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lemonadehtwooh · 6 months

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Can you tell more about your Fate redesigns? Like your Penth, Hektor, Paris/Apollo, and Astolfo?

*FOAMING AT MOUTH* YES I CAN.

WARNING FOR A SUPER LONG READ

OKAY so first Imma talk about Paris/Apollo because Alexander-Paris is one of my most in-depth designs ATM and also explains some of Hektor's concepts!

Ignore that all I can in find my camera roll are SUPER old doodles of him lmao XD this ask really making me go through doodles from last year

So firstly is the color symbolism! I noticed in FGO that his design is very light-colored, and while that's interesting, I thought it would be more symbolic to have the main colors be dark as to point towards how he inherently can't escape his fate and actions as an adult, even in a child/teenage body, and also as a sort of symbol of how dark his future is. Adding on, Paris is VERY SPECIFICALLY summoned as having a child's body but the memories of his entire life, and I had the idea that the darker colors also show that he knows more than he lets on/he isn't innocent. The gold and such are to point towards him being a prince and technical demigod, and the blues are just in general for color diversity

With his horns and wings: Both Hektor and Paris in my AU are biologically Apollo's children (reference to some versions of the Troy Boys actually being his biological children instead of Priam's), so the horns and wings symbolize that (which Hektor doesn't have, more on that later). Apollo-Sheep's "humanoid" design concept actually has the wings and horns too (just bigger and more fancy lmao). Another Fun Fact: Both Hektor and Paris have some sun/fire related abilities in my AU, although it's slight

Next Paris and Hektor's eyes! Yep! I put thought into eye color! Paris' eyes are orange, while Hektor's are black. HOWEVER, when they use their NPs, Paris's eyes darken to black and Hektor's glow orange! Prominently, I honestly just thought Hektor having glowing eyes when using his NP would be Fun and Sexy XD However then i was like "...Okay but what if... Paris had opposite? What if... Symbolism?" And this idea is so cool to me because of how they can connect!!!! Hektor's glow because he's deemed to be Troy's hope, while Paris's darken because he's deemed as Troy's downfall!!! Sorry I just love how I can make the brothers contrast each other and how they can be interpreted AAAAA

I also made Paris's hair darker while Hektor's hair lighter so that they would look more similar to each other/look more like brothers, same with them both having wavy hair and the eyelash part on the bottom eye (it's kinda hard to see in the pictures RIP). I just wanted them to be a lil match-y. They also both have beauty marks that mirror each other! I imagine both of the Troy Boys to have thicker bodies

I gave Paris some armor parts as well as to look more similar to Hektor, while I also kept the cute dress parts because the cute stuff just seem to be more of his own style and I think That's Neat. The symbol on his skirt piece is Romeo's command spell symbol, matching with a headcanon I had posted some time ago about the command spells appearing somewhere in a Servant's design

Paris also has these sorta long-sleeve glove things due to me originally adding it to my Jekyll/Hyde redesign (which I need to remake) and Paris, in my AU, is one of Hyde's best friends, so I thought it would be cute for them to have a lil match-y thing XD

With the black wool, I thought it would be interesting to show physically of Paris being more of the "black sheep" of his family, especially considering he wasn't raised as a prince, he was raised as a sheep herder. And how he was sorta cast aside as a baby due to the prophecy of him becoming Troy's downfall

This is my current concepts for Hektor (the graphite sketches are a lot older than the digital btw, but good a good idea about his arm and shoes design), but it needs some work XD I want to add a lot more later on, but this is a good start I think

with Hektor, color-wise I tried to make his pallette somewhat a mix between opposite and similar to Paris. For him, the dark colors represent more of his death. He doesn't have the horns or wings anymore due to Achilles dragging his corpse, too. I think I posted some old sketches before of the back of his head having the broken bases on his horns. I would imagine his back having scarring and some skin disfigurement where his wings once were as well

With the red, specifically the red wool and the red gradient in his hair, I wanted it to represent the blood that was shed during the Trojan War. Plus, it also contrasts against Paris's blue colors, pushing more of that contrast between the two

With Both the Troy Boys' personalities, Paris still has that childish demeanor about everything, but he's definitely fully Aware and could manipulate if he really wanted to. However he doesn't really, unless if he wants to get away with childish things (like sneaking candy). He's a bit cheeky at times, and in general is A Lot like his canon FGO self. He likes being helpful when he can. Although something I added is that he Hates romance/romantic things. He thinks it's gross, but also his view point is due to the Trojan War and his whole thing with Helen.

Hektor is a mix of things that's hard to explain. He's similar to his canon FGO self. The thing is that FGO itself states that he has a facade going on, which pretty much is what For Funsies AU also does, so there isn't much for me to add XD Although I think in my AU, his facade is a bit different. Other than that, he's silly goofy as usual

i could have sworn I had pictures of her that are more recent/go more in-depth with her design ideas, but I can't find any TwT I'll talk more about her personally redesign since there isn't much physically I can exactly say

Next with Beserker/Penth, her concepts are still definitely a WIP. The general idea I have for her is this 16 year old being very elegant yet absolutely able to kick your ass with the slightest provoke. She's beefy, I would imagine (I really wish I had better sketches of her). I kinda want her to lean more towards having a "royalty" look yet also young and armored up. Iirc in Canon FGO she literally has herself be summoned at a younger age so Achilles can't flirt with her, so I decided to lean on her looking young. I also gave her more furs and armor coverage since she's a warrior and also the whole thing with her fighting in a bikini just. Doesn't sit right with me.

Personality-wise, I think she would try to act very mature and serious, but she's Not immune to Acting Her Age. Aka being a goofy teenager. She definitely tends to butt heads with Paris because he keeps stealing her hair comb. I definitely think she's super smart though, considering the business she has going on in Canon FGO. However, even smart teenagers can be silly (as a treat). She's definitely still has that Extreme personality trait, like tending to take things too far and being rather hot-headed. I like her dynamic with Mr. Utterson because he'll be like "Thank God you're here. Maybe you can talk some sense into Paris" and immediately Penth is trying to knock Paris out with her fist because it's faster and more efficient XD (also as revenge for stealing her comb). She's wonderful, although I'm still working on her dynamic with others and how she generally acts

i can't find any of my Astolfo doodles other than this Really Old One TwT (HELP IM BEING SUBJECTED TO MY OWN DRAWINGS)

In general, color-wise I'm thinking of making their outfit+armor VERY vibrant with Many colors to the point it's gaudy and dramatic. I kinda still want a cutesy look with them, but also messy and disorganized to show more of the sorta "frantic" and "can't sit still" vibe they have. It's hard to change anything about Astolfo because they're already a pretty interesting character with a solid design and personality. Anyway, as you can see in the drawing, I tried making their hair Super Messy. I imagine them being so energetic that their hair is never done in a "proper" way

So yeah! Yippee! Thank you for the ask <3

#forfunsiesau #alternate universe #fgo #fate grand order #fate go #fgo fate grand order #ibis paint x #character design #character redesign #Obviously you can see I have favorites in this AU lmao #But also that I really need to draw more XD #sketches #doodles

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closet-of-bones · 5 months

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So I had a realisation today. AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO FEEL ABOUT IT! Just hear me out if you've nothing else to do. Personal rant ahead, funny story tho. I think it's interesting?

TLDR: my love of Sun & Moon might have been written in the stars??? Destiny?????

So a little fun fact about me! I am a big fan of Sun & Moon. I'm a fan of the FNaF series as a whole and have dedicated a lot of my life to it but my love for the Daycare Attendant is just something else. I really like them. They are the kinds of characters that I love in every sense.

Another thing I am REALLY into?? Fairies. I'm not completely sure why but my obsession with the fae is a big one. My first ever hyperfixation was fairies. I'm actually in the middle of building a fairy garden irl with glowing fairy houses, hidden lore...the whole she-bANG! ✨️

Growing up I had a MASSIVE collection of Rainbow Magic fairy books. Literally hundreds of them. I loved having them read to me as a very small child and when I grew up to being a kid big enough that my family stopped reading books to me I loved coming home from school to curl up in my room and read them to myself. Over and over again. All of them in order. I loved imagining myself into the stories as if I were a third of the main cast. I love writing stories and making little worlds up now probably because of this obsession I had.

Today I got curious about something. I was having a conversation with someone and somehow Jack Frost (the main bad guy in the book series) came up. It had been a long time since I'd last seen an image of him so I looked the guy up.

And quite literally mid-conversation, whilst studying the guy absently and still talking to my friend, I paused. I knew exactly what I was looking at, I'd seen the guy MANY times before and was very familiar with him, but something just seemed different this time. A very strange sense of familiarity I hadn't felt before was nagging at me from the back of my mind.

And then it clicked. Suddenly it all made a little more sense.

Just take a moment to look at this silly guy if you havent before.

There he is. The silly little guy in all of his comically villainous glory. Does he remind you of anyone in any way? Even a little bit??

Is there a sense of familiarity here?

It's them. That strange familiarity that was playing in the back of my head upon seeing him again.

IT'S THEM!

And somehow it makes even more sense if you know anything about his character I swear

They are almost built to be exactly what I would like. What I have liked since I was young. It must have been destiny that I would become obsessed with these characters right?! Genuinely, I thought I just liked jesters. I thought I just liked the Jekyll and Hyde dynamic. The opposites. The pairs?? Whatever you want to call them. I thought that was my attraction to Sun & Moon. And it is! But there's something else. It's been deep rooted into me.

The designs. The similarities. It's been burned into my brain from a time long gone. All this time!

And I had no idea. Until today lmao. It doesn't change anything of course, I still love them. In fact I love them even more now. But it's just so interesting to me-!

It's like I've been doing a character study on myself. Discovering how my own brain works. I can't stop thinking about it.

I think I have a type. And it's quirky, bouncy little trickster guys with silly goals, blue colours and something spiky around their faces.

. . .

Okay so...rant over! 👏 I need to lie down ＼( _ _);

#closet talk #personal ramblings #idk what to tag this #im really writing this for myself and anyone else interested #in the going ons of a nobody #jack frost is the original daycare attendant #and a king #and a queen #and everything ive ever wanted #the ideal man #please tell me someone gets this #please i am begging #orz

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twistedtummies2 · 3 years

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Well, you've done DC. How about Marvel?

Okay, this one was REALLY tricky. XD The issue with Marvel is that while there is one character who is consistently one I adore, the rest of the characters I can have kink crushes on tend to be in flux, so to speak. Like, sometimes I'll like them a whole lot, sometimes I'll only like them a small bit, sometimes I'll like certain designs or portrayals and not others, etc. So there are NUMEROUS Marvel characters I wouldn't mind writing for and can fantasize about, but how much those levels stand is forever fluctuating. Having said that, this won't REALLY be a Top 5 of favorites, but more...a Top 5 of consistency. Because aside from my number one (and maybe my number two), the other characters here fluctuate in terms of how much I like them compared to others. HOWEVER, they are ALL characters I CONSISTENTLY enjoy to some degree or another in a pred/big eater role. (Mostly pred, if you haven't guessed from previous answers.) Now, let's get into them...

5. Galactus.

Ah, yes, the Eater of Worlds himself. In point of fact, Galactus' literally cosmic appetite is both his biggest pro AND his biggest con. Galactus is a veritable god of destruction; a nigh-omnipotent being whose entire existence REVOLVES around consumption on a massive scale. Galactus literally eats worlds; he absorbs all energy the planet has into his being, and his hunger is neverending. Time and again he's come after Earth, but every time, he's outsmarted by the heroes and left to find some other place to gorge himself. On the one hand, God-level predators are freaking AWESOME, and that level of sheer hunger is INTENSELY squeak-and-blush-inducing. On the other hand, however, it doesn't leave much room for intimacy or for writing that will present an especially great amount of conflict. As a result, Galactus' appetite is both incredibly appealing and yet slightly off-putting for me.

4. Fin Fang Foom.

While his name is pretty silly, this giant dragon is actually one of Marvel's most underrated and intensely powerful antagonists. Originally imagined as a sort of unlikely cross between Godzilla and Fu Manchu - a monstrous distillation of all things that terrified people during the Yellow Scare - Fin Fang Foom has evolved with the times and, much like the Mandarin, still has a steady home at Marvel in the comics and in animation. He's not very well known, however, I think mostly because he hasn't appeared in any movies. As you know, I love dragons, and Fin Fang Foom is a dandy of a beast: a regularly rampaging monster who is, indeed, a canon pred. The image used here is actually from a defective clone of Fin Fang Foom, which had much of his power but little of his intelligence; the REAL Fin Fang Foom is actually highly intellectual...but this does not make him any less ravenous than the version depicted above. (Plus...come on, with imagery and writing like that, I HAD to make this the image I shared.) He's pretty much perfect for macro/micro type stuff, if you're into dragons.

3. Nightcrawler.

There are several X-Men characters I have had crushes on: Beast, Blob, Toad, and Sabretooth are the chief ones. However, in all four of these cases, how much I like them tends to fluctuate, as I've said before: it depends on a LOT of factors. However, the one X-Men character I seem to consistently want to stuff full of food or end up feeding myself to is, ironically, one of the least likely options: Kurt Wagner, a.k.a. Nightcrawler. I WOULD say this is because he's my favorite X-Men character (which is true), but I don't really think that's the reason. There's not much evidence of Kurt being an ESPECIALLY big eater, and certainly no evidence of him being of a predatory mindset...yet he has developed a niche group of vore-loving or belly-loving fans who really love the thought of feeding him one way or another, and I am in that niche. I think it's a mixture of his design and his personality: Kurt looks like a fanged, fuzzy demon, but his soul is actually that of a very fine fellow. He's an impish mischief maker, a charismatic and chivalrous gentleman, and a kind, charitable, religiously devout sweetheart, all at the same time. You can imagine Nightcrawler being a big tease to someone who has certain kinks, but you can also imagine him being very docile or very comforting. He's pretty much a tailor made character for the softer, safer, more playful sides of these interests almost without trying.

2. Tiger Shark.

I've only come to know Tiger Shark fairly recently, and I haven't READ much of him...but with what I have seen of him and learned of him, he's definitely worthy of the number two spot. Remember how I said in a previous thing of these sorts that Killer Croc was sort of "King Shark done right"? Yeah, I think Tiger Shark is an even more accurate example of that. In the comics, this rogue's story goes like this: Todd Arliss was once an Olympic swimmer who lost his abilities in an accident: desperate to regain his athletic capabilities, he gave himself over to experimentation, and his DNA was fused with that of a tiger shark, and also of the mythical Sub-Mariner, Prince Namor. The resulting mutation turned Arliss into a predatory monster, with superhuman strength and a savage appetite. Over the years, Arliss has been depicted less and less human and more and more animalistic by various artists; whether this is a canon show of his worsening mutation or just artistic license is anyone's guess. Tiger Shark has a more consistent personality than King Shark, and while his design has changed over the years, he's at least retained the basic concepts, as well as his hunger. I have to admit that I actually prefer a version OUTSIDE of the comics for my interests: the version that appears in the series "Avengers Assemble," which gives him a whole new backstory and a decidedly beastly design. If I were to write for the guy, I'd likely follow that one more closely. Still, the comic version definitely has some merits, too.

1. Venom.

Now, I'm specifically talking about the original Eddie Brock Venom; other versions just don't interest me as much. With that out of the way...Venom didn't START OUT as a predatory beast, but quite quickly, as time went on, the character became more and more focused on that aspect of things. Just looking at the guy, it's easy to see why. The Jekyll-and-Hyde-esque relationship between Eddie Brock and the ravenous Symbiote that controls him is one that can be used for both comedy and tragedy, and Venom's gluttonous, aggressive, and at times delightfully witty personality makes him a very fun character to imagine. He can devour massive amounts, has a canonical love of chocolate (as well as human flesh), and has more appealing dialogue than you can shake a stick at throughout his long history. He's right up there with Killer Croc as one of my favorite predator crushes in comics, and possibly the only Marvel character I can consistently say I adore above ALL others.

#ask #answer #marvel #q&a #comics #supervillains #superheroes #nightcrawler #venom #fin fang foom #galactus #tiger shark #pred crushes #kink crushes

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ohnothewheatisonfire · 4 years

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ok J&H Fandom, let’s talk:

“Popular” blog @thatsmyhyde is a prominent creator in the J&H Fandom. But here’s where the problem shows up:

the content they make is concerning at least, and full of red flags at worst.

DISCLAIMER: This is all information I have gathered through their tumblr blog - I am not aware of what other things they may be posting on other social medias or their written work. ANOTHER DISCLAIMER: Please be polite, I am a minor, and am just creating this post to ward off / warn other minors from following this person. If you are an adult interacting with this post and blog, be mindful of your actions and be responsible

Trigger warnings for: discussions of homophobia, discussions of p//phillia, fat-shaming, fat-phobia (?), etc. Just be on general edge for this post, we’re talking about a lot of weird stuff

I will be linking their posts as I am not going to take screenshots of their art.

This is not a comprehensive list of all the things they’ve done - these are the ones I could think of and was able to adress. If you have anything additional you want to add to this post (such as concerning things they may do on other social media), feel free to reblog and add on the things you need to say, just please don’t be dumb.

Let’s start with the premise: Henry Jekyll creates an alter ego, Edward Hyde. They begin a relationship - an emotional and physical one. Their AU features Jekyde (A popular ship in the fandom, the name stands for Jekyll x Hyde), people have various views on this ship.

So far so fine, right? Here are the problems:

1. Their Henry Jekyll is an awful person. Now, let’s start by saying that of course you can have bad people in your works, those are, after-all: villains. The problem is,Henry Jekyll is a harmful walking gay sterotype, and an outlet for Biscuit’s obvious fat fetish. But their relationship isn’t just toxic it’s romanticised in how toxic it is.

a. The harmful stereotype - Their Henry Jekyll has a “thing” for younger men, even though he is in his middle-ages, and Hyde looks like a young child. (Age gap relationships are their own thing - they come with their own burdens, and this is not the post to discuss them. This topic will lead into the Edward Hyde section of this post.) But, it was a known homophobic scare-mongering tactic of straight parents to accuse everyone who is gay that they are ‘out to prey on your youths’. This is a stereotype that stigmatized the LGBT community, and still harmfully affects them to this day.

b. The fat fetish: Jekyll is frequently seen with cake (as seen here, here, and here) or being self-loathing, to the point of suicide. (click the link here to acess a list of suicide and other crisis hotlines! you matter to me!). Now, the self-loathing could be a symptom of depression or other mental illness, so I am not going to talk about it, as a person with mental illnesses. But the self-loathing in addition to him being fat is not good. Media is drowning in the “self-loathing fat person” and as someone who isn’t thin i’m tired of seeing this.

- The fetish aspect comes in him constantly being referred to “Chonky”, a term usually used for overweight/obese cats and being drawn obsessed with cake. It fetishises his weight and dehumanises him into something people call their animals. Also, here’s more of Jekyll eating food and being embarassed by it, though this time because it’s seen as “servant’s food”.

- Biscuit admits to liking them “Big and chunky” in posts like this.

[Photo id: A string of texts that says: tantok, frankenstein, twink lore, dorian slipped through the cracks and got himself sketched by yours truly the other day because he brought lord henry along, he and the slime didn’t have to fight to the death because they’ve both got their own chonky old toxic henries to focus on, but this blog still ain’t big enough for the two of ‘em. end id]

- They also talk about how they ‘prefer’ to draw fat (chonky) people. Image attatched above. the thing that should be noticed is that they say ‘chonky old toxic henries’ . they, once again, are making fat people a fetish.

[Photo id: Anonymous asks: are you gonna make a victor design tho biscuit responds: Oh, man, anon, I hate to disappoint but.....probably not. Aside from my non-humanoids and hellspwans (slime gremlins, corpse creatures, and etcetera), I’m extremely uninterested in drawing young thin men. I really need middle-aged chonk to hold my attention. If poor Victor Frankenstein had only been 40-something and round when he made his great creation, then he’d definitely get a design from yours truly. As it is though, he’s not holding my attention enough to want to. end id]

Biscuit once again talks about how he doesn’t want to draw ‘thin men’, because he is only interested in older ‘round’ people. He, is, once again, bringing to light his fetish for fat people.

2. Edward Hyde is basically a child - Edward Hyde is drawn in boy’s school clothes, is taken in and raised like a child after Jekyll’s death, and is constantly cooed over by the creator, even earning a nickname of ‘slime’ from them. In addition, he also has ‘family photos’ taken with Utterson, has his toenails kept, is the height of a child, and teeths. This, paired with the fact that he is in a toxic, abusive, relationship with a man in his middle ages is concerning and should not be romanticised.

[Photo id: the text reads: In his first year of existence, Hyde lost teeth and regrew them in a mildly similar fashion to a kid losing baby teeth - except it wasn’t all of his teeth (Just the canines and some random molars) and they weren’t replaced with a larger set, just with teeth exactly the same as the ones that had been lost. No one knows what was up with this. the teeth are still in Jekyll’s study in a little jar. end id]

a. Hyde is treated like a child after Jekyll’s death. Hyde teething is concerning because that’s something infants do. He also clings to utterson like a child. The idea that he gets taken in by Utterson, whisked away to an estate out in the country, despite both of them having romantic feelings for Jekyll is. how do I put this: WEIRD. (seriously, imagine your father/father-figure dating ur significant other / having a crush on them before you two got together and after).

b. Hyde dresses like a child, whilst being sexually active and wearing lingerie. Now, on their own, these traits aren’t a problem - but together? They are very much a problem.

- Hyde dressing as a child is concerning because he is also treated like a child at certain points in their “lore”. After Jekyll’s death, Hyde becomes a singular entity, and is taken away by Utterson. To care for, like a child. This post sums it up well: he wears both children’s clothes and lingerie.

- Hyde has a very strange appearance - if you compare it to his early design (which was less cartoony and looked more like a man in his twenties), Hyde’s current design is concerning. Why does he have the height of a child? Why does he have eyes that take up a grand part of his face? Now, one could argue that ‘he is not human’ - but if he is treated like a human, whilst wearing children’s/youthful clothes, teeths, and his general enchanment with the world - he appears as human (and looks eerily similar to a child), which is why him being sexually active, wearing lingerie, and being friendly with prostitutes (one that gave him underwear and other articles of clothing) is concerning.

- That said, Utterson is directly talked about being ‘adopted into gremlin fatherhood’ (paraphrasing).

[Photo id: the text reads: 59. Jekyll is irresitibly attracted to everything about Hyde, but if he could somehow be forced to list hte most attractive physical attributes of Edward Hyde in his opinion, aside from Hyde’s youthful appearance in general it would be his eyes, his overbite (Jekyll perceived the way Hyde’s-) the screenshot cuts of the rest of the paragraph. end id]

- Jekyll has a ‘thing’ for younger men. This is to the point that the most attractive part about Hyde is that he is young. (or looks like it), Hyde looking very young is concerning because that would make their verison of Doctor Jekyll a p*dophille . This is something the artist has either not recognized, realised, or simply does not acknowledge.

3. The toxic relationship (and how it’s romanticised) - The relationship in this ‘AU’ is: love comes first, toxic nature comes second. If you scroll through the blog you may see some reference of ‘Henry Jekyll is such a toxic person teehee’ and a lot of them kissing, being together, smiling, or enjoying life. Now, obviously, an artist - if they do not want to - should not draw characters being toxic to each other. But it is concerning when the above points come into a factor, that the toxic nature of their relationship comes second to the highs of their relationship, at least on their blog.

Here is one of the only examples I’ve seen of Biscuit talk about the relationship in a detailed negative light.

4. The fandom - Whilst Biscuit says it’s ok for minors to interact with his blog (in that blog he says that he tags nsfw - which is true.) he does not regularly mention that his jekyde is toxic - not in a concerete way. He romanticises it (despite acknowledging it’s flaws), and the only way it may or may not be (i would not know) acknowledged is his fic: which is mature and not meant for minors. He does not tag his posts with regular triggers for things like: alcohol, drugs, mental illnesses, or abuse (any variants). They’re not even in his blog’s description! If Biscuit had acknowledged it in his blog, something along the lines of: “Hey! This blog has <content warnings> be warned when interacting! But no, he does not.

- A lot of the people who draw things, or generally interact with Biscuit are minors. Being exposed to such a thing may be harmful to my peers, and I am worried. To minors who are fans of Biscuit: if you’ve made it this far, thank you, I know you’re mature and responsible, but being exposed to content creators like Biscuit could lead you down a dangerous path of having this kind of thing normalised to you. Be careful with the content you consume, please! And thank you for making it this far, I’m sure you’re a lovely person :)!

Thank you for taking the time to read this! Stay safe, tell the people you love that you love them.

#J&H #jekyll and hyde #henry jekyll #edward hyde #i spent months thinking whether or not to write this #but #i'm worried about fellow minors on this website seeing this user's blog #and not thinking critically about this #so i snapped and made this #long post #like r e a l l y long post #i am so tired.#brb to answer the hate lmao i need to throw up #forgive me if by the end of this post i sound exhausted : i am #i spent this evening writing this post #goth lit fandom grow up challenge #aus do not remove the context of the original #listen to the minorities if they call you out #fiction REALLY AFFECTS REALITY

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bansheeoftheforest · 3 years

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Well, my wifi is not back, and wont be anytime soon. The very earliest luckiest would be getting it back by Tuesday (unlikely). The very worst my house burns down so theres that /lh /hj

This sucks so much because I really cannot read asks I dont see in real time, I have the same amount of reading comprehension for them as I do Frankenstein XD

Dm me links to any important syndicate asks I miss while I'm gone 👍

Bannnnnn I tried to draw the Jekyll brothers but Kent? Is inconsistent? The database (what I use) showd him as a clean shaven guy with a bit messy hair but google is showing Kent as a completely different model? Neat hair, Brokenshire beard. Like it's the ingame "identify" zoom in and I cant check whats right before I already killed himmmm

Anyway here art <3. I know I said I'd draw the DTIYS first but art inspiration is stored in the Syndicate au <3

Also I've been thimking about Henry wearing a mask +plus ponytail to hide his identity like for the past two days. Yknow those theater masks? The weeping and laughing? He wears the sad one while in the Blighters and Templars and the happy one while in the Rooks because hes a dramatic theater nerd. Also! I like to think that if Jekyll has to be a templar he'd still wear the Blighter uniform when he could and pretend hes not high ranking. He gets away with it because Crawford doesn't care about him and Roth lives for chaos

I also drew Henry in a mask and ponytail but it's not done yet 😔

Also I did the math the the twins are 3 years older than Jekyll. Like thank goodness first of all because I fully went into ship entirely unaware on if there were canon ages or a scary difference. But also Jacob being 3 years older than Henry is kinda funny to me

All of Evie's outfits (besides her default) are bad and I'm gonna fist fight the designers because the secrets of london (where I only searched the locations of 3) is so bad, especially with the effort needed. How did they do Jacob so good, but utterly fail with Evie /lh

NOOOOOOO D: Man, I really hope you will get it back asap, and also that your house don't burn down!!

Man, if I don't know your struggle rn. However I shall do my best to link you to every syndicate ask that I will get from here on out bc I don't tend to get small asks for that au so <3

Huh-- oh wow you're right. I wonder if it is a set design or just a bit on random depending on the save file... I killed him a long ass time ago so I have absolutely no idea how he looked like <3

EITHER WAY OH MY GOD IT LOOKS AAMZING. I love??? How you gave all three individual personalities in just a single picture??? Kent looks like he is seconds away from murder and I LOVE Henry in the templar outfit, it fits him so well??? Man I really want to start thinking more of this branch. Would the entire Jekyll family be Templars so the trio got that role inherited? Are Raphael and Kent unidentical twins and Henry is the odd-one-out because he is the youngest? Were the three of them really close in Scotland, but left as soon as possible bc their family was abusive, only for Kent and Raphael to find refuge in the Templar Order while Henry goes to university? Would they still have that brotherly love if they were close as kids even when they are in the Order, or would they have a falling out and start despising each other (or Jekyll @ the older brothers at least)? Would Raphael and Kent secretly be protective of Henry and manage to keep him out of Starrick's line-of-sight so that Henry won't get in trouble for defying orders/ignoring them? Would they force Henry to join the Templars with threats or would Henry mostly feel obligated to join them? Since the Templar Order isn't illegal in London, would other people know that Jekyll is a Templar, or would he keep it hidden from the public? Would his brothers help hide his identity?? SO many questions and I'm so sad I won't be able to discuss them with you :'c

(also can I just say I love the poetic differences between their clothing. Raphael is just wearing a waistcoat/basic clothes and he is a brute and more open, Kent is wearing more clothes/layering up and he is the "brains" out of the two of them, Jekyll is wearing the most layers and is almost trying to hide himself and I just... *chief's kiss*)

Henry being a dramatic theater nerd and stealing Roth's costume supplies to hide his identity bc he is so ashamed of it and doesn't want people he knows to know about it my beloved <3 Plus the blighter uniforms doesn't look too far off of what he normally wears so he could probably use that as an excuse whenever some other Templar gets up his ass about not wearing the right clothes, yet it still doesn't make Henry feel any better knowing he has to bear the knowledge that he is actively wearing discreet blighter clothes to keep the Order happy and the public oblivious, knowing what cause he is reluctantly supporting. (him joining the rooks and suddenly coming into the Society all dressed in green lol)

Anyways I have now also decided that Maxwell and Henry are friends bc they both hate the Templars and Crawford and Henry gets to star in many of the plays he sets up. Plus they are both slightly insane so they match each other good.

YKNOW WHAT I WAS DAYDREAMING ABOUT WHILE BRUSHING MY TEETH RIGHT AFTER THIS ASK? Jekyll being forced to be the one to murder his brothers and the twins trying to track the murderer down just to know who tf are killing their targets, conveniently at the same time Maxwell starts meeting Jacob. Henry watching Jacob from afar getting smitten by him but keeping a distance bc he knows Maxwell is possessive, Jacob being the first to befriend Henry after Maxwell explains that both of them are against the Templars and Crawford, Jacob saving Henry during the fire of the theater? Yes pls <3

Thank god bc here I was imagining an age gap of like idk 15 years bc of the differences in the timeline but! I'm just going to keep the canonical age difference while also shoot the timeline up a lil so that the events of Syndicate and TGS takes place at the same time but they are the right age and stuff, just bc I do not like Evie's and Jacob's older designs and I do not want to imagine them meeting during the Ripper dlc <3 Also the thought of Jacob being older than Henry is funny. I think Henry has a type /j

They are so fucking bad and I'm going to scourage the Nexus to see if I can find any good redesign mods because they are so fucking bad. But to be fair, all female main characters' outfits are bad. Pearl? Lucy Thorne? Mfs looks like vampires. Even more reasons for why I only play Jacob, bc all other outfits on Evie are bad <3

#ask #darling-dolly-darlene #syndicate crossover au #banshees au #banshees faves

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screamscenepodcast · 3 years

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HAPPY HALLOWE’EN 2020: THE TOP TEN

And you thought we’d forgotten All Hallows’ Eve? For shame! Yes, it’s that time of year again - when you’re looking for only the best classic horror movies to make your blood run cold and entertain the ghosts moaning their way through your home! So here it is, our definitive list of the top ten best horror movies, for the period of 1895-1955. Here you’ll learn which films make the top ten, what their deal is, and where to find them online. We hope you find this list helpful with your evening’s entertainment. Safe scares, Creatures of the Night!

#10. The Invisible Man (1933)

Mark Hamill said it himself - his much acclaimed interpretation of the Joker comes from Claude Rains’ performance as the tragically insane Griffin in this adaptation of the HG Wells novel. The movie shows off James Whale’s great skill at mixing humour and horror, even if some of the British-isms get a bit broad at times, but the true power of The Invisible Man is how it’s gotten more relevant with time - in 2020, the idea that anonymity might lead to immorality is no longer a hypothetical notion. Find it for rent in HD at $4.99 on Apple iTunes, Google Play Movies, Cineplex, Microsoft Store, and YouTube. 1h 11min.

#9. The Black Cat (1934)

What do you even say about a movie like Edgar G. Ulmer’s The Black Cat? A metaphor for Austrian/Hungarian relations after World War I, a dip into the world of Satanic cults, a revenge story with elements as unsavoury as Oldboy, and a chance to see Karloff and Lugosi really go at it as adversaries on roughly equal footing at a time when both men’s careers were on about the same level. This movie will draw you in with its gorgeous cinematography, hypnotic editing, and modernist set design to such an extent that by the time it’s over, you’ll hardly notice that the story didn’t seem to entirely make sense… This underappreciated classic is waiting for you to rent in HD on Google Play and YouTube for $4.99. 1h 6min.

#8. Island of Lost Souls (1932)

Watching this movie is like willingly stepping into a nightmare. The HG Wells’ novel might have somehow wanted to portray Dr Moreau “sympathetically” (Victorians, amirite?) but this adaptation understands he’s an utter monster and Charles Laughton delivers a bravura performance that underscores the character’s pure insanity. Combine this with the film’s dark and gritty look, the subtle make-up design of the hybrids (including a heavily obscured Bela Lugosi), and the unforgettable chant of The Law, and you have a film that will burn itself into your memory. Unfortunately, Island of Lost Souls has no current streaming options available, but you can find it on Blu-Ray from the Criterion Collection. 1h 11min.

#7. Körkarlen (1921)

The Phantom Carriage is a haunting exploration of the horrors of alcoholism, domestic abuse, poverty, and tuberculosis as well as a critique of Christian naivete while simultaneously an encouragement of spiritual moral values. It has the tone and pace of a dirge, as it seeks to imprint its message on your very soul. All wrapped up in a chilling story of New Year’s Eve and the spectre of Death! The Phantom Carriage is available to stream in HD on The Criterion Channel, and to rent in HD for $5.49 on Pantaflix. 1h 30min.

#6. I Walked With a Zombie (1943)

The second Val Lewton produced film on the list, I Walked With a Zombie is perhaps best described as Jane Eyre in the Caribbean, but what is surprising is that the film is also a well researched depiction of Voodoo practices for 1943. The haunting imagery, sparse sound design, and dreamlike poeticism of this film might make it among the most unique zombie movies you’ve ever seen, made in a time with zombies were supernatural undead slaves, instead of reanimated undead cannibals. Do yourself a favour and check it out - it’s available to buy online in SD for $9.99 from Apple iTunes, and $14.99 on Google Play Movies and YouTube. 1h 8 min.

#5. The Old Dark House (1932)

James Whale’s definitive take on this traditional mystery thriller formula is a movie that will have you laughing right until the moment it has you screaming. In some ways, it’s a movie of clichés, with the protagonists seeking shelter in an old mansion during a rainstorm in the night and having to deal with the reclusive family they find within. But the dark, brooding cinematography, and truly shocking twists that rivet up the intensity over the running time, all contribute to make this a harrowing watch. It’s one part Rocky Horror Picture Show, one part The Addams Family, and one part The Texas Chain Saw Massacre. I’m not kidding. The Old Dark House is currently streaming in HD on Flix Fling. 1h 10min.

#4. The Spiral Staircase (1946)

This RKO classic is another great take on the old dark house subgenre, from noir director Robert Siodmak. A masterpiece of suspense, featuring wonderful production design and dynamite performances from its cast, this movie will draw you in to the world of a mute servant named Helen trapped in a dark manor on a stormy night with a whole cast of lunatics! A forerunner of giallo (no, really!), this classic and classy thriller is not to be missed! The Spiral Staircase is currently streaming in HD on Flix Fling. 1h 23min.

#3. Gojira (1954)

Ishiro Honda’s classic giant monster movie, the progenitor of all kaiju and tokusatsu movies to come, is a masterpiece of ingenuity and imagination. But more than that, it’s a powerful statement about the horrors of nuclear war, an angry and relentless funeral dirge mourning for the Japanese lives lost and raging against the American foreign policy that continued to poison Japan with radiation even after the war. Godzilla is an apocalypse personified, the great revenge of the natural world against the hubris of man that has harmed it. But Gojira is also a film about the immense weight of personal and scientific responsibility weighed against the greater good, and its position on the use of weapons of mass destruction is perhaps more nuanced than you’d expect. Don’t let the campy reputation of Godzilla in the West fool you. Clear your mind of that and sit down to watch this powerful black & white epic. Gojira is streaming in HD on the Criterion Channel, and can be rented in HD for $4.99 on Apple iTunes. 1h 38 min. The American adaptation Godzilla, King of the Monsters! (1956) is also worth a watch, and is available from the same sources.1h 20 min.

#2. Cat People (1942)

Cat People is brilliant. The first of Val Lewton’s horror movies for RKO, it best exemplifies his shadow drenched, suggestive, adult, contemporary, and ambiguous brand of horror. Irena is convinced that if she experiences sexual excitement, she will turn into a black panther and kill the man she loves. Her husband is convinced it’s all in her head. What is the truth? Cat People gives the viewer plenty to chew on while being the first horror movie to understand that less is more, that the monster is scarier if you can’t see it, and also how to pull off a jump scare. You can find this absolute classic to stream in HD on The Criterion Channel, and to purchase in HD for $9.99 on Apple iTunes and $14.99 on Google Play Movies and YouTube. 1h 10min.

#1. Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde (1931)

FOUR! YEARS! IN A ROW! Early on in the first Hollywood horror craze, Paramount Pictures managed to outdo their main competitor Universal with this masterpiece from director Rouben Mamoulian. With a use of sound, visuals, effects, script, and performance far beyond what most films were doing at the time, this adaptation reigns supreme among other versions of the same story. Fredric March utterly inhabits the dual title role, but it’s Miriam Hopkins’ performance that will stick with you in this superb examination of domestic abuse, alcoholism, and the beast that dwells within us. Currently for rent in SD on Apple iTunes, Google Play Movies, Microsoft Store, and YouTube for $4.99. 1h 38min. Well there you have it, Creatures of the Night! Will Dr. Jekyll & Mr. Hyde ever be knocked from it’s perch at the top? Keep tuning in to Scream Scene each week on Wednesday to find out! Until then, Happy Hallowe’en!

#scream scene podcast #top ten #halloween #recommendations #2020 #classic horror #horror films #where to watch #the invisible man #the black cat #island of lost souls #the phantom carriage #i walked with a zombie #the old dark house #the spiral staircase #gojira #godzilla #cat people #dr jekyll and mr hyde

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turtletoria · 1 year

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hi im gonna talk about the spooky 2 brains drawing now so bear with me

to start, i spent a lot of time on this and lost my mind over it for months so i get to talk about it ok??!?!?! and also on that note do not expect anything super well thought out or meaningful because im also a stupid poo poo head without a single thought between my eyes. i put a lot of care and meaning into this and also it is meaningless, i contain multitudes, etc.

read on if youre curious about all the design choices!

OK, first up we have this thing! The mirror border :-) It is laden with poppies and forget-me-nots (my favorite flower btw). There is also a sleeping mouse in the center. For this, poppies represent sleep, peace, and death. Forget-me-nots also have a similar meaning of remembrance. In that sense, it’s sort of like if boxleitner is “dead” or gone in a sense, but he is still trying to come out; he is not going to be forgotten by the narrative so easily. The mouse was also supposed to be ambiguous - is it dead or just asleep? Schrodinger’s mouse: is dr two brains both of these personalities mixed together, or is he his own character? Is he both at the same time? Is he neither?

This red vintage phone is like a staple in analog horror honestly, so there was no way i could leave it out sorry *pensive* (also Spamton’s dialtone motif comes to mind). But on a more Lore Focused note, i also was thinking that boxleitner for sure had a phone to keep in touch with wordgirl with (sort of like the phone the mayor of townsville has to call the powerpuff girls). In that sense, its like wordgirl is still trying to call him, but as 2brains has said before, “Dr. Boxleitner can’t come to the phone right now.”

Ah yes, the helmet that started everything. I imagined that it would be horribly banged up over the years, with 2 brains trying to fix it, but either the mouse brain or human brain just sort of wrecking it out of the need to stay together or out of frustration, respectively, but then 2 brains picking it up to fix it again. i wanted it to look really scratched and burned and rusted, but im not quite sure that came across correctly ;-_- (The mouse helmet is completely destroyed from the Accident.)

Some glassware with residue. I would imagine that boxleitner was trying to cure himself the good old jekyll and hyde way to no avail.

This one is a bit more morbid, so tw for blood and self-harm!! (also the thumb is so fucked up anatomically how did i not notice and fix it sooner. oh my god.) Anyway, I wanted the scalpel to look really rusted; this was another way that boxleitner was trying to get rid of the mouse brain himself. However, squeaky wouldn’t let this happen, and I would imagine that a surgery to your own person would not go well, and so he could never follow through. There’s also fur all over the table, as he is probably so disgusted with being so... mouse and man.

The reflection was supposed to depict separated boxleitner and squeaky, to sort of demonstrate that theyre still distinct entities to a certain degree. from “dr wordgirl brains” we know that becky was fighting squeaky to avoid doing more harm; we also know from the pilot that boxleitner did the same. They both failed, ultimately. But from this struggle, i can definitely see some deep-seated resentment forming. What starts as outright conflict and a need to actively fight back against the mouse brain sort of backs down into the corner, becoming a quiet, simmering rage. While 2 brains is nice and controlled when the human brain is the primary force, i attribute that to boxleitner’s good nature, and also for him being able to repress that anger to a small, dark corner in the human brain. But there are definitely going to be moments where that rage comes out and this boxleitner definitely haunts 2 brains; he shall not be forgotten!

Also, I wanted the hairline cracks to look a little like whiskers... because, ultimately, 2 brains is not a completely separated entity from boxleitner the human.

Again, who is calling? Wordgirl? I intended it to be her, but I could also see it as boxleitner’s consciousness trying to break through but 2 brains isn’t picking up (but the ringing is incessant).

Ok that’s all folks! And also I want to put a little disclaimer that I think this is all just extremely contrived conjecture, and that a lot of this is me making things up and pulling at straws.

#turtlearts

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guyghoul · 3 years

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I explicitly let @alicechrosnyart do whatever she wants wi these pictures (and their art sources) in anyway anywhere anytime, including uploads to any website she uses.

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@alicechrosnyart‘s art is frequently a joy, being just plain cartoony goodness while still being professional quality. Her style also manages to fit serious topics if needed. Her Weather Friends, in particular, can easily make an excellent broadcast cartoon! I like the relatively simple yet distinctive designs of them, plus I appreciate the animal motifs eac have. (Sunny is a cat. Nighty is literally a Moon Rabbit. Stormy is a frog. Snowy is a sheep. Rainy is a mantis. Windy is a bird of some sort.) Most importantly, they embody the feeling of thei respective weather or celestial body, making a neat variety.

Once again, I actually wanted to pixel all of them in one season of ArtFight. While this may have been foolish due to the difficulty of pixelling the Planet Dragons, I had a good idea of how many of these sprites I coul do and ecided that I coul do all of these. Thankfully, their simple designs and palettes made pixelling these much mo relaxing.

Once again, I am grouping all of my attacks, though I can actually pu them in one pos this time around!

Sunny

Sunny is one of my two favourite Weather Friends because he is more than a huggably thick and fluffy creature. He is also energetic and cheerful without necessarily being overbearing. I also like how the cat motif is only apparent once you look hard: making Sunny unique. My favourit elements are the round head (which fit how Sunny is a round star) and the triangles above his head.

I was really grateful tha the Weather Friends had simple palettes and relatively simple designs, making pixelling them very fun and easy. Ironically, I did have difficulty getting the round head and especially the triangles right, resulting in compromises. A more obvious mistake is me missing the cream underbelly initially due to the lighting on e of Sunny’s reference pictures, but I did fix the underbelly mostly. Otherwise, all that practise wi the Weather Dragons really paid! Another thing of which I am grateful is how the pixel precision combined wi the low resolution meant hat I could calculate how big each leg should be and where precisely could I plac each leg.

If I were to change this, I might change the size of the tail tip and maybe t head, though I woul definitely make the lighter-coloured underbelly more obvious.

Nighty

In terms of designs, Nighty impresses me the most. Aside from being a (coincidental?) reference to the ‘Rabbit on the Moon’, Nighty has this nimble look. The crescent motifs overlaid over spherical forms match bo the popular image of a crescent moon and the spherical shape the actual Moon has. I like how the obscured part of the spheres are sky-themed.

I similarly had plenty o fun pixelling her, especially her ears. However, once again, I ha difficulty working o the round head and tail. Th eye also gave me some trouble, too. However, the shading effects, especially the obscured parts, look impressive to me. I also like hor her skinny figure suits forms that are one pixel wide.

If I were to change this, I might do something abou that neck and tail.

Stormy

He is my other favourite. I like characters who are tough outside but soft inside; in this case, he is a kind grump. I also like his fat body shape and his mane, the later which I would imagine would be constantly moving in animation. He also looks moderately monstrous, whic has him look cool to me, though the monstrous look actually blends nicely wi the cute æsthehtic the Weather Friends have. Finally, a tuxedo, monocle, and top hat (which is actually a Dr Jekyll costume?) especially suit him not only because of his palette but als of how serious he normally is.

While working on thi sprite, I eventually noticed that his natural greys already had a neat effect by themselves, which led me t omi the shading. I had a lot of difficulty wi the leg, though I like what I did wi the mane, especially the swirl texture and the pompadour shape I gave the mane.

If I were to change this, I might add shading after all.

Snowy

Snowy being a sheep is fitting, what wi the white wool sheep have. I also like how she is also a tough and serious yet kind girl.

I had quite a bit o fun shading her with blues, though I think I went overboard. I also had some trouble making the horns look good, especially nice those swirls did not look right at such a low resolution. I also noticed just now that her claws are supposed to be blue; her claws just appeared grey in one of her eference pictures. More positively, I liked oing her puffy chest area, even if that needed adjustment, first.

If I were to change this, I would probably ease up on the shading or move the shading in other places on the sprite. I also woul definitely fix the colour of her claws. Another fix would be making the tail mass mor even.

Rainy

Rainy... has me feel bittersweet. While I like the simple, watery design wi that subtle mantis influence and how her melancholy fits how rai normally feels, she is, in th end, a sad Friend, even if not all of her tears are of sadness. I end up feeling sad... wit her, if that make sense? In fact, she would probably be the Weather Friend I would end up accompanying the most because we are both very emotional and wan to comfort others.

Despite Rainy being sad, I enjoyed playing wi the shading here, though I ha difficulty getting the drop head and face right. The fac that she has mantis feet was honestly a surprise. Otherwise, th is one of my favourite sprites.

If I were to change this, I might do something abou those mantis feet and the lower-lef tip of the tail.

Windy

I feel that Windy is a specific kind of bird, but her design seems to be a hybrid of some sort. I like her crest, her tail, and especially her legless body, making not only a distinctive and appealing design but also fitting how she is not really an imal, bu an embodiment of weather.

Windy was honestly fun. I actually liked pixelling her legles shape, not only because that made pixelling easier but also because that let me have more fun with posing. The beak looks good to me, too. However, I notice that lighting and texturing wings is a weakness of mine when pixelling a this resolution, ye thos effects on the rest of Windy look neat. Getting the crest right was tricky, though.

If I were to change this, I would very likely change the texturing and lighting on the wings.

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Sunny, Nighty, Stormy, Snowy, Rainy, Windy → @alicechrosnyart

#sprite art #pixel art #dot art #my art #ArtFight #ArtFight2021 #ArtFight 2021 #Weather Friends #Sunny (Weather Friends)#Nighty (Weather Friends)#Stormy (Weather Friends)#Snowy (Weather Friends)#Rainy (Weather Friends)#Windy (Weather Friends)

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whatissleepeven · 4 years

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I -

I can't stop thinking about it -

About what, you ask?

An Obey Me! and Fate/Grand Order crossover

(Warning: Long post ahead!)

Either the bois get summoned to Chaldea or they're able to summon Servants themselves

(...I'm leaning towards the first)

The tomfoolery! The shenanigans!

Imagine: Humanity's Last Master (aka you) ends up summoning them as they trek through Rome with Mash and the Servants they already summoned

They set up the summoning circle, but one minor mistake is made and the summoning glow looks a bit darker than usual and BOOM

"S-...Senpai...is this normal?"

You have no idea what's normal or not, I mean you're time travelling to save your people for fucks sake -

"Servant of the Rider Class. My True Name is Lucifer. Do not expect me to cater to your every whim."

...Wait he's a what now??

They were not supposed to have this whole "Class" thing designated to them (it's not how demonic summoning works he swears), and yet they do for some reason

(You can tell I had fun thinking of their Classes)

The introductions are...cold, to say the least

"Saber Class Servant, and none other than The Great Mammon, Avatar of Greed! I got better things to be doing, so don't go calling me whenever ya want, got it?!"

"Lancer Class...Leviathan. I have an mmorpg raid coming up, so I can't stick around."

"Berserker Class. My name is Satan. What? Are you surprised that I seem calm for a Berserker? It's quite alright; I get that reaction often enough. A word of advice: Be careful what you wish for."

"My name is Asmodeus, but you can call me Asmo darling! I'm a Caster, which is good. I can't mess up the work done on my nails and hair!"

"Hm...Oh? Sorry, I was thinking about lunch. Servant Class: Ruler. I'm Beelzebub, but most people call me Beel. Do you have any snacks on you?"

"Servant Class: Avenger. My name is Belphegor, but I doubt you'll be alive long enough to remember that. I won't do your dirty work for you, human."

You are just...done at that point. You are literally carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders and their attitudes are not helping

"Yeah, yeah, here's the gist: there's a war going on and we're trying to save the planet. The future's been incinerated, and it's our job to fix what went wrong. I don't have time for your uncooperation; get on board."

(Mash is worried for your mental health)

It takes some time, but they do manage to open up to you

The main catalyst for this is when they heard you talking to Robin Hood, who was summoned in France

"Say, Master...I gotta ask: Why are you doing this?"

You pause what you're doing, shooting him an incredulous look. "You mean saving the world?" You ask in return.

He shrugs, tilting his head forward in a slight nod. "Yeah. There's other people who could do this, aren't there?"

"There isn't." The brothers hear you say firmly. Beel almost went in because he wanted a snack, but the others held him back; the conversation had peaked their interest, and they wanted to hear what you had to say.

"Robin..." Your voice comes out strained, as if you were barely holding yourself together. "I watched innocent people die in front of me. Good people. The world outside is gone. I can't even go see my family, because they're dead. I'm not expecting you to understand, but it hurts so bad that somedays I don't feel like getting up. If I die, it's all over; humanity's done. I'll never be able to see my family's smiles again, I'll never be able to hear their laughter; I'll...I'll never be able to go back home.

"So, instead of asking why I'm doing this, you should be asking "How far are you willing to go?" instead."

Robin is silent for a while. Mammon shifts on his feet. The Green Archer finally speaks, somber but curious tone filling the air. "And? What's the verdict, Master?"

Your voice has a tone of finality to it that shoots them back to the past, back towards the Celestial War. It's final, but it's tired. "Whatever it takes."

(And, so, the brothers come to understand and even sympathize with your situation a little bit. You had to fight for the sake of others without rest, you were a leader, you were a savior, but most of all...you were alone. And something about that didn't sit right with them.)

They would fit in perfectly with Chaldea's dynamics, actually

Mammon has a gold sword he lovingly calls Goldie (yes it changes into his beloved credit card)

His Noble Phantasm is literally him raising his sword and mountains of Grimm burying his opponents from the sky as he cackles out:

"Don't worry, I'll take all that money off ya hands!"

Or, in a proud declaration:

"My sword is my love, and my love is my sin. I'll take all that you have on ya! STULTUS IN AVARITA!!"

(Translates (from Google) to "Greed of the Fool")

(It also gives you an increased drop rate in materials)

Leviathan's weapon is his trident

He's surprised that he wasn't summoned as a Rider, once he got used to the "Class" thing (which was fairly quick, he's seen an anime like this before). I mean, he has a giant snake named Henry 1.0 and Lothan that he would've loved to fight side by side with

He usually doesn't fight, but he proves to be invaluable in Okeanos since he has knowledge on war strategies at sea

His Noble Phantasm is a bit strange, but endearing (sad). He rushes forward with his trident glowing, saying either:

"I can't get the latest Ruri-chan merch because you blew up the world...I won't forgive you. I can't forgive you!"

Or, in a somber tone:

"Even though it's fun, a gamer's life becomes stifling if you keep playing by yourself. I hope you're watching, (Y/N)! EX SOLA INVIDIA!!"

(Translates (from Google) to "Envy of the Lonely")

(Chance of Death increases with Overcharge, and it hits a single enemy)

Satan? Even though he's a Berserker, he behaves more like a Caster (initially)

He's holding a book that shoots out beams of pure energy at his opponents

His Noble Phantasm is...more violent

"Ah, so you've decided to call upon my Noble Phantasm...don't blame me if it's too much for you."

Or, he begins in a deathly calm voice:

"I am me; that's all I need to be. I know this, so why...? Why does this happen? TELL ME! "

He discards his books altogether, grabbing a single enemy with his bare hands and ripping them to shreds.

Asmo’s skill is charming his enemy, which confuses most people since you’d think it’d be his Noble Phantasm

Instead, it boosts his allies’ attacks and NP by 30%

“Don’t get too hurt out there~!”

Beel’s Noble Phantasm heals all allies and increases their attack

“We can’t fight on an empty stomach.”

(Once he hits his last Ascension, your party gets the added bonus of him attacking a single enemy with a lance. All other Ascensions has him using his fists for attacks.)

Belphie’s Noble Phantasm is almost as violent as Satan’s, and yes...he chokes out a single enemy out (rip MC)

“HA! You think I’d work with the likes of you, a lowly human? Get out of my sight.”

It’s Instant Death, unless Evasion or Invincibility is activated

Lucifer’s pride is a bit wounded. He’s a Rider, of all things??

(...He eventually gets used to it though)

His Noble Phantasm is him literally mounting Cerberus and raising his spear towards the heavens, looking as radiant as the days before the Fall

“It seems drastic times call for drastic measures. Cerberus, I trust you to handle things here.”

And Cerberus runs forth, either chomping the enemy in two or breathing fire at them and turning them into ash. (It hits everyone)

Satan and Jekyll hang out a lot because, well...they’re a lot alike

Mammon can and will do stupid shit with the Cu Squad and you cannot change my mind

One time he teamed up with Cascu to steal the other Cu’s spears (Mammon wanted to sell them on Akuzon), and well...half of Chaldea is still in repair to this day

Merlin of all Servants is the one to look after Belphie and Beel

They usually hang out in the garden Robin tends to, Asterios occasionally joining them while bringing both food and Euryale

Asmo frequently visits Medea, dragging Medusa into their group

(Dantes grows fond of Beel overtime, I mean Beel is just so pure there’s no way you couldn’t like him)

Lucifer and EMIYA butt heads at first, but they end up becoming friends despite that

Lucifer admires EMIYA’s skill to keep up with Servants who have a black hole for a stomach, and EMIYA admires Lucifer’s skill to round up his brothers effortlessly when the need to arises (or so he thinks, because he does not know about the Hate Lucifer Club which is run by Satan and Belphie).

Levi and Fran have a pure kind of friendship that must be protected at all costs

He shows her new animes and games, and even though she’s confused most of the time she never fails to listen to his ramblings, nodding whenit was appropriate

BONUS: Undateables (+ Luke)!

Solomon’s situation is...peculiar.

He’s not a Servant, but he behaves like one??

(He’s actually a mage that helps you on your journey to save humanity)

Unlike Da Vinci, he’s able to accompany you to the Singularities (free of charge, too!)

Once he sees the other Solomon, all he says is “I see...interesting.”

(Ngl he probably figured out everything by the time you all went to Okeanos)

Asmo also drags him into his group (consisting of Medea and Medusa), offering to paint his nails as they talk about anything and everything

Simeon is a Lancer and you can’t change my mind

He’s more of a buffer for your team, like Asmo. His skills are primarily healing, and his NP saps the health of an opponent while healing someone other than himself with that health (he cannot heal himself)

He gets along great with Karna!! The two are so nice and kind that it hurts to look at them both for too long

Solomon tells him about the gossip Asmo has on the other Servants. He always listens with an amused look on his face.

Luke is a smol Caster, but he will not hesitate to break your kneecaps

He, too, is a buffer for your team

“I’ll defend you from those demons, (Y/N)!”

His Noble Phantasm heals all allies, restoring their health by 20%

He bakes with Fsn Cu at night, having Proto Cu and Robin Hood try out his sweets. Beel is there 10/10 times, eating any failures or rejects

Diavolo is Ruler Class because he is literally the Ruler of Hell

Surprisingly (to you, at first), he’s the one who always asks to accompany you. He’s very open and considerate, wanting to help wherever and whenever he can

“The Human Realm is essential if we are to establish harmony between the three Realms. Without it there...angels and demons would fight each other for eternity.”

He tells you about his ideas for an exchange program and you offer him input

His Noble Phantasm is applying Invincibility to two allies for 3 turns after dealing heavy damage to a single enemy (cannot apply Invincibility to himself)

He likes to talk with Caster Gil and Archer Gil about their past, going to Ko Gil on occasion. He helps look after the child Servants, and he can often be found reading bedtime stories to them

(Everyone was scared of him at first once they found out who he was, so he usually held off revealing his True Identity)

Barbatos, at first glance, seems like an Archer...but in reality is an Assassin

(HE CONTROLS TIME FOR F*S SAKE)

His Noble Phantasm, depending on the enemy selected, can revive a fallen ally and add them to the Sub Team

(This is only if the enemy that killed the ally is selected)

This stuns him for 3 turns no matter what

He likes to chat with the Tamamo that helps EMIYA in the kitchen. How the two are communicating without issues is up to anyone’s guess

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lemonadehtwooh · 10 months

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Lore about Fgo For Funsies AU Utterson:

and general design concepts and headcanons about him because <3 He's Babygirl. Warning for a super duper long read!

Originally he was a Caster Class but due to a suggestion from a friend, he ended up becoming an Archer class with a gun (the same friend also suggested what type of gun he thought was the "most gentlemanly" for the design). Utterson originally was designed to have a book/magic spells as a weapon instead, similar to Andersen, and would have been a support more than a damage dealer. Even now my headcanons for his skill set is based more on art-card support than buster damage (I headcanon his NP would as well be an art card)

Utterson's monocle represents "Looking through rose-tinted lenses", as Utterson's main flaw in the original novella is his blind faith in his friends, constantly believing in Jekyll and seeing the good in him despite Jekyll being very,,, Not Good. The poor man even loses sleep WORRYING about Jekyll TwT I love him. His monocle, curiosity, and deep love for his friends are the main components of his Noble Phantasm. The pearls connected to the chains are suppose to represent how he was more on the wealthy side in the novella

Utterson's main motives for how he acts is that he "wants to be a modern gentleman" and as well as he wants to help others

Utterson was originally going to be a grey monochromatic color scheme, however I thought it would be a lot funnier if he had a lot of purples and pinks. I like to think his first thought about what he is wearing would be "Oh dear!" and he would be shocked about all the color he wears. He eventually gets used to it, but it's very funny to imagine his surprise!

His Noble Phantasm is called "If he be Mr. Hyde, I shall be Mr. Seek" due to his quote from the novella. This quote also is the inspiration for For Funsies Utterson's obsession with puns and jokes (which also ironically contrasts his serious nature)

Sherlock X Utterson had originally started off as a joke due to Sherlock's design being similar, but unfortunately I got really attached to the concept and actually started shipping it. I personally headcanon Sherlock as potentially being gay asexual in my AU. He as well figures out Utterson's feelings before Utterson realizes them and proceeds to just Watch and study Utterson because of this XD. They also share the same "detective" type motives (albeit, Utterson's is less prominent)

The idea for specifically pinks and purples being his main colors sprouted from the idea of Utterson having an "opposite" color scheme from Jekyll. The green accents are as well a reference towards Jekyll and the similarities he and Utterson shared in the novella. This is also why Lanyon's eyes are pink

I headcanon Utterson to know German and Latin. Potentially some Greek as well. He just has These Vibes (also he's a lawyer)

More about Sherlock and Utterson, their dynamic is something of Sherlock absolutely enjoying watching Utterson and Utterson being a flustered mess due to never experiencing romance (headcanon due to the fact that in the novella he's mentioned to be a bachelor). It's not like Sherlock doesn't participate in their relationship (in fact, in canon Fgo, Sherlock is pretty much pointed out to be a mischievous dude, therefore I believe he would definitely tease Utterson and make insinuations that cause Utterson to pause or perhaps even stammer), Sherlock just enjoys watching the dude and seeing how Utterson reacts. Basically he lowkey forces Utterson to take lead, which Utterson wouldn't mind so much if it wasn't so fluster-causing to him. Utterson also confesses in the most DRAMATIC way possible for such a modest man (to be fair, most of the situation wasn't in his control... But still XD)

I think I mentioned it in a post before, but in my AU, Utterson is rather terrible at socializing due to how intimidating he can come off as. He's trying REALLY hard. I also think his serious attitude doesn't help

instead of "Master", Utterson uses the terms: "My friend" or "dear friend". Romeo, his Master in my AU (who is also my OC), loves this

I don't think he would like modern music... except for potentially musicals. Also a reference to the novella

His bisexuality is also a lowkey reference to the novella because 🤨 bachelor? At 50? In that time period? Okay... 😏. This is also headcanoned into the AU that he sorta just repressed his attractions so much that he completely thinks everything he feels is platonic until he starts researching about relationships in the modern era. And then the realization that he has the fattest crush on Sherlock hits him like a sack of bricks in the middle of him reading. I imagine he would even drop his book in shock. He then proceeds to deny this obvious fact until Jekyll and Lanyon are like " D U D E . " I also headcanon he had a crush on Jekyll at some point but it had faded rather quickly and he brushed it off as he just was feeling those "platonic" emotions deeper than usual.

His grey streak in his hair represents how OLD he was in the novella. Same with Lanyon and Jekyll (I haven't posted my redesign of Jekyll with the grey hair added yet RIP)

Despite Lanyon's usual hugs, Utterson is still rather touch starved and represses himself from giving (and sometimes even receiving) physical affection. He sometimes gets emotional over Lanyon and Jekyll hugging him to the point he gets to the brink of tears thinking about it. This is later figured out completely once he starts dating Sherlock and slowly gets comfortable with touch (especially handholding), and this realization also hits him like a sack of bricks

I imagine if he was given Summer wear, aka a swimsuit, each ascension he keeps covering up due to embarrassment until he is wearing one of those full body, red and white striped swimsuits. His card art would be of him in the original outfit, but his avatar would be covered up. He's a modest man!

He has that Catholic guilt fr. it's obvious and doesn't really need to be said But. *Gestures at him* You can't tell me he doesn't.

#forfunsiesau #alternate universe #fgo #fate go #fate grand order #fgo fate grand order #original character #fate oc #character design #fgo headcanons #headcanon #design process #random

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wildberryautumn · 3 years

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Live thoughts while watching Dracula Das Musical Part I

360p :( I'm so spoiled now ahaha

good looking stage design

so we’re getting exposition with an instrumental track...alright

Mina pricks her finger on a /white/ rose lol

who are these rando gentlemen?? and why are they reacting to Mina like that???

love the dual scene with Mina’s London home and Jonathan’s mysterious Castle Dracula surroundings; the full moon is a cherry on top

LOVE the Dracula-first-appearing-as-an-old-man bit!! Excited for the “reveal” moment (and nothing like a crimson robe to relax at home in)

rolls eyes at the “never drink wine” joke but actually i love it

orchestra sounds great!

ooh large moving set pieces :D

can’t remember Dracula sharing a psychic link with Mina before Van Helsing hypnotizes her?? but good spoopy/foreshadowing effect

clever use of shadows; wondering what changes were made between the La Jolla/Broadway productions – did they always draw influence from Coppola’s film?

hmmm makes sense that Dracula is queer coded, but maybe they actually build on it?? (@ the shaving scene w/ Jonathan)

haha the animal sounds are effective >:D

ugh I can’t imagine singing with fangs...wait does Dracula have fangs? and if not, why are only his retractable? I think fangs in a stage production aren’t necessary...

WOW the brides are really tossing this baby around!!! this is so f*cked up

the sound for the neck snap...both comical and disturbing

Renfield is wonderfully creepy

really appreciate how they’re using the space of the stage for these simultaneous events

laughing at Lucy’s flashback from a moment that happened literally a minute prior; also realizing “The Mist” is in my top songs

when “Loving You Keeps Me Alive” (my top song) started playing I didn’t realize how much I appreciate “She” from the Korean production. it really helped bridge the story, and Borchert’s performance falls flat to me since there’s not really a reason to be invested in Dracula's love for Mina :( *on a side note, holy hell @ Dracula’s “incognito walking around the city nothing to see here” SEXY GOTH OUTFIT @.@ !!! all-black with a billowy shirt and huge ass fur coat?? Yes pls (Jekyll and Hyde much? haha)

I LOVE sneaky cameos - Dracula showing up at Lucy’s wedding is just *chef’s kiss*

"The Invitation” is sooo dark-OH and the orchestral reprisal of “The Mist” is perfection!!

please please pleeaaase let Dracula be one of those dark hooded figures at the funeral

aww :( kinda weird he just walks on stage lol but the brides are cool (surprise cameos XD), plus love the dual scene effect once again!

oh!!! he's singing directly to Mina, from the graveyard!! Still unsure about their telepathic connection (Phantom vibes???), but very effective (and high on the spoop meter lol)

absolutely love Lucy’s transformation; the blood (and fangs) work reaaally well :o

so far, i really like the production! excited for Act II ^^

#dracula #dracula das musical #review #musical #vampire #thomas borchert #the musical dracula #german #frank wildhorn #spoopy #now i really want to see a live production #:(#cries #i miss live anything #good thing i'm undead #rip #haha #before-the-summer-ends

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experimentaljournal · 3 years

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My range of texts

BOOKS

· “We’re all mad here” ― The Cheshire Cat from Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland by Lewis Carrol

· "If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is because everything would be what it isn't.” ― Alice from Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland by Lewis Carrol

· “All the best people are mad.” ― The Mad Hatter from Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland by Lewis Carrol

· “After all this time?” (Dumbledore)

“Always” said Snape.

― J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, Chapter 33, The Prince's Tale

· “To you, who stayed with Harry right to the end.” ― (Dedication) J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows

· “I solemnly swear that I am up to no good.” ― J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban

· "It is only in the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye." From The Little Prince by Antoine de Saint-Exupery

LYRICS

· “Be patient, is very good advice,

But the waiting makes me curious,

And I'd love the change” ― Disney's Alice In Wonderland Movie (1951) - Very Good Advice (Lyrics)

· “Deep in the meadow, under the willow. A bed of grass, a soft green pillow. Lay down your head, and close your eyes. And when they open, the sun will rise. Here it's safe, and here it's warm. Here the daisies guard you from every harm. Here your dreams are sweet, and tomorrow brings them true. Here is the place where I love you.” (Lullaby Lyrics) ― Jennifer Lawrence from The Hunger Games: Catching Fire Movie

Strange things did happen here

No stranger would it be

If we met at midnight

In the hanging tree

Where I told you to run

So we'd both be free

[Original line:] Wear a necklace of rope

[Line modified for effect:] Wear a necklace of hope

Side by side with me

―"The Hanging Tree" Lyrics (Jennifer Lawrence with James Newton Howard from The Hunger Games: Mockingjay, Part 1 Movie)

MOVIES

· “Happy Hunger Games! And may the odds be ever in your favour.” ― Suzanne Collins, The Hunger Games

STUDIO GHIBLI MOVIES

· "Sometimes You Have To Fight For The Things That Are Worth Fighting For.” - The Secret World Of Arrietty (2010)

· “They Say That The Best Blaze Burns Brightest When Circumstances Are At Their Worst.” - Howls Moving Castle (2004)

· "Always Believe In Yourself. Do This And No Matter Where You Are, You Will Have Nothing To Fear.” - The Cat Returns (2002)

· "It Doesn’t Really Matter What Color Your Dress Is. What Matters Is The Heart Inside.” - Kiki's Delivery Service (1989)

· "Everybody, Try Laughing. Then Whatever Scares You Will Go Away!” - My Neighbor Totoro (1988)

· "Life Is Suffering. It Is Hard. The World Is Cursed. But Still, You Find Reasons To Keep On Living.” - Princess Mononoke (1997)

· "Once You've Met Someone, You Never Really Forget Them." - Spirited Away (2001)

· “It’s Funny How You Wake Up Each Day And Never Really Know If It’ll Be One That Will Change Your Life Forever.” - The Secret World Of Arrietty (2010)

· "Deny Death, And You Deny Life." - Tales From Earthsea (2006)

· "You Should Never Judge Others By Their Looks." — Ponyo on the Cliff by the Sea (2008)

· "But If His Love Isn't Pure, She'll Turn Into Sea Foam." "That Is Where We All Originate, My Darling." — Ponyo on the Cliff by the Sea (2008)

· “I’ll always love Ponyo. Whether she’s a fish, a human, or something in-between.” — Ponyo on the Cliff by the Sea (2008)

FAMOUS PRACTICIONERS QUOTES

· “The Designer is the artist of today.” Bruno Munari

· “It’s kind of fun to do the impossible.” Walt Disney

· “One person’s craziness is another person’s reality.” Tim Burton

· “Do everything by hand even when using the computer.” Hayao Miyazaki

· "Humans have both the urge to create and destroy." Hayao Miyazaki

· “You must see with eyes unclouded by hate. See the good in that which is evil, and the evil in that which is good. Pledge yourself to neither side, but vow instead to preserve the balance that exists between the two.” Hayao Miyazaki

· “Fantasy, Creativity, Invention think. Imagination sees.” Bruno Munari

TV SERIES (GAME OF THRONES)

“Are you a sheep? No. You're a dragon. Be a dragon.” ― Lady Olenna from Game of Thrones

“Winter is coming.” ― House Stark Motto from Game of Thrones

“Hold the door.” ― Hodor from Game of Thrones

“Chaos isn’t a pit. Chaos is a ladder.” ― Lord Baelish from Game of Thrones

“What do we say to the God of Death? Not Today!” ― Syrio Forel from Game of Thrones

“Valar Morghulis (All men must die). Valar Dohaeris (All men must serve)” ― from Game of Thrones

“When you play the game of thrones, you win or you die.” ― Cersei Lannister from Game of Thrones

“The lone wolf dies, but the pack survives.” ― from Game of Thrones

RONDOM (BOOKS)

You cross your arms. “Look, Joe. She’s alone. She’s scared. And she’s my friend.” ― from You (Chapter 19, pg. 175) by Caroline Kepnes

The Three Lord laughed. “You may ask anything you wish, little one. If it weren’t for you, we would be not here”. ― from Mistress of All Evil (Chapter 18 pg. 143) by Serena Valentino

The room had a central staircase with two set of stairs that both led to a second-story landing. ― from Let It Go, A Frozen Twisted Tale (Chapter 19 pg. 181) by Jen Calonita

The thing about the front bench was that it meant I had a good view. ― from How to Stop Time (Chapter London, 1599 pg. 157) by Matt Haig

Against this backdrop, once, or twice, or five times a year, somewhere in the world, there would be a recruitment. ― from Red Sparrow (Chapter 22 pg. 313) by Jason Matthews

You can’t blend in when you were born to stand out. ― from Wonder (Front Cover) by R. J. Palacio

My name is August. I won’t describe what I look like. Whatever you’re thinking, it’s probably worse. ― from Wonder (Back Cover) by R. J. Palacio

I am as harmless as a little child, but I don’t like to be dictated to. ― from Heart of Darkness (Chapter 2 pg. 60) by Joseph Conrad

Wendy: You are the littlest, and a cradle is such a nice homely thing to have about a house. ― from Peter Pan (Act IV pg. 134) by James Barrie

I was born and I have lived in a land of giants; giants have dragged me by the wrists since I was born out of my mother – the giants circumstances ―from The Strange Case of Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde (Introduction XXXIX) by R. L. Stevenson

BOOKS REVIEWS

“Has the power to move hearts and change minds” ― Guardian about Wonder by R. J. Palacio (Back cover)

“Outlandish… Heart-warming… Perceptive” ― Daily Telegraph about How to Stop Time by Matt Haig (Back Cover)

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harrylee94 · 3 years

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Log Entry XXXXXX - Chapter 7

Summary: A new space station, complete with the most high spec and up to date technology there is to offer, has been set up at the edge of the known universe, a new way point for explorers to keep in contact with the rest of the human race. It has been carefully designed by the best scientists and engineers Earth could offer, and now 7 brave souls are being sent out to ensure everything works perfectly.

However, when Logan wakes from cryosleep from the journey, he is informed that several things are now in need of repair, though everything had been in perfect working condition when the station had been reconstructed before he and his crew had arrived. They will have to solve the problems they’ve been left with before the station is up and running, and yet Logan can’t help but feel he’s done this before…

Relationships: Intrulogical (Remus/Logan)

Warnings: Blood, Gore, Parasites, Remus having an overactive imagination, It’s an Among Us crossover so there will be bad stuff afoot.

A/N: It’s been a while, but I hope you enjoy the update!

For those of you who don’t know, this story is based off of a comic by @fangirltothefullest which I HIGHLY recommend you check them out on the link above! Their art is AMAZING.

Note to everyone before we begin; there will be graphic descriptions of gore, dismemberment, possibly torture, and any other awful things that come with the territory of writing a story in an Among Us universe. (No gore in this chapter though!)

Link to; Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6

To read it on AO3 please click here.

Chapter 7: Day 1

Day 1

As Remus was dragged into the waking world, he realised his body felt weird. Not the good kind of weird either -- the kind where you had a deep ache inside you and your skin tingled with the aftermath of gripping fingers and biting teeth -- but an annoying one. It was like he'd been put in a tumble dryer and built up too much static because of all the jumpers, or he'd been squashed under a giant butt (and not the juicy kind) and every part of him had fallen asleep.

It was weird.

He rolled over, trying to find someone to comfort him, but he hit something hard and, without looking or thinking about it, he climbed over it.

He hit the cold floor with no warning, the meat of his arm and leg having taken most of the impact, along with his elbow and knee, and he groaned in pain and annoyance. He loved bruises, how they blossomed into great puddles of browns and purples and greens and blues and yellows under the skin, but he didn't like the cold of the floor. In revenge he spread his body out over it to heat it up as he blinked at the growing brightness. What was he doing again?

"Are you alright?"

Logan! Of course, this was the shuttle to the Sanders Station, and he’d swapped with Virgil so he could be with his boy-toy! How could he have forgotten? He groaned in response and rolled over, pulling himself towards the other cryotube in the room, his muscles feeling tender and uncooperative. When he reached the giant metal dildo he pulled himself up until his nose poked over the edge of the tube.

Logan was lying in reprise, his eyes closed, like a corpse at a wake, but after a few moments of staring at his love Remus could see the lines of tension between his eyes, a stiffness to the set of his shoulders, and the hard set to his jaw.

“Bad dream, Ana-Logie?” he asked, reaching out to brush the hair from the man’s brow.

“You could say that,” his nerdy Wolverine said with a sigh as he leaned into his fingers, opening his eyes. The tension was still there, but he smiled up at Remus with a sad yet fond look. “It’s all a bit of a nightmare.”

It took him a few moments to realise that Logan hadn’t been shocked at all by the little switcheroo, but he pushed the thought away. For now.

Remus frowned, wondering why his boyfriend sounded like he’d just sat through one of Roman’s boring movie marathons, only to find out there was another love story lined up, but worse. “Do you want to talk about it?”

Logan shook his head, still smiling. “I just… need to find the right words. Maybe over breakfast.”

Remus’s brow furrowed even more, knowing Logan was lying, but nodded as he continued to stroke his fingers through their hair. “Alright then. I’ll be here if you need me.”

“I know you will.” Why did that sound so sad? Logan reached up and held Remus’s cheek, running his thumb over the bone under his eye. “Give me a bit and I’ll join you for breakfast.”

Remus hummed and lay back down on the ground, staring up at the ceiling. He tried to find cracks, lines that were silent promises of doom and distraction, but there was nothing. He huffed and pushed himself up to the edge of the giant dildo and looked down on his whale penis with a pout.

"I didn't get my-" he began, only to get cut off as Logan lunged from his spot to kiss him greedily. Not one to look at the mould and puss in a gift horse's mouth, Remus reciprocated in kind, holding Logan's cheek even as they pulled back, gasping for air. "Wow."

Logan smirked in a way that made Remus’s heart feel like it was going to disintegrate into ashes inside his chest. “I missed you.”

“Yeah,” Remus said, staring at Logan for a few more moments before he pulled himself up and over the edge and onto Logan, who had started laughing, probably because Remus was kissing every inch of skin he could find and he had said that his furry nose fiend made him ticklish.

There was soon a lot more skin for him to tickle, and Remus was only too happy to show Logan just how much he’d missed him in return.

When they headed to the small seating area some time later (Remus didn’t really know how long they had been, nor did he really care, he just knew that he was feeling the good kind of weird now, and his body ached deliciously) after a quick stint in the refresher, Remus headed straight to the screen in the wall to prepare breakfast.

Logie-Bogie was still acting a bit off, so perhaps a trip down memory lane would help. The meal from their first date sounded like a good idea. He typed in the order for pesto pasta and hummed a little bit of the Jekyll and Hyde musical, wiggling a little to the silent beat as he imagined the psychotic monster wandering the streets for his next victim.

“Alive,” Logan said, bringing Remus’s tune to a quiet halt, “and then you’ll move on to Bring On the Men. You’ll give me a bowl of pesto pasta--” The machine in the wall dinged and a steaming bowl slipped out from the slot. “--and call me your Emma and Lucy both before spinning me in your arms and kissing me as you suggest I take you back to bed for a little longer.”

Remus ignored the pasta and sat at Logan’s feet, taking his hands in his as his mind reeled. That was exactly what he was going to do. Probably. He didn’t know for sure, but he knew he would have sung Bring On the Men, and it did sound like something he would do. Was Logan a mind reader now? Could he see into the future? Did that mean his brain would end up overloading and exploding and end up leaking out of his nose and ears?

Logan smiled at him. His eyes were sad. “Then, after I tell you this, we’ll meet the others, Virgil will be having a panic attack if we’re later than seven on the dot, we’ll make a plan of action, and then we will enter the Station. Three hours later, two of us will have fatal encounters with the parasitic aliens that are waiting for us. Over the next few hours, be it through the lack of oxygen, from a reactor meltdown, our own paranoia, or being murdered by imposters in the shape of our friends and family, we’ll all be dead.” He chuckled, the laugh dead and limp in the air, and almost desperate. “What’s worse is that I don’t even remember how many times it’s happened. I tried to keep track but… I don’t even know why I’m trying anymore. I can never save you. I can’t stop the loop. You… You never remember. I…”

Remus climbed up onto his partner’s lap and held him close, waiting for him to cry but instead finding his chest dry. Logan was just blank, staring at nothing. “Lo…”

“I’m all alone,” the man whispered. “You’re all here, but I’m so alone. I think I’m going insane. I have lived this day over and over on a constant loop with almost no reprieve, I have seen your death so much that I’m almost numb to it. I don’t want to feel nothing when I look at you. I don’t want to shut off from this, but if I don’t, then I’m going to break... I just want it to end.”

“Oh my bleeding heart,” Remus murmured, rocking them both back and forth as he imagined Logan snapping, his brilliant mind shattering into a thousand pieces. Would it leave behind a shell; a husk of what had once been? Would it be a blank face, like the one he was holding to his chest, a robot still working but empty of feeling? Would Logan go in the other direction and feel too much; would he be overwhelmed by everything? That would lead to that shell-like state, but it could also mean acting irrationally, and possibly dangerously. He didn’t know enough about mental health to make any real guesses, but if any of those were to happen… He held Logan a little tighter to his chest. “What do you want me to do?”

Logan let out a stunted laugh, but there was a small smile on his face now. “Hold me. Just for a little bit longer.”

“I’d hold you ‘til the end of eternity if you asked me,” Remus said, kissing Logan on his temple.

“I know you would,” Logan said with a sigh, finally wrapping his arms around Remus’s back.

For a while they just sat there, holding each other, Remus focusing on the steady breaths of his beloved and swatting away thoughts of death and carnage and broken minds as much as he could in the silence. He started humming again after a while, not thinking about the tune until Logan chuckled, where he realised he’d continued with his rendition of Alive and moved onto Bring On the Men, just as Logan had said he would.

“Sorry,” Remus muttered, sure that the tunes weren’t helping.

“It’s alright,” Logan replied, and he snuggled into Remus’s chest a little more. “It’s nice.”

“It is?”

“Mmm.”

“Good,” Remus said, brushing at Logan’s hair.

Logan leaned into the touch and Remus continued to hum, but he stopped once he reached the end of the song.

“... Why do you always believe me?”

Remus pulled back a little. “Why do I always believe you?”

Logan nodded, meeting his eye. “It’s a ridiculous thing, what I’m saying. Impossible by any logical count, and still you take me by my word. The first time I explained myself you tested me, but now…”

Remus smiled softly. “Because it’s impossible, and ridiculous, and you told me about it like you were stating the facts that you found in one of your algorithms or through one of your experiments. I believe you because I know you would never lie to me.”

Somehow, this brought on the tears, and Remus softly wiped at the trail they left on Logan’s cheeks. “But I have lied to you!”

“Was it during the loop?” Remus asked. “Was it to try and protect me from being killed by a face hugger?”

Logan sniffed. “They’re more like the creature from The Thing.”

“Was it to protect me from being killed by the Thing then?”

“... Yes.”

“Then I forgive you.”

Logie-Bogie’s face crumpled and he pressed it to Remus’s shoulder, where he rubbed at his back in some hopeless attempt at comfort.

“... You would also never lie about something like this, so there’s that too.”

Logan let out a wet laugh. “I love you.”

“I love you too, my snotty love.”

They sat like that, comforting each other, for perhaps a bit too long, though Remus would have stayed there indefinitely to keep Logan happy if he had to; by the time Logan had pushed him through the rest of their morning, eating the pesto pasta despite it having gone a little cold, it had gone seven, and Emo was recovering from a panic attack with help from Prince Perfect and Daddy-kins. It was all exactly as Logan had said it would be, and when each of them headed off to where they had each decided they would be best needed with all the work they had ahead of them, Logan continued to explain the situation in a little more detail.

“You’re saying that there are videos from past loops?” Remus asked, pulling his tablet out as Logan made quick work of the Oxygen filter.

“Yes,” the scientist replied, “but, for some reason, you can only access them on the screen in Communications. There are some text files that you can access though, once you’ve downloaded them from the Station.”

Remus hummed and swiped through the screen a bit to connect before setting the tablet aside as the little man walked from one end of the screen to the other carrying digital files like a fae creature carrying a baby away from its crib in the middle of the night. “And we still have a few hours until anything really happens.”

“That’s correct,” Logan said, slotting the first of the filter boards back in before pulling out the second. “The air is breathable by the way, though I suggest you keep hold of your helmet in case the creatures decide to turn off the lights again.”

“So lights, oxygen and reactor,” Remus said with a nod, trying to remember exactly how long it took for a body to deteriorate and decompose when it was exposed to radiation. However long it took, he was sure it would be painful, or at the very least disgusting, considering it probably involved burst blood vessels and the vomiting and so forth. Very messy.

“And doors.”

“Doors?” What did doors have to do with anything?

“They can close doors too. And travel through the vents.”

“Oh.” So they could trap you in a room, isolate you, turn off the lights, and murder you while everyone else thought they were in another room. He chuckled, though there was no humour in it; how could there be when it was his Logan who was living through it. “It’s a real life horror movie.”

Logan hummed in agreement as he continued to clean the filter. Remus watched him for a few moments more before sliding on his butt across the floor and hugging him from behind. Logan immediately relaxed into him, though their helmets made the whole process extremely awkward.

“Is there anything I can do to help?”

“I wish there was,” Logan said, his voice quiet, defeated. “I haven’t been able to think of anything that could prevent the death of at least two of our crew. Even when we have ejected them into space with five of us still alive and well I have awoken to the start of the day. My efforts result in nothing but disappointment.”

"Maybe you have to keep everyone alive," Remus suggested, watching as Logan slotted the filter back in place.

"It's something I've considered," the scientist admitted, "but I don't see how it would change anything. Besides, no matter what I try I can never catch the parasites before they find their hosts."

Remus hummed, looking at the tablet to check its progress before reaching up to remove his helmet; just a minute more until he could see what Logan had recorded. He breathed in the air, which tasted stale, like bread that had been out for too long, or a freshly dusted room but the cleaner had died before they could open a window so it was still all just sitting there. He gave Logan another squeeze.

“How often do you take breaks?” he asked, wondering what his booger buddy would look like if his body could reflect what he’d been through. Would there be bags under his eyes? Would he be pale? Would he have lost weight, hair, strength? How many scars would he have? What would a body look like if it had been torn in two and stitched back together again?

“You tend to make sure I get some sleep when I need it,” Logan replied, and Remus could hear the smirk in his voice. “You always know. I don’t know how you do it.”

Remus chuckled. “I know you too well.”

“You really do.”

Smiling, Remus rested his head against Logan’s helmet for a moment before pulling away. “So, are we going to be doing any rescuing? Any daring attempts at fighting off the hordes of hell?”

“Not this time,” Logan said with a sigh, resting the filter in his lap. “I’m tired, Remus. I don’t think I could handle anything like that. I can’t...” His voice faded and his head drooped down. He looked defeated.

“Can’t what?”

“... I can’t watch you die again.”

That… was a good reason. “I’ll stay with you then. For now at least.”

Logan hummed and sent him a smile. “You can read my notes.”

“Yeah.” He looked at the tablet, which had finished downloading all the files. There were over a thousand of them. “I might skip a few.”

“I don’t blame you.”

Remus all but cackled and opened the first document.

An hour later he was almost in tears, the content of the files more painful and horrifying than he could ever have thought. He felt the way Logan had been pulling away with each entry, fading from the world as his hope was taken over by despair, like a growing shadow reaching out and blanketing him with its slick and sticky fingers, an oil spill too thick to escape. He saw how exhausted he was from the phrasing of his words, the loss of formality and scientific data, turning this into more of a journal rather than a log book.

“How could you ever think that this is your fault?”

Logan looked up from his wiring with a puzzled expression. “What?”

“Your last entry…” He held out the tablet for him to see. His sexy nerd didn’t even look, he just sighed and turned away.

“What else am I supposed to think?”

“I don’t know!” Remus exclaimed, waving his arms around and almost breaking the tablet against the wall. “That some weird black hole freak of nature just randomly did this, or maybe some eldritch horror Old One decided to have some fun just to mess with you, or that we got caught in some weird Christmas magic!”

“It’s October.”

“Halloween magic then! The spirits of the damned followed us out here and found some weird space creatures to haunt us with!”

Logan sighed and gave him a fond look, but somehow his eyes looked like deep black pits of despair. Remus dropped the tablet, ignoring the way it clattered to the floor, and removed Logan’s helmet to hold his face.

“This isn’t your fault.”

“I wish I could believe you.”

With those words, it was like every spec of joy inside him had been sucked out of him, and now his body was filled with holes like swiss cheese. He was sure that if he looked down he would find blood leaking out into spots all over his suit, and still he would have been more full than what he could see of the eyes of his heart.

“Lo...” he started, rubbing his gloved thumb over a smooth cheek, wishing he could be touching him in truth, but then the moment was interrupted by a blaring alarm.

Logan looked slowly up at the ceiling. “A meeting’s been called.”

“Shit,” Remus said, his eyes also drawn skyward (or ceiling-ward, since there was no real atmosphere, just what the Station’s system along with a nearby giant planet had provided, which made him wonder if the Imposters had ever had the thought to turn off the gravity enhancers, since that would have made travelling through the Station more difficult). “What happened?”

“Janus found Orange,” Logan replied, and he pulled himself to his feet, pulling his helmet up with him. “He’ll be dead in Storage.”

“Shit,” Remus said again, thinking of the boxes and fuel tank they had passed and imagined them splattered with wet red streaks, or a pool beneath a pile of limbs and body parts. He gathered his own helmet and tablet and scrambled after his partner, who was already heading out the door. “It’ll be Roman and Virgil again then.”

“Yes,” Logan agreed.

“What do we do?”

Logan sighed. Again. “There’s nothing we can do.”

Remus made to argue, but Patton had caught up with them and he was forced to keep himself in check, though it was like holding back a tsunami with a bucket, and the town was already flooded and filled with bloated corpses. Patton was curious about what the ‘fuss was all about’, of course, and while Remus did say that someone had died, the peppy man took it as a joke and waved him off. That is, he did until the meeting.

Remus had seen a corpse or two before. Well, he’d seen more than just two, and even made a few thanks to his time in the military (and if he had a dollar for every person who didn’t believe him he would have been able to fund his medical training instead of having to sign up -- he’d be a millionaire for every look he got about the fact that he was a certified surgeon), but it was never easy. Sure, he liked to pretend everything was alright, being nonchalant and his usual brand of unsettling, but that body had once been alive and breathing, and now all it was doing was shitting itself and starting to decompose. It didn’t help that this was a friend rather than a nameless nobody.

They put Orange in one of the cryo pods, freezing him up like a chicken ready to be put in a microwave, though from the way Roman and Virgil were acting, there wouldn’t be a later.

Had he not known, had he been focused solely on the death they had been forced to face, he would not have seen the way Virgil was decidedly not having a panic attack, far too calm for the way his anxiety would play up, and Roman swept all emotions under the rug after a minute or two, after everyone had become more occupied with other things. Well, after Janus and Patton became more occupied, that is.

Logan was almost listless, watching the proceedings blankly, a little pale, but otherwise drifting into a state of ghoulishness that made Remus wonder if he was going to turn around and eat one of them (but then he remembered that the ones who were likely to eat him had already killed someone, and they weren’t Logan). That left Remus to watch the pair like a hawk.

There was no other outward sign that they had changed at all, though the personality shift would have been enough in ordinary circumstances. Subtlety wasn’t exactly his strong suit though, and he knew that the Roman Imposter had taken note. It was obvious in the way it made his brother’s body stiffen, and the twitch of those once familiar fingers.

“Shouldn’t we sti-stick together?” Patton was saying, his voice wobbling as he kept close to the Virgil Imposter’s side (who was taking advantage of the attention by keeping a hold on his arm, ready to drag him off into a dark corner and tear him to pieces no doubt).

“What if it’s one of us?” Jany asked, looking between each of them with suspicion, which made Remus love his friend just a little more. He’d always been a suspicious asshole, but now it was working overtime, and with good reason.

“How could it be?” Patton asked with a nervous laugh. “We’re all friends! We’ve known each other for years!”

“And yet Orange is still dead.”

Patton gulped and shrunk in on himself.

Janus sighed, a look of guilt passing over him, but it was quickly squashed. “Maybe we don’t know each other as well as we thought.”

“That, or we’ve got some imposters among us,” Remus said, glaring in accusation at the thing wearing his brother as a meat suit. It frowned back at him, but he saw the flash of surprise.

“That’s ridiculous,” the Roman-suit scoffed.

“Is it?” Remus asked.

“Yes!”

“Why don’t we just… find out if there’s anyone else here first?” fake-Virgil suggested. “There’s a way to do that, right?”

“Only in the terms of being able to see where each of the active suits are in the Station,” Logan replied, and Remus stepped closer to his side when he realised how lifeless he sounded compared to everyone else. How broken. How suspicious.

Janus narrowed his eyes at the both of them, but turned back to the conversation. “That’s so useful.”

“Is there no other way to check?” Patton asked.

“We could look,” Roman-suit said.

Remus snorted, hoping his boogers would shoot from his nose and hit the Roman-suit. Maybe they’d be like a caustic acid to them and burn through their skin and it would scream and die in agony. “They could also move and stalk us.”

Patton hugged himself, looking daunted. “Then… Then…”

“What if we fix everything?” fake-Virgil asked. “Would that help?”

Logan sighed, and Remus knew from that expression that they’d already had this conversation before. “It’s possible, though unlikely.”

“Possible’s better than nothing.”

“We should do that then,” Roman-suit said with a decisive nod, and Remus almost scowled at him, but just barely held himself back.

“Split up?” he said instead, face twisting in disgust instead which was almost as good as a scowl, but not quite as good since he was regularly disgusted by his brother.

“The sooner we get things done, the sooner it’ll be over,” Roman-suit said (and he really needed to think of a better name than ‘Roman-suit’).

“You’re acting like you’ve never watched a horror movie! And I know you have because I made you sit through one until you ran off screaming like a baby,” Remus said, pointing an accusing finger at Roman-suit.

“Well what else would you suggest?!”

“Not this!”

“Boys!”

Remus blinked in surprise as he and the Roman-thing turned to look at Patton, who was looking between them in exasperation. Wow, little pappy Patton had some lungs! How long could he hold his breath for?

The man in cyan blue sighed and looked between them, then at Logan, Janus and not-Virgil in turn. “We should vote on it.”

Janus snorted but gave a nod. “It’s an even number…”

“Doesn’t matter,” Logan said and his flat tone had Remus back at his side in a second. “No matter what we choose it’ll be wrong.”

“Logan-” Patton started, but Remus touched his beloved’s cheek and shook his head.

“It could be different this time.”

“This time?” he heard fake-Virgil ask behind him, but all he could focus on were the voids of Logan’s eyes, where even the despair was beginning to fade.

“You always say that.”

Remus wanted something to say to that, some way to bring life back to those dying eyes, to fan the flames of passion that had once thrived there, but even had he been able to think of something he was given no chance to.

His head came close to making contact with the floor as the surprise of Logan’s push almost kept him from reacting, but he managed to catch himself with his elbows. But then came the gasp, and the horrifyingly familiar sound of someone choking on blood.

He knew who it was -- how could he not -- and for a brief moment he let grief consume him, chewing precious pieces of him he had never let anyone see into chum and feeding it to the vicious beasts of rage that flooded the spaces that were left. He didn’t need to look to know, but he did anyway.

Logan had been pierced by several sharpened tentacle-like appendages, the fleshy weapons leaving a shower of blood scattered across the wall behind the man they had so brutally murdered as the creature they had come from sneered at Remus. Logan, the man of his dreams, his bleeding heart, wheezed. Remus could see that his lungs were likely shredded, his liver punctured, intestines ready to spill out of the hole that would be left behind… No, he had to stop looking at that now. Logan was dead, even if he still breathed. There were others who needed help.

“Remus…” the scientist choked, and that was all the additional motivation he needed.

He all but pounced from the floor, dashing past the Roman-suit that was pinning his better half to the wall and tackled Patton, hefting him over his shoulder as fake-Virgil’s body split in two with a wet tearing noise, revealing rows upon rows of teeth.

“Janus!” he cried, and the man in yellow shook himself from his stupor and fled in the opposite direction. Remus hoped that he would be able to survive long enough for them to meet again, but he had other things to worry about; like the horror of a mouth that was reaching out to take a bite of him and the stiff body in his arms.

Logan choked again, the gasps his flooded longs made tempting Remus turn around, but he didn’t. He couldn’t spare time for the dying, no matter who they were.

“Vir-Virgil?” Patton stuttered from his shoulder, even as Remus ran from the scene, trying to remember the rooms without vents.

An inhuman scream of rage followed them, winding through the corridors as he headed for the Oxygen room and dropped Patton unceremoniously on the ground. He could hear the imposters gaining ground on them, and he could only hope that Janus got somewhere safe before he pulled out his tablet. The screen was almost severely damaged, but he somehow managed to get the doors closed, and not a moment too soon.

The entire room shuddered, equipment and all, as one of the somethings collided with the door, and Remus took an instinctive step back, spreading his arms out in a futile attempt to protect Patton.

“Can you deadbolt the door, Pops?” he asked, gaze never leaving the door which was likely moments away from being rent asunder.

“What?” came the quiet, fearful voice of their navigator. “I… I think so.”

“Then do it,” Remus commanded, eyes remaining on the door.

“O-okay.”

Remus tensed further when the room shook again with another hit, but he exhaled in relief when he heard Patton tap away at his tablet. It would be useless in the end, he knew, but even a little distraction would prevent complete panic, and he couldn’t have that.

And then the banging stopped.

Remus blinked in surprise, but he wouldn’t be fooled; he’d seen enough horror movies to keep himself from falling for this trick.

“Oh brother mine.”

Remus growled. “Whatever you are, you’re not my brother.”

Roman-suit chuckled through the door. “Why don’t you come out here, Dukey--”

“You don’t get to use that name!”

There was a pause, and then the room flashed red as an alarm blared.

“Dukey,” the imposter cooed. “It’s time to come out now.”

“That’s the reactor,” Patton said, tears evident in his voice.

“Shit,” Remus muttered, eyes flying everywhere to try to find an out, and the imposter laughed.

“Re-Remus?” Patton said, and all Remus could do was stare at him as all the hope drained from him. Patton crumpled a moment later and started sobbing.

Doing the only thing he could think of, Remus knelt done next to him and cradled him in his arms. As the voice counted down, he tried to pretend that it was Logan in his arms, but even the burn of the oxygen tanks exploding through him couldn’t make the lie anymore believable.

_______________________________

Day 2

Remus shot up with a gasp, clutching at the shirt section of his latex jumpsuit as his fingers instinctively clutched at the edge of… his cryopod? He blinked, looked from side to side and rubbed at his eyes. He was in the cryochamber, in the shuttle. He was in the giant dildo freezer, he was alive, and…

In his rush to look over to his right he made himself dizzy and, before he knew it, he’d fallen out of his coffin with a breathless ‘oof’.

“... You okay?”

Remus’s breath caught in his throat, threatening to choke him, but he pulled himself closer to the second pod with a groan and pulled himself up.

Logan looked up at him, slightly amused but so very exhausted, and very much alive.

#fanfiction #sanders sides #sanders side fic #sanders sides among us au #among us #remus sanders #logan sanders #roman sanders #virgil sanders #janus sanders #patton sanders #orange sanders #tw blood #tw gore #tw character death #time loop writing

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DM Private Chat - 11/30

Alastor and @hiss-and-vinegar talk about Sir Pent’s mental health.

And Alastor casually mentions that he’s been to therapy and just, fucking, doesn’t elaborate on this at all.

11/29/2020

hiss-and-vinegar

🐍 DON'T TELLJOKEsr

dontasktheradiodemon

🎶 Come again?

11/30/2020

hiss-and-vinegar

🐍 OH. I DON'T REMEMBER SENDING THAT.

dontasktheradiodemon

🎶 Are you feeling alright? Didn’t wake up disoriented with a bump on your head?

hiss-and-vinegar

🐍 NO, I WAS JUST EXHAUSTED!!

🐍 I THINK THAT RESPONSE I DON'T QUITE REMEMBER HAD SOMETHING TO DO WITH SOMETHING YOU SAID

dontasktheradiodemon

🎶 Oh? Remember what it was?

hiss-and-vinegar

🐍 YOU DOUBTING YOUR STANDING AS MY FRIEND!

🐍 I'VE NO INTEREST IN MAKING A DOPPELGANGER MY BEST FRIEND, THAT IS TOO CLOSE FOR COMFORT.

dontasktheradiodemon

🎶 Oh! Fine, fine, no more jokes like that.

hiss-and-vinegar

🐍 AT LEAST PUT IN SOME KIND OF HINT TO ME THAT YOU ARE JOKING

🐍 LIKE YOUR OWWO FACE SOMEWHERE

dontasktheradiodemon

🎶 Right! No tone online, is there.

🎶 Honestly, it wasn’t so much a joke as a slight hyperbole! I expect you’ll be making good friends with him, won’t you? Who are you going to get along better with than yourself, after all! So much in common!

hiss-and-vinegar

🐍 COMMONALITIES MIGHT NOT ALWAYS BE SO GOOD FOR FRIENDSHIPS.

dontasktheradiodemon

🎶 No? I've always gotten along great with my duplicates! The only problems are when we don't have enough in common.

🎶 I'm quite alike with all my friends!

hiss-and-vinegar

🐍 I IMAGINE IT COMES NATURALLY TO YOU! I FIND IT A STRESSFUL ENDEAVOR. COMPETITION, BUT I TRY.

dontasktheradiodemon

🎶 Why compete! You could exchange tips and tricks on now to conquer your respective Hells! Or split up research projects—one of you works on an engine while the other works on a gun, you'll be twice as destructive in half the time and you can still take credit for it because you would have come up with the exact same designs!

🎶 But I understand, the temptation to see whether you measure up to yourself, and if you're the better of the two how can you trust he won't be envious... All the same. I think you Should get along.

hiss-and-vinegar

🐍 THAT IS WHAT I AM HOPING FOR, AND I AM CERTAIN IT WILL GO THAT WAY. HE SEEMS OPEN TO NEW IDEAS, MORE THAN I HAD BEEN. I SUPPOSE I AM THANKFUL HE WASN'T LIKE /ME/.

11/30/2020

dontasktheradiodemon

🎶 How do you know he's not thinking the same thing about you? Give yourself a little credit, my friend!

hiss-and-vinegar

🐍 HA! IT IS THE SELF LOATHING.

🐍 HM, THAT JOKE DOESN'T HIT RIGHT OVER TEXT

dontasktheradiodemon

🎶 I don't think it'd hit very well in person, either.

hiss-and-vinegar

🐍 CAN'T ALL BE BANGERS.

dontasktheradiodemon

🎶 You're just about the most impressive person I know! I'm amazed all of Hell doesn't think so! But if anyone should think so—it should be you.

hiss-and-vinegar

🐍 I KNOW THAT I AM AMAZING AND INCREDIBLE, I KNOW THAT I DESERVE EVERYTHING I WANT, THAT THERE ISN'T ANYONE AS HARDWORKING AND DEDICATED AS I AM!!!

🐍 BUT THERE ARE DAYS THAT I'M SO TIRED.

🐍 AND THOUGHTS SLIP IN, EXHAUSTING THOUGHTS.

dontasktheradiodemon

🎶 On those days, I'll try to like you enough for the both of us, how's that sound? See if I can't cancel out some of the thoughts that have no business hanging around your head.

hiss-and-vinegar

🐍 HAHA, YOU SOUND LIKE VALERA, ALASTOR.

🐍 THANK YOU.

dontasktheradiodemon

🎶 Well, with the two of us on the cause, you should be fine!

hiss-and-vinegar

🐍 HA! YES, WELL, WE KNOW THAT THERAPY IN HELL CERTAINLY WON'T BE OF ANY AIDE.

dontasktheradiodemon

🎶 Very entertaining, though! Ask an alienist to explain their favorite fringe psychological theories and it sounds like reading Jekyll & Hyde, all this talk about subtle mental processes you can affect with clever little chemical potions.

🎶 Have you been looking into that? I doubt all of them were damned for being bad at therapy, some of them have to be down here for adultery or what have you.

hiss-and-vinegar

🐍 OH, I DO NOT DOUBT IT AT ALL. SLEEPING WITH THEIR PATIENTS, I'VE HEARD TALE AS WELL.

🐍 I WAS REMEMBERING SOMETHING VALERA SAID ABOUT MEDICINE AND THERAPY. I SUPPOSE I WONDERED ABOUT IT.

dontasktheradiodemon

🎶 I meant normal, non-therapy-related adultery, but that too!

🎶 I suppose it can't hurt, as long as you don't go to an absolute lunatic. Easy enough to figure out by asking around.

hiss-and-vinegar

🐍 I AM NOT CERTAIN ABOUT IT, OVERALL.

🐍 AFTER ALL, GOING TO SOMEONE LIKE THAT, TO WHAT... POUR MY GUTS OUT FOR THEM TO MOCK AND PICK APART? MMM. NO THANK YOU

dontasktheradiodemon

🎶 What, the profession in general?

🎶 Ah! You'd be surprised what you can get away with keeping secret! Most of them are either too dumb to figure it out or too smart to pry.

🎶 And you can always shoot someone who knows too much.

hiss-and-vinegar

🐍 HA!

🐍 STILL, WHAT TO EVEN SAY? "I REQUIRE MEDICINE THAT WILL KEEP ME GROUNDED TO AN ACCEPTABLE LEVEL OF SUFFERING IN /HELL./"

🐍 I PUT IT TO THE SAME STANDARDS AS REDEMPTION--A NICE THOUGHT, BUT HARDLY POSSIBLE TO OBTAIN

dontasktheradiodemon

🎶 Sure! Why not say that? I've been brewing potions for a century—and a potion's just a kind of medicine—and, surprise surprise, most of them keep working just fine in Hell.

hiss-and-vinegar

🐍 I RATHER WANT TO AVOID BEING LAUGHED OFF.

dontasktheradiodemon

🎶 More than likely, what you're going to get is some alienist eager to chuck pills at you until something sticks. I've even seen ones that just keep little samples of reefer and coke in their office to shove at clients to see if that'll fix their problems, but they'll recommend the more finely-tuned stuff, no problem.

🎶 Why, they wouldn't be trying to make a living treating ailments of the mind in Hell if they didn't expect customers to come in the door asking to suffer less!

hiss-and-vinegar

🐍 I SUPPOSE THAT'S TRUE.

dontasktheradiodemon

🎶 I visited an alienist for a bit in the early aughts—competent man. Pro-cannibalism and pro-murder. Classy fellow, too. I could hunt out his contact information if you want?

hiss-and-vinegar

🐍 AH.. PERHAPS?? I DON'T KNOW. I'M STILL NOT SURE.

🐍 I DO NOT ENJOY ASKING FOR HELP FROM HELL'S SINNERS

dontasktheradiodemon

🎶 I'd think of it less as "asking for help" and more as "demanding a service worker do their job on your behalf"!

🎶 But up to you. Offer's there if you want to try it out with someone who's already been vetted for competency.

hiss-and-vinegar

🐍 I GUESS I ALREADY TRUST ALCOHOL FLOODING THE CREVICES OF MY BRAIN TO HANDLE MOST OF MY PSYCHOSIS, PERHAPS IT ISN'T TOO ODD TO HOPE FOR SOME MEDICINE THAT IS MEANT FOR THE JOB.

dontasktheradiodemon

🎶 I'm given to understand that most modern medicines work by taking the narcotics people already use to some chemist's lab and extracting the particles that help from the bits that cause side-effects you don't want. So if you've already got something that helps, I bet you anything that someone out there has made a more refined version.

🎶 And I'm not just talking about a higher proof!

hiss-and-vinegar

🐍 MMM

🐍 I DON'T KNOW ABOUT "HELPS" HAHA! JUST NUMBS EVERYTHING, ABOUT.

dontasktheradiodemon

🎶 Well—maybe something more useful's been made anyway, who knows.

🎶 I'm going to ask a question, and if it's none of my damn business you can tell me so, I won't take offense.

🎶 But when you say you've got a "psychosis"—everyone I've met who says that means something different by it. What's it mean to you?

hiss-and-vinegar

🐍 WELL, UP UNTIL I'D DIED, I THOUGHT THAT MY BRAIN WAS CONTAMINATED WITH GHOSTS. AT LEAST, THAT'S WHAT I WOULD HAVE BEEN TOLD BY THE PHYSICIANS OF MY TIME. NOT ALL OF THEM, MIND YOU, BUT WE WERE ALL OFTEN BLAMED FOR OUR OWN MENTAL INSTABILITY.

🐍 BUT I DO KNOW THIS.

🐍 WHEN IT IS AT ITS WORSE, IT IS AS IF I CAN FEEL MY OWN BLOOD BECOME ACID IN MY VEINS, AND MY OWN SCREAMING IS FAR AWAY.

dontasktheradiodemon

🎶 Huh. Metaphorically or literally?

🎶 I can at least say it's no ghost. I dealt with plenty of ghosts and none of them ever did anything like that.

hiss-and-vinegar

🐍 I WANT TO SAY METAPHORICALLY, BUT I DON'T KNOW. POSSIBLY METAPHORICALLY.

🐍 ALL I KNOW IS I AM OVERCOME WITH THE INTENSE PULL TO CLAW AND TEAR AT MY OWN FLESH, FOR SOME KIND OF RELIEF.

🐍 YOU BETTER NOT LAUGH- THESE ARE EMBARRASSING THINGS TO ADMIT.

dontasktheradiodemon

🎶 My friend, I am absolutely not laughing.

hiss-and-vinegar

🐍 A GREAT SHAME OF AN INVENTOR, TO ADMIT THAT HE IS MAD INDEED. ANOTHER REASON FOR ALL OF HELL TO BRUSH ME OFF.

dontasktheradiodemon

🎶 What, haven't you heard of the "eccentric genius"? And to hear the picture shows tell it, most inventors are mad. I don't think it's anything to be ashamed of!

🎶 I know some curses that make one's veins feel like fire, but if you were hexed, you'd probably know by now. Never heard of a mental cause. But then that's not my field, I'm sure someone knows.

hiss-and-vinegar

🐍 PERHAPS IT IS JUST MY LOT IN HELL!

dontasktheradiodemon

🎶 If it started before you got to Hell? I doubt it!

🎶 I'm not claiming to be some kind of expert on acid blood, I'm just... well... Thinking out loud, I suppose.

hiss-and-vinegar

🐍 I UNDERSTAND. MY BLOOD DOESN'T FEEL LIKE ACID THE REST OF THE TIME.

🐍 JUST WHEN IT ALL GOES SIDEWAYS. AND EVERYONE BECOMES AN EVERYTHING.

🐍 AND I BARELY FEEL LIKE I'M HERE.

dontasktheradiodemon

🎶 Ahhh. So it doesn't just come on by itself, it's some sort of reaction to something.

hiss-and-vinegar

🐍 YES, APPARENTLY.

dontasktheradiodemon

🎶 Some kind of brain-storm, then. Huh. Well, I don't know if people were familiar with brain-storms in your time, but they were in mine, so it stands to reason someone's got to know more about them by now.

hiss-and-vinegar

🐍 A BRAIN STORM? WHAT A FUN LITTLE NAME! WOULD MAKE AN INTERESTING WEAPON.

dontasktheradiodemon

🎶 Hah, there's an idea! Go to a shrink, tell 'em you have brain-storms, wait'll he asks what they feel like, then say "Like this!" and shoot.

🎶 It probably wouldn't help. But it'd be funny!

hiss-and-vinegar

🐍 HAAAAAAA HA HA HAAAAAAA

🐍 I DO LOVE THAT!

hiss-and-vinegar

🐍 AH, THANK YOU ALASTOR. I DO NOT MAKE IT A HABIT TO CONFIDE LIKE THIS. MY MIND BECOMES PANICKED AT THE THOUGHT THAT I MAY HAVE SAID TOO MUCH, BUT THE FACT YOU DIDN'T LAUGH ME OFF MEANS A LOT.

dontasktheradiodemon

🎶 I'd never!

🎶 And you've done the same for me. Not brain-storms, per se, but other unhappy things knocking around in my head.

hiss-and-vinegar

🐍 NYA HA HA, SO WE ARE EVEN! (I AM WINKING)

🐍 ;3

dontasktheradiodemon

🎶 So we are! Very kind of you, I don't like being in someone else's debt for long!

🎶 UwwO

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