Hi! This is your drug TW!
Okay, so, I've deduced what Rayman is snorting in this scene:
It's benzos. he's snorting straight xanax.
How do I know it's benzodiazepines? Here we go:
The blue color
Originally, I choked the blue color up to being a stylistic choice. I didn't think the blue color mattered, and that he was in fact snorting cocaine. However, the blue color does matter—cocaine is white, and benzodiazepines (in the hard pill form you can crush up and snort) are colored, usually blue.
The red eyes
For a while, I was like "Is this a Breaking Bad reference? Is he snorting biker meth?", but I did more research, methamphetamine doesn't make your eyes red. So we look at the (common) drugs that abuse causes red eyes: Marijuana, Cocaine, Crack, Benzodiazepines, Depressants, and Inhalants. And when we look at which one of those is famously blue, we get benzos!
The symptoms
Some symptoms of benzodiapines are: shaking (like the twitching seen after he snorts it, which can also be choked up to the act of snorting itself), confusion and thinking problems (he's having trouble calming down, has racing thoughts, etc.), aggression (most commonly when used with alcohol), and nystagmus (repetitive, uncontrolled movement of the eyes)
(Check the beginning of Episode 5 at these points for twitching and nystagmus)
Why he's taking them.
Cocaine gets you excited, but benzodiapines are calming. Rayman is stressed and scared, taking cocaine would only make that worse for him. He's taking something meant to calm him and relieve stress.
What about the alcohol?
Rayman has mixed benzodiapines with alcohol, very clearly. This comes with it's own host of issues: impaired judgement, unusual behavior, and increased risk of violence. All of these can potentially be seen during episodes 3 and 5, and 6.
Other evidence:
Benzodiapine abuse can leave to nausea and appetite loss. When Rayman throws up later in the episode, we can see that he's not eaten anything that day, and the only thing in his stomach was the juice Bullfrog gave him:
He likely didn't have an appetite, either because of stress or because of the drugs he was taking.
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I cannot ever forget you.
No Poison; No violence nor antidepressants could ever erase you from my mind.
You are not real but you were never a delusion. You are my comfort.
A fantasy.
One that has carried me through the miserable years of my youth.
Even when the storm passes and my vision returns,
Even when I have been abandoned by every other thought and memory,
You will always have a home in me.
- HB
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there's some episodes where kyle is so uptight i just wanna snipe him with a tranquilizer. for his own good.
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