#sure if they saw these images they wouldnt think anything of it

[ppnuggiex]

Howdy! I saw requests were open, but if not then please do ignore this one!

It's kinda crack? But mostly angst to comfort, essentially something goes wrong in reader's alchemy class and they get hit by an extremely strong spell that makes it seem as if they're dead, but really they're just in a super deep sleep. So once the spell wears off, they wake up right in the middle of their own funeral cuz everyone thought they were dead. Gender neutral pronouns for the reader with riddle, kalim, malleus and floyd as the love interests! In headcanon format as well pretty please!

　　　　　　TWST x gn reader

　　　　『　riddle ,, kalim ,, malleus ,, floyd ,, gender neutral reader    』

　　-> reader gets hit w/ heavy deep sleep spell n characters think theyre dead

　　— fluff ,, sfw ,, crack ,, a bit of angst

　　— this ended up being a little more on the humorous side 😭

- kalim

| • hes so distraught ,, hands on his head as he freaks out and shakes you violently . jamil finds out and facepalms . mr crewel told him nothing was wrong ,, to just give you time but kalim couldnt .

| • he swore you had died ,, and because of that he done held a big fancy funeral . he done invited all the dorms and everything .

| • you woke up when he was in the middle of talking about how you were such a nice and loving partner ,, how he wished you didnt have to die this soon .

| • get this man a tissue bc he starts bawling when you whip that coffin open .

- riddle

| • hes a bit more calmer than kalim in this situation ,, taking care of you whilst you sleep . but he always felt like something was off .

| • that was until one day he went to check up on you ,, your skin was oddly cold and he couldnt feel your breathe or see your chest move when you did breathe .

| • he may or may not have panicked at that point ,, checking your pulse and not feeling anything .

| • riddle thought the spell done killed you then ,, after all you didnt have any sort of resistance to magic so it was a possibility .

| • cue him tending your funeral and trying his best not to start crying in front of all those people .

| • you were his partner ,, his life and joy and now youre gone . or so he thought until you threw that coffin door open and smacked the person speaking right in the face .

| • and standing up in the coffin and falling face first out .

- malleus

| • bro acted the same as kalim . he did not stop to think about checking your pulse or anything . his immediate reaction was that you died . and all the sudden it started to rain very hard .

| • he starts acting like a child who lost his mom ,, panicking and shaking your body as much as he could .

| • then he pulls out some shakespeare typa shit ,, going on about how woe is me ,, my beloved hath died ,, taking from his grip as your soul was dragged away from him .

| • he has a small funeral for you ,, ready to speak for you when a miracle happens .

| • you awaken !! malleus is so shocked he gets a little teary eyed ,, running over and making sure youre okay before getting all baby girl .

| • in the end you walk out carrying him bridal style whilst sebek is fretting over his image .

- floyd

| • he thought this was one of those pranks people do to their pets . where you record yourself pretending to be dead to see what your cat does or something .

| • so he kinda ,, kicked you a few times and is all like ,, wake up shrimpy this isnt funny .

| • then jade has to break the news of the possibility you mightve been struck too harshly by the potion and maybe youre just ,, yknow ,, passed on .

| • floyd refuses to believe it ,, you couldnt have left him . you wouldnt do that to him . you wouldnt abandon him like that .

| • as much as he hates to admit it ,, he definitely cried a bit that night . he shows up for the funeral ,, still in disbelief youre dead .

| • but boooyy is he whipped when you ended up being asleep . he doesnt care who’s there ,, he runs over and rips you out that coffin so fast .

| • blames you for worrying and leaving him ,, and makes you promise not to do something like that again .

#twisted wonderland x reader #twst x reader #twisted wonderland #🌊.octavinelle #floyd leech #floyd x reader #kalim x reader #kalim al asim #malleus x reader #malleus draconia #riddle x reader #riddle rosehearts #♥️.riddle #♥️.heartslabyul #⚜️.diasomnia #⚜️.malleus #☀️.scarabia #☀️.kalim #🌕.savanaclaw #🌕.jack #☁️.twst

[tonberry-yoda]

Headcanons for Kakyoin as a husband and father to his wife and children (with his son being the oldest) please?

oh my goodness yes! i love knocking out a good headcanon and lets be real, kakyoin would be such a good father! thank you so much for the request anon! i hope you have an awesome day and enjoy the headcanons!! <333

Kakyoin as a father headcanons

Pairing - Kakyoin x reader

Warnings - none!

Notes - (image below is not mine) when i saw this in my inbox i knew i needed to do it immediately! so thank you so much anon! this is super duper cute and i love doing characters as parents, idk why. like i dont want kids myself but writing these makes me so happy. thank you again and have an amazing day! enjoy!! <333

And don’t forget REQUESTS ARE OPEN!!! So, if you want to request any writing, don’t hesitate to ask. Please read my pinned post before requesting though. Have a good day/night and please stay hydrated!! <333

omg how is he so gorgeous??? like hello sir~

also may we hope and pray that if he is a father he doesnt feed the baby its own poop... anyway

i think he would be such a calm father

plus he knows how hard it is to be a mother, so he would want to help you in any way possible

like you had to carry the kids (if that's the route you went) so the least he could do is change a diaper

he would literally send you out of the room to help the babies and give you some time to just relax

he would make you breakfast in bed as well

like he knows how take care of a family

especially after dealing with the toddler group called the SDC

when he first heard that he was going to be a father, he definitely cried

not sobbed, but more just let some tears out already proud of his family

and when he heard that it was going to be a boy, he couldnt be more excited

he knew that right off the bat, he wanted to teach him how to be a proper and lovely human being

and when the baby was born he noticed that he had bright red hair just like him, but your eyes

he was already in love

as the baby grows, he would take him out a lot

like parks and fields are a must

then you told kakyoin that you were going to have another baby and he was through the roof

she was the cutest thing ever and completely reversed from her brother with your hair and his eyes

would treat his babies like his life depends on it

is a super fun dad tbh

tells fun stories about the SDC

and both were born with stands! he taught them that they were okay and normal for some so they wouldnt feel alone like he did when he was younger

would definitely bring the other SDC to visit them so they feel like a big happy family, plus you love having them around and Avdol is an amazing babysitter

keep them far away from joseph though. sure he's a great dad, but you never know when he's going to take them skydiving

they definitely have play dates with jolyne

uncle polnareff has lots of gossip and is just the wine aunt to your children

they would love to play with iggy

kakyoin would do anything for his family and loves all of you very much

#writing #my writing #fanfic #fanfiction #request #anon #thanks! #kakyoin #noriaki #noriaki kakyoin #kakyoin x reader #noriaki kakyoin x reader #SDC #stardust crusaders #jjba #jjba x reader #jjba part 3 #jojos bizarre adventure #jojos bizarre adventure x reader #headcanons #kakyoin headcanons

[simcardiac-arrested]

AKNDMN,S okay so

juts a fair warning this is a very long ramble so like. people reading this be careful you might be stuck here forever because you cant put read more in asks for some reason

I don't have any updated references for Six Silver Stars (the one who's very mad at one guy) so she won't. have any images.

She was created with the idea of mapping stars and planets and stuff so her puppet chamber was built outside of the can and made out of glass with her puppet arm attached to the roof of it. im sure this creates no issues at all whatsoever. anyways the main ancients that monitored her and talked to her did not like them. which im sure doesnt create any issues whatsoever. ive fallen in love with the idea of schools organising trips to visit the puppets of iterators so she made friends with this one kiddo who wasnt super social with the group. kid was often granted permission to visit her chamber and they'd often talk and just bond. kid was part of a fancy-ish family who was very devoted to the void. bring in Unnamed Iterator because i cannot think of a name

art and design not by me by a friend btw.

anyway they were made to bless people and prepare them for the void. like the people felt that they were ready and they pretty much just said 'yeah good luck' and gave them offerings and fancy robes and masks to hopefully make the void favour them slightly. Kids family went 'yeah lets all dip in the void and take our like. 15 year old kid with us this is so cool of us' which then left Stars pretty alone as her ancients often just. blocked communications for her because they were soo amazing(sarcasm) Stars immediately turned all blame onto the guy because its all she really had to blame. she didnt know the parents of the kid and she obviously wouldnt blame the kid so yeah. this guy was the blame.

this guy also worked very closely with Swirling Blossoms, Fading Fast

(again art and design not by me i saw this adopt and my brain went yesss) as they both had similar but different jobs. They made to be a god directly to the ancients, a place of worship, offerings and confessions. she was built with taboos SUPER SUPER SUPER enforced into her code like to an ungodly amount. also was given a lot of 'ancients need help you must help them they dont mean to do anything wrong ever they need help.' again i am sure that this didnt give them any issues surrounding themselves and their ancients at all. both them and unnamed guy communicated a lot and slowly started to date in secret which was Really Weighing on Blossoms because ''dont grow attached to anything thats a sin thats a no no ''

this continued to weigh in on her and like. a little while after the mass accession somehow messages between them got leaked. like not anything gross just typical couple stuff. not sure how this happened yet . but yeah, she was Very Stressed OUt About This despite like no once giving a shit. panic lead to her making dumb desicions and she ended the relationship and isolated herself. a lot 👍

so during this unnamed guy is like acticly trying to fix two relationships, one with someone they barely knew but felt very very bad for and one with their ex.

starts continued to do not very good and was exceedingly pissed at unnamed guy because before the mass ascension her communications were blocked and no one is able to break them or undo them. so like. they were sending scugs back and forth to Stars who was just like "Dude FUCK OFF you fucking killed my kid " and his ex was just sending them back with no response. theyre so fucking fucked over and a sopping beast and theyre not okay.

anyways theres more but this is also like. a brick post thats not very well organized so if youre still interested i might talk more about them in another ask

DIVORCE NUMER UNOOOOOOOOOO

#this is cool!!! luv all the interpersonal drama going on here #i'd love to hear more about blossoms tbh. she seems very mentally stable #long post #cramswering

[justimagineok]

2:30 series - the after | part 4

Summary: One too sure, the other not that much. One focused on the present, the other too stuck on the past and afraid of the future. Both of them in love with each other.

Warnings: angst, curse words

A/N: feedback is always appreciated! 🥰 feel free to reblog, comment or send me an ask at anytime 😊

~ practice room ~

"Jungkookie.", Hoseok called the golden maknae, patting his shoulder.

"Hm?", Jungkook grumbled, without opening his eyes. He got used to acting like that by now: distant, unfocused, sleep deprived. He couldn't sleep well ever since you broke up with him.

After his mom's visit, she manage to convince him to stay at Jin's place at least for a few days, but Jungkook only did that so his mother wouldnt worry so much about him. If that was even possible.

But despite sleeping in Jin's guest room, that looked like a king's bedroom, Jungkook couldn't have a good night of sleep at all. He had nightmares every night. Most of the nights, he woke up screaming your name, but not in despair. In anger. Like he was fighting with you so you wouldn't leave. But you always did. For the first nights, Jin used to get up and check up on him, but when it kept happening, he knew there was nothing he could do. He never saw Jungkook like that.

When he wasn't rehearsing, Jungkook dozed off. In every break he had, every tiny break between practices, meetings, schedules. Even ARMY started to tweet about Jungkook being more tired and distracted, blaming on Hybe for overworking him. But Hybe got nothing to do with that.

"Jungkookie". Hoseok tried again, sitting beside Jungkook, who was laid down on the practice room.

"Yeah, hyung."

"We talked to Bang PD...", Hoseok spoke with caution, choosing his words. "And we all think you need to rest better, man. You can go home or to one of the bedrooms here at Hybe's and have a good sleep. You really need it."

Jungkook didn't move or say anything in return.

"C'mon, JK. Stop that." ,the dance leader shook him lightly.

"STOP WHAT, HYUNG?!", Jungkook yelled so loud, it made Hoseok tremble. He sat down angrily, putting his shoes back with harsh moves. "We're not rehearsing, we're not singing or dancing right now, so why you keep bugging me? Huh?", he got up, staring his hyung who was surprised to say the least. "I know what I gotta do, hyung! Don't worry about me! Whatever shit I'm going through is my business and I won't let it get in the way of my performance as an idol, ok? Are you good with that?"

Hoseok got up too, and anyone watching the scene would think they were about to throw hands at each other.

"No, Jungkook. I'm not good with that. None of us are, because you're not okay, and we worry about you.", Hoseok looked at the members for confirmation and Jungkook saw them nodding. "And I say more: you say being the way you are isn't getting in the way of your work, but it is. Look at you man!", Hoseok pointed at the big mirror on the wall. Jungkook hasn't looked at himself for weeks. His hair was longer than he remembered, he lost weight and his eyes had huge bags under them and they were... purple? He could swear the bags under his eyes were purple. "You're exhausted, man! Overworked!"

Jungkook was too stunned with his image to respond.

"And when was the last time you ate something that wasn't skittles?" Jungkook turned to look at Hoseok who was holding his bag, open, full of empty packages of Skittles. "These things could give you diabetes, man!"

Jungkook had no words. When he became like that? Being without you really made him this miserable? He couldn't remember the last time he slept 8 hours. Or 5. Or 4.

He couldn't remember the last time he had a good meal. Even with the members, he always chose to drink and not eat anything. He didnt to boxing anymore or even gaming. What he did with his free time? He couldnt remeber.

“I can't imagine what it is like for you, Jungkookie.", Hoseok tried again. "And I know you don’t feel alright, but I need you to try and eat something, and to take better care of your health.”

"I'm fine, hyung", Jungkook lied, still examining his face on the mirror. Jin aproached him, squeezing his hand hard, making Jungkook yelp.

“YAH! You’re shaking, Jungkook!", Jin scolded him, making him look his hands. "This is really affecting you, man! At least take a nap. You need to stop.”

Jungkook pulled his hand away and grabbed his bag from Hoseok's hand with force. He was ready to leave, but Namjoon got right between him and the door.

"Go rest, Jungkook. This isn’t up for debate.", Namjoon stated finnaly. "Practice for you is over until further notice, your health is more important."

Jungkook didn't respond, deviating from the leader. He was ready to leave angrily, but suddenly his legs fail with him, making him get on his knees with full force. The members ran fast to him, but he just shugred, rejecting their help.

"Don’t touch me, I don’t need help." he grumbled, picking his bag from the ground. "I’m not a kid, guys. I don’t need you hovering over me",

"Kook.", Taehyung called him, when he was ready to leave. Hearing that nickname after weeks made him stop in his tracks. "You can talk to us. You know that."

And just like that, Jungkook eyes filled with tears. How he could explain? He couldn't understand himself.

"I- I can’t sleep... ", he confessed." I don’t like when it’s still and quiet, and I’m alone with my thoughts.", he looked at Namjoon, and he could swear his eyes were filled with tears aswell. "My body hurts all over, but I don't wanna stop. I can't. I can't sleep.", his voice falters, and he dries the tears that fall from his eyes. "Work is the only thing I have to keep my mind sane, hyungs. So please... don't take that from me too.", he pleaded, looking at Namjoon. "I can't lose anything right now."

Namjoon nooded.

"I'll go to my old place right now. See if I can sleep for a bit, okay? And I'll eat something not-skittled", he joked, making Hoseok give him a small smile. "Thank you for looking out for me. And forgive me for acting this way. I had so much to figure out, and now I feel like I have nothing, you know?", and then he looked at Taehyung. "I notice what you did there, Tae. Calling me that way", he furrowed his brows, trying not to cry, remembering your voice calling him by his favorite nickcname. "Please.", he breathed deeply. "Don't call me that again."

Taehyung nodded, ashamed of using that to call his attention. He knew how much loved when you call him that. It was the only way to make him stop.

Next

#2:30 #bts fake texts #bts fic #bts fake chat #bts fake chats #bts scenarios #bts #jungkook x yn #jk x you #jk x reader #jungkook x y/n #jungkook x you #jungkook x reader #jungkook x oc #jungkook angst #angst bts

[bridgyrose]

Ruby sighed as she squeezed the stress ball like she was asked to, keeping her arm stretched out to her side. A sharp pain ran through her head as a few memories started to come back, the chip on her forehead short circuiting for a moment before stabilizing and locking the memories away again. “Why arent I allowed to remember everything?” 

“Because we dont know what that’ll do to you in your current state,” the nurse replied as she took the stress ball from Ruby. “What do you remember right now?” 

“I… I thought I saw Penny fighting someone else.” Ruby winced once more as the sharp pain in her head came back as more memories started to flood into her mind. She swore she could feel metal wire wrapping around her arms and legs, tightening around her as her fingers locked up. Then, she felt her body relax as the nurse stuck a needle into her. 

“Just relax. You dont need to worry yourself about anything more than fighting grimm.” 

Ruby sighed and nodded, feeling the pain start to fade away as the image of the memory stayed burned into her mind. The rest of the details were still foggy, but she could clearly see Penny using her swords to fight someone, maybe another student, just before she felt the pain of the wires around her. She closed her eyes and took a few breaths to try to keep herself calm, listening to the beeping of the machines as she tried to push the memory out of her mind. Her ears picked up the soft clicking of her joints as she moved the fingers on her mechanical arm. 

Seconds turned into minutes as she relaxed herself, focusing her breathing to try to keep her body as calm as she could. Between freezing up at the grimm, the way Penny and Weiss acted around her, the way the nurses and the General seemed to avoid talking about what happened to her, she had to keep her focus on her task. She was nothing more than a weapon to be used to defeat grimm. A defender of Mantle, of Atlas. One of the few things that was keeping Mantle from being overrun by grimm. 

“R-Ruby?” 

Ruby opened her eyes as she heard Penny’s voice, her heart pounding in her chest as she gazed upon the android. A small smile slowly crept across her lips, though she wasnt entirely sure why she was this happy to see her, why her heart seemed to pound at the idea of Penny being close, all the emotions running through her feeling foreign. “Penny. I didnt know General Ironwood gave permission for me to have visitors.” 

“He… did not.” Penny quietly closed the door behind her and dimmed the windows so anyone passing by wouldnt see her with Ruby. “But I… I needed to see you again. To be close.” 

“Because I’m your friend, right?” 

“Yes, my… friend.” 

Ruby sighed when she heard the pause between Penny’s words, moving over on her bed to give Penny a bit of room to sit next to her. “If we’re friends, can you answer something for me?” 

Penny sat down next to Ruby. “What did you want to know?” 

“What happened to me?” Ruby looked at her mechanical arm, watching the joints as she moved each finger. “General Ironwood refuses to tell me, the nurses keep changing the subject any time I ask, but… I know something… terrible happened to me. There’s a memory, you fighting with someone, that brings pain with it. Like I can feel wires wrapping around my arms and legs, feeling a pain in my stomach like a knife cutting into me. However, the more I try to think about it, the more the chip on my forehead seems to push me out, shocking me any time I want to look deeper into it.” She sighed and gently took Penny’s hand. “But… you and Weiss would know what happened to me, right?” 

Penny looked away for a moment as if she was searching for a few words and trying to push back a few memories she didnt seem to want to remember. “You… died.” 

Those two little words opened the floodgates as Ruby’s heart started to pound. The chip on her forehead started to short out as memories started to clear up and rush back to the front of her mind. She could remember the faces of friends of Beacon, names that had escaped her now on the tip of her tongue as the faces of her friends rushed through her mind. Her arms seared in pain as she remembered how the wires wrapped around her, slicing through her and then crushing bone. Her heart started to pound in her chest as she relived her last moments, the machines she was hooked up too started to beep louder as they picked up the beating of her heart. 

And then everything stopped. No sound, no light, she could no longer feel Penny’s hand with her as she stared into a black void. Sound started to come back to her as she heard Ironwood’s voice over her, her vision still black. 

“Is she stable?” 

“She is,” a nurse answered back. “However, the memories will come back-” 

“Then make sure those memories are locked away again.” Ironwood walked around Ruby’s bed before walking out of the room. “Otherwise, we’ll need to get rid of those memories if she’ll be an effective weapon to use.” 

“*Again?*” Ruby thought to herself as she tried to remember what happened, her mind coming up blank as her vision came back. She found herself staring up at the ceiling, arm on a table as it was being worked on and her mechanical legs open with wires poking out. 

“You’re awake,” the nurse said as she unhooked a couple wires from Ruby’s head, checking the chip on her forehead. “Do you know where you are?” 

“A-Atlas,” Ruby said as the answer came to her. “I’m in Atlas.” 

“You are. Do you remember what brought you here?” 

Ruby shook her head, moving her fingers. “I… I dont… remember.” 

“You were in an accident. But dont worry, we fixed you up.” 

Ruby winced as she felt a slight pressure, then a sting of pain as her arm was attached to her shoulder. Her body was still stiff as the pain meds were wearing off, her body slowly coming to terms with the pain that she had gone through while being worked on. And yet, while she still couldnt remember why she was here, she could still see the faint faces of two girls stuck in her mind. One with white hair and blue eyes, and another with orange hair and green eyes. 

The nurse smiled as she wrote down a few things on her clipboard as she looked Ruby over. “Do you remember your name?” 

“My… my name…” It was supposed to be a simple answer, something she was supposed to know, and yet, it escaped her. “I… I dont know.” 

“Your name is Ruby and you are a soldier of Atlas. A weapon to finally push back the grimm.” 

Ruby nodded for a moment, unsure if she could dispute what she was told. She couldnt remember anything that happened, but all she knew was that whatever she was going through, it happened before. With a calm voice, she sat up and moved her mechanical arm, listening to each joint as they clicked. “Right, a soldier of Atlas.” 

“Rest up. The General will want to see you in the morning.” 

Ruby watched as the nurse walked out of the room, locking the door behind her. She took a deep breath and laid down, her finger reaching for the chip on her forehead. “I cant wait.”

#rwby #ruby rose #rwby ruby rose #penny polendina #drabbles #protectors of atlas au #protectors of atlas #frosen steel #ruby x weiss x penny #angsty drabbles

[trainwreckgenerator]

Hi there! I just came across one of your comics dealing with your own self-image and T and I saw in the comments, one of your replies saying that you shouldn't have a singular self-image and that you should think about yourself the way you view others. I was just wondering if you could elaborate on the singular self-image idea more. I'm not trying to bait you or anything I'm just interested because I've been trying to make decisions about going on T and how I want to present myself and I didn't realize I could be thinking about it in unhealthy ways.

sure! so the big pitfall with any kind of appearance-altering procedure, especially one that takes place over such a long timeframe as HRT, is going into it with an image in your head of exactly what you'll look like by the end of it.

just like with teen puberty or aging, there is no real way of knowing precicely what you'll look like after a year, after 5 years, after 10 years on hrt. think back to being in highschool: for some people, puberty changed their whole body until they looked like totally new people. for others, it just slapped some boobs or a beard on them and called it a day. my puberty as a teen made my nose bigger! i dont know why! hrt can have similarly unexpected effects.

holding on to a detailed, idealised version of what you want to look like by the end of hrt is likely to set you up for disappointment when it gives you changes different to, or less extreme than, what you were hoping for. there are some things that are more guaranteed - like a deepening voice on T - but not everybody is going to come away with a full beard, or reduced cheek fat. there are cis men out there with round, smooth faces! hormones are unpredictable for everybody.

so, ive been trying to encourage myself to instead consider the possible changes in a vague, agglomerative way - for instance, there's a lower and upper limit to the quantity of facial hair i would consider ideal, but ive stopped picturing my future face with a highly specific hair distribution, because chances are im going to get something not quite like that, and i dont want to be bummed out about it, i want to be able to appreciate what i get when i get it.

as some people have pointed out, you can sort of predict what hrt will do to you by looking at the men and women you're closely related to and seeing if there seem to be genetic trends cropping up. chances are, hrt will do to you the same thing puberty did to your relatives. the men in either side of my family aren't tall, so im not expecting my bones to change much, but they do tend to have defined jawlines, so my hopes are high for facial fat redistribution - but again, that's only a chance, not a guarantee.

ultimately, deciding whether to go on hrt should be based on whether you want to move your appearance "in the direction of" the changes hrt can bring about - if you look at the list of changes and think "yeah i really want some or all of these, to varying degrees; and the ones i dont want, i wouldnt really mind that much", then hrt is probably a good idea.

but if youre thinking "i have an exact future body i want to achieve, and hrt could give me this body, but if it gives me a different body i will feel terrible", then either hrt isn't for you, or you need to step away and do some self-reflecting before commiting to the process.

this post is already super long but i will add one last bit of advice if you're still not sure: with some forms of hrt, you can deliberately choose a very low dose, so that changes come about much more slowly - making it much easier to notice if a change you don't like is happening, giving you the option to back out. in the early stages, many hrt effects are reversible, including fat redistrubution and hair loss. (note that voice deepening and new facial/body hair growth are not reversible, unless you undertake more surgery to reverse it.) (infertility is sometimes reversible but its complicated. if you plan on having kids do extra research specifically on that)

#rambles #hrt #long post

[papirouge]

im the jpop anon. thank you for the long and thoughtful reply! :)

yeah, theres something really wrong with kpoppers. i actually remember what perfume video the "fat legs" comments were from - it was their first budokan concert back in 2008, i think they were wearing the pink outfits (or perhaps the yellow ones from drream fighter). i think what those kpoppers might meant were kashiyukas thighs, since she wore very short shorts in the pink outfits, and while her legs are thin her thighs are plumper. but like, thats literally what makes her known as "the hot one" among fans. like shes very renowed for having very nice legs, and in general its normal for women to have bigger tighs and wider hips. i guess one could just shrug it off as kpop fans being salty and petty, but many kpop girl members have crazy thin legs. like if you look up snsd aka girls generation, youll realize that many of their promotional images have them with really skinny legs. one of the very few kpop songs that i like is "gee" by this girl group, and i decided to look at the comments of the dance ver and some poeple were defending one of the girls because koreans fans were being mean to her for being "fat". i think she was called jessica or something like that, and i look her up to know which one of them was and like, if they didnt mention anything i wouldnt even have realized but her "problem" was basically that she had this "square-y" body type and that made her look like 0,5 millimeters bigger that the rest.

another thing that happened to me very recently was that i was looking for a notebook to buy and there were selling some with kpop groups in the cover, and i stumbled upon one that had this boy band named stray kids, and god dammit... these guys have such heavy plastic surgery like wtf... some of them look like literal wax figures its scary. i remember when kpop fans were saying it was racist how some people made fun of boy bands by saying they all looked the same, and sure, definitely some of them probably were, but you cant deny that some of these guys (and girls) dont end up looking the same when they get their faces botched up all to follow the same very narrow korean beauty standards.

and yeah, i can see the difference between kanon and akari, but i also think it was because kanon was much bigger than akari. like she even made fun of herselkf many times when she introduced herself. i always remember when michishige sayumi was asked which animal fit their teammates the best, and she said kanon was a hippo or an elephant 💀 i always got the impression that kanon making fun of herself like referencing she had a full meal before a performance so she was full of energy was a defense mechanism - a lot of fat people usually make fun of themseves because they want to do it before others can make fun of them first, like "look at me, im fat and i know it and dont take it seriously, please dont make fun of me because i already do it and it doesnt hurt me at all!".

speaking of sayumi, she once was also asked which helloproject group she would least like to be stuck with on an island, and she said berryz koubou because they seemed like they liked to eat alot.. im guessing she was referring to maasa and risako.

i wanted to say more but this got so fucking long lol sorry papi... perhaps ill send another message later...

Tbh Kpop visuals are so ridiculously filtered that I'm pretty sure those girls are made prettier and skinnier than they really are. People these days are soooooo freaking guillible and believe anything they see online. These girls get ps to oblivion and still need to be photoshopped like mad.... They're not perfect. Nobody is.

The thing is japanese idols aren't expected to look perfect like Korean do. Jpop idols aren't supposed to look 'flawless'. Perfume debuted when they were like 12-13 years old ; we saw them grow before our eyes, so if they did anything shady with their appareance everyone would have noticed. These women are soon 35 and still kicking.. - I wonder how these Kpop girls will look at that age 👀

I don't even think that Kpoppers know what "sexy" is anyway. What's stricking with Kpop is that despite how much polished their aesthetic are, they emanate 0% charisma. They give off an absolutely frigid energy. Every single of their move and face expression are policed. Kpop MV would make anyone epileptic so much shit is going on because that's how bad the artist themselves can't put it up themselves.

At least, old school jpop idols still have a lil bit of personality - which is why we still remember of them 10, 20 years later. The same couldn't be said for today's one tbh (I lost interest after Morning Musume 13./Michishige graduated because all the newcomers were more dull than the others... Even Riho who was hailed as The Ace of the group didn't leave the same impact as OG members (Ai Takashi, Tsuji Nozomi, Ai Kago, Maki Goto, Reina Tanaka, etc.) AKB48 fell off after the Kami 7 all graduated (the sister groups are meh).

But to be fair, the new Reiwa era (more conservative ) isn't just prone to leave raw personalities pop out in like that... Ai Kago stunts would have made her cancelled without afterthought or second chances today...😬 The idol group era is pretty much over in Japan. Right now, 'boring edgy' like Aimyon or Yonezu Kenshi are popping.

I can't bring myself to find Kpop boys attractive. Period. They are all ugly and I have no shame to say it because they were all much better before doing plastic surgery. So no it's not racist to say they all look the same because plastic surgery made them look the same - not their race...

I DARE someone to tell me the 2 dudes on the left aren't the same. The one at the top particularly looks like an otome game character 💀 like- he straight up looks like his face was DRAWN.

And you know what freaks me out the most? It's that from one picture to another THEY DON'T LOOK LIKE THEMSELVES??!?

Like wtf is this shit???

It's supposed to be the same band but the faces.... don't match others pictures 💀

You know society colllapsed now that stray kid dudes are considered attractive....when back in the day we had natural and authentic beauty like Takeshi Kaneshiro *sigh*

downgrade of the millennium. Mishima killed himself for this.

And you know what freaks me out the most about these kpoppers? It's that they seemingly don't "exist" beside these ridiculous doctored photoshoot. Are there any candids of them out and about in the street? Without perfect lightening, angle and filters? Tbh I wouldn't be surprised they are AI or shit like that.

Perfume look the same when they do bc....they arent botched

Michishige is RUTHLESS 😭 I mean, in Morning Musume she had the persona of being a narcissist so it makes sense she put down other girls for not being as pretty as her. But yeah dunking on a girl who's like a decade younger than you is shitty. Those idol group are shoving together girls from entire different generations (Michishige was in her mid 20s when she graduated and the youngest member of the group were like 13-14 years old 🥴) so awkward girldrama situations are bound to happen.... That being said, it's a very bad idea to get into an idol group if you're feeling awkward about your physically appearance... Kanon should've never been in Momusu, imo.

I always found Berryz Kōbō was much coherent than Morning Musume ; members were closer in age and experience. I was a smaller band and the lineup was consistent so you weren't lost in the amount of new faces every other years (like Momusu regular call for new members).

I think its fitting that some of its members love eating when they have a song called 1億3千万総ダイエット王国 ("A kindgom of 130 million [people] complete diet[ing]") *the population of Japan is of 125 million but I guess the evened it out for the song that was kinda critical of diet culture. Good for them tbh And that song was bop. Berryz Kōbō truly delivered the few years before disbanding.

#answered

[noro-noro-noro]

long dream but i realized my alarms didn't go off & jumped out of bed really fast, so all i have is like the last scene, which is mostly about getting our truck that can drive on water crushed to death in a machine & then talking the guy that controlled the machine out of it. i'm really hungry for pizza.

- in some kind of small museum area with 4 ir 5 disply boxes. the museum is either run by or just featuring some relatively young for that position guy i think early 30s. anyway he kind of seemed like a dick.

- people "in my party" included me, my friend (real), & my other friend (not real, but a somewhat timetraveller). anyway the museum curator/owner guy was secretly kind of a dick. he'd hired us to investigate something - when we looked too closely at some of the artifacts it pulled us to the bay where it was a 2d minigame of a guy driving a truck around on top of & below the water, mostly interacting with a couple different nodes that had color coded icons (i think 7 of them?), & a central cruise or storange ship.

- brief interlude in this scene that was like i was doing a creepy dungeon level of a puzzle where you'd need to control 2 people & my ex was like the character they'd placed in the dungeon for me to also have to use & it was unpleasant & uncomfortable & he was doing this whole thing where he was being like really sanctimonius about the fact i told him to go to hell on an instagram post in 2020 & like "well i never told you to kill yourself" & i was like jesus christ if i didn't need you to stand on that button to free this crate i'd fucking eradicate you. you dumped me because you wanted to fuck my roommate man & were, in fact, doing that a week later, and refused to admit your behavior was wrong. like just admit it to yourself you're delusional if you think i'm not justified. anyway at the end of the level he like went into his house or whatever & i thougght about blwoing it up but i also remembered i wanted to get a perfect score on this level & killing him would detract points.

- anyway! my friend (not time traveller) was controlling the truck. there was supposed to be a more robust series of choices & doing them in a certain order would unlock a more personal ending since hte other ones were just allying with one of the 7 shpes. they each required the ocean to be terraformed in some way - one was like a barren ocean with a lot of bubbles, one had a dark blue icon tht implied a super lush ocean, i think the mental image was fontaine ocean at sunset so everything was kind of greenish. like subnautica kelp forest but less scary/more visibility. there were a lot of icons. they were done in a bold vector style with a slight gradient in like..jewel tones lol.

- as previously said! the choices weren't working out so well so my friend was just locked into supporting one of the icons & he was complaining about it because none of the icon endings were hte "true" ending. Because the millinoaire museum man was actuallly evil and would try to crush us to death with his cruise ship mecha - it'd surround us with its limbs & then start pushing inwards. i assume there was a puzzle to be freed before the boat got too cramped since there was a magnet block that we could hide under and around to prevent the worst of the damage, but in the end the final area was a weird shape and the block wouldnt save us. my friend was getting pissed off at the bugginess of the choice system. i could feel physical pain whenever the truck was crushed in the cutesy 2D interface.

- the time traveller ended up having the right idea - he took us back to the museum's opening, where we saw the museum curator guy doing his first exhibition. he had the power to draw anything & within this room grant the audience aspects of that power. his art wasn't super great, but with some encouragement, maybe he could flourish! the power also might have been from the most central display case in that room. i'm not otally sure i know it was related somehow.

- in the timetraveler's vision he could see the flow of what normally happened sort of vaguely, like if he grabbed a rope and unspooled it, all the details were in the fibers. and he saw that the curator was pushed into displying osmething that granted the audience like a magic wand with projectile powers & they all had soo much fun with that blasting things and breaking shit rather than looking at his other pieces. this led him down the path to evil.

- instead of having him display that, the time traveller secretly swapped out the magic wand one in favor of showing his other (medicore but with spirit!) drawings. curator recognized him as a time traveller & asked eagerly if he was famous & well known for his art in the future. the time traveller told him that people aren't allowed to ask about that kind of stuff (which is a true rule of time traveller society though they don't tell their rules to outsiders much) & instead asked him questions about the art pieces. curator took the bait t& eagerly started talking about llike...his weird alien oc. the fact that someone encouraged him now not for his power or ability but just out of curiosity seemed to eradicate hte bad timeline where it felt like my fingers were getting crushed to death. yay!

woke up then

#dreams

[xinsidethemindofsimon]

gender is a funny topic.

I do not know why I think this.. but it is.

One of my terrible "friends" told me that they would liked to be called by they/them pronouns. I respected that, but I cringed sooo hard. SOO hard. Why? I'm not sure. Like I remember I saw a post.. and it was like "I tried typing ross federman and it auto corrected it to this."

I looked at this image and it said "Ross Gender man"

I PISSED my pants. (/j of course.) I couldn't stop saying ross gender-man for WEEKS, I was hooked. Of course my non-tally fan friends were concerned, not knowing who the hell ross genderman was or why I was saying that as I was zoned out while I was drawing, or doing anything for that matter. I actually got in big trouble because I wouldnt stop saying it! I actually almost got a slip to take home because of my little sayings. here are some examples of the things I say.

"im pregnant"

"hello, child!"

"im pregnant with 27 beetles, right now."

"ah-la poo poo"

"it's shakira!"

I dont quite recall why I say these things, but they stuck when I first said them I guess.

goodbye, my bloopers.

#ross federman #gender is funny #nonbinary #friends... #pregnant?

[kirbycrouch]

living with bpd has to be one of the hardest things i have to deal with. i cant even begin to count the amount of friendships and friend groups ive lost and pushed away because of my unstable emotions and my inability to talk about my feelings and be vulnerable with people. i fucking hate being vulnerable, i hate talking about my feelings. but also i guess its just that i never really learned *how* to talk about my feelings. my whole life i was yelled at and told im "ruining everything" and am being "selfish" or "self centered" or that im a "burden" whenever i talked about my feelings or showed emotion. you see, my family has always been huge on their image and reputation, anything that could possibly make them look bad was seen as a problem, and thats why my family always ostracized me and saw me as a problem. when i got bullied all throughout grade school and high school my parents would blame it on me and would tell me "why is it only you that has these problems?? no one else in the family had these problems!!" and thats around when the first time i attempted to kill myself, but even then my parents tried so hard to hide the reason why i was in the hospital and told everyone its from "allergies" even though i was there for two weeks. sure theyre nicer to me now, but the damage was already done. truthfully though im used to always getting the short end of the stick and losing everything, or having things just. not. go. my. way. on top of me having bpd and being autistic and honestly at this point probably schizophrenic too with how fucking often i experience hallucinations and paranoid delusions, i also found out that i have pcos the other day right before my birthday, which my birthday also sucked but at this point it was too late for me to have a good birthday in the first place. i have to deal with having chronic mental and physical illnesses for the rest of my life that not only affect my personality but affect my physical appearance and health too. im not desirable physically or emotionally. everything i liked about myself is being taken away from me. and it doesnt help that i keep pushing away the people that care about me because of how fucking unstable and stupid i am. i lost everything. and i really cant even be upset because its all my own fault. i just continuously self sabotage myself. but i guess its not only my own fault because how cant i be scared? not that long ago i got banned from a college club, lost a whole group of friends, because i reported my rapist/abuser and they called me a liar. my rapist/abuser was "banned" too but we all know that i was only told that so i wouldnt report the club or "expose" them or whatever even though regardless no one will fucking believe me. when i was raped in high school someone i thought i could trust told everyone and i got called a "whore" and a "slut" throughout the whole 4 years there, not to mention he was in most of my classes despite me fucking begging the school to take him out of my classes or to change my schedule so i dont have to fucking see him everyday. of course they didnt listen, though. why would they? a few weeks ago my therapist literally told me "next time this happens you should keep it to yourself because no one believed you the last two times" and that just. broke me. but i cant even really be upset because shes right. no one believed me, and if it ever happened again still no one would believe me. no one ever takes my side, ive been alone and lonely my whole life, but its mostly my fault that im like this so who am i to get upset over my own actions. i dont know how much longer i can handle any of this, i thought things were getting better for me but i feel myself falling down the hole again. i really want to end it all. i dont have hope for things ever getting better for me. some people are just given a bad set of cards and theres no way they could ever win, and i think im one of those people, so i should just give up.

#rant

[montyxtrike]

:(

as i mentioned in a post before i think, i have a friend who has some struggles with eating and body image and stuff. and i think i accidentally triggered her today, i feel horrible. i shouldve known it would trigger her too, im not usually that stupid. as i said in the post before i love running and have been running alot lately and also especially today. i was very proud of myself earlier because i beat my record in how fast could run a kilometer, and i told her about it, and i wrote about how much i loved running, but i was just so proud of myself i wanted to tell her about it, u know? anyways, and then later when i went on my evening run i sent a video to the groupchat while running, and obviously she saw it and realised i was out running again. when she asked me if i was running again i told her yes but then i also said a few voice messages just explaining that theres nothing disorder-y going on and nothing to worry about just incase she was worried about how much i was going out running, cause i realise it might seem like im going it to loose weight or something from her perspective since she thinks alot about that stuff. but then her vibe totally changed and i asked her what i did and she said she got triggered. i dont know from what part, if it was jsut because i was running, or if it was when i explained there wasnt anything to worry about, or if it was just the whole situation all together, but she got triggered. i dont really know what to do now, i feel so bad becasue i shouldve known better, i shouldve kept it secret and just not used snapchat on my run and snapped her later when i got back home, that probably would have been a way more efficient option, but done is done. i dont know what to do since i dont really feel like i should be apologizing either. i was proud of myself and wanted to share that, and then i snapped the groupchat while running because i was in the mood for going on a run but still wanted to answer my friends, and then i tried to make sure she wouldnt worry so i explained nothing was wrong. i didnt really DO anything wrong, but i still made her feel bad, and that totally sucks because i want her to be happy becasue shes my best friend and she deserves to never feel bad, and knowing that i was the reason for it? that feels horrible, but at the same time i cant apologize for it because i didnt do anything wrong. AHH.

[lunar-fey]

wait the more i try to remember about the dream i just had the more ??? it gets

so i only really remember the last bit; but i know me and some guy were going through some half sunken ruins of like. a submarine research facility? that we got to i think through some underground tunnels from the ruins of a city on a shoreline. we were there because we were investigating people that had been possessed, i dont really remember it but i know we had already unpossessed several people, and this basically required ripping out their hearts and eating them, though they werent their literal heart, they were like. idk a purplish pink and had yellow vines or something wrapped around, they also didnt bleed. also, the guy i was with was didnt trust me, idk why, but i felt like it was reasonable or at least that i needed him around enough to like. play it safe and not piss him off

so from where i actually remember. i was swimming through some debris and noticed a tunnel that was almost completely sealed off and i got the feeling there was something important there, so i had the guy shove it to the side. i was like okay its probably dangerous so since you dont trust me ill go first so you wont get killed or trapped or whatever. and he was like okay, just dont touch anything come back if you find something. the tunnel ended up being pretty short (and also not underwater somehow) and led to a huge computer, so i went and got him... he agreed that the computer seemed important. i had to type something in (it showed what to type on the screen) and then like. we were suddenly outside.

and i got the feeling okay this is going to be the last possessed person. and then we can figure out whats going on. uh, it was kariya from twewy? he was alone, possessed, and very fucking strong. also flying, which was fine for me since i could also fly, but the guy i was with could not, though he had like. a gun or something i never actually saw it. to make matters worse though, a giant fucking. sea serpent? it was solid white, and i was maybe as big as its eye. came out of the ocean.

so while i was trying to distract this beast (my dream sense told me it was a dragon, it couldnt fly or anything though only swim and jump) the guy managed to shoot kariya from behind, knocking out the fake heart. i flew toward him as quickly as i could, but he just smiled and grabbed the heart and ate it :( but while he was doing that i got up to him and immediately grappled him and made a split second decision that. my best course of action. would be to tear out part of his throat with my teeth (was like 98% sure it wouldnt kill him, but be painful enough to distract him) and then rip the heart back out of him with my bare hand. which i mean it did work. but then i woke up.....

woke up with the sensation of ripping flesh still in my mouth and the image was quite vivid as well. excellent start to the day /genuine

[purelars]

Surprise attack kiss, followed by revenge kiss!

#lars draws #aggretsuko #haida #retsuko #tadano #truly having the time of my life #i had to take tthese pictures in the kitchen light and i almost got CAUGHT #sure if they saw these images they wouldnt think anything of it #BUT OH HOW EMBARRASSED WOULD I BE #anyway take this please and thank you #much harder without being able to move heads around if they arent close enough #the retsuko and haida one i drew like 3 times #oh especially with pen #you know what im just a dumbass djsjsbsjjs #anyway enjoyyyy #OH ALSO it looks like tadano is choking haida but he ISN'T #it's in pen i couldnt change the position of his hand #hes just gently holding his chin

[absolutelyfizzing]

unwanted feelings

james potter x reader

description - You'd had a crush on James Potter for years and when he kisses Lily Evans in front of you, you are heart broken. Later you find that he didn't actually feel as you expected and he explains himself.

warnings - some angst, unsure reader, fem pronouns, self doubt, negative self talk, not eating for a day cause reader is avoiding someone

word count - 2800

A/N - so this one isn't my best work by far but i wrote it so looks like its getting posted. i don't know why all of my reader inserts lately are so fem and sort of bubbly, i guess it's sort of what i'm aiming for for myself right now but i'm sorry if it maybe isn't coming off as relatable.

MASTERLIST

Your throat tightened in anxiety as you watched James zoom around the pitch. He was reckless when he was playing quidditch and it was one of the things that made him great at the game and an excellent captain. It was also the thing that nearly gave you a heart attack every time you watched him play. You went to every one of his games and you always wore something of his with his colors when you were in the stands. You were stood up on your seat and a slightly bored looking Remus sat to your right, reading from a book you didn't recognize. You'd thought that Sirius playing would be enough to keep him interested but sports was just not something he enjoyed watching. You were usually that way as well but whenever James was playing, suddenly you were the most intent spectator in the stands.

You were more worried than you should have been. More worried than what was appropriate for a friend to be. That's what you were, friends. That had been reinforced many times by the shaggy haired boy and you tried desperately to get it through your head before you embarrassed yourself one of these days. Sometimes though, you just couldn't help it.

Really you might have thought he reciprocated if you didn't know any better. You often got comments on what an attractive couple you guys were but each time it was quickly corrected by James. Normally along the lines of 'Oh god no, we are just friends. Purely platonic' , sometimes followed by a shudder or a gag even. It upset you every time to no end but you played along. You rarely, if ever, contributed to the shooting down of any feelings but that was never noticed by the man you had feelings for.

You'd had a crush on him since you were probably in your second year and now you were coming to the middle of your seventh. There were a million times that you almost said something but every time there was a reminder that you were not the one he had eyes for. It usually took the shape of disgust at the thought of dating you or commentary as he pined over the Evans girl who you felt you could never compete with. How could you when she was just perfect. You saw her to the left of you as she stood in the stands as well and your hands shook with insecurity before looking back toward the game. Your heart raced nearly as quickly as James did around the pitch and you prayed that the snitch would be caught soon so that you could get rid of the stress surrounding you. You felt a hand on your right shoulder and you looked over to find Remus had stood and was looking at you caringly.

"Are you alright, Y/N?" He asked softly and you tried your very best to soften your gaze and calm your stance so you appeared less concerned with someone that you shouldn't have that much interest in in the first place.

"Of course I am. When am I not?" You smiled before looking out at the pitch.

"When youre watching the guy you're in love with play a dangerous game that you don't like." He stated simply in response to the question you meant to be rhetorical and your eyes widened.

"I don't know what youre talking about." You nearly whispered and Remus smiled.

"I'm not gonna tell anyone Y/N but its not exactly subtle. It probably doesn't help that I know the look on your face because it's how I feel too watching Sirius play." He was still smirking but your anxiety was far from eased.

"Oh god, does he know?" You asked scaredly, terrified that the answer would be yes and you would have to stop spending time with him.

"Shockingly, no." You sighed out in relief but Remus continued. "You should tell him though or else he might end up moving on."

"What do you mean? There's nothing for him to move on from. Everyone knows he's in love with Evans and he has made it pretty clear that he is opposed to being anything more than a friendly relationship with me." You choked out, struggling with the words leaving your lips but knowing them to be true.

"I mean he has a minor crush on Evans but it's nothing compared to the annoyingly huge crush he has on you. He's probably just overcompensating for the fact that he's insecure and doesn't want you to reject him."

"Why are you telling me this?" You asked sincerely. You were friends with Remus as you were with the rest of the marauders but it was nothing compared to the friendship they held within their group. You knew Remus was more loyal to James than to you so you couldn't understand why, if it was true, Remus would be telling you at all.

"Because he is trying desperately to move on seeing as he is under the impression that you aren't into him and I'd hate to see him throw something away that could be really good for him." Remus smiled gently and you looked at him gratefully.

"I really appreciate you telling me and all but I just don't think I can believe you. I can't even count how many times he has made a big show of not liking me. I love him too much to ruin what we have and I know that if I confessed and it went bad that I would lose him all together. I would rather have him in my life in a way that hurts than not have him in it at all." You stated sadly and Remus sighed but nodded in understanding.

"I get it but just know that I'm being honest and pretty soon he is going to give up on it. I just want to see you both happy but if its too big of a leap, I understand. That's exactly the excuse he tells the rest of us too."

Suddenly cheers erupted from the stands, cutting your conversation with Remus off as everyone ran to rush the pitch. The snitch had been caught and gryffindor won. You were excited for James but you were also a little terrified to walk onto the pitch to see him with the now conflicted thoughts running through your head. Your thoughts were stopped by the image in front of you which was causing the whole crowd to cheer. James had pulled Lily Evans into a kiss in his excitement and your heart stopped. You felt nausea rise in your throat and Remus caught your eye with a sympathetic look. You didn't look at him for longer than a second and you ran off the pitch with tears streaming down your face. You found your way up to your dorm, pushing yourself to get there quickly before the common room filled with students celebrating their victory. James was always one to love attention so he would be getting crazy after the game which he did just about every time they won.

When you made it to your bed, you hurried under the covers, throwing the shirt you were wearing which belonged to James onto the floor. You felt your heart clench at the despair you felt. You wanted to be upset at Remus for getting your hopes up but you knew he was sincere in his want to help. Still you felt that you would probably not be able to face James in the weeks to come. Maybe, given a little time, you could be around him and not be upset at the world for taking away your chance with him. As you laid in your bed, you stared at the ceiling. You felt tears streaming down your face and you grew angry at yourself. He didn't owe you anything, he wasn't into you. That wasn't his fault and it was so unfair of you to expect anything more from him when your feelings were not his responsibility.

You weren't sure how long you laid there but you could hear the party start and end in the common room. It must have been late. Sleep wouldnt come though, you could just feel your heart continue to break and you were stuck in a loop of self pity. You made the decision that the following days would be spent away from James if you could at all help it. That was probably what he wanted anyway and it was the only way that you would get over the pain you were feeling. At some point your roomates entered your dorm and sleep overtook you for a few restless hours.

When you woke up, the sun was barely on the rise. You hurried up and got dressed and ready. You were planning on getting to breakfast early to avoid running into any of the marauders. You found your plans were not going how you wanted when you entered the great hall to find a head of red hair next to a mop of black. Your throat tightened and you quickly moved to turn and head out of the great hall. You heard a familiar voice call your name but you rushed out before you could give it too much thought. You knew that if you let him try to convince you, you would end up having a very upsetting breakfast with your best friend and his new lover. You would rather avoid breakfast.

Throughout the day, avoiding James was proving to be harder than you had thought it would be. You had many of your classes with him and you even sat next to him in a few. He was insistently trying to get you to open up about why you were suddenly so closed off to him but you remained shut off, reassuring him that nothing was wrong and you were just a little tired from the game the day before. You avoided lunch for the same reason as you had avoided breakfast and you felt yourself starting to get a bit lightheaded. Your afternoon was spent avoiding James but soon he was preoccupied with Lily anyway.

You were hid in a corner of the library when a cough alerted you of someone's presence. You looked up to find the very eyes you hadn't wanted to see.

You pushed it down with a gulp and smiled a bit at him, trying desperately to keep the tears at bay but they were growing harder to hold back after keeping everything pent up all day. It probably didn't help that you were hungry and therefor a bit more emotional. You could feel the tears sitting in your eyes, waiting for something to go wrong so they had an excuse to escape you.

"I don't know what I did wrong." He mumbled while looking at the floor in front of you and you took a deep breath.

"There's nothing wrong James, I promise. It's just been a long day." You smiled and your heart picked up speed.

"Since when did we lie to each other?" He questioned and your heart stopped. You were left unsure how to respond.

"Since the truth would cause more damage than good." You spoke honestly. At this he looked up at you and your eyes met. A tear left you and James immediately moved to comfort you but you tried to move away, standing quickly to evade him. You regretted it as spots filled your vision, the lack of food catching up to you. You know that you turned a bit green for a moment because James looked slightly scared.

"Y/N I dont know whats wrong but you look like you should be getting to the hospital wing. You don't look well."

Before you could answer you felt your vision blacken and your legs give out before your consciousness left you completely.

When you woke up, you knew you were in the hospital wing. It smelled sterile and the bed was stiff underneath you. When you started to wake madam pomfrey came to check on you.

"You can't go around with an empty stomach like that again, do you hear me?" She scolded, though her eyes were soft. You nodded solemnly. "I was alerted that you hadn't been to the great hall to eat all day, you have to know that isn't good for you. I'm gonna have a prefect watch out for you the next couple days to make sure you're eating at meal times. Understood?" She asked again and once more you nodded before leaning back and sighing. You looked at your surroundings and were surprised to see the black haired boy next to your bed fast asleep. Your heart took off again and you felt trapped by your environment. As anxiety swirled around in your chest, James had woken up a bit.

"You're awake." James sighed, laced with relief. You still wouldn't make eye contact with him.  You felt the bed dip as he sat on it and you looked up to watch him put his head in his hands as he leaned over. You felt guilt fill your chest more than it already had from hating that you felt any claim over the man in front of you. You knew you were in the wrong and the last thing you wanted was to cause him any pain. "Remus talked to me." He almost whispered.

At that moment, you wished you could have apparated to anywhere else in the world. You looked back down at your lap and tears were once again brought to your eyes. You felt betrayal that Remus would reveal your feelings to James.

"I'm sorry." You apologized and you fiddled with your fingers.

"Why are you the one apologizing, I'm the one whos behaved poorly." He assures and you shake your head.

"That's not fair to yourself. You're allowed to want to be with whomever you want and my feelings should have no effect on that. You've made it clear for years that you weren't interested in me and it is my fault that I couldn't take a hint. I'm so sorry." You gushed out and tears started to fall from your eyes. You felt James get up from your bed and you prepared him to leave but instead you felt arms wrap around you and a kiss came to your head.

"Y/N I have had feelings for you for years. I was just always too scared for myself to even consider that you might feel the same." He whispered out but you felt only a different kind of pain. Even though he had now admitted his feelings, he was still dating Lily. Not you. Almost as if he could hear your thoughts he spoke quietly. "I broke it off with Evans." You pulled away immediately.

"What? Why would you do that?" You asked quickly and before he had a chance to answer you feared the worst. "Oh god is it because of me? James please dont let my feelings have any bearing on who you want to date, I can't stand the thought of being the reason you broke up. Even if we do have feelings for each other, you deserve a chance with Lily if that's what you want."

"It was mutual, actually. She understood that I had feelings for you and she said she had a crush on someone else. It just seemed like I had kissed her a bit rashly on the quidditch pitch and we agreed that we shouldn't have gotten together in the first place. It was only a day anyway." He reassured as he explained himself and you calmed a bit.

"So what does this mean." You got out, almost inaudibly.

"It means that, if you'll have me, I'd like to take you out on a date." He stated as if it were the simplest thing in the world and you almost couldn't believe your ears. Before you were even thinking you were nodding quickly, causing spots to once again fill your vision and James grabbed your shoulders to stabilize you before you both laughed. He pulled you by your shoulders toward him and he caught your lips in a kiss that somehow expressed all of the years of repressed feelings. When he pulled away he smiled at you and sat back on your bed. He spent the rest of the day with you in the hospital wing talking about all of the places he was going to take you in the coming weeks.

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[bridgyrose]

Neon curls her hair and Ruby mistakes her for Penny from behind

Ruby slammed the blade of her scythe into the grimm over and over again as the sabyrs kept swarming the streets.She looked to each of her teammates as they tried to hold back the grimm, her arms shaking as she tried to steady her weapon to take a shot. “How many more?” 

“Not sure!” Weiss called out as she put up a glyph wall to catch her breath. “I’m almost out of dust, there’s still only a few robotic soldiers trying to take out the grimm, and the Atlas military still doesnt seem to be moving to help. I hate to say it, but…. I think Qrow’s right that we cant trust them.” 

“Then we hold the grimm off for as long as we can and regroup at Pietro’s to see if he can tell us more about what’s been going on in Atlas.” 

“You really think he’ll help?” 

“I’m not sure, but its not like we have much of a choice.” 

Ruby sighed and took a few shots at the sabyrs that made their way through the streets to the rest of her friends. Everything about this felt wrong. The way the military sat around, waiting. The lack of protection for the city. Everything she looked at made her feel like she was missing a piece of the puzzle as to why Ironwood wasnt helping Mantle. 

“Grimm incoming!” Yang yelled out. 

Ruby nodded and took aim at the grimm rushing down the streets. Her breathing stopped as she watched a green light rush through the streets and slam through the grimm like they were nothing. Her eyes caught the look of short and curled red hair. She slowly lowered her sniper scythe as she watched the figure rush around. 

Without anything more, the figure disappeared into the dark streets as the grimm lights started to turn off. Weiss lowered her glyphs while Jaune, Yang, and Blake started to check on the nearby citizens. 

Ruby sighed and folded up her scythe as she watched the trailing green light fade, her heart breaking as she kept the image of Penny in her mind. “Penny was here…” 

Weiss looked at her curiously. “Penny? But… she died, didnt she?” 

“She did, but… I thought I saw her.” Ruby looked around at her team and shook her head. “We should get to Pietro’s again and see if we can find out more about what’s going on.”

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Neon slid to a stop after the last of the grimm had been taken care of and tapped on the audio device in her ear. “Streets are all clear, Flynt.” 

“Great,” Flynt replied. “Any sign of the airship?” 

“No, but I saw team RWBY and Jaune, Nora, and Ren a bit ago.” Neon paused for a moment. “You dont think General Ironwood is going to arrest them for trying to help Mantle, do you?” 

“As long as they dont have licenses, it wouldnt surprise me if he does. You know how he’s gotten since the riots started. Cant be too careful about who’s out there to cause trouble.” 

“Right. I should go back to them and check on them. Maybe I can keep them out of trouble before they get on Ironwood’s radar.”

“And if they already are?” 

Neon paused for a moment. That wasnt a thought that had crossed her mind and all she knew is that she’d try to help out as best she could. “Then I’ll find a way to help them out.” 

Flynt let out a sigh, his voice showing how much he hated the idea. “Be careful, okay Neon? The last thing I need is for you to get your license revoked.” 

“Dont worry, you know I dont get into trouble often. Besides, I’m sure Ironwood will understand once he sees its them.” 

“Then keep everything off just in case. Dont need any of the techs to go back through your scroll and find out what you’ve been up to.” 

“Turning everything off now.” Neon smiled and shut down her scroll and communicator as she raced through the streets again, her curled hair rushing through the wind. Ever since Penny was damaged in a riot, she had taken it upon herself to help out Mantle the best she could. She curled her hair to Penny’s short style and wore combat gear similar to hers so no one would be any the wiser to their guardian missing. Even her roller skates had their lights changed to green instead of the rainbow she preferred. All in the name of helping Penny. 

She quickly came to a stop as she neared team RWBY, pausing as she watched the Ace-ops gather them up. Her heart sank when she realized she was a bit late and couldnt give them the warning they needed and she slowly turned her scroll back on. “Flynt? How much trouble does someone have to be to get picked up by the Ace-ops?” 

Silence came through the earpiece for a minute before Flynt finally spoke. “Head back to Atlas. We can clear things up with Ironwood from there.” 

“Right… I’ll be there.” Neon sighed and shut her scroll off once more, pausing as her ears picked up Ruby’s voice. 

“Penny was just here!” Ruby yelled out. “If we can find her, she can clear things up-” 

“Quiet down!” Harriet yelled back, followed by the sound of her weapon hitting Ruby’s back. “You’re going to Ironwood, no ifs, ands, or buts about it.”

Neon slowly backed up and started to race back to Atlas without getting seen by the Ace-ops, needing to get to Penny first. She had to clear things up quickly before team RWBY ended up in more trouble. The grimm sirens pulled her out of her thoughts as the streets lit up red and more grimm started to pour through the streets. With a groan, she put her scroll away and grabbed her nunchucks as she cursed under her breath and rushed after the grimm. One more wave of grimm, and then back to Atlas. Hopefully before anything else happened.

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[myafterlifeisbetterthenyours]

Stella and Stolas with the male Imp Overlord

Stella and Stolas with male Imp Overlord

When you, an Imp achieved your overlord status, lets just say that was something of an issue in the world of nobility.

Imps have always been the Hells servant class, every great dynasty and empire have been built off their backs. They were always meant to be ruled over, Not rule themselves.

But with your ascension to Overlord-ship, the pair found they had a very difficult desicion to make.

They could publicly oppose you. They were sure many of there fellow nobles would follow their lead, doing the same and under their banner, they could form a formidable opposition.

The only problem with that, is while they and there allies may oppose you, their enemies would be more then happy to support you. Whether that be directly or in the shadows.

And give the fact you, an Imp, had already achieved Overlord status, the last thing they needed was you against them, with the backing of disgruntled nobility.

So they did only other viable option. They got closer to you.

They formed an alliance with you in hopes of discovering what made you so unique. As well as ensuring you weren't an enemy.

You would initially be very suspicious of the pair.

Royalty had kept Imps down there entire existance, exploiting and enslaving them sing lucifers rebellion.

So you'd naturally have little, to no trust in the pairs intentions.

But as much as you distrusted the two, doing business with them was jus too beneficial to pass up, something the two went to lengths to ensure.

As the couple expected, in only a short period of time, you became even more powerful, amassing further wealth and territory.

And with this development, the two were quite happy there gamble had paid off. With their family becoming your largest business partner and as such benefited greatly from your prosperity.

As your business with the two increased, you'd slowly find yourself trusting the pair more, the two eagerly wanting to build on that.

And well, stolas being stolas, we all know he just couldn't help himself.

Being around such a domineering male Imp, one that spoke his mind and took shit from nobody. The way you didn't care in the slightest about his title and would tell him as much to his face.

Well, I think it's safe to say, he'd become Very interested in you, very quickly.

You wouldn't really mind Stolas.

You could tell he really didn't care much for politics, or the divide between hellbornes and royalty. He was just in it for a good time as well as securing his families continued survival. You could respect that.

Really the problem would be Stella.

It's fairly obvious she isn't too fond of Imps, likely having been raised to despise anyone she doesn't deem worthy.

And while your power and status would put you far above most every other Imp in her eyes, it would take a fair amount of time before she'd develop any kind of real respect for you.

But, given the chance to see just how capable and scrupulous you could be. A part of her would come to respect your cold-blooded you could be.

The truth was, Stolas had lost his blood lust when they were married. But you, you were a beast. Untamed and seemingly unstoppable.

While she initially wasn't fond of the idea of forming an alliance with you, doing it more so out of practicality over any genuine want to associate with you. She couldn't have realised just how good an idea it would turn out to be.

You were exactly what they needed, someone who could do the more 'dirty jobs' royalty often required, not only doing the job in a timely manner, but you always did it exactly to there expectations, never letting them down in the slightest.

The two held a party not long after your alliance began to prosper.

It was a fairly standard gathering of the Goeatia families allies and vassels families, the party working to both appease there egos and allow them to raise any concerns they may have to the couple.

Of course they had invited you, as despite the more recent nature of your power, you had quickly become an important business partner and asset to the Goetia family and they wanted to continue fostering that.

You had arrived fashionably late, clearly unhappy to be around so many nobles, a faint scowl across your features.

Despite your clear disgust, you still paid your respects to the two, thinking them for the invitation.

Leaving the pair you did what one does at such a gathering, you drank, partook in small talk and generally hung about.

But even with your invitation, it wasn't long until some asshat, decided to test you.

He attempted to publicly humiliate you. Pretending you were a servant and telling you, you were at the wrong area, or should be in the back serving drinks.

The asshole ran his mouth. You could handle that, you'd delt with plenty of loud idiots in your time, it was nothing new. But when he put his hands on you, attempting to push you about.

Well. You couldn't allow that.

It was in this moment that both Stella and Stolas saw why they had made the right choice in befriending you.

With a single brutally efficient strike, you dropped the noble like a sack of rocks.

Watching his body fall before calmly walking away, going about the party as though you hadn't just incapacitated one of the most powerful demons in hell.

Needless to say, no one at the party messed with you after that.

When it came to their relationship, she had little affection for Stolas.

She was still very committed to her marriage and family, of course but the once strapping, ambitious and blood thirsty Prince she had once thought she could love, had given way to an unambitious, soft hearted, stay at home dad.

And she just wasn't attracted to that.

But you... you were everything she saught in a mate.

Ambitious. Relentless. Dangerous and insatiable. You had no limits and seemed near unstoppable.

So, against her better judgement, she found herself falling for you. Something that was quite frustrating for the noble woman.

Stolas, would have absolutely no qualms about falling for you. He of course still cared for his family, but you were something else, something he desperately wanted.

The only problem unfortunately, was his family.

But with his wife being so close to you as well, both demons would be at something of an impass.

They couldn't pursue you in fear of there better halves finding out.

You, of course, where not blind to all this.

You could tell the two were slowly gravitating towards you, Stolas being particularly unsubtle about his pull.

And you found it was surprisingly easy to play the two off each other, Stolas was practically drooling over you and while she may try to hide it, you could tell Stella was very much attracted to you.

Stolas would be the easier of the pair to control.

A kind word here, a suductive touch there, a frustrated complaint about something over there and you could get him to do just about anything you wanted.

Stella would be more difficult, as It would take a considerable amount of time to have her overcome her ingrained discrimination towards Imps.

You likely needing to do so gradually, showing her how you were just as good as any snob with a royal title.

You'd need to be careful at first, ensuring that she truly did fancy you. But once you knew for sure, it wouldn't be difficult to seduce her.

All you'd need to do was appeal to her ego and show her your more dominant side.

Unlike stolas, it wouldn't be a physical dominance, it would a dominance of the mind. The owl princess finding your ability to dominate a room without lifting a finger, quite... intoxicating.

So, finding yourself in a love triangle of your own creation, you had a very specific plan.

When the pair of them first approached you, you knew, deep down, it was done out of fear.

Imps were nothing in Hell, and for you, an Imp to become an Overlord, that scared the BlueBloods.

And it should.

But if you were going to enter a relationship with these royals, they were going to be the ones who proposition you.

You'd be damned if you were gonna be the one begging for a relationship. They wanted it, and you knew they wanted it, they'd have to beg for it.

And beg they would.

The two came to an agreement. They both wanted you, but also didn't want to split up their family, so they would approach you together.

It was an awkward affair, in part due to you playing dumb to there intentions.

Stolas, being something of a bird brain, would draw it out, trying put their decision into words, but failing miserably.

Stella would just step in, opening the proposition of a relationship.

You would playfully think it over, already knowing the answer but you enjoyed watching the pair squirm.

You'd accept, the pair releasing a deep sigh before you pulled each of them into a passionate kiss.

However, much to Stolas' annoyance, you wouldnt sleep with them that night, choosing instead to just share there bed.

With a relationship like this, you'd have to spend the first few weeks ensuring there was a solid foundation to it.

Youd mostly do this through spending time with them, getting to know them on both an emotional and personal level.

Youd definitely sleep with Stolas first, taking the prince in his office.

Pushing him onto his desk and taking him rough and passionately, just how you knew he wanted it.

Youd do something more romantic for Stella. Likely having a simple, yet majestic diner before taking her to your now shared bedroom for a night of passionate fornication.

Despite there royal status, you would be the one wearing the pants in the relationship. As you could easily dominate each of them with words alone, Stolas even easier then Stella.

Of course you understood the importance of there image and would take a more back seat role in the relationship when needed.

Youd have a surprisingly intimate relationship with the pair.

Stolas was always open to anything you suggested, often initiating them himself. And while not nearly as common as stolas, Stella would often initiate intimacy with you.

Despite the two being married, Sex between all three of you would not be very common.

As both Stolas and Stella had quite different wants and needs in the bedroom that didn't quite mesh well.

Stolas wanted to be utterly dominated in the bedroom, completely at your mercy. While Stella wanted someone who could keep her pace, if not take control in the heat of passion.

Romance would be a priority for you, often doing your best to sweep them off there feet.

Luxurious dinners, dates on the town, the theatre. Nothing was ever too much.

Octavia would be a rather large bump in the relationship, as on one hand, you were essentially a whole new person intruding on her family, on the other hand, you were a wanted third partner in Stella and Stolas' marriage, you weren't tearing the family apart by being with them.

It would take a long time, and an even longer term strategy, but she would eventually warm up to you.

Never really coming to see you as a parent, but still part of the family.

While life wouldn't be without its problems,

The balance of power being a major source of arguments, as while Stolas was easy to tame, falling completely under your sway, Stella was far more head strong.

As such she'd often but heads with her rather submissive husband, saying he didn't do enough to keep up there family status.

She would often compare him to yourself, something you would always dismiss, having to step in and calm her down.

While you could dominate her husband easily, you'd need to control her in a more subtle ways. Appealing to her ego or planting ideas in her subconscious. Having mentioned when you forced her submission, likely in bed.

So, While it would certainly had its ups and downs, your life with your royal love Birds would be an incredibly love filled one.

Having the royal pair wrapped around your lottle finger, your power and status would grow exponentially. All the while the two would willingly give themselves to you, smothering you in there love and affection.

Thanking you as they made you stronger.

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