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nekoannie-chan · 3 months

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Week 2 Reblog Masterlist

Welcome to Week 2 2024 or Week 210, as always, fics would be listed in the order I read them.

I hope you enjoy it!

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This is the list of the fics I read and recommend in Week 2 2024:

Day 31: Dilf and filth (Stucky X Reader) by @1-800-jjbarnes❤️

I know where I belong part 6 (Steve Rogers X Reader, Bucky Barnes X Reader) by @sosa2imagines💚

Size difference (Coriolanus Snow X Reader) by @princessbellecerise❤️

Dangerous places part 9 (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @kaunis-sielu 💚 💙

Gumball machine (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @bingbongsupremacy 💚

Gag gift part 1 (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @tuiccim ❤️

In my heart is a Christmas tree farm (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @marvelobsessed134 💚

Dancing in the rain (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @bloomingpaper 💚

The fate of a fae part 1 (Steve Rogers X Reader, Bucky Barnes X Reader) by @mrs-barnes-rogers-writes 💚

Drip (Stucky X Reader) by @biteofcherry ❤️

Gag gift part 2 (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @tuiccim ❤️

Day 8 old Christmas record (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @she-who-writes-for-multi-fandoms💚

Steve fic (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @cevansbaby-dove❤️

Ten steps ahead (Stucky X Reader) by @bugclot❤️

Underneath the tree (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @nicestgirlonline❤️

Green paint (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @imtryingbuck💚

Steve fic (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @paperweight91 ❤️ 🖤

Holiday blues (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @bibbityboppitybillyharvgrove 💚 💙

I call my mom she said that it was for the best (Damian Wayne X Reader) by @youreobsessedwithtoomanyfandoms 💚

Unshielded affection (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @vilentia 💚 💙

A snowflake melts part 1 (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @georgiapeach30513 💚

For breakfast and for you (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @astyrial 💚

Happy, once again (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @hansensgirl ❤️ 🖤

Afternoon cuddles (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @lives-in-midgard💚

In your eyes (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @pomelo-villano ❤️

Milk and cookies (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @sergeantbarnessdoll 💚

I knew you’d come back to me (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @steveshaped💚 💙

Day 5: forever yours (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @nicoline1998enilocin💚

#Annie recommends #Week 2 reblog masterlist #reblog masterlist #January reblog masterlist

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king-maven-calore · 1 year

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hey babes, I forgot to mention I'm back. I got my degree so you're only allowed to call me Doctor Annie from now on fyi. I've been catching up with a few series I had on my queue and reading Crier's War by Nina Varela (thank you SO MUCH to the anon that recommended it), and Getaway Girl by Tessa Bailey.

I'm making this post to give the fantasy loving crowd a rec: the show Willow on Disney+. The story is a continuation of the cult classic film from the 80s. It's incredibly pretty, the characters are diverse and endearing. Among them, there's this punk princess with a big mouth who is willing to travel to the ends of the world to save her twin bro. If you loved Mare, you're 100% going to love Kit.

And, in case that did not convince you yet, she's super gay, and she looks like this

#Annie recommends #please go watch it's so fun #she's my latest obsession as you can see from my shiny new icon #willow series #personal

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itsmariejanel · 4 months

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is this how it happens? is this how you make friends as an adult? you stumble upon someone wonderful, and all of a sudden, you’re close? - cakle, rachel harrison

#soooo i read a book and the brainrot settled so i made them in the sims <3 #20/10 recommend #mp #marieedit #ts4 edit #ts4 #the sims 4 #simblr #cackle #sophie #annie crane #ralph the spider is missing but im literally too afraid of spiders to add one in here im SORRY

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frankie-idk · 1 year

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odesta is such a criminally underrated ship.. like annie as a character is too but they! are! so! perfect!

#just their dynamic is so good #he LOVES her #the poor mad girl from district 4 #if anyone wants a fic recommendation read #where soul meets body #by #ellizablue #on ao3 #it’s fantastic #the hunger games #the mockingjay #catching fire #odesta #annie cresta #finnick odair #finnick x annie #katniss everdeen #peeta mellark

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anonnnimaaa · 4 months

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I'm still trying to get into this beautiful fandom and I wanted to thank the talented authors and artists we have:

1. @distortedclouds with Black Water Something Warm in a Noisy World It's always pleasant, seeing Annie I'm begging for you to take my hand And I move slow and steady, but I feel like a waterfall and A leaf in the wind is all I want

2. @moonspirit with AruAni Fort Salta Series Especially Village by the End of the World

3. norikos_binoculars with Someone Who's Good For You ✨This is my favorite fanfic ✨

4. @annawayne with her art especially this and about her fics especially Bury Me in the Shadows of Spring and Neverland of (Our) Desires

5. @_superspicy (this is her Twitter) she put her twt on private and i can't share some of her fanarts but she is fantastic and you have to follow her

6. @ermioney some examples of her art are this and this

7. @astralcrow with A cloud before your sun

8. @lionhart with Wir Werden Uns Wiedersehen Fix You and Collection of AruAni one-shots

9. @jorlerx a wonderful example of his art here

10. @still_melodya27 She deserves more recognition, I mean, look at this

#aruani #armin arlert #aot #annie leonhart #armin x annie #aruani art #aruani fic #recommendations #artist #writers

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2003bookstoread · 2 days

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A list of my favorite fictional book couples :) like if you agree

In no particular order

Jude/Carden

Aaron/Juliette (Ella)

Alice/Jasper

Finnick/Annie

Elain/Azriel

Aelin/Rowan

Dorian/Manon

Violet/Xaden

Kazi/Jase

Misery/Lowe

… that’s literally the only couples I can think of. I know some of them are a little niche but I wish I could find more fanfics of them. Recommendations are always welcome!

Who are your favorite couples??

(Also I didn’t include one shot romance couples but if I would have it would have to be the book couples from Love and Other Words and Meant To Be 🥹)

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seredelgi · 2 months

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Note to self:

Never ever (under any kind of circumstances) watch the AOT finale while on precycle again, it’s simply not pretty

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asmodeus-cock · 6 months

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Why don't you watch the 1990 psychological thriller Misery directed by Rob Reiner starring Kathy Bates and James Caan based on the Stephen King novel of the same name and maybe you'll calm down

#some people would be annie wilkes give half a chance #fandom #this wasn't inspired by anything #it came to me in a vision #misery #fans #stans #stan culture #obsession #obsessive #movies #movie recommendation #psychological thriller

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musicrecsblog · 2 months

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female musician of the day : nancy wilson!

nancy plays acoustic guitar, electric guitar, and sings!

the acoustic guitar at the beginning of 'crazy on you' is by far nancys most iconic performance. and this song live is so so good.

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jeffannieresource · 8 months

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My (long, long, very long) List of Favorite Jeff/Annie fics -- Part 1b

Click here to read the notes for this list Click here for Part 1a

Tell the World That We Finally Got It Right by ameliajessica Rated: T Date Originally Posted: Feb 06, 2015 "IT'S A BEAR DANCE!" Chaos ensues! Riot! Food fight! Jeff and Annie hiding from the mayhem!

Inevitable by Waffleberry Rated: T Date Originally Posted: Feb 7, 2015 He has thought about it so many times in the summer break; of course he has; and what he has deduced is that it wasn’t just Racquel that broke in that lab. Something between them fractured.

Cry Uncle by Fayth82 Rated: T Date Originally Posted: Feb 21, 2015 He's had those words running around his head all week and it was slowly driving him crazy. It will only take one little thing to tip him over the edge.

DVD Extras by PepperF Rated: T Date Originally Posted: March 16, 2015 Movie-making, romantic melodrama as proxy, the art of subtle manipulation, and ghost (?) ninja alien robots.

If It’s Real (It Stains Your Hand Like Wine) by wright_or_wrong Rated: T Date Originally Posted: May 2, 2015 “But I think to really sell it,” Abed muses. “We need a kiss. I mean, you guys are about to die. What would keep you from going for it?” Alternate/Missing scene for 6x08.

When a Resistable Force Meets a Moveable Object by PepperF Rated: T Date Originally Posted: May 5, 2015 Things are fine, really. The kissing is just an aberration. WAS. WAS an aberration.

only fools rush in by ameliajessica Rated: E Date Originally Posted: May 7, 2015 - Aug 3, 2015 Jeff and Annie are terrible at casual sex. Well, Annie is.

Coming Clean by thebaddestwolf Rated: E Date Originally Posted: June 8, 2015 to Aug 3, 2015 It almost didn’t seem real -- that he’d finally, finally, told her, that he’d kissed her -- that she’d asked him to. After the mess he’d made of everything, all the self-sabotage and self-loathing and other self-inflicted pain, the solution boiled down to something as simple as coming clean to her. A missing scene fic, starting after the S6 finale study room kiss. Spoilers, obviously.

You’ll See How Well We Rhyme by wright_or_wrong Rated: T Date Originally Posted: June 9, 2015 "It’s probably why he’s felt so envious of Annie, going out and changing her life, chasing something new and better – and it’s probably why it was so easy to come up with alternate scenarios for the future after she got her internship. There’s got to be something better out there for him too." Post S6 finale

Advanced Manipulation and Mindfulness Techniques by PepperF Rated: T Date Originally Posted: Jan 31, 2016 Fours all have this look: alert, cunning, and ravenous. It may be hell at the bottom and heaven at the top, but one level down the pressure is enough to forge diamonds. But Annie thrives under pressure.

Intro to Freudian Slips by randomramblesff Rated: G Date Originally Posted: Feb 11, 2016 “By which you mean, Chang emails me rankings every day and I don't respond, because if I did, it would always be Annie one, Britta two.” An alternative ending to Basic Email Security (Season 6, Episode 6) where Jeff is a gupti-gupta who accidentally said something he probably shouldn't have said.

Basic Truth by PepperF Rated: T Date Originally Posted: March 20, 2016 What if Annie had been in the study room instead of Britta?

Aimless Walking and Significant Moments by greendalecoolcat Rated: T Date Originally Posted: April 10, 2016 Jeff reveals information to Annie. She takes him on a walk.

Emotional First Aid for Amateur Busybodies by PepperF Rated: T Date Originally Posted: April 21, 2016 School's out and Annie's going away and nothing really matters. Which doesn't explain why he's awake at 2 a.m. worrying about it all.

Open Doors and New Beginnings by greendalecoolcat Rated: M Date Originally Posted: June 1, 2016 An alternate version of the finale.

One More Goodbye by Nostalgia_101 Rated: T Date Originally Posted: June 5, 2016 Annie's last night in Greendale before leaving for D.C.

Five Times That Annie Seduced Jeff, and One Time She Got Distracted and Forgot (But It Worked Anyway) by PepperF Rated: T Date Originally Posted: June 7-8, 2016 I'm just going to let that title speak for itself.

Lecherous by CeleryLapel Rated: T Date Originally Posted: Aug 18, 2016 to Sept 9, 2019 Canon Divergent fic immediate post Remedial Chaos Theory

Alternative Teleologies of Narrative: A Holistic Approach by jeffwik Rated: T Date Originally Posted: Sept 3, 2016 "Or maybe the dean was right?" Annie asked. "About us?" She searched his features, looking for confirmation of what she'd been so certain of when she'd come up with the whole stupid crack-Troy-and-record-a-taunting-message-to-get-Jeff-to-admit-he-wanted-her plan.

Certainty by CeleryLapel Rated: K Date Originally Posted: Jan 22, 2017 Post-S6. Jeff and Annie are dating. They haven't yet told his mother.

Tell Me by randomramblesff Rated: M Date Originally Posted: March 20, 2017 When he first tells, her he feels partly pathetic and partly terrified. He’s been thinking about it for a while, mulling over all the ways he could screw things up. It’s not that he has a common history for ending things because of what happens in the bedroom - well, technically he doesn’t have a common history for any of it seeing as he’d only really class two or three of his past relationships as just that, genuine relationships – but he knows there’s some sort of expectation floating above him like a cloud. (or... Jeff and Annie take things slow when she gets back from DC)

You Are the Opera (Always on Time and in Tune) by PepperF Rated: T Date Originally Posted: March 23-26, 2017 It had been a long week. Hell, it had been a long forty years, and by the end of Friday he was feeling the weight of every weary minute. So he chose to blame the tiredness for what happened—that, and the tequila. He could never get the hang of tequila. It wasn't his fault he couldn't be strong for even one more minute.

Fill in the Gaps by randomramblesff Rated: T Date Originally Posted: April 27, 2017 “I’m Annie,” She stood forward, her champagne free hand ready to shake. “My fiancée.” “Pffft, ugh, sorry,” She tapped at her chest with the palm of her hand, knocking even more wind out of her than Jeff had already just done, “the, erm, the champagne, I think, didn’t settle right.”

Resolved by NE8675309 Rated: T Date Originally Posted: June 16-29, 2017 Jeff has been forced to realize his feelings for Annie just as she has decided to ignore his very existence. While Jeff is trying to make up for his own past indifference, Annie is trying to make a new start free from her own naivete. Angst and misunderstandings ensue. Post S5. Takes place during the Summer as an Alternate S6.

Basic Booty Call Etiquette by Pigzxo Rated: E Date Originally Posted: Aug 19, 2017 Their yam isn't murdered but Annie still sends that text. You're about to be screwed in the bio lab.

Just Like Always by greendalecoolcat Rated: T Date Originally Posted: Sept 2, 2017 It wasn’t just a debate kiss, or school dance make out. It wasn’t small spaces under blanket forts and it wasn’t smiles from across the room. It was sex and the most intimate moment of her life because it was with the man she loved.

Introduction to Sex Toys by Pigzxo Rated: E Date Originally Posted: Sept 11, 2017 All Annie wants is to buy a discounted vibrator at Dildopolis in peace. Unfortunately, with Jeff insisting on walking her to her door and the flash sale only lasting ten minutes, this quickly becomes impossible. The result? A messy, bumpy, totally unhealthy venture into friends-with-benefits territory.

Emotional Consequences of Cross Country Migrations (x) by cgkm2099z Rated: PG-13/M Date Originally Posted: Oct 3, 2017 This takes place mostly in between the final scene in Study Room F and when Jeff drops Annie and Abed at the airport. It's my own answer to the question: "what happened in that week in between?"

#AndAMovie by albatross9 Rated: G Date Originally Posted: Feb 16, 2018 Post season 6. Annie is surprised to find Jeff Winger on her doorstep and even more surprised when he volunteers to escort her an important work event when her real date flakes. All goes according to plan until their friends decide to crash the gala. Frankie has a surprise for everyone and the group decides that crashing Annie's work event is the best course of action. What can possibly go wrong?

The Mistakes Not Made under the Moonlight by Natalie_Carson Rated: G Date Originally Posted: May 14, 2018 During Basic RV Repair and Palmistry, Jeff sneaks out of the RV late at night unable to sleep only to find that one of the other Greendale seven couldn't sleep either.

I know that other things are not of consequence by middlemarch Rated: T Date Originally Posted: Aug 1, 2020 Something was ringing. It wasn't his alarm. It was his fucking doorbell.

Theories of Romantic Expressionism by Little_Annie_Adderall Rated: T Date Originally Posted: Aug 13, 2020 Annie's 21st birthday party. She rarely thinks of herself as "the young one" in the group anymore. But there's always one person who points out her tender age at every ill-timed opportunity. Tonight, she wants to prove her new adult identity. Although whether she wants to prove this new identity to herself or to... him... she isn't entirely sure. So on December 19, the study group gathers to celebrate Annie Edison finally going to a bar without having to be Caroline Decker from Corpus Christi. And once there, she receives a gift that changes everything.

Falling off the Precipice by HarmonizingSunsets Rated: G Date Originally Posted: Sept 29, 2020 Annie and Jeff aren’t a thing. If they were a thing, Annie would know about it. I mean…she thinks she’d know… Annie and Jeff are done with the will-they-won’t-they thing.

Casting by L56895 Rated: T Date Originally Posted: Oct 13, 2020 Jeff isn’t sure why he agreed to be casting director.

Constants and Variables by Raj_Sound Rating: T Date Originally Posted: Oct 21, 2020 to Jan 21, 2023

Advanced Beginner Knots by jeffwik Rated: T Date Originally Posted: Dec 3, 2020 In the aftermath of “Intro to Knots” Jeff and Annie hook up.

Countdown by practicingmypurpose Rated: T Date Originally Posted: Dec 16, 2020 sight, smell, taste, sound, feel.

Five by onenotewaffles Rating: E Date Originally Posted: June 16, 2021 to August 19, 2021 Set after the events of E304 in timeline 5, my third-favorite timeline.

Pottery for Dummies by naboojakku Rated: T Date Originally Posted: July 18, 2021 Annie tries pottery. Jeff quietly—then not so quietly—loses his mind.

Psychology of Deception by andropithecus Rated: M Date Originally Posted: July 21, 2021 to Aug 6, 2021 Jeff has always been pretty good at lying, and at getting out of things that he doesn't want to do. But what will he do when his Mom corners him into Christmas dinner and asks him to bring the girlfriend that he (lied and) told her he had? Lots of fluff, lots of fun, and an irritated Annie will ensue.

Cruel Summer by Olivia Sprite Rated: E Date Originally Posted: Sept 13, 2021 Jeff comes out to DC to visit Annie during her summer internship, and it takes everything in Annie not to mention 'The Annie of it all,' lest her heart is broken one more time.

All I Want for Christmas by Olivia Sprite Rated: E Date Originally Posted: Dec 24, 2021 Jeff and Annie are dating, and all Annie wants for Christmas is you-know-what. But a mysterious present means it's time to team up and investigate! A little mystery, a little snow, a classic caper; will our beautiful dummies get what they want this holiday season?

Social History and Holiday Revisionism by PinkCanary Rated: E Date Originally Posted: Dec 4, 2022 Seven years after Annie leaves Greendale, she comes back for the holidays.

#jeff x annie #fanfic recommendations #fanfiction

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nekoannie-chan · 15 days

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Week 15 Reblog Masterlist

Welcome to Week 15 2024 or Week 223, as always, fics would be listed in the order I read them.

I hope you enjoy it!

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This is the list of the fics I read and recommend in Week 15 2024:

Dangerous places part 11 (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @kaunis-sielu 💚

A broken soldier part 2 (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @caplanbuckybarnes ❤️

Civil war Brooklyn chapter 6 (Stucky X Reader) by @saiyanprincessswanie 💚💙❤️

Game day by @queen-of-the-avengers 💚

Fic (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @sweater-daddiesdumbdork 💚

Civil war Brooklyn chapter 7 (Stucky X Reader) by @saiyanprincessswanie 💚💙❤️

Flood by @biteofcherry ❤️

Moral of the story chapter 6 (Wanda Maximoff X Reader) by @lemonnsss 💚

Civil war Brooklyn chapter 8 (Stucky X Reader) by @saiyanprincessswanie 💚💙❤️

Battle scars (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @lokischambermaid 💚

Unbreakable chapter 9 by @crazyunsexycool 💚💙

Civil war Brooklyn chapter 9 (Stucky X Reader) by @saiyanprincessswanie 💚💙❤️

Stressed out (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @sergeantbarnessdoll ❤️

Dating Post-Serum (1940’s) Steve Rogers/Captain America Would Include… (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @just-a-hardcore-simp-who-writes 💚

Civil war Brooklyn chapter 10 (Stucky X Reader) by @saiyanprincessswanie 💚💙❤️

Double trouble (StuckyX Reader) by @marvelavengerspovs1 ❤️

The Best Birthday Gift part 2 (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @cevansbaby-dove 💚

Civil war Brooklyn chapter 11 (Stucky X Reader) by @saiyanprincessswanie 💚💙❤️

Inappropriate attire (Steve Rogers X Reader) by @witchywithwhiskey ❤️

Cuddle bug(Steve Rogers X Reader) by @nicoline1998enilocin 💚

Civil war Brooklyn chapter 12 (Stucky X Reader) by @saiyanprincessswanie 💚💙❤️

#Annie recommends #week 15 reblog masterlist

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annie-manga · 4 months

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It only took me over a week, but here's my 2023 Art Summary!

Link to template: https://ko-fi.com/s/da53aa2569

#art summary 2023 #2023 art summary #art summary #art recap #art recommendations #anniemanga #annie-manga #property of annimanga

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miareadsbooks · 1 month

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THG Catching fire (Suzanne Collins) - MY REVIEW

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10th - 21st December

Hey! So as we all know, this was a very anticipated book for me to read. BUT! It just felt very slow and boring then two seconds later it was quick and action. I’m aware this was done on purpose, to reflect Katniss (And Peeta’s) quick rise to fame, but I wasn’t a fan of the pacing. Over 145 pages in and the next games had barely been mentioned.

So why is it STILL rated 4 stars you might ask: Because I had fun whilst reading it and enjoyed it. Yes the pacing was off-putting but honestly these films and books are my roman empire - So it deserves it.

The RAW enotion this book made me feel was incredible. Collins has an amazing way of writing gut wrenching scenes- Like Cinna’s death. “Suddenly the door behind him bursts open and three Peacekeepers spring into the room. Two pin Cinna's arms behind him and cuff him while the third hits him in the temple with such force he's knocked to his knees. But they keep hitting him with metal-studded gloves, opening gashes on his face and body.” READ THAT AND TELL ME YOU AREN’T ATLEAST SLIGHTLY CRYING!!

I will be continuing with this series because these books are amazing and despite the odd negative, I really enjoy them :)

#book tumblr #booktok #booktube #book recommendations #book and coffee #spotify #book blog #kindle #kindle unlimited #book reader #thg finnick #finnick odair #annie and finnick #finnick and annie #finnick odair x reader #sam claflin x reader

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bunnidid-reviews · 1 year

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DID(Headcanon) Book Review

Facts -

Book Title: Still Life with Tornado

Author: A.S. King

Publication date: 2016

Fiction or Nonfiction: Fiction

Was there a diagnosis of DID? No

Was the person with DID presented as evil for having DID? No

Major Trigger warning list:

- Descriptions of domestic violence, at times somewhat graphic (mentions of hitting, punching, breaking bones and threatening

- Witnessing a spanking (at least audibly and then mentioning it by name, which I personally cant stand)

- Emotional abuse, general tension and unrest

- Gaslighting (? Is it? I don’t like misusing the word)

- Very vague mentions of witnessing sexual misconduct on a minor (a teacher having kissed a student and the main character witnessing it)

- Medical stuff that can sometimes be a bit graphic? (the mother is an emergency room nurse)

- The police show up and make an arrest in the end (its not violent)

Subjective Review(this is how I felt about it) -

Personal triggering scale from 1 to 10 (1 being not triggering at all, 10 being a badly overwhelming experience that might cause personal harm): 5-10? (not too graphic but hit a bit close to home for me personally)

Personal relatability scale from 1 to 10 (1 being unrelatable, 10 being OMG THAT’S ME!): 10

Personal avoidance scale from 1 to 10(1 being eager to get on with it, 10 being impossible to finish): 7

My interpretation of the media(Includes spoilers):

Aaaaaaahhh this book was a hard read. Okay let’s go

The basic premise is about the 16-year-old Sarah. She’s an artist, but suddenly finds she suddenly can’t create anymore, and this is obviously distressing for her. It’s hinted at that the art teacher is suspicious, and something had happened in the art club that sparks this initial avoidance. Sarah was seemingly a good student with fine grades and on her way to being an artist, when she suddenly decides to drop out.

It’s clear by the tension she comes home to, that this is not a household that communicates with one another. Her mother is a night-shift emergency room nurse who’s always exhausted, her father is a sinkhole of a man. He has a job I don’t remember, he takes up a certain space that makes everyone around him very wary. The older brother is completely out of the scene and has been for 6 years. No one talks about it. Or anything, for that matter. These aren’t people Sarah can depend on.

There’s something wrong and no one ever talks about anything. Nothing is original.

In the steady decline of Sarah’s mental health, we start with her deciding to get her name changed to Umbrella, something of a nonsense choice that becomes symbolic of her favorite umbrella, one that shields her from the raining Bullshit as she ponders on whatever’s making her the way she is.

At the bus stop she meets 23-year-old Sarah, who clues in that even though life is hard, it gets better. And 10 year old Sarah, who’s sole existence surrounds the trip to Mexico and the traumatic events that transpired. Then 40 year old Sarah, who pushes for Umbrella to talk about what’s all going on here. The Sarahs all exist in the world as real people that others can interact with (which other characters find uncanny), but also seemingly show up out of the blue around Sarah. You can see how I feel this is heavy DID-coding, right?

As Umbrella traverses her existential crisis, we get flashbacks that piece together what’s going on under the surface, going over the trip in Mexico several times with more and more truth to it. This is all chock-full of confusion, denial and obvious dissociation; a tornado. Every now and again the chapters are in the point of view of Helen(the mom), who’s resentful and full of loathing for her life and her rat of a husband. Sarah also makes contact with her estranged brother to find the truth.

The hard truth we find out, is that the father had been regularly violent to his wife and son for years and years, up until Sarah was born. The incident Umbrella can’t remember was the same thing happening again on their trip to Mexico, that pushed the older brother into deciding to leave.

When Chet(the father) is confronted with the sight of his son coming back home, he has a violent rage and completely wrecks the house. When Umbrella confronts him, he destroys things dear to her, like the very umbrella she named herself after.

The cops are called. Chet the rat puts on a pathetic display as he’s he’s hauled out by the police. A divorce is sorted out and no matter his attempts to come back, all four of the Sarahs personally pack up his belongings and kick him out of the house for good.

Everyone lives a hopefully happily ever after with their sights set on healing. 10-year-old Sarah fuses with Umbrella, and it’s assumed the other two do too

This book is very difficult for me because the only difference between Chet and my own father is a couple of letters in the name and the lack of the bitter irony of being a “Loving Pastor". Everything about this book really resonated deeply with me, from the way he was intentionally unresponsive in a way to bait others into starting fights with him, down to completely not recognizing my own face. Chris is just as perfectly pathetic as Chet was in the book, and it shook me to the core to read such an accurate description of my own father.

I recall having a similar mental breakdown from 14-16 as well, and it went very much the same way. Nothing is original, after all.

A big part of Sarah’s trauma too is the betrayal of the Helen choosing to stay for the sake of ‘the girl needs a father’. Helen lost her son over her broken marriage. She didn’t leave, despite knowing all this, despite knowing it could happen again. I understand that she’s a domestic abuse victim herself and its very hard to get out of these situations in real life, but the absence of violence is not love. Sarah is betrayed and traumatized by it, and rightfully so. Her viewing 10-year-old Sarah as a ‘second chance’ for HERSELF hits really hard.

This book reads like a teenager going through all this who will later find out about her DID, because she doesn’t have the words for it at this point in time. The fragmented, unfeeling or only-feeling nature of her memories feel a lot like what memory recall is like with DID. Her unwinding into Nihilism and unreality is very dissociative in nature. The betrayal of being lied to all her life is palpable and complex.

What I found interesting was that the author clarifies that there are four Sarahs (10 yr old, Umbrella, 23 yr old and 40 yr old), but I’d argue there are a couple other fragmentations. The chapters titled with Tornado seem to almost be another part of Umbrella who embraces becoming a homeless man feels like an introject part. The sudden change in goals at the start of the book feels as though Umbrella is newly split off and taking over for whatever Sarah came before.

The author put a lot of personal details into this book, so I’m assuming a lot of this story is true to her own life. I don’t know how else you write a quietly domestically violent family like this without lived experience. The characters are all flawed and so life-like. The villain is notably human and not evil in the classic Disney villain sense. Evil and vile but in an extremely real way

It’s a really hard read, but it’s a good one. I’m not sure what else to say. If you’ve had experiences like this, traverse with caution, it might take you back like it did for me

Sorry this review is a bit of a scrambled mess also. I might’ve gotten some details mixed up, usually I do extra research for what I’m ingesting and didn’t have the energy for this one by the end

Key features that makes it relatable to the CDD experience:

- Heavy dissociative vibes.

- Depression, anxiety, traumatized spiralling

- The multiple selves that come from different time periods of her life

- Introjection

- Memory loss, memories that unfold slowly and in small details

Key features that deters from it being called a CDD directly:

- 23 and 40 coming from the future

- The Sarahs appearing as physical people other people can see

Would I recommend this to someone with DID to read?: Yes, but it’s very very relatable. You can feel the tension in the book.

#still life with tornado #a.s. king #dissociative identity disorder #DID in media #did in books #complex dissociative disorder #otherwise specified dissociative disorder #CDD #CDD in media #i care a lot about this book #i might buy myself a copy just to mark with marker all the words im not able to say #anni also recommended it to me and it was really nice being able to talk about it with u <3 thanks so much for the recc!!!!#bunnidid reviews

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