I just keep it to myself and I try not to cry too loud
I just wanna lay my head on your chest
So I'm close as it gets to your heart
We can fall apart, start over again
Nobody knows me
Nobody knows one thing about me
Everyone doubts me
But I'ma make it all come true
And I do it for you
I know all about the pain that you go through
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i have this thing where i ignore everything i feel or experience and i'm starting to think i'm missing out on the full human experience.
i mean, i don't usually get too sad or angry or irritated about a lot of things, and when i do get excited or happy i most definitely regret it immediately soon after.
when i am in pain, physical pain, because i have medical conditions, i brush them off and nothing ever really feels too painful and unbearable for me. i never know if i just have high pain tolerance, or if i really should just be getting to the hospital by then.
and this has cause me real trouble becauze turns out i've been having some gastric problems for quite some years i just never thought to check them. honestly, i know i should be scared, but i am not scared, and i am really trying to figure out what the fuck is wrong with me.
i've always questioned if my experiences of the world is ever shared by anyone else, or am i really just in need of some medical help.
i'd describe my life as numb, or just simply monotone, and i'd 100% be okay with it, but i've been starting to realise i can't describe my strengths to update my portfolio, or tell anyone what's remotely great about me.
if anyone's reading this, please please share your story! i wanna know your human experience!
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I'm back!
Hello!
It's been a real hot second since I've been on Tumblr. And during this time where a lot of media folk are migrating away from Twitter, I've decided to think ahead of the game and come back here.
If anyone in the alt scene remembers my old aliases: @/deadfaeriesinwhitedresses or @lizpoder, I would love to catch up & re-connect!
For an intro:
My name is Lizzie and I'm 27 in the Chicagoland area. I work as a managing editor of podcasts for newsradio, advise a college radio station, teach journalism & media studies at various universities around Chicago and I'm the co-host of Emo Social Club.
Overall, I work in media & entertainment and have had the pleasure to interview DJ and have the opportunities to conduct press at Lollapalooza, Riot Fest, many shows and mingled with media greats in the radio/news world. (PC: Rob Haberman)
Aside from this, I also DJ emo nights around the city under ESC and with Emo Nite LA-Chicago. (PC: Rob Haberman)
If you're also a journalist, podcaster, academia or music industry person, let's connect and build up our network!
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POV: your date with an androgynous emo boy is going well
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some william pictures (costest + fnaf movie day)
every bowl of popcorn is personalized
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transparent little guy trying not to have a panic attack, for all your transparent-little-guy-trying-not-to-have-a-panic-attack needs (??)
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You would think that I would feel alive right now
Twenty something years and I'm still so down
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