#but i would also be lying if i said i do not fucking support jk rowling's bullshit words

[jessieroses]

Dear Joanne Kathleen Rowling,

#jk rowling #fuck jkr #harry potter #every day it gets harder to separate the art from the artist with harry potter #i would be lying if i said my WIP book series wasn’t heavily inspired by harry potter and helped me feel less alone at a messy time in life #but i would also be lying if i said i do not fucking support jk rowling's bullshit words #bullshit isn’t even the right word #this is why the highest honor for my book series would be it being considered better than harry potter #anything to discredit this bitch #trans rights #trans rights are human rights #respect my trans homies or i'm gonna identify as a fucking problem

[not-goldy]

Tkks once again in group chats accusing Jk of being a shit headed boyfriend to Tae, while ignoring Tae walked hand and hand with Jennie. Where was your sympathy for Jungkook bitch? If JK is dating Tae like you claim. Imagine how Jk felt seeing Tae parading Jennie around in public and throwing his relationship with her around in Jk's face. This is the picture you are painting of TK right? So why does Tae get a pass to shit on Jk's feelings and gets to fuck around with other people, but you draw the line at Jk doing it? Why does Tae get to take vacations with Jennie. To NY, Jeju and Paris, but you draw the line at JK vacationing with Jimin in NY/CT and Japan? You ignore pictures of Tae and Jennie on vacation, Tae in her bed. Pictures and videos Jk had to see by the way, but you wanna raise hell over Jikook taking shirtless pictures on vacations and Jimin posting one for his birthday. That's too much, but Tae in Jennie's bed is okay. You don't actually give a fuck about Jk and you know deep down TK isn't real, you just want a reason to hate on Jimin cause you're jealous lonely fucks. You focus on Tae, but you also want him to be a helpless victim being emotionally abused by Jikook, cause you get off on it. You are sick twisted fucked up in the head mental cases who need lots of therapy. I am not joking or being funny. Ignoring Tae has a whole entire girlfriend and still focusing on Jikook. Can you just say out loud, you think Jk loves Jimin more then you think Tae loves Jennie and it threatens you. See with Taennie out of sight, means out of mind and you can relax a bit. Jikook however are in your faces and you are forced to watch Jk in love with Jimin and not your fav.

Don't get pissed off at Jikook cause your favs had to catch up through videocall and Tae didn't even know Jk cut his hair, when y'all said TK would shave them together and enlist together and its not happening, while Jikook been snuggling in each other's beds for months on their private trips and making big future plans together for months behind the scenes and about to take their next journey together, in the military together. You had a chance to be happy for Tae and Jennie. You had a chance to support Tae and support his happiness a relationship that made him so giddy and so happy. You didn't. Instead you chose to lick your tkk leaders chronic lying assholes who has gaslit you and continued to ignore every red flag and ship two men who aren't dating and now you mad cause the walls of truth are caving in on you. Should have got out of your imagination when Tae told you.

Smh

We should put them on an intergalactic slave ship and send them off to another galaxy for aliens to do with them whatever they please 🥺

[jazeejae]

Wow!

To justanarchive1 You mentioned... 4. Now this is the most important. If JK is with Tae every time he gives updates, then there's nothing, we as Ji’kookers can complain about. We may think what Tae is doing is not nice BUT it's JK who's still choosing to do everything he shared with Tae. Tae is NOT lying about these things. All of this indeed happened (except tattoo thing). So, which is worse. Spending all time with one person or the said person saying it online? In this sense, Tae is not doing anything wrong, even if he has a hidden agenda. It was JK who spend days and hours gaming with Tae, it is JK who goes bowling with his friends, it's JK who posted a cropped pic of their private trip, it's JK who went to Tae before he went to Qatar or even the day JM was returning home from Paris. It was JK who didn't support JM's work online, it was JK who's going shopping with Tae. if JK likes to do everything with him, except coming online to say a Hi to his own fans or at least give 2 fucks about Jimin's existence, Tae is simply making it online. Not pulling lies out of his ass. I, JaZee Jae, disagree with #4 above in bold letters: Is this your opinion or a Tae’Kookers opinion? JK is not with Tae, it is Tae that comes to JK! Didn’t JK ask Tae, why is he there? I also feel that Tae knows what he is doing whether we think it is nice or not. JK is on a Live Stream with 10,000+ fans watching him, he is not going to show dissent toward Tae. Can you imagine how many fans will cause drama if he did? C’mon now we must think better.  You mentioned: “Tae is NOT lying about these things”.  What things?  Tae has a habit of telling fibs here and there.  Did you witness JK and Tae gaming with each other and if you did how much time was spent besides what Tae said on a Live Stream who mentioned JK but no proof of JK was physically present and so, it is nothing but hearsay.  Show the cropped photo of their private trip.  Show proof that JK was with Tae before Qatar!  You can’t make assumptions by hearsay.  #4 is laughable, really, JK didn’t support JM, how do you know this?  Did you attach a listening device on JK or a tracking meter on the car he is riding in?  How do you know he went shopping with Tae, were you there or did you hear Tae say that?  LoL, How do you know that Tae is not feeding his fans B.S.? If this was a court case... it would be dismissable!

[nervouscupcakeinspace]

BTS FIC RECS (PART 2)

Jeon Jungkook/Jung Hoseok | J-Hope

Don't Get Charmed by shikiso

When an injured omega is found on their territory, Jungkook's instincts scream danger. He is the pack's omega, they don't need another one. Jungkook is doing a good enough job by himself, protecting the den and soothing the tension off everybody's shoulders.

Why is the pack so adamant on keeping that useless omega in ?

They have Jungkook, they don't need Hoseok.

Why can't they even see his little game ? Hoseok definitely knows how to play the scared and helpless omega. But, if he manages to trick everybody, he can't trick Jungkook. He is immune to his sweet scent and sweeter eyes.

He won't fall into his trap.

Jeon Jungkook/Park Jimin

Omega Drip by sugamongoose

Park Jimin is the kind of alpha who makes you coffee and asks about your day before reducing his partner to a crying, writhing mess on his organic cotton sheets. He doesn't even seem to care one bit that Jungkook is a broken omega who doesn't get wet when he's supposed to.

“Are you busy right now, alpha?” Jungkook asks, holding his breath in anticipation. He can already visualise getting on his knees for the smaller man, can imagine those soft-looking hands petting his hair in approval when he shows just how good his mouth is.

Jeon Jungkook/Kim Namjoon | RM

Every Kind of Way by Oh_Hey_Tae

And then he realizes, quite belatedly, that he’s not supposed to be shaking the hand of the barista. Because that’s weird. And uncalled for. And really, really weird.

So Jungkook draws back his arm, grips the straps of his backpack, and promptly flees the building without a word spoken. Which is fine. Sometimes you have to get out of awkward social situations and blacklist particular cafés and adjust your route to school to avoid said café and the barista with the heart shaped face and his sweet pea scented hands. It happens.

“Jungkook-ah, meet Kim Namjoon.”

And sometimes during your bi-weekly dinner one of your good friends introduces you to said barista with the terribly soft hands who also happens to be getting his masters in social work to help underprivileged youth in inner city neighborhoods. Which is fine. This is fine. Jungkook is doing just fine.

 (Or: Jungkook adores everything about Namjoon except that the man can't catch a clue.)

Here Is What I Know by Oh_Hey_Tae

There are flowers growing on Namjoon’s arm. They aren’t real flowers, of course. That would be absurd. Impossible. Ridiculous. But Namjoon spends most of his lecture on Kant watching the garden of ink bloom on his skin, beginning at his pinkie and spreading across his wrist, trickling down to his elbow, curling up and around his bicep and out of sight under the sleeve of his shirt. Irises and peonies and roses and sunflowers. The girl who’s sitting beside him is staring, and when caught, gives Namjoon a bright-eyed grin before glancing back to the board. Namjoon spots a faded smiley face inked into the skin of her thumb, what looks to be a grocery list scrawled over the back of her hand. Notes or reminders from her soulmate maybe. Soulmates. Huh. It looks like Namjoon has one of those now.

try to resist, i still want it all by exarite

At first, Namjoon doesn’t think much of him.

He looks familiar, but he’s too far away for Namjoon to really see or scent out his dynamic. He’s cute, but Namjoon's not new to cute boys either. He's far too used to handsome, and pretty, and everything in between in the industry.

But then he stands up. Namjoon's eyes catch on the swell of his belly, and every nerve in his body lights up, his mind going blank, and—

Oh, he breathes. He's pregnant.

::

Namjoon fucks a pregnant Jungkook.

just let me adore you by elle_O_moonchild *

Rockstar omega Jungkook has never let an alpha tie him down. He was independent, and happy, and had no need for a domineering knothead to mess up his career and lifestyle.

But powerful and wealthy alpha Namjoon only wants to spoil the pretty omega rotten.

or

A smitten alpha Namjoon gets a weary omega Jungkook to go on a date with him and shows him just how good they can be together…

Jeon Jungkook/Kim Seokjin | Jin

more and more and more by moonsuns

"If you haven’t had sex by the time you’re twenty, then I’ll have sex with you. That way you’ll have a guaranteed end date for your virginity.”

“Do you promise, hyung?”

"I promise."

The problem was, Seokjin never expected to be called on it.

you shouldn't give it to me (good like that) by jamaisvore

opposites in the eyes of the media, but a perfect match in each other's arms.

or: supermodel!jk x rockstar!jin

Jung Hoseok | J-Hope/Kim Namjoon | RM

Pull Me Under by Oh_Hey_Tae

It’s been two weeks. Hoseok has managed to survive two weeks of Kim Namjoon’s progressively darkening thighs and his cheek craters and his swooshy hair and that stupid laugh he does that makes him sound like a bleating sheep.

Yoongi looks over his shoulder. Stares. Slowly draws his gaze back to Hoseok. “Are we discussing the same man who tried to brush his teeth with sunscreen yesterday?”

“Ew, he did that?”

“Your voice says that’s disgusting but your face says you’re enamored.”

Hoseok presses his palms against his eyes until he sees colored spots. “Make it stop, hyung.”

  (Or: Hoseok works at a summer resort and Namjoon is the newest lifeguard. Chaos ensues.)

fall underneath by crycoby

“Is this secretly about your huge crush on Namjoon?” Jimin asks, his fingers digging into the back of Hoseok’s neck in a way that is frankly criminal. “You know that if you like him, you’re going to have to be more direct. He doesn’t like to assume things about people and… He overthinks a lot,” he finally settles on diplomatically.

Hoseok groans, half because of the pressure and half because the idea of talking about this, about any of this, about any of the gnarled mess that is the clutch of Hoseok’s emotions in the knot of his chest, gives him hives.

//

hoseok could talk about his big messy feelings about namjoon, or he could talk around them instead and just hope for the best. yeah. that sounds good.

Methods of Mutual Stress Relief by Only_A_Fangirl

Hoseok cringes, “How weird would it be if I actually asked to jerk off in here with you?”

“Very,” Namjoon answers instantly.

Hoseok nods, “You can choose the porn.”

Namjoon blinks, “Are you for real?”

lyre lyre lyre by oliviacirce

Namjoo regrets every life choice that has led her here, to the hard wooden floor of this dance studio, where she's lying on her back like a beached whale.

Jung Hoseok | J-Hope/Kim Taehyung | V

the long and winding road by moonsuns

Hoseok is (basically) forced to go on vacation and leave his stressful idol life behind, at least for a little while. He wasn't expecting to find Taehyung, that's for sure. (He's glad he did, though.)

Kim Namjoon | RM/Kim Seokjin | Jin

Procurement by FlyYouFools1 (WIP) *

Seokjin and Namjoon have waited decades for a little of their own. Taehyung just wants to pay for his little brother's education.

Kim Namjoon | RM/Kim Taehyung | V

Dandelion Love (part of the (Not) Destined series) by almostsophie1

Taehyung is twenty-one when the word on his wrist turns ashen. The kind of love that soulmates share is forever out of reach.

(But enter one Kim Namjoon, who doesn't think the same.)

Kim Namjoon | RM/Min Yoongi | Suga

Bleeding Love by beebalm

Yoongi was already dressed and halfway to the door, nothing but a dry chuckle and a See you around when Namjoon asked for his number.

OR

It's not that Namjoon is hurt Yoongi only ever wanted him for a one night stand. And he doesn't have a crush. He just wishes they didn't have to keep seeing each other all the time.

Kim Namjoon | RM/Park Jimin

but i want it anyway by ameliabedelias *

Park Jimin’s roommate goes to study abroad for a semester. Kim Namjoon takes over the lease.

only lingering around you by moonsuns 

“I don't. I mean...this is going to sound awkward, but I’m...not really looking for a relationship right now.”

Namjoon considers, for a moment, elaborating and telling Jimin about everything with Hoseok, but there wouldn't be any point in that. And also, Namjoon is pretty sure that Jimin doesn't care about any of that anyway.

And he's right. At this, Jimin outright laughs. It isn’t a mean laugh, but Namjoon is pierced by the sound anyway. “Who said anything about a relationship, or even feelings? It’s just sex.”

Or, Namjoon and Jimin are friends with benefits.

Kim Seokjin | Jin/Min Yoongi | Suga

운명 (Fate) (part of the (Not) Destined series) by almostsophie1

Yoongi is part of that three percent population left without a soulmate word. It doesn't matter if he falls in love, because love isn't meant for people like him.

(Then he meets Seokjin.)

candy on my lips (part of the just desserts series) by moonbabie

Anonymous advice columnist and baby bi Kim Sujin meets queer club president Min Yoonji, and does the following: writes some cheesy advice columns, cuts her hair, and figures out her shit. (aka a queer romcom meets emotional constipation, self-discovery, and clueless wlw)

Min Yoongi | Suga/Park Jimin

pull me closer in the backseat of your rover by moonsuns

Jimin had just wanted to get off. He didn't think he'd end up with a boyfriend at the end of it all.

Or, another friends with benefits AU.

Nip & Bloom by sugamongoose (WIP) *

The year is 2021, and yet traditional and oppressive views of alpha/omega relations run rampant in the Korean society. Unmated Park Jimin is placed in a government programme which pairs delinquent omegas with support mates to make them more comfortable in their submission. Jimin’s alpha for six months turns out to be Min Yoongi, a tiny music producer who wears fuzzy sweaters, and who won’t stop talking about his kitten Holly.

“You look like an omega,” Jimin blurts out. The strange alpha flashes him a smile that reveals the pink of his gums. “Is that something you prefer? I saw your file, and it said you identify as queer.” “Oh, you looked at my file just to see if I like to fuck other omegas? Knot swelling yet?”

POLY RELATIONSHIPS

OT7 - Relationship

indiscentsible by cloudyworld *

Jungkook had been a little disappointed when, after all the build-up and speculation, he'd presented as a beta. Betas are great! They play an important role in society: level-headed, big-picture thinkers, the solid foundation that holds everyone together. But that pull of instinct that comes with being an alpha or omega, the feeling of belonging... He was crushed at the thought he might never get to have that.

In a pack with three alphas and three omegas already, presenting beta was a gift; Jungkook learns to see that too.

Precious Mettle by glitterandgilt (WIP) *

Jin loved his nest. He'd built it very carefully from the ground up. Spent centuries on selecting the individuals he wanted to spend the rest of his immortal life with. He was proud of his nest and protected it with a possessive love that rivaled a dragon's guard on their trove.

Jin didn't get the chance to go through that evaluation process with his newest treasure. But he would never let it go.

Or

When Jin's blood is stolen and used to sire a new fledgling, Jin has two choices: to ignore the strands of magic binding him to his new childe, or to lay claim to another jewel for his collection. He chooses the latter and drags his entire nest into a situation none of them were anticipating.

Kim's Seven by Gobi17 (WIP) *

Jungkook, 17 year old YouTuber, is in awe of the 6 hot boys who have adopted him online.

Bangtan are a dangerous group of vigilantes who seize the opportunity to kidnap the stepson of their latest target.

Found Kin by Adaptive_Artist (WIP)

Jungkook is starving. Food doesn't make anything better, and his teeth ache like someone is hammering on them. He thought he was cursed. Turns out he's a hatchling kin, and is now the precious baby of the renowned Kim nest. He's also growing little fangs.

Huh.

love bites (series) by feraljk (WIP) 

Summary from the first fic:

newly-turned vampire jungkook still has a lot to learn, but his hyungs are there to help him. taehyung enlists yoongi and jin to teach the fledgling how to teethe and helps him discover how much of a bonding activity teething can be.

or: trans koo and tae teeth on their hyungs and also come

Isn't it lovely? (all alone) by hopefully2020

At age eighteen, all citizens are given a concentration that will determine their fields of study. A small empty square on their wrist will gain a color corresponding to their skill set. Everyone’s fear is that their square color is black, meaning they are destined for a life of crime. When Jungkook turns eighteen, he waits anxiously for his square to gain color, only to be presented with a blank square. He is shunned by his family, having to struggle through high school while trying to figure out what to do for the rest of his life. Jungkook's life gets flipped upside down on the day of his twenty-first birthday when the store he works at is robbed with Jungkook at the cash register. Fearing for his life he believes he is going to die, only to be saved by a figure in black with a mask covering his face. To make things even worse, Jungkook suddenly becomes the target of one of the largest drug syndicates, solely because of his new connection to his savior and five other men who turn out to be the biggest crime lords in Seoul. What happens then, you ask? Well, then the blank world Jungkook always saw starts to drip with black, just a little bit.

blueberry peaches (a serendipitous summer) by elle_O_moonchild (WIP)

Jungkook spends a life changing summer working at a beachside car wash and meets 6 new lovers who change his heart and life forever.

Jeon Jungkook/Jung Hoseok | J-Hope/Kim Namjoon | RM 

Falling For an Alien From Amalthea 5 by Pyotr_Keats78 (WIP)

Jungkook has been in and out of the hospital for years with various medical problems. Eventually, his heart becomes so weak that no human medicine can save him. Believing he will die never having come out as trans to anyone, he gives up. That is until his brother Jimin tells him, “You have two choices, Jungah: you can stay here in this hospital and get high every day until your heart fails you, or you can go to Amalthea, grow a parasite, and live.”

Jeon Jungkook/Kim Taehyung | V/Park Jimin

Mentoring on Marsa by FlyYouFools1

Jungkook comes to the planet Marsa after being promised a full scholarship to Marsa National University. When the scholarship falls through, his academic advisor gives him the number for a mentoring service for newly stranded omegas on Marsa. With rent due, no way home, and no success in finding a job, Jungkook calls the number. The organization sends him Min Yoongi, a fellow omega who's been living on Marsa for 8 years. Yoongi teaches him how to survive. Jungkook's first attempt at survival is alpha couple Jimin and Taehyung.

Features: Yoongi doing his best to teach Jungkook how to manage handsy alphas, handsy alphas (like all of them are touchy) taking liberties with omega protagonists, and my best attempt at writing problematic but entertaining sex. A lot of fluff too, actually. The alphas are fluffy as hell with the omegas, and pamper them a lot, even though their actual behavior is wrong.

Jeon Jungkook/Kim Taehyung | V/Min Yoongi | Suga

November (series) by cuttothequickk 

Summary from the first fic: 

Sometimes, Jeongguk gets so lonely he doesn't even feel alone anymore. He's practicing, and he's very good at it. Loneliness. Being alone. It's blustery cold, and the leaves are falling from the branches of trembling trees, and Jeongguk is alone in a big city, shivering without a jacket, trying desperately to keep himself warm.

There is no one, and then there is someone. Two someones. The lovely winter boys from Daegu, Taehyung and Yoongi, opposites and equals, so loving and in love.

It would be ridiculous, really, if Jeongguk didn't fall for them, too.

Jung Hoseok | J-Hope/Kim Namjoon | RM/Min Yoongi | Suga

how, or when, or from where by moonsuns

“Stop calling it my quest,” Namjoon whines, and Hoseok laughs.

“You’re the one that said it first.”

“I was drunk.”

“Well, the bad thing about going out with people, is that you can’t take back the stupid shit you said when you were drunk. Especially when they’re way less drunk than you.”

Or, after Namjoon almost dies, he decides to go on a quest to live his best life, and takes Yoongi and Hoseok along for the ride.

(* Personal favorites)

MASTERPOST FIC RECS PART 1

#bts fic rec #my fic recs #mine #koobi #jikook #namkook #jinkook #namseok #vhope #namjin #taejoon #namgi #minimoni #yoonjin #yoonmin #ot7 #bts poly #bts

[taetaespeaches]

“Did we just give relationship advice?”

seokjin x reader (or oc) (feat. platonic jungkook)  genre: fluff; angst word count: 2.2K

a/n: Hi lovelies! Omg this closes out the two weeks of Jinnie! This fic is kind of just a slow subtle one that shows Jin and Poopsie’s growth as a couple. When Jungkook has a fight with his girlfriend, and he calls Jin and Poopsie for help. That’s really is, that’s the drabble. As always I hope you enjoy and thanks for reading! :)) 

LYING on your side atop your bed, you brushed through your boyfriend’s hair with your fingertips, the man telling you all about his stressful day at work.

He had come into the room not even five minutes ago, returning from the studio, falling onto the mattress and immediately taking refuge against your body. His head was resting against your stomach, his words muffled against your clothing, with his arm slung over your hip.

“They changed so much of the choreography,” he complained, you frowning in response. “It’s just-” he groaned in frustration. “I just barely starting getting the moves down and then they changed a bunch.”

You hummed, continuing to sweep your fingers through his strands. “I’m sorry, my love,” you sympathized with him.

Letting out a sigh, he nuzzled further against you. “I’m just tired.”

“Go to sleep,” you told him gently, flattening your hand against the side of his head, lightly scratching his scalp in hopes of helping him relax.

“I won’t,” he lazily protested.

Giggling, you peered down at him. “Why not?”

“I will not,” he said again, adamant.

“Ok, but why?” You asked through your light laughter.

“I’m cuddling my woman,” he told you, you scoffing, but fond.

“You can cuddle me when you’re sleeping,” you noted, Jin shaking his head.

“Nah uh,” he mumbled, looking up at you just as his phone dinged, notifying him of a text. The phone was out of his reach but within yours, so you grabbed the device off the pillow and held it out for him. “Who is it?”

Looking at the screen, you read, “JK,” out loud, dragging out the “ayyy” sound to mimic the way Jungkook and the members jokingly say it.

“Ah, I spent all day with that kid, what does he want?” Jin teased. “Read it to me.”

Unlocking his phone, you cleared your throat in a mock professional manner, pretending to make an important announcement. Jin chuckled tiredly at your act, but as your eyes scanned over the message you sat up a little straighter, dropping your fun attitude.

“They had a fight,” you said, Jin craning his neck to look up at you with confusion. “Hypothetically speaking, what the fuck are you supposed to do when you just had the biggest fight you’ve ever had with your girlfriend and she asks you to leave?” You read, Jin sitting up in response to the message.

Taking the phone from you, he read over the words himself, you leaning over to rest your chin on his shoulder as you read the message again. You watched as Jin typed out “What happened?”

The three dots signaling Jungkook’s incoming reply was instant.

JK: Long story short, I’m an asshole who doesn’t let my girlfriend relax or breathe.

Your eyebrows scrunched together as you read the message, Jin looking to you with the same confusion etched into his features. “Ask him where he is,” you nodded to the phone, Jin quickly typing the message.

The dots were instant again.

JK: The dorm. Should I be here?

JK: I’m freaking out, I don’t want to lose her.

Jin looked to you, you staring at the phone. “What should we do?”

You thought for a moment before looking up at Jin with sad eyes, your boyfriend having to hold back the small smile that tugged at his lips due to your concerned expression.

“Would you be mad if I said we should go over there and talk to him?” You asked, Jin letting the smile form, accompanied by a small chuckle.

“I would be shocked if you said anything else, love,” he noted, you scrunching your nose before biting his shoulder lightly in embarrassment of your softness for these boys. “Hey,” Jin complained cutely, gently wiggling his shoulder. You watched as he typed, “We’ll be there in a bit. You’re going to have to tell us what happened.”

The dots appeared quickly again.

JK: Both of you?

“I don’t have to be there if he doesn’t want me to be,” you told Jin. He typed out, “Is that ok?” Both of you understood Jungkook didn’t necessarily like opening up, especially when it came to his insecurities.

Jin leaned toward you to place a kiss to your temple, you leaning into the touch of his lips on your skin.

“You’re too sweet, you know that?” He complimented, you groaning in response. Jungkook’s message came in and you both looked to the screen, Jin letting out a small laugh at the message.

JK: Preferred actually.

“I swear, I raised the kid and he still likes you more,” Jin playfully complained, you giggling as you patted his thigh.

“Keep trying, maybe one day you’ll be the favorite,” you jokingly boasted, Jin scoffing as you both stood to go see your favorite youngen.

Making your way inside the dorm, you both looked around at the empty dorm. Everyone was with their girlfriends, well and Tae was with whatever his “Peaches” is to him. You both approached Jungkook’s bedroom quickly, you gently knocking on the door as Jin called out a “JK.”

The door swung open and the image of the man was devastating. His eyes were red and glistening, not with his usual sparkle. He sniffled as he looked at you both before turning away and making his way to his bed. You and Jin both watched as he sat down before your boyfriend stepped inside the room, you following behind.

Jin stayed standing, looking around the bedroom for a moment as you made your way to sit next to Jungkook.

“Kookie, what happened?” You asked gently, Jin’s eyes quickly looking to you and his younger member as you both awaited Jungkook’s response.

The boy took a moment to pull his thoughts and emotions together before letting out a huff. “I don’t even know.”

As you watched Jungkook carefully, your eyes scanning over his features, observing the emotions expressed in way he chewed on the inside of his lip, the bounce of his leg, and how the tears started forming in his eyes, gathering along his bottom eye lid, Jin’s eyes were on you.

Jungkook stared at the floor in front of him, almost in a daze and you were sure he was replaying the fight in his head.

“Jungkook,” you spoke softly, leaning forward to place yourself in his peripheral. His head snapped to you for a brief moment before he averted his gaze to his hands.

“We were both moody and stressed and she was writing an essay but I was acting like an ass and trying to get her attention and then it just escalated,” he explained.  

“Escalated how?” Jin asked from a few feet away, both you and Jungkook looking toward your boyfriend.

Watching him stand there, his face full of concern as he attempted to understand the conflict was only making you fall more in love with the man. His protective nature for those he loves and his desire to support those closest to him was not only something you loved about him but also something you admired.

It was a bittersweet moment, falling more in love with someone while another person you loved was experiencing some of his first heartbreak.

“She said she feels like I hold her to a standard of perfection and she’s scared of ruining that,” he said sadly, a tear slipping down his face as he wiped it away, sniffling again. “She has a fear that if she shows me imperfection, I won’t love her anymore.”

“Did she say how she got that impression?” You asked, Jin stepping forward before taking a seat on the floor below you and Jungkook.

“I praise her for being perfect and I nag,” he said simply, taking a deep breath.

“Even if you do praise her for certain things, you still love her completely,” Jin commented, you nodding.

“Yeah, it’s not like you don’t love the imperfections,” you added.

“She doesn’t feel that though,” Jungkook pointed out, his face contorting as his emotions began taking over.

“Oh, Kookie,” you cooed, wrapping your arms around him as he cried against your shoulder. “Have you two ever talked about this stuff before?”

Jungkook shook his head against your shoulder, you looking to Jin sadly. He gave you a sad expression, taking a deep breath.

“Jungkook,” your boyfriend called out, pulling the younger man’s eyes to him, you watching the interaction carefully. “Have you ever opened up to her?” Jungkook looked at his older friend for a moment before Jin clarified. “I mean, have you ever told her about your insecurities or the things that sit in your mind that you can’t really push away?”

Jin and Jungkook’s relationship was always so teasing and playful that you sometimes forgot how observant they were of each other’s habits and struggles. You watched the two men intently as Jin’s gaze stayed on Jungkook’s, the younger man thinking about the question.

“I don’t want her to have to deal with all of that,” Jungkook noted quietly, sitting up. You moved your hand to sit on top of his shoulder as you massaged the spot soothingly. Jin gave Jungkook a knowing look. “She said I’m always ok and that makes her feel like she can’t falter.”

“But you’re not always ok,” Jin commented. “Of course you’re not.”

Jungkook let out a breath of air at the comment, shaking his head.

“Do you want her to know that side of you?” You asked. “The side that’s not ok?”

Jungkook’s next breath was shaky as he nodded.

“You have to open up to her,” Jin told his friend. “She’s not going to feel comfortable showing you all of her and in her worst moments if you don’t do the same.”

Jungkook’s gaze was frozen on Jin as he mulled over the words.

“There’s strength in vulnerability,” you told him, both Jungkook and Jin looking to you, Jungkook’s eyebrows pulling together as if he was realizing something, Jin’s face being overtaken by a small smile. “I think it’s normal to worry about being a burden when you share your burdens with others. But she’s choosing you and your burdens. Let her be there for you.”

The words you advised Jungkook with were all too familiar to Jin, the man having to hold back his growing smile. They were very similar to the words and sentiment he had spoken to you several times throughout your relationship.

“You don’t have to protect her. All you’re really doing is keeping you both from connecting and having that person who just gets you. You two could have that,” you finished, Jungkook nodding slowly as he gained control over his emotions, looking more determined rather than broken.

“Did she kick you out?” Jin suddenly asked, Jungkook shaking his head.

“No, she was finishing her essay and said she wanted to talk later,” he told you both, you and Jin both nodding.

“Go back tonight,” Jin told him. “Whenever you feel is best, you know her. But show her you care enough to come back and figure it out.”

Jungkook nodded, stretching his arms out in front of him, looking visibly calmer and more in control.

“Are you good?” Jin asked, Jungkook giving a single nod of assurance. “You’re going back tonight?” Another nod. “Ok,” Jin chuckled slightly. “You two will be just fine, JK.”

“You will be,” you assured him, Jungkook turning to give you an appreciative smile.

“Ok, we’re gonna go,” Jin announced, you standing up from the bed, Jin holding his hand out in a silent plea for you to help him stand. You took his hand, attempting to pull him up though he was no help at all, giving you dead weight to tease you, you giggling as you tugged and strained.

Jungkook let out a small scoff mixed with a laugh, watching you both in slight amusement. Finally, Jin helped you help him to stand, you rolling your eyes when he wrapped his arm around your shoulders.

“Let us know how it goes,” you told Jungkook before pushing against your boyfriend’s waist to get him to move toward the exit.

“I will,” Jungkook muttered, watching you both walk away. “Thank you, guys,” he told you both genuinely, but in embarrassment as Jin prepared to tease him, you already sighing.

“Looks like I’m still raising you,” Jin smiled jokingly, you and Jungkook both groaning. Jungkook let his back fall to the mattress, holding up a hand as he shooed his hyung away, Jin’s squeaky laughter resonating in the room before you pushed him out through the exit.

“Go get your girl,” you yelled out to Jungkook before shutting his bedroom door.

The car heater was on low, the hum of a playlist echoing through the cab. Jin had one hand on the steering wheel, the other reaching across the console to rest atop your thigh casually. He hummed slightly to ‘Easy’ by Mac Ayres, you simply listening peacefully.

Suddenly, Jin’s humming was interrupted by a small breathy chuckle. Looking over at him, you observed his smile, a smile of your own forming.

“Did we just give relationship advice?” You asked, Jin smiling even wider in amusement of your question.

“Crazy, right?” He prompted, you staring at him from across the car.  

“Wild,” you responded, resting the side of your head against the headrest as you continued to watch your boyfriend. “Look how far we’ve come, my love.”

Jin looked over at you, a soft expression on his face as he squeezed your thigh. “Who would have ever though we had it in us.”  

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[lushjin]

No Strings|

Masterlist

Genre/Warnings: Smut, Public Sex, & a little hint of angst.

Pairing: Jungkook x Reader

Word Count: 7k

A/N: I know Jk college AUs are a bit cliche, but I can’t I’m a sucker for them.

Summary: Jungkook is your douche bag of a lab partner. A grade A fuck boy. The only time you could stand him was in bed.

“Do you think Jimin likes me?” You ask Jungkook casually.

“Uh, what?”

“Do you think he likes me?” You ask once again.

Jungkooks eyebrows furrow at your question. “I’m literally inside you. Can you not ask me if some other dude likes you while we’re doing this.” He motions to where you two are currently connected. Still, you seem unbothered.

“It’s kind of a boner kill.” He huffs ultimately choosing to give up. He’s already going soft and he ends up pulling out and falling next to where you currently lie.

“Why do you even care if he likes you?” He asks annoyed, and with a tinge of jealousy. “Why are you so suddenly taken by Park Jimin anyways?

“I don’t know honestly. It wasn’t until Tae told me that he might be interested that I started seeing him differently.”

“Well, I wouldn’t count on anything happening.” Jungkook interrupts your thoughts.

“Why not?” you pout.

“The dude’s really into his studies. After every party, he always goes home alone. Girls practically throw themselves at him and he never does anything about it. He’s cool and all but I don’t see him doing anything about it. That’s even if he’s interested”

Clearly, that’s not what you wanted to hear, but you know Jungkook’s right. Ever since you knew Jimin he always seemed really focused on his academics. You rarely ever saw him giving any girl a chance.

“Whatever. What do you know?” You say as you search for a pair of pajamas. That’s Jungkook’s cue to head out.

Your relationship with Jungkook was simple. Friends with benefits nothing else. You were more on the benefits side than actual friends. One hot drunken hook up made you realize Jungkook was a good fuck. He really lived up to the hype. After that night you both agreed that being friends with benefits was something that would satisfy and benefit you both. The only thing was, you didn’t like Jungkook. He was your annoying lab partner. A grade A fuck boy. Someone you couldn’t really stand. You could only tolerate him in bed.

The rules were clear. No strings attached no feelings. Just fucking.

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You’re on your way to Taehyung’s when Jungkook calls. You pull your phone out of your back pocket and answer.

“What?”

“Well hello to you too. What happened to you?”

“Nothing, It’s nothing, well it is something. Jimin. I can’t tell if he likes me or not. And it’s making me want to pull my hair out. I mean c’mon dude you either like me or not. But no-,”

“Yeah, I’m going to cut you off right there babe. I’m only calling so we can fuck. If your place isn’t available you can come to mine.”

“Ugh, you’re such a jerk.” You scowl even though he isn’t there to see it. He can sure as hell picture it as you say the words into the receiver.

“I mean I could listen to you go on about Jimin but I’ve only got an hour before work. And my balls ache to release in your pussy.”

“Whatever I’ll just go to yours.”

“Can’t wait.”

When you get Jungkook’s the door is unlocked. You slip inside and you’re met with a rank smell of weed and old gym socks. Jungkook comes from around the corner with a towel and a pack of condoms.

“Ugh, how do you guys live like this?” You question picking up someone’s shirt and tossing it in the laundry bin. That for some reason is in the middle of the living area.

“Hey, what did I say about cleaning up?” Jungkook berates you.

“Sorry, it's just that I can’t help myself. Plus do you really think I’m going to let you fuck me in this dump?” You clear a space for yourself on the couch.

“Sorry, princess. Didn’t have time to clean before you came over.” He’s collecting two water bottles from the fridge as well. “I’ll clean up my room just wait here a sec.” Jungkook disappears down the hall and you're left alone.

You look around and you shiver. God college boys could be so gross. While you’re waiting you hear the door open. When you look over you don’t expect Namjoon to walk in with Jimin.

“Oh, um hi.” You say awkwardly. Not expecting to run into Jimin at your dick appointment. Jesus you were a mess, and only in front of Jimin too. He eyes you as you sit on a couch littered with clothes. As if he’s thinking what could you possibly be doing here?

“Hey,” Namjoon speaks throwing his keys on the coffee table. Jimin doesn’t say a word. Only a curt nod with his lips held taught.

“Hey, babe rooms ready!”  You hear Jungkook yell from his bedroom. Your cheeks heat up instantly. He knows. He definitely knows what you’re up to.

“So yeah. Nice seeing you. Bye.” You’re up off the couch, quickly scurrying off to Jungkook’s room.

“What the hell Jungkook why did you have to scream.” You burst into his room. Making sure to keep your voice down.

“Okay I don’t know what you’re mad about now but please just get on the bed babe.” He whines. He’s already removing his clothes. He’s sat at the edge of his bed. Boxers are still on but you can see the evident bulge. Even at an unflattering angle for anyone else Jungkook's abs still looked perfectly toned as he bends over to remove his socks.

God your core aches at the sight of him. He was sure as hell a jerk, but still, you couldn’t resist this fucker.

You follow in toe removing your clothes as well. Shirt and pants are the first to go. Jungkook sits on his bed with his back pressed against the old wood headboard. His boxers off now and his hand strokes his dick, while he watches you undress. His eyes glued at the way your breasts fall out of your bra when you unhook them. He shamelessly gawks at your body. He can barely look away when he rolls on the condom.

“Jimin’s here.” You state. “You didn’t have to be so loud.”

“Sorry.” You take his lame apology and continue to undress until you’re fully naked.

“C’ mere and sit on it, babe.” He instructs his voice low and alluringly. Your insides ache for the feeling of him inside you. You get onto the bed to where he's sat at.  Your knees on either side of him and your pussy hovers right over his dick.

“Ask nicely Jeon.” You tantalize, your hips swaying over him. Like you could just sit on it but you’d rather have some fun. He looks annoyed because you’re pressed for time, but unless he asks nicely you won’t give in.

“Fine. Will you please sit on my dick.” He’s annoyed but he won’t do anything about it. Especially when your pussy is this close to him.

Your fingers are at your entrance fitting only two fingers in. There’s a bit of resistance without much foreplay.

“Think you can fit it in?” Jungkook asks. His eyes glued to where your fingers are currently. He lazily strokes himself as you finger yourself.

“Just give me a second,” you sigh. The feeling of your fingers and the way Jungkook looks as he strokes himself seems to liven up your arousal.

Jungkook’s hands are at your chest. He’s groping the swell of your breast. Licking his fingers before pinching your nipples.

When you’re wet enough you sit on his dick. Your tight cunt engulfing his dick. When you bottom out you start to move your hips. They sway back and forth deliciously grinding against Jungkook. He lies flat on his back, your hand on his chest to better support yourself as you move desperately.

“Fuck babe, someone’s horny.” He comments on the way your hips move so fast.

“Just- want- to- cum.” That’s true but you’re also taking out your frustration on the fact that Jungkook made you look like a fool in front of Jimin.

With that Jungkook's hands are on your hips pulling on them, guiding them faster against him.

“Mmm,” you moan softly when you feel your clit brush against the soft skin of Jungkook’s pelvis.

“Baby,” he groans gripping tighter onto your hips. “Why are you being so quiet?” He knows exactly why. He knows you’re keeping quiet because Jimin is here.“What? Don’t want your little boyfriend to hear what a dirty slut you are?” He thrusts his hips up. Making your body jolt up.

“Jesus Jungkook,” you moan quietly trying to keep your voice as low as possible. Jungkook teases again, thrusting up harder. You can’t help but moan out loud with the way he hits you so deeply. Your knees dig into the mattress and you pick up your pace. Craving to feel Jungkook everywhere. You guide his hand to your chest. One of his hands slides up your front to your chest. He gropes the flesh hard making you moan out again with pleasure.

“Jungkook please.” You beg he’s pushing your buttons on purpose. Trying to get you to moan louder. You’d be lying if you said you didn’t want Jimin to hear you. Somehow the thought of letting Jimin hear the way Jungkook fucked you made you even wetter. You clench around Jungkook’s dick and he growls.

“Oh God, you really are a little slut. You want him to hear us don’t you?” He goads his hips meeting your every move. He’s getting as desperate as you are.

“Shut up and make me cum.” You demand your body flushes and not just from the sex. You’re too embarrassed to admit this, especially to Jungkook.

Without hesitating Jungkook's fingers are on your clit. Your body tenses at the feeling. You push harder and faster you can almost taste your orgasm. You’re cumming quicker than usual.

“C’mon babe give Jimin a show.” Jungkook grunts using his grip to bounce you on his dick. You throw out all your inhibitions and moan as loud as you really want to.

“Fuck-,” Jungkook grunts again. You bounce on his dick like your life depends on it. His cock hits you in all the right places. Finally, the band snaps and you’re coming undone.

“Jungkook-,” you moan. Your nails marking his chest as your walls convulse around him. You feel your body light up in pleasure until it finally fades. You rest your forehead on his shoulder, your body limp with exhaustion. All while Jungkook fucks you mercilessly. He plants his feet flat against the mattress. Grabbing ahold of your hips as he fucks up into you from underneath. His breath is uneven and his skin gleams with perspiration. His grunts become louder in your ear and if you had more energy you’d try to get out another orgasm. Instead, you just lie on top of him, letting him use your pussy to get off. Jungkook cums with a groan, his spunk filling the condom. The way he twitches inside you feels so good even in the aftershocks of your orgasm.

When you regain your energy you slide off of him. Your body falling limp onto the sweat-soaked sheets. Jungkook’s ceiling fan feels like heaven. The air hitting you softly, cooling you down. You’re so blissed out you could fall asleep, but just then Jungkook is kicking you out.

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You’re tying your apron into a knot when Taehyung comes over to you. “Go to the register now.” He whispers to you. When you don’t move his gestures for you to move. “Quickly!” You don’t question him and head straight for the till.

Once you’re at the register you see why he wanted you here. In tight jeans and a loose-fitting sweater, Jimin stands in front of you. He’s scrolling through his phone waiting for his order to be taken.

“Hey Jimin,” You say keeping your voice as steady as possible. You're always a mess in front of him.

“Hey y/n I didn’t know you worked here.”

“Yeah, I need the extra cash. So what can I get for you?”

He takes a quick look over the menu as if he’s going to choose something different. You assume he ends up going for what he already had in mind.

“I’ll have a small iced americano." You ring up his order and Taehyung starts to make it. You know you should say something. Especially with the way Taehyung is looking at you. His eyes say ask him out, but you aren’t sure if you can do that. So instead you go for this settle for this. “So uh- any plans for this weekend?”

“There’s a party at Beta tonight, so I might go hit that up.”

“Oh yeah, Hoseok invited me.” Ever since you sloppily gave Jung Hoseok a handjob at a Beta party once. You were almost always invited to all their parties.

“Oh cool, I’m I guess I’ll see you there.”

He smiles cooly and your heart melts. “See you there.” With that, he’s taking his americano and heading out the door.

“Wow.” Taehyung comments on your lame interaction.

“Shut up, I couldn’t just ask him out.”

“Anything would’ve been better than “oh- um” he mimics your voice and you throw a rag at him.

“I hate you.”

“You love me.”

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Later that night, you're on your way to the party. After many outfit changes, you decided on a slightly modest dress. Well, who were you kidding it was slutty but the least slutiest out of all your dresses.

The party seems to have started long ago. People already passed out on the front lawn. You see Taehyung and go over to him and give him a hug.

“Have you seen Jimin?” You ask scoping the crowd in hopes of spotting Jimin.

“Nope. Only your rat of a boyfriend. He was asking for you by the way.” Taehyung jokes.

“He isn’t my boyfriend. Stop saying that Jimin might hear.” Taehyung only laughs. When he sees Jungkook coming your way he decides to bounce. “I’ll catch up with you later then, yeah?”

“Where have you been? I’ve been looking for you all night?” Jungkook complains as he hands you the beer he’s been saving for you for the past hour. It’s lukewarm now, but you still take a sip.

“With my actual friends Jungkook. I’m trying to have a good time.”

“I’m hurt I thought we were friends. Like the name says it all friends with benefits.” You can hear the sarcasm in his voice. You ignore it though your mind still focused on finding Jimin.

“I’m not in the mood Jeon.”

Jungkook didn’t get jealous very often, but when he saw the disappointment on your face that Jimin hadn’t shown up there was nothing but jealousy boiling in the pit of his stomach.

“Oh, I get it. Looking for Prince Charming.” He says a bit too bitterly. You brush it off as an annoyance that you won’t hop on his dick at his command. Either way, you're giving up hope that you’ll see Jimin. Jungkook seems to be your best option especially since he’s looking really good in his extra tight skinnies. God, you hated how hot Jungkook was. Jungkook catches the way you look him up and down and he knows that look.

He takes initiative and presses his chest against yours. His lips are at your ear you feel the warmth of his breath when he speaks. “Meet me in the bathroom upstairs.” Your body reacts with a shiver going straight down to your core. You know you shouldn’t do it, but you do it anyway.

You wait a few minutes then head up the stairs to find Jungkook. When you meet him in the bathroom he’s quickly pulling you in. His hands sliding up the front of your body to the back of your neck. Pulling you forward covering your lips with his. His tongue demanding an entrance.

The way Jungkook clouds your senses makes your mind go hazy. Every touch burning into your skin. He pushes you up against the bathroom sink. Before you know it, he was in between your legs. His tongue kissing over the lace of your panties. You couldn’t give him up. Especially when he felt this good.

His hands grip onto your thighs as his teeth pull on your panties. Feeling his tongue on your bare mound causes you to moan out loud. Luckily it’s drowned out by the booming bass.

“Jungkook,” you moan pathetically as his mouth gets very acquainted with your core.

You want to feel him everywhere at once, but you’d settle for his tongue for the moment. The way he licks your pussy is with precision. He knows exactly how to make you see stars. You’re gripping onto the countertop as his lips suck on your clit. Now he isn’t so precise he’s sloppy and hungry. He’s slurping you up like it’s his last meal, and when you cum you really cum. Body tensing your mind goes blank and your body is submerged in pure pleasure. You can’t count how many times Jungkook has eaten you out but every time it seems to get better.

Your body needed him. “Jungkook get up here and fuck me now.” You could’ve said it nicer especially when he just made you come but your pussy is so needy and ready to be filled.

“Please,” Jungkook goads as he’s getting up.

“Please Jungkook fuck me.”

“Well since you asked so nicely,” he’s quickly unbuckling his belt. Pants and boxers going off in one go.

“Fuck my life.” Jungkook curses he fumbles around with his back pockets as his cock stands tall so close to your core.

“What’s wrong?” You ask your eyes trained on his engorged dick. You stare at it like a starved woman. But who wouldn’t when they had a cock like that right in front of them.

“No condom.”

“Don’t worry I’m clean. You?”

“Yeah but,”

“On the pill now please Jungkook fuck me until I can’t see straight.”

He does exactly what you say. He pushes in all in one go. He fits so perfectly inside you. Your arousal coating his dick as he begins to thrust. You wrap your legs around him. Pulling him closer and caging him in.

“God your pussy feels so fucking good,” Jungkook groans he’s just as fucked out as you are. His mouth is on yours it’s nothing but teeth and tongue. You suck on his tongue like you would his dick and you get even wetter when he moans at the feeling.

You pull away panting. “Jungkook,” you moan his name and that only pushes him further to his orgasm.

“Jesus say it again,” he begs.

You moan his name again in a high pitched dulcet tone. You know just how to work him up. He fucks you faster and his strokes become deeper. You cling onto him as he fucks you relentlessly. He groans in your ear before his lips find purchase on the crook of your neck. Kissing your skin until it turns a pink hue. You can feel your second orgasm building up. Closer and closer with every thrust. Before you get a chance to taste euphoria again Jungkook’s hips stutter and he spurts his cum into your already soaked pussy. He lets out another groan. His muscles flex and his dick spasms as he comes.

“I was so close,” you complain as you drop your legs in disappointment.

Jungkook chuckles in disbelief  “So greedy.” He teases only because he’s just as greedy as you are. He wraps your leg around his waist while the other is grounded on the floor. You suck in a breath when his fingers dance at your entrance. Caressing the soft skin of your lower lips. Barely teasing at the entrance where you sop with his cum.

Finally, his fingers are in you. Stretching you out once again. He groans through clenched teeth. He’s pushing his cum back into you. The extra lubrication makes you keen. Jungkook has you wrapped around his delicious fingers. The way he makes you feel is like no one else before. You can’t stand it that you’re in here when you should be with Jimin, but that’s the hold that Jungkook had on you.

Any thought of Jimin is long gone when you feel his fingers on your clit. He rubs relentlessly until your skin blushes from head to toe. You wrap your arms around Jungkook’s neck holding onto him as you brace yourself for your orgasm.

“That’s it, there- there!” You moan, throwing your head back. You feel your walls pulse and then the feeling is gone. “Fuck,” you sigh.

Jungkook’s fingers leave your pussy. Exhausted from your two orgasms you decide to go home. You get yourself cleaned up and head back home.

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Working and going to school full time is really kicking your ass. Somehow though you manage to make it into work.

“You look horrible,” Taehyung states as he brews another pot of coffee.

“Wow, thanks dipshit.” You throw a rag at him and you both laugh out loud when it hits him in the face. Just then the bell chimes alerting you that a customer has entered the store.

When you turn around you see Jimin walking in the shop, in probably one of his most attractive looks. Tight jeans that hug his thick thighs, and an oversized flannel, that’s just unbuttoned enough to catch a glimpse of his collar bones.

“Hey,” he greets you in a soft voice and sweet crooked smile.

You try not to stare too much at his lips when you take his order. It’s his usual as always, but you always ask what he wants. With that Taehyung makes his drink and before you know it Jimin’s out the door.

“He definitely likes you y/n,” Taehyung says. Luckily it’s a slow night and you're able to chat with Tae.

“Yeah right.” You brush it off because you know it isn’t true. If it was he would’ve done something by now.

“Seriously y/n? You don’t notice how many times a day he comes in? The other day it was three times and I’m sure he was looking for you.

“Maybe he just has a caffeine addiction.” Still not believing it. You know Taehyung is just trying to make you feel better, but you don’t want him making you delusional.

“Yeah ok. Don’t believe me then.”

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The semester is coming to an end and winter break is just around the corner. You realize time is going so fast, but suddenly it stops once Jimin finally asks you out. Everything seems to slow down all at once.

You’ve never seen this side of Jimin, usually a calm, cool, collected guy suddenly jittery as he asks you what you’d like to do. You both stand there rosy-cheeked as the winter wind kisses your face. You’re lucky it’s so cold out, you could pass your blush off from the weather.

Jimin’s time couldn’t be more off with exams coming up the only time for a date you could have was a study one.

You meet in the library at noon. You’re the first to arrive and surprisingly you’re not as nervous as you thought you’d be. You’re already taking out your laptop and books when Jimin arrives. He comes bearing gifts. Coffee and pastries from the school cafe. He extends his arm out slipping a quiet ‘hey’ when he gets to you.

“Wow, I’m not used to people bringing me coffee.” You joke as you take the coffee from his hand.

“I know you get this stuff for free all the time, but I figured we’d need it.” He cracks a smile before plopping down next to you.

He pulls off his layers one by one until finally, he’s just in his very tight-fitting turtleneck. Oh my God are his abs peeking through the fabric of his shirt? You couldn’t help but gawk for a second. Luckily you don’t get caught.

Hours passed by and it only seemed like minutes. You studied for a bit, but when the conversation finally struck you couldn’t stop talking. Everything about Jimin was interesting. As it turns out he was quite funny too. You couldn’t suppress your giggles and that got you a few rude looks and a couple of shushes. You’re sure your cheeks were flushed the whole time, but you didn’t seem to care. The way Jimin made you feel was secure.

“I really think we should head out now, it looks like the library’s closing,” Jimin says as he starts to put away his things.

You finally look up and notice you’re the only ones left in the library. “Wow, time really got away from us.”

“I had a nice time though,” Jimin says as he watches you pack up your things. “Although I think I might fail my chem exam.”

“Oh no, I’m sorry Jimin!”

“Don’t worry about it. It was way worth it.”

You can’t help but glow from the inside out.

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Later that night when you're warm and cozy all snuggled up in bed, off in dreamland. You’re rudely awakened by a pounding at your door. You ignore it though, assuming it’s not for you and for your roommate. Because who else would you be expecting at this hour.

Your turn to see if your roommate is finally getting up to get the door, but she must be exhausted because she’s still knocked out.

Reluctantly you get up out of bed. You pad through the darkroom until you’re at the door. You crack it open expecting to see some random person at the door, but it’s definitely not who you were expecting.

“Jungkook, what are you doing here?” Your voice laced with annoyance. You step out of the room to not wake your roommate.

“I’ve been calling you I thought you were dead or something.”

“It’s called sleeping Jungkook.”

“Well, I thought something happened.”

“Since when do you care so much?”

“I don’t.” He leans in closer to you his breath hot on your ear. “What I do care about is that sweet little pussy of yours”

“We can’t. My roommates home.”

“She asleep? It won’t take very long.”

You’d like to tell Jungkook to fuck off and let you sleep but it doesn’t seem to work that way. Your body betrays you because now all you want is Jungkook.

You let him kiss your neck as his hand glides down the front of your body. His hand slipping underneath your cotton shorts. His hand feeling around idly.

“No hickeys Jeon.” You warn and he listens. Only licking and kissing the sweet spots on your neck.

“We really shouldn’t. We’re in the middle of the hallway for goodness sake Jungkook.”

“Relax everyone’s asleep. Plus I’m just feeling around.” He says coolly. Totally unfazed by the thought of someone catching you. Jungkook’s hand is now moving with a bit more purpose. His thumb finding the clit over your damp panties.

“Jungkook please,” you moan. You’re not sure exactly what you’re begging for. For him to stop or for him to give you more.

His thumb is relentless now. Rubbing circles against your swollen nub. Any thought of someone catching you is completely gone as you feel the pressure build between your thighs.

“Oh God,” you huff. You keep your voice as low as possible.

“I bet you’re real wet for me huh? I’d slide right in right?” Jungkook tantalizes. You should be ashamed but you know it’s true. He’d slide right in with no resistance.

“More,” you beg. Jungkook smirks it doesn’t take much for you to become putty in his hands.

His thumb moves faster. He won’t give in and give you what you really want, which is his fingers inside of you. For now, he settles for just getting you off as quickly as he possibly can. His body is pressed up against yours. You can feel his dick poking at your lower abdomen. He wants you just as badly as you want him.

“Fuck-,” you sigh as pleasure takes over your body. You want to scream, but you won’t. Instead, you bite down on your lower lip to keep the moans from coming out.

“God I love how needy you are.” Jungkook goads. His hand is working hard to get you off. Within the next few seconds, you’re sighing in relief. When the band finally snaps and you come undone.

“Jungkook!” You yelp out loud. You’re too far gone to worry about your voice. You’re in pure ecstasy as you cum in your panties.

Jungkook is quick to pull his hand out of your shorts and cover your mouth.

“You really want to get us caught don’t you?” You shake your head no in response. “Didn’t seem like it a few seconds ago,” Jungkook smirks. Removing his hand from your mouth. “I’ll see you around y/n.” With that, he’s walking away. Leaving you leaning against your door in confusion.

Wait what? Was he really leaving you like this? He didn’t even get himself off. You don’t even bother to stop him. Still confused and kind of shocked at everything that just happened. You let him walk away.

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Bzzt bzzt

Jimin: Hey I was wondering if you’re going to Beta party tonight?

It was the first time Jimin texted you and you can’t help how giddy it made you feel. The only thing was you hadn’t gotten an invite to the party yet.

You: haven’t gotten invited yet :/

Jimin: Well consider this your invitation.

         Would you like to come with me?

         If you’re free?

You: I’d love too

Jimin: great I’ll pick you up at 8

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You hate to admit how long it took you to get ready. You just wanted to look perfect for Jimin. Once you’re all done getting ready you wait for Jimin outside your dorm building.

When he pulls up you get in carefully trying not to flash your lacy underwear that you picked out just for him.

“Hey,” he says coolly and God you could melt just by hearing his voice.

The rest of the car ride goes well. Small talk here and there. You did have to try a bit to keep the conversation going, but other than that it went well.

He even held the car door open for you which once again you had to be cautious in order not to flash him his surprise for later.

“Care for a drink?” Jimin offers.

“Yes please.”

“Anything you’d like?”

“I’ll drink whatever you’re drinking.” With that Jimin is off in the crowd to get the drinks.

You couldn’t help the butterflies in your stomach. Even though this wasn’t exactly the ideal place for a date you were still really happy to be here with Jimin.

Once Jimin is back you down your drink a bit too quickly. You can’t help it, you’re used to drinking fast to get drunk. So you decide to limit yourself to only two drinks tonight.

The rest night goes smoothly. You introduced Jimin to your friends and they all love him. He charms each and every one of them. You’re so taken by Jimin that you can’t wait until you’re back at his place. That is if he invites you.

Soon the party fizzles out and you both decide it’s a good time to head out.

Jimin opens the door for you like the gentleman that he is, and this time that you get into the car you don’t try to hide your lace underwear. Your dress rides up and you spread your legs wide as you get in the car. Making sure Jimin has a full view of the lace panties. He is such a gentleman man because as soon as he caught a glimpse he’s quickly averting his eyes from your core. You found it so endearing.

When you get in the car Jimin tells you he wants to take you somewhere. He promises it isn’t anything sketchy. He just wanted to show you how bright and clear the stars are on the outskirts of town. You think it’s so romantic and you can’t wait to devour him under the stars.

Eventually, Jimin pulls over on the side of the road. No cars, people, or houses in sight. Before you get out of the car you decide you want to kiss him. You’ve been waiting all night and you couldn’t wait a moment longer. First, you pull your dress up enough to leave little to the imagination. Then you lean over the center console.

“Jimin,” you call. He turns to look at you and before he can even notice your underwear again. You’re kissing him at first it's sweet. Even though Jimin is stiff you take the initiative and pry your tongue into his mouth. What you don’t expect is for Jimin to pull away and look at you in horror.

“What are you doing y/n?!” Jimin questions, his eyes wide.

“I’m, uh- trying to-,” you stutter. You’re not even sure what you’re trying to say.

“I didn’t take you for the type of loose girls y/n.”

“But I-.” You couldn’t believe what was happening. The words coming out of Park Jimin’s mouth. You were wrong about him all along, and you felt like a fool.

“I’m sorry y/n I’m just not into those types of girls. The ones who sleep around with anybody.”

Your face burns with shame and embarrassment. Tears threaten to spill from your eyes. All you know is you need to get out of here as soon as possible. Without thinking twice you pull down the hem of your dress and get out of the car as fast as you humanly can.

“Wait! Y/n where are you going?” Jimin calls out to you. “I can’t just leave you here!” It’s true, you didn’t know where you were, but you couldn’t bear to be with Jimin for a second longer.

You ignore Jimin and start walking. You’re not sure where you’re walking to, but you just keep going. Eventually, Jimin gets tired of following you in his car and speeds off.

Once he’s gone you finally let it all out. Tears streaming down your face. You can barely even see your phone as you try to look up your roommate's contact to call her. You have no luck though she doesn’t answer. Neither do any of your friends on your contact list. They’re probably all drunk like they should be on a Saturday night.

The only person left was Jungkook. You swallowed your pride and pressed call. To your surprise, he actually answered.

“Hello?”

You don’t answer right away trying to collect yourself so you don’t sound like you’ve been crying.

“Y/n I don’t have time for this. If you want to meet up just text me.”

“Wait!”

“I’m listening.”

“Jungkook I need a ride I don’t know where I am. Please.” Your voice cracks.

“What happened are you okay?” Jungkook asks concerned. You can’t hold it in any longer and you begin to full-on sob again.

“Send me your location now. I’m on my way.”

Within the next ten minutes, Jungkook shows up in his beat-up Jeep. You never thought you’d be so relieved to see Jungkook.

“What the fuck happened y/n? Why the hell are you in the middle of bum fuck nowhere?” He says as he gets out of the car. You don’t answer you’re too ashamed to tell him what happened. He doesn’t push you though. Instead, he helps you into his Jeep, and you’re on your way back to campus.

“Need a drink?” Jungkook offers. He reaches over to backseat and pulls out a bottle of Jameson.

You look at him kind of weird as in why does he have liquor in his car. Is he just always stocked with alcohol?

Without you even asking he answers your question. “Was on the way to a party when you called. Just bring some party favors.”

“Thanks.” You sniffle and grab the bottle and take two big swigs.

“You don’t have to tell me exactly what happened, but I do need to know if you’re hurt in any way. Do I need to take you to the hospital?” Jungkook was expecting the worst had happened. He didn’t even want to think that someone could have possibly hurt you physically.

“I’m fine Jungkook. Maybe not mentally, but physically I’m ok.”

By the time you get back on campus, you’re already drunk. You really needed the alcohol to numb the pain that Jimin caused, luckily it did.

You’re not sure why, but Jungkook offers to walk you upstairs. You promise yourself not to sleep with him. Just like you agreed on last week. Even though you weren’t official with Jimin yet, you wanted to end your relationship with Jungkook. At least so you thought.

Old habits die hard though. You can’t seem to quit Jungkook. You’re not sure if it’s the booze, insecurities, or the fact that you’re horny, but that’s how you end up with Jungkook back in your dorm room.

You wrestle each other out of your clothes. You’re grateful your roommate’s out for the night. You really needed Jungkook’s touch right now.

When your back hits the twin size mattress. Jungkook is all over you. Taking his time savoring every part of your body. Your damp bodies intertwine and Jungkook makes you see stars like he always does.

It’s late and you know the sun will be up soon. You’re not sure what it is that makes you invite Jungkook to spend the night. It’s not a usual thing that happens, but maybe your mind was hazy from the intense orgasm you just had. Also, a part of you wanted to bask in the afterglow for once.

Jungkook’s arm wraps around your shoulder, and you lay your head on his. Minutes pass and you’re finally drifting asleep. What wakes you is Jungkook’s lips pressed against your temple. The gesture was foreign. Yeah, you guys kissed, but never like this. This was too intimate. Too sweet not the usual kiss that’s full of lust.

“What are you doing Jungkook?”

“What? I can’t kiss you?”

“Jungkook what’s going on?”

“Okay, don’t freak out, but I’ve been thinking a lot lately.”

You inch away from him before he can continue. Your mind is racing at the possibilities of what Jungkook is going to say.

His pause is taking too long for your liking. “What is it Jungkook? Spit it out.”

“I’m in love with you y/n.”

Your stomach drops at the bomb Jungkook just dropped on you. “What?” You’re not sure if you’re hearing things correctly. Maybe you’re asleep having a nightmare.

“I love you y/n.”

But you heard everything correctly, clear as day. Jungkook loves.

“You’re still drunk right?” You start to laugh in denial. Hoping that it’s really just some joke. The only explanation for this is Jungkook still must be intoxicated from earlier. Because there’s no way in hell that Jeon Jungkook loves you.

“I’m not drunk y/n. I’m serious. I love you.”

“Jesus Jungkook would you stop saying that.” You sit up hastily in your bed grabbing ahold of the sheets to cover you. Suddenly you feel so bare when just minutes ago you were so comfortable showing your skin to Jungkook.

“This can’t be happening. Are you trying to get back because I said we couldn’t sleep with each other anymore?”

“Why are you acting like loving you is so crazy? So what if I love you? So what if I’m in love with you? Just shut up and let me love you y/n.”

Suddenly your stomach flips. How could you not see this? How did you not notice that Jungkook was falling in love with you? Maybe he hid it really well. You’re confused more than ever now. This is not how things were supposed to be. No feelings just sex, but why did you suddenly see yourself with Jungkook?

“Jungkook, I don’t know.”

“Look you don’t have to say anything now. Think about it ok? I won’t stop loving you though.” His words cause your stomach to flip again.

Jungkook leaves you on your bedsheets soaked in essence from what happened moments ago. When things weren’t so confusing. When it was just you getting pleasure from Jungkook. His confession ruined everything. You couldn’t bear to think about it anymore. You drag yourself to the bath and soak until you’ve forgotten about the night.

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Work seems to drag on tonight. Everything seemed to drag on this week. Ever since that night with Jungkook, you haven’t been the same. Your friends noticed but you didn’t dare to tell them. Telling them would make it all real.

“Are you actually going to get some work done tonight?” Taehyung asks as he sweeps the cafe floors. It’s a slow night with only a few students studying but other than that the cafe is quiet tonight.

“Sorry just not feeling good.”

“Are you going to stop moping around and actually tell me what the fuck is going on with you?” Taehyung was one of your best friends you could trust him. So you decide to spill.

“Jungkook confessed to me the other night.”

“Woah Woah Woah. Jeon Jungkook?”

“Yes.”

“The same Jungkook who has the biggest fuck boy reputation on campus? The same person that’s the bro’s before hoes guy?”

“Yes, Taehyung!” You know Taehyung is shocked, but no one is as shocked as you still are.

“What do I do?”

“Honestly I’m at a loss for words.”

“You’re great help Tae.”

“Sorry I just wasn’t expecting Jungkook to actually like you. I know I joke about him being your boyfriend and whatnot, but it’s only to give you a hard time. I actually didn’t think he wanted to be your boyfriend.

“Yeah well, I didn’t think that either, but he does.” You huff. “Wanna know the worst part?”

“What?”

“I- I think I might like him back.”

Taehyung’s jaw drops at your confession.

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A/N: Please let me know if you want a part 2!

#bts smut #jungkook smut #bts scenarios #jungkook #jungkook fanfic #bts fanfic #lushjin writes #ksmutclub

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THE JAMMIEDODGER VIDEO ABOUT JK ROWLING (as recommended by a very polite anon)

so I go point by point after the cut but in short: they should read more feminist theory, they are lying, they are not as coherent as they think they are but they make some points, notably about the rapid onset gender disphoria that’ll need to check in more depth later on.Most of their sources were unfortunatly either on points I already knew or already agreed with.  Also that woman ( the “cis” one not Jammy), should really stop thinking being born a woman is somehow a privilege.

So the video starts by saying three things I agree with :

1)      Biological sex is definitely real

2)      Women’s right and girls’ right need to be protected

3)      JK Rowling is entitled to like support and write whatever she wants

 So far so good. Except it then goes on to say that TRA agree with that. Now maybe most do but at least some don’t. Don’t lie to me, Jammie Dodger.  

They then go on to misrepresent what our problem with “cis” is. Are they going to spend that entire video about trans people at destination of the non educated on that subject without ONCE defining what a trans person is? They are aren’t they ?

“TRANSPEOPLE AGREE THAT BIOLOGICAL SEX EXISTS!!” 

see earlier but given the number of people who are saying “sex is a social construct” and “sex is a spectrum” and “a neovagina is just like a vagina”, you may at least put a “most” in your statement here. Anyway this is not the problem we have, we wouldn’t even discuss this if it weren’t for the brain dead morons who argue with us about it.

“my biological sex -the one I was assigned at birth- was female” 

is Jammie here telling me he knows biology exists but his sex WAS female ? It still IS female. You’re a female. Moreover you cannot say I know biology exists and I was assigned a sex. The entire “assigned sex” is a refutal of biology by implying doctors choose a sex for you. This is stupid.

Strawman. They are saying radfems have no argument against “gender identity is a real thing”. The lies. Gender identity is not a real thing it’s just gender stereotypes and gender is a tool of oppression for women, it’s sexist garbage. I also notice they don’t define gender identity, this is starting to be a pattern, this video is aimed to normies but the only thing they defined so far is terf.

They did 5 fucking minutes on “transpeople know that biological sex exists” I am already exhausted.

Oh my bad they defined “gender identity” as “the gender you know you are”. THANKS A BUNCH THIS IS SO HELPFUL . Define gender please I beg of you.  

“They know they are a man but their bodies don’t match” 

okay so you agree that man and woman are words that depends on your body right? Since it can “match”, they are not gender then ? Nevermind he then says that man is their gender identity. This is not making sense.

Ooooooh the floating head analogy never heard that one before, this is a stupid one because gendies also argue that their gender is innate (unless Jammie here specifically says he doesn’t think that I’ll act as if he agrees with that statement) so the good question would be if you were born as a floating head and never even had a body would you still be a woman? And my answer here as well as plenty of people I suspect is “men and women don’t make sense if we’re born as floating heads what are you on about?”

“transwomen needs women’s right too” 

I know you think that is self evident but I’ll ask what exactly are the women’s right transwomen need. Abortion? Affordable periods product ? The right to have places free of male? oh wait. They are male so they can never have that can they ?

“so feminism also needs to believe in gender identity”

 because if we don’t our feminism is only for females and we exclude males. Notice how they didn’t continue their logic by saying how THIS feminism excludes transmen and nonbinary? Because it does, but guess who actually need the women’s right of abortion for exemple?

“transmen don’t need women’s rights” 

I FUCKING CANNOT YOU STILL NEED IT WTF ARE YOU ON ABOUT. OK I need them to define women’s right asap

“well JK Rowling said she supports trans rights”

 funny how you can understand how those words are not a proof that she in fact does but you still started your video by “we support women’s rights !!!”

“adding [to Harry Potter] content that was LGBT+ friendly” 

she added things that were gay friendly. I don’t remember her adding trans characters.

“transphobic” = saying men can’t become women. Whoah. The hatred.

“the lack of belief [in gender identity] is what she wants protected”

 yes and ? Atheism, the lack of belief in a god, is protected. Gender identity existence only proof is some people saying it does exists, it is not a scientific reality in any way shape or form.

“His biological sex was previously female” 

BUT WE KNOW WHAT BIOLOGICAL SEX IS WE SWEAR; Damn they spend 7 minutes on “transpeople know biological sex exists” and then keep acting like they fucking don’t.

After that they point blank say that gender identity is more important than sex, having someone who passes as an exemple. What about transpeople who don’t pass? How much you bet this will never be discussed in this video.

Anyway they follow that with that : 

Which is true but defining what a woman is does affect women actually (I know weird right)  so it’s completely irrelevant to the discussion here.

“When a large group of transpeople are telling you something is wrong please listen to them”

 please afford women the same courtesy. We are a large group of women saying males are not the fucking authority on what womanhood is but we are told to shut up. Listen.

“we cannot take the behavior of the minority [online abuse] and group it onto the majority” 

I agree with that statement but the majority still didn’t condemn the abuse. Honestly the people in this video did -just before saying HOWEVER but hey – but it is pretty rare to see TRA actually confronting the people who abused JK Rowling online, they cheered them on more than anything.

It is very telling how they spend more time in this video saying people collecting screenshots of the abuse JK Rowling suffered were “not cool” than the TRA giving them a bad name by actually abusing JK Rowling. They even say Jammy was also insulted online so TERF and TRA are as bad as each other right ?? Being called delusional or idiot is not the same as death threats sorry Jammy. (I doubt the “freak” one was from a terf tbh but even then, this is not even comparable) I mean didn’t you get at least one person saying they were going to kill you ? Because I did, and I have ,like, 200 followers. I find very weird that the woman here said “I received sexual assaults threats and this is as a cis woman!” as if women weren’t the primary target of sexual assaults threats. Yeah it’s the misogyny. What’s new.  You really should stop thinking you are somehow priviledged even when you are being sexually threatened ffs. What gender ideology does to a mf.

 “neither of these sides are innocent” 

oh come on, you cannot possibly means that the men who gave you sexual threats were terfs, this is ridiculous, you are just trying to excuse and diminish what people did to JK as per fucking usual.

 “persistent low level harassment” 

it hasn’t stayed low level tho. Stop trying to say you and JK are receiving the same abuse it’s embarrassing.

JK Rowling’s essay having real life effects on policies for exemple has an element of thruth ,even tho we disagree on wether or not this can be a good thing but your are deluding yourself if you think people assaulting transpeople are the sort of people whose views are in any way influenced by feminists. This is laughable. Also please stop with the guilt tripping, we are not responsible of the mental health of transpeople, we are not their therapists, sorry.

I love how they implied that the guy who forced GNC kids to behave as their assigned gender would somehow give a letter of thanks to a feminist. This is implying “terfs” want the same things as this maniac which is just a straight up lie, terfs absolutely adore GNC people and are mostly GNC themselves.

“What rights of women are actually being eroded by the inclusion of transwomen ?” I am glad you asked !! Well apart from the freedom of speech since “terfs” are losing their jobs and being deplatformed because of this, we have the inherent dangers of replacing sex by gender in what the law protects : https://www.aclu.org/blog/speakeasy/firing-mom-because-shes-breastfeeding-sex-discrimination this is a link to a story about a woman who was said being fired for breastfeeding was not sex discrimination because men can lactate. Do you see the problem ? Moreover there is quotas for women in politics etc….Women fought for their quotas and now males can have them, who do you think an employer would prefer someone who probably will be pregnant at one point or someone who never will ? and let’s not forget the right for women to have women only places :Women in prison are raped by the trans identified males in it .

“I cannot think of a single right that is removed from me”

 good for you maybe you should have actually researched radfems talking point before doing this video ? Your ignorance is not a good argument.  

“transwomen can use the women changing room because they are women” 

you keep saying that but apart from “they feel like women” you didn’t explain how they are women. This is the basis of this entire video and you never explained.  Also allowing any person who say they are women into the women’s changing room does not only allow transwomen does it ? It also allows lying freaks.

“You can protect cis women’s rights and transrights simulteanously” HOWWWWWWWWWWW, please tell me how to keep female only spaces (women’s right) while saying TWAW (transrights apparently according to them).

“transwomen can be the victims and cis women can do the voyeurism” 

true but did you forget we actually live in the real world and in that one males are much more likely to be sexually harassing people than women ? It is a brazen form of lying to tell women that since theoretically other women can also be creeps they don’t have to worry about males. Get a grip. Live in the real world for a change.

“It doesn’t reference transwomen but men pretending to be women” 

apart from “they feel it” you still haven’t told us what the difference is. You are aware nothing from an outside perspective distinguishes the two right ??

“there is no evidence of men pretending to be trans to enter female only spaces” and how would you know they are pretending ? This is the same problem again and again, if you define transwomen as men who feel like women then there is absolutely no way of verifying someone really is trans. And that’s a lie anyway since we do actually have proof of that happening?? There was that video making the room on radblr a while ago of a clear male pissing in the women’s bathroom saying (lying) that he was trans.

Yeah actually radical feminists would accept transmen in their bathrooms, but it’s not an easy question with an easy answer to know how to check they really are transmen. Although notice how they are again only talking about transpeople that passes ? I would feel safer with Jammy in my toilets than Hannah Mouncey for exemple :

  That is so obvioulsy a man in a dress.

“ If a transman with a beard and penis and balls can go into a women’s toilet and that is deemed okay because of his biological sex what is to stop a cis man from doing the same”

 I am sorry but are you saying a transwoman cannot have a beard and penis and balls ?????????? This is incredibly transphobic of you, you said that gender identity Is just feeling like a gender, how exactly does that mean transwomen cannot have beard ? If you want to know, radfem are arguing for a third toilet for transpeople, that’s our solution. What is yours ?

 Ok the next part is racist I’ll skip that thanks

On accusation of TERFery intimidating people and organizations “we haven’t seen these” again, your ignorance is not an argument, I am posting these on Tumblr where cryptoterfs arer numerous. Why do you think that is ?

Are they seriously saying Nike and addidas “accepted” transpeople because they “realized it was the right thing to do” ?????? Those companies employs slaves IN WHAT WORLD DO YOU LIVE IN??

“trying to make transpeople look crazy” 

the clownfish things were said online by real transpeople. We don’t need to invent thing to make transpeople look crazy, if there is  large enough group some people belonging in that group will say stupid shit .

“We support these rights”

 when speaking about women victims of abuse. This is a lie, the Vancouver rape shelter relief is often targeted by transactivists, recently a gofundme for it was cancelled because of transactivists, they are quite litteraly stealing money from raped women. This is not a small, inconsequential part of transactivism. 

“The trans-inclusionist views expand the meaning of women to include transwomen”

 It doesn’t expend shit actually since it excludes transmen and non-binary. If anything it reduces it.

They go on to say that transwomen deserves protection as women because of their murder rate. It doesn’t explain how being seen as women will help them here and anyway it’s a bold lie considering their murder rate is actually quite low. They also fail to consider how depriving transmen and nonbinaries of those same women’s right might be a problem.

Again they make the distinction between transwomen and men pretending to be transwomen without a way to identify which is which. This is starting to get repetitive and tedious. The problem is not that all transwomen are predators is that there is no way to see a difference until the predators acts, until a woman gets hurt, so accepting transwomen is accepting predators and saying transwomen feelings are more important that the women being hurt because of this. I disagree. The tiny tiny percentage of transpeople doing bad things is actually the same percentage as men doing bad things. If your argument could be used to say women only spaces shouldn’t exist at all because not all men are dangerous maybe you should reconsider your argument because I will not reconsider women’s right to have female only spaces.

“If you push transwomen out of female only spaces you push transmen in”

 Yes. I don’t even see where the problem is here.  Now why don’t we analyse the fact that if you push transwomen into female only spaces you push transmen out of them ? I don’t think transmen belongs in men’s prisons, do you ?

“Transpeople don’t dispute biology and don’t impact how female only diseases are treated” 

eat shit. They do impact this, every woman trying to say “female biology” get shit thrown at her faster than you can blink, stop lying to me Jammy. Do you think I would get called a bleeder, a fetus carrier, a motherfucking birthing body if transactivism wasn’t trying to erase sex ? Don’t you think the sentence “men can have periods” is not eroding biology ? Fuck off

Back to JK, Jammy is saying her disabling comment on her blog was not conductive to a conversation, I have to salute the straight face he says it with because do you really think a nice educated conversation would have taken place on JK Rowling’s essay ? They flooded her children’s book tag with porn for fuck sake.

“Thre is no explosion in young women who wishes to transition” sources ? Because it does seem to be true :https://onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/full/10.1111/jsm.12817

“the detransitionners rate is actually really low” hard to know but most people who transitioned did it not so long ago since transgender is a recent trend, we will have to wait and see to have a more robust number. But maybe they are right on that one, this is not going to be the one argument that changes my views unfortunately. 

“Does that mean we should stop people from getting plastic surgery then ?” 

lol you don’t know the radfem stance on plastic surgery do you ?

“There is more significant transphobia than homophobia” 

sources ? Because transition is used as converstion therapy in Iran so it is at least untrue in one country. 

“If transmen transition to escape womanhood why is there transwomen ?” 

You really didn’t research this did you ? the radfem answer is that transwomen are either gay men who have gender disphoria OR AGP (autogynephiles) read this if you want to learn more about it: https://grahamlinehan.substack.com/p/the-elephant-in-the-room

“why would people who have male privileges choose to give that up” 

you are assuming they lose their male privileges but I will need sources on that because most transwomen do not pass and are treated more as special men than as women.

“We have already shown you that transphobia is far more rife and damaging than homophobia” 

did I miss that part ? When ? You just said that ? Without backing it up ?

“anti trans narratives constantly contradict itself” 

No we do not, we are feminist so we OF COURSE we analyse men and women differently, this is an issue of gender which radical feminism posit as an hierarchy, trying to explain transwomen and transmen with the same arguments is doomed to fail because they were not equal in their relation to gender to begin with. Do you think black people trying to pass as white do it for the same reasons white people try to have more black features ? Of course not.

“What am I a lesbian or a homophobe ?”

 You are both, you are a lesbian in denial with a deep case of internalized misogyny and homophobia. You know yo can be both sexist and a woman right ? Well it’s the same here.

I heard “Simone de Beauvoir” and I knew they were going to be really fucking stupid with that “One is not born a woman but rather becomes a woman” quote and THERE IT IS! Please read the book. She is not saying male can become women if they try hard enough, she is saying basically the same thing JK Rowling’s quote said which is that “womanhood” as it is forced on women is alien and not natural and the point is that we should not accept it, it’s a feminist quote on femininity and I am so sick of men using it to say that they are women.

Transactivists acting as if sex recognition patterns don’t exists is exhausting so I won’t comment on “nobody checks if you have XX chromosomes before passing you over for a promotion” other than to say : passing over for promotions happens a lot when women are pregnant and after giving birth stop acting as if misogyny is unrelated to our reproduction capacities it is fucking insulting.

“transwomen will support [fights against tampon tax and FGM] too” 

FGM was a bad choice here considering transactivists tried to stop a bill against FGM .  I will need sources here actually since I never seen a transwoman fighting for women’s right in my life.

Ok I let a lot passes here because I’m tired but we are 48:40 in the video and fuck you “intersectional feminism” is not about males. It was for black women. It is not reductionist to say women are people with a vagina, this is just a definition, and one that applies to 50% of the population at that, there is litteraly no definition of woman that includes more people than that.

Imagine thinking “women are people with vagina” is reductionist but not calling women “vulva owners”. Please , I am begging for coherence.

“transwomen who experience greater abuse than cisgender women will ever experience” . 

This is revolting. I don’t have any other words. I am glad this is the end of the video because I would have stopped immediately if this was at the start. What abuse transwomen can experience than ciswomen cannot ? Because I would have thought forced pregnancy was horrific but maybe this doesn’t compare to being misgendered?

“most people are comfortable with transwomen going into women’s bathrooms” https://www.bsa.natcen.ac.uk/media/39147/bsa34_moral_issues_final.pdf

It says 13% of women are at least uncomfortable with sharing bathroom with transwomen, why are we ignoring their wishes? Because 0.1% of the population wants to ?  Whatever, the really interesting thing in this study is that for this question they defined “transwomen” as someone who has gone through all the steps to become a woman aka someone with surgery. I find extremely misleading that this is used for bathroom bills which defines transwomen as male identifying as women. Do you think the numbers would be the same if they specified the transwoman in question still has a penis ? Which is the case for most transwomen btw?

#anon #jammiedodgers #transgender #op is a terf #this took wayyy to long don't read this

[genderbinaryisforlosers]

everyone on the carte blanche for the ask meme

everyone? oh boy this is gonna get long ajfhdsf

JUNO

First impression: i, like a lot of people who get into the podcast without knowing a great deal about it, was expecting at most an ambiguously bisexual angst machine with a closely-guarded heart of gold. juno being an explicitly bisexual genderqueer angst machine is perhaps the most pleasant surprise of my life. the angst machine heart of gold characters were kind of my type at the time, so i loved him right away

Impression now: every time i think about juno’s arc from depressed mess held together by bad coping mechanisms, safety pins, and a few good strong puns into someone who can talk about his feelings, feel comfortable about being happy, and recognise when he needs to change, i want to cry about it a little bit. the depth of my love for juno steel has only grown along with him

Favourite moment: juno has a lot of great one-liners and i’m still a big fan of the “on the other hand i wasn’t wearing a watch” bit and who can forget such classics as juno finally deciding to stop moping over nureyev and move on only for him to open the door to his apartment and find nureyev sitting in the dark dramatically, but honestly nothing will ever hit me harder than his sudden, pissed-off declaration of “i can’t die yet, i still have shit to do!” in promised land. god.

Idea for a story: oh i have so many and i want to write most of them so no spoilers, but juno accidentally kidnaps a baby during a carte blanche heist and shenanigans ensue

Unpopular opinion: obviously we all know he’s dummy thicc but i feel like a lot of people forget he’s an actual genius, like the stuff he notices and how he strings it together is sometimes so obscure and he’s almost always right. oh, also juno is not skinny and i will not be taking criticism on that

Favourite relationship: this is so tough because every dynamic is so good, but i think it has to be juno and rita. those two are so good! the best best friends in the world!! i’m really a sucker for any dynamic that’s ridiculously in-sync so i loved these two as soon as juno saw rita’s notes in prince of mars and went “makes perfect sense to me” (which it probably didn’t, because rita, but he trusted that she knew what she was doing which is the important part)

Favourite headcanon: this isn’t really a headcanon but i still think about how juno is (was?) deathly afraid of heights but when he heard rex glass coming he still attempted to climb out of the window. either his aversion to working with dark matters/other people in general was so strong is overrided his fear, or his office was actually on the ground floor. not sure which of these is funnier.

NUREYEV

First impression: we’ve all seen the memes about nureyev knowing juno steel for one (1) day and deciding to Risk It All by leaving him with his name, look at this Hopeless Romantic, this utter DISASTER of a homosexual. the fact the very next time we hear from nureyev (at least directly) he’s patiently waiting in juno’s dark apartment to surprise him with a heist definitely supports this image.

Impression now: even after literally being inside peter’s head, i feel like we didn’t get a real sense of who he is until man in glass, where we find out he aggressively compartmentalises everything that causes him stress. he’s also distinctly someone who’s had his heart broken before, i think, which makes those first appearances of his very strange. but it does remind me of what juno says about diamond, and how he decided to provide the trust first and wait for the trustworthiness to grow in (only to get severely hurt), and i think that’s exactly what nureyev did. i am also... very uneasy with how suspicious he’s behaving this season because obviously i want to believe he’ll sort it all out and not betray the crew but... oof

Favourite moment: the beginning of what lies beyond pt1 where he’s affectionately bullying juno into taking care of himself? cleared my crops watered my skin etc etc etc

Idea for a story: i’d love to hear more about his past as a young thief idolising buddy and vespa (i can’t actually remember if that’s canon or fanon but anyway i wanna read it!)

Unpopular opinion: i think people often cling to an image of him that more resembles his first impressions in season 1 instead of seeing the depth that we’ve been given about his character in season 3

Favourite relationship: him and juno but honestly it’s a close call between them and his budding friendship with rita. even though she learned it by accident, his name is still a point of intimacy and it’s one less secret to keep around her which has to be a weight off his shoulders, at least a little? they seem like they could be really good friends once ultrabots is out of the way. juno steel love (and also bullying) zone activates whenever they’re together

Favourite headcanon: i’ve said it before and i’ll say it again - nureyev has never done a household chore in his goddamn life. he doesn’t know the water needs to be hot when you wash dishes.

RITA

First impression: honestly i’m not sure? i don’t remember having a big awareness of her in murderous mask but i remember loving her “note-taking” in prince of mars, i thought she sounded really fun and cute

Impression now: rita is really fun and cute, she’s also an extremely hardworking and dedicated woman who had the guts to throw in with a detective fired from the force and then invest all of her time and money into helping him help people.

Favourite moment: Rita Gets A Knife. enough said

Idea for a story: i don’t know honestly! i really struggle to write rita because her thought processes are so wild and i don’t think any story i could come up with would match mega ultrabots of cyberjustice.

Unpopular opinion: this shouldn’t be unpopular because juno steel himself shares this opinion but all future-jupeter headcanons are incomplete without rita also being a huge part of their lives

Favourite relationship: rita + franny 4ever obviously.. jk it’s juno & rita have you heard rita minute 3 they’re too adorable for this world. im still Soft over their conversation at the end of soul of the people when he said he couldn’t stay in hyperion anymore but he wouldn’t leave with the carte blanche if rita wasn’t coming because he was done leaving her behind, and she threw out all her hesitations on the spot and said call the big guy. speaking of, rita & jet are a close second. instant best friends i love them.

Favourite headcanon: i think this is basically canon now but rita being literally half the height of jet is so good

JET

First impression: “haha lorge funny man puts juno in the trash”

Impression now: jet sikuliaq is one of the dearest characters to me out of anything ever. he is a huge, menacing, polite, kind, sincere man who i would very much like to give me a hug. he’s the best aro ace in outer space and while being generally very levelheaded and straightforward, also takes every opportunity to fuck with juno because it’s very easy and very hilarious to him personally. he is everything my autistic acearo ass needed and i’m so glad to have him

Favourite moment: all of them every single one. him putting juno in the trash is of course a classic and every moment jet chooses to be funny makes my heart happy, but also every piece of genuine advice he gives. i’m a particular fan though of buddy recounting her years in the lighthouse and him saying he became concerned when she didn’t come downstairs at the usual time. “you took the door off its hinges.” “i was deeply concerned.” king of understatement

Idea for a story: again no spoilers for you but..... tools of rust time loop au

Unpopular opinion: this isn’t “unpopular” as much as it is unknown but jet is buddy’s queerplatonic partner and i will keep saying it until everyone believes it

Favourite relationship: jet and buddy,,, just everything about them. the way he suspects when she’s lying, the way she makes tea for him when she expects him to drop by. the fact he comes to check on her when she is 41 seconds late to the family meeting because it’s unlike her to be late and the last time she was late for something her brain was turning to radiation soup. but most especially the way she snaps at him to stay out of her business and he said he could not because he made her promise eight years ago to never stay out of the business of her health, no matter how many times she asked. they r literally in a qpr

Favourite headcanon: i don’t think this is true but i still think it would be funny if the ruby-7 used to be painted red but when jet got it he had it painted green because he Just Really Likes Green (as evidenced by his hovercycle). it’s very funny to me.

BUDDY

First impression: it’s been a minute since i relistened to time gone by but i’m pretty sure the first thing she ever says in the podcast is sliding up to depressed accidental whiskey thief juno and say “that’ll be ten million creds,” scaring the shit out of him, so needless to say i was in love instantly.

Impression now: my love for buddy aurinko has only grown and if it sounds like i already said that in this post it’s because i did about juno and it’s appropriate because the parallels are astounding. the heart of it all gave us such depth to buddy’s internal monologue and why she always sounds like she knows exactly what to say and what that’s like and honestly will i ever be over the heart of it all as an episode? unlikely. i think i’m gonna have a little piece of it in MY heart forever.

Favourite moment: everything she’s ever said is iconic as hell i especially like “in an impressive fit of hubris i’ve decided not to prepare my words for this vow” which made me laugh out loud but once again i must give it up for her iconic “I WANT TO LIVE” moment. honourable mentions to her taking rita out for ice cream and giving juno shooting lessons while she’s in her actual wedding gown. i love her

Idea for a story: buddy and vespa as sun/moon dieties.... that’s all

Unpopular opinion: stop drawing her with a fancy high-tech eye like the theia!! it canonically looks like garbage and it’s described in detail, please, i’m dying, also don’t minimise her scars you bastards

Favourite relationship: buddy and vespa invented romantic love and the entire carte blanche crew’s relationship to her is great but you know by now i’m a slut for buddy & jet out-of-this-world queerplatonic partners. the way she checks in on him during tools of rust to make sure he’s not relapsing and he comes to find her when she is 41 seconds late in the heart of it all to make sure she’s not having a heart problem!! it’s the trust,, the devotion,, the mortifying ordeal of being known

Favourite headcanon: she can sing. absolutely tears it up at karaoke. i’m right

VESPA

First impression: knife lesbian goes STAB. she will heal your wounds but she will be threatening to give you more the whole time

Impression now: she is extremely strong, heart-rendingly tender, and despite being in the older half of the carte blanche crew somehow has unmistakable little sister energy which makes her downright hilarious. i’m so glad she got to marry buddy and they’re official space wives now they’re so good for each other

Favourite moment: both from shadows in the ship, either “GUN!!” “KNIFE?!” (iconic) or when she clocks the dark matters drone pretending to be juno because it called her crazy and juno wouldn’t call her crazy. i’m always a sucker for “shapeshifter fails to fool mark because they Know Each Other Too Well” and it was just *chefs kiss* so good

Idea for a story: i really want to write something about when she was first staying at the lighthouse with buddy post-reunion, and getting to know jet and stuff. i think it would be cute

Unpopular opinion: i know vespa doesn’t canonically have lots of scarring but people who don’t draw her with scarring? cowards.

Favourite relationship: once again, although buddy and vespa invented romantic love, i just love the dynamic between vespa and juno so much. they’ve come so far with each other and their weird sibling dynamic gives me life. at the end of what lies beyond when juno says “we’re not gonna kill her, vespa” and instead of sounding full of Rage and Suspicion she’s like “whyyy notttt?” and he’s like “because i said so!” and that’s just good enough for her even if she’s a bit grumpy about it. i love it.

this took.. a hot minute to do! jshkfjsdgsa thank you dyl ily <3

#michaelburnnham #riley replies #be gay do crimes in space #the penumbra #juniverse

[shananigans402]

1-65 will do, please. Thanks fuck face :)

I knew exactly who this was and I was so tempted to not reply, but your punishment is having to read through all my answers and remember them forever or you fail the friend test. To everyone else, please do not click unless you want to be very bored, my answers are not interesting lol

1. Do you ever doubt the existence of others than you? Nope

2. On a scale of 1-5, how afraid of the dark are you? Assuming 5 is the most, 1. Maybe 2. 

3. The person you would never want to meet? The person who sent me this (jk I’m excited for our eventual meet up where we hit up a strip club first thing 🙏)

4. What is your favorite word? I answered with ‘conniption’ the other day and still have not found a word I like more.

5. If you were a type of tree, what would you be? Already answered this, fruit tree! I also like palm trees, maple trees, and willow trees. I know that’s not the question, I’m just saying random shit now.

6. When you looked in the mirror this morning what was the first thing you thought? It took me a long while to remember where I was this morning. I honestly don’t remember, I was rushing to get ready for an early morning meeting.

7. What shirt are you wearing? My Orlando Strong shirt 

8. What do you label yourself as? Lesbian

9. Bright room or dark room? Bright room

10. What were you doing at midnight last night? Sleeping? Possibly checking on a feverish little beeb who was going through it with her second dose of the vaccine.

11. Favorite age you’ve been so far? No idea. I like various ages for different reasons, but this age so far is not bad. 

12. Who told you they loved you last? Probably my sister 🤷‍♀️

13. Your worst enemy? The person who sent this ask.

14. What is your current desktop picture? The apple pic of Catalina island that changes based on time of day (yes it’s the default, don’t judge me)

15. Do you like someone? Lol yeah I hope so 😂

16. The last song you listened to? Pretty Girl by Hayley Kiyoko 

17. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up? Definitely @raginage

18. Who would you really like to just punch in the face? I feel like I can only attack Raginage so many times. Can I pick a fictional character? This week I was real mad at Dave in The Darkness. BaBe!​

19. If anyone could be your slave for a day, who would it be and what would they have to do? Lol no one, you’re talking to a person who feels very uncomfortable with anyone doing anything nice for them.

20. What is your best physical attribute? (showing said attribute is optional) Not this again. Last time I said eyes? Still no pics, sorry

21. If you were the opposite sex for one day, what would you look like and what would you do? What would I look like? Do I get to design myself like a sim? I honestly don’t know what I’d do because I doubt the world needs another clueless white man walking around, so maybe just stay at home. 

22. Do you have a secret talent? If yes, what is it? Nope. And my last answer to this was awful. I do think I have a fantastic ability to annoy my friends but in a way that’s just amusing/endearing enough to make them still want to talk to me 😌

23. What is one unique thing you’re afraid of? Unique? Uhm well my two big fears are confined spaces and deep water so a submarine is like my worst nightmare.

24. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your disposal. Oh this is going to sound so odd. To be clear, I’ve had better sandwiches, but my go-to is provolone, turkey, roast beef, and spicy brown mustard or whole grain mustard. Please don’t judge me.

25. You just found $100! How are you going to spend it? Travel budget for future trips to visit my buds and get into trouble and eat food. I know $100 won’t go far, but it’s something.

26. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go? Well, after my last answer I want to visit my friends! But there are too many people to visit and I only have one ticket. So change of plans. I’m going on a solo trip to Greece. Or Argentina. Or Iceland. Or Bali. Damn, I’m indecisive. 

27. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. “Be brand-specific” it says. Man! What are you gonna say about that? Even if you don’t drink booze there’s something you can figure out… so what’s it gonna be? Rabble red blend. Just a solid red wine. Also because @viola-lloyds stole my answer the other day (Juneshine; to be fair I asked her this question but whatever) and I don’t want to copy her.

28. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place? Oh I answered this one, something about respecting others. Yeah, a nice rule like that. Want to establish some healthy communication on this island.

29. What is your favorite expletive? It’s still fuck

30. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don’t worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what’s the one thing you’re going to save from that blazing inferno? But what about my PLANTS. Can they count as loved ones? Probably my laptop, I know that’s lame but like...I have a lot of stuff on here. Or the collection of cards I have that my granddad drew little drawings in, I want to get them all framed.

31. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be? To be honest, I don’t know if I’d change big life events in case it altered the trajectory of where I ended up. So idk maybe the ending of Bly, let’s give those lesbians have a happy ending!

32. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit… you can move to anywhere else in the world! Italy! But wait, let’s get back to this sleeping with celebrities and super-powers bit...

33. The Celestial Gates Of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn’t think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back? Oh that’s a really tough question. I always wanted to meet my great-grandma Olga because she seemed like a really awesome lady. 

34. What was your last dream about? I can’t remember, this is bothering me because I wish I could! I’m sorry. My gf recently had a dream where I kissed a dude right in front of her. It made us both very uncomfy lol

35. Are you a good….[insert anything you’d like here]? I hate this question because I can only think of one thing.

36. Have you ever been admitted to the hospital? For surgery, yeah

37. Have you ever built a snowman? But of course!

38. What is the color of your socks? Not wearing any? I was wearing blue ones earlier. Jfc my answers are so boring.

39. What type of music do you like? Lots! I tend to listen to indie, classic rock, and some pop

40. Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets? Sunsets!

41. What is your favorite milkshake flavor? Chocolate or a variant (chocolate peanut butter, chocolate caramel)

42. What football team do you support? (I will answer in terms of American football as well as soccer) LA Rams or Seattle Seahawks. I know they’re in the same division. It’s tough. (Please don’t ask me why these teams)

43. Do you have any scars? Yep, mostly from burning myself on ovens. I simply get too excited for my food.

44. What do you want to be when you graduate? I...have graduated? 

45. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? Well bestie recently said I have “lesbian hands” and I think that’s code for man hands so maybe that hahaha

46. Are you reliable? I try to be!

47. If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be? How many more times will I watch The Darkness before I learn my lesson? (Related: When does other bestie finally admit to her fetish?)

48. Do you hold grudges? Not typically, no

49. If you could breed two animals together to defy the laws of nature, what new animal would you create? A dog and an otter? Can we domesticate otters? No, a horse and a large bird, create a pegasus and then free travel.

50. What is the most unusual conversation you’ve ever had? Oh god. I don’t even know where to start today tbh. Damie and pokemon and cosycon and looming and feet and [redacted] and developing apps for VP. So many fantastic conversations. 

In real life, probably the time I was at a laundromat in Italy and this guy wandered in with a beer, sat next to me and my male roommate, assumed we were a couple, and proceeded to give us bizarre life advice. I wish I could remember more of it, but it was so odd.

51. Are you a good liar? Hmm I’m okay at it I think, that is, I can convince people I’m serious when I’m actually joking. But I don’t like actually lying if it’s not just teasing someone. 

52. How long could you go without talking? Probably a few days if I had to.

53. What has been you worst haircut/style? The haircut I got before studying abroad! It was too short and I was so sad.

54. Have you ever baked your own cake? For a birthday? No. For fun? Absolutely.

55. Can you do any accents other than your own? Not well, no

56. What do you like on your toast? Butter and/or honey and/or jam

57. What is the last thing you drew a picture of? My beautiful depiction of a scene of chapter one of Private Dancer. 

58. What would be you dream car? An electric car of some sort. I don’t know enough about cars tbh

59. Do you sing in the shower? Or do anything unusual in the shower? Explain. Nope but sometimes I’ll play music and dance and maybe softly sing.

60. Do you believe in aliens? Yep! Definitely 

61. Do you often read your horoscope? Almost never unless someone sends it to me.

62. What is your favorite letter of the alphabet? Already answered, A

63. Which is cooler: dinosaurs or dragons? Dinosaurs! 🦕

64. What do you think about babies? What do I think about them? They’re pretty cool. Just tiny little humans. 

65. Freebie! Ask anything interesting you can think of. I was very nice and let you correct your mistake and submit one after the fact:

In your opinion what is the best thing you can cook, like your speciality? My favorite thing to make is pasta, I started making my own sauce and I’d love to make pasta from scratch sometime.

#read up @raginage #this is what you get #responding to these out of spite took far longer than i thought lol

[simp-4-kylo]

Can I request for Kylo Ren? The reader is dating him and she has vertigo. She doesn’t tell him. She was in a training session with him one day and isn’t feeling good. She doesn’t say anything and he noticed something was wrong, it was too late and she passes out. Not knowing what to do, he takes her back to his quarters and when she wakes up, she tells him and he takes care of her the rest of the day and just tons of fluff!! Thanks!!

Falling For You

Warnings: Reader has vertigo, curse words, no smut (ya nasty jk jk), bunch of fluff, over protective Kylo, domestic ??, I dunno its only my third day out here

Word Count: 1,907

HEY! SO I HAVE A REDBUBBLE AND WILL BE MAKING STAR WARS RELATED THINGS AND LOGOS THAT ARE RAINBOW IN HONOR OF PRIDE MONTH, I WILL POST ABOUT THEM WHEN I GET THEM UP!

A/N: hello! Thank you for requesting something and I am so sorry it took me so long to get to it. I really just have been really bad lately about writing because I haven’t been feeling that my good writing juices are flowing right. I really hope I got this vertigo shit right, I know a little about it but I am no expert in the topic. Also, side note if anyone wants to suggest some songs/artists/albums for me, drop it in my ask or DM me! I need music, now enjoy what’s below!

It was around 5 AM when your alarm went off, waking up with a groan you moved your head to the side to look at your night stand, reaching over to turn your holopad off that was blaring your alarm ringtone. You sat straight up and rubbed your face, you never were a morning person. You hated getting up so early every damn day, but you did it for Kylo. You became his apprentice around two years ago and became his girlfriend a year after that, when he killed Snoke and took over the throne.

Kylo had wanted you to start training with him from day one, he said that if you were to be his apprentice he wanted you to be feared in the galaxy just like he was, and you were feared if not more than Kylo. Everyone knew better than to fuck with you, word got around fast that you were Kylo’s girl and no one dared to mess with you. 

Not that you couldn't fight your own battles, you most certainly could. You had always been a strong fighter and loved to train and work out. If you weren’t relaxing with Kylo, helping out with the technicians, or doing odd jobs for the higher ranking officials, you were training. It was something you enjoyed because you could release some tension, plus is was fun fighting with the Knights of Ren. They never went too hard because lord knows if one of them ever hurt you, Kylo would not hesitate to kill them. 

There was just one little thing that sometimes got in the way, it was the fact that you had vertigo. Pushing yourself too hard in training lead to you becoming dizzy, which then made you pass out. Never once had you passed out in front of others due to the fact that if anyone knew about this, they could use it to their advantage.

You never kept secrets from Kylo and both of you encouraged each other to tell the truth and that you could trust one another, this was just one thing you haven’t told Kylo yet. Not that he wouldn’t care, but that he might care too much...

As you finished brushing your teeth, you messaged Kylo on your holo pad, informing him that you were currently on your way to training. Slipping on your fighting gear and grabbing a protein bar, you headed out the door. The hallways weren’t as busy as usual since it was still early, and a shift change wouldn’t have for around another half hour. 

Making your way down the cool hallways you started to feel off, maybe it was something with the force. No it couldn’t be, this was a totally different feeling. shit you mentally cursed as you had to stop and lean against the wall for support, ah you knew this feeling now, the feeling that you might pass out. 

You didn’t want to tell Kylo you suddenly didn’t feel well enough to train with him, he might think that you were weak. Once you felt the dizziness tone down, you continued on your walk to the training area. Still the impending thought that you might pass out at any moment, you just hoped you could push through training and then go straight back to your quarters to pass out.

Walking into the training room you had already saw Kylo swinging his light saber around so gracefully. You loved watching him when he used his saber, it was truly a sight to see. He knew just how to turn the saber and where to strike, he was truly gifted. He turned around when he heard the blast doors.

“Hey sweetness! How did you sleep? Ready for me to kick your ass?” He asked looking at you with a smirk drawn out over his lips, Kylo was very quiet and tense when ever he was around others, but when it came to you. He knew he could let his guard down and trust you, and most importantly he could love you.

“Yup! I slept fine, I can’t wait to move the rest of my things into your quarters, I miss being in the same bed as you. You frowned lightly. “Don’t worry sweet thing, I have men moving the rest of your things into my living space as we speak. Now let’s get to it, prepare to get dominated.” He said as he wiped sweat off with a near by rag. 

You were nervous because the feeling of passing out hadn’t gone away or at least subsided. You smiled a small and timid smile, you most certainly did not want to pass out in front of Kylo because he might be mad at you for lying to him about your condition

You put the rest of your fighting gear on and grabbed your lightsaber. You had made your very own saber with Kylo not too long ago. He had finally felt you were far along enough in your combat skills that it was time for you to make your own. 

You and Kylo stood in the middle of the room giving each other a hard stare with your eyes, tipping your hea.d slightly indicating to Kylo that you were ready. There was no holding back when it came to the two of you fighting. Of course Kylo would always be careful, he knew that you held your ground. 

As a few swings and jumps later, the feeling of passing out became stronger, you mentally cursed to yourself. You wanted nothing more than for this session could end, so you could make your way back to the privacy of your home and relax a bit more. 

This change in your face did not go unnoticed by Kylo, he knew something was off with you too. Not that he was ignoring your feelings, he just felt that if something was wrong you would speak up and tell him. He has always told you that you could trust him, he loved you and would do anything to make any sort of pain go away.

Has the two of you continued to train together, the worse you felt. Not wanting to appear weak, you kept shaking off the feeling of passing out. Except now it was getting truly unbearable and you began to worry that if you didn’t take a break soon that you would be at risk of passing out while trying to train.

“Kylo, I need to take a quick break and grab some water.” You had said as you disabled your lightsaber. “Okay sounds good, sorry if we’re going too hard. I just want to know you won’t ever be in harm's way. Not that you aren’t strong, you really are. I just-“ Kylo was cut off by the sound of a loud thud. He turned around to see where the sound came from, and he was shocked when he found you lying on the floor unconscious

Kylo was shocked to see you laying on the ground, he was afraid he had hurt you in some way. His heart felt as though it was beating in his head, he tried to move his legs to get over to you but he couldn’t. Fucking hell Kylo, move your damn feet! The love of your life is laying over there unconscious, get to her! He had said in his head. Finally moving his feet over to you, he leaned down and checked for a pulse and he thanked the gods that you were still breathing. He picked you up in his arms and swiftly made his way out of the training room and towards his quarters.

Once arriving at his quarters, he marched to his bedroom and put you down softly on the bed. He went to the kitchen to fill a glass of water and to grab something for you to snack on, he wasn’t too sure as to what he needed to do but he did know he needed to make sure you were okay. Not wanting to leave you alone for very long, he made his way back towards what would soon become your shared bedroom.

As he entered his room, he saw you sitting up and looking around his room. He let out a breath he didn’t know he was holding when he saw that you seemed to be alright, he did swiftly move over to your side of the bed and put the drink and food on the nightstand next to you. “Are you okay? I was so worried I had hurt you or something, did I? How do you feel and what can I do to make you feel better? I’m sorry if I hurt you, here I brought you some water and food. If there is anything else I can get you please let me know and I will get it, I just-“ once more he was cut off as you had leaned over and placed a kiss on his lips.

When you pulled away from the kiss you reached your hand up to the side of his cheek and rubbed your thumb in little circles. “Kylo I’m okay. I just, uh. I never told you I had vertigo, I was afraid you’d see me as weak. I didn’t want to be left on the ship while you went out fighting in battles and having all the fun…” you had said as you reached over for the water glass to take a sip. Kylo just looked at you with a soft smile on his face as he reached over to toy with your free hand.

“No, no. I would never see you as less than me, ever. I only want to keep you safe my love. I wouldn’t be able to live with myself if something had ever happened to you, you are my constant, I love you so much and only want what is best for you. I would never see you as weak nor would I ever leave you on the ship, you always will be with me. I just want to know how to help in any way.” He said as he rubbed circles into the top of your hand.

“I know, I just- You know I tend to overthink everything. I know you’re only trying to help, I just want to be strong for you and the Galaxy.” You had said now looking him in the eyes, blushing while ending your statement.

“You are strong for me, if not the strongest in all the Galaxy. I will do anything for you. I love you sweetness.” He said now scooting up to be right next to you on the bed. “Thank you Kylo, now that I think of it, there is one thing you can do for me.” You had said as you turned to face him, placing your hand on his chest and a faint smirk crossed his lips.

“And what may that be?” He said as he looked down on you and smiled. “Stay here with me for the rest of the day? I just want to cuddle and be with you, I don’t want to do any fancy First Order work. Just take one day with me please?” You said and gave him the biggest puppy dog face you could muster, knowing that it was his weakness to see you beg for him.

“As you wish my empress” he said as he leaned down to capture your lips in a sweet kiss.

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[bangtansfavwriter]

🌷jimin having a crush on you🌷

(with a hint of smut & angst, still v fluffy 😌)

- a complete flirt or a complete shy bean, there's no in-between

- introduces you to his friends, his family, the staff, the ahjussi at the convenience store....

-will touch you a lot, so expect koala hugs on any given occasion

-you will stare at his lips a lot, unconsciously, which you'll notice when jimin looks like ar u like this : 👀🤭

-very very caring, the type to sprint across the city to be with you when something's wrong with you

- you guys would talk in person, on the phone, over text... actually a clingy one and he doesn't even hide it

-showers you with affection

- "you're so lovely, lovely, lovelyyy~"

- ur entire support system and personal hype man

- you know that will smith meme with his wife? that's jimin with you basically

- you two are completely emo when he has to leave for tour, but thank god there's skype

-gets emo again when you have to hang up

("good night, good night! parting is such a sweet sorrow." - "jimin, did you... did you just quote shakespeare on me?? minie, we're gonna talk tomorrow, don't be sad!"- "😔😔😔😔😔😔😔" - "nooo minie😭😭😭😭😭" - "noooooo im happy, look ☺️☺️☺️☺️" - "ok good 💞" - "........(😔)"- PARK JIMIN" - "👼🏻")

- stalks all your social media when he's on tour but will never tell you, accidentally like your pic from like 42 weeks ago and screamed so loud hobi fell out of his bed

-you sent him a screenshot of the notification you got with a single "?" and jimin welcomed the sweet release of death (he left you on read and prayed you would forget about it)

-stops by at your place when he's back in the country and gives you a hug so tight it lowkey feels like u guys made out, FLIRTS and you're like "what are we?" and he's "what do you mean? :))) we're friends ofc :))))))" [libras.]

-also, he often invites you to dance practices and is extra flamboyant meanwhile

- "y/n, have you seen the flip? it was good right?" ( boy's got a big fat praise kink tbh)

"you looked so cool, minie ~'

*gets shy, hides his face, jumps through the room*

(& you'd ask yourself if this the same guy who stripped at MAMA)

- his duality is no joke, even in your guys' relationship it would be confusing as hell sometimes, yet exciting because he shows you different sides : childlike and carefree / serious and seductive

- lots of cuddles and giggles together

- goes above and beyond to make you happy and ready to cut a bitch when you're upset

- could charm your pants off, hypothetically speaking, but he's also shyyy mostly bc he's scared you might not like him the same way

-at the dorms he would get into this mood where he would do dramatic monologues about his feelings which would put shakespeare to shame tbh

-they almost always end up with him imagining that you might go for someone else

-one day the boys would encourage him to go for it and he'd muster up the courage and be like "fuck yeah im gonna confess" and then loses courage when yoongi said "do it before someone else does it" and everyone would be screaming bc they just got jimin to shut up about you and were about to end the daily tortured hero vibe jimin had lately by tricking him into confessing (& jimin spent days giving yoongi a look that straight up said "et tu, brute?")

-jimin spent the days after that contemplating if you would actually date him or if you would go for someone else

-he'd be all pouty and would also be touchier than usual, bc he would this physical contact as some sort of reassurance, in a way

-you couldn't quite understand what was going on with him but you reciprocated in every scenario and he was very pleased with that

-when you guys would chill on a sofa and watch tv, he'd lay down and rest his head on your lap and wouldn't say anything and continue watching TV, but he'd still wait for your reaction and sigh happily when you started playing with his hair

-he'd do these little tests to gauge your reactions and to see how you act towards him

-he'd ask a lot about how you feel about relationships and respect and all that, he'd also test you... physically. and by that I mean the sensual hugs, light touches on your thigh and and the looks you'd share meanwhile... the first time you two had dinner with the guys in a restaurant with dim lights. when you felt his hand on your thigh, you looked at him with a raised brow and this lil shit deadass SMIRKED at you but you knew that 2 can play this game and smirked back and moved his hand slightly up and jimin's soul almost left his body. "what are we, y/n?" he whispered to you. "you tell me", you whispered back, with a cunning smile on your lips. you excused yourself and got up from the table and jimin jerked that moment, as you put your hand on his thigh when you lifted yourself up. (jk to nj: i don't know what is going on there but I bet it's disgusting, nj: no, don't be like that, sj: no, he's right)

-jimin and you (and everyone else, for that matter) entered a weird stage where you legit didn't know wtf was happening between you

-everything moved fast and yet you didnt know if you guys were going somewhere with this but jimin sure acted like your boyfriend yet didn't go beyond flirting

-and this was getting tiresome for you, but you were still hoping tbh, but you thought that maybe... maybe you were just a welcome distraction for him in all his hectic schedule. but deep down you knew this was your insecurities speaking, but sometimes it got the better of you.

-and things took an ugly turn when jimin tested you again, but in the most stupid way you could ever "test" someone... you've guessed it..... through jealousy.

- that was bc jimin himself got jealous when you were hanging out with yoongi, mostly bc he also remembered what yoongi once said about someone snatching you away from him

-and jimin absolutely hated this situation.... he knew this was irrational and that you could hang out with whomever you wanted & yoongi's obviously like a brother to him..... but jealousy is a very ugly feeling that makes you feel ugly things

-and jimin didn't want neither yoongi nor you to see this side of him so he didn't say anything. he didn't speak to neither of you. was it a good solution? hell no & he knew that. but he had to deal with his temper somehow... he cut you short whenever you tried to talk to him, saying he's busy and such, but you knew he was lying to you for some reason but you still were patient and did your best not to drag him to hell and back for lying to and ignoring you, as he stopped texting you as well. he didnt speak more than necessary with yoongi who only kept his mouth shut bc they was another matter involved. jimin had the idea for this "last test" for you when a new staff member got flirty with him, during a bighit party. you were there, too, in the same room, to be precise and jimin knew this and saw a chance coming, as you were talking to yoongi again who glared back at jimin who intensely kept staring at you two. so this new + drunk staff member came along and started talking with him.... and giggling so obnoxiously that yoongi and you rolled with your eyes at the same time and started laughing when you realized it. jimin wasn't listening to anything in the first place but when he saw you two laughing, he had a snap decision, turned to the staff member and coyly smiled and started flirting. you watched the whole play & jimin knew it, so he added some light touches and nudges here and there and you could feel getting more upset with every minute of this shit-show you were witnessing. yoongi put his hand on your arm and turned you away from jimin and his bimbo and face him instead. you could feel your blood rush to your head which was also apparent to yoongi who consoled you, as he knew of your feelings. jimin mistook the whole situation once again and went for the worst move.

you saw yoongi's glare and turned around only to see jimin holding his little plaything by the waist and them swaying around together. the other members noticed too and namjoon took the lead and quickly moved jimin away from dispatch's newest headline in the making. you turned to yoongi again and said "i'm going home, yoongi, thank you", with a sad smile on your face, and left before he could answer. yoongi quickly rushed out after you, knowing damn well that you'd go home and cry. he managed to catch up and pulled you into a hug, away from all the noise. "that boy is an idiot, but he's so in love with you, trust me on that. he's just being stupid right now", he said patted your back and lowkey contemplating dissing jimin in agust d 2, when he heard the muffled sniffs coming from you. "Ohhh, yoongi-hyung, y/n, getting cozy, aren't we?" you heard jimin saying behind you. yoongi was about to yell at him, but you were quicker to turn around and BLASTED him, bc how tf does he dare to say something like this after what he just pulled inside and how tf can he be so rude to yoongi and most importantly why tf would you listen to him after blatantly ignored you over the past weeks??? jimin went silent after your rant and let his head sink. "i'm sorry..." he said, "i'm sorry to both of you. i don't know how to explain it... but i felt angry when I saw you two so close. i know it's stupid and I know that you guys can be friends, obviously... it's so irrational and I don't even know why i did that earlier. i guess I wanted you to feel what I feel when I see you close with another man, y/n...". this voice got hoarse the more spoke and you knew that he too was about to cry. you knew he was regretful. it didn't justify that he was a dick to you, but you could see where he was coming from and understood that this feeling can make you do irrational things. "jealousy," yoongi said with a stern voice "is a really ugly trait, jimin. you should have known neither of us would ever go behind your back. for your information, y/n confided in me. your best friend is in love with you and you, dumbass, are too blind to see it. -(jimin's head shot up)- I'm gonna leave you two to it now, but jimin, I assure you I will kick your ass if you hurt y/n one more time." and he left. jimin looked at you apologetically, then hid his face behind his hands and took a deep sigh. "I really am a dumbass, huh..." - "yeah, you are" you replied with slight smile on your face and you took some steps towards him, he looked up at you. "y/n, I might be dumb and selfish, but I really hope that you can forgive me... one day. I was jealous of you two and I got insecure. I shouldn't have done what I've done and I can only apologise.... i'm really sorry about everything." (he let his head sink)

you were now standing right in front of him. "jimin, look at me." (he did.) "you really are a dumbass" (he got pouty) - "I thought we had already established that, y/n" - "getting smart with me, minie?" you asked and laughed when he looked at you with with huge eyes and a beaming face after he heard his pet name. he shook his head "I'm the dumbass, remember ?". You two laughed and you threw your arms around his neck and kissed his cheek while he buried his head in your neck.

"be my dumbass, minie."

💕

epilogue:

yoongi: "so how did you solve it again?"

you: "i called him dumb like 3 times and now we're dating"

yoongi: "nice"

jimin: "..."

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[bobasheebaby]

200 Harry Potter Prompts

Let me preface with this: I love the Harry Potter series, both the books and the movies and have shared both with my son; HOWEVER I don’t support the things that JK Rowling has been saying recently. I refuse to let her transphobia destroy something I love so I propose we take back these quotes from the characters we love and make as many of them as gay as we possibly can. Fuck you JK

1 “Nitwit! Blubber! Oddment! Tweak!” —Albus Dumbledore

2 “No post on Sundays.” —Vernon Dursley

3 “You’re a little scary sometimes, you know that? Brilliant … but scary.” —Ron Weasley

4 “It does not do well to dwell on dreams and forget to live.” —Albus Dumbledore

5 “Honestly, don’t you two read?” —Hermione Granger

6 “Why couldn’t it be ‘follow the butterflies’?” —Ron Weasley

7 “Never trust anything that can think for itself if you can’t see where it keeps its brain.” —Arthur Weasley

8 “It is our choices, NAME, that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.” —Albus Dumbledore

9 “I solemnly swear that I am up to no good.” —Harry Potter

10 “Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.” —Albus Dumbledore

11 “I don’t go looking for trouble, trouble usually finds me.” —Harry Potter

12 “The ones that love us never really leave us.” —Sirius Black

13 “What’s comin’ will come, an’ we’ll meet it when it does.” —Rubeus Hagrid

14 “Soon we must all face the choice between what is right and what is easy.” —Albus Dumbledore

15 “I am what I am, an’ I’m not ashamed.” —Rubeus Hagrid

16 “It matters not what someone is born, but what they grow to be.” —Albus Dumbledore

17 “Twitchy little ferret, aren’t you, NAME?” —Hermione Granger

18 “You’re just as sane as I am.” —Luna Lovegood

19 “I mean, it’s sort of exciting, isn’t it, breaking the rules?” —Hermione Granger

20 “Give him/her hell from us, NAME.” —Fred and George Weasley

21 “We’ve all got both light and dark inside us. What matters is the part we choose to act on.” —Sirius Black

22 “Just because you have the emotional range of a teaspoon doesn’t mean we all have.” —Hermione Granger

23 “Things we lose have a way of coming back to us in the end, if not always in the way we expect.” —Luna Lovegood

24 “Let us step out into the night and pursue that flighty temptress, adventure.” —Albus Dumbledore

25 “Wit beyond measure is man’s greatest treasure.” —Rowena Ravenclaw’s diadem

26 “Every human life is worth the same, and worth saving.” —Kingsley Shacklebolt

27 “It is the quality of one’s convictions that determines success, not the number of followers.” —Remus Lupin

28 “Not my son/daughter, you bitch!” —Molly Weasley

29 “You’ll stay with me?” “Until the very end.” —Harry and James Potter

30 “Of course it’s happening inside your head, but why on earth should that mean that it is not real?” —Albus Dumbledore

31 “To the well-organized mind, death is but the next great adventure.” —Albus Dumbledore

32 “Time will not slow down when something unpleasant lies ahead." — Harry Potter

33 “If you want to know what a man’s like, take a good look at how he treats his inferiors, not his equals." — Sirius Black

34 “It takes a great deal of bravery to stand up to our enemies, but just as much to stand up to our friends." — Albus Dumbledore

35 “It is the unknown we fear when we look upon death and darkness, nothing more." — Albus Dumbledore

36 “You think the dead we loved ever truly leave us? You think that we don’t recall them more clearly than ever in times of great trouble?" — Albus Dumbledore

37 “Numbing the pain for a while will make it worse when you finally feel it.” — Albus Dumbledore

38 “The truth. It is a beautiful and terrible thing, and should therefore be treated with great caution.'" — Albus Dumbledore

39 “Fear of a name only increases fear of the thing itself." — Hermione Granger

40 “I’ll be in my bedroom, making no noise and pretending I’m not there." — Harry Potter

41 “When in doubt, go to the library." — Ron Weasley

42 “Honestly, if you were any slower, you’d be going backward." — Draco Malfoy

43 “Mischief Managed!" — Harry Potter

44 “We are only as strong as we are united, as weak as we are divided." — Albus Dumbledore

45 “Your devotion is nothing more than cowardice. You would not be here if you had anywhere else to go." — Voldemort

46 “Curiosity is not a sin…. But we should exercise caution with our curiosity… yes, indeed." — Albus Dumbledore

47 “Differences of habit and language are nothing at all if our aims are identical and our hearts are open." — Albus Dumbledore

48 “The thing about growing up with NAME (and NAME) is that you sort of start thinking anything's possible if you've got enough nerve.'" — Ginny Weasley

49 “Indifference and neglect often do much more damage than outright dislike." — Albus Dumbledore

50 “NAME says people find it far easier to forgive others for being wrong than being right." — Hermione Granger

51 “Once again, you show all the sensitivity of a blunt axe." — Nearly Headless Nick

52 “Age is foolish and forgetful when it underestimates youth." — Albus Dumbledore

53 “No, NAME, you listen,” (pause) “We're coming with you. That was decided months ago — years, really.'" —Hermione Granger

54 “Words are, in my not-so-humble opinion, our most inexhaustible source of magic. Capable of both inflicting injury, and remedying it." ― Albus Dumbledore

55 “Do not pity the dead, NAME. Pity the living, and, above all those who live without love. “-– Albus Dumbledore

56 “Anything’s possible if you’ve got enough nerve.” – Ginny Weasley

57 “For in dreams we enter a world that is entirely our own.” – Albus Dumbledore

58 “We’re all going to keep fighting, NAME. You know that?” – Neville Longbottom

59 “I am not worried, NAME … I am with you.” – Albus Dumbledore

60 “Celebrity is as celebrity does, remember that.” – Gilderoy Lockhart

61 “Parents shouldn’t leave their kids unless —unless they’ve got to.” – Harry Potter

62 “Greatness inspires envy, envy engenders spite, spite spawns lies.” – Lord Voldemort

63 “Killing is not so easy as the innocent believe.” – Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince

64 “What's life without a little risk?" — Sirius Black

65 “There were near misses, many of them. We laughed about them afterwards. We were young, thoughtless — carried away with our own cleverness.” – Remus Lupin

66 “You care so much you feel as though you will bleed to death with the pain of it.” – Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix

67 “You will also find that help will always be given at PLACE to those who ask for it.” – Albus Dumbledore

68 “I mean, you could claim that anything’s real if the only basis for believing in it is that nobody’s proved it doesn’t exist!” – Hermione Granger

69 “To have been loved so deeply, even though the person who loved us is gone, will give us some protection forever." — Albus Dumbledore

70 “Though we may come from different places, and speak in different tongues, our hearts beat as one." — Albus Dumbledore

71 “Always.” — Severus Snape

72 “Differences of habit and language are nothing at all if our aims are identical and our hearts are open.” — Albus Dumbledore

73 “It is important to fight and fight again, and keep fighting, for only then can evil be kept at bay though never quite eradicated.” — Albus Dumbledore

74 “Dark times lie ahead of us and there will be a time when we must choose between what is easy and what is right.” — Albus Dumbledore

75 “Time is making us fools again." — Albus Dumbledore

76 “I sometimes find, and I am sure you know the feeling, that I simply have too many thoughts and memories crammed into my mind.” — Albus Dumbledore

77 “The consequences of our actions are always so complicated, so diverse, that predicting the future is a very difficult business indeed.” — Albus Dumbledore

78 “I just feel so ... angry, all the time., and what if after everything I've been through, something's gone wrong inside me. What if I'm becoming bad?" — Harry Potter

79 “Tut, tut — fame clearly isn’t everything.” — Severus Snape

80 “Well, it may have escaped your notice, but life isn’t fair.” — Severus Snape

81 “Ah, yes,” he/she said softly, “NAME. Our new — celebrity.” — Severus Snape

82 ““I wish … I wish I were dead …” “And what use would that be to anyone?” — Severus Snape & Albus Dumbledore

83 “You don’t want me as your enemy, NAME.” — Severus Snape

84 “DON’T . . . CALL ME COWARD!” — Severus Snape

85 “Look . . . at . . . me . . . “ — Severus Snape

86 “Then you should have died! Died, rather than betray your friends, as we would have done for you." — Sirius Black

87 “NAME was a brave, clever, and energetic man/woman, and such men/women are not usually content to sit at home in hiding while they believe others to be in danger." — Albus Dumbledore

88 “Like the fact that the person NAME cared for the most about in the world was you.” — Albus Dumbledore

89 “You don’t understand — there are things worth dying for!” — Sirius Black

90 “Well, [bad] times like that bring out the best in some people and the worst in others.” — Sirius Black

91 “Oh, I’ve interrupted a deep thought, haven’t I? I can see it growing smaller in your eyes.” — Luna Lovegood

92 “I sleepwalk, you see. That’s why I wear shoes to bed.” — Luna Lovegood

93 “He/She doesn’t think you treated him:her very well, because you wouldn’t dance with him/her. I don’t think I’d have minded. I don’t like dancing very much.” — Luna Lovegood

94 “Come, daddy, NAME doesn't want to talk to us right now. He's/She’s just too polite to say it.” ~Luna Lovegood

95 “Being different isn't a bad thing. It means you're brave enough to be yourself.” - Luna Lovegood

96 “NAME, if brains were gold, you'd be poorer than NAME, and that's saying something.” — Draco Malfoy

97 “You foul, lying, evil little cockroach!” — Hermione Granger

98 “Oh, it was NAME, I was thinking about him and I lost track of things.” — Hermione Granger

99 “One person can’t feel all that at once, they’d explode.” — Hermione Granger

100 “It would be quite nice if you stopped jumping down our throats, NAME, because in case you haven’t noticed, NAME and I are on your side.” — Hermione Granger

101 “Next time there’s a ball, ask me before someone else does, and not as a last resort!” — Hermione Granger

102 “Very well spotted.” — Hermione Granger

103 “Always the tone of surprise.” — Hermione Granger

104 “Sometimes friendship means not having to say anything. Thank yous and apologies can sometimes get lost, but that doesn’t mean they’re unexpressed.” — Hermione Granger

105 “You’d think a bit of kissing would cheer him/her up.” — Ron Weasley

106 “And that's the second time we've saved your life tonight, you two-faced bastard!” — Ron Weasley

107 “I knew NAME was lying about that tattoo.” — Ron Weasley

108 “There's a time and a place for getting a smart mouth.” — Ron Weasley

109 “Oh, yeah, I borrowed it for a bit of bedtime reading.” — Ron Weasley

110 “What are you doing with all those books anyway?” — Ron Weasley

111 “Hang on a moment!” (said sharply) “We’ve forgotten someone!” — Ron Weasley

112 “I never really gave up on you. Not really." — Ginny Weasley

113 “It's okay NAME, it's alright. It doesn't matter." — Ginny Weasley

114 “People think they know all there is to know about you, but the best bits of you are ... heroic in really quiet ways." — Ginny Weasley

115 “Excuse me, but I care what happens to NAME as much as you do!” — Ginny Weasley

116 “Yeah, NAME, because you’re so talented ... at posing ...” — Ginny Weasley

117 “Forgot to brake, NAME, sorry.” — Ginny Weasley

118 “It’s for some stupid, noble reason, isn’t it?” — Ginny Weasley

119 “I never really gave up on you. Not really. I always hoped ... NAME told me to get on with life, maybe go out with some other people, relax a bit around you, because I never used to be able to talk if you were in the room, remember? And he/she thought you might take a bit more notice if I was a bit more — myself.” ��� Ginny Weasley

120 “There’s the silver lining I’ve been looking for.” — Ginny Weasley

121 “A good first impression can work wonders.” — Molly Weasley

122 “Beds empty! No note! Car gone-could have crashed-out of my mind with worry-did you care?” — Molly Weasley

123 “Where's the fun without a bit of risk?” — Fred Weasley

124 “You're joking, NAME! You are actually joking, NAME ... I don't think I've heard you joke since you were-“ — Fred Weasley

125 “What are we doing here? Has something gone wrong?” “Oh no, NAME,” [sarcastically.] “No, this is exactly where we wanted to end up.” — Ron and Fred Weasley

126 “Where is NAME?" "Still in the showers," "We think he’s/she's trying to drown himself.” — Harry Potter and Fred Weasley

127 “We thought we heard your dulcet tones." "You don't want to bottle up your anger like that, NAME, let it all out," “There might be a couple of people fifty miles away who didn't hear you.” — George and Fred Weasley

128 “I don't think you're a waste of space.” — Dudley Dursley

129 “Yeah, but coming from NAME that's like ‘I love you.’” — Harry Potter

130 “The point is, if we find out you’ve been horrible to NAME —” “— and make no mistake, we’ll hear about it.” — Arthur Weasley and Remus Lupin

131 “What you fear most of all is-fear.” —Remus Lupin

132 “There’s a bigger cause out there. It’s bigger than any of us here. But we stick together, all right? We stick together and look out for each other. Because you four are all I’ve got left. And I’m not going to see you die. Forever alive, all right? We’re not going to die." -Sirius Black

133 “Thought we were supposed to be friends? Best friends?” “We are, NAME.” — Severus Snape and Lily Potter

134 “NAME was scowling at him/her, but NAME refused to be judged by a cat.”

135 “I don’t know everything about life and marriage and happiness. But I do know what love is. And I do know that when love is real, and when love is in its strongest form, it is the most powerful thing on this earth. It kills, saves lives, heals wounds, and most of all, brings hope. That is what you have done for me, NAME. You have brought me hope." — James Potter

136 “I'm sorry too, that I will never know him/her ... but he/she will know why I died and I hope he/she will understand. I was trying to make a world in which he/she could live a happier life." — Remus Lupin

137 “I DON'T CARE! I'VE HAD ENOUGH, I'VE SEEN ENOUGH, I WANT OUT, I WANT IT TO END, I DON'T CARE ANYMORE!” — Harry Potter

138 “You do care. You care so much you feel as though you will bleed to death with the pain of it.” — Albus Dumbledore

139 “He/She must have known I'd want to leave you." “No, he/she must have known you would always want to come back.” — Ron Weasley and Harry Potter

140 “You think I'm a fool?" “No, I think you're like NAME, who would have regarded it as the height of dishonor to mistrust his/her friends.” — Harry Potter and Remus Lupin

141 “You’re less like your father/mother/etc than I thought. The risk would’ve been what made it fun for NAME.” — Sirius Black

142 “The battle is always the same, just with different chapters.”

143 “I will if you go out with me, NAME.” — James Potter

144 “Understanding is the first step to acceptance, and only with acceptance can there be recovery.” — Albus Dumbledore

145 “We must try not to sink beneath our anguish, NAME, but battle on." — Albus Dumbledore

146 “Eat, you'll feel better." — Remus Lupin

147 “Training for the ballet, NAME?” — Draco Malfoy

148 “You’re a fool, NAME, and you will lose everything.” — Voldemort

149 “There is no good and evil. There is only power, and those too weak to seek it.” — Voldemort

150 “What if I don't care?" “I care. How do you think I'd feel if this was your funeral ...and it was my fault ...” — Ginny Weasley and Harry Potter

151 “Greatness inspires envy, envy engenders spite, spite spawns lies.”

152 “I have seen your heart, and it is mine.” — Voldemort

153 “What is it about my presence in your home that displeases you, NAME?” “Nothing — nothing, my Lord!” “Such lies, NAME . . .” — Voldemort and Lucius Malfoy

154 “Come out, NAME ... come out and play, then it will be quick it might even be painless I would not know I have never died.” — Voldemort

155 “Do nothing! He's/She’s mine to finish! He's /She’s mine!” — Voldemort

156 “They never learn. Pity.” — Voldemort

157 “Invite him inside, NAME. Where are your manners?” — Voldemort

158 “As inspiring as I find your bloodlust, NAME, I must be the one to kill NAME.” — Voldemort

159 “Oh, he/she knows how to play, little bitty baby NAME.” — Bellatrix

160 “I don't like to be kept waiting!” — Bellatrix (Hermione)

161 “Ah, shut up, NAME, yeh great prune.” — Hagrid

162 “You think it - wise - to trust NAME with something as important as this?" “I would trust NAME with my life.” — McGonagall and Albus Dumbledore

163 “It unscrews the other way.” — Professor McGonagall

164 “They’re supposed to be, you blithering idiot.” — Professor McGonagall

165 “Don’t tell me what I can and can’t do, NAME." — Professor McGonagall

166 “"I – I didn't think –" “That is obvious." — Harry Potter and Professor McGonagall

167 “Why is it when something happens, it is always you three?” — Professor McGonagall

168 “NAME, that was foolish!" "He spat at you.” — Professor McGonagall and Harry Potter

169 “NAME – you're here! What –? How –?" — Professor McGonagall

170 “I didn't want anyone to talk to me.” "Well, that was a bit stupid of you.” — Harry Potter and Ginny Weasley

171 “Are you really giving us permission to do this?” “Yes, NAME.” “Blow it up? Boom?” “BOOM!” Neville Longbottom and Professor McGonagall

172 “That's the spirit, now away you go.” — Professor McGonagall

173 “NAME, take NAME with you. He/She looks far too happy over there.” — Professor McGonagall

174 “Do nothing? Offer him/her up as bait? NAME is a boy/girl/child! Not a piece of meat!” — Professor McGonagall

175 “That was bloody brilliant!” — Ron Weasley

176 “May I offer you a cough drop, NAME?” — Professor McGonagall

177 “Things at NAME are far worse than I feared." — Dolores Umbridge

178 “You know, I really hate children." — Dolores Umbridge

179 “I'm sure we're all going to be very good friends." — Dolores Umbridge

180 “The time has come for answers, whether he/she wants to give them or not." — Dolores Umbridge

181 “Deep down, you know that you deserve to be punished. Don't you, NAME?" — Dolores Umbridge

182 “I WILL have order!" — Dolores Umbridge

183 “What NAME doesn't know won't hurt him/her." — Dolores Umbridge

184 “As I told you NAME, naughty children deserve to be punished.” — Dolores Umbridge

185 “NAME, do something. Tell them I mean no harm.” “I'm sorry, NAME. But I must not tell lies.” — Harry Potter and Dolores Umbridge

186 “And that, boys/girls, is why you should never go on looks alone.”

187 “NAME, listen ...” [quietly] “I can’t be involved with you any more. We’ve got to stop seeing each other. We can’t be together.” “It’s for some stupid, noble reason, isn’t it?” — Harry Potter and Ginny Weasley

188 “It’s been like ... like something out of someone else’s life, these last few weeks with you. But I can’t ... we can’t ... I’ve got things to do alone now.” — Harry Potter

189 “When you have seen as much of life as I have, you will not underestimate the power of obsessive love."

190 “You are protected, in short, by your ability to love!” — Albus Dumbledore

191 “NAME’s man/woman through and through, aren’t you NAME?” “Yeah I am. Glad we straightened that out.”

192 “He/She accused me of being NAME’s man/woman through and through.” “How very rude of him/her.” “I told him/her I was.”

193 “He/She will only be gone from PLACE when none here are loyal to him/her.” — Harry Potter

194 “Working hard is important. But there is something that matters even more, believing in yourself.” — Harry Potter

195 “One can never have enough socks.” — Albus Dumbledore

196 “People find it far easier to forgive others for being wrong than right.” — Albus Dumbledore

197 “Where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.” — Albus Dumbledore

198 “The best of us sometimes eat our words.” — Albus Dumbledore

199 “Time will not slow down when something unpleasant lies ahead.” — Hermione Granger

200 “Don’t you tell me what to do, NAME!” — Hermione Granger

#harry potter prompts #harry potter quotes #otp writing prompts #dialogue prompts #drabble prompts #harry potter #hermione granger #ron weasley #albus dumbledore #minerva mcgonagall #dolores umbridge #severus snape #remus lupin #ginny weasley #sirius black #fred and goerge weasley #rubeus hagrid #voldemort #lord voldemord #draco malfoy #luna lovegood

[fandumb-thoughts]

Rating: General

Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply

Category: M/M

Fandom: Harry Potter - JK Rowling

Relationships: Sirius Black/James Potter, Sirius Black/Peter Pettigrew, Sirius Black/Remus Lupin

Characters:  Sirius Black, James Potter, Peter Pettigrew, Remus Lupin

Additional Tags: polyamory, poly trans Sirius Black, Hindi James Potter, animagus choosing, animagus, explaining why Peter is the Way He Is, marauders, fix it fic, start of a fix it fic, marauders era, Peter Pettigrew isn’t awful, that’s just the tea, well he is awful, only he’s not awful as a fifteen year old, cuz like, he’s just a kid, and he was one of their friends, ignoring that is ignoring the magnitude of the betrayal, Sirius has a shitty homelife, but it’s kinda background?, werewolves and shit, the war is happening in the background, domestic marauders

Language: English

Series: Part 1 of “Choices (are uniting)”, Part 1 of “A Hundred Divides (make a piece whole)”

~~~~~~~~~

Sirius was the first one to see his potential animagus forms.

He dreamt of a tree with bark that was blackened like coal. It was twisted, and gnarled, and rotted at the core. But above the tree sprouted young and pure leaves that shone through with sun and shaded the ground below.

There was a rabbit near the edge of the roots that was too terrified to move, erratic eye movements showing he was caught debating. Bolt and hope to outrun what endangered him, or hide in the roots and hope to avoid detection.

There was a snake that lay coiled at the base of the tree, half hidden in a deep hollow. His eyes glinted a familiar, unnatural blue-grey.

There was also a tiger, proud and lazy, dangerous claws glinting obsidian in the sunlight. He lay far away from any roots--away from the protection of the shade, farthest from the other creatures.

There was also a Grim, standing right before Sirius. Or rather, a large black dog that looked uncomfortably like a Grim. His eyes were blue-grey, like the snakes, but instead of unnatural it seemed rather more striking. As Sirius looked at him, he sat and wagged his tail, head tilting and tongue lolling from his mouth.

When Sirius awoke to Remus nudging him awake for breakfast, he debated on what he should say. Tell them he saw that he was still, somewhere deep down, part Slytherin? That part of him was skittish and terrified of what his future held, that some days he wanted to run and run and run and others he wanted to hunker down and weather the storm? That part of him was powerful but lonely, and content in the way it was? That the strongest piece seemed to be a loyal, obedient dog that took a rather uncoincidental appearance of a Grim?

“Are you alright?” Peter asked, bumping their shoulders and tangling their fingers together over the silverware.

Sirius fought the urge to pull away. There was no reason for him to get so flighty.

“Of course,” he said, stiffly.

Janmesh narrowed his eyes at him. Whenever Sirius was uncomfortable he reverted back to a very formal way of speaking, as had been ingrained in him. Shit.

“I just-I had the dream last night,” Sirius admitted. It was the final step to the animagus process, just in time for the full moon coming up in a week and a half. All there was left would be to choose, and then the transformations should be possible.

Janmesh leaned forward excitedly, nearly sparkling with excitement (or maybe that was just the water he’d shaken out of his still-wet-from-the-shower hair a minute ago, clinging to his skin). “Really? What did you see?”

Peter squeezed Sirius’ fingers, silently supporting him. He was sensitive like that, he understood that whatever Sirius had seen had shaken him up. It was a sweet gesture, just like Janmesh’s excitement was sweet in an entirely different way: it was a distraction. And Sirius loved ignoring his problems.

With a reassuring squeeze to Peter’s fingers he made an attempt to match Janmesh’s enthusiasm. “There was a tiger, a rabbit, a-uh, a snake, and a big black dog.”

Janmesh ignored Sirius’s stumble over the ‘my animagus form could be a snake,’ like a good friend/maybe-significant-other/whatever-the-fuck-they-are should do. “Really? Which called to you the most?”

“The dog was right in front of me, and seemed the friendliest.”

“You’ll have to focus on that when you go to bed tonight, then, and drink-”

“What are you talking about?” Remus asked, practically flinging himself onto the bench next to Janmesh, reaching blindly for the kettle. 

“Divinition,” Janmesh answered casually, automatically pouring Remus a cup and pushing it into his hands so that he wouldn’t knock something over or burn himself. “Peter has a dream journal as an assignment this month.”

Remus mumbled something to indicate that he’d heard, too tired to continue the conversation. Sirius thought he ought to start studying before late at night, and go to sleep at a decent enough time so he’d be able to function before noon.

“Speaking of that, I’m going to be late,” Peter squeaked out. He was so terrible at lying it was cute. “See ya guys.”

Sirius twisted his neck so Peter could press a quick kiss to his cheek before rushing off to his first class. “Bye, babe.”

Janmesh grinned. “You’re so cute.”

“Fuck off, it’s better than being starry-eyed over someone who doesn’t even look at you.”

Janmesh placed his hand over his heart, and dramatically swooned into Remus. “How callous! You wound me!”

Remus elbowed him, knocking him to the floor. They both laughed. Remus glared through foggy, baggy eyes.

“C’mon, Moony, off to Runes for us,” Sirius prompted, leaning across the table to push a piece of buttered toast and bacon into Remus’s mouth before he could curse at him for interrupting his morning caffeine.

“See you in Charms!” Janmesh called after them. Lucky bastard, the Arithmancy classroom was closest to the Great Hall. Then again, Arithmancy first thing in the morning.

~~~

When Sirius fell asleep to the effects of the binding potion that night he thought of all of the options that had been presented to him.

The rabbit was the first thing to greet him.

“We’re scared,” said the rabbit. He had Sirius’ voice, but it sounded younger. Sirius’s blue-grey eyes seemed trapped within the rabbit’s face. “We’ve always been scared.”

Sirius nodded. It was true.

“It’s all we’ve ever known, for a long time. It’s comfortable.”

And it was comfortable, in a familiar sort of way. Sirius had grown up in his mother’s house, and his family’s world. He knew how to navigate it and avoid trouble, and how to run from it when he met it. It would be so easy to silently struggle and stay right in the position he’d been born into.

“I don’t want to be that person anymore,” Sirius told the rabbit.

“Very well.”

The rabbit vanished, and next there was the snake.

“We were raised to be this,” said the snake. His voice was smoother, refined in the way all purebloods were forced to be. Sirius’s eyes fit within the snake’s face but didn’t belong.

“I’m not a Slytherin,” Sirius protested. “I’m a Gryffindor.”

“That’s not the only indication of character,” the snake said. “We have it in us. We could do great things.”

Sirius could do great things within pureblood society. He was higher in line for lordship than any of his other cousins, aside from Alaric, and Alaric was a Prewett in name. The chances of the family magic claiming him as heir after his mother Lucretia were fairly low. It would likely go to Sirius’ father, and then Sirius if he hadn’t married out of the family at that point. He could have power. He could-

“That’s not who I want to be,” Sirius told the snake.

“Very well.”

The rabbit vanished, and next there was the tiger.

“We don’t need anyone else,” said the tiger. His voice sounded old and arrogant. Sirius’s eyes were wrong and disjointed in the tiger’s face.

“Yes we do,” Sirius argued.

If tigers could smirk, the tiger would be doing so.

Sirius wanted to squirm under his stare. He-he was self reliant, wasn’t he? The only people that knew even close to everything about him weren’t his friends, or even his boyfriend….s. It was his cousins and brother. In their own strange way, they stuck together. Even then the information shared was only enough so that everyone was able to get by in the strict way of living within their family and marriages and Hogwarts house. Sirius could shut himself down completely around his friends, and close himself off from his cousins and do things all on his own. No expectations to live up to, no rules to follow, free-

“I don’t want to be alone,” he told the tiger. He didn’t know if he fully believe even himself.

The tiger was judging him. He didn’t believe Sirius fully either, but it was Sirius’s choice to make.

“Very well.”

The tiger vanished, and next there was the Grim.

“We want things to be different,” said the Grim.

Sirius nodded, almost shaking with relief. All of the other options seemed to be rooted in staying right where he was, doing slightly different variations of what he was already being forced to do.

“No matter what happens, we need to go with our heart and stick with what we know is true,” said the Grim. His voice was Sirius’s voice. Sirius’s eyes were too intelligent for a dog, but they were fitting.

“Yes,” agreed Sirius, reaching to make contact with the Grim and bind his soul to him.

The dog stepped back. “There is danger in blind loyalty. Do you accept these dangers, know of them? Do you believe I am the best piece of you?”

Sirius thought of the rabbit, and the snake, and the tiger. 

“Yes,” he answered honestly.

“Very well.”

~~~

Janmesh saw an elephant, and a squirrel, and an owl, and a stag.

He dreamt of a river bank, the water slow moving and vast, and a grassy bank. The sun made the water shine and the grass alight a vibrant green.

In the water was an Asian elephant, pouring water over himself with his trunk. He was powerful and proud, uncaring to the other animals about. He had no reason to worry, so he didn’t.

The squirrel scurried between the small trees and bushes along the water’s edge, making cheerful noises as he played, unheading of the predator that sat on one of the branches.

The owl ignored the squirrel. He was a barn owl, pale-moon face staring smugly down at Janmesh. He was above the rest, arrogant in his full view of the world.

Then, closest to him at the edge of the water was a stag. His antlers weren’t quite full grown, but they gleamed in the sunlight. He watched over the squirrel and the uncaring elephant and the arrogant owl. The cautious protector.

Janmesh woke up to Peter screaming.

He bolted upright and shoved aside the partially-opened drapes around his bed. Peter was knocked to the ground, a great black dog with gangly legs and too-big paws standing on top of him and attacking his face.

No, not attacking. Licking.

“Sirius!?” Janmesh cried out, elated. The dog leapt off of Peter and bounded up to Janmesh, tongue lolling out of his mouth, tail wagging.

“What in the bloody fuck is going on?” Remus growled, poking his head from his drapes, squinting.

“Oh, um-” Before Janmesh could come up with either an excuse or begin to explain that they had been attempting to become animagi since the past summer and had neglected to tell him as a surprise, Remus continued.

“Just get the dog out of here and let me sleep until I physically need to be up.” And with that Remus snapped the drapes closed.

“Dramatic,” Peter remarked in a whisper. Janmesh struggled not to laugh. Sirius-the-dog thumped his tail loudly against the bedpost. Remus let out an ominous growl.

“C’mon,” Janmesh told them and ushered them out of the dorm and up the boys staircase. The few early-risers gave Sirius some odd looks but decided not to comment. Upon reaching one of the empty rooms towards the top of Gryffindor tower, Peter locked the door behind them.

Sirius ran around the room, jumping and knocking into things. Janmesh had seen toddlers that were more coordinated, but at least Sirius could functionally move.

After three loops, he stopped and shifted back into his human form.

His very naked human form.

For all of five seconds Sirius didn’t seem to realize, so caught up in the excitement. “I did it! I did it firs-oh fuck.”

Peter covered his eyes with a squeak and a blush. It wasn’t that they hadn’t seen anything before (living in a room with each other for over four years would ensure that), however, it was very rare that it was Sirius being unclothed--even more so since he’d openly admitted to fancying all three of them. 

Janmesh valiantly decided to pretend that nothing too-far from ordinary was happening. He wasn’t going to check his...maybe, almost boyfriend out, no matter how much he wanted to. He also wasn’t going to look away, making it blatantly obvious that he wanted to check him out.

“Might’ve been the first one to shift, but that doesn’t mean you’ll be automatically able to keep your clothes, mate.”

Janmesh forced himself to focus on Sirius’s face, which was tinting pink high along the cheekbones. Even though he didn’t look down, he could tell Sirius was twisting up to attempt to cover himself up.

“U-ha-um-”

Instead of waiting for a more intelligent response, Janmesh pulled off the nightgown he wore over the flannel sleep pants Remus had introduced to all of them (after years of having his stolen, Remus had just gifted them each two pairs last Christmas and James wore them nearly every night).

Sirius’ blush intensified as he took the offered garment, quickly pulling it over his head.

“He’s decent, Peter, you can stop being scandalized,” Janmesh teased, shoving at Peter.

“Yep,” Peter managed to say, keeping his eyes firmly on the ground.

Sirius wouldn’t make eye contact, either, just as red as Peter. Janmesh’s nightgown was too big on him, and it kept making attempts to slip down his shoulders.

“I had my dream last night!” Janmesh announced, perhaps a bit louder than he meant. 

“Lucky,” Peter mumbled.

“What’d you see?” Sirius asked eagerly.

“An elephant, an owl, a squirrel, and a stag,” Janmesh relayed proudly.

Sirius frowned. “None of those would be quite useful against Moony, would they be? A stag would get eaten, a squirrel and an owl’d be too little, and the elephant would be a touch too dramatic.”

“Hey, the owl could, uh, could be lookout! And the squirrel would probably be good for getting through the Whomping Willow!”

“That’s actually a good idea,” Peter said. “Accuracy levitation is finicky, and it’d be a bit suspicious if any of the professors looked out and saw a stick hovering in midair.”

Sirius spun around Janmesh and Peter as he passed to get to the door. Janmesh attempted to will away the heat in his face at the reminder of how graceful Sirius could be when he wanted to, the aesthetic only intensified at the swirling of the borrowed nightgown. 

“It will also be easier to fit two of us and a squirrel under the cloak, rather than trying to squeeze the three of us.” Sirius opened the door, and the collar of the nightgown finally slipped off his shoulder, exposing the sharp line of his collarbone.

“Huh-yeah!” Peter agreed, hurrying to follow. From his momentary stutter Janmesh knew Peter had likely noticed the same thing he had.

“Squirrel it is, then,” Janmesh confirmed.

~~~

That night Peter dreamed of a black bear, and a blue bird, and a rat, and a wild boar.

He was in a field of raspberry bushes. He couldn’t see the edges of it, but he knew that not too far away there would be a little stone cottage with painted blue shutters. It was his muggle aunt’s place, out in the countryside. The sun was weak, but still bright in the middle of the sky.

The black bear was eating from the bushes. He moved slowly and calmly from bush to push, rolling gate peaceful as it sought out more of the sweet fruit.

The blue bird sat on one of the bushes that had yet to be picked over by the bear. The berries on that particular were full and ripe and red. The bird was jealously guarding the bush from the other animals there.

The rat was hard to see, hidden in the underbrush. He ate the berries from the lowest branches and the ones that had fallen to the ground. They weren’t the beautiful berries from the blue bird’s bush, or the bountiful feast that the black bear had, but they were food and it kept him hidden.

The boar was paying no heed of the black bear, marching right in front of his path and interrupting him when the boar wanted the berries the most. Even the blue bird with his beautiful horde was not enough to stop the boar, though he did not attempt to eat from the bird’s bush, only around it. He was fearless, yet still respectful.

~~~

And here is the divergence. The moment that would define the rest of history--or, at least, the history of the four boys sleeping in the dormitory that night. 

Either Janmesh Puther would choose with his head, or he would choose with his heart. The conversations with his animal pieces would go along a similar strain as Sirius Black’s had. Janmesh would be at the same stream as in his first dream, only he wouldn’t really know that, and the pieces would try to sway him to their side.

The elephant with freckle-spots around his eyes would tell Janmesh that he should reclaim his heritage of an ancient and powerful pureblood, to bask in the benefits of the Puther name. 

The owl with heavy brown markings around his eyes would tell Janmesh that he was capable of great things, if only he stopped lowering himself. 

The squirrel with pale spots around his eyes would tell Janmesh that the world was harsh and cruel, and he had people like his parents and Dumbledore to look out for him. He was still only a child, these things weren’t his to worry about.

The stag with large white marks around his eyes would tell Janmesh that he was in the best position to help his friends. He wasn’t the best duelist, and he wasn’t a genius, and he didn’t even know how to properly cheer someone up when they were unhappy, but he had the name and the wealth and the support that came behind it.

Janmesh would always reject the idea the elephant proposed. He was uncomfortably aware of the privilege he had over Remus and Peter and Lily and Sirius, in some regards. He wouldn’t ever want to ignore that.

Janmesh would instantly chafe against the owl’s suggestion, despite knowing, deep down, that if he were to mature some things could be going much differently in his attempts at wooing Lily and actually talking things over with Sirius. His parents would be less exasperated at his interactions with the rest of pureblood society.

To the squirrel, Janmesh might accept. It would be with trepidation, and the squirrel would make him hear out the stag first, but he would agree. Even if what the stag promised was true, it was not the correct choice for him. His friends need him to be a squirrel and he couldn’t be a stag, or else the very friend he was becoming an animagus form might try and hunt him.

Or, Janmesh might reject the squirrel. He would tell him that he didn’t want to live that way, with his head buried in the sand, that he had an obligation to his friends and if the squirrel wouldn’t allow it, he’d find another way to be there for them. In this version of events, Janmesh would immediately agree with what the stag was saying. He wouldn’t care what warning was issued with, just that he couldn’t live his life the way the squirrel wanted him to.

If Janmesh went with the squirrel, he would wake Sirius first by chittering loudly in his ear, and then wake up Peter in the same way. The three would go to the same empty room as the day before (this time with clothes for Janmesh in tow) and discuss the dream that Peter had.

If Janmesh went with the stag he wouldn’t have a choice on who to wake first as his young antlers would get tangled in the curtains and he’d nearly bring an entire bedpost down while clattering around. Sirius would be forced to explain to Remus why there was an animal in their room for the second morning in a row, inciting a disagreement that wouldn’t end until after the full moon.

If Janmesh went with the squirrel, the next night Peter would go with the wild boar. It had felt the most right to him. It was brave in a way that Peter had tucked way down deep inside, and not oblivious like the bear or jealous like the bird or scheming and afraid like the rat. Remus wouldn’t be woken up by his first transformation because he would have fallen asleep in the common room late the night before, and they would go with the plan to surprise him outside of the Shrieking Shack (in order, of course, to be sure that as a werewolf he wouldn’t attempt to kill them). The next day Remus would be furious at the risk but secretly touched.

If Janmesh went with the stag, the next night Peter would go with the rat. It would make the most sense, if they still needed a small animal, and Remus had shouted about how a dog and a stag was already enough attention, without a third giant animal in the mix. Peter wouldn’t wake anyone up with his transformation, he would sit on his pillow with some strange sort of forlornness that he couldn’t place, until Sirius pulled back the curtains to wake him and offered up a beaming smile at Peter’s accomplishment.

But these are just two possibilities, neither set in stone.

Janmesh had to choose, and his options were difficult, each weighed for their worth with the information that was known.

But choices, as everyone knows, have power.

#harry potter #choices (are uniting) #a hundred divides (can make a piece whole) #my fic #part 1 #sirius black #james potter #peter pettigrew #remus lupin #polyamory #marauders fic #marauders era #marauders #james/sirius #peter/sirius #remus/sirius #hindi james potter #i carve validation and also have so many more fics planned out for this pls enjoy

[ryoshan]

after the fall spoilers /

when u wanna liveblog but ur the first person you know to start/finish reading: a collection of disorganised and contextless thoughts by an excitable brit

book: mentions weiss and ruby 

me: SCREAMING

fox is from vacuo!!!!!! i am VINDICATED 

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split point of view per chapter is sososososososoososos GOOD SO GOOD DO GOOD 

nothing will beat novels for their ability to drop explicit details in a short period of time 

VELVET HAS A PHOTOGRAPHIC MEMORY 

coco adele? was that a typo? or is adele her middle name? stylistic choice? hmm 

what a fucking show off our boy fox is 

tiny criticism: pls stop knocking on about coco’s fashion sense we get it you’re doing that thing where you boil her down to one trait, hopefully this will happen less as the book goes on 

FOX CLAPPED HIS HANDS TO HIS EYES. “OH NO!” HE SAID. “WHYYYYYYY?” 

this initiation is some juicy fucking lore my guys 

y.. yatsuhashi CAN FUCK WITH MEMORIES???

dyou think when fox stutters over a word in team cfvy’s mental group chat, coco, yatsuhashi and velvet repeat his mistake back at him 

i am supremely interested to know how fox’s semblance interacts with rens

i literally fucking winded myself at the start of chapter 5 gasping so hard 

“she looked like she had a mortal wound in her side” OH HAHA VERY FUNNY I SEE WHAT YOU DID THERE 

coco mentoring ruby has given me more life than anything so far

WEISS DONT BE MEAN TO YATSUHASHI 

oh im not comfortable with weiss calling fox red that sounds very weird and not at all in character it sounds too much like torchwick and im not about making that association 

WHY WOULD HER HAND GO TO MYRTENASTER ARE YOU REALLY GONNA FIGHT FY IN THE MIDDLE OF THE HALLWAY WEISS?

i really did forget how much of an ego weiss has right in the beginning ive been writing her post development for too long 

BLAKE N VELVET BLAKE N VELVE T once again i gasped so hard my lungs hurt 

wow huh okay blake being violent is..... a surprise 

“I don’t believe in fighting prejudice with violence” jess is vindicated im so proud of my wife

COCO WAS GOING TO LIKE HER, VELVET THOUGHT you’re damn right she does

i dont like velvet and coco fighting ):

fox as the hardcore realist i am once again, VINDICATED

velvet employing the same words to gus as blake did to her..... aaa.....

yatsuhashi’s semblance makes me sad cause imagine if he made someone he thought cared about him forget him and it turned out to be really easy

UGH THE THEME IN THIS BOOK IS LEARNING LESSONS AND ITS SO APPARENT AAAAAA

fox and ruby interacted...... thank you for my life............

the inclusion of not only yatsu asking velvet to guide him so he can be better in terms of his language but also an active example of this happening is really pleasing to me 

as the player of a dnd character who always splits off from the group i can say with complete confidence fox splitting off from team cfvy in the sands of vacuo will almost certainly not go well

“she kept waiting for the others to see it” ;___;

PYRRHAAAA ;____________;

literally all it takes is her name and i am sad . 

this TEAM make my heart SURGE 

coco genuinely is the big explicit wlw i’ve been hoping for 

jesus christ coco hold urself together. 

fox vc alexa play darude: sandstorm 

OK BUT CYRANO IS MCFUCKING COOL MY DUDES I COULDNT HAVE IMAGINED SOMETHING LIKE THIS 

- as long as her remembered to charge his scroll. i knew it, boy’s gonna run out of battery . 

IF MY BOY GETS KILLED I’LL NEVER FORGIVE YOU ROOSTERTEETH

i love when things connect with canon i love it i love it 

why is coco of all people picking on velvet ): 

VELVET BITING BACK THO aaaaaa yay but also ):

uhg i love this fuck ign fami ly 

im.... emotional,,,,,

the cairn mission......... no wonder it was so hard..... im ): 

COCO FINALLY LETTIN VELVET DO SHIT YASS

I KNOW ITS JUST THE INDLUENCE OF GUS’ SEMBLANCE BUT IT MAKES ME SO SAD WHEN THEY FIGHT 

also im getting serious shadow of the colossus vibes

FOX BETTER NOT DIE BERTIE NEEDS TO GET FUCKED 

i love my son he’s so strong and smart 

theres so many death flags here i dont even know who they’re on anymore

lol jk he’s fine

i really love how sure of himself fox is and so he should be he’s fought really hard to be confident

it is REALLY cool seeing an actual scene from the show written from velvet’s perspective, im all about this 

moro is gonna be happy about glynda i know it she’s fab 

“we just need you to tell us everything” “ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING” ozpin still putting tremendous amounts of pressure on teenagers i see

“we prefer to speak with you individually so we can separate you from your support system while tugging on your vulnerabilities” 

yatsu getting mad ):

im not too fond on how blithely ‘coco never picked up on that’ regarding the finer points of velvet’s tendencies when coco has been established already as a people watcher and observational thinker.,

CFY TO THE RESCUE 

what the FUCK these adults???? hello????? “i deserved that” NO YOU DIDNT???? what did glynda think he was gonna do, stab ozpin??? 

“haha we broguth her here alone to TEST you!!! you passed because you came to her!!!! hahahahahah!!!!!!” fuck you ozpin 

no explanation as to WHY she had to be brought alone as if her ‘keen observational skills’ couldnt have been asked about in the presence of her team or indeed pulled fro the written report she’ll be making 

this is such a formative mission for them and i like it but damn ozpin really up here ruining it all 

the death flags were yatsu’s ALL ALONG 

oh god the impact of velvet using some of these weapons has not been lost on me and it must be devastating for her 

“if this didnt qualify, what did?” me when i get to the end of a game with 3468758976495 different things hoarded and dropping them all on the final boss

why are coco and velvet having a conversation like they’re about to die noones dying NOONES DYING 

nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

FUCK RIGHT OFF WITH SHIFTING TO A FLASHBACK YOU WANKERS

thumbelina peach...? really???? but hey looks like beacon has more than 4 professors now

“noone knew what had frozen that beast there” interesting . 

its interesting to me that so far its been atlas thats been shown to be the least accepting of faunus but now its becoming clear mistral is worse, worse enough that velvet wont even consider going there

“velvet waited for someone to ask her what she wanted, but they never did” :( 

anyway i cant wait to see how coco is gonna make the blind worm her bitch

yatsu is so shy about his semblance im sad for him, 

I CANT BELIEVE I THOUGHT YOU WERE CUTE 

coco getting edward to help ;_____;

its both funny and depressing that sssn are here and sage and scarlet are still yet to have any actual fuckin lines or DESCRIPTORS for that matter 

fox tapping that @ everyone command and getting chewed out for it 

COCO YOU BITCH THAT WAS ART 

u kno whats getting me most? 

BOOK #2 WHEN???????????

#idk why im surprised i finished it already when ive been doing nothing else all day #anyway im gonna take a break and then start a reread for analysis purposes #( ooc. they’re lesbians harold ) #after the fall spoilers / #rwby spoilers /