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harrywavycurly · 23 days

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What would happen if Eddie saw his imaginary friend or person with Steve and they like hugged or something? Would eddie get jealous? Does he have feelings for her?🥺

Hiii lovey!! So I have kinda already done something about Eddie getting jealous, so I’m just gonna answer your last question about if he has feelings for her and I hope you enjoy!💖

-find all things Eddie’s Wish here✨

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A/N: I have been waiting to write this for a few weeks because this series is just special to me and this is exactly how I feel like this would go down between the two of them✨

Eddie lets out a long sigh as he puts his van into park and rests his head on the steering wheel, the long hours at work the past few days are starting to take their toll on him leaving him rather exhausted. He closes his eyes for a moment and doesn’t even notice the slight breeze that blows through his hair as the faint smell of vanilla fills his van, two signs that usually when he’s paying attention let him know you’re near. You feel yourself frown as you look over at him from the passenger’s seat, you know he’s tired but you also know there’s something else bothering him that you can’t quite put your finger on.

You slowly reach over and tuck a few stands of his hair behind his ear so it’s out of his face and you grin when you see the corners of his mouth twitch letting you know he’s fighting back a smile. Eddie opens his eyes as he sits up and he doesn’t even flinch when you reach over and place a hand on his cheek making him lean into the warmth of your touch. He has always found your touch comforting and he knows that’s probably got to be part of the whole you’re his person thing but he can’t describe the feeling he gets when you put your arms around him or even just touch him with your hand, it’s almost as if he feels perfectly complete and everything is right in the world or at least in his little corner of the world.

“What’s wrong?” Your voice is soft and soothing as it hits Eddie’s ears making his shoulders relax as his hands drop from the steering wheel and into his lap.

“Just tired.” You roll your eyes at him as you drop your hand from his face. Eddie doesn’t have time to miss the loss of contact before you just grab his right hand and begin playing with the ring on his index finger.

“Look at me please.” Eddie doesn’t hesitate to turn his head so he’s staring right at you. He knows what you’re about to do, and normally he puts up more of a fight when you try to look into his mind for the memory of the event that happened during the day that’s caused him to feel any other emotion other than happiness but he’s too tired and apart of him wants you to see what happened just to get it over with. “Oh Eddie.” Your voice is low as you feel a wave of anxiousness overtake him as a memory from his day plays in your head.

“I can’t help it.” Is all he says because he knows exactly what memory you’re seeing, it’s from his lunch break earlier in the day when Steve was in the shop and asked him about you. Usually whenever someone brings you up Eddie just brushes you off as his bestfriend but Steve being the nosey annoying friend that he is wouldn’t let it go until Eddie blurted out the three little words of “I love her” shocking not only Steve but Eddie as well because he’d never said that out loud before.

“I know.” Eddie gives you a small smile as you squeeze his hand. “I am kinda perfect aren’t I?” You ask as you take your free hand and place it back on his face.

“To me yeah.” You smile as Eddie interlocks his fingers with yours. “Is it okay though? Because if this is against the-” Eddie is cut off by your lips pressing against his in a quick and sweet kiss.

“It’s okay.” You state as you pull away, you can feel relief wash over him making you smile as Eddie rests his forehead against yours.

“Really?” You giggle at how relieved he sounds as he pulls away just so he can look you in the eyes, you know what he needs and more importantly wants to hear so you just gently run your thumb over his cheek and lean in and place a little kiss to his forehead.

“I’m your person Eddie…I have and always will..love you.” Eddie feels like his heart is going to burst out of his chest as you stare into his eyes as you speak. “I am however a little offended it took you so long to realize you loved me.” You shoot him a playful wink that makes him laugh as he leans in so his lips are just a few inches from yours.

“I’ll make it up to you..I promise.” You know he means every word so you just smile as he closes the distance between the two of you and captures your lips in a deep kiss. Eddie is too caught up in the feeling of your lips on his that he doesn’t feel the sudden gust of air surround the two of you and it’s not until you pull away from him and lay your head on one of his pillows that he realizes you have moved the two of you from his van to his bedroom.

“You’re tired.” Eddie lets out an annoyed groan at your statement as he watches you get up off the bed and walk towards his bedroom door.

“And you’re being rude.” He mumbles making you shoot him a glare over your shoulder as he looks around and raises an eyebrow at the fact he’s in his comfy sweatpants and worn out Metallica shirt instead of his work uniform. “Did you change my clothes?” He asks as he looks at you and sees you’re dressed in your usual nighttime outfit that consists of polka dot pajamas and fuzzy bunny slippers on your feet.

“Yes? You can’t get into bed with your smelly work clothes on that’s gross.” You don’t get to see Eddie roll his eyes because you flip the light switch by his door making his room go dark with just the faint light from the street lamp peeking in through his curtains. You kick off your slippers before you climb into his bed and get under the covers, you can feel that Eddie is anxious and unsure of what to do so you just scoot closer to him and rest your head on his chest and drape an arm over his middle.

“Are you uhm gonna stay the uh night with me?” You smile at how nervous he sounds because you know this is completely new for him.

“Yes.” You feel his mood shift at your answer and soon his arms are wrapping around you as if to make sure you don’t change your mind and try to wiggle away from him in the middle of the night. “You can sleep now Eddie it’s okay.” You whisper as you feel his hold on you slowly begin to loosen letting you know he was relaxing.

“I love you.” Is the last thing you hear him say before you can tell he has fully given into his exhaustion and allowed himself to fall asleep. You smile and just lay there a few more minutes soaking in how happy and relaxed Eddie feels. You don’t remember him ever feeling this light and happy before and you know it’s because he is finally starting to realize just why you were sent to him in the first place when he made that wish all those months ago, you are his person meaning you’re his to love and to also love him in return because that’s what he needs the most.

#Eddie’s wish series #eddie munson au #eddie munson fanfiction #eddie munson series #Eddie Munson x imaginary!reader #eddie Munson x his person #eddie munson x fem!reader fluff #eddie munson fluff #eddie munson x female reader #eddie munson x fem!reader #eddie munson x y/n #eddie munson x reader #eddie munson x you #Eddie Munson #stranger things au #stranger things fanfiction #my little dungeon master baby

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faust-the-enjoyer · 25 days

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Anonymous asked: Hellooo this is a sfw request I hope that's okayyy! Can you do a hurt/comfort fic about how female reader used to be in an unhealthy relationship? And now, being in a healthy one with Leon, she's not used to it. So she usually thinks she has to serve him and do all the housework or she'll be in trouble, but he just gives her love and reassurance 🥺

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Warnings/tags: fem!reader, sfw, mentions of past toxic/abusive relationship, Leon is RE4 remake coded, hurt/comfort, use of pet names/terms of endearment.

-Divider by (saradika-graphics)!

It's always been this way, ever since you were with him, it was you who was expected to do the housework. Always you, it never mattered if you were tired or upset, he'd find a way to make you feel bad, guilty, hell, sometimes he'd even make you afraid, and even cause problems on purpose, all just to make you do the housework so his lazy ass could sit all day long and never lift a finger.

Well, thankfully the relationship was broken off, and later, you got with Leon. A gentleman. An absolute sweetheart. A couple of months into being with you, he'd start to notice some of the things that you do. You had just started living with him for a couple of months, and that's when he noticed it happening.

At first, you'd do a couple of chores around the house, cooking, since you think your cooking is much better than his, doing your own laundry, which then turned into you doing his laundry as well, and even changing the bed sheets every once and a while, among other things. You felt as if there was almost an obligation on you to do these things, to take care of the house and let him rest while you do so, but it didn't go unnoticed by him, and in the many times he insisted on doing certain chores, you ended up doing them before he did anyway, because you felt as though that was the right thing to do.

One night in the laundry room, you were getting ready to take the clothes out of the washer and put them in the dryer, but to your surprise, he came into the room and stopped you.

"Sweetheart, could we just talk for a moment? Here, gimme the basket.", it's quite obvious he's a little concerned about something. As you give him the basket and watch him hold it with one arm, you lean against the washing machine, "What is it baby? You alright?", you ask him as you start rubbing your hand up and down his free arm. He lets out a sigh then speaks, "I'm fine, but...I've been meaning to talk to you about this for a while now, I just wanna know, why do you keep doing all of this?", he points to the basket in his hands and the washer and dryer, then continues talking, "You do almost all the housework, even when I have the energy to do it and I tell you that I'll do it, you do everything in this house, even when you're exhausted...why?".

You're staggered. You never thought he'd have any issues with your behaviour, or even find it odd or strange, you thought he'd like it, appreciate it, you thought he'd be happy with you...he certainly never showed any signs of being upset with you whenever you didn't do these chores, or even when he did some with you at the beginning of when you two started living together. It was like second nature to you; cook this, clean this, scrub this, wash this, or else he'll be angry at you. He?

This is not your ex. He's not him.

"I just....", you trail off, tears slowly starting to form in your eyes as you look at him. Upon seeing your expression, he immediately puts the laundry basket up on the dryer, and he brings you in for a tight hug, burying your face in the crook of his neck while rubbing your back. "Shh...I'm not angry at you, I'm not upset with you sweetheart, I just wanna know why...", his tone is gentle, comforting even, as he lets you cry it out a little. You lift your head up to look at him as he wipes your tears away, "I just want to make you happy...I thought it would make you happy...", you sniffle, and he puts his hand on the side of your face, his thumb caressing your cheek. "Why? I never asked you to do all the housework, you're not getting paid for this you know, you're not a house cleaner that I hired...".

He smiles at you let a small laugh out at what he said, "I...it used to make my ex pretty happy you know...I'd...usually get in trouble if I didn't stuff like cooking and cleaning, he'd cause a lot of issues,", his face slightly twists in anger, "I....I thought you'd feel the same way he-...I'm sorry...I'm so sorry...", you look away in embarrassment, it wasn't your fault that you'd thought that, but you still felt like it was. He puts his thumb on your chin and lifts your face up for him to look at, "I'm not angry at you, I know it's tough, and I can't imagine what you went through being with that piece of shit...but I won't ever get angry at you for not doing housework,", he lets out a sigh, "We live in this house together, and I love taking care of our home just as much as you do, I know it makes you happy doing some of the chores, but I wanna do them with you, I don't want our house and our relationship to feel like a burden on you...alright sweetheart? I'm already happy with you.", he gives you a small warm smile as his tired eyes soften, and you nod, burying your face into his neck again as he kisses your forehead.

These days, he does the chores alongside you, as he washes the dishes, you dry them, as you vacuum, he wipes the windows, as you change the sheets, he makes the bed, and now, you cook together. He took the weight of tiring chores and fear off of your shoulders, and offered you nothing but love, respect, and comfort.

#faust speaks #leon scott kennedy x reader #leon s kennedy x reader #leon kennedy x reader #leon kennedy #leon s kennedy

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zane-wanna-sleep · 11 months

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I saw the time-travel concept lately and then be like 'BUT WHAT IF—! So here sumthing even me myself don't know what it is (no plot, no story line, just sum piece of my mind)

Part 2 , Part 3

⚠️: death

“ He.. –he's dead ”

And that's how the whole world stopped, sound turned itself off into high pitch echoing in Jake's ears.

The prisoner better not lied when he said that 'cause if he did Jake would be mad than grief. So he asked again “ Say that again, say the truth ”

The prisoner cried and through sob he said again, “ I told you! That's the truth, the kid is died! ”

No interrogation can bring more any information from this recombinant and he didn't want to hear any more either. Jake stepped back gesture other na'vi to lock prisoner up again and would let the judging be Tonowari's company. He felt.. numb

The Toruk Makto sighed deeply as he walked away, let his mind fly somewhere else in his memory of old days they were happy and safe in forest, had no idea what will happened. And just enjoy their normal days back then, with Spider be around them.

How could he tell this to his children? How would they react to this news? How could he even face them again after this and what he has done?

And their reactions weren't different from what he expected, Neteyam froze lost in his processsing thought, Kiri cried, shout, yell along with Lo'ak who wasn't much difference from his sister and Tuk, oh his baby Tuk, she was all confused but can understand that her brother Spider would never come back. And they can't go see him again also.

Then it's happened, Neteyam started his words, his hash and full of dreadly hatred words, “ I believed you, even though I always knew I shouldn't have ”

He spat as if there's venoms in his thoughts “ You said he would be okay, weren't you? ”

His sharp amber eyes stabbed Jake

“ And the next thing you say about him after that day is... This?? ” ow that's hurt, really “ What you going to do now? Forget it and continue this living like nothing has happened and our brother just died ”

“ That's ENOUGH! ” Neytiri shouted instantly after his last sentence and everyone went silent, just for a moment though, and before the kids can open their mouths to continue their protest, she beat them “ Don't talk to your father like that, what's wrong with you, Neteyam you've never be like this ”

That's boiled up Neteyam's blood even more but this time it's Lo'ak who answered back then Kiri who calmed her sob and let out her rage, Neteyam join in again try to used all reason to make his mate understand. Tuk was just cried she didn't know what to do or who she should seek comfort from until Neteyam calm himself, not his mind, a little enough to scoop her up to whisper reassurance.

“ Then we will fix this ourselves, we'll take a revenge for him ” Lo'ak announced his purpose with his most serious face and his kids quickly agreed, ignored Neytiri's protest completely, which sent shivers down to Jake a bit

There're shout and shout and yell and cry and shout again, that's a chaos and he wish everything was not real, that everything was just another very, very bad dream of his and he will wake up soon. Wake up to see his family happy with Spider again.

The chaos endded with Tonowari's warning he totally forgot that it's late at night by now and they're bothering other villagers by their loud voice. He apologized and tried to wave off the Olo'eytan's concern about their situation, it may not effective due his exhausted, wet-tear face but at very least the bigger na'vi willing to leave them, for now though.

When he turned back to looked in their marui, his heart fell when he couldn't find any of his children insight and let out a long breath he didn't know he was holding when noticed they're just made a dog pile in the corner, though when he or Neytiri try to get closer Neteyam and Kiri would give them a dreadful glare, Lo'ak would slightly hiss and Tuk whined softly. His mate said when he tried to assure Tonowari they've tried to sneak out, thankfully they at least still sleep in the same marui as him tonight after everything.

That's hurt him, a lot, he want this bad dream to its end so that he can pulled them into his arms again. So he made up his mind, if they need their time he he would give them as much as they need. Jake let exhausted get over him and dragged him to sleep, or please be awakeness to peaceful day.

And yes he had to wake up, the sun shone brightly hurt his eyes forced open to meet familiar ceiling he didn't doubt at first but when he stepped to outside he saw forest surrounding him and others marui on tree nearby

Jake froze there, what is happening here, he had went insane or this is another dream of him being in delusional??

“ oh Mr.Sully, ” the voice said differ from some he heard just not long that called him Olo'eytan and there's only one person who called him that, “ I came here for Lo'ak and Kiri but uh.. am I disturb you? If so I can leave ”

Jake took a deep breath before looked down, his breath hiccup when he saw the boy, and...

What in the world happened here

Spider looked young, he of course young you skxwang hes a kid, too young for him. Looked like a 10-or-so years old, Jake wasn't sure but he sure that this isn't right, Spider is sixteen, almost seventeen, for Eywa's sake.

So why is he looked like this can some one please explain?!

But with that innocent wide eyes of Spider, he couldn't scream his heart out for any explanation.

#spider socorro #miles spider socorro #jake sully #lo'ak sully #neteyam #kiri sully #neytiri #i don't know how to tag #avatar spider #avatar #atwow fanfiction #atwow

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romanestuffsposts · 8 months

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It’s Picnic season where I live 🥳 maybe stucky takes the reader out to a park to play and have a picnic? Maybe she falls asleep in the car on the ride from being tired out from a great day out 🥺❤️

Hi there love! 💜

This is sooo lovely, thank you so much for sharing such a cute request!

I hope i'm not too late for picnic season 💗

Enjoy <33

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Warnings : food, picnic, fluff, lots of love, kisses, pet name,

Pairings : Daddies!Stucky ; Daddy!Bucky x Papa!Steve x Little!Reader

Summary : The most perfect evening with your Daddies

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"You wanna help Papa and Daddy caring the things until we find a nice place ?" Your Daddy peers down at you and you happilly nod "yea!!"

He chuckles and gives you the blanket so you can carry something who won't exhausted you too much. You wrap the blanket around you and follow your Daddies around the parc. You're happy because you will spend a perfect evening in one of your favorite place with your favorite persons and you will see the sunset, something you never saw before.

Your Daddies hesitate because it means staying up late outside but decided that for that one time, you'll be okay.

"how about here ?" your Papa asks as he stops walking. You take a look around you, gaze the beautiful fountain with the soft and sweet sounds that comes out of it. You love the big tree who is falling above you and the fact that there's not many people around is adding to your decision.

You bite your lips and grab the blanket who is on your shoulders, you throw it on the ground and then fall on it with a big smile.

"i think that means yes" your Daddy chuckles before falling on the blanket too. Your Papa smiles and sits down beside you. "let's get our things out"

You help them getting everything out and smile at each food or drinks that came out of the basket. You didn't know what was in there, your Daddies wanted it to be a surprise but of course you knew it would be things that you love.

You start by grabbing your favorite fruit and immediately bite in it making your Papa chuckles "don't wait for us" he jokes, rolling his eyes playfully. You giggle and take another bite.

"did you had a good day with Wanda and Sam ?" Your Daddy asks as he takes a bite in his sandwich. They were called by Fury for a meeting with some others members, so they rushed to the tower with you under their arms and gave you to Wanda and Sam who weren't needed at the meeting.

You didn't asked what happened behind the closed doors because you wouldn't have understand much anyway. You just made sure that they were okay which was the most important thing for you.

"was gooood!" you exclam making them smile "uncle Sam said many things I didn't understood tho" you frown as you think of it.

Your Daddies laughs and shake their head "doesn't surprise me" your Daddy jokes causing him to have the elbow of your Papa in his ribs "ouch! hey I was just joking"

You laugh beside them and happilly take the drink your Papa is giving you "you need to stay hydrated"

You nod and drink a little bit before looking for something else to eat "the sunset would be here soon, babygirl' your Daddy informs.

"and as soon as it disappear, we go to bed" your Papa teases and this time it's you who roll your eyes playfully

"i'll still have my story ?" you shyly ask as you grab one of your Papa's sandwich. Your Papa sweetly smile and kisses your temple "of course you'll have your bedtime story, princess" he reassures you.

You let yourself fall on your Papa's laps and take a huge bite of his sandwich while he's busy talking with your Daddy. This one gasp as he looks down at you "how dare you!"

You bite your lips and giggle. You scream from laughters when his fingers dig into your belly and sides. You squirm on his laps and close your eyes from the huge feeling.

"Papaaa" you laugh and he just chuckles above you. It's your Daddy who save you by grabbing you and protecting you in his arms. You sat between his legs, your back against his chest as you try to recovery.

"here!" your Daddy points at the horizon after an hour of being here. You talked and laughed a lot as you waited and now is the real moment, the moment you were waiting for.

You gasp and pull away from your Daddy, you fall on your stomach and rest your chin in your palms. The different shades are the best thing you've ever seen in your whole life. The colours dancing with each others as the sun disappears is really beautiful.

Your eyes sparkle at the view and you bite your lips with the biggest smile you could make.

Your Daddies's heart melt at your happiness and they smile through it all. They can't keep their eyes off of you, not even to watch the sunset. Their most beautiful view is you, not the sun.

"Again!" You yell happilly as you keep gazing the now dark sky. Your Daddy lifts you in his arms and kisses your cheek "there's nothing more for tonight baby" he explains "the sunset is only one time each day, right before night time"

You pout and whine "but I wanna watch it again" you complain. Your Papa clicks his tongue in his mouth and tap the tip of his fingers against the tip of your nose "get ride of that little pout, princess." he warns "or else we won't be doing things like this anymore"

Your shoulders drop and you hid your face in your Daddy's neck. It's late and you're really tired which your Daddies know, that's why they didn't get mad at you.

"let's go back home now, hum ?" your Daddy whispers and you nod your head, your eyes already closed. Your Daddies get back the things together and then head for the car who is parked not too far.

They sweetly smile and quietly chuckle when they hear your cute little snore from the backseat as Steve drives back home.

‘’What a cutie’’ Steve chuckles as he thinks about their wonderful evening. Bucky laughs and agrees ‘’she’s something else, that’s for sure’’

They love teasing you about not being like others or calling you weird from time to time but they really love that side of you. They can’t imagine you without that part.

‘’She’ll get mad tomorrow morning if she understand that she didn’t had her bedtime story because she was already asleep’’ Bucky points, sighing.

‘’She really is a princess when we think of it’’ Steve jokes ‘’she won’t be mad because she knows she’ll have two bedtime story tomorrow since she didn’t had one tonight’’

Bucky nods ‘’I hope’’

‘’She’s too cute for us to say no to a second story anyway’’ Steve playfully rolls his eyes, the sentence is following by quiet chuckle

You smile at that, he’s totally right on that point

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missywritesfor7 · 4 months

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❤️‍🩹Lifeline | MYG❤️‍🩹

Happy New Year everyone!! Enjoy this chapter and new chapters every Monday! 💜💜

Synopsis: It’s long been controversial for idols to date, but idols dating each other can be really beautiful or a complete nightmare. When Yoongi's relationship with another idol is discovered, he decides maybe it’s time to break the taboo and show people it’s ok for idols to date. Instead, they find themselves caught in the midst of one media frenzy after another and struggle to keep their relationship as strong as it had been the past 2 years. Yoongi finds a self destructive way to cope, and it causes even more problems than it solves. As they fight for their relationship and their careers, they discover that sometimes, the only way to truly be free is to let go.

Pairing: idol!Yoongi x idol!OC

Warnings: nsfw, alcoholism, cheating, depression, anxiety, Yoongi goes through a bisexy ho phase, Yoongi is also in his alcoholic phase, post-military BTS

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Ch. 2: Taboo

Yoongi wakes up the next morning to an empty bed once again. He woke up to see Hyeri off when she left for her early shoot. He made her a quick snack to take with her, then fell right back to sleep the moment she left. Now he’s up again just a mere 3 hours later with an hour to spare before he heads off to his own scheduled shoot.

He rolls out of bed and makes himself a breakfast smoothie. With their world tour coming up he’s been on his pre-comeback diet which he mostly follows except when he’s with Hyeri. The way things have been lately, any time with her is worth breaking his diet.

When the time comes, he gathers everything he’ll need for the day and heads out once a manager arrives to take him to his first stop. Today’s schedule starts with a commercial shoot followed by a short promo shoot for the upcoming New Years Con being streamed on Weverse. After that, it’s dance practice until they all master the choreo or start fighting with each other too much from exhaustion. Then he’ll be in his studio finalizing some songs, making new ones, and working on a few projects he took on when he couldn’t get himself to say no to anyone.

With this schedule he has very little time to look at his phone. It’s nothing new to him and Hyeri though. They’re used to being so busy that they don’t even have a second to send a text to each other, and that’s exactly how Yoongi’s day is going. He gets all the way to practice having only checked his phone once during lunch where he sent Hyeri a quick message telling her to have a good day and that he loves her.

At practice the guys are all still working on perfecting their set list for their tour. They work one song at a time with the choreographer to make sure they have the moves down and then evaluate whether the song order is doable. It’s physically and mentally testing, but again it’s nothing new for these 7 veterans of the business.

During a short break Yoongi takes a seat against the wall next to Jin who hands him a bottle of water. “How do they have so much energy?” Jin asks pointing to Taehyung and Jungkook who are playing around in the middle of the floor.

“Their generation is a different breed,” Yoongi laughs watching along as Jimin and Hoseok record the two youngest’s impromptu breakdance battle on their phones.

When Namjoon enters the room from the bathroom, everyone begins moving into position to get back to practice. However, Namjoon pulls Yoongi to the side first.

“Hey hyung,” Namjoon says in a hushed tone. “I just want to give you a heads up.” He pulls his phone out of his pocket and shows Yoongi an article.

BTS SUGA HOLDING HANDS WITH IDOL ACTRESS RAINBOW

Right under the headline is a photo of Yoongi and Hyeri after they ate together the day before. Usually Yoongi, and the rest of the guys, would roll their eyes at such articles. It’s not the first time any of them have been photographed within 10 feet of someone else and had it turn into dating rumors. It’s easy to ignore because it’s typically not long before the chatter dies down and the public has moved on to something else. Usually. But the photo is too damning to be ignored.

For the very brief moment that Yoongi and Hyeri held each other’s hand outside of the restaurant yesterday, someone managed to take a picture of them. Now the image of them with their hands linked while they gaze into each other’s eyes is all over the internet.

Denying the rumors is what they normally would do. It’s easy. But not this time. Namjoon doesn’t have to say anything else to Yoongi because he already knows what this means. He’ll have to make a statement, and denying the relationship may not be so easy this time.

“Have you heard from Rainbow?” Namjoon asks.

“No,” Yoongi says. “I haven’t been on my phone all day.” He reaches for his pocket then realizes he left his phone in his bag in his studio upstairs. He looks at Namjoon wondering if it would upset the others if he ran upstairs for his phone.

“Come on, guys!” Hobi shouts getting in formation.

“You think she’s ok?” Namjoon asks.

“I don’t know,” Yoongi sighs. “Maybe she hasn’t seen anything yet, she’s supposed to be on set all day.”

“Then I’m sure she’s fine,” Namjoon resolves moving to join the rest of the group. “Let’s get this over with.”

The remainder of practice is hardly memorable to Yoongi. His body is there on autopilot, but his mind is far gone. He knew from the start that he and Hyeri’s relationship would be risky. An idol dating is always a hot topic, but two idols dating each other is a much larger issue. He hates the taboo, and while he’s certain there will be many people happy for them, he knows the nasty other side all too well. He can handle it, he has been since before their debut, but he worries about Hyeri.

When Hyeri debuted she was part of a four member girl group called Two Piece under Starlight Entertainment. Although they were under a much smaller company, they still managed to gain a decent following after their debut. Rainbow quickly became known as the adorably shy maknae with the voice to make anyone melt.

Behind the scenes, she found herself afraid to say much for fear that she would be kicked from the group. She got along well with her members, but management kept incredible amounts of pressure on them that had all four of them afraid to say or do anything. They thought the threats of being released would end once they debuted, but it didn’t. Not only that, but everything they did came with punishment. Even when they thought they did well, they were sent home to nothing more than a bowl of rice they had to share.

The company had no money and only one artist. Two Piece. The pressure was heavy because the company was so deep in debt, but no one realized just how much until an exposé was published revealing more than anyone knew was going on.

The CEO of Starlight was found to be in debt to a few powerful figures of the underworld. A gambling addiction, shady financial dealings, and a smuggling operation spanning three countries sent Starlight to its very quick and public demise. The company was shut down and police launched a lengthy investigation.

On top of everything else, Two Piece learned that the rights to all of their music and content was sold off by the CEO to cover some of his debt. It took a long time for authorities to track down who the CEO sold the rights to, but once they did there was nothing they could do. The person was unwilling to cooperate and refused to give ownership back to Two Piece without a large payment. Of course they never saw a dime from anything they had done so they were unable to offer anything.

The cruelty and unfairness of the business resulted in the end of Two Piece. They had hoped to sign elsewhere, but after losing hope in getting their songs back, and losing hope in music altogether, rapper and vocalist EJ quit music for good. She left Seoul and went to stay on her aunt and uncle’s farm in the countryside north of Busan. She comes around once or twice a year to reunite with the rest of the group to catch up a bit, but she maintains a very low key and internet free hermit lifestyle.

Not wanting to carry on as Two Piece without all four members, the remaining three decided to disband and go their separate ways. Leader and main dancer Haeun went on a few dance competition shows before earning recognition as one of the generations best dancers. She remains in Seoul as a dance mentor on idol survivor shows and occasionally hosts dance workshops. Minji, vocalist and second youngest, released two solo albums with a different label before leaving the entertainment business and teaching musical theater at a performing arts school near Seoul.

Lastly, the shy and soft spoken Hyeri aka Rainbow remained in the music business until she recently began her acting career. She’s received lots of positive feedback for her acting from both fans and peers. Colleagues and production staff on every set she’s worked on praise her for being one of the sweetest and easiest people to work with.

It’s been 5 years since the scandal that ended their group, and now Hyeri finds herself sitting at home staring at the photo of her and Yoongi that’s been spreading across the internet all day. She was sent home after finishing only half of her shoot for her “safety” and they promised to reschedule in a few days. She was unsure why until she went back to her dressing room to change and she saw the many messages on her phone.

Minji and Haeun were just checking in on her knowing how hard things can be for her whenever she’s the subject of rumors or anything deemed controversial. Her mom let her know that if she and Yoongi need to disappear for a bit they can always come stay with them in Gwangju. Her manager tells her to get some rest and they’ll talk in the morning. There are a few other messages but none from Yoongi aside from the one he sent her earlier in the day. She figures he must not know yet so instead of messaging him she decides to wait for him to find out on his own. The last thing she wants to do is cause a distraction if he just so happens to look at his phone during practice and sees the news from her.

What she doesn’t realize is Yoongi already knows and after another hour of practice, the guys show mercy and end it early. He’s now running to get his bag out of his studio and he sees it. Messages from everyone. His brother, his mom, some friends. Everyone except Hyeri.

He quickly heads out to his car and rushes home. If she hasn’t seen the news then he wants to be home for her when she does. Just like everyone else close to her, he knows she tends to have a hard time with tabloids. He’s surprised to see the lights on when he gets home and more surprised when he sees Hyeri sitting on the couch in a daze.

“What are you doing home so early?” He asks sitting next to her. “Are you ok?”

“I’m ok,” she says softly. “Why are you home so early?”

He looks her over noticing the redness of her eyes. He can definitely smell the red wine on her breath and see the wad of tissue on the table. She knows.

“I’m here for the same reason you are,” he responds. “Are you sure you’re ok?”

She nods. Sniffs. Her lips tremble. Then she shakes her head.

“Do you think they’ll replace me?” She worries. “What if the company drops me?”

“No,” he says pulling her into an embrace. “They’re not going to replace you or drop you from anything. This shit happens all the time.”

“I know, but what do we say when it’s true? That picture is hard to deny.”

“Well…” he thinks a moment. He had been thinking about this since the moment Namjoon showed him the article. He knows they have to say something, but with that photo he feels denying it would just make them seem like liars. He’d rather break the taboo than be a liar. “Maybe we just tell them the truth.”

“What?” She asks surprised that he would suggest such a thing.

“It’s true, so let’s just admit it. Why should we hide our love because of some stupid societal rule that idols can’t date? I don’t care what anyone has to say about it, I love you and that’s all that matters.”

“I love you too baby, I just,” she pauses and takes a breath. “I need to talk to my manager tomorrow first.”

“What?” He raises a brow.

“Earlier today I got the lead role in that big drama I auditioned for.”

“Really?” He perks up with excitement knowing just how bad she wanted that role and how hard she practiced for it. It’s not only a lead role, but her first lead role. The big opportunity she’d been dreaming about.

“Yeah,” she says shyly. “They offered the part to me this morning. Nothing has been announced yet though, so…I’m scared I may lose it before I even get started.” She sniffles trying to hide her worried tears.

“Babe,” he says squeezing her tighter. “First I’m so proud of you! And second, this isn’t a reason for you to lose your role.” He cups her cheeks in his hands and gives her a quick peck. “It’ll be ok. Talk to your manager in the morning, but you shouldn’t worry. If we go public then we won’t have to hide anymore. We won’t have to sneak around in the middle of the night anymore.”

He’s hopeful. More than hopeful. He’s never been one to shy away from opposing societal norms, this would be his chance to break down another wall. Not that he’s looking for that praise, he simply just wants to go out with his love without the world trying to make it seem like he’s a bad guy.

Hyeri loves Yoongi’s bold defiance. It’s part of the reason why she fell in love with him. She admires how easy it is for him to throw caution to the wind and do as he pleases regardless of what others think. She feels confident and secure with him, but she’s still scared. The thought of losing her lead role or being embroiled in anything controversial makes her heart race. She’s worked so hard, she can’t lose this now.

When Hyeri talks to her manager the next morning, she feels even more scared. Big Hit gave Yoongi the choice to put out whatever statement he wants either to confirm or deny the relationship. JJS told Hyeri that they would deny the rumors. Yoongi was ready to shout from the rooftops that he and Hyeri are together. Then she told him what her company told her.

She’s a fresh budding actress about to star in her first lead role. Dating rumors would not only cause a negative distraction to the show that’s meant to be highly anticipated, but also would look bad for her image. Aside from the fact that she’s an idol, she’s also a new actress and the best roles are given to those who are young and available. The pure and innocent. The perfect star for a drama that calls for a lovable but oblivious female lead. Being in a romantic relationship with a member of the biggest group on the planet would send her image in a direction that her company doesn’t want.

“Did you even try to stand up for yourself?!” Yoongi shouts jumping up from the couch after she tells him the result of the conversation with her manager.

“What was I supposed to say?” Hyeri shouts back not quite bold enough to stand along with him. He’s 3 inches taller than her so it wouldn’t do her any good. “I could lose everything!”

“But you don’t mind losing me?” He huffs.

“Yoongi, you know that’s not it! You know this is my dream! You know how scared I am of having it taken away from me! What could I do?!”

“Stand your ground, Na Hyeri!!” He understands that she’s not typically the one who’s able to speak up when it comes to defying anything a superior says, but he thought she at least loved him enough to try.

“I don’t have a ground to stand on!” She cries in frustration. “I’m not a member of the biggest fucking group in the world! I can’t just say something and have the world cater to my every need! I can’t rebel knowing I have millions of fans around the world to carry me no matter what!”

“The number of fans you have has nothing to do with you speaking up for yourself!”

“Says the one who doesn’t have to worry about that shit!” She finally stands looking up at him. She doesn’t care that he’s taller, she’s pissed and he needs to know it. “You’re so far up in your cloud that you forget how it is for those of us that can’t just walk into a building and have everyone obey our every command!”

“That’s not-“

“I can’t just go against the company!” She stomps her foot about to completely explode. “I worked too hard to lose this, Yoongi! I love you but I can’t sacrifice my dream just to be a rebel or some shit! I’m not you!”

“Hye-“

“No!” She interrupts. “No matter what you say it won’t change the fact that we’re on much different levels. No one gives a shit about me. There’s a line of people waiting to take my place and I haven’t even started. I have a ways to go to build even half the following and support you have. I can’t do anything outside of the company’s wishes. I just need you to understand that.”

“I do, Hyeri, but I need you to understand that you’re not going to instantly lose everything because we tell the world we’re dating. Even if you do I can take care of you and anything you need. I can put you in contact with anyone you want and you’ll be fine.”

“Yoongi,” she sighs stepping back. “They’re already getting ready to put the statement out. It’s out of my hands.”

She walks off and goes into the bedroom leaving Yoongi standing in the middle of the living room. He knows she has a hard time with these things and he knows it’s not entirely wrong of her to fear for her job because of it. But he also feels like she should trust him more.

Either way, he’s not happy right now. He packs his work bag and decides to leave for his studio. He’s got a small bit of time before he has to jump right into the day’s schedule, so he’ll take this time to work on the things he didn’t work on yesterday and simply cool off a bit. Because as if he wasn’t already upset, Hyeri giving him the silent treatment before he left didn’t make things any better.

The statement from JJS denying the dating rumors only said they’re just friends who went out for a meal. Nothing more to it. Yoongi decided he didn’t want Big Hit to put out a statement at all. If that’s the statement her company is going with then he’d rather just stay silent. Either way, it hurts him.

He never thought he’d hurt over something like this. Maybe he’s being too emotional and not very logical. Maybe he’s letting his heart get the best of him.

He works all day but he’s not mentally present. He knows everyone else saw the statement. He knows they’re trying hard to not mention it. They’re trying hard to make things seem normal, but it’s not working well.

Hobi’s face can never tell a lie, and the way his mouth twists into a concerned frown when he sees Yoongi miss a step in practice is all too noticeable. Instead of scolding Yoongi as he normally would, he stays silent when Yoongi forgets a move. Hobi lets it slide when he does it again. After the fourth time Yoongi knows it’s intentional. There’s never a practice where Hobi isn’t catching and calling out every dance mistake. Yoongi thought him letting it go the first time was generous, but now its too much. Yoongi can tell Hobi doesn’t want to say or do anything that may make him more upset in any way.

Yoongi hates it. He hates the big ass elephant in the room. He hates that something so trivial is effecting him this bad. He hates that by the time he’s done with practice and back in his studio he hasn’t heard a word from Hyeri. That hurts.

Hyeri had her shoot rescheduled for the following day which left her with the entire day to herself. She spent most of the time reading comments online after the dating rumors were denied. Lots of people don’t believe it, but others are taking the statement at face value and not questioning it any further. It’s a mixed bag which doesn’t make her feel much better about the decision, but she knows there’s nothing she could have done.

She hates fighting with Yoongi. She knew he’d be upset but she wishes he’d be more understanding of her side of things. To her, all she can do is ride on whatever the company says. She’s gone through the worst, but JJS managed to earn her trust. They never treated her badly and even apologized to her when she left her badge at home and had to go through management to get a temporary one so she could get in the building. This company treats her like a valued family member, not a bad dog, and she can’t possibly get herself to do anything against whatever they suggest to her.

She can’t lose this.

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yakuzacanons · 9 months

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ya dont have to answer this one cause it might be a bit silly goin to headcanons blog for this but idk ireally like ur blog ur posts always cheer me up. ive had a rough day and idk i thought it might be nice to hear how ya think these characters would try and comfort and/or cheer up their partner, yknow, make em feel better?

This is actually a great double feature to my last post which was specifically about comforting their partner on their period. That one was kind of more focused on their partner feeling physically unwell so this one will be more catered to their partner feeling emotionally unwell, if that makes sense and if that's okay.

Also, I'm sorry to hear you had a rough day and I genuinely hope you feel better. I don't think it's silly at all to ask for these kinds of things, we all have to do what we gotta do and happiness comes in all kinds of forms, so if this is one of those forms, I'm happy to be of service. I'm also sorry this post took a bit to get too as I've been rather busy but I didn't forget you dear anon! Thanks for your ask, headcanons beneath the cut as always.

I'll get to the rest of the asks in my inbox tomorrow, so good night my sweet sweet friends! Thanks as always for your kind words and asks, I really love writing these and sharing these with you. Goog nitey.

Kazuma Kiryu

He understands all too well what it's like to feel down and out. Having said that, Kiryu won't try to cheer you up right away or distract you as he believes getting to the bottom of what's bothering you is more important. Regardless of it's a rough day at work or if someone made a rude remark at you, he wants to hear you out. He is THE best listener, he never interrupts.

His very first action always is to give you a long, warm hug. How often Kiryu wishes he could've been held during his darkest and toughest moments, so now he pays that forward to others who need it. If you cry, he'll tell you it's okay and to let it all out.

Now that you've gotten that all out, it's time for him to cheer you up. Nothing makes Kiryu feel better more than a hearty meal so he'll offer to get food at your favorite place, his treat. If you'd rather stay home, then he'll do his best to cook something up for you. Maybe Haruka and the other kids at Morning Glory will get in on it and clamber to help him out in the kitchen, which you can't help but smile at. You're truly surrounded by loving and caring people.

Majima Goro

Now, if the issue was caused by someone else, his first reaction will be to go give them a nice talking to a.k.a. kicking them really hard. If you're down with that, he will actually go do it but if you're not, he'll grumble and say "Fiiine... only 'cuz you said not to."

Eventually, his thoughts will turn to finding ways to make you smile. Majima is a bit more of a "forget your troubles" guy, sometimes more than he'd like to admit. If there's nothing particular that you want, then he'll just start trying things until you crack a smile at his earnest attempts, to which he'll say "Ah, there's that adorable smile!" before giving you a hug and a kiss.

If you cry, Majima will actually become quite serious. More than anyone, he's felt so many times in his life like he was on the verge of tears but he's always held them back. He'll drop everything to comfort you through the tears, quietly reminding you to take deep breaths and just holding you until it's over.

Akiyama Shun

He believes rest is the ultimate medicine, especially when you're feeling bad. Nothing works wonders more than a warm shower and a nice, long sleep. Granted, he is the king of being exhausted so maybe he's projecting just a little bit here.

As goofy as Akiyama can be, he's pretty good at hearing you out. However, he might be somewhat oblivious and slow to notice you're not feeling your best. Once he realizes it, he'll apologize for not noticing sooner and ask what he can do to help.

If some alone time is what you need, he's absolutely not offended. Akiyama knows when to back off and won't pester you and ask if you're sure you want to be alone. He trusts your intuition on that and won't put his ego before your feelings. After all, to him, that is the very meaning of loving someone else.

Saejima Taiga

Out of all the boys, he's going to feel the worst when he sees you're feeling down. Some part of him just feels bad that he wasn't able to prevent whatever it was that hurt or upset you. Saejima has major protective vibes and he'll always wonder if he could be doing more.

In the end, making sure you're okay is more important to him. Saejima is pretty mature and he'll be able to push through those weird self doubting feelings in his own time. He'll gently hold you but won't pressure you to tell him what happened. If you want to, he'll listen intently although he may not always know what to say in response, especially if you want advice, as he doesn't think his life experiences necessarily line up with most people.

Definitely the type of guy to say things like "I'm here for you, okay?" and really mean it. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, Saejima is your guy. After all, he has giant shoulders.

Tanimura Masayoshi

His life experiences have made him very empathetic and he will be able to really connect with you if you talk about your problems verbally. Where he struggles is if you don't talk about it because he doesn't want to force it but also doesn't really know what to do unless he has some direction to go in.

If you don't want to talk about it, he'll just sit next to you in silence. He doesn't want to just fill the space with his words, so instead he'll just lean his head against yours, taking deep breaths with you. Tanimura will stay for as long as you need, just so you know that you're not alone in this.

He's down to get some food at Homeland once you feel ready to get back up and out there. Tanimura is very food oriented and nothing makes him feel better than a nice meal, especially since Zhao and Mei Hua are always so welcoming and kind. He has a very infectious smile and he notices that you light up a bit when he smiles, so he'll try to do something fun with you like eat food or maybe play a video game at his place. By the end of the night, you'll both be grinning ear to ear.

Ryuji Goda

Secretly, he's also a "Show me who upset you and I'll give them a real nice talking to" type of guy but he's better at keeping that under wraps than Majima is. Of course, if it's not a particular person bothering you, that's where he stumbles a bit. He's never been great at just talking about things, like giving advice.

He'll refute any thoughts of self doubt you have. Did someone make fun of your hair? "They were probably bald 'n ugly themselves anyways, the hell would they know?". Do you feel self conscious about your weight? "I'll have you know that yer damn perfect as ya are." Ryuji loves you for you, for better and for worse, so what he lacks in advice or long talk sessions he makes up for with pep talks.

He's the type of man to kiss your forehead and ruffle your hair while holding a box of tissues while you cry. Ryuji rarely if ever felt safe crying in front of others before and honestly wishes he had spaces like that when he was younger, so he takes care to make sure that you feel completely safe in letting those feelings out if you need to.

Nishikiyama Akira

King of self care. Self care is the solution to everything. Nothing makes it all better like looking AND feeling good. It might sound shallow but Nishiki tries to make it fun in some ways, like getting face masks with silly colors or faces printed on them.

Out of all of the boys, he's best at gossip. If you're someone who wants to go on a long rant about all the stuff bugging you, he's all ears. If someone in particular is bugging you, he'll interject with "Oh, she did NOT" or "They did WHAT?" every so often.

He won't ever get violent. He might feel frustrated that he can't really do more than just hear you out or distract you with something silly but that won't stop him from trying at least. If you have suggestions or things you want, he's all ears though.

Daigo Dojima

The gentlest boy there ever was. He's the most perceptive of all the boys, able to immediately spot if his partner is feeling off that day. He'll always ask you about it in private, making sure to never embarrass you, softly asking "Honey, are you alright?"

If you're at a work related function and it's obvious that you're overwhelmed, Daigo will excuse you both from the event early and bring you home so you can have a safe place to decompress. When he's at work and if he knows you've been having a bad day, he'll call from his office and say "Hey honey, I just wanted to see how you were feeling". He makes himself as available as possible, always looking out for your welfare.

Daigo is really in tune with your needs and quite attentive to the things that make you happy, the things that bother you, and the like. When you're having a bad day, you'll hardly have to ask for a thing. If you're a stay at home and lay in bed all day person, he'll bring your favorite drink in and sit on the bedside while listening to you talk. If you'd rather go out, just say the word and he'll be out front with his private car ready to go wherever you want as soon as he can slip away from work.

Mine Yoshitaka

He often feels helpless in situations like this. If it were up to him, every day would be the best day possible for you. He doesn't necessarily feel like a failure but he definitely feels your pain and sadness, wishing he could just magically make it all go away.

His best skill is reassuring you. If you ask if you're actually good at something, the answer is yes. If you feel like you're failing at something new, he'll say something like "The important thing is that you're trying, and I admire that about you". He's very steady in supporting you with things like chasing your dreams, no matter how hard the road may be.

He's probably the most practical when it comes to interpersonal issues, likely a direct result of his type of work. He's good at helping you iron out tough situations, like an awkward conversation with a friend. His deep understanding of you combined with his solid reasoning skills allows him to give you a pretty good outside perspective on those kinds of situations, provided you want him to of course. Mine wouldn't offer you advice without asking if you wanted it first. Also the type of guy to wipe away your tears for you.

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anne-bsd-bibliophile · 10 months

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Emotional triggers are crazy. I just figured out today that just telling someone "no" immediately makes me nervous and I prepare myself to be yelled at, blamed, ridiculed, etc. I realize now that being raised by a narcissistic father who was emotionally/verbally abusive and had to have everything his way caused me to be scared of telling someone "no."

For example, something as simple as being asked "Do you have Diet Dr. Pepper?" When I have to tell them "No, all I have is Diet Coke for diet drinks," it scares me half to death. But when someone asks, "What sodas do you have?" it is so much easier for me to answer. Then I feel like I can be helpful and try to find something they like instead of have to tell them I don't have their favorite drink.

I get that most people probably won't take it out on me when I don't have what drink they want. But I grew up in a household where if I told my father that something wasn't his way or that things hadn't turned out how he had hoped I knew I would be blamed and he would do whatever he could to push the blame on me:

I, a five year old at the time, wanted to eat the fudge that I bought with the money I earned? But my father does so much for me and it is selfish not to share with him.

My sister came home after curfew? Well, if I had been a better older sister she wouldn't feel the need to rebel like that.

I don't like to eat cereal because I hate milk? But liking cereal with milk is normal and I can't possibly be abnormal so my father forced me to sit at the table until I had eaten every bit of cereal and drank every drop of milk in the bowl. (I found out years later that I'm lactose intolerant and that's why I hated milk so much growing up.)

I couldn't respond to a text right away because I was at work? Well my father was paying for my phone at the time so I had to answer right away or else he would threaten to disconnect it.

I wanted to tell my family about my day at dinner? But my sister had so much to say and my father didn't want me taking up her valuable time boring her by talking about my day.

My mom took me out to lunch? My father couldn't afford for my mom to be taking me out to eat and I must be trying to get her to divorce him. It was only okay for my father to take people out to lunch, and that's only if they "treated him right" and "deserved for him to pay for their food."

I like watching anime? Then that must be why I can't get a date and I must be watching hentai or (heaven forbid) I must be lesbian because otherwise I'd find a nice religious boy to marry and I wouldn't have time for things like anime.

I wouldn't agree with him that detox baths would literally suck fat cells from his body and make him lose weight? Well, I was a disrespectful daughter and my father threatened to never let me see my mom again.

After growing up in a situation where it was normal for me to be blamed and criticized for every little thing I did, it became a natural response for me to try to anticipate what people around me want to hear and want me to do. If I do or say anything "wrong" then I prepare myself for immediate and severe emotional punishment because that's what I grew up with constantly. I automatically assume everything I do is "wrong" until I realize no punishment has come, and then I can breathe a sigh of relief and hope that I did something right.

That's why dealing with people is so exhausting. That's why my social anxiety is so bad. I hadn't realized until this evening why I'm always so tense and nervous. I was talking to someone about weird habits we have from childhood that helped us survive in tough situations when it hit me that I say "yes" and try to please people to survive. That's why I relate to Yozo in No Longer Human so much: I'm terrified of humans, too. Only instead of playing the clown and trying to make them laugh, I'm trying to please them and make them happy so they won't get mad at me.

#coping with narcissistic abuse #social anxiety #emotional abuse #emotional extortion #I know it sounds really bad to say this but it has been so much easier since my father died #without him here no one is going to punish me for being myself anymore #that means I can do things like talk and spend time with my mom and like anime and books #I'm not constantly wrong all the time and it is so peaceful

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muses-of-kira · 7 months

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10 - 9 - 23

Let's be real here it's a personal update but it's also a blog update so we're going to do a little bit of both.

Personally wise - I'm back to work because the PCP I was seeing cleared me to do so but that does not mean we're out of the woods yet.

I have two MRIs on Weds - one of my head and one of my spine. Then on the 19th I see the Neurologist about this and everything else. So we're hoping I finally get some kind of answers as to why I've been in so much pain and why I have so many new pains since I hit my head in August.

*Fingers Crossed* Here's hoping.

Because of this - work is manageable but also extremely painful some days and bearable others. It comes and goes and depends on how much sleep I get and what activities I've been doing. So speaking of sleep - I am absolutely exhausted after work ends and it's hard to form words into sentences.

Basically - writing is difficult right now.

I can do it, but I have about 1 long post in me and that's about it before my brain maxes out and I can't really think to write anymore. The last novel I posted on Kumo's blog took me 3 days to write on my breaks at work if that gives you some kind of perspective.

AKA I'm not ignoring you.

My head and neck still hurt and trying to write most of the time causes me physical pain. (It is my day off today for context to this post.) I've been quiet on discord too because I can only handle doing so much. Drawing is engaging but in a less painful way for me - so that is why I have been drawing so much.

On the drawing subject: https://artistree.io/kiraelric

You can find my Commission Request form at the link above. They are still open despite me working again.

I need to cover the costs I'm going to get hit with from the MRIs and the CT scans / blood work I've already had.

So if you would like me to draw your muse, favorite character or OCs please feel free to send me a message and come talk to me about it. You can ask for my disco if you don't have it and I'd be happy to talk about one.

So when it comes to threads, please know that I will get to them all in time, and I just need people to be patient with me. I am not ignoring you. I don't suddenly hate you. I promise I am not playing games with anyone. Whatever awful thing your brain is telling you, it's lying. My brain just hurts right now and I still have doctors to go see to find out what we need to do to make it stop.

If you read this far, thank you. I will get things rolling as quickly as I am able.

The patience applies for Kumo, Edward AND Ventus. I will get to ALL of them in due time. The head just hurts.

#ooc || mun speaks #// guys concussions suck 0/10 do not recommend

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clarks-letterman · 4 months

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Wally anon: Fingers crossed that means there will be actual stakes & not "& then everyone lived, super happy ending!"

Yesss. I knew we'd finally think of a really good bottom!Wally idea. He wants you to do everything to his ass. Just the idea that his ass is enough to split his pants/shorts/etc. turns him on so much & he needs. you to give him allllll of the attention until he's moaning & writhing from everything you're making him feel. 😮‍💨

The never gonna give you up dfdvsk. It's all cause he knows how much attention he. needs, so he figures you must have similar needs. So, even if it's partially self-motivaed, knowing how much you respond to it confirms to him that his instincts were the right ones cause being responsible 110% of the time would be exhausting without a little fun (& fucking). That's why he has such an ease being sexual cause it's not fun if you're always serious. 🙌

Along with breeding, I'd probablyyyy say his biggest kinks are manhandling (cause he can.not. keep his hands-off of you), exhibitionism (as we have covered frequently with the public scenarios), praise (he NEEDS to know how good he'smaing you feel), domination (regardless of position, he will. be taking control) + size (both height & dick-wise, as previously covered), & some slight voyeurism/role play/gagging tendencies (self-explanatory from prior discussion). There are a few others I wouldn't entirely rule out, but these are what I feel the strongest about. 🫡 But, yup, exactly. He's gonna reallyyyy lose himself in taking control & emphasizing how much he's let his fantasizing run his mind throughout the year by showing how hard it is to pass his "class."

And the minute he knows what makes you squirm the most, it is over. for you cause he's not gonna stop.

When you get him there, it's the only time you really see his subby side (next to some of the times where he bottoms), but it makes you want to hold out more often so you can hear those sounds he makes when you do. 🤫 Haaaa @ the beating entendre. 😉 But, yup, it's the mutual investment in each other's growth (in both senses) that draws you together & prevents the spark from ever being lost cause as long as there are things to compete on, you'll be stuck to each other like glue.

Sometimes you just have to lie down &/or lean back against him to let him completely do the work cause your energy is SO spent, but you can't stop getting hard & he's already insatiable, so he's more than happy to keep going. 🫠

Of course. Would you want them in separate asks or just collectively sent together?

oh. my. god. i hope they don’t do that😭 the one thing they’re good at writing is endings except for s4 because that was a cliffhanger.

he’d love that🫣 i’d imagine that when he was alive, it wasn’t super available for him to find someone else to give all that love to his dump truck. homemade dildos were probably the most frequent thing along with the occasional middle and index finger slipping into his hole. so this rocks his world and he’s definitely still gonna be a power bottom/dom bottom type of receiver, pushing you deeper between his cheeks. he controls the pace 😮‍💨

I had to do it i’m sorry sksjsksk. Wally being a self-analyzing king because he knows his needs is soooo. idk the assuredness is attractive. and you’re so right, he likes casual sex or even intense sex because it’s just fun. all funny business, nothing serious

The voyeurism and role play and gagging is so perfect, along with everything else. he’s not just a double or triple-threat, he’s so much more😮‍💨 i love that he finds his dick size to be a kink, he’s so arrogant and confident in himself🫣 and all those pent up feelings from how long he’s thought about you, undressing his teacher whenever he’s turned around to face the board with his eyes looking over your backsideeeeee omfg

he’s like a little kid pressing the button over and over and over and over and over and over and he just laps up everything he makes you feel

yeah i think it’s attractive to want to see you partner grow to be better, and that’s the summation of your relationship with him. he thinks your perfect, every version of you and him.

he’s practically milking you dry, make his touch start to hurt because of how sensitive he makes you🫣

Separate would be better to keep track of them, but if it’s easier for you, you can send them as one and i’ll just break them down into each separate fic! Feel free to add your own ideas😉

#wally clark x male reader #wally clark x you #wally clark

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kidgillis · 2 years

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Darling, I know you want to change who you are. You hate everything about yourself due to the world's unrealistic expectations and judgements. From the beautiful crown of your head to the perfect soles of your feet, you are a masterpiece. Yet, you can't see it. Can't bare to look in the mirror. I wish you saw what I see. You can't accept it. Can't stand to see your reflection. If only you knew how deep your beauty is rooted. You can't understand it. How something so familiar could still feel so foreign. Like, being in a room full of people and still feeling alone or having everything you need but, always wanting more. Like, feeling pretty but, never feeling beautiful or wanting to be anybody but, the somebody you are. It's exhausting trying to pretend to be okay. I see it. Full smile, bright eyes, and optimism goes a long way until it can't. I know it. That dark cloud over your head rains on your parade every chance it gets. What used to be quiet now becomes loud - chattering voice and laughter of strangers and familiars. We've all been through it. You often wonder what it'll take to change it all. To become someone else. How to mend the broken pieces of who you are and change the shards of who you're becoming. Tell me, who are you? Where have you been? Where will you be? And what are you trying to become? Maybe a little bit stronger, taller, spontaneous, quirkier, thicker, louder, smarter, real...something, anything...that would make you feel better about yourself. But, better by who's standard? You just want to be enough. Enough by who's expectation? You just want to be perfect. Perfect by who's perspective? Darling, don't you know - there is no such thing? You are who you are and it is wonderful. You don't have to change your personality, pretend, hide, minimize, or alter any part of who you are. Beloved, this is a truth you have to know...I loved you from the moment I saw you and I love you even more now that I know who you truly are. There is nothing you can do to stop me or change the way I feel about you. My love for you isn't based on your apperance or how picture perfect you think you can become. I want you for you - just as you are. Now, if you do want to change, beloved...do it for yourself. Because, it's what you want. It's what you need. It will enhance your life. It will make you happy. It will help you on your journey and mission in life. It'll fulfill your dream and purpose. Not me. You have to embrace yourself. Find your self. You are a unique individual who deserves your own love and acceptance. This world has been waiting for years to be introduced to the authentic version of you. Don't let that go over your head or cause you to fall victim to your own insecurities and voids. We're all waiting for you to choose without resentment or regret. You know and I know...you just have to tell them..."Hello World, I am..."

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scottxlogan · 2 years

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A final note :)

A message for the anon (you know who you are)

To the anon who has been reaching out to me, I’m going to make one last appeal to you here. I understand that you must be coping with something very hard in your personal life. I get that and if you are being bullied in school, my heart truly goes out to you, but I would just like to ask kindly that what you’re doing (and you know what you are doing right now), can you just stop and find a new hobby? I realize that I’m someone who does talk to you, who acknowledges and validates your existence and I really do wish others would offer you that kind of positive validation as well. If you want to talk to me like a real person and discuss things that are bothering you that don’t pertain to your dislike for Tony Stark, I would gladly hear you out as long as you refrain from the hateful attacks.

I understand through your various anon messages that you don’t like me. That my writing bothers you, which hey, I get it. Not everything is something that everyone enjoys. Please if my works upset you, do not read them. I ask that you just skip over them and find someone who writes something that pleases you. There are so many wonderful fictions/arts out there that I’m sure there has to be an artist that you look up to, who does make you happy, who inspires you to be something more and I would suggest that the energy you take into telling me how much you dislike/hate me/wish I would die that you would tell them how much you love what they do in the fandom world. If you could take the clear hatred you have for me and apply it to something positive to someone who makes you happy, then please do just that. It would be so much better for you all around in exploring good things with someone who makes you feel good about yourself. We do not know each other as I’m certain we’ve never been in the same fan circles with each other. I’m not sure what it is about me that makes you interested in my thoughts, my writings, my responses, but I do encourage you to find someone who makes you feel better about yourself. In the grand scheme of things I’m not anyone who holds any power over what you do like. I promise you that I am not the reason that your ship was headed to a split in the films. Trust me if I could’ve made Steve stick around to be with Bucky, then I would’ve gladly wished for it to happen just because it leaves such a bad message about someone who has endured so much trauma, but that’s neither here nor there. My point in all of this is that I’m making one last appeal for you to stop doing what you are doing because it is hurtful, destructive and honestly exhausting. I’m not going to call you out directly on what you’re currently doing, but you know. I’ve ignored it for a while, but really it’s getting exhausting and I hope that you find something better to do with your time. Like I said before if you want to talk about stuff outside of fandom, I’d be more than happy to toss aside all the drama that has happened between us and listen to you, to hear what you have to say on a more human level. If you’re hurting, I’m truly sorry that you’re experiencing the pain that you have, but please let’s put an end to this war you’ve waged against me. I’m not someone who makes a difference in the fandom world on the level that you think I do. My stories are here, but they don’t dictate what happens beyond my own little circle. I do hope whatever happens that you find your joy somehow. You deserve to be happy just like I do and everyone else does.

Please, if I bother you by existing as much as you’ve stated I do, then block me and don’t seek out my works on AO3 or on here because the last thing I want is to cause anyone any unnecessary distress. However, I’m not going to stop existing just because you don’t like something I’ve created. I wish you well and hope life improves for you!

#anon #my special anon #a final message #be kind to others #i wish you well

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safetycar-restart · 2 years

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hiiii 🥰 past d/s seb ask #3 coming through! (watch me get to a minor fall, a major lift in a span of one night)

got a short one though

i touched a bit on how much seb would want to give back when he actually realises he is in good hands, so much you actually have to hold him back a little lest he hurt himself trying too hard? yeah i think theres a little more there.

so i'm still thinking about how for seb accepting that someone wants to care for him is a bit of a learning curve. i was also thinking about how much he would adore you for allowing him to rest and recharge, as well as taking the responsibility from him and just letting him trust himself into your care and not think.

(small tangent: i was also thinking re: exhaustion and him being even more tired (though also definitely more happy) after sessions, maybe you actually reach out to his trainer so you could properly coordinate when he puts in some exercise and when he gets to unwind and turn to jelly. he'd be absolutely blown away when he accidentally finds out)

so the point is, he wants to please you so. badly. and of course you praise him for following instructions and being good for you, but it doesn't feel like enough to him, especially since your scenes are ultimately focused on taking care of him, making him feel good. he really, really wants to make you feel good, too.

you wouldn't let him, though, for quite some time, mostly because you want him to get used to the idea that he is enough as he is, that he deserves to be loved and taken care of unconditionally, not in exchange for anything.

but also a little bit because with all that anticipation built up he would be absolutely ecstatic when you finally let him eat you out.

- Lemon 🍋

Okay so yes I am answering part 3 before part 2 because I read this and have been OBSESSED ever since this is so good and so I must answer it right now or else I'll go insane.

So I very much went on a very specific tangent about seb's service sub tendencies so that's literally this ask is cause I said SO much about that that I couldn't say anything more because it's already very long.

I think that at his core, Sebastian is a little bit of a service sub? Like yes he wants to be taken care of, but there's nothing that makes him feel better than when he can be your good boy and help you with something.

However, this service sub side of him got stamped out with the old Ferrari Dom, because nothing was ever good enough for them. Seb tried at first, he tried so hard. He learnt how they like their coffee, what their favourite flowers were, what chocolates they like, etc. He did everything he could to be able to serve the dom.

But no matter what he did, the Dom was never happy with him.

So he just... he stopped trying? He stopped trying to serve, because what was the point if he wasn't going to be able to do it right?

It takes him a while to try and do those types of things with him, though he wants to from very early on.

I'm thinking of a moment during aftercare after his second scene with you, he's sitting on the bed, just watching you and you put on the kettle. Immediately he wants to offer to make you some tea or coffee, so that you can sit down and relax while he does it because you've done so much for him.

Except he doesnt do it.

Right as he's about to ask, he thinks about how his old Dom always sneered as his attempts to serve and so he doesnt ask, because he's too scared you might do the same thing. You were the best Dom he had ever had, and he just... he didn't want to open himself up like that only to discover that you were the same as the other one.

Once he gets more comfortable with you, the desire to serve in that way gets bigger and bigger. He manages to keep it at bay by doing smaller things, always requesting a pastry from the chef when it's on the menu because he knows you like it but can't always get it if you don't have lunch in time, always folding and hanging up your jacket when you leave it on the chair, etc.

But he just... he really wants to serve you properly, and it's such a big need that it becomes very obvious to you.

And you can't let him for a long time, because you know he needs a genuinely long time of just being taken care of.

But it actually gets more and more difficult for him to accept you taking care of him as he gets more comfortable with you? Because as he gets better, he starts to want to look after you more and more.

#past d/s au #nsfw.#sub!sebastian #sv #gn!reader #🍋

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