#trauma

[bolognamayhem117]

Hot Take: Astarion does NOT hate flowers. You just missed a few subtle hints through Act 1 and early Act 3.

Astarion's negativity is directed toward just about anything remotely pleasant as you move through early act three, starting the moment you leave Wyrm's Rock. First thing after Gortash's coronation he marvels near tears at the colors of the city in daylight. If you ask if he's alright, it pisses him off.

There's other instances I can't quite remember but he's a straight crank throughout early Act 3 and it took me several hours of gameplay to have a lightbulb moment about his newly crappier attitude.

He just spent the last two hundred years seeing everything in the overwhelmingly warm dim tones of indoor lighting via sconces, rushlights, and braziers, or the dingy blue gray of moonlight outside. Daylight colors are something he had more than a lifetime to forget and now that he has a chance to remember that vibrancy in his own home town, he knows he's going to have to forget it all over again either by death or by remaining a vampire spawn forever. The worm isn't going to live rent free in his head forever, and killing Cazador to ascend in his place likely feels like an insurmountable and impossible fight against a literal titan who could stomp him flat without a corm of effort.

He doesn't hate flowers, he hates EVERYTHING right now because it's all going away very soon and if he convinces himself he hates everything then he won't miss it when it's all gone again. He was denied this for two hundred years and he's PISSED at what was stolen from him and PISSED it's all going away again.

He behaved similarly in Act 1 about anyone besides him enjoying physical intimacy. Some of this content was cut, to my best knowledge, but the overwhelming majority of his dialog addressing the PC romancing anyone but him are negative or backhanded. This is for two reasons, I think. A: his Simple Plan just dissolved right before his eyes when you chose someone else which in his mind means he has zero safety net, and EVERYONE gets to enjoy sex (key wording being ENJOY, not simply having) except him... And it pisses him off.

He also gleefully interrupts the bug bear and the ogress, I think for the same reason as the above paragraph, being: If he doesn't get to enjoy intimacy neither do they.

He reacts with anger and disgust at anything he's being unfairly denied. Which... That's fair. His feelings are valid, but his reaction to it is pretty shitty and meanspirited.

The other companions I tend to keep in my party, (that is Lae'zel, Halsin, Karlach, and Wyll) however, are actually appearing to behave pretty patiently with him in Act 3 which I find interesting.

In the instance with the flowers Karlach doesn't bother trying to convince him otherwise of his opinion, she just tells him how they make her feel instead and rather than getting snippy or doubling down he more or less agrees to disagree. I also don't recall anyone disagreeing with Astarion during Gale's last quest tasks when he mentioned that he quit praying to gods who wouldn't hear him a long time ago but to be fair, I think the gods did everybody in this crew dirty and they all know it. It seems like they're consciously giving him the space to be mad about things, is what I'm saying.

Everyone I know including myself who crawled out of a long-term hot garbage situation kinda went wild for a bit with freedom, spoke poorly, behaved strangely, had extreme emotional reactions to things, and made some particularly terrible choices. I think that's just a part of recalibrating yourself, healing and learning how to be okay again.

Point is, I wouldn't conflate too many of the turbo-negative things he says with how he actually feels about anything. We certainly know what he says and what he feels are two very different things.

#astarion #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #astarion ancunin #trauma #the pale elf #cazador szarr

[susanguhly]

#talk to me #sam mewis #alpha women #gracexbabe #glasses girl #confidence #ryuko matoi #trauma #disappear

[bet-on-me-13]

Steph's Year of Recovery

So! Danny noticed that a new face had made it's way into town. Two new faces actually, an older lady known as Dr Leslie, and a girl about his age called Steph.

He first met them when he was at the hospital for one of his parents. They had stood too close to an explosion again, and he met them while he was in the waiting Area.

Dr Leslie was a strict but obviously caring older woman, who seemed to be the one taking care of Steph as a kind of maternal figure, or maybe more like an Aunt. She greeted him simply and then walked away to talk with the Secretary, leaving him to talk to Steph.

Steph was a blond girl in a Wheelchair, and he could see bandages piking out of her clothes as he talked to her. She explained that she had been in an Accident a few weeks ago that left her wheelchair bound for a while, and that she had come to Amity for their surprisingly good Medical Centers.

He and Steph got along really well, and by the end of it he asked her for her Number so they could continue talking later. They stayed in touch, and when she was finally permitted to leave the Hospital, he introduced her to his friends. They all got along like a House on Fire, both figuratively and in one memorable case very literally (Vlad had pissed them off okay!)

Eventually Steph recovered enough that she moved from a Wheelchair to Crutches, and their shenanigans got even more chaotic (Vlad hadn't even pissed them off, this time was just for fun)

The only thing Danny could complain about was the fact that Steph was hiding something from them.

She said that she had been in an Accident a while ago, which was why they had come to Amity in the first place. But Danny knew it was more than that.

He could sense lingering traces of Death coming from her after all.

...

Steph honestly loved her current life.

Sure she had lost everything, her home, her health, her friends, her life, but she had gained new things too! Like Danny and the Gang! They were honestly some of the best friends she had ever had, and for some reason they just clicked with her instantly.

Danny was interesting and funny, Sam was vegan and a badass, Tucker was smart and witty, they all fit with her personality perfectly! It almost felt like she bad been friends with them for years. (She ignored the way her heart skipped a beat when she saw them)

But she still couldn't shake the sense that they were hiding something from her.

She knew it had something to do with the Ghost Problem in the town. And wasn't that a kicker, there was a whole Supernatural Ghost Outbreak in this Town and nobody knew about it. Dr Leslie had said that Amity was off the map enough to hide from Bruce, but she hadn't mentioned it was hidden from the Justice League itself!

Danny, Sam, and Tucker definitely knew more about it than they let on however. Whenever a Ghost Attack would happen, at least one of them would rush off with some practiced excuse and return after the Ghost Attack was over all dirty. She could guess what was going on, and she really didn't like it.

(This had killed her, she had died doing what they were doing, she didn't want to lose them)

Eventually she had to confront them, coincidentally on the same day they decided to confront her.

"Are you Vigilantes?" / "Did you die?"

"..."

"What?" / "What?"

#Dpxdc #Dp x dc #Dcxdp #Dc x dp #Danny Phantom #Dc #Dcu #Stephanie Brown #Stephanie Browns Death #Steph actually did die to Black Mask #Dr Leslie didn't manage to save her but did manage to bring her back #How she did it is up to you #But because if that Steph needs Physical Therapy and Treatments only found in Amity #Amity is also secluded enough that Batman won't find them there #Steph knows she died but is willfully ignoring it to the point of almost repressing it #Especially because she doesn't know how she came back to life #She doesn't like that her brand new friends are also Vigilantes because being a Vigilante is what got her killed #She doesn't want them to die like she die #She doesn't want to lose her new friends #Trauma #Steph is Traumatized #Also all of them are 17 in this #Stephs age when she died is very vague but 17 is the most reliable middle ground #So the Trio has been Vigilantes for 3 years now #They know what they are doing and have a system so they can share the workload #Sam and Tucker still have their powers #So they can help Danny with the workload #Idk if Steph would develop Powers from the Treatment or her Resurrection but I kind of like the idea #Also yes this is Poly Eternal Trio + Steph cause she deserves happiness #I NEED more Steph Ships cause she deserves more attention

[moonlit-positivity]

You are not obligated to forgive your abusers. You are not obligated to forgive anyone who hurts you, regardless of if they've changed their ways or even if they're struggling and in need of help. You are not required to honor anyone else except you, your feelings are more important. Please do not ever feel guilty for saying no and setting boundaries.

#recovery #ptsd #trauma #mental health #boundaries #healing #healing thoughts #abuse #abuse recovery #abuse awareness #toxicity #toxic friendships #toxic parents #abusive relationships #actually abused #actually traumatized #forgiveness

[dying-weeds]

Just a visitor 042424

#vent #traumacore #mine #ventcore #actuallytraumatized #trauma #actually ptsd #trauma vent #traumacore vent #my photo #my edit #spilled thoughts #dissociation

[traumatizeddfox]

btw you don’t have to turn your trauma into a story, art a meaning, anything. sometimes trauma is just something that happened to you and that’s it. there isn’t some deep poetic meaning

#traumacore #actuallytraumatized #ventcore #actuallymentallyill #ok to rb #trauma #actuallyabused

[thepeacefulgarden]

#you are enough #you are worthy #you matter #self care #self compassion #self love #self respect #self forgiveness #growth #healing #recovery #trauma #people pleasing #fawning #codependency #boundaries #acceptance #fuck diet culture #doing your best #give yourself credit #perfectionism #mental health #tell your inner critic to stfu #honor your progress

[bpdohwhatajoy]

“You see, that’s what abuse does to you. You know? Made me this sticking plaster for all of life’s weirdos. This open wound for them to sniff at.”

#cptsd #ptsd #trauma #traumatized #baby reindeer #when I say this gutted me #there’s people who feel this too?!?!?!? #I literally thought it was just me #like why are so many abusive fucking weird awful people drawn to me #it haunts me

[send-claim]

#haikyuu #jongho #liminalcore #trauma #txt #texto de amor #endgame #lil peep #divination #booknerd #Impressionism

[traumatizedd-bunnyangel]

#not mine #ventcore #trauma #vent

[partner-half-simple-part]

https://tammy-412.ludgu.top/sr/sSR3zT7

#Daisy Marie #jongho #EruRi #young adult #gaining weight #trauma #nick and charlie #dms open #txt #dan and phil #sexy hips #texto de amor #endgame #lil peep

[traaumaa]

#mine #actuallyborderline #trauma #traumacore #actuallymentallyill

[worthless-misery]

I wish there was a way to delete these memories that haunt me everyday...

#dear diary #personal #trauma #ptsd #heartbreak

[schmerzstille]

ich bin an einem punkt angekommen, wo ich mich frage ob es mir wirklich gut geht oder ob ich es mir einfach schon zu lange immer wieder eingeredet habe.

#leben #gedanken #gefühle #therapie #Erkenntnis #selbsthass #Zweifel #lüge #Wahrheit #Hilfe #Erinnerungen #trauma #Depressionen

[voidic3ntity]

beneath the surface of myself, something much dark lurking,

forever positioned within the recess of my tongue & my mind,

& continuously seeking to destroy any remnants of lightness:

I swallow down those pills, shrooms, resin, smoke or liquid;

suppressing the depth of hurt I felt as an innocent child... 

#poetry #spilled thoughts #dark academia #dark prose #trauma #drugs #depression #alchemy #mental illness #art #mental health #spirituality #sad #introspection #liturature #tw #me #voidic3ntity #life is strange #pain #stoned #poets on tumblr #darkness #original #poem #life #death #poetic #philosophy #escapril

[breannasfluff]

#polls #trauma #chart is an example to be clear #fic research #fanfiction