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duckymcdoorknob · 1 year
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Perfectly Imperfect Night
Ships: Asahi Azumane x Gn!Reader
Prompt: They swore it was a “rite of passage” and “the best night of your life”. They clearly never experienced being abandoned by your date. Prom sucked until your bestie came to the rescue.
Warnings: Sadge reader
Tags: General Taglist ! @lisiwalker, @rebloging-everything, @sweetenertea, @quoikuu, @tetsunova, @evielt13 @keyz-writes, @littlebbyleesfw, @0s0me0n30, @justanunknown
Also @tohrusoftie my wifey. I hope you’re feeling okay, this one’s for you💓💓. & @asahisimpnation and @screamin-abt-haikyuu because h e ❤️
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You should’ve known that something was up earlier that evening. You should’ve recognized your date’s displeasure when they excused themself to the restroom for ten minutes, blaming it on the “heavy bowl of soup” they had eaten.
You should’ve known.
But you didn’t want to.
The night of your senior prom was always called “the night to remember”. All of the adults sang of its praises, reminiscing their ridiculous hairdos and outfits that they sported at the time. They swore it was a “rite of passage” and “the best night of your life”, but were they telling the truth?
You shook the nasty thoughts away as you slid on your next outfit contender. Feeling rather confident, you snapped a photo and sent it to your friend group’s group chat.
“Thoughtsssss?”
“OMGGGGG IF YOU DON’T BUY IT I WILL 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨“
“Suga, take a chill pill. Anyways, you def should get that one.”
“I agree with Daichi, (Y/N)!!! You look abs. gorgeous!”
Your heart fluttered at the comment from Asahi. Okay maybe you had the tiniest crush on him, but you were going to prom with the date he personally helped you secure, so you were kinda stuck.
“This one it is then! See you hotties 2-nite 😎😎”
Swiftly changing into your street clothes, you then purchase the outfit and rush home. As soon as you step into your bedroom, you shut the door and open your blinds. Turning on some music, you sit down and prepare to get ready for the upcoming night.
After about ten minutes, your phone begins to ring.
“Hey, (Digital Assistant Name), answer call.”
“Answering call from Mufasahi.”
“Hiya!” You chirped, styling your hair with ultimate focus.
“Hey, (Y/N)!! Me and the guys figured we should call to remind you about-“ the long haired male’s voice was cut off as he took notice of how incredible you looked in such a short time. “Uh… about d-din-dinner.”
“Yep! Me and (Date’s Name) will be there exactly at five.” You replied happily, turning your attention to the screen.
“R-Right.“ You couldn’t exactly make out the gibberish, but you couldn’t miss the teasing tone that was laced on Sugawara’s tongue. “Uh… we’ll see you in a few hours!”
“See ya!” With a happy hum of contentment, you ordered your phone to continue playing your music, and returned to your duties.
After hours, your look was complete. You looked absolutely stunning, and couldn’t wait to show your date and your friends your look. You arrived at the agreed upon restaurant first, waiting patiently for your friends.
Little kids and older people eyeballed you in amazement, complimenting your look with huge smiles. You couldn’t help but feel beautiful…
Your date arrived first. They grinned weakly at you and took a seat across from you in the booth.
“You look nice.” They said quietly.
“Thank you. I think you look great too.” You replied with a warm smile.
There was an uncomfortable silence between the two of you. Your date had opted to aimlessly scroll through their phone, leaving you practically alone.
A sudden, over-exaggerated gasp caused the two of you to snap your heads up.
You couldn’t help the smile that tugged at your lips, and the roll of your eyes, when you caught a glimpse of Sugawara fanning himself dramatically.
“Daichi, catch me! I’m going to pass out! Aphrodite herself is jealous of this deity right here.”
You chuckled, “You’re not so bad yourself, Suga.”
Your date stepped out, allowing themself to sit on the end, as all of your friends piled into the booth. This did not go unnoticed by Asahi, who instantly shot a look at Daichi.
The two ignored it, choosing to go on with ordering their dinners.
Halfway through the meal, your date excused themself to the bathroom, muttering something about their soup.
“You don’t like them very much, do you?” Asahi whispered in your ear, gently touching your shoulder
You sighed, “And here I was thinking that I was being subtle.”
Your date returned just in time to pay, in which they payed only for themself and not you. Regardless, you all piled into Sugawara’s mom’s minivan and rode together to the prom.
The scene was bustling and noisy. Music loud, lights bright, and colors vivid. Your date set the pace of the group, walking quickly ahead of the rest of you. Asahi merely sighed, placing a warm, protective hand on the small of your back. “That’s not how you’re supposed to treat your date.” he grumbled.
You all caught up with each other inside and made your way to the dance floor. Your friends instantly dragged you and your date by the hands to a little part of the floor separate from the crowd.
To your shock, and everyone else’s, your date seemingly enjoyed being goofy with you. They happily danced with you, a huge smile on their face. You reciprocated the smile, giggling a bit.
The night had been going perfectly, until your date had to genuinely use the restroom, and Suga gave you a “great” idea…
“C’monnnn, if you don’t do it, I will!” The silver-haired male whined, grabbing your hand with both of his. “This is the moment you’ve been waiting for!”
You furrowed your brows as you whined softly. “I know but-“
“No buts! Go request that song!”
You groaned and carefully sauntered over to the DJ booth. You then requested your date’s favorite slow song, hoping to continue the tiny spark between you and them.
You and your friends decided it was a good time for a break. Four, very overheated third years carefully trudged to the cheap, hard, metal chairs. The four of you sat down, instantly feeling the relief on your aching feet.
“Anyone else thirsty? I’m going on a drink run.” Asahi chimed as he suddenly stood up.
After the group murmured their drink orders to him, he smiled then turned on his heel to retrieve them.
The lights suddenly changed from overwhelming shades of warm colors, to a dim white, and the music slowed. Asahi chuckled, instantly recognizing the familiar melody.
His chuckle faded, however, when he returned to see you sitting with your chin resting on your palm, looking utterly defeated. “(Y/N)?”
He handed the drinks out quickly and knelt down. “What’s the matter?”
You didn’t reply, instead opting to weakly point at the crowd. Asahi’s eyes fell upon (Date Name) leading someone else through the slow dance, their connection seemingly at 100%.
“I see.” He murmured.
Tears gently pricked the corners of your eyes as you tried to hastily focus on something else.
Instead, you were interrupted by a gentle tapping on your shoulder.
“Hey.” Asahi was standing before you, smiling.
“Hey.” You sniffled.
“May I…” this was it. The big moment. He could do it. “May I h-have this dance?” He slowly held out his hand.
You took it, rising carefully to your feet. “You May.”
Asahi led you wordlessly to the dance floor, right next to your date and their new dance partner. He wrapped his arm around your waist, holding you at a comfortable distance. “Is this okay?”
“It is… thank you.” You whispered, grinning up at him with teary eyes.
The ace removed one of his hands from your hip, carefully brushing the underside of your eye with his thumb. “Don’t let them make you cry. I hate that they made you think that you aren’t good enough…”
“It’s alright, Asahi.” You murmured softly.
“(Y/N)…” Asahi carefully pulled you close into his chest, still swaying side to side, “You’re worth more to me than all of the stars in the sky.”
The whispered message allowed all of your held-back lamentations to come flowing out. The long-haired male simply held you tightly. “There there… I’ve got you now.”
Gently tilting your chin upward to allow you to look at him, Asahi sighed in contentment before carefully connecting his lips to your forehead.
“I’m never letting you go.”
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spielzeugkaiser · 1 year
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I'm procrastinating so hard (and still coughing my lungs out) that I not only procrastinate on the things I have to do but also on the things I planned to draw, sooooo... another trans!Hinata piece 👉👈 Poor guy feels a bit insecure first.
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hmperil · 11 months
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! hugs with haikyuu characters ! ( sakusa , ushijima , bokuto)
please request if you want any fluff or comment if you want another character in this series ❁
includes : asahi , nishinoya , tsukishima
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asahi :
king of hugs , I guarantee his hugs would just feel like comfort and home. he would embrace you and you would just know everything would be ok , that is the power this man holds . I mean just look at him he may look a little scary but he's definitely just a big softie. would give you a big hug when you need one .
nishinoya :
#1 simp, you need a hug he's got you. I mean you're practically royalty to him , he would drop anything he was doing just to cuddle you. he's small but still found a way to make you feel so safe and warm when he was embracing you .
tsukishima :
he may not show it but I just know he's whipped, he thinks your like the prettiest person in the world. watching movies while hugging would definitely be a big thing , he likes the way you can snuggle together and feel like he's protecting you from the world. still a salty beanpole and will pretend like he isn't actually enjoying it but you can see the way he relaxes in your arms.
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taones · 1 year
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If You Can Hold On (3) - A.A, S.K, S.D
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rewrite of the third part of the series (first and second parts here and here, original series on my masterlist) enjoy <3
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pairing ~ poly asadaisuga x gn!reader
warnings ~ pining, angst, arguments, swearing, general stress tbh, my horrible attempt at writing purposefully cringe flirting, mildly suggestive, very brief editing and spellcheck so
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You sniffed as you stirred, pulling the soft fabric underneath your cheek further into you. It smelt like sandalwood with a hint of coffee and you were instantly reminded of Daichi. The man’s coffee addiction had become serious during his final year. You supposed yours would too, if you were in charge of Hinata. His scent was a big reason why you enjoyed stealing Daichi’s clothes so much. Gripping the fabric in your fingers, the underneath was oddly warm. The further you returned to your sleepy state, the less you found yourself caring about the odd warmth of your cushion, or the slow rise and fall of it under your head. 
“Still sleepy, huh?”
Jolting, you snapped your eyes open. A strong heat flooded under the skin of your cheeks, you shot up. An action that brought the blanket that was covering you tumbling down your form, settling at your waist and exposing not only your body, but Daichi’s. You had heard several times from his partners that the man likes forgoing shirts when he sleeps, but observing it was a whole other story. Usually, when you stayed around, he was up and dressed before any of you and you never saw him without a shirt. It soon became clear why this was a good thing. The man was laying in the bed, under where you just laid, dressed in nothing but pajama pants and an unzipped hoodie. Honey coloured skin peaked out from the gap between the zipper, a toned and yet perfectly soft stomach just begging for you to reach out and run your fingers down it. 
Shuffling from the other side of the bed alerted you to the other two presences in the room. Asahi was sitting against the headboard, the other side of where you had evidently slept last night. His curly hair was piled on top of his head and he had those damn reading glasses on, the ones that made him look just as intelligent as you knew he was. He smiled closed mouthed, obviously bemused at your shock, and waved with the hand that was currently holding his book. Sugawara was curled under his arm, on the far side of the bed - still snoring, of course. Koushi was the sleepiest of all three of you. Hyper, undeniably, but once he was asleep, he was down for the count. 
Asahi slid a hand onto the thigh that was closest to him. His hands were large and calloused against the soft skin of your exposed thigh. Why you decided to pack shorts was a mystery to you. Especially now as you flexed the muscles, trying desperately to not squirm and pay attention to what he was about to say. 
“We were gonna grab some breakfast” he explained, in an unfairly attractive morning voice, 
“We passed a diner last night, probably swinging back ‘round to that”
“Once sleeping beauty wakes up, that is”
You smiled, biting your lip in an attempt not to laugh. The three of you would have an easier time herding cats. Asahi’s hand slipped off of your thigh. You tried to suppress the shiver that ran up your spine and desperately ignored the way you missed his touch as soon as it left. Getting breakfast together was a routine you were all well versed in. You had all spent the majority of weekends before your exams meeting in a small cafe near your homes to get waffles together. Simpler times, you guessed. You knew each others orders like the back of your hands, and you always got fed portions of their individual orders no matter how many times you went. The contrast between each order was evident and matched perfectly with each of them. 
“I’m up for waffles”
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The diner was relatively busy when you got there. Of course, with Daichi’s team dad skills and Asahi’s somewhat intimidating stature, you had managed to secure a booth just fine. As tradition went, it was you and Asahi on one side, Daichi and Koushi on the other. Asahi trapped you against the wall with his broad shoulders, but you liked the security of it and this is something the others had very clearly noticed. You were almost 100% certain that the seating was done this way so you and Asahi wouldn’t comment on the obnoxious amount of chocolate and cream the other two piled onto their waffles. 
Conversation flowed easily. You were too sleepy to even entertain the thought of your wallowing that morning, much rather preferring the simple reminiscing and idle chatter the boys filled the silence with. At one point you had said something that made Daichi laugh so hard that he had snorted his milkshake out of his nose. There was some hope that they didn’t notice the way you preened like a cat at getting the usually stoic man to laugh that hard. It was a beautiful noise, but his true laugh was rare. The dad-like chortle making way for wheezing towards the end of his laughing fits was enough to get even the most stone-faced of people to crack a smile. 
You handed him a wad of napkins. He took them with both hands, lifting one to wipe his face and keeping the other firmly grasping yours. Your breath hitched. 
Eventually, after the fifth time of Daichi wiping the wrong spot, Koushi grasped a few more napkins from your hands and wiped the remaining chocolate off of Daichi’s face. You held out another napkin for the silver-haired man's fingers, being met by his signature dazzling smile. 
“What would we do without you, huh gorgeous?”
The bliss was interrupted by all of their phones pinging a notification simultaneously. Suga read the text and visibly grimaced. In an effort to protect yourself from the hurt, you cast your gaze towards the table. It was very obviously a group chat you were not on. The little bubble of joy you had experienced just moments prior popped sharply and it was if the room had dimmed under the morning sun. That was fine, they were allowed to be in chats without you, it wasn’t a big deal, it might not be their new addition, right? You repeated the question in your head like a mantra to calm yourself as you tapped on Asahi to let you out.
“I’m gonna order another drink” you mumbled, smiling brightly at the boys.
The last couple of seconds replayed in your head over and over, even while stammering out your drink order. It was slightly easier to hide your scorned feelings when you weren’t facing the cause. Your back was aimed towards the table of boys, even as you reached the coffee station and made a grab at a few paper packets of sugar. 
The paper was flimsy in your hands, not aiding the clumsiness that was already plaguing you. The coffee was intended for Suga and the man liked his coffee in a very particular way. You counted out exactly two packets of white sugar, and one packet of brown sugar. E preferred the wooden stirrers, even when spoons were available, said they reached the sugar in the bottom of the cup easier. Of course, this was most likely complete nonsense but you couldn’t help but entertain the thought as you took yourself through the motions. You smiled gently at the routine and just how absurd it would look to anyone else. How were you supposed to explain the oddity that was Sugawara Koushi and his fantastical coffee routine?
A hand settled next to you on the coffee counter. 
“That’s a lot of sugar for someone already so sweet looking”
Turning, you came face to face with a man a little bit taller than you, he had dark hair and a decently attractive smile. He was cute, sure. But he wasn’t quite as tall as Asahi, he didn’t have Daichi’s warm smell and his flirting was kind of wooden to anyone who was familiar with Koushi’s cheekier flirting. In your peripherals, you could see the inquisitive glances from your friends and you really couldn’t help yourself after that. Was it kind to lead someone on? Maybe not but you were tired of morality and interested to see how this would play out. 
Giggling, you looked up at him through your lashes. Screw it, if you couldn’t have who you wanted, you were at least gonna have fun. 
“Maybe I like sweet things, don’t judge” you mused, taking the wooden stirrer between your teeth.
The man leaned his other arm on the coffee counter, effectively trapping you against the cart. It was a move you assumed was meant to come across as sexy. However it just made you feel like you were a caged animal, cornered and ready to claw your way out of the situation. His hand retracted, holding more napkins than any one man could possibly need. The dark haired man shot you a wink and you forced out a smile in return, shooting a glance at your now empty table. The brilliant smile of the man in front of you began to fade, causing you to snap your head towards him.
“I’m so sorry, what was that?” you questioned politely, putting the clueless act on once again. 
A throat was cleared next to you. There was really no denying how intimidating the boys were when they wanted to be. Daichi’s arms bulged from where they were crossed over his chest. It was a display that would usually make your mouth water, but only proved to further fuel your anxiety in the given moment. They weren’t scary to you of course, but the sharp glare Suga was sending the man as well as Asahi’s unimpressed look caused a flush of anxiety to run through you. 
“What do you think you’re doing?” Suga hissed at the poor man, who was now looking about ready to run.
“Sorry” the man stuttered, “I didn’t realise they were taken, know when i'm not welcome”
He put his hands up in a mock surrender and turned to leave. 
“Wait, no i’m not-” you started, but he was gone.
They had, not for the first time, rendered you speechless. Embarrassment curled in your gut, bubbling up into something more volatile when you saw the satisfied looks they sported, eyes following the man back to his table. Disbelief didn’t even begin to cover the cocktail of emotions that were currently mixing within you. 
If you didn’t leave, you were going to lose your temper very quickly. Chest heaving, you recentred yourself and spun on your heel, pulling your wallet out. 
The lady behind the counter looked only mildly intrigued at the odd display that had just occurred in front of her. She curled a perfectly manicured eyebrow at you as if to ask if you needed a hand. It filled you with a certain sense of irony, that this random woman was more concerned as to your feelings at that moment than your actual friends, who had known you for years. You stuttered out an apology and slammed some cash on the counter, probably harder than intended. Then you promptly turned and marched out of the diner. 
The mad scramble behind you was ignored in your attempt to walk to the car without bursting into tears, punching something, or both. You heard the protests in the background but they were muffled by the buzzing of rage in your ears. Fists curling and uncurling, you tried to think back to the last time you had gotten this angry. You had been plenty angry in the past, school was a difficult time for everyone, but the three men you had left in the diner were usually the first ones to calm you down. This was one of the only times they were the cause of your wrath. Most likely, they would also be on the receiving end of said wrath soon enough. 
Kicking the dust of the car park, you watched as stones and dirt scattered away from you. You wanted to scream, hit things, throw yourself in the dirt and cry - anything that would take some pressure off of the crushing weight in your torso. The flame twisted and gnashed at your insides, growling and clawing its way up your oesophagus until it released itself in a small scream of frustration. Would things ever be simple for you?
Telepathy had never been a skill you particularly craved until that moment. There was no way of understanding what those three idiots were thinking. Even if you did know, you were doubtful it would soothe your frustration. You threw yourself on the ground behind the trunk of the car, yanking your phone out of the pocket of your jeans. 
“Kiyoko” you seethed down the phone, “will you please come and pick me up”
She gave you the affirmative and set the loose time limit to her arrival. No doubt Yachi would be with her. You weren’t sure whether you would be able to deal with their romance in your face at that moment, but anything was better than being stuck in a car with Asahi, Daichi and Sugawara. 
Jangling alerted you to the three men in question. They had obviously paid and were frantically looking around the cars to locate you. With any luck a sinkhole would open in the earth and swallow you whole before they spotted you. 
Luck was never your thing.
The sky had opened up once again. It was almost beginning to grate on your nerves how much it had been raining this trip. The irony had been entertaining in the beginning, bordering on humorous how cliche it was. Now the weather you usually took so much pleasure in indulging in was maddening. You wanted to be angry with them for once, yell even. But the rain was washing your frustration away, leaving an empty feeling. A feeling that made you want to give up. 
Your prayers went unanswered, the three men walking up to you in due time. 
“What was that?” you questioned, voice resigned. 
“What do you mean? He was flirting with you”
The sound of genuine confusion in Asahi’s voice made your food feel like it was curdling inside of you. You breathed out in disbelief, brows knitting together tightly. 
“And just what does that have to do with any of you?”
None of them replied, taken back by your outburst. You stood abruptly and continued. 
“You’re all dating! You literally have two boyfriends and I know you’re talking to another person. So really” you paused, “why the fuck does it matter if i don’t want to be alone anymore? Do I not deserve to be wanted? You evidently don’t want me”
Your voice cracked towards the end of your rant. Three pairs of eyes stared at you in disbelief. The hints of hurt mixed into all three was evident, but you felt like a bottle that had been shaken and the lid was off. You erupted once again.  there was nothing more that you wanted than to be loved on purpose. it was inexplicably unfair that even unconnected attempts at finding a relationship had to be ruined by the three men in front of you.
“God it hurts, can you not see that? It hurts so bad. You won’t ever understand how much it pains me to be around you and see just how happy this new person is going to make you, knowing that’s not me? That hurts” you spat the last sentences, vitriol coating your words.
The storming sea inside you had calmed somewhat, leaving you to assess the damage your words had done. It wasn’t the most ideal way to confess your feelings but the weight that was lifted off your shoulders felt tremendous. The pain you were feeling was paralysing, stopping you from running like you desperately wanted to. It knocked the wind out of you, reducing your last statement to a pathetic whisper. 
“I get you don’t want me around, but other people will. It’s not okay to take that away from me”
As if some God had heard your plea, Kiyoko’s tiny blue car sped into the car park just as you broke down crying. The womans tiny blonde girlfriend sped out of the car, catching you before your knees could meet the wet sand beneath you. Yachi cooed at you softly, placing her entire body in front of you as if to form a shield between you and the cause of your heart ache. Her eyebrows furrowed in concern, eyes filling with sympathy at your curled up figure. 
It was truly humiliating. 
Kiyoki motioned for her to pull you into the car, stepping out of the driver's side herself and towards you. The dainty hands of the younger girl were soft and comforting, her rose scent filled your stuffy nose while she led your stumbling form to the welcome shelter of her girlfriend's car. The difference in posture between the two of you was like night and day. You were hunched over, protecting yourself from outside view. Your wounds were gaping, horrible open pits with your rawest emotions in the middle for everyone to gaze at and laugh. She wrapped a soft blanket around you, bandaging you up and keeping you safe in the backseat of the car. 
There were muffled voices from the outside of the car, but the sound of the heater being cranked full blast muffled them. There was a lot of angry words, not quite yelling but scolding certainly. You whimpered at the noise, not being able to distinguish who it was. You were certain they would never want to see you again, let alone speak to you, after your outburst. If only there was a way to scoop all of your words off of the floor and shove them back down into your mouth. Daichi, Asahi and Sugawara had never been in love with you, you could deal with that fact. Them cutting ties completely would surely kill you. 
A polaroid of Yachi and Kiyoko, perched on a wall and smiling at each other, was stuck to the centre of the car, directly above the stereo. It hung there, mocking you. You stared and tried not to think about how you would never be able to achieve that, not where it counted. In the end, it was easier to avert your gaze than confront what you couldn’t have.
Fuming, Kiyoko wrenched the door open and threw herself into the driver's seat. It was a miracle she managed to make even that look graceful. Her face was unnaturally contorted by an anger that was uncommon for her. It marred her beautiful features viciously. In staring at her, you caught sight of yourself in the mirror. It was a distressing look to say the least. Your hair was messy from your own grip and the bags under your eyes had only gotten worse. What little effort you had put into your looks this morning had all gone to waste, either washes away or dampened under the rain. 
Yachi stroked her hand over your shoulder and climbed into the passenger's seat. 
Staring out of the back window as the car pulled away, you caught sight of the three you had left behind. Koushi was patting Azumane’s back from where he crouched on the ground, dragging large hands across his face. Daichi was beside them, head buried in his arms on top of the car. You blinked. They had no right to be upset, you thought. You tried to block it all from your mind as their figures turned into tiny dots in the distance. All the years of friendship, the lives you had built together and the dreams you had created - they were buried in the dust where you left them.
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me: says I'll post part three the next day, also me: takes a week to post it. I'm not sure when I'll get around to posting part 4 but hopefully I'll remember to actually post it
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touchlikethesun · 22 days
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i do think that the 3rd years must feel some pressure to be more responsible around the 2nd and 1st years, not to an insane degree but like it is there, and so it's really really nice when there's a scene with just them joking around with each other and being silly like they're high school boys they're kidsss they're so silly they're so funny suga's love language is screaming and violence daichi's kags impression is spot on i love them i love them a lot
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reomikagekin · 1 year
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(i crave more blue lock comfort becouse dont see that often😭🤚)
𝐁𝐥𝐮𝐞 𝐥𝐨𝐜𝐤 𝐛𝐨𝐲'𝐬 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐝𝐮𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚 𝐩𝐚𝐧𝐢𝐜 𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐚𝐜𝐤
warning: panic attacks
Type: hurt/comfort(?)
included:𝐍𝐚𝐫𝐮𝐡𝐚𝐲𝐚 𝐚𝐬𝐚𝐡𝐢,𝐠𝐢𝐧 𝐠𝐚𝐠𝐚𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐮,𝐰𝐚𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐮 𝐤𝐮𝐨𝐧,𝐤𝐢𝐲𝐨𝐫𝐚 𝐣𝐢𝐧,𝐫𝐞𝐨 𝐦𝐢𝐤𝐚𝐠𝐞,𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐠𝐢𝐫𝐢 𝐡𝐲𝐨𝐦𝐚 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐚𝐥𝐞𝐱𝐢𝐬 𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬
𝐚𝐮𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐫𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐞:𝐢 𝐦𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐚 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐭𝐰𝐨 𝐬𝐨 𝐬𝐞𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐨𝐧𝐞. 𝐀𝐥𝐬𝐨 𝐢 𝐰𝐫𝐨𝐭𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐦𝐲 𝐞𝐱𝐜𝐩𝐢𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐩𝐚𝐧𝐢𝐜 𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐚𝐜𝐤𝐬.
𝐍𝐚𝐫𝐮𝐡𝐚𝐲𝐚 𝐚𝐬𝐚𝐡𝐢:
•Alr so i think the first thing this cutie would do is bring you water and then come to your side.
•He notices you have a hard time breathing so he takes some breathing exercises with you.
•i feel like he would not know what to do so he looked up what to do.
𝐆𝐢𝐧 𝐠𝐚𝐠𝐚𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐮:
•the first thing that comes to his mind is just bring you food.
•he would not know what to do so he would just straight up hug you.
•really akwared but hes trying his best🤚
•wraps you up in a blanket.
𝐰𝐚𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐮 𝐤𝐮𝐨𝐧:
•The mama of team z is here yall (also traitor-)
•ANYWAYS
•He would be ready and get whatever you need.
•kuon would also ask if he could hug you,if you say no he's fine with it. If you say yes he would take you in his arms and run through your hair.
•10/10 boyfriend overall.
𝐤𝐢𝐲𝐨𝐫𝐚 𝐣𝐢𝐧:
•Clueless bby
•i feel like he would also ask you if he could hug you.if no,he would just stay by your side holding your hand(get me a man like him-) if yes,you bet he will give you the softest hug EVERRRR
•kiyora would also whisper sweet nothings like: "𝐢𝐦 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐝 𝐨𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮." "𝐄𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐛𝐞 𝐚𝐥𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭,𝐢𝐦 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞."
•KIYORA JIN 10/10 BOYFRIEND (he deserves more attention😭)
𝐫𝐞𝐨 𝐦𝐢𝐤𝐚𝐠𝐞:
•The first he would do is Take you outside and get some fresh air.
•reo would also help you and give you some breathing excercises with you.
•Also the type to get everything you need
•best boyfriend ever🤚
𝐂𝐡𝐢𝐠𝐢𝐫𝐢 𝐡𝐲𝐨𝐦𝐚:
•Okay so i hc that he had panic attacks in the past and his sister helped him so i feel like he is expirenced and ready to help.
•he would give his earphones so you both share. I feel like he listens to mitski often (live love laugh mitski yall)
•CUDDLES.
•runs his fingers through your hair🤚
𝐚𝐥𝐞𝐱𝐢𝐬 𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬:
•Nervous reck
• would bring you roses
•also the type to run his fingers through your hair
•Wraps his arm around you shoulder.
•ness would also reassure you that everythings fine and nothing bad is going to happen.
(Daily reminder that kiyora deserves more love)
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trimisu · 2 years
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Oh yeah also also!!
Hq character and reader gets into a fight (they’re dating now, ofc fights are gonna happen once in a while)
Hq character says something along the lines of “im done” or “im tired” and reader misunderstands it as they meant their relationship
So the guilt, anxiety and fear starts crashing down and they’re lowkey hyperventilating and panicking
And then comes comfort hehe
Contain/s: mentions of hyperventilating, argument, angst with comfort
A/n: well, this took so long to answer :D
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"I am getting tired of this shit!" That's what their last words were before they left.
You were tired and stressed out, it was just a small misunderstanding, but you didn't expect that you will be screaming at each other. The fight went on for a while, exchanging profanities and insults at each other before your partner leave the house with a loud slam from the door.
Your feet were glued to the floor as you stared at the place where they last stood before they left. This is it. It's all over. There's a higher chance that they will pack up their things and leave you alone.
Guilt, fear, and anxiety crept into your body as you gripped your arms tighter, your heart began to ache at the thought of them leaving you. What do you do? What should you do? Should you run out of the house and look for them?
You were panicking as these thoughts run through your head, your hands were sweating bullets as you unconsciously rubbed your arms while you feel your tears prickled from your eyes. You felt dizzy as you rapidly tried to get enough air in your lungs, you can even hear your heart beating fast.
"It's going to be alright," you heard a familiar, soft voice. You look up to see your lover who came back with a look of concern on their face, "follow my breathing, slow deep breaths," you felt a warm hand lifting yours to their chest.
It was warm, you felt their chest heaving up and down slowly. You looked and followed the movement of their lips, it parted as they breathe in and pursed their lips as they breathe out. With a few slow deep breaths, you were able to breathe normally, though with a few sobbing sounds.
"Are you alright? Do you need anything?" You felt their thumb on your wet cheek, wiping away the remaining tears in your eyes.
You shake your head as a response, "listen, I'm so sorry about earlier! I...I let that situation the better of me and—"
Your partner cuts you off, "Hey, it's fine! I also felt guilty about what happened earlier... But I want to figure this issue out together once our minds are clear, yeah?"
Your eyes filled with hope and surprise, "y-you won't leave me, then?" Hearing your question made them surprised, did them walking out made you think of this?
"Of course not! I want you to know that no matter how many arguments or fights we have, I still love you and that won't change," you felt butterflies fluttering around your stomach as their eyes goes soft and their voice was raised a bit but in a softer tone.
You smiled as you felt their fingers interlocking with yours.
"Shall we hit the bed and talk about it in the morning?"
"Huh? Haven't you heard? You're sleeping on the couch tonight!"
"We both know that you can't sleep when I'm not next to you, (Y/n)..."
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Hello!
I saw your post about requesting stuff to write about so here I am. Could you maybe write about how Azumane Asahi or Hanma Shuji would try to cheer up or help reader after or during an anxiety attack? Feel free to choose one, I just put both of them there because they are my comfort characters.
Thank you 🌻
Sure! Apologies about the attack, I have never had one so it was hard to recreate... sorry they're so short!
HANMA (during):
"Hey y/n, do you need anything from the store-"
You were clutching your chest, propping yourself up on your bed with your phone long forgotten but left on beside you. You were gasping for air, tears pricked slightly at the corner of your eyes.
"Y/n?" he asks, walking towards you and placing a hand on the small of your back, but all he was met with were trembles.
He had no clue what to do. He pulled you into his embrace, petting your hair as your tears continued to stain his expensive suit. He had never seen you like this before, but one glance at your phone and he could see the horrible things said there and understood.
"What they said isn't true, don't worry." he whispers as he pecks your forehead, your trembling starting to fade and tears began to dry.
"But what if-"
"They're not. Drop it." he says darkly as you giggle and sniff.
ASAHI (after):
You were tapping your fingers on the counter, something you normally never did unless you were anxious.
"What's up?" asahi says, startling you as you turn around.
"Nothing.." you say, shaking your head slightly to where your hair covered more of your already red eyes.
"You cried," he notes as you look away, proving his point, "Why?"
"A girl spreaded a rumor about me. It's alright, I did my stupid breakdown and I'm fine now." you mutter to yourself, shifting awkwardly in your seat as you returned back to his soft gaze.
"You could have come to me. We could have talked. I never want you to go through an attack by yourself again." he says as he brushed your hair back to where it wasn't shadowing your face with a smile.
"You had things to do." you deadpan.
"I can always make time for you."
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wake-uptoreality · 2 years
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-"Haikyuu boys when you are stressed, feeling down or upset"-
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- drops everything he is doing and appears in your house as fast as he could. On the way, buys every snack you love, more plushies, literally everything. Cuddles with you all day, not letting you go for a second. Sweetly kisses you on the forehead, smiling bright at how pretty you looked everyday. After you tell him what you are stressed about, comforts you with his warm and kind words before you two fall asleep with the smile on your faces. Thanking god for having each other. "I will be always there for you my love"
-Iwaizumi; Bokuto; Hinata; Akaashi; Osamu; Kita; Sugawara; Tendou; Nishinoya; Kindaichi; Aran; Daichi; Asahi; Ennoshita; Yaku; Kogane; Semi; Reon; Yamaguchi; Takeda; Komori.
-he never experienced situation like this, but with his quiet observation he could easily tell that something was wrong. You looked tired, pale and had dark bags under your eyes. His heart painful clenched when he saw love of his life like this... So he decided to do something about it. You two took two days off. He took you out on the different locations..beach, picnic, forest, mountains.. Everywhere you wanted with the less people involved... And you know what? you had the best days of your life. Only you two together not anyone... just you two♡"I am sorry, I am not good at comforting people.. but I will do anything to keep that smile on your face"
-Kageyama; Kenma; Ushijima; Sakusa; Aone; Shirobu; Konoha; Matsukawa; Hirugami; Ukai.
This little shit, thinks that you are just joking (because you are a strong and almost never show what's bothering you) but after some time he gets worried... He never saw you this weak and down... He slaps himself for not being there for you when you needed him... But he understands now.. Walking down the stairs you saw him making breakfast and washing the dishes, then going out to groceries. You chuckled to yourself and told him that you were fine... But his mind was already made up. "please, let me be there for you this time"
- Oikawa; Tsukishima; Kuroo; Atsumu; Kunimi; Futakuchi; Hanamaki; Suna; Korai; Lev; Goshiki.
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ladyshadowsblog · 19 hours
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Parts 3's sketch/WIP along with a mild spoiler
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Part 3 is completely done! And oh my god, my heart 😭
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Asahi Belongs to the @truelazymaker
Space riders AU belongs to @onyxonline
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immediatelywriting · 11 months
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Turn Around, When Possible Reading Guide
A few months ago, I finished posting “Turn Around, When Possible” the first part of my Haikyuu fanfiction series called “There’s No Navigation That Tells You How To Survive A Car Crash”  on AO3. 
Back when I posted it, I left a reading guide in the comments on that final chapter, but I’m going to transfer it to Tumblr, because I think that’ll be more organized. 
So from now on, you’ll be able to find the storylines of each single character, in case you’re interested in reading only their storyline. 
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For the people who haven’t stumbled past this post because of the link in my AO3 end-note. Hi! I welcome you to read the summary of “Turn Around, When Possible”: 
It starts out like a fun idea: the Karasuno Volleyball Club traveling South to meet their rival teams for a training camp in Tokyo. Having full faith in their bus driver, Takeda, the team dozes off during the long drive. They’ve been driving through the woods for hours now, after all, and it’s already gotten dark.
Little do they know that this drive was never meant to be this long, and that Takeda is horrendously lost.
It gets worse from there – when, disoriented by the darkness and tiredness, Takeda makes a mistake while driving. A mistake that results in the bus rolling down a slope.
Just like that, Team Karasuno is hurt and stranded in the middle of nowhere, struggling to survive. All they can do, except take care of their wounds and one another, is wait, and wait, and wait for someone to find them.
They wish they’d turned around when they still had the chance.
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Are you interested in reading the entire first fic (not following just one character) click here. I do really recommend you first read it completely before choosing a specific character’s storyline, because otherwise things will get really confusing.
Or if you want to read part 2 of this series, click here. 
Or if you are a fast reader and want to read part three, click here.
Click “read more” to see all characters’ storylines listed in order below.
Hinata’s storyline
These are the links that’ll send you to the chapters that belong this character’s storyline
Part 1. Turn Around, When Possible chapter 1
chapter 2
chapter 4
chapter 7
chapter 14
chapter 15
chapter 16
chapter 22
chapter 23
chapter 24
chapter 31
chapter 33
Part 2. Turned Around (Recalculating Route) chapter 4
chapter 6
chapter 7
chapter 11
chapter 18
chapter 21
chapter 22
chapter 26
chapter 27
chapter 28
chapter 34
chapter 35
chapter 40
chapter 41
chapter 44
chapter 49
chapter 56
chapter 58
Part 3. Destination Reached chapter 6
chapter 7
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Kageyama’s storyline
These are the links that’ll send you to the chapters that belong this character’s storyline
Part 1. Turn Around, When Possible chapter 1
chapter 3
chapter 4
chapter 14
chapter 16
chapter 22
chapter 23
chapter 24
chapter 31
Part 2. Turned Around (Recalculating Route) chapter 2
chapter 10
chapter 11
chapter 18
chapter 22
chapter 40
chapter 41
chapter 47
chapter 48
chapter 49
chapter 52
chapter 56
chapter 58
Part 3. Destination Reached chapter 4
chapter 6
chapter 7
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Daichi’s storyline
These are the links that’ll send you to the chapters that belong this character’s storyline
Part 1. Turn Around, When Possible chapter 1
chapter 2
chapter 4
chapter 7
chapter 8
chapter 11
chapter 12
chapter 30
Part 2. Turned Around (Recalculating Route) chapter 2
chapter 9
chapter 12
chapter 23
chapter 24
chapter 25
chapter 35
chapter 39
chapter 42
chapter 45
chapter 46
chapter 50
chapter 54
chapter 55
chapter 56
chapter 58 Part 3. Destination Reached chapter 5
chapter 7 _______________________________________
Sugawara’s storyline
These are the links that’ll send you to the chapters that belong this character’s storyline
Part 1. Turn Around, When Possible chapter 1
chapter 2
chapter 7
chapter 8
chapter 11
chapter 12
chapter 19
chapter 29
chapter 30
chapter 33
Part 2. Turned Around (Recalculating Route) chapter 1
chapter 12
chapter 23
chapter 25
chapter 28
chapter 35
chapter 39
chapter 50
chapter 51
chapter 54
chapter 55
chapter 56
chapter 58
Part 3. Destination Reached chapter 5
chapter 7
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Nishinoya’s storyline
These are the links that’ll send you to the chapters that belong this character’s storyline
Part 1. Turn Around, When Possible chapter 1
chapter 2
chapter 4
chapter 7
chapter 8
chapter 9
chapter 26
chapter 27
chapter 33
Part 2. Turned Around (Recalculating Route) chapter 2
chapter 3
chapter 15
chapter 16
chapter 20
chapter 28
chapter 30
chapter 36
chapter 37
chapter 53
chapter 56
chapter 58
Part 3. Destination Reached chapter 4
chapter 7
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Asahi’s storyline
These are the links that’ll send you to the chapters that belong this character’s storyline
Part 1. Turn Around, When Possible chapter 1
chapter 2
chapter 9
chapter 26
chapter 27
chapter 29
chapter 33
Part 2. Turned Around (Recalculating Route) chapter 1
chapter 15
chapter 16
chapter 17
chapter 20
chapter 29
chapter 30
chapter 34
chapter 35
chapter 37
chapter 53
chapter 56
chapter 58
Part 3. Destination Reached chapter 4
chapter 7
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Tanaka’s storyline
These are the links that’ll send you to the chapters that belong this character’s storyline
Part 1. Turn Around, When Possible chapter 1
chapter 2
chapter 4
chapter 7
chapter 8
chapter 19
chapter 20
chapter 21
chapter 29
chapter 33
Part 2. Turned Around (Recalculating Route) chapter 1
chapter 17
chapter 28
chapter 34
chapter 35
chapter 44
chapter 56
chapter 58
Part 3. Destination Reached chapter 2
chapter 7
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Kiyoko’s storyline
These are the links that’ll send you to the chapters that belong this character’s storyline
Part 1. Turn Around, When Possible chapter 1
chapter 2
chapter 4
chapter 15
chapter 16
chapter 21
chapter 33
Part 2. Turned Around (Recalculating Route) chapter 2
chapter 13
chapter 17
chapter 28
chapter 33
chapter 34
chapter 35
chapter 56
chapter 58
Part 3. Destination Reached chapter 2
chapter 7
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Yachi’s storyline
These are the links that’ll send you to the chapters that belong this character’s storyline
Part 1. Turn Around, When Possible chapter 1
chapter 2
chapter 4
chapter 15
chapter 16
chapter 24
chapter 33
Part 2. Turned Around (Recalculating Route) chapter 2
chapter 6
chapter 13
chapter 17
chapter 28
chapter 44
chapter 56
chapter 58
Part 3. Destination Reached chapter 7
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Tsukishima’s storyline
These are the links that’ll send you to the chapters that belong this character’s storyline
Part 1. Turn Around, When Possible chapter 1
chapter 2
chapter 6
chapter 17
chapter 18
chapter 19
chapter 33
Part 2. Turned Around (Recalculating Route) chapter 4
chapter 14
chapter 38
chapter 43
chapter 56
chapter 58
Part 3. Destination Reached chapter 3
chapter 7
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Yamaguchi’s storyline
These are the links that’ll send you to the chapters that belong this character’s storyline
Part 1. Turn Around, When Possible chapter 1
chapter 2
chapter 6
chapter 17
chapter 18
chapter 19
chapter 29
chapter 33
Part 2. Turned Around (Recalculating Route) chapter 4
chapter 5
chapter 14
chapter 17
chapter 28
chapter 33
chapter 34
chapter 35
chapter 38
chapter 43
chapter 44
chapter 56
chapter 58
Part 3. Destination Reached chapter 3
chapter 7
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Takeda’s storyline
These are the links that’ll send you to the chapters that belong this character’s storyline
Part 1. Turn Around, When Possible chapter 1
chapter 2
chapter 4
chapter 10
chapter 12
chapter 18
chapter 19
chapter 29
chapter 33
Part 2. Turned Around (Recalculating Route) chapter 1
chapter 6
chapter 12
chapter 31
chapter 32
chapter 44
chapter 56
chapter 57
chapter 58
Part 3. Destination Reached chapter 1
chapter 7
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Uaki’s storyline
These are the links that’ll send you to the chapters that belong this character’s storyline
Part 1. Turn Around, When Possible chapter 1
chapter 2
chapter 3
chapter 4
chapter 7
chapter 8
chapter 10
chapter 18
chapter 19
chapter 29
chapter 33
Part 2. Turned Around (Recalculating Route) chapter 4
chapter 5
chapter 6
chapter 19
chapter 32
chapter 56
chapter 57
chapter 58
Part 3. Destination Reached chapter 7
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The other teams’ storyline
These are the links that’ll send you to the chapters that belong this character’s storyline
Part 1. Turn Around, When Possible chapter 5 
chapter 13 
chapter 25
chapter 28
chapter 32
chapter 33
Part 2. Turned Around (Recalculating Route) chapter 8
chapter 52
chapter 58
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The fic has been completely uploaded, so this is the complete guide. In the case that this fic gets any spin-offs I’ll make sure to link them down below :)
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hey! i'm new to your account and i have to say that i adore all your content! it's so wholesome and lovely, keep it up!‹3
now, could i bother you requesting headcanons of pre-timeskip!asahi azumane as a boyfriend? (paired with a fem!reader whose more confident, fearless and outgoing than him who she usually encourages asahi daily, if possible!) he's my number one and yet so underrated, i love him 🥺
no hurries in writing this! i hope you have a nice day/night! ✨
Hi there, Batty! Thanks for the request and the kind words, I appreciate it so much <3 Asahi deserves a lot more recognition, I hope you enjoy this :)
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You and Asahi are the definition of opposites attract
You're super outgoing and confident in contrast to his shyness and gentleness
But the two of you care for each other so much, sometimes Sugawara and Daichi have to tell the two of you to get a room
As his girlfriend, you not only look out for him but also help him to stand up and speak for himself
You're quick to defend him but also happy to encourage him to take charge
You love his soft kisses and shy compliments whenever you're with him
You're his biggest cheerleader, always calling out to him during matches to let him know he's got his whole world backing him fully
He doesn't agree, but you love it when he blushes and gets flustered from your daily flirting and teasing
Whenever in doubt, he comes to you first, always asking for your take on things, listening to your every word
If he has a big upcoming game or an exam, you write him little notes of encouragement
You rarely fight, the two of you are good at communicating your thoughts and feelings
He is so proud of you, whenever you're doing something important or just standing up for something you believe in, he thinks he's got the best girlfriend in the world
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If You Can Hold On (2) - A.A, S.K, S.D
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rewrite of the second part of the series (first part here and original series on my masterlist) enjoy <3
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pairing ~ poly asadaisuga x gn!reader
warnings ~ pining, angst, Daichi sleeps shirtless bc c'mon now, reader is in the pool being sad but no mentions of drowning! not edited bc I'm lazy
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Soft murmurs woke you from your restless sleep. After their last conversation, it had obviously been hard for you to get any good rest. The car rolled to a stop inside a motel car park, bathing you and its other occupants in the red sign light. 
“I went in but they only have one room so the four of us will have to share”
The disappointment in Daichi’s tone was palpable, like an arrow through your heart. You guys were best friends, you had obviously shared rooms and beds before. Why would it matter now? Ever since you had known them you had been comfortable sharing beds etc, even after they started dating. The fact it was different now obviously made you think back to the conversation you overheard. Maybe the person they were adding didn’t like you or they thought it would be inappropriate considering they were courting another person. 
You felt Asahi shift beside you and slammed your eyes shut once again. 
There was no way you were letting them know you were awake. If you had to face them before you fully calmed down, there was no question on if you would end up crying. Also you deeply did not want to give Asahi his hoodie back. There was a lingering feeling in your mind that you would never have an opportunity to steal it again. A sharp twinge of panic rocketed through your stomach at the thought. Of course, there was a chance their new s/o wouldn’t mind, but not many people were comfortable with their partner being that close to someone else. 
“It’s okay” Asahi soothed, “i’ll carry them”
Yeah, like you were going to let that happen. If any one of the three men touched you right now you were sure to burst into tears. Deciding that was the best time to break your facade, you pretended to stir. You hoped the red lights didn’t reflect on the glimmer of tears in your eyes. The cold, wet gravel seeped through the mesh of your shoes as the boys started leading you towards the room. No noise was made apart from the crunches under your feet - small victories, you mused to yourself. You adjusted your bags in your hand so you could grab the room key from Daichi’s hand. It was bronze in colour with a red plastic tag, slightly faded but you were able to make out the number 32 on the front. Locating the room, you were quick to pull away from the rest of the fatigued group, finding it easy to speed away from the sleep-addled men under the guise of dinding some comfort from the rain. Behind you, Daichi held his hand to his chest as if your hasty touch had scalded him. You chewed on your lip slightly, feeling bad at the upset you might have caused. Only hoping he would take it as you being tired, you shifted your gaze to the room door and marched on. 
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The room itself was painted a gaudy yellow, with a brown patterned carpet that had obviously been unchanged since the motel itself was built. There was a large bed in the middle of the room, big enough for the four of you easily, but your eyes were driven to the sofa to the side of it. It was a loud red, sticking out sorely from the rest of the room. The harsh red was an assault on your retinas. How fitting, you thought to yourself. Scoffing, you laid your bags on the couch, pulling out some shorts and one of Koushi’s t-shirts to sleep in - rushing into the bathroom to change as soon as the other men walked in. 
Thinking you had escaped, you sighed and leant against the door. Only to hear the voices of the three men loud and clear. The thought of escaping out of the tiny bathroom window became suddenly very tempting. 
“I wonder what’s wrong with y/n” Koushi asked, seemingly dismissive.
“I’m sure we’ll find out soon, they don’t hide anything from us” 
You scoffed again under your breath, if only they knew. Still, you couldn;t fault Daichi for comforting his partner. 
“Wait look what I took the other day Suga, it’ll cheer you up”
You heard Azumane pull out his phone and then a resounding ‘aww’ from the grey haired man.
“I wish we could ask them to join us sooner but we have to wait till we’re back huh?” Suga lamented, “wish this trip could be over already” 
Ouch, that one hurt.
He was obviously showing a photo of this mystery person. You really didn’t understand why they hadn’t told you yet. It wasn’t like they could predict your horrible reaction, or that they even knew about your feelings. It made the doubtful pit in your stomach grow and twist, pulling you into a nauseous state. If they really wanted this to be over so soon after it began, there was really no point in you staying. They were obviously preoccupied with this other person - it was like you were never even there to begin with. 
A knock on the bathroom door made you jolt. Reluctantly, you peered at yourself in the dirty mirror and cringed at the sight. There were tear tracks dried onto your skin and your eyes were rimmed with an irritated colour. The sadness couldn’t be more obvious. Hastily, you rinsed your face in the sink, patting it down with your t-shirt. Taking a moment to breath and calm yourself, you turned the door knob. 
Daichi’s concerned face met you on the other side. Well, there goes being inconspicuous. You shot him what you hoped was a reassuring grin and pushed past his shoulder slightly. It was obvious he wanted to say something to you, but he stayed silent. They all watched you hastily grab a blanket off of the end of the bed and reach for the door. Not looking back you called behind you.
“I’ll be right back i just have to, uh, make a call so don’t wait up”
Well done, very convincing, you mused as you shut the door behind you. 
The gravel once again let the damp seep into you. Cold air prickled the skin on your legs while you walked towards your destination. Like all good motels, there was a pool a little bit away from your room, cold and full of rain water from the earlier weather, but it was a welcomed solace from the suffocating presence of the room. It was dimly lit but had no cover, so you assumed nobody would yell at you for using it. The water was surprisingly clear and cold from the earlier rain. Perfect for you to dangle your legs in while you waited there. Rain always calmed you when your thoughts were racing and you assumed the pool would work the same way. Relationships and people might change to you but water, the feeling of it moving over your skin, that would always be the same. 
You thought back to one of your earliest memories with all three of the boys, after you had come to the realisation you were hopelessly in love with all three. It was during first year, towards the end of the summer months, when the leaves had begun to tinge into soft yellows and deep reds. The rain had started pouring that day unexpectedly, breaking through the muggy weather that the last three months had left behind. The icy cold raindrops were a welcome feeling on your heated skin. All three of you had ran from volleyball practice to the courtyard outside, spreading your arms towards the sky like uniform-donned angels - thanking the sky for it’s gift. Of course, you had all got soaked but you smiled even after you had all separated to walk home. 
Simpler times, you thought to yourself sarcastically. The feelings had been so new and exciting at the time, hardly the depressing lingering in the back of your mind as it had been recently. There had come a time in school, you’re not sure when, where you had sort of accepted it would never happen and promptly gave up. Whether this was before or after the three announced their relationship, you had forgotten. Not that it mattered either way. 
Reflections in the water rippled when you dipped your legs into the surface. You stared as your reflection was distorted, mussed about in the small waves. The water settled once again and you were left with the cold, hard truth of the image you had become. Your rimmed eyes and tear tracks seemed to only accentuate the already exhausted look on your face. It was as if you hadn’t slept in weeks. Suga liked describing the sparkle in your eyes when you got excited about something - apparently it reminded him of a snowglobe or something, whatever he had said. You sighed, meeting your own eyes in the water. They were empty of any sparkle. 
You swished your legs around the water again, a weight lifting off your shoulders as your face was contorted once again by the waves. 
A ringtone rang out from next to you and you scrambled to shut it off. Bringing the phone up to your ear, you were met with the soothing (if not minorly monotone) voice of your club manager and best friend. 
“Hello?” you sniffed into the receiver. 
Luckily for you, Kiyoko had escaped your seemingly never ending list of crushes. She had been a fast friend when you had met and, luckily for her, she was currently driving somewhere around the Japanese countryside with her girlfriend. 
The dark-haired girl was also one of the only people in the world that knew your secret. Which was most likely the reason for her phoning. 
“How are you holding up y/n?”
You scoffed. 
“As good as i can i suppose” you joked, shoulders tensing at the lack of response. 
“Okay, i’m doing horribly, i swear they’re doing it on purpose”
She hummed, never one for many words. 
“Did you know they wanted to add another person to their relationship? They won’t talk about it when they think i’m awake but i caught them in the car. They seem so,  so excited and i hate that i can’t just be happy for them”
Gnawing on your lip, you waited for a response.
“Do you need  us to come pick you up?” she questioned, almost hesitantly. 
You stopped and thought about it. Was it the best idea for you to stay? There was a feeling poking at the back of your brain that this trip would go horribly wrong but you weren’t too sure it would be the best idea to leave either. There was no real excuse you could give the boys and you had been planning this for a while. Chewing on your thumbnail, you made a choice. 
“I don’t think you need to get me” you began, “i’ll see how it goes but, uh, be on standby i guess”
A melodic hum rang from down the phone. You weren’t sure what it’s inflection was. 
The call ended quite quickly after that. It was expected, the hour was late and Kiyoko definitely had better things to do than audibly observing her friend having a breakdown. It would be a lie to say you didn’t sound as pathetic as you looked. The rain had started falling again towards the end of your conversation so you had stuffed your phone in your pocket and hugged the worn blanket tighter around your bare arms. 
You had failed to see a shock of cropped, brunette hair disappearing behind your room door.
The cold rain drizzled down your scalp and down your neck, leaving goosebumps in it’s wake. The rain seemed to peel some of the pressure of of your shoulders. It gave you something to focus on so that you didn’t have to think so hard for a while. Quieting the thoughts spinning round your head like whirlpools. Closing your eyes, you laid back on the wet tile and imagined spinning your hands around in the frigid water, creating your own whirlpools. Ones so powerful you could jump right in and they would suck you away from the motel - to wherever you wanted to go. Maybe you could stay underwater for a while, away from everyone. Kiyoko was a strong swimmer, she could bring you food and company. Maybe you could make some less complicated friends with the fish and little crabs that lived on the seafloor. 
When you peeled open your wet eyelids, your reality confronted you like a slap to the face. The motel was still the motel, and the pool's surface remained unchanged. 
“y/n!” yelled a voice from behind you. 
Rolling your eyes, you peered up from between your lashes. Suga had run out of the room, holding one of his partners' jackets above him in a mockery of a shelter from the rain. You would think he would have the sensibility to choose a waterproof one. 
His shoulders were drawn close to his body under his knitted cardigan, silvery brows drawn close to each other. There wasn’t much exchanged between the two of you but the worry on his features was hard to miss. You suppose you did look somewhat like a corpse at the time. Even worse - a cold, damp one. Even now, you looked back up towards the sky and snorted at your own silliness, as if they were even thinking about that. 
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Asahi looked at the exchange from the winder, choosing to accompany his boyfriend outside when he saw your body twist and return to its previous position. Being one of the more sensibly dressed of your group - he grabbed a parka and headed out next to the shorter man, perching his chin on Suga’s shoulder. 
“I wish i knew what was going on in their head sometimes” Asahi commented from next to Koushi’s ear. 
His voice was soft enough and they were far enough away that you couldn’t hear them. In all fairness, without facing them anyone would have been completely unaware that they were talking. They both observed your sodden state, noticing your eyelids fluttering closed as you slipped off to sleep. 
“I would love to know how on earth they can sleep in this weather” Koushi commented dryly, “they’re going to catch their death because of the damn rain one of these days”
The brunette chuckled, wrapping his arms around his lover’s waist. Asahi had a comforting effect on almost anyone that truly knew him. A real gentle giant, his presence had the ability to both command attention and become a bean of solace for anyone that needed it. It was hard not to feel comfortable around Asahi Azumane. Something his boyfriend could attest to enthusiastically as his shoulders finally withdrew from next to his ears.
“They seemed happier out here in the rain than they have on the entire trip so far”
If he hadn’t been right next to his jaw, there is no way the taller man would’ve heard Koushi’s bitter muttering. And some part of him wished he didn’t, because then he wouldn't have to face the fact that his statement was entirely true. Even now, as you drifted off into sleep, the smile that had been missing the entire trip had somewhat returned to your face. It was refreshing to see but the two men only wished they had been the cause, not a weather pattern. The lines of your body were less harsh, less bunched up into each other. Your limbs hung loose on the tiles and the water instead of coiling and wrapping around each other like fishing line - the desperate attempt to make yourself smaller had not gone unnoticed by your companions. 
Asahi bit his lip. 
“We should get them inside” came the sleep-addled voice of their third and final partner. 
Daichi was dressed the least sensibly of all of them, only wearing a pair of chequered pyjama pants. Of course, as he was leaning in the doorway and not actually outside, there was no need for much else. A flower of guilt had bloomed in the pit of his stomach at overhearing the other two’s conversation. Your behavior had not gone unnoticed by him, but he had initially assumed you were just tired. It was overtly obvious to him now that something was very wrong. 
The three men trudged the small distance to your snoozing figure, not caring much if they got soaked. Daichi sat you up next to the pool as the other two worked on drying your chlorine-coated legs. The coarse fabric of the towels did little to disturb your slumber, only causing your knees to draw up to your chest and a small hum to escape your parted lips. The gaze of the shorter brunette man would probably have burnt holes in your skin had you been awake at the time. However, the contentment of your slumber went undisturbed and you turned your face into his bare chest, snuggling into it. 
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part two is up! i've already finished part three so I will hopefully post that tomorrow <3 reblogs and comments are always appreciated, stay sexy!
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Estrangement.
the feeling that you do not belong, especially if you are around a group of people.
pairing : sawamura daichi, sugawara koshi, azumane asahi x reader (Poly ship)
summary : With daichi and asahi's birthdays being only a day apart, it seems like both boys have the birthday blues. Reader is a bit on the stoic side, very chill and not very emotional. Both boys are sadge :(
warnings : A bit of swearing, mentions of smoking, familial issues, mentions of being depressed, mentions of being suicidal
genre : angst to fluff (hurt to comfort)
author's note : I thought of this last night, a small scenario that fits perfectly for a specific few headcanons I have for both boys. With that being said, enjoy. btw I rambled, a lot in this. It's long as shit. So for all my readers who love long angst, here you go. *kith* :>
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As the clock hits midnight, the stars twinkle above you. The day shifts from the 31st of December to the 1st of January. You had already given your present to Daichi, and now was Asahi's turn. The three of them walked onto the balcony with you. The strong smell of marijuana from your bong could be smelled from your room.
"Hello, my love." The oldest one of the 3 spoke softly. You could tell something was wrong, he sounded like he had a hitch in his throat.
You blew out the smoke from your mouth and inhaled it into your nose.
"Hello, darling boy, happy birthday, my sweet boy. What should we do later today for your birthday? I know, let's go out for lunch, for yours and daichi's birthday. I know we went out yesterday for your birthday, 'mura, but I just like spoiling my sweet partners, is that so wrong?" You rambled on, your words slowing and slurring around just a little because of the marijuana.
You leaned in for a kiss towards Azumane, but was stopped.
"Um, why don't we head inside, it's a little cold. I don't want you to get sick." Asahi spoke, just barely above a whisper.
You nodded and walked back inside your room. Once you sat back down onto your bed, you spoke up.
"Alright, I may be high, but I'm not an idiot. Asahi, you sound and look like you've been crying, 'mura, you too. What's wrong? I'm always here if you need to talk to me, you know." You spoke, placing your lighter and bong on your dresser.
"It's nothing, really sweetheart, we promise, just Dai and I have been having a few issues. We just don't want to bother you with them. We know when you smoke, you aren't in the right mental headspace." Asahi replied.
You sat up and put your things away.
"Well, no not necessarily, sweetheart. I'll always have time to listen to you. Go ahead, tell me what's going on in those pretty minds of yours, both of you. Koshi, you're welcome to vent to me if you would like as well." You explained.
Asahi sighed hesitantly, and began. "When you look at me it's like you don't see me. I fell in love with you the moment I saw you, but you've changed so much, so now I feel like I don't know who you are anymore."
He looked around the room, practically at everything but you. Your gaze was set, tears forming in your eyes and your throat closing as he continued, "What happened to you, my love? Where have you gone? I miss the old you, please, if you're in there, I want you back. I need you back. Come back to me, please, darling." His eyes were glossy and filled with tears, until he looked at you while glancing around and was filled with regret.
He never meant to make you cry, he never wished to be the cause of your tears, but there you were. The silence that followed was suffocating, both of your minds racing, you were speechless, had your weed addiction gotten that bad? Could you even call it an addiction?
Sure, it was your mind - numbing thing, you used it every now and then, and everything that happened in that time was mushed around in your brain. What had he seen? Was there more to this than you thought?
You reached towards his hands, but he pulled them away. He slowly reached back to intertwine your hands together. "I need you to tell me what you've been seeing. Please, what have I been doing wrong? Talk to me, don't be scared, you're not going to hurt my feelings by being honest." You were wiping your eyes, your mind was spinning and you felt like throwing up.
His thoughts and mind were racing, his first instinct was to comfort you, to tell you he was sorry and that he loved you. But you said that he should be honest right? He's always honest, but maybe this time he was too honest?
His hand rubbed against the back of his neck as he thought about just giving in. He knew this was best for a relationship to thrive, communication, it's just he didn't think it'd be so... empty of love or warmth. He pondered continuing, but something just told him to keep going, and get it off his chest. He felt like he couldn't breathe.
"I don't know.. I just feel so invisible around you now. Whenever I'm here, I try and be intimate with you and hold your hand and stuff, but you always push me away." He recalled, as he watched and felt the grip of your hand tighten around his.
"You've never shown signs of not liking pda, so what changed? Whenever I talk, I always get the feeling that you're not listening to me. You don't come on dates anymore, either, and it's not just me who's noticed that one." He was bringing up point after point and you didn't know what to do or where to begin to explain that this is all just a big misunderstanding.
"My anxiety is eating me alive right now, and I never want to ask this, ever, and God, I hope it isn't true. Tell me I'm overthinking, please anything. You're all I have left, baby, please don't you leave too." He sobbed, his throat closing and he coughs. After what feels like forever in silence, he begins to speak again.
"I'm just going to ask before I puke, have you ever fallen out of love with us? Has there ever been a time where you stopped loving us? If you have, I understand, but please, I'm begging you, I'll get down on my knees if I have to, please don't leave just yet. I've lost just about everyone and everything, I can't lose you too. Not yet." He sniffled, his heart skipping beats and his breathing heavy and rapid.
His tears fell onto your hands as you looked at him, with your eyes and mouth open in shock. Every heart warming memory replaying in your mind, each one longer than the last. This was it. You had waited for so long, for someone who would love you as an equal, who'd treat you with respect, someone who wouldn't use you, whether that be for your intelligence or body or anything really. You had a grasp on it, and it was...over? No, it can't be over, not after you wasted so much time trying to find it.
Your tears kept falling and your throat kept closing, your silent words falling on deaf ears. After a while of silence, you held your head up to face him. His eyes searched yours for some sort of comfort, some kind of sign, something that told him that this was all a mistake.
Your depression had gotten the best of you, which was why you started smoking in the first place. Just to make life a little easier to bear. It prevented you from going out and being social, from being you. The one Azumane cherished and loved so dearly.
"I- No." You stumbled, not knowing where to start. There was so much you wanted to say, but you never knew how. Your throat started to open up again as you breathed, and with that, you tried to explain to him why you were the way you were.
"I was diagnosed with severe depression a couple months ago, and it hasn't been the best. The antidepressants make things worse and I feel like I am outside my body. I've smoked before, and it felt good, so I thought it was the best option. I didn't realize how much it was hurting you." Your tears were falling, but you decided to get everything out, it was now or never.
"It came to the point where I couldn't get out of bed, I would go days at a time without brushing my teeth or showering. I wasn't just depressed, I was suicidal. I didn't want to go through this everyday. I was put on suicide watch twice in a month. I hated everything part of it, and I wanted to see you guys, I thought that would make me feel better, but I realized I never told you guys." You continued to explain as you saw all of their eyes widen at you in horror and guilt.
You hesitated before continuing, "It made me so sad to see suga posting and texting me pictures of your dates' and all the stuff you guys would do and I wasn't able to be there, much less respond. They'd take my phone while I was there and I couldn't get it back until I left."
You coughed and caught your breath, before speaking again, but sawamura stopped you.
"Babe, stop. You don't need to keep explaining. We are so sorry. We never knew you were going through so much, but please, if something like this happens, tell us please." He desperately whispered, his tears falling down his face as he walked over to you. He sat down and gave you a hug, snuggling his face in the crook of your neck, sobbing out apologies.
You felt your heart beating in your stomach, as you ran your fingers through his hair, trying to calm him down. You turned your head over towards asahi, who's mouth was open, but nothing came out.
You shook your head before whispering, "Don't apologize, none of you need to apologize to me. This was my fault. I owe you an apology, asahi." You said before clearing your throat, and resuming.
"My dear asahi, I am so terribly sorry that I kept this from you and led you to this false narrative of myself. I was too lost in my own head to be able to communicate with you about what was going on. I'm so sorry for making you feel invisible or that I didn't love you, I am not using my depression as an excuse, so please don't think I am. I want to be clear when I say this, and I want all three of you to know this: I have never fallen out of love with the three of you, I swear it. I have never thought about it or will in the future." You sniffled as you rambled on but finally concluding your apology.
Azumane and Sawamura looked up at you, their eyes bloodshot and puffy, as they both squeaked out the question, "You promise?"
You replied without a second thought, "Yes, for eternity. I will love all of you until we're old and gray and we look like raisins."
They all chuckled softly, asahi and sugawara coming over to embrace the two of you.
"This has been a lot of back and forth, can we please rest? We can go out for breakfast as an official first date into our renewed relationship." Koshi declared, the two other boys nodding in agreement.
You glanced over at your window, so much time had passed, and the sun was just starting to come up. You looked at your clock, which showed 5:47am.
After staring into the darkness of your room for a couple of minutes, you were brought back by asahi intertwining his hand with yours, but when you looked over, the three boys were all fast asleep, entangled in each other's arms.
After sleeping the day away, you all slowly but surely got up to get ready for your date. You got dressed and freshened up, brushed your teeth all nice and clean. As you looked in the mirror, you couldn't help but stare in shock.
Asahi came up behind you and looked in the mirror with you, a small frown forming on his face.
"What's wrong, my love?" He asked, kissing your cheek.
"Is that me? That's me. Oh my gosh." You sniffled. It had been so long since you actually were excited about dressing up and putting on makeup.
"Yes, darling. It's you and you're so beautiful." He replied, pulling out his phone.
"What're you doing?" You questioned, as you saw him look down at his phone.
"Hm? Oh nothing, just making sure suga and daichi are ready to go. Let's go, shall we?" He asked, holding his hand out.
You smiled, a genuine smile, and he could see your face light up, something it hadn't done in a while, and he just melted seeing how excited you were.
"Daichi? Baby boy, you ready to go?" Azumane called.
"Dai?" He tried again after hearing no response.
"Let me go see what's taking so long." He stated, walking away from you and sugawara.
Daichi was in the bathroom, fixing his shirt collar when he just happened to look into the mirror. Had his face gotten fatter? He looked like he gained a lot of weight. His family was right, he did lose track of himself.
'No, no it's fine. I'm okay, I look fine. But, my face looks so fat and chubby. Who am I kidding? They wouldn't date me! Not like this. Maybe I should just stay-' He was pulled out of his thoughts by Asahi knocking on the door.
"Hey, you okay in there? Do you need any help?" He asked, while walking behind him, his hands sliding down his waist, wrapping around Daichi's hips.
"It's nothing, it's just.. Does this make me look fat? Does my face look chubby? God, I look so ugly, what am I thinking." Daichi muttered, turning his head away in shame.
Asahi's eyes widened, he had never heard Sawamura be so concerned about his looks.
"What? No, babe, you look so handsome. You look perfectly fine. Yeah, your face is a bit chubby, but so is the rest of you, which I love and I wouldn't change one bit." Asahi replied.
"My family was right, I should lose some weight. It doesn't look good." He retorted, dropping his head in regret.
"Baby, listen to me. You said yourself that you prefer being chubby than having an athletic figure. We're going to support you no matter what you want to do. You shouldn't listen to what your family says, they're not always right, ya know?" Asahi responded, cupping Daichi's face in his hands.
Daichi smiled softly, and leaned his head onto Asahi's shoulder. He hummed softly, before standing and kissing Asahi, as a thank you before walking back towards you and Sugawara.
Asahi smiled, and walked over.
"We should take a picture! Something to remember!" Sugawara chimed.
"We all look nice, why not?" You added.
You all went outside and stood in front of your house, the sun shining brightly.
Asahi grabbed his polaroid, and aimed it perfectly.
"Alright, everyone, smile!" He said while hopping into the photo.
The camera clicked and the photo looked perfect. Asahi slipped the photo into his phone case and hopped into the car, along with the three of you, ready to start fresh.
For the first time in a while, you felt good. You felt..happy. You felt like you again, the one that they fell in love with.
They wouldn't have it any other way.
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hope you guys enjoy, comment "bee" if you got this far, this was a bit long.
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