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upon-a-starry-night · 4 months

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Number Neighbors Pt. 13

Natasha Romanoff x Fem! Reader

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Word Count: 1.6k

Summary: When you catch sight of the newest trend going around you know you’re all but bound to at least try it, it was harmless anyway. What could possibly stem from something so little?

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Natasha Romanoff did not like Leon.

She considered looking into him, if only for your safety.

She could probably pull his info from your contacts, but would you be mad at her if she did? That was never something she had to consider when looking into people before- or at least, their reactions never mattered to her. But yours did. It irked her to not know exactly why.

Last night when she stopped by that restaurant to give you dessert it took everything in her not to rush in there and meet you face to face.

Her hands were shaking when she wrote you that note, and her heart was pounding so hard she could feel it in her head.

The thought that you were right there, only a wall away on a date with some guy who probably wasn’t treating you as good as you deserved whirled around in her head the whole time.

The alley behind the restaurant was dirty and smelled like typical New York garbage but the memory was ingrained in her brain.

She didn’t know why she felt this infectious pull towards you.

If she hadn’t forced the waiter to wait until she left to give you the dessert she likely would have stayed to see your reaction.

But she couldn’t see you. Not yet. Not when she didn’t even know what this feeling she had was.

So she went to her closest friend and fellow Avenger who might know the answer: Clint.

She found him in the common room reading a book on the couch, although upon further observation he was napping with a book on his face.

“Hard at work there”

There was a disgruntled groan muffled by the book and Nat smirked at having woken the man.

“You can never give me a break can you?” Clint successfully removed the book from his face, sitting up on the couch as Nat sat on the chair askew from him.

“Just trying to make sure you finish your reading time before nap time or you might not get recess”

He rolled his eyes, leaning back into the couch and letting his head fall back against the furniture, staring at the ceiling he pinched his nose in frustration but Nat could see the smile he was failing to hide

“What do you want, Nat?”

Nat considered her approach for a moment, not used to these kinds of conversations. She crossed her arms over her chest and looked over his shoulder. Clint eyed her suspiciously from his place on the couch and she hated how easily he could pick up on her body language.

“This isn’t going to be our run-of-the-mill conversation is it?”

Nat didn’t have to answer for him to know the answer was No.

He sat up a little straighter then, maintaining whatever snippets of eye contact Nat would throw at him.

“Is this about that person you’ve been texting?” Nat’s eyes snapped to Clint’s, holding him in a gaze that has leveled the most powerful of men.

She should’ve known he would catch on, he was a trained spy as well, and she hadn’t exactly been that subtle about it. Still, part of her was scared to share you with her family, like the magic of your anonymity and personal conversations would be broken.

But as someone who was trained to always know everything about a subject before jumping into it and never let emotions be her weakness, she needed to know what about you kept throwing her from her usual nature.

“Nat, you know you can trust me” She did know that. She knew she could trust him with anything, the way he trusted her with Laura and his kids, and countless other things they shared over the years they’d known each other.

“Okay.”

So she told Clint about you, from the start and her apprehension, to her deep investigation into your background, to the moment you shared with her about the Battle of New York. Everything up to your new boy-friend, spare some intimate messages she didn’t think were necessary to bring up.

Throughout the whole ordeal of Nat expressing her concern for her unidentifiable emotions, Clint had been looking at her with surprise and she tried her best to ignore the small smirk that slowly grew bigger on his face. However, Clint’s obnoxious face made it impossible to ignore and eventually Nat gave in

“What?”

The word only made Clint shake his head silently which irked her further, she hated when he had some sort of leverage over her, his teasing was unbearable and annoying. She couldn’t imagine her life without it though.

“Nat I never thought I’d get to say this but- You’re jealous”

Nat’s annoyance was quickly accompanied by confusion.

“Jealous?” The very thought felt foolish, Nat very rarely felt jealous over anything. Most days she just felt lucky to be alive and surrounded by people who didn’t judge her for her past. “Jealous of what?” she huffed

“Of this guy Y/n’s hanging out with” Clint fixed her with a look that said ‘obviously’ and she resisted the urge to tase him in the side just to wipe the smirk from his face. She came to him because she didn’t know what she was feeling and he was making fun of her instead.

“Why would I be jealous of him? From what I've heard he’s got nothing going for him. He seems…bland and unoriginal, which doesn’t fit Y/n’s style. She deserves better than that”

Clint stared at her for a second and then immediately burst into unstoppable laughter, faking wiping a tear from his eye. She’d leveled him with a look that had him quickly clearing his throat, though the smirk never faded from his face.

“You like her”

Nat glared, annoyed at the obvious observation “of course I like her”

Clint had a sort of glee in his eyes she only saw when he was talking to his kids, it irked her that he found so much pleasure in having to describe her situation to her.

“No Nat, You like-like her”

She rolled her eyes “We’re not twelve Clint”

As he chuckled, a small amount of his amusement disappeared as he began to understand just how foreign something like this might be for someone who never got to experience love before.

It’s because of that fact that Clint decided to try a different approach

“Okay, how about this- how do you feel when she doesn’t text back?”

Nat shifted in her seat, considering it for a moment

“I get…bored I guess- I’ve gotten used to texting her, I don’t know what to do with my phone when she’s not texting”

Clint nodded, feeling excited for his friend to finally have someone special. Although he was definitely going to look into you to double check you were safe.

“Do you ever find yourself laughing at her jokes even if they’re really bad?”

Nodding, Nat let a small smile warm on her features as she recalled various bad jokes you’d attempted.

If anyone else had been telling her those jokes she probably would have sat there stone-faced until they felt uncomfortable enough to leave, but your pure delight when you’d sent her the messages had her chuckling at the stupidest anecdotes.

“How do you feel when you look at her?”

Nat stilled, playing with her fingers as she bit the inside of her cheek. Clint’s eyes widened at the realization

“Shit Nat, you’ve never even seen the girl?”

“I don’t need your judgment Clint” She clipped

He put his hands up in surrender “I’m not judging, I just- you’ve never even seen this girl and you’ve got romantic feelings for her”

The silence that hung in the air was palpable with a tension that probably couldn’t be cut by Nat’s best knife. The two spies leveled each other with their gazes. One of understanding and one of disbelief.

“...I’m not in love, Clint.”

Clint choked on his spit.

The words tasted bitter in her mouth. All her life Nat had been trained to think that love was a weakness, a sickness. Sometimes it felt like a sickness in her chest when she talked to you. The heavy feeling in her chest, her pulse increasing, speechlessness. She was pretty sure those were all symptoms of a pretty bad illness.

Love was not something she could afford.

An ironic thing for someone who had a billionaire on speed dial to say.

“Jesus- I don’t mean love, Nat. At least, not yet. But it’s obvious you feel strongly for the girl”

Liking you romantically?… She considered the thought, the way it made her heart race. In fear or hope she couldn’t decipher. She was terrified. Terrified at the idea of someone so new knowing her so intimately. Terrified at how much power you had over her.

A Crush? On You? She felt heat unconsciously rise to her cheeks but panic began to rise in her chest.

She’d never had a crush before.

Usually she was so confident around everyone but you left her flustered.

Could she allow herself to be that vulnerable? Could she allow herself to develop something more with you? What if you didn’t like her back? …What if you did?

She wasn’t as opposed to the idea as she thought she would have been…

Maybe she did have a Crush on you.

Nat tried to hide her flustered smile as Clint stared at her with a satisfied smile.

The thought that it was more than just a crush made a dangerous appearance that she quickly shot down. Because she couldn’t be feeling more than that could she?

She’d admit she harbors a connection with you that runs deeper than she’d ever anticipated but-

Can you really develop feelings for someone you’ve never met?

Suddenly, Friday interrupted over the intercom, informing them of an urgent mission that required both of them.

Nat was grateful for the interruption, although there was part of her that felt conflicted, knowing your reaction to her leaving wouldn’t be pleasant.

Pt.14

-Sorry no meet-up yet, Slowburn is the best kind of torture! Also thank God Nat is finally realizing her feelings~Starry

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sai4u · 1 month

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don’t wait for heartbreak !

⤷ instead of cupid shooting an arrow love, it feels like heartbreak instead. being friends with the boys is great and all, until feelings start showing up. with feelings, things could go smooth sailing or could go awry with a potential frazzled relationship

− ⌗ ft .∿ haechan, mark, jisung x fem reader

− ⌗ genre + warnings .∿ angst + non idol!au, college au for mark + jisung, reader lowkey breaks jisung’s heart :/

⤹ ⊹ MARK LEE

✶ for quite sometime you have been acquaintances with mark and for quite some time, you have seen him more than you would think. of course it’s college and you can easily run into familiar faces but to run into mark lee just about every day of the week? quite strange some might say, and to say that you don’t have a class with him makes it even more…odd. “it could be fate”, some may say but you waved that possibility off a while ago.

though, you are grateful that you do bump into mark ever so often. as coincidental as it was, the constant run-ins bloomed a friendship between you two, and he was a friend anyone could ask for. he was kind, funny, light-hearted, caring, and everything someone could ask for as a friend or partner. hence, not being shocked that most of the student body is either infatuated or “in love” with mark lee, including you. terribly cliche but he was one of your closest friends; someone to lean on, vent to with any and everything, an understanding guy with the limited vocabulary of “yo” and “bro”, someone to joke with, fall in love with, he was everything you could ever dream of as a romantic partner.

however, if there was one flaw mark had, it was being oblivious. well, it was more so a flaw to you than everyone around you. to think all those times of your boy troubles, your long long rants about finding your dream guy (terribly obvious being him) and bringing yourself closer to him, one would think he would catch on. but instead, he doesn’t, he never bothered to put two and two together and instead went about to continue dating other girls.

to make matters worse, something bloomed between a friend of yours and mark, creating a heartache as you watch the two grow in love with one another. thus leaving you with frustration, anger, and regret for not vocalizing your feelings and how much you want him to be your lover.

it would eat at your heart watching mark and your friend, but then again, what kind of friend would you be if you wished the worst for them? instead of creating jealousy, and/or envy, you thought it would be best to create space, bit by bit as the days pass. you distanced yourself from mark cause you couldn’t let your heart slowly shatter as you watch him date your friend, as your feelings for him grew, right?

⤹ ⊹ LEE HAECHAN

✶ haechan, the man with a pretty smile and an elegant voice that could bring tears to angels. his voice was one that was complimented ever since he was young, making him such a gifted person to others who get to hear it and to you who get to be best friends with haechan. though, past his voice, he was kind, loving, affectionate, occasionally cheeky and flirty, but overall someone that you could consider heaven’s blessings.

he was someone to give you a hug (and doesn’t let go) on your bad days, someone to lull you to sleep anytime anxiety kept you up or a bad nightmare had you uneasy, someone who wasn’t afraid to be vulnerable to you, an emotional support for just about everything, even with girl stuff he couldn’t understand, he was there for you. albeit, you were there for him just as much he was there for you, much more with his singing career.

when he introduced you to his dream of becoming a singer and wanting to become a respected songwriter, you were none other than supportive. some would say you were “too” supportive but who wouldn’t want to see their best friend be recognized for his angelic voice, which should be heard by billions across the world?

however, as the fame leisurely grows and less time is spent haechan, you begin to think, “as much as it is good that haechan’s dreams are coming true, just how much his newfound fame can taper our friendship?”. it doesn’t help as well that as the two of you grow older, your heart wanting for him grows more and more. the emotions that were once platonic, and strong, turn into a deep crush, and potentially…love. maybe it’s the distance that grows as he becomes busy with being a singer-songwriter, maybe it’s the gratitude he showers you with when you were supporting him and his dream, or maybe it’s the way he would look so divine in his performances, something about haechan made you yearn for him more than usual.

but of course, with newfound fame comes people throwing themselves at haechan, making him become less available for you and making him more distant. not to mention that every time he would announce a new relationship, you would fake happiness for him, on some days you would almost let it slip that it should’ve been you. as time passes, you would sink into a battle of wanting the best for haechan and wanting to be selfish and confess your feelings to him. you would think day in and day out how it should be you that he kissed on camera or it should be you that he brags about on his new song, not some supermodel or famous actress.

though all this inner fighting with yourself leads you to a slow heartbreak and distancing yourself from your best friend. the distance was already hefty as it is, he simply wouldn’t notice you avoiding him as well. he wouldn’t need to as another girl is graced upon his arm telling him ‘i love you’ and you’re sat with heartache.

⤹ ⊹ PARK JISUNG

✶ jisung is what some would consider empathetic, he was always one to put others before his own. not really known by many on campus but the ones who do know him, they would say that he truly is one of a kind, a good soul, a pure heart, a blessing to all who meet him. though one thing jisung wished he wasn’t was an easy lover.

he wished he couldn’t catch feelings for others as easily as he does, it’s a blessing and a curse. some of his friends say he should embrace it, but that rarely helps when he feels crushed every time he shows a girl an ounce of his love. it’s the same routine time and time again; he befriends a girl, they become close, he confesses and it’s one of two options, they either reject or strangely use his crush to their own advantage. the second option only lasts till it plagues jisung’s mind that he’s just a throwaway to these girls.

though with you, he thought things would be different this time, again thought. the night you confessed to him that you liked him, you were drunk but very bubbly to express your feelings for him. it made jisung giddy inside to know that this time won’t be a mess up and that good will come out of this. he kissed you as you were expressing yourself, your smile was already cheery as it is but his kiss ignited something in you. it ignited something that led to various kisses on his face, ending with a kiss, on the lips, that felt like a lifetime, and passion that brewed between the both of you.

said passion led to many drunken and messy kisses, late night sneaks, neediness for one another’s body, something and anything to light up that passion that was created between you two.

though something felt off, more so to jisung than to you. he felt like he’s seen this before, like deja vu is warning him of something, he just couldn’t put his finger on it. he talked to his friends about it, they say that maybe it’s just fear of the past trying to scare him but they did lightly threaten you to not hurt him. he is the baby of the group, they couldn’t help it.

however, as time passes, you seem to act detached towards jisung. you haven’t called him as often as you used to, you don’t come by his dorm, you haven’t shown him affection like you used to. it was going from honeymoon avenue to heartbreak hotel and jisung didn’t even bother to figure you out.

he essentially gave up, he didn’t want to bare anymore pain from love (again), and it doesn’t help that it’s you setting that pain in his heart. thus, he sulks in that pain and just goes about life, distancing himself just as much as you detach yourself from him.

౨ৎ oh ariana grande, when i catch you….WHEN I CATCH YOU. cause why would you make we can’t be friends…..

౨ৎ there will be a part two with the rest of the dreamies :). but i hope you guys enjoy my first post !

kisses to you all and God bless you 💗

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pleasantlycrazyworld · 4 months

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Hi I just finished reading the steve harrington x reader imagine where its their one year anniversary and reader finds out about the bet, I was wondering if you could maybe do a 2nd part where Steve somehow finds a way to win reader back and decide to still be bf and girlfriend rather than start all over again and steve asks reader out officially (since he asked her out bc of a bet originally) and they have their date where he reasks her to be his gf, then time skip to where its their 2 year anniversary and he proposes🤍

I got so carried away....oops? Over 4k words

I didn't get into the propose but I totally can if anyone wants me to! I hope you enjoy and it was worth the wait, I am thinking of making an alternative version of this where the reader doesn't take him back, if you want tagged lmk!

Steve was not the same without you. Anyone and everyone could tell. He showed up late to work, never talked to the customers, and he hasn't spoken to Robin, Nancy, or anyone from the group for that matter. He just wanted to disappear into his bed and never be discovered.

However, just because he was in his bed didn't mean he slept. No, he hasn't slept since you left, and if he did, it was for minutes at a time. Instead of sleeping, he just stared. Stared at your side of the bed, stared at pictures of you two together, stared at the ring that haunted him. All he could do was stare.

You weren't doing any better. You didn't just lose Steve but you lost your best friends too, being betrayed by your boyfriend hurt but being betrayed by who you considered the closest friends in your life hurt you the most. You couldn't bring yourself to reach out, anytime the phone rang you just let it ring, anytime there was a knock on the door you just waited under mounds of blankets for the person to leave. Everyone was concerned for the two of you but no one knew how to help, that is until Dustin went and forced Steve to get out of bed. For a 15 year old Dustin was surprisingly strong, Steve found this out when he was dragged out of his bed and into the shower. "You are showering. You are going to make yourself presentable and you are going to go talk to her. At least make sure she's still breathing." Dustin rolls his eyes but he misses how Steve's breathing got caught in his throat hearing that you weren't doing well, even if Dustin just briefly mentioned it.

Steve didn't care about himself, he lost you and that ended with him losing himself, but he never stopped caring about you. He rushed through the shower and hurried to get presentable once again before dragging his ass to the car and headed to your house after making a quick stop to the flower shop. The entire ride to your house he gave himself multiple pep-talks. "I'm a douche....this is noticeable, everyone can see that but" he sighs softly and shakes his head as he feels tears starting to form, "But with you...god y/n with you I wanted to be better. I will be better for you, I want to be the man you deserve even if I can never achieve that. Fuck maybe I'm just selfish...I definitely don't deserve you, no one...no one deserves an angel like you." When Steve pulls into your driveway tears are falling freely down his cheeks, he gets out of the car and grabs the flowers he bought you while choking back sobs. He doesn't bother knocking, if what Dustin told him he knows you won't bother answering the door. Even though you've been apart for weeks now he still has keys to your place so technically....not breaking and entering???

He softly walks through your home trying not to disturb anything, not wanting to taint anything more than he already has. He is in front of your bedroom door much quicker than he was prepared, the door was already opened and the sight before him destroyed his already broken heart. In front of him was the love of his life, under mounds of blankets with the only evidence of life being the slow rise and fall of the blankets.

"Oh princess..." he softly speaks breaking the silence. You jump slightly, blankets falling off your figure, at the sound of a familiar voice, a haunting voice. "Steve...." Your voice creaks and your sight blurs, sitting up straight you feel your breathing stop at the sight of the man before you. Even though he tried his hardest to look presentable for your presence he was still a clear mess. His hair was disheveled, his cheeks were blotchy and eyes bright red. He walks to your side slowly as if he was approaching an injured animal, "Princess I..." His voice cracks and lip quivers as a sob wins the fight he was trying to win. "I am so sorry! I-I never...never meant for this to happen, never fuck i never wanted to hurt you. I was going to tell you but everything was going so well I just didn't want to lose you" Your throat gets tight and begins to burn as you fight the tears that were determined to fall. "Steve I...I loved you."

Loved....Loved....past tense....loved

"No....baby no not loved... I love you. I love you. How can I fix this? There has to be a way to fix this I...fuck I can't lose you forever. This might have started as a bet but my love for you was never apart of it. I've never loved someone as much as I love you"

A scoff and an eye roll is what he's met with, causing him to panic even more at the thought of never having you in his life again. But then you move closer to him and you take the flowers from his hands. "We can try to start over..." You whispered softly

----Time skip-----

It's been two years since the break up, it's been two years since starting over. And things had never been better, Steve never wanted to lose you and tonight he's hoping that he can assure that you'll be his forever with a ring on your left hand.

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#stranger things #stranger things imagine #steve harrington #stranger things x reader #steve harrington x reader #steve harrington x you #steve harrington imagine #steve harrington angst #stranger things angst #steve harrington imagines #version 1

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charliespringverse · 8 months

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i've touched on this before but like . i really do think rowan's feelings get accidentally overlooked by readers that ,,, Aren't a bit obsessed and rereading for the nth time

and it's understandable because the version we primarily get of rowan is fereshteh's warped fanon & jimmy's longtime best friend mental illness riddled descriptions . and Because jimmy is unwell he almost idolises rowan in a way that holds him up as a pillar of stability and permanence — which is what jimmy needs and it's not a wholly negative thing, but he also inadvertently fails to accept any evidence to the contrary

whereas with lister we Learn a lot because jimmy is learning a lot — through deeper-than-usual conversations or blatant cries for help or very revealing behaviours — we don't get to discover anything new about rowan, and so when he's kinda mean or angry or distrusting it's easy to misinterpret that as him being deliberately and needlessly nasty

but if you stop looking at him through jimmy's lens, that boy has had an absolute bastard of a week . the jowan photo leak affects him as much as jimmy (arguably more so, because all the while he's dating bliss, jowan is an Active Lie rather than just an untruth), he's dealing with the same contract stress, his secret relationship has been exposed to the world, his girlfriend is ignoring him at a really difficult time, he's watching his two closest friends fall apart, he's learning that he really doesn't know one of them very well at all, his best friend is missing, the other is definitely an alcoholic making no moves to resolve that, his girlfriend has dumped him, he feels like they (and bliss) are being stalked by a member of a group he already feels like he isn't safe around, he feels like he's losing the two people closest to him

and all this time he's considering himself wholly and singlehandedly responsible for fixing all of this, feeling he has to hold himself and the world together . there's no real safe space for him to unload any of this because the three people he's closest to are either dumping him or going off the rails, and the only way he's ever known how to make himself comfortable is to have complete control over a situation, which just Is Not available to him here

it's not the fault of jimmy's narration that we never get to truly sit with the extent of what's going on with rowan, and in fact it really Really adds to the themes of being unable to truly know somebody and personal perception destroying objective truth

but GOD it breaks my heart to see people say they don't care for rowan, or don't like him, because he's snappy and sweary and short with people . because that's such a natural response to having that much shit piled on top of you in under a week AND losing your only coping mechanism (in this case, taking the weight of everything and moulding it into something tangible and possible to hold)

anyway. i am a rowan omondi stan first and a human being second and WOW rowan needs therapy and jimmy needs to stop idealising him

#iwbftreread #this is so long and for what #i just feel very passionately about the way jimmy discusses rowan . bevause it's so ... detached?#in his eyes rowan can do no wrong. but that makes him blind to the wrong piling up on top of them #owie

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perfectsunlight · 1 year

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(𝟏𝟒) - 𝐝𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐢 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐨𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐧 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮?

𝗐𝖺𝗋𝗇𝗂𝗇𝗀𝗌: 𝗇𝗈𝗇𝖾

𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬: 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮

your hands fidgeted with the ends of your sleeves, picking and pulling at the loose strands to distract yourself from the sound of your pulse echoing in your ears. you really didn’t know why you were nervous. as a matter of fact, you thought you shouldn’t be. after all, it was jimin who broke up with you, not the other way around. if anything she should be more nervous than you.

but the real question was if she was even nervous at all. your relationship with jimin was not perfect, but it was still good. still to this day, you would be lying if you didn’t consider her a coward for breaking up with you for the sake of her debut. it wasn’t that you didn’t understand, you knew perfectly why she had to do it, but the jimin you knew would fight any battle for you.

except none of that mattered anymore. you had been broken up, and she was with someone else now.

even if that someone else was the person you once considered your best friend.

the first time you met minjeong was in the 4th grade. she had dropped her lunch box and her food had fallen on the floor, so you offered to share your meal with her. since then, the two of you became inseparable. you even attended the same dance classes together, and when the time came for her to audition, she had insisted that you come try out with her.

winter had also been the one to introduce you to jimin in the first place. you had often heard the girl rambling about how “amazing” this other trainee was, and to be honest, you didn’t really believe her until you saw karina up close.

she was gorgeous, and it turned out that your best friend was also an incredible wingman. jimin would help you with your dancing, and you vice versa. your chemistry was unmatched, and even the staff took notice of it. even though you two kept your relationship private, anyone could tell by just one look that you two were absolutely enamored by each other. once you and karina got closer, she introduced you and minjeong to aeri and ningning, and for a while everything fell into place.

you and jimin started dating, you were doing extremely well in your monthly evaluations, and you had made truly amazing friends. except, it all started going south once you got moved into another training group.

your relationship had been slightly strained, mostly due to the fact that you were no longer seeing your girlfriend because of you being placed with another group of trainees. you also couldn’t see your best friend anymore, which also added to the sucky situation. except, what bothered you the most was the fact that jimin and minjeong were seeming to get a little too close for your liking.

in the beginning, karina had made time for you, even if it was just a quick late night snack run after she was done practicing. sometimes she had even told you to meet her in the practice room with her, so she could see you just a little longer. but as the weeks went on, jimin would make plans without you, and instead took winter with her.

you were glad your girlfriend and your best friend were getting along well, but their closeness didn’t sit right with you. it wasn’t that you didn’t trust either of them, but it was rather just the uncomfortable feeling you got whenever you saw them together.

the day SM announced the aespa lineup was one of the happiest days of your life. you, jimin, winter, giselle, and ningning were all set in the lineup for the group. you remembered the way jimin had kissed you and spun you around. how aeri and ning had started jumping up and down out of excitement, and how your closest friend was beaming at you.

it wasn’t until the following week that your whole world turned upside down, and it all started when SM had made the decision to cut you from the lineup.

your heart was broken and your dreams were crushed, and to make matters worse, your girlfriend was ignoring you. you didn’t know why she was, especially during your time of distress. the last thing you wanted was to be ignored by your source of comfort. after the fourth day of jimin ignoring you, you finally managed to corner her in the practice room.

it was around 3 am when karina showed up to practice, and there you were, sitting in the corner with your arms crossed. you’ll never forget the argument that followed, especially since jimin gave you the most bullshit excuse as to why she was breaking up with you. at least, that was the mentality you had at the time. you even threw at her face that she was cheating on you with winter, but she immediately denied all of the allegations.

however, looking back on it, you should've known she was lying, especially since your ex best friend was now in a very public relationship with your ex.

you left SM entertainment the day after your breakup, and since then you haven’t spoken to karina or minjeong. aeri and ning kept in touch, they were just as shocked to hear about the breakup as you were. they knew something had been bothering jimin lately, but they never would’ve imagined that it would end up with their favorite couple breaking up.

and now here you were, sitting in an office room with your managers as they waited for jimin’s arrival. you didn’t know how to feel about karina now. you had held a lot of resentment, and you wouldn’t lie, you were somewhat still hurt that she was dating minjeong. relationship issues aside, you thought the girl you knew was a better person than that.

your heart dropped to your stomach once the door to the meeting room opened.

you mentally prepared yourself for a lot of things, but no amount of preparation would have prepared you for the way you practically stopped breathing at the mere sight of her.

the aespa leader couldn’t make eye contact with you, simply bowing to you and your staff before taking her place directly across the table from you. except, she found the patterns of the wooden table to be much more interesting than you. she seemed utterly unfazed, simply nodding and conversing with your managers and not directly with you.

her nonchalant behavior almost enraged you because for you, it was quite the opposite.

you felt as if the room was spinning and that you were going to pass out at any moment.

your gaze traced every single inch of her face, trying your best to forget how it felt in your hands. the blood began rushing to your head even more, and you were really struggling to breathe. in the moment, you were eternally grateful for the fact that she was not looking at you. you feared you’d burn up under her midnight hues.

not wanting to make it obvious that you were practically dying inside, you moved your hands to grip the sides of the chair. the last thing you wanted was for jimin to see your state of complete internal conflict. you wanted to make it seem like you didn’t care at all about her, since it was obvious she clearly didn’t care about you.

what you didn’t know was that she was just as much of a mess as you were. jimin didn’t get an ounce of sleep the night before. it took aeri running to the convenience store at almost 4 in the morning to grab some melatonin for her to take so she would “shut up and sleep.”

for hours, all she had done was pester her roommate with “what if” questions and repeatedly voicing her worries. she had spent just as long picking out an outfit, and practicing how she was going to speak with you if she had to. she would definitely have to buy aeri a few meals to make up for the migraine she would definitely have later today.

jimin couldn’t look at you without feeling guilty. she never meant to hurt you, even now. but she wasn’t clueless, and she knew that the announcement of her “relationship” with winter was definitely a punch to the gut. she could feel your familiar gaze burning holes into the side of her face, but she refused to look at you. she couldn’t. she feared if she did, she would just crumble under your gaze and lose her composure completely.

“alright everyone, let’s get started.” a voice announced from the front of the room. your attention immediately moved from your ex lover and to the person who was currently speaking. “we are all looking forward to this season of music bank, especially with the two of you playing such a huge role in it.”

the staff member kept talking about logistics as well as some important dates and times, and even though you were hearing him, you were definitely not listening at all. it wasn’t until he said something that immediately triggered your fight or flight.

“so, y/n and karina. i’m assuming you two know each other already correct? i think aeri mentioned something about it, but i’m not too sure.”

you should have known this question would come up. it was unavoidable, after all. however, you wanted to hope that they wouldn’t make you or jimin answer that question. jimin’s heart began to race as well, almost a hundred different thoughts running in circles in her head. however, once she opened her mouth to speak, your voice stopped her from forming any sentences.

“no, we don’t.”

jimin’s head snapped in your direction, and for the first time in what felt like forever, she looked at you.

your attention was still directed at the front of the room, so you were not aware of her gaze, but the aespa member felt like her world was caving in at the words that just came from your mouth.

“okay, that’s perfectly fine. the two of you will become well acquainted with each other once we start getting things going.”

the raven haired girl’s eyes traced your features as she, too, tried to do so without remembering how soft your skin felt all those years ago. she also did her best to ignore the cracks in her heart that were making their presence very known. it confused her though. after all, she was the one who ended things. on top of that, it had been years since you two had been together, so why was her heart hurting at the fact that you just openly admitted to not even knowing her?

with her thoughts running rampant, and the words from the meeting going in ear and out the other, jimin couldn’t find anything else to focus on but you. everything about you seemed a little different from the last time she saw you. when she accidentally ran into you and yunjin at the store, she didn’t get a good look at you. but now, with you mere feet away from her, she could see everything.

your hair had grown a bit longer, and your face seemed to have matured a bit since she last saw you. every microdetail about you was the same. unlike her, you were actually paying attention to the meeting and the words being said. the way your brow twitched when you concentrated, and the way you nodded as you understood what was being said.

you were still as beautiful as the day you had left her.

to be quite honest, karina was actually proud of you. from being cut from the final lineup to debuting in a completely new group that was dominating, she couldn’t help but feel like the breakup maybe was for the best. after all, you two both achieved what you wanted, right?

nevertheless, jimin would be lying if she said she wasn’t hurt by what you had said. even her own thoughts were eating her up inside about it. she turned her attention away from your face for a moment, and notice the complete death grip you had on the chair’s arm rests. the guilt began intensifying once more, but this time she could have sworn that for just a brief moment, she felt the urge to reach over and grab your hands so you wouldn’t hurt yourself.

she didn’t though, of course. she knew you would probably not even let her get within an 4 ft. radius of you if you had any say in the matter. she couldn’t blame you, though. but it still hurt to know that you would rather pretend to not know her at all.

then again, all of it was still her fault. she had no right to even try and tell you how to feel.

her eyes wandered over to your face again, trying not to make her staring so obvious as she felt herself dissociating and getting lost in her own thoughts. she remembered almost everything about you still. the way you liked your ramyeon cooked with just the right amount of water. the way you hated the taste of mustard, but still only ate it on corndogs. the way you slept on your stomach because it was comfortable. everything about you was engraved into her mind. the two of you were younger back then, but nevertheless you were still each other’s first real relationship.

except, despite everything you two had been through, she couldn’t help from asking herself the same question over and over again. it danced around her head and kept nagging at her conscious, practically plaguing every single intrusive memory that replayed in her mind. she wanted to ask you so badly, but she couldn’t. she knew you wouldn’t even let her have the opportunity to either. so for now, she would just continue asking herself.

“do you think i have forgotten about you?”

┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ ✫ ˚♡ ⋆｡ ❀ ┊ ☪︎⋆ ⊹ ┊ . ˚ ✧

you and jimin met as trainees before she debuted, and you two never felt more in love. however, once she breaks up with you before her debut, you completely leave SM entertainment under the notion of needing a fresh start. you eventually debuted a few years later in le sserafim, where you met huh yunjin and have slowly started developing feelings for the idol. much to karina's dismay, she hates to see you have moved on, but deep in your own heart, you still can't help but feel as if maybe she has forgotten about you.

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Shanks - SFW Alphabet

G/N Reader, minor discussion of adult themes.

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

Shanks is a very affectionate person, both with his friends and his lovers. If you’re not that kind of person, he’ll totally keep his hands to himself, but he does like expressing his affections through touch. For his closest friends on the crew, hugs are commonplace. He’s been known to plop himself into Beckman’s lap when drunk for a cuddle. Mihawk gets a big sloppy kiss on the cheek whenever they see each other (he hates it and has considered killing Shanks to end it, but he doesn’t because he VERY begrudgingly loves his friend very much). But you? If you want, you get the hugs, you get the kisses on your head or cheek, you get him falling asleep on your lap. Whatever you want, as long as he’s touching you he’s content.

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

Much like Luffy after him, he sort of picks people up and makes them his friend whether they want to be or not. You might have started out as a reluctant companion, or maybe you were friends from the moment you met. Shanks knows he can come on pretty strong, so if you need time to let him in, he’ll give that to you because he thinks you’re worth it. If Shanks considers you his bestie, he’ll move mountains for you.

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

Shanks loves to cuddle. He’s a physical touch as a love language kind of guy. He wants you to lean your head on his shoulder if you’re up late on watch duty. He doesn’t mind if you fall asleep, hell, he’ll encourage it. He also loves sleeping with you. Whether you’re a couple or platonic, he specifically enjoys the closeness that comes with falling asleep with another person.

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

Shanks is a pirate for life. Even if he wanted to, there would be no “settling down” for him. He plans on being at sea until the day he dies. He also kind of enjoys that he has people on the crew who do the cleaning and maintenance for him. He feels like he got enough of that life on the Oro Jackson.

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

Shanks would do anything in the world for his person, but he’s a pirate above all else. It’s the only life he’s ever known and the only life he wants. The thing to most likely break them would be if his partner wanted something he couldn’t or wouldn’t be willing to provide. It’d break his heart entirely - he loves easily, but being in love is something rare. He’d get past it, but he’d be hesitant to allow himself to be in such a vulnerable position again, and he’d feel forever changed.

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

If you’re a member of his crew, Shanks would be open to the idea of marriage, but it might take some convincing. He’s very aware of power dynamics and even before you started dating the idea of being romantically involved with someone on his crew made him cautious. But the crew was fully supportive, and so he took the leap. To take that next step would be much the same kind of discussion. Ring or not, he is completely open to the idea of spending his life with the right person. If you’re not on his crew and he can’t guarantee being able to spend every day with you, it’s probably not going to get to that point in the first place anyway.

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

We’ve all seen Shanks. We know he’s incredibly strong physically, as a pirate, and with his Haki. But with you, he’s all soft edges unless he needs to use that strength to protect you. Emotionally, the man is basically a golden retriever.

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

If you asked Shanks what the worst part about missing an arm would be, he wouldn’t say having to re-learn how to do everything with his right hand, it wouldn’t be the weird phantom limb syndrome he had going for a while, and it wouldn’t be the things that he never realized were harder to do with only one arm, like putting on pants. He would 100% say it’s that every hug he gives is now, by definition, half a hug. He makes up for this by just making every hug twice as long.

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)

Shanks is liberal with the word “love,” but not in a meaningless way. He loves his crew, he loves his friends, and he’s open about letting people know this in a completely platonic way. He thinks it’s important to tell the people you care about that you care about them while you can. But for romantic love, he’ll be a little more cautious. Yes, he’ll want to tell you immediately. He’ll want to shout it to the world. But he also knows romantic love is delicate, and he would hold back until he was sure you were on the same page. After that, though, you’ll hear it a dozen times a day.

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

Nahh, Shanks trusts you. There isn’t a jealous bone in the man’s body.

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss their partner? Where do they like to be kissed?)

Shanks wants to kiss you all over, everywhere, and all of the time. You’ll get soft, sleepy smooches when you wake up in the morning, and he’ll nuzzle your face and neck, enjoying being close to you. During the day you’re both busy around the ship usually, so you’ll get a quick peck here and there when your paths cross. At night, he’ll pull you close to him and kiss you deeply, letting his tongue explore your mouth…then elsewhere, if you want.

L = Little ones (How are they around children?)

Shanks is awesome with kids, probably because in some ways he’s sort of a big kid himself. He speaks their language, and they tend to flock to him. He gets joy out of playing along. If a kid he doesn’t know comes up to him and shows him a rock, he’s totally gonna tell that kid it’s the coolest rock he’s ever seen. Shanks doesn’t see room in his life for being a full-time parent, but he enjoys taking on a mentorship role with the kids he meets and being a positive influence in their lives, and that scratches the itch enough for him.

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

Shanks is a morning person through and through. He spends about two total minutes being groggy before he’s back to his normal self and ready to start the day. Unless he partied a little too hard the night before, he also likes to be among the first people up on the ship. He sort of sees it as part of his duty as captain - if his people need to be up at the crack of dawn, he should be too. If you’re an early riser, you can enjoy getting ready for the day together and reading the paper over coffee and breakfast. If you like to sleep in, he’ll slip out of bed and do his best not to disturb you.

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)

Shanks can be a party animal and when the time is right will drink and dance well into the night. But he also appreciates the still, quiet nights where you can sneak up to the crows nest and sit under the stars together. He likes to sit with you, arm wrapped around you as you talk or just enjoy the silence together.

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

Shanks is generally an open book, but as a pirate captain, and an exceptionally powerful one at that, he’s learned that revealing too much about himself too quickly can be a danger to him and his crew. He likes talking about his experiences and sees life as a series of lessons to be learned, and he enjoys sharing that. In the early days together, you’ll get all the surface-level stuff, but after some time he’ll tell you his deepest thoughts and motivations.

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

It takes a lot to really anger Shanks. Usually when he’s angry it’s tied to fear that something or someone he cares about will be taken from him. He doesn’t lash out often, and lets most things roll off his back. But sometimes, like anyone, he gets pushed to the edge, and that’s when the sword comes out.

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about their partner? Do they remember every little detail they mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

Shanks has a mind for broad strokes and not fine detail, but he remembers what’s important to him. He’s not forgetful, necessarily, but sometimes it takes a minute or two for things to come back to mind.

R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in their relationship?)

Shanks’s favorite moment in your relationship was when the crew was docked on an island in the New World and there was a festival in town. He loved watching your reactions to the lights, the dancers in the street, and the delicious local food. You were thrilled, and he was thrilled because of that.

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect their partner? How would they like to be protected?)

Shanks can be overprotective of the people he loves, sometimes annoyingly so. He knows his own strength, and sometimes he feels it's his duty to personally keep you safe - almost like because he’s so strong, no one else is really capable of doing so. It definitely makes him anxious. Whether you’re his friend or his lover, he values your life immensely and it would break his heart to lose you. Regardless of your background, you may need to prove yourself as a fighter before he feels comfortable not being your personal bodyguard. Or maybe you’re okay with him being your protector, and that’s cool too.

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

Shanks wants to celebrate every day that he gets to be with you. Being at sea can make it hard to find special things to do, and the privacy with which to do them, but he’s rarely not thinking of something for you. Your birthday will be a huge celebration every year, if you want (if you don’t, you better make sure he knows that!). If you both choose to celebrate anniversaries, he’ll make them special, but more personal - he’ll probably have Lucky cook up something fancy and close up the mess hall for a few hours so it’s just the two of you. If you’re on his crew, he’ll be very careful not to show you any special treatment when it comes to your duties, but he��ll also do little things to make your life easier or just make you smile, like drawing you a bath if you’re sore or buying you small things at port that he thinks you might like.

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

Shanks is, ummm, a little on the ADHD side. While it has its benefits, sometimes you might have to fight to get him to focus on the things that are necessary but he’s not particularly interested in. He also gets carried away sometimes, and relies on Beckman, the rational brain in his life (and you if you’re that type) to bring him back down to earth.

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

Shanks knows he’s hot as hell. He gets enough attention, he’s had people tell him they have his wanted poster in their bedroom. He also puts next to no effort into his looks aside from basic hygiene. He wears the ugly pants for absolutely no reason other than because he knows he’s attractive enough to get away with it. He doesn’t even like them that much, but he’s been wearing them too long to stop now. He likes to joke that if he wore socks under his sandals no one would even look at him weird and it would probably be suddenly in style.

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without their partner?)

If Shanks is going to fall in love, he’s going to love hard and with his entire soul. He feels like the right person is actively meant for him, out of all the people in the world, and if they’re gone permanently from his life, whether through circumstances out of his control or because it just didn’t work, it’ll take a lot to feel like himself again. He’ll get there, but he’ll also feel permanently changed.

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

I’ve got two: 1) Before he lost his arm, Shanks was a decently skilled guitar player. 2) Shanks is an organized chaos kind of person. His office is a huge mess, but he knows where everything is, and that’s what’s important.

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

In a partner, Shanks doesn’t want someone who’s controlling. For him, being a pirate is about being free, and while he’s certainly willing to compromise some in a relationship, he still has to be free to be himself. In general, Shanks strongly believes that nuts of any kind do not belong in cookies, brownies, or other baked goods. The only exception to this is peanut butter, but it’s gotta be the smooth kind.

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habit of theirs?)

Shanks snores, but it’s a sort of quiet, cute snore most of the time, unless he’s been drinking a lot. He sometimes talks in his sleep, but it’s entirely nonsense and you enjoy telling him about the stuff he said the next day. You have occasionally woken him up from laughing so hard, and sometimes tell the whole crew if it was particularly funny.

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ieatsmallorphansnamedtom · 1 year

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How do you feel about the question of the bachelors and bachelorettes only dating the farmer out of obligation for everything they’ve done for them and the town?

The Bachelor/ettes Only Marrying Out of Guilt

Ooh, this is an interesting one. I don't really think any of them would marry out of obligation, but this is too good to pass up. TW for all that unhappy relationship stuff. Also, they're pretty long for my standard and I kind of went crazy trying to make them as sad and depressing as possible so be warned if you're sensitive to that.

Bachelors:

Sam

Sam married you because of the good you did for him and his family. You helped his mother with all the stress she was under, got Vincent's grades up, helped Kent readjust to life in the valley, and most of all: you helped him. He feels after all you've helped him through, he'd be a bad person to not accept your bouquet.

And it just went from there. He considered breaking up, just letting it be how it should, but he didn't want to break your heart. All he did was hope and hope you didn't come home with a mermaid's pendant one day. But lo and behold, you did. And now he's married.

It's not that he hates you, he just wishes he wasn't stuck in this position.

Elliott

Elliott married you because of the good you did for the community. He's very much a community man at heart, and always liked you for helping out around town. But he never expected you to come to him with a bouquet. He was, in all honesty, a little taken aback. He knew you liked him, but like that?

He was suddenly left with a choice. Turn you down, which meant breaking your kind heart, or accept the bouquet, which meant being stuck with you as a partner. In all honesty, he didn't like either of those choices. But in the heat of the moment, he accepted the bouquet, and regretted it almost immediately.

He spent the rest of his days waiting for the relationship to end. He never loved you like that. He cared for you, sure, but he never had romantic feelings for you. He really wished he could be in a relationship he was happy with, but he's not the kind to cheat. So, he just waited, and waited, and waited, and waited, and...

Sebastian

Sebastian married you because of how kind you were. You were always there to offer a helping hand - even on the day's when he was at his rudest. He felt he owed a great deal to you. So, when you asked him out, he felt like it was the least he could do to accept. He planned on breaking up with you soon, sure, but that could be handled. He'd just say he liked you better as a friend. Not hard, right?

But you looked so happy with him. He'd never seen anyone smile so much. And now there's this pit in his stomach whenever he works up the courage to tell the truth. He's always so close to doing it, to just setting the both of you free, but he can't.

Though he won't Sebastian gets the closest out of anyone to cheating. If her were younger he definitely would, but he's matured now that he's older. And he doesn't want to hurt you like that. Cheating would be a bad thing, but then again he just can't break up with you. So, what does he do? That's right, he stays unhappy in the relationship (and eventual marriage) for the rest of his days.

Harvey

Harvey marries you because he doesn't want to hurt your feelings. What can I say? He's that kind of guy. He's totally oblivious to the fact that you have feelings for him, and as such it caught completely off guard when you hand him the bouquet of flowers. He just says yes out of instinct. He hates himself for not thinking it through.

Though, I think Harvey would be better than some of the others when he's actually in the relationship. Before marriage, he's still able to work at the clinic and live life normally with the other residents. But once you ask him to marry, that changes.

There has always been (AKA I'm pretending for the sake of this headcanon there has always been) an unspoken rule that someone has to stay at home. Whichever partner it be didn't matter, but someone was the breadwinner and someone took care of the house. Harvey knew this, and was devastated when he realised it was going to be him that had to stay at home. He did consider going against the norm, but the house needed so much upkeep that you couldn't handle on your own.

He spends the rest of his days dreaming of a better life. As much as he hates himself for it, he wonders what his life would be like if you never showed up to the valley.

Shane

Shane marries you because of how you helped him. You got him out of the roughest part of his entire life. How can he thank you enough for that? He still struggles with self-esteem, so when that bouquet shows up at his front doorstep, he manages to peer pressure himself into accepting it.

That walk to your house was awful. It made him sick to see your smile so wide and your laugh so bright. He hated every bit of it. He wished you would yell at him. Tell him it was a joke at call him names for thinking it was legit. He wished you would snatch the bouquet from his hands and throw it in his face.

But you didn't. You accepted his acceptation with the bubbliest personality he'd ever seen. You squealed and spun around and smiled. That smile. He'll never get it out of his head. It's what forced him to stay all those years. To marry you. To move into your house. To maybe even father your children.

It made him sick.

Alex

Alex marries you because of the good you did for his grandparents. He loved you so much more being so kind to them. They were the only living family he had left. But he never meant for those feelings to come off as romantic. He never expected you to get giddy and gossip about his supposed crush on you with your friends. And most of all, he never expected you to put so much effort into that confession.

He came to your farm that night expecting nothing more than a friendly hangout and maybe a movie or two. He was not expecting the farmhouse to be decorated head-to-toe like that, nor was he expecting you to put so much effort into your outfit. He had to admit, you looked gorgeous. But that sense of second-hand pride vanished when you moved your hands from behind your back to reveal a bouquet.

His heart sank. Oh no. So, this is what's going on. Well, what's he supposed to do? He can't reject you like this. Not here. Not now. Maybe he could leave. Make an excuse to come back tomorrow. But that would mean basically the same thing! Maybe he should accept it. Pretend for a few weeks. That's what people do, right? Right?

Bachelorettes:

Penny

Penny marries you because of the good you did for the community. She always wanted to change things in town, to bring back the life and youthful spark it once had. but she always felt like she was too weak. So, when you came along and did all that for her... Well, she was amazed.

She was not amazed however the morning you gave her the bouquet. Turns out, all that embarrassed stuttering had been interpreted as romantic feelings, and not her being just a teensy bit scared of how cool you were.

But this is Penny, and so of course she's going to get flustered. I mean, wouldn't anyone? You don't have to like a person to get all emotional that they like you. But, once again, you interpreted this as her liking you back. You immediately wrapped your arms around her in a tight hug, and now there was nothing Penny could do.

Leah

Leah marries you because of the good you did for the community. Like Penny, she too wanted to change the community dynamic in Pelican town but didn't know how. She always thought it could be done through her art, but we all know she was too embarrassed to show it off.

But that's when you came along. You helped her gain the confidence to show off her skills. And sweet Yoba, was it fun! For the first time in forever she didn't feel as insecure about her sculptures. Yeah, sharing them with you and Elliott was fine, but she was always nervous about what the more critical townies would think. But you helped her through that, and she couldn't thank you enough...

... Is what she thought before you came to her with that bouquet. She had seen it before, right behind Pierre's counter on a Tuesday afternoon. She had seen you eyeing it but had never realised who you wanted to give it to. And wow, did she get a shock.

At first, being in a relationship with you wasn't so bad. Sure, those looks from the townies weren't great, and it wasn't fun listening to everyone ask questions, and it sure as hell was even worse listening to Elliott go on about how 'true love prevails against all,' and yeah, maybe she was reminded a bit of her ex, but... Oh no. She doesn't like this at all.

Abigail

Abigail marries you because of the good you did for her. You were always there when she needed you. When things were going bad, her first thought was to run to you. And you were always there. You always gave her exactly what she needed. So, when that bouquet was left in her hands, she felt like she had no choice.

Abigail's having the easiest time in the relationship. Yeah, it sucks that this happened, but for the most part she got to pretend you two were still just friends. It was her coping mechanism, I suppose, to repress the truth and pretend that everything was fine. It's what she usually did. But slowly it became harder to ignore the truth. Things settled down. She got older. And it was only a few years into this mess did she realise what she had gotten herself into.

Abigail's next plan of action is to get out of this place. She did, in fact, try breaking up with you once. But it went so horribly she told you it was a dare Sebastian forced her to do. Oh, right, I forgot to mention everyone is well aware of how unhappy Abigail is. But they don't have the heart to tell you that.

Maru

Maru marries you because of the good you did for the... Everything. You rebuilt the community centre, you helped everyone overcome their struggles, hell, you even brought her and Sebastian closer together. Why wouldn't she panic and hide after seeing that bouquet?

Yeah, she runs. Honestly, in the moment it's not a bad idea. She needed time and so she took it. At first, things were going fine. She had time to plan stuff out. But then came the news: you were devastated. Apparently, you had absolutely crumbled upon Maru's response. Well, now what?

Maru organised a meeting with you at your house. There, she planned on telling you the truth and hopefully walking you through any emotions you might be feeling. But that didn't happen. The minute she brought up the bouquet you burst into tears and just told her how much you loved her. And so, out of a pure first instinct reaction, she says she loves you too.

Emily

Emily marries you because of the good you did for Haley and the community. Not only did you save the town from succumbing to Joja Corp., but you also helped Haley come out of her shell and be the person she really is. She was so keen on you for bringing her and her sister together. She was not keen, however, on the bouquet you were holding.

You had planned an extravagant trip together. You were going all the way through the Secret Woods, which, by the way, you had spent all morning decorating to make it look perfect. At first, she was enjoying it. But when you told her there was something on her mind... Well, that's when her heart sank.

If you hadn't put so much effort into making this as perfect as possible, she would have turned you down. Really! But she saw the look of desperation in your eyes and just knew she couldn't bring herself to say no. She was miserable, but it's what she forced herself to do.

Haley

Haley marries you because of the good you did for her. For all these years she had been covering up who she truly was; pretending she was just another mean girl who didn't want friends. But you brought her out of that. You helped her become who she truly was. And she was so, so thankful for it.

When you gave her that bouquet in the flower field, she almost considered turning you down. But she had fooled herself into thinking she really was in love with you. She accepted the bouquet with a smile, and for the first month or so things went on without an issue.

It was only during the second month did she start having doubts. Yeah, she wasn't hating her situation, but it didn't feel like she expected. She never got anything out of those kisses, or those dates, or those 'I love you's. She never got anything out of any of it.

And that's when she realised. She wasn't in love. She never was. She had just tricked herself into thinking she did love you. But it was a lie! She wasn't happy; she never was. And she did consider breaking up with you, and got pretty close a few times, but she just couldn't bring herself to do it. Because, after all, she still managed to trick herself into thinking she didn't mind being your partner. And she hated it.

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Mmm, angst. Tell me what you guys think! How dark is it, lol (I honestly can't tell if it's not dark enough).

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lulu24784 · 1 year

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washing machine heart | part 1

"I know who you pretend I am."

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synopsis: | You're absolutely infatuated with Stan Marsh and have even started dating him! It should be a dream come true, but the truth is, he's only with you to make Wendy Testaburger jealous. To help you work through your emotions, you turn to Kenny McCormick, your best friend.

pairings: | kenny mccormick x fem! reader ; stan marsh x fem! reader ; wendy testaburger x stan marsh

cws: | angst, drug use/drug mentions, explicit language, sexual content, unrequited love, mental health themes / sh everyone is aged up to be 18+

Wendy Testaburger is everything you aren’t.

South Park High’s A+ student, Student Council President, and volleyball team captain. In addition to all of that, she is also incredibly sweet and beautiful. You didn’t have a single thing going for you against her. Everyone adores her. Everyone... And that includes your boyfriend, Stan Marsh.

Not long after Stan and Wendy’s past break-up, you two began dating, and you realized right away that he was taking advantage of you to make her jealous, fill the void, and have somebody nearby... But that was all right. You didn’t give a damn as long as you were standing next to him. But you knew.

Unfortunately.

You were willing to go to any length to help him heal his wounded heart and, in the process, make him fall in love with you. But your wishful thinking was simply that.

There was no denying the pain. You wanted to cry every time you saw Stan sneaking looks at his ex. In your mind, plenty of shouting and sobbing, along with large crocodile tears. Asking, “Why? Why not me!?”

Yet as Stan leans in for a kiss, your heart would snap you back to being the love-struck idiot that you are. The kisses caused your heart to race, but only briefly. He wasn’t nervous or on edge being near you. He wasn’t on the verge of vomiting every time you so much as spoke to him. Such feelings were reserved for his true love. You were merely a placeholder.

But oh, how you adored him. His black hair peeking out from beneath his red and blue beanie, his blue eyes gleaming when something piqued his interest... How cozy his hands felt as he took hold of yours. It wasn’t fair. How could someone so lovely exist if you knew you could never fully be with them? The tightness in your chest grew stronger with each passing day that you were next to Stan’s side. Sooner or later, there would come a point where you would no longer be able to play the part. Your emotions would eventually reach a boiling point and explode.

For now, you were content. Content with this little thing you had going with the person who you considered the love of your life. Even if he had eyes for another. Someday, you’d make him see you.

“[Name]...?”

It dawned on you that you had been daydreaming for far longer than you had planned and you blinked. You grinned sheepishly as you turned to face the person who had asked your name. “Haha, sorry Kenny. What were you saying?”

The blonde gave you an unimpressed look and pointed to the barely nibbled-on sandwich in front of you. “Are you going to eat your lunch? Or can I have it?”

“Ah, you can have it. I’m not feeling very hungry.” You murmured gently, clearly troubled by something.

Kenny gave you a raised eyebrow as he grabbed the sandwich and chomped it down like he hadn’t eaten in days. You knew that wasn’t entirely true, though, because you frequently offered him the majority of your lunch. Being his closest friend, you knew his family was having a difficult time. He has always gone above and beyond for you when you needed him most. Not paying it forward would be rude.

“So, what’s on your mind, princess?” Kenny spoke while still having a full mouth. How charming. “Don’t tell me it’s more bullshit about Stan.” His gaze averted.

“Honestly, it’s none of your business, McCormick... But yeah.” You exhaled a long, dramatic sigh of defeat as you hung your head. You didn’t even need to elaborate. Kenny was well aware of how you felt. “I just... He’s just so sweet! Ya know? Like, when he looks at me, I just...!” You cradled your face in your hands as you tightly closed your eyes. “He’s so cute.” Kenny grimaced as a lovely sigh escaped your lips.

“When’s the last time he took you out on a date? Or, y’know, treated you like his girlfriend?” Kenny gave your forehead a light flick.

The mention of a date caused your eyes to glisten. “We’re supposed to hang out today after school! When he’s done with football practice!” You began smiling warmly. “I think today will be the day! I’m gonna get him to fall for me. For real! He won’t even remember Wendy when I’m done.”

“Are you going to fuck him or something?” Kenny snorted and waggled his brows at you.

You stammered, blush forming on your cheeks. “Jesus Kenny! Is that all you think about?” Standing up from the lunch table, you gave Kenny a timid smile. “I’m gonna take him on the best date ever.” Kenny stood to lend a hand as you started to gather up the leftover lunch garbage from the table.

“And what does the best date ever, without sex, look like?”

You gave Kenny’s arm a little smack. “God, you!” Kenny laughed.

He just knew how to push all your buttons.

The two of you have been friends since you moved to South Park in 5th grade. Now, in your senior year, the two of you were inseparable. Naturally, Kenny continued to hang out with his other friends, Stan, Kyle, and Eric, but he still made time for you. It was a bonus that you could spend more time with Kenny now that you were dating Stan. He was your best friend. Your ride or die. The one you could go to for anything.

It was also natural for Kenny to despise your relationship with Stan. As close of friends as they were, Kenny wasn’t too thrilled with Stan using you to make Wendy jealous. Especially because Kenny was aware of your massive crush on Stan. He knew Stan was depressed and possibly just looking for something... Or someone to help. But that wasn’t a good enough excuse. You deserved to experience true love. Someone who genuinely gave a shit about you and cared. Someone who listened to your issues and could make you feel protected!

While you rummaged through your locker to get your books for your next class, Kenny gazed down at you. You fluffed your fringe in the small mirror on your locker door before looking up at Kenny. He was looking down at you wistfully, as though he were lost in a daydream. With a sweet smile, you lightly prodded his nose.

“Hey, sleepyhead. We gotta get to class.”

When Kenny awoke from his daydream, he flashed you a dopey smile. “Whoops.” He leaned against the lockers with his hands comfortably tucked into the pockets of his orange parka. “I think I’m gonna skip. I’m just not feeling it.”

You shook your head and shut the door to your locker. “You’re gonna fail if you skip too much.”

He just shrugged and smiled as he walked towards the door.

“Don’t come crying to me when you gotta go to summer school!” You shouted and smiled briefly. “That boy, sometimes.. I swear.” With the books in your arms, you headed to class. Thoughts of your upcoming date with Stan quickly fill your head.

#south park x reader #stan marsh x reader #lulu works #kenny mccormick x reader

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just-absolutely-super · 2 years

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Can you educate me on sonamy? Everytime i see them in canon, Sonic always tries to get away from her like he's not interested.

So Sonic and Amy's relationship is a bit more complicated than what it actually is because their interactions really do depend on the writer, but I'll give you the gist of their relationship:

Yes, Sonic is uninterested...but not in Amy. He considers Amy one of his closest friends and does care about her (you'd have to be an idiot to not see that at least)

What he's not interested in though is the idea of a commitment

Sonic is written as a free spirit, born to run wild and go on many adventures. He doesn't want to be tied down or oppressed in any way--this is the basis for his and Eggman's antagonism toward each other

Amy wants a relationship with Sonic--wants to be his girlfriend, his wife, his one and only, the whole nine yards

Amy is 12. When you're 12 with a massive crush you're gonna make declarations that you're gonna marry this dude one day and live happily ever after.

Sonic on the other hand is 15. He's your typical boy who would rather live his life on the edge than to settle. So he runs away from Amy because her love quite literally smothers him at times.

But there's a bit more to this dynamic

Amy was created to be Sonic's love interest. This is a canon fact. Sega wanted a Minnie to Sonic's Micky and thus Amy was created.

But they didn't want them to have the same dynamic as Mickey and Minnie so (iirc) Amy's creator decided that Sonic would be this shy boy who didn't know how to express his feelings for a forward girl like Amy. He has a "boy's heart" and is not ready to take that step.

He essentially confirms that Sonic does like Amy in more ways than as a friend, but he doesn't know how to act so he escapes these feelings by running.

So basically your typical schoolyard boy and girl interaction (girl likes boy, tries to kiss boy, boy freaks out and hightails it out of there)

As I stated above, Sonic and Amy's relationship depends on the writer:

The early 3D games will depict Sonic less receptive to Amy's feelings and Amy being super insistent on marrying him

Later 3D games will be kinder to them (Sonic reaching out to Amy when she doesn't recognize him as a werehog; Sonic having every intentional of going on a date with her in SatBK; etc)

Sonic X actually has Sonic confess that he loves her (IT'S MUTED BUT IT COUNTS OKAY)

Sonic Boom will give Amy a more mature personality with a secret crush on Sonic but Sonic is VERY receptive to her and hinted at feeling the same way

IDW has Amy still openly loving Sonic but clarifying that she knows and loves that Sonic is such a free spirit (she doesn't WANT to change that about him!) and Sonic actually asking her to take a break from her duties with the resistance to travel with him

Overall, despite Sega wanting Sonic to remain chaste, it's clear that Sonic and Amy are THE couple in the franchise. It's not everyone's cup of tea, and I don't fault these people for that. But to me, I adore their dynamic and am always looking forward to more food Sega gives me lmao

Hope that clears some stuff up Anon

#i can and will talk and defend sonamy just give me all the chances!#sonamy #anon #responses #sth

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toxic-ship-tournament · 1 year

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ROUND 1 / SIDE A / POLL 2

Dorian x Beau ( @monoma-neitoblog-blog )vs Deputy Dean Sinclaire x Jacob Seed ( @derelictheretic )

who makes up your ship?:

Dorian x Beau

why does your ship deserve to be considered the most toxic?:

Beau and Dorian were childhood best friends. They've known each other since they were little and they became even closer as they grew up. They dated for a little while, and had an unofficial third in their other best friend, Orias. But Beau moved away to seek better opportunity (because he desperately wants to be famous) and broke up with Dorian before leaving. Fairly healthy so far right? But Dorian is a MESS. He's super reserved and never deals with his emotions, but he just WILL NOT leave Beau alone. It's bad, like every night he calls him and leaves him some heart-wrenching and VERY manipulative voice-mail, he sits there crying all the time, admits he would do ANYTHING to see him again. Beau just ignores him the whole time. Eventually, they're brought back together in a VERY public setting, with Orias there too (who has been watching Dorian crumble this whole time) and they all hook up. Beau wants to keep it hush-hush and not get back together with Dorian but Dorian is so glad to have Beau back. Orias wants to stay with both of them but doesn't do anything about their relationship either. Eventually Beau and Dorian kind of get back together? But it's still a mutually destructive relationship because of their inherently conflicting priorities and incompatible personalities. It's bad Tl;dr Beau left because he wanted to be famous and Dorian won't leave him alone so them and another friend are all brought back together and get back together even though they're all worse off for it.

ship tags/playlists/pinterest boards?:

I don't have any art of all of them together but feel free to contact me and I'll find a way to whip something up!

****

who makes up your ship?:

Deputy Dean Sinclaire x Jacob Seed

why does your ship deserve to be considered the most toxic?:

It all starts with Jacob kidnapping Dean, or having his chosen kidnap him for him technically. You know, how most loving relationships start. Then it goes into Jacob starving Dean for weeks, mentally conditioning him, psychologically torturing him and chipping away at his mental resolve until he breaks and becomes the perfect murder machine; which is when Jacob tricks him into killing one of his closest allies. (Not to mention his initial goal was to make someone deserving of killing him, romance in self destruction via outward force and so on and so forth). After all of this you'd think they hate each other and honestly a part of Dean does hate him but another part of him craves his praise and attention and he knows he's too far gone at this point and the only person who could love a monster is another monster. He's everything he ever feared he'd become and Jacob is the now steady force holding all his broken peices together. Congrats to Jacob for literally making him worse! And congrats to Dean for making Jacob unhealthily obsessed with him and making him feel something for the first time in years! Even if it was possessiveness and a twisted version of love! They beat the shit out of each other on multiple occasions, sometimes before or during sex. They threaten to kill the other's families and almost go through with it a few times. By the end Dean is willing to kill anyone who tries to hurt Jacob and Jacob is willing to do the same, they're tragic, they're toxic, they're the worst, they make everyone uncomfortable and they'll probably die covered in each other's blood. But at least they'll be holding hands <3

ship tags/playlists/pinterest boards?:

Tag: #ship: Only Us Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4GDAKjOCyUKxWqw7acgzgi Pinterest: https://pin.it/2WOuuEp

#monoma-neitoblog-blog #derelictheretic #dorian x beau #deputy dean sinclaire x jacob seed #toxic ship tournament

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wheredafandomat · 2 years

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The Country Club ✨

Loki x Female Reader

Part 1 ~ The Invitation

Contains smut

Italics = flashback

When you checked your post box this morning, the last thing you expected to see was a gold envelope sealed with wax. Excitedly you brought it back into your apartment before you cautiously opened it, not allowing your excitement to tear it open. Holding the paper, you carefully read through the words.

Dearest y/n,

Jane and I have decided to fulfil our dream of opening a country club—

“When on earth did they wanna do that?” You questioned aloud.

and we ask that as one of our closest friends, you come to our opening where you’ll be able to sample all of our facilities free of charge.

We hope to see you there for our opening and a reunion.

Kindest regards, Thor and Jane.

Instantly your heart dropped at reading the words. If you were there, you only assumed Loki would be there too, well, if he wasn’t dead. You hadn’t seen or heard from him in almost two years after that morning and you were finally over him, he was the last person you wanted to see. Flipping the invite over, you saw specific details including the date and time as well as the address of the place you had to go to. As much as you didn’t want to see Loki, you couldn’t disappoint Jane or Thor plus it would be nice to see them again as well as run into a few old faces. You just hoped that Loki stayed out of sight.

Picking up your phone, you called Wanda to see if she had gotten an invite too and if she was going. Her answer was yes for both before you added Bucky to the call who said the same. At least they’d be there you thought feeling slightly more optimistic about the whole event. You later tried to make yourself some breakfast which was more of a brunch now as your mind drifted to the thought of Loki. How he intoxicated you, shrouded you with himself before he disappeared. You spent months, more months than you’d like to admit blaming yourself, wondering what you did wrong, wondering why Loki felt the need to leave you without so much as a goodbye. You hadn’t cried for Loki in a while but the thought of seeing him again quickly had you welling up.

The week and a half leading up to you going to the country club passed impossibly quickly. The anxiety you felt about the whole situation was almost crippling but the thought of seeing everyone again, save Loki, was comforting. You had missed them. That’s the problem with becoming an adult, friends are busier, you see them less. Since receiving the invitation, you had spoken to Jane on the phone and couldn’t bring yourself to ask whether Loki would be in attendance. She spoke about how excited she was to see everyone and also told you to pack a bag for what you assumed was an overnight stay considering how vague she was being. You decided to pack a few extra things just incase.

When the day finally came for you to leave, you brushed your hair in the mirror as you remembered that night with Loki.

Unlike your usual moments of intimacy together, tonight was different, he was different. The dinner you prepared for you both was quickly pushed aside as Loki sat you on the table before falling to his knees as he opened your legs. Your hands nestled into his hair as his tongue delved between your warm folds. The room was quickly full of the noise of you mumbling praises to Loki as he ate you out.

After you came, he barely gave you time to recover before he was carrying you to the bedroom, legs wrapped around his waist. Entering, he pushed you against the wall as his lips found yours. You could taste yourself against him as you kissed him passionately. Clothes were discarded as he helped you lift your dress. Already dripping, Loki had no problem entering you causing you both to release a breath as he delved inside. Your back began to burn from the friction of being thrusted up against the wall but any pain in this moment of pleasure was bliss. You both continued to kiss, Loki occasionally breaking the kiss to move his lips to your neck. He drove you both to the precipice before stilling, kissing you one last time before bringing you both to the bed.

Spent, you absentmindedly ran your fingers through Lokis hair and you knew. You looked at him and you knew. You hadn’t put any labels on anything yet, not officially but you knew you loved him. Always have.

“What?” He grinned suspiciously, looking up at you from where he was nuzzled into the crook of your neck.

“I love you.” You confessed with your own smile, ignoring the feeling of Loki stiffening slightly and not in the desired way.

“Goodnight my darling.” He replied after a moment, quickly kissing you on the lips before closing his eyes. You knew something was wrong, your intuition was never wrong but you ignored it, falling asleep next to Loki too only to find him gone in the morning.

Snapping out of the thought, you grabbed your small cabin sized bag before grabbing your car keys and leaving. Sighing once you were in the car, you prayed that this reunion would go quickly and hopefully Lokiless.

Loki looking at y/n knowing he was leaving in the morning 🤣 this is hopefully gonna be one of them quick ones 😁

#loki x reader #tom hiddelston loki #loki x female reader #loki fanfic #loki (marvel)#oc fiction #loki fanfiction #loki smut #loki x female reader smut #loki x reader angst #loki x reader smut #loki x you #loki x y/n #loki laufeyson smut

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borderlinesatou · 1 year

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I'm so sick of her. She's making me hate you. All you do is complain about her and I genuinely don't think you realise it.

Do you know how miserable you've become since you moved in with her? Everything's about her. It's never about you. You won't let yourself be upset because "she has it worse". You're literally pitying her, that's all it is.

She gets upset at the smallest things and you beat yourself up over it like it's your fucking job to make sure she's happy.

I know I got extremely lucky still being with my teen sweetheart. We grew into full functioning adults together after going through a ridiculous amount of shite together thanks to my family. Never once have I ever felt pitied by her but I know for a fact she feels pitied by you. You said it yourself, she got mad at you for being concerned for her wellbeing, because she thinks that you don't trust her judgement. Even though you have every reason not to since she's the way she is.

I'd like to give her the benefit of the doubt and say she's not being malicious purposefully but that doesn't excuse the fact that she is manipulative often.

The fact that you feel guilty about having your own interests and hobbies is such a huge issue I don't understand how you can't see it. It's another reason for the pile of why I think you shouldn't be dating.

You shouldn't have to force her into spaces and activities that are yours alone to enjoy, shes literally going to ruin cons for you for the rest of the time you go, which I feel like will stop eventually when you realise you can't be around your friends since she'll cry if we start talking about cock and balls.

You love talking shite and she turns you mute. It sounds like the most dull, mind numbing conversations to have with anyone ever. Like what is there to even talk about that doesn't involve her, that's solely yours? God forbid you have interests she isn't a part of because that'll upset her 🥺

Its ridiculous. You're such a warm bright colourful person with so much personality and humor and you're just grey with her.

I can never say any of this to you directly because I think it'd finally be the end of our friendship but honestly I don't know how much longer I can see you like this, it's genuinely hurting me.

She didn't know you were suicidal and you've been together over 2 years. Is that not alarming? The lack of knowledge of your mental state bc she never looks outside herself. I know you deny how unwell you are because you never let yourself be the one with issues but if she really knew you she'd know that without being told.

I think you should break up.

I know you're lonely, and I know you want a relationship, but God, you're not meant to be on eggshells at every turn, wondering if you've something wrong or done something wrong to upset her. You're not supposed only care about her feelings and never check on your own.

I really think you should end it.

Obviously you live with her so that's a complication but you know your mam would take you back in a heart beat.

I think you should go. I'm saying this with the most sincerity I can. I am saying this as your oldest and closest friend. Please leave her to better yourself. It'll hurt, obviously. But in the long run you deserve to really be happy. Happiness is not what you have. You wouldn't be this way if it was.

These feelings aren't new or sudden. I've felt this way for well over a year. She made you a completely different person while you're with her, then when you finally get time to see us you complain about her in some sort of way

Of course no relationship is perfect, I've gotten annoyed at 🐰 before, most were due to outside forces (primarily my family) but we've always talked it out. You keep stuff from her, you feel like you can't be honest with her out of fear. None of that is normal or healthy.

You really really should consider breaking up.

I just want you to be happy again.

#satou.txt #❤️#💙

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seojinws · 2 years

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TRACK 008.

✱ A snippet of the past : 2014 ㅡ In which the image of a sixteen year old Seojin and his concept of friendship and family is reminisced upon.

A loud, familiar voice calling his name cut through the muffled drone of the television in the other room. Variety shows with the same humdrum games and manufactured laughter and repeating edits. A sliver of hope that his family didn’t hear the ruckus outside lingered in Seojin’s chest.

It was a telltale indication that, within the next few minutes, he would be sneaking out to answer the call.

As far as his mother was concerned, he had currently locked himself in his bedroom to study like the ideal son she and his father aimed for him to be. Anything but the rambunctious class clown he thought unavoidable. ( He, in fact, heard one of the ladies in his mother’s book club in their old town blather on about the risks of adopting a child so late, especially one with “blatant anger issues”. ) It was ingrained in his skull that he was and always would be a misfit in the seemingly average home. He only belonged in every legal sense of the term.

Home was a vagabond for Seojin. Park Seojin. He constantly reminded himself he was part of a real family now; even if it had been a full eight years by now. He would come to acknowledge their hard work eventually, but as a freshly turned sixteen-year-old, its due date was far off. Ungrateful was still an understatement.

The voice he chose to ignore in favor of browsing through a music magazine came back with full force. It was almost as if neglect made them come back stronger. An annoying trait only one person he knew could have.

“PARK! SEO! JIN!”

A disgruntled expression dressed over his face, he opened his window and thrust the upper half of his body through. He was fully prepared to yell in response until recognized the teen standing below. That toothy smile of his glowing in the dim moonlight.

“What light through yonder window breaks?”

“Oh Cheolsu! You idiot. Keep it down! You’re supposed to be discreet when you do this kinda shit. You want me to come down there and kick your ass?”

That Friday night was now like any other. At least for those two. He was well aware most kids his age didn’t sneak out of the house with the intent to commit petty crimes. Well, Seojin only ever kept watch, but it was a means of survival for his, at the time, best friend. While he told his father his friend was being paid for handy work by a neighbor was some glimpse of the truth, the true extent of reality was less than savory.

Cheolsu was what the average person would consider a good kid. From his thick spectacles to his awkward demeanor, he seemed nothing more than an unassuming nerd. That was until Seojin discovered he knew how to hotwire cars and snuck around to smoke cigarettes. Their initial meeting was a dramatic one. He often teased his friend for watching too many cheesy dramas that gave him a false sense of heroism. It certainly played out like a scene from a movie.

At the time, Seojin was in his second year of middle school. He was just as daring and rowdy back then, if not more so. On a dare from one of his classmates, he stole a high schooler’s high-end bicycle ㅡ one he was unaware was notorious for a violent temper and tendency to bully. It was this total lack of self-preservation that got him into trouble in the end. Cheolsu, who had been walking home from baseball practice, ran in with reckless abandon, his aluminum bat raised above his head.

Seojin wound up with a couple of broken fingers and a bloody nose and Cheolsu with a pair of broken glasses and a black eye. It was fortunate enough a kind-hearted teacher played off the former’s actions as an honest mix-up. ( Had their bicycles not been the same color, maybe he wouldn’t have ended up so lucky. )

They managed to laugh it off in the emergency room. It quickly became one of Seojin’s fondest memories. And Cheolsu, one of his closest friends.

Seojin descended the thin metal stairs of the fire escape with purpose, running as soon as his feet kissed the ground. There was no hesitation on his part to give the other teen a jab to the side and a playful threat of a kick to the shin. He was met with defensive hands and boisterous laughter.

“Whoa! Juliet is a lot more feisty than I thought she was… That raggedy hair should’ve told me. An untamed spirit.” “Shut it. It’s way too expensive to get it cut by a pro right now.” Any amount of won he could save his parents was an effort well spent. His appearance be damned. “Want me to do it? You know I’m good with my hands.” Seojin scoffed. “Is that the kinda lines you use on people these days? No wonder you’re hopeless…” “That’s beside the point. What do you wanna do?” “You’re asking me? You’re the one who harassed me into coming down to meet you. Seriously… You’re really lucky no one knows my name yet around here.”

Outside looking in, one would not be able to tell their friendship started merely a year prior. As far as anyone was concerned, they had known each other their entire lives. ( It certainly felt like it. ) Seojin threw an arm around his friend’s shoulder, eyes examining the nuances of his profile. The occasional street light reflected off the surface of his glasses, casting circular shadows on his cheeks.

“I think today, we should sneak into my old man’s booze stash and then go to the Han River! Chase some birds, snag some noodles.” Cheolsu gave a cheeky grin alongside his suggestion. Seojin merely raised a brow in response. “You told me you hate hanging out there, though.” “Whatever. You really like that sort of vibe, so…” “You serious?” “Why not? It’s fine if it’s with you.”

#✱ ㅡ alone with my thoughts. ( solo )#just a random old subject i had been working on rewriting #some random character backstory mumbo jumbo u -u

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beyond-dreams · 1 year

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Can I be that guy and just say all of the above for Luna for that s/i ask game?? I crave lore lmao

(@3lectro-heart)

PASSES AWAY THANK YOU,, okay <3!!! i, too, crave lore (btw our s/i's should be friends. conflict of interest, who's she??)

(feel free 2 scroll if you dont want Spell of Luna Lore Blast)

1. what are the basics of your self insert? name, date of birth, height, etc.?

Luna Cooper is my Tiger and Bunny S/I!! They use she/they pronouns (leaning more towards they/them) and their birthday is September 21st! They're about 5'5'' (~165 cm) tall. Most of Luna's personality is taken from my own awkwardness and sarcasm.

2. when in canon does your self insert come in? do you have a scene in mind for your entrance?

Ironically enough, I'm working on that! I'm a little behind, but the fic 'Luna Cooper's Terrible* Week' involves the first few scenes between them and my f/o, Kotetsu! Luna is an office worker on the south side of Sternbild, working for a not-so-reputable energy company when they're suddenly flung into the world of heroes by complete accident (sorry, Luna, guess we're making friends now..)

Timeline-wise their entrance is set somewhere post-season 1/The Rising and pre-season 2!

*Did not feel like typing out the entire title

3. how do the other characters generally feel about your self insert?

For the most part, Luna puts on a very shy and socially awkward outward appearance, so I think one of their closer friends would be Ivan, and Barnaby would be another close friend that would help Luna come out of their shell more! Not to be cliche, but the entire first league would ABSOLUTELY tease Kotetsu for his crush on Luna

4. would you be considered a main character, side character, villain, or something else?

1000% side character - noooo I dont wanna be dragged into the spotlight nooo !! -luna, probably (will get dragged into being a main character against their will)

5. does your self insert have any special powers or abilities?

Luna's NEXT power is temperature control! They've had it since they were little; it first manifested when Luna had a raging fever when they were young and they managed to break it without any help - now their power is used in pretty mundane ways, like heating up coffee or cooling off a room. It's usually not a very big area of effect, but it's still pretty useful!

6. does your self insert have any pets?

Just one - a long, white cat with blue eyes. Her name is Snowdrop and she's Luna's emotional support animal! They got Snowdrop just before they dropped out of college.

7. would any other characters (besides your f/o) have a crush on your self insert?

I think a lot of other characters would have strong platonic or familial feelings for Luna; they'd see them as a younger sibling or someone to protect.

8. what is your self insert’s orientation?

Nonbinary and bisexual! Just like me frfr

9. who are your self insert’s closest friends?

Like I said earlier, Ivan! Barnaby and Karina would also take a more 'older brother/sister' role when helping protect Luna from the villains.

10. how do the other characters feel about your self insert and f/o’s relationship?

Barnaby: Are you going to tell them or do I have to?

Kotetsu: ???

Ivan: You're so obvious...

They'd definitely want both of them to confess ASAP so Kotetsu can go back to focusing! on! the mission! C'mon, we don't have all day!!

side note: now I want to write a one-shot where Ivan uses his power to turn into Luna; then Kotetsu practices asking Luna out with Ivan + the others (this would be hilarious)

11. what kind of outfit(s) does your self insert wear?

Sweaters and jeans, for the most part! Due to their NEXT power, it's honestly a little hard for them to regulate their own body temperature - especially if Luna tries to adjust a large area. Extreme colds and extreme hots tend to make Luna feverish, so they try to dress for the weather (which may include many, many layers)

Luna also wears glasses (my only s/i to do so) but they also have contact lenses for if glasses are too much of a hassle

12. how would the fandom view your character?

Knowing fandom, they'd probably infantilize them. Luna gives off a very shy energy, but they're also quick-witted and sarcastic - also super good with organizing events, managing people, implementing ideas, etc - so there's a lot more to Luna than just their social awkwardness!

13. does your self insert have any information about their family?

Yes! Luna's an only child, with an extremely overprotective mother (Saffire) and father (Clint). They don't have any siblings, and any extended family is distant.

14. what hobbies does your self insert have?

Video games! Luna loves JRPGs and otome games - they tend to bring their Switch with them to work on occasion - Kotetsu finds out about this and Luna is a little embarrassed, but they teach Kotetsu how to play a few games as well!

15. how does your self insert play a role in the plot of the story? do they help directly defeat the villain, support the heroes, etc.?

Same with being the side character, Luna definitely wants to play a supporting role. They're happy being a manager or running to get coffee!

16. freebie! name a fact about your self insert you want everyone to know.

Luna struggles with affection a lot, so whenever Kotetsu is like ">:3c i am going to hug you now" they just. absolutely bluescreen early on in the relationship

#crying i love you #《 s/i: luna cooper 》#fox talks #i love luna sm !!#《 3lectro heart 》

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wiria-lae · 1 year

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Alice Glasscourt: Student Profile

SUBJECT TO FUTURE EDITS.

Her surname, Glasscourt, comes in 2 parts. It originates from "looking glass" and the name for face cards (otherwise referred to as court cards) from a standard 52 card deck.

Once again, I used this Picrew.

Alice Glasscourt（アリス　ガラスコート）is one of NRC Heartlabyul's 3rd years, loosely based on Alice and the Queen of Hearts. She's a student in class A (Student No. 11), and sits next to Rook in their homeroom. Because of how the seats work and Leona having been held back, Leona sits right behind her.

Her birthday is June 2nd (which is considered Rose Day in Japan; you can read more about that here) and she is 18.

Alice's height is 168 cm (5' 6"), and she is right hand dominant.

She hails from the capital city of the Queendom of Roses, Ador, which is well established for its rich historical museums and plentiful public landmarks; most notably the original gardens of the Queen of Hearts. Ador is considered the wealthiest city in all of the Queendom, in part due to the high density of nobility residing here. (Riddle and Trey are also from Ador, though in a different part of the city.)

Alice is a descendant from the Queen of Hearts, and her family owns titles and land in the Queendom. However, in recent history, the Queendom as a whole has been significantly more lax on maintaining such social propriety.

There aren't many descendants of the Queen of Hearts. Most who are born have an aptitude for magic, yet even so, they tend to obtain Type I Collective Blot Disorder - a genetic disorder that severely escalates the quantity of blot accumulated from using magic. It is especially concerning in young children and teenagers prone to emotional imbalance. (This disorder has no impact on people without the ability to use magic.)

She's on the Track team. She has fun lapping Deuce during warm ups and finds amusement in watching him try to catch up, while quizzing him on his classes as she passes by. When they have breaks in between practice, she helps him with his homework.

Her UM is Royal Flush. With Royal Flush, she is able to "win" in any given situation involving probability as long as three conditions are met: first, the odds in her favor must be extremely low; second, there is no explicit cheating involved; and third, that she knows the given number of "players". This only works the first time she uses it, and cannot be applied in the long-term.

She used to have a crush on Rook before he joined Pomfiore. As Rook grew into his current (in-game) personality, she decided to settle on friendship. When Riddle joined NRC, Alice held admiration confused as romantic interest for him, and over time grew to treat him like a younger brother. She's currently dating a first year named Eliza in Pomfiore.

An additional comment: I know in some places it's questionable to date out of your strict grade level until at least college, but personally I think if you're an adolescent then 1-2 years above or below your current age is generally still safe. That's the sort of thing I saw during my own experience in school and among friends. Overall, relationships are a case-to-case basis sort of thing, and it's awfully arrogant to try and set hard rules on this. TL;DR, don't try to start drama and be weird about it.

At best, her relationship with Vil is... awkward, where she sees him as a man too caught up in his mirror. Vil knows her first through Rook, then through Eliza, Epel's closest first year friend at NRC.

That's all for now. Please stay happy and healthy, and Happy New Year in advance!

#wirian premise #wiria's cosmos #twisted wonderland #twst #twst oc #Alice Glasscourt #this took me significantly longer than I would like to admit #alice is one of my first twst ocs #and one of my favorites as a result

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introvert-traveler · 3 years

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I know I don’t post much, a lot of stuff happened, and I didn’t keep up.

A bit over 13.5 months ago, some sort of magic happened, and someone decided that I was worth talking to.

One month and a half ago, the same person moved to my city, because she wanted to be closer.

A bit over a month ago, we ended kissing.

Two days ago, my stupidity got the best of us.

In the middle of that I had to deal with: a person that wanted to be my friend but wasn’t really okay with me being me and the fall out of this friendship; paperwork that’s wasn’t easy to get; applying to university and waiting to find out if I got in for 4 months, being accepted into a program; being so hurt by this pseudo-friendship that I finally decided to do something with the feeling that I wasn’t exactly neurotypical, which lead to me being diagnosed a autistic. There was also the fact I had a horrible job, which I tried to change by taking a technical short course during which I broke an ankle, eh uh our a stop to my course idea for two months and lead to me having a terrible time. Finally, I managed to change jobs but it hasn’t been a garden full of roses either. Then there’s the moment I realized that a friend I had for years wasn’t that much of a friend when they don’t really reply.

While all that was going on, she kept talking to me and showing up everyday. She didn’t seem to give up. She claimed to enjoy spending all those efforts chatting to me. She went through her own trials and changes. And one day, she boarded a plane and landed in my city.

I like her so much. I care for her. I want her to make a new life here, with friends and a good job, with people that actually care and are there for her. I want her to be happy. I want her to smile and laugh, be healthy and safe, even if I’m not in her life.

I have tried to ease her change, to help her settle and feel safer and eat more. I have tried to make her feel comfortable and like this move was worth it, that the risks taken weren’t in vain.

But I don’t feel like that’s enough. I’m not patient and I’m not good at relationships. I’m just so broken and tired.

We fight a lot, and no matter how hard I try, I can’t stop those fights from happening.

We went back to being just friends, and it makes me sad. I cover it up as best as I can, but It’s hard when the person you talked to all the time is now the same person you want to talk about with someone. And I can’t explain what happened to others, because they wouldn’t understand.

She is 3 steps away from me, sleeping in my sofa, and I can’t just go and touch her, even if I wanted to, even if I did before. It’s sad.

So I just pretend I’m okay, keep my feelings frozen and I say nothing. Because it’s not fair for her. I did more than enough damage.

I’m sorry.

#personal #introvert #autism #writing #lgbtq #k #friendship #dating #when dating the person you considered your closest friend breaks your heart #but how could we keep dating when we end up but sad and crying #communication issues #lesbians #friends #frozen

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