#and for j herself

[flowerquib]

Sulking in style

crowley sad but prettyyyy :]

contemplating where it all went wrong

this was a short piece that was actually so hard to draw for no reason

#good omens #good omens crowley #crowley #crowley fanart #good omens fanart #anthony j crowley #i would date crowley oml #aziraphale how could you leave this lovely being all by herself #u fr fumbled with this one aziraphale

[toocabaret]

I’ve been having some Thoughts™️ about the weird meta paradox of gerri kellman’s sexuality. as basically The Older Woman on the executive floor she’s trying as much as is possible to blend in with her male colleagues while also not being perceived to be doing so. muted colours and understated makeup. a competent filing cabinet. her husband is dead and her daughters are nameless. she was sexual once but that’s out of sight out of mind and now it’s just the work. it must be a relief in some ways to become finally unfuckable because you’re over 40. she can finally be taken seriously, but only if she toes the line between being too female and not female enough. trying but not too hard. desirable in the past tense only. an honorary man but still in a skirt. and while the men around her can fuck their much younger assistants and get sports massages and run a sex trafficking ring on a cruise ship, she is the job and only the job and that keeps her safe. for a bit anyway.

the irony of gerri saving the company from the full legal extent of a sex scandal by dating someone from the DOJ??? like i’ll never be over it. even filing cabinets have to flatter and please and fuck when called upon. i genuinely don’t believe any of the other execs could have swung it because they’re not women. she dated laurie (generally unseen unless framed from another man’s possessive perspective) to save the men from going to jail for covering up rape allegations. the irony is delicious. and even though she did that, she’s discarded once she’s framed sexually. Dick Pic Gate was out of her control and yet when confronted with any element of gerri’s sexuality (even her PASSIVE sexuality, even after using it to save his company), logan dismisses her as weak or impractical or failing or whatever other excuse he uses to justify his disgust.

i would argue that roman’s interest in gerri is not in spite of but BECAUSE of her asexual framing. it’s a challenge that he’s never going to win which is ideal for his impotency issues; he can push and push and get the thrill out of it, out of the fucked up power dynamic, but he knows he’ll never have to actually fuck her. it’s all hypothetical: down a phone, through a door, half-joking, covered in sensible skirt suits. gerri’s deliberate lack of sexualizing is counterintuitively a turn-on for roman. and i bet the game of chicken they play is freeing for her too because the fact that she has to be professional and cannot be sensual is part of the fun of it. “roman is weird about gerri”. “it’s fucking disgusting”. not because of their family history, or their professional positions, but because she’s old. because the absence of her sexuality is enough of a presence to be off-putting. shiv patronising her about it as a power play is so weird because she’s talking to her simultaneously like a child and like an old woman, and gerri, agency-less, just has to keep reassuring her “i can cope”.

BUT it’s worse than that because it’s so meta. Because gerri is hot. her actor is attractive and like roman, many people watching find her sexless, no-nonsense framing to be titillating. me included. what if roman likes gerri not because of oedipal issues but just because she’s hot and god forbid we find a woman over 50 hot? but whether or not gerri is hot in the context of the show shouldn’t be a big deal, she should have been able to escape this by now!!! she’s in her 60s she’s a widow she’s tired stop sexualizing her!!! but don’t NOT sexualize her either because that’s problematic too and old women can be hot and old women shouldn’t have to be hot and suddenly i’m making gerri do what waystar does and exist as something sexual and non-sexual at the same time. she has a huge plotline in which she’s essentially a sex object. whether or not gerri is fuckable is talked about as much in the show with mildly-disgusted fascination as it is in the real world!!! she can’t win she’s hot she’s old she’s sexually framed she’s deliberately trying not to be she wants sex she doesn’t want sex she’s covering sex with sex and she’s telling roman to leave her alone so she can just do her damn job because she knows that this is what will bring her down!!! sex scandals historically don’t get men fired but an unsolicited dick pic knocks gerri off her podium in logan’s head forever. even now i’m talking about it at such length because i’ve given it so much thought!!! she’s the only woman in the old guard and she’s one of the most sexualized characters in succession. but only as a joke. in the abstract. never actually. because that would be weird. right?

#i would like to point out that none of this is within gerri’s control #it’s like the only thing about herself that isn’t in her control #and that’s how she is sexualised #ironic when romangerri came from j and keiran lmao #succession #sorry long post #succession meta #gerri kellman #romangerri #kinda? #roman x gerri #gerroman #gerriroman #j smith cameron

[the-darkestminds]

“Elain deserves better than Lucien.”

At no point during this entire series are we led to believe that Lucien isn’t a high quality, compassionate, and thoughtful male. ✋😤

#don’t slander my man #he’s so sexy #doesn’t Elain deserve to fuck someone with fire in his blood?? #he’s a good male #from Feyre herself #Feyre knows what’s up #sarah j maas #sjm #acowar #acomaf #acotar #acosf #acofas #a court of wings and ruin #a court of mist and fury #a court of thorns and roses #a court of frost and starlight #a court of silver flames #pro elucien #pro Elain #Elain #lucien vanserra #Feyre #elucien #gwynriel #pro gwynriel #anti elriel #anti e/riel #antielriel #pro lucien vanserra

[livvylubug]

Hey!!! So in your Murder Drones AU After Death, what is Uzi and Vs goal (I’m guessing CYN is just tagging along!) and how’s N doing/in his quest?

The AD Crew’s goal is just about what you’d expect, Stop the absolute solver, Save the universe.

And N?

Oh he’s doing great!

Bonus doodle below the cut:

#so obviously hes not doing great #we call this one depressioN #murder drones after death #Also cyn isn’t JUST tagging along #after all she was plagued with the solver herself for who knows how long #she wants it gone and knows the most about it so she’s a team player! #murder drones #murder drones cyn #murder drones v #murder drones n #murder drones tessa #murder drones Uzi #murder drones j #art #digital art #I am a SUCKER for them having each others hats #I mean a SUCKER I will KILL for this trope #alternate universe #au #after death #murder drones au

[acotarfrustrations]

Honestly we could REALLY get into the fact that a lot of the insanity in Acotar is an excellent exercise in why you can't really separate the art from the author.

Sjm's zionism is OBVIOUS in the text. The ic destabilize governments to the detriment of people they will never have to care for, steal artifacts from other countries, displace people, cause invasions, commit war crimes for 50 years "for the greater good" all while their own people are living under unchecked brutality and poverty.

They are rich megalomaniacs that care for no one but themselves and their own emotional and material satisfaction and they are PRAISED for it. In fact anyone who even remotely disagrees with the IC is almost always one of the villains in the story (Beron, Tamlin, etc) as if to condition the reader that asking questions that are critical of the IC puts you on the wrong side of the narrative morally.

All of that sounds REALLL familiar huh?

#and the funny thing is sjm brought this on herself #unlike most authors she creates a clear framework in the text of what the narrative considers morally right and morally wrong #and her characters are always in the side that is morally right in the books but is morally abhorrent in real life #you have NO CHOICE but to question the actual author atp #like if the ic were real they would be the gop #and i think its funny that a lot of the havoc they wreak is most centered on people that are poc or marginalized in the book #but im supposed to get behind it because its some white teenager having a girl boss colonial moment #i hate these novels #if sjm wanted to do this she should have straight up just made feyre and co villains #anti sjm #anti acotar #anti rhysand #anti feysand #anti ic #anti acomaf #anti sarah j maas #anti inner circle #anti acowar

[the-meme-monarch]

so like queen Was Going To be a calculator. i have to wonder how far into development this was changed, since her design is still clearly reminiscent of it but there are certain things in-game that do rely on her being a computer (like her concern for/fixation on noelle and her searches)

but since it was changed to her being the laptop, why didn’t they make it resemble her? like why not make it a blue laptop

#i DO have a headcanon that answers for this but i just have to wonder #since she Says she’s a computer and is implied to be the laptop specifically why doesn’t it look like her like the (unused)calculator does #anyway my headcanon is that she’s actually the motherboard of the computer #and the computer itself is her mansion #bc like swatch and tasque manager are programs on the computer #it doesn’t seem out of place for her to be a darkner of a Physical component of the computer #and her being blue is bc Well Some Motherboards Are Blue #and also her being the motherboard bc. all the mom jokes made abt her and her parallel to noelles mom #and well also a motherboard is why a computer functions at all. so her Calling herself a computer doesn’t feel inaccurate #deltarune #words from the monarch #if queen stayed a calculator chapter 2 would’ve been berdly-centric instead of noelle-centric /j

[brahmenbones]

I had this idea in my mind for so long I NEEDED to put it out

#murder drones #yeah #GIRLYY #I know she didn't go down there herself but LMAO #She walks in and shes like “Dayum!... Guess we are top team now!” #/j #ysjgvhbsd

[stormvanari]

WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

#murder drones #serial designation j #murder drones spoilers #<- gonna use that tag instead of ‘md spoilers’ now #apparently she can pilot the pod herself despite DDs not knowing how to fly them??? HUH #j putting one leg up in the air as she stands. dramatic ballet ahh. (i love her) #AND SHE GOT HIT BY A BUS OUT OF NOWHEREKAVNROBDONFOJFPKFOJFOVJ

[lovesickeros]

☆ the dove

{☆} characters tsaritsa {☆} notes cult au, imposter au, drabble, gender neutral reader {☆} warnings violence, blood {☆} word count 0.7k

Her hands are weapons, forged in a tragedy as much as a war of ash and blood that seeps into the earth and rots it from within. To them, however, she is salvation. Her hands are a kindness, not a threat. She sees it in their puffy, red eyes just brimming with tears, their fragile body so delicate and weak is still remains marred by wounds new and old – the gold still stains their skin, even long after it had been washed away.

She has seen it all – and she takes the injured dove beneath her wing with the sickly sweet promise that someday she shall mend its broken wings and teach it to fly again.

And in their stupor, they do not see her clip their wings.

It is for the best.

The wolves still salivate below the nest, waiting for her little dove to fall again – no, she shall not send her little bird to fly when it will just fall into their waiting maws once again.

This..this one is hers, she has decided.

Her little bird who dreams of the sky and the woman who clips their wings..what a tragic pair they must make, she thinks.

Not for her, of course. Yet not to them, either, unaware of the way she grounds them and keeps the key to their cage tightly in her fist.

"Tsaritsa?" The soft, meek lilt of the little bird draws her from her reverie, and she smiles – all teeth and little else, wolfish and predatory.

Yet the bird sees nothing but love in the sharp points of her canines.

As it was meant to be.

"Yes, little bird?"

She coos in honeyed tones, brushing her cold, cold hands against their skin, reveling in the way they shiver and shake beneath the ever present chill in her very bones. They do not fear the claws that ghost across their skin, and the smile they offer that illuminates their eyes like stars only proves her right – she wants to devour them whole. To see the stars in their eyes burn out beneath her teeth, their golden blood burn upon her tongue and down her throat.

"You promised to take me to the gardens today, remember?"

Her pearly, sharpened fangs peer out beneath her lips as she grins wider, unnerving to all but the little bird who sees not the wolf but the wool it wears, her hands finding their place upon their shoulders as she whispers into their ear.

She will guide her little bird where they cannot go, where their clipped wings cannot take them.

She will give them that bittersweet taste of freedom and then watch them try to catch the stars..

Just to drag them back down to earth where they belong.

"Of course, Creator – I am a woman of my word, am I not?"

Such sickly sweet lies come to her with ease – she lies and she lies and they do not see past the woolen cloak of the wolf until its jaw has snapped around its throat and its blood has painted the world a shimmering gold.

She will delight in that, too.

"If I may be so bold, Creator, you have been distant lately..have you grown tired of me already?"

Her words were as sharp as a blade, yet as dull as a rock, as sweet as they were dangerous. Like watching a mouse trap luring in its prey, she would snap it shut as soon as the little bird strayed too close.

"No! No, that's not..you've just been busy lately, I didn't want to intrude."

They remind her so much of a rabbit in those moments, and she so badly wants to know what would happen if she just took a small, insignificant bite..yet she restrains herself with a far too wide smile, her jaw clenched so hard she almost thinks they will hear it creak.

"Intrude? You could ever hardly intrude, Creator – what is mine is yours. Though, perhaps I shall have to lock you in my room to ensure you compensate me for depriving me of your presence."

In just a few short words, she snares the rabbit – her little bird, her Creator. They will see nothing but the sickly sweet lure of her smile, letting out a pretty laugh of their own as they press closer, like a bird wandering into the open maw of the beast lying in wait.

"As long as it has a nice view, I suppose I won't mind."

They jest, but she does not. And oh, how easy it is to ensnare an unsuspecting prey.

"Of course, Creator – just for you."

It won't be long until her little bird returns to its gilded cage, now. Permanently.

It is better that way.

#sagau #genshin sagau #self aware genshin #genshin impact sagau #self aware genshin impact #fic tag #tsaritsa #imposter au #another absolutely normal tsaritsa post. this fic is kinda old i just forgor 2 post it um #hope shes so fucked up in game she makes dottore look like a saint its getting a little 2 nice around here #give me morally reprehensible women #also here 2 remind everyone im still tsaritsa ceo /j #carrying her 2 fans on my back fr /j #no one gets her like i do............ #the inherit tragedy of loving a woman who has rid herself of the ability to love........... #the tragedy of a woman who had only ever loved rejecting it now. even her people have fallen out of love with her #theres smth 2 be said abt cryo being the element of the archon of love but if i start talking abt her i wont stop #anyway she kisses women. girlkisser (canon) #shes so lesbian #anyway thats it thats the ted talk ill be back next monday /j

[wheredidalltheusersgo]

POV: You’re watching the total drama reboot series and see your child french kissing your nemesis’s child. (I’m talking about Nowen and Alecody btw)

(Cut to alejandro and noah BRAWLING in a parking lot)

#they are FIGHTINGGGG #only one of them is getting out alive /j #“MY LITTLE PRINCESS IS TOO GOOD FOR YOUR REPULSIVE SON!!!!” #“Your little EEL is going to get herself disqualified!” #owen also has beef with alejandro but he's letting noah have this fight #cody is staying out of it because he's small and will get WALLOPED if he tries to fight #td alejandro #td noah #td owen #td cody #td alecody #td nowen #alecody #nowen #The Aftershow AU #total drama au #total drama

[florsial]

Something funny i thought of

Taking place post of the (first) wizarding war, everyone survives but the bond that linked James and Lily during the war is starting to dissolve. So they decide to go to marriage counseling. Their counselor? Pandora Rosier.

Bad news for Lily because she starts looking forward to the counseling session, not because she wants to fix her marriage, but because she looks forward to seeing Pandora. Who she may or may not have a slight crush on. She feels terrible because James also seems to look forward to the sessions, and Lily thinks it's because he actually wants to fix their marriage.

But James on the other hand, nah, he instead, looks forward to seeing his best mate's younger brother, Regulus, who enters at the end of all their sessions to drop off lunch or a drink for Pandora. He feels guilty because Lily seems to be excited about the sessions while he fantasizes about Regulus.

Shit news for both of them? They (James and Lily) both think Pandora and Regulus are dating.

(Spoilers they aren't)

#just imagine james and lily booking extra sessions like #“yep totally wanting to fix our marriage” #pandora sitting at the session and being like “i can treat u so much better bby” to lily subtly #and give james some raised brows every so often #reg isn't paying attention #hes just tryna make sure his bestie is taking care of herself #marauders #marauders era #regulus black #regulus arcturus black #james potter #james fleamont potter #james x regulus #jegulus #starchaser #lily j evans #lily jane evans #lily evans #pandora rosier #pandora lovegood #redpanda #pandalily my beloveds #pandalily #sunseeker #the marauders #these bitches gay #dead gay wizards #regulus and pandora

[princessofmerchants]

The way Sarah J. Maas writes Nesta working through her anxiety, fear, and PTSD triggered by the sound of a fire crackling...the scene in ACOSF ch. 56 where Nesta asks the House to light a fire so Nesta can work through her responses to the sound, and begin to retrain her brain to accept the discomfort and separate the sound from her memory of her father's death......

This is written in a way that tells me SJM has probably experienced something like this before. It's accurate in a way that exceptionally matches my lived experience of having to work through these same things.

And it means the world to me to read a strong, badass main character experience this same thing I do.

#nesta's bravery is everything in this scene #and so is her pride in herself afterwards #then the House gives her a solstice gift 🥹🫶🏻😭 #getting personal #anxiety talk #nesta archeron #acosf reread post hofas #acosf #a court of silver flames #sarah j maas

[livelovecaliforniadreams]

#inspo via the queen j smith cameron herself #the captain of this ship #i love her for it #succession #successionedit #romangerri #gerri x roman #roman x gerri #gerri kellman #gerriroman #roman roy #kieran culkin #j smith cameron #love #gif #gifs #gifset #martini #text post #4x7 #4x10

[padfootastic]

please say more about jilypad + diverging parenting styles... perhaps even a possible scenario >:) i imagine harry has very cunning tactics for using this to his advantage

helloooooo <3 thank u for this ask bc i love talking about these three and harry. i went looking thru the archives to find this post; my first foray into this side, and really, i’ve never looked back after that.

so i’ve talked ab this a bit before but i fully think that james was a very overprotective ‘mother hen’ type parent. i tend to read his behaviour in lily’s bday letter to sirius as being scared of his child on a broomstick and i fully, fully think he’ll never be able to let go of that as harry grows up. he’ll be anxious and suspicious and paranoid, and his first instant will always be to wrap harry up in cotton wool and hide him away. (i low-key connect this to his childhood as well; going from being spoiled and sheltered to dropped in the middle of a war, black & white thinking, living in extremes etc etc makes it v hard for him to be Normal about his child. as he shouldn’t be, really, but yeah) that’s why he thrives during the initial years; he never minds the hard parts of being a new parent, loves it in fact, and it makes it better that he can keep harry close to him at all times w/o coming off as a helicopter parent (not that the notion bothers him ofc).

it’s good, then, that he has two partners to even the scales, no? i think lily was the most…balanced out of the three. she had a relatively normal childhood, grew up in a working class family/neighbourhood and had to deal w adversity from a young age so she’s developed a nice, thick skin. she also has a sibling with whom she has a v rocky relationship so she knows that kids are, ykno, a bit unhinged. and a little bit of hardship is not a problem. i hc her as needing time to get used to parenthood, unlike james who stepped into it natural as breathing, or even sirius who loved harry on much on first sight that it made up for everything else. ofc lily loved her son, but it didn’t come w the same blinding intensity of her partners and made her feel really shitty in the beginning. but, i think she’d shine during his teen years actually, because she’s not overbearing or intense and becomes the quiet, calm strength that a hormonal, spotty teen boy would probably need.

and sirius <3 our poor baby falls in love with harry, perhaps even more quickly than james, with such startling speed that it shakes his entire foundation. he doesn’t regret it but he’s constantly discombobulated. i also imagine that…it takes him longer to settle into the role of parent, esp bc he’s not biologically one ykno? not like it matters to anyone, ofc, but it takes him a long time to truly accept his authority and place, to believe that he has just as much right as j&l to be there, to parent harry. this has the consequence of him always being more indulgent than the other two; after all, he considered himself a godfather before a parent and a lot of that thinking stayed. he lets harry get away with stuff the others might not (and the little mf figures this out later); some of it also comes from sirius seeing so much shit, and facing so much shit himself, that he rationalises a lot of stuff as ‘well, this isn’t the worst it can be, so what’s the harm’ (because his life has been such a roller coaster that he’s forgotten that not everyone’s like that, if that makes sense?)

its obviously not this clear cut but i imagine harry looks at it like this: if he needs unconditional love, he goes to james; rationality and logic, lily; acceptance and calm, sirius. when someone has to be beat up for hurting harry, james steps in. if he needs help burying a body, it’s sirius. dealing with some asshole boss/teacher/classmate’s mother who’s making harry’s life hell? lily. i can keep going but,,,u get the idea, right? this makes sense, i hope lol

i actually think harry’s first birthday is a great example. sirius pushes the boundaries by gifting lil harry a broom; james loses his mind running after him; lily places an industrial sticking charm on harry’s butt, leans back with a glass of wine, and enjoys the show. even as he grows up, lily and james act as the disciplinarian, and sirius is the emotional outlet. all of them fill in each other’s cracks so well, and it’s only when harry grows up that he realises how effortlessly they worked off each other to parent him.

also oh man o man. harry being cunning is,,,,,see, i’ve not considered it this far but it makes perfect sense. i think canon harry actually had so much manipulative energy and it’s often overlooked for his goofier traits but! this is the same dude who used his dead parents to trick slughorn into revealing sensitive info! imagine if that could be channelled into his jilypad interactions 😈

it’s like, it takes him a bit, because his three parents r so smooth, but once he realises that all of them have certain weak spots, he does NOT hesitate to exploit them. (it has the unintended consequence of truly strengthening the jilypad relationship into an unbreakable one bc one thing their kid taught them is to have ironclad communication going at all times so nothing they’ve said, or not said, is used against them). so like, he knows if he wants to sneak out to a party, it has to be sirius and in a specific way—‘i’ll be totally safe, papa, plus i really wanna see what it’s like and idk when it’ll get a chance to again’. if he widens his eyes to pitiful levels, pouts a little, and blinks faster than usual, then james is putty in his arms as long as he’s separated from the other two. divide and conquer becomes the main tool in harry’s arsenal, actually. lily’s the toughest nut to crack, purely bc she doesn’t run on emotions or irreverence, but harry soon learns that if he comes up with a solid, logical case that proves his argument has unbiased merit then he has a good chance of getting her to say yes. (this is good, bc u can arrange words in the correct order, but u can’t always control emotions)

so overall yeah, you’d think one kid + 3 parents would be an easy bet, but harry keeps them on their toes all the fkn time.

#sirius black #james potter #lily evans #jilypad #harry potter #i knew before i even started this that it would be ridiculously long lmao #i just cannot bring myself to shut up #wrt lily and harry’s baby years #i feel v v strongly ab motherhood not coming naturally to her #and becoming a very sore point for her. bc she sees james and sirius and she keeps blaming herself for being an unfeeling robot #when she’s not. she just thinks more logically than them and doesn’t feel as strongly. that doesn’t make her a bad mother #and no matter what j & s say a small part of always thinks like that. until the teen years. and suddenly the dynamics r reversed #bruh i think i need help it’s not even funny how not hinged i am for this trio lmao #there also! padfoot! #a while ago i wrote a lil thing. but i fully believe that whenever harry was emotionally distraught he’d actually go to padfoot #bc he needed someone to just. sit. and be there. while he’s processed emotions #and lily would be too ruthlessly logical and james would be fretting and trying to fix it and sirius would panic. just a little. #but padfoot is a warm comforting weight agains this side and he just lets him be. it’s grounding. #so harry always. without fail. does that #it’s actually 3.5 parents lmao #i do wonder what their parenting fights would about if any. hmmmm. my glasses are too rose tinted for me to consider it #a thought for another day #anyway. hope this endless rambling made sense! and that u liked it! #would love to hear ur thoughts too <3 #pen’s notes #pen’s asks

[goddessofwisdom18]

Day Court doodles

#want to see more about my idea of the day court? read my fanfic 'in the house of gloaming' on ao3 :) #it doesn't show up until the sequel but still! #helion spell cleaver #syrinx #soz i havent read cc so i didnt know there was already a character in that named syrinx LOL #but sarah herself repeats names between series so. #day court #acotar #acomaf #acowar #helion #helion x lady vanserra #prythian #high lords #lucien vanserra #sarah j maas #sjm #feysand #nessian #elucien #gwynriel #emorie

[ahsteria]

normalgirl nighttime routine:

run in circles walk up and down the stairs write and write and read and get drunk and lie on the floor and listen to music do all my work go on tumblr go on tiktok watch an entire tv series have a therapy session w myself eat toast levitate (briefly) cut my hair spin in circles idk watch more tv think abt my childhood be silly spend two hrs reading some niche wikipedia article learn a new language stare at the ceiling run around again

#I HAVE SM ENERGY I DONT. I DONTNHCJ UNDERSTAND HOW NO ONE ELSE DOES #always ​up until like 7 am regardless of how tired i am #i don’t get it #how do ppl like j. go to sleep #AT 10 PM TOO LIKE ??????????? #insomniacore #kashi speaks to herself #mine #studyblr