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goldenxglyphs · 2 years

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Collapsed In Pain | ACCEPTING

@edrick-rolling asked:

(for Hunter for the meme) "HUNTER?!" The apprentice had turned the corner just in time to catch the Prince collapsing in the hallway, and rushed to his side as fast as possible. "H-hey, what happened?! Are you alright?!" Had he been attacked? Poisoned? Was it just exhaustion? So many possibilities flashed through his mind as he kneeled down next to his friend.

Your character finds mine collapsed over in so much pain they can't even speak or move. What does your character do?

Hunter had been making his way to the throne room when it happened. He had been warned time and time again that he needed to limit his use of magic to only when his staff was available to be used and that he needed to keep his stress levels down. But with what had been happening lately with finals and talks of him potentially taking on the workload of Coven Head now that Lilith seemed to be just a few failures away from being removed from her position by the Emperor, the Prince had not been managing said stress well.

And it seemed it ad finally gotten to him as mid-stride he felt a sharp pain in his chest. A noise that vaguely sounded like a strangled choke left his lips as he stopped and clutched his chest before collapsing to the floor. Moving on his own wasn’t going to happen at this exact moment as he was in so much pain, tears stung his eyes as he shook his head. He didn’t know when Edrick had managed to move to his side or where the Bard had even come from but he knew there wasn’t going to any talking his way out of being taken to Hettie this time.

#questions for the coven | asks #edrick-rolling #nothing but treble | { Edrick Blight | edrick-rolling }#hunter au verse - { v: lost cardinal }#tw: heart issues #tw: health issues

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ghostr0tz · 2 months

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Testing....

#mad about my own health so maybe im projecting a little. i deserve it #but also i really feel like hed have heart issues.....#tw medical #vox #hazbin vox #vox hazbin #art #hazbin hotel #my art

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lostmf · 6 months

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whoviandoodler · 1 year

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one of the things that makes mdzs SUCH a great story is the fact that it's a tragedy with queer protagonists, but their queerness isn't the cause or the center of the tragedy. it's not even related, really. it's a story about love and loss and wrong and right, about what we owe each other and what we owe ourselves, about how you can find joy even amidst chaos and grief; its complexity and tragedy is what makes it so profound and touching. sure, there's 'casual' queerphobia in the story, but with everything else going on, it's not really relevant- wwx's mostly like, 'oh, i like guys? i like lwj? i love lwj? fuck, what if he doesn't love me back? am i being presumptuous to think he returns my feelings? what do I do now?' followed by 'wait, he loves me back??? we're getting married IMMEDIATELY', and that whole attitude is very refreshing because sometimes you just want to read a queer story that isn't about queer suffering but that's still incredibly miserable, and i think we as a queer community deserve it

#mdzs #lwj #wwx #lan wangji #wei wuxian #mdzs thoughts #dan talks #wangxian #obviously the story has its issues but. FFUCK i just want something to break my heart w/o having to read thru queer trauma #ik danmei in theory isnt aimed at queer audiences but compared to like. some of 'made for cisshet women' queer man content ive read in #the past mdzss iss a breath of fresh air. imo most issues lie w the sex scenes and the INSANE lack of lube but.#ill forgive it this once #their dynamic and love story is otherwise great. just dont take it ass sex ed lol ud fucking die #the sex scenes are funny tho. im always cackling and going YOURE GOING TO KILL EACH OTHER GOD SLOW DOWN #also in gen we need to uh. do better w tws bcs theres a LOT of noncon rp in there and i didnt see it mentioned anywhere in the fandom after #hours of being around it. books do tws plssss someones going to run headfirst into there and not have a good time

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uncanny-tranny · 6 months

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transsexual thursday

(am trans man) when misgendering turns from "she- I mean he" where people still see you as a girl but have to make a conscious effort to use he/him. to "he- I mean she" when they can't help but see me as a man and have to consciously change the pronouns they use to those less natural to them just to be mean <3.

luckily there are very few people in my life who fall into this camp, but even then self-report that they fully perceive me as a man and can't stop themselves. it's satisfying.

It's definitely weird, but like... there are just some people who like to start shit, and then fail at it so hard that it's less hurtful and more darkly comedic. I'm glad you can find the humour in that, but definitely take care of yourself out there 💛

#ask #anon #transsexual thursday #transphobia tw #i love when people are like 'oh but its just UNCONSCIOUS that i misgender you' and they make a CONSCIOUS effort to continue the misgendering #like... pick a lane. pick a struggle. skill issue!!!#i think for many trans people there comes a point where you do feel that hurt less and less on a general level #like that's not a GOOD thing don't get me wrong. but it won't always feel like your heart is being snatched out of your chest

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maintitle · 7 months

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I watched DS9's It's Only A Paper Moon yesterday, and I want to talk about it because it wasn't until right now that I understood why it slapped me across the face so much, and why I think that episode is so important to me.

This may be triggering to people with disabilities, heart conditions, disabilities from COVID, or medical or military related trauma. Read ahead at your own risk.

I developed a heart condition at 18 from the H1N1 virus (which is why I tell all my friends to take preventive measures if they had COVID, because these kinds of new and unknown viruses can have long-lasting effects on you we don't know yet). While I had a lot of tests and missed a lot of school that year, the effects of that wouldn't be clear for years until at 24 I got a pacemaker/defibrillator put in in what we later found out was a life-saving surgery. The trauma of that event took a long time to catch up with me. While I'm still facing symptoms and limitations from that period of my life, the immediate danger has passed. But it took A LONG time for the fear of what happened to me, the PTSD of that event, to catch up with me. I've dealt with huge panic attacks and hyper-obsessive fears regarding my heart since around twenty-nine, fears I live with and fight through in therapy to this day.

As someone facing those issues, I hooked onto A Paper Moon this watch in a way I haven't before. The issue deals with the loss of Nog's leg in battle earlier in the season, a traumatic experience he had in the middle of a warzone only halfway through their defense. During his recovery, Julian begins to play recordings of I'll Be Seeing You, put together by Vic Fontaine, a semi-aware holodeck program that is really popular on DS9.

Nog returns from surgery at the beginning of the episode, and is walking with a cane. Multiple people on staff, including Julian himself, is concerned over the use of the cane because medically, he shouldn't have a need for it. He shouldn't even be in pain based off of what they know from the new leg and the nerves around it, but he's in pain and having trouble walking. A lot of the arguments in the early episode revolve around people talking behind Nog's back about how they can't understand why he has the cane or why he's in pain when there doesn't appear to be a medical reason for it.

The answer is actually incredibly simple: It's not the leg, it's the trauma from loosing the leg. Nog, who is still incredibly young in the episode, had somehow seen himself as invincible, a young cadet wanting to prove Ferengi can be incredible members of Starfleet, who had seen quite a bit of action and was cocksure, and in one moment he not only lost that bravado, but he also learned he was mortal in one horrifying singular moment.

Obviously, Nog is lucky enough to live in an era where it's possible to replace a lost limb, but that doesn't change the fact that for a horrifying unmentioned, maybe SEVERAL DAY period of time, he was left on a makeshift bed, listening to fighting outside, knowing that he could be attacked at any time, could die at any time from factors not even exterior to him. And now he just has to... go back to life after that horrifying dose of his own mortality.

The only thing that gets him by is that recording of I'll Be Seeing You by Vic Fontaine, because that's the only thing that he had to take him out of that horrifying situation while he laid on that makeshift gurney. The episode explores that idea by having him play it while trying to sleep, and eventually go to the holodeck and try to live in it with Vic after he was shamed for being in bed too long and for listening to said music for too long.

The funny thing is, Vic is the ONLY person, INCLUDING THE COUNSELOR ONBOARD DS9, who recognizes that his pain is valid. Vic, as a hologram, recognizes that his pain isn't crazy, it's as real as the injury he experienced, because Vic has a perspective that none of these hyper-worn-down Starfleet Officers or parental figures in his life has: His LIFE is a series of not-real instances of pain, of happiness, of dealing with other people he knows are holograms. Vic isn't like Moriarty in TNG, he's not like other semi-sentient Holodeck programs, he KNOWS he's a program but he also finds that life to be very real FOR HIM. The feelings of one of his bandmates are as real to him as the problems of Julian walking in to talk about one of the many women he simps for not feeling the same, because despite knowing they're not physically real, he CARES for them and takes their lives seriously.

Nog's feelings are real. His PAIN is real, even if a doctor can't understand why. Nog's in the middle of a long, extended panic attack where he's internalizing a near life-ending medical emergency and doesn't know how to DEAL with it. He loses himself in the program because it's the only place he can get past the trauma of the event, he's hostile to others who try and look at him with pity or as a hero because he doesn't want to be DEFINED by that pain. Vic knows this, and builds him up in other ways. Gives him a life to live, watches him slowly not need the cane and not even realize it, gives him tools and an environment to cope and generally is the only person that validates that trauma.

The episode is maybe one of the series best mental health episodes possible, and DS9 is generally REALLY good with these issues. As someone with medical trauma, I saw myself in Nog. I'm sure others who have experienced disabilities in the military see even more of themselves in him. We relate to it because we're constantly belittled or told our pain is in our heads, when the truth is we FEEL it. I feel it multiple times a month, when I lay down and go to bed and lay on my side just right that I can feel my heartbeat, and then I overanalyze it, and then that leads to a panic attack and me grabbing a pressure cuff or a fingertip pulse whatever it is to see if I'm okay, but by then I can't come down from the panic attack until it's done. I feel it when I'm helping someone move or if I'm on a casual walk and I feel my heartbeat spike, and my mind overreacts and wonders if this is normal exertion or a heart attack.

Not FEELS these things. It's real pain. And Vic doesn't invalidate it. It's as real as the injury itself, and it's not one that he'll ever truly conquer. But the episode gives him time, space and kindness to help him find coping mechanisms in order to continue with his life and dreams, and THAT'S Trek to me. A future where these things can be understood and worked through, without the constant shame that people with disabilities face when describing the trauma responses they suffer on a day-to-day basis.

In the end, Nog is heard. The main characters come to understand that what he felt is real. The episode gives him the time to work through complicated PTSD, and while he's not okay at the end, he's learning to live with it. And it's really fucking special to see this explored with a character we saw grow up into a man, on a show where the future is meant to be better than the present, written by writers in 1998 where they had no right to handle this as well as they did. This was an exceptionally special episode of television.

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bonefall · 1 year

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What's Sasha's story like?

Honestly? I have a solid idea of what I want its theme to be, but the trick is dealing with it in a tasteful way. I consider myself a pretty decent writer, but this subject is a REALLY sensitive one so it's going to take time and tact I've been spending on other things.

But bottom line is that "Tigerstar and Sasha" is getting reworked into its own thing focusing on the three outsiders Tigerstar employs. Nightwhisper, Jaggedtooth, Sasha.

It's about living in Tigerstar's vision, where he controls your entire life. They are in very dangerous situations. From all of them, he expects loyalty and service, and at any point could stop seeing them as being useful and discard them.

I kind of want that to happen to Sasha. Instead of just realizing that her crummy boyfriend is secretly a murderer, she stops giving him what she wants and ends up in great danger.

But as you can see from the very vague summary, these themes are dark. BB!Tigerstar is written as a fascist and a xenophobe, a hypocrite. It's important to remember that such people often exploit the people they're bigoted against, and "frothing at the mouth, immediate violence towards oppressed group" is overrepresented.

Sooo, basically, I'm working on it. It's going to be a hard one though so I don't have an outline yet.

#Casual reminder that Better Bones is about authoritarianism at its core #And systemic issues and how characters act within them #And radicalization #Though it does have lots of secondary themes and lighter hearted stories in the mix #Plus more worldbuilding and character exploration #Better bones au #Tw bigotry #Tw fascism

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everythingwasnormalhere · 12 days

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I saw ur posts Abt talking about headcanons and since Im so obsessed with this one

What do u feel abt Kyle being chubby cuz he gets spoiled by his mom, and his genes from his mother ig. him being really insecure about it and that's why he makes fun of Cartman for it

I ALREADY THOUGHT OF THIS OMG 🫶

ok soooo youve posted sm chubby kyle you completely convinced me XD you got me to join your cult congrats /silly

bUT since i see older him (16-17) as quite thin, i hc that after humancentiPad he stops eating almost completely so he loses lots of weight,,,idk i like angst 😭✨

#but yes chubby kyle is canon in my heart 🫶#kyles one of my favsss i love talking abt him<3 #south park #south park hcs #south park headcanons #south park fandom #kyle broflovski #south park kyle #kyle sp #chubby kyle #tw ed implied #tw eating issues #<- just being safe idk #humancentiPad #angst headcanons #my hcs #answered :D

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the-cat-at-the-theatre-door · 7 months

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"You're so pretty."

Victoria's movements are soft, half formed, as though she'd not quite thought the action out before it started. She feels her ears heat up with embarrassment. It had been happening more often lately - moving before she can think clearly, as though dealing with two separate entities within herself, brain and heart. Perhaps Jennyanydots' amused diagnosis of "twitterpated" was not too far off the mark; there had certainly been enough reasoning to back it up.

Plato blinks, slow and confused, as though being pulled from a dream. And perhaps he was; he'd been staring at Victoria for the better part of an eternity, focused, but very clearly somewhere else. He did that sometimes - disappear somewhere she couldn't quite follow him, eyes hollow and dark. Victoria wishes she knew where he went; perhaps one day he'd tell her.

The staring, she couldn't fault, however; she'd been staring at him right back.

"What?" he asks, furrowing his brow.

"Pretty," Victoria signs again, submitting to having been caught, exaggerating the movement so he'd get it. Perhaps he'd been half paying attention, and only seen the tail end. "You're very pretty."

Plato wasn't much for laughing, Victoria had come to know - smiling, yes; Plato had developed such an easy smile over the year spent with them when they could coax it out of him. Laughing, on the other paw, not particularly, though he was never able to put quite into words why that was. Perhaps he was self conscious of the way it sounded; perhaps he hadn't much in regards to a sense of humour.

Be that as it may, for some reason, that affirmation plasters bewildered scrunches between his brows and his eyes practically disappear under his eyelashes. It even gets that odd, wheezing noise he'd make when particularly amused.

The queen could only be partially annoyed and a teeny bit embarassed - he was very handsome when he smiled, afterall, one fang hanging slightly lower than the other. An in consequential flaw that did nothing, Victoria thinks, flustered, than make him even prettier.

Victoria huffs. "What's funny?"

Plato tosses the motion back haphhazardly, as though brushing the thought aside. "You're funny."

"Not funny." Victoria frowns. "I'm serious."

Plato sobers immediately, smile gone as quickly as it came - it's like a candle being blown out; a night and day difference. The temperature in the clearing seems to cool as he continues to study her. There is an undeniable feeling creeping at the back of Victoria's neck that she may have mis-stepped somewhere, but all she'd said was...

She presses on, feeling an ache begin deep in her chest. She repeats herself, motions firm. "You're very pretty."

"I am not," he says after a long moment. There is an expression on his face that is difficult to read - he does not look embarrassed or pleased, even humbly so; he almost looks as though he is about to cry.

"Yes you ar-"

"You-" he points at her firmly, cutting her off, jaw set. The motion towards her is quick and harsh as a result, unsheathing his claws in the process. He startles as she does, horrified, staring at the space that has swelled between them; he is a breath away from scratching her.

"You," He points to her again after a moment, claw carefully pulled back this time. "Are very pretty. Not me. Look." He motions to the whole of himself, as though that were enough to dissuade her feelings. It only steels her resolve further.

"You look-" she insists, touching her paw pads to the delicate skin of his cheek to demonstrate. Plato flinches as though she'd hit him in retaliation; it looks to have been a struggle for him to resist moving away, but the desire is clearly there. There is fear burning in his eyes -anger and remorse and upset - like a bird trapped in a cage of teeth, waiting for its bones to snap in on themselves after the hunter had toyed with its prey.

Victoria pulls back, tangling her paws in her lap. The ache becomes a gnawing hurt. The fear in Plato's eyes burns hotter, guilt shining just beneath the surface.

"Please." Plato sets his jaw, and the fear fizzles slowly - forcibly - last of the flame suffocated. But he does not get near her again. He is gone to that place she cannot follow. "I cannot...do not lie to me."

"I am not lying," she manages, tears at the precipice of her eyelashes. The silence grows even heavier between them

"Then," he continues at last, breath hitching eyes wide and astonished, and Victoria feels ice settle at the base of her spine. After a moment, his expression dulls again. The smile on his face returns in a flash, a plaster over a wound, but it is bitter, cool. Empty. "You are being cruel? I did not think you had it in you."

#have this half finished nonsense too idk #Plato #Victoria #platoria #my fanfic #fanfiction #plato has body and self worth issues due to years and years of abuse #You walk in another world #Everything that touches you is moonlight and stardust; turns to gold in your grasp #I could only hope that being in your presence should do the same to me #I am stupid to think so #hahaha i'm sad #about this universe i mean #idk if this requires a tw but like plato has a very poor opinion of himself #and he's not mad at victoria - not at all - he is devastated that even she (in his twisted minds eye) would be cruel #and play with his feelings because he can't tell genuineness from a hole in the wall #but thing is victoria is 200% serious and besotted #not meant to imply any abuse or anything like that - macavity is just very close to plato's surface #in more ways than one and it terrifies him that he'll hurt her like macavity hurt everyone else #and the fact that victoria could be cruel in his mind? breaks his heart

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something-existing-somewhere · 6 months

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Idk if I'm gonna be alive to see next year since my health issues are rapidly getting worse. I feel at peace with dying though. I've been trying to mentally get better but now that I'm mentally better my body is dying. I knew I'd die early some way or another. It's funny that I used to wish I was dead all the time but now that I actually want to live, I'm gonna die.

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notdelusionalatall · 6 days

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30.04.2024 mhifwuh

i am supposed to take

sertraline 50mg

olanzapine 5mg

lamotrigine 25mg

alprazolam 0.5mg

brainvit capsules (some stupid vitamins that i believe are placebo)

once a day.

but

....

I BELIEVE THEY ARE POISON.

so i skip them from time to time.

and mom yells at me for that.

don't ask why. i don't know why exactly i think that lmaooo 💀

I am also a recovering alcoholic. 11 months WITHOUT ALCOHOL I FUCKING MADE IT.

😡

but i know someone is praying on my downfall so listen:

I WON'T RELAPSE JUST TO SPITE YOU.

(only I know what all of this truly means)

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inkykeiji · 6 days

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>.<

#tw clari overshares #i really need to start making new friends on here and being more active #but the issue is just the mere *thought* of that fucking terrifies me #just typing out that single sentence has my heart pounding and my hands shaking and my stomach churning #i really wish i was kidding or over-exaggerating #i want so badly to make new friends and be active in a little community on here again #but i’m so so so scared #(of what?????????? of what!!!!!!!!!!!)#bring me back to 2020 clari who talked to people despite the anxiety and was so damn active and was having an absolute blast!!!#what happened to her!!!!!#she got really sick i guess #it’s crazy like sometimes i just scroll through my archive and i can SEE it #i can see myself getting sicker and sicker and withdrawing more and more #feeding into the fear and letting it win #and now i’m here #in this hole that i’m going to have to claw myself out of IN SPITE OF the terror i feel #i miss being a part of this community so much #i miss being able to post little drabbles willy nilly and not having breakdowns over them not being perfect #NOT obsessing over my own work and flaws it may have #i miss having fun #YES my writing is extremely important to me and YES i want to one day write for a living in some capacity #but since when did that mean i had to cut everyone off??? seclude myself in a protective little bubble???#the only person who can fix this is me #(obviously hahaha)#it’s about time i put on my big girl pant(ie)s and faced that fear head on #i’m so sick of it dominating and controlling so much of my life #why did i let it take something so fucking important to me???#i have to end it!!!#if u got this far in the tags: thank you and i’m sorry for venting #i just feel like i NEED to say this

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trashyswitch · 8 months

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I Owe You All an Explanation:

You all keep asking about Luigi's Secret updates. And there's a reason I haven't uploaded it in a while. Something serious has come up. I am physically sick. Highlighted messages will shorten the explanation for you.

Back in July, I had to take a couple days off work because of flu-like symptoms. But I got better and went back to work with little issue. Off and on, I would get these days where I experienced flu-like symptoms. My bloodwork was coming back with really high inflammatory markers, which we assumed meant that I might be experiencing a flare-up of Arthritis. I got back on my pain meds and started taking Tylenol as often as needed to overcome the rest of the pain. On August 22nd, I got the day off work and went to my rheumatologist to talk about my inflammatory markers. A normal person's inflammatory markers are 3-10mg/L at most...and my inflammatory markers were 112mg/L. So when my rheumatologist walked in and looked at my joints, he admitted that "With how high your C-Protein (inflammatory markers) was, I'm surprised you're not swollen like a balloon! Something else is going on". He ordered an X-Ray and bloodwork.

On August 24, two days after my rheumatologist appointment, I got the x-ray and bloodwork done that my Rheumatologist ordered me, before going to work again. But at work, I was hit with another spell of flu-like symptoms while at work. I had assumed it was the arthritis flare-up again, so I took a Tylenol and pushed through work as best I could. But I ended up going home an hour early.

On August 25, it was confirmed that I have a bacterial infection. But no one could figure out where it was located as of yet. I felt physically fine, and that's all I really cared about.

On August 26, I felt great! Little pain, excellent mental health, got a lot done that day. I had just come back from Walmart with my Dad, when I found my mom packing up a suitcase in my room. She turned around and said "Your doctor called me and ordered you to be admitted to the hospital. There's a big chance that the bacterial infection is in your heart...and because you have a heart condition, an infection in your heart could be lethal. They want you on antibiotics right away." And...ever since, I've been in and out of hospital. I spend the morning in the hospital, before spending the afternoon on hospital leave to be at home. Then at 8pm, I go back to the hospital to get my next dose of antibiotics. I am still waiting to be admitted to Toronto hospital for an echo and a couple other tests. The type of infection they will be looking for on the echo, is called Endocarditis. And...things are up in the air right now. School arrangements are now also uncertain, as I was supposed to start college in a week. And I've been stressed trying to figure THAT out. It's...a lot. And it's frustrating. Though it doesn't excuse my lack of Luigi's Secret uploads, it does explain them. I'll try to upload chapter 17 of Luigi's Secret tonight to make up for it.

Thanks for reading. ~Pocket

#pocket explains #medical tw #medical issues #heart condition #tetralogy of fallot #endocarditis #infection #not okay #sorry for the delay #pocket updates

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crisiscutie · 1 year

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A Flirt with Death

Pairing: Reader/KH Sephiroth. Reader is AFAB.

Summary: You've always loved a dance with death when it came to Sephiroth. Your recent conflict with him has taken a twist you never expected.

Word Count: 832

Ratings: Slight NSFW, Fighting, Power dynamics. Sadist Sephiroth and Masochist Reader.

Don’t fool yourself, you’re not fighting Sephiroth to become better or to prove something. All you wanted was to be close to him, to savor the invigorating energy of his presence. And Sephiroth wanted to kill time while he waited for Cloud. Best of both worlds. You giggled as you felt the vibrations from his Masamune as it nearly cut your hair. If he landed that move, it would’ve made a bloody scene. You used your Keyblade to block another attack from him. A chill ran through the air as you sent out a Blizzaga spell to restrain his movement. He shrugged off the attack and fired off a series of dark orbs at you.

You were not tempting fate; you were courting disaster. He was toying with you and you knew it. He had the power to end this charade here and now. You had to keep him amused. An overwhelming sense of joy and excitement filled your heart. Is this the darkness your master warned you about? You gracefully dodged each orb thrown at you, executing the precise evasive techniques your master taught you.

It makes sense. You engaged in a blood sport just to interact with an alluring and mysterious man who can end you in seconds. When he first appeared, you were terrified. He almost killed you. Your dread weighed your body down and prevented you from moving initially... But you’ve grown so much since then. Gradually, you found yourself drawn back to him. Was it the way his lips curled whenever he smirked at you? That always sent shivers down your back. The pain he caused you was a strange combination of agony and ecstasy, too. Taking risks was never your style, but here you stood, flirting with danger. Damn your teenage wiles. Whenever he wasn't around, his absence was like a gaping hole in your heart, it left you feeling hollow.

You were so lost in your thoughts; you didn't notice your grave mistake. You stumbled on icy rubble, created from your failed Blizzaga spell earlier. This provided him the opportunity to swoop in and overpower you, sending you crashing to the ground. An involuntary gasp escaped your lips as your eyes widened. The Masamune was dangerously close to your left abdomen. It glinted menacingly in the light, a warning of the peril you were in. The ripple effect from his blade caused the fabric of your minidress to rip, exposing the delicate skin of your left abdomen.

Masamune was so close that you could feel your heart pounding in your chest, even though the blade never touched your skin. His icy blue eyes pierced your soul as you looked up and met his gaze. His trademark cool smirk was unmistakable. Then he curled his lips into a devilish grin, slightly different from what he normally gave you. You were so enchanted by him you didn’t even realize his vast, single black wing was enshrouding you. As you felt a powerful heat emanating from his long blade, a black feather rested on your chest.

With a sudden jolt, you kicked him up into the air and flew towards him with a battle cry. Both of your blades clashed, causing a metallic chorus to reverberate through the air. You didn’t know what happened, but it gave you the psyche boost you needed. The show must go on. The surviving fabric of your minidress threatened to rip if you kept this farce up, but you didn't care. You kept swinging your Keyblade at him, as your life depended on it. This was the most exhilarating experience you'd had. You'd do whatever it took, even risking death, to keep feeling this exhilarating rush. Even if the only emotion he held for you was a deep, sinister satisfaction in your plight. You were nothing but a source of wry amusement to him. As you went in for a hard blow, he summoned a shining wall of energy that effortlessly blocked your attack.

“That’s enough,” he said. He spoke with a gentle, yet authoritative voice. He casually brushed the dust and debris off him as you both descended into the stadium. You take a hasty step back. The wind blew through your hair as you shuffled your feet against the ground. Your Keyblade dissipated as you glared at him, pouting at the abrupt ending to your fight. He always pulled out at the best times, leaving you with a deep longing. His eyes sparkled with amusement as he softly chuckled.

The ethereal energy that summoned him is now calling him back as its aura surrounds him. As you watched him depart, you reflected on what happened. You had an incredibly close call today. Just like when you first crossed paths, he was close to ending it all. Though, you wonder if that was just him teasing, or if he really was warning you of his diminishing interest. Regardless, he granted you another day to live...

Maybe next time will be better?

#Sephiroth #Kingdom hearts x reader #Sephiroth x reader #Reader is NOT Sora #set sometime during khux #reader has... issues.#Reader is in late teens #Sephy is a fightaholic #kh sephiroth x reader #kh x reader #FF7 X reader #Final fantasy x reader #tw: fighting #tw: power dynamics #Crisis Cutie writes #sephiroth fanfiction #reader insert

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dilfhos · 6 months

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very random thought but i feel like a lot of adult anime fans would really enjoy more plots centered around adult life? like imagine being an anime fan as a kid/teenager bc you somehow felt connected. THEN also finding that same comfort in anime centered around adulthood which eventually you grew into. im sorry, but the “friendship and determination is all we need to defeat the opposition!” trope and anything akin is a little played out for me personally. (note, i said personally)

like i wish there were more Seinen creators. mappa and the jjk team did their big one and in just the little time the franchise has really existed fr. they gave awesome plot, relatable and/or provoking characters. and all genders approve. i love seeing one side of social media all hyped up about the most recent kill move and then you have those screaming on the other about willingly ripping off their clothes for the 2 second clip of a cursed presence.

and more specifically they did LITTLE but gave us everything with the fanservice. everyone was fully clothed, but they knew exactly how to animate certain movements, speech, drama, and action scene to where it was both appealing yet still exciting. no upshot panties, no cheap breasts pans that make you shift uncomfortably (like wtf.) no weird perverted underlying plot mechanism used as a lazy way to make barely legal characters fuck.

and more importantly, everyone’s a grown. ass. adult.

plus the characters were either really likable, relatable and kin-worthy even, but also thought inducing (and panty dampening). but i don’t know, im not gonna suck the jjk fandom’s dick any longer. i just say all this to say, jjk will just be one of those franchises for the books and any creator wanting to animate more Seinen or adult genres need to take a couple notes

#[ just in—☆ ]#tw messy thoughts #is it their indirect way of saying adulthood is boring lame n unimaginative?#i dunno. but im outgrowing most of my favorite anime #obvi ill always have a place in my heart for them not to be corny but ts got me thru some dark days as a kid.#but rewatching as an adult you can clearly see the…..yk. the problems. the issues.#like i just started watching zom 100 #dude was a desk worker turned zombie apocalyptic survivor #MORE OF THAT #i dont even need the fanservice just more exiting and relatable plots

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I know people don't realize I'm a lot sicker than I've let on. I sleep a lot, and I know that gets on my husband's nerves that I don't get out or clean or something other than sleep, but.

My sudden onset eating disorder has gotten better, as I eat more during the day, but it's a tossup whether or not my stomach agrees. I spend so much time in the bathroom.

I sometimes have problems swallowing. My throat refuses to work and I have to force it to swallow. It hurts so much when I do that.

I get such bad back pain sometimes that I feel it in my stomach and I am crying in pain.

I get migraines, and sumatriptan makes me feel worse than eating a 20mg edible.

I get incredibly bad acid reflux sometimes, and sometimes the only trigger is I drank too much water before bed. The last time I got it I tried to mitigate it only to spend half an hour throwing up because the acid in my throat made me cough until I threw up.

My heart sometimes does weird flutters that makes me dizzy and I can feel something really weird going on in my carotid artery. This is literally the first time I've ever told anyone this.

And so I sleep, because I'm having that weird fluttering. Because my stomach is angry I ate anything. Because I don't want to think about what my throat is doing.

Because I can't afford to do anything else.

(and this isn't COVID related or weight related. Almost all of these started before 2020 and before I gained weight. The sudden eating disorder is the only new one)

#tw: chronic illness #tw: eating issues #tw: heart conditions #tw: vomit

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