a bundle of anxiety topped off with no self worth #draws my oc that is a bundle of anxiety topped off with no self worth #honestly it was this or doing vent art with another character and this required less energy lmao #ill be okay guys im just Really Feeling That Anxiety today #like a guy at work who normally tries to tell me OH THE DAY WILL GET BETTER :D when I say I'm doing okay?#asked me how I was so I brightly said I AM DOING TERRIBLY THANK YOU FOR ASKING!#because I was def on the verge of crying at that point and ive worked with this guy for years now and he was like oops big red flag #today is not the day to be pushy about anything good #and he refrained thankfully #and everyone else that saw me crying was like you okay? and id shake my head #and they would pause like if i needed them i could say so #but after i said nothing they just kept walking #and legit ??? that helps me SO MUCH because i do not want to be crowded while having an anxiety attack #the acknowledgment im not okay and they notice is good enough #and i did end up taking my extra JUST IN CASE MEDS and made it through the work day so yay me #and i know most of them probably feel really awkward NOT doing anything or being comforting but its just.... time to leave me alone #anyway sorry for ranting in the tags about my work day instead of the oc #her name is nadja and ive doodled her a few times before #she was uhhhhhh originally for a group of fe ocs with other people #and the group died out and i still love her #havent done much with her on her own i just like drawing her

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homoeroticvillain · 2 years

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midori is gay and trans and also homophobic and transphobic

#sorry for midori posting #i feel like i apologize everytime i make an og post #oops #anyways he believes he is the only valid queer person #and he will hate crime every other one he sees #i really wish i could draw me and midori art #maybe ill attempt it #but more likely ill just post more #and maybe edit smth lmao #midori my beloathed #midori hateposting #new tag lmao for when i rant about him #klepto talks to himself #klepto selfships

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my-apollo-gies · 3 years

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Now I actually have a mini following, ima just repost this bc someone might actually see it this time

Nico at the end of Percy Jackson and The Titan's Curse

I drew this a few months ago, and, honestly, the clothes were the hardest part, mainly just because he definitely wouldn't be wearing that before running away, but I wanted to draw him in the iconic outfit anyway.

Also, I'm getting a digital pen for Christmas, so if all goes according to plan, I might actually be able to post some art that doesn't have the world's shittiest camera quality over a pencil drawing. If people actually like this, I might go retrieve my redraw of the viva la pluto meme from underneath my bed, that i also did a few months ago.

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thebigqueer · 3 years

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Hephaestus- What is your favourite form of art? River Styx- What do you think happens when we die? , and Titans- If you could go anywhere in time, when would you want to go?

I love you for sending in what each of them represents thank you

Hephaestus (what is your favorite form of art?): ooh good question... well honestly if you mean like art art, I’m not that much into it. But if you mean art like music, writing, all those other stuff... I would say music and writing, because I think they both kinda coexist and help each other (and because those are the only two I have experience in FJFNFNFN)

River Styx (what do you think happens when you die?): I actually answered this in another ask and it was really long so you can check that one out! (It was glows question)

Titans (if you could go anywhere on time, when would you want to go?): oohhh good one... honestly I think I’d either like to go to the Renaissance era, maybe Roman Empire era?, and honestly to just two years ago because I moved from my old hometown and I just... really miss my friends and I wanna go back to my home :(

#oops didn’t mean to rant LMAO #sorry bout that #moose tag #asks #ask game

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mossychaos · 4 years

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im not used to showing my hyperfixiations to the people i care about. this is mostly becuase i never really got positive feedback when i did talk about it when i was younger. i would talk about something im excited about only to be told ‘your too old for that’ or ‘thats not something i care about.’ and i guess this isnt something really bad to be told, but ADHD is mean and gave me rsd as a rtreat so :p idk what to tell you. it just kinda made me scared to talk about things that make me happy. ive been better about that recently with friends but its slow progress which is fine. but also ive recently joined a server (maybe a few months ago idk time weird) and they’ve just been so nice and accepting. its still weird to me that i could just saw something and theyll respond. bonus becuase its a positive response. im really greatful for meeting those people and i hope they know i care them ❤

#moss rants #kinda #its kinda a rant but also not becuase a rant implies im angry #so this could also just be moss talks #incase it isnt clear this is mostly negative about the adults ive meet earlier in my life #every adult ive met this year is very chill and i care them #im sorry this ended up being so long #idk how to do the read more thing #also if youre on the discord im talking about on this post hi i care you very much #im very thankful for meeting those people #they're so fucking nice its amazing #real adhd moments is when it took me an entire day to make this post #im also thankful for all my irl friends who had to meet me and still decided they liked me #im very happy about meeting all of you and you make me happy everyday #oop this got really sappy lmao #sorry for my horrible grammer im not in the mood to write 'properly'#might delet later #lets see if i remeber #GOD my tags get long huh

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cat-sapphics · 3 years

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Hey!

I follow the" aroace lesbian" tag and your recent posts have come up in my feed so I just wanted to say that being arospec, acespec (demiromatic graysexual, both labels in the aromantic and asexual spectrums) & lesbian is completely OKAY and you should not let anyone tell you the contrary. Especially uneducated people so 😚🤍

Many aroaces use the term aroace to encompass being in both aromantic and asexual spectrums; this means you experience little to no romantic/sexual attraction and that's more than valid. You can be both arospec and aspec! 🔥 Or arospec and asexual. Aromantic and acespec 🥺🤝

The way YOU experience romantic and sexual attraction is just different to the average allo person, & that doesn't make it any less valid. Attraction is an abstract concept and we shouldn't be putting ourselves into boxes but letting feelings be that, feelings.

Your experiences are necessary and important to our diverse & big aro/ace communities as an aroace lesbian! An aspec person is that who experiences little to no romantic attraction. That's it. THAT'S OKAY 🥰

And being an aspec lesbian is more than valid too, it's not a contradictory term because the little and fluctuating romantic & sexual attraction you DO experience, is ONLY towards women/nb so; I don't see why lesbian isn't a term you can't use. A lesbian is a women/nb female aligned person who experiences romantic, sexual and/or emotional attraction towards women/nb female aligned people. Check, check & check ✅

All in all, ace lesbians, aro lesbians and aroace lesbians are ALL part of the lesbian community & our unique experiences with romance and sex are necessary and valid for it 💓

Sorry if this got long, hope I made my point clear. Aroace lesbians have always been lesbians so don't let any exclusionists steal your peace 🧡🤍💖

thank you!! thank ya thank ya thank ya!! i really appreciate it <3

i will say, i think some of the anons i got did make some valid points (obviously not everywhere you look but they at least gave me something to think about in general) but it really took me by surprise how condescending and disapproving they all were. super uneducated too, i said i experience attraction differently or at least less frequently than average allo people and like ?? that doesn't mean i'm secretly a self-hating lesbophobe ?? you don't get to determine that for me if i'm genuinely happy even though i participate in lesbian discourse and am passionate about keeping the definition specific and closed ?? lol i didn't redefine lesbian or take away its initial meaning so it really had me peeved

i think most of their comments reflect on how they don't believe in aromanticism and asexuality being a spectrum, which i guess i invited by my own doing since i have some conservative and exclusionary views on the lgbt community and that affects my following/audience, but my response to that is that i use these labels because they bring me personal comfort. when i say i'm demiromantic i don't mean that alloromantics have zero standards when it comes to a potential partner or are completely mesmerized by the idea of hook-ups, just that the connection they need to start crushing comes within a decent time period with a personal connection, but not a super strong and deep and loving one that makes it exceptionally hard to fall in love despite however much we may desire to. the label doesn't exist to imply something bad about """normal""" people, it exists to name an experience many people have but to an intense degree. so, yes, it's a pointless social construct, it probably means nothing to you and that's fine, but it still means something to me. i'm not crying oppression or marginalization, and i'm not claiming that i'm lgbt on the basis of being demiromantic/greyasexual, but through being a nonbinary lesbian. that's the difference between mspec lesbians and aspec lesbians, is one is actively harmful to multiple groups and actually Does spawn from a place of internalized lesbophobia and/or biphobia, and the other is just "mmk this is just for me and affects nothing at all, it doesn't drag you into anything at all, i still qualify for lesbian the way you (should!) see it as technically even if you do believe it's redundant, so just... leave me alone" cause it reflects more on them than me when they make it their business by unfairly assuming things about me

same applies to me being greyasexual. still trying to figure out if it means that i experience sexual/physical attraction less frequently, less intensely, or both, but does that matter?? genuinely?? this is also redundant but i didn’t wanna leave it out of the paragraph about me being demiro fk;ljslkgbdvhbs. the aro disapproval part isn’t acceptable at all but i can at least see it since romance is so normalized and is a core part of, y’know, lgb relationships; the greyace disapproval however....... i don’t wanna label it as acephobia because i don’t really believe in aphobia being a thing, but it still kinda rubs me wrong to claim that sexual/physical attraction is a requirement ykyk... NOTHING WRONG WITH PEOPLE WHO HAVE SEX OF COURSE (i myself kinda wanna try someday if that works out) i just think frowning upon someone who doesn’t UNLESS they try to claim they’re lgbt on that basis is.................. not really cool. i really hope people who read this understand what i’m trying to say and don’t label me as an ace inclus who thinks aphobia and oppression are real, i was just trying to make a point about my personal experiences oops lmao

and then it became "aroace means NO ATTRACTION AT ALL" okay... so i'm angled aroace, that's a sub-term since aroace is literally an umbrella term, actually (unlike lesbian, shit's complicated ykyk). "YOU'RE NOT AROACE THEN"....... they don't even like the idea of oriented aroace now either, so like, what then, are aroace people just never allowed to feel love or positive feelings from other people ever? jesus christ. i'm not even getting into this, i consider aro/ace identities to be secondary to describe one's attraction so this debate should not be as important as, say, discourse centering the L, G, B, or T. it's just dumb all around tbh

hope i addressed all the arguments against it, but i can't really care at this point if i missed something :/ i'll probably get a mean anon about it so don't worry!! /s jslgjgjkshkj;lhfp

speaking of, i've had to delete so many anons and even turn off the option to ask anonymously because of this discourse. it's so pointless in my opinion, so i've just stopped giving them my time unless i think it's worth answering - but even then, i try to keep it fairly short. i genuinely was not expecting my take on (cishet) ace discourse to turn into myself failing to be seen as a "real lesbian" despite literally meeting its definitive qualifications and then it just kept building up ?? stan behavior tbh, especially since plenty of them obviously come from the same users

i apologize for the rant. i just never really felt like i'd be listened to if i tried to explain my identity, so i gave up and just tried to ignore my way out of it. so i really genuinely appreciate your ask, especially since i can identify you. it really feels like i actually have someone on my side now, so even if you ever disagree i'd know you wouldn't harass me about it. it really means a lot, i really needed this from you and i don't wanna dump more shit but i feel that you deserve to know. so thank you again <3

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marswr1tes · 3 years

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what do you mean, "you love me"?

requested? yes / no

request: I wanna make a request for Leo Valdez pls anything angsty and lovey// Hi, about the Valdez imagine—I didn’t have anything specifically in mind just something angsty and romantic and stuff! I can’t find a lot of stuff on Leo and he’s my favorite // Actually an enemies to lovers Leo imagine would be rly cool now that I think about it

pairing: leo valdez x gn!reader

author's notes: hey ,, hey ,, how y’all doing....i’m so sorry i took a very long leave. after i got out of the hospital from being sick, my grandmother almost died from brain fluid leaking, and then i fell into a depressive episode, and a whole lot of shit happened so i couldn’t write. it’s honestly kinda pathetic of me though lmao, i should’ve gotten this out way earlier than i did. anywho, this is set around a week after july 4, you can decide the year x. also you'll have to forgive me if i got some things wrong, i haven't read the books in a while oops(i found the header here) ((ALSO THIS IS SO SHITTY AND SO RUSHED IM SO SORRY))

warnings: shouting/yelling, non-consensual kiss(but it's okay, because the person being kissed was okay with it)

tags: @stylishharry

word count: idk man i didn’t count lmao

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peaceful dreams. you finally had peaceful dreams. well, sorta. you were having a dream about the second titan war -which wasn’t peaceful, believe me- but in the grand scheme of all demigod dreams, this was on the more relaxed side. you were currently fighting an empousa with your friend, rose , but just as you were about to stab it, the scenery had changed, and your older brother jake loomed over you.

"y/n." he shook your body. "y/n, wake up." you shielded your face with your arms and rolled over.

“what is it now?" you asked him.

"it's chiron. he wants you at the big house, says you're in big trouble. i think it has to do with the prank you pulled last week." you groaned. last week, while everyone had gone to the cookout and firework show, you had "rickified" every cabin, except for yours. every single cabin,building, and any place you could stick pictures, had been completely covered in pictures of rick astley. and while it wasn't your best prank, you had a very fun time watching everyone think they had found the last of the pictures, just to be met with more. needless to say, chiron was upset. wanting to get in further trouble, you hauled yourself out of bed and to your suitcase. you then grabbed an outfit and headed towards the bathroom to change.

~

inside the big house, you were met with two unfriendly faces. one belonged to your favorite centaur, chiron, and the other belonged to your least favorite person to exist, leo valdez. there actually wasn’t a good reason you disliked the guy. for gods’ sake, you barely knew him! at first you thought it was his face, but after thinking about it-though you would never verbally admit it-he was attractive. anyway, there you were, in front of chiron and leo.

“so,” chiron began. “both of you are here for chores. first you’ll be cleaning the stables, then you’ll be cleaning the armor and weapons, then you’ll be deep cleaning all the cabins while the other campers are out, and then you’ll be coming back here to clean the big house. i’ll be giving you the list in case you forget, and come back here if you have any questions throughout the day. understood?” you nodded. leo slightly adjusted his tool belt before opening his mouth to ask a question.

“we’re doing this all together?” chiron nodded.

“of course. i couldn’t imagine why you wouldn’t be.” he answered. then you piped up.

“could we split the list in half and work separately but still get everything done?”

“while that could work and i suppose i’d be pleased with the outcome, part of the punishment is working together. i’m not blind, you two. i know you dislike each other. and anyways, wouldn’t it take longer to do on your own?” leo and you stayed silent.

“well then, off you go, children. and leo, dear, before you go, your belt please.” chiron said.

“my what?” leo looked back at the centaur.

“your tool belt? hand it over.”

~

and so you went, to the stables and to the arena, to the cabins and back to the big house, cleaning and organizing everything without a word shared between you two. or rather, leo tried to make small talk, but you ignored him and moved away. finishing up, you put the mop back in the closet, before you dusted your shirt off and headed off to your cabin to freshen up for dinner. as you grabbed your comb off your nightstand, there was a knock at your door. assuming it was rose coming to walk you for dinner, you ran over with a smile on your face. opening the door, that smile immediately dropped.

“go away.” you said. and then you slammed the door on him. leo looked hurt, but he got over it, and he knocked again.

“just go away, leo, no one asked you to talk to me.”

“i’m not leaving.”

“please just go.”

“no, this isn’t up for debate. i’m staying.”

“what the fuck is your issue? what the fuck do you think you’re playing at?”

“i- what?”

“is this some sort of sick game to you? is this funny to you, leo?” you asked angrily.

“i don’t know what the hell you’re talking about, y/n?”

“the fact that you never seem to think of what’s going on through my head!”

“seriously, what on the gods green earth are you saying?”

“i love you, okay? i love you, i love you, i love you! and i’ve loved you since you camp to camp! i love the way you fix your hair, i love your smile, i love the way you jump around when you get excited, i love the way your eyes light up when you talk about something you’re passionate about, i love the way you play with those trinkets of yours, i love the way when i rant about something you actually listen, even though i’m not talking to anyone but myself and even though we’re supposed to be enemies because no one has ever cared about me that much before. i love you and you don’t even notice. and that drives me up the wall.”

“what do you mean ‘you love me’? i see the way you look at grayson. i hear you giggle when they say something flirty to you. i see how flustered you get when they smirk at you. i notice these things, y/n, i notice. and i notice that i’m never on the receiving end of these actions. oh my gods, i wish you looked at me like that. like i’m the only one that’s for you. like the world could be ending but at least we’re together.”

“did you ever stop to think that i was doing it for you to be jealous? because funnily enough, i did. i thought i could distract my own jealousy and anger and pain by becoming obsessed with grayson. i don’t know exactly what i expected from it, but i know that i didn’t expect to imagine that me and grayson’s interactions were ours.”

“...did you really?”

“of course i did. and i meant every word of loving you too. i truly love you, leo. and it’s kinda weird i’m saying this because i know you’re not supposed to drop the bomb this early on-“

he interrupted you with a kiss. his lips were chapped and tasted a little like chocolate.

“i love you too, y/n. and i’m sorry about all the things i caused.”

“don’t worry about all that, because at least we’re together, eh?” he grinned that perfect smile of his.

“at least we’re together.” he said, then placing his lips back onto yours.

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fuckyeahsuperheropowercouples · 4 years

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The most irritating thing about Tumblr HP

You know what I’m tired of?? I really TRIED to stay quiet but it’s gotten on my nerves and I’m at my breaking point. You know that general rule that if you do not like a pairing/art involving them being romantic/intimate, don’t reblog/like the post and simply block and walk your dumbass out the door. A shame Harry Potter fandom can’t learn to fuck off! Most prominent example: idiot shippers who comment stupid shit to justify how they view harmony on a Harry/Hermione ship art POST! Most common example I found was on one of @arishatistic ‘s posts, where about a few dozen dumbfucks composed of romiones/drarries/hinnies/dramiones that came over there in the comments and reblogged a harry/Hermione art piece by a HARMONY SHIPPER(referring to dear sweet arishatistic, ofc) and start rambling their nonsense about ‘my brotp!’ or ‘need more platonic Harry/Hermione🥺’ like, bitch are you high!??? That account belongs to a Harmione shipper and majority of the stuff is harryxhermione related! So A)fuck you, B)don’t ship them, don’t follow or actually bother t CHECK to make sure they are not a Harmione shipper(basic common sense that even a 8 year old can figure out but who am I kidding?? You’re a hp fanatic on tumblr, not a big surprise) C) as if your pairings aren’t the most problematic shit to exist(oops! I went there, don’t regret😎) and finally D) even if you reblog and praise the art, it’s still DISRESPECTFUL of you to put in your shitty tags stuff like: #brotp #i don’t ship them #friendshipsgoals . Like, motherfucker, are you this stupid???? This is a fandom where fanart does NOT.FOLLOW.YOUR.DUMBASS.CANON!! If you are so passionate about being an annoying bitch and spreading your shitty ass opinion as a global fact, here’s an advice: DON’T REBLOG FROM THE SHIP/SHIPPER YOU CLEARLY DISPISE! Do THEY go around trashing your garbage ships!??? I don’t fucking think so. And cry me a fucking river. Blacklist the tags of ships you hate and even better: just go all out(like I do most of time on this hellhole site) and track/block every ship/shipper blog you clearly despise. And one more thing you imbeciles: put an ANTI on the ships you hate tags so it’s blacklisted on us shippers who ship them and doesn’t show up on our normal ship name tag!! I’m sorry for the long rant. It is shocking isn’t, how stubborn and foolish these people are? They have nothing more productive to do than this crap. You might wonder why I give a shit(someone who’s clearly into other fandom:marvel/dc)? Simple. Because, yes, I have a soft spot for Harmione(yeah, unpopular opinion, no shit), and I’m tired of seeing this common practice occurring when I search for something I ENJOY. It’s the the same for my other ships from other fandoms. But I have reached my limits. If I have to be deemed a enemy for simplying stating this stupidity and for not supporting popular ships, so be it. I rather have less followers and post/like/reblog things that I enjoy than have more followers but be obliged to post things for others enjoyment and not my own. That’s all I will say for now (PS: there will likely be same rants like this again if this continues because let’s be honest, potterheads never learn, lmao. It’s why I distanced myself a long time ago. ALSO, any Romione/Drarry/Dramione and Hinny shipper who reads this, do not reblog my shit. Or try to talk with me about being too harsh. Just look at yourself in the mirror and you will see who the real toxic asshole is. And if there are any sane ones out there, respectively ignore this. It’s not meant for you. Also, PAY FUCKING ATTENTION TO MY TAGS). You wanna block me? Pfff, lol. I don’t give damn. Get out! Because I have done the same to those who done this practice. If my opinion butthurts your sensitive ass, you are welcome to leave. Don’t reblog my crap!

#anti romione #anti drarry #anti hinny #anti dramione #rude fans #toxic fandom #harry potter ships #Harry Potter #Hermione Granger #rant #bloody hell

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lanshappycorner · 4 years

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This is kinda hilarious in its own right but I remember seeing a post once where someone made an analogy about seeing fandom drama they're not aware of and stuff is like them playing in a small sandbox with a couple of their friends and when they look up, students are throwing shit at each other and the building is on fire and ever since then I have not stopped thinking abt this analogy

It is such a Twst-esque experience for me, because every now and then, I'd go to someone's blog to check their tags on their reblog for my post or sumn, and I'd be a little bored and scroll thru their blog in a totally non creepy way and then occasionally I'd see posts like

Why Twst is the worst fandom:

We are all stepping on smaller creators:

Callout post for XXXX:

This anon hate and bullying in this fandom has gone on for too long:

And I'd just be like *pikachu meme face* idk where the fuck you guys have been but this fandom has genuinely been one of the most supportive fandoms I've been in, although I mainly lurk on twitter I still post daily here, and theres been a few bad apples but none that I have not immediately blocked so clearly there is sumn up with our experiences here

I think the key is to simply curate your own experience...like...idk abt you but the moment I find an environment toxic or tiring in any way I get the fuck out, I'm sorry to all my friends in that fandom or space or whatever but if you're my friend in name and yet I still feel uncomfortable when ur there ur probably part of the problem goodbye haha!!

You have to set limits for urself, like if someone has hurt me or made me uncomfortable once, I don't bother talking much to them again if I can help it. People on the internet are all doing their own thing, and sometimes them just being themselves is not something you will vibe with and that is ok. That is not their fault or your fault, but you can choose to not engage with them.

PSA you dont have to be mean for someone to block you or dislike you, half my block list are literally ppl who whose opinions or habits I dont agree with. Artist tags Riddle on an Azul post? Block. Writer puts too much text and doesnt use Read More? Block. Someone makes a slightly creepy comment and I know that we will never cross paths if I dont say anything to them first? Block anyways. Even after I've moved onto another fandom and forgotten why I've blocked them, I keep them blocked.

There's many things to be stressed abt and fandom drama is just not one of them. I feel like everyone has the need to reply to something that bothers them and its tempting to get your shit out there but also it's kinda ur fault when things go south tbh, because they never asked for ur opinion (even IF their post is something you consider morally wrong. If they're a disgusting person to you, all the more reason you should block. By engaging them and making callout posts for them to help others, what kinda savior complex do you even have...). Whenever I see posts I get angry about, I never respond to it. I seethe on my private accs or rant on it in a separate post, and I DON'T tag it so it never reaches the fandom. It is what it is, a passing moment of anger about a 2D character.

At first I started this as a tiny musing but then it got long...oops. Anyways my point isnt to attack any of you guys for doing any of the above, I'm just saying that you seem like you're going through a tough time, it's not mentally good for you, and you should curate your own experience instead of delve yourself deeper into the drama. You're never responsible for someone else's happiness (OR their "cancellation" lmao) so please do yourself a favor and just stay away from it. I promise the twst fandom can be a lovely experience if you just Did Not Bother

#i feel like a large part of why twst fandom here is so bad is bc you have a lot of ocs and you want content for them and sometimes u dont-#-want to make it so you go to ppl who are willing to and that just leads to a bigger problem bc the ppl who are willing to are involved w-#-drama shit #its not just the oc group but thats just my observation #idk man i dont get as much interaction with my ocs but thats a small price to pay when im not having to worry abt strangers on the internet #-cancelling me #if i wanted oc content id just make that shit myself or talk with my friends in our small circle abt ocs #some of u have never practiced curating ur own experience or minding ur own business and it shows #oh also idk why you guys stress follower count so much...i mean i get that you want to celebrate it and i can respect that but #labelling accs with big accs and small accs on TUMBLR is so stupid #mf i can make a raffle for 15k followers rn and youd never know if i was bullshitting u

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