Special interest are amazing. But they still disable many autistics.
I love my special interest. My love for Pokémon and bats and paw patrol is amazing. But they still disable me. I can’t social with many because these constantly on mind. When willingly talking self will only talks about special interest. And when conversation change from interests, will get upset and switch it back. And many conversations with me is switching between my interests and what the other person wants to talk about.
When not actively engaging in interests, feel empty and not sure who am, although always feel that way, the feeling get when not have interest around is completely different. When not interested in my special interests am so much more deregulated and irritated and struggle communicate much more.
I still love my interests, but it feels like all really have. They disconnect me from others, they make me feel lonely and trapped while also helping me feel something. My interests are disabling, and are for many. Yes they good and fun and happy but everything has a bad side and that includes special interests
Prepare for a long post, because I finally finished scrolling through pics on iMDB, like I have to share this with someone 😭And yes, I'm gonna talk your ear off, but like how can you not??? Look at all these-
Looking like a hootling or a cat ksjfkdfj 😭🫶
I posted a snip of this already, I can't get over it 😭😭 Casually side-eyeing the entire FT13 production, he looks so offended LMAO
I know he's just about to attack, but like HELLO???
Looking like he's about to take a pic of the wilderness around, he's so proud of the forest he protects fr fr <3
Looking like he's getting a migraine from all those people he has to chase 😔
I just like this pic of Hodder in front of the camera <3
Is this what an existencial crisis looks like?
I'M SORRY
There are also cool, serious ones
And I gotta say, Friday the 13th (2009) went crazy with potential wallpapers
Also
I know it's just a model of his mask, but like 🤭
And now the final part of "my special interest going crazy" post
what matters most about your interests is that they make you happy. whether other people find them productive is irrelevant. you don't have to produce anything. you are not a machine. your interests aren't for others. your interests are for you. do what makes you happy.
No because the way I get so VISCERALLY angry when someone refers to an animal as albino when they’re actually leucistic, erythristic, or xanthochromatic is both deeply irrational and greatly unhealthy
ALBINISM
Total loss of melanin in the body, i.e. skin, hair/fur/feathers, and eyes (the eyes look pink/red because the lack of melanin in the eye exposes the blood vessels within it to light, which then reflects their red hue)
LEUCISM
Partial loss of melanin in the body; the pattern of melanin distribution is unique in each case, so some people or animals with this condition may have patches of typically-colored skin/hair/fur in addition to pigmented eyes, while others may only have the aforementioned ocular pigmentation
ERYTHRISM
Abnormal prevalence of reddish pigment in the skin/hair/fur/feathers of an animal; concentration of this pigment varies case by case, so humans/animals with the condition can present anywhere from only slightly pink to intensely red in color; to my knowledge, the condition does not affect the eyes
XANTHOCHROMISM
Abnormal prevalence of yellow pigment in the skin/hair/fur/feathers of an animal; similar to erythrism, color intensity can vary from light golden hues to deep yellows; again, to my knowledge, the condition does not affect the eyes
OBSESSED with the fact that buttons got so popular in England during the 13th century that they had to pass laws limiting how many buttons you were allowed to put on a garment. They really had to bring in the government to shut down the button mania. Buttons are the sexiest clothing fastener.
Have you ever wondered what flower from Victorian flower language you are? I have! I have a quiz about it! (my credentials are that I have a spreadsheet of over 600 flower meanings)